@@shaft5let's arrest g.w. Bush and Biden first, the Clintons, what other political crime families can ws think of? Since we despise people like this.. I'm not against you but food for thought is all...
YOU DON'T UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES FOLLOW ALIBABA YOU STAND STRONG WITH JESUS CHRIST THE SON OF THE LIVING GOD.. JESUS CHRIST.. YOU KNOW IN YOUR HEART JESUS IS THE WAY THE TRUTH AND THE ETERNAL LIFE !!! GOD BLESS YOU AND GOD BLESS ISRAEL !!!!!!!!!!
“We all take our decisions and we have to live with our consequences. So if anything happens to me don’t worry about it, let the dogs eat me, because that’s the life I chose” hardest quote I’ve ever heard
You can see the depression in this young man's eyes, and how everything he's done and seen has affected him. No boasting, no narcissism. Just depression.
He’s the perfect example of not judging a book by its cover. If I was to meet him at a gym or something I’d never thought his back story would be as such
traumatized guys with a fucked up mind recognize each other directly in public among all other people, it’s the look in our eyes its really true that the eyes never lie and besides that we have a sort of aura or some kinda tension that hangs around our body like a sort of invisible cloud wich other people including u ofcourse can notice when u for example sit next to guys like us in a subway….. u should really look people in their eyes more often and after a while u probably perfectly understand what i just said because when u look into the eyes more often it’s like training yourself to read them
“You’re just a pawn for the real people making money” it’s a sad and true reality for almost everybody these days and I thank him for sharing his story, it’s so real and yet terrifying. I hope he’s able to find the peace he’s been searching for.
i mean he killing 70 people, it can be woman, man, childrenn etc even r4444ppp333... and you want he able to find peace??? are you insane?? the reason this criminal can do whatever they wan, imagine normalize this in usa
@@Passiveincometeam1He may have committed some truly awful, horrifying acts in his past, and those are things that he (and the families of those he hurt) has/have to live with. But if he, given the chance, can redeem himself and contribute to society, then I think it's great that he's able to do what he does now. In a world where forgiveness and redemption are dying concepts, people like Ali can demonstrate that those from even the darkest of paths are still capable of bringing some form of good into the world. Full disclosure, I'm not saying that the world should just forget what he did. He has done terrible things, but I think it's important to see and value when people like that are truly making an effort not just to better themselves, but perhaps make things better for people who may be vulnerable to the same darkness that they were.
The weird part to me is that he is a self admitted pawn for an organization that does not care about him and will replace him in a moments notice yet he was able to object to killing women and children. I don’t think he had a choice and I believehe just doesn’t want to admit to the women and children thing.
*I have to remind myself that while I’m just living my ‘nice comfy life’ there are people living like this. It reminds me to remain grounded and grateful. What a crazy life.*
Yes....and don't forget the animals in the labs at the colleges and research facilities all across the United States n the world.............born into it............lifetime of torture....murder.......no sunlight....ever.....no warmth......cold steel cages.....no blankets.........all misery.........it ain't jus the Mexicans.............
I my self grew up in Compton and when you hear of people from your hometown depict what their lives turned out to be, it really makes you put your entire life into perspective
@@ConfusedRiflemanthe translation is wrong. English translation makes it seems like he’s cussing the guy out but in Spanish language he’s just saying “it’s tough” referring to Compton just saying how tough it is being from there
I lived in Mexico for 10 years...he is 100% right when he said he didn't know real violence until he went down there. You can't even imagine the things that happen to people, truly horrifying.
Bro I always laughed at fools when they tried so hard to be hard or said that they lived in poverty. I’d just remember the things that I saw growing up in Mexico and I wasn’t even a gangster or anything 😂
The actions of his father led to the destruction of dozens of lives, from those around his sister to the ones taken by this guy. Crazy butterfly effect
@@carlvonfuckwits2934butterfly effect is no excuse bro lol even this guy said he knew what he was getting into. Butterfly effect is just like a domino effect or a consequence to action(s). People that become successful don't just wake up and become it, they also don't say they did it all willingly out of the blue. There's always an influence and it's up to the individual to decide if the influence will be strong enough to effect their lives positively or negatively.
@@carlvonfuckwits2934 nah at the time he only knew rage and though he knew better he admits his decision and second he is not apologizing he trying to help others not to make his choices he is lucky to still be alive and trying to stop cartels getting recruits that alone will get him killed and he accepts it
You can tell this guy lives in pain from his past. when she asked him what the most violent thing hes done he instantly put his head to the ground, his body language says a thousand words.
Idk if I believe everything... like how he said he never killed anyone who didn't deserve it. Not sure if I buy it. Being a good liar is a part of that job after all. But I guess we'll never know and it doesn't change much about the essentials of what he's disscussing. I agree with u that it was a very raw and very interesting interview and I do believe much of what he says.
@@NLoooo he talked about what he believes wich is true . But not the truth . They kill everybody against their way ,ennemies / inocents for sure = poeple who deserve for him. They crazy killers . i watched one of their videos and it can make loose your mind .Horrific .
@@NLoooothat’s the thing I’d have to doubt. Living a life like that, there’s gotta be some lies you tell yourself to convince yourself you deserve life. I hope he’s not lying tho
Painfully honest and introspective. What an amazing account of the sheer horror some people go through; I think of myself as someone strong enough to overcome hardships, but I don't think I'm this strong, not by mile.
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If you are inspired by a killer u really have problems u need a doctor bro this guy is weak and deserves hell, tough times create great man who want to do good not vice versa
As somebody who has lived in Juarez and seen aspects of that reign of pure terror firsthand... this man is very very brave showing his face on camera like this.
Wow. This is by far one of the most insanely genuine interviews i have ever seen. We sometimes tend to remove the idea of humanity from anyone who is or was a career criminal. I’ve certainly been guilty of that, but this was a sharp reminder to think twice before assuming anything about anyone based on a label. I sure hope he finds some sort of peace in his life, and hopefully rebuilds his relationship with his family before it’s no longer an option. Time doesn’t stop. Kudos to the interviewer for knowing how to ask those uncomfortable questions respectfully.
Thank you @michaelJoseph. @frankiedollar, thanks for the update. I just watched a podcast of it and it’s a pretty awesome to see that he seems much happier and animated. To be fair he left the cartel before finding god. Regardless, he seems to have found purpose and direction in life. That is a major win for anyone. ua-cam.com/video/Z_kXVvoz9GI/v-deo.htmlfeature=shared
I hope he doesn't. People are so quick to brush this off. Imagine one of his victims was your loved one. Now ask yourself if you genuinely wish he'd find peace. I bet you anything you're going to lie and say yes.
@@shanfarco1574 Well, seems as if he did. You can always wish ill on him if that brings you peace. I have lost loved ones to that path, and I don’t care who did it because they chose that life. If you choose to live with hatred in your heart, it will consume you. Plus, just because i make a comment doesn’t mean you are obligated to feel as i feel. THat’s the beauty of opinions! Woop woop!!
Hearing this man’s story altered my perspective on life. At the very moment I write this comment there is someone being brutally murdered in ways I cannot even fathom while my biggest worry is having enough for gas to make it to my 9-5 job…
When you see violence on that scale… you’ll never look at people the same way and you’ll never feel safe. Just knowing one phone call can get your family killed is crazy. I can tell this dude saw some things he will never forget.
He said there are things he didn't want to talk about, he's seeing the faces of the people he murdered and mutilated. He must have done horrific things.
In the holy Bible there is a scripture John 3:16 for God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son that whosoever shall Believe in him will not perish but have everlasting life
@@MargieMontgomeryJesus is coming back. Believe He died for your sins and rose again then repent to be saved.For it is written, As I live, says the Lord, every knee shall bow to Me, and every tongue shall confess to God [acknowledge Him to His honor and to His praise].
Dude is well spoken and I found myself feeling empathy for him having heard his childhood and what his father put them through. It’s not hard to understand the equation and how someone chooses their avenue
I believe every word he said. You can tell he's remembering the events that happened as he's telling them. He's reliving the moment and you sort of see his gaze shift away as he's remembering the details in his head. He has no emotions, has a cold air about him and he didn't embellish his stories to make himself out to be some hotshot. He was just straight to the point. I hope he finds peace.
this guy is lying no gang pays anyone to “move drugs to another county” also compton and the firestone district are 2 different places. not to mention you don’t just leave a socal gang under the control of the mexican mafia to go be a hit man for a mexican cartel.
Thank you Ali. Thank you for your testimony on the actual life in the cartel and what some people stuck in that system truly wish for. All too often the other side looks at every person in the cartel and wishes them death. The fact you were willing to speak about your past and ultimately unfortunate experiences on camera and with no filter, proves what a decent human being anyone can be. I wish you future safety and happiness.
When you see celebrity interviews on TV, full of vacuous self important people who only have a skill of pretending to be someone in front of camera for a bit. They talk of inconsequential things that are of interest to none but the most stupid of society. Then there's this masterpiece, for free on UA-cam. What a stunning thought provoking interview. Worthy of whatever awards can be achieved for such things.
@@tchlin It was am observation on interviews, 90% of which are of celebrities and the inanity of them. If 90% are like that, it is a stereotype of its own making.
@@bravo2966 I don't know where you see "90%" of interviews being celebrities. There are news networks - both mainstream and others - with affiliated journalists who specialize in one topic or the other. @tchlin is right, this is a self righteous over generalization. We just need to be intentional about where we get our info from and what we we are willing to feed our attention with.
How do you mean, why is it "amazing" that he can articulate his experience, what, do you mean it's "amazing" that someone "like him", can communicate his observations, of his life ? "Amazing how well he speaks...". !?!?!? I don't think I'd be alone in seeing a patronising tone in that comment, I especially wonder what he would think and how he would react if you were to say that to him....
