I'm going through depression at the moment so I can definitely relate to what you're describing. I have days where everything feels hopeless and wrong. A quote I really like lately is this one: "love the moment. Flowers grow out of dark moments. Therefore, each moment is vital. It affects the whole. Life is a succession of such moments and to live each is to succeed."
You're not the type of youtuber that I would normally subscribe to and watch, but the main reason why I did subscribe to you and I DO watch you regularly is because of your always positive attitude, motivating videos, and what seems like bubbly personality. I think that your videos really brighten up people's days. I can't imagine anyone watching your videos and not feeling at least a little bit better about themselves. I'm very sorry that you're dealing with depression. I've experienced serious depression myself for almost 2 years and one thing that I can tell you is that eventually things will get better. Much better. As long as you don't give up on yourself, it will get better. Don't ever be afraid or ashamed of expressing your feelings. Always talk to people. Your friends, your parents, maybe even strangers on the internet. Anyone who is willing to listen. Getting things off your chest can be the best therapy. That's why I'm glad that you decided to make this video and don't be afraid to make more if you feel the need to. Your fans/followers/viewers wish you the best and they want to see you make good progress. Hopefully those "wonky days" become less and less frequent :)
GIRL i feel you so hard on all of this :( Hypothyroidism, seasonal depression, it all sucks. It's awful when happy and positive things are happening in your life but it's like that joy can't penetrate into your mind or heart. I'm sending you so much love and I hope we both get better and our thyroids can wake the f up and do their job!
Try Jesus? I know your hair dresser kudzy peeps is Christian try talk to her if you haven't already. I use to feel so void and without hope also but since I decided to believe in Jesus that void has been filled. No everyday is not perfect I don't know anyone who has a perfect day everyday and is always happy but my life is way better with Him. 😌
I know a few things about being depressed. I feel like crap all the time, when I was a teen I thought that it's just temporary, I will feel better when I do this this and this, blablabla. Surely when I go to uni I will gain some friends and such. But now I am 24 and nothing changed. I just graduated uni with useless degree, I don't have a job, don't have any friends, I am unhappy with myself and the way I look. Crying is like eating to me, I do it all the time. I am not living, I am vegetating and waiting for better times. I don't know why I am writing this, today was just a bad day and I am really tired with live at the moment and I don't have anyone to talk too.
lauralanthalasa7 I see you and I hope you feel the support. I'm praying for you. In practical terms, don't give up. As Scola said, make sure you explore the medical options. In addition, use this time to just throw yourself into something different. Think of it this way 'what do I have to lose?'. It could be fitness - you can use YT to inspire you, or drawing, or singing, or dancing. Just something you know will challenge you, make you confront some fears. Think of what you're good at, at explore it. Maybe learn a language- there's free apps like Dualingo. The battle is in keeping your mind occupied with positive thoughts or things that direct your thoughts in a positive direction. I've had times in my life where I have felt deep despair and helplessness - just out of control of my life, but I held onto the promises of God, and applied some practical methods to my life. Change was not overnight, but it came. Keep pushing. xxx
lauralanthalasa7 exactly ditto i am going through for last two three years. and now i feel like nothing is curing this...and now I usually have thoughts like I don't want to live. nothing will be alright..no friends,no career, don't know how to what to do..i never go out... I don't know how to go out...when i was a child my parents were so over possessive and raised me strictly so now i m 26 and i feel JUST alone...i have also fears if i go out and ofcourse its right i don't know how things works..people will laugh at me..i have anxiety, depression and feelings like nothing is going right and it never will be... whether i do job or earn or anything.. anything will never make any sense....i want to be loved. Have thoughts like if i start anything and failed then all will tease me that already you're late and now you are failing...also my love kind of broke up with me when I started feeling depression, he says he is with me always but he doesn't talk he said we have no future..just be my friend unconditionally..and i am like I love him so much and he is really i good human being.. I mean all bad things came together and i got hit badly. I don't have anybody to talk I tried talking with one or two people but i feel like nobody can't and they are not understanding. People just keep saying do job do this do that why are you insincere and not serious. I feel alone and cry cry cry Everytime. And now i am homesick too. :(
I'm so sorry about what happend to you and your boyfriend. I hope things get better, but in meantime try to get help, maybe you'll feel better. I'm praying for you.
Pink Lowe thank you so much love..i will pray for all the people in the world who in anyway are suffering from depression or stress. sending lots of love :)
Whenever I feel like I'm about to get into a depressive/anxious state I think to myself the following things: 1. Is this realistic? Does it actually affects anything major? 2. Is it worth feeling sad or anxious about? 3. Will it affect me in the long run? But there are times when i feel down for no reason and that's when i start to overanalyse everything like what someone said or the way they said it or am i boring (I feel like this a lot lol). Then I ask myself these questions
what i did to help me with depression was to find out what are your triggers. you did mention that it was at its worse last christmas, and that you're starting to fee the same way again and its almost christmas. also you need to deal with the bad things that you experienced in your pass because it could also be a silent trigger especially when you have tried to hide it for so long you forget what it is and then when you get a trigger you cant identify it because you have hidden it. i would suggest you see a counselor its a really good thing to talk to someone professional who can be able to walk you through the process of healing your mind. the mind is a very dangerous place to get lost in and i really hope you get help.
