Thanks a lot to everyone who shared their feelings. It became a beautiful place and thanks to your comments this is one of the few things that I'm proud of. I never thought millions of people would listen to it. 🎵 Follow our SPOTIFY playlist: t.ly/4PGLd
I think I only feel that way when I'm scrolling down these comment sections, knowing I'm not going through this alone, It's a little feeling of belonging I miss in my real life
Sometimes, I wish I could just observe the world. I don't want to have to worry about life. I just want to see the trees blowing in the wind and the sun setting. Why can't everything just be peaceful?
Because life is a sea and because if it was always peacful then even the slightest breeze would feel like a huricane. Don't worry your peace will come, with time of course.
You and I, we are observing the world every second we are in it, don't forget that as it maybe easy in world of today. Open your eyes and ears, listen and see the beauty around you. Breathe in from your nose and let your senses tell you stories. Dream, dream big and relax, the world isn't going anywhere, we are. In a hurry it is easy to miss all those little things around you. Love, love yourself, nature, friends and family, hug them and smile often. Tell your worries to them and feel free. We aren't here alone and never will be.
It can never be forever peaceful as we're living in a world filled with different kinds of people. The more kind of people, the more patterns, and hence more different scenarios with different chain reactions and implications. You just have to remember to create a place of quietness and serenity around you and allowing the ones who are also seeking that, like you. And I think we all are here at the very same place. Let's admire such a music buddy... Cheers! Hope you're doing well though
Well The internet is usually one of the most toxic places. But this place. This small insignificant comment section. It's calm and peaceful. I love it.
i remember putting this video on one night a few years ago, unhappy with the life i was living. it’s one of the reasons i decided to start releasing music publicly! thank you
the one thing ive learned while scrolling through this comment section is that there is no definition of "one of those nights". everyone has their own definition.
For me, those nights usually consist of thoughts racing through my head at painful speeds until it all just... Stops, leaving nothing behind. It's an empty calm. Like the calm after a storm that's decimated everything in its path.
austrian person here. there's a quote about "Sehnsucht" that I completely love: "Die Sehnsucht scheint mir die einzige ehrliche Eigenschaft des Menschen." It means basically that Sehnsucht seems to be the only honest attribute of a human.
I snuck out a few years ago and met with my best friend. We ran away together and watched the stars for hours. It was freezing but I was high on adrenaline. We laughed together on the grass and told stories while looking at the stars. They looked so beautiful. She walked me home and neither of us got caught by our parents. I’ve loved that night and I think about it almost everyday it was so magical. We always said we’d sneak out again and go back to that park but we never did. It’s been two years since she died and I never went near that park until recently. I went in the dead of night and sat there looking at the same stars we did all those years ago. They were still there but she wasn’t. I guess I can only hope she was watching them with me. I can’t wait for the day we finally star gaze there again.
egg salad damn i was smiling so hard when i read it imagening how cool it would be, but then i read „she died two years ago“ and my smile shattered in shock. Wish you the best!
My heart goes out to you, but you've healed. You've faced what's been causing your hurt. I have a best friend and I understand that pain. please keep living. You are beautiful inside and out. You deserve an amazing life and you arent alone. That shit made me cry, srsly. You are still loved 💞💝 Thx for commenting
She's there with you, in the fire of every star and every beat of your heart. She loves you, and the stars will ever remind you of that. Stars are similar to your friend, even in death will their light carry on.
She's always there, watching the stars with you. You just have to feel her there. Imagine her smiling, happy face as you lay there on the grass. No matter what you go through, make that your happy place. She will ALWAYS be there, waiting to watch the stars with you again.
It is one of those nights. I'm a single father of two, we've been on our own and alone for so so long now. I can go months without talking to a person other than my son and daughter and I love it that way. But this morning as I got in my work truck with my work partner, I saw smoke at the back of my house and ran to go inside but was struck by so much smoke that it was just blackness. I couldn't breathe and had to go back outside for air. My dog was inside which prompted me to try to go in again and again. It was so impossible to get further then a few steps. I couldn't breathe or see, and things all around were too hot to even try to get past or jump over. I thought the dog was dead, or feared my son who is a teenager now could of maybe possibly not gone to school, or snuck back in the house to skip school. My work partner and I were beating out the windows, and doors until out of nowhere my dog appears!!!! My kids were both at school and I'm okay, except I keep seeing the black smoke in my mind and taste it on my tongue. I'm at my mother's right now and my whole community has come together to try to help, it's been such a difficult day, but a good one as well. But I'm still up at one am thinking how it truly has been a long day and is one of those nights now too.
do you ever just reach a point in your sadness, where you feel at peace? like nothing can hurt you more than you’ve already felt, it can’t get worse, so it has to get better. right?
You were broken down into these pieces. Now it’s time to regroup, rebuild, stronger than before. It won’t be easy but deep down, everyone has the potential for change. You just have to make sure it’s a welcome one. Fight for it if you have to, there’s nothing in the world more worth fighting for than your soul.
A while ago I drank half a bottle of wine at 2am and decided to throw on my coat and take a walk. I put in my AirPods and played a playlist I have which is similar to this one. I live a good distance from the city around rolling hills with farm houses. I walked peacefully in the night down the gravel roads looking at the stars. The universe looked so big that night. I laid in the grass by the road and starred at the night sky for an hour just thinking. The world seemed to stop, and it felt like I was the only person on the planet. I wish I could go back to that night...
In this fast-paced age of ours, people are starved for the moments in between moments. With life rushing by every day and the constant stream of information keeping us distracted and busy, we yearn for the moments where we can just slow down and breathe. We yearn for the slow edys in the fast river, the moments of stillness in this life. I think thats why these internet pitstop videos hit so hard with people. They're usually videos that allow people to finally breathe and reflect on the world, and sometimes even just being able to take that one breath is enough to get you by another day. So thank you for giving people that moment they need to get anything off their chest.
I’ve been in a “slump” lately. I want to: Cry Scream Run away But I also want to: Not do anything Stay where I am Keep going I don’t want to grow up but I want to keep moving forward. I feel conflicted and I have no idea what I’m doing. On one of these nights I feel dark and empty in the most peaceful way possible. It’s addictively melancholic.
Yes thank you for putting my feelings into words. I just feel so lost and I want something to happen, anything really, to break up the routine. Life has just been so repetitive lately. i want to be old enough to make my own decisions but I don't think I could handle that much responsibility. I want to just be content but I don't know how.
@@jahnavisachchidanand8768 same, I feel so lost but these comment sections make me feel it a little bit less because here, were all alone together. Hold on, friend, it'll get better someday, or at least something will happen
Good anecdote: The teacher asked once what did we talk about when we talked about happiness. And then one student said that happiness is what happens when you go to bed on the hottest night of the summer, a night so hot you can’t even wear a tee-shirt and you sleep on top of the sheets instead of under them, although try to sleep is probably the most accurate. And then at some point late, late at night, say just a bit before dawn, the heat finally breaks and the night turns cool and when you briefly wake up, you notice that you’re almost chilly, and in your groggy, half-consciousness, you reach over and pull the sheet around you and just that flimsy sheet makes it warm enough and you drift back off into a deep sleep. And it’s that reaching, that gesture, that reflex we have to pull what’s warm- whether it’s something or someone- towards us, that feeling we get when we do that, that feeling of being safe in the world and ready for sleep, that’s happiness.
when I was 15 I used to listen to this almost every night. I think I know every single comment in this video by heart - it's quite strange to say but looking back I think this is the first place I felt truly welcomed. every story you wrote, the music chosen by the creator. the sadness in the comments and the love in the replies. I remember leaving my comment here, it was the first time I'd opened up to someone like that, and I was pretty sure it would just end up as one of the countless comments I left online, but someone actually responded to me and listened my story, I felt seen. everyone is so so nice here. I love you all. I remember a comment that said "it's like being in a bar full of nice people". thank you for sitting here with me tonight.
Many months past your post/edit, and I just want to say, ty for being with me/us too. Time isn’t linear and we don’t understand it fully. So I choose to imagine the time-gap between us, folding and overlapping. That way we could be here at the same time together enjoying this odd moment on our lives. Glad to have met you here. Good luck in the world and I hope you experiences so much more kindness and acceptance in your future.
This is why people want to believe in heaven; because we all wish there was that place where we could all just be there and be surrounded only by kind, warm, happy people who instantly understand us, and not this harsh, desolate place we are now. We have to find a way to make it a reality in this life, because I personally don't think there's going to be another. We have to be good to each other here, and sit up all night with those who need to not be alone
Damn. Really realising that there are loads of other people who have "one of those nights". Never actually felt so connected, confused and comforted in my life. Thanks guys
Those nights when you decide to walk the streets alone listening to music. Away from everyday life, but not asleep. Safe from the chatter if even for a moment.
On a bleak night of September 19th, 2021 I went for a walk in my neighborhood as I was perturbed. Back then we lived in a small town surrounded by hills and dense woods. I was walking along the side of the road in absolute darkness and somehow this darkness resonated with the darkness of my negative thoughts. As I was listening to music I came across this video and I instantly clicked on it, and that was when I saw hundreds of fireflies popping up in the sky from the meadows. All of this was majestic for me, the music and those fireflies.
It sucks when at the end of the day you wanna share everything that happened or you felt, but you have no one to talk to. What's the point of having everything you ever wanted if you don't have anyone to come home to and share your laughs and tears, your hardwork, your everything?
Bro hell I wanna have all the nice things in life my own house and car and dream career......But what is it really worth without happiness and somone to really have at home to remind you what really makes you happy
I used to have someone to share with. They would listen, and i would listen back. But now i lost them and its just empty, yet full nights like these. Like im floating in nothing, and no one is there to see me anymore.
This comment section is like a small bar in a forgotten town, a waypoint on a journey to somewhere, and you find yourself deep in conversation with someone you just met that lasts into the night. Wish I could hang out with all of you and hear your stories in person.
We're not people that want to be at parties, but that Friday night feeling of just being alone kills us sometimes. We want to be alone sometimes, but not to feel lonely
I'm honestly so tired of being myself, there's a lot of things i want to do, places i want to visit, memories i want to create, live my dreams, even if they're stupid, i want to live my life at fullest. But i'm such a coward, sometimes i think there's no place for me
Honestly, the way I would describe it is just, feeling disconnected, kinda like when you repeat a word so much it loses it’s meaning. You feel numb, like a speck floating in empty space, your thoughts suddenly become white sound that gets louder and louder and you’re cool with it, because at the same time, you feel in peace.
The price we pay for our modern way of living is the disconnect from our past, our nature, and meaning. Sometimes wondering if it is too high. A boat in an endless sea, drifting, waiting to return home. There are so many of us with a connection to something no one can put words to nowadays. Something so infinite, that it completely grounds you when you feel it. Some people dont feel it at all. The beauty of music helps you find it. We have to face all the problems that modernity brings to our lives and fight against it, dont let it overwhelm you. This artificial life is not who we are.
@@benjamin8454 I agree with the point you conveyed very eloquently, but one thing baffles me in your line of thinking. If, as you said, we are connected to something greater than our artificial life then how come you say we need to "fight against" it. Wouldn't we just need to surrender ourselves to nature instead with no concern to modern life?
@@gengarsbutt Well yes, but that is quite the loaded question. One that a lot of people could write papers on. Surrendering to nature could be one way of fighting against some of the problems an overly modernized and meaninglessly redundant lifestyle can present. Myself personally, I can not say that I surrender to nature as a way to connect to the steccato and legato of the concrete jungle or feel some sort of "place in the universe". "Fighting against" like I was using it could be many things though, like staying true to ones heritage by connecting with ones past, listening to certain kinds of music that makes one feel a certain way, or anything that really breaks through and speaks to you.
I think it could be that process of repeating the word, but the word is your life. The same thing happens over and over and it suddenly loses meaning. Just like when you lose the meaning of a word, you don't lose it forever, once you recognise that the meaning is gone, you stop caring about that word and the meaning comes back. I guess that is like life. You will have moments where you think 'wait, what is going on? How did I get here?', but we know we have to not think about it like that because that is a miserable way to live (because we know it wont change in the end). Feeling disconnected from the modern world is a good thing because all our connections to it have no real meaning or value.
There's a website dedicated to creating words with proper definitions to suit these things. It's called The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows. It's all online from what I know, and it's super cool.
Same. In fact, I would honestly love to meet these people in real life, and have a nice, relaxing, profound conversation with them. These people seem to be easy to get along with.
I had one of those nights a few days ago. I was sad. I was scared. I was worried. I didn’t know if it was going to end. I held on to hope though. I remembered the people I cared about. I remembered the things I loved and enjoyed doing. I held on to them. Then I went to bed and slept. I woke up the next day to a beautiful sunrise. I got through it. That means you will too. Take care.
I like to call it „addictive melancholy“ because sometimes I don‘t really have a reason to be sad but I still have these melancholic (Not depressive) days which also gives me some kind of ..joy? Does it make sense? The reason why I call it „addictive“ is because I, at that moment, do not need to listen to my melancholic playlists (I have many different vibe playlists), but I still do it begause sometimes I want to be „sad“ or melancholic.
I feel bad and yeah... joy at the same time. It's so hard to explain. This night is one of those night where you dream and you're both disconnect to the life but totally lucid.
I'm writing this here because this is one of those nights where I feel so very alone. I have no one else but myself to blame for this but it still hurts nonetheless. I am a 23 year old man who feels unwanted and unloved by the people and the world around him. I know I am a kind person and have a good heart and I wish people would see that. I've made mistakes just like everyone else out there but I am only human. I love and care for others deeply but that love has nowhere to go so it sits inside my heart and soul waiting. I feel like I am just a cog in a machine, a spec of dust in this expanse of darkness we call the universe. I crave human connection, I crave love, I am tired of being alone, and I hope someday I am wanted and loved by the people in my life. Seasonal depression is hitting hard but I don't want to end my life or give up I just want nothing more than to go back in time even if just a little and start over but I can't, none of us can, life goes on for all of us. I don't know if anyone feels the same way I do but I hope I can connect with at least one person wherever you reside in the world. I cry, I feel sad, I laugh, I smile, I breathe the same air, I look at the same stars, I wake up to the same sun and sleep to the same moon, I have dreams, I have goals, I want to be happy, I want to live a life that I'm proud of at the end of it all. I am just like any other human being on this planet we call home. I know this note will be here for as long as this video exists. I am just a stranger in some corner of the world to you all but I was here at this moment in time, I have a heart and a soul, I am real. I hope that in years from now I can come back to this note that I left here and be content with how I'm doing at that moment in time. This is just a part of my story, there's still a whole lot of pages to fill and a lot more memories to create. To the person reading this I just want to say I love you - a stranger that lives under the same sky
I love you too stranger. I wish u good luck for the journey that lies ahead , for the beautiful chapters yet to be written. Love u deserve will surely find its find way to you . All you need is to keep going forward and accomplish all those goals in meantime. Discover yourself. Everything u truly deserve will come your way. Be sure to accept it with open arms. - a stranger under the same starry night
Know my friend, that you are not alone in your feelings. So many of us put on a bright smile for the people out there and then at the end of the day , come home to complete emptiness. Learn to love yourself dear, one day the right people will come along and share your life with you ❤️ . Love, ( a person truly wishing u everything).
Even when you feel overwhelmed by all the toxic people around you, here we are, this little group of people from all around the world will hold you, you are not alone, in this place we all share similar thoughts, through this playlist, *we are not alone*
My last team retreat: It was amazing. We went out to the White Desert, and spend a weekend there. Stargazing, staying up late, deep convos. So many memories. Makes me want to cry, thinking that wont happen again. Nothing will be quite like that night. The way the distant campfire light danced on the rocky overhang above us as we talked. Just a group of teens, chilling, talking about life, God, and love. I miss that night. Nothing quite like it has ever happened, or likely ever will happened. I want to go back. But I can't. Those were the good old days. Earlier this year. Man, that was the best. This year is probably just like that, but I guess I'm too blind to see it. I'm gonna make so many more memories, and I still see these same people every day, so why am I nostalgic for something I already have?
Because even though you're young you already you see the world for what it really is... a passing thing. But I think it's only through sadness that we know what is truly good
I was once with this girl named Katie about 5 years ago. She was blind and I absolutely loved her. She never saw me but could still love me for who I was as a person. That's the only thing she can go off of. I was her first and last boyfriend. She died in a surgery that was destined to fail. The last thing she ever told me was I was the most beautiful thing she ever heard, she said she loved me and if the surgery fails find someone else. Of course when she is telling me this I am crying my eyes out. I never wanted to let her go ever, but fate had other plans unfortunately. I am still looking for another lover.