I always believe that if you want a story spoken well, you ask the storyteller to speak it. This man spoke well throughout, I may not accept the life he lead was a good, honest life, I do believe he will succeed in bringing a better life to others, for that he has my uttermost respect.
True. After killing 70 people, he has a lot to make up for. I wish him nothing but the best. Everyone deserves a second chance.. Except those 70 people, but everybody else does..
Empathy and sympathy are totally different than respect. I feel for you guy and blessed I never had to go down that path but bro killed people in horrible ways, that shouldn't deserve respect.
I don't think many people in situations like this understand their context and themselves like this man here. He learned something valuable about it and wants to teach it to others.
His actions also affect many possible life tree's. Its sad. Fact that hes taken life one day someone or something will come collect his debt. What he said is true. "Hard to pretend things have changed they have not" someone like that will have to look over his shoulders forever.
Ali is the one to transform generational curses. We are grateful that he is able to share his story. He has a grand purpose in life, and we hope that he lives a long life to fulfill it. Peace Ali
Bruh... it took me less then a second of looking in to this dudes eyes to realize that he's a cold blooded killer. You REALLY need to step up your game if you couldn't see it.
I didn’t think I’d ever say this, but if I didn’t know what this guy had done I would instantly like this guy and welcome him as a friend. Man is intelligent, focussed and a survivor. It’s clear he was a good kid with potential to go far and do well in life. It’s a pity that his monster father destroyed his family, his innocence and trust. The bitter and painful experience basically transformed him into a vengeful and ultra violent character. There’s not a shred of boast, or arrogance, just blunt straight talking honesty about brutal things 99.9% folks would never experience in their life. Perhaps perfect recruitment material to be groomed into a cold hearted gangland hitman.
Growing up in Los Angeles from the early 70s to the early 2000s as an extremely poor white dude I met and befriended many dudes like this guy. Not cartel "employees" but hardcore gangsters just the same. These dudes were always respectful and honest about their personal lives and intentions. I lost several friends who got caught up in this type of lifestyle. Gangs, shootings, stabbings, prison and drug related deaths. I saw it all myself. RIP to lots of my brothers who didn't make it and I hope this dude can find peace in his life. He didn't ask to be here.
grew up same area same time frame as you. And basically I have the same hopes for this guy. He just got caught up. When your in it, it's just kinda normal.
Glad you're still alive to do what you're doing! It's nothing short of a miracle, that you're still living today. I know you'll help so many kids, just by telling your story. But to be an advocate and dedicate yourself full-time will be an unmeasurable and tremendous help for our youth and society as a whole. Thank you so much! You're a miracle performing a miracle!! Much love and respect brother!! 💙😉👍🇨🇦
You really can tell when someone has lived that life. Can never dismiss his past actions but have to show mercy and be glad he’s on a better path to forgiveness. Hope he finds a small peace and holds the demons and thoughts at bay.
the common thread with so many of these stories that childhood trauma and dysfunction is SO hard to shake. It moulds you in the most monstrous ways. and kudos to anyone who came find it in themselves to move on, breakthrough to the other side and find a better path.
Don't kid yourself. The cartels recruit based upon the lifestyle. You are a tough guy gangbanger with guns. Money women cars and people fear you. Don't believe this BS that they are all from dysfunctional homes. In areas with few poorly paid job prospects this is attractive
If anyone here thinks they have had a bad life they should have a conversation with this man. I hope he's doing well. I have all the respect in the world for him simply for coming out the other side alive and well! 💯💯💯👏👏👏👏
This guy is well-spoken. He would've done well if he was born into a different situation. Watching this makes me truly grateful for what I have and my situation.
I grew up in Compton CA until I was 12 years old in the early 90s, Elm St and Mayo. My parents decided to move to Oregon in 94, to this day I can say it's the best decision they could've made. It was definitely a culture shock at first, but I'm glad it happened. I don't know where or how I would be if I had stayed. Portland might not be what it used to be in 94, but it still doesn't compare to Compton.
Glad you woke up and saw the big picture that day that you decided that was not gonna be the rest of your life. Your trauma began when you realized your own protector, your father, was a twisted violent monster. I’m so sorry that happened to you and your sister. It’s not your fault, and you are NOT your father. Keep going man, get that shit as far behind you as you can…
I’m not Mexican but I consume Mexican news and podcast every single day and the violence in cartels is the most BRUTAL and nauseous thing, like he said it is something that people in first world countries couldn’t even think of and it’s something that affects everyone in Mexico still to this day, heartbreaking.
This guy’s courage, self control, and natural empathy is incredible and even beautiful. Many people simply don’t have that in them. Especially going through everything he has gone through his entire life.
Sobering Interview. Thank you. 3 years ago while on vacation in Mexico I sat down with one of these guys (retired) for a long conversation. He said that he couldn't eat roasted chicken for 6 months because it smells a lot like burning bodies. I asked him how he could live with himself knowing he had done those things. His answer: It's not personal, it's war.
Just curious, I thought once you join the cartel, you can never get out of. They let people retire and live a normal life afterwards? I mean, that’s good at least they can have some sort of peace.
@@emmsh3344 Mexican cartels work differently than mafias (as Italian, Albanese, Russian, Japanese etc..) they are not connected by blood/ethnicity but mostly by the state / region they are born, they are like regional companies who control and hire local people for many of their tasks, mostly of Sicários work for outsourced local guerrillas who are paid by the Top of Cartel pyramid, they are paid for “tasks” and that’s one of the reasons why so hard to stop this mess, a lot of these guerrilas are made by local farmers, policemen, taxi drivers etc.. doing it as an extra job, believe me Mexico is a narco state that normalised all this, and as much you don’t betray the cartels and your own local guerrilla and find someone good to replace you it’s ok to leave and have a normal life, the problem that half of them don’t live enough or are in debt with the cartels for life bcs of drugs or money borrowed.
it doesn't smell like roasted chicken, burning hair is the worst of the smells but skin smells more like pork then anything. Main reason dude said he retired, probably never lived that. Then again even people who weren't apart of that life know what a dead body smells like just by living in certain areas. But no not chicken
@@emmsh3344most get out by moving countries I’m pretty sure. The cartel isnt going to come kill someone across the world in a cartel related way. That’d be a terrorist attack basically
@@ibaconbits8997 just because it smells like pork & not chicken doesn't mean he's lying 🙄 u 60%ers sure like to doubt absolutely everything even though u don't even live that life your damn self & wouldn't know regardless especially if u just assume shit!!!! Assumers are the ppl that lie & pretend the most in life & obviously u are one of them!!!! A real person with actual brains can instantly pick your phoney kind out of a hat while be blindfolded!!!! U just fell for the easiest trick in the book & gave urself away 😂
I always appreciate your interviews, LADBible. This man's story felt close to home, because of geography and some cultural experience. Thank you for choosing this interview. I appreciated the interview questions and the truthfulness of this man's telling of his experiences and point of view. Best wishes to you, Ali Gonzalez as you continue your life. I am happy to hear that you are working to provide leadership and caring to the young children who desperately need it.
I hope they let him live. He was very methodical with his words, giving us enough detail without giving away anything or naming specifics. I hope he continues to share his story.
@@CasperReacts0336Brother. Those 70 people were part of something darker than either of us can understand. Did you know that cartel members pray to an “angel of death”? I guarantee almost all if not all of em had murders and dark shit under their belt too. He wasnt shooting random families. These were people with a target on their back, as sad as it is.
It's kinda weird... but I think it's the most on point/real/intelligent interview I've ever seen. And I'm not comparing to other ganster interview, just the interviews in general. Like zero agenda and 100% substance here.
This was defintly one of the deepest interviews I've seen, Hopefully this guy is doing well reguardless of his past life. It's very hard for men like him to change. Applause for him...
Cartel here are overrated. They patrol where i stay. I live outdoors so they literally walk around me while I'm sleeping at night. I'm a pretty mad guy all in all. I am a leader of a major religion. I'm second in command in my church of almost 20 million. As I walked past them I gave them a look to say don't bother me - it was the kill the look. They immediately respond with a gesture of 'nah we're just doing our job'. Anyway you get to know everyone after sometime and I got to know that actually they're not a threat. They're people trying to escape life's misery like anyone else. Stuck like anyone else.
@@EastSideBlockyou know the US navy jugheads founded the cartels? You know a lot of Latino presidents/running mayors get assassinated whenever they try to help their countries to get rid of outside (American influence) corruption. You’re either playing dumb or naive to think American doesn’t make money off the drug trades in Latino America when their people loose kids and families/policeman and stay poor. Who do you think supplies them with military grade weapons?? Lots of LA/SB police has been caught pushing drugs and a lot of boarder state governors have cartel ties and consistently go to Mexico for “vacation” “Help our neighbors” oh they’ve been helping them since colonial times alright..Mexicos blessing and curse is living next to the powerhouse super capitalist America same with any Latino country I suppose.
A very intelligent and articulate man, it's unfortunate his father set him on the path he ended up on. An amazing story as well, it's crazy to think he had started off with simple home invasions.
Ali seems very sincere in his way but you can also see that his emotions are closely in check. What I like about this channel is that the interviews are not glorifying the person in the chair like some other channels do - well done, keep up the good work
Definitely not lying. Sounds exactly like a combat Veteran. His mannerisms are like a combat Veteran & he has that thousand yard stare into the abyss stare a lot of us display.
I was thinking this exact thing the entire time watching. It’s evil hitmen out here but this guy reminds me of a soldier. Many of my uncles served, some spec ops and the mannerisms are exactly the same.
