When you get anxiety, you're afraid of anything and almost everything. You're always on the edge, ready to sprint off to god knows where when danger arises. You keep yourself secluded because you're afraid of talking to people. You're afraid of saying something wrong and then having people hate you because of it. When you have anxiety, you hide away in the back of the classroom praying that you won't get called on. You're afraid of getting the answers wrong. A lot of people would say that you're shy, but it's more than that. When you have anxiety and you get thrown out in a sea of people at a social event, you start to panic. Everyone has their own little group of friends and you're the newbie. You're the one person that is standing in the middle of the room alone, because you're worried that you'll interrupt an important conversation and then those people will think of you as annoying. But if you stay in the middle of the room you start to think that you are going to be pegged as that one girl who stands in the middle of the room alone. People will think that you just don't like to talk to people and so they will leave you alone, but you don't want to be alone. You don't want to observe while everyone else is having the time of their lives. You want to be apart of that. And so, you start feeling like you're being left alone. Tossed out to the side like a sack of potatoes. You feel a lump growing in your throat, but you don't want to cry. You can't. If you do, you'll have a lot of people around you asking what's wrong. You'll have no choice but to answer, "You guys were leaving me out." You don't want to hurt their feelings and most of all, you don't want to be the cry baby who is super sensitive. So you run into the bathroom. You don't want to be here. You want to be home where it's safe. You want to be by yourself where no one will judge you. But you can't. You're stuck here and you feel awful. Your shoulders are tense, your stomach has butterflies, and your whole body starts shaking. You wish that someone notices you alone and tries to talk to you. When you have anxiety, your friends invite you to a fun event. You think it's would be fun, but end up bailing on them last second because you realize that you have to talk to their parents. You don't even remember their parents names. When you have anxiety, you meet someone and constantly forget their name. After the third time of asking, you think that they get annoyed, so you stop asking. You forget their name, but still talk to them like they're your friends, but when they ask if you know their name, you freeze. You try to rack your brain for their name, but nothing comes up. You hate yourself for not asking one more time. You beat yourself up over the little things. You wonder why you asked how their day was when it was obvious. You wonder why you didn't correct your question when someone didn't give the answer they wanted. You wonder why you spoke up when you should have stayed quiet. I could go on and on, but the list just wouldn't end. When you have anxiety and for some odd reason, have the courage to speak up, your heart pounds and you get dizzy. You say one tenth of your speech, but then you forget about what you were going to say. Leaving your speech going off in the direction you named meant to guide it to. It's almost like your brain is on overdrive, processing too many things at once until it malfunctions. So many worries, so many thoughts, so many questions run through your head in seconds and you shut down. Cutting off all sound in the outside world. All you do is think, because your head is so jammed with thoughts, that's about all you can do. Having anxiety just sucks overall, but there are a lot more people who have it than you'd think. I wish it would just go away, but it doesn't work like that. Oh well, I guess I'll stick to being weird 😋
Yes, just yes. I couldn't feel like it could have portrayed anxiety any better. It shows how frantic you feel on a day to day basis and I think I even heard a panic attack near the end. So beautiful. So amazing.
Its as if you suddenly loose control of yourself, in the impossibility to be calm and centered within yourself. You feel overwhelmed by the world, by people, by any noises, by life
I think, for some people (Like myself) it's more than that. For me it's that I have to be good enough. That, thanks to scarring earlier in my life, I'll fail to walk up stairs normally before I even reach them. It's like a nightmare, the kind in which you can't do anything as good as it needs to be. The kind in which you don't know how to fight to keep yourself on the right track. Everything you do and the choices you make all daunt you before you even take the first step. I don't know if you believe in God. But I'd just like you to know I've got you in my prayers. Good luck, from one survivor to another.
