✘ // hurts like hell
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- Опубліковано 10 лют 2025
- here I go- about to get carried away ;]
I tried to make connections in this vid- between the past and present and between experiences and between people...that draw the series together cohesively- those things are definitely there with this show which is something that is really rewarding for dedicated fans.
As u guys know, I love parallels a lot- but to be a true parallel, the moments being compared have to say something greater and deeper together than either thing alone- it has to give more insight into a situation.
so each parallel I included is very deliberate that way - the rest is going to be more satisfying if I leave it up to you to see.
some random thoughts I had while making this though-
We got no direct discussion in s10 about why Mulder and Scully are no longer together but saying it was Mulders 'depression' tells us nothing and is so lame. I think it is possible to piece together more satisfying implied reasons from FM and HA though. And I think it's something to do with profound grief that won't heal and not being able to discuss it. It's interesting to me the moment in 'Home' when Mulder says 'I never saw you as a mother before..' how terrifyingly jinxing/foreshadowing that becomes because I think by s10, he can't look at Scully anymore WITHOUT seeing the specter of motherhood- both in her personal pain and the shadow of William. This tells us a lot more and makes sense to me as to why they may still be in love with each other but find it too hard to be together
Scullys issues about William are now fully intertwined with the loss of her own mother and that all intersected so painfully. I think she was so focused on her own grief and Mulders that she probably never fully appreciated how much it affected her mother too until it was too late :(
special thanks to my girls Tracey and Liv for your much needed help! ✩
Quien diría que al final los x files trata sobre el viaje de Scully. Me encanta Mulder pero creo que el arco principal es de ella, de Scully. De cómo se hizo tan fuerte, tan heroína, tan inmortal ❤
I'm in tears right now, trying not to drown my keyboard. It hurts... IT HURTS LIKE HELL! I loved how you managed to connect their present life with that past that's still hunting them and always will. Once again, your talent cut my heart in pieces. I'm probably some kind of masochist, but please never stop doing what you do!
Thankyou so much Francy, that just means a ton to me coming from you with all your tremendous talent and how deeply you know this show- you're the best!💗
I always got tears in my eyes when the song goes "dreams fight with machines" and the moment Mulder grabs Scully because she's in shock
Какие приятные кадры и Малдер и Скалли роман и любовь побольше такого😊
OMG, where do I even begin? By wiping my eyes, for starters. The "I just really need to talk" voice over as Scully sees "William" on her phone wrecks me, all the layers of grief. YOU'RE AN EVIL GENIUS. And then you follow up by drawing a brutally perfect parallel to the bench scene from Home where she talks about motherhood. And then the parallel of Scully/William looking into their mirrors with Mulder outside the intensive care unit window....I CAN'T EVEN. The seamless transition between the Hallway Scene and the meeting from My Struggle really gets me too, especially the way it's timed with the lyrics "I turn it over". And the way the whole thing is cased between the two clips of Scully pulling up to the Unremarkable House just adds to the collapsible sense of time you create, like it's all happening in that moment somehow. I think that's one thing that's so amazing about your vids - to me, you explore and manipulate Time so fluently: the passage of it, how it loops, repeats, draws strange patterns, distorts under the weight of emotion. Is this vid 4 mins or 20 years? ;) It's so rewarding to watch this over and over and keep noticing new points of connection. STUNNING.
it is incredibly tremendously gratifying to have a viewer pick up on and see all these things I work so hard to achieve with my vids- its TOTAL validation since I didn't tell you, but still you saw it there- JUST, THANKYOU SO MUCH!!! -
most of the reason these vids take me so damn long to complete is because I over think them to hell and back and you seeing that process makes it feel worth it!
all my thanks - ALL of them! ;D
Best season 10 fanvid I've seen. Just beautiful. Thank you for making things make sense :)
This comment means so so much to me because I really hoped to help do that by weaving some strands together- thankyou!
OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD *heavy breathing* just phenomenal how you tell a story , make connections with the characters timeline , so much inspirational . damn you hit every beat of the song so perfectly with the best scenes... this gave me goosebumps! :D 👌💯 💔💔....... SO BEAUTIFUL.......YOU'RE LITERALLY THE DEVIL FOR THIS HEARTBREAKING EDIT 😭💔 😭😭
I LOVE your comment SO much, thankyou- I always can't wait to hear from you!♡x
Sorry for the 😈 but I blame the writers ;)
+snakey973 I Know hun , " you may be bad but you're perfectly good at it " 👌👌 !!!
This one got me in the heart! How beautifully you have woven these threads from different points in time together to show this sad but sweet story with the perfect accompanying song. Gorgeous ❤
Why can't they be happy… it's so sad
I know :*(
This is so beautifully edited. Such poignant transitions between the past and present and between characters. Amazing attention to detail, thank you
Absolutely stunning.. I am speechless! I think this is your best video to date! every little detail, every parallel, every speed and slow down, everything is perfect! so sad but perfect! Amazing!
😊 thanks so much
I worked on this for awhile, changing and rearranging until I wanted to scream :P
it all pays off when people respond to it tho ♡
I loved and I loved and I lost you... and it hurts like hell...
Says it all really doesn't it. Home Again really delved into Scully's sense of loss. I truly don't think she thought about how giving William up affected anyone other than her and Mulder until her mother was dying. Thank you for so beautifully bringing to life some of the deeper meaning in the writing of that ep, which I think may have been buried to some in the emmotions. Another great vid!
You girl, I just want to say I ♡ ya and thanks again!
+snakey973
This definitely hurts like all hell... I didn't really need my heart anyway.....
You are amazing. Seriously.
💓 thankyou
Oh my god, you've done it again!!! You really do make the best fan vids xx thank you xxx this is so heartbreakingly wonderful 😍😍😍😭😭😭
Thankyou 😊
it brings me happiness that people enjoy them
So much emotions on this one, I feel like Mulder and Scully are the very definition of star crossed, and it's painful. RIP Mrs Scully :(
yes, that they are 🎇😢
OH Snakey... and this is so beautiful and sad and perfect and it hurts and hurts like hell. I love it!
Thankyou very much Bee! ♡
Are you kidding me? This vid. I can't. So many feels. You are amazing.
😊 thanks!
i watched so many of your sad videos and i was crying so hard this show is so fucking beautiful i just can't
This absolutely broke my heart... Thank you so much for continuing to make these... they are stunning! Once again I LOVE the parallels & how it all falls together, the way their story unfolds... it's amazing... so many raw emotions, so much love & faith put into "the most impossible" relationship... this most definitely cannot be the end for them... or William... Thank you
Thankyou very much with all my ♡
your encouragement has meant a lot to me, I totally vid for other fans like me who just can't get enough of this evil show!
NEVER ENOUGH. I have never met you, but seriously love you for what you do
+MsMouseSouris 💗😘
This is unbelievably gorgeous. I have no words. Thank you for this.
Thankyou 💓
Love it ! You make a great great job as always !
Wow, once again you did amazing work!!!! Thanks for making these!!!
Thankyou 😊
oh god this is so painful. your editing is stunning once again!
Thankyou much ;)
awwwwww it was amazing journey. thanks for doing the video. i loved it
Thankyou :3
Oooh, I like what you did at 2:37-2:38. Its so hard to find ppl who make music videos who understand musicality and its importance.
Amazing video, the past was always between Mulder and Scully. What if is the perfect title to their relationship.
I can't even start to explain how wonderful this video is. :)
Thankyou so much
so nice! it is just ... i have no word to say how wonderful it is !!!
Thankyou :3
This is amazing! So clever and lovely how you capture original dialogue in your edit. So moving also, like the series; would post hearts if I knew how!
My heart is broken beyond repair... thank you😣
BEAUTIFUL!
😯💔 thankyou
mine too because after all that lead up, we got 0 resolution with William
Finally watched it all the way through........you're a very evil genius. This was phenomenal aaaaaaand everything hurts right now. Hope you're happy :p
I'm speechless, the feels are so strong that I almost cried. So beautifully emotional!! God, I can feel their pain!! It's a masterpiece!....Amazing job, well done...Congrants! By the way I love this video so much because hurts like hell 💓💓💓👌👌
many thanks 😊 this vid was all about wringing the angst out of s10 as much as possible;)
You have an amazing talent and sense for video paces, cuts and choice of scenes.. that combined with excellent knowledge of the series results in excellent works like this. 👏🏼 keep it up 😍
Thankyou! 🥰 I really appreciate that
I always worked hard on these vids but it was also a lot of fun
amazing editing, wonderful use of sound editing, and the shading was Amazing! I hope you are pursuing a production career. Freaking glorious.
