I still observe others and how they handle different social situations so I can use that knowing that it is socially acceptable. Crazy how my entire life is watching other people to make sure I don’t get called rude or emotionless because I did or said something that was “wrong”.
I am autistic and I'm 21 and want to have children in the future. You give me hope! You help me think that I can be a great mom even though I'm very different and struggle with a lot of things! Thank you and please keep up with this very important channel!
omg the lines on the edge of papers! I've always felt bad about not being more artistic with my doodling but I always draw parallel lines in the corners or fill in o's and a's or draw boxes in the margins and fill them in with lines
Appreciate your video so much!! I still haven't got a diagnosis but i'm seeing the therapist next week again! Nobody ever said I'm autistic or anything but I can relate to literally almost everything you said xD and I'm secretly awkward, nobody knows it until you get to know me REALLY WELL
Thank you for sharing, Cammie! It is definitely so interesting to review your childhood/teen experiences. I thank goodness there are some skilled professionals that really can help those in need. You are such a fantastic mommy to all the kids; and, I really learn so much about autism by observing your family. I'm usually too busy smiling from ear to ear because your kids are so special. You have so much to be proud of!
I’m commenting as I watch but the “feeling much younger than my age” hit me SO hard. I always say that I’m not 21, I don’t feel 21, I feel like a little girl.
My 4 year old is autistic and I think I might be too... One thing that has always affected my life is that I usually come across as being confident and make friends easily but I find it exhausting sometimes keeping up with them and bring a good friend :(. Can anyone relate to this? I also get super anxious making phone calls or making plans to hang out. I also have hyper flexible joints and remembering watching people to try and figure out how to act normal. I’m a nurse and if I am I def mask it well but have been called out on having eye contact that’s too intense..
Oh thanks, it’s given me the confidence to get myself tested, because I knew from high school, and looking back into Primary school, I knew I felt slightly different than your Atypical girl/s, always behind the eighth ball about everything.
My 11 year old daughter is on the spectrum. I really hope she grows up to be a person like you :) you seem very sweet. Your daughter reminds me of her too. Think they would get along well.
OMG the walking a pattern through the store thing? I go in for eggs and by the time I get to the checkout I've gotten everything BUT eggs and I've been in the supermarket for 2 hours. Online shopping is a lifesaver.
I know this is 4 years old now and you may not see it, but towards the end when you talked about feeling things that were sounds, it made me wonder if you have synesthesia or if you’ve heard of it. Those descriptions to me sound like a pretty good possibility that you are in some way. It’s a pretty interesting condition, but briefly, it’s basically when a person’s senses get sort of crosswired in their brain. For example, I have a friend with it that sees numbers in colors - every number has its own color when she sees them (independent of if they’re actually colored or not). She has always been very good with math and works a lot in accounting, and she’s always been exceptional with preparing for audits and one time she was explaining what she had been working on and how when she was going through the spreadsheet of all the past year’s transactions, she’d have to look for the numbers with the wrong colors, and I had just watched a video about synesthesia so I asked her if she meant like “when the balances are in the red”, etc., and she said, “no. I mean when the numbers are the wrong color because they don’t add up correctly. You know how they’re supposed to be the right color when they add up right?” So I told her to go watch the video I had just seen and she did and came back and said, “you mean you don’t see numbers in different colors when you look at them???” She was completely SHOCKED! She had NO IDEA that through her whole life that everyone didn’t see that when they looked at numbers, but it suddenly made sense to her why she was so much better at accounting and balancing accounts because it would be so much more work if you had to just stare at the raw numbers and meticulously go through and make sure they all added up one by one. Anyway, something to consider if you haven’t already or don’t already know. But this was a great and really helpful video because I’ve been thinking about whether or not I sould go try to get a diagnosis myself at 51. I’m pretty sure I am after spending the last few years researching it to see if it fit or not, but that’s not the same thing as a proper diagnosis.
I am only 19, but I relate so so much to your early childhood experiences, and even your college experience too. I'm sorry you had that bad teacher experience when you were young btw, hearing that had me in tears 😭❤️
The intense focus on writing though. I literally do that in fact I accidentally wore a novel that I intended to be a short story by hyperfixating and that is what made me know I had to be nurodivergent. So I got checked and I do have adhd so yeah. + also I relate to the acting much younger than my age thing but I just always associated that with being more a ‘nerd’ (even tho I do see how it’s a nurodivergent trait) I collect dolls and plushies I would consider Sesame Street and Jim Hensons puppetry a special interest of mine I wear childish “cute” “Kawaii” clothing. I still watch cartoons (though I am studying cartoons and comics as a degree so this may get a pass) And my food pallet is that of a 5 year old, with a few adult foods thrown in every so often. + I relate to loving making lists And making up games and controlling them and said games was usually just roleplaying which is just two person writing. 😅
omg the making up and controlling the game! I've never related to the lack of imagination criteria because I made up all sorts of make believe games for my friends to play with me, but I DEFINITELY controlled the narrative and character assignments LOL
Yes, I walk through aisle by aisle even if I only need one thing. Drives people crazy but that is part of the "grocery store experience" for me. That is also how I think of other things that I need- like oh look the spice aisle. Hey, I just used the last of the tarragon. I also still script meetings beforehand. I also rescript conversations for better outcomes- even years later.
PS forgot to mention I am currently self diagnosing with autism and have set up and hopefully will find out soon when I’ll be going into a specialist to get professionally tested for autism and also get retested for all of my six or seven mental health disorders
My things is I have a hightened sense of awareness and empathy. If someone gets hurts, I hurt and feel for others. I get labled as fake or not caring but I care so deeply.
I have a similar memory from first grade. I was in the bathroom too long I guess. Looking back now, I was probably refreshing myself with some alone time. I got back to class and the teacher conducted the class like an orchestra, raising her hands, "ready everyone?" And the entire class in unison sang, "we were WAITING for you!" I still get so angry thinking about it.
@@LeighPeterson330 The lesson today, how to bully and belittle your classmates. It’s interesting that when I finally forgave my father for him bullying me (long after he’d passed on) I was released from the negative energy of hating him. I am no longer that victim, I have complete release from the sting of his behaviour toward me, I could even see that he had been a victim in his own life. I could even feel compassion toward him, even though he had not earned it. I thank God for that!
Again, welcome to the tribe. Table for one and a book is my kind of date too. I fancy I was still building stuff in the sand on the beach when my peers had long moved on to other things. You are dead on regarding having learned those early scripts called "Manners" and they stood us well.