I can’t help but ponder of the 516k views, and how many people share the same feelings. How many struggles people face, some greater, some smaller. How many pushed through it, or those that didn’t make it. How it doesn’t matter who you are, where you are from, your skin color, your identity. We share the same emotions, however positive or negative. If you have taken the time to read this, I wish you well, We are all family here. We understand, and you don’t have to say anything. Just know that you can stay as long as you’d like, well all be here for you.
Anytime I feel alone I go down these rabbit holes of finding little pockets of the web where there is just idk this understanding and relate-able people struggling with the same thing I am. Lets you feel less alone and know that we all care for each other even though none of us have ever met besides some comment section on UA-cam. Thanks for the kind words and wish you well
@Silvio Berlusconi No. It is accepting the loneliness, and embracing it. Its when you realize being happy and sad are not opposites, but rather two emotions we can experience, both come with their own kind of beauty.
Found this oasis of tranquility while drinking, which is something I haven't done in 30 years. The sheer weight of failure as a father has brought me full circle to a desperate lonely place. I had no idea how much pain and misery children could cause, and I'm trying to examine my childhood for my own faults, was I the reason my father left, was I so selfish, uncouth, and uncaring? Is all this pain, in the end my fault. Sorry, but it felt good to unburden myself to total strangers, I'll be good tomorrow, I always have to be. This is powerful music. God bless you all and keep you safe.
A couple autumns ago, my friends and I got together to bake cookies. After putting them in the oven, we went out for a walk. There were five of us and the dog, walking down the street. It was early autumn, still hot and sticky, but with that weird chill that comes at night. I don’t think any of us looked at our phones. We walked to the park by the light of the moon, and when we got there, sat and talked, and played with the dog. Walking home, spread out across the road, unhurried and unworried about any cars, it was a beautiful feeling. Somebody played music, some sort of soft rock, echoing in the background as we talked and laughed. Just thinking about it makes me nostalgic, because I know that once we all go off to college, it’ll never be the same. We’ll go off to our own lives, and forget everything. Our memories, our inside jokes, eachother. And that’s heartbreaking to me.
*gives hugs* it's ok, sometimes life doesn't go our way or turn out fine, and some people we knew may forget about us entirely, but that's ok, it's life. we just have to move on and learn from the past, and of course, cherish those memories.
Bro, they never have to leave you. I moved away from my best friends at the end of high school, and I'd thought it would be the end for us aswell. Well 2 years later, we did end up drifting apart, and I never stopped thinking about the time we all spent together, and I look back on it with such fondness. Well a further 2 years later (4 years at this point), we all link up again online. Still sharing the same jokes, still telling the same stories, only with some new ones we've made on our own. It's never too late to reconnect with someone you lose touch with. And these moments you're experiencing, they may be some of the fondest you'll have. But you should be 100% present in those moment, and not be worried about drifting apart. Each waking moment is the time of your life.
Thats simply not true. Its the 21st century, the only thing that can keep yourself and your friends away, are your friends and yourself. The tools are there, and maybe it isnt the same, talking over a phone, but it gets the job done, and it doesnt let that so loved friendship die. I thought the same when i ended up highschool and most of my friends went to another city, but there is always someone there for you, and when you less expect it, theyll be back, maybe because of holidays, maybe because it didnt work out for them, but they wont just disappear. If you truly care about them, and they do about you, its not going to happen.
I remember when I was younger this happened to me when my brother, his friend, and I were about to fall asleep in my brothers room late at night and I was sleeping by the window when I looked out. Everyone else fell asleep and it got quiet when I looked up to a whole set of summer stars and it was beautiful. I still remember how I felt in that moment and thought I was the only one who ever felt like that until now. It’s weird opening up like this for random people online but I hope someone reads this.
This comment section is like a support group. It’s good to open up, it’s good to share if you wish to. And you’ll find at least someone can relate to you somehow
Listening to this kind of music while reading this comment section is enough to keep someone going. I feel so intimate with all of you guys, it feels nice that somehow somewhere in this world there are people like me and you who feels the same way. Just a reminder that even though sometimes life doesn't make sense and you feel lost, just keep going. I wish I could hug you all.
it's 2:30am, i'm drunk, today i lost my beloved cat, she was with me for 17 years, i just can't, she didn't make it through the surgery, she had lyphoma, about 2 weeks ago her blood tests were great but 4 days ago she almost died from dehydration, looked very weak so i decided to immidietly take her to veterinary they did blood tests again and figured out she had leukocytosis, yesterday i took her for usg and they told me that her digestive system is not working without medications and drips, today they decided to operate her, she died right after cutting her stomach because her heart didn't make that, she was my best friend, i loved her very much, i really hope she's in better place now, shit. bro thank you for your channel, it's helping me with getting through this
Another weekend. Another night I see pictures of my friends that I have been talking to all week. They are going out having a good time. I’m not there, I wasn’t invited. Now I sit on my bed watch my show and go downstairs for food. I see my mom and my stepdad. I don’t think I like them. I realize I’m not hungry. Why did I come downstairs? I don’t know I pet my cat and go to my bed again. I’m sad. I go back downstairs. I say its for food but its an excuse I just want somebody to see that I’m alive this evening. I go to my sister’s room. Shes not there. I realize shes at a party with her friends as she always is. I go back in bed and find this video. I read a few comments one made me cry. It felt good I feel understood and not alone. I feel like expressing what I feel in a small little story. Hi this is me and I’m not alone just like you are not alone. Edit: thank you all so much for the kind messages i still read them everytime and they make me feel accepted. Update to my life if anyone was curious: I have distaced myself from my mother and I soon realized she was manipulating me in thinking ways I didn't want to think. I started to think more for myself and I was making my own decisions. After that I decided I wanted to take medication for my focussing problem. It is working to get my school grades back together and I'm regaining friends. We only hang out once every month, but because I also started streaming on twitch and get to talk to people there I don't really feel as lonely as I used to do. Still even after all that I keep this little story of me up, because whenever I feel down I read the comments and I feel a lot better again. If I can do it you can do it too! Be your own person.
@@マット無理 You're welcome. I get it, the internet sometimes it is a very scary place but don't worry, there will be someone out there willing to make you feel better or at least listen to you. Don't ever feel scared of draining away your sorrows, we can understand each other and work things out. There are billions of us out there, you got yourself a wonderful universe, so never feel alone. If you have Discord I can recommend you a nice server with others just like you and me.
@@sacredyveltal4688 Yes I have discord and i would love to be apart of the server you are talking sbout. I probably won't talk much, but reading other peoples stories and advises will already make a big change.
@@マット無理 here u go discordapp.com/invite/q93Thhc Oh, and don't worry about being not too active, sometimes is just fine being silent. Believe it or not, I'm one of them. (Here is my ID, btw Sacred Yveltal #5933 if you need anything, I got the same username as in YT)
This comment section is like a little town in a giant and dangerous world, none of us really live here, we just pass through and tell each other our stories. There's no judgment between us, just a silent understanding we all share as we sit around a fire. Eventually the time comes to move on, we adjust our backpacks, gather our things, say goodbye while hoping to meet again sometime and continue on with our adventure. Edit: Thanks for all the heartwarming comments, I come back here every once in a while and you never cease to put a smile on my face. Thank you.
I'm sure one day I'll come back here, in this calm place, in weeks, months, maybe years. My backpack will be all dusty from the long journey, heavy on my back. My legs will be so tired, they have walked so much, brought me to so many places. My eyes will be tired too, they have seen so many things, so many different faces that melt in one cloudy figure, not all of them though, some will be clear in my memories. It will be night, the stars will be so bright and the moon so high in the sky. I'll be really tired, only inertia keeping me going. And Right when I'll feel i can't go any further I'll see it again. That familiar light, the place i once felt home for awhile, where i heard so many stories of people like me. I'll sit next to the fire, take my backpack off and listen to all the stories of other travellers like me, staring at the fire, feeling its relaxing wormth, feeling home. I'll wait there, listening to this playlist, till I'll decide to tell my story. When I will my backpack will be so much lighter i think and I'll be ready to get back up and go back to the adventure called life, hoping I'll come back here yet one more time. Till then, farewell
Silvio Berlusconi I don't know the nature of humans but based if the other comments most of the people here are going through a rough time so I just wanted to write something that might cheer somebody up
Do you ever just get to a point where all of this shit feels normal? Like when the lonely turns to sadness, sadness turns to numbness, the numbness turns to normal, and normal is “ok”?
@@shawnmendrek3544 im not gonna make you a stupid promise of you life being amazing. But i can say this. Life is suffering, you Will be the happiest person on earth one day and you will be the saddest. Its Just the way things are. I have been in absolute Madness, absolute misery in my mind. But i managed to turn stuff around and now a few years later things are okay, not great, not horrible. Enough to be glad to be alive.
I think what I miss the most is feeling safe. It seems the majority of the people here are posting inside of their late teens, at the teetering point of losing their youth and becoming adults. Let me tell you, do not let go of that feeling. Let it engulf you and never forget it. It won’t last forever. I’m laying in bed at nearly 28 years old next to my incredible girlfriend of 3yrs, happy and in love, yet haven’t been able to feel as safe and free and happy the way I did back then. You don’t realize the adults telling you that you’re living out the best years of your life are 350% correct until you wake up at the end of your fleeting 20s and see your parents getting old, your old friends getting married and having their own kids living their own lives, and you may be in just as good of a place but the fact is it’s SCARY if you slow down and look at it for a second. This life thing doesn’t stop until it does, and I just pray that by the time I get there I’m comfortable enough with my choices to be able to let it go and return to the void…not that I’ll have a choice. I’m rambling now, but be good to yourself because what you’re feeling now may never come again. Embrace it. All of the emotions and sensations and challenges and blessings of growing up. It’s a cold scary world out there. All of us in this comments section know this. We may never cross paths but I’ll be looking for each and every one of you in the warm smile shared with a stranger. Be good to yourselves. Be good to eachother. We’re all we’ve got. See you out there.
A truly inspiring message and as a 16 year old this is how I have tried to live my life and appreciate everything that I have. Sometimes it's hard to remember how blessed I am but it's comments like this that tell me I'm not alone in feeling that way. It seems fated that I read this given the day I have had. Thank you
I can tell by your writing you have a deep heart. This world has a way of opening itself in unique ways to deep hearts. You’re not insignificant. I can’t say why. It’s a gut feeling.
UA-cam Recommendations really out did itself this time, it is exactly one of those nights. I'm laying in bed right now, and this is exactly what i needed.
Whenever I have one of those nights I always want to go outside and watch the stars but my parents lock all the doors and put alarms on them so I’m stuck inside
@@sexygolfball69 sadly my friends arent that kind of people whenever im drunk i just look at the stars but they... they dont care what goes on around them. Perhaps they do and they try to not think about it...maybe that means that they are stronger than i am.
I've done it. I've found a small pocket of the internet where things are ok. A small pocket where no one is at each other's throats, no one is being angry at someone else. It's truly a wonderful little place this comment section is. In a world full of hatred and suffering, it's important to find some tranquility. Thank you for these wonderful minutes of inner peace and reverence
I wish many things but if I could make one of those come true then it would be that people are friendly to everyone even strangers. Is that really to much to ask for?
During the hot summer nights when I couldn't sleep, I used to lay in the grass and watch the stars with my dog. He passed away a few years ago. I still miss him. He was my boy, my little wolf. There's a special song I used to softly whistle to him when he was a puppy. When he got older, it didn't matter how far away he was, when I whistled that song he always came running as fast as he could. Sometimes I whistle that song outside when I'm alone. Nothing makes me miss him more than hearing it echo and fade into silence rather than hearing it followed by barking and rustling grass. I miss you, Ranger. I hope we can meet again someday.
It is one of those night isnt it, the night when we just stare into the sky at night in a dark room, in absolute silence. Alone with our thought and in our own mind, lonely and yet it also oddly comforting and calming. I often do it when im feel tired or just somewhat lost, and this just resonate with me with that vibe. I really enjoy comfy place like this on yt, with the comments sharing their own story. Reading them while listening to music is amazing, especially when it at night and the lights are off.
Is this what happiness is?... I have a home, I have a family, I have friends. Yet, deep inside, I feel empty. As if, my soul has left by body - Perhaps, I never had a soul in the first place. I might get a job. I might not. I might get married. I might not. I might get kids. I might not. I can feel the best feelings and experience the best experiences, but what does it matter? At the end of life, my memories won't be anything. At the end of time, nothing will be. The night wraps its hands around me, like a Reaper hearing a being's last words. My body yearns for sleep. Yet, my brain screams in agony. A million lives have been, just like mine. Sleep, work, eat. A mind feels directionless these principles are broken - We weren't created to think. Nothing has ever realized it exists, except we. But at the end of time, nothing will be. And nothing will have been. Our fate is sealed in the darkest corner of the Universe. My thoughts dissipate. Another day ends.
I really feel like my soul is going out of my body and it's observing the Earth from space knowing that humans will always be like that, but in the end there will just be an eternal silence
I feel the same way. Every night I have this void inside of me like I feel nothing and at the same time everything. I've been trying to make sense of what could possibly be the essence of life, what my purpose really is. I become wary and anxious because up to this time I don't know. Is finishing college enough then what? Is being married and having children eenough then what? What does it really mean to be happy.
@@dddd-uk4vn that might be true, but humans are becoming too smart to believe in something like a god. Its an old concept and just dosent hold up anymore.
I’m sitting on the roof of an abandoned Papa Johns pizza house right now, in the middle of rural Mississippi, there’s a full moon out, and the wind is moving the clouds by fast, and it appears as if the moon is flickering, waving to me. To really show me that the universe is of an infinite scale, and that we’re all just specks of dust, drifting in the cosmic breeze of the abyss, I ponder why we exist, why we were Created. I come back to my senses and as I open this bottle of whiskey I brought with me, I feel as if I’m truly free, with nothing holding me back. I will stay here on top of this Papa Johns for a while, and I would like to say one thing to you, the phrase of a man I dearly love, “Better ingredients, better pizza”
There was a moment in time where I was helping my best friend move across the country. We drove through 9 different states. It was the most exhilarating week of my life. Those moments we drove through the night in the hills with nothing but the stars surrounding us, through two lane roads with beautiful trees on both sides of us, on single lane roads while it was raining. Seeing him sleep in the passenger seat with playlists like this one playing. It was beautiful. I wish I could do it again.
Yes,but it's scary that all those sad people are everyone,the people who u talk to daily,the people u may judge,the people who u think are just basic or annoying or bullies cuz of the way they act But inside there is so much sadness to be unpacked..
I used to go out and have a smoke secretly at three a.m. a few years back, listening to music like this, crying, shaking, and begging to the stars to take me to another world where my life was meaningful, magical, interesting, painful in a different kind of way from... here. I remember waiting for an adventure to come, and at the same time locking myself in my house. I never knew secret places, or saw the city at night. I didn't even go to parties or tried alcohol until 22. I wanted lightning to hit me so that I would have a superpower, or to wake up one day with a new special magic awakening, or for anything to pull me out of the ordinary and into a world of discovery. I still feel like it sometimes. Like I belong some place else, and I was washed away in this pointless world accidentally. Like somewhere in the multiverse, the version of me who was supposed to be in this world, is terrified out of her mind, completely secluded from a reality where adventure comes daily, and trying times are just too much for her to handle, while I am here doing the same for different reasons. I'm 25 and waiting for my life to start. Everyone says it's a long time coming, but I just don't see my journey starting anytime soon. Edit: 5 months later. I hear you all, I see you all. I love that we're all together in drifting through life. Recently I've started to go out and look for adventures in this reality, and I'm very glad to say it works. I've presented my paintings in a gallery, as I dreamed when I was a kid, I've traveled to places I didn't know before, far from my hometown, I'm finding adventures, and adventures are finally welcoming me with open arms. If you read this and felt like you're also waiting for your life to start, this is your wake up call. This universe, this planet, this life, is already gargantuan. Life is waiting for you, out there, not in here.