Dang when he said he wouldn’t change a thing in his life 😳. Friend, don’t think that way because you went through life with what opportunities you had but you’re way better than that and you know it, you turned around and that takes guts and a reality check few of us can accept let alone give ourselves the luxury of thinking it. You 100% deserve better opportunities and I pray to god you find those opportunities for the better.
Took a lot of courage for a man like that to do an interview. Knowing the risks I just couldn’t imagine the lifestyle of constantly looking over the shoulder and reading people knowing on day of they find him, he is gone. He will be the example he was talking about.
Very interesting interview and insight. Finally an interview, without the sensational dramatic music and camera edits for a subject that needs none. This man's experience is enough. Great job keep up the good work
Glad I ran into this interview. Born and raised in San Diego. I've known many guys like this, and believe it or not they're typically very respectful. But you can always feel that there is a line not to be crossed. It's palpable. You can think you're a badass all you want and claim not to be scared, but that would be a psychotic take, because you'll know you aren't shit when you come across the real deal.
It's funny because people think San Diego ain't about that because our numbers ain't that high. Look at the missing numbers instead of the murder rate. Border ain't too far. That's all
lol San Diego is not a hardcore gang area. SD is like the Hamptons in NY, except with the Navy airheads being all over. Nothing but cloud 9 living there.
@@WaYsTiiD Of course it's cloud 9 when you're in the nicer and now gentrified areas of San Diego. It's easy to believe that's how it is everywhere as a result. I agree, it's not as hardcore, obvious and deeply rooted in affiliation as LA or other places with long and very violent histories of gang culture. But there's plenty here, mixed with highly frequent crimes from kidnappings for human trafficking, prostitution down in National City, robbery, murder, and other violent crimes, all it takes is having access to a local crime news page to know this. I know because I've lived in some of the rougher parts growing up and now live in La Jolla, so I know the stark contrast first hand. Plenty of gang activity between bloods to Mexican Mafia, since we are literally a few minutes away from the border.
@@WaYsTiiD Of course it's cloud 9 when your only experiences are likely nicer and now gentrified areas of San Diego. I agree, it's not as "hardcore" or deeply rooted in long and rich history of violent gang culture, but to believe there isn't any at all or any bad areas with individuals like this is an ignorant take. Tons of MM and bloods. I've lived in some bad parts of SD and now live in La Jolla, so I've experienced the stark contrast in regions. This is an odd city because you can drive 10-15 minutes south from where I am and regret driving to the wrong area, and then 25 minutes north of that you're in a rich area like Encinitas with beaches and families. Having access to a local crime news outlet or channel would definitely change your perspective a bit because a lot of it is right under everyone's noses.
I met a mexican hit man in my gym here in America in NYC he looked like a skinny wimp BY APPEARANCE respectfully but when he told me he fleed mexico cuz his uncle was involved with the cartel forcefully cuz his uncle had a farm and they would behead people their so it was get down an let us ur farm or u die straight extortion he told me he also helped kill ppl and dismember them looking at him like he wouldn't hurt a fly never judge a book by its cover you dont know who killed before and who didnt
Me causa una gran pena el dolor de éste chico por lo mucho que ha pasado. Soy Mexicana y madre también y es una lástima por lo que estamos atravesando en México. Siento que no hay salida. Peto cuando recuerdo a Colombia que dió batalla al arco durante y después de Pablo Escobar, hay una luz y esperanza para el resto de nosotros que no estamos inmiscuidos en esa guerra. Gracias por compartir esa experiencia. Deseo lo mejor para el chico. Que Dios te cuide siempre. 🙏
asies señora. Las cosas en México no son faciles, espero que un dia las cosas van a ser mas tranquilo. Mucho respecto por el chico que se dio la vuelta y se transformó. saludos
Los carteles en colombia no eran nada violentos como los de mexico. Si habían muertes pero no de este nivel que sucede en mexico donde encuentras cuerpos mutilados o cabezas descuartizadas por las calles. Lo que tiene mexico es otro rumbo pero muy grave.
Your forgetting were animals. Doesn't make it right but we're on top for a reason. Look at our history. It's crazy that people believe in utopia it's not happening ever.
@@salt_provider4824 yea this is interesting because you’re right, we are animals. We’ve just evolved over thousands of years to what we are today and to thing that we still have those animalistic strands within us. It’s hard to comprehend it. But also I still think we’re worse than animals. We’re definitely worse. Even animals have a main objective and that’s to survive so they kill as quick as they can. Humans will go above and beyond that and I won’t get into details because most of us probably know the type of killings that are out there but it’s far worse than what any animal could or would do to it’s enemy or prey. Some humans have just evolved into barbaric violent disgusting creatures.
He sounds very intelligent, if he was born into a different family and different background with a decent upbringing his life could’ve been so much different.
Him giving back to the younger generation is a blessing. It never amazes me that's its true, you can't experience life without some struggles any struggles.
Wow, how eye opening and honest. I'm embarrassed to say, i thought these things only happened in movies. I feel so sad, really wish these people didn't go through such hardship at such a young age, it's heart breaking.
The best advice my therapist gave me, she gave me on day 1. "Step 1 to surviving a traumatic childhood no matter where it has taken you in adulthood; Never apologize for the things you had to do to survive when the adults in your life failed you. You can atone for some things if you feel you need to. But NEVER apologize for your survival. " I wholeheartedly wish this for him. I hope somewhere in his life he has had someone speak those very words to him. And should he ever feel the need to apologize as society loves to guilt people into doing, I hope he knows that it may not be "acceptable" but it is perfectly healthy to apolize to himself, to his wounded inner child, for not knowing the depths of evil that exist in this world when the child he was tried to escape the hostile environment he was raised in.
Great interview, I could listen to him forever. I’m sure it helps him vent out some of those past traumas too. May you get the peace and tranquility you’re searching for and may God bless you along the way of redemption. I’m sorry for everything your father put you through, from hearing your story we know deep down you have a heart and you’re a good man. Stay up and keep doing great things for the next generation ❤
@@eamylordare you stupid? Did u even watch the full video before commenting, he said he only killed rival cartel members, no innocents, women or children, meanwhile he was at war with CJNG cartel who actually kills women and children like animals
Good for him. Glad he got out of that life. It's evident that he carries a lot of weight from his past but he is about as tough as a person can get. So hopefully he moves on and finds peace.
I cant help but think he’s a kind soul deep down somewhere and under different circumstances his life could have gone a different way. Hope one days he rests and is at peace.
No he isn’t, he has no remorse, no regret, he’s a sociopathic murderer, idc if he teaching kids boxing on Sunday or sew’s socks for the homeless, there should be no forgiveness or brevity for him.
@@sethmonroe9603 Go ahead and live in this guy’s neighborhood, watch your own sister get assaulted by your own dad, and THEN lecture us It’s easy to point fingers from your cozy little keyboard
That was a hard hitting interview. A fucking terrifying reality. Hope you can do your part to prevent some kids going down the same road. Life is crazy and most of us complain about dumb shit everyday when we have it so easy.
He's such an anassuming guy. But looking in his eyes, they immediately communicate "hard as f*cking coffin nails," but there's an inherent sadness in them. Like they're saying, "I truly don't want to hurt you, so please don't force my hand, because I'll take into a realm of nightmare which you couldn't fathom".
Dude...this guy is the real deal. You get that vibe from even real killers that have spent most their lives in prison that do podcasts that they're making alot of shit up or talking BS....but this guy....you can see this guy has seen some shit and done some shit and you can tell he's dead inside. This guy needs to start up a podcast or something and tell stories, and I can see him blowing up big time. Something about him is so real that it's unique
No he needs to pay for his sins, I’ve seen so many gangsters get a second chance like Michael franzese & that one bald dude many more I don’t remember their name, they’ll live that life killed a lot of people & get better treatment than your average Joe, could be that they still have information that’s keeping them alive
I don’t think that’ll be great for his mental health. That’s why he’s teaching children in boxing because he’s trying to move foward from his past. But lowkey I wouldn’t be surprised if he falls back into the cartel world because that’s all he’s known and even gets some of those youngins he’s teaching into the cartel.
@@berenisemendez5223that would honestly suck if he returned to his old ways especially since he’s doing well teaching the kids that even if they come from a broken home they can be something in life. But life is no fairytale so he might return. The worse part for me is that he hasn’t seen his mom is 17 years… that’s sad.
I know what it feels like to be pushed into a life of crime and violence. Not to the same extent as this man, but that lifestyle is really really hard. And it leaves a mark on you for life. I've had a really hard time trying to re-integrate to society because it feels too normal. When you're used to being stressed out about life and death 24/7, normal life feels like a false bubble where it can just all collapse in a blink of an eye. Kinda like what soldiers go through after coming back home after being in war. Getting shit scared of fireworks and all that, and being in fight or flight mode 24/7. Im glad that my past isn't nearly as bad as this man's past, and I'm even more glad he got out of it. You should also judge a man for what he is now in the present, not his past. Much love, random youtube comment section readers ❤ Thank your lucky stars if you've lived a normal honest life, even if it feels boring or stressful at times.
i'm working through cptsd too, and am almost at the point where i can get my guard down. i would say it's something you should prioritize, by being nicer to yourself and let yourself feel and express every emotion that comes up. in a safe space, if need be. i am finding out there's a completely different person underneath all that trauma, a person i would have laughed at in the past because of how weak they seemed. but now i am finding out those people are actually the strongest, because they are not afraid to be vulnerable. because learning to be vulnerable is probably the hardest thing i've ever had to do. and i did very hard things in my life. wish you all the best, because everyone deserves nothing but the best.
I remember trading stories with a coworker who had been a serious gangster in his youth (I was military, combat veteran). At one point, when he said, “I wasn’t in the army like you,” I answered, “Dude you’ve seen as much combat as I have. Maybe more.” The only real differences were the reasons for the fighting and the clothes (uniforms) we wore.