I'm 24 and recently became obsessed with medieval castles, like I have hundreds of pictures downloaded from the internet that I look at and study for architectural details that I can incorporate into designing my own castles. I've logged nearly 1000 hours into a game that never left early access which lets me build castles and I actually deprive myself of food and general needs as long as I can stand just to continue building. If I had the money then my bookshelf would be lined with castle books, most of them probably for children because castles are seen as only for children; talk about having immature interests lol. I've sought an explaination as to why I suddenly became consumed by my interest in castles, and autistic special interest definitely fits the bill.
I actually teared up when you were talking about staying away from the cafeteria in College for 7 days.... I feel you on that. I get really bad social anxiety and i'll try to avoid situations at all cost. I can't say that I've had the exact experience...but it's definitely something I would do as well. I will avoid the grocery store often because of social anxiety. I also cannot STAND when people say "whats up" or "sup"....I just don't understand how to answer!! Which is actually what my answer is now because it's ridiculous: "sorry i dont know how to respond to that" and i giggle to make sure it wasn't taken in a rude way.
You may be interested in researching hypermobility and Autism. I am in the process of getting diagnosed with Ehlers Danlos Syndrome (EDS). I have ADHD and am suspicious I may also have ASD. Often times ASD and EDS go hand in hand. Thanks for your informative videos!
I liked dolls when I was 12 and 15 But when I was a little bit older. When girls my age was chasing boys. I was always really small for my age and boys thought I was just a little kid. 14 and 15 is still way to young to date. My saying was to old for toys and to young for boys. 14 to 17 is a difficult age.
I have many of these things in common with you. I have a particular way I walk through places - not necessarily the grocery store, but if I'm walking somewhere I always walk on the same side of the street and have particular places I cross the street. When shopping though, I have a need to see every single option before making a decision (and make sure I didn't miss any good deals), so I end up walking through the whole store anyways. I'm in college now (well, currently at home, but only because of the virus) and experienced the afraid to eat thing, especially when I first got to school. I was afraid of the dining hall, but luckily I could still get take out without worrying too much. I was also afraid of the bathroom in my dorm and afraid to shower, resulting in poor hygiene for a while. I'm also fashion inept. At this point I've decided the best thing is to have all my pants go with all my shirts and then I don't have a problem. One of my favorite stories from when I was little is I came out of my room wearing a tie-dye tshirt and plaid shorts, my mom was not having it, and I said, "What? They're both blue!" All my journals from when I was little are filled with lists. My biggest obsessions were Pokémon and dog breeds, so many of the lists are related to those things.
Omgsh THE LISTS MY NEICE DID LISTS OF NAMES BOYS AND GIRLS. FROM WHEN SHE COULD WRITE TIL TEENS, I STILL HAVE THEM ALL NEATLY WRITTEN IN NOTE BOOKS ON DIARIES JOURNALS SINGLE PAPER ETC. WHATS UP W THE LISTS..K. MY NIECE USED TO SAY IT WAS FUN AND SHED PUT THEM IN ORDER OF 1 THRU ACCORDING TO THE BEST ONES..i literally LOOSE TIME IF I GO IN STORES W TOO MANY CHOICES..ITS LIKE AN ATTACK ON MY BEING I MUST CHECK AND LOOK AT EVERY SINGLE OPTION INC INGREDIENTS..I CANT SEE AS WELL SO I MUST GET IN CLOSE. I FILL A CART THEN EMPTY IT TAKJNG OUT THE LEAST IMPORTANT BY ALL KINDS OF RULES OF WHY I KEEP OR NOT..IF I GO JN IN DAY ITS DARK WHEN I COME OUT. U LATELY EMPTY HANDED...
When I was a freshman year in highschool I used to eat in the resource room during lunch because I didn't have any friends yet at the time. So, I did that so people wouldn't think I didn't have many friends at that time.
On the grocery thing, is there a thought process behind your always taking the same route? I occasionally go straight to what I need (like if I'm in a rush, e.g. just picking up a snack on my way to meet a friend, and I'm almost always late so I don't have time for the route), but if I'm buying groceries I always think that maybe there's something I need I didn't put on my list and walk the same path every time.
I also always go to the same grocery store even though it's not the closest one to me anymore because I know the layout of the store and feel like I can shop more efficiently because I don't have to look for things. Not knowing where the things I need are makes me anxious.
I remember the first time someone asked me, "How's it going?" I was in 7th grade. I was stumped and then asked what "it" was. Fortunately, he was a kind adult who explained it to me. It was just a general or generic phrase used to make a connection with another person. The expected answer was "Fine". (You're probably supposed to ask about the other person then.)
I don't think I've ever had a doctor who listened to my every concern. They have listened , not commented, and either wrote me a prescription, or not addressed my concerns at all.
55 years old - I was only diagnosed in my early 40's being on the Spectrum. Not all bad. Documented IQ of 134 & above average hearing (which can be annoying sometimes). Learned on my own - Eye contact, Social cues and not being so blunt with people (which got me in trouble in my younger days). College Degree, married and been working for fortune 100 companies for the last 30+ years. I have a 18 nephew that isn't so lucky. He is verbal, but has major problems socializing and understanding how to talk to people. He tries really hard though. He loves talking to me. Maybe because I understand what he is going through.
The "What's up?" is the response to "What's up?" thing, oh my goodness. I got quite used to "Not much" being an acceptable response to "What's up?" and then I moved to Newfoundland. The script here is for one person to ask "What'a'ya at?" (What are you at? means the same thing.) and the correct response is "This is it." I can't do it. I've been here for 11 years. I cannot bring up that response when it's called for. I still say "Not much."
They interviewed my mum mostly about my early years. Gave me the lowest score possible based on her answers, and I scored incredibly high lol. I love my diagnosis
Omg me! When people started saying Sup it threw me for a loop forever! It’s such a simple phrase but it took me forever to hear enough people responding to it to figure out how to respond.
I always thought it sounded so corny or dumb i refised to awknoledge it.. but many sayings or words greetings etc I JUST WILL NEVER SAY OR JUSITFY W ANSWER..
@@carodame9419 I started responding with “Sup” back so that they have to come up with something or move on to something else. Or I say “not much, you?”
even as an Atheist I think that teachers who enable bullying and making fun of their students will burn in hell later. what sort of atrocious creatures must such teachers be to behave like this smh. they should do the opposite and be good examples! I too noticed so many who do this, all of the narcissistic babyboomer generation.