A harsh but possibly sobering truth: your life already has started. If you don’t feel like you’re in the place you’re supposed to be, the only way out of it is by doing it yourself. It’s tough, I know. I’m still struggling and afraid I won’t be able to do this for the rest of my life, but in a few years you might be surprised with how far you’ve come. And adventure is something you find. I used to go on an adventure almost every weekend. I would grab my moped and just drive as far as I could in a certain direction just to see what was there. I enjoyed the scenery and serenity of traveling alone. But the truth is, there’s nothing adventurous about it. A lot of other people were on the same road just to go to work, do groceries or that kind of stuff. It was an adventure for me because I surrendered myself to the unknown and appreciated all the little details I came across. Adventure is not something far away, it’s more of a mindset. Because the second I thought: I could be doing something productive, the adventure was over. Try making everyday things an adventure. Take a detour when leaving from work and explore other neighborhoods, go grocery shopping in a store you’ve never been to because it’s too far away, try new food, enjoy nature. The littlest things can be an adventure if you have an adventurous mindset
Currently listening to this the night after my last day of highschool I was once quite sad about the fact that my 12 years of school was coming to a conclusion and it felt like time was moving too fast for me to handle. I grew depressed thinking about the life that I lived and how uncertain everything was and still is. And while I am still sad about the fact that I'll never be in a classroom again with my friends and classmates, that I'll never again live in that repetitive yet safe and comforting bubble, and that I'll never be a kid again, I'm also kinda proud of myself. It's been a long journey with bumps, bruises, heartbreak and setbacks. But through it all I still kept my head high and survived every day of it. Yes I miss my childhood and I'd give ANYTHING to go back. But I've come to peace with the reality that time keeps moving forward, even when we don't want to. I can only hope for the best for my friends and everyone reading this post. To wherever the next day takes us, may we never forget to love ourselves above all else♥️.
I was never one who liked school but when it ended it was crazy to think wow I’ll never be able to mess around and piss off the teachers at lunch times anymore, it’s an adjustment but consider it the next exciting step, yes I miss it but the freedom you have as an adult is great!
Hey this might not mean much to you yet, but I was in the same position as you two years ago. I believed I left my happiest, lightest years behind me, but these past two years have been the best of my life. Leaving school means becoming an adult, becoming the person who controls yourself, being whoever you want. I moved out to my dream city, I studied, I learned, I partied, met new people, fell in love, traveled. You have the best years of your life ahead of you. I wish you all the best!
I had something similar to that feeling just last week, It finally snowed this year, and I was spending it outside with my dog, We went to the edge of my yard, as the sun was going down and my dad was making his special dinner - gumbo. My dog looked alert and bolted into the woods, as I followed behind. I wandered through the woods looking for my dog, and I stumbled across a clear hill. I found her, and tried getting her to turn back home. As I did this, I went to the top of a hill, as I knew that was the way home. And as I watched the sun set with my childhood dog, I remembered a lot of old things Family that passed The joys and innocence of childhood Where I’ll go after high school And what will happen I then walked back home, and could smell that dinner was ready, I took my seat at the table I started to eat my bowl of gumbo, feeling nice in my cold belly. I just wanted to live in the moment, as I had most of my family there with me. I gave my dog some extra food because of the run we had. Dinner was nice, but dad had something to tell us. He was thinking of getting a new house and selling his current one, my childhood house. I was silent for the rest of the night. Another time I was with my grandpa, and we hiked to the top of a hill in fall, and I remember just looking over the hill and seeing all the orange trees swaying in the wind, feeling at peace with one of my favorite people Thanks for making this, and thank you for coming to my TED talk
I normally don't reply to comments. God, I felt this so fucking hard though. I miss my childhood home more than anything and I wish I could go back to the blissful wonderland that was being young.
my dog just died this reminds me of him, thanks I guess? Idk what to feel... I guess I won’t for now... that was a nice reminder of the good old days though.
Its all peace and good times until the wind and the cold of the night comes and also when you cannot be stand up because there are people on the street (sometimes drunk) and you cant leave the roof to not look like a thief and you have to stay with the cold and think for yourself...."here go again...it is one of those nights"
To everyone is this sea of comments, you matter, and I believe in you. I understand that sometimes everything around you seems to crumble. I understand that sometimes it hurts to breathe. I understand that sometimes it feels like everything it weighing down on you. I understand that sometimes you are overwhelmed by the bumps and cracks in this broken road. I want you to know that you are never alone in your struggles, and that there will always be someone cheering you on. These problems we experience are only temporary, and whether it be tomorrow, a week from now, or even in a month, you will feel the sunshine again. You woke up today for a reason, and that reason is life. You are meant to be here, and you have so much purpose. Never stop pushing forwards, don't waste a single moment of life, because it is precious, and preciously ephemeral. To you, the individual who has read this, you are loved. I believe in you, never stop fighting. - a stranger, and a friend
Pechi22 I’m so glad I did, and whomever you may be, I wish you a long and healthy life filled with happiness and prosperity. You’ll find your way, just hang in there and keep smiling. Much love :) 💕
It feels like I've awoken from a months long slumber simply numbing my thoughts and feelings through endless scrolling and escaping life. I am back to the soul soothing part of the internet. Simply sitting in my kitchen and eating some leftover delivery. It's 5 AM and I'm about to head out to a job interview. After recovering from the previous one which left me empty and tired. This gives me time to reflect. Understand myself and others. No wonder I prefer this time of the day with how peaceful it is.
Listening to this playlist, I just want to go outside, somewhere where there's no buildings just nature, put my headphones on with this playing, lay down, and just look up at the beautiful night. Even if there's no stars, just the clouds or just the clear night sky. Feel the wind, listen to the music and enjoy the moment.
I would definitely do it, but it's - 20C, cuz I live in freakin' Russia. These nights I want to go somewhere very very far or fall asleep and don't wake up, one of the two.
You should go on a cruise ship. The ocean is the most beautiful place to do it. I wish I had this playlist with the beautiful dark night mixed with the endless sky and vast unknown ocean. Watching the waves crash into this huge ship that seemlessly kept moving forward. I'm telling you at night time just leaning over the railings and even being at the tallest part of the ship at night. I never felt so fucking alive. Come back to this comment one day. I hope you do it. May your dreams come true.
michael canal no no...a nice meadow, over a field and across the dirt road, over the little stone wall that's falling apart, through the small copse of trees and to the meadow with the oaken tree in one corner...just lie down in the meadow and listen to the nights sounds and look at the stars.
sometimes night like these are bad, really bad. sometimes they hurt so much. but sometimes these nights are good, they’re exactly what we need. we need a good cry, a good outlet, it’s to help is grow.
Exactly. Just a few days ago my family was asleep and i just listened to the music in minecraft while i played alone...i started to cry...i was sad and happy
You're so right. I broke up with my girlfriend tonight, this came up in my recommendations, and I cried to it. This hit me in a way nothing has in a long, long time. This night was bad, terrible in fact, but this helped me reflect and get over what happened. I feel just a little bit better now :)
I really hope everyone who wants to stargaze gets the opportunity to. I live in the forest, 20 miles from one city and 60 miles from the next, so I’m lucky enough to see the stars each night, the whole Milky Way, and I wish I could just share that with everyone
I don't stargaze enough ever since I left home and I miss it. Listening to this mix just brings back memories of sitting outside on a cool summers night and just watching the sky above. Admiring it's beauty, feeling awe at its incomprehensible vastness, knowing how incredibly lucky we are to allow the universe to view itself. An experience of a profound inner peace that I have not felt in a while since. I wonder if this is what our ancestors felt as they stared upwards. Not enough people seem to do it nowadays.
Zade Johnston there’s nothing quite like staring into deep space, it’s definitely a magical thing that you’ll always remember Hope you get to see them again soon 🌙
@@Jujuoak thank you. I'm sorry for the paragraph, something about the late night, the music and your comment just made me want to say it. Enjoy your view 😊
Early 2020 vibes. I remember listening to this almost every night while I was in one of the worst living situations of my life. So much has happened since then, so much has changed. I've made friends, lost them, formed new interests, moved on from them, had highs and lows, learned new things about myself, about the world, grown up, and 4 years later it's another one of those nights. I returned to this video to listen again, and to say thank you to whoever made this video, it means a lot to me.
one night, so many nights ago, i was chilling with a friend in a sofa. we were sooo high it felt it was the very last night of our lives... i then just wanted to play some music for the moment and this was what i first saw. we then just, idk bro, i really dont know how to describe it. the first fucking seconds of it got us both paralized. i then put my head on his shoulder and he put his head on mines, and we just, stay there, living the moment. i remember imagining so many scenarios while the music flowed... one of them i remember was like a cold sound, so white and silent, sigilous. the other one was yellow/green, warm, it was like a hug from long time no see. then the red flowers and the blood all at once... and then the last thing i remember before falling deeply asleep is me reading the title of the vid and repeting "do not forget the name, please, do not forget the name of the vid", but i sadly forgot... i really dont know how this was on a list in my recommendations now, and it sounded weird that it was a 30min vid long and couldnt just recall what was about, so i just clicked it... my god, the first notes, those goosebumbs, this is it, this is the vid, these are the songs from that night. i cant explain what im feeling right now. and if you are wondering, i am not longer friend of the person who i shared that moment with that night, so this is a gift for the heart mind body and soul. thank you for reading and pardon my english
Your message has good intentions but from my life experience things just fall apart more with time and it seems my existence is being this monolithic isolated person stuck in a loop of despair. I have lived a ton of experiences. Lost my brother which is so massively painful. Blah blah blah. I have found a lot in life but i spend more time searching more than finding and when you do find it doesnt last. I hate woe is me types- but this is reality here. I dont just sit and rot. I dont live life on the bleachers speculating like a lot do, Im not a defeatist (hate that mentality) and yet still Im alone. ANd yes i can attract people but the world has changed massively in the past 15 years. "oh its just meant to be " Is a cop out. So im just meant to be alone and keep trying? Whats the definition of insanity again?
Hey @Dystopia, sorry to hear that things have been going crappy for a while, but you sound like someone with quite a resilient spirit! I hope that something long lasting finds you, but if not, perhaps you can find life in knowing that you've handled everything that's come your way and you can probably handle anything that's still to come
Me neither. I empathize with people as far as to feel the exact same pain as them even though it never happened to me. But I can imagine these occurrences so vividly as to act like I’ve experienced them. It’s complicated
10-20 thousand years ago our ancestors had hard lives, but they didn't expect as much in life and they didn't concern themselves with what other people were doing... they lived in their small groups, they struggled, but they struggled for themselves and they were truly free. They saw some of the most amazing things to ever exist on this planet that are nothing but dust now. The world was an endless, untouched canvas, and the stars were undimmed. I feel like every night was one of those nights then. We've traded true freedom for relative comfort and entertainment via unfulfilling work, destroying that beautiful canvas, and constant stress because of the greed, violence and controlling nature of others. And yet, the truth shows through us, because we still yearn for that clear skied and starry with a chill in the air night, just beckoning us to peer into the wondrous, terrible, unfathomable dark and feel the universe move before we return to the ring of light around the fire
I was once homeless in the winter and one of the best days of my life was spent with this older woman in her 50s, and 2 older men sitting on a bench outside of a laundry mat all day. It was cold but the sun peeked out, a random woman bought us subs for lunch(my fav) and we had enough coins for ginger ale in the laundry mat vending machine. We just sat and laughed about random things all day long. It was peaceful and for once I had nothing to worry about. Not family, not bills, not anything. We just laughed and laughed. I was 25. I’m 29 now in a different state, living in my own house with a successful career. She’s dead. I don’t know what happened to the two guys. I have everything to worry about. Is it strange to say I miss it? Not being homeless or poor exactly. Just the freedom, the laughter, the peace. It was the best day of my life
treasuring memories from hurtful times will always be okay, it's those little sparks that keeps us jumping from point a to point b in life, hope everything goes well with you.
I used to be really stressed about life in general until I realised I could just hang every stress I have on god, he carries me anyways, why should I carry that stress too? I just trust him with all my heart and everything is going great, even in the pandemic time where income is really low
It was one of those nights. Walked out into my school's courtyard after showing new parents around the school. Warm air, 8 pm, June. The clouds were floating with no remorse of existence. The day was tiring. Exhausting. Draining. But when I walked out of the cold, menacing corridor into the fresh, still air, I felt the most content I have been in a while. Teenagers. Laughing, giggling, talking freely to their friends on benches. I walk up to my friends, who are all worry free. They are playing songs on the guitar and singing quietly. I join in. Dare I say it was the most peaceful I have ever been. It was quiet. Still. Yet lively. Something inside me clicked and I turned off. I became myself. For that hour. I became more myself than I have ever been. You could touch the sky. Feel the clouds. Everything was like in a Polaroid. Those ones that you see on Pinterest, just to realise that surely can never be you. But it was. For those moments it was me. It was us. And let me tell you. I was happy.
Since people are telling their stories, here's mine.. I'm 25 and never had a girlfriend, figured I was too ugly and awkward for it or something... I made my peace with being alone forever until one day at work a beautiful girl became my colleague. Not even entertaining the thought of me having a chance I didn't even try to flirt or something, that was until she started flirting with me. At first I couldn't believe it, who in their right mind would be interested in me? I was overjoyed and started talking more and more with her. We shared a lot of interests and she was a real chill person. After a while we went for some drinks one night and the evening was awesome. We talked and talked and we both really liked eachother, she touched my arm and I told her how cute she was when trying to act tough. At the end of the evening we were walking together to my bike, where she looked to me, I don't know if it was my lack of experience of awkwardness.. but I didnt kiss her but I know I should have. We went to the movies a week later but she wasn't as close anymore and nothing important happened that evening. She invited me to watch a movie at her house, but when I tried to sit closer to her she said she didn't like to be touched/to touch others so I saw that as a rejection. Then, a few weeks later we were walking when she said we were just friends and my heart just cracked, all my hopes gone. After that she still texted me a lot and we talked a lot at work but it was not the same and now she doesn't even text anymore, I asked her to go out for some ice cream so I could tell her in private how I felt since I never actually said it but she said she was busy. She makes me happy just looking at her but at the same time it hurts me knowing that we won't be together even though I had a chance but I blew it. I just hope the loneliness just numbs away again like it did for me most of my life.
I’m genuinely sorry, I’m only 15 but I did a similar thing to a boy as the girl in your story did to you. I felt awful because he told me he liked me about a week after I realized I didn’t like him like that. But he is worthy of love, and so are you.
*The hard part is on one of these nights, you want to have someone to talk to about how you're feeling, and just reminisce on the events of the day, but there's no one there for you to talk to and you're left with no one to love you in the moment except yourself. This feeling of loneliness leaves me sad, knowing that I am the only one who understands what I'm feeling in the moment.* I made the above comment last year, but as I've grown and changed as a person, I still get the same "one of those nights" feeling every now and then. It made me realize that maybe no matter where you are in life, no matter who you are as a person, you still might end up experiencing this feeling from time to time. I still have yet to find a word for the feeling you get on "one of those nights", and I can imagine that a lot of you feel the same way. In the end, maybe it doesn't even matter that we don't have a word for these nights, anyway. After all, we're just here to reminisce with ourselves. And so, in the light of that, I want to say that I am glad to have shared this moment with whoever might be reading this right now. I don't know you, hell, maybe I do, but for this short period of time, our minds have connected through this video. We're both feeling that same sense of the unexplained "one of those nights" together, and I'm glad to have that. I'm glad you're here experiencing it too, and I hope to see you again next time. To whoever might be reading this, just know that tomorrow will treat you well. Farewell and good luck. I'll see you next time, friend.
I understand this feeling completely.. yeah you've got friends and yes they care about you.. but that feeling of wanting to get texted first or actually have someone miss you is gut wrenching.. you just wish somebody could care about you as much as you do about then.. and when they don't, you realise you've got to look after yourself.. put yourself first and always make sure you're number 1 for you.. that's why it's so hard but also so easy to let people in to all the complicated parts about you.. you're afraid you'll share too much and they won't understand and if they did understand, would they care enough to stick around.. Thank you for this moment I got to share with you across the internet and actions the world to wherever you might be.. And to whoever else feels this as well, you know you're not alone.. we're all there together, in some strange and wonderful way :)
i know a place where you can talk and with the right group of people they will listen, relate and share their own thoughts but never say anything negative. i have witnessed this sense of safety and freedom to talk about whatever is going on and not get criticized or talked down. It is a wonderful experience and its a game called vrchat, kinda like discord but more open and more social. though there are toxic people there will always be light at the end of the tunnel.
The photo is nostalgic, the music too. I can't believe I'm here on this earth, I can't believe I wasted so much time feeling sad. I wish I could just feel that happiness again
I spent the majority of my teenage years wishing I was dead, and even almost went through with ending it a few times. I'm so glad I didn't. I can never get that time back, but we can use the time we have now to do what makes us happy. Even if everything seems dark, there's always a light. Keep walking, keep breathing, keep living, and one day you will find it. It's faint, but I can see my light now -- Stay strong.
