'Shameful' things happened cause I yearned to be seen... now it's clear that it's all pure innocence
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'Shameful' things happened cause I yearned to be seen... now it's clear that it's all pure innocence
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i started to cry uncontrollably three minutes into the video. My mother had always said I was the 'redundant' kid she didnt want. She got really sick. I came to her deathbed and asked if she had anything to say to me, she said no and asked to see my brother. I really wanted to heal before she died and I was unable to. Here I am 20 years later, for the first time, I finally could say it out loud my mother didnt love me much and it's okay.
@NorthStar_13 - I'm very sorry to hear that. It can cause a lifetime of pain. My parents were also like your mother. Great you can cry and let those feelings move through you.
thanks for the reply. I hope you could also find your peace in your relationship with your parents. Just now a realization came to me that there's no shame in loving our parents despite of the fact that they probably didn't love us back. @@SimonM282
Everything goes exactly as Fate planned. Ironically my story acts a a reflection of that, I never loved my characters mother. Never had any ill will towards her, just never loved her. Though to be fair, love is an illusion anyway so meh.
She loved you the most. You touched something in her she loved so much that it hurt her, you reminded her of a beauty she lost and couldn’t bear be reminded of. She loved you the most because you reminded of her what she has been trying to forget about: pure, perfect sincerity
@@desidudes78 Please don't just make up stuff, you're making no sense. She accepted her painful truth, just let it be.
When you start to recognize your parent as just another human with their own problems and flaws, and how those aren't yours, it helps.
💜
Hasn’t helped me because I’m still being treated the way that traumatized me
I still love living and laughing and learning but I have some incredibly tough emotions that I have to deal with because of the way I was treated and acknowledging their flaws doesn’t help ultimately when I have to interact with them
it’s that mentality that is improving our relationship. i have no expectations of them, they’re only human. what happened can’t be changed but i'm in control of how i decide to deal with it, even if sometimes i break and allow myself to be upset and feel resentment.
Nah they are adults. Stop enabling bad behaviour
Most parents are adult children. They have children for all the wrong reasons. Nobody acts more childish than immature adult parents. It's good to not relate to that energy pattern as it fosters a much more profound understanding of reality as you've realized.
Which is crazy I thought peolle had kids like cats. To spoil and love them. Some do but most are in animal instinct
My mom spoiled me but also emotionally neglected me and had outbursts where she abused and insulted me. I sometimes feel like she had me because she couldn’t form relationships with other people and a child can run away or something like that.
She once told me she used to bring candy to school because she was bullied and that was the only way she could feel like the kids liked her.
Like she spoiled me and said I love you a lot but it never felt like it was about me.
So true... Scary, but a simple truth.
Then they should admit it and change their ways 🙄
@@spaceowl5957 i related to that sm with a friend i used to have. i hope you give urself sm grace and love bc i think that must have been traumatizing for you
childhood complex trauma is a heck of a unseen pandemic. i wish everyone speedy and meaningful healing.
so true Theo Vons podcast about it had me in shambles. god please flood the earth in healingness
I came to the same conclusion when I turned 32. No more trying to make people fit into my fantasy of who they aren’t.
What do you mean ?
I hope more and more people see that the need for sex with many people or to be seen as attractive and especially strangers and not out of love is trauma, wanting attention, wanting validation. It IS deeply ingrained in society and not many people see it. Sex should be out of love, it should not be needed, it is something intimate between two people and like you said, it's just there, it is normal in partnership, it is love, it is caring
People need to realize the group of tiny hats pushing this upon all of us. Men and women.
Ewe huemans should be aware...👁️
Love is not an emotion, but a quality; love means loyalty,
obedience, virtue, empathy... honesty that ewe huemans have inverted backwards.....👁️
People do recognise it's association with trauma that's why it is seen as taboo although people rarely question the taboo and the 'purpose' that it serves and aren't aware of the root cause of the taboo arising in the first place, the human species didn't get this far with arbitrary rules. The problem is that instead of seeing them as people that need help and being understanding to their situation they instead look at them like lesser than when it isn't their fault, because how can you cause yourself? This is the issue with lots of traits that are stigmatized by society however, it is up to the individual to overcome these issues.
