I used to sleep 10-12 hours a day before I had to drop out of college, and I'd just lay in bed listlessly for hours too. If that's happening, talk to a counselor, someone, don't close yourself off like I did.
For some reason my mind always says, "Better angry than sad!" If I start to get sad about something I'm ready to get angry. Unfortunately this gets bottled, I leave, and the rumination begins again. lol Also, anyone else blank on EVERY name EVER?!?!
Like my chef tells me to remind another coworker of somethibg and I forget... I can even write a little note but since I'm not working at a specific place like a desk I forget about the note. So in the end, I'm the one to be blamed and get yelled at
It very much sucks. I’ve been diagnosed with Bipolar, Mild PTSD, and ADHD. I do not take medicine for this because ‘since I don’t need it, you don’t need it.’ (As my father said.) I’ve started to notice that I forget things that I’ve done only seconds or minutes before. I also started to realize how much it has affect me physically. Such as intense migraines, chest pains, loosing feeling in certain parts. It’s gotten bad at one point where when I woke up and stood, my legs would stop working and I would be on the ground for about 5-10 minutes. Although, this has stopped and moved towards the tops of my fingers.
Artzi you should really start taking therapy. Dont let people around you decide what do. You can always stop with medicaments, but if you feel that you cant overcome by yourself please ask for help.
Guys I'm not a therapist I'm just a regular guy that feels your pain. I suffered from depression and my father suffered for about 12 years of his life. I realized that therapist help massively no question but in the end it's us who has to make the decision and decide if we wanna come out of it. Meanwhile may be you should try to set Goals or Bigger Goals. Start working towards them one day at a time. As you 'll start to see some success it 'll start slowly fade your depression too I experienced. Less cell phones and Social media and more being around humans also help. Accept all the blames think of them throughly and then start to accept and forgive and tell your self okay it's great now it's time to move on. Once you 'll make this your mantra it 'll start to change the inner slowly. I had a beautiful childhood but I can't go there and be that because life keep moving and time too. So I had to stop trying to bring that time back and realized I need to move on and it 'll bring change and I need to find beauty in this change and in this time. And there Is, always.
Chrissi Kirkland bruuhh I wish depression symptoms were like yugioh cards, I'd trade you my Non-Crying-blue-eyes-white-dragon and you can trade me your Crying-dark-magician
It doesn't help with the guilt when family members are constantly going out of their way to belittle you for not being able to function the same as other people.
Get a good friend with a strong mental picture of you, show them this video, and write up an outline of a defensive argument with them talking you through it. Bring in an external perspective of somebody who is reasonably close to you and is willing to get into the middle of things.
Primalxbeast judgement and embarrassment is two of the worst ways to induce trauma if it is continuos over long periods of time. Add in physical abuse, sexual abuse, neglect, isolation, manipulation, intimidation, and thee plethora of other ways to traumatize through abuse and it breeds an overload on thee fight or flight synapses.
Julie R just know you’re not alone ❤️. The harder times will pass. Remember to enjoy the little things. I find trying to hype up how amazing nature is can help a bit?
Ok, maybe there is a way to trick oneself into being/becoming vital (strong, energetic and present) again... Depression/Apathy is like having a broken alternator - your body is practically healthy but you just cant start your engine.
Ngl, I had to ask my mum a timeline of when my great granny, grandad, dad, then my dog all died and what day I started high school and how old I was when x happened, ect. ect. There were also other things which I just completely forgot wholesale even happened.
yeah, kind of. When I was depressed I could stay in bed all day long but I wasn't sleeping. I was just stuck with my thoughts not wanting to do anything.
As someone who deals with depression, the self blame is DEFINITELY a thing. Depression is weird. Like I can be feeling a certain way and in my head I’m like, “You know this is illogical.” But another part of my brain is like, “No it isn’t. You ARE a failure. Everything IS your fault.” And unfortunately the negative, illogical part wins.
Yea but I think it's possible to learn how to make it so your logical side wins more often. For me, meditation (i. e. Attempting to think about nothing for 1-5 minutes at a time) has turned into a sort of superpower for preventing bad anxiety
I separate the voices. So I have me, then my depression, then my anxiety. My depression sounds like an aggressive version of myself, and my anxiety sounds like a child. It has taken me 3 years of therapy to become adept at being self compassionate and ignoring the thoughts that hurt. I'm no expert at it though. Just last week I had a major bump (depression sucks), but again the whole guilt thing, sets in "it's your fault you did that" "you'll never be better" but it's having trained your thought processes to also hold you like a friend "it was just a bump" "we'll talk to the councillor about it" "It was just a moment of weakness" "you made it out of it". It's incredibly difficult to do. But achievable. Especially for a Pisces like me whose emotions dictate everything 😅
@hanzo with a golden frying pan I get that, but I mainly associate it with my anxiety. I would get the feeling that everyone is staring at me. Just constantly staring. In public they would stare. When I walk the street they would stare (also paranoia that people would run me over for fun)
@@yonmoore I found that mediation did help in one aspect of my mental health. The deep breathing and the calmness helped my anxiety, because once I had control over the fight or flight those thoughts generally faded. But with my depression if I stopped thinking, it would pop up Like "oh is this space free? Don't mind if I do" and start harassing me. One time I did a meditation where they wanted me to visualise myself, and I was so triggered by it, all I saw was a monster. A frail monster, rotten and black, chained to the depression. It was horrible, I've kind of avoided meditation since tbh.
It's so true!!! I have the same problem but I try to distinct the illogical and logical thoughts and try to stick to the other ones. It's hard but helps me
The number of times in my life I have been introduced to new information about depression and I'm just like "Oh..... well. That makes sense." I can't stress enough how helpful it is to be able to put a name to your problems. It makes self acceptance a whole lot easier when you can say "okay, that's the depression talking" or "you aren't stupid, you knew what that number was, it was the dyslexia that spat it out of your mouth wrong". It's like you are no longer trying to fix an overwhelming wrongness in yourself, you have something specific, and that makes it just a little bit more manageable
Exactly ! Not identifying what you have is more than frustrating. You don't know if your feelings are "normal" or a real problem. If you are a teenager, you do hear a lot of "it's just a phase" and "it's the hormones" and all. That isn't something to say to a teenager. Imagine that teenager has a real problem like bipolarity or anxiety? The teenager will just live with it, telling himself it's something normal and who knows how worse it will become once adult and independent. People should be more informed and recognise those illnesses >.
And yet people try to argue "people shouldn't label themselves," and "why do you feel like you need labels?" Because humans require knowledge to make sense of chaos. It gives us something to understand. Something to point to that's concrete. Try explaining someone what a fish is without using labels. Don't call it a fish. Don't call it an animal. Don't call it alive. Don't refer to it's fins. Don't refer to it's eyes. Don't refer to it's scales. Don't refer to it's gills. You can't - and even if you manage, you'll be frustrated beyond belief. If a single word can get your idea across... it's stupid not to use it. This goes for everything. Mental illness, sexuality, etc. Labels are useful tools.
Talk to a trained counsellor, either from church, or your medical doctor for reference to get real help. Friends and family become exhausted from dealing with depressed family members and you could be pushing your much-needed support system away. Go to a professional and get the help you need.
One in four women in the western world is diagnosed with a mental condition of some sort most of which is depression and anxiety. Numbers are high in men too but underdiagnosed/reported due to lack of patient interactions. This is extra true in underprivileged or poor communities. So it's not helpful for sure. But it may very well reflect the reality of your community.
The memory loss portion is so messed up. I've probably been some degree of depressed my whole college career. I barely passed all my classes, barely remembering the information to pass the exams. Now that I'm out and trying to land a job, I feel so incompetent. I feel like my whole time in college was a waste because I can't apply what I was taught because these past 6 years have been a blur. Not just information, but experiences too. My mom sometimes reminisces on a grandiose trip we took and I barely remember it happening if at all. Then, she gives me a look like "why did I even bother, if you aren't able to remember it anyway?". It's really great to be judged by your parents on something you can't control sometimes...
My family was like that too. It’s like even when they know I’m depressed they don’t bother to do even minimal research into how it affects me and instead just get mad at me and make me feel guilty for things I can’t control. Makes me so mad at them sometimes
Your parents needs to understand you and your illness a little better. My mother was unaware of my depression until I told her. She did not thought it was a real problem until one day I just started crying over nothing. She was there to comfort me. She doesn't believe a lot in medication or psychotherapy but she is there when I need here. Your mother love you, every mother does. So I think you need to talk to her, maybe explain her about depression. I'm graduating from University, my memory loss was horrible for me, I studied medicine (6years), I feel just like you, all is blur. I'm afraid of the things I can't remember. This April I'm going to start working, I'm so scared. My Hope is that if I got through all 6 years of University with depression, maybe I can survive work. I just need to re learn everything again. And I know some information it's somewhere in my brain, it's not gone forever. It's going to be hard, but I know I can do it. Also I'm on antidepressants and psychotherapy, that's why I'm so positive about the future. I whish you luck! You can do it!
Depression for me isn't sad feelings or feelings of being worthless or anything like that. It's not really having any feelings at all. It's unrelenting indifference. Not good, not bad, just meh. All the time. I don't feel good or bad or care about anything; I just exist. It'll drive you mad after a while.
@Katherine Montano You're not worthless though. It's so important for me that you know that. And you shouldn't be ashamed that you exist, it's beautiful that you exist. We all need time to grow and we all make mistakes and it's ok to make your own mistakes, ones that maybe look ridiculous or pathetic for other people, but you need to learn and grow your own way. Infact, you HAVE to. There is no other way for you. As long as you just hold on, just keep trying - it's ok. It's ok to take time. It's ok to repeat mistakes. It's ok to struggle. And I believe that a mind like yours can certainly help other people, bring a lot of value to the world. I just got this impression somehow.
I've never been diagnosed with depression (and am NOT about to self-diagnose myself either) but I feel that on a day to day basis. Sometimes I even try to imagine terrible things like someone pointing a gun to my head or coming home to see my family dead just so I can feel _something_ again. But it rarely works. I'm so sorry you have to deal with something like this.
For me it’s guilt, and this presence of sadness and heaviness that dries my body taking every will power I have. Feeling like time doesn’t move but sits still feeling like a task is forever and feeling the same shitty self every day every week every month and the so on years. And it feels like a high to me sometimes we’re I’m just feeling out of place out of my life really. At one point I did forget what was true happiness I haven’t felt it in a while. The sense of anxiety pushes me to having theses thoughts that just talk and talk and doesn’t shut up telling me to do this and that. It only gets louder and louder pushing myself to do harm. Sometimes it feels great to be in the dark side to feel this depression on me this other part which I dreadfully hate. But there is a happy side now a new beginning I’m feeling fresh . I’m recovering since 2 ish months ago, and I feel great I feel happy in general now.
In an odd way, it makes me feel better to know that some of my issues just stem from my depression instead of just being another thing that's wrong with me.
As a girl, I don't really know why but everytime I have a big crying episode (where I spend more than 1 hour crying almost uninterrupted) and have belly pain, I tend to tell myself the only reason I'm crying are my hormones and that I'm just going to have my periods. Weirdly enough, it devastates me 😅
@@uMaud I have depression as well and I HATE blaming my emotions on hormones. It feels stupid to me and I would rather blame it on my diagnosed depression lol
Yeah, I’m sick of that line. Just need more willpower. I say something different. Depression isn’t overcome with will power, anyone can summon up some quick will power. Instead, it’s will endurance. And no one has the level of will endurance to keep up 16 hours a day. It will burn anyone out and put them into a daze.
You know discipline is a good way of improving your depression? Breaking the rumination cycle requires a great deal of it. Also I knew several kids growing up who bragged about faking their way into a diagnosis though am in no way saying that applies to you but adults know kids do those things too.
@@commonsense9173 First, sadly that’s not the kind of discipline they mean and is what I’m trying by myself. Second, I’m 18 even though they still treat me like a child.
For those of us who grew up in dysfunctional families as the scapegoat, we were programmed with the belief that everything actually was OUR FAULT. So even if we reclaim our sanity as adults and understand this intellectually, it takes a lot of work to rewire the neural pathways, upgrade the software (beliefs - both conscious and unconscious), and figure out how to repair the hardware of our often exhausted physical forms.
The saddest part is when you know how your brain works and what causes you to think that way but still can't "rewire" your own brain to function properly again.
Sometimes I feel like people really underestimate the physical affects of depression. I actually thought I had some sickness for so long because of my tiredness, nausea, dizziness, lack of apetite, headaches, and weight loss..(and more, strange and specific symptoms) I kept visiting the doctor but they could never find anything wrong with me... I knew I had depression but didn't think it had such physical effects.
YES!!! SO MUCH the same...My doctor is sick of seeing my face. "There is nothing wrong with you physically!" He nearly shouts at me. I know. But...I still have all these symptoms and they get me nervous and it is so reassuring to hear that it is "all in my head". Lol 😁 And I can clearly see it as when my mood is better so are my physical symptoms. It is just so hard to belive that mind-body connection is SO strong as it is not universally accepted truth, or at least people are not aware how STRONG the connection really is. Until they have depression/anxiety and all these symptoms show up.
Going through the same for 2 years now, even had to go to hospital 3 days ago, for irregular heartbeats, headaches and extreme dizziness...tests showed nothing again.
Exactly the same here , dizzy, flu like feelings, headaches, brain and face numb almost like my brain had been put into a coma . But yet im in perfect health😳
I’ve been dealing with hardships and it destroyed me and my family I’m alone I’m mad sad and I’ve been having some thoughts that I was better off not being here I tried to tell my parents after sleeping for more than 12 hours for 3 weeks I’ve been getting worse is there a online therapist or something my parents aren’t listening they’re ignoring and plus they don’t need any more problems please answer
So, according to my own analyzis: -Small, but existing sense of worthlessness most of time, which expands into a huge blob every time a minor mistake happens; -Staying in my bed all day, doing nothing and blaming myself later; -Sleeping up to 3 hours in the afternoon, not getting things done, and blaming myself again. -Memory loss, which is by far the worst, as I often have problems remembering who I used to be, what I did last week, how to structure sentences, and doing maths (Which was the subject I was best at). -Problems with conversations. I don't know how to properly prolong them, and have a constant fear of talking, which led to me not making many new friends. This gets even worse, as I had a HUGE group of trustful friends before, and all of them say I was a pretty cool guy, even if a little impatient and hot-headed. -Problems with completing even the simplest of tasks (Can't take a pill without dropping it on the floor first, picking it up, noticing I forgot my water, looking for it in the whole house only to realize that it's obviously in the fridge...) -Daydreaming constantly about the adventures and success I want to have, thus not concentrating on what I need to do in order to achieve that. -Compulsive gaming with friends, and getting sad if they aren't online. -Constant insecurity and overchecking of facts, to "make sure it is correct" Damn... I think I might have developed very serious depression and social anxiety in the last four years... now the hard part is looking my dad in the eye and saying "I'm depressed, I want help"...
damn that sounds like me as well. i really want to get professional help but mental care where i'm from is close to non-existence and mental illnesses are still stigmatized as being "crazy" and "the crazies need to be put in the asylum". hope we all can get good help soon and get better
Same here but I don't have a family to talk to about it because they don't believe in mental illness and think it is all fake for attention or something. :/
um cara qualquer reading this now, something of it sounds like what I do for the majority of my time. Daydreaming, constantly gaming and become sad when my online friends don’t get on. I can barely remember the classes from last week. I feel like I’m too dependent on my online friends to get me away from my thoughts when I’m by myself. I just run stuff through my head that I’ve messed up my life. Especially my past two years in college. But at the same time, a part of me just believes I might be wrong, that I’m just overthinking things but I just don’t know.