Crystal IslandGirl great advice! identifying my triggers is what's been the biggest help for me. Scola, I suggest this app called Dalio. it's a mood tracker. you enter how you feel at a particular time & what you've done that day. it comes with activities and you can add and edit activities. It's a great way to see what kinds of activities can help you feel better 💕
***** Have you tried him, have you prayed and given your heart to Christ? If the answer is no, then you wouldn't know if he works or not. He has worked for me and many others.
"But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint." Isaiah 40:31 (Psalm 31 is also my favorite for when I'm feeling down & lost). 💓 xo
thank you for sharing your story with us Scola, it was very brave of you. I hope it's improving now and you're feeling alot better but alwayds remember to stay positive. God is good and he wouldn't give you more than you can handle xxxx
the only thing that,can give fulfilment,real hapiness,peace,joy is through seekin God.you are a great woman who inspires us but to fill that void,raise up your spiritual self.read more of the word from bible,more sermons e.g Joyce Meyer.everyone goes thru that but knowin Jesus makes us victors
cathy I understand. It might be better if we know where she is with her spirituality first, though. As a Christian I know that depression and a relationship with God are not mutually exclusive.
Maybe you're experiencing something like seasonal depression additional to hyperthyrodism? I struggle with that too from september til april, basically. I wish you all the best though, you are such a strong and brave woman. Look what you already achieved! You are fabulous.👰💝
Ive got anxiety and depression and its destroying my life, im losing friends and im no longer as close at my family, its the worst thing ever idek what to do about it I hate myself for it and I don't see a future for myself, but its nice to see some people go through kinda similar things as me that way I don't feel lonely, thank you for sharing may God bless you:)
Depression sucks, it drags so much energy out of you! It's amazing how you've been "faking it till you've been making it", gives me a lot of hope! Well, this is what makes me happy: - Watching romantic comedies with other people! - Talking to my family/friends. - Writing in my diary - WORKING OUT! (strength training, cardio not so much? I don't know why, cause I love cardio as well, just not when I need to feel happier over a period of time.) - A BIG cup of tea with so-much-honey and soymilk - Music! - DOGS AND PUPPIES!
Aww... thanks for sharing! You're awesome, so I really hope you'll get cured from the depression. Love the vitamin D jokes by the way! Make sure you get enough of the D! ;)
heyyy, Scola! you are amazing, remember that! i know those feelings you described. i hate it when your own brain is making you feel shitty for no particular reason. this year has also been one of the hardest ones for me, but finally it feels like i'm getting better. the one thing that has helped me is being around friends, i could stay inside for week or smth, but when i finally went out everything was a little bit better. stay strong, stay brave, we can fight through this!
While I'm not knowledgeable about mental depression, I know friends who have it and it breaks my heart to see them drowning in anxiety and negativity. All I know is that ignoring or fighting against something too powerful to control will never work. I think acknowledging these episodes of depression and just allowing yourself to release the emotions will enable you to hopefully grow out of it or at least accept it healthily.
SAM-e 800 mg helps my depression!!! make sure to take vit-B with it. Glad your talking about this!! mine was so severe, it can be so isolating. LOVE YOU!
I though about this video for a while today and I don't think I have ever had someone describe that feeling of not being 100% yourself when you have hypothyroid and depression. You articulated it in such a way that makes total sense...
My husband had a depression a few years ago, my brother as well. It takes time to get out of it, it needs family and friends and love. But most of the time it needs yourself: Do something that makes you a little uncomfortable every day to bust the boundaries that make you depressed and to show yourself you can do it, it's ONLY in your head. There's no quick fix for anyone, but that's what helped the both of them and they feel good today. You are so worthy and so loved and we ALL are here for you. A depression is a condition, which means it can stop. You can stop it and we will be here.
Hi Scola. Is your hypothyroidism secondary to Hashimoto's Thyroiditis? Many people with hypothyroidism do have Hashimoto's, which is an autoimmune disease.
