Lynn is having her post-mortem (well, almost -- she's still singing) photography taken, which is a common practice in the Victorian era. Man I love this band.
This is honestly one of my favorite songs ever. This whole album is so freaking solid and none of the songs are skippable. There's just so much emotion and power in both the lyrics and instrumentals
Nothing *feels* like this song does. Nothing. It just has a soul of its own. It gives me this feeling in my chest and it’s like all my nerves are waking up or something... It just really really strikes me hard, no matter how many times I listen or how long it’s been since I discovered it. It just always captures me.
I don't know if it's just me but I find Pvris' new songs so depressing, because it reaches me in such an in depth way it truly touches me, they are such good musicians
I remember hearing these guys for the first time on radio 1 when they released St Patrick. I'm not going to pretend like I'm some diehard fan but I have kept up with their music since then, every one of their songs is a pleasure to listen to
I never know how to feel when I listen to a song by pvris. I can't decide if it makes me happy or sad. Sometimes I feel sad for Lynn too because of what the songs are usually about. Pvris has the best music
When I listen to this song for the first time I thought "This is the way I feel almost all the time". They read my mind. I know tons of people feel like that.
Adore this song ... for me, I feel she describes mental health really well n love the aggressive side to the words she sings as it's frustration.. I feel that massively. Just my take but I come across them from the radio after a really bad day and heard the song ..really hit home. ❤️❤️
Katie Whyte because some idiots or "sneaky Internet fairies" in Lynn's kind words, leaked the song(highly disrespectful of the artist btw). It wasn't supposed to be released this soon thus the reason why Half has no music video and isn't on Spotify yet.
Miguel Hernandez Oh damn really? I had wondered actually since I didn't recognise the name riserecords, that really sucks :( Also 'sneaky internet fairies' how goddamn cute can this woman be
[Verse 1] Some days I feel everything Others are numbing Can never find an in between It's all or nothing [Pre-Chorus] I never never never said that I wanted I never never never never said "I want it" [Chorus] Never wanted to be here now One foot in the grave, other on the ground I can't process what I'm feeling now The skin I can do without [Verse 2] Half my bones in the city streets The other in my sheets And I don't think they'll ever get No chance to me [Pre-Chorus] I never never never said that I wanted (That I wanted) I never never never never said "I want it" [Chorus] Never wanted to be here now One foot in the grave, other on the ground I can't process what I'm feeling now This skin I can do without [Bridge] La-la-la-la La-la-la-la I never never never said that I wanted I never never never said "I want it" I never never never said I never never never said I never never never said I never never never said [Chorus] Never wanted to be here now One foot in the grave, other on the ground I can't process what I'm feeling now This skin I can do without [Ending] No I never wanted I never never never said No I never wanted I never never never said I never never never said I never never never said I never never never said I never never never said I never never never said I never never never said I never never never said
I'm from Mexico and I seriously don't understand why is this so underated. This year I'm turning 15 and of cuz my family wants a big party and stuff, but I said that I only wanna meet&greet for PVRIS😭❤
Now I'm here listening to this. Thinking about my life, the person I am today and I don't know why, but I woke up this morning feeling great and now I feel like nothing. Wanting to leave it all behind and dissapear. Turn off my phone and that's it. I usually don't show my feelings and try to be strong, but now I feel like I'm falling apart. Sometimes I think that people that I love is getting bored of me or when I try to share something that I like, they act like they don't care and I'm starting to think that I can't connect with people. I think it's better not to share something and go away. I hope that I can feel better, but now I just can't.
i've never heard of them until one day YT recommended "What's wrong" then "Heaven" and just ... this album is going to be so good. This music sounds so addictive.
I am working right now and you guys just randomly put out a new song with this "Visualette" of Lynn just sitting and here I am in my work bathroom just crying...nonetheless, thank you and great fucking job AGAIN
Yeah, this one seems heavily connected to Heaven. The music videos from their last album were sort of connected by a mirror at the beginning and end of each video. I really like whatever they're doing though.
i think so too! this vid goes in and out from light to dark, like in the whats wrong video one part of her is the light/good and the other is dark/depression & also like mentioned the group photo is white/black with the ‘‘hell‘‘ being the mirrored image so ‘‘half‘‘ is the spilt between that or something like that idk haha it seems like from both videos the darkness is taking over
Tiffany Lane This isn't a music video, it's a visualette. The only reason why they released this visualette is because the song was leaked, so what they did is put this together real quick and released it officially. I'm guessing the reason why there isn't a music video is because obviously they weren't expecting it to be released so maybe they hadn't made it yet or completed it. That saying, I'm not trying to imply this isn't connected, it's just not a music video lol. Of course they stuck with their theme, but I think to see the real connection between all of the videos is to wait until the actual music video comes out. Haha of course I could be wrong, but yes they are definitely connected in some way, just not to the full potential it will be when the music video is released.
