Would You Save Me Now (feat. Aaron Marsh)
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- Опубліковано 11 вер 2024
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The official album 'Rebirth' will be released on January 11, 2019.
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VIDEO CREDITS:
Starring Jon Hill & Stasha Gray
Video Directed by Tom Flynn
Produced by Spencer Bradham, Tom Flynn & Mike Watts
Storyboard by Spencer Bradham
Edited by Tom Flynn, Spencer Bradham & Mike Watts
Extra Underwater Footage by Drake Sweet
Make-up, Wardrobe & Hair by Stasha Gray
Photoshoot Location at Motion State Media
Album Artwork by Dan Miller
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MUSIC CREDITS:
Drums & Aux Percussion: Jon Hill
Lyrics & Vocals: Aaron Marsh
Piano, Keys & Synths: Spencer Bradham
Guitar & Bass: Spencer Gill
Instrumentation written by Jon Hill, Spencer Bradham & Spencer Gill
Lyrics & Melody written by Aaron Marsh
Produced & Recorded by Spencer Bradham at Clear Track Studios
Mixed by Mike Watts at Clear Track Studios
Mastered by Joe LaPorta at Sterling Sound
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LYRICS:
Would you save me?
Would you save me now?
I’m spinning in my head again.
Would you save me?
Would you save me now?
We’re static, blinking in time,
just black on grey pixels alive.
Erratic, wherever you are,
you circle back to me in colored lines.
The dream that I awoke in was fine
but half my heart remains still asleep there.
The dream that I awoke in was fine.
Would you save me now?
Cause I’m spinning in my head again.
Would you slow me down?
Cause I can’t stop my mind from wandering.
Turning around. Take me back home.
In a room full of friends, I’m always alone.
So would you save me now?
Cause I’m spinning in my head again.
I’m just dizzy in my head again.
In phrases repeating in time,
your words fall back again over mine.
But silent, wherever you are,
you circle back to me in perfect rhyme.
The dream that I woke up from was fine.
Some nights I still return in my sleep there,
your face in the dark.
Would you save me now?
Cause I’m spinning in my head again.
Would you slow me down?
Cause I can’t stop my mind from wandering.
Turning around. Take me back home.
In a room full of friends, I’m always alone.
So would you save me now?
I’m just fucked in my head again.
I need a new dream. Mine loops over and over.
Would you save me now?
Cause I’m spinning in my head again.
Would you slow me down?
Cause I can’t stop my mind from wandering.
Turning around. Take me back home.
In a room full of friends, I’m always alone.
So would you save me now?
Would you save me now?
Cause I’m spinning in my head again.
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Remembering you in August 2024 😩 Jaclyn still has love for you and respects you and always will. She protects all of your secrets and struggles behind closed doors ❤
Watching after the podcast 💔💔
@@elyssa90Which podcast please? I’d like to watch
@@AngelaR1117 The Squeeze by Taylor/Taylor Lautner
😂😂😂😂
I have never been affected by the passing of a stranger like I was Jon's passing. He deserved so much better. I can only hope he is at peace now.
Me too friend, I’m here it’s not even 8 am. I’m torn up. I had this dream last night, one of those uncanny dreams that are so realistic you call your therapist when you wake up. Jaclyn and Jordan had passed in a car crash and in the dream, I went through the seven stages of grief it was crazy. I woke up and after time realized it wasn’t a dream and was both overwhelmed at my relief and overcome by the grief of Jon’s loss. His billboard interview hits too hard “if I could help one person feel less alone, that would keep me clean”
Still coming to watch and remember you February 2024 💔
Same ..
Listening to this after he’s passed hits so different. I hope he’s at peace and free of his struggles. Praying for his family 🤍🤍🤍
For some reason this hits me harder now & I cry. I listen to it almost everyday since he released it.
I'm his mother and so heartbroken to see those words.
@@yolandahill1451 Mrs. Hill my heart breaks for you, my deepest condolences to you. Your son was an extremely talented & beautiful young man. 💖💕
@yolandahill1451 Very sorry for your loss... especially on today's date.