After twelve years in and out of treatment, numerous medications, hiding away and wanting to die, I finally found a program that is working for me. The fog is lifting, the darkness is fading, the tools are working. Don't give up. Keep trying. Do what ever you need to do to get yourself to a good place. You can't go back to where you were, but that doesn't mean you can't find happiness again ❤
"It is a terrible thing to learn as a child that one is a being separate from the world, that no one and no thing hurts along with one's burned tongues and skinned knees, that one's aches and pains are all one’s own. Even more terrible, as we grow old, to learn that no person, no matter how beloved, can ever truly understand us. Our own selves make us most unhappy, and that's why we're so anxious to lose them, don't you think?" Donna Tartt, The Secret History
Riana Flores my ex gf gave me that book. I still have yet to read it. I can see now I need to as that statement is far too true. We are all truly alone aren’t we?
@@hazard1233 Hello! How are you? Have you read the book yet? And if so, what can you say about it? Sorry for the very late reply! And yes, i think no matter how much we are surrounded by people, we find ourselves still alone.
Riana Flores lol it’s okay that it’s late, I reorganized my room and only just found it recently, I plan to get back to reading it (I barely started it tbh) as soon as I’m done with my newest school project. I did, however, like what I read so far
It was mid-summer when my friend and I decided we wanted to go stargazing. Our other friends laughed at the idea of it - they thought it was childish. We had no idea where we were going, we were just driving away. We turned up the music up and watched as the roads got narrower, the street lights became dimmer, and everything became stiller. We parked at the side of a road and switched the car engine off. It was pitch dark and suddenly silent. The first step out the car was intimidating - almost as if something bad was bound to happen. But nothing happened; it was simply peaceful. In the far distance we could see the city light illuminating the sky. We lied down in the middle of the road, despite our instincts telling us otherwise. We looked up and just opened our eyes to see thousands of burning balls of fire flashing their beauty. I had never seen so many stars before. Dare I say, it was magical.
That gotta be so cool and peaceful. I use to get out of home during nights especially when it rains, and sometimes, after everyone got home after a evening spent together with friends, I randomly feel sad and lonely. So I get in a random field so that I can get as far as possible from lights and then start watching the starry sky. It was at the start of september when a bunch of people asked me to get to some sort of evening party to eat together. After it we just started wandering around in the city. I live near the mountains, so we got to a castle on the side of a mountain, not too far from town. At some point me and a friend decided we wanted to get back down before the others so we started running in the dark. At some point he asked me to put on an old song we used to play at the start of summer 2017: Comptine d'un autrè ètè, Gioli Remix. It's really peaceful and restores your will to live. We decided we wanted to lie on the middle of the road the exact same way you did with your friend. Who would ever come on this mountain road that takes your nowhere at this time of the night? No one, we thought, so we were just waiting for the others to come with torches to see in the dark. After a while we had been waiting, we did see lights. They were only two, tho. And they were really bright. It was a car. I just screamed "HEY, GET UP YOU IDIOT, IT'S A CAR!" And when the car went away we just started laughing like idiots and we enjoyed every bit of it. I can say it was such a good time, for the short time it lasted.
@@flowerslovers5793 hehe, thank you. I consider this a nice goal since english is not my main language. Imagine driving your car down a lonely road and seeing these two guys lying in front of you. You'd never trust darkness again. In fact, that driver took some seconds before driving away, while I was telling him that there was no one else on the road. It was kinda embarrassing, I must say. But it was worth the moment.
I just love when people are just being humans. No judgements No motives no games no bad intentions nothing but understanding and love. I think thats what they meant when they said that "humans are social animals." I just love when humans think beyond themselves and selflessly exist. I mean just look at the smile of a person who just helped someone. Its even brighter than the one who they helped. Thats how everyone of us is feeling after reading the comments section. As if we are there for each other, even if for the brief period of time. The feeling of understanding someone and just knowing that we are there for them is in itself a beautiful feeling and thats why this comments section is so heartwarming. Its a proof that we humans have a heart. Just a beautiful reminder aint it?
Everyone has had one of those nights. I wouldn't say they're depressing in and of themselves but rather, overwhelming and... existential? A night of thinking, a night of pondering. You let your thoughts and imagination run haywire, in the end you're nothing but a passenger. They have no pattern, come at seemingly random and they're irrational and erratic, there's beauty in that. Beautiful, those nights.
Very beautiful, I hope you have a wonderful life fellow human! I'm so happy we all feel similar emotions and have similar thoughts. We all give each other warmth and comfort through our human spirit
Yeah it's wild. I honestly love those nights and everytime they happen i just drop everything and enjoy them. It feels like every song i listen to has an echo i never noticed before, and i can just sit there and listen to them for the rest of the night.
It’s unique to everyone but everybody knows what ‘one of those nights’ is, it’s a lovely shared experience that changes from person to person, and I hope your those nights you have will be better soon!
I feel like I’m always trying to chase that feeling. Especially on nights when I’m writing or drawing, I find that it’s a huge source of inspiration for me
I remember visiting the ocean once, standing alone on the pier, gazing up at the stars. The moon hung just above the ocean, the stars bright, the night sky reflecting off the waves, dancing in a blurry image of the sky, the gentle sound of crashing waves and the soft, October breeze blowing in my hair. It was so pretty, and I felt alone, but not sad. The beautiful image felt like it was mine and mine alone to enjoy, and I felt greatful for whatever had created something so beautiful, and for the gift of being able to experience it. That was a special night.
I commented once but then a song really hit me and reminded me of a memory.. I snuck out when I was 17 to go “hook up” with a girl. We watched the stars until 4am and then went home. We didn’t kiss, but we fell in love. It’s been 8 years and we’re engaged now. This playlist reminds me of that night.
You truly need to feel really proud for the fact that you've created a playlist for that moments in our lives where we feel the most raw and deep as human beings.
I loved this girl. She brought me joy, tears, memories, and eventually heart break. She was one the only girls to ever meet me parents (I usually brought home troublesome girls who I was with the night before). I went to her house one night, we got high, we laughed, watched movies, and eventually she told me she had feelings for me. I held onto her tight. I never wanted to let go. That night replays in my head over and over again, wishing I could go back to it. We moved things slow. She was house sitting one night for a family friend, so I went and gave her company. She met my parents that night. We watched That 70's Show, I cooked for her, it was magical. Like I said, we moved things slow, so when I left, we had our first kiss. It was angelic. I went home, said goodnight to her, and fell asleep. I woke up at 2am to find she was throwing a party. I called her over and over again, but when the phone finally answered, it wasnt her. "Yeah, shes busy with Andrew. Locked the door haha sorry mate". I cried myself to sleep. I cried for days on end, wondering what was wrong with me. I started to write songs about her, I started to get more and more into music, but also drugs. Its funny to think she left a long time ago but is still killing me slowly.
Horky hey, i don’t know if thisll help, but I’ll write it anyway. if this seems abrupt, it probably is: forget her. she has to live every day remembering how she dropped you and tore you apart, and if she doesn’t, there’s a god that she’ll have to answer to; and she will be silent before him. it isn’t obvious to your eyes, but you didn’t go in the wrong. she abandoned you after you gave yourself to her, and it’s horrific that she would just, forget. i hope that this helps you in some way, and if you want to talk, or anything else, there’s many routes to take, and id be happy to be one. if you read this, stick around. you’ll find a way out. stay safe. ❤️
maybe she wanted more...lust..maybe she wanted to move faster, maybe things werent right with her and she needed attention immediately. some people are like that. others just dont care and do whatever. but thats okay because future you would be happy youre still here, future you would be married with kids maybe even. you would have met your soulmate and have lived such a happy, great life that your last words would be "thank you" ty to your parents for bringing you into this earth. ty for all the memories you made w people. and most importantly, ty to that girl who broke your heart because she taught you how to move on from heart breka and heart ache. so move on. forget her. because there is someone out there waiting for your love ❤
Horky You’ve got your whole life ahead of you homie, just keep looking forward❤️ Those feelings of betrayal and hurt sting like a bitch, but experiencing them helps you grow as a person. I was in an abusive relationship for a long time and it was hell, but it’s the lessons you learn from bad relationships that help guide you towards one that will last
We’re all bound for it, friend. We’re all heading home. It shifts away under us while we sleep, but every morning we dust ourselves off and go after it again.
maybe you are stargazing maybe you just came back home from a late-night party, maybe your parents aren't home and you are about to go to sleep alone, maybe you are coming back from watching a movie at the theatre, maybe you've come back from a long vacation and the realization hits you that you have to go back to reality, maybe it's a Sunday before you have work or school the next day, maybe you have lost someone or something you have loved... this music describes the night that follows the events or situations that have just occurred....
How lucky we are to have such beautiful materpieces under the touch of our fingers, no need to go somewhere, pay someone to witness them, just a click is enough A blessed reality I live in
There's this famous latin saying that really gets me recently. "Per aspera, ad astra." means "Through hardships, to the stars." It makes me feel better, and think that everything will be better at the end of the day. We're all struggling in some degree. But we can get past this. We can achieve what we want.
i know this comment will likely get lost among a sea of comments but i wanted to say. i’m such a sucker for little things in life. the stars on a clear night, driving around on a summer night, walking on the beach, sunrises/sunsets, my little sisters smile, my moms hugs
Ur the one who enjoys more than many if u keep enjoying of little things. While Im righting this Im crying cz u know Im tired of thinking of everything, and while Im just 20 lose my hair and all I remember of last 2 years is sadness cz I seaked for it. Almost all of people tell me Im like 30 years old men. Im sick of beeing old. Enjoying of lil thinks lets u remember happiness and thats what keeps u alive :'( enjoy anything cz realy there is nothing that can realy end by thinking. Now I feel like walking makes me enjoy so much. Guess wrote a letter lol enjoy ur life
I used to be like that. I dont know, things in my life changed. I am lucky to have a good life and im still happy with my life, but its not like before. I cant really experience those moments anymore. I sometimes get close though, so hopefully i will get them back one day. Maybe im just trying too hard. Hope y'all are having one of those nights right now and inner peace
I was diagnosed with Anxiety and Depression due to trauma from my childhood. Recently, everything has been coming back and my whole world has been flipped upside down. Tonight was one of those nights where I felt like ending it. But I stumbled upon this playlist, and the comment section. And my night changed into a different definition of "one of those nights". In a good way. Whoever posted this, I would like to say thank you. You saved me.
I had a shit childhood too,well still but i just try to talk to people and open up it makes me feel like im not alone in this shit situation,its nice and i kinda feel happy knowing im not alone.
i struggled with depression for many years. i still feel depressed sometimes, but life is a lot better! and that is something i never thought i’d say. there is hope. there is no secret of how to cure depression. it is simply a habit of changing your mindset slowly. in the morning when you wake up, instead of thinking “today is already horrible,” “i want to go back to bed,” “i want to die,” etc., force yourself (and i mean FORCE yourself) to think only positive things like “today is already a good day,” “i am excited for today,” “i want to do so many things today,” etc. basically have an incredibly optimistic conversation with yourself in the morning. like you are talking to a child. not in an over exaggerated way, but in a reassuring way. it’s not easy at first because depression makes it so you only ever want to think negatively about everything, but overtime it becomes routine. you start to believe your thoughts. some people call it ‘the law of attraction.’ it may not work for everyone for different reasons, but i encourage anyone reading this to give it a try. but regardless of your mindset, your feelings are valid always. if you ever need someone to talk to, my instagram is @jaylee.parker. anyone who reads this can message me at any time. i don’t care how old this comment is. i will always be someone you can talk to.
I've been drawing while listening to these kinds of playlists on UA-cam and they've really helped me get in the mood when making dark post-apocalyptic scifantasy content. I also just started reading the comments and... goddamn... This place seems to have become something quite special, and I'm glad I happened upon it.
We read this comment with my friend Batu two months ago. It was a bad day for both of us. No matter what, we were saying everything will be fine. Now she is far away. Very sad for me. I miss her so much
I have cancer and I'm going to die one of these days, but hey, you said everything will be fine, it was as simple as saying that everything will be okay.
Since others are sharing stories I'll share mine. My life is boring. I have amazing parents and love most of my siblings. But its nights like these that I wish I was okay. I've been suicidal since the age of eleven. With many failed attempts, and the fact I was never hospitalized I felt like it was all in my head and that I should just get over it. Although life sucked, I was somehow making it through. Then it got worse. At the prime age of 16 and not even halfway through highschool I got sick. Soon I was diagnosed with a chronic illness that cant be cured. I wouldnt die from it but it affects my life everyday. I wish to be like a normal kid again. I wish my childhood wasnt taken from me. I always had medical problems. Scoliosis, asthma, a knee issue, etc. I could deal with those. But then I was diagnosed again. I cant even eat food without being swollen and in pain from it. I wish I could run away. Run away from the pills, the doctors, the people, all of it. I just want to act like it never happened. That I'm just a normal kid again. I want to go on road trips without worrying about bringing my 8 different medicines. I want to do stupid stuff and experience what getting high is like without fearing for my life. I want to work and make money. I want to be stupid and hang out with people and risk corona because it wont kill me. I wanna go to prom and not worry about how heavy the dress is or the fact I may want to go home early because I feel sick. I just want to experience what others get too. Sometimes you dont know how lucky you really are until it is too late. Thanks for reading if you did.
im so so sorry. I truly believe illnesses are such a living hell. I just wanted to maybe recommend trying some cbd oil or cbd products. Or even try getting into metaphysics? It might seem crazy at first but the mind is really powerful. You might not be able to get rid of the diagnosis itself, but you can lower the pain and even stop taking any meds.
@@michellesanchez8026 okay wait I might look into it! I'm at the point where I feel like my mental health is worse then my physical health and that's what's really bringing me down. Thank you so much for the recommendation tho I'll definitely check it out!
I’ve been there. I haven’t been able to get an education for 2 years due to my problems. It gets better. Once you get past the point where things keep getting worse, you start to appreciate and feel content with the few things you have left. The little things you can experience and enjoy become the very thing that keep you afloat. Just make sure that you disregard anything you can’t do. Try to distance yourself from those “what if’s” or “im missing out.” The thoughts that only bring you down, try to only focus on the things that you can do. Dwelling on things that will not happen anytime soon will only break you even further. Once I was able to master this, I started to lose the ability to know what it’s like to be truly disappointed or upset.
I'm so glad i made it. Listening to this takes me back to those nights. But it also makes me realize i made it and i got through it and now i am fucking happy. Life is a wonderful gift and worth every second. Come bad times, come good times, all shape us and make us who we are. Honestly i am just glad to be here. The mix is beautiful and so are you.
Fellow person who made it. I am so proud of you, I am so proud of me, I am so proud of everyone who finds the strength to get up every single day and breathe. Crazy how life works, I never knew I was on the right path until one day it just worked out. Thankful, hopeful, and happy.
Thanks a lot to everyone who shared their feelings. It became a beautiful place and thanks to your comments this is one of the few things that I'm proud of. I never thought millions of people would listen to it.
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We're here for you buddy. Always.
Thank you, you beautiful human!
Thank you
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adorable person you are..
There is an emotion I have which I like to call "pleasantly depressed."
I think you guys get it.
Pleasantly depressed uh? I like it ahah
I think I only feel that way when I'm scrolling down these comment sections, knowing I'm not going through this alone, It's a little feeling of belonging I miss in my real life
Optimistic Nihilism?
Melancholy
@@nathanwalsh6837 Didn't you know? Nihilism is not only realistic, but also optimistic. It is ironic, I know. But irony is the true face of beliefs.
Sometimes, I wish I could just observe the world. I don't want to have to worry about life. I just want to see the trees blowing in the wind and the sun setting. Why can't everything just be peaceful?
Because life is a sea and because if it was always peacful then even the slightest breeze would feel like a huricane. Don't worry your peace will come, with time of course.
You and I, we are observing the world every second we are in it, don't forget that as it maybe easy in world of today. Open your eyes and ears, listen and see the beauty around you. Breathe in from your nose and let your senses tell you stories. Dream, dream big and relax, the world isn't going anywhere, we are. In a hurry it is easy to miss all those little things around you. Love, love yourself, nature, friends and family, hug them and smile often. Tell your worries to them and feel free. We aren't here alone and never will be.