something that I always go back to was "... no matter how dark the night is morning always comes.." and I think if you apply to it the dark moments in life you'll realise that it doesn't last forever, morning always comes Scola! xxx
You know what? Issues with the thyroid kind of runs in my family. I should get tested for that soon. My uncle has hypothyroidism and my mom has hyperthyroidism. I've already gone through kidney failure, I wonder if I'll have issues with mine as well? Anyway, I'm glad you've figured all that out! I enjoyed listening because I'm struggling and having a wonky day myself. And my breakdowns seem to be getting more frequent.. whether that's me getting really upset and sad or really pissed off and angry. I've not gotten an actual professional opinion on what's going on in my head. I'm nervous to seek that out, kind of, but I think it's what I may need right now. Hmm, didn't mean to write that much in a comment but here we are. I hope you're having a better day after venting to us. Stay strong x
You know what? Issues with the thyroid kind of runs in my family. I should get tested for that soon. My uncle has hypothyroidism and my mom has hyperthyroidism. I've already gone through kidney failure, I wonder if I'll have issues with mine as well? Anyway, I'm glad you've figured all that out! I enjoyed listening because I'm struggling and having a wonky day myself. And my breakdowns seem to be getting more frequent.. whether that's me getting really upset and sad or really pissed off and angry. I've not gotten an actual professional opinion on what's going on in my head. I'm nervous to seek that out, kind of, buy I think it's what I may need right now. Hmm, didn't mean to write that much in a comment but here we are. I hope you're having a better day after venting to us. Stay strong x
Hi Scola, Im from the Netherlands ❤️ My brother is a beautiful sweet man who has autism. He used to say that 'Hey I am Stephan and I am autistic' we started correcting him benauwend he is so much more than the autism he has! So he started saying Hey I am Stephan and I have autism. I know that is such a small adjustment but it made such a difference for him❤️ what I am trying to say here, beautiful woman, that there is nothing wrong with you! That is what you have been saying throughout the whole video. You are the amazing Scola who has a thyroid problem, you are more than you can ever imagine and are loved beyond limits❤️ I am sorry for How you are feeling right now I am experiencing some wanky days myself lately and when that happends I love to listen to -there'll be days like this /van Morrison- and -let it be/Billy Preston- Lots of love, hugs and kisses
I've got hypothyroidism as well and definitely have experienced the same wonkiness. :/ getting blood tests regularly can help if they need to adjust the dose of your meds! I get mine checked every 3 months and my dose has needed to be increased almost every 3-6 months for the past few years but it's levelling out. Especially if you're consistently not feeling right, go get checked out, even if it's not time for your regular appointment! I've had mine for 9 years now--you get better at paying attention to yourself and knowing when things need to be adjusted. Best of luck managing your hypothyroidism--it's definitely not easy but it'll get easier with time! ❤
I think you should try to have a personal relationship with Jesus. I have probably never hard depression but when I start looking down on myself I listen to some Christian music and it reminds me of God's promises for my life because I feel that's the only thing that can give you fulfillment every other thing will make u to keep wanting more because they are superficial. And if u believe God can actually heal you from what you are going through and set you free. I know I might sound cliche but that's the truth. With that being said thanks for sharing and keep soaring my African sister (am Nigerian tho) 👍🏽😘😘.
Hehe! Vit D jokes! I run vit D deficient as well. I get sick a lot when it's very low. If you're still not feeling yourself, you should see a psychiatrist. Take care!
When I'm feeling a little down, which doesn't happen very often, I tell myself, I'm in a state of ennui. It's just so dramatic, it's funny to me. I then go out to the ocean or I'll go to perfume stores which makes me happy. Water is very soothing for me and I love sniffing perfumes even if I don't buy any. I'll usually be given samples to try. :)
Hey Scola, it's terrible that you've been experiencing this but I was just wondering if you've considered therapy/ seeing a psychologist? There's nothing more scary than feeling like your mind is going against you and as though you're watching the happiest moments in your life play out before you while feeling very disconnected from them; essentially going through the motions. Everyone gets wonky at times but it sounds like you could do with some help to deal with the wonkiness and share your burdens. I know not everyone believes in therapy but it's honestly a great way to deal with things, even the issues you don't realise are affecting you. Anyway I hope you get better and have fewer wonky days 😊
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds psalms 147:3. When I was going through my depression before I realized how much supplements I actually needed to take care of myself, this really helped me because it reminded me that God understands if I feel depressed even if I have no reason to be. PS I take L tyro scene to keep my self elevated and normal. I do this so that I don't have to go on actual medication. I like it because I'm not able to overdose but I have to be careful because I could be taking too little.
I was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism as well and it was really hard because I did not understand what was happening but I knew something was wrong... Take care sweetheart
It could be those traumatic things that have happened to you are just hitting you now. I'm the same way, the first 15 years of my life were very traumatic and now that I am out of it I am still affected by it. I call it the aftermath of what I have been through. I am hopefully going to start trauma therapy soon to help me through everything. I also have hyperthyroidism. I didn't know I had it but then my heart would have palpitations and I thought I was going to have a heart attack but the doctors told me it was hyperthyroidism. I haven't been put on the medication yet but it should happen soon. Even now I feel my thyroid gland pound. Or that's how I can best describe it. It feels like my heart is pounding but it is the thyroid gland because I have an overactive thyroid. So I completely understand everything that you are going through and it will get better, you just have to stay positive. There were times where I would just cry for 5 hours straight and not know why but it has definitely gotten better for me. I still cry here and there but it isn't nearly as bad. It's a good thing you have someone you can count on, having someone there really helps things. Even if you don't know why you are crying it's still nice to have a shoulder to cry on. I'm wishing you the best and I hope you continue to get better and find more happiness ❤️
I can relate to all your points on depression and how bad it affects us, I definitely think you're dealing with it in the right way, being honest with those around you, making them understand when you are most fragile, this is half of the battle won. Also having compassion on yourself, because if a friend is going through issues you would not shout at them to feel better, you would rather help to soothe their pain. And don't forget everyone is going through something, some worse than others, therefore show love to everyone you meet and to yourself. Most of what I know in dealing with stress and depression at my most difficult time, is from my favorite book by Ruby Wax - Sane new world. She writes about mindfulness, it is both funny and informative.