So...I know maybe it's not the right place to write this and nobody will see it but I just wanna say this and somehow try to forget even tho it's impossible. I was never the kind of person who is talkative or easy makes friends but the fact that classmates bullied me from such a young age made me develop anxiety and that fear of talkting cuz I'd say something wrong bc I'm so emotional. I had several problems with bullyinh since 3rd grade and when I moved to another school in 5rd grade I hoped people will see me differently even tho I had no idea what's wrong with me or why can't I make friends. There was this guy who never bullied me or talked to me different than he talks to other people that made me fall in love with him since 4rd grade (tho I can say in 4rd grade was more admiration) but when I found out that he'll be with me 4 years in 5-8 I was so happy even tho he didn't know me very well I still wanted to be with him. In 5rd grade, he ignored me and clearly loved another girl and even had a relationship but none of this stopped me from liking him and I told him (before having a girlfriend) that I do like him. Still, he ignored me 3 months and then said to me that we're better friends so I just wanted to be by his side, not really a relationship cuz I knew I wasn't worth it. Then in 6rd grade we started talking more but he started somehow be cold and that year started the worst bullying for me so I got depressed... I used to cry all nights cuz on a day I had to put a mask of happiness.. I used to cut my hands cuz I felt like I'm worth the pain. I wanted to disappear and didn't even think about school till I got in 8rd grade. Yea, 6rd grade and 7rd grade were the worst for me bc of bullying and that guy. I had really low grades and felt like "Ah, I can't even be good at something..." or "I'm so ugly and that's why no one likes me" or "I'm so weird, gross, a failure, good for nothing and I disappoint my parents which I don't deserve." So I started seeing myself so bad, like I was nothing but a garbage, like I didn't deserve life and felt like I'm losing pieces of me, like I'm losing myself in this whole thing. I was angry and say everytime and worried my parents and even tho I was happy they care, I didn't wanna show that. In 8rd grade it got better cuz I had a friend by my side and even tho the whole class against me, it didn't matter cuz I had her. I got to be with the guy I liked in a relationship in 7rd grade but he used to forget about me for months and be with other girls, and I saw him and thought "He looks happier than when he's with me" but eventually he always came back cuz I texted him and everything, gave him a lot of chances.. Now, after 2 years of being together when he ignored me a lot and made me jealous everytime and made me feel so alone still I thought I have him, he broke me again...today. Even tho I knew this won't last and I knew he has another girl cuz he's wasn't seeing me, texting me, calling me, he practically forgot about me after going to highschool. What hurts me the most is that he gave me hope, I wasn't capable of letting him go... even tho I saw he doesb't care about me or love me anymore if he ever had, everytime I told him that, he just created excuses so I believed him. I worried for months for him, I wanted to kill myself many times and lost a lot of people in this process.. Today I saw him with that girl and thought "ah... He never went out with me but with that girl he did and even bought her a present...". I know it's normal to lose people but this broke me more than I had ever expected and I feel like I lost a piece of me. I care too fucking much... I love too fucking much... And I consume myself too fucking much and I did everything for him so that in the end I'd be alone, after I even had lost someone from my family. I don't know if I 'll ever be a normal person, smiling, laughing, having friends and not worrying. I'm just depressed, I have anxiety and a lot of issues so I get why no one would wanna spend time with me... but it still hurts. I feel like I disappointed my parents who gave me life soo many times and disappointef everyone. When I was feeling lonely and wanted to kill myself, my parents and that friend who saved me in 8rd grade were the only people that came in my mind and for them I'm a live. Thank you for letting me write this stupid, childish story!♥️ I hope you won't give up either, no matter how hard life is, no matter how hopeless you feel. Stay strong, for me and for people who care! ♥️
i never thought id be so happy to see lynn sitting in a chair for 4 minutes
p steezy same
p steezy Same
same!
Same
HELLO
Ive made my conclusion, PVRIS can never make a bad song.
yaasp
I thought the exact same thing.
word!