@@JadedMuse2 thank you so much. It means a lot to me. I greatly appreciate your kind words and you remembering this very sad day for us.
Uuuuugh. My heart is literally broken for him. 💔😭 This was not only John, being completely vulnerable and open about his addictions, but honoring his ex-wife's pain, and what she/they went through BECAUSE OF his addiction(s). You could feel the pain for/in BOTH of them, but especially his pain at the end when he realized, too late, that he had lost her FOR GOOD, BEFORE (and if ever) he could get his addiction under control and beaten, also FOR GOOD. Rest In Paradise, you sweet, beautifully broken man, that is now a beautifully healed soul that is soaring and finally free. ❤️
the last scene was a recreation of jaclyn’s dream about them being able to breathe underwater if they just hold their hands. this is beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time.
I'm not crying ...
I caught on to that as well 😭😭😭
What dream was that?? I can't find any references to it
Rachel Francis she mentions it in her Q&A with him x
I totally caught that too.😢😓
This was his cry out for help! Breaks my heart so much! I still can't believe this talented man is gone forever! RIP JON HILL!!! 😭😭
❤️❤️
This is how you’ll be remembered John. For your talent. ❤️
Here after Jaclyn’s podcast 💔
What podcast? Is there a link?
It kills me to imagine what he was going through leading up to and after his divorce. To lose the love of his life to his addiction. To have to deal with the pain and regret of that. To then witness her moving on and eventually getting engaged to another man, a friend of theirs. He probably never had a chance to fully grieve the loss of the life as he once knew it before his life was tragically cut short. My heart shatters for him every time I think about him.
Hold tight Jon, we are all rooting for ya!
the fact that he liked this cmnt 💔
@@psychodollxoand that he knew what hold tight meant, he was such an artist. The world lost a soul that burned brighter than they ever knew. Putting into video Jaclyn’s dream of them being able to breathe underwater if they just “held each others hands tight enough” ruins me.
Rest in peace Jon Hill! This song was always on repeat! I hope the next life treats you better than this.. You will be missed ❤️🩹..
RIP Jon 😔 I revisit this song all the time. Forever missed!
RIP Jon. You deserved much more in this life then to suffer from addiction. May you finally rest easy.
What really???
Yeah :(
@@BrendaMartinez751 it has came out he was homeless most of this year, lost his dog and it destroyed him. He had no phone and was on the streets. His family and friends tried desperately to find him, even trying to raise money to put his face on billboards. He died alone on a street corner. It’s horrifying to think what he must have been going through. He will never be forgotten 🙏🏼
@@johnlevie How do you know he died alone on a street corner?
@@beccaboo702 LA coroners report. He was found on a sidewalk 😔
Rest In Peace, Jon. Praying your after life treats you better than this one did and you find peace. ♥️
It’s like Jaclyn’s dream of them in the ocean, and her just saying “Hold Tight”....wow I cried. Beautiful piece, I hope you find peace Jon! So much talent
Joy Ariana yes..
Joy Ariana I can’t remember what video she talked about this dream?
LMNOP Hdz their q&a from one year ago but she put it on private now
This song sends chills down my body.. I've never heard it before Jon's passing... you're finally safe Jon💔
… and even HOW his story ends … no one had contact with him … alone in the streets of LA … totally incognito … how lonely he must felt 😭😭😭😭 im so so sorry for him and his family .. can’t imagine how to ever deal with this loss 🖤
This song breaks my heart. Today more than ever. Such a sad turn of events. Still so beautiful
Here in August 2024. Thinking of you. I have so much admiration for Jaclyn & the way she still protects you & now, your memory, till this day. Yalls love for each other was undeniable & lives on. From someone who is learning to also let go of a partner of 13 years who is struggling w addiction, my heart hurts for the both of you. It is truly a lose-lose. I pray you've found peace & your soul was set free. You'd be proud of Jaclyn, she's healed, healthy & holds your memory dear ❤
Lmao 🤣 🤣 you have admiration for a women that basically kicked him out while he was in rehab and moved his best friend in. She didn't care about him! I promise you he's not proud of jacyln!! 😂
@@Tessasweightlossjournalfacts.