I'm sorry that you have to go through with this Scola. I was depressed for many years myself and it took me a long time to get where I am today. I completely understand what you mean by still not feeling like yourself. Sometimes I would question if I could recognize who I was and sometimes still do. I try my hardest to stay positive and be the best I can at the moment. Just never forget that there is always a way to better the life around you and how you feel inside will change in time with your surroundings. Best of luck, Scola!
I'm so sorry you felt that way but you are not alone trust me. we all go through some tough times but we gain experience and wisdom I feel u beautiful Scola I wish you the best in life health and happiness. also I recommend you to read the bible in order to get closer to God he is always willing to help us. read apocalypse 21:4
I have hypothyroidism too, so I know exactly what you mean by that detached, just thoroughly unhappy and depressed feeling you had. It really sucks but I'm so grateful that there's an easy treatment for it. Unfortunately things have started swinging in the hyperthyroid direction now, ehh hormonal issues are always very difficult. I'm glad you're feeling better now and good luck to all of you who are struggling with any health issues out there!
Having depression, anxiety and low self-esteem is literally painfully, I have so much bottled up and I get so paranoid that my mind is rarely in the right place... the only thing keeping me going is the "what if" and that hopefully things get better...
Hi hun we all go through this now and then, I go through this myself and it's not easy but it shows that we are human being. No body has a perfect life no mater how some ppl try to front, I appreciate you for being honest". keep ur head up u are beautiful.
Give it time and let the Vit D build up in your body. Things will get better :) I had an iron deficiency and still do and never feel like myself but it's slowly building back and I have good and bad days.
I had hyperthyroidism too it came out of nowhere it seems. Your mood is up and down and tyou feel like you can't control it. The meds help and along with regular self help measures you'll be fine. Defo take the medication untill its under control, took me about a year to get it under control, it can be life threatening if left untreated. Take care Scola :) x
You sound so down to earth and you manage to be so sweet and funny at the same time I think I fell in love with you in this video ❤️️ Quote: 15. When you hit rockbottom: “When I had nothing more to lose, I was given everything. When I ceased to be who I am, I found myself. When I experienced humiliation and yet kept on walking, I understood that I was free to choose my destiny.” Motivation basically.
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I'm going through depression at the moment so I can definitely relate to what you're describing. I have days where everything feels hopeless and wrong. A quote I really like lately is this one: "love the moment. Flowers grow out of dark moments. Therefore, each moment is vital. It affects the whole. Life is a succession of such moments and to live each is to succeed."
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You're not the type of youtuber that I would normally subscribe to and watch, but the main reason why I did subscribe to you and I DO watch you regularly is because of your always positive attitude, motivating videos, and what seems like bubbly personality. I think that your videos really brighten up people's days. I can't imagine anyone watching your videos and not feeling at least a little bit better about themselves. I'm very sorry that you're dealing with depression. I've experienced serious depression myself for almost 2 years and one thing that I can tell you is that eventually things will get better. Much better. As long as you don't give up on yourself, it will get better. Don't ever be afraid or ashamed of expressing your feelings. Always talk to people. Your friends, your parents, maybe even strangers on the internet. Anyone who is willing to listen. Getting things off your chest can be the best therapy. That's why I'm glad that you decided to make this video and don't be afraid to make more if you feel the need to. Your fans/followers/viewers wish you the best and they want to see you make good progress. Hopefully those "wonky days" become less and less frequent :)
glad I could help
GIRL i feel you so hard on all of this :( Hypothyroidism, seasonal depression, it all sucks. It's awful when happy and positive things are happening in your life but it's like that joy can't penetrate into your mind or heart. I'm sending you so much love and I hope we both get better and our thyroids can wake the f up and do their job!