We should instead help to foster a society that is considerate and that can definitely happen. Just look at how far we've come with mental health and how it's perceived, 60 years ago if you had a mental illness you would be lobotomised, shocked etc. and these practices are now recognised as inhumane.
@@tkay8548 I notice more the people praising hook up culture and trying to normalize it (liberal feminism etc) , maybe we have experienced two different sides / perspectives. And although I know those people need help, I've grown quite spiteful, due to the lack of self awareness and the ignorance I usually witness when trying to speak up about it
You’re not alone. Abuse as a child led me down a path of attention seeking that led me into a lot of negative sexual and interpersonal relationships. It started with “waking up” to my terrible habits and telling myself the truth about my unhealthy life. You can only be seen by those who want to see you, and those can be few and far between. On the healing path as well. Good luck :)
As I age I don't see it as abuse but a child being a parent. I saw that my dad is horribly shy and tries to hide it,. I am 29 and just out grown the trauma I am past they still deal with. My trauma is in different lane then them now.
You will never be “seen” if your parents are narcissists. They can’t see beyond their own egos. But the saddest part is that the way they have treated you was the way they were treated.
The ancestral patterns need to stop with us, who are awakening. We will need to love them, the way we wishes they would love us.
There should be more channels of people being more honest and authentic. All the best to you.💜✨🙏
So true!
They don't want to be loved that's the part you don't get. You will get pushed away it's not for you to fix. Know your limits it's out of your control.
Maybe it is a matter of definition. We definately don’t Need to nurture them with love and be humble towards them in person. But we kind of need to love all of it don’t we, if we want to experience non dualism…
Even truth is love. Seeing is love. We can see them.
thanks.. yes....I know exactly what you mean, Blessings
I chose not to kill myself and move on with my life.
I will never look back to someone who left me.
11/1/24.
❤❤❤🫶
I realized that wanting others to see me was really about me wanting to see myself. We have to know who we are and accept ourselves and others are just projections of that.
Thank you for this beautiful insight. So true.
When I ( a female) was in my thirties my mother told me when I was born she wanted a boy. I’m 69 now and I realized things are not good or bad just what it is. We tend to want to label things. Like you said ‘it’s just energy’.
I’m at peace now just acknowledging and letting go. I don’t want to be a victim.
U could offer her tinder??? Like mom if u want a boy go get a bf and make it happen.
Like a cat it chooses u. U don't choose the baby/ cat that come through portal. U have child like a cat to spoil , help it grow like a plant
My sister told me this as a small child. & that I was adopted. My parents denied it but I always knew. She didn’t know She was Also adopted
So true. Self mastery is a lonely road to adulthood. Attachment anxiety is a tough hidden struggle.
"To need someone to feel safe anymore is just not needed." ❤
I feel this ❤️🔥
We are safe, the societal fear engine needs to be shutdown
Yeah, when you have internet and social media validation, who needs human beings?
Nah my friend. What we are speaking of here is ❤️🔥UNCONDITIONAL SELF LOVE ❤️🔥
It is the greatest lesson that anyone could ever come to learn. All the years I spent drowning in self hatred was more than worth it and I would suffer even 10 times more than what I did suffer to be able to taste this level of self-love I now taste.
I'm learning how to not be swayed by other people's egos at work. They depress me. Somehow that lower vibrational energy around me makes me re-attach to the ego and become depressed. I have to repeatedly shed that sense of self away every time I leave work.
I so get that
Yes ! The corporate world is so toxic....people bring all their problems and hang ups into the work place.
I have another 5 years before I retire and it seems an eternity.
Depression from my workplace is regular for me. Someone once said when they walked through the door, it was like a big dark cloud hung over everything.
Never seek approval from your parents. Be something in your own right that far surpasses their expectations and gloat. They might still see your achievements as underwhelming because of the path you took but you know you got to them cause of your achievements. Fight negativity with negativity. Never take the high road. Such is the ways of the Sith.