This is enlightening on human nature, redemption and the thin line we walk between savagery. Hoping for a better life and a better impact for this man.
This was absolutely haunting. I don’t think I will be able to get this out of my mind. He is so right in saying young kids hear gangster songs, watch gangster movies then start idolizing y that way of life. It is nothing but a road to hell! I am glad he got out of it, but what kind of life can he live, knowing he has killed 70 people? Will the spirits of those he killed come back to haunt him in his nightly dreams? Very sad.
I'm only a few minutes into it, but I read this comment and I just have a hard time believing he killed 70 people and is not in a prison!? Plus thats such an even number to me, sounds like BS
@@drewwinters6601 I highly doubt it is BS. Have you read about Rosalio Reta? He was 13 when he became a cartel hitman. Dismembering bodies and putting them in barrels was nothing, in fact, in 2009, he told a Laredo police detective that killing made him feel like “Superman”. I was watching a documentary about cartel hit men yesterday, they killer people like one might kill mosquitos! I actually think he killed more than 70 people. Why are you surprised he isn’t in prison? Are you serious 😆?! You think the Mexican authorities would waste their time on a hit man? They have better and bigger fish to go after!
This is a story of redemption, great job young man. What u have done takes courage and gives other young men someone to look up to and see that how they maybe currently living is not the only option for them that there is a way out of that life but u gta put the work in cause it will not b served up on a silver platter for them. I wish for u to have all the happiness. Good luck to u, u have purpose.
I work construction in Hawaii with a guy who used to be cartel, really good dude, goes church on sundays, and brings food his wife cooks for us on fridays. Glad to see these dudes turn their lives around
Dear Mr. Ali Gonzalez - I appreciate you. I appreciate your honesty. You've been through literal hell and you've come out the other side. The thing that impresses me most is that you acknowledge the hurt and pain you've caused others, you paid for your crimes and now you're trying to make sure that the children you come across do not suffer the same fate. Thank you for talking to everyone about your life. I know it'll effect others to think twice one way or another.
Thank you to Ali for taking part. You can follow Ali on Instagram @isaireyes909 and UA-cam @Legacy.of.Warriors
Subscribed and set alerts. Thank You For putting in this work brother.
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I appreciate his honesty and candor.
That said, he should be in jail for the rest of his life.
It bothers me how people like that can live in society.
@@shaft5let's arrest g.w. Bush and Biden first, the Clintons, what other political crime families can ws think of? Since we despise people like this.. I'm not against you but food for thought is all...
YOU DON'T UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES FOLLOW ALIBABA
YOU STAND STRONG WITH JESUS CHRIST THE SON OF THE LIVING GOD.. JESUS CHRIST.. YOU KNOW IN YOUR HEART JESUS IS THE WAY THE TRUTH AND THE ETERNAL LIFE !!!
GOD BLESS YOU AND GOD BLESS ISRAEL !!!!!!!!!!
“We all take our decisions and we have to live with our consequences. So if anything happens to me don’t worry about it, let the dogs eat me, because that’s the life I chose” hardest quote I’ve ever heard
Like how the government shot itself in the foot with the war on drugs.
At least he has some self awareness
That’s the softest quote.
@@BrianMonroe-d2m Ok tough guy.
@@BrianMonroe-d2mur a bot lol no one listen to users who name is user234jd lmao
You can see the depression in this young man's eyes, and how everything he's done and seen has affected him. No boasting, no narcissism. Just depression.
or just reading the script
I dont feel sorry for him.
It's not depression, it's the eyes of a killer.
That is not what this is.
simplistic.@@finansvalpen248
He’s the perfect example of not judging a book by its cover. If I was to meet him at a gym or something I’d never thought his back story would be as such
I think I would. I'm not around violence so I thi k I might notice immediately
@@KK-mm8ms truth be told you’ll never know who is who
@@KK-mm8msthat statement makes no sense. You probably just assume this about anyone with tattoos especially a minority
@@CrankWilliamsJr nope...I would recognize a lack of compassion? Or hardness?
traumatized guys with a fucked up mind recognize each other directly in public among all other people, it’s the look in our eyes its really true that the eyes never lie and besides that we have a sort of aura or some kinda tension that hangs around our body like a sort of invisible cloud wich other people including u ofcourse can notice when u for example sit next to guys like us in a subway….. u should really look people in their eyes more often and after a while u probably perfectly understand what i just said because when u look into the eyes more often it’s like training yourself to read them
“You’re just a pawn for the real people making money” it’s a sad and true reality for almost everybody these days and I thank him for sharing his story, it’s so real and yet terrifying. I hope he’s able to find the peace he’s been searching for.
Women are nutcases episode 3078.
Peace after killing all those people is crazy
i mean he killing 70 people, it can be woman, man, childrenn etc even r4444ppp333... and you want he able to find peace??? are you insane?? the reason this criminal can do whatever they wan, imagine normalize this in usa
@@Passiveincometeam1He may have committed some truly awful, horrifying acts in his past, and those are things that he (and the families of those he hurt) has/have to live with. But if he, given the chance, can redeem himself and contribute to society, then I think it's great that he's able to do what he does now. In a world where forgiveness and redemption are dying concepts, people like Ali can demonstrate that those from even the darkest of paths are still capable of bringing some form of good into the world.
Full disclosure, I'm not saying that the world should just forget what he did. He has done terrible things, but I think it's important to see and value when people like that are truly making an effort not just to better themselves, but perhaps make things better for people who may be vulnerable to the same darkness that they were.
The weird part to me is that he is a self admitted pawn for an organization that does not care about him and will replace him in a moments notice yet he was able to object to killing women and children. I don’t think he had a choice and I believehe just doesn’t want to admit to the women and children thing.
The fact he went back to Mexico and helped anther UA-camr out to interview hitman and the cartel he’s got big balls man
What’s the video called???
@@2j_bryan search Arab Mexican cartel day 1 and it should pop up
What video
@@2j_bryan The UA-camr's channel name is Arab, and it's 4 days with the cartel, 4 parts.
ua-cam.com/video/T6M9zKQkj0k/v-deo.htmlsi=w3_pGvcXrBTCYI6D video
This dude just put himself at risk to tell us his story, so thankful he shared it with us, life has a grim and dark reality for some people.
Lmfao it’s not real
it is you clearly dont know this dude
@@ChapoGuzman896
@@ChapoGuzman896tu que sabes wey 😂
for some? everyone who’s into that life is living in a dark and grim reality
Yeah, u are the netflix documentaries expert, no? Stfu @@ChapoGuzman896
*I have to remind myself that while I’m just living my ‘nice comfy life’ there are people living like this. It reminds me to remain grounded and grateful. What a crazy life.*
Welp you’re gorgeous… but yes same here, but I try to also remember “it can always be worse”
@@PrincevincentiusEL Awww thank you, you’re absolutely right. Have a lovely day :)
Well said.
Yes....and don't forget the animals in the labs at the colleges and research facilities all across the United States n the world.............born into it............lifetime of torture....murder.......no sunlight....ever.....no warmth......cold steel cages.....no blankets.........all misery.........it ain't jus the Mexicans.............
@mslondonlove1435 are you single? I'm 6"'4 dark handsome with. Beard . They say I look like Denzel
I my self grew up in Compton and when you hear of people from your hometown depict what their lives turned out to be, it really makes you put your entire life into perspective
Está cabron
Now I'm finally happy in some way that I was born in Russia, but still isnt the best country to live in
@@RGTomoenage11Cuz of what? Taking out the other trash?
@@ConfusedRiflemanthe translation is wrong. English translation makes it seems like he’s cussing the guy out but in Spanish language he’s just saying “it’s tough” referring to Compton just saying how tough it is being from there
This is so fake !!! Just like all republican stories
I lived in Mexico for 10 years...he is 100% right when he said he didn't know real violence until he went down there. You can't even imagine the things that happen to people, truly horrifying.
We dont have to imagine anymore, we have seen the videos now thanks to the internet 🛜
What happens?
@@agentsmith7947look it up
Bro I always laughed at fools when they tried so hard to be hard or said that they lived in poverty. I’d just remember the things that I saw growing up in Mexico and I wasn’t even a gangster or anything 😂
As if that doesn't happen in USA as well. I've seen and heard the most horrific human crimes in United States.
The actions of his father led to the destruction of dozens of lives, from those around his sister to the ones taken by this guy. Crazy butterfly effect
Perfectly well said.
Bullshit
He knows right from wrong, no excuse.
@@carlvonfuckwits2934butterfly effect is no excuse bro lol even this guy said he knew what he was getting into. Butterfly effect is just like a domino effect or a consequence to action(s). People that become successful don't just wake up and become it, they also don't say they did it all willingly out of the blue. There's always an influence and it's up to the individual to decide if the influence will be strong enough to effect their lives positively or negatively.
@@carlvonfuckwits2934 nah at the time he only knew rage and though he knew better he admits his decision and second he is not apologizing he trying to help others not to make his choices he is lucky to still be alive and trying to stop cartels getting recruits that alone will get him killed and he accepts it
You can tell he ain't lying. The dead body language, that hollow stare and monotonous delivery. I hope he finds peace in life.
He's the real deal for sure
He's lying it's imposible to work for two rival cartels in México a cholo chicano with that perfect English i call that bullshit
No man bullshit lies
No bro.full of shith..
Finds peace yet brutally killed dozens and dozens of people. Some of which were likely innocent
That´s one of the realest interviews I have ever seen. Massive respect to him for having got out of that hell.
You can tell this guy lives in pain from his past. when she asked him what the most violent thing hes done he instantly put his head to the ground, his body language says a thousand words.