@@recker9393 bro did you come up with that?
this hit
It can never be forever peaceful as we're living in a world filled with different kinds of people. The more kind of people, the more patterns, and hence more different scenarios with different chain reactions and implications. You just have to remember to create a place of quietness and serenity around you and allowing the ones who are also seeking that, like you. And I think we all are here at the very same place. Let's admire such a music buddy... Cheers! Hope you're doing well though
Well
The internet is usually one of the most toxic places. But this place. This small insignificant comment section. It's calm and peaceful. I love it.
the Internet is a maelstrom of beauty and of hatred. Where you end up is up to you
Chicken nuggets
@@SamA-gh3kq indeed.
SFF okay, I laughed at that. I don’t know why but I love chicken nuggets
I like finding these places... there are more than you might think.
i remember putting this video on one night a few years ago, unhappy with the life i was living. it’s one of the reasons i decided to start releasing music publicly! thank you
This is a great honour for me. Thanks for your comment, it means a lot.
BOYWITHUKE? Dang, hope I can say the same for myself one day.
Wow, that must feel like forever ago now
It really is one of those nights
5th comment before this blows up...
the one thing ive learned while scrolling through this comment section is that there is no definition of "one of those nights". everyone has their own definition.
Thats why its so vague.
Everybody grows up differently and gains a different mindset. Music can have various interpretations.
Yet many people here are still able to feel connected.
For me "one of those nights" defines the nights when I think very deeply about physics and mathematics.
For me, those nights usually consist of thoughts racing through my head at painful speeds until it all just... Stops, leaving nothing behind. It's an empty calm. Like the calm after a storm that's decimated everything in its path.
My favorite word is the German word "sehnsucht". It refers to a specific kind of longing or yearning, something wistful and melancholic.
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Yeah I am german and yeah you're right it's simply something you really want but somehow can't get then you feel this oof
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I think in english its called 'Nostalgia'
austrian person here. there's a quote about "Sehnsucht" that I completely love: "Die Sehnsucht scheint mir die einzige ehrliche Eigenschaft des Menschen." It means basically that Sehnsucht seems to be the only honest attribute of a human.
I snuck out a few years ago and met with my best friend. We ran away together and watched the stars for hours. It was freezing but I was high on adrenaline. We laughed together on the grass and told stories while looking at the stars. They looked so beautiful.
She walked me home and neither of us got caught by our parents. I’ve loved that night and I think about it almost everyday it was so magical. We always said we’d sneak out again and go back to that park but we never did.
It’s been two years since she died and I never went near that park until recently. I went in the dead of night and sat there looking at the same stars we did all those years ago. They were still there but she wasn’t. I guess I can only hope she was watching them with me.
I can’t wait for the day we finally star gaze there again.
egg salad damn i was smiling so hard when i read it imagening how cool it would be, but then i read „she died two years ago“ and my smile shattered in shock.
Wish you the best!
My heart goes out to you, but you've healed. You've faced what's been causing your hurt. I have a best friend and I understand that pain. please keep living. You are beautiful inside and out. You deserve an amazing life and you arent alone. That shit made me cry, srsly. You are still loved 💞💝 Thx for commenting
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She's there with you, in the fire of every star and every beat of your heart. She loves you, and the stars will ever remind you of that.
Stars are similar to your friend, even in death will their light carry on.
She's always there, watching the stars with you. You just have to feel her there. Imagine her smiling, happy face as you lay there on the grass. No matter what you go through, make that your happy place. She will ALWAYS be there, waiting to watch the stars with you again.
It is one of those nights. I'm a single father of two, we've been on our own and alone for so so long now. I can go months without talking to a person other than my son and daughter and I love it that way.
But this morning as I got in my work truck with my work partner, I saw smoke at the back of my house and ran to go inside but was struck by so much smoke that it was just blackness. I couldn't breathe and had to go back outside for air. My dog was inside which prompted me to try to go in again and again. It was so impossible to get further then a few steps. I couldn't breathe or see, and things all around were too hot to even try to get past or jump over. I thought the dog was dead, or feared my son who is a teenager now could of maybe possibly not gone to school, or snuck back in the house to skip school. My work partner and I were beating out the windows, and doors until out of nowhere my dog appears!!!! My kids were both at school and I'm okay, except I keep seeing the black smoke in my mind and taste it on my tongue. I'm at my mother's right now and my whole community has come together to try to help, it's been such a difficult day, but a good one as well. But I'm still up at one am thinking how it truly has been a long day and is one of those nights now too.
I'm glad you, your dog and your kids are okay man. Thank you for sharing.
Keep strong, brother. You are not alone. Peace to you and your family.
Life is a fragile thing, isn’t it?
I’m happy to see your puppy made it and your family was not in the house.
God bless you and your family. I’m so glad to hear everyone is ok. You’ll make it through this, I can tell you’re strong 💪🏻
You're not alone brother. Keep going. May God give you the peace you need. Your kids need you and you need them.
do you ever just reach a point in your sadness, where you feel at peace? like nothing can hurt you more than you’ve already felt, it can’t get worse, so it has to get better. right?
A sort of homeostasis. Like when you repeat one word so much it loses all meaning
You were broken down into these pieces. Now it’s time to regroup, rebuild, stronger than before. It won’t be easy but deep down, everyone has the potential for change. You just have to make sure it’s a welcome one. Fight for it if you have to, there’s nothing in the world more worth fighting for than your soul.
yes, yes i do
But it can’t get better for some people. Like me
Jaylynn Snider it can. i hope it can
“how rare and beautiful it is that we even exist”
I love that song
That song makes me cry
First thing/song that came to my mind when I first saw the title :)
brb gonna go cry
what's the song?
A while ago I drank half a bottle of wine at 2am and decided to throw on my coat and take a walk. I put in my AirPods and played a playlist I have which is similar to this one. I live a good distance from the city around rolling hills with farm houses. I walked peacefully in the night down the gravel roads looking at the stars. The universe looked so big that night. I laid in the grass by the road and starred at the night sky for an hour just thinking. The world seemed to stop, and it felt like I was the only person on the planet. I wish I could go back to that night...
That sounded beautifull
I need that.
I would probably get kidnapped.
I wish I was there to feel what u felt. Cause it sounds beautiful
If you're planning to take a walk like that ever again, take me with you
In this fast-paced age of ours, people are starved for the moments in between moments. With life rushing by every day and the constant stream of information keeping us distracted and busy, we yearn for the moments where we can just slow down and breathe. We yearn for the slow edys in the fast river, the moments of stillness in this life. I think thats why these internet pitstop videos hit so hard with people. They're usually videos that allow people to finally breathe and reflect on the world, and sometimes even just being able to take that one breath is enough to get you by another day. So thank you for giving people that moment they need to get anything off their chest.
I’ve been in a “slump” lately.
I want to:
Cry
Scream
Run away
But I also want to:
Not do anything
Stay where I am
Keep going
I don’t want to grow up but I want to keep moving forward. I feel conflicted and I have no idea what I’m doing.
On one of these nights I feel dark and empty in the most peaceful way possible.
It’s addictively melancholic.
Yes thank you for putting my feelings into words. I just feel so lost and I want something to happen, anything really, to break up the routine. Life has just been so repetitive lately. i want to be old enough to make my own decisions but I don't think I could handle that much responsibility. I want to just be content but I don't know how.
34 weasels in a trenchcoat Exactly. At least I know someone else feels like this. The little bit of reassurance feels good right now.
@@jahnavisachchidanand8768 same, I feel so lost but these comment sections make me feel it a little bit less because here, were all alone together. Hold on, friend, it'll get better someday, or at least something will happen
I hope it does get better^^
I got goosebumps reading this. Hope ur doing well.
"I can't wait to grow up" I used to tell myself..
"I want to be young again" I now tell myself..
Oh how things change..
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Is it bad that im 14 and im already saying I want to be young again?
@@neveragain387 nope
For me it now “I don’t want to be here anymore”
in the end we're all disappointed.
Good anecdote: The teacher asked once what did we talk about when we talked about happiness. And then one student said that happiness is what happens when you go to bed on the hottest night of the summer, a night so hot you can’t even wear a tee-shirt and you sleep on top of the sheets instead of under them, although try to sleep is probably the most accurate. And then at some point late, late at night, say just a bit before dawn, the heat finally breaks and the night turns cool and when you briefly wake up, you notice that you’re almost chilly, and in your groggy, half-consciousness, you reach over and pull the sheet around you and just that flimsy sheet makes it warm enough and you drift back off into a deep sleep. And it’s that reaching, that gesture, that reflex we have to pull what’s warm- whether it’s something or someone- towards us, that feeling we get when we do that, that feeling of being safe in the world and ready for sleep, that’s happiness.
Thank you for this.
This is the most beautiful thing I've ever read , to the person who wrote this when are u writing your bestseller 🌺
This is awesomely beautiful
wow. thank you so much for this. that's simply beautiful.
Your comment was my something warm tonight. Thank you.
when I was 15 I used to listen to this almost every night. I think I know every single comment in this video by heart - it's quite strange to say but looking back I think this is the first place I felt truly welcomed. every story you wrote, the music chosen by the creator. the sadness in the comments and the love in the replies. I remember leaving my comment here, it was the first time I'd opened up to someone like that, and I was pretty sure it would just end up as one of the countless comments I left online, but someone actually responded to me and listened my story, I felt seen. everyone is so so nice here. I love you all. I remember a comment that said "it's like being in a bar full of nice people". thank you for sitting here with me tonight.
Many months past your post/edit, and I just want to say, ty for being with me/us too.
Time isn’t linear and we don’t understand it fully. So I choose to imagine the time-gap between us, folding and overlapping. That way we could be here at the same time together enjoying this odd moment on our lives. Glad to have met you here. Good luck in the world and I hope you experiences so much more kindness and acceptance in your future.
I hope you keep meeting kind people in life and creating new memories
This is why people want to believe in heaven; because we all wish there was that place where we could all just be there and be surrounded only by kind, warm, happy people who instantly understand us, and not this harsh, desolate place we are now. We have to find a way to make it a reality in this life, because I personally don't think there's going to be another. We have to be good to each other here, and sit up all night with those who need to not be alone
Real
And people are still appreciating your comments 5 years later. 💜
Damn. Really realising that there are loads of other people who have "one of those nights". Never actually felt so connected, confused and comforted in my life. Thanks guys
same here
Those nights when you decide to walk the streets alone listening to music. Away from everyday life, but not asleep. Safe from the chatter if even for a moment.
@@TheTheode Streets aren't safe for someone to be wondering around listening to deep UA-cam playlists... Please take care
@@KD-nw7rh I've been doing it for years, I'm not too worried.
@@TheTheode Glad to hear. Happy travels friend
We didn’t search for this. But we are glad we are here
Underrated comment, although this applies to almost every comment.
Best decision ever that I clicked this
U can speak for all of us man
same, I don't even usually listen to this type of music
i searched it
Those nights when you want to cry but can’t, so you just exhale deeply and stare at the ceiling
Exactly
When you share a room with your sister so you can’t cry and you just gotta sit there like 🥺
@@carlyskanberg3272 same tho😔
honestly i dont know anymore man 😔😔
@@carlyskanberg3272 ay yo same shit gotta cry silently because of that
On a bleak night of September 19th, 2021 I went for a walk in my neighborhood as I was perturbed. Back then we lived in a small town surrounded by hills and dense woods. I was walking along the side of the road in absolute darkness and somehow this darkness resonated with the darkness of my negative thoughts. As I was listening to music I came across this video and I instantly clicked on it, and that was when I saw hundreds of fireflies popping up in the sky from the meadows. All of this was majestic for me, the music and those fireflies.
this is like nostalgia for a place youve never been to before
This
p much
Gods you're right
kitsune_ spooky lets fine that place
kitsune_ spooky reminds me of the word “hiraeth”. a feeling of homesickness for a home that never was.
It sucks when at the end of the day you wanna share everything that happened or you felt, but you have no one to talk to.
What's the point of having everything you ever wanted if you don't have anyone to come home to and share your laughs and tears, your hardwork, your everything?
Bro hell I wanna have all the nice things in life my own house and car and dream career......But what is it really worth without happiness and somone to really have at home to remind you what really makes you happy
You guys can have that. A connection that is. Maybe a friend or a girl.
I used to have someone to share with. They would listen, and i would listen back. But now i lost them and its just empty, yet full nights like these. Like im floating in nothing, and no one is there to see me anymore.
You could be in the presence and company of so many yet be the loneliest person in the room. With no one to talk to it feels that way
Write them down and make a cool af book
This comment section is like a small bar in a forgotten town, a waypoint on a journey to somewhere, and you find yourself deep in conversation with someone you just met that lasts into the night. Wish I could hang out with all of you and hear your stories in person.
I feel that, I wish to hear them all too, including yours. A depart on the next part of the journey
That's a beautiful analogy. You should try writing a story. It would make a great beginning to one.
your comment made me tear up for some reason, but then again it's one of those night, after all
I hope you publish this
Me too, it's been a long road to tonight, but it's been worth it all. The good and bad, all lead me here. So I'd say it's all going good.
We're not people that want to be at parties, but that Friday night feeling of just being alone kills us sometimes. We want to be alone sometimes, but not to feel lonely
@@strawberry7upidk why introverts decide to push their pussy ass antisocial behaviour on everyone else
I want to be all alone on Friday evenings. Its like i have to restore my energy from the week
you can do both
or all the fun things in life
I want to go to parties, it’s the fact that I just don’t get invited
Man that made my whole body cringe Please don't ever speak again man
I'm honestly so tired of being myself, there's a lot of things i want to do, places i want to visit, memories i want to create, live my dreams, even if they're stupid, i want to live my life at fullest. But i'm such a coward, sometimes i think there's no place for me
There is always a place for you I promise
Just never lose hope
I don’t think you’re a coward if you were able to write all of this
The sole fact that you were able to write all of this has already made you so brave. Don’t let fear hold you back, ever. You got this❤️
You're not alone...
Honestly, the way I would describe it is just, feeling disconnected, kinda like when you repeat a word so much it loses it’s meaning. You feel numb, like a speck floating in empty space, your thoughts suddenly become white sound that gets louder and louder and you’re cool with it, because at the same time, you feel in peace.
ana paulina gongora herrera you have described it better than I ever could
The price we pay for our modern way of living is the disconnect from our past, our nature, and meaning. Sometimes wondering if it is too high. A boat in an endless sea, drifting, waiting to return home. There are so many of us with a connection to something no one can put words to nowadays. Something so infinite, that it completely grounds you when you feel it. Some people dont feel it at all. The beauty of music helps you find it. We have to face all the problems that modernity brings to our lives and fight against it, dont let it overwhelm you. This artificial life is not who we are.
@@benjamin8454 I agree with the point you conveyed very eloquently, but one thing baffles me in your line of thinking. If, as you said, we are connected to something greater than our artificial life then how come you say we need to "fight against" it. Wouldn't we just need to surrender ourselves to nature instead with no concern to modern life?
@@gengarsbutt Well yes, but that is quite the loaded question. One that a lot of people could write papers on. Surrendering to nature could be one way of fighting against some of the problems an overly modernized and meaninglessly redundant lifestyle can present. Myself personally, I can not say that I surrender to nature as a way to connect to the steccato and legato of the concrete jungle or feel some sort of "place in the universe". "Fighting against" like I was using it could be many things though, like staying true to ones heritage by connecting with ones past, listening to certain kinds of music that makes one feel a certain way, or anything that really breaks through and speaks to you.
I think it could be that process of repeating the word, but the word is your life. The same thing happens over and over and it suddenly loses meaning.
Just like when you lose the meaning of a word, you don't lose it forever, once you recognise that the meaning is gone, you stop caring about that word and the meaning comes back. I guess that is like life. You will have moments where you think 'wait, what is going on? How did I get here?', but we know we have to not think about it like that because that is a miserable way to live (because we know it wont change in the end).
Feeling disconnected from the modern world is a good thing because all our connections to it have no real meaning or value.
There's a website dedicated to creating words with proper definitions to suit these things. It's called The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows. It's all online from what I know, and it's super cool.
Wow I love that website ❤
"Sonder" is my favorite word and I think it came out from that website.
@@oreos4843 its great
@@J.RomeroLuna Yep! He's the guy. He did a Ted Talk too.
Thank you
This feels like one of those life/internet checkpoints. A place to rest for just a moment. Respite from the storm.
A perfect analogy
Real
I want to give everyone in the comments a hug.
Same. In fact, I would honestly love to meet these people in real life, and have a nice, relaxing, profound conversation with them. These people seem to be easy to get along with.