Alejandra Medrano agreeee totally
100% agreed :D even their early unknown stuff is amazing
They give me such a beautifully haunting nostalgic vibe. Their music makes me miss someone I've yet to meet, if that makes sense lol
Luna you described exactly what I feel whenever I listen to this song...
Yes... Yes you encapsulate my feeling so well
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So deep exactly well put
It really does make sense
The BEST pvris era. Wish they’d go back to this vibe
Lynn is having her post-mortem (well, almost -- she's still singing) photography taken, which is a common practice in the Victorian era. Man I love this band.
Woah.
Lynn doesn't need to move, Just speak and that's enough to have me sold.
Honestly she doesn't even need to speak
Ensidia Music H/C io a b. Mmmnplkoe is a beautiful bjjiuuufdwwqryuiopn. Nhuu.
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It's kinda crazy how perfectly this song describes how depression feels, at least for me. Stay strong, Lynn.
It really does. Every way. Through music with vocals, through words and through visuals.
Bipolar too. At least in my case.
PVRIS truly never disappoints. amazing job. can't wait to hear all ❤❤❤
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NO WARNING this album is going to be incredible
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I'm getting more and more obsessed with this group.
YES SWEETIE YOURE DOING GREAT
I love how you can feel the passion and aggression in her voice.
i am sooooooooooo ready for this album
sameeeeee
Shame about the delay til 25 of august
the most expensive music video ever, but that doesn't matter Lynn is fuckin hot without even doing shit
it's a visualette not a music video I don't think it counts as a music video
how is it the most expensive?
bullshit. she's sitting in a fucking chair in a room. expensive, my ass.
I think jash was being sarcastic, but ok???
It's just a quick video Lynn did because the song leaked
Lynn I hope you're okay. Your lyrics lately seem like a cry for help. Your music never disappoints but I hope you're alright
all their music is quite angsty. if you watch the AOL interview with them she explains why most of their music is like this :D
You were right, she wasn't okay that time.
I think its her way of getting it all out yknow and honestly her whole vibe screams she's a pisces lmao
I think Half and Winter are my favorite songs of this album:)💖
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This band seriously never disappoint
I swear this album takes me to a whole nother universe. Nothing matters but the music when I'm listening to them
August can't come fast enough tbh
yeah i agree so getting this album for my birthday!!!!
Its January
This is honestly one of my favorite songs ever. This whole album is so freaking solid and none of the songs are skippable. There's just so much emotion and power in both the lyrics and instrumentals
this album is gonna be their greatest, omfg I'm so ready
Sinful Perrie .
Nothing *feels* like this song does. Nothing. It just has a soul of its own. It gives me this feeling in my chest and it’s like all my nerves are waking up or something...
It just really really strikes me hard, no matter how many times I listen or how long it’s been since I discovered it. It just always captures me.
PVRIS is carrying rise records rn!
I'm a simple man, I see (another) new PVRIS song in the feed, I hit the like button (again)
I can watch Lynn sitting for hours, days, months, forever while listening to the sound of pvris. Life would be so peacefully sad.
I don't know if it's just me but I find Pvris' new songs so depressing, because it reaches me in such an in depth way it truly touches me, they are such good musicians
pvris is so underrated which doesn't make sENSE CAUSE THEYRE SO GOOD
Sorry hun, but....Who said that PVRIS is underrated? Just let me know, gotta break some legs ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
Kathia !!! Just hope the singer doesn't go solo and becomes a popstar.
Nah they're not underrated. Maybe with general music but in this scene they are huge for the length of Time they've been together
What they’re not underrated at all 😂😂😂 everyone knows them
John Bortolin this sounds like some shade on Hayley Williams 😂😂 but yeah I hope Lynn doesn't do that...
My ears have been blessed 💞
I remember hearing these guys for the first time on radio 1 when they released St Patrick. I'm not going to pretend like I'm some diehard fan but I have kept up with their music since then, every one of their songs is a pleasure to listen to
I think this is their best song so far imo
I'm so in love with Lynn like it physically hurts
Came across PVRIS by accident. Will never look back. There ain't a song that I hate and that's always rare for me.
Sakura Sabakuno Same I randomly clicked on what's wrong fell in love as soon as I heard it
Lynn you have no idea how much your music has helped me.
Who is your favorite band and why is it PVRIS
I like Pvris because their music relates to me but tbh agust d relates to me more.
I never know how to feel when I listen to a song by pvris. I can't decide if it makes me happy or sad. Sometimes I feel sad for Lynn too because of what the songs are usually about. Pvris has the best music
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When I listen to this song for the first time I thought "This is the way I feel almost all the time". They read my mind. I know tons of people feel like that.