I like these themed videos. Nice to see them returning. Great job as always man the song reminded me of a few anime I have seen. I felt more turmoil then anxiety with this one. Maybe that's just me though ^__^
Wow, I don’t know what to say, I suffer from pretty bad anxiety and you pictured it perfectly, the rise to panic. I’m not good with words and I don’t want to mess your song up with those words but know that you nailed it
I love listening to your music when I'm not having the best days and even when I'm having a grea one. In this piece I can feel the build up as if thoughts are increasing every second to the point of being completely lost inside your own head and so much more. Dealing with anxiety isn't always easy. Speaking from experience, I've had to take medication to help because I literally felt like I couldn't breath and it made me physically sick. I still have those days. My point is, your music helps me and you know just the right melody. I just want to say thank you. Not just for your music but how you cover the importance of it as well.
beautiful music. i used to have really bad anxiety but i'm learning to control it. i also adore how all of your songs can loop together into a single song. i have a playlist up and it all flows so well. i love your work lucas. the first song i heard from you was sociopath a few months or perhaps a year ago
Beautiful as always Lucas. When I heard the intro, it reminded me of the Incredible Hulk. And then you made this composition so dynamic, from delicate to intense. Well done!
Lucas King The original show from the 70s, where David Banner is hitchhiking for a ride in the end of the episode, hoping to find a cure from his curse.
Ahh. Such a good song. I forgot how much I loved your music man. I really conveys a lot of emotion, and when you really think about it, sounds being made by pressing keys are creating emotions which is crazy! You are an excellent musician Lucas! (Ps. Your blog isn't up as of right now.)
As always, another wonderful composition from you. I'm looking forward to your next emotion piece. Maybe do a "Vengeance" or "Surprise" as your next titles. I don't know, but anyways, keep it up!
I looked at the art and at first I thought it was Kyoko from Danganronpa, cause the hair color and style matches that of her's in Future Arc.. heh, I'm way too obsessed with her.. On to the music; This is amazing! I can feel that anxiety drifting though the atmosphere when I listen to it.. keep up these great pieces!
amazing lucas I think I heard the other emotions track you put up but great work you always do well and when you play anything sounds like your a character from a anime series or something like that but keep it up lucas. ^_^
I like your use of augmented chords in the progression, they sounded perfect as well as some of the diminished notes in teh beginning. I miss having time to listen to your music... funny this is uploaded, I had a serious stress attack the other day. In any case, it's nice. Would Inspiration fit into this set, I wonder? That was one of my favorites.
Yeah, really badly. To the point where I struggle talking to family because I get so nervous. I have anxiety attacks, collapse, faint. I rarely go into public. This song really captures that.
They call you socially awkward. All you want is to feel surrounded for once, without feeling on the edge all the damn time. They call you cautious, all you want to feel is the world in whole, with all it's colours without the imminent feeling of dread coating it. They call you sad, all you wanna have is a good night's sleep, a fulfilling meal for once, to not take pity in your past for once, to not be prisoner of people's non-existing glares, but they do hate you, they wish you just were more intelligent, more interesting. They call you nerd, all you want in life is not to feel that acidic feeling whenever you look at those toppling towers of books and assignments to complete and how you are not gonna make it to the deadline and it will keep piling up and up and the shadows of life surpasses life itself and you feel breathless breathless your heartbeat makes you mad and the voices rise in a blurred cacophony and you feel so dazed...so dazed. Breathless. Breathe in, breathe out. It isn't easy. And I don't flaunt it, don't use it as an aesthetic. Everyday I remind myself those horrible thoughts are not the truth but made up by me. And I go on with my life, loving people, not suspecting them. They love me. They love me as I do love them. I wish you made a Dark version of anxiety but this piece is pretty nonetheless. Good work as always! :)
Anxiety is the worst of all feelings for me. I just get afraid of doing anything and everything that I love to do. It is the start on the road to depression in my opinion. Don't let it rule your life.