I also couldn’t figure out how to respond to “what’s up” and so many other lines. 😅 I listened in on how other people would respond and I started using that language also
I am 38 years old, but I feel like a teenager. I totally don't relate with moms my age. ❤ I am really wondering about myself being autistic. I really have a hard time in conversations. I get very nervous in non threatening conversations. I'll talk so much and not sensor what I say. I overshare and get so mad at myself. I get hyperfocused on random topics. I'll research and stay up so late wanting to know every single detail then randomly lose interest and move onto a different topic.
Omg watching this now explains possibly why so many people think I'm only 16 😅 I do appear young also because i don't wear makeup. I never thought of things I did because of autism to appear underage 😳
Some of these things completely resonate with me, others don't..now I'm curious if I could be on the spectrum. I have a friend on the spectrum who constantly use to tell me "yeah,that's because your autistic." I thought he was joking with me.
My best friend in high school was autistic. One of the many things that made me wonder at the time if I was on the spectrum too (I am) is what his mother said to me after our graduation. "Thank you for being so kind to him. You were the first person to really understand." At the time, I was confused as to how I could have been the first person to understand him when we didn't even meet until we were teenagers (he seemed "normal" enough to me, just a bit awkward). Her words have stayed with me for years, and likely will for the rest of my life. Ironically, I've only spoken to him once since then, but I've been debating trying to get back in touch in the last couple of months since I've found all this out
Omg I keep hearing about U.S grocery stores with non food items being sold? like clothes and home goods right next to bread and frozen foods?? is that everywhere?
Im an autistic adult bit u knew that lol. I go into the store for something and then end up with everything but the main item because im also ADHD. I also get Hugh anxiety in the store. Played with Barbie's until I was 16. Wasn't good at eye contact and still ain't unless u have blue eyes then I over do eye contact 🤣🤣 I have alot of little stims too. I.hyperfocus on things. I also scribbled on my paper and still do so then I have to throw it away and start over on whatever I was doing. Masking can be a burn out for me as well. I went thru a phase of opening and closing everything. My asd son has done this since 9 months old and it's super annoying.
@@Autmazing the fanfiction app AO3 has AWESOME hp stories, there's even a series where Harry and Hermione are autistic; the one I'm reading is great so far
I hope this doesn't come off offensive. I don't mean to invalidate anyone. It's not a question about you or your children personally ...I'm just not that knowledgeable about this topic yet and you have children, so you know better. If a neutrotypical child gets raised by an autistic parent and "normal" kids learn social interaction by copying caretakers...will the neurotypical child copy the behaviour of the autistic parent and/or forms of interactions that work for them? Like...could it be that the child is nt but has for example problems with "normal" social interactions because what they learned as normal social interactions in their home was different from other children?
I think this is a great question! ❤️ I actually asked this of multiple therapists and doctors before our second to youngest was evaluated and they said no way. A neurotypical kid might pick up some things but would still be pretty neurotypical. Besides my husband and I have spent our whole lives masking pretty well and our kids don’t... I think now their influence has me trying to let myself be more myself if that makes sense? Because masking is super stressful but hard to unlearn when you’ve done it round the clock all your life.
@@Autmazing thank you for your fast answer. That's really interesting...I guess that most kids grow up also with different influences like peers, teachers and others around them not just their caretaker. So as much of an influence a parent can be, there also other people that can be role models...and it is part of them as a person to be nt just as much? It is good to hear that your children don't have to go to such an amount of stress and have you as their parents that can understand them well. Always masking and trying to fit in is really exhausting. It sometimes good to be able to do get your needs across a little easier, but always...that's tiring.
I used to NEVER SPEAK..ESP TO ANYONE I LIKED NEVER SAID WHAT I THOUGHT. I WAS CALLED MEAN LOOKING OR LIKE I WAS BETTER..BUT I WAS JUST SHY. I USED TO BE THE CONTROL OF EVERYTHING W MOST KIDS MAKING UP STORIES.. LISTS I NEVER DID BUT NEICE AGAIN..
I paused to comment. I do go a certain direction and pattern in grocery store and back through other isles later because i got distracted or remembered something else i wanted. Im 47 self diagnosed in process of professional diagnosis. My son age 18 is self diagnoesed and wont go unless i get diagnosed because he started the process with another doctor and was told he cant be autistic because he has a girlfriend and doesn't flap his hands n makes eye contact. I yelled at that lady n told her she needs to go back to school 🤷♀️
Scripts, let me tell you about scripts, i used them so much they are almost pre programmed. I picked a job with my biggest social anxiety of dealing with phones and talking to strangers face to face. So more scripts, yeah that’s fun but so much more doable after 13 years. I still suffer from trying to come up with new material for conversations, but thankfully am good at masking it and joking. Yes, even the jokes are scripted. I have hugging issues, it’s awkward and uncomfortable. I need to feel comfortable, there are materials I won’t wear and make up. Am I on the spectrum? Probably, but whatever, I’ve forced myself and have to keep forcing myself to achieve as much normality as I can handle. I’m not into labels, they can either free you of responsibility or push you into a stereotype, where some people are cunts and start disrespecting you and saying; well that’s the “disease” talking. I know it ain’t a disease, but like I said cunts.
We are incredibly similar in several ways, as well as having the same things we do. Interesting. Made me think and i called my psychologist (i see them for bipolar depression and severe anxiety, social anxiety, and more lol) and i asked her for anything she hadnt told me about what my diagnosis says and turns out she actually thinks im autistic but it doesnt effect much so she never bothered to encourage i get tested 🤣 ive seen her 7 years and she was like "yeah i always figured it". So thanks for helping me realize im probably autistic🤣🤣🤣🤣 wont change how i go about life but its interesting to know that may have caused some of my issues in my younger years. Also please do a video about the self harm i struggle with that and if we are so similar and you got past that then maybe your video can help me. I am definitely going to watch all your vlogs❤❤
I was never really into girly Barbie dolls. I prefer Pokemon dolls and other anime dolls as a little girl. I still do. 😜 I did love collect dolls of all kinds however. Me and my twin sister loved hoarding toys. Like we would have boxes and boxes of toys
The "I don't like the way the feel of this texture sounds." I totally get it. I'm having my official evaluation this week, at age 42, and I'm super nervous. I've "tried on" a bunch of other mental health diagnoses over the years but none of them give me as much clarity or explain so much of my life like autism does, so I'm hoping to confirm what I kind of deep-down already know.