In IFS it’s called “unburdening.” But IFS is definitely not non dual. It’s beyond dual. It’s multi. You have a bunch of parts that were created during early trauma and they helped you survive. But now in adulthood they cause problems, make you lose your temper, make you feel sad, make trouble dealing with difficult situations. By identifying the parts you can get to what they’re protecting, unmask the wounded orphan, do some grieving and healing, reason with the protector parts, slowly modify their roles, heal, and move on. Being in the centered self is key. That enables one to radiate some caring compassion and have the courage and curiosity to confront the parts. You’re doing it. The denial of birthright is a tough one, the toughest in terms of parenting fails.
I’m finding this during a transitional phase in my life. I’m waking up to the “why’s” of my life. I still have a lot of work to do but I am in the right mindset to face the challenge. I am more honest and forgiving to myself.
Bless you and I hope you reach your goals.
This is such a deep, vulnerable, authentic message. I am scared too as its almost like i feel alive for the first time. Thank you so much for sharing this.
Its not about being seen, its about proving them wrong because they attacked.
It's not to prove to them anything. You just have to be and they'll eventually realize it. No forcing it.
you are one of the truest expression perhaps on youtube...sorry to make such a bold statement...thanks for showing up
so many forms of resistance,
so many chances to practice
allowing
It sounds like a cliche, but yeah I don’t know who wouldn’t want to be loved, understood, or seen.
You aren’t alone, and it is beautiful that you shared. I walk this road with you. In love and in light.
As a child and growing up, you want to be seen and be loved and get attention. If your parents don't give you love and keep ignoring your needs, or are cold, then they are just fk loosers. Simple as that.
That's true maturity.
It is true that the younger generation always blames their parents for what they feel they are lacking. On and on it goes. My mother could not see me either. I wanted her love so bad but she was too busy having babies and asking me to help her. She had 12. I was the eldest daughter. I was so ignored that the local pedo priest at the catholic church got a hold of me. I am 69 now and am grateful for the memory returning 3 years ago, grateful I did not commit suicide like so many others. I feel sad for my mom and dad because the Silent Generation were born into War and had plenty of trauma and very few tools to deal with it. So they worked sun up to sun down and turns out that actually helped them deal with their traumas. Bless them. They did the best they could with what they had.
Reminds me of my grandparents. Early life was so full of trauma, but it seems to have created a steady line of workaholics!
Oh there’s a hawk in your video.
Thank you so much for this video. Im just a girl in her early 20s and i see myself so deep in this. Chasing, longing, yearning for men and their attention. Having Hypersexual behavior with the goal to feel good and close with myself and with other men. And on top that the train of shame that comes along with it. I just want to have a genuine connection with men , with myself, with my parents. Still on the road of figuring it out. Expressing what u feel and your journey was really helpful and insightful. Thank you.
Everything about this video is captivating. The beautiful setting of nature that exists around you. Your cadence. The life and death aspect of you sitting there in a cemetary. Then the eagle or hawk in the sky cawing as you said "its unlikely that you'll cause any damage" is palpable. I feel calmer and more peaceful as I listen to you. It feels like Source or universal wisdom is coming out of your mouth as you speak. It's almost as if you're in an artistic flow state and the art that you're creating is verbal... maybe you are. Thank you for sharing your truth with us all. Thank you.
Perfectly stated
Wow this sounds like honest and raw poetry. I am encaptivated by the story, since it is so relatable to everyone with CPTSD but also the way you express yourself 😮 well made 🙏🏻
Adverse childhood experiences. Look it up for those who can relate.
It sounds like you have a non abusive family but there were some needs that were neglected by your care takers. Just because they were not abusive physically doesn't mean you shouldn't feel the way you do.
I don’t think there is anything wrong with wanting to be seen. Perhaps it is a spiritual need. Perhaps it is an aspect of connection. It feels good. It feels joyful. Like you said, it feels like as aspect of love. It’s possible. I think someone always sees us, even when we don’t see ourselves. Someone always loves us. Even if it is our ancestors and angels. No one is abandoned, no one is forgotten, no one is unwanted, no one is invisible.
Many are abandoned, everyone will be forgotten, a lot of people are unwanted and there is invisible people.
There are shitty people out there.
What a blatantly delusional world you live in
Lists of issues present just from this comment. Seek Jesus and find the love and help you need. Amen.