Thankyou 😊 you gave me the biggest grin! I am just in it for the fun, but I do take it seriously and try to continually improve if I can manage it ;) it's so rewarding to hear comments like yours!
I'm not crying, you're crying.
damn, this is so beautiful 😍😭
Damn you're good. Please don't ever stop making videos.
thankyou♡ :)
This video made me so emotional, omg.
thankyou, that's exactly what my evil mind wanted ;)
I literally think you should win an Oscar for your vids. Like I am NOT KIDDING XXXXXX thank you 😏
....I love you
for real 😁
one of the best comments I've ever received, thanks!!
Beautiful! You never disappoint me with your wonderful insight into the souls of our favorite duo, specially Scully's and her tremendous struggle to face the consequences of her own decisions as a mother and human being; themes that were beautifully portraited this season and most certainly in this video. Scully has always been the "strong one", she's always been a tower of strength, but as she is shaken by her mother's death and last words about William, she's confronted by her own insecurities as a mother and her choice about given up her son. You captured masterfully that struggle, reaching out into her memories about her journey as a "Mother"; first wanting to be one so badly after finding out she was barren and her failed attempt at IVF. Afterwards, becoming miraculously pregnant, having William and realising he was "special" and thus in danger, which finally let to his adoption. Was it the right decision or wasn't she brave enough to "be responsable" for that life she conjured & created out of her deepest desires? Absolutely breathtaking!
Thankyou for such a lovely and well thought out comment, I love these kind that demonstrate how deep the love and understanding for this show runs ♡ I think we love Scully for the same reasons ;)
I've been soooo busy... but here's the comment my lovely Heather!!
first off: I love this SONG!!!
second: I love the fact that you focus on Dana, Margret and William (in the beginning).
third: THOSE PARALLELS!!! JUST PERFECTION
forth: the back and forth in time together with the parallels is just TOO much EMOTIONS!!! it's really f***ing beautiful (like I've already told you).
fifth: if I know you right, you picked out the s10 eps you liked the most (cuz they're the ones you're focusing on) which btw is amazing
sixth: can we talk about the coloring for a second?????? in just a year you've gone from beautiful coloring to absolutely magnificent coloring!! it looks so good, especially on XF clips and the overall sadness and pain of the show.
you dear, continue to amaze me with your talent, you are so inspiring and make the absolute best vids- I know you don't agree, but it's true. STUNNING. HEARTBREAKING. PAINFUL. RE-NEWING. PERFECTING. and so many more things I could say about YOU and YOUR vids!!!!!!
xxxx
sorry for the late comment, but i'm sooooo proud of your work, if you'd deleted this- I would've slapped you in the face (via the computer screen) XD
Thankyou so much Liv for such a beautiful and thought out comment, it means a lot to me ♡x
When Scully lost her mother on show mine was at the hospital. I changed the channel to avoid watching this scene. Life is harsh . . . I had to live my own scene days later. . . Miss you mom
😔 I'm so sorry to hear that, my condolences
thanks a lot my friend God bless you
+tzmakis ❤
So sorry for you. ♥
Dang...this is just awesome!...loved it
wow, so much talent here!
Thankyou 💗
wow, this was intense!
great video, thank you!
thanks! ;)
right into my soul
This is heartbreaking.
yes...I thought 'home again' was just unflinching in its desolation and I wanted to explore that more
So damn perfect it *hurts like hell*
ScullyAmos hey you! Good to hear from ya ♡
beautiful
Another beautiful video!
💕✌
How do you do it every single time?! Your videos are all masterpieces! I love you!
Aw 😆 thanks, love u back ✌
This video is beautiful !!! Beau travail !! 💜💜💜
You bring the powerful emotion across more than season 10 managed to (okay, except for Glen Morgan's episode!) Hard to watch though, because of my Mum dying last year.