Honestly Pvris has saved 2k17.
My ears are blessed.
I SWEAR THIS BAND DESERVES MORE RECOGNITION AND THEY ARE SLOWLY GETTING IT BUT IM STILL HAPPYJKDBASJOFBSAFA
THIS IS MY FAVORITE SONG FINALLY OMFG IM GONNA CRY.
I AM SO EARLY OMG YES ILYSM GUYS THIS IS SO GOOD OMG😍😍😍 THIS ALBUM WILL SLAY SO MUCH!!!!! PVRIS FOREVER😍😍
I never thought one of my happiest momemts would involve watching someone sit completly still for four minutes
Adore this song ... for me, I feel she describes mental health really well n love the aggressive side to the words she sings as it's frustration.. I feel that massively. Just my take but I come across them from the radio after a really bad day and heard the song ..really hit home. ❤️❤️
Been listening to them since the release of "White Noise" and I knew that they had a lot of potential
Yeah, they did, what happened
Can not wait till the album comes out. I'm bumping that shit in church, class, the bathroom, McDonald's, fucking everywhere. Good job Pvris!
I'M SO GLAD PVRIS EXIST
she's gorgeous. I wish I could look like her. great song, by the way. already singing it.
2024 still loving this song...anyone else here?
I just can't wait for the theories about this one.
I love how most of PVRIS’ songs have their own ambience sound at the end. They sound amazing.
😍😍just as good as it was live! I swear you guys should be featured on American Horror Story
Caitlin so im not the only one who gets the AHS vibe from their videos and music?!
new LIGHTS AND new PVRIS in the same day i am so happy and this upcoming tour and these upcoming albums are going to be so perfect
SO MUCH YESS IN ONE DAY!!
volvagia466 AND SLEEPING WITH SIRENS TOO
MAMMA NEVER NEVER NEVER DISAPPOINTS 😭😭😭
My one and only criticism is that tHIS SHIT IS NOT ON SPOTIFY YET WHY
Katie Whyte because some idiots or "sneaky Internet fairies" in Lynn's kind words, leaked the song(highly disrespectful of the artist btw). It wasn't supposed to be released this soon thus the reason why Half has no music video and isn't on Spotify yet.
Miguel Hernandez Oh damn really? I had wondered actually since I didn't recognise the name riserecords, that really sucks :(
Also 'sneaky internet fairies' how goddamn cute can this woman be
Katie Whyte it's there now! :D
[Verse 1]
Some days I feel everything
Others are numbing
Can never find an in between
It's all or nothing
[Pre-Chorus]
I never never never said that I wanted
I never never never never said "I want it"
[Chorus]
Never wanted to be here now
One foot in the grave, other on the ground
I can't process what I'm feeling now
The skin I can do without
[Verse 2]
Half my bones in the city streets
The other in my sheets
And I don't think they'll ever get
No chance to me
[Pre-Chorus]
I never never never said that I wanted (That I wanted)
I never never never never said "I want it"
[Chorus]
Never wanted to be here now
One foot in the grave, other on the ground
I can't process what I'm feeling now
This skin I can do without
[Bridge]
La-la-la-la
La-la-la-la
I never never never said that I wanted
I never never never said "I want it"
I never never never said
I never never never said
I never never never said
I never never never said
[Chorus]
Never wanted to be here now
One foot in the grave, other on the ground
I can't process what I'm feeling now
This skin I can do without
[Ending]
No I never wanted
I never never never said
No I never wanted
I never never never said
I never never never said
I never never never said
I never never never said
I never never never said
I never never never said
I never never never said
I never never never said
KVTHLEENDVNN now is in the comments too
this album is going to be amazing, these few last tracks just blow my mind ... deep AF
Seriously, this entire album is ridiculously good!
They played this song when I saw them in Nashville! I'm so happy we actually get to hear the full thing now!
I'm from Mexico and I seriously don't understand why is this so underated. This year I'm turning 15 and of cuz my family wants a big party and stuff, but I said that I only wanna meet&greet for PVRIS😭❤
"one foot in the grave, other on the ground" they express the words I cannot ❤💔
LEGENDS
Now I'm here listening to this. Thinking about my life, the person I am today and I don't know why, but I woke up this morning feeling great and now I feel like nothing. Wanting to leave it all behind and dissapear. Turn off my phone and that's it. I usually don't show my feelings and try to be strong, but now I feel like I'm falling apart. Sometimes I think that people that I love is getting bored of me or when I try to share something that I like, they act like they don't care and I'm starting to think that I can't connect with people. I think it's better not to share something and go away. I hope that I can feel better, but now I just can't.