I'd wondered why I was struggling to recall things, I'd chocked it up to something else - but this may likely be the cause (or some part of it). It was rather galling trying to talk about it to someone, and for them to tell me I just didn't care enough to remember things, despite talking about how I struggled to recall (distant) family or people I used to be friends with. It's not complete loss of memory, I just struggle or fail to remember fine details. Dates and names in particular.
Idk if this makes sense but I always forget the names of my classmates even though we've known each other since last year and I forget what things are called, recently my mind went blank trying to recall the name "construction paper" even though I was staring at it
Yeah, I'd been dealing with difficulty recalling names for a while, from college on into professional life - I still don't know the names of most of the people at work (and it's not a very large company). I've just found ways to cope, talking to people in a way that doesn't require addressing them by name but (hopefully) doesn't lead them to asking I know their name - god help me if I had to talk to some VIP at work, I wouldn't be able to address them properly in any formal setting. I've tried various techniques that are supposed to help you remember names, but I find I really only remember the names of people who I work closely with on a daily basis (I also kept looking their names up in their e-mails for the first few weeks. I'd forgotten my bosses name on the first day). Not remembering the names of things can be very frustrating too - I'd honestly thought it was just me having a brain fart. People aren't very understanding if you tell them you have trouble remembering names either. They're usually very offended if they think you should know more than you can remember about them because they'd told you once before.
Forgive me, but fellow depressed people that say "well you're not sad all the time, so you don't have REAL depression" is equally as toxic as "there are people who have it worse" people. Depression is not a god damn dickmeasuring contest. Depression is depression, end of.
+Shitpost Absolutely! And you can be made to feel guilty for having a laugh about something. As though every single second of your life should be complete misery if you have depression. I was told by a "Healthcare Professional" once, "I can tell you're not depressed because you smiled when you said hello". My internal response was "Well effing pardon me, you hatchet faced cow, for being effing polite" while my external response was ,"Oh".
The trick is getting the people around you to acknowledge that your issues are real and not something you're making up to get attention or excuse bad behavior.
This is a situation where a trained psychiatrist or counselor is helpful. They will always treat the concerns of their patients as real and look for ways to assist in treating either the cause (when possible) or the symptoms (when the above is not possible for some reason). If you do feel like you have depression, or even just a handful of symptoms, and your family or friends brush you off, find someone who will listen to you and help you.
@@WardOfSouls I'm thankfully in a decent situation with my immediate family and close friends, and on appropriate medications. But I've run into a large number of people who are extremely vocal in their belief that Any mental disorder that doesn't render you completely incapable of interaction with normal society essentially does not exist, and is just a result of our liberalized culture coming up with excuses for people's bad behavior. And unfortunately convincing these people with evidence from professional scientists and/or psychiatric experts just gets responses that they're "in on it".
@@WardOfSouls not all psychiatrists haha. My first one told me it was likely my fault for getting bullied, subconsciously giving others the signal I was weak and defenseless. Oh but she precluded it with "don't take this the wrong way" so I guess it's okay /s
Whenever this nonstopable Cycle of self-loathing rumination starts i actually take extra dose of my sleeping pills prescribed for me because my chronic pain prevent me from sleeping at all so i take those to force myself sleeping because when i am asleep it’s the only way/period of time where my brain stop thinking nothing else work...
One thing that happens to me is the following: I get lost in the past with an overwhelming feeling of nostalgia and I find myself reliving pivotal moments of my past and imagining acting differently than what I did at that moment. It is so strong that is almost like I lose perception of the present and my surroundings, like having a "vision" of sorts. Does anybody else experience this?
I moved from city A to city B when I was 8yo. The next year my parents divorced and they both became selfish people. For me I remember two events in city A. One was almost being the fastest kid in class when I was in second grade. I was just running faster and within feet of beating the fastest kid. Then we moved. The other one is playing football in the streets with my older brother's friends. I was pretty good for my age but one time the quarterback kept asking me "Can you catch it?" and I assured him I could but just when he was about to throw it the sun got in my eyes and I dropped the ball. I don't know why that memory keeps coming back to me. Even today, in bed most of the day and lacking motivation and decades later, I sort of yelled out, "I didn't mean to drop the ball!" It's funny that this video popped up and I saw your comment because I often feel nostalgia about City A. City A is like what could've been. I've even gone back to that first house I lived in a few times and now and then go to google maps to take a look. I was happy then. Yet, those two disappointing events come up a lot in my mind when I reminisce - sometimes I relive it so I'm successful. That all said, I'm getting better little by little at not thinking about the past so much. I'm aware, for example, that if my parents divorced in city A etc. city A would not have been so nostalgic for me today. It's not good to live in the past but it's so hard to look only ahead when one's life feels static like mine.
Hell yes. Especially at night when in bed n trying to kip. Aint helpful but its great to ground yourself at such moments with mindfullness or try bringing your attention to your surroundings through touch, visual inspection etc
Thank you for bringing up the cognitive function aspect of depression. That was one of the major symptoms that I dealt with - on bad days I couldn't make plans, get a clear view on the study project I was doing, keep a conversation going without losing track of it halfway, or have creative ideas. (Sucks when you're studying product design). And I never really linked that to depression until I saw a therapist. I just felt like I was getting more and more stupid and more and more of a failure. I'm much better now, but it's still incredibly cool to have this part of depression acknowledged on your platform. I think it would have made past-me feel a little less stupid and I'm sure it accomplishes the same for other people dealing with depression right now. So I want to thank you again :) DFTBA
I'm glad you're better now. I spoke with a therapist once who told me "depression can be a little like having dementia." Repetitive thinking keeps you distracted, food doesn't taste right, isolation causes oxytocin reduction, reasoning starts to seem difficult, and listening may be impossible in some otherwise very normal situations. Depression is a vicious cycle that always leads back to itself. It's a LOT of chemical reactions in your brain that we don't quite understand.
Trying to read or study with depression or adhd or both is basically impossible. My eyes physically focus out and I don't at all remember what I read, that I re-read another 5 times and still don't get it. I'd even say that children heavily struggling with a subject or all of school should be checked. Depression actually can make you stupid when you have it. All energies are given to depression to cause self-hatred, feelings of worthlessness, drain your body and brain of all energy. Then you are angry sad and hopeless. Emotions actually take a lot of energy, even joy. There is a huge reason that we are mostly neutral to content all the time.
@@maxcovfefe It kinda does tho. Because without the cloud of depression your ability to focus is enhanced... or just returned back to what's normal for you. With depression I couldn't even read 1 page of a book before I was exhausted and had to sleep, or the pages would get blurry and words jumbled up. Without depression I can read a book in one sitting. And because my mind is less cluttered I also remember more of what I read. But yeah, math is one of those things where you do need a bit of talent to get good at....
My memory is so bad my mom was telling me to get her something that I apparently had but I had no memory of what she was talking about no matter how hard I thought about it and it made me so sad cause i was clueless but my mom remember.
Rumination, I think, is the worst symptom. As an undiagnosed child with serious depression, I ruminated to the point where I was uncommunicative, and it made people think I was autistic, seriously autistic. As far as memory is concerned, I feel like 21 years of that 'burned' and scarred my brain, I'm quick to recognize things but forget them almost as quickly as someone going into senility. Get your kids checked, people.
The cognitive problems are the worst. Total inability to problem solve, to organise thoughts, to plan ahead, all the higher order cognitive functions. Being unable to put together an outfit in order to get dressed. Being unable to look in the fridge or pantry and figure out what to cook for dinner, let alone actually cook it. Just a couple of very basic self care things that I am totally incapable of when I'm really unwell.
I think I've experienced this on a very low level. The thing is, I'm also lazy. And I struggle with telling the difference between what you're describing and laziness. Whenever I have to do a task that requires more cognitive effort I just really, really, really don't want to do it.
I can relate to this. I've been stuck in this cycle for the last few months and I've found myself falling further and further into this pit. I used to be the person who could plan my life down to the smallest detail, do everything like a superwoman. Cooking, chores, work, as well as caring for my family. Suddenly, my life fell apart and I went with it. Now I'm lucky if I have the mental energy to take care of myself (showers, eating, trimming my nails, etc) on the regular... It's actually disgraceful to me but I can't help myself. I ended up going into the hospital and I have a therapist now but I'm still not okay. I hope you get to a better place soon. It's hard. It's really really hard.
@@rachellee5797 It's like swimming against the current - whenever you think you're already there and cease the effort, it keeps dragging you back. Fortunately, I noticed I get further every time and don't get dragged as far back as I used to, so on the whole, there is a progress. What helps most, though, is realising what is going on with me - sometimes it takes a while but generally, as soon as I realise the symptoms, I start viewing things from a more correct perspective and feel better. This video, as well as the comments, is very enlightening and I hope it will help me in the future battles. Keeping my fingers crossed for you that you find some good coping mechanisms, too.
@@essennagerry man the same problem. How do you handle it? The thing is I want to become more of a cognitive work guy, want to study programming but I am just sooo lazy at new cognitive tasks, it is like I do not want to think. I think it is some kind of a habit actually
I'm a good student but I can never make decisions like what to eat, what to wear, what homework should I do first. I feel stupid for being smart but indecisive it makes you feel more stupid than the smart guy you are.
It’s apparently because depression actually eats away grey matter in your brain as the years go on. I’m not really looking forward to when I’m an old person, if we’re all around by then.
Tell yourself this and exercise the thought: "I wasn't to blame." Although we might have a propensity towards certain kinds of behaviour resulting from certain kinds of thought patterns, our behaviour is mostly formed and learned by our environment. As suggested in the video, you need to get help from a cognitive behavioural therapist to cope with such guilt.
@@kaylahall1219 It's where someone's fantasy/daydreaming habits are so pervasive that it interferes with normal daily functioning, causes people to isolate themselves and generally not participate in healthy, mindful living. Jung would describe it as 'auto-erotic' but it's not necessarily about sexual fantasy. It's quite destructive.
@@orangesandsalt2161 Healthy, mindful living? What's that supposed to be? Does such thing even exists? Also, what's normal daily functioning is supposed to mean? For your information, for some, "fantasy/daydreaming habits" are "normal daily functioning" so it can't possibly interfere with itself. It's illogical. "It's quite destructive." Also, for your knowing, everything is, whatever you do. Living itself is destructive by nature, towards itself and everything else.
@@SuperVladdrakula I'm not talking about normal "fantasy/daydreaming" habits. Everyone does this and it can be healthy part the creative imagination. The clue is in the word 'maladaptive'. This is a where the person actively avoids participating in their work and social lives to the detriment of both. It's where solitude turns to isolation and where no experiences are felt in the body and in real life but only in the world of fantasy. Many people suffering from trauma, especially sexual abuse at a young age, turn to this MD as a coping mechanism. It can mess with your memory, exacerbate anxiety and ultimately become an addictive behaviour. Just because this is not your experience, doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Therapy, grounding meditation, etc can all help.
@@orangesandsalt2161 "The clue is in the word 'maladaptive'." Oh, "maladaptive", yeah, sure. "Maladaptive" is subjective. What's to say something is "maladaptive" if the "victim" is not hurt by it or feels any detriment from it at all? "Victim" can be more hurt by your "social life" than "maladaptive daydreaming". Daydreaming can not hurt you. "This is a where the person actively avoids participating in their work and social lives to the detriment of both." You do realise that a person may not have "work" or "social life"? "It's where solitude turns to isolation and where no experiences are felt in the body and in real life but only in the world of fantasy." Yeah, of course, you, for some reason, should want to feel "experiences" in the body. Why exactly? Better isolation than destruction. Fantasy, at least, can't hurt or kill you. Or do anything bad to you at all. "Just because this is not your experience, doesn't mean it doesn't exist." This line should be directed to you. I know all of this far too well. Daydreaming can't be "maladaptive". It's so-called "social life" can be downright lethal. And usually is.
If you tend to ruminate like I do, one thing I've found to help is to treat your situation as if you were advising your best friend. Help your "friend" look at their problem from a different, more hopeful angle. It's easier for some people to be nice to others than it is to treat themselves well
Like that place with the guy named Wangchuck and he has this gross domestic thing about happiness. I'm not saying that the people there have never been depressed but there's a chance that someone there haven't.
This couldn't come at a better time for me - my depression has been getting worse but today a talk with my therapist and this video makes me feel that I'm not going mad, and that I can work to get better. It might take a while, but I'm not giving up on me now!
I have had all of these symptoms, but through a lot of therapy and the use of of a SSRI the depression has greatly lessoned. I rarely ruminate, and am much less angry. I am telling you this to let you know that there is hope, and if you stay steady with the therapy and work hard at it, you can break depressions power on you and you can control it.
Thank you, that was so uplifting to hear! I've also been put on SSRI's, and I think they've been helping. It's good to hear that I'm not alone in this, and I wish you the best of luck on your journey!
Don't answer if this question is offensive. How self reliant are you? Like: Do you grow or harvest your own food & water. Can you build, maintain, & fix your form of housing? Are these the focus of your education? These are codependencies most people have (I had) that are the major reasons people don't see value in the world, & see no purpose in life. Except, Instead they value the dollar & being an employee of someone else to afford those codependencies, or social reliance. I've recently found value do to gaining more self reliance, it might help others as well..?
I am not self reliant in the way that you are defining it: as a minor I am still reliant on my parents for food and housing, and as I am still in full time education I can do little to move away or change that (not that I particularly want to). For me, allowing myself to rely on other people is something I struggle with, as I already tend to be quite introspected with my emotions, so I don't think becoming more isolated would help for me. If you feel that it has helped you though, that is great! I see nothing wrong with anyone living the way they wish as long as they are happy, healthy and causing no harm to others :-)
It gets better. Believe me it gets better. Make sure you reach out for help in any and all places (you probably got an advert before this for betterhelp - I know I did. Use it or another resource). Reach out to friends and family for support, or coworkers, or anyone that you know if you feel like you can. If you don't have free counselling where you live then look for subsidised schemes. This all takes effort, and some days will be bad days no matter how hard you try, but bad days are better than no days. Keep going.
One thing no one told me was a symptom of severe depression was intense chest pain. Around the peak of my depression, my chest would constantly feel like I had an elephant on top of me. I went to get a chest x ray and everything looked normal. Once I got on my antidepressants, the pain went away. The reason I was having the pain was because the constant distress my body was going through was making my chest plate contract tighter and tighter, and once the stress eased, so did my pain. I wish a doctor told me about it.
Elizabeth Johnson Did it kinda feel like what you’d imagine a heart attack to feel like? I’m 15 and been feeling this and I know for a fact I am very depressed.
@@crackuhsnackuh a little bit, yeah. It was just insane pressure that would get so bad I struggled to breathe, sending me into a panic attack. It felt like a was being crushed by a boulder. If you have pain, talk to your doctor and ask if that could be related. You could also just be dealing with panic attacks and/or anxiety attacks which can feel like a heart attack, which will definitely be helped with medication.
Elizabeth Johnson I'm so glad to hear that someone else has had a similar experience. I've been so worried it might be something like the start of a heart attack, especially when the heart pangs get worse
@@mrtutus23able I would check with your doctor anyway to make sure it's just that. The best thing to do for pain is to reduce stress if possible, get on antidepressants and ask about specialized anti-inflammatories.
@@depressoespresso3931 hey you are a warrior,you need to find the lion within you 😊,remember anything is possible,i wish you the best because why not you deserve it
what I rarely see people mention (but was kind of said in this video) is how depressive episodes can affect your cognitive functions. when I'm in the days leading up to a panic attack it's very hard for me to process most information, I can't answer simple questions because I simply cannot get a hold of my thoughts. it's very frustrating and exhausting. a part of depressive episodes feels like mental regression, like I'm a baby that cannot control how it responds to stimuli, which also falls under "irritability" depression, anxiety and trauma overall suck
Sad (all the time) ✔ Negetive thoughts ✔ Self Blaming ✔ Crying ✔ Stuck in my thoughts for hours ✔ No motivation to do anything ✔ Oversleeping ✔ Thoughts to end my life ✔ I deal with this everyday and even if i try to tell someone about this they all laugh and think that i am just wierd 😔😔
That was a heartbreaking comment you posted Sonali. I really feel for you. May God be with you and show you His wonderful kindness and grace. May the love of His Son Jesus surround you and embrace you warmly. You are deeply loved. Please take care.