Thanks Pen, believe me, I thought of you a lot while I was making this one ❤
so perfect😭😭😭😭😭😭
Reminds me of losing my mother's! Brings tears.
You're so talented!
aw, well many thanks!😊
Very nice.
Amazing and full od emotion 💗💗💗
Thanks so much 😊
So much emotions T_T
So many great moments, beautifully captured ... thank you so much ... well if - Heaven forfend - they do not come back:at least we have your videos ... phew ....
incredibly good
Thanks :)
Wow, that was amazing!
i'm only on season 8 but this was beautiful.
What am I supposed to do with all these feelings?!
feel tha feeeeeeelz :) xfiles=pain ✌💕
Awesome!
Thankyou ; 3
beautiful - I shed a few, I must admit :'-)
Gorgeous! So beautiful:)
♡♡♡
oh damn...
Great vid and perfect music !!!
What episode was the secene at 3:06?
Thankyou =3
field where I Died
I know that we will. I know because a really good source told me. Don't worry!
I SO WANT TO BELIEVE! 💔
so beautiful. i loved this. i'm so exited about the new season coming up are you?
thanks ☺
I am, but also very worried!
❤
thank you so much for this stunning video, once again you gave me all the feel (can you tell who sings this and the name of the song please)
Thanks :) the song is 'hurts like hell' by Fleurie- she has a number of beautiful songs
Could you please tell me which episode is 0:17? Thank you very much.
Good job
thankyou :)
Beautifully done. Overwhelmed with emotions and reaching for kleenex. Thanks for sharing your amazing talent!
Thankyou for watching and appreciating! :)
What is name in the song?
Какая грустная сцена, мне тоже прям хочется плакать, правда прям грустная и грустная вообще? Как всё хорошо, что мы как-то это переговариваемся? Мне скоро, может, ещё вопросы назреют вот ответ, что я про хочу верить немножко, написала, что. Что-нибудь интересное скажете об этом.😊
Beautiful. I'm trying to find someone much more talented with vid creation than me to do an X-Files vid for the song "Sit Down" by James. Always struck me as absolutely perfect lyrically for the craziness and dependency and devotion of the M/S relationship holding them together when they are surrounded by insanity. I don't suppose you take requests? :)
I'm so sorry, although I am extremely honored that you'd ask, I don't do requests because I've gotten myself into trouble over the yrs with those- I take them on and them have no time to finish them 😦
there may be other vidders out there who'd take it on tho...
Thanks for replying anyway! If you happen to know any good vidders who do consider requests please send 'em my way. :) Off to wallow in some more vids...
Why does this show have to be so painful?
It's a valid question ;)
Hey what editing software do you use? I'm making an X-Files fanvid and am not sure about how to add the commentary :/
Thanks!
Sony vegas 12
snakey973 would I still be able to do a lot of things if I used the trial version?
Yes, you should be able to do anything (minus the plug-ins of which I have many) but I think it only works for a month- something like that
snakey973 ah ok thanks!
snakey973
First to comment😂👌🏻
Sorry I haven't Commented. I forgot, how you doing? I haven't spoken to you in quite a while, I loved this video however!!❤️❤️❤️❤️👽👽👽👽
That's okay, thankyou 😊👽
xfiles has added a lot of new vidders over the past year and so mine aren't as obvious as they used to be. I remember in 2010 when there was only like 4 of us vidding the show lol!! 💗
+snakey973 Yep!! Hahah. But..How are you anyway?
+Liv Febres I'm doing okay, trying to enjoy the summer while it's here ;) thanks for asking, glad to hear you are well 😊
What software do you use for your vids? x
Sony vegas 12 mostly
Yep. Evil........ :p
I still can't make it all the way thru
I knew it was pretty grim, but maybe grimmer than I even thought- is that a word- grimmer? lol😆 anyway, thankyou for giving it your bravest try and I hope to see a beauty from you soon! ♡
Um.....I have a headache from crying so hard. That was amazing.
I mean.....I feel.....like hell. :p Totally destroyed me. And I love you for it. How sick is that?
Half of these views are mine istg I watch it over 10 times a day
such a beautiful depiction of such a complex character... you, my friend, have a gift. :-)