I have an autoimmune disorder, chronic illness, and severe depression bc of it all. I have spent the last few years on my couch completely vacant. I used to do a lot. I have had my poetry and photography published in the past. I wanted to make short films but never did. I lost all desire in life. These videos, the messages, and your reactions have really been helping me. Thank you for doing these.
This is such a beautiful song. My son deals with depression and has repeatedly said that he feels “dead inside”. He is 14 and has been saying this since he was 10. Outside of going to school he, pretty much, lives in his room. I try to get him to come join the rest of the family, but he rarely does. It breaks my heart. I just want him to realize it’s ok to feel ok. It’s ok to be happy about something. I worry about him constantly. Thanks for doing this one Cliff. Ren is absolutely amazing. First time hearing Chinchilla. She has an amazing voice as well. ✌🏻
Such a horrible illness to deal with both for the person depressed and for family. A loving family means so much though - even if sometimes it feels it's making little difference it does. It just takes time. My thoughts go out to him, to you and your family. Stay strong.
Now i know very little about your son or your situation of course, but as someone whose depression started around 13 years old (i'm 30 now) the best advice i can give is: Try to figure out if your son is "dead inside" cause they just cant connect with themselves due to dysphoria. It took me till 25 to realize i was trans and when i did so incredibly many puzzle pieces in my life clicked together. I'm not quite sure how you would breach this topic with them but maybe just try to go into it with an angle on if they feel different, how they feel about their body. If they wish to look different or be someone else. Alternatively you could also look into signs of ADHD or Autism (i know i'm quite the mental mess and this comment is just in the hope that i can possibly save someone for decades of suffering through questioning) I also suggest looking into getting a therapist for more specialized help. It took me 12 different therapists/psychiatrists/life coaches to find the right one that could help me so dont give up when the first couple of them dont work out. Also, keep talking with them, make sure they know they can tell you anything without any judgement from your side, the one thing that got me through the worst of my depression was knowing that through it all my mom had my back (untill she had a brain tumor that is but that is a whole different story) I can not promise this will help, i can not say it will be easy. All i can say for sure is that there is *something* that is eating at your child, they are carrying some form of burden, without maybe even they themselves realizing it and it is weighing them down to the point of them already starting to get tired of having to carry it through life. I really hope you and your child can get through it. And let me tell you the absolute biggest warning sign to look out for, when they suddenly seem to snap out of it by themselves without any real action from your side to solve any issue and then *appear* to be happy again. When that happened to me i had fully disassociated with myself and my first suicide attempt was half a year later. It will be scary to deal with all this but the fact you made this comment shows you care a great deal and i believe you can be strong enough for your child to help them.
@@RepstarVixenThank you so much for your comment. I do have a good relationship with my son. He does have ASD and he has had many therapists. We (his parents) have done everything in our power to help him. I have reinforced with my son that we support him 100%, but we can’t do the work for him. Actually this school year I have seen huge improvements in him. He’s doing well in school and has made some really good friends. Again, thank you for your comment. It means a lot to me. Take care of yourself. ✌🏻❤️😊
Love your channel so much. This song actually got me to taper off my clonazapam. (Like a long acting Valium) been on them for 15 years. This song hit HARD in all the best ways. Thanks for always shouting out to the people struggling with mental health. ❤
I'm really glad you reacted to this one and enjoyed it, most reactors seem to be skipping it for some reason. This is another one of Ren's songs that really resonates with me and I enjoy seeing other people enjoy that. Thanks for your reactions.
Probably because a lot of reactors prefer his rap. Idk… I’m even guilty of skipping it for awhile. Anytime I hear a new artist I love I have a tendency to avoid diving into their catalog for fear I’ll hate it. Lol I know, I’m weird.
Why the fuck do I tear up every time every song. This guy speaks to my soul. Sitting here on sertraline myself been left on them for like ten years man. I feel like rens music is the first I’ve felt anything properly in years. Incredible. I need to meet this man.
New subscriber 🫶🏼 Love your reaction to this duet, the breakdown and your opinion was beyond what I have come across so far. Keep doing you mate, we’re here for it!
They broke me with this one. I've been 19 years going through much the same issues of autoimmune disorder, depression, injuries, and constant pain. It's all learning how to cope with every new pitfall.
Have you been tested for EDS? My partner going through similar. Also childhood trauma can cause issues like this later in life. Sorry you’re suffering.