Try Jesus? I know your hair dresser kudzy peeps is Christian try talk to her if you haven't already. I use to feel so void and without hope also but since I decided to believe in Jesus that void has been filled. No everyday is not perfect I don't know anyone who has a perfect day everyday and is always happy but my life is way better with Him. 😌
well said
Gabrielle S couldnt agree more 👏🏾
Amen
BATTLEFIELD OF THE MIND by joyce meyer on youtube!!😊 This was an extreme help for me
Oh Scola, you are such a great woman, do never forget that
I know a few things about being depressed. I feel like crap all the time, when I was a teen I thought that it's just temporary, I will feel better when I do this this and this, blablabla. Surely when I go to uni I will gain some friends and such. But now I am 24 and nothing changed. I just graduated uni with useless degree, I don't have a job, don't have any friends, I am unhappy with myself and the way I look. Crying is like eating to me, I do it all the time. I am not living, I am vegetating and waiting for better times. I don't know why I am writing this, today was just a bad day and I am really tired with live at the moment and I don't have anyone to talk too.
lauralanthalasa7 I see you and I hope you feel the support. I'm praying for you. In practical terms, don't give up. As Scola said, make sure you explore the medical options. In addition, use this time to just throw yourself into something different. Think of it this way 'what do I have to lose?'. It could be fitness - you can use YT to inspire you, or drawing, or singing, or dancing. Just something you know will challenge you, make you confront some fears. Think of what you're good at, at explore it. Maybe learn a language- there's free apps like Dualingo. The battle is in keeping your mind occupied with positive thoughts or things that direct your thoughts in a positive direction. I've had times in my life where I have felt deep despair and helplessness - just out of control of my life, but I held onto the promises of God, and applied some practical methods to my life. Change was not overnight, but it came. Keep pushing. xxx
lauralanthalasa7 exactly ditto i am going through for last two three years. and now i feel like nothing is curing this...and now I usually have thoughts like I don't want to live. nothing will be alright..no friends,no career, don't know how to what to do..i never go out... I don't know how to go out...when i was a child my parents were so over possessive and raised me strictly so now i m 26 and i feel JUST alone...i have also fears if i go out and ofcourse its right i don't know how things works..people will laugh at me..i have anxiety, depression and feelings like nothing is going right and it never will be... whether i do job or earn or anything.. anything will never make any sense....i want to be loved. Have thoughts like if i start anything and failed then all will tease me that already you're late and now you are failing...also my love kind of broke up with me when I started feeling depression, he says he is with me always but he doesn't talk he said we have no future..just be my friend unconditionally..and i am like I love him so much and he is really i good human being.. I mean all bad things came together and i got hit badly. I don't have anybody to talk I tried talking with one or two people but i feel like nobody can't and they are not understanding. People just keep saying do job do this do that why are you insincere and not serious. I feel alone and cry cry cry Everytime. And now i am homesick too. :(
I'm so sorry about what happend to you and your boyfriend. I hope things get better, but in meantime try to get help, maybe you'll feel better. I'm praying for you.
Pink Lowe thank you so much love..i will pray for all the people in the world who in anyway are suffering from depression or stress. sending lots of love :)
Hi, hope you are well. Does it get better?
Whenever I feel like I'm about to get into a depressive/anxious state I think to myself the following things:
1. Is this realistic? Does it actually affects anything major?
2. Is it worth feeling sad or anxious about?
3. Will it affect me in the long run?
But there are times when i feel down for no reason and that's when i start to overanalyse everything like what someone said or the way they said it or am i boring (I feel like this a lot lol). Then I ask myself these questions
what i did to help me with depression was to find out what are your triggers. you did mention that it was at its worse last christmas, and that you're starting to fee the same way again and its almost christmas. also you need to deal with the bad things that you experienced in your pass because it could also be a silent trigger especially when you have tried to hide it for so long you forget what it is and then when you get a trigger you cant identify it because you have hidden it. i would suggest you see a counselor its a really good thing to talk to someone professional who can be able to walk you through the process of healing your mind. the mind is a very dangerous place to get lost in and i really hope you get help.
Crystal IslandGirl great advice! identifying my triggers is what's been the biggest help for me. Scola, I suggest this app called Dalio. it's a mood tracker. you enter how you feel at a particular time & what you've done that day. it comes with activities and you can add and edit activities. It's a great way to see what kinds of activities can help you feel better 💕
The vitamin D jokes had me giggling...! :D :D
I think this was a great video. Thanks for being honest about the ups and downs.
Jesus can help. Try Jesus
Amen!!
Jesus doesn't do sh*t! You have to be able to help yourself!!!
***** Have you tried him, have you prayed and given your heart to Christ? If the answer is no, then you wouldn't know if he works or not. He has worked for me and many others.
***** The Lord is real sweetie and I promise you that your entire life will change the moment you accept that.
The moment you accept Jesus Christ
"But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint." Isaiah 40:31 (Psalm 31 is also my favorite for when I'm feeling down & lost). 💓 xo
Amen.
thank you for sharing your story with us Scola, it was very brave of you. I hope it's improving now and you're feeling alot better but alwayds remember to stay positive. God is good and he wouldn't give you more than you can handle xxxx
the only thing that,can give fulfilment,real hapiness,peace,joy is through seekin God.you are a great woman who inspires us but to fill that void,raise up your spiritual self.read more of the word from bible,more sermons e.g Joyce Meyer.everyone goes thru that but knowin Jesus makes us victors
cathy I'm pretty new to her channel. Did Scola say she isn't Christian?
MntakaNcube jus tryin to help her grow her spiritual side.offcourse she might be but my main story is her focusin more on the spiritual
cathy I understand. It might be better if we know where she is with her spirituality first, though. As a Christian I know that depression and a relationship with God are not mutually exclusive.
I didn’t know I could have depression... I cry almost everyday it sucks. I just finished crying and I searched this up, everything feels like poop.
Maybe you're experiencing something like seasonal depression additional to hyperthyrodism? I struggle with that too from september til april, basically.
I wish you all the best though, you are such a strong and brave woman. Look what you already achieved! You are fabulous.👰💝
I had hyper thyroidism as a toddler but I don't have it anymore? thats strange...anyways great video! loved your vitamin d jokes😂
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Cast all your cares on him! Put Jesus first. He is a way maker. Nothing else will work without him. I just saying
keep going and be grateful it will pay back one day ;-)
Ive got anxiety and depression and its destroying my life, im losing friends and im no longer as close at my family, its the worst thing ever idek what to do about it I hate myself for it and I don't see a future for myself, but its nice to see some people go through kinda similar things as me that way I don't feel lonely, thank you for sharing may God bless you:)
neonblackbeast keep your head up ❤️
Hey hun. I will keep you in my prayers. And may God give you more strength every day. xxx
thank you for sharing. I am glad you feeling more of yourself.
You are great. ;)
Depression sucks, it drags so much energy out of you! It's amazing how you've been "faking it till you've been making it", gives me a lot of hope!
Well, this is what makes me happy:
- Watching romantic comedies with other people!
- Talking to my family/friends.
- Writing in my diary
- WORKING OUT! (strength training, cardio not so much? I don't know why, cause I love cardio as well, just not when I need to feel happier over a period of time.)
- A BIG cup of tea with so-much-honey and soymilk
- Music!
- DOGS AND PUPPIES!
-_____________- *never knew you had a vlog channel going to sub now*
#snapchatfam ❤️❤️❤️
Your an inspirational youtuber
Lmao the vitamin D jokes!!!!!
I ❤️you Scola and you slay girl continue being happy I ❤️your smile 😘😘😘
Try a change of environment :)
Love you Scola☺️
Aww... thanks for sharing! You're awesome, so I really hope you'll get cured from the depression. Love the vitamin D jokes by the way! Make sure you get enough of the D! ;)
Hey Scola ! I know this is a odd question but are you Christian ?
You are sweet Scola!
heyyy, Scola! you are amazing, remember that! i know those feelings you described. i hate it when your own brain is making you feel shitty for no particular reason. this year has also been one of the hardest ones for me, but finally it feels like i'm getting better. the one thing that has helped me is being around friends, i could stay inside for week or smth, but when i finally went out everything was a little bit better. stay strong, stay brave, we can fight through this!
Awwwwww you are So beautiful Scola !
Maybe try mindfulness meditation Scola. It really helped me
Thanks for sharing, you've certainly encouraged me, hang in there. Sending hugs your way!
God bless you Scola, it must have really sucked to have had such a deep depression and have no idea why it was happening. Hope things get better x
Sending a virtual hug to you love💞💞💞💞 I will pray for u Scola
While I'm not knowledgeable about mental depression, I know friends who have it and it breaks my heart to see them drowning in anxiety and negativity. All I know is that ignoring or fighting against something too powerful to control will never work. I think acknowledging these episodes of depression and just allowing yourself to release the emotions will enable you to hopefully grow out of it or at least accept it healthily.
SAM-e 800 mg helps my depression!!! make sure to take vit-B with it. Glad your talking about this!! mine was so severe, it can be so isolating. LOVE YOU!
Thanks for being so real Scola :) you go guuurl
I though about this video for a while today and I don't think I have ever had someone describe that feeling of not being 100% yourself when you have hypothyroid and depression. You articulated it in such a way that makes total sense...
Did some of you not watch the video to the end!!!! She as depressed due to HYPOTHYROIDISM!!! What does GOD have to so with it!!!
My husband had a depression a few years ago, my brother as well. It takes time to get out of it, it needs family and friends and love. But most of the time it needs yourself: Do something that makes you a little uncomfortable every day to bust the boundaries that make you depressed and to show yourself you can do it, it's ONLY in your head. There's no quick fix for anyone, but that's what helped the both of them and they feel good today. You are so worthy and so loved and we ALL are here for you. A depression is a condition, which means it can stop. You can stop it and we will be here.
Hi Scola. Is your hypothyroidism secondary to Hashimoto's Thyroiditis? Many people with hypothyroidism do have Hashimoto's, which is an autoimmune disease.
something that I always go back to was "... no matter how dark the night is morning always comes.." and I think if you apply to it the dark moments in life you'll realise that it doesn't last forever, morning always comes Scola! xxx
You know what? Issues with the thyroid kind of runs in my family. I should get tested for that soon. My uncle has hypothyroidism and my mom has hyperthyroidism. I've already gone through kidney failure, I wonder if I'll have issues with mine as well? Anyway, I'm glad you've figured all that out! I enjoyed listening because I'm struggling and having a wonky day myself. And my breakdowns seem to be getting more frequent.. whether that's me getting really upset and sad or really pissed off and angry. I've not gotten an actual professional opinion on what's going on in my head. I'm nervous to seek that out, kind of, but I think it's what I may need right now.
Hmm, didn't mean to write that much in a comment but here we are. I hope you're having a better day after venting to us. Stay strong x
You know what? Issues with the thyroid kind of runs in my family. I should get tested for that soon. My uncle has hypothyroidism and my mom has hyperthyroidism. I've already gone through kidney failure, I wonder if I'll have issues with mine as well? Anyway, I'm glad you've figured all that out! I enjoyed listening because I'm struggling and having a wonky day myself. And my breakdowns seem to be getting more frequent.. whether that's me getting really upset and sad or really pissed off and angry. I've not gotten an actual professional opinion on what's going on in my head. I'm nervous to seek that out, kind of, buy I think it's what I may need right now.
Hmm, didn't mean to write that much in a comment but here we are. I hope you're having a better day after venting to us. Stay strong x
Hi Scola, Im from the Netherlands ❤️ My brother is a beautiful sweet man who has autism. He used to say that 'Hey I am Stephan and I am autistic' we started correcting him benauwend he is so much more than the autism he has! So he started saying Hey I am Stephan and I have autism. I know that is such a small adjustment but it made such a difference for him❤️ what I am trying to say here, beautiful woman, that there is nothing wrong with you! That is what you have been saying throughout the whole video. You are the amazing Scola who has a thyroid problem, you are more than you can ever imagine and are loved beyond limits❤️ I am sorry for How you are feeling right now I am experiencing some wanky days myself lately and when that happends I love to listen to -there'll be days like this /van Morrison- and -let it be/Billy Preston-
Lots of love, hugs and kisses
I've got hypothyroidism as well and definitely have experienced the same wonkiness. :/ getting blood tests regularly can help if they need to adjust the dose of your meds! I get mine checked every 3 months and my dose has needed to be increased almost every 3-6 months for the past few years but it's levelling out. Especially if you're consistently not feeling right, go get checked out, even if it's not time for your regular appointment! I've had mine for 9 years now--you get better at paying attention to yourself and knowing when things need to be adjusted. Best of luck managing your hypothyroidism--it's definitely not easy but it'll get easier with time! ❤
I think you should try to have a personal relationship with Jesus. I have probably never hard depression but when I start looking down on myself I listen to some Christian music and it reminds me of God's promises for my life because I feel that's the only thing that can give you fulfillment every other thing will make u to keep wanting more because they are superficial. And if u believe God can actually heal you from what you are going through and set you free. I know I might sound cliche but that's the truth. With that being said thanks for sharing and keep soaring my African sister (am Nigerian tho) 👍🏽😘😘.
Hehe! Vit D jokes! I run vit D deficient as well. I get sick a lot when it's very low. If you're still not feeling yourself, you should see a psychiatrist. Take care!
When I'm feeling a little down, which doesn't happen very often, I tell myself, I'm in a state of ennui. It's just so dramatic, it's funny to me. I then go out to the ocean or I'll go to perfume stores which makes me happy. Water is very soothing for me and I love sniffing perfumes even if I don't buy any. I'll usually be given samples to try. :)
Hey Scola, it's terrible that you've been experiencing this but I was just wondering if you've considered therapy/ seeing a psychologist? There's nothing more scary than feeling like your mind is going against you and as though you're watching the happiest moments in your life play out before you while feeling very disconnected from them; essentially going through the motions. Everyone gets wonky at times but it sounds like you could do with some help to deal with the wonkiness and share your burdens. I know not everyone believes in therapy but it's honestly a great way to deal with things, even the issues you don't realise are affecting you. Anyway I hope you get better and have fewer wonky days 😊
Sending love and positive vibes your way! 'Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations' :)
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds psalms 147:3. When I was going through my depression before I realized how much supplements I actually needed to take care of myself, this really helped me because it reminded me that God understands if I feel depressed even if I have no reason to be. PS I take L tyro scene to keep my self elevated and normal. I do this so that I don't have to go on actual medication. I like it because I'm not able to overdose but I have to be careful because I could be taking too little.
I was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism as well and it was really hard because I did not understand what was happening but I knew something was wrong...
Take care sweetheart
It could be those traumatic things that have happened to you are just hitting you now. I'm the same way, the first 15 years of my life were very traumatic and now that I am out of it I am still affected by it. I call it the aftermath of what I have been through. I am hopefully going to start trauma therapy soon to help me through everything. I also have hyperthyroidism. I didn't know I had it but then my heart would have palpitations and I thought I was going to have a heart attack but the doctors told me it was hyperthyroidism. I haven't been put on the medication yet but it should happen soon. Even now I feel my thyroid gland pound. Or that's how I can best describe it. It feels like my heart is pounding but it is the thyroid gland because I have an overactive thyroid. So I completely understand everything that you are going through and it will get better, you just have to stay positive. There were times where I would just cry for 5 hours straight and not know why but it has definitely gotten better for me. I still cry here and there but it isn't nearly as bad. It's a good thing you have someone you can count on, having someone there really helps things. Even if you don't know why you are crying it's still nice to have a shoulder to cry on. I'm wishing you the best and I hope you continue to get better and find more happiness ❤️
I can relate to all your points on depression and how bad it affects us, I definitely think you're dealing with it in the right way, being honest with those around you, making them understand when you are most fragile, this is half of the battle won. Also having compassion on yourself, because if a friend is going through issues you would not shout at them to feel better, you would rather help to soothe their pain. And don't forget everyone is going through something, some worse than others, therefore show love to everyone you meet and to yourself.
Most of what I know in dealing with stress and depression at my most difficult time, is from my favorite book by Ruby Wax - Sane new world. She writes about mindfulness, it is both funny and informative.
I sort of understand what your going through, I'm not in the full situation but I have felt some of it and that was hard for me! Keep strong Hun x!
Can you do a feature with KSI please, if possible.
You are doing a great job, love you. xo
I'm sorry that you have to go through with this Scola. I was depressed for many years myself and it took me a long time to get where I am today. I completely understand what you mean by still not feeling like yourself. Sometimes I would question if I could recognize who I was and sometimes still do. I try my hardest to stay positive and be the best I can at the moment. Just never forget that there is always a way to better the life around you and how you feel inside will change in time with your surroundings. Best of luck, Scola!
I'm so sorry you felt that way but you are not alone trust me. we all go through some tough times but we gain experience and wisdom I feel u beautiful Scola I wish you the best in life health and happiness. also I recommend you to read the bible in order to get closer to God he is always willing to help us. read apocalypse 21:4
Wow this EXACT same thing happened to me even the Christmas thing...
I have hypothyroidism too, so I know exactly what you mean by that detached, just thoroughly unhappy and depressed feeling you had. It really sucks but I'm so grateful that there's an easy treatment for it. Unfortunately things have started swinging in the hyperthyroid direction now, ehh hormonal issues are always very difficult. I'm glad you're feeling better now and good luck to all of you who are struggling with any health issues out there!
Having depression, anxiety and low self-esteem is literally painfully, I have so much bottled up and I get so paranoid that my mind is rarely in the right place... the only thing keeping me going is the "what if" and that hopefully things get better...
Always remain positive and hold on to the good moments and let the bad ones slide by
Hi hun we all go through this now and then, I go through this myself and it's not easy but it shows that we are human being. No body has a perfect life no mater how some ppl try to front, I appreciate you for being honest". keep ur head up u are beautiful.
Give it time and let the Vit D build up in your body. Things will get better :) I had an iron deficiency and still do and never feel like myself but it's slowly building back and I have good and bad days.
so much of what you describe is familiar scola. i'm so glad you are in a better place in life now and appreciate that you would share this with us
am glad you're better. sending you hugs and prayer.xx
Thank Scola for sharing, I appreciate you
You are so beautiful and happy even in sharing.Keep up the positive vibes Scola
I cry every day I don't know I just can't hold it I think I am the only one that does cry 3 times a day
Praying for you Scola
I cry everyday because my dad only cares about me
my mom hits me everyday
Notification my princess ❤️❤️🤘🏿🤘🏿
Thank you 💙 that's all I can say is thank you Scola 💜
Thank you for doing this video.
I dun know why im cryng everyday 😔
please do am we update . did u take medications
it's fine giiiiirl just do yo theeeeeeng
Can you do Draw MY Life video?
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converts to Islam .............
Beautiful soul. Peace :)
Praying for you Scola xx
Thank you for the info!!
your hair is amazing..!
Glad you feel better.
You're a trooper mate :)
I had hyperthyroidism too it came out of nowhere it seems. Your mood is up and down and tyou feel like you can't control it. The meds help and along with regular self help measures you'll be fine. Defo take the medication untill its under control, took me about a year to get it under control, it can be life threatening if left untreated. Take care Scola :) x
and your hair is the bomb.com girl love it!
Go back to school
I love you girl
sending love
sorry scola
Love this
You sound so down to earth and you manage to be so sweet and funny at the same time I think I fell in love with you in this video ❤️️
Quote: 15. When you hit rockbottom:
“When I had nothing more to lose, I was given everything. When I ceased to be who I am, I found myself. When I experienced humiliation and yet kept on walking, I understood that I was free to choose my destiny.”
Motivation basically.