I had a massive stroke 7 years ago and my center picked me up and put myself back together but in a new way! I am a new being! No trauma present but only a new way! During the stroke a man who was my Pops in my physical life gave me information and I applied it to my life! Have a wonderful day people!
Lots of transparency and wisdom Suzanne. It really resonates, were all so similar when we get down to it..💗
We are
ALLONE
after ALL 😁
No person is unique in and of themselves. Think of snowflakes ❄️ each one is unique and yet each one is just H2O
The only one worthy to claim uniqueness in this case and I believe, just as in our own reality, should never be an individual snowflake no matter how beautifully unique it is. Any👁️NE who loves truth will always look deeper and give deserved credit to H2O
20:50 that smile... You should have it often. It's honest. It's acceptance. It's beautiful.
Moms aren't all that great. If they were then there wouldn't be therapists.
The fact that you're sitting in a cemetary is very symbolic
I can relate with you wanting to be seen and loved by others until I came to the knowing that I am that love that I was seeking. That love that the little boy inside wanted and needed, the love that one didn't receive as a child from my father as well... So I walked the same steps as he did but just a little different and a little further strides... 👁👀U .... 👁👂U
Thank you. Wow. That makes sense...
Well said.. EXACTLY ... Om Shanti Namaste
@@user-if3jt6bo8u Aum Shanti Shanti Shanti Aum
I love your open, honest, and simple clarity.
You have no idea how much you helped me by this talk. Thank you very much! Big relief...
Thank you for being a clear mirror. thank you for making space for this
I felt this so much , looking for love in all the wrong places because of childhood is traumatizing. When my dad came into my life he tried but I was so far past the need to have him it felt good hear him tell me he loved me but it didn’t change much. And now that part of me that was yearning has died so has my need for love and men. It’s very hard for men to entertain men long enough before im bored again. What i wanted in them I guess I found in myself over the years or I gave up hope.
So validating and helpful❤
I also had massive approval seeking issues with my dad and with women, and it would always end in heartbreak as no one can really see you. It wasn't until watching your videos recently that this level of radical honesty started to permeate my psyche and begin a purification. In this space I can surrender to Spirit more and from there, I get seen naturally by my dad and by women because I see them as there's more presence and less neediness. It's life changing.
One of the most powerful poetic pieces ive heard.
This is my first time seeing one of your videos, thank you so much for sharing your experience and perspective. As our creations are apt to do, your voice has appeared in my awareness as a beautiful message of synchronicity. It's funny how looking into the eyes of a stranger in a screen, while it does not really add up to a two-way deal, it can still lead to the watcher feeling so seen as if in a divine mirror of their energy. Sending all who are here in this same space so much loving compassion and grace. My heart is open to you and to myself, as I have finally also seen myself and am releasing so much every day, unwinding these webs so quickly it makes me dizzy sometimes.
This is how it started for me. Not by watching this particular video, but a video on Soft White Underbelly. You described my exact experience. And I kept digging into more of the ugly and seeing God in all of it. The reflections. Life began to become a kaleidoscope moving forward and backwards in explosive moments of realization. It's incredible how common this has become. It is an awakening. Thank you for articulating!
thank you for letting me know that it resonated with you, it motivates me to continue expressing my voice and my heart when i feel called, even just sharing my thoughts in the comments. it's amazing how this is all flying forward, isn't it?
omfg you are so fucking beautiful
Love the honesty!
an insight about my own desire for unavailable men:
You look for the man to your woman
Out there
But you’re mistaken
For the man you search for outside
He is woman too
nice
do you write like that often?
@@lunkerjunkie yes i do sometimes, i see you share your writings, nice i subscibed!
@@Liselotteyesposting is effective therapy
Hey that's actually very wise. Exactly. A guy is just a soul in a male body and a female a soul in female body. We project so much onto each other because the flavour of love a person of the opposite sex can gift us (usually a softness from women to men, and a strength from men to women) is something we feel we are lacking and have lacked growing up and growing up in a culture that tells us our subconscious its the ultimate love. It's not. We were all women and men in past lives anyway. We both have feminity and gentleness and mascunilinity and strengh within us.
@@jeanjacqueslundi3502 really appreaciate your comment, and i agree!
your explanation is so simple but yet so deep. The need to be seen......