Back on here after the horrible news that he passed away yesterday… can’t wrap my head around it. Rest easy 🤍
We will miss you always Jon 💔 I’m so devastated but I know your soul is finally at peace. You were so much more than ‘the ex husband’. You helped me and so many others through addiction, you had an incredible heart, and your music saved us all. My heart breaks knowing how badly you wanted to be a dad. None of us will forget you and your legacy will carry on. Until the next life 🕊🖤
Wow. This is what the music industry has been missing. Songs that have meaning and are written because of past experiences. There’s so much honesty and emotion in this song and music video. And ugh, that ending! 😩 Way to go, Jon! All of your fans are still holding tight. 🖤
If you like this you should listen to NF.
RIP Jon Hill 🫶🏻🥺
This song truly is heartbreakingly beautiful. You deserved endless happiness in this life. I’m so sorry. I pray you’re finally free and at peace in a better place. Rest in peace handsome.
If only love kept us sober...❤️
Hopefully that true to the core, deep down ,slow moving but forever burning flame of love for ourselves will keep us warm enough through the bad times that we may find our way back
Jenna Marie M omg I agree
If only 💔😞
🖤🖤🖤
This part from the end with the stunning water... It was her dream. She dreamed about everything u guys can see in the video. See also Q&A with Jon. And I'm crying. 😔
I can't believe his poor precious soul is gone. So sad that it ended like this. You will be missed, Jon ❤️✝️
I just hope Jaclyn watches this! Sucks so bad I know you guys loved each other so much 💔
My thoughts exactly 💕
She probably has. But she has moved on. It has been alleged that she had a relationship with his close friend way before they split up and when he came back from rehab he found his stuff out and the new bf in. I am not saying this is true or not because i wasn't there but if this has happened it's a very brutal and inhumane way to treat your husband of almost a decade. Regardless of what happened i think he is a really strong person and deserves the best. He is that type of gentle soul that wants to be loved deeply because himself has so much love in him and would give everything for the person he loves. I hope he has found or will find that person to support him and encourage him. He has been through darkness and deserves so much light. This song is closure to him and to everyone who has been through that consuming darkness.
Are we all here at the same time? 😭😢💔
at the end when she let go because she didn't wanna drown with the addiction. amazing video jon! *hold tight*
Bawling my eyes out right now. As someone who has watched their spouse suffer with addiction for years, this hit me right in the soul. Wow. I have no words. Simply amazing though Jon. Awesome of you to be so vulnerable.
Being married to an addict is maybe the hardest thing in life next to being an addict. Thanks to suboxone, my husband has been clean for many years now. I hope your husband can get clean for good one day very soon. Xoxoxo!
Angela Jung he has been clean since 2015 with subutex. Grateful for everyday ❤️ So kind of you, thank you. ❤️
Has anyone else watched this over and over because they can’t get enough of this?!??!
Jen 4nyy me!
Jen 4nyy oh gosh yes! I relate to it. I’ve followed Jaclyn for years and thought they had the perfect love story. This video definitely shows the real reason of the separation and it’s so sad for both. It’s so damn hard to struggle with pill addiction I know as I’ve loved someone more than life and yet I couldn’t quit taking the pills I was selfish and scared. Coming off it messes you up for sooo long and sometimes you just don’t want to live anymore so it’s scary but it’s like a death to lose your wife or husband over something you’re struggling with . It’s so hard and before I had the addiction I used to judge it so harshly. I am praying for them both because that had to be so hard for them both to be forced by stupid addiction to let go of who you love. If my doctor never had me on them for so long I never would’ve touched them.
Ashley Dawn glad you’re doing better!! 🤗
I just did 4 times so far.
Yes
Damn now Jaclyn will listen to this song over and over again... he left this beauty for her :,( RIP ♥️ I had to leave my alcoholic boyfriend too... but I always fear for that call too ☹️ I tried and tried like she did too... to save him, sadly I was drowning and needed to save myself... it's a guilt that never really goes away sadly, I left my best friend of 8yrs, we grew up together too 😭😭 I will save you in another lifetime, my love...