@@arizuniga8388 Absolutely.
I want that hug :(
@@PeskieRebecca 🤗
Back
I had one of those nights a few days ago.
I was sad.
I was scared.
I was worried.
I didn’t know if it was going to end.
I held on to hope though.
I remembered the people I cared about.
I remembered the things I loved and enjoyed doing.
I held on to them.
Then I went to bed and slept.
I woke up the next day to a beautiful sunrise.
I got through it.
That means you will too.
Take care.
Stay strong, and remember that your pain is shared through all of us too.
cute sentiment and all but you'd have to be incredibly naive to think that just because you got through it, that means everyone will.
Thank you
I'm glad you're still here. ❤️☀️
@@nagysamuel2575 so true. It is a collective pain.
I like to call it „addictive melancholy“ because sometimes I don‘t really have a reason to be sad but I still have these melancholic (Not depressive) days which also gives me some kind of ..joy? Does it make sense? The reason why I call it „addictive“ is because I, at that moment, do not need to listen to my melancholic playlists (I have many different vibe playlists), but I still do it begause sometimes I want to be „sad“ or melancholic.
Reakted i know exactly what you mean. Im doing that right now
I feel bad and yeah... joy at the same time. It's so hard to explain. This night is one of those night where you dream and you're both disconnect to the life but totally lucid.
ohmygod you put it into words
I completly understand you. Crazy how the Internet connects people with the same feelings :`)
Its one of the only times when ur allowed to feel ...not necessarily sad, just not happy either. Melancholy, i guess
I'm writing this here because this is one of those nights where I feel so very alone. I have no one else but myself to blame for this but it still hurts nonetheless. I am a 23 year old man who feels unwanted and unloved by the people and the world around him. I know I am a kind person and have a good heart and I wish people would see that. I've made mistakes just like everyone else out there but I am only human. I love and care for others deeply but that love has nowhere to go so it sits inside my heart and soul waiting. I feel like I am just a cog in a machine, a spec of dust in this expanse of darkness we call the universe. I crave human connection, I crave love, I am tired of being alone, and I hope someday I am wanted and loved by the people in my life.
Seasonal depression is hitting hard but I don't want to end my life or give up I just want nothing more than to go back in time even if just a little and start over but I can't, none of us can, life goes on for all of us. I don't know if anyone feels the same way I do but I hope I can connect with at least one person wherever you reside in the world. I cry, I feel sad, I laugh, I smile, I breathe the same air, I look at the same stars, I wake up to the same sun and sleep to the same moon, I have dreams, I have goals, I want to be happy, I want to live a life that I'm proud of at the end of it all. I am just like any other human being on this planet we call home.
I know this note will be here for as long as this video exists. I am just a stranger in some corner of the world to you all but I was here at this moment in time, I have a heart and a soul, I am real. I hope that in years from now I can come back to this note that I left here and be content with how I'm doing at that moment in time. This is just a part of my story, there's still a whole lot of pages to fill and a lot more memories to create. To the person reading this I just want to say I love you
- a stranger that lives under the same sky
I love you too stranger. I wish u good luck for the journey that lies ahead , for the beautiful chapters yet to be written. Love u deserve will surely find its find way to you . All you need is to keep going forward and accomplish all those goals in meantime. Discover yourself. Everything u truly deserve will come your way. Be sure to accept it with open arms.
- a stranger under the same starry night
It will go away eventually... I promise ❤
Know my friend, that you are not alone in your feelings. So many of us put on a bright smile for the people out there and then at the end of the day , come home to complete emptiness. Learn to love yourself dear, one day the right people will come along and share your life with you ❤️ . Love,
( a person truly wishing u everything).
You've got a friend here❤
I'm a 23 year old woman and I feel the same. Thank you for making me feel less alone
im in this weird mood where everything is going okay while falling apart at the same time
omg same here.
I call it my witching hour
exactly.
growing pains
You're not alone my friend..
Even when you feel overwhelmed by all the toxic people around you, here we are, this little group of people from all around the world will hold you, you are not alone, in this place we all share similar thoughts, through this playlist, *we are not alone*
We are not indeed 😊
Hugs ❤❤
love
💔 bless you
love u
How did we get on this roof?
I don’t know, but I like it up here.
piper and jason vibes anyone?
I will never forget this comment
The lone fiddler... a fiddler on the roof.
I’m so going to turn this into a drawing I love this comment
*Me looks at the 78 years ago thing*
Me: WTH?!
My last team retreat:
It was amazing.
We went out to the White Desert, and spend a weekend there.
Stargazing, staying up late, deep convos.
So many memories.
Makes me want to cry, thinking that wont happen again. Nothing will be quite like that night. The way the distant campfire light danced on the rocky overhang above us as we talked. Just a group of teens, chilling, talking about life, God, and love. I miss that night. Nothing quite like it has ever happened, or likely ever will happened. I want to go back. But I can't. Those were the good old days. Earlier this year. Man, that was the best. This year is probably just like that, but I guess I'm too blind to see it. I'm gonna make so many more memories, and I still see these same people every day, so why am I nostalgic for something I already have?
Because even though you're young you already you see the world for what it really is... a passing thing. But I think it's only through sadness that we know what is truly good
I was once with this girl named Katie about 5 years ago. She was blind and I absolutely loved her. She never saw me but could still love me for who I was as a person. That's the only thing she can go off of.
I was her first and last boyfriend. She died in a surgery that was destined to fail. The last thing she ever told me was I was the most beautiful thing she ever heard, she said she loved me and if the surgery fails find someone else.
Of course when she is telling me this I am crying my eyes out. I never wanted to let her go ever, but fate had other plans unfortunately.
I am still looking for another lover.
Pasta Motel You’ll find someone else. Katie seemed special :)
@@thehighlightmonster1057 Thank you and she was something truly special.
Pasta Motel My heart wrenched while reading this. Find someone else man, and treat her like you treated Katie.
I'm just writing a comment because I want to receive updates from this thread
much love brother
I can’t help but ponder of the 516k views, and how many people share the same feelings. How many struggles people face, some greater, some smaller. How many pushed through it, or those that didn’t make it. How it doesn’t matter who you are, where you are from, your skin color, your identity. We share the same emotions, however positive or negative. If you have taken the time to read this, I wish you well, We are all family here. We understand, and you don’t have to say anything. Just know that you can stay as long as you’d like, well all be here for you.
Thank you...it means all too much.
Thank so much... i hope you're doing great❤
Contrabahn this broke my heart to read, i can’t stop crying. i feel less alone now though
Anytime I feel alone I go down these rabbit holes of finding little pockets of the web where there is just idk this understanding and relate-able people struggling with the same thing I am. Lets you feel less alone and know that we all care for each other even though none of us have ever met besides some comment section on UA-cam.
Thanks for the kind words and wish you well
Thank you man... for the good words. Really helped me a lot of forgetting my crush...
„Melancholy is the happiness of being sad“ - Victor Hugo
It’s when you get pleasure when you suffer. Let’s be honest.
@@john3520 sooo s&m?
@@john3520 so melancholy = masochist?
@Silvio Berlusconi No. It is accepting the loneliness, and embracing it. Its when you realize being happy and sad are not opposites, but rather two emotions we can experience, both come with their own kind of beauty.
@@john3520 no brother, i believe its being at peace in moments of sadness and hurt
Found this oasis of tranquility while drinking, which is something I haven't done in 30 years.
The sheer weight of failure as a father has brought me full circle to a desperate lonely place. I had no idea how much pain and misery children could cause, and I'm trying to examine my childhood for my own faults, was I the reason my father left, was I so selfish, uncouth, and uncaring? Is all this pain, in the end my fault.
Sorry, but it felt good to unburden myself to total strangers, I'll be good tomorrow, I always have to be.
This is powerful music. God bless you all and keep you safe.
Much respect for you sir, you're a strong person. May God bless you and shower all His blessings on your family 💝
A couple autumns ago, my friends and I got together to bake cookies. After putting them in the oven, we went out for a walk. There were five of us and the dog, walking down the street. It was early autumn, still hot and sticky, but with that weird chill that comes at night. I don’t think any of us looked at our phones. We walked to the park by the light of the moon, and when we got there, sat and talked, and played with the dog. Walking home, spread out across the road, unhurried and unworried about any cars, it was a beautiful feeling. Somebody played music, some sort of soft rock, echoing in the background as we talked and laughed.
Just thinking about it makes me nostalgic, because I know that once we all go off to college, it’ll never be the same. We’ll go off to our own lives, and forget everything. Our memories, our inside jokes, eachother. And that’s heartbreaking to me.
You don't forget. Don't worry. :)
*gives hugs* it's ok, sometimes life doesn't go our way or turn out fine, and some people we knew may forget about us entirely, but that's ok, it's life. we just have to move on and learn from the past, and of course, cherish those memories.
omg but did the cookies burn when tou went out for a walk
Bro, they never have to leave you. I moved away from my best friends at the end of high school, and I'd thought it would be the end for us aswell. Well 2 years later, we did end up drifting apart, and I never stopped thinking about the time we all spent together, and I look back on it with such fondness. Well a further 2 years later (4 years at this point), we all link up again online. Still sharing the same jokes, still telling the same stories, only with some new ones we've made on our own.
It's never too late to reconnect with someone you lose touch with. And these moments you're experiencing, they may be some of the fondest you'll have. But you should be 100% present in those moment, and not be worried about drifting apart. Each waking moment is the time of your life.
Thats simply not true. Its the 21st century, the only thing that can keep yourself and your friends away, are your friends and yourself. The tools are there, and maybe it isnt the same, talking over a phone, but it gets the job done, and it doesnt let that so loved friendship die.
I thought the same when i ended up highschool and most of my friends went to another city, but there is always someone there for you, and when you less expect it, theyll be back, maybe because of holidays, maybe because it didnt work out for them, but they wont just disappear. If you truly care about them, and they do about you, its not going to happen.
I remember when I was younger this happened to me when my brother, his friend, and I were about to fall asleep in my brothers room late at night and I was sleeping by the window when I looked out. Everyone else fell asleep and it got quiet when I looked up to a whole set of summer stars and it was beautiful. I still remember how I felt in that moment and thought I was the only one who ever felt like that until now. It’s weird opening up like this for random people online but I hope someone reads this.
Stars can be the weirdest thing to connect to. They dont speak but comfort so many people.
This comment section is like a support group. It’s good to open up, it’s good to share if you wish to. And you’ll find at least someone can relate to you somehow
Wish granted. It's not that weird, honestly. :D
Ultimate Corgi like a support group
@@Mattyoftheboy Exactly. Like they are watching over you. It's an indescribable feeling.
Listening to this kind of music while reading this comment section is enough to keep someone going. I feel so intimate with all of you guys, it feels nice that somehow somewhere in this world there are people like me and you who feels the same way. Just a reminder that even though sometimes life doesn't make sense and you feel lost, just keep going. I wish I could hug you all.
*hugs* all around😊
Your words are a hug to some ous
Sending all my hugs your way
"Excuse me but I have a package of hugs I need to deliver."
This comment bout to make me cry, especially that second to last bit about keep on going 😢😭
it's 2:30am, i'm drunk, today i lost my beloved cat, she was with me for 17 years, i just can't, she didn't make it through the surgery, she had lyphoma, about 2 weeks ago her blood tests were great but 4 days ago she almost died from dehydration, looked very weak so i decided to immidietly take her to veterinary they did blood tests again and figured out she had leukocytosis, yesterday i took her for usg and they told me that her digestive system is not working without medications and drips, today they decided to operate her, she died right after cutting her stomach because her heart didn't make that, she was my best friend, i loved her very much, i really hope she's in better place now, shit.
bro thank you for your channel, it's helping me with getting through this
heyy, i hope youre bettwr now
i’m sos sorry! i couldn’t imagine losing my best friend. I wish you all the best and just know she’s still with you ❤
Another weekend. Another night I see pictures of my friends that I have been talking to all week. They are going out having a good time. I’m not there, I wasn’t invited. Now I sit on my bed watch my show and go downstairs for food. I see my mom and my stepdad. I don’t think I like them. I realize I’m not hungry. Why did I come downstairs? I don’t know I pet my cat and go to my bed again. I’m sad. I go back downstairs. I say its for food but its an excuse I just want somebody to see that I’m alive this evening. I go to my sister’s room. Shes not there. I realize shes at a party with her friends as she always is. I go back in bed and find this video. I read a few comments one made me cry. It felt good I feel understood and not alone. I feel like expressing what I feel in a small little story. Hi this is me and I’m not alone just like you are not alone.
Edit: thank you all so much for the kind messages i still read them everytime and they make me feel accepted.
Update to my life if anyone was curious: I have distaced myself from my mother and I soon realized she was manipulating me in thinking ways I didn't want to think. I started to think more for myself and I was making my own decisions. After that I decided I wanted to take medication for my focussing problem. It is working to get my school grades back together and I'm regaining friends. We only hang out once every month, but because I also started streaming on twitch and get to talk to people there I don't really feel as lonely as I used to do. Still even after all that I keep this little story of me up, because whenever I feel down I read the comments and I feel a lot better again. If I can do it you can do it too! Be your own person.
Cheers, bud.
That means we're still human
@@sacredyveltal4688 and cheers to you. putting myself out there is really scary people like you give me confidence. thanks
@@マット無理 You're welcome.
I get it, the internet sometimes it is a very scary place but don't worry, there will be someone out there willing to make you feel better or at least listen to you. Don't ever feel scared of draining away your sorrows, we can understand each other and work things out. There are billions of us out there, you got yourself a wonderful universe, so never feel alone.
If you have Discord I can recommend you a nice server with others just like you and me.
@@sacredyveltal4688 Yes I have discord and i would love to be apart of the server you are talking sbout. I probably won't talk much, but reading other peoples stories and advises will already make a big change.
@@マット無理 here u go
discordapp.com/invite/q93Thhc
Oh, and don't worry about being not too active, sometimes is just fine being silent. Believe it or not, I'm one of them.
(Here is my ID, btw
Sacred Yveltal #5933
if you need anything, I got the same username as in YT)
This comment section is like a little town in a giant and dangerous world, none of us really live here, we just pass through and tell each other our stories. There's no judgment between us, just a silent understanding we all share as we sit around a fire.
Eventually the time comes to move on, we adjust our backpacks, gather our things, say goodbye while hoping to meet again sometime and continue on with our adventure.
Edit: Thanks for all the heartwarming comments, I come back here every once in a while and you never cease to put a smile on my face. Thank you.
That was possibly the most beautiful comment i have ever read...
@@xx_thelordandsaviour69_xx81 same
I'm sure one day I'll come back here, in this calm place, in weeks, months, maybe years. My backpack will be all dusty from the long journey, heavy on my back. My legs will be so tired, they have walked so much, brought me to so many places. My eyes will be tired too, they have seen so many things, so many different faces that melt in one cloudy figure, not all of them though, some will be clear in my memories.
It will be night, the stars will be so bright and the moon so high in the sky. I'll be really tired, only inertia keeping me going. And Right when I'll feel i can't go any further I'll see it again. That familiar light, the place i once felt home for awhile, where i heard so many stories of people like me. I'll sit next to the fire, take my backpack off and listen to all the stories of other travellers like me, staring at the fire, feeling its relaxing wormth, feeling home. I'll wait there, listening to this playlist, till I'll decide to tell my story. When I will my backpack will be so much lighter i think and I'll be ready to get back up and go back to the adventure called life, hoping I'll come back here yet one more time. Till then, farewell
@@lc5286 ...and that was possibly the most beautiful reply i have ever read
Silvio Berlusconi I don't know the nature of humans but based if the other comments most of the people here are going through a rough time so I just wanted to write something that might cheer somebody up
Do you ever just get to a point where all of this shit feels normal? Like when the lonely turns to sadness, sadness turns to numbness, the numbness turns to normal, and normal is “ok”?
been the case for a few years.
@@shawnmendrek3544 im not gonna make you a stupid promise of you life being amazing. But i can say this. Life is suffering, you Will be the happiest person on earth one day and you will be the saddest. Its Just the way things are. I have been in absolute Madness, absolute misery in my mind. But i managed to turn stuff around and now a few years later things are okay, not great, not horrible. Enough to be glad to be alive.
I sense that you are incredibly stressed, you are falling, sinking.