It's videos like these that keep me going. So much of this rings true for me, like I'm seeing and hearing another speak the words in my mind and on my heart.
I'm finding that as the journey continues to unfold for me, I'm explicitly seeing this deep need in others, as it *always* presents itself in most any conversation. In seeing this, I'm often playing the role of surrogate parent for others, holding space, offering well-being, affirming, staying neutral, acting as a sounding board, etc.
The others I encounter seem to like my company and I'm guessing it's because they feel seen & heard (a skill set honed by deep Inner Child writing, I assume), but where they may feel connection and want more from me, the same is never the case on my end. (I get called "aloof" and other similar things, whereas there just was never any sort of connection made with & for me.) And, on the rare occasion where I attempt to "be seen", they're never able to reciprocate, so day by day, week by week, month by month, and year by year, that deep need to be seen wanes. With the waning need comes a lessening bandwidth for the need of others. At a certain point, it just ends up feeling like I'm (knowingly) enabling an (unknowing, unconscious) addict.
Thanks for sharing. What need are you getting met by acting as a space holder from others? Perhaps it is self-worth. If it comes from a pure heart then it will cause no suffering. If it comes from pathology it will cause suffering.
@@kingyoutube52After reading the primary comment I saw myself and it really resonated with me, and your comment was exactly what I needed to read and ponder a while. Makes complete sense. Blessings
@@Sunny74- So nice to hear
Ok..Listening further to your story about your father, I can see that this awakening actually makes for a clearer seeing of things. Therefore the need for another person's response is not necessary.
I feel like I'm watching my wife explain to me why she did the things that hurt me. I knew all of this, about myself, but never allowed myself to see her that way. I'll remember this when the mind wants to blame. Thank you Suzanne.
I need to listen to this a few times. At 65, I still yearn to be seen. I probably give my husband shit fairly often for not seeing me the way I want him to.😂😂. I absolutely admire how you speak your truth and in the manner that you do. Stopping to listen, not hurrying and not much excess. Goals. 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
This so resonates with me. Thank you.
"My parents couldnt see me" profund and makes so much sense. TY 💛
OOO that Eagle or Hawk @ 11:12 and 11:29 to me is a sign to seek higher within with that primordial energy... It starts at the root of our being and as we sit with it and imagine with the mind and breath with it while focusing on raising it up the spine into the cave (skull) allowing it to cross the vagus nerve to be crucified and amplified.
Wow!
The way your truth reflects my lived experience and what I have been increasingly going through is astonishing. It's like looking into a mirror. I always needed to be seen and loved by women. I always yearned for that perfect soulmate. I always lived with this repressive shame around sex that I inherited from an early age by virtue of my mother carrying that deep shame.
I literally have had the exact same thoughts with regards to sex and hunger. They are biological needs/desires, and yet we treat sex in such a strange way. So much shame, contempt, fear, etc. etc.
Your authenticity and compassion pour out of you at every moment of this video. So thank you very very very much for sharing your truth. It's very helpful.
Hey Suzanne, thank you for sharing your vulnerability.
So for the longest my family have tormented me for being skinny. They always compared me with the the thick girls of our relatives or family friends and it got to a point where i couldn't ever feel confident wearing anything. I started taking pills for weight gain and during one cultural day i bought hip and butt pads to shape my body. At the end i felt so stupid because i realised everyone could tell i was wearing something and talked about me even the girls talked when i wasn't around. Only this one girl came and told me how its so visible and i became even more self conscious, that day i didn't enjoy anything and ended up feeling so stupid. I did the same thing during my graduation where the pants folding underneath the dress,just imagine the embarrassment😂. I always think to date people are talking about me and feel I'm so stupid but I'm trying to keep myself sane. I have gotten a lot better since graduation but I'm about to join uni and the anxiety and everything seems to be coming back. Even worse is some of the former students are in that same uni! Like why? I want to start a fresh😢😢. (Yes I'm African and here thick girls are the beauty standard skinny girls are not)
(1) if you were in the US you would probably be seen as more attractive (2) they’re probably jealous of your youth and beauty (3) everyone makes mistakes and you shouldn’t be embarrassed for wanting to fit in because that’s what EVERYONE WANTS! i hope you have a great time in school and make some beautiful friendships and memories xxxx
Don't betray yourself and be one of those people that talks behind your back.