@@Rookslife Looked it up just now and it doesn't fit the symptoms. I have been officially diagnosed with Meniere's (now at endstage), Hashimoto's, Sclerosis, Degenerative Disc Disease, Zygapophysial Joint Arthropathy, COPD, rashes, and kidney failure. Top this off by falling head first down a ravine that damaged my C3 and C4 limiting my mobility. The main issue is trying to do therapy for one problem aggravates the others. Still, thank you for reaching out. It means more than you might know. Hearing Ren's story has also helped keep me pressing on to smile each day and try to help someone else smile too. You are a blessing ♥as is this community.
@@allybandy3047 that is an awful lot on your plate! I’m glad you find help in his work it’s definitely a breath of fresh air hearing someone make this type of music around these topics. Blessings to you for your commendable strength.
I love doctors, they have beat stage 4 cancer for me. Afterwards, i was on Sertraline because i had ptsd. It makes ya feel numb emotionally though. I had to stop taking it so i could feel again
Something I didn't notice until just now... the lights flicker just before he enters that space. And then they flicker again before Chinchilla comes into frame and begins singing. It's like they're entering another dimension. Durint the first verse he says "I" and then switches to "We". The tiny details and nuance in his videos leave so much to discover even after multiple views!
Can anyone else literally not stop thinking about this man's music. I can't get enough of it if I'm not listening to anything I can find he does on Spotify or UA-cam to watching others having such emotional reactions similar to what I have, man it's powerful stuff . Ren deserves a movement.. it's such a profound creative expression of ones self in such an articulate understanding relatable emotion of art. Rens range of topics an his ability make his music emote is unparalleled. chinchilla is dope to but I have a hankering that wildly talented an creative people tend to work with people they see are cut from atleast the same type of fabric lol love your reactions they're one thee most authentic out there. Seems the older I get that's all I want I crave authentic real people Which would explain why NF an Ren are my two favorite artists... I had a thought today about how cool it would be to have NFs Fear an Evil Rens characters do a Collab an intertwine those two characters in a dark dynamic 🤯🤯 something tells me it'd be brilliant lol have a blessed day sir. Sorry that's so long lol
Fender Stratocaster! The greatest of the greats use these guitars! Powerful song and message! Beautiful! The Beatles reference of "Let It Be" is brilliant!!!!
Dude, I love your channel and the way you breakdown and react to videos and songs. I am a 50 year old who loves all music but especially rap. I have also been recently hit with lots of depression and anxiety and they have been putting me through all these different meds to try to find the one that works, meanwhile I feel like I am losing it sometimes. Watching your reactions helps me tons. It’s my therapy and I just want to say thank you! I’ve also got to say that Ren is a beast. I am so glad he has been found for the masses. This song is exactly what I’ve been icing the last few months. Please keep up the good work buddy.
Ren and Sam Tompkins "Blind Eyed", original song of there's, few different performances of it but them performing it in a parking garage while getting kicked out is hilarious, n they don't miss a beat!
I’ll just say I have “profound cPTSD” (says my therapist), severe chronic pain, and I’m tired. So very tired of it all. Living, pushing through with “a great big smile”, suffering…it’s a lot. Every day I wake up, I’m gutted to still be here. I’m way past wanting to tap out. This song makes me weep; it makes me feel less alone. Anyway, I hope everyone here is doing ok and hanging in there.💜
This is the kind of love performance that should be at the Grammys nominated (& wins) for best song of the year. But it goes against their business model
I’ve heard this song so many times, and it still brings a tear to my eyes. I never went the medication route, but I buried my feelings with a great big smile and bottling up Emotions can be just as deadly as masking them with medication I had to come to realize I don’t have to be the strong person and it’s OK if I break down, I’ve been through a lot and it’s only made me stronger and who I am today and if I can use my pain to help others that is medication to me.