Omg the SOUND OF TOUCH.. EEEWWWW COTTON AND WHEN U SAID ARCYLIC YARN MY SKIN CRAWLS TO IMAGINE IT. I HAVE TO SLAP IT OUT OF MY HEAD.. BUT DINCE I WAS A KUD I CANT DEAL W COTTON, ZND SOUND TOUCH THAT IRKS ME TO CORE.. SKJN HURTS I KNOW THIS FEELING. IF I GOT PJS THAT GRAZE MY ANKLE I GI UNSANE PULLING THEM BELOW MY HEELS IN BED .IT HURTS ME..MAYBE I AM AUTISTIC...BUT I THOUGHT IF YOU ARE UD NOT EVEN BE FUNCTIONABLE ENOUGH TO WATCH THIS VIDEO LET ALONE DO ONE.OR THERE WOULD BE ALOT OF ROCKING, AND WALKING OFF. MAYBE I OUGHT TO LOOK INTO THIS. I WAS DIAGNOSED W ADD AND PTSS. THE DESOXYN HELPED ME ALOT GET THRU COLLEGE. I CANT DO A TEST EXAM IF ANYONE OR ANYTHING TAPS MAKES NOISES OR WHISPERS , I GRT FRUSTRATED AND FEEL COMPELLED TO FIGHT BACK BY MAKING A LOUDER NOISE TIL THEY GET IT..OR I ASK PROF. TO LET ME GO WHERE THERES NO NOISE. JUST FIGURED IM A LOON. BUT NOW MAYBE THERES HOOE ID NEVER HAD THOUGHT TO CHECK ..THANK YOU FOR YOUR OPEN HONEST TRUTH IT REALLY HELPS TO KNOW HOW OTHERS MANAGE.. I LEARNED SOME THINGS I DID NOT KNOW.THANKS GOD BLESS.
I have a lot if things that make me wonder if I’m on the spectrum. But I would be considered high functioning. But I am 37 and if anything slightly changes it really upsets me and throws me off. Even small things such as changing dinner plans etc. It makes me so anxious. I also am very obsessive and focus on certain things a LOT. It could be a tv show or an item of clothing, or a piece of food. I am just always so much more intense than others. But I have OCD, so it may be more to do with that. I don’t know if I should follow up on it, there is lots more to it than what I have written. But those are my two big things.
Omg Leo DiCaprio, Devon Sawa, JTT, and Titanic were my obsession, all over my walls i was so boy crazy. I dont have autism but do have a learning disability( normal iq) but have a hard time learning things with a lot of steps, anyways i always growing up was so imaginative and was really into barbies even in my teens (although I didn’t actually play w them), I always wanted to live in the olden days and was really into period pieces and history. Anne of green Gables and little woman were all i wanted o watch.I wasn’t necessarily immature but the things i loved i loved. Still to this day I’m really into a lot of the same things except barbies.
sounds like a general opinion on woman shopping for me , what make neurotypical woman sound Autistic,but being a male grab and go due to the fact shopping stresses me, often sees me sitting in car for 3 hrs in car park reading a book waiting for wife to finish shop.
At a certain point, I think everyone has autism hahahaa, I feel pretty identified with your lifestory....now I feel confused...I've always believe I am just a little obsessive... that was it.
Wow, I did almost all those things and thought those were all normal. Especially dressing like your friend and pretending you're twins, that's not normal??
@@andressalittle5380 you do realize that all kids don't do all things autistic kids do though? It's not about one thing here and one thing there. It's about 15, 20, 25 things that you do your entire life that affect you daily.
You looked so normal to me. Anyway, there's a different kind of spectrum called asperger, and I think more likely you're in this group. Asperger and autism is quite the same but difference in intellect. If you do not know about it yet, you can Google it and check. By the way, I'm with asperger. I only knew about it about 10 years ago. All my life I was like a Lone Ranger. So I suspected something wrong with me, and I did alot of research, and also went to the Autism Association to check, and finally I had the answer. Asperger.
My sister and best friend suffered with migraines for yrs. They both went and was tested for Food allergies. They found out what foods they had allergies too and stopped eating those foods and migraines went away. Sister was allergic to dark chocolate and onions. My friend was allergic to butter milk. Hope this helps.
I really ought to make a youtube video just to show what a real woman looks like. I do not wear make-up. This woman sez she wears make-up for youtube. Why??? because you think "people" will like you better? Women are such fools. We so need another jolt of feminism. I am 73. So I have a few coping skills. I live alone, because I like it and because I have alienated everyone. I am not about to "paint my face" in order to win friends and influence people. I groom. I bathe and comb my hair. I have better things to do than spend dollars and hours on changing my appearance. Just thought I'd rant a bit. I am very depressed.
I was diagnosed last year at 35 years old. The relief was amazing and made me feel like everything made sense.
That grocery store thing just blew my mind. I never even realized I went round the grocery store the same way every time. Creepy.
Same and I highly suspect I’m autistic.
I still observe others and how they handle different social situations so I can use that knowing that it is socially acceptable. Crazy how my entire life is watching other people to make sure I don’t get called rude or emotionless because I did or said something that was “wrong”.
I'm so sorry for what your teacher did to you.
I am autistic and I'm 21 and want to have children in the future. You give me hope! You help me think that I can be a great mom even though I'm very different and struggle with a lot of things! Thank you and please keep up with this very important channel!
omg the lines on the edge of papers! I've always felt bad about not being more artistic with my doodling but I always draw parallel lines in the corners or fill in o's and a's or draw boxes in the margins and fill them in with lines
I was always fascinated with different shapes and tried to think of different things that they represent
Appreciate your video so much!! I still haven't got a diagnosis but i'm seeing the therapist next week again! Nobody ever said I'm autistic or anything but I can relate to literally almost everything you said xD and I'm secretly awkward, nobody knows it until you get to know me REALLY WELL
Thank you for sharing, Cammie! It is definitely so interesting to review your childhood/teen experiences. I thank goodness there are some skilled professionals that really can help those in need. You are such a fantastic mommy to all the kids; and, I really learn so much about autism by observing your family. I'm usually too busy smiling from ear to ear because your kids are so special. You have so much to be proud of!
I’m commenting as I watch but the “feeling much younger than my age” hit me SO hard. I always say that I’m not 21, I don’t feel 21, I feel like a little girl.
Same here, I don't feel like I'm 26 myself; but I am LoL 😂
Same! Although in some areas I've been much more adult than my peers. I never knew this could be part of my autism.
I'm 42 and feel like I've not aged past 27 or so.