As Clint Eastwood once said: “It’s a hell of a thing, killin’ a man. You take away all he’s got and all he’s ever gonna have.”
now take away federal aid from mexicans
and the non profit industrial complex establishing mexico's new middleclass.
@@Enraged-Geckocomin from a man who’s never killed someone lol.
@@williamwatkins2538 Lol...have you?
This is one of the most raw interviews I’ve ever seen. You can tell this dude is not lying about anything he: saying. Crazy world
Idk if I believe everything... like how he said he never killed anyone who didn't deserve it. Not sure if I buy it. Being a good liar is a part of that job after all. But I guess we'll never know and it doesn't change much about the essentials of what he's disscussing.
I agree with u that it was a very raw and very interesting interview and I do believe much of what he says.
@@NLoooo he talked about what he believes wich is true . But not the truth . They kill everybody against their way ,ennemies / inocents for sure = poeple who deserve for him. They crazy killers . i watched one of their videos and it can make loose your mind .Horrific .
Drake about to drop a track about why he is hard tho
@@Velereonics you're really funny man hahaha
@@NLoooothat’s the thing I’d have to doubt. Living a life like that, there’s gotta be some lies you tell yourself to convince yourself you deserve life. I hope he’s not lying tho
This dude is the real deal no joke !!You can tell how he tells his story by not trying to flex or glorify that life.
Search "arab" and watch the series of interviewing a mexican cartel hitman, he is there for protection of arab.
He is real deal.
Bros full of sht Compton and Firestone area isn’t close by😂
@@billfrm61 TRUE FACTS !!
@@Aa-ee9vg its dead ass an 18 min drive fuck you mean lmao
Yep,
Painfully honest and introspective. What an amazing account of the sheer horror some people go through; I think of myself as someone strong enough to overcome hardships, but I don't think I'm this strong, not by mile.
Probably one of the best interviews to ever be made. This guy's clarity of thought and honest expression is inspiring.
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If you are inspired by a killer u really have problems u need a doctor bro this guy is weak and deserves hell, tough times create great man who want to do good not vice versa
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As somebody who has lived in Juarez and seen aspects of that reign of pure terror firsthand... this man is very very brave showing his face on camera like this.
"Were you ever scared for your life?" 🙄 "Yeah, EVERY DAY!" Was this interviewer even listening to him?
@@williamyoung9401 fear is the instinct for survival. Without it death is close. Very important to follow your instinct.
Or he just doesn't care anymore
Wow. This is by far one of the most insanely genuine interviews i have ever seen. We sometimes tend to remove the idea of humanity from anyone who is or was a career criminal. I’ve certainly been guilty of that, but this was a sharp reminder to think twice before assuming anything about anyone based on a label. I sure hope he finds some sort of peace in his life, and hopefully rebuilds his relationship with his family before it’s no longer an option. Time doesn’t stop. Kudos to the interviewer for knowing how to ask those uncomfortable questions respectfully.
Excellent insight.
Bless you.
The brother became Muslim by himself and left the Cartel, his story is on Muslim channels, he left the Cartel for God. So yes he did find the peace.
Thank you @michaelJoseph. @frankiedollar, thanks for the update. I just watched a podcast of it and it’s a pretty awesome to see that he seems much happier and animated. To be fair he left the cartel before finding god. Regardless, he seems to have found purpose and direction in life. That is a major win for anyone. ua-cam.com/video/Z_kXVvoz9GI/v-deo.htmlfeature=shared
I hope he doesn't. People are so quick to brush this off. Imagine one of his victims was your loved one. Now ask yourself if you genuinely wish he'd find peace. I bet you anything you're going to lie and say yes.
@@shanfarco1574 Well, seems as if he did. You can always wish ill on him if that brings you peace. I have lost loved ones to that path, and I don’t care who did it because they chose that life. If you choose to live with hatred in your heart, it will consume you. Plus, just because i make a comment doesn’t mean you are obligated to feel as i feel. THat’s the beauty of opinions! Woop woop!!
you can see his pain, his fear, everything
it’s heartbreaking, genuinely
people have to live this life, and it’s no way fathomable
Nice fitting username.
@@lecobra418cry about it
Hearing this man’s story altered my perspective on life. At the very moment I write this comment there is someone being brutally murdered in ways I cannot even fathom while my biggest worry is having enough for gas to make it to my 9-5 job…
That’s the life they chose though , but I feel what you’re saying
That's right man
Living in a violent country like I do, this is what I live with every single day. It tough, man.
@@hellonomasonto I'm so sorry, is there a way you can leave?
@@AloraBernadotte We are actually actively looking into that.
This is the most enthralling segment I’ve ever watched. The remarkable nature of this interview deserves some type of award. Wow.
I like your vocabulary
@@WillVelazco-b7h Bahah, I thought the same thing. 'Some type of award'
Agreed. He should speak to kids in schools 🧡🏆🥇💯
When you see violence on that scale… you’ll never look at people the same way and you’ll never feel safe. Just knowing one phone call can get your family killed is crazy. I can tell this dude saw some things he will never forget.
He said there are things he didn't want to talk about, he's seeing the faces of the people he murdered and mutilated. He must have done horrific things.
They live in medieval times down there.
not at all, it´s some places but yep it´s violent more than USA ... a shame for real@@LarryFleetwood8675
Disturbed Reality here on UA-cam has done great coverage on executions and cartel conflicts in Mexico, watch them! (it is safe, no gore is shown)
@Danuxsy I do not let my morbid curiosity beat me anymore, so I tune in to disturbed reality.
It's probably one of the most honest people I ever came across. ❤ 🙏
He is so young to have survived so much. What i learned from him: Life is only worthwhile when we all agree that lives are worth something.
who decides the worth
@@amosamwig8394 we ourselves
In the holy Bible there is a scripture John 3:16 for God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son that whosoever shall Believe in him will not perish but have everlasting life
@@MargieMontgomeryJesus is coming back. Believe He died for your sins and rose again then repent to be saved.For it is written, As I live, says the Lord, every knee shall bow to Me, and every tongue shall confess to God [acknowledge Him to His honor and to His praise].
@@amosamwig8394Jesus is coming back. Believe He died for your sins and rose again then repent to be saved.
Dude is well spoken and I found myself feeling empathy for him having heard his childhood and what his father put them through. It’s not hard to understand the equation and how someone chooses their avenue
Hard to take this seriously when your profile pic is dawgs☠
No! this person is confident to talk about how he killed people. That is the worst part of him.
People have empathy ... seriously ...
@@arconville in no way is that condoning actions. Just feel sad for the kid he was. But a guy like this should be locked away forever.
He didn’t have a ton of options
I believe every word he said. You can tell he's remembering the events that happened as he's telling them. He's reliving the moment and you sort of see his gaze shift away as he's remembering the details in his head. He has no emotions, has a cold air about him and he didn't embellish his stories to make himself out to be some hotshot. He was just straight to the point. I hope he finds peace.
He just said it....his 'work' was not personal....it was only 'bussiness'...that's the way for survive... to be focused on the mission..
this guy is lying no gang pays anyone to “move drugs to another county” also compton and the firestone district are 2 different places. not to mention you don’t just leave a socal gang under the control of the mexican mafia to go be a hit man for a mexican cartel.
@@likeahbaussthat's what your boy Biden said
Hes a muslim revert now, hes found his peace
@@SnowmanSantanaYes, that's what I suspected too with his first name and beard. Alhamdulillah for that.
Thank you Ali. Thank you for your testimony on the actual life in the cartel and what some people stuck in that system truly wish for. All too often the other side looks at every person in the cartel and wishes them death. The fact you were willing to speak about your past and ultimately unfortunate experiences on camera and with no filter, proves what a decent human being anyone can be. I wish you future safety and happiness.
When you see celebrity interviews on TV, full of vacuous self important people who only have a skill of pretending to be someone in front of camera for a bit. They talk of inconsequential things that are of interest to none but the most stupid of society.
Then there's this masterpiece, for free on UA-cam.
What a stunning thought provoking interview. Worthy of whatever awards can be achieved for such things.
Truer words, man... truer words.
What does celebrities have to do with this talk? Not all celebrities are like and not all killers are like this. Stop stereotyping.
@@tchlin It was am observation on interviews, 90% of which are of celebrities and the inanity of them. If 90% are like that, it is a stereotype of its own making.
@@bravo2966stereotypes aren’t given, they are earned lol
@@bravo2966 I don't know where you see "90%" of interviews being celebrities. There are news networks - both mainstream and others - with affiliated journalists who specialize in one topic or the other. @tchlin is right, this is a self righteous over generalization. We just need to be intentional about where we get our info from and what we we are willing to feed our attention with.
It's amazing how well he speaks and how candidly he's able to communicate the relationships between events in his life
i would hope so. He went to the same public schools must of us have attended.
@@rodarte420he’s a good man and you have to rate the fact he’s changed his life round , he does not argue when he is wrong he accepts it
True man
You have to be educated to be a ......
Mexicans are smarter than americans overall they are just poor
How do you mean, why is it "amazing" that he can articulate his experience, what, do you mean it's "amazing" that someone "like him", can communicate his observations, of his life ?
"Amazing how well he speaks...". !?!?!? I don't think I'd be alone in seeing a patronising tone in that comment, I especially wonder what he would think and how he would react if you were to say that to him....
I always believe that if you want a story spoken well, you ask the storyteller to speak it. This man spoke well throughout, I may not accept the life he lead was a good, honest life, I do believe he will succeed in bringing a better life to others, for that he has my uttermost respect.
True. After killing 70 people, he has a lot to make up for. I wish him nothing but the best. Everyone deserves a second chance.. Except those 70 people, but everybody else does..