I’ve been that way for a bit
3 months and that numbness is turning to normal
I think what I miss the most is feeling safe. It seems the majority of the people here are posting inside of their late teens, at the teetering point of losing their youth and becoming adults. Let me tell you, do not let go of that feeling. Let it engulf you and never forget it. It won’t last forever. I’m laying in bed at nearly 28 years old next to my incredible girlfriend of 3yrs, happy and in love, yet haven’t been able to feel as safe and free and happy the way I did back then. You don’t realize the adults telling you that you’re living out the best years of your life are 350% correct until you wake up at the end of your fleeting 20s and see your parents getting old, your old friends getting married and having their own kids living their own lives, and you may be in just as good of a place but the fact is it’s SCARY if you slow down and look at it for a second. This life thing doesn’t stop until it does, and I just pray that by the time I get there I’m comfortable enough with my choices to be able to let it go and return to the void…not that I’ll have a choice. I’m rambling now, but be good to yourself because what you’re feeling now may never come again. Embrace it. All of the emotions and sensations and challenges and blessings of growing up. It’s a cold scary world out there. All of us in this comments section know this. We may never cross paths but I’ll be looking for each and every one of you in the warm smile shared with a stranger.
Be good to yourselves. Be good to eachother. We’re all we’ve got.
See you out there.
A truly inspiring message and as a 16 year old this is how I have tried to live my life and appreciate everything that I have. Sometimes it's hard to remember how blessed I am but it's comments like this that tell me I'm not alone in feeling that way. It seems fated that I read this given the day I have had. Thank you
Thank you
I can tell by your writing you have a deep heart. This world has a way of opening itself in unique ways to deep hearts. You’re not insignificant. I can’t say why. It’s a gut feeling.
that's one of the most beautiful things i've read in my life. Thank you.
@@kylenelson4096and thank you for posting. Life is interesting. Not bad not good. Just interesting. I can't wait to find out how
UA-cam Recommendations really out did itself this time, it is exactly one of those nights. I'm laying in bed right now, and this is exactly what i needed.
Whenever I have one of those nights I always want to go outside and watch the stars but my parents lock all the doors and put alarms on them so I’m stuck inside
I agree with you 1000%
lately this nights are frequent, ty youtube
I’m honestly gonna ask my friend if he wants to go stargazing sometime
@@sexygolfball69 sadly my friends arent that kind of people whenever im drunk i just look at the stars but they... they dont care what goes on around them. Perhaps they do and they try to not think about it...maybe that means that they are stronger than i am.
I've done it. I've found a small pocket of the internet where things are ok. A small pocket where no one is at each other's throats, no one is being angry at someone else. It's truly a wonderful little place this comment section is. In a world full of hatred and suffering, it's important to find some tranquility. Thank you for these wonderful minutes of inner peace and reverence
I won't cry 😭
it is truly amazing how familiar strangers can feel when brought together by melancholy and the love for music
I wish many things but if I could make one of those come true then it would be that people are friendly to everyone even strangers. Is that really to much to ask for?
@@stonegod95 it seems so sometimes
@@karamolegos2552 I will
During the hot summer nights when I couldn't sleep, I used to lay in the grass and watch the stars with my dog. He passed away a few years ago. I still miss him. He was my boy, my little wolf. There's a special song I used to softly whistle to him when he was a puppy. When he got older, it didn't matter how far away he was, when I whistled that song he always came running as fast as he could.
Sometimes I whistle that song outside when I'm alone. Nothing makes me miss him more than hearing it echo and fade into silence rather than hearing it followed by barking and rustling grass.
I miss you, Ranger. I hope we can meet again someday.
I'm sorry
What was the song, if you don't mind me asking?
@@charrop6887 The Wolf and The Moon by Brunuhville
💚💚💚💚
Your story was very touching, im sorry for your loss ❤
It is one of those night isnt it, the night when we just stare into the sky at night in a dark room, in absolute silence. Alone with our thought and in our own mind, lonely and yet it also oddly comforting and calming. I often do it when im feel tired or just somewhat lost, and this just resonate with me with that vibe. I really enjoy comfy place like this on yt, with the comments sharing their own story. Reading them while listening to music is amazing, especially when it at night and the lights are off.
Came here feeling disconnected from the world
Didn’t realize I was connected to so many other people until I came here.
Humanity isn’t that bad
Sure we have our flaws
But in the end we have our positives too
This is a beautiful comment
If only we could meet all of these people in real life, then this would be even better.
@@arizuniga8388 truly
Is this what happiness is?... I have a home, I have a family, I have friends. Yet, deep inside, I feel empty. As if, my soul has left by body - Perhaps, I never had a soul in the first place. I might get a job. I might not. I might get married. I might not. I might get kids. I might not. I can feel the best feelings and experience the best experiences, but what does it matter?
At the end of life, my memories won't be anything.
At the end of time, nothing will be.
The night wraps its hands around me, like a Reaper hearing a being's last words. My body yearns for sleep. Yet, my brain screams in agony. A million lives have been, just like mine. Sleep, work, eat. A mind feels directionless these principles are broken - We weren't created to think. Nothing has ever realized it exists, except we. But at the end of time, nothing will be.
And nothing will have been.
Our fate is sealed in the darkest corner of the Universe.
My thoughts dissipate. Another day ends.
I really feel like my soul is going out of my body and it's observing the Earth from space knowing that humans will always be like that, but in the end there will just be an eternal silence
What The.. The human soul is designed to need God, without Him there will always be that feeling of something missing, something just not there.
I feel the same way. Every night I have this void inside of me like I feel nothing and at the same time everything. I've been trying to make sense of what could possibly be the essence of life, what my purpose really is. I become wary and anxious because up to this time I don't know. Is finishing college enough then what? Is being married and having children eenough then what? What does it really mean to be happy.
thats when you know you’re missing someone
@@dddd-uk4vn that might be true, but humans are becoming too smart to believe in something like a god. Its an old concept and just dosent hold up anymore.
I’m sitting on the roof of an abandoned Papa Johns pizza house right now, in the middle of rural Mississippi, there’s a full moon out, and the wind is moving the clouds by fast, and it appears as if the moon is flickering, waving to me. To really show me that the universe is of an infinite scale, and that we’re all just specks of dust, drifting in the cosmic breeze of the abyss, I ponder why we exist, why we were Created. I come back to my senses and as I open this bottle of whiskey I brought with me, I feel as if I’m truly free, with nothing holding me back. I will stay here on top of this Papa Johns for a while, and I would like to say one thing to you, the phrase of a man I dearly love,
“Better ingredients, better pizza”
Papa Johns themed existentialism is exactly what I needed tonight. Thanks for the story internet stranger.
I’m in Mississippi, what papa johns?
Daniel Cangelosi near Clinton, down to pull up?
Stoic Patriot I live in Madison and I’ll be back Sunday
Daniel Cangelosi oh awesome, I go to Madison all the time for track meets
There was a moment in time where I was helping my best friend move across the country. We drove through 9 different states. It was the most exhilarating week of my life. Those moments we drove through the night in the hills with nothing but the stars surrounding us, through two lane roads with beautiful trees on both sides of us, on single lane roads while it was raining. Seeing him sleep in the passenger seat with playlists like this one playing. It was beautiful. I wish I could do it again.
This song can also portray that feeling when the sun is like an hour or two from setting and you’re not doing much except... waiting...
That's exactly what I'm doing right now.
Loltroll842 0 I totally get u
i have to go home on like 3 different buses around the time the sun sets and this is exactly the feeling i feel when im waiting for the next one
I never understood a comment this much
it's amazing how a place full of sad and lonely people can be one of the most comforting and welcoming places.
Well, sometimes the people who have been through the worst of it all are the ones who learn to be their greatest selves, my friend.
Yes,but it's scary that all those sad people are everyone,the people who u talk to daily,the people u may judge,the people who u think are just basic or annoying or bullies cuz of the way they act
But inside there is so much sadness to be unpacked..
@@Klaus577 it is I agree, I makes me wonder how many people I’ve hurt without knowing, how many people I left scarred
No one else knows pain like someone who has felt it
Crazy how lonely people don't want to feel lonely.
I used to go out and have a smoke secretly at three a.m. a few years back, listening to music like this, crying, shaking, and begging to the stars to take me to another world where my life was meaningful, magical, interesting, painful in a different kind of way from... here.
I remember waiting for an adventure to come, and at the same time locking myself in my house. I never knew secret places, or saw the city at night. I didn't even go to parties or tried alcohol until 22. I wanted lightning to hit me so that I would have a superpower, or to wake up one day with a new special magic awakening, or for anything to pull me out of the ordinary and into a world of discovery.
I still feel like it sometimes. Like I belong some place else, and I was washed away in this pointless world accidentally. Like somewhere in the multiverse, the version of me who was supposed to be in this world, is terrified out of her mind, completely secluded from a reality where adventure comes daily, and trying times are just too much for her to handle, while I am here doing the same for different reasons.
I'm 25 and waiting for my life to start. Everyone says it's a long time coming, but I just don't see my journey starting anytime soon.
Edit:
5 months later.
I hear you all, I see you all. I love that we're all together in drifting through life. Recently I've started to go out and look for adventures in this reality, and I'm very glad to say it works. I've presented my paintings in a gallery, as I dreamed when I was a kid, I've traveled to places I didn't know before, far from my hometown, I'm finding adventures, and adventures are finally welcoming me with open arms.
If you read this and felt like you're also waiting for your life to start, this is your wake up call. This universe, this planet, this life, is already gargantuan.
Life is waiting for you, out there, not in here.
you gotta do it yourself, it just won't come knocking on the door. Believe me, it won't.
heyy, u should try read ‘the defining decade’
Glad I’m not the only one who feels misplaced
Wow... :')
A harsh but possibly sobering truth: your life already has started. If you don’t feel like you’re in the place you’re supposed to be, the only way out of it is by doing it yourself. It’s tough, I know. I’m still struggling and afraid I won’t be able to do this for the rest of my life, but in a few years you might be surprised with how far you’ve come.
And adventure is something you find. I used to go on an adventure almost every weekend. I would grab my moped and just drive as far as I could in a certain direction just to see what was there. I enjoyed the scenery and serenity of traveling alone. But the truth is, there’s nothing adventurous about it. A lot of other people were on the same road just to go to work, do groceries or that kind of stuff. It was an adventure for me because I surrendered myself to the unknown and appreciated all the little details I came across. Adventure is not something far away, it’s more of a mindset. Because the second I thought: I could be doing something productive, the adventure was over. Try making everyday things an adventure. Take a detour when leaving from work and explore other neighborhoods, go grocery shopping in a store you’ve never been to because it’s too far away, try new food, enjoy nature. The littlest things can be an adventure if you have an adventurous mindset
Currently listening to this the night after my last day of highschool
I was once quite sad about the fact that my 12 years of school was coming to a conclusion and it felt like time was moving too fast for me to handle. I grew depressed thinking about the life that I lived and how uncertain everything was and still is.
And while I am still sad about the fact that I'll never be in a classroom again with my friends and classmates, that I'll never again live in that repetitive yet safe and comforting bubble, and that I'll never be a kid again, I'm also kinda proud of myself. It's been a long journey with bumps, bruises, heartbreak and setbacks. But through it all I still kept my head high and survived every day of it. Yes I miss my childhood and I'd give ANYTHING to go back. But I've come to peace with the reality that time keeps moving forward, even when we don't want to. I can only hope for the best for my friends and everyone reading this post. To wherever the next day takes us, may we never forget to love ourselves above all else♥️.
i loved the last line. thank you for this :’)
I was never one who liked school but when it ended it was crazy to think wow I’ll never be able to mess around and piss off the teachers at lunch times anymore, it’s an adjustment but consider it the next exciting step, yes I miss it but the freedom you have as an adult is great!
@@MaazUnfiltered thanks, it's a line that my teacher constantly told us😁
@@C-rab03 nice to know that life will go up from here🙏
Hey this might not mean much to you yet, but I was in the same position as you two years ago. I believed I left my happiest, lightest years behind me, but these past two years have been the best of my life.
Leaving school means becoming an adult, becoming the person who controls yourself, being whoever you want.
I moved out to my dream city, I studied, I learned, I partied, met new people, fell in love, traveled.
You have the best years of your life ahead of you. I wish you all the best!
I had something similar to that feeling just last week,
It finally snowed this year, and I was spending it outside with my dog,
We went to the edge of my yard, as the sun was going down and my dad was making his special dinner - gumbo.
My dog looked alert and bolted into the woods, as I followed behind.
I wandered through the woods looking for my dog, and I stumbled across a clear hill.
I found her, and tried getting her to turn back home.
As I did this, I went to the top of a hill, as I knew that was the way home.
And as I watched the sun set with my childhood dog, I remembered a lot of old things
Family that passed
The joys and innocence of childhood
Where I’ll go after high school
And what will happen
I then walked back home, and could smell that dinner was ready,
I took my seat at the table
I started to eat my bowl of gumbo, feeling nice in my cold belly.
I just wanted to live in the moment, as I had most of my family there with me.
I gave my dog some extra food because of the run we had.
Dinner was nice, but dad had something to tell us.
He was thinking of getting a new house and selling his current one, my childhood house.
I was silent for the rest of the night.
Another time I was with my grandpa, and we hiked to the top of a hill in fall, and I remember just looking over the hill and seeing all the orange trees swaying in the wind, feeling at peace with one of my favorite people
Thanks for making this, and thank you for coming to my TED talk
I normally don't reply to comments. God, I felt this so fucking hard though. I miss my childhood home more than anything and I wish I could go back to the blissful wonderland that was being young.
plotwhist I don’t know why people call me childish like it’s an insult. I had the most fun as a child
Creative Name where do you live that place seems awesome lol
thomas kurian Southwest Missouri, my dad’s backyard is several acres of woods
my dog just died this reminds me of him, thanks I guess? Idk what to feel... I guess I won’t for now... that was a nice reminder of the good old days though.
Rooftops or high places during night enhances that feeling for me
Rooftops at night are the best
for me too
Its all peace and good times until the wind and the cold of the night comes and also when you cannot be stand up because there are people on the street (sometimes drunk) and you cant leave the roof to not look like a thief and you have to stay with the cold and think for yourself...."here go again...it is one of those nights"
@@mondongoloco7902 Rather specific, but I like it
"I think rooftops were made for people like us
Above our problems and away from the crowds a free look captivates us"
To everyone is this sea of comments, you matter, and I believe in you.
I understand that sometimes everything around you seems to crumble.
I understand that sometimes it hurts to breathe.
I understand that sometimes it feels like everything it weighing down on you.
I understand that sometimes you are overwhelmed by the bumps and cracks in this broken road.
I want you to know that you are never alone in your struggles, and that there will always be someone cheering you on. These problems we experience are only temporary, and whether it be tomorrow, a week from now, or even in a month, you will feel the sunshine again. You woke up today for a reason, and that reason is life. You are meant to be here, and you have so much purpose. Never stop pushing forwards, don't waste a single moment of life, because it is precious, and preciously ephemeral.
To you, the individual who has read this, you are loved. I believe in you, never stop fighting.
- a stranger, and a friend
I've never had something like this bring me soo close to tears before.
Even if I don't know you and I probably never gonna to, you helped me a lot. Thank you very much
GRZ K things will get better. Much love. 💕💕💕💕💕💕
Pechi22 I’m so glad I did, and whomever you may be, I wish you a long and healthy life filled with happiness and prosperity. You’ll find your way, just hang in there and keep smiling. Much love :) 💕
After a sunny day it will rain again
It feels like I've awoken from a months long slumber simply numbing my thoughts and feelings through endless scrolling and escaping life. I am back to the soul soothing part of the internet. Simply sitting in my kitchen and eating some leftover delivery. It's 5 AM and I'm about to head out to a job interview. After recovering from the previous one which left me empty and tired.
This gives me time to reflect. Understand myself and others. No wonder I prefer this time of the day with how peaceful it is.
Listening to this playlist, I just want to go outside, somewhere where there's no buildings just nature, put my headphones on with this playing, lay down, and just look up at the beautiful night. Even if there's no stars, just the clouds or just the clear night sky. Feel the wind, listen to the music and enjoy the moment.
I would definitely do it, but it's - 20C, cuz I live in freakin' Russia.
These nights I want to go somewhere very very far or fall asleep and don't wake up, one of the two.
You should go on a cruise ship. The ocean is the most beautiful place to do it. I wish I had this playlist with the beautiful dark night mixed with the endless sky and vast unknown ocean. Watching the waves crash into this huge ship that seemlessly kept moving forward. I'm telling you at night time just leaning over the railings and even being at the tallest part of the ship at night. I never felt so fucking alive. Come back to this comment one day. I hope you do it. May your dreams come true.
michael canal no no...a nice meadow, over a field and across the dirt road, over the little stone wall that's falling apart, through the small copse of trees and to the meadow with the oaken tree in one corner...just lie down in the meadow and listen to the nights sounds and look at the stars.