Could you please provide the midi for this please, I'd really appreciate it Lucas, btw your music is beautiful, been a fan since last year, keep up the good work man
You need to redo all the links in your description. In the description youtube doesn't write the full link but www.abc... and sometimes when you edit it it takes the shortened one instead of the original one :-( Btw, nice music as always :)
How am I crying after this song? It's beautiful! I have anxiety and high- functioning autism, and people on the internet are assholes about it. I've gotten depressed to the point where I have self harm and suicide thoughts. I often wish I was dead. If my manga series ever became an anime, I'd LOVE for you to compose for it! It's on my deviant art: sakuraofchaos.deviantart.com/gallery/61346542/Chapter-Two I know it needs more work but I'm working on this chapter. It could be better but I just work on this as a way to escape my harsh reality, and because it's my dream to become a famous mangaka.
When you get anxiety, you're afraid of anything and almost everything. You're always on the edge, ready to sprint off to god knows where when danger arises. You keep yourself secluded because you're afraid of talking to people.
You're afraid of saying something wrong and then having people hate you because of it. When you have anxiety, you hide away in the back of the classroom praying that you won't get called on. You're afraid of getting the answers wrong.
A lot of people would say that you're shy, but it's more than that.
When you have anxiety and you get thrown out in a sea of people at a social event, you start to panic. Everyone has their own little group of friends and you're the newbie. You're the one person that is standing in the middle of the room alone, because you're worried that you'll interrupt an important conversation and then those people will think of you as annoying.
But if you stay in the middle of the room you start to think that you are going to be pegged as that one girl who stands in the middle of the room alone. People will think that you just don't like to talk to people and so they will leave you alone, but you don't want to be alone. You don't want to observe while everyone else is having the time of their lives. You want to be apart of that.
And so, you start feeling like you're being left alone. Tossed out to the side like a sack of potatoes. You feel a lump growing in your throat, but you don't want to cry. You can't. If you do, you'll have a lot of people around you asking what's wrong. You'll have no choice but to answer, "You guys were leaving me out." You don't want to hurt their feelings and most of all, you don't want to be the cry baby who is super sensitive.
So you run into the bathroom. You don't want to be here. You want to be home where it's safe. You want to be by yourself where no one will judge you.
But you can't. You're stuck here and you feel awful. Your shoulders are tense, your stomach has butterflies, and your whole body starts shaking. You wish that someone notices you alone and tries to talk to you.
When you have anxiety, your friends invite you to a fun event. You think it's would be fun, but end up bailing on them last second because you realize that you have to talk to their parents. You don't even remember their parents names.
When you have anxiety, you meet someone and constantly forget their name. After the third time of asking, you think that they get annoyed, so you stop asking. You forget their name, but still talk to them like they're your friends, but when they ask if you know their name, you freeze. You try to rack your brain for their name, but nothing comes up. You hate yourself for not asking one more time.
You beat yourself up over the little things. You wonder why you asked how their day was when it was obvious. You wonder why you didn't correct your question when someone didn't give the answer they wanted. You wonder why you spoke up when you should have stayed quiet. I could go on and on, but the list just wouldn't end.
When you have anxiety and for some odd reason, have the courage to speak up, your heart pounds and you get dizzy. You say one tenth of your speech, but then you forget about what you were going to say. Leaving your speech going off in the direction you named meant to guide it to.
It's almost like your brain is on overdrive, processing too many things at once until it malfunctions. So many worries, so many thoughts, so many questions run through your head in seconds and you shut down. Cutting off all sound in the outside world. All you do is think, because your head is so jammed with thoughts, that's about all you can do.
Having anxiety just sucks overall, but there are a lot more people who have it than you'd think. I wish it would just go away, but it doesn't work like that. Oh well, I guess I'll stick to being weird 😋
Accalia Ferger231 You describe social anxiety very well.
Asti Stine Thank you, social anxiety is something that I struggle with every day, so it was a topic I could relate to a lot.
Accalia Ferger231 I struggle with social anxiety myself. When you wrote what anxiety is like, I knew what you were going through.