@@esehavek1this man has an insane k/d ratio
Empathy and sympathy are totally different than respect. I feel for you guy and blessed I never had to go down that path but bro killed people in horrible ways, that shouldn't deserve respect.
I don't think many people in situations like this understand their context and themselves like this man here. He learned something valuable about it and wants to teach it to others.
It's absolutely incredible how the ripple effects of one man's actions can change the lives of soo many!
His actions also affect many possible life tree's. Its sad. Fact that hes taken life one day someone or something will come collect his debt. What he said is true. "Hard to pretend things have changed they have not" someone like that will have to look over his shoulders forever.
Ali is the one to transform generational curses. We are grateful that he is able to share his story. He has a grand purpose in life, and we hope that he lives a long life to fulfill it. Peace Ali
Fuck that, he's a psychopathic killer coward.
I just thank God that he made it out of the game
Sending prayers 🙏
If we met in the street, I would never have thought what kind of life he had, very articulate and honest. Hope he stays on his path to good.
It's surreal when you grow up in a loving household and then later in life unknowingly
walk in a life you have only seen in movies.
Bruh... it took me less then a second of looking in to this dudes eyes to realize that he's a cold blooded killer. You REALLY need to step up your game if you couldn't see it.
@@finansvalpen248you already know he is when you click the video of course you gonna think that
Causs hes a paisa
@finansvalpen248 you can see nothing but darkness in his eyes nothing else
I didn’t think I’d ever say this, but if I didn’t know what this guy had done I would instantly like this guy and welcome him as a friend. Man is intelligent, focussed and a survivor. It’s clear he was a good kid with potential to go far and do well in life. It’s a pity that his monster father destroyed his family, his innocence and trust. The bitter and painful experience basically transformed him into a vengeful and ultra violent character. There’s not a shred of boast, or arrogance, just blunt straight talking honesty about brutal things 99.9% folks would never experience in their life. Perhaps perfect recruitment material to be groomed into a cold hearted gangland hitman.
Growing up in Los Angeles from the early 70s to the early 2000s as an extremely poor white dude I met and befriended many dudes like this guy. Not cartel "employees" but hardcore gangsters just the same. These dudes were always respectful and honest about their personal lives and intentions. I lost several friends who got caught up in this type of lifestyle. Gangs, shootings, stabbings, prison and drug related deaths. I saw it all myself. RIP to lots of my brothers who didn't make it and I hope this dude can find peace in his life. He didn't ask to be here.
Wawawa cry me a river. Your whyte stop being a victim.
grew up same area same time frame as you. And basically I have the same hopes for this guy. He just got caught up. When your in it, it's just kinda normal.
@@user-xt8es5nj4nso true my friend
Glad you're still alive to do what you're doing! It's nothing short of a miracle, that you're still living today. I know you'll help so many kids, just by telling your story.
But to be an advocate and dedicate yourself full-time will be an unmeasurable
and tremendous help for our youth and society as a whole. Thank you so much!
You're a miracle performing a miracle!! Much love and respect brother!! 💙😉👍🇨🇦
His American neighbors *definitely* didn’t ask him to be here
You really can tell when someone has lived that life. Can never dismiss his past actions but have to show mercy and be glad he’s on a better path to forgiveness. Hope he finds a small peace and holds the demons and thoughts at bay.
the common thread with so many of these stories that childhood trauma and dysfunction is SO hard to shake. It moulds you in the most monstrous ways. and kudos to anyone who came find it in themselves to move on, breakthrough to the other side and find a better path.
This is why children are so precious. They’re meant to be cherished or else the world will become what they raised :(
That was deep! Best of luck my brother!
Don't kid yourself. The cartels recruit based upon the lifestyle. You are a tough guy gangbanger with guns. Money women cars and people fear you. Don't believe this BS that they are all from dysfunctional homes. In areas with few poorly paid job prospects this is attractive
I was invested immediately. No glorifying being a "banger", no "I'm tommy toughnuts" pageantry, just straight up relating his story. Bravo sir.
If anyone here thinks they have had a bad life they should have a conversation with this man. I hope he's doing well. I have all the respect in the world for him simply for coming out the other side alive and well! 💯💯💯👏👏👏👏
Weird
"Alive and well." I bet he wouldn't describe it like that
He is very well spoken and smart. You can tell he is in deep pain. I wish him peace, wherever he can find it.
wish him peace? he killed over 70 people for fuck sake
Thank You for this interview. Well spoken and even invoked empathy in me. The tone, the eyes, the word choice, this is as real as it gets.
This guy is well-spoken. He would've done well if he was born into a different situation. Watching this makes me truly grateful for what I have and my situation.
I grew up in Compton CA until I was 12 years old in the early 90s, Elm St and Mayo. My parents decided to move to Oregon in 94, to this day I can say it's the best decision they could've made. It was definitely a culture shock at first, but I'm glad it happened. I don't know where or how I would be if I had stayed. Portland might not be what it used to be in 94, but it still doesn't compare to Compton.
Glad you woke up and saw the big picture that day that you decided that was not gonna be the rest of your life. Your trauma began when you realized your own protector, your father, was a twisted violent monster. I’m so sorry that happened to you and your sister. It’s not your fault, and you are NOT your father. Keep going man, get that shit as far behind you as you can…
I’m not Mexican but I consume Mexican news and podcast every single day and the violence in cartels is the most BRUTAL and nauseous thing, like he said it is something that people in first world countries couldn’t even think of and it’s something that affects everyone in Mexico still to this day, heartbreaking.
Isn’t your name mexican?
@@ChickenJoe-tq6xdthey could be from Spain
@@ChickenJoe-tq6xdThese names originated in Spain, not Mexico.
What podcast do you listen
@@ChickenJoe-tq6xd Think you spelled Hispanic wrong, though there are Mexican names. This isn't one of them
I don’t know why i am addicted to hearing about the cartel stories
This guy’s courage, self control, and natural empathy is incredible and even beautiful. Many people simply don’t have that in them. Especially going through everything he has gone through his entire life.
In Mexico they teach u to be humble regardless of what you're lived or living! U dnt show off even if u have it u respect and carry yourself as a man!
what the fk r u talking about ? he has murdered over 70 people
Natural empathy? He was a hitman.
@@_Delta_P_ he is no more hitman hé is a Muslim now a talk about it on another vidéo trying to hang himself one day but listening to coran video.
You kidding?
Sobering Interview. Thank you.
3 years ago while on vacation in Mexico I sat down with one of these guys (retired) for a long conversation. He said that he couldn't eat roasted chicken for 6 months because it smells a lot like burning bodies.
I asked him how he could live with himself knowing he had done those things. His answer: It's not personal, it's war.
Just curious, I thought once you join the cartel, you can never get out of. They let people retire and live a normal life afterwards? I mean, that’s good at least they can have some sort of peace.
@@emmsh3344 Mexican cartels work differently than mafias (as Italian, Albanese, Russian, Japanese etc..) they are not connected by blood/ethnicity but mostly by the state / region they are born, they are like regional companies who control and hire local people for many of their tasks, mostly of Sicários work for outsourced local guerrillas who are paid by the Top of Cartel pyramid, they are paid for “tasks” and that’s one of the reasons why so hard to stop this mess, a lot of these guerrilas are made by local farmers, policemen, taxi drivers etc.. doing it as an extra job, believe me Mexico is a narco state that normalised all this, and as much you don’t betray the cartels and your own local guerrilla and find someone good to replace you it’s ok to leave and have a normal life, the problem that half of them don’t live enough or are in debt with the cartels for life bcs of drugs or money borrowed.
it doesn't smell like roasted chicken, burning hair is the worst of the smells but skin smells more like pork then anything. Main reason dude said he retired, probably never lived that. Then again even people who weren't apart of that life know what a dead body smells like just by living in certain areas. But no not chicken
@@emmsh3344most get out by moving countries I’m pretty sure. The cartel isnt going to come kill someone across the world in a cartel related way. That’d be a terrorist attack basically
@@ibaconbits8997 just because it smells like pork & not chicken doesn't mean he's lying 🙄 u 60%ers sure like to doubt absolutely everything even though u don't even live that life your damn self & wouldn't know regardless especially if u just assume shit!!!! Assumers are the ppl that lie & pretend the most in life & obviously u are one of them!!!! A real person with actual brains can instantly pick your phoney kind out of a hat while be blindfolded!!!! U just fell for the easiest trick in the book & gave urself away 😂
This lad looks genuinely traumatised and numb to what hes done and how bad its affected him. He looks lost
But can you blame him... I think most guys would have crumbled long ago.
You can tell he hates himself as the most terrible thing he said he’d done wasn’t that terrible
@@andrewbrown5300bashing someone had to a pulp with the butt of a gun is pretty brutal I'd say but I do agree he has done WAY worse
Tough
And American gangsters think they’re hard 😂
This is one of the best interviews I’ve seen in a long time wow this is crazy!
I always appreciate your interviews, LADBible. This man's story felt close to home, because of geography and some cultural experience. Thank you for choosing this interview. I appreciated the interview questions and the truthfulness of this man's telling of his experiences and point of view. Best wishes to you, Ali Gonzalez as you continue your life. I am happy to hear that you are working to provide leadership and caring to the young children who desperately need it.
Amen 🫡
Young man I will pray for you there is true peace when you call on Jesus! I appreciate what you are doing for others.
I hope they let him live. He was very methodical with his words, giving us enough detail without giving away anything or naming specifics. I hope he continues to share his story.
Of course he will live if he’s in the United States prison if it he were in Mexico he would have gotten killed by now
For real 😔🙏
Ummm he murdered approximately 70 people…
they have to otherwise they get killed@@CasperReacts0336
@@CasperReacts0336Brother. Those 70 people were part of something darker than either of us can understand. Did you know that cartel members pray to an “angel of death”? I guarantee almost all if not all of em had murders and dark shit under their belt too. He wasnt shooting random families. These were people with a target on their back, as sad as it is.