I had to let my dad go too. He was an addict my whole life and it broke my heart.
Covering you and Jaclyn in prayers 🤍 All the best x
RIP Jon... fuck this hurts my heart
No one can ever understand the struggle behind drug addiction, unless you’ve gone through it. This hits home, this is raw and beautiful. Thank you Jon for putting your heart out there. It was amazing! The music, the video, your story, everything!
As well as the struggle of those who love an addict. ♥️♥️♥️
I think this video is the closest way to describe it to someone who has never gone through it firsthand. That's no easy task. It was beautifully done.
lady.sarah. bug yes . My husband of 5 years and I split 6 months ago. He was addicted to drugs and It was so hard to deal with it sometimes. It was so unhealthy for us both. I loved him and still do but I couldn’t take it anymore
Being a huge Jaclyn Hill fan, you being her husband just meant I liked you as much as her! And with the divorce and everything being done I was so heartbroken! But there’s no one to blame, your both real life humans! This video was amazing, the editing, the rawness, the heart, and pain, everything was beyond amazing! Gives me chills. Jon, I hope you recover fully and for good, you seem like a great man! I hope god puts you on the right track! You got this!! Great work.
Omgosh I was in shock and crying and sad and everything all at once! I could feel Jacs pain and your pain, but truly understood it all! Awesome song, video and please Jon stay healthy and clean for YOU!
RIP Jon 💔
You are at peace now
My boyfriend and I just broke up last Monday and three days later he went to dual diagnoses rehab. Now that we are broken up I see that his addiction was killing our relationship. I pray that this time in rehab helps him. Deep down inside he is a good man. When he gets home I hope he and I can work on our relationship and give it another shot bc I do still love him.
Watching you and Jaclyn for soooooo long like since yalls apartment where she would film at the kitchen table!
This was the first time I felt like I got an answer for yalls relationship ending. Not that I needed one nor diserved one but it was sooo confusing y’all seamed like the perfect couple. Like y’all were made for each other. Even in this video I pictured you holding Jaclyn because that girls not her and it didn’t feel right. But seeing this was so sad seeing what y’all fought threw Jon your very talented maybe all this pain is to help people heal that have been threw the same depths. I’m rooting for you! So sorry your love broke. And you had to hurt. You and Jaclyn. This video and song takes me back to the good deep days in music. Thank you for sharing your heart Jon. Your in my prayers.
I feel the same way girl ♡ wow just speechless at this video for real
Its 100% implied to be Jaclyn and what they went through. The fact that Jaclyn did hang on for so long speaks volumes for how much she loved him. It's not easy to live in fear of finding him gone laying next to you or trying to save someone while they wash and repeat. Very draining. Hope all the best for Jon and that he wins in the end.
I 100% agree with your comment! I wish BOTH of them nothing but happiness. This video was so raw and real and I'm sure it was so much more of a painful experience than this video captures. No words, just love.
Brooke Villarreal I agree. I’ve watched her since she her first tutorial and I was so sad about their separation. There’s rumors of cheating but I think this video was his way of telling the story of what ended them and showing her remorse and regret. I wish so badly they could work it out.
I love how the last scene you still have on that wedding ring. I wish I could take away your pain dude
Dude this has me crying. My husband is an addict in recovery & it is so hard being the sober partner in it all. There were times I wanted to leave but I kept telling myself "I can't, I can't I love him and I know he will get better I would do anything. I love him & I know if I left him he would kill himself and I would never know if things could work out" & I did stay..and things did work out. Now he has been sober for over a year and we've been healing our relationship. I wish him & Jaclyn could have experienced that..but ultimately he made all of his decisions and it's so sad he couldn't stay sober and find peace within himself. Rip Jon. I pray your family finds healing and your story can save someone else
I’ve listened to this song many times over the years and have always felt it deeply and appreciated the art and the emotion. Not due to drug addiction, but severe mental health struggles and eating disorder. I am so sad to hear that Jon has lost his fight 😞 i truly hope that he is at peace now.