WHAT YOU MEAN ??!
It is literally the OPPOSITE in my country. This is not beauty this is just evil no matter what form it is
Sis, idk if you're gonna read this, but you're absolutely GORGEOUS omfg. Just keep your head up and trust me, most of the people won't talk about you anymore. Time kills all of the insignificant memories ;)
@@ahdorbfidks Thank you so much, it means a lot to hear this ❤️
Oh my gosh! How lucky am I to have found your channel? You are speaking my own experience!
I will listen to more of your videos.
Special mind, and special heart woman.
If only people like us knew who were like us and had a easy time finding eachother.
Thank you babeh I’m here w you, bless you
For all the ongoings complains about people, parents or not............
"When pain is accepted for what it is, a lesson, a warning, deeply looked into and heeded, the separation between pain and pleasure breaks down.
Both become just experiences, painful when resisted ( years about those bad parents ....) joyful when accepted.
In a way you should be thankful, otherwise you would not be there where you are right now.
Holding on to grief is the work of the Ego.
I feel you
I have been through a lot since birth and the cycle continues. But luckily I’m finding myself again and becoming strong again.
This video scared me haha. Dealing with some very deep confusing and stuff currently. thank you. There's just so much fear
I also went through shameful experiences that came from feeling loveless, ugly, unwanted and unseen. I was also parentified/infantilized so my mother would have control over me, which meat I was also sexually repressed... Not only sexually, but a full relationship felt like betrayal (since I was symbolically married to mother since she got divorced). It's brutal. Today I feel no shame because I'm angry with the right people - family. I'm in a solid relationship for years, we met while I was in the "shameful phase" but things grew from there. I'm thankful for being able to see so much over the years, even if the heartbreak felt unbearable at times.
PS: I finished the video and it has a strong rationalization tone to it. I also went through a phase of rising above/romantization/zen detached wisdom and I ended up crashing. They were at fault, no need to soften up for them.
It has been decades since I heard wisdom like this. This is full 360 degree truth our role in all matters accountability that can trully help the world. Thank you thank you thank you ❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing - I see you !! And I hear you . Sometimes the spiritually enlightened path is a lonely path . You have clear honest vision . Trust in yourself and as Joseph Campbell has said “follow your bliss “
Love you Suzanne..Welcome to the innocense
I want to see everything glittering clear
You look so much happier than in some of your older videos, thats so great
That siren is how you really feel.
Wow! Thanks.. I know what you mean.. I went through something very similar... and the graveyard is very synchronicitous for me, at this very moment .. as I was just throwing old papers of my mother's into the fire.. feeling sad.. thinking about death.. and my parents.. and the tragic elements of life.. and...... the relation between being "neglected" or overlooked, or unloved.. or having parents who could only love you to the extent they were loved... I've been narrowing in on this issue in the lives of so many people.. including my own family.. your personal testimony hit a nerve for a lot of us.. Thanks for taking the chance.
Susan! Congratulations!!!!!
You’re awakening to the reality of who you really are. You’re right- society is the one who taught us that we need from “outside ourselves”, but we don’t. We can’t define ourselves or live thinking that we need another in order to exist in this place we call earth.
You’re energy is so opened… you are so present, you’re aura expands because you are not needing anything…. You surrendered into what is without needing the would around you to be something so that you can be happy-- you are in the state of acceptance, surrender, being without judgement. It looks like you’ve been through the journey and now you’ve come through into the other side. Peace. Peace. Peace. You’re face, your energy is so alive and full of love and light in the absence of wanting, needing, resistance….. you’re in sweet surrender, clarity and deep understanding!
Thank you for sharing… for your vulnerability. For being brave deciding to get on Utube and teaching us what you have learned in your amazing spiritual journey of awakening. 🌻🌷
We are all yearning for something, it's just that most of us don't know how or are too scared to say what we really want to say. Everybody is hiding or wearing a mask and facade. I can't stand it anymore. It drives me crazy, but I can't make anyone be genuine. That's what is crazy, when you are someone that is so genuine with yourself, and realize you are around people playing this sort of game with each other every single day, and they will probably never break out of the fake suit that they wear. I hate to say this, but it's how I really feel and see things.