This is the realist interview I've ever seen. Props to this young man....
This is fake just like every other republican story
he is a murderer.
he lost his way. doesn’t mean he’s that same person
@@ZOEYANDFRIENDS673 So is Bush I, Bush II, Obama, Biden, Netanyahu and soon to be Trump. Where's your anger at them?
@@johnf.rivera8046 dude... you cant see a psychopath when hear one... do you think this guy has any emotions left?
It's kinda weird... but I think it's the most on point/real/intelligent interview I've ever seen. And I'm not comparing to other ganster interview, just the interviews in general. Like zero agenda and 100% substance here.
This was defintly one of the deepest interviews I've seen, Hopefully this guy is doing well reguardless of his past life. It's very hard for men like him to change. Applause for him...
“Reguardless of his past life”!!?? Wtf is wrong with people like you supporting this bs.
Ridiculous comment.
@@shanfarco1574 and who asked you?
@@jerryx6829 you must be new to social media.
@@shanfarco1574 you must have nothing else better todo
You can feel this man’s pain. No glorification of the lifestyle. He sees the faces of all the people he has killed.
lol
His pain is from his traumatic upbringing
He clearly says he is not bothered by the people he’s killed
@@Poulson_thefit1ok?
@@Poulson_thefit1 lol missed that part
The cartel is extremely terrifying. Sad what this guy had to go through in his life.
@@EastSideBlockyall always want the US to help. It’s not their job to save other countries. The us needs to worry about their own citizens
@@EastSideBlockand don’t forget how the US loves to “lose track” of gun shipments and the cartel just magically ends up with every single gun 😂
Cartel here are overrated. They patrol where i stay. I live outdoors so they literally walk around me while I'm sleeping at night.
I'm a pretty mad guy all in all. I am a leader of a major religion. I'm second in command in my church of almost 20 million.
As I walked past them I gave them a look to say don't bother me - it was the kill the look. They immediately respond with a gesture of 'nah we're just doing our job'.
Anyway you get to know everyone after sometime and I got to know that actually they're not a threat. They're people trying to escape life's misery like anyone else. Stuck like anyone else.
@@EastSideBlockMexico don’t want our help. The president has said countless times he doesn’t want the US to intervene
@@EastSideBlockyou know the US navy jugheads founded the cartels? You know a lot of Latino presidents/running mayors get assassinated whenever they try to help their countries to get rid of outside (American influence) corruption.
You’re either playing dumb or naive to think American doesn’t make money off the drug trades in Latino America when their people loose kids and families/policeman and stay poor. Who do you think supplies them with military grade weapons??
Lots of LA/SB police has been caught pushing drugs and a lot of boarder state governors have cartel ties and consistently go to Mexico for “vacation”
“Help our neighbors” oh they’ve been helping them since colonial times alright..Mexicos blessing and curse is living next to the powerhouse super capitalist America same with any Latino country I suppose.
the most precious 33minutes of truth ever! Kudos to both of you!
A very intelligent and articulate man, it's unfortunate his father set him on the path he ended up on. An amazing story as well, it's crazy to think he had started off with simple home invasions.
he's so intelligent he didnt stop after the first hit - it took him up to 70 - yup suuuuper smart
@@michaelomondi-gq5yh go join the cartel and see if you can stop afterwards out of your own volition , your logic is stupid dude
@michaelomondi-gq5yh you sound dumb lol
Yea , smart dude for sure .
he is educated, articulate man for sure ..he is a product of his choices...
Great interview! Had me at the edge of my seat. La vida loca.
I wish the young man the best. Thanks for sharing your story.
Ali seems very sincere in his way but you can also see that his emotions are closely in check. What I like about this channel is that the interviews are not glorifying the person in the chair like some other channels do - well done, keep up the good work
Did you see Arab video?
This man gives "What's done is done" a different ring to it.
When he said yes, he had fear, and if someone said they had no fear, they were lying. He was definitely about that life...
It’s the relationship with fear that categorizes people
probably the greatest real story ive ever heard … truly mind blowing and very inspiring❤️
Definitely not lying. Sounds exactly like a combat Veteran. His mannerisms are like a combat Veteran & he has that thousand yard stare into the abyss stare a lot of us display.
I was thinking this exact thing the entire time watching. It’s evil hitmen out here but this guy reminds me of a soldier. Many of my uncles served, some spec ops and the mannerisms are exactly the same.
Dang when he said he wouldn’t change a thing in his life 😳. Friend, don’t think that way because you went through life with what opportunities you had but you’re way better than that and you know it, you turned around and that takes guts and a reality check few of us can accept let alone give ourselves the luxury of thinking it. You 100% deserve better opportunities and I pray to god you find those opportunities for the better.
Took a lot of courage for a man like that to do an interview. Knowing the risks I just couldn’t imagine the lifestyle of constantly looking over the shoulder and reading people knowing on day of they find him, he is gone. He will be the example he was talking about.
Very interesting interview and insight. Finally an interview, without the sensational dramatic music and camera edits for a subject that needs none. This man's experience is enough. Great job keep up the good work
Welcome to Minutes With! I love these interviews and there are really amazing stories out there. Enjoy!
Glad I ran into this interview. Born and raised in San Diego. I've known many guys like this, and believe it or not they're typically very respectful. But you can always feel that there is a line not to be crossed. It's palpable. You can think you're a badass all you want and claim not to be scared, but that would be a psychotic take, because you'll know you aren't shit when you come across the real deal.
It's funny because people think San Diego ain't about that because our numbers ain't that high. Look at the missing numbers instead of the murder rate. Border ain't too far. That's all
lol San Diego is not a hardcore gang area. SD is like the Hamptons in NY, except with the Navy airheads being all over. Nothing but cloud 9 living there.
@@WaYsTiiD Of course it's cloud 9 when you're in the nicer and now gentrified areas of San Diego. It's easy to believe that's how it is everywhere as a result. I agree, it's not as hardcore, obvious and deeply rooted in affiliation as LA or other places with long and very violent histories of gang culture. But there's plenty here, mixed with highly frequent crimes from kidnappings for human trafficking, prostitution down in National City, robbery, murder, and other violent crimes, all it takes is having access to a local crime news page to know this. I know because I've lived in some of the rougher parts growing up and now live in La Jolla, so I know the stark contrast first hand. Plenty of gang activity between bloods to Mexican Mafia, since we are literally a few minutes away from the border.
@@WaYsTiiD Of course it's cloud 9 when your only experiences are likely nicer and now gentrified areas of San Diego. I agree, it's not as "hardcore" or deeply rooted in long and rich history of violent gang culture, but to believe there isn't any at all or any bad areas with individuals like this is an ignorant take. Tons of MM and bloods. I've lived in some bad parts of SD and now live in La Jolla, so I've experienced the stark contrast in regions. This is an odd city because you can drive 10-15 minutes south from where I am and regret driving to the wrong area, and then 25 minutes north of that you're in a rich area like Encinitas with beaches and families. Having access to a local crime news outlet or channel would definitely change your perspective a bit because a lot of it is right under everyone's noses.
@@WaYsTiiDMurder capital is right across the border from SD 😂, and we all know how much crazy sh goes across the wall
For all the "stories" about gangs, street life, and violence, this man's story cuts to the somber truth and reality of that lifestyle.
Man, I've never felt this type of sadness for another human being before.
I met a mexican hit man in my gym here in America in NYC he looked like a skinny wimp BY APPEARANCE respectfully but when he told me he fleed mexico cuz his uncle was involved with the cartel forcefully cuz his uncle had a farm and they would behead people their so it was get down an let us ur farm or u die straight extortion he told me he also helped kill ppl and dismember them looking at him like he wouldn't hurt a fly never judge a book by its cover you dont know who killed before and who didnt
Neta
Same 😞 I just want to give him a big hug at the end of this video. I hope he overcomes his past and keeps his head up.
You need to get out of the house once in a while then.
He’s fine, dork
Me causa una gran pena el dolor de éste chico por lo mucho que ha pasado. Soy Mexicana y madre también y es una lástima por lo que estamos atravesando en México. Siento que no hay salida. Peto cuando recuerdo a Colombia que dió batalla al arco durante y después de Pablo Escobar, hay una luz y esperanza para el resto de nosotros que no estamos inmiscuidos en esa guerra. Gracias por compartir esa experiencia. Deseo lo mejor para el chico. Que Dios te cuide siempre. 🙏
Ooohh probecito el delincuente narco y asesino….
Hello I just want to know are you in Mexico. I WOULD LIKE TO HELP THE YOUTH THERE TALKING WITH THEM TO MAKE BETTER LIFE CHOICES.
asies señora. Las cosas en México no son faciles, espero que un dia las cosas van a ser mas tranquilo. Mucho respecto por el chico
que se dio la vuelta y se transformó. saludos
Hi Johney! How are you? ¿Cuál es tu profesión? y ¿por qué te gustaría ayudar a la juventud en Méx.?
Los carteles en colombia no eran nada violentos como los de mexico. Si habían muertes pero no de este nivel que sucede en mexico donde encuentras cuerpos mutilados o cabezas descuartizadas por las calles. Lo que tiene mexico es otro rumbo pero muy grave.
Imagine standing there watching a group of people, some innocent, get hacked up by axes and chainsaws. Good Lord. Humans really suck man
Your forgetting were animals. Doesn't make it right but we're on top for a reason. Look at our history. It's crazy that people believe in utopia it's not happening ever.
You dont have to imagine. Theres videos of this stuff online.
@@Frittrich yea I’m aware of the videos I’ve seen a couple before. No thanks
TBH I'm pretty sure he gave us the light version of worst event he's seen or done.