Hang I. There buddy, I’m going through the same thing and just know that if you talk about this with a loved one, they’ll actually listen and help you get the help you need, even if they know nothing about what’s happening, they can still help you on the road to happiness
I am in the same boat. Being old now I have painfully learned not to share whatever depression I have with others, especially my wife. Good way to end a marriage and lose friends. They can not and should not have to understand what we are going through. Couple things, 1) I am confused about what these religious hypocrites are doing responding to many of these comments. 2) Try some good quality magnesium. It takes away my pain, though I still have the thoughts. Get the digestible kind. I take 3 every night and I was able to get off the meds. Keep at it.
Me: I might be depressed, I have a lot of symptoms and feel like I could be Other me: Nah.. I’m just faking it. Me: But.. Other me: BUT SHUT UP I’M NOT DEPRESSED And it’s like that a lot of time in my head.. Am I the only one or can someone relate?
I can relate. I keep on telling myself my “symptoms” are just me exaggerating my tiny, unrelated issues, and that I’m not depressed. One half of me actually hopes I’m for real depressed so I could seek help and return to normal, whatever that is, but the other half is screaming that I’m just selfish and want attention.
@@Silver-jd6xi woah ive never related to something so much. ive experienced this before, and i recommend you actually go seek professional help because if you dont, the feeling will forever linger within you.
Quite frankly having depression for years on end now has take a toll on me, I feel really fatigue most of the time even though I get at least 8 hours of sleep, concentrating on classes or reading is another thing cuz my mind wonders to other things or just simply daydreams, my joints hurt, headaches are frequent, I have no enthusiasm to do anything at all, either eat too much or to little which in turn makes me gain or loss weight rapidly, there's days where I just wanna sleep on ends and not go to sch at all, my emotions are a mess to say, everytime I finish reading a love story even I cry thinking about my loneliness and most down right painful of all the feeling of wanting to run away far from everything and everyone and yet wanting to stay in bed forever doing nothing but sleep... It's honestly do draining day to day, the feelings so hopelessness and numbness is what I mostly feel now...
You couldn't have described what I go through every single day better. Doesn't help when the people around you say it's your fault you feel that way. Oh well.
Yaaassss! I'm the same way. I actually woke up yesterday and said to myself "another day...another sh*tty day" . My depression has come to define me within my own mind. Like, my whole life is depression, nothing else...if that makes sense. I'm praying that you feel better!
I hear your pain, and I have felt it to that depth as well. I know what it's like. Depending on what's causing it, I can say that higher quality nutritional food is a solid way to help the body do all its jobs, and will give the good bacteria in the intestine what they need to help make neurotransmitters the brain so greatly needs. That's an often overlooked area by doctors.
It's like were twins...hang in there. I will too. Make sure you're getting your vitamins and minerals and water. I know I personally feel even crappier when I forget my vitamins and start eating crap and not drinking water. I just dont want to add to the problem that's already there. But it's so hard sometimes.
"What's the point??.." That's the constant question I asked myself when I was at the worst time of my depression. I literally asked myself this about everything, from taking a shower to going out walking. And in the end I just didn't do anything at all.
And that teacher was a trained psychologist? Teachers are often judgemental assholes. You may have trouble forgetting this, but every time you think about it, end the memory by thinking, "they didn't know what they were talking about".
I have an issue I don’t know how to resolve... I’ve been suffering from depression for a while now. I never complain about anything because I’m afraid I might be annoying. I have this friend i stay with a lot at school, and every time i say even the smallest thing about how I’m feeling bad, she just tells something that somehow would prove she’s in a worse condition than me. I don’t want to stay alone but do I need to get away from her ?
Hey just find a way to spend your time doing literally anything, do anything that gets you even a little active. Play with your dog more often! I was severely depressed and I still battle with it everyday, the struggle isn’t life but just overcoming a fear of failing yourself. Do anything that makes you feel good about yourself as often as you can, and you can afford to spend your extra money on yourself you earned it after all
or that we are drowning, I find I do this more on an unconscious level... as I know how much harm anger and someone lashing out in anger can harm others, so I NEVER intentionally do it.
I, in my core, do not believe its possible for me to get better. I WANT to believe. I DEEPLY do. After 19 years of strongly trying (Mental hospital, working with counselors, studying psyche as a major, and cycling through drug after drug) I just do not see it. Nothing works for long. And due to my 4 mental illness, a number of loved ones have walked out on me. Given up. Death has been calling more stronly these last few years. I am 28 years old. I feel chronically dead inside.
Have you checked out the video from Teal Swan about Depression? It might help. Aside from that I feel you. I dont know that much struggle and given the struggle I know I can just imagine that it must be hell. I would wanna give you a hug right now and give you all my love. I dont even know what more to say...
Hey kids - HappyHappy JoyJoy, just wait till you're old, (began at 48 for me): traitorous body parts fail you, relentless PAIN & misery consume you as tunnel vision blots out all who love you & any that might slow your inexorable fall. HappyHappyJoy! (Yay, 55 but still kicking...ok, well, limping.)
Avery Love I’m 80 . They didn’t know what it was but I have had depression since my father died when I was 10. I’ve still managed to have a good life. There were no antidepressants back then. I have talked to counselors. Most of my success has been by just keeping going . Being a Mother became my motivation and greatest joy. . I have had a good husband too.. Good luck. It’s worth it to keep fighting.
@@seanwood8883 Same, living a hell. Why worry about a religious hell after death, when there is one living? The saddest part is as I had it since young, when many years passed, it is sad how nothing is improving regarding depression.
Seeing people say they’ve suffered from depression for 5+ years just makes me feel so demotivated and upset. I’ve been severely depressed for around 3-4 years and Its unbearable so I really don’t wanna be someone who’s depressed for 13 or more years. Idk how you guys coped
Thank you for making this episode. I have had depression most of my life but it has been more severe the last four years or so and these all are symptoms I have: memory problems, irritability, anger, rumination, guilt, I cannot study nor read like I used to because I have very poor concentration and I immediately forget what I just read or I just cannot understand what I'm trying to read. Thank you, it feels a bit better to know theseb are symptoms of an illness and that I'm not just stupid and/or a jerk.
Same! It is making grad school incredibly hard for me, can't focus at all anymore and it takes me forever to get things done that used to take me only 1/4 the time
I started a channel where I openly talk about my depression issues. I'm doing it for that exact reason. There's a stupid stigma attached to it. Open up about it publicly and people freak out. OMG HES GOING TO DIE NOW! nope, not going anywhere. Just dealing with it in a very public way.
Well wouldnt you say sadness is similar to depression? Obviously sadness and depression aren't the same thing, that's why we have differnt terms for them, but they aren't complete opposites. Sadness is short term, depression is long term. Instead of chastising uninformed individuals, elaborate what you mean when you use8 specific terms. I know it might sound rudimentary but many people associate words with different meanings. I.e people are dumb and dont understand definitions or have the intellectual curiosity to look them up before speaking
@@devilsdabs6663 No, depression is not just sadness that lasts a long time. That is exactly the misconception that we're trying to correct. The physical and mental sensations from depression are far more than just sadness. It's like saying love is just long-lasting lust. Like, no. Not all love is sexual. And lust often does not lead to love. Not all depression is sad. And what depression that is sad involves far more than just sadness. For me, a depressive episode feels like emotional nausea. Nothing feels good, music doesn't sound good, my favorite foods lose their appeal, the hobbies I enjoy feel like chores, things that normally come easily feel like a grinding ordeal. I can't hold onto a train of thought - either each thought is interrupted by another before it's complete or I can't seem to come up with any thoughts at all. Doing anything is awful; doing nothing is unbearable. I lose my ability to feel pleasure, but I don't feel sad. (This is called anhedonia, BTW.)
@@pendlera2959 Change your routine each day. I do the same thing over and over and I think what's happening is I get sick of it. Force yourself to do things you normally wouldn't. Open some doors.. I'm going to try tomorrow.
I specifically have to listen and check to make sure that I close a door and turn off my light. Then I have to remind myself 'you heard the door close' and 'the lights off. You saw it.' as I'm walking away. Otherwise 30 seconds later when I've walked down the steps and am about to leave, I have to double check. Kinda sucks.
I thought I was just stupid for forgetting so much, but now I know it is likely related to my depression. I feel a bit better now that I know the issue.
The weirdest symptom I found of ed's is growing a fine peachy fuzz of hair in weird places. The body starts to go into hibernation mode and growing hair is one of the things in does in preparation to keep the body warm..
Rumination is caused when thee individual gets stuck trying to see outcomes to potential decisions, in an attempt to control thee outcome to prevent Harm or reduce a threat. They are constantly trying to figure out if they are safe and trying to control the fight or flight response.
Soooo true! Try 2 tell yourself just mentally preparing a response 2 a possible negative event so will b prepared if it actually happens. Then realize just obsessing & the heart starts pounding. Absolutely nothing helps once the thot train in hi gear. Been a few weeks on a series of natural supplements 4 depression. Getting less terrified upon waking & realizing it's morning. WANT 2 get better!!! Keep thinking will just snap out of it someday. Want 2 spend time with animals, not people.
It’s interesting, because what I’d really like to know is how often Deja Vu coincides with depression/rumination. I find it extremely disconcerting when I ruminated the exact outcome of a situation days, weeks, even occasionally months in advance.
I honestly think this is one of the reasons that depressed people have been found to be more intelligent cause you have to really think about everything you did and what you would do next and how you would change it etc. Too me that takes a intelligent person to even think in that way but doing it all of the time is the problem. I see no problem although with being aware of yourself and others emotions and you and them to react. This can help avoid awkward situations with yourself in rumination and other people by being aware of yourself and the other person while talking to them.
I learned more about my depression watching this video than I have learned from Psychiatrists in the past 20 years. Thank you so much for sharing this information, it's eye opening!!
Me: *Feels guilty for having all the symptoms associated with depression and has anxiety* Nah I can’t have it my brain if just overreacting and lying to itself I’m not depressed because I’m just faking and it would invalidate anyone actually with it.
I do feel guilty about things but it's a battle when I know they're symptoms of depression and then I feel like I should have control over my life then my parents make it worse because they say why do you lay down all day? Go outside! Let things go! Stop eating! Stop being sad! And they make me feel like I have depression because it's my fault -__-"
Parents are only human, and fallible. If your relationship with them is important to you, keep trying to explain to/correct them of course, but at the same time try not to let what they say get to you too much. Good luck to all of you.
makes so much sense. I struggled so much in math in high school because every time we went over a lesson, I would get upset and frustrated when I couldn’t remember how to work out a problem. It would be so distracting that I couldn’t focus and I put myself down to the point where I wanted to give up. I wish I knew this was a thing so I could have grounded myself better in class.
Pinked I’m currently going through this right now and need help so I don’t fail. :( but I’m to afraid to ask for help and i can’t remember anything I’m taught because I self deprecate 😞
It's good that you recognise where that feeling comes from, but I hope you're learning to recognise where the bad thing was caused by something you did and where it wasn't. You're a sensible person, I think, and sometimes bad things happen that are not your fault, and may not be anyone's fault directly. It helps to know that sometimes :)
+OnlyJesus Saves. Hi. I'm Christian as well. I'm also depressed and deal with panic attacks, anxiety, and dysphoria regularly. Being Christian may be a good thing, but it is not a substitute for therapy, seeing professionals, or taking medication. Not every Christian experiences immediate miracles that "heal you from all illnesses". Depression and other mental illnesses and difficulties are just as real as having a broken leg. Becoming Christian will not make that leg suddenly heal by itself; becoming Christian won't suddenly make the mental illness go away either. I say this not to belittle or "hate" on you, just to inform, because giving people the idea that becoming a Christian will heal them from their mental illnesses can be dangerous.
@@ediebug483 I don't think "OnlyJesus Saves" (the person I was responding to) was joking. I've seen them comment a few times on other mental health videos as well, talking about how following Jesus is the only way to no longer have mental health problems. They missed the joke here, certainly, as they thought the original comment was being serious, but whatever. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Test yourself for candida. This causes 24 hr fatigue, bad depression and anxiety, intolerance to dairy or gluten, hayfever, white coating on tongue, acne, bad breath, skin rashes. Look for the candida spit test on youtube. If you have this, type in candida on youtube and look for pictures of 2 tongues on it. I posted a diet plan i did to kill this fungus, under Eifon Phillips. The causes of candida are: bad stress , eating bad foods like too much sugar, dairy, white starchy foods like rice and pastsa. Also too many antibiotics kill off a lot of good bacteria in the gut adding to the problem. Good bacteria needed for a healthy immune system and keep illnesses away. Merry Christmas!
The way my depression manifests is in a constant feeling of ‘is this it??’ when I think about life. I’m actually in a fairly good place in life, my depression isn’t as bad as it’s been before. But I still have nights where I just sit and wish that there was something more to it all.
People didn’t used to think like this. We are so insanely overstimulated and we are constantly bombarded with other people’s “spectacular” lives. We don’t really appreciate how good we have it, because comparison is the thief of joy. Also we don’t sleep on a regular and healthy schedule and most people don’t eat fruits and vegetables anymore. There’s so much to it and it’s really simple when you boil it down. Simplify your life. Enjoy the little things, slow DOWN. Have some quiet time, with no screens or noise. Accept that it’s okay to be alone with your thoughts. Good, even. Best of luck to you!
Yup, got bad grades in school because I couldn't focus on anything, nor keep information in my head due to spiraling thoughts. Despite that I now have a nice job with an understanding boss.
I haven't been diagnosed with depression, nor have I visited a therapist. But I experience rumination and, honestly, my brain likes it. I seem to have forgotten the experiences which I associate with being traumatic and I am ignoring the current events that are tied to those experiences and I like it. Avoiding feels like a great method. I overanalyze when I said something that I found cringy or when I shared too much, when I laughed about something and I didn't see the face of approval on someone else's face. It's like a protective mechanism to help me avoid awkward situations and to keep relationships with others, but it also makes me a more awkward person in the process. And finally, I don't want to go to a therapist. Besides the issue that I live in a country where even mentioning "mental illnesses" is considered taboo and you'll be considered a loonie, I can't trust a stranger I talk face to face with my deepest secrets. Online is one thing, but having to interact with the person who knows my thought pattern is a no for me.
To be honest, I often forget how bad my depression used to be until I hear stuff like this that sparks my memory and reminds me just how far I've come, but also how much of my life is still controlled by this illness. Anyone else in a similar spot?