The world is so lost, confused, hidden from each other and acts as if it is found, content and happy, such BS everywhere. It's all so out of our control and we are so powerless over everything. I can tell right away when I am speaking to or hearing a genuine being, and you are one of them, no boasting in saying that. You are tried and true, unique. I know that I know as soon as I am in their presence. It's a knowing thing, an understanding thing, and above all a discernment of all things, not just showing favoritism for one side, but realizing it all, every polar opposition known to mankind. I have been there and done it, the light, the dark, and everything in between. How many actually know it all? ◑
i can see myself sometimes, when i realize im real and i can be that person who sees me
Hey your really looking good ! ❤😊
Suzanne, thank you for sharing. It is great to see the power of sharing in how much sharing and conversation you've sparked. For even just creating this chat comment space, and for so much more, thank you.
Our worth is not determined by bad parents who didn’t love us. Our worth is innate, and then made radiant by how much good and healing we try to inspire. To all of you out there, my soul loves yours.❤
i deeply appreciate you
I am glad. It is interesting how the duality is there to realize the non-duality of it all.
"As long as the ego runs your life, most of your thoughts, emotions, and actions arise from desire and fear. In relationships you then either want or fear something from the other person." - Eckhart Tolle
There's a quote purportedly from the Buddha it goes something like this " When you're no longer need anybody that's when you're truly free."
Stick with it Suzanne! Universe will teach you lessons it might take years/decades to figure out. Welcome what comes!
Thank you for that insight Suzanne. Making sense of this all is surely hard enough by itself though pile on years of trauma and family circumstance baggage and it surely seems to be a losing battle. Though it’s not. Stillness, peace, and acceptance bring us through it all.
Listening to this is like listening to sad music because you are sad and you enjoy the masochistic pleasure of it. I had seen her previous cemetery non-duality video months ago, it came up again so I came back to check if there was any progress. Apparently the genre works because there are other channels expressing their depression and they get views
This is an odd video to me. This young woman speaks as if she is making some kind of confession. As if she is exposing herself honestly and fully in her own truth. I’m sure she knows what she is talking about. But these are thoughts to oneself. This isn’t confession. And it’s not her just being honest with herself. She tells no clear confession and cloaks her thoughts to in carefully chosen words so the listener can not actually hear what she is saying. I feel that still she wants to be seen, now on video “speaking her truth”. To be honest and stop lying to oneself is much more difficult then it seems at first. We can not tell the truth just bc we want to tell it. Learning to tell the truth is one of the hardest things in the world. We don’t realize that first we must see the truth many times before that truth begins to change us. The seeing changes us.
This young lady is only just beginning to see the truth of what she is and why she does the things she does.
She still wants validation, love and acceptance of strangers. She still needs to be seen by as many ppl as possible.
We must learn to see ourselves as we are and not as we would like to be. To see the truth about oneself is a humbling experience. Then to express that. I could not nor would. It so that on camera and publish for the world to see. To speak the truth one has to speak with all the awareness one can gather. Then conscience can help and show us as be begin to say or repeat things we have not see in ourselves. That is lying. To claim to know something one doesn’t know. That is like stealing. It makes me think of the angels taking the hot coals to Isaiah’s lips and he replies “woe is me”. The young lady tried to speak her truth. Tried to be honest. But there was no “woe is me.” She would have seen that this whole project is just another attempt to be seen. And if she could see that then she could drop this need. She will need to see this again and again in herself. It’s ok to be seen. Just know yourself and what you are doing. Live in your truth and one day you may find that we agree. God and Truth are One, and the Truth will set you free. It just might hurt or piss you off in the beginning. It’s the seeing that can change everything.
Do you know this person in real life? Why is it bad to vent on the internet? Did you have to watch it? Did you write a damn book about her experience for attention as well? Allow ppl to be sad and express however they need to feel better. We all crave attention and validation
@@a.dsadventure6710 OP never once condemned the desire to be seen. They were just pointing out the seeming contradiction in the ways in which this lady expresses herself in the video. In fact them (he/she etc) saying "it's ok to be seen" suggests otherwise. Take care ❤
@@a.dsadventure6710 I agree with you, by the way. It's a foundational Human need to be seen, cared for and accepted (in a loving supporting group/community). I admire your passion on the subject.