I love how he can go from rapping rapping, to this, to Hi Ren or amazing story telling like Jenny & Screech. All while be so relatable and real every time
Cliff, I absolutely love how real and raw you are on your channel! I was real upset and sending emails to the UA-cam contact us thing complaining that they were taking you and your channel down when you were helping so many people!!!! I actually received a response from them last week assuring me that your channel was still up and running lmfao. I usually don't speak about this in public forums because I don't like burdening other people with my issues. But this particular reaction you were talking about big pharma and the doctors and the switching of medications and I am a recovering opiate and heroin addict. I'll be six years clean this June 24th, in the last five and a half years I've been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, major depressive disorder, PTSD, several traumas that I've never dealt with, from childhood upwards, severe social anxiety & panic attacks and moderate agoraphobia. (Our house burned down 13 years ago and we lost all of our pets as well as all of our belongings!!! So I have a certain fear that if I leave my house something may happen. The doctors have had me on a roller coaster of medicines for years now. The worst one was a doctor that had me on 800 mg of Seroquel a day for 5 years 🤬🤬🤬 That caused serious weight gain and fcked my blood sugar up to where now I have to take meds for that too. I was put on heart meds and NEVER TOLD that I had had a heart attack one night when I'd od'd. I found out a year later as I was reading through the medical sheets they'd sent home with me after an overnight hospital stay 😳😳 I was just a useless junkie to them, would be 1 less addict out there they'd have to deal with 🤬🤬🤬🤬 Sorry, I didn't intend to write a book lol. But I HAD to tell you that to say this:. You saved me 2 different times!!! I haven't been able to find a trauma therapist or counselor because of where I live in Ohio.... I desperately need one!! Because I got rid of the drugs but all of the problems that were there.... Are still there!! And my demons bite hard especially in the middle of the night, when I'm up all night because I can't sleep. I now have seizures and can't drive and sometimes I just feel trapped,. There were 2 nights a year ago and a year and a half ago that I was truly close to breaking and losing the fight 😪😪 BOTH TIMES I got a bling notification on my phone about you dropping a new video!!! BOTH TIMES I went in to watch it and you were talking real shit about your struggle with addiction.... And your fight and offering that if anyone needed to talk to reach out to you. I was still carrying guilt and shame around and beating myself up daily so I was too afraid to reach out to you!!! But KNOWING you were out there and willing to help others.... Gave me a lifeline if I got to that place where it's dark in my head again. So I just wanted to let you know.... I'd either be in jail or dead WITHOUT YOU AND YOUR POSITIVITY!!! I OWE YOU my life!!! And also want you to know that if there is ever ANYTHING that I can do for you please do NOT HESITATE to ask!!! Even if you just need to talk to someone who's lived years in the dark with their demons!! I'm ALWAYS available!! Much love to you and your family!!! ❤️❤️❤️
That they had the foresight to choose the location not just for it's visual ambience, but also because it's natural reverb falloff speed is perfect for the tempo. When she pauses at the end of the music for the gentle outro.. Spot on, wonderful link between audio and visual.
I feel like some of us will be telling our grandchildren about Ren and how special it was to discover him. I See Ren as a voice for generations to come!! Music and healing for the masses. ✌❤💪
I mean if the sound of the chair impressed you then yeah the song itself was bound to blow your mind 😂 It really is such a beautiful song and damn some of those lyrics… “I’m scared of being okay cause all things change” really hits differently.
It strikes me that the way Ren does his videos makes it clear there’s no auto tune at play. It’s pretty revolutionary to assert these days. It’s almost like queen who used to put”no synthesizers” on their album covers.
Thanks for not letting big tech knock you down. The control they have in 2023 is wild. We need to hear your voice and your input, I appreciate your perseverance. Keep the reaction vids flowing
@@MC_kalCM thank you. Been doing this dance 30 years and it never gets easier but in the past few years it hasn’t gotten any harder so I am beyond grateful for that. ❤️
Thanks Cliff! Chincilla has a beautiful voice and her songs are amazing too. Ren and Chincilla - 'How to be me" (live) is a must listen too. Have a great day everyone!❤🙏
This and other Ren songs, don't get played on the radio because of the label system and the way the music system is set up nowadays. With his talent, songwriting and charisma, Ren should be an international megastar, with rooms full of major awards! Which is exactly what the music industry doesn't want for an independent artist, as it undermines their business model and their control. If modern music is to break free from the dire state it's in, we need independent artists, like Ren, to succeed. Especially when he really can do it live, without lipsynching, miming, backing tracks, atotune and real-time production techniques. 99.9% of modern artists either can't do that are aren't willing to take the chance. Ren deserves our support because of the human being he is and because of the hope he offers to the future of music! The fact that he's also a musical genius, who creates incredible music, should make such support easy! :)
I love this song. I also love ‘how to be me’ which he also did with Chinchilla. The first medication she mentions is Sertraline-anti anxiety/depression medication. Great reaction. 🖤🤘
I literally just found this song after Hi Ren and I just told my wife lastnight that this is now my hands down favorite song out right now. We need more music like this today that actually has meaning and not just flipity floppity flupe lyrics.