Rumination on top of my depersonalization/derealization makes the memory aspect of my life so much worse. I forget how to get places and i forget what im doing all the time
Also, some kind of absense of severity or fear. I had a car accident, i was the only one injured by car glass, everyone was panicing, asking if everyone was alright, i was just like "no" and thinking i was gonna lose all my blood, but somehow i was distubingly calm. It angers me, that i am not who i was anymore, and have reduced will to live and do stuff
Rumination - aka “Over-thinking” - is one of the hardest traits of depression to try to overcome.... The longer we spend over thinking, the more it can damage you and your brains ability to function properly..... To anyone reading this comment, please do not think it is impossible to stop yourself doing this! It is not a quick process, however it is very empowering when achieved! For a long time, I honestly believed that I’d never manage to stop over thinking/dwelling on negative experiences..... However with a strong intention to be the change I so desperately longed for; over the last couple of years, I have been able to pretty much stop doing this completely, and be present in the moment more and more as the months passed... There are still experiences that cause over-thinking to kick in, the difference i have achieved now is not only can I quickly notice I am doing it; I am also able to stop myself doing so, very easily.... Do not give up hope that you can do the same...! 😊💗
Thank you!!! This was so positive and couraging message! I will start working on it harder. Now I know that it is not only my idea that it could work, but that it is possible!!! Thank you for boosting up my trust for healing myself!!! Much love and many beautiful blessings to your life 💕💖💚💕💛💖💜💕💚💖💜💕💖💚💕💜💖💕💖💛💛💚💖💕💛💖💕💕
Jaz Schmaltz - the most helpful thing you can do, when you catch yourself over thinking first of all is to realise you are in that cycle and then force yourself to do something that will use your full attention - something you enjoy, that doesn’t allow you to think while doing it - difficult puzzles, reading a book, playing a difficult game, or maybe learning something new... something else for your brain to focus on. It doesn’t have to be for long, just long enough to break the cycle in your brain. The more you practice doing this, the easier it will be to pull yourself out of the rumination. I found that by doing this, over time the over thinking became less and my enjoyment of doing things increased. Don’t get me wrong, I still get moments of over thinking, but it is now much easier for me to stop the cycle before it really gets going. As for anxiety, if you can see a doctor about anti anxiety medication, it will help remove that from your equation. If taking anti anxiety meds isn’t for you, then try learning to meditate and practice yoga breathing techniques - both can help calm the mind in moments that cause anxiety. I hope this helps.
Another topic I think was missed in this video is addiction. Drugs, sex, and food are also methods used as a coping mechanism. They distract the user, if only for for a moment, from the cyclic thoughts that make them feel depressed and disconnected.
But on second thought yeah, I see why it was left out of this video. As it is on lesser known symptoms of depression, while addiction is a very well known side effect of the disorder.
as a person with chronic major depression... yeah I can back this up. I really hope we can eventually figure out what's going on on a cellular level with depression and anxiety.
Im definitely going to have my mom watch this, ive had depression as early as i think 12, im 18 now, i struggle with memory, irritability, self esteem, self doubt and self hate, getting stuck in thoughts, a lack of energy and lots and lots of guilt. I wish more people would be more forgiving when it come to depression, its hard waking up everyday and not knowing if your brain is going to be nice to you or not, and a lot of the anger come from that as well. Thank you hank, i hope more schools show this to their students and teachers, i never had this in school and now watch these videos on my own to help my own brain understand whats going on.
The memory loss bit is scary as hell. I've got the overwhelming guilt too. I've had terrible memory for a couple years now and it's honestly terrifying. And it makes me look like an idiot in front of new people so I don't make new friends anymore.
You were here to better understand what some people go through, so you can be supportive. We need friends who sympathize. Sometimes it feels like the only thing we have.
And they tell u smile or stop being lazy or u stay inside all the time that is why u feel like this. I don't have any friends left , they don't get it...
I feel you. My mom usually tells me that because I don't do anything I feel depressed, but that as soon as I start doing anything it will magically go away. Sure, cause it's never been real, it's just laziness, right?
Man, learning that depression causes memory loss makes more sense now. It's hard for me to remember so many things. Even if they were recent things. Unless something made me feel strong emotions, I have a hard time remembering it.
Depression is active in both the left and right temporal lateral prefrontal cortex (TLPC) in the brain. The left TLPC is responsible for ruminations, the primary function of depression. The mind perceives a problem and ruminates to solve the perceived problem. The right TLPC is responsible for stopping motor movements, ie lack of motivation. The brain is literally stopping you from doing things so it can sit there and try to solve a problem. All this activity requires energy, ie calories, and people experience both a lack of motivation AND lack of energy as two separate symptoms. All the while, priority processing is given to the problem-solving ruminations and things like short-term memory and quality sleep get bumped. CBT helps by addressing negative core beliefs, unhelpful thinking styles, and unhealthy behaviors to help individuals cope and manage the depression symptoms, however the experience of sadness and depression is very normal and human. SSRI's are typically the first-line meds given for depression, but are just as effective as CBT alone with mild to moderate depression but CBT has a higher long-term effect and zero side effects. However, SSRI's and CBT combined for severe depression is ideal as the meds help decrease the symptoms and allows therapy to be more effective.
It's not Pain, it just "Hurts" sort of generally. I have a pretty good pain threshold so actual pain doesn't bother me, but dysthymia hurts. And dysthymia isn't even the BAD bad kind of depression.
Lol, my front page of youtube recommendations: - The Lesser-Known Symptoms of Depression - How to deal with depression - What's the point of Depression? Thanks UA-cam, im in depression now
When I was a child, helpful 'normal' people told me it was all in my head, as though ignoring it would cause it to go away. Try explaining away the very real symptoms of a full-on anxiety attack. Half a lifetime later, I found that taking some 5-HTP, and some melatonin, has made most of it 'go away'.
What is 5 -HTP? I know you wrote your comment quite a while ago, but I just found this channel/video! I hope I'm not bothering you asking this out of the blue!
I wish someone can actually help me with my depression instead of just saying "you don't have depression" because it just makes me more frustrated and have more ptsd thoughts with anxiety TT_TT
@@joelgurbelleti1010 I seriously want to get help but it's expensive, also the current living condition I'm in makes it hard to do so, I really hope things get better for me.
Perhaps u have a disorder like borderline which can coexist with depression. If a valid professional says u don't have depression what do they say you have? A psychologist or psychiatrist wont just say nope u aren't depressed go away...they'll explain what they see.
So I really was reaching borderline depression 4 years ago. I was 13-14 back then and didn't realize what I was going through. But now that I've grown up and feel much happier and carefree and know how to cope up with things, I realize what I was going through and what I was falling in to. And it's honestly kinda scary to think about what would've happened if i had fully fallen into depression. I didn't take any medication or anything. I just got better as time passed. And a lot of credit for that goes to anime and internet. It kept my mind occupied. I learned things both good and bad. It kept me away from my own negatively and slowly filled me with happiness and positivity. When I mention anime people think it's a joke but it really isn't. I was at the stage where I was having suicidal thoughts but the joke that people call anime was the one that freed me from myself.
@@TheMentalLizard Yes, you can have depression that gets better with time, especially if your circumstances change. Depression can be triggered by grief, sudden extreme life changes, physical diseases (cancer, etc.), being in a situation without much autonomy (like a teenager), and trauma, among other things. Depression has to last (I believe) at least six months to be diagnosable, but beyond that, it's possible for it to resolve on its own. It often doesn't, but it can.
🐺 Anime helped me alot too. Would often pretend that I'm someone else, someone much stronger like a character from a Video Game, movie or anime. It would help me deal with situations that I myself can't Especially at school when I was a teenager. Mostly before I was fully a Christian. I often still do but not as seriously and as deeply now that I have and know that Jesus is Real. Jesus loves you 😇🛐✝️
Memory loss is the most disturbing symptom of my depression. I'm currently in a flare-up I guess you could say, where my depression has gotten really bad the past few months. The number of times I've started to make myself a tea or coffee, and then restarted, because I forgot I ever started.. also talking and completely forgetting what I was talking about - not just forgetting the point of my story, but the actual content... Memory loss can make me feel like I'm going crazy!
I'm 19 in a few months, and I've been having some real issues with remembering information, and recalling conversations/plans I have made with my partner and friends. This explains a lot.
This. This summs it up perfectly for me. I used to have a clear mind back in 5-7 grade , was really optimistic and over all had a positive attitude in life. But now I freking forgot how that feels like and can't think straight anymore. I feel like I am carrying my own coffin inside my head.
Don't forget about that one symptom that literally is a nightmare to those with a lot of deadline; _Feeling really tired_
If I totter off to bed because I'm feeling tired, and I don't sleep, then that is how I know it was probably depression. There is a subtle difference.
@@whatgoesaroundcomesaround7476 yes, and recently it has been nagging me. Good job brain, you are making me dying
i think its more having no or little motivation to do things rather than being actually tired
@@pineapple995 maybe, but for me it's just like felling tired every time, and just wanted to take a nap. Also not feeling up to do anything
I used to sleep 10-12 hours a day before I had to drop out of college, and I'd just lay in bed listlessly for hours too. If that's happening, talk to a counselor, someone, don't close yourself off like I did.
I have anger, guilt, memory loss, lethargy,chronic boredom, etc.
To be honest the sadness is the easiest to deal with.
Ya it is isn’t it? After struggling with it for so many years I’ve become used to it
Sadness is the fun part actually
For some reason my mind always says, "Better angry than sad!"
If I start to get sad about something I'm ready to get angry.
Unfortunately this gets bottled, I leave, and the rumination begins again. lol
Also, anyone else blank on EVERY name EVER?!?!
Sadness make me relieve somehow.
The irritibility and anger is the hardest.
Brain-fog. I've had it before. Not fun. Months feel like weeks and you struggle to remember specific things you did just a week ago.
Like my chef tells me to remind another coworker of somethibg and I forget... I can even write a little note but since I'm not working at a specific place like a desk I forget about the note. So in the end, I'm the one to be blamed and get yelled at
How did u overcome it ??
Yeah, I tried explaining it to my dad and that didn’t go to well
It very much sucks.
I’ve been diagnosed with Bipolar, Mild PTSD, and ADHD.
I do not take medicine for this because ‘since I don’t need it, you don’t need it.’ (As my father said.)
I’ve started to notice that I forget things that I’ve done only seconds or minutes before.
I also started to realize how much it has affect me physically. Such as intense migraines, chest pains, loosing feeling in certain parts.
It’s gotten bad at one point where when I woke up and stood, my legs would stop working and I would be on the ground for about 5-10 minutes. Although, this has stopped and moved towards the tops of my fingers.
Artzi you should really start taking therapy. Dont let people around you decide what do. You can always stop with medicaments, but if you feel that you cant overcome by yourself please ask for help.
My depression include lots of anger against myself and others, crying a lot and being constantly exhausted.
I don't want this anymore.
I'm so sorry - I'm in a similar boat. I'd do anything to have a real cure for this.
Been waiting 8 yrs. for a therapist.
XOXO
Guys I'm not a therapist I'm just a regular guy that feels your pain.
I suffered from depression and my father suffered for about 12 years of his life.
I realized that therapist help massively no question but in the end it's us who has to make the decision and decide if we wanna come out of it.
Meanwhile may be you should try to set Goals or Bigger Goals. Start working towards them one day at a time. As you 'll start to see some success it 'll start slowly fade your depression too I experienced.
Less cell phones and Social media and more being around humans also help.
Accept all the blames think of them throughly and then start to accept and forgive and tell your self okay it's great now it's time to move on. Once you 'll make this your mantra it 'll start to change the inner slowly.
I had a beautiful childhood but I can't go there and be that because life keep moving and time too. So I had to stop trying to bring that time back and realized I need to move on and it 'll bring change and I need to find beauty in this change and in this time. And there Is, always.
You wanted it before? 😂
Want to talk?
Chrissi Kirkland bruuhh I wish depression symptoms were like yugioh cards, I'd trade you my Non-Crying-blue-eyes-white-dragon and you can trade me your Crying-dark-magician
It doesn't help with the guilt when family members are constantly going out of their way to belittle you for not being able to function the same as other people.
Get a good friend with a strong mental picture of you, show them this video, and write up an outline of a defensive argument with them talking you through it. Bring in an external perspective of somebody who is reasonably close to you and is willing to get into the middle of things.
@@retovath easier said then done, I don't have friends
Same bro
Primalxbeast judgement and embarrassment is two of the worst ways to induce trauma if it is continuos over long periods of time. Add in physical abuse, sexual abuse, neglect, isolation, manipulation, intimidation, and thee plethora of other ways to traumatize through abuse and it breeds an overload on thee fight or flight synapses.
My entire life. Number 1 reason why it took years to be diagnosed professionally, and that was 7 months ago!
When you have so many plans for the day but end up just staying in bed again....anyone else?
I feel this. It’s been so hard lately to actually do anything
Julie R just know you’re not alone ❤️. The harder times will pass. Remember to enjoy the little things. I find trying to hype up how amazing nature is can help a bit?
Tori A thank you so much. that actually does help me sometimes. I really love just taking walks and sightseeing, it can be so calming
Ouch, but I'm too deep in so I don't even have plans
Julie R you are most welcome 🥰🥰🥰. And yes! I find just appreciating the here and now to be helpful. We are here for a reason.
Andrew Solomon said, “the opposite of depression isn’t happiness, it’s vitality...” during a Ted Talk. I love that quote
Vitality- the state of being strong, energetic or present
Had to look this up so why not leave it for somebody else
Great quote. Thanks for sharing.
Ok, maybe there is a way to trick oneself into being/becoming vital (strong, energetic and present) again...
Depression/Apathy is like having a broken alternator - your body is practically healthy but you just cant start your engine.
A Rooster Teeth(company) writer said it was Apathy
Yes!
Shout out to the people who can’t even memorize their childhood at this point.
Ray omg yessssss
Is this common in people who have depression? I've only ever heard of it as a red flag for trauma.
I forgot nearly all of my childhood now too
Ngl, I had to ask my mum a timeline of when my great granny, grandad, dad, then my dog all died and what day I started high school and how old I was when x happened, ect. ect. There were also other things which I just completely forgot wholesale even happened.
I barely remember my childhood and I’m not even 20 yet. I don’t remember much from my teens either. Is that a bad sign?
One big symptom I see of depression that people don't realize often times is oversleeping.
Yeah, I spend days sleeping sometimes
Very true
yeah, kind of.
When I was depressed I could stay in bed all day long but I wasn't sleeping.
I was just stuck with my thoughts not wanting to do anything.
Sleep would be nice.
Yes!!!! Amen!!
As someone who deals with depression, the self blame is DEFINITELY a thing.
Depression is weird. Like I can be feeling a certain way and in my head I’m like, “You know this is illogical.” But another part of my brain is like, “No it isn’t. You ARE a failure. Everything IS your fault.” And unfortunately the negative, illogical part wins.
Yea but I think it's possible to learn how to make it so your logical side wins more often. For me, meditation (i. e. Attempting to think about nothing for 1-5 minutes at a time) has turned into a sort of superpower for preventing bad anxiety
I separate the voices. So I have me, then my depression, then my anxiety. My depression sounds like an aggressive version of myself, and my anxiety sounds like a child.
It has taken me 3 years of therapy to become adept at being self compassionate and ignoring the thoughts that hurt. I'm no expert at it though. Just last week I had a major bump (depression sucks), but again the whole guilt thing, sets in "it's your fault you did that" "you'll never be better" but it's having trained your thought processes to also hold you like a friend "it was just a bump" "we'll talk to the councillor about it" "It was just a moment of weakness" "you made it out of it".
It's incredibly difficult to do. But achievable. Especially for a Pisces like me whose emotions dictate everything 😅
@hanzo with a golden frying pan I get that, but I mainly associate it with my anxiety.
I would get the feeling that everyone is staring at me. Just constantly staring. In public they would stare. When I walk the street they would stare (also paranoia that people would run me over for fun)
@@yonmoore I found that mediation did help in one aspect of my mental health. The deep breathing and the calmness helped my anxiety, because once I had control over the fight or flight those thoughts generally faded.
But with my depression if I stopped thinking, it would pop up Like "oh is this space free? Don't mind if I do" and start harassing me. One time I did a meditation where they wanted me to visualise myself, and I was so triggered by it, all I saw was a monster. A frail monster, rotten and black, chained to the depression. It was horrible, I've kind of avoided meditation since tbh.
It's so true!!! I have the same problem but I try to distinct the illogical and logical thoughts and try to stick to the other ones. It's hard but helps me
The number of times in my life I have been introduced to new information about depression and I'm just like "Oh..... well. That makes sense."