That's pretty much why I wrote that, so then I'd know that I'm not alone in this and same with anyone who reads the comment.
Accalia Ferger231 I have this too, it's not an nice thing to have.
An emotion series, huh? Sounds cool.
I'd love to see "That Feeling When You Peel Dried Glue Off Your Fingers." LOL 😂
+Lightning Nerd I'd say that is "Satisfaction" =)
That kind of reminds me of the name of the wind, how Kvothe played all the little feelings while he was alone in the forest.
I really like it. Perfect for listening to while writing.
+CZsWorld Awesome thank you =D
CZsWorld yeah and for a montage.
Yes, just yes. I couldn't feel like it could have portrayed anxiety any better. It shows how frantic you feel on a day to day basis and I think I even heard a panic attack near the end. So beautiful. So amazing.
This is an excellent piece. Having anxiety myself, I can say this portrays it quite well. Wonderful music as always, Lucas //claps
Thank you! Sorry to hear you have anxiety though, whats it like?
Its as if you suddenly loose control of yourself, in the impossibility to be calm and centered within yourself. You feel overwhelmed by the world, by people, by any noises, by life
I have anxiety too, and let me tell you that was the best description of it i've ever heard
And the song feels pretty much like it in a certain way.
Fearless thanks u! Anxiety can be so hard to live with and yes this song is just perfect for the subject. I send you lot of loves ❤
I think, for some people (Like myself) it's more than that. For me it's that I have to be good enough. That, thanks to scarring earlier in my life, I'll fail to walk up stairs normally before I even reach them.
It's like a nightmare, the kind in which you can't do anything as good as it needs to be. The kind in which you don't know how to fight to keep yourself on the right track. Everything you do and the choices you make all daunt you before you even take the first step.
I don't know if you believe in God. But I'd just like you to know I've got you in my prayers. Good luck, from one survivor to another.
I like these themed videos. Nice to see them returning. Great job as always man the song reminded me of a few anime I have seen. I felt more turmoil then anxiety with this one. Maybe that's just me though ^__^
+Sqwizzix Thanks a lot man =D Turmoil would be a pretty awesome name for a piece, I shall be calling one that in the future haha
The sadness... You capture the emotion well. :_:
+Piano Man Thank you!!
Wow, I don’t know what to say, I suffer from pretty bad anxiety and you pictured it perfectly, the rise to panic. I’m not good with words and I don’t want to mess your song up with those words but know that you nailed it
I love listening to your music when I'm not having the best days and even when I'm having a grea one. In this piece I can feel the build up as if thoughts are increasing every second to the point of being completely lost inside your own head and so much more. Dealing with anxiety isn't always easy. Speaking from experience, I've had to take medication to help because I literally felt like I couldn't breath and it made me physically sick. I still have those days. My point is, your music helps me and you know just the right melody. I just want to say thank you. Not just for your music but how you cover the importance of it as well.
Anxiety feels like someone constantly in your room yelling at you 24/7
Having anxiety myself,I must say you portrayed it pretty well.
Awesome piece Lucas, as always! :)
Couldn't help but think that this music would be very suitable to a KR Crime movie.
beautiful music. i used to have really bad anxiety but i'm learning to control it. i also adore how all of your songs can loop together into a single song. i have a playlist up and it all flows so well. i love your work lucas. the first song i heard from you was sociopath a few months or perhaps a year ago
Ohhhh, so that's how you feel anxiety sounds! Very cool, very well done :)
I love it! Fantastic, you captured the emotion perfectly.
+Christine Tack Thank you very much Christine =)
Beautiful as always Lucas. When I heard the intro, it reminded me of the Incredible Hulk. And then you made this composition so dynamic, from delicate to intense. Well done!
+R.E.D. Thank you!!! =D Which Hulk?? Glad you liked it man
Lucas King The original show from the 70s, where David Banner is hitchhiking for a ride in the end of the episode, hoping to find a cure from his curse.