Some time ago I realised that
whatever language we speak
we still talk to ourselves and this is boring eventually :)
Now I listen in.
Emerald Isle speaks with its beauty. Even concrete here turns green.
Sanity, sensitivity are become priceless among the People here.
Dear Suzanne, what Youve just said about speaking the truth is the fundament.
confusion comes from lack of clear language based on subconsciousness picture from the within and of course the truth (fact)
My experiences of heat comes from testing the heat itself rather than to hear from someone else "dont touch it cause you get burn"
Have You ever had a chance to read "Four Agreements" of Don Ruiz Miguel?
Along with Hilton Hotema's "Man's higher consciousness" became the basement of understanding the nature of The Nature which all of Us are undeniable part. (piece)
If i realise I can express myself with the truth i dont need to use words of any language any more.
Thank You for Your deciphering the reality.
🙏
Well, you still yearn to be seen: otherwise you wouldn't have opened a youtube channel in which you dispense your "wise truth" to people...
Please, as a woman who was married to a bisexual man for twenty five years and unhappy for most of it, speak your truth and let others choose but don’t wear a mask and kill the real soul inside. I left when I finally understood his truth, not because I didn’t love him but because I could finally love myself and stop trying to fix everything……him. He will probably never be honest about his sexuality and I have not been with anyone since because I love myself. I am glad you found yourself.🙏🏼
You are brave! Love and Respect for you !
Wow can’t believe people hide their sexuality from their partners :( being bisexual is fine but lying and cheating is
When I was dating, a bisexual man said he was separated and had cheated on his wife. I think it’s because I admitted being attracted to some women. But Ew. I strongly suspect he was still married and lied. I stayed away and he still tried to message me until I threatened a police call. 😮
U WORDED MY FEELINGS PERFECTLY :(
Man what a beautiful being standing firm in a truth that belongs to all of us. You inspire me with your courage and your words of insight. As someone perceiving this massive tumultuous transition in the collective mind i too wish to liberate these shadow aspects that are so desperately calling for light to enter. We humans are capable of so much beauty yet so much destruction. It is this turning around to face what we are so desperate to escape that will see a profound shift in the stability of the collective consciousness, and from this place anything is possible. Infinite love to all spiritual warriors on this path of liberation. 🙏💚
Thank you for sharing.
It's so nice to hear you. The authenticity just shows from the fist look I recognized it and it felt so nice. I feel you and thank you so much for sharing this. I feel less alone. I wish you safety and peace.
I asked what is it am ashamed of? What do i need to accept. Turns out i need to accept me as i am accept that the past actions are actions from a not so good place but they are just actions like any other. Not to be hard on myself. And to truly allow myself to fall inlove with myself. Thank you cause you where a vessle felt like you where reading my biography but at the same time hiving me pointers on what direction my mind should take. Thank you
Sending you a big hug
Without mind to a self, other selves, or a universal self! This is absolute Nirvana!
I love your last description of your parents and your new relationship, just beautiful
Congratulations on opening your mind 🎆
Your sharing is so relatable despite being about different subject, different stories but the same ego twisted in knots, the same honesty of stopping running away and facing it with openness, unfolding like flowers opening, one humble pie after another, no escape for the ego all will come to the surface to be seen, to the gates of heaven to be released, forgiven by way of being recognized as what it was, all along innocent, layers after layers until nothing's left, everything having been resolved, dissolved by true impersonal unconditional peace and love 🎆💖
Your voice and explanations brings me some peace. Thank you
Aaawe. I'm so sorry you're in so much pain. You'll be okay, please feel and know this I'm your heart. You are loved deeply by God and your ancestors. Please be okay. I'm sending you LOVE DEEPLY. I don't know you but I feel somehow like I can help your pain. No shame no self hurt. Please believe and feel this my deep friend. God and angels are coming your way. teresa❤
this popped up on my timeline at the perfect time. I heavily relate. thank you for being bold enough to share.