Rest In Peace Jon Hill!!! Fly high rock star! You played your heart out 🥹💔🫶🏼
I’m not crying... you are crying 😢 😭💔.... this is beautiful.
Don't mind me. Just over here bawling. This was so beautiful.
Hey dude. I know youre gone. I know youve left us. And i know youve been fighting this sh** for the better part of your life. I know how hard youve fought. How hard it has been. Ive seen you beat it. Ive seen you slip back. Ive seen you make youre way back to your own true self. Back to your family. Ive seen you express yourself in such a creatively groundbreaking medium that it reached me so deeply. Jon. None of this was in vain. I hate this turn out, you knew id say this, but you did leave your mark. You left your foot print. Your impact. In so many ways. And i was just a new friend to you here in tx. I hate accepting this. I cannot begin to comprehend how your family is navigating this. You were never a lost cause. You were never the one to not accept and acknowledge accountability…. This disease took you. And you fought.
Idc how it ended… ok i do… but idc about the story that comes from how it ended…. Bc your soul is free. And you left behind an impactful lesson that played out in your own written words through your music.
Jon. You accomplished so much. On your own two feet dude, youre more than the “title” irrelevant tabs deem you.
You are loved jon. Always have been. Miss you, thankful i met you. Thankful i knew you. Wish i had it in me to have been more helpful to you. Sleep well jon. Please. Rest jon 🖤 love you dude.
The only person who can save you is yourself! R.I.P Jon a talent gone too soon. xXx
I came here to listen to this song after hearing the awful news that Jon has passed. This song is a masterpiece. I hope Jon has found peace now. My heart is broken for his family & friends 💔💔💔💔
This reminds me exactly of the movie "Fireproof". You never leave your partner in a fire. God, this had me tears. I hope Jaclyn sees this. They're both in pain, but I know healing will come. It's never too late & nothing is impossible..Hold Tight♡ Jon, you are an amazing creative artist. Thank you for showing us your story. We can't wait to see more.
CHILLS. This rugged at my heartstrings so hard. The hold tight part got me....ugh 💔
Holly Celeste same!
I know..
Holly Celeste Same. ❤️
*tugged ;)
I come here alot, such a beautiful song. I wish you were still here. 🖤
How heartbreaking. People have to let go, to save themselves, sometimes, as sad as it is. Thinking of your family and Jaclyn's family too. RIP Jon.
Kinda breaks my heart that they’re not together anymore. I hope you find happiness in you life Jon. You deserve it. Stay Sober and continue working on your music. ❤️
Hes found it ❤
I can’t get over how much emotion was put into this.. Congrats on making something so raw and beautiful.
This was heartbreakingly beautiful. Well done. Thank you for being so honest. Sending love.
Heartbreakingly beautiful. That's exactly how I felt while seeing this video & hearing this song. 👌
This was soo raw. It hit me in the end when you zoomed in on hang tight. 😭😭 I need the rest of the album, Jon. 💗
This song hits different. I rarely felt this connected to someone else's feelings. Jon knew how to make us feel his despair and vulnerability through music. I wish he was given the chance to get a new and happy life. His passing still affects me to this Day. Rest in peace Jon💔
My ex is an addict. I sent him this song. He said he liked it. Asked about it etc. told him the guy was an addict etc. the story between Jon and his wife. And he responded with “I hope you know I’m not using” found out about 3 weeks later that he was that same weekend. Maybe not right then, but within that 48 hour period.
Its so hard loving an addict. You want them to get better but if they don’t want it there is absolutely nothing you can do. And that is one of the most hopeless feelings in the world.
So hard! My dad was my whole life.
fully crying at this tremendous loss of talent. Rest In Peace, Jon. I hope it’s better where you are.
Only you can save yourself, not someone else because they will let go
I think that's what he meant. The video portrays her trying to love him but he was in too deep.