I can't stress enough how helpful it is to be able to put a name to your problems. It makes self acceptance a whole lot easier when you can say "okay, that's the depression talking" or "you aren't stupid, you knew what that number was, it was the dyslexia that spat it out of your mouth wrong". It's like you are no longer trying to fix an overwhelming wrongness in yourself, you have something specific, and that makes it just a little bit more manageable
Exactly ! Not identifying what you have is more than frustrating. You don't know if your feelings are "normal" or a real problem. If you are a teenager, you do hear a lot of "it's just a phase" and "it's the hormones" and all. That isn't something to say to a teenager. Imagine that teenager has a real problem like bipolarity or anxiety? The teenager will just live with it, telling himself it's something normal and who knows how worse it will become once adult and independent. People should be more informed and recognise those illnesses >.
I really needed that
I 100% agree. I just wish that people who hate “labels” could see that.
And yet people try to argue "people shouldn't label themselves," and "why do you feel like you need labels?"
Because humans require knowledge to make sense of chaos. It gives us something to understand. Something to point to that's concrete.
Try explaining someone what a fish is without using labels. Don't call it a fish. Don't call it an animal. Don't call it alive. Don't refer to it's fins. Don't refer to it's eyes. Don't refer to it's scales. Don't refer to it's gills. You can't - and even if you manage, you'll be frustrated beyond belief. If a single word can get your idea across... it's stupid not to use it.
This goes for everything. Mental illness, sexuality, etc. Labels are useful tools.
Robin LeeAnn I didn't see this before I replied, but read my other reply here :^) I definitely agree.
Whenever I try to talk to people they’re just like “Oh, everyone’s like that”....
That doesn’t help
Talk to a trained counsellor, either from church, or your medical doctor for reference to get real help. Friends and family become exhausted from dealing with depressed family members and you could be pushing your much-needed support system away. Go to a professional and get the help you need.
Maybe they should tell u how to deal with it,but i think theyre trying to tell u that ur not alone and everyones going throught that
Yuhp. Sadly
Maybe they are depressed as well and don’t know it.
One in four women in the western world is diagnosed with a mental condition of some sort most of which is depression and anxiety. Numbers are high in men too but underdiagnosed/reported due to lack of patient interactions. This is extra true in underprivileged or poor communities. So it's not helpful for sure. But it may very well reflect the reality of your community.
The memory loss portion is so messed up. I've probably been some degree of depressed my whole college career. I barely passed all my classes, barely remembering the information to pass the exams. Now that I'm out and trying to land a job, I feel so incompetent. I feel like my whole time in college was a waste because I can't apply what I was taught because these past 6 years have been a blur. Not just information, but experiences too. My mom sometimes reminisces on a grandiose trip we took and I barely remember it happening if at all. Then, she gives me a look like "why did I even bother, if you aren't able to remember it anyway?". It's really great to be judged by your parents on something you can't control sometimes...
Your mom sounds toxic.
Your mom sounds like mine
My family was like that too. It’s like even when they know I’m depressed they don’t bother to do even minimal research into how it affects me and instead just get mad at me and make me feel guilty for things I can’t control. Makes me so mad at them sometimes
Your parents needs to understand you and your illness a little better. My mother was unaware of my depression until I told her. She did not thought it was a real problem until one day I just started crying over nothing. She was there to comfort me. She doesn't believe a lot in medication or psychotherapy but she is there when I need here.
Your mother love you, every mother does. So I think you need to talk to her, maybe explain her about depression.
I'm graduating from University, my memory loss was horrible for me, I studied medicine (6years), I feel just like you, all is blur. I'm afraid of the things I can't remember. This April I'm going to start working, I'm so scared. My Hope is that if I got through all 6 years of University with depression, maybe I can survive work. I just need to re learn everything again. And I know some information it's somewhere in my brain, it's not gone forever. It's going to be hard, but I know I can do it. Also I'm on antidepressants and psychotherapy, that's why I'm so positive about the future.
I whish you luck! You can do it!
Elizabeth Lauren your mother and I are very dissapointed in you sweaty
Depression for me isn't sad feelings or feelings of being worthless or anything like that. It's not really having any feelings at all. It's unrelenting indifference. Not good, not bad, just meh. All the time. I don't feel good or bad or care about anything; I just exist. It'll drive you mad after a while.
@Katherine Montano You're not worthless though. It's so important for me that you know that. And you shouldn't be ashamed that you exist, it's beautiful that you exist. We all need time to grow and we all make mistakes and it's ok to make your own mistakes, ones that maybe look ridiculous or pathetic for other people, but you need to learn and grow your own way. Infact, you HAVE to. There is no other way for you. As long as you just hold on, just keep trying - it's ok. It's ok to take time. It's ok to repeat mistakes. It's ok to struggle. And I believe that a mind like yours can certainly help other people, bring a lot of value to the world. I just got this impression somehow.
I’m gonna take a shower to relax XD
@Katherine Montano Thank you very much! ^_^
I've never been diagnosed with depression (and am NOT about to self-diagnose myself either) but I feel that on a day to day basis. Sometimes I even try to imagine terrible things like someone pointing a gun to my head or coming home to see my family dead just so I can feel _something_ again. But it rarely works. I'm so sorry you have to deal with something like this.
For me it’s guilt, and this presence of sadness and heaviness that dries my body taking every will power I have. Feeling like time doesn’t move but sits still feeling like a task is forever and feeling the same shitty self every day every week every month and the so on years. And it feels like a high to me sometimes we’re I’m just feeling out of place out of my life really. At one point I did forget what was true happiness I haven’t felt it in a while. The sense of anxiety pushes me to having theses thoughts that just talk and talk and doesn’t shut up telling me to do this and that. It only gets louder and louder pushing myself to do harm. Sometimes it feels great to be in the dark side to feel this depression on me this other part which I dreadfully hate. But there is a happy side now a new beginning I’m feeling fresh . I’m recovering since 2 ish months ago, and I feel great I feel happy in general now.
In an odd way, it makes me feel better to know that some of my issues just stem from my depression instead of just being another thing that's wrong with me.
I know that feeling all too well
As a girl, I don't really know why but everytime I have a big crying episode (where I spend more than 1 hour crying almost uninterrupted) and have belly pain, I tend to tell myself the only reason I'm crying are my hormones and that I'm just going to have my periods. Weirdly enough, it devastates me 😅
@@uMaud I have depression as well and I HATE blaming my emotions on hormones. It feels stupid to me and I would rather blame it on my diagnosed depression lol
🤗 nothing's wrong with you
Me: *clearly shows all the signs of depression*
My parents: Stop being dramatic, what you need is discipline.
Aka karate lessons
Yeah, I’m sick of that line. Just need more willpower. I say something different. Depression isn’t overcome with will power, anyone can summon up some quick will power. Instead, it’s will endurance. And no one has the level of will endurance to keep up 16 hours a day. It will burn anyone out and put them into a daze.
Sad
You know discipline is a good way of improving your depression? Breaking the rumination cycle requires a great deal of it.
Also I knew several kids growing up who bragged about faking their way into a diagnosis though am in no way saying that applies to you but adults know kids do those things too.
@@commonsense9173 First, sadly that’s not the kind of discipline they mean and is what I’m trying by myself. Second, I’m 18 even though they still treat me like a child.
For those of us who grew up in dysfunctional families as the scapegoat, we were programmed with the belief that everything actually was OUR FAULT. So even if we reclaim our sanity as adults and understand this intellectually, it takes a lot of work to rewire the neural pathways, upgrade the software (beliefs - both conscious and unconscious), and figure out how to repair the hardware of our often exhausted physical forms.
As a former manager in a large IT department, I like your analogy.
Yes! :(
So true.
The saddest part is when you know how your brain works and what causes you to think that way but still can't "rewire" your own brain to function properly again.
Preach!
Sometimes I feel like people really underestimate the physical affects of depression. I actually thought I had some sickness for so long because of my tiredness, nausea, dizziness, lack of apetite, headaches, and weight loss..(and more, strange and specific symptoms) I kept visiting the doctor but they could never find anything wrong with me... I knew I had depression but didn't think it had such physical effects.
YES!!! SO MUCH the same...My doctor is sick of seeing my face. "There is nothing wrong with you physically!" He nearly shouts at me. I know. But...I still have all these symptoms and they get me nervous and it is so reassuring to hear that it is "all in my head". Lol 😁 And I can clearly see it as when my mood is better so are my physical symptoms. It is just so hard to belive that mind-body connection is SO strong as it is not universally accepted truth, or at least people are not aware how STRONG the connection really is. Until they have depression/anxiety and all these symptoms show up.
Going through the same for 2 years now, even had to go to hospital 3 days ago, for irregular heartbeats, headaches and extreme dizziness...tests showed nothing again.
Exactly the same here , dizzy, flu like feelings, headaches, brain and face numb almost like my brain had been put into a coma . But yet im in perfect health😳
That’s what happens to me too😕
Same here, my medical exams always came back spotless.
Ok UA-cam, i get it. I'll see a therapist or something.
*_gosh_*
sksksjdh this comment is my favourite thing
Brilliant, you got a chuckle!
Hey can you help me out?
I’ve been dealing with hardships and it destroyed me and my family I’m alone I’m mad sad and I’ve been having some thoughts that I was better off not being here I tried to tell my parents after sleeping for more than 12 hours for 3 weeks I’ve been getting worse is there a online therapist or something my parents aren’t listening they’re ignoring and plus they don’t need any more problems please answer
Mini. Tiger oh.. I'm so sorry.
So, according to my own analyzis:
-Small, but existing sense of worthlessness most of time, which expands into a huge blob every time a minor mistake happens;
-Staying in my bed all day, doing nothing and blaming myself later;
-Sleeping up to 3 hours in the afternoon, not getting things done, and blaming myself again.
-Memory loss, which is by far the worst, as I often have problems remembering who I used to be, what I did last week, how to structure sentences, and doing maths (Which was the subject I was best at).
-Problems with conversations. I don't know how to properly prolong them, and have a constant fear of talking, which led to me not making many new friends. This gets even worse, as I had a HUGE group of trustful friends before, and all of them say I was a pretty cool guy, even if a little impatient and hot-headed.
-Problems with completing even the simplest of tasks (Can't take a pill without dropping it on the floor first, picking it up, noticing I forgot my water, looking for it in the whole house only to realize that it's obviously in the fridge...)
-Daydreaming constantly about the adventures and success I want to have, thus not concentrating on what I need to do in order to achieve that.
-Compulsive gaming with friends, and getting sad if they aren't online.
-Constant insecurity and overchecking of facts, to "make sure it is correct"
Damn... I think I might have developed very serious depression and social anxiety in the last four years... now the hard part is looking my dad in the eye and saying "I'm depressed, I want help"...
That sounds like me too
@@mjlim6610 Pretty sad... hope we both get out of this shithole...
damn that sounds like me as well. i really want to get professional help but mental care where i'm from is close to non-existence and mental illnesses are still stigmatized as being "crazy" and "the crazies need to be put in the asylum". hope we all can get good help soon and get better
Same here but I don't have a family to talk to about it because they don't believe in mental illness and think it is all fake for attention or something. :/
um cara qualquer reading this now, something of it sounds like what I do for the majority of my time. Daydreaming, constantly gaming and become sad when my online friends don’t get on. I can barely remember the classes from last week. I feel like I’m too dependent on my online friends to get me away from my thoughts when I’m by myself. I just run stuff through my head that I’ve messed up my life. Especially my past two years in college. But at the same time, a part of me just believes I might be wrong, that I’m just overthinking things but I just don’t know.
oh i knew my memory loss was somehow related to depression, i forget things a lot esp details, it sucks
I'd wondered why I was struggling to recall things, I'd chocked it up to something else - but this may likely be the cause (or some part of it). It was rather galling trying to talk about it to someone, and for them to tell me I just didn't care enough to remember things, despite talking about how I struggled to recall (distant) family or people I used to be friends with. It's not complete loss of memory, I just struggle or fail to remember fine details. Dates and names in particular.
ShirouAtsuya yeah, I really hate it. My memory has been completely shot. It makes my struggle even worse.
Idk if this makes sense but I always forget the names of my classmates even though we've known each other since last year and I forget what things are called, recently my mind went blank trying to recall the name "construction paper" even though I was staring at it
Yeah, I'd been dealing with difficulty recalling names for a while, from college on into professional life - I still don't know the names of most of the people at work (and it's not a very large company).
I've just found ways to cope, talking to people in a way that doesn't require addressing them by name but (hopefully) doesn't lead them to asking I know their name - god help me if I had to talk to some VIP at work, I wouldn't be able to address them properly in any formal setting. I've tried various techniques that are supposed to help you remember names, but I find I really only remember the names of people who I work closely with on a daily basis (I also kept looking their names up in their e-mails for the first few weeks. I'd forgotten my bosses name on the first day).
Not remembering the names of things can be very frustrating too - I'd honestly thought it was just me having a brain fart.
People aren't very understanding if you tell them you have trouble remembering names either. They're usually very offended if they think you should know more than you can remember about them because they'd told you once before.
Yup I forget words mid sentence and its awkward
"Hopefully we all know by now that depression is about more than sadness." If only.
"Why don't you try smiling more." -Everyone.
"Just don't"
Forgive me, but fellow depressed people that say "well you're not sad all the time, so you don't have REAL depression" is equally as toxic as "there are people who have it worse" people.
Depression is not a god damn dickmeasuring contest. Depression is depression, end of.
+Shitpost Absolutely! And you can be made to feel guilty for having a laugh about something. As though every single second of your life should be complete misery if you have depression.
I was told by a "Healthcare Professional" once, "I can tell you're not depressed because you smiled when you said hello". My internal response was "Well effing pardon me, you hatchet faced cow, for being effing polite" while my external response was ,"Oh".
Jesus loves you, repent from your sins, and follow Jesus, He is the only one who can heal your soul.
The trick is getting the people around you to acknowledge that your issues are real and not something you're making up to get attention or excuse bad behavior.
This is a situation where a trained psychiatrist or counselor is helpful. They will always treat the concerns of their patients as real and look for ways to assist in treating either the cause (when possible) or the symptoms (when the above is not possible for some reason). If you do feel like you have depression, or even just a handful of symptoms, and your family or friends brush you off, find someone who will listen to you and help you.
@@WardOfSouls I'm thankfully in a decent situation with my immediate family and close friends, and on appropriate medications. But I've run into a large number of people who are extremely vocal in their belief that Any mental disorder that doesn't render you completely incapable of interaction with normal society essentially does not exist, and is just a result of our liberalized culture coming up with excuses for people's bad behavior. And unfortunately convincing these people with evidence from professional scientists and/or psychiatric experts just gets responses that they're "in on it".
Axioanarchist Caring a lot about what people think is pretty useless and not a trick imo
gl with that.
@@WardOfSouls not all psychiatrists haha. My first one told me it was likely my fault for getting bullied, subconsciously giving others the signal I was weak and defenseless. Oh but she precluded it with "don't take this the wrong way" so I guess it's okay /s
When you sleep there is no rumination and no self blame/guilt.
Watching videos also does the trick but not as effective
Yeah learned the trick with videos from a friend when my anxiety was through the roof!
Whenever this nonstopable Cycle of self-loathing rumination starts i actually take extra dose of my sleeping pills prescribed for me because my chronic pain prevent me from sleeping at all so i take those to force myself sleeping because when i am asleep it’s the only way/period of time where my brain stop thinking nothing else work...
@@lsbfilmproductions not sleeping still sucks tho because even after you sleep for 10+ hours you still feel so exhausted afterwards
yeah, that’s kinda what happened with tiktok for me
And if it comes with severe insomnia instead - that just sux.
Me: has all of the symptoms listed
Also me: Nah I can't have depression. Maybe I'm faking it :)
this is exactly what I was thinking
Omg same
me me me me literally me
Please go see a psychiatrist to be diagnosed if you feel like you could have it
True af
One thing that happens to me is the following: I get lost in the past with an overwhelming feeling of nostalgia and I find myself reliving pivotal moments of my past and imagining acting differently than what I did at that moment.