I don’t feel 40, I feel 16
I’m turning 23 on the 3rd and still feel like a teen or kid like I don’t feel my age lol
My 4 year old is autistic and I think I might be too... One thing that has always affected my life is that I usually come across as being confident and make friends easily but I find it exhausting sometimes keeping up with them and bring a good friend :(. Can anyone relate to this? I also get super anxious making phone calls or making plans to hang out. I also have hyper flexible joints and remembering watching people to try and figure out how to act normal. I’m
a nurse and if I am I def mask it well but have been called out on having eye contact that’s too intense..
Sounds like you are an introvert who might have some social anxiety. Both are common.
Definitely, all of the above!
Thankyou for becoming a nurse the world needs you as you are
Oh thanks, it’s given me the confidence to get myself tested, because I knew from high school, and looking back into Primary school, I knew I felt slightly different than your Atypical girl/s, always behind the eighth ball about everything.
My 11 year old daughter is on the spectrum. I really hope she grows up to be a person like you :) you seem very sweet. Your daughter reminds me of her too. Think they would get along well.
Just keep her away from narcissists
@@mammadingo9165 there everywhere though
that's so nice of you to say, but also true.
OMG the walking a pattern through the store thing? I go in for eggs and by the time I get to the checkout I've gotten everything BUT eggs and I've been in the supermarket for 2 hours. Online shopping is a lifesaver.
Agreed.
I know this is 4 years old now and you may not see it, but towards the end when you talked about feeling things that were sounds, it made me wonder if you have synesthesia or if you’ve heard of it. Those descriptions to me sound like a pretty good possibility that you are in some way. It’s a pretty interesting condition, but briefly, it’s basically when a person’s senses get sort of crosswired in their brain. For example, I have a friend with it that sees numbers in colors - every number has its own color when she sees them (independent of if they’re actually colored or not). She has always been very good with math and works a lot in accounting, and she’s always been exceptional with preparing for audits and one time she was explaining what she had been working on and how when she was going through the spreadsheet of all the past year’s transactions, she’d have to look for the numbers with the wrong colors, and I had just watched a video about synesthesia so I asked her if she meant like “when the balances are in the red”, etc., and she said, “no. I mean when the numbers are the wrong color because they don’t add up correctly. You know how they’re supposed to be the right color when they add up right?” So I told her to go watch the video I had just seen and she did and came back and said, “you mean you don’t see numbers in different colors when you look at them???” She was completely SHOCKED! She had NO IDEA that through her whole life that everyone didn’t see that when they looked at numbers, but it suddenly made sense to her why she was so much better at accounting and balancing accounts because it would be so much more work if you had to just stare at the raw numbers and meticulously go through and make sure they all added up one by one.
Anyway, something to consider if you haven’t already or don’t already know. But this was a great and really helpful video because I’ve been thinking about whether or not I sould go try to get a diagnosis myself at 51. I’m pretty sure I am after spending the last few years researching it to see if it fit or not, but that’s not the same thing as a proper diagnosis.
I am only 19, but I relate so so much to your early childhood experiences, and even your college experience too.
I'm sorry you had that bad teacher experience when you were young btw, hearing that had me in tears 😭❤️
The intense focus on writing though. I literally do that in fact I accidentally wore a novel that I intended to be a short story by hyperfixating and that is what made me know I had to be nurodivergent.
So I got checked and I do have adhd so yeah.
+ also I relate to the acting much younger than my age thing but I just always associated that with being more a ‘nerd’ (even tho I do see how it’s a nurodivergent trait)
I collect dolls and plushies
I would consider Sesame Street and Jim Hensons puppetry a special interest of mine
I wear childish “cute” “Kawaii” clothing.
I still watch cartoons (though I am studying cartoons and comics as a degree so this may get a pass)
And my food pallet is that of a 5 year old, with a few adult foods thrown in every so often.
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I relate to loving making lists
And making up games and controlling them and said games was usually just roleplaying which is just two person writing. 😅
This was great information thanks for sharing. You are so brave. Thank you.
omg the making up and controlling the game! I've never related to the lack of imagination criteria because I made up all sorts of make believe games for my friends to play with me, but I DEFINITELY controlled the narrative and character assignments LOL
i felt that teacher story in a visceral way.
Yes, I walk through aisle by aisle even if I only need one thing. Drives people crazy but that is part of the "grocery store experience" for me. That is also how I think of other things that I need- like oh look the spice aisle. Hey, I just used the last of the tarragon. I also still script meetings beforehand. I also rescript conversations for better outcomes- even years later.
I do this too, but I realise I only do this when I'm on my own, if I'm with other people and rush to what I need, it feels so unnatural to me!
PS forgot to mention I am currently self diagnosing with autism and have set up and hopefully will find out soon when I’ll be going into a specialist to get professionally tested for autism and also get retested for all of my six or seven mental health disorders
My things is I have a hightened sense of awareness and empathy. If someone gets hurts, I hurt and feel for others. I get labled as fake or not caring but I care so deeply.
It’s amazing that teacher actually modelled bullying, how crass!
I have a similar memory from first grade. I was in the bathroom too long I guess. Looking back now, I was probably refreshing myself with some alone time. I got back to class and the teacher conducted the class like an orchestra, raising her hands, "ready everyone?" And the entire class in unison sang, "we were WAITING for you!" I still get so angry thinking about it.
@@LeighPeterson330 The lesson today, how to bully and belittle your classmates. It’s interesting that when I finally forgave my father for him bullying me (long after he’d passed on) I was released from the negative energy of hating him. I am no longer that victim, I have complete release from the sting of his behaviour toward me, I could even see that he had been a victim in his own life. I could even feel compassion toward him, even though he had not earned it. I thank God for that!
Again, welcome to the tribe. Table for one and a book is my kind of date too. I fancy I was still building stuff in the sand on the beach when my peers had long moved on to other things. You are dead on regarding having learned those early scripts called "Manners" and they stood us well.
I'm 24 and recently became obsessed with medieval castles, like I have hundreds of pictures downloaded from the internet that I look at and study for architectural details that I can incorporate into designing my own castles. I've logged nearly 1000 hours into a game that never left early access which lets me build castles and I actually deprive myself of food and general needs as long as I can stand just to continue building. If I had the money then my bookshelf would be lined with castle books, most of them probably for children because castles are seen as only for children; talk about having immature interests lol. I've sought an explaination as to why I suddenly became consumed by my interest in castles, and autistic special interest definitely fits the bill.