They have just cured my depression
i've never heard of them until one day YT recommended "What's wrong" then "Heaven" and just ... this album is going to be so good. This music sounds so addictive.
I am working right now and you guys just randomly put out a new song with this "Visualette" of Lynn just sitting and here I am in my work bathroom just crying...nonetheless, thank you and great fucking job AGAIN
I discovered this in accident and I WAS NOT ready for how amazing her voice sounds!
Is it just me or are the music videos connected in some way
I agree. This reminds me of the one part in Heaven where they're getting their group portrait taken.
Yeah, this one seems heavily connected to Heaven. The music videos from their last album were sort of connected by a mirror at the beginning and end of each video. I really like whatever they're doing though.
i think so too! this vid goes in and out from light to dark, like in the whats wrong video one part of her is the light/good and the other is dark/depression & also like mentioned the group photo is white/black with the ‘‘hell‘‘ being the mirrored image so ‘‘half‘‘ is the spilt between that or something like that idk haha it seems like from both videos the darkness is taking over
Tiffany Lane This isn't a music video, it's a visualette. The only reason why they released this visualette is because the song was leaked, so what they did is put this together real quick and released it officially. I'm guessing the reason why there isn't a music video is because obviously they weren't expecting it to be released so maybe they hadn't made it yet or completed it.
That saying, I'm not trying to imply this isn't connected, it's just not a music video lol. Of course they stuck with their theme, but I think to see the real connection between all of the videos is to wait until the actual music video comes out.
Haha of course I could be wrong, but yes they are definitely connected in some way, just not to the full potential it will be when the music video is released.
the concert is gonna be so epic I'm so excited for the whole album
If you are reading this, I hope you know you are beautiful :)
Much love to you all ♡
words cant express how excited i am for the new album because theyve made pure perfection with their prior work. the depth of lynns lyrics are insane
idk why the hell you do this.. I really am crying so much
This band is walking in the best direction. I hope they keep this way, it's awesome!
Sleeping With Sirens and now pvris - so much good music today!
They never fail to impress me.Every song is simply amazing and I love them so much❤❤❤
i can't wait for the album
I haven't been this excited for an album to drop in many years
Damn so stoked for this album!!
This is probably my fave song so far from them it's so good on so many levels
I fall in love with this band a little bit more each time a new song comes out. ❤️👌🏻
last time i was this early i still thought i was straight
marta. so you like matty queen, huh;)
lizzy grant lmao what
marta. SAME
that joke is older than i am!
MsPurpleStuff true
I literally just came across this band from the song 'What's Wrong' ... And i'm already pumped for this new album. This womans voice is incredible.
i thought the new album comes out on august 4th but in the description it says august 25th..
Leah Marie me too. I'm really confused too. Cause I was thinking their album did not come out of my birthday
Leah Marie okay turns out rise made a typo, it's fixed now
Leah Marie I am looking at the description right now and see no mention of the 25th?
Better be august 25th! That's four days before my birthday 😂💜👌
Bethany Francia
No. Fuck off. We need it now, not in over a months time.
They've grown so much in their sound but still managed to keep the same feel which i think is grand.
Olivia Searcy for sure. thought I recognized your name. I used you video to learn mirrors so thank you 😉
*video starts*
me: OMFG HOW TF DOES IT SOUND THIS BEATIFUL
I literally love every song this band has ever came out with. I can't get enough of you guys!!
SOMEBODY CALL 911 BECAUSE MY WEAVE JUST GOT SNATCHED!!
LMAO
Tove Love AHAJ YES SAME
Tove Love Bish we still waiting for Lady Wood part 2 to get us freaking snatched
MauWelch Hell yea
MauWelch Yeeaaz 😂😂
What an amazing song! The music production is top notch. I can't stop listening to it with headphones. Plenty of ear candy going on . Wow! OMG.
Jeff Gomez The production on this entire album is arguably the best I've heard all year. So much subtle layers of ear candy.
I like the part where everything is dark. /s
Her voice hears so sweet and the song is so fucking beautiful, the just can't disappoint me
❤ I've been here since the beginning. PVRIS always has the best music. ❣
Honestly she could probably be picking her nose for 4 minutes straight and we'd all agree it was the best 4 minutes ever
I wonder if I could do that?