LaShawn W that’s a good point I didn’t think about it like that..I saw it as she left him when he needed her
I met my sons father when I was 17. I got pregnant when I was 19. I found out his addictive lifestyle had progressed to using heroin just 2 months after our boy was born. When he landed himself in prison on felony drug charges. He got out on parole, we were happy for a short time. But his addiction always won. I fought for us for 5 years. While raising our son all on my own. He was my first and to this day my only love. He’s still struggling and I’m still grieving someone who is still alive. My heart is breaking for you and I am praying for your happiness and sobriety. Prosper and move on to a happier life. Addiction will ruin the most beautiful love. Stay strong, Jon. ❤️
Nicole Williams it's hurtful but you have too put your kid and yourself first there fix will come before anything
I had no idea this existed and I am in utter tears watching this. Jaclyn has started to become a bit more open about things and it’s absolutely heartbreaking. I’m so sorry you lost your battle, Jon. I know the struggle of addiction myself and I am so lucky to still be here. If anyone deserved to know sobriety, it’s you. Rest easy, my friend. 💔
crying watching this. im heart broken. prayers to jon’s family
This was absolutely stunning. So raw and real and vulnerable. Such respect for you, Jon. Wishing you nothing but the best and endless happiness.
I agree. I came into this expecting a cheesy last ditch attempt to make money off Jaclyn name and was absolutely surprised at how beautiful and raw this was. It actually broke my heart and revealed there is alot of talent and emotion behind what I thought was a superficial playboy.
Keep it up and going John. Take that "one day at a time" to heart and keep creating. Through perseverance and digging deep in, you will find yourself and continue thrive with gifts you never knew you had. It's only possible to connect back to yourself sober....thats where the real deal lives and flows.
You got this 🙂
U go Glen coco!
All I have to say is WOW... This must have been very hard to do. I give him a lot of credit.
This is so hard to watch now. I’m so sorry to Jon, his family, and all his loved ones. Absolutely heartbreaking. Jon was so talented. I’m soo sorry.
Happy Birthday in heaven Jon.
I’m crushed that Jon is gone. I have a brother who battles addiction. I have seen what it does to a family and I know how hopeless it is to try to help someone who can’t help themselves. Jon’s highs and lows are documented on his Instagram. Many times you could see him slipping and see the struggle it was to pull himself back up. Over and over and over. He would talk about how he was pulled in two directions, the good wolf and the bad wolf, and whichever one was fed would be the victor. The last year he was completely removed from social media. We were all hoping that meant he was taking care of himself and healing outside of the spotlight. It’s so clear that constant news of Jaclyn and thousands of unwanted opinions of every detail of his life were hurting him. Fame and the loss of fame were destroying him. His torment and coping mechanisms were something I see in my own brother. Jon wanted so badly to break free from all of it. He would lament that he couldn’t wait to be a dad and have a wife again. It’s unbelievably heartbreaking that addiction took him in the end and his story is over before he could have the second chance he wanted. I am crushed. Just fucking crushed. I can’t imagine the pain his parents and family are in and have been in for years. There is no happy ending for his story. There never will be. It’s just.. heartbreaking. Devastating. The only silver lining is that he is with Jesus now and all these worldly heartaches can’t hurt him anymore.
Oh my heart…. So many emotions this song stirs up for me. Sometimes we let go in the physical because we are forced too… but when you experience true love for a person, the heartstrings are forever connected. RIP Jon 💔🙏🏻
God bless him and his family during this time
This is such a heartbreaking piece of music. He was so talented. I am so sad for him watching this, him and Jaclyn. This is real life not just character we watch on UA-cam. 😢
We’re still here. ❤️ Rest in Peace Jon, your beautiful soul is still healing us, thank you for your gifts & talent
This video killed me. I am the wife of an addict. We have been together since we were 15, married for almost 13 years. I was there for the start of his addiction and have seen him through a few relapses, the last one is very fresh. He pushed my limits and was a week or two away from losing his wife and 4 kids. Watching your loved one slowly kill themselves and feeling helpless, isn't something I'd ever wish on anyone. I come from a long line of addicts. And if there is anyone reading this who had an addiction problem, please seek help. You have to do it for yourself. But you need to know, your addiction does affect and change the ones that love you. The stress of wondering if today will be your last. Wondering where you are and if you're ok. Questioning EVERYTHING you tell them. Fear for their own safety. Please understand, you're not the only one who will be going through recovery. Once you get clean, you're going to have work to earn trust that you lost. You're going to have to be patient with your loved ones as they heal with you. Be as transparent as possible. I can only speak from my side of things. But my husband did tell me, you always plan your relapses. It may not be clear in the moment but in hindsight, you will always see it. So try to avoid triggers and talk to someone you trust if you feel yourself slipping.