I actually teared up when you were talking about staying away from the cafeteria in College for 7 days.... I feel you on that. I get really bad social anxiety and i'll try to avoid situations at all cost. I can't say that I've had the exact experience...but it's definitely something I would do as well. I will avoid the grocery store often because of social anxiety.
I also cannot STAND when people say "whats up" or "sup"....I just don't understand how to answer!! Which is actually what my answer is now because it's ridiculous: "sorry i dont know how to respond to that" and i giggle to make sure it wasn't taken in a rude way.
😂 the way you respond is better than what I do, I just nod my head and smile...maybe I should do what you do
You may be interested in researching hypermobility and Autism. I am in the process of getting diagnosed with Ehlers Danlos Syndrome (EDS). I have ADHD and am suspicious I may also have ASD. Often times ASD and EDS go hand in hand. Thanks for your informative videos!
I liked dolls when I was 12 and 15 But when I was a little bit older. When girls my age was chasing boys. I was always really small for my age and boys thought I was just a little kid. 14 and 15 is still way to young to date. My saying was to old for toys and to young for boys. 14 to 17 is a difficult age.
This is so interesting. I am....probably the only neurotypical person in my house. I am trying to understand my people, lol. Thanks for sharing this.
I have many of these things in common with you. I have a particular way I walk through places - not necessarily the grocery store, but if I'm walking somewhere I always walk on the same side of the street and have particular places I cross the street. When shopping though, I have a need to see every single option before making a decision (and make sure I didn't miss any good deals), so I end up walking through the whole store anyways. I'm in college now (well, currently at home, but only because of the virus) and experienced the afraid to eat thing, especially when I first got to school. I was afraid of the dining hall, but luckily I could still get take out without worrying too much. I was also afraid of the bathroom in my dorm and afraid to shower, resulting in poor hygiene for a while. I'm also fashion inept. At this point I've decided the best thing is to have all my pants go with all my shirts and then I don't have a problem. One of my favorite stories from when I was little is I came out of my room wearing a tie-dye tshirt and plaid shorts, my mom was not having it, and I said, "What? They're both blue!" All my journals from when I was little are filled with lists. My biggest obsessions were Pokémon and dog breeds, so many of the lists are related to those things.
Omgsh THE LISTS MY NEICE DID LISTS OF NAMES BOYS AND GIRLS. FROM WHEN SHE COULD WRITE TIL TEENS, I STILL HAVE THEM ALL NEATLY WRITTEN IN NOTE BOOKS ON DIARIES JOURNALS SINGLE PAPER ETC. WHATS UP W THE LISTS..K. MY NIECE USED TO SAY IT WAS FUN AND SHED PUT THEM IN ORDER OF 1 THRU ACCORDING TO THE BEST ONES..i literally LOOSE TIME IF I GO IN STORES W TOO MANY CHOICES..ITS LIKE AN ATTACK ON MY BEING I MUST CHECK AND LOOK AT EVERY SINGLE OPTION INC INGREDIENTS..I CANT SEE AS WELL SO I MUST GET IN CLOSE. I FILL A CART THEN EMPTY IT TAKJNG OUT THE LEAST IMPORTANT BY ALL KINDS OF RULES OF WHY I KEEP OR NOT..IF I GO JN IN DAY ITS DARK WHEN I COME OUT. U
LATELY EMPTY HANDED...
I understand what you went through. Back in the days autism wasn't even known ,how I wish it had been
When I was a freshman year in highschool I used to eat in the resource room during lunch because I didn't have any friends yet at the time. So, I did that so people wouldn't think I didn't have many friends at that time.
I relate so much, Teachers mocking me, wanting to play with toys when it was no longer cool, and looked like a kid in high school (clothes).
On the grocery thing, is there a thought process behind your always taking the same route? I occasionally go straight to what I need (like if I'm in a rush, e.g. just picking up a snack on my way to meet a friend, and I'm almost always late so I don't have time for the route), but if I'm buying groceries I always think that maybe there's something I need I didn't put on my list and walk the same path every time.
I also always go to the same grocery store even though it's not the closest one to me anymore because I know the layout of the store and feel like I can shop more efficiently because I don't have to look for things. Not knowing where the things I need are makes me anxious.
You be you girl! God loves YOU and has a sp ecial purpose for your life!
could it be that you are just introverted?
have you ever taken the Meyer Briggs Personality test? Might be eye-opening.
look into highly sensitive/ empaths
I remember the first time someone asked me, "How's it going?" I was in 7th grade. I was stumped and then asked what "it" was. Fortunately, he was a kind adult who explained it to me. It was just a general or generic phrase used to make a connection with another person. The expected answer was "Fine".
(You're probably supposed to ask about the other person then.)
I don't think I've ever had a doctor who listened to my every concern. They have listened , not commented, and either wrote me a prescription, or not addressed my concerns at all.
55 years old - I was only diagnosed in my early 40's being on the Spectrum. Not all bad. Documented IQ of 134 & above average hearing (which can be annoying sometimes). Learned on my own - Eye contact, Social cues and not being so blunt with people (which got me in trouble in my younger days). College Degree, married and been working for fortune 100 companies for the last 30+ years. I have a 18 nephew that isn't so lucky. He is verbal, but has major problems socializing and understanding how to talk to people. He tries really hard though. He loves talking to me. Maybe because I understand what he is going through.
The "What's up?" is the response to "What's up?" thing, oh my goodness. I got quite used to "Not much" being an acceptable response to "What's up?" and then I moved to Newfoundland. The script here is for one person to ask "What'a'ya at?" (What are you at? means the same thing.) and the correct response is "This is it." I can't do it. I've been here for 11 years. I cannot bring up that response when it's called for. I still say "Not much."
I know that poster!!... I had it lol!! I loved it so much...it was on my wall forever!!
They interviewed my mum mostly about my early years. Gave me the lowest score possible based on her answers, and I scored incredibly high lol. I love my diagnosis
Omg me! When people started saying Sup it threw me for a loop forever! It’s such a simple phrase but it took me forever to hear enough people responding to it to figure out how to respond.
I always thought it sounded so corny or dumb i refised to awknoledge it.. but many sayings or words greetings etc I JUST WILL NEVER SAY OR JUSITFY W ANSWER..
Omg tell me! What am i supposed to say?
@@carodame9419 I started responding with “Sup” back so that they have to come up with something or move on to something else. Or I say “not much, you?”
even as an Atheist I think that teachers who enable bullying and making fun of their students will burn in hell later. what sort of atrocious creatures must such teachers be to behave like this smh. they should do the opposite and be good examples! I too noticed so many who do this, all of the narcissistic babyboomer generation.