Once again, absolutely amazing.
Oh I didn't realize that you had an anxiety piece already. Thanks!
Ahh. Such a good song. I forgot how much I loved your music man. I really conveys a lot of emotion, and when you really think about it, sounds being made by pressing keys are creating emotions which is crazy! You are an excellent musician Lucas!
(Ps. Your blog isn't up as of right now.)
+Ben Toby The blog ist up, youtube just messed up the link ;)
lucaskingpianosite.wordpress.com/
And yeah, I agree with you.
+Ben Toby Thank you very much!!! Yeah what AA said, I f'd up the description haha
This is absolutely beautiful. Thank you for this. :)
+Alaina Lemon Thank you!!!
Great job! I love how it sounds.
+Nami Yami Thank you! =)
As always, another wonderful composition from you.
I'm looking forward to your next emotion piece.
Maybe do a "Vengeance" or "Surprise" as your next titles.
I don't know, but anyways, keep it up!
I like "Surprise".
Well, that settles it. The people want to see Surprise next!!
+Gabrieloid Studios I would love one called vengance! Please Lucas, Do it!
Or maybe we will just let Lucas decide... :P
Well, of course.
I looked at the art and at first I thought it was Kyoko from Danganronpa, cause the hair color and style matches that of her's in Future Arc.. heh, I'm way too obsessed with her.. On to the music; This is amazing! I can feel that anxiety drifting though the atmosphere when I listen to it.. keep up these great pieces!
Wow, this is beautiful. I love the modulations. :)
+Lady Flautist Thank you!!! =D
Wow! Amazing! Although your music tends to make me really emotional, it is still incredible. :)
Beautifully haunting.
+zoalizrivera3 Thanks a lot =D
+Lucas King 👍😊
amazing lucas I think I heard the other emotions track you put up but great work you always do well and when you play anything sounds like your a character from a anime series or something like that but keep it up lucas. ^_^
+Mario Aboytes Thank you very much Mario =D
this is very emotional, I love it!
+Blanca Orzáez Thank you!!
Nice work, I like the 2:30 and 4:00 change!
+PhantomPianist91 Thank you!!! =D
Really nice! Im also a piano composer, i really enjoy your work!!
I like your use of augmented chords in the progression, they sounded perfect as well as some of the diminished notes in teh beginning. I miss having time to listen to your music... funny this is uploaded, I had a serious stress attack the other day. In any case, it's nice. Would Inspiration fit into this set, I wonder? That was one of my favorites.
+Jay Thomas Thanks man, yeah its part of this set =) What was you stressed about man?
+Lucas King just schoolwork... lots of long term projects, not enough sleep...
Love your stuff!
+Gear Tempo Thank you!!
you should put a piano tutorial of this song cause I want to learn how to play this, this is a beautiful piece of Music.
beautiful
+Ameenh Salt Thank you!!
A sequel!
Really, really amazing Lucas!! You are a real romantic you!
+Phèdre Ergastule Thank you!!! =D
Really nice.
+TheSLK66 Thank you!!!
So Lucas, do you like anime? How about, a specific anime you like?
Our nature !
Anyone else here have anxiety?
Yeah, really badly. To the point where I struggle talking to family because I get so nervous. I have anxiety attacks, collapse, faint. I rarely go into public. This song really captures that.
+Ronin Elenion I do whenever I have to use a phone.
+Lemon Frosting Have you been doctors about that?
+Lucas King Yeah. Thank you for your concern. I really love your music. You're so talented. My doctor gave me some pills and some rescue remedy. 😊
+Lemon Frosting I hope it gets better with time.
The picture here reminds me of Angel Beats. Great anime btw if anyone hasn't seen it.
I think it is from Angel Beats
They call you socially awkward. All you want is to feel surrounded for once, without feeling on the edge all the damn time.