It is so strong that is almost like I lose perception of the present and my surroundings, like having a "vision" of sorts.
Does anybody else experience this?
Same...usually they were quite humiliating experiences where i either punish myself with it or i act differently and am no longer humiliated
I moved from city A to city B when I was 8yo. The next year my parents divorced and they both became selfish people. For me I remember two events in city A. One was almost being the fastest kid in class when I was in second grade. I was just running faster and within feet of beating the fastest kid. Then we moved. The other one is playing football in the streets with my older brother's friends. I was pretty good for my age but one time the quarterback kept asking me "Can you catch it?" and I assured him I could but just when he was about to throw it the sun got in my eyes and I dropped the ball. I don't know why that memory keeps coming back to me. Even today, in bed most of the day and lacking motivation and decades later, I sort of yelled out, "I didn't mean to drop the ball!" It's funny that this video popped up and I saw your comment because I often feel nostalgia about City A. City A is like what could've been. I've even gone back to that first house I lived in a few times and now and then go to google maps to take a look. I was happy then. Yet, those two disappointing events come up a lot in my mind when I reminisce - sometimes I relive it so I'm successful. That all said, I'm getting better little by little at not thinking about the past so much. I'm aware, for example, that if my parents divorced in city A etc. city A would not have been so nostalgic for me today. It's not good to live in the past but it's so hard to look only ahead when one's life feels static like mine.
Everyday
Hell yes. Especially at night when in bed n trying to kip. Aint helpful but its great to ground yourself at such moments with mindfullness or try bringing your attention to your surroundings through touch, visual inspection etc
What exactly do you mean. Like in your mind?
Thank you for bringing up the cognitive function aspect of depression. That was one of the major symptoms that I dealt with - on bad days I couldn't make plans, get a clear view on the study project I was doing, keep a conversation going without losing track of it halfway, or have creative ideas. (Sucks when you're studying product design). And I never really linked that to depression until I saw a therapist. I just felt like I was getting more and more stupid and more and more of a failure.
I'm much better now, but it's still incredibly cool to have this part of depression acknowledged on your platform. I think it would have made past-me feel a little less stupid and I'm sure it accomplishes the same for other people dealing with depression right now. So I want to thank you again :) DFTBA
I'm glad you're better now. I spoke with a therapist once who told me "depression can be a little like having dementia." Repetitive thinking keeps you distracted, food doesn't taste right, isolation causes oxytocin reduction, reasoning starts to seem difficult, and listening may be impossible in some otherwise very normal situations. Depression is a vicious cycle that always leads back to itself. It's a LOT of chemical reactions in your brain that we don't quite understand.
Trying to read or study with depression or adhd or both is basically impossible.
My eyes physically focus out and I don't at all remember what I read, that I re-read another 5 times and still don't get it.
I'd even say that children heavily struggling with a subject or all of school should be checked. Depression actually can make you stupid when you have it. All energies are given to depression to cause self-hatred, feelings of worthlessness, drain your body and brain of all energy. Then you are angry sad and hopeless. Emotions actually take a lot of energy, even joy. There is a huge reason that we are mostly neutral to content all the time.
Oh hey.. maybe I'm actually good at math now that my depression is gone..
Nope.. still suck
Theoctopus Thoughts -- I wish it worked that way, but alas...
@@maxcovfefe
It kinda does tho.
Because without the cloud of depression your ability to focus is enhanced... or just returned back to what's normal for you.
With depression I couldn't even read 1 page of a book before I was exhausted and had to sleep, or the pages would get blurry and words jumbled up.
Without depression I can read a book in one sitting.
And because my mind is less cluttered I also remember more of what I read.
But yeah, math is one of those things where you do need a bit of talent to get good at....
Yo I have really bad memory loss I'm over here feeling like I have dementia when I'm only 20.
Relatable. I thought I was coming with dementia too
My memory is so bad my mom was telling me to get her something that I apparently had but I had no memory of what she was talking about no matter how hard I thought about it and it made me so sad cause i was clueless but my mom remember.
So glad I am not the only one
I'm 27 and my memory is so bad it's scary. Like the past 6 years to me have been a big blurr. I hope my memory comes back to me.
I feel you. I’m only 17 and I’m already forgetting so much. Everything is so foggy and I hate it.
Rumination, I think, is the worst symptom. As an undiagnosed child with serious depression, I ruminated to the point where I was uncommunicative, and it made people think I was autistic, seriously autistic. As far as memory is concerned, I feel like 21 years of that 'burned' and scarred my brain, I'm quick to recognize things but forget them almost as quickly as someone going into senility. Get your kids checked, people.
So now you have difficulties remembering things?
What if I'm too depressed to get my kids checked? The cycle continues.
Jesus loves you.
I have very similar memory issues as you do, just probably not as severe. I hope you're doing well now.
@@filipemartins1850 Didn't god drown everyone in a flood? I don't see any love there
The cognitive problems are the worst. Total inability to problem solve, to organise thoughts, to plan ahead, all the higher order cognitive functions.
Being unable to put together an outfit in order to get dressed. Being unable to look in the fridge or pantry and figure out what to cook for dinner, let alone actually cook it.
Just a couple of very basic self care things that I am totally incapable of when I'm really unwell.
I think I've experienced this on a very low level. The thing is, I'm also lazy. And I struggle with telling the difference between what you're describing and laziness. Whenever I have to do a task that requires more cognitive effort I just really, really, really don't want to do it.
I can relate to this. I've been stuck in this cycle for the last few months and I've found myself falling further and further into this pit. I used to be the person who could plan my life down to the smallest detail, do everything like a superwoman. Cooking, chores, work, as well as caring for my family. Suddenly, my life fell apart and I went with it. Now I'm lucky if I have the mental energy to take care of myself (showers, eating, trimming my nails, etc) on the regular... It's actually disgraceful to me but I can't help myself. I ended up going into the hospital and I have a therapist now but I'm still not okay. I hope you get to a better place soon. It's hard. It's really really hard.
@@rachellee5797 It's like swimming against the current - whenever you think you're already there and cease the effort, it keeps dragging you back. Fortunately, I noticed I get further every time and don't get dragged as far back as I used to, so on the whole, there is a progress. What helps most, though, is realising what is going on with me - sometimes it takes a while but generally, as soon as I realise the symptoms, I start viewing things from a more correct perspective and feel better. This video, as well as the comments, is very enlightening and I hope it will help me in the future battles. Keeping my fingers crossed for you that you find some good coping mechanisms, too.
@@essennagerry man the same problem. How do you handle it? The thing is I want to become more of a cognitive work guy, want to study programming but I am just sooo lazy at new cognitive tasks, it is like I do not want to think. I think it is some kind of a habit actually
I'm a good student but I can never make decisions like what to eat, what to wear, what homework should I do first. I feel stupid for being smart but indecisive it makes you feel more stupid than the smart guy you are.
The part about episodic memory loss is really interesting. I always thought my memory loss was separate from my depression.
It just makes doubt myself even more 🤨
It’s apparently because depression actually eats away grey matter in your brain as the years go on. I’m not really looking forward to when I’m an old person, if we’re all around by then.
@@haileyt857 wow really? I did not know that. That is frightening.
Same.. I forgot all my friends names, teachers, neighbors. It was really scary
@@haileyt857 That's ok. I'd have long since killed myself before that's ever an issue!
Shame= "I am bad"
Guilt= "I did something bad"
@@burntupretardporn the same
But why does it feel so good
Best thing I had
And id do it over and over and over again if I could
It just felt so.....good
I'm a shame boyyyyyyy 😎
Guilt? 🚫😑✋🏻
@@burntupretardporn I feel that
B o t h
They found 20 people that weren't depressed, that must have taken a while
Especially in this day and age.
So true..
This made me laugh aloud.
They were probably lying
have you ever heard of normies.
Not to mention physical symptoms, like aches and feeling cold
stomach ache when nervous
Sometimes I feel physically weak. Like that my legs cannot hold me up anymore.
Dion Redinant wait.. that's not a normal thing that everybody feels?
@@ILiveForTheSummers if thats happen too often. It's not really normal..
Dion Redinant oh..
"So they just feel guilty about everything"....oh, so you know, just like how my parents raised me
Jesus loves you, repent from your sins, and follow him, Jesus is the only one who can heal your soul, thank you.
I relate so much.
thats exactly what i was thinking when he said that lol
@@filipemartins1850 God is dead and we killed him.
Tell yourself this and exercise the thought: "I wasn't to blame." Although we might have a propensity towards certain kinds of behaviour resulting from certain kinds of thought patterns, our behaviour is mostly formed and learned by our environment. As suggested in the video, you need to get help from a cognitive behavioural therapist to cope with such guilt.
I find that the most apparent symptom of my depression is literally just being tired and wanting to sleep, though i tend to stay up late.
me i can't sleep
Tough to get out of it when you don’t want to feel better
You just want to sleep and never wake up
True
I don’t deserve to feel better.
I can relate.
Hard to justify working to enjoy life when you have no recollection of joy.
Sometimes the only alternative to apathy seems to be depression. So when I lack emotions I intentionally at least try to feel sad.
@@rosacellulosa4460 Often depression isn't feeling sad. It's not feeling at all.
We can add maladaptive daydreaming to this list
What is that?
@@kaylahall1219 It's where someone's fantasy/daydreaming habits are so pervasive that it interferes with normal daily functioning, causes people to isolate themselves and generally not participate in healthy, mindful living. Jung would describe it as 'auto-erotic' but it's not necessarily about sexual fantasy. It's quite destructive.
@@orangesandsalt2161 Healthy, mindful living? What's that supposed to be? Does such thing even exists? Also, what's normal daily functioning is supposed to mean? For your information, for some, "fantasy/daydreaming habits" are "normal daily functioning" so it can't possibly interfere with itself. It's illogical. "It's quite destructive." Also, for your knowing, everything is, whatever you do. Living itself is destructive by nature, towards itself and everything else.
@@SuperVladdrakula I'm not talking about normal "fantasy/daydreaming" habits. Everyone does this and it can be healthy part the creative imagination. The clue is in the word 'maladaptive'. This is a where the person actively avoids participating in their work and social lives to the detriment of both. It's where solitude turns to isolation and where no experiences are felt in the body and in real life but only in the world of fantasy. Many people suffering from trauma, especially sexual abuse at a young age, turn to this MD as a coping mechanism. It can mess with your memory, exacerbate anxiety and ultimately become an addictive behaviour. Just because this is not your experience, doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Therapy, grounding meditation, etc can all help.
@@orangesandsalt2161 "The clue is in the word 'maladaptive'." Oh, "maladaptive", yeah, sure. "Maladaptive" is subjective. What's to say something is "maladaptive" if the "victim" is not hurt by it or feels any detriment from it at all? "Victim" can be more hurt by your "social life" than "maladaptive daydreaming". Daydreaming can not hurt you. "This is a where the person actively avoids participating in their work and social lives to the detriment of both." You do realise that a person may not have "work" or "social life"? "It's where solitude turns to isolation and where no experiences are felt in the body and in real life but only in the world of fantasy." Yeah, of course, you, for some reason, should want to feel "experiences" in the body. Why exactly? Better isolation than destruction. Fantasy, at least, can't hurt or kill you. Or do anything bad to you at all. "Just because this is not your experience, doesn't mean it doesn't exist." This line should be directed to you. I know all of this far too well. Daydreaming can't be "maladaptive". It's so-called "social life" can be downright lethal. And usually is.
If you tend to ruminate like I do, one thing I've found to help is to treat your situation as if you were advising your best friend. Help your "friend" look at their problem from a different, more hopeful angle.
It's easier for some people to be nice to others than it is to treat themselves well
So true. Oddly enough, it can sometimes take a lot of work to learn how to treat yourself with the same kindness that you'd treat someone else.
I remember thinking "I need to be a better friend to myself." It's easy to be harsh on myself. Its hard but I'm working on it.
Flibber Nodgets true. I find it so much easier to insult myself than to insult others no matter how much I dislike them.
I tell this to people all the time. "What would you say if your friend just told you what you told me?"
Jesus loves you, repent from your sins and follow Jesus, He is the only one who can heal your soul, thank you.
You mean, there are people who've never been depressed?!
Yep, there are countries in the world where depression is actually pretty rare.
Like that place with the guy named Wangchuck and he has this gross domestic thing about happiness. I'm not saying that the people there have never been depressed but there's a chance that someone there haven't.
Human Dog
That’s bhutan. Yes, it’s true from what my parents told be as they were born and raised there.
Welcome to the U.S.A the land of depression
@@Cat212 welcome to the UK where teens either mug each other, kill each other and most do drugs in the school toilet.
This couldn't come at a better time for me - my depression has been getting worse but today a talk with my therapist and this video makes me feel that I'm not going mad, and that I can work to get better. It might take a while, but I'm not giving up on me now!
I have had all of these symptoms, but through a lot of therapy and the use of of a SSRI the depression has greatly lessoned. I rarely ruminate, and am much less angry. I am telling you this to let you know that there is hope, and if you stay steady with the therapy and work hard at it, you can break depressions power on you and you can control it.
Thank you, that was so uplifting to hear! I've also been put on SSRI's, and I think they've been helping. It's good to hear that I'm not alone in this, and I wish you the best of luck on your journey!
Don't answer if this question is offensive. How self reliant are you? Like: Do you grow or harvest your own food & water. Can you build, maintain, & fix your form of housing? Are these the focus of your education?
These are codependencies most people have (I had) that are the major reasons people don't see value in the world, & see no purpose in life. Except, Instead they value the dollar & being an employee of someone else to afford those codependencies, or social reliance. I've recently found value do to gaining more self reliance, it might help others as well..?
I am not self reliant in the way that you are defining it: as a minor I am still reliant on my parents for food and housing, and as I am still in full time education I can do little to move away or change that (not that I particularly want to). For me, allowing myself to rely on other people is something I struggle with, as I already tend to be quite introspected with my emotions, so I don't think becoming more isolated would help for me. If you feel that it has helped you though, that is great! I see nothing wrong with anyone living the way they wish as long as they are happy, healthy and causing no harm to others :-)
It gets better. Believe me it gets better. Make sure you reach out for help in any and all places (you probably got an advert before this for betterhelp - I know I did. Use it or another resource). Reach out to friends and family for support, or coworkers, or anyone that you know if you feel like you can. If you don't have free counselling where you live then look for subsidised schemes. This all takes effort, and some days will be bad days no matter how hard you try, but bad days are better than no days. Keep going.
One thing no one told me was a symptom of severe depression was intense chest pain. Around the peak of my depression, my chest would constantly feel like I had an elephant on top of me. I went to get a chest x ray and everything looked normal. Once I got on my antidepressants, the pain went away. The reason I was having the pain was because the constant distress my body was going through was making my chest plate contract tighter and tighter, and once the stress eased, so did my pain. I wish a doctor told me about it.
Elizabeth Johnson Did it kinda feel like what you’d imagine a heart attack to feel like? I’m 15 and been feeling this and I know for a fact I am very depressed.
@@crackuhsnackuh a little bit, yeah. It was just insane pressure that would get so bad I struggled to breathe, sending me into a panic attack. It felt like a was being crushed by a boulder.
If you have pain, talk to your doctor and ask if that could be related. You could also just be dealing with panic attacks and/or anxiety attacks which can feel like a heart attack, which will definitely be helped with medication.
When my depression gets bad I get pain in my abdomen instead of my chest.
Elizabeth Johnson I'm so glad to hear that someone else has had a similar experience. I've been so worried it might be something like the start of a heart attack, especially when the heart pangs get worse
@@mrtutus23able I would check with your doctor anyway to make sure it's just that. The best thing to do for pain is to reduce stress if possible, get on antidepressants and ask about specialized anti-inflammatories.