I also couldn’t figure out how to respond to “what’s up” and so many other lines. 😅 I listened in on how other people would respond and I started using that language also
I'm so sorry what that teacher did. I agree that wasn't very nice. I would have talked to the principal if that would have happened to me.
I am 38 years old, but I feel like a teenager. I totally don't relate with moms my age. ❤ I am really wondering about myself being autistic. I really have a hard time in conversations. I get very nervous in non threatening conversations. I'll talk so much and not sensor what I say. I overshare and get so mad at myself. I get hyperfocused on random topics. I'll research and stay up so late wanting to know every single detail then randomly lose interest and move onto a different topic.
Omg watching this now explains possibly why so many people think I'm only 16 😅 I do appear young also because i don't wear makeup. I never thought of things I did because of autism to appear underage 😳
Some of these things completely resonate with me, others don't..now I'm curious if I could be on the spectrum. I have a friend on the spectrum who constantly use to tell me "yeah,that's because your autistic." I thought he was joking with me.
My best friend in high school was autistic. One of the many things that made me wonder at the time if I was on the spectrum too (I am) is what his mother said to me after our graduation. "Thank you for being so kind to him. You were the first person to really understand." At the time, I was confused as to how I could have been the first person to understand him when we didn't even meet until we were teenagers (he seemed "normal" enough to me, just a bit awkward). Her words have stayed with me for years, and likely will for the rest of my life. Ironically, I've only spoken to him once since then, but I've been debating trying to get back in touch in the last couple of months since I've found all this out
Omg I keep hearing about U.S grocery stores with non food items being sold? like clothes and home goods right next to bread and frozen foods?? is that everywhere?
I think there is nothing wrong with you if you are brave enough to share your personal life you are okay 👌 🙋♀️
Im an autistic adult bit u knew that lol. I go into the store for something and then end up with everything but the main item because im also ADHD. I also get Hugh anxiety in the store. Played with Barbie's until I was 16. Wasn't good at eye contact and still ain't unless u have blue eyes then I over do eye contact 🤣🤣 I have alot of little stims too. I.hyperfocus on things. I also scribbled on my paper and still do so then I have to throw it away and start over on whatever I was doing. Masking can be a burn out for me as well. I went thru a phase of opening and closing everything. My asd son has done this since 9 months old and it's super annoying.
I'm sorry Cammie 💖⚘That teacher was wrong for doing that. People can be cruel. Just from what I can see you seem like an amazing woman, and mother.
I still love reading Harry Potter books, canon and fanfiction
Harry Potter is still one of my favorites too! I think I could read them again and again forever!
@@Autmazing the fanfiction app AO3 has AWESOME hp stories, there's even a series where Harry and Hermione are autistic; the one I'm reading is great so far
I hope this doesn't come off offensive. I don't mean to invalidate anyone. It's not a question about you or your children personally ...I'm just not that knowledgeable about this topic yet and you have children, so you know better.
If a neutrotypical child gets raised by an autistic parent and "normal" kids learn social interaction by copying caretakers...will the neurotypical child copy the behaviour of the autistic parent and/or forms of interactions that work for them? Like...could it be that the child is nt but has for example problems with "normal" social interactions because what they learned as normal social interactions in their home was different from other children?
I think this is a great question! ❤️ I actually asked this of multiple therapists and doctors before our second to youngest was evaluated and they said no way. A neurotypical kid might pick up some things but would still be pretty neurotypical.
Besides my husband and I have spent our whole lives masking pretty well and our kids don’t... I think now their influence has me trying to let myself be more myself if that makes sense? Because masking is super stressful but hard to unlearn when you’ve done it round the clock all your life.
@@Autmazing thank you for your fast answer. That's really interesting...I guess that most kids grow up also with different influences like peers, teachers and others around them not just their caretaker. So as much of an influence a parent can be, there also other people that can be role models...and it is part of them as a person to be nt just as much?
It is good to hear that your children don't have to go to such an amount of stress and have you as their parents that can understand them well. Always masking and trying to fit in is really exhausting. It sometimes good to be able to do get your needs across a little easier, but always...that's tiring.
I used to NEVER SPEAK..ESP TO ANYONE I LIKED NEVER SAID WHAT I THOUGHT. I WAS CALLED MEAN LOOKING OR LIKE I WAS BETTER..BUT I WAS JUST SHY. I USED TO BE THE CONTROL OF EVERYTHING W MOST KIDS MAKING UP STORIES.. LISTS I NEVER DID BUT NEICE AGAIN..
So sorry about your power rangers book experience
I paused to comment. I do go a certain direction and pattern in grocery store and back through other isles later because i got distracted or remembered something else i wanted. Im 47 self diagnosed in process of professional diagnosis. My son age 18 is self diagnoesed and wont go unless i get diagnosed because he started the process with another doctor and was told he cant be autistic because he has a girlfriend and doesn't flap his hands n makes eye contact. I yelled at that lady n told her she needs to go back to school 🤷♀️
Omg I do the finger tapping too and the game thing when I was a kid
Scripts, let me tell you about scripts, i used them so much they are almost pre programmed. I picked a job with my biggest social anxiety of dealing with phones and talking to strangers face to face. So more scripts, yeah that’s fun but so much more doable after 13 years. I still suffer from trying to come up with new material for conversations, but thankfully am good at masking it and joking. Yes, even the jokes are scripted. I have hugging issues, it’s awkward and uncomfortable. I need to feel comfortable, there are materials I won’t wear and make up. Am I on the spectrum? Probably, but whatever, I’ve forced myself and have to keep forcing myself to achieve as much normality as I can handle. I’m not into labels, they can either free you of responsibility or push you into a stereotype, where some people are cunts and start disrespecting you and saying; well that’s the “disease” talking. I know it ain’t a disease, but like I said cunts.
Wow, you are amazing.