@@salt_provider4824 yea this is interesting because you’re right, we are animals. We’ve just evolved over thousands of years to what we are today and to thing that we still have those animalistic strands within us. It’s hard to comprehend it. But also I still think we’re worse than animals. We’re definitely worse. Even animals have a main objective and that’s to survive so they kill as quick as they can. Humans will go above and beyond that and I won’t get into details because most of us probably know the type of killings that are out there but it’s far worse than what any animal could or would do to it’s enemy or prey. Some humans have just evolved into barbaric violent disgusting creatures.
Honesty - plain and simple. He has my respect.
He sounds very intelligent, if he was born into a different family and different background with a decent upbringing his life could’ve been so much different.
And I was rich I wouldn't have to work
Him giving back to the younger generation is a blessing. It never amazes me that's its true, you can't experience life without some struggles any struggles.
Wow, how eye opening and honest. I'm embarrassed to say, i thought these things only happened in movies. I feel so sad, really wish these people didn't go through such hardship at such a young age, it's heart breaking.
Some movies are inspired by true events.
Thank you Ali. Wishing you the very best as you move forward in life.
The best advice my therapist gave me, she gave me on day 1. "Step 1 to surviving a traumatic childhood no matter where it has taken you in adulthood; Never apologize for the things you had to do to survive when the adults in your life failed you.
You can atone for some things if you feel you need to. But NEVER apologize for your survival. "
I wholeheartedly wish this for him. I hope somewhere in his life he has had someone speak those very words to him. And should he ever feel the need to apologize as society loves to guilt people into doing, I hope he knows that it may not be "acceptable" but it is perfectly healthy to apolize to himself, to his wounded inner child, for not knowing the depths of evil that exist in this world when the child he was tried to escape the hostile environment he was raised in.
Shitttt!
That's so deep!
Thank you so much for sharing this
The wounded inner child
That’s mega facts!!!!!
Thank you for posting this!
Theraspy is for gays
Great interview, I could listen to him forever. I’m sure it helps him vent out some of those past traumas too. May you get the peace and tranquility you’re searching for and may God bless you along the way of redemption. I’m sorry for everything your father put you through, from hearing your story we know deep down you have a heart and you’re a good man. Stay up and keep doing great things for the next generation ❤
Thinkf of the traumas he inflicted to innocent mexicans ... right ?
@@eamylordare you stupid? Did u even watch the full video before commenting, he said he only killed rival cartel members, no innocents, women or children, meanwhile he was at war with CJNG cartel who actually kills women and children like animals
I gut
Women. 😂
"Oh that's a good looking murderer, I want to blow him."
"Ew that's an ugly looking murderer may he burn in hell."
😂😂😂
Good for him. Glad he got out of that life.
It's evident that he carries a lot of weight from his past but he is about as tough as a person can get. So hopefully he moves on and finds peace.
The pain in his eyes when asked about his dad. To know that was the root to his pain. He’s well articulated when giving his testimony.
I cant help but think he’s a kind soul deep down somewhere and under different circumstances his life could have gone a different way. Hope one days he rests and is at peace.
No he isn’t, he has no remorse, no regret, he’s a sociopathic murderer, idc if he teaching kids boxing on Sunday or sew’s socks for the homeless, there should be no forgiveness or brevity for him.
@@sethmonroe9603
Go ahead and live in this guy’s neighborhood, watch your own sister get assaulted by your own dad, and THEN lecture us
It’s easy to point fingers from your cozy little keyboard
@@corpsefoot758 did you watch the interview? He chose this life, he went to Mexico to join the cartel lol, so your argument is completely invalid.
@@sethmonroe9603did you watch it he said in the beginning he went back to get away from gangs 😂😂
@@sethmonroe9603if that’s your mindset and way of thinking. Your never gonna find peace in your heart.
That was a hard hitting interview. A fucking terrifying reality. Hope you can do your part to prevent some kids going down the same road. Life is crazy and most of us complain about dumb shit everyday when we have it so easy.
It's called conditioning.. Just like a society that is OVER-STIMULATED.. not good..
He's such an anassuming guy. But looking in his eyes, they immediately communicate "hard as f*cking coffin nails," but there's an inherent sadness in them. Like they're saying, "I truly don't want to hurt you, so please don't force my hand, because I'll take into a realm of nightmare which you couldn't fathom".
Oh please, all the dudes in this life like the violence and like hurting others, it's why they do it
I hear all this and on the other hand, I hear warmth and softness in his voice. The humans are so special.
Dude...this guy is the real deal. You get that vibe from even real killers that have spent most their lives in prison that do podcasts that they're making alot of shit up or talking BS....but this guy....you can see this guy has seen some shit and done some shit and you can tell he's dead inside. This guy needs to start up a podcast or something and tell stories, and I can see him blowing up big time. Something about him is so real that it's unique
No he needs to pay for his sins, I’ve seen so many gangsters get a second chance like Michael franzese & that one bald dude many more I don’t remember their name, they’ll live that life killed a lot of people & get better treatment than your average Joe, could be that they still have information that’s keeping them alive
He won’t survive a single episode. Raza cartels are no joke. They don’t like people tell stories on their business
I don’t think that’ll be great for his mental health. That’s why he’s teaching children in boxing because he’s trying to move foward from his past. But lowkey I wouldn’t be surprised if he falls back into the cartel world because that’s all he’s known and even gets some of those youngins he’s teaching into the cartel.
@@berenisemendez5223that would honestly suck if he returned to his old ways especially since he’s doing well teaching the kids that even if they come from a broken home they can be something in life. But life is no fairytale so he might return. The worse part for me is that he hasn’t seen his mom is 17 years… that’s sad.
No more podcasts please
I know what it feels like to be pushed into a life of crime and violence. Not to the same extent as this man, but that lifestyle is really really hard. And it leaves a mark on you for life.
I've had a really hard time trying to re-integrate to society because it feels too normal. When you're used to being stressed out about life and death 24/7, normal life feels like a false bubble where it can just all collapse in a blink of an eye. Kinda like what soldiers go through after coming back home after being in war. Getting shit scared of fireworks and all that, and being in fight or flight mode 24/7.
Im glad that my past isn't nearly as bad as this man's past, and I'm even more glad he got out of it. You should also judge a man for what he is now in the present, not his past.
Much love, random youtube comment section readers ❤
Thank your lucky stars if you've lived a normal honest life, even if it feels boring or stressful at times.
i'm working through cptsd too, and am almost at the point where i can get my guard down.
i would say it's something you should prioritize, by being nicer to yourself and let yourself feel and express every emotion that comes up. in a safe space, if need be.
i am finding out there's a completely different person underneath all that trauma, a person i would have laughed at in the past because of how weak they seemed.
but now i am finding out those people are actually the strongest, because they are not afraid to be vulnerable.
because learning to be vulnerable is probably the hardest thing i've ever had to do. and i did very hard things in my life.
wish you all the best, because everyone deserves nothing but the best.
I remember trading stories with a coworker who had been a serious gangster in his youth (I was military, combat veteran). At one point, when he said, “I wasn’t in the army like you,” I answered, “Dude you’ve seen as much combat as I have. Maybe more.” The only real differences were the reasons for the fighting and the clothes (uniforms) we wore.
Wow
This is enlightening on human nature, redemption and the thin line we walk between savagery. Hoping for a better life and a better impact for this man.
I never thought I could respect a cartel member(or ex) but this guy has it coming for him. 👏👏
This was absolutely haunting. I don’t think I will be able to get this out of my mind. He is so right in saying young kids hear gangster songs, watch gangster movies then start idolizing y that way of life. It is nothing but a road to hell! I am glad he got out of it, but what kind of life can he live, knowing he has killed 70 people? Will the spirits of those he killed come back to haunt him in his nightly dreams? Very sad.
I hate when people try to defend those tyoes of music by saying "Its what we live, its what we see".
I'm only a few minutes into it, but I read this comment and I just have a hard time believing he killed 70 people and is not in a prison!? Plus thats such an even number to me, sounds like BS
@@drewwinters6601 I highly doubt it is BS. Have you read about Rosalio Reta? He was 13 when he became a cartel hitman. Dismembering bodies and putting them in barrels was nothing, in fact, in 2009, he told a Laredo police detective that killing made him feel like “Superman”. I was watching a documentary about cartel hit men yesterday, they killer people like one might kill mosquitos! I actually think he killed more than 70 people. Why are you surprised he isn’t in prison? Are you serious 😆?! You think the Mexican authorities would waste their time on a hit man? They have better and bigger fish to go after!
@@drewwinters6601 I don’t think you are prepared for what reality really is , these guys kill at such a young age
@@franciscocervantes7270if that’s what they are living and seeing 24/7 what do you expect them to rap about? Sunflowers and roses
Absolutely loved this episode. would love to see more from him. Ali, thank you for sharing your story
This is a story of redemption, great job young man. What u have done takes courage and gives other young men someone to look up to and see that how they maybe currently living is not the only option for them that there is a way out of that life but u gta put the work in cause it will not b served up on a silver platter for them. I wish for u to have all the happiness. Good luck to u, u have purpose.
Thank you for sharing this honestly
Fantastic interview , part 2 please
I work construction in Hawaii with a guy who used to be cartel, really good dude, goes church on sundays, and brings food his wife cooks for us on fridays. Glad to see these dudes turn their lives around
Dear Mr. Ali Gonzalez - I appreciate you. I appreciate your honesty. You've been through literal hell and you've come out the other side. The thing that impresses me most is that you acknowledge the hurt and pain you've caused others, you paid for your crimes and now you're trying to make sure that the children you come across do not suffer the same fate. Thank you for talking to everyone about your life. I know it'll effect others to think twice one way or another.