love your reaction. i watched tons of reaction videos to ren's music and you're definitely my top 3 favorite. your words and feelings are so genuine. and you spread positivity to the artists too. thank you for your videos
Reactions to these songs are spreading everywhere.haha :D I hope Rens' older songs like Crutch, Patience or Penitence will get some more spotlight soon
When you find the world constantly attacking you, it's because they see Him in you. You scare it, because it can't stop Him, and it can't stop you. ❤🔥🍻
I'm so sorry & angered on your behalf Cliff. I love listening to your thoughts, watching your breakdowns & reactions to music. Far too many reactors just sit there watching a song & barely say anything. I admire your willingness to say what you think & how you promote independent musicians. I don't know what it's like in the US but over here the pandemic really hit all smaller working musicians so hard. I've been a musician/artist most of my life & have done just about everything to stay afloat from busking, playing parties/weddings/funerals/churches to teaching, all so I can keep trying to write & create the music I actually want to. Lockdown very nearly pushed me under & I'm still really struggling to rebuild & regroup. It's so ironic to me that in an era where everyone's purported to be so enlightened & aware that quite the opposite's true. Sad that anyone who demonstrates awareness of, or a contradictory opinion to, the over-riding agenda of quiescence becomes a target. Good to have you back & I hope all this trouble you're having stops. I'm so glad you're promoting Ren too & that I've discovered his music. Musically & creatively he's outstanding, but I empathise so much with his story & the way he expresses his experiences & struggles through his music. I've battled an autoimmune disease since I was 18; it's a bitch! All power & great respect to him. I wish him every success in both his music & his health struggles. Much love Cliff xxxx
My goodness!! Your reaction to this video is so beautiful!!! Thank you!!! Just for that I'm su subscribing to your channel!! This was such an honest and heartfelt reaction!! I agree with you also!! This song should be on the radio!! I'm looking forward to Ren doing this at the Grammys!!!
![Ren X Chinchilla - Chalk Outlines (live) [Gospel Musician Reaction]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/B6DC5obM3uY/mqdefault.jpg)
This should have been on the Grammys 😊 They are so much better than 80 percent of the people nominated ❤
Absolutely 💯
Damn straight!
Literally….
80%? More like 99.99%!
@@daddoudan I agree 😆 I was just trying to be generous
slays me, speaks to me, speaks of ja, i am grateful to live w in the time of Ren and his crew. it is not a one man show but OMG he is pressing well.
It's the eye contact in the chorus for me.
Chinchilla's first line is "sertraline, and a sip of serotonin" - I broke out in tears when I heard that. Very relatable.
Same, I was taking sertraline for ages and it hit me like a brick
I too was taking sertraline. I was so dependent upon it and would get manic when I ran out. I quit cold turkey.
Bro that’s exactly what happened to me. I’ve been on them for like ten years now.
Sertaline is a bitch. Citalopram does me wonders x
For those who are wondering, it’s the generic name for Zoloft. And yes, it sucks.
I have an autoimmune disorder, chronic illness, and severe depression bc of it all. I have spent the last few years on my couch completely vacant. I used to do a lot. I have had my poetry and photography published in the past. I wanted to make short films but never did. I lost all desire in life. These videos, the messages, and your reactions have really been helping me. Thank you for doing these.
Thank you for telling us your truth 🙏
Ok I cried in this one lol!Still loving your reactions. Chinchilla and Ren ooze musically. I love their other collab, I forgot how to be me
This is such a beautiful song. My son deals with depression and has repeatedly said that he feels “dead inside”. He is 14 and has been saying this since he was 10. Outside of going to school he, pretty much, lives in his room. I try to get him to come join the rest of the family, but he rarely does. It breaks my heart. I just want him to realize it’s ok to feel ok. It’s ok to be happy about something. I worry about him constantly.
Thanks for doing this one Cliff. Ren is absolutely amazing. First time hearing Chinchilla. She has an amazing voice as well. ✌🏻
Such a horrible illness to deal with both for the person depressed and for family. A loving family means so much though - even if sometimes it feels it's making little difference it does. It just takes time. My thoughts go out to him, to you and your family. Stay strong.
@@philsilverthorn Thank you. That actually means a lot. ✌🏻😊
Now i know very little about your son or your situation of course, but as someone whose depression started around 13 years old (i'm 30 now) the best advice i can give is: Try to figure out if your son is "dead inside" cause they just cant connect with themselves due to dysphoria. It took me till 25 to realize i was trans and when i did so incredibly many puzzle pieces in my life clicked together. I'm not quite sure how you would breach this topic with them but maybe just try to go into it with an angle on if they feel different, how they feel about their body. If they wish to look different or be someone else. Alternatively you could also look into signs of ADHD or Autism (i know i'm quite the mental mess and this comment is just in the hope that i can possibly save someone for decades of suffering through questioning) I also suggest looking into getting a therapist for more specialized help. It took me 12 different therapists/psychiatrists/life coaches to find the right one that could help me so dont give up when the first couple of them dont work out.