We are incredibly similar in several ways, as well as having the same things we do. Interesting. Made me think and i called my psychologist (i see them for bipolar depression and severe anxiety, social anxiety, and more lol) and i asked her for anything she hadnt told me about what my diagnosis says and turns out she actually thinks im autistic but it doesnt effect much so she never bothered to encourage i get tested 🤣 ive seen her 7 years and she was like "yeah i always figured it". So thanks for helping me realize im probably autistic🤣🤣🤣🤣 wont change how i go about life but its interesting to know that may have caused some of my issues in my younger years. Also please do a video about the self harm i struggle with that and if we are so similar and you got past that then maybe your video can help me. I am definitely going to watch all your vlogs❤❤
I was never really into girly Barbie dolls. I prefer Pokemon dolls and other anime dolls as a little girl. I still do. 😜
I did love collect dolls of all kinds however. Me and my twin sister loved hoarding toys. Like we would have boxes and boxes of toys
I loved Pokémon as a young kid too! Not so much anymore though. I think it's one of the most common interests for autistics.
have you ever been test for EDS. Because being very flexible is one of the Maine system
Yes but they don't no if I have hsd or eds
The "I don't like the way the feel of this texture sounds." I totally get it. I'm having my official evaluation this week, at age 42, and I'm super nervous. I've "tried on" a bunch of other mental health diagnoses over the years but none of them give me as much clarity or explain so much of my life like autism does, so I'm hoping to confirm what I kind of deep-down already know.
So this is why I binge kids tv shows
Omg the SOUND OF TOUCH.. EEEWWWW COTTON AND WHEN U SAID ARCYLIC YARN MY SKIN CRAWLS TO IMAGINE IT. I HAVE TO SLAP IT OUT OF MY HEAD.. BUT DINCE I WAS A KUD I CANT DEAL W COTTON, ZND SOUND TOUCH THAT IRKS ME TO CORE.. SKJN HURTS I KNOW THIS FEELING. IF I GOT PJS THAT GRAZE MY ANKLE I GI UNSANE PULLING THEM BELOW MY HEELS IN BED .IT HURTS ME..MAYBE I AM AUTISTIC...BUT I THOUGHT IF YOU ARE UD NOT EVEN BE FUNCTIONABLE ENOUGH TO WATCH THIS VIDEO LET ALONE DO ONE.OR THERE WOULD BE ALOT OF ROCKING, AND WALKING OFF. MAYBE I OUGHT TO LOOK INTO THIS. I WAS DIAGNOSED W ADD AND PTSS. THE DESOXYN HELPED ME ALOT GET THRU COLLEGE. I CANT DO A TEST EXAM IF ANYONE OR ANYTHING TAPS MAKES NOISES OR WHISPERS , I GRT FRUSTRATED AND FEEL COMPELLED TO FIGHT BACK BY MAKING A LOUDER NOISE TIL THEY GET IT..OR I ASK PROF. TO LET ME GO WHERE THERES NO NOISE. JUST FIGURED IM A LOON. BUT NOW MAYBE THERES HOOE ID NEVER HAD THOUGHT TO CHECK ..THANK YOU FOR YOUR OPEN HONEST TRUTH IT REALLY HELPS TO KNOW HOW OTHERS MANAGE.. I LEARNED SOME THINGS I DID NOT KNOW.THANKS GOD BLESS.
I have a lot if things that make me wonder if I’m on the spectrum. But I would be considered high functioning. But I am 37 and if anything slightly changes it really upsets me and throws me off. Even small things such as changing dinner plans etc. It makes me so anxious.
I also am very obsessive and focus on certain things a LOT. It could be a tv show or an item of clothing, or a piece of food. I am just always so much more intense than others.
But I have OCD, so it may be more to do with that.
I don’t know if I should follow up on it, there is lots more to it than what I have written. But those are my two big things.
I feel the same, and my feelings get hurt alot. I'm very sensitive too!
Sandra Rudey same x
And I thought I was bad with all the problems God no I’m not exactly alone I’ve had quite a few of these myself in my life
Omg Leo DiCaprio, Devon Sawa, JTT, and Titanic were my obsession, all over my walls i was so boy crazy. I dont have autism but do have a learning disability( normal iq) but have a hard time learning things with a lot of steps, anyways i always growing up was so imaginative and was really into barbies even in my teens (although I didn’t actually play w them), I always wanted to live in the olden days and was really into period pieces and history. Anne of green Gables and little woman were all i wanted o watch.I wasn’t necessarily immature but the things i loved i loved. Still to this day I’m really into a lot of the same things except barbies.
God bless you
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And I also talk a lot, like you.
How important is it to be officially digeenosed
sounds like a general opinion on woman shopping for me , what make neurotypical woman sound Autistic,but being a male grab and go due to the fact shopping stresses me, often sees me sitting in car for 3 hrs in car park reading a book waiting for wife to finish shop.
i think i am too.
Sounds like that teacher was a complete a-hole.
00:56 You always know just what to say.
At a certain point, I think everyone has autism hahahaa, I feel pretty identified with your lifestory....now I feel confused...I've always believe I am just a little obsessive... that was it.
Wow, I did almost all those things and thought those were all normal. Especially dressing like your friend and pretending you're twins, that's not normal??
Pretend play is normal. All kids do that :)
@@andressalittle5380 you do realize that all kids don't do all things autistic kids do though? It's not about one thing here and one thing there. It's about 15, 20, 25 things that you do your entire life that affect you daily.
@@LeighPeterson330 Yeah, I realize that. I am just saying pretend play is not necessarily one of the autistic traits.
interesting and very special eyes :)
You looked so normal to me. Anyway, there's a different kind of spectrum called asperger, and I think more likely you're in this group. Asperger and autism is quite the same but difference in intellect. If you do not know about it yet, you can Google it and check. By the way, I'm with asperger. I only knew about it about 10 years ago. All my life I was like a Lone Ranger. So I suspected something wrong with me, and I did alot of research, and also went to the Autism Association to check, and finally I had the answer. Asperger.
It’s all under Autism Spectrum Disorder now.
Cant u ppl pass it too their kids if have it ? I passed migrains on wish ida never had kids . its a living hell w migraines
My sister and best friend suffered with migraines for yrs. They both went and was tested for Food allergies. They found out what foods they had allergies too and stopped eating those foods and migraines went away. Sister was allergic to dark chocolate and onions. My friend was allergic to butter milk. Hope this helps.
@@elainefaubert332 hair testing?
Do you have fybromyalgia?
I do not, thankfully.
@@Autmazing have you been tested for haemochromtisis for your migraines
I really ought to make a youtube video just to show what a real woman looks like. I do not wear make-up.
This woman sez she wears make-up for youtube. Why??? because you think "people" will like you better?
Women are such fools.
We so need another jolt of feminism.
I am 73. So I have a few coping skills.
I live alone, because I like it and
because I have alienated everyone.
I am not about to "paint my face" in order to win friends and influence people.
I groom. I bathe and comb my hair.
I have better things to do than spend dollars and hours on changing my appearance.
Just thought I'd rant a bit.
I am very depressed.