I'M OBSESSED WITH THIS SONG
I really would love to know the meaning behind this song
same! it's so depressing :(
So sad there's no one who recognized melody of Morandi - Angels (Love Is The Answer) in the intro of this song( Definetly legendary track.
This song has a bit of a London grammar feel to it except more rocky.
Never have I clicked so fast, pvris just gets my soul every time, Lynn can sit in that chair forever its still perfect 😭
THEYRE TRENDING EXCUSE ME WHILE I CRY HAPPINESS
Being thrown in the world. This album is full of things from existentialism. Love it
So...I know maybe it's not the right place to write this and nobody will see it but I just wanna say this and somehow try to forget even tho it's impossible. I was never the kind of person who is talkative or easy makes friends but the fact that classmates bullied me from such a young age made me develop anxiety and that fear of talkting cuz I'd say something wrong bc I'm so emotional. I had several problems with bullyinh since 3rd grade and when I moved to another school in 5rd grade I hoped people will see me differently even tho I had no idea what's wrong with me or why can't I make friends. There was this guy who never bullied me or talked to me different than he talks to other people that made me fall in love with him since 4rd grade (tho I can say in 4rd grade was more admiration) but when I found out that he'll be with me 4 years in 5-8 I was so happy even tho he didn't know me very well I still wanted to be with him. In 5rd grade, he ignored me and clearly loved another girl and even had a relationship but none of this stopped me from liking him and I told him (before having a girlfriend) that I do like him. Still, he ignored me 3 months and then said to me that we're better friends so I just wanted to be by his side, not really a relationship cuz I knew I wasn't worth it. Then in 6rd grade we started talking more but he started somehow be cold and that year started the worst bullying for me so I got depressed... I used to cry all nights cuz on a day I had to put a mask of happiness.. I used to cut my hands cuz I felt like I'm worth the pain. I wanted to disappear and didn't even think about school till I got in 8rd grade. Yea, 6rd grade and 7rd grade were the worst for me bc of bullying and that guy. I had really low grades and felt like "Ah, I can't even be good at something..." or "I'm so ugly and that's why no one likes me" or "I'm so weird, gross, a failure, good for nothing and I disappoint my parents which I don't deserve." So I started seeing myself so bad, like I was nothing but a garbage, like I didn't deserve life and felt like I'm losing pieces of me, like I'm losing myself in this whole thing. I was angry and say everytime and worried my parents and even tho I was happy they care, I didn't wanna show that. In 8rd grade it got better cuz I had a friend by my side and even tho the whole class against me, it didn't matter cuz I had her. I got to be with the guy I liked in a relationship in 7rd grade but he used to forget about me for months and be with other girls, and I saw him and thought "He looks happier than when he's with me" but eventually he always came back cuz I texted him and everything, gave him a lot of chances.. Now, after 2 years of being together when he ignored me a lot and made me jealous everytime and made me feel so alone still I thought I have him, he broke me again...today. Even tho I knew this won't last and I knew he has another girl cuz he's wasn't seeing me, texting me, calling me, he practically forgot about me after going to highschool. What hurts me the most is that he gave me hope, I wasn't capable of letting him go... even tho I saw he doesb't care about me or love me anymore if he ever had, everytime I told him that, he just created excuses so I believed him. I worried for months for him, I wanted to kill myself many times and lost a lot of people in this process.. Today I saw him with that girl and thought "ah... He never went out with me but with that girl he did and even bought her a present...". I know it's normal to lose people but this broke me more than I had ever expected and I feel like I lost a piece of me.
I care too fucking much...
I love too fucking much...
And I consume myself too fucking much and I did everything for him so that in the end I'd be alone, after I even had lost someone from my family. I don't know if I 'll ever be a normal person, smiling, laughing, having friends and not worrying. I'm just depressed, I have anxiety and a lot of issues so I get why no one would wanna spend time with me... but it still hurts. I feel like I disappointed my parents who gave me life soo many times and disappointef everyone. When I was feeling lonely and wanted to kill myself, my parents and that friend who saved me in 8rd grade were the only people that came in my mind and for them I'm a live. Thank you for letting me write this stupid, childish story!♥️ I hope you won't give up either, no matter how hard life is, no matter how hopeless you feel. Stay strong, for me and for people who care! ♥️
This album is a piece of art already 😱
IM SCREAMJNG OH MY GPD