@@hravandil9993 few of those kinds of places exist.... I think this comment section is one of those places
I would love to do that too, but just don’t go out into the middle of nowhere, there may be no wi-fi, heh
sometimes night like these are bad, really bad. sometimes they hurt so much. but sometimes these nights are good, they’re exactly what we need. we need a good cry, a good outlet, it’s to help is grow.
Exactly. Just a few days ago my family was asleep and i just listened to the music in minecraft while i played alone...i started to cry...i was sad and happy
You're so right. I broke up with my girlfriend tonight, this came up in my recommendations, and I cried to it. This hit me in a way nothing has in a long, long time. This night was bad, terrible in fact, but this helped me reflect and get over what happened. I feel just a little bit better now :)
I really hope everyone who wants to stargaze gets the opportunity to. I live in the forest, 20 miles from one city and 60 miles from the next, so I’m lucky enough to see the stars each night, the whole Milky Way, and I wish I could just share that with everyone
I don't stargaze enough ever since I left home and I miss it. Listening to this mix just brings back memories of sitting outside on a cool summers night and just watching the sky above. Admiring it's beauty, feeling awe at its incomprehensible vastness, knowing how incredibly lucky we are to allow the universe to view itself. An experience of a profound inner peace that I have not felt in a while since. I wonder if this is what our ancestors felt as they stared upwards. Not enough people seem to do it nowadays.
Zade Johnston there’s nothing quite like staring into deep space, it’s definitely a magical thing that you’ll always remember
Hope you get to see them again soon 🌙
@@Jujuoak thank you. I'm sorry for the paragraph, something about the late night, the music and your comment just made me want to say it. Enjoy your view 😊
I live in a city, I can never see the stars yet I love them so much
I'm happy when there's thunder tho, I'll stare at it
Early 2020 vibes. I remember listening to this almost every night while I was in one of the worst living situations of my life. So much has happened since then, so much has changed. I've made friends, lost them, formed new interests, moved on from them, had highs and lows, learned new things about myself, about the world, grown up, and 4 years later it's another one of those nights. I returned to this video to listen again, and to say thank you to whoever made this video, it means a lot to me.
Same man, same
one night, so many nights ago, i was chilling with a friend in a sofa. we were sooo high it felt it was the very last night of our lives... i then just wanted to play some music for the moment and this was what i first saw. we then just, idk bro, i really dont know how to describe it. the first fucking seconds of it got us both paralized. i then put my head on his shoulder and he put his head on mines, and we just, stay there, living the moment. i remember imagining so many scenarios while the music flowed... one of them i remember was like a cold sound, so white and silent, sigilous. the other one was yellow/green, warm, it was like a hug from long time no see. then the red flowers and the blood all at once... and then the last thing i remember before falling deeply asleep is me reading the title of the vid and repeting "do not forget the name, please, do not forget the name of the vid", but i sadly forgot... i really dont know how this was on a list in my recommendations now, and it sounded weird that it was a 30min vid long and couldnt just recall what was about, so i just clicked it... my god, the first notes, those goosebumbs, this is it, this is the vid, these are the songs from that night. i cant explain what im feeling right now. and if you are wondering, i am not longer friend of the person who i shared that moment with that night, so this is a gift for the heart mind body and soul. thank you for reading and pardon my english
If you were logged into UA-cam, you can check your video history.
hey, did you found it?
Yk when someone says bro unironically they’re a stoner
If you really loved this song you should definitely check out Message to Bear’s other tracks. They’re an excellent band.
Check history bro. 😂😅
This is just a gentle reminder: sometimes things need to fall apart before they can fall into place.
Good luck out there.
That's surprisingly a little comforting
@@quaord3738 I'm glad you found comfort in it. I've had to remind myself of this fact often.
were in this together my friend ;')
Your message has good intentions but from my life experience things just fall apart more with time and it seems my existence is being this monolithic isolated person stuck in a loop of despair. I have lived a ton of experiences. Lost my brother which is so massively painful. Blah blah blah. I have found a lot in life but i spend more time searching more than finding and when you do find it doesnt last. I hate woe is me types- but this is reality here. I dont just sit and rot. I dont live life on the bleachers speculating like a lot do, Im not a defeatist (hate that mentality) and yet still Im alone. ANd yes i can attract people but the world has changed massively in the past 15 years. "oh its just meant to be " Is a cop out. So im just meant to be alone and keep trying? Whats the definition of insanity again?
Hey @Dystopia, sorry to hear that things have been going crappy for a while, but you sound like someone with quite a resilient spirit!
I hope that something long lasting finds you, but if not, perhaps you can find life in knowing that you've handled everything that's come your way and you can probably handle anything that's still to come
I'm not sad or depressed, I was just looking over the comments and.. I hope you all are going to be okay. Love from Norway.
Me neither. I empathize with people as far as to feel the exact same pain as them even though it never happened to me. But I can imagine these occurrences so vividly as to act like I’ve experienced them. It’s complicated
Same here. Hope everyone who posted something here life will get better
How does that feel? I feel so alone lol... Around everybody 😅
Takk broder, håper alt går bra med deg også
lmfao your pfp
10-20 thousand years ago our ancestors had hard lives, but they didn't expect as much in life and they didn't concern themselves with what other people were doing... they lived in their small groups, they struggled, but they struggled for themselves and they were truly free. They saw some of the most amazing things to ever exist on this planet that are nothing but dust now. The world was an endless, untouched canvas, and the stars were undimmed. I feel like every night was one of those nights then. We've traded true freedom for relative comfort and entertainment via unfulfilling work, destroying that beautiful canvas, and constant stress because of the greed, violence and controlling nature of others. And yet, the truth shows through us, because we still yearn for that clear skied and starry with a chill in the air night, just beckoning us to peer into the wondrous, terrible, unfathomable dark and feel the universe move before we return to the ring of light around the fire
Make Nomadism Great Again
no one:
me: visibly sad
clorox ad: *violent bass boosted noise*
Frantic Faith Its things like this nobody expects on these videos. yet here you are making the saddened chuckle. Thank you.
Oh the mid roll ads
original meme template WHERED YOU GET IT
Armiter Lets be honest, theres literally no more possible original templates possible in youtube comments
you made this sadboi fuckin erupt with laughter LMAO
I was once homeless in the winter and one of the best days of my life was spent with this older woman in her 50s, and 2 older men sitting on a bench outside of a laundry mat all day. It was cold but the sun peeked out, a random woman bought us subs for lunch(my fav) and we had enough coins for ginger ale in the laundry mat vending machine. We just sat and laughed about random things all day long. It was peaceful and for once I had nothing to worry about. Not family, not bills, not anything. We just laughed and laughed. I was 25. I’m 29 now in a different state, living in my own house with a successful career. She’s dead. I don’t know what happened to the two guys. I have everything to worry about. Is it strange to say I miss it? Not being homeless or poor exactly. Just the freedom, the laughter, the peace. It was the best day of my life
It's not
treasuring memories from hurtful times will always be okay, it's those little sparks that keeps us jumping from point a to point b in life, hope everything goes well with you.
I used to be really stressed about life in general until I realised I could just hang every stress I have on god, he carries me anyways, why should I carry that stress too? I just trust him with all my heart and everything is going great, even in the pandemic time where income is really low
Materialism has ruined my life
It was one of those nights. Walked out into my school's courtyard after showing new parents around the school. Warm air, 8 pm, June. The clouds were floating with no remorse of existence. The day was tiring. Exhausting. Draining. But when I walked out of the cold, menacing corridor into the fresh, still air, I felt the most content I have been in a while. Teenagers. Laughing, giggling, talking freely to their friends on benches.
I walk up to my friends, who are all worry free. They are playing songs on the guitar and singing quietly. I join in. Dare I say it was the most peaceful I have ever been. It was quiet. Still. Yet lively. Something inside me clicked and I turned off. I became myself. For that hour. I became more myself than I have ever been. You could touch the sky. Feel the clouds. Everything was like in a Polaroid. Those ones that you see on Pinterest, just to realise that surely can never be you. But it was. For those moments it was me. It was us. And let me tell you. I was happy.
Woahh that sounds like a peaceful school anime setting. I can imagine how pretty it must've been 😯
Kinda cringe bro
@@ajesusencounter8261 anime gai
Мария З damn, you should be a writer or something cause that was hella creative
Underrated. I feel you, bro.
It’s been one of those nights for 3 years straight
We're here for u man x keep living the fight
Is it still? Don’t hesitate to ask for help
Going through same buddy straight 3 years now.. Hope everything will be great in the future all our wishes will come true... 🎉
I almost laughed and cried at the same time reading this comment
Since 2020 everything has been changed. Its just not the same anymore.
Since people are telling their stories, here's mine..
I'm 25 and never had a girlfriend, figured I was too ugly and awkward for it or something...
I made my peace with being alone forever until one day at work a beautiful girl became my colleague. Not even entertaining the thought of me having a chance I didn't even try to flirt or something, that was until she started flirting with me. At first I couldn't believe it, who in their right mind would be interested in me? I was overjoyed and started talking more and more with her. We shared a lot of interests and she was a real chill person.
After a while we went for some drinks one night and the evening was awesome. We talked and talked and we both really liked eachother, she touched my arm and I told her how cute she was when trying to act tough. At the end of the evening we were walking together to my bike, where she looked to me, I don't know if it was my lack of experience of awkwardness.. but I didnt kiss her but I know I should have. We went to the movies a week later but she wasn't as close anymore and nothing important happened that evening. She invited me to watch a movie at her house, but when I tried to sit closer to her she said she didn't like to be touched/to touch others so I saw that as a rejection. Then, a few weeks later we were walking when she said we were just friends and my heart just cracked, all my hopes gone.
After that she still texted me a lot and we talked a lot at work but it was not the same and now she doesn't even text anymore, I asked her to go out for some ice cream so I could tell her in private how I felt since I never actually said it but she said she was busy. She makes me happy just looking at her but at the same time it hurts me knowing that we won't be together even though I had a chance but I blew it.
I just hope the loneliness just numbs away again like it did for me most of my life.
Damn bro... I really felt that.
Move on.
I saw a girl I thought likes me falling in love with someone else
That tough budy
I’m genuinely sorry, I’m only 15 but I did a similar thing to a boy as the girl in your story did to you. I felt awful because he told me he liked me about a week after I realized I didn’t like him like that. But he is worthy of love, and so are you.
*The hard part is on one of these nights, you want to have someone to talk to about how you're feeling, and just reminisce on the events of the day, but there's no one there for you to talk to and you're left with no one to love you in the moment except yourself. This feeling of loneliness leaves me sad, knowing that I am the only one who understands what I'm feeling in the moment.*
I made the above comment last year, but as I've grown and changed as a person, I still get the same "one of those nights" feeling every now and then. It made me realize that maybe no matter where you are in life, no matter who you are as a person, you still might end up experiencing this feeling from time to time.
I still have yet to find a word for the feeling you get on "one of those nights", and I can imagine that a lot of you feel the same way. In the end, maybe it doesn't even matter that we don't have a word for these nights, anyway. After all, we're just here to reminisce with ourselves.
And so, in the light of that, I want to say that I am glad to have shared this moment with whoever might be reading this right now. I don't know you, hell, maybe I do, but for this short period of time, our minds have connected through this video. We're both feeling that same sense of the unexplained "one of those nights" together, and I'm glad to have that. I'm glad you're here experiencing it too, and I hope to see you again next time.
To whoever might be reading this, just know that tomorrow will treat you well.
Farewell and good luck. I'll see you next time, friend.
I understand this feeling completely.. yeah you've got friends and yes they care about you.. but that feeling of wanting to get texted first or actually have someone miss you is gut wrenching.. you just wish somebody could care about you as much as you do about then.. and when they don't, you realise you've got to look after yourself.. put yourself first and always make sure you're number 1 for you.. that's why it's so hard but also so easy to let people in to all the complicated parts about you.. you're afraid you'll share too much and they won't understand and if they did understand, would they care enough to stick around..
Thank you for this moment I got to share with you across the internet and actions the world to wherever you might be..
And to whoever else feels this as well, you know you're not alone.. we're all there together, in some strange and wonderful way :)
@@mr_typewriter :)
Melancholy, thats the feeling, thats the word to describe this
Im the same. I feel you bud.
i know a place where you can talk and with the right group of people they will listen, relate and share their own thoughts but never say anything negative. i have witnessed this sense of safety and freedom to talk about whatever is going on and not get criticized or talked down. It is a wonderful experience and its a game called vrchat, kinda like discord but more open and more social. though there are toxic people there will always be light at the end of the tunnel.
My night was fine a few minutes ago, but listening to this while reading the comment section turns my night into one of those night.
literally tho
The photo is nostalgic, the music too. I can't believe I'm here on this earth, I can't believe I wasted so much time feeling sad. I wish I could just feel that happiness again
Same here. :(
Where is this photo from? It is so nostalgic for some reason it make me feel special tell me pls
5 months of feeling this way, i completely get you
I spent the majority of my teenage years wishing I was dead, and even almost went through with ending it a few times. I'm so glad I didn't. I can never get that time back, but we can use the time we have now to do what makes us happy. Even if everything seems dark, there's always a light. Keep walking, keep breathing, keep living, and one day you will find it. It's faint, but I can see my light now -- Stay strong.
After twelve years in and out of treatment, numerous medications, hiding away and wanting to die, I finally found a program that is working for me. The fog is lifting, the darkness is fading, the tools are working. Don't give up. Keep trying. Do what ever you need to do to get yourself to a good place. You can't go back to where you were, but that doesn't mean you can't find happiness again ❤
"It is a terrible thing to learn as a child that one is a being separate from the world, that no one and no thing hurts along with one's burned tongues and skinned knees, that one's aches and pains are all one’s own. Even more terrible, as we grow old, to learn that no person, no matter how beloved, can ever truly understand us. Our own selves make us most unhappy, and that's why we're so anxious to lose them, don't you think?"
Donna Tartt, The Secret History
Riana Flores my ex gf gave me that book. I still have yet to read it. I can see now I need to as that statement is far too true. We are all truly alone aren’t we?
@@hazard1233 Hello! How are you? Have you read the book yet? And if so, what can you say about it? Sorry for the very late reply! And yes, i think no matter how much we are surrounded by people, we find ourselves still alone.
Riana Flores lol it’s okay that it’s late, I reorganized my room and only just found it recently, I plan to get back to reading it (I barely started it tbh) as soon as I’m done with my newest school project. I did, however, like what I read so far
It was mid-summer when my friend and I decided we wanted to go stargazing. Our other friends laughed at the idea of it - they thought it was childish.
We had no idea where we were going, we were just driving away. We turned up the music up and watched as the roads got narrower, the street lights became dimmer, and everything became stiller.
We parked at the side of a road and switched the car engine off. It was pitch dark and suddenly silent. The first step out the car was intimidating - almost as if something bad was bound to happen. But nothing happened; it was simply peaceful.
In the far distance we could see the city light illuminating the sky. We lied down in the middle of the road, despite our instincts telling us otherwise. We looked up and just opened our eyes to see thousands of burning balls of fire flashing their beauty. I had never seen so many stars before. Dare I say, it was magical.
I can relate, all my friends thought it was a stupid idea but they still text me bout that trip to this day
That gotta be so cool and peaceful.
I use to get out of home during nights especially when it rains, and sometimes, after everyone got home after a evening spent together with friends, I randomly feel sad and lonely. So I get in a random field so that I can get as far as possible from lights and then start watching the starry sky.
It was at the start of september when a bunch of people asked me to get to some sort of evening party to eat together. After it we just started wandering around in the city. I live near the mountains, so we got to a castle on the side of a mountain, not too far from town. At some point me and a friend decided we wanted to get back down before the others so we started running in the dark. At some point he asked me to put on an old song we used to play at the start of summer 2017: Comptine d'un autrè ètè, Gioli Remix. It's really peaceful and restores your will to live.
We decided we wanted to lie on the middle of the road the exact same way you did with your friend. Who would ever come on this mountain road that takes your nowhere at this time of the night? No one, we thought, so we were just waiting for the others to come with torches to see in the dark.
After a while we had been waiting, we did see lights. They were only two, tho. And they were really bright.
It was a car. I just screