Sesiko - Dementia Loves Cancer

All the work on this album was done by Sesiko, which is me.
(Lyrics)
"She"
I don't remember
One blink and after they've lost their temper
Blink again and there's a trace of anger
Now all around me is collapsed into tears
And I don't remember
"I"
She doesn't remember
Of what she has done
Don't make me lose my temper
Or is she playing me for fun?
Can't stop trembling from anger
And she doesn't remember
"She"
Is the time moving too fast?
Can't grasp anything but now
To get across the dark red sea of blood
"I"
The blood is dripping from her breast
She keeps scratching the wound with interest
Doesn't recognize that will kill herself
Despite how hard I tried to tell her and yell
Medicine just a few more left
Hardly hope to let her be cured
Trying to relive pain for her sake
But she won't listen and remember
As if dementia loves cancer
Even though I laid her under restraint
She frees herself with an incredible strength
Scratching the wound again
Standing bewildered
Below her dark red sea of blood
How hard I tried to stop her
Everything I've done went for naught
I can't take her anymore
But no place to care of her without cost
Not a fucking fake drama
In fact, no mercy for the poor
No more medicine left
No hope to let her be cured
Gave up reliving pain for her sake
Let her embrace the Reaper
As with dementia loves cancer
"She"
I am scared
Don't know what I shoud do
It pulls me from under
The dark red sea of blood
"I"
Cancer never fade away with her memories
But will fade her away from my memories
(日本語)
"彼女"
何も覚えてない
瞬きすれば彼らは激怒する
瞬く間に部屋が荒らされてる
なぜ彼らは泣き崩れてるのか
そして私は何も覚えてない
"私"
彼女は何も覚えてない
自分が何をしたのかさえ
私をこれ以上苦しめないで
それとも私を弄んでいるのか
怒りで身体の震えが止まらない
そして彼女は何も覚えてない
"彼女"
時の流れが速すぎるのでは？
何も掴めないけど
この血みどろの海を渡らないと
"私"
彼女の胸から滴る血
傷口に興味をもって掻き続ける
自覚のない自殺行為
いくら叫んでも止めることはない
残る薬はあと少し
治る希望はほとんどない
ただただ苦痛を和らげたくても
彼女は聞かず覚えもしない
まるで彼女が癌を好んでるかのように
いくら彼女を拘束しても
それを解く凄まじい力
再び傷口を掻いては
呆然と立ち尽くす
その下に広がる
血みどろの海
どんなに私が止めようとも
全ての努力は無駄になる
もう私の手には負えない
だが救いの対価を払えない
虚偽まみれの劇とは違う
現実は貧しい者を救わない
そして薬はもう尽きた
治る希望なんてない
苦痛を和らげることは諦めた
もう彼女に死神を抱かせよう
まるで彼女が癌を愛するかのように
"彼女"
怖い
どうすればいいのかわからない
血みどろの海の底から
私をひきづり込もうとする
"私"
癌は彼女の記憶と共に去らない
私の記憶から彼女を拭い去るだけさ