Also, keep talking with them, make sure they know they can tell you anything without any judgement from your side, the one thing that got me through the worst of my depression was knowing that through it all my mom had my back (untill she had a brain tumor that is but that is a whole different story) I can not promise this will help, i can not say it will be easy. All i can say for sure is that there is *something* that is eating at your child, they are carrying some form of burden, without maybe even they themselves realizing it and it is weighing them down to the point of them already starting to get tired of having to carry it through life.
I really hope you and your child can get through it. And let me tell you the absolute biggest warning sign to look out for, when they suddenly seem to snap out of it by themselves without any real action from your side to solve any issue and then *appear* to be happy again. When that happened to me i had fully disassociated with myself and my first suicide attempt was half a year later.
It will be scary to deal with all this but the fact you made this comment shows you care a great deal and i believe you can be strong enough for your child to help them.
@@RepstarVixenThank you so much for your comment. I do have a good relationship with my son. He does have ASD and he has had many therapists. We (his parents) have done everything in our power to help him. I have reinforced with my son that we support him 100%, but we can’t do the work for him. Actually this school year I have seen huge improvements in him. He’s doing well in school and has made some really good friends.
Again, thank you for your comment. It means a lot to me. Take care of yourself. ✌🏻❤️😊
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How the hell are you keeping it together. I bawl like a baby each and every time i hear this
One-take, live vocals, let's get it! 🤘
Love your channel so much. This song actually got me to taper off my clonazapam. (Like a long acting Valium) been on them for 15 years. This song hit HARD in all the best ways.
Thanks for always shouting out to the people struggling with mental health. ❤
I'm really glad you reacted to this one and enjoyed it, most reactors seem to be skipping it for some reason. This is another one of Ren's songs that really resonates with me and I enjoy seeing other people enjoy that. Thanks for your reactions.
Probably because a lot of reactors prefer his rap. Idk… I’m even guilty of skipping it for awhile. Anytime I hear a new artist I love I have a tendency to avoid diving into their catalog for fear I’ll hate it. Lol I know, I’m weird.
Same with his song Diazepam
I love how they sing TO each other instead of around each other.
Why the fuck do I tear up every time every song. This guy speaks to my soul. Sitting here on sertraline myself been left on them for like ten years man. I feel like rens music is the first I’ve felt anything properly in years. Incredible. I need to meet this man.
Great reaction....most played song .but to hear it all broke down and appreciated is great 👍
"Sertraline and a sip of seratonin". Sertraline is Zoloft in the US.
New subscriber 🫶🏼
Love your reaction to this duet, the breakdown and your opinion was beyond what I have come across so far.
Keep doing you mate, we’re here for it!
Thank you for Your truth. ✌️
They broke me with this one. I've been 19 years going through much the same issues of autoimmune disorder, depression, injuries, and constant pain. It's all learning how to cope with every new pitfall.
Have you been tested for EDS? My partner going through similar. Also childhood trauma can cause issues like this later in life. Sorry you’re suffering.
@@Rookslife Looked it up just now and it doesn't fit the symptoms. I have been officially diagnosed with Meniere's (now at endstage), Hashimoto's, Sclerosis, Degenerative Disc Disease, Zygapophysial Joint Arthropathy, COPD, rashes, and kidney failure. Top this off by falling head first down a ravine that damaged my C3 and C4 limiting my mobility. The main issue is trying to do therapy for one problem aggravates the others.
Still, thank you for reaching out. It means more than you might know. Hearing Ren's story has also helped keep me pressing on to smile each day and try to help someone else smile too. You are a blessing ♥as is this community.
@@allybandy3047 that is an awful lot on your plate! I’m glad you find help in his work it’s definitely a breath of fresh air hearing someone make this type of music around these topics.
Blessings to you for your commendable strength.
I love doctors, they have beat stage 4 cancer for me. Afterwards, i was on Sertraline because i had ptsd. It makes ya feel numb emotionally though. I had to stop taking it so i could feel again
I get it. Antidepressant meds , for me, were a chalk outline. Dead inside. That's why I am not on any of those anymore.
Something I didn't notice until just now... the lights flicker just before he enters that space. And then they flicker again before Chinchilla comes into frame and begins singing. It's like they're entering another dimension. Durint the first verse he says "I" and then switches to "We".
The tiny details and nuance in his videos leave so much to discover even after multiple views!