Addiction is something very close to my heart and I feel for everyone suffering from it. My father was a heroin addict for most of my life which had him in and out of prison. This last sentence was a 10 year one. He was out for 3 years and we talked frequently. I talked to him 5 days before my 30th birthday and I told him it must feel strange to have a 30 year old daughter at 47. To my surprise, he didn't call me on my birthday. It turns he was in an accident the day after we talked. I wasnt told for a week and a half..... because his girlfriend didn't want me to know he had heroin in his system at the time of the accident. The accident dislodged a blood clot and he died from a pulmonary embolism. Heroin was not his direct cause of death, but it did cause his accident. He started using again a week prior to the accident. Due to his addiction, my father only met one of his grandkids briefly and never held them. He missed all of my (his only child) big life milestones aside from walking me down the aisle. That was by pure luck, it happened to fall between his many different jail and prison stays. I'm sharing my story in the hope maybe one person will see it and at least think twice. "Just one more time" could be the end of your life.
Remember you're loved and no one would be happier if you weren't here. They'd be happier if you were clean. You mean the world to someone.
Erica's Vanity im so sorry. Praying for your family.
Erica's Vanity thank you for sharing you are so strong ❤️🙏🏽 best wishes always
Erica's Vanity What a horrid story. I am so sorry for you. No one... no one deserves what you have experienced. You are a strong woman! You must have been a very strong child too. Thank goodness you did not fall into the trap your Father did. I know the pain... the waiting... the not knowing... the distrust... the lying... the disappointments... the missed milestones... celebrations.... and just life in general. It is probably better that the Grandkids did not meet him.. I watched a child be destroyed (not mine) by promises from their father to visit them. He would take the money for a birthday gift to get high, instead of buying his child a present. And then he disappeared.... like a vagabond... not for days... but sometimes months, years.... But this kid... she forgave him every time... There is nothing like the unconditional love a child gives.. But my God, it is so hard to watch... just knowing the situation WILL repeat itself... and you have no power to change it...
Wow. This is sad. Not only you dealt with your dad's addiction, but now your husband's. You must be one hell of a strong woman. Anyhow, stay strong and thanks for sharing your story. The struggles are real, people.
This truly makes my heart break for you, praying you receive relief and happiness despite everything, sending you love.
You know the song you play on repeat for days at a time and know 5 yrs from now, this is the song that marks a change in your life? This is that song for me right now
I loved this video/song the first time you put it out! it spoke to my soul! I cried! this song meant something to me! it was like my heart could beat again ! That I wasn't alone! I wasn't alone... even though we have loss you today! I won't flounder into the darkness I won't give up! thank you Jon! thank u for this song! 🙏 rip.. I have promises to keep in miles to go before I sleep miles to go before I sleep...
So sad, he clearly knew he was an addict, so sorry that it took his life away. Such a beautiful, talented person, Rest in Peace Jon.
May you be at peace now Jon. Your struggles and burdens lifted off you so you can rest easy. You were such a talent to this world and you will be missed.
Addiction is a disease you should never give up on your partner no matter what. Really good song.
There are two sides to every story and we really don’t know either.
Jaclyn’s Q&A with him was published 11/14/17 and he dropped this video 11/15/18 😭 I’m not crying!
Lilly Padilla BITCH WHY AM I CRYIN IN THE CLUB RN THIS IS TOO MUCH 😭
Sabrina Hess 😂😂 Where exactly? Let me go cry with you!