They call you cautious, all you want to feel is the world in whole, with all it's colours without the imminent feeling of dread coating it.
They call you sad, all you wanna have is a good night's sleep, a fulfilling meal for once, to not take pity in your past for once, to not be prisoner of people's non-existing glares, but they do hate you, they wish you just were more intelligent, more interesting.
They call you nerd, all you want in life is not to feel that acidic feeling whenever you look at those toppling towers of books and assignments to complete and how you are not gonna make it to the deadline and it will keep piling up and up and the shadows of life surpasses life itself and you feel breathless breathless your heartbeat makes you mad and the voices rise in a blurred cacophony and you feel so dazed...so dazed. Breathless. Breathe in, breathe out.
It isn't easy. And I don't flaunt it, don't use it as an aesthetic. Everyday I remind myself those horrible thoughts are not the truth but made up by me. And I go on with my life, loving people, not suspecting them. They love me. They love me as I do love them.
I wish you made a Dark version of anxiety but this piece is pretty nonetheless. Good work as always! :)
Anxiety is the worst of all feelings for me. I just get afraid of doing anything and everything that I love to do. It is the start on the road to depression in my opinion. Don't let it rule your life.
This is so beautiful I hope you upload a synthesia tutorial soon, would Love to learn it as it calms me in a way
Nice one, I like it. :)
relatable
Could you please provide the midi for this please, I'd really appreciate it Lucas, btw your music is beautiful, been a fan since last year, keep up the good work man
+Russell Moore I did make a MIDI for it I think, I'll go look for it =) Thank you!!!
Well done, sir :)
+Nifi Official Thank yoooou!
4:16 was that arpeggio with base notes played with your left hand?
+Rakattac Sure was =D
You need to redo all the links in your description. In the description youtube doesn't write the full link but www.abc... and sometimes when you edit it it takes the shortened one instead of the original one :-(
Btw, nice music as always :)
+AA Piano Music Yeah I see what you mean, good job spotting that thanks man =D
Do you know the name of the original artist drawing?
+Ian R I have no idea, I just put the link to where I found it. I think it's from Angel Beats though
+Lucas King Thanks the link is all i need anyway
Can we get anxiety III?
It's an emotion is familiar myself. (Sorry)
Tachibana Kanade. . . . Is that you ????
The fragile tone is a great representation of anxiety.
Anyone can tell me link of this wallpaper
look up angel beats and it'll probably be there
+E4RT0R4 It's in the Description. He says "I'm not the artist of the artwork." Then put the link there.
How am I crying after this song?
It's beautiful!
I have anxiety and high- functioning autism, and people on the internet are assholes about it.
I've gotten depressed to the point where I have self harm and suicide thoughts.
I often wish I was dead.
If my manga series ever became an anime, I'd LOVE for you to compose for it!
It's on my deviant art:
sakuraofchaos.deviantart.com/gallery/61346542/Chapter-Two
I know it needs more work but I'm working on this chapter. It could be better but I just work on this as a way to escape my harsh reality, and because it's my dream to become a famous mangaka.
Karlie Hansen *hugs* ik the pain I'm sometimes pessimistic and hate myself but never give up no matter what
Thank you!
I have this but it’s a secret from my big sis and parents i told my friends one of them cared one didn’t he has asthma
This had to be a coincidence. My doctor diagnosed me with anxiety yesterday...
It'a gonna be ok. I have anxiety too but I have learned to live with it. Good luck x
+BowTy Maybe this coincedence is here to allways remind you to stay strong. Never give up, regardless, of how hard fate may hit you!
+Titantimon it's where you get nervous when you shouldn't, and it's usually like a panic attack
I had this one time and it completely confused me, bt maybe it was just a bad day
+BowTy I don't believe in coincidences myself. I hope you manage to conquer your anxiety.
People find it odd when I say I have both depression and anxiety. Am I alone with this?
61 comment!!
MGSV
Check your email, Lucas 😁