To anyone dealing with depression right now : I'm proud you find the strength to fight
Have a very good day today ❤
You are warriors
that made me tear up... thank you :)
Thank you Nemu,blessings
Nemu Kant I am suffering with depression and I am definitely not a warrior. But thanks for trying to say something nice
@@depressoespresso3931 hey you are a warrior,you need to find the lion within you 😊,remember anything is possible,i wish you the best because why not you deserve it
eu euu thank you so much I hope you have a great day/night
what I rarely see people mention (but was kind of said in this video) is how depressive episodes can affect your cognitive functions. when I'm in the days leading up to a panic attack it's very hard for me to process most information, I can't answer simple questions because I simply cannot get a hold of my thoughts. it's very frustrating and exhausting. a part of depressive episodes feels like mental regression, like I'm a baby that cannot control how it responds to stimuli, which also falls under "irritability"
depression, anxiety and trauma overall suck
Sad (all the time) ✔
Negetive thoughts ✔
Self Blaming ✔
Crying ✔
Stuck in my thoughts for hours ✔
No motivation to do anything ✔
Oversleeping ✔
Thoughts to end my life ✔
I deal with this everyday and even if i try to tell someone about this they all laugh and think that i am just wierd 😔😔
That was a heartbreaking comment you posted Sonali. I really feel for you.
May God be with you and show you His wonderful kindness and grace.
May the love of His Son Jesus surround you and embrace you warmly. You are deeply loved. Please take care.
Find some new friends now
Hang I. There buddy, I’m going through the same thing and just know that if you talk about this with a loved one, they’ll actually listen and help you get the help you need, even if they know nothing about what’s happening, they can still help you on the road to happiness
Hey, hope you are doing much better now😊
I am in the same boat. Being old now I have painfully learned not to share whatever depression I have with others, especially my wife. Good way to end a marriage and lose friends. They can not and should not have to understand what we are going through.
Couple things, 1) I am confused about what these religious hypocrites are doing responding to many of these comments. 2) Try some good quality magnesium. It takes away my pain, though I still have the thoughts. Get the digestible kind. I take 3 every night and I was able to get off the meds.
Keep at it.
Me: I might be depressed, I have a lot of symptoms and feel like I could be
Other me: Nah.. I’m just faking it.
Me: But..
Other me: BUT SHUT UP I’M NOT DEPRESSED
And it’s like that a lot of time in my head.. Am I the only one or can someone relate?
i feel like that a lot. ive told my sibling about it but they just told me that i shouldnt self diagnosed and they just laughed it off.
I can relate. I keep on telling myself my “symptoms” are just me exaggerating my tiny, unrelated issues, and that I’m not depressed. One half of me actually hopes I’m for real depressed so I could seek help and return to normal, whatever that is, but the other half is screaming that I’m just selfish and want attention.
I've tried to explain that to people and they don't get it I guess because they haven't experienced it.
@@Silver-jd6xi woah ive never related to something so much. ive experienced this before, and i recommend you actually go seek professional help because if you dont, the feeling will forever linger within you.
Yessss something would blame my anxiety or just tell myself I'm just being lazy or tired.
Quite frankly having depression for years on end now has take a toll on me, I feel really fatigue most of the time even though I get at least 8 hours of sleep, concentrating on classes or reading is another thing cuz my mind wonders to other things or just simply daydreams, my joints hurt, headaches are frequent, I have no enthusiasm to do anything at all, either eat too much or to little which in turn makes me gain or loss weight rapidly, there's days where I just wanna sleep on ends and not go to sch at all, my emotions are a mess to say, everytime I finish reading a love story even I cry thinking about my loneliness and most down right painful of all the feeling of wanting to run away far from everything and everyone and yet wanting to stay in bed forever doing nothing but sleep... It's honestly do draining day to day, the feelings so hopelessness and numbness is what I mostly feel now...
You couldn't have described what I go through every single day better. Doesn't help when the people around you say it's your fault you feel that way. Oh well.
Yaaassss! I'm the same way. I actually woke up yesterday and said to myself "another day...another sh*tty day" . My depression has come to define me within my own mind. Like, my whole life is depression, nothing else...if that makes sense. I'm praying that you feel better!
Raven Quinn my bed has become my home
I hear your pain, and I have felt it to that depth as well. I know what it's like. Depending on what's causing it, I can say that higher quality nutritional food is a solid way to help the body do all its jobs, and will give the good bacteria in the intestine what they need to help make neurotransmitters the brain so greatly needs. That's an often overlooked area by doctors.
It's like were twins...hang in there. I will too. Make sure you're getting your vitamins and minerals and water. I know I personally feel even crappier when I forget my vitamins and start eating crap and not drinking water. I just dont want to add to the problem that's already there. But it's so hard sometimes.
"What's the point??.." That's the constant question I asked myself when I was at the worst time of my depression. I literally asked myself this about everything, from taking a shower to going out walking. And in the end I just didn't do anything at all.
Smh i had a teacher tell me straight to my face. *depression isnt real. Get over it*
Why do they let stupid people be teachers...
They probably meant for teenagers
Fox teenagers can be depressed also though so the teacher is still wrong 🤷🏻♀️
@@milkyoni You can get the onset of depression, anxiety and other mental illnesses from being a young child -- I know I did.
And that teacher was a trained psychologist? Teachers are often judgemental assholes. You may have trouble forgetting this, but every time you think about it, end the memory by thinking, "they didn't know what they were talking about".
Also stay away from toxic people who make depression worse like how stress might give you high blood pressure or sugar makes diabetes worse.
Especially people who tell depressed people to “just get over it” ugh
Can't stay away from them if you have no choice but to live with them since you don't make enough money to move out. :/
Pretty hard when you live with those toxic people.
I have an issue I don’t know how to resolve...
I’ve been suffering from depression for a while now. I never complain about anything because I’m afraid I might be annoying. I have this friend i stay with a lot at school, and every time i say even the smallest thing about how I’m feeling bad, she just tells something that somehow would prove she’s in a worse condition than me. I don’t want to stay alone but do I need to get away from her ?
@@_blank-_ even family can be toxic
And now I'm depressed about my depression.
r/2meirl2meirl
Sigh...
Take good care
Same
Hey just find a way to spend your time doing literally anything, do anything that gets you even a little active. Play with your dog more often! I was severely depressed and I still battle with it everyday, the struggle isn’t life but just overcoming a fear of failing yourself. Do anything that makes you feel good about yourself as often as you can, and you can afford to spend your extra money on yourself you earned it after all
Honestly, I never considered that my anger could stem from depression. I just thought I was a horrible person.
People use anger as a default to hide that they are crying inside.
or that we are drowning, I find I do this more on an unconscious level... as I know how much harm anger and someone lashing out in anger can harm others, so I NEVER intentionally do it.
You just gave me a clarifying moment with that statement. Thank you, I think understand more now.
I sure do!
I, in my core, do not believe its possible for me to get better. I WANT to believe. I DEEPLY do.
After 19 years of strongly trying (Mental hospital, working with counselors, studying psyche as a major, and cycling through drug after drug) I just do not see it. Nothing works for long. And due to my 4 mental illness, a number of loved ones have walked out on me. Given up.
Death has been calling more stronly these last few years. I am 28 years old.
I feel chronically dead inside.
This but 25 years. Been suicidal since I was 2.
@@TheMentalLizard Whoa.....
Now that's a level of darkness I do not know. I am deeply sorry mate. *squeezes your hand* Thank you for being here
Have you checked out the video from Teal Swan about Depression? It might help.
Aside from that I feel you. I dont know that much struggle and given the struggle I know I can just imagine that it must be hell. I would wanna give you a hug right now and give you all my love. I dont even know what more to say...
Try microdosing magic mushrooms.... emphasis on the micro.
Hey kids - HappyHappy JoyJoy, just wait till you're old, (began at 48 for me): traitorous body parts fail you, relentless PAIN & misery consume you as tunnel vision blots out all who love you & any that might slow your inexorable fall. HappyHappyJoy! (Yay, 55 but still kicking...ok, well, limping.)
Being tired. And uncontrollable thoughts, going in circles.
Damn I've been depressed since I was 11 or 12 and I'm almost 25 I didn't realize how deeply it affected my thoughts and daily life
Avery Love I’m 80 . They didn’t know what it was but I have had depression since my father died when I was 10. I’ve still managed to have a good life. There were no antidepressants back then. I have talked to counselors. Most of my success has been by just keeping going . Being a Mother became my motivation and greatest joy. . I have had a good husband too.. Good luck. It’s worth it to keep fighting.
Thank you Nancy
I'm 42 and I'm in a living hell trust me
@@seanwood8883 Same, living a hell. Why worry about a religious hell after death, when there is one living? The saddest part is as I had it since young, when many years passed, it is sad how nothing is improving regarding depression.
Seeing people say they’ve suffered from depression for 5+ years just makes me feel so demotivated and upset. I’ve been severely depressed for around 3-4 years and Its unbearable so I really don’t wanna be someone who’s depressed for 13 or more years. Idk how you guys coped
Thank you for making this episode. I have had depression most of my life but it has been more severe the last four years or so and these all are symptoms I have: memory problems, irritability, anger, rumination, guilt, I cannot study nor read like I used to because I have very poor concentration and I immediately forget what I just read or I just cannot understand what I'm trying to read.
Thank you, it feels a bit better to know theseb are symptoms of an illness and that I'm not just stupid and/or a jerk.
Same! It is making grad school incredibly hard for me, can't focus at all anymore and it takes me forever to get things done that used to take me only 1/4 the time
Many people still believe sadness IS depression:/ Bump the mental health stigma
I started a channel where I openly talk about my depression issues. I'm doing it for that exact reason. There's a stupid stigma attached to it. Open up about it publicly and people freak out. OMG HES GOING TO DIE NOW!
nope, not going anywhere. Just dealing with it in a very public way.
Well wouldnt you say sadness is similar to depression? Obviously sadness and depression aren't the same thing, that's why we have differnt terms for them, but they aren't complete opposites. Sadness is short term, depression is long term. Instead of chastising uninformed individuals, elaborate what you mean when you use8 specific terms. I know it might sound rudimentary but many people associate words with different meanings. I.e people are dumb and dont understand definitions or have the intellectual curiosity to look them up before speaking
@@devilsdabs6663 No, depression is not just sadness that lasts a long time. That is exactly the misconception that we're trying to correct. The physical and mental sensations from depression are far more than just sadness. It's like saying love is just long-lasting lust. Like, no. Not all love is sexual. And lust often does not lead to love. Not all depression is sad. And what depression that is sad involves far more than just sadness.
For me, a depressive episode feels like emotional nausea. Nothing feels good, music doesn't sound good, my favorite foods lose their appeal, the hobbies I enjoy feel like chores, things that normally come easily feel like a grinding ordeal. I can't hold onto a train of thought - either each thought is interrupted by another before it's complete or I can't seem to come up with any thoughts at all. Doing anything is awful; doing nothing is unbearable. I lose my ability to feel pleasure, but I don't feel sad. (This is called anhedonia, BTW.)
@@pendlera2959 omg yes this is such a reality for me everyday and it is so hard for other people to understand. I can't just switch it off.
@@pendlera2959 Change your routine each day. I do the same thing over and over and I think what's happening is I get sick of it. Force yourself to do things you normally wouldn't. Open some doors.. I'm going to try tomorrow.
Memory is an issue for me. I find it hard to remember what I did last week or even a few days to a day before.
I can't even remember what homework I had until my classmates mention it to me the day after
@@hakuro8618 wow! You can do homework? Lol. Wish I could function that way
@@kaylahall1219 and I wish I could pass maths
I specifically have to listen and check to make sure that I close a door and turn off my light. Then I have to remind myself 'you heard the door close' and 'the lights off. You saw it.' as I'm walking away. Otherwise 30 seconds later when I've walked down the steps and am about to leave, I have to double check. Kinda sucks.
@@hipeople9856 sounds a little OCD, too. Maybe you should talk to the doctor about it?
I thought I was just stupid for forgetting so much, but now I know it is likely related to my depression. I feel a bit better now that I know the issue.
Can you also do the lesser-known symptoms of eating disorders? Thanks, I love this vid!
That would be really interesting. I don't know much about them so would love to learn more for sure! Are you a science fan?
Eating disorders typically manafest from a need for control. Similar histories or symptoms to PTSD /anxitey disorders, OCD and BPD
The weirdest symptom I found of ed's is growing a fine peachy fuzz of hair in weird places. The body starts to go into hibernation mode and growing hair is one of the things in does in preparation to keep the body warm..
I would like a series on lesser known symptoms to alements, it seems like something entertaining and enlightening to people who suffer from them
I'd love to see this
Rumination is caused when thee individual gets stuck trying to see outcomes to potential decisions, in an attempt to control thee outcome to prevent Harm or reduce a threat. They are constantly trying to figure out if they are safe and trying to control the fight or flight response.
Motivated and Medicated ...I thought I happened due to a four-chambered stomach and eating hay or grass.
Soooo true! Try 2 tell yourself just mentally preparing a response 2 a possible negative event so will b prepared if it actually happens. Then realize just obsessing & the heart starts pounding. Absolutely nothing helps once the thot train in hi gear. Been a few weeks on a series of natural supplements 4 depression. Getting less terrified upon waking & realizing it's morning. WANT 2 get better!!! Keep thinking will just snap out of it someday. Want 2 spend time with animals, not people.
@@remlatzargonix1329 - Rumination makes me gassy.
It’s interesting, because what I’d really like to know is how often Deja Vu coincides with depression/rumination. I find it extremely disconcerting when I ruminated the exact outcome of a situation days, weeks, even occasionally months in advance.
I honestly think this is one of the reasons that depressed people have been found to be more intelligent cause you have to really think about everything you did and what you would do next and how you would change it etc. Too me that takes a intelligent person to even think in that way but doing it all of the time is the problem. I see no problem although with being aware of yourself and others emotions and you and them to react. This can help avoid awkward situations with yourself in rumination and other people by being aware of yourself and the other person while talking to them.
I learned more about my depression watching this video than I have learned from Psychiatrists in the past 20 years. Thank you so much for sharing this information, it's eye opening!!
Me: *Feels guilty for having all the symptoms associated with depression and has anxiety* Nah I can’t have it my brain if just overreacting and lying to itself I’m not depressed because I’m just faking and it would invalidate anyone actually with it.
This was pretty much _exactly_ me until about a year ago.
ouch this comment is too LOuD
I feel like I’m going insane I know I have it but I’m in denial and I feel like I’m lying to myself and basically everything you just said
Thats sweet that you consider that.
I do feel guilty about things but it's a battle when I know they're symptoms of depression and then I feel like I should have control over my life then my parents make it worse because they say why do you lay down all day? Go outside! Let things go! Stop eating! Stop being sad! And they make me feel like I have depression because it's my fault -__-"
It's NOT your fault! It's a severe illness! And I know what you are going through! I wish you all the best. May you find the help you need!
Girl! I'm with you on that...no one, including my parents seem to understand. I'm praying for you and your health!
Just like my mother. "Oh you're fine you don't even know what depression is"
Parents are only human, and fallible. If your relationship with them is important to you, keep trying to explain to/correct them of course, but at the same time try not to let what they say get to you too much.
Good luck to all of you.
Try that when they wont listen to a damn thing you say, ever, because you're the "child" and always wrong and knows nothing :/
makes so much sense. I struggled so much in math in high school because every time we went over a lesson, I would get upset and frustrated when I couldn’t remember how to work out a problem. It would be so distracting that I couldn’t focus and I put myself down to the point where I wanted to give up. I wish I knew this was a thing so I could have grounded myself better in class.
Pinked I’m currently going through this right now and need help so I don’t fail. :( but I’m to afraid to ask for help and i can’t remember anything I’m taught because I self deprecate 😞
@@boredpillow3754 oh my :( Could I help you somehow? Which grade are you in?
I don't think that's depression
I tend to blame myself. I grew up being told to blame myself when something bad happens to me.
Um..that's not right towards you.
It's good that you recognise where that feeling comes from, but I hope you're learning to recognise where the bad thing was caused by something you did and where it wasn't. You're a sensible person, I think, and sometimes bad things happen that are not your fault, and may not be anyone's fault directly. It helps to know that sometimes :)
I can't even remember beginnings of conversations. It makes me feel so hopeless.
I totally forgot memory loss! * slaps forehead *
Jesus loves you, repent from your sins, and follow Jesus, He is the only one who can heal your soul, thank you.
+OnlyJesus Saves. Hi. I'm Christian as well. I'm also depressed and deal with panic attacks, anxiety, and dysphoria regularly. Being Christian may be a good thing, but it is not a substitute for therapy, seeing professionals, or taking medication. Not every Christian experiences immediate miracles that "heal you from all illnesses". Depression and other mental illnesses and difficulties are just as real as having a broken leg. Becoming Christian will not make that leg suddenly heal by itself; becoming Christian won't suddenly make the mental illness go away either.
I say this not to belittle or "hate" on you, just to inform, because giving people the idea that becoming a Christian will heal them from their mental illnesses can be dangerous.
@@ka-im5nd r/woooooosh
@@ediebug483 I don't think "OnlyJesus Saves" (the person I was responding to) was joking. I've seen them comment a few times on other mental health videos as well, talking about how following Jesus is the only way to no longer have mental health problems.
They missed the joke here, certainly, as they thought the original comment was being serious, but whatever. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Test yourself for candida. This causes 24 hr fatigue, bad depression and anxiety, intolerance to dairy or gluten, hayfever, white coating on tongue, acne, bad breath, skin rashes.
Look for the candida spit test on youtube. If you have this, type in candida on youtube and look for pictures of 2 tongues on it. I posted a diet plan i did to kill this fungus, under Eifon Phillips.
The causes of candida are: bad stress , eating bad foods like too much sugar, dairy, white starchy foods like rice and pastsa. Also too many antibiotics kill off a lot of good bacteria in the gut adding to the problem. Good bacteria needed for a healthy immune system and keep illnesses away.
Merry Christmas!
Oo and it's really fun when the rumination SMACKS YOU WITH A FLASHBACK
Ur profile picture made this comment all the more relatable ckfjfn
Ughhhhhhhhhh I hate it especially an embarrassing moment
In the middle of a crowded street in broad daylight
Flashbacks on me cause tics and physical pain.
Particularly memories of hurting others on accident and then feeling guilty for the next 12 years because you'd never mindfully hurt them.
Wonderful video. Yeah, extreme guilt and shame is one of the worst feelings in depression.
The way my depression manifests is in a constant feeling of ‘is this it??’ when I think about life. I’m actually in a fairly good place in life, my depression isn’t as bad as it’s been before. But I still have nights where I just sit and wish that there was something more to it all.
People didn’t used to think like this. We are so insanely overstimulated and we are constantly bombarded with other people’s “spectacular” lives. We don’t really appreciate how good we have it, because comparison is the thief of joy. Also we don’t sleep on a regular and healthy schedule and most people don’t eat fruits and vegetables anymore. There’s so much to it and it’s really simple when you boil it down. Simplify your life. Enjoy the little things, slow DOWN. Have some quiet time, with no screens or noise. Accept that it’s okay to be alone with your thoughts. Good, even. Best of luck to you!
This makes me want to cry. This explains a lot of what I’ve gone through. Wow. Thanks for this video.
Yup, got bad grades in school because I couldn't focus on anything, nor keep information in my head due to spiraling thoughts. Despite that I now have a nice job with an understanding boss.
Good to hear that you have an understanding boss and a job you're happy with . Hope you'll do fine!
I have depression.
But my family thinks i'm magically better now.
I can't tell them that i'm not okay.
Hanaha Thank for telling US! We hear you. There’s a lot of us out here on our own. With our secret. You are brave and worthy of love.
I have exactly same problem..and i hate it.
Same, I told my family a while ago. They think that just because I haven't mentioned it again, I'm cured. It sucks. Hope you guys feel better.
I haven't been diagnosed with depression, nor have I visited a therapist. But I experience rumination and, honestly, my brain likes it.
I seem to have forgotten the experiences which I associate with being traumatic and I am ignoring the current events that are tied to those experiences and I like it. Avoiding feels like a great method.
I overanalyze when I said something that I found cringy or when I shared too much, when I laughed about something and I didn't see the face of approval on someone else's face. It's like a protective mechanism to help me avoid awkward situations and to keep relationships with others, but it also makes me a more awkward person in the process.
And finally, I don't want to go to a therapist. Besides the issue that I live in a country where even mentioning "mental illnesses" is considered taboo and you'll be considered a loonie, I can't trust a stranger I talk face to face with my deepest secrets. Online is one thing, but having to interact with the person who knows my thought pattern is a no for me.
To be honest, I often forget how bad my depression used to be until I hear stuff like this that sparks my memory and reminds me just how far I've come, but also how much of my life is still controlled by this illness. Anyone else in a similar spot?
Rumination on top of my depersonalization/derealization makes the memory aspect of my life so much worse. I forget how to get places and i forget what im doing all the time
Also, some kind of absense of severity or fear.
I had a car accident, i was the only one injured by car glass, everyone was panicing, asking if everyone was alright, i was just like "no" and thinking i was gonna lose all my blood, but somehow i was distubingly calm. It angers me, that i am not who i was anymore, and have reduced will to live and do stuff
Rumination - aka “Over-thinking” - is one of the hardest traits of depression to try to overcome.... The longer we spend over thinking, the more it can damage you and your brains ability to function properly.....
To anyone reading this comment, please do not think it is impossible to stop yourself doing this! It is not a quick process, however it is very empowering when achieved!
For a long time, I honestly believed that I’d never manage to stop over thinking/dwelling on negative experiences..... However with a strong intention to be the change I so desperately longed for; over the last couple of years, I have been able to pretty much stop doing this completely, and be present in the moment more and more as the months passed... There are still experiences that cause over-thinking to kick in, the difference i have achieved now is not only can I quickly notice I am doing it; I am also able to stop myself doing so, very easily.... Do not give up hope that you can do the same...! 😊💗
Thank you!!! This was so positive and couraging message! I will start working on it harder. Now I know that it is not only my idea that it could work, but that it is possible!!! Thank you for boosting up my trust for healing myself!!! Much love and many beautiful blessings to your life 💕💖💚💕💛💖💜💕💚💖💜💕💖💚💕💜💖💕💖💛💛💚💖💕💛💖💕💕
SatumainenOlento - I’m glad my words helped you, good luck and keep on fighting the fight.. you WILL get there 😊🥰💗
Thank you love that was very helpful and encouraging
Can I ask how? Because ruminating also causes anxiety which in turn causes depression and so on.
Jaz Schmaltz - the most helpful thing you can do, when you catch yourself over thinking first of all is to realise you are in that cycle and then force yourself to do something that will use your full attention - something you enjoy, that doesn’t allow you to think while doing it - difficult puzzles, reading a book, playing a difficult game, or maybe learning something new... something else for your brain to focus on. It doesn’t have to be for long, just long enough to break the cycle in your brain.
The more you practice doing this, the easier it will be to pull yourself out of the rumination.
I found that by doing this, over time the over thinking became less and my enjoyment of doing things increased.
Don’t get me wrong, I still get moments of over thinking, but it is now much easier for me to stop the cycle before it really gets going.
As for anxiety, if you can see a doctor about anti anxiety medication, it will help remove that from your equation. If taking anti anxiety meds isn’t for you, then try learning to meditate and practice yoga breathing techniques - both can help calm the mind in moments that cause anxiety.
I hope this helps.
I watch UA-cam sometimes to distract myself because if I don’t I’m going to have a breakdown
Another topic I think was missed in this video is addiction. Drugs, sex, and food are also methods used as a coping mechanism. They distract the user, if only for for a moment, from the cyclic thoughts that make them feel depressed and disconnected.
But on second thought yeah, I see why it was left out of this video. As it is on lesser known symptoms of depression, while addiction is a very well known side effect of the disorder.
as a person with chronic major depression... yeah I can back this up. I really hope we can eventually figure out what's going on on a cellular level with depression and anxiety.
Im definitely going to have my mom watch this, ive had depression as early as i think 12, im 18 now, i struggle with memory, irritability, self esteem, self doubt and self hate, getting stuck in thoughts, a lack of energy and lots and lots of guilt. I wish more people would be more forgiving when it come to depression, its hard waking up everyday and not knowing if your brain is going to be nice to you or not, and a lot of the anger come from that as well. Thank you hank, i hope more schools show this to their students and teachers, i never had this in school and now watch these videos on my own to help my own brain understand whats going on.
The memory loss bit is scary as hell. I've got the overwhelming guilt too.
I've had terrible memory for a couple years now and it's honestly terrifying. And it makes me look like an idiot in front of new people so I don't make new friends anymore.
I don’t know why I’m here...
Anyway, I wish the best life for everyone here
You were here to better understand what some people go through, so you can be supportive. We need friends who sympathize. Sometimes it feels like the only thing we have.
Nah, I’m not depressed, but I know what you mean and your good intentions 👍
Well thank you :')
And they tell u smile or stop being lazy or u stay inside all the time that is why u feel like this.
I don't have any friends left , they don't get it...
But they not wrong, i just can trust anyone easly what a jerk i am.
@@armsregkralkidna1359
No, you are not a jerk. You been hurt a lot and lost all trust. Same with me. I dont blame you one tiny bit.
I feel you. My mom usually tells me that because I don't do anything I feel depressed, but that as soon as I start doing anything it will magically go away. Sure, cause it's never been real, it's just laziness, right?
I'll be you friend ^-^
@@fusiontoa18 BE MINE!!! ;-;
Man, learning that depression causes memory loss makes more sense now.
It's hard for me to remember so many things. Even if they were recent things.
Unless something made me feel strong emotions, I have a hard time remembering it.
Depression is active in both the left and right temporal lateral prefrontal cortex (TLPC) in the brain. The left TLPC is responsible for ruminations, the primary function of depression. The mind perceives a problem and ruminates to solve the perceived problem. The right TLPC is responsible for stopping motor movements, ie lack of motivation. The brain is literally stopping you from doing things so it can sit there and try to solve a problem. All this activity requires energy, ie calories, and people experience both a lack of motivation AND lack of energy as two separate symptoms. All the while, priority processing is given to the problem-solving ruminations and things like short-term memory and quality sleep get bumped. CBT helps by addressing negative core beliefs, unhelpful thinking styles, and unhealthy behaviors to help individuals cope and manage the depression symptoms, however the experience of sadness and depression is very normal and human. SSRI's are typically the first-line meds given for depression, but are just as effective as CBT alone with mild to moderate depression but CBT has a higher long-term effect and zero side effects. However, SSRI's and CBT combined for severe depression is ideal as the meds help decrease the symptoms and allows therapy to be more effective.
Thanks, I think the more people understand about what they are going through, and why it's happening, the more empowered they become.
Severely underrated comment.
It just hurts so bad, and it never stops
Connor Homer , I am sorry to hear that your depression hurts. Do you have chronic pain? That has contributed to my depression in the past.
It's not Pain, it just "Hurts" sort of generally. I have a pretty good pain threshold so actual pain doesn't bother me, but dysthymia hurts. And dysthymia isn't even the BAD bad kind of depression.
Michael Zaite “Bad” or not, should still looking into getting help for it. A man is dead whether he drowns in a foot of water or a hundred.
I know how you feel my channel speaks about this... Stay safe!
Lol, my front page of youtube recommendations:
- The Lesser-Known Symptoms of Depression
- How to deal with depression
- What's the point of Depression?
Thanks UA-cam, im in depression now
Not how it works
Get yourself checked for depression
When I was a child, helpful 'normal' people told me it was all in my head, as though ignoring it would cause it to go away. Try explaining away the very real symptoms of a full-on anxiety attack. Half a lifetime later, I found that taking some 5-HTP, and some melatonin, has made most of it 'go away'.
What is 5 -HTP? I know you wrote your comment quite a while ago, but I just found this channel/video! I hope I'm not bothering you asking this out of the blue!
I wish someone can actually help me with my depression instead of just saying "you don't have depression" because it just makes me more frustrated and have more ptsd thoughts with anxiety TT_TT
Find a good counselor
@@kaylahall1219 I wish I could TT_TT
@@joelgurbelleti1010 I seriously want to get help but it's expensive, also the current living condition I'm in makes it hard to do so, I really hope things get better for me.
Perhaps u have a disorder like borderline which can coexist with depression. If a valid professional says u don't have depression what do they say you have? A psychologist or psychiatrist wont just say nope u aren't depressed go away...they'll explain what they see.
WOW! This is 100% on point in my life right now!!! Add ADHD and I'm a barely walking, talking, functioning person. 😔
From another person with ADHD, that's way better than a non-functioning person! Keep on going!
:(
Same and autism and a eating disorder for me struggling to function cause of it :/ And you can do it!
Triple whammy over here.
How do I person?
Shucks
So I really was reaching borderline depression 4 years ago. I was 13-14 back then and didn't realize what I was going through. But now that I've grown up and feel much happier and carefree and know how to cope up with things, I realize what I was going through and what I was falling in to. And it's honestly kinda scary to think about what would've happened if i had fully fallen into depression.
I didn't take any medication or anything. I just got better as time passed. And a lot of credit for that goes to anime and internet. It kept my mind occupied. I learned things both good and bad. It kept me away from my own negatively and slowly filled me with happiness and positivity.
When I mention anime people think it's a joke but it really isn't. I was at the stage where I was having suicidal thoughts but the joke that people call anime was the one that freed me from myself.
Age 66, and still a fan of anime. It does counter obsessive rumination. I'm glad you're thriving now.
weeb lol
You didn't have depression if you just got better with time.
@@TheMentalLizard Yes, you can have depression that gets better with time, especially if your circumstances change. Depression can be triggered by grief, sudden extreme life changes, physical diseases (cancer, etc.), being in a situation without much autonomy (like a teenager), and trauma, among other things. Depression has to last (I believe) at least six months to be diagnosable, but beyond that, it's possible for it to resolve on its own. It often doesn't, but it can.
🐺 Anime helped me alot too. Would often pretend that I'm someone else, someone much stronger like a character from a Video Game, movie or anime. It would help me deal with situations that I myself can't Especially at school when I was a teenager. Mostly before I was fully a Christian. I often still do but not as seriously and as deeply now that I have and know that Jesus is Real. Jesus loves you 😇🛐✝️
Memory loss is the most disturbing symptom of my depression. I'm currently in a flare-up I guess you could say, where my depression has gotten really bad the past few months. The number of times I've started to make myself a tea or coffee, and then restarted, because I forgot I ever started.. also talking and completely forgetting what I was talking about - not just forgetting the point of my story, but the actual content... Memory loss can make me feel like I'm going crazy!
I'm 19 in a few months, and I've been having some real issues with remembering information, and recalling conversations/plans I have made with my partner and friends. This explains a lot.
When your brain feels like a brick in your skull that weighs you on the floor
This.
This summs it up perfectly for me. I used to have a clear mind back in 5-7 grade , was really optimistic and over all had a positive attitude in life. But now I freking forgot how that feels like and can't think straight anymore. I feel like I am carrying my own coffin inside my head.
This is quite insightful, the blame, guilt and especially rumination is literally killing me. This cycle and sadness I cannot shift. 100% stuck
My UA-cam knows me. This showed up in my recommendation list.