Can anyone else literally not stop thinking about this man's music. I can't get enough of it if I'm not listening to anything I can find he does on Spotify or UA-cam to watching others having such emotional reactions similar to what I have, man it's powerful stuff . Ren deserves a movement.. it's such a profound creative expression of ones self in such an articulate understanding relatable emotion of art. Rens range of topics an his ability make his music emote is unparalleled. chinchilla is dope to but I have a hankering that wildly talented an creative people tend to work with people they see are cut from atleast the same type of fabric lol love your reactions they're one thee most authentic out there. Seems the older I get that's all I want I crave authentic real people Which would explain why NF an Ren are my two favorite artists... I had a thought today about how cool it would be to have NFs Fear an Evil Rens characters do a Collab an intertwine those two characters in a dark dynamic 🤯🤯 something tells me it'd be brilliant lol have a blessed day sir. Sorry that's so long lol
youre the only reactor, so far, that encourages us to like and sub to the artists we love. its small things like this that are important. love it
I love Ren and Chinchilla❤❤.Cliff appreciate brother.
I recently discovered this song and I had such an emotional response to it. It's unreal. Thank you Cliff.
Real knows Real. Keep being you Cliff. Much love to anyone who reads this. "Dont cry, there's a pill for everything"
Chalk Outlines has always been my favourite Ren song and the blend of their voices is hauntingly beautiful.
Fender Stratocaster! The greatest of the greats use these guitars! Powerful song and message! Beautiful! The Beatles reference of "Let It Be" is brilliant!!!!
Faaaaaaark! This is incredible. Shivers down my spine.
I love the reaction, too, bro. Only a fucking robot wouldn't tear up a bit at this song.
all ren songs hit differently
Just stunning,I so hope he climbs to the top of the recognition list very soon. Nice work Cliff.
Such a beautiful song. But it breaks my heart every time. ❤️🩹
A glimpse of the overwhelming, expansive beauty inside people that gets numbed out with meds 😢 so bittersweet, it's heartbreaking 💔
Dude, I love your channel and the way you breakdown and react to videos and songs. I am a 50 year old who loves all music but especially rap. I have also been recently hit with lots of depression and anxiety and they have been putting me through all these different meds to try to find the one that works, meanwhile I feel like I am losing it sometimes. Watching your reactions helps me tons. It’s my therapy and I just want to say thank you! I’ve also got to say that Ren is a beast. I am so glad he has been found for the masses. This song is exactly what I’ve been icing the last few months. Please keep up the good work buddy.
Thank you beautifuly said, thank you for your words ♥️♥️
"I'm scared of being ok because all things change"
Fuck, that hits way too hard
This is so fantastic! An even more stunning duet (IMO) is "Ren X Chinchilla - How To Be Me (live)"
you do a great job at reacting take your time as long as you dont lose the feel of the song which you dont is all i care about when people stop alot
Ren and Sam Tompkins "Blind Eyed", original song of there's, few different performances of it but them performing it in a parking garage while getting kicked out is hilarious, n they don't miss a beat!
I’ll just say I have “profound cPTSD” (says my therapist), severe chronic pain, and I’m tired. So very tired of it all. Living, pushing through with “a great big smile”, suffering…it’s a lot. Every day I wake up, I’m gutted to still be here. I’m way past wanting to tap out. This song makes me weep; it makes me feel less alone. Anyway, I hope everyone here is doing ok and hanging in there.💜
This is the kind of love performance that should be at the Grammys nominated (& wins) for best song of the year. But it goes against their business model
LIVE performances
I’ve heard this song so many times, and it still brings a tear to my eyes. I never went the medication route, but I buried my feelings with a great big smile and bottling up Emotions can be just as deadly as masking them with medication I had to come to realize I don’t have to be the strong person and it’s OK if I break down, I’ve been through a lot and it’s only made me stronger and who I am today and if I can use my pain to help others that is medication to me.
Ooooohhhhh yyyyessss. Been waiting for this one.
Much ❤️ thank you.