Lilly Padilla it’s gone now, she deleted it, but it was up yesterday.
S C Omg! She did delete it 😭 maybe the comments were too overwhelming for her 😔
Fuck! She deleted it?? I couldn’t see it 😭😭😭
Damn I really rooted for you Jon 😔
R.i.p Jon ❤️
What was he addicted to aside from prescription pain killers.? So sad - did Jaclyn try to help him out enough.? It just seems like she’s adding to his pain & suffering. Seemed like a really nice guy & talented also. RIP to Jon Hill….🙏💛✝️
He died of a fentanyl overdose but he also had meth in his system. Chances are he was probably doing a bunch of things when he was homeless and transient. It’s awful. He was sooo talented! He told me he wanted to move to LA to pursue acting. Though I have no clue what training he had as an actor. But it seems so many people tried to convince him to not move to LA but he was drawn to it. LA is not a place for vulnerable people. Those people don’t care about u and they will use u until there is nothing left. Though I don’t know how his entire tenure was in LA I’m sure it wasn’t the best.
I'm crying like a fucking baby. You can feel the hurt and pain on both sides. I'm still crying writing this. I love seeing your side and expression of things. Jon you are so strong. This is so noble of you to be so raw and vulnerable - that takes guts to do. Anytime you may feel alone - think of how blessed you are. God has kept you here for a reason. Please never doubt yourself or your worth. You are enough! Keep making more music and videos with the gifts and talents youve been given. You are helping change so many lives. Remember youre never alone and you have so much support! We love you! "Any area of your life that has no hope, is under the influence of a lie." - Bill Johnson - Bethel Music
That ending.....
wow... my heart wasn’t prepared for that. 😭
My late husband and I were both functioning addicts up until I became pregnant with our kid. Jaclyn & Jon’s story has really resonated with me since I first found them. My pregnancy and sobriety vs his continued addiction was one of the most difficult things I’ve walked through. But Jon’s video ending in the water with the “hold tight” tattoo has been absolutely excruciating due to the loss of my husband in a horrible drowning accident (not due to drug use).
It is quite remarkable how human stories align and tangle.
I wish them both the very best.
TheBOLD Widow I’m so sorry 😢 please stay strong. You’re strength means more than you realize
I was with an addict for 11yrs it took me that long to realize I couldn't save him he had to save himself! I hope all is well for you Jon Hill.
Jacklyn talked about this dream and how a tsunami was flying over them, and how her and Jon held hands, interlocking fingers and went Down into the Water so that the tsunami could go over them ....
Wow this is such a beautiful and vulnerable video!! So proud of you. This song is amazing!!🙌No one makes good videos anymore. I loved the underwater shots/ending with your wedding band hand letting go. 🙁
I am glad things seem to be looking up for you. Don't give up the fight. Addiction is a lifelong struggle, but I bet you'll beat it!
Beautiful and heartbreaking. Hold on tight brother.
He was so beautiful RIP
Still cry listening to this all these years on 😢 rest easy Jon
OMG JACLYN'S DREAM AT THE ENDING!!! THIS VIDEO HAS ME BAWLING RN!!!!!
Rest In Peace Jon Hill! I’ve been listening to this song a lot for the last month as it’s one of my fav’s and I just found out today that you passed and I’m truly saddened. Your life was cut too short but I hope that you’re at peace now. I will be forever loving and listening to this song! 💔
This song is so strong and can't stop listening to it. May you rest in peace. May God hold you in his hands.
R.I.P Jon. I hope you’re in peace now 😔❤️
Rest in peace Jon. I’m so sorry.
I have had this song stuck in my head for seven days straight. I hope he’s resting peacefully, now🥺
I’m crying, I have went through the same thing the past 6 years. So I know how she has felt & I also feel saddened on a deep level for you.. because I have watched someone I would die for go through this time & time again... he’s 8 months clean now. But the wounds are still raw & this literally hit me so close. 😩
Amber Denise I hope you find peace, sister ❤️
Rachel Weatherly thank you! I will forever be changed. But I’m happy that there’s still hope & I didn’t give up.