Heartwrenching beautiful
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I love how he can go from rapping rapping, to this, to Hi Ren or amazing story telling like Jenny & Screech. All while be so relatable and real every time
Cliff, I absolutely love how real and raw you are on your channel! I was real upset and sending emails to the UA-cam contact us thing complaining that they were taking you and your channel down when you were helping so many people!!!! I actually received a response from them last week assuring me that your channel was still up and running lmfao. I usually don't speak about this in public forums because I don't like burdening other people with my issues. But this particular reaction you were talking about big pharma and the doctors and the switching of medications and I am a recovering opiate and heroin addict. I'll be six years clean this June 24th, in the last five and a half years I've been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, major depressive disorder, PTSD, several traumas that I've never dealt with, from childhood upwards, severe social anxiety & panic attacks and moderate agoraphobia. (Our house burned down 13 years ago and we lost all of our pets as well as all of our belongings!!! So I have a certain fear that if I leave my house something may happen. The doctors have had me on a roller coaster of medicines for years now. The worst one was a doctor that had me on 800 mg of Seroquel a day for 5 years 🤬🤬🤬 That caused serious weight gain and fcked my blood sugar up to where now I have to take meds for that too. I was put on heart meds and NEVER TOLD that I had had a heart attack one night when I'd od'd. I found out a year later as I was reading through the medical sheets they'd sent home with me after an overnight hospital stay 😳😳 I was just a useless junkie to them, would be 1 less addict out there they'd have to deal with 🤬🤬🤬🤬
Sorry, I didn't intend to write a book lol. But I HAD to tell you that to say this:. You saved me 2 different times!!! I haven't been able to find a trauma therapist or counselor because of where I live in Ohio.... I desperately need one!! Because I got rid of the drugs but all of the problems that were there.... Are still there!! And my demons bite hard especially in the middle of the night, when I'm up all night because I can't sleep. I now have seizures and can't drive and sometimes I just feel trapped,. There were 2 nights a year ago and a year and a half ago that I was truly close to breaking and losing the fight 😪😪 BOTH TIMES I got a bling notification on my phone about you dropping a new video!!! BOTH TIMES I went in to watch it and you were talking real shit about your struggle with addiction.... And your fight and offering that if anyone needed to talk to reach out to you. I was still carrying guilt and shame around and beating myself up daily so I was too afraid to reach out to you!!! But KNOWING you were out there and willing to help others.... Gave me a lifeline if I got to that place where it's dark in my head again. So I just wanted to let you know.... I'd either be in jail or dead WITHOUT YOU AND YOUR POSITIVITY!!! I OWE YOU my life!!! And also want you to know that if there is ever ANYTHING that I can do for you please do NOT HESITATE to ask!!! Even if you just need to talk to someone who's lived years in the dark with their demons!! I'm ALWAYS available!! Much love to you and your family!!! ❤️❤️❤️
We were commenting and was trying to send emails too and had still showed our support for bro.
That they had the foresight to choose the location not just for it's visual ambience, but also because it's natural reverb falloff speed is perfect for the tempo. When she pauses at the end of the music for the gentle outro.. Spot on, wonderful link between audio and visual.
He has a real knack for acoustics. The decay at the end of hi ren is so awesome.
I feel like some of us will be telling our grandchildren about Ren and how special it was to discover him. I See Ren as a voice for generations to come!! Music and healing for the masses. ✌❤💪
Woooooooow...I have no words !!!! EPIC EPIC EPIC SONG! ....So beautiful I don't have words !!! 🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌
I mean if the sound of the chair impressed you then yeah the song itself was bound to blow your mind 😂 It really is such a beautiful song and damn some of those lyrics… “I’m scared of being okay cause all things change” really hits differently.
I’m so glad you covered this one. It is quickly coming to be my go-to Ren song. It’s sad yet beautiful.
Chinchillas voice is so raw. So beautiful.
It strikes me that the way Ren does his videos makes it clear there’s no auto tune at play. It’s pretty revolutionary to assert these days. It’s almost like queen who used to put”no synthesizers” on their album covers.
This song makes me fucking cry
Love your takes and your perspective man
Can't wait for you to react to what went wrong part 1 and 2 by Ren and Sam.
Thanks for not letting big tech knock you down. The control they have in 2023 is wild. We need to hear your voice and your input, I appreciate your perseverance. Keep the reaction vids flowing
This has a constant hold on me as a severe mental health warrior I feel this ❤️❤️🇮🇪
(If I may) One breath at a time... it's all you can physically control. "Always come back to a breath" is what I tell myself daily.
@@MC_kalCM thank you. Been doing this dance 30 years and it never gets easier but in the past few years it hasn’t gotten any harder so I am beyond grateful for that. ❤️
Thanks Cliff! Chincilla has a beautiful voice and her songs are amazing too. Ren and Chincilla - 'How to be me" (live) is a must listen too. Have a great day everyone!❤🙏
So glad you’re staying on the Ren train!! I knew this one would hit you!
i feel like coming back watching your reactions is like a mini dopamine hit.
Love that song. It feels like one of the songs I used to hear when I was a kid that stay with me forever.
This and other Ren songs, don't get played on the radio because of the label system and the way the music system is set up nowadays. With his talent, songwriting and charisma, Ren should be an international megastar, with rooms full of major awards! Which is exactly what the music industry doesn't want for an independent artist, as it undermines their business model and their control. If modern music is to break free from the dire state it's in, we need independent artists, like Ren, to succeed. Especially when he really can do it live, without lipsynching, miming, backing tracks, atotune and real-time production techniques. 99.9% of modern artists either can't do that are aren't willing to take the chance. Ren deserves our support because of the human being he is and because of the hope he offers to the future of music! The fact that he's also a musical genius, who creates incredible music, should make such support easy! :)
I love this song. I also love ‘how to be me’ which he also did with Chinchilla.
The first medication she mentions is Sertraline-anti anxiety/depression medication.
Great reaction. 🖤🤘
Sertraline is one of the wonderful pills that I take every day
The respect you paid Chinchilla was dope!
I love Ren. It is a beautiful song. I cried the first time I heard this. Thanks for the reaction Cliff. Send lots of love. 🤍🤍🤍
I literally just found this song after Hi Ren and I just told my wife lastnight that this is now my hands down favorite song out right now. We need more music like this today that actually has meaning and not just flipity floppity flupe lyrics.
This song is so gut wrenchingly honest...your reaction so true..absolutely haunting. Beautiful.❤❤🔥🔥👍
Ren is a modern day troubadour
he can do it all, rap rock soul
he can deal with his issues and illness
through his songs, this is real as it gets
Love this song!!! ❤️
This is amazing xx they both killed it xx ❤️🐢❤️ xx
This song is special. Really should have radio play. Absolutely captures the hope and despair of the mental cycle.
It's so beautiful.
Such a beautiful song. And a beautiful meaning that relates to many people.
This was a wonderful reaction ❤
love your reaction. i watched tons of reaction videos to ren's music and you're definitely my top 3 favorite. your words and feelings are so genuine. and you spread positivity to the artists too. thank you for your videos
Yup. No words. 🎯🎵🙏🔥💯
The freaking eye contact Chinchilla catches me every time.
Hi algorithm. Great reaction Cliff. Such a powerful song.
been waiting on this one Cliff, beautiful song, im here for all Ren reactions, much love brotha
Love your reactions.
Ren is an unbelievable talent.
Wow this guy is really talented. He has great range of ability. This song is beautiful.
Reactions to these songs are spreading everywhere.haha :D I hope Rens' older songs like Crutch, Patience or Penitence will get some more spotlight soon
When you find the world constantly attacking you, it's because they see Him in you. You scare it, because it can't stop Him, and it can't stop you. ❤🔥🍻
Oooooooooo snap. Big pharma. Truth
Wow. He never fails to amaze me. A beautiful duet. Much respect for the one take artistry. I don't know who else does this.
Right thats what I love about your channel you're Real brother.
Ren is a genius just amazing.
I'm so sorry & angered on your behalf Cliff. I love listening to your thoughts, watching your breakdowns & reactions to music. Far too many reactors just sit there watching a song & barely say anything. I admire your willingness to say what you think & how you promote independent musicians. I don't know what it's like in the US but over here the pandemic really hit all smaller working musicians so hard. I've been a musician/artist most of my life & have done just about everything to stay afloat from busking, playing parties/weddings/funerals/churches to teaching, all so I can keep trying to write & create the music I actually want to. Lockdown very nearly pushed me under & I'm still really struggling to rebuild & regroup. It's so ironic to me that in an era where everyone's purported to be so enlightened & aware that quite the opposite's true. Sad that anyone who demonstrates awareness of, or a contradictory opinion to, the over-riding agenda of quiescence becomes a target. Good to have you back & I hope all this trouble you're having stops. I'm so glad you're promoting Ren too & that I've discovered his music. Musically & creatively he's outstanding, but I empathise so much with his story & the way he expresses his experiences & struggles through his music. I've battled an autoimmune disease since I was 18; it's a bitch! All power & great respect to him. I wish him every success in both his music & his health struggles. Much love Cliff xxxx
This is a deep song and bro has been making so many geared towards awareness for mental health.
It took me 4 watches of this video to realize they represent ghosts that's why the lights flicker and why they are both wearing white! 🤯
Yeah I see it …. thanks for sharing that observation … I missed it
Peace ❤
glad u did this one man, great reaction, feel free to check: Ren X Chinchilla - How To Be Me (live)
How To Be Me by those two is another amazing duet.
My goodness!! Your reaction to this video is so beautiful!!! Thank you!!! Just for that I'm su subscribing to your channel!! This was such an honest and heartfelt reaction!!
I agree with you also!! This song should be on the radio!! I'm looking forward to Ren doing this at the Grammys!!!
Love your reactions dude.. ;)
Ren x Chinchilla - How to be me another great song.
Thank you for all that you do... Great content.
Love your perspective, spot on. Pure art, still gives me goosebumps every listen
I'm not completely sure of the why but this instantly brought Kiss Off by the Violent Femmes to my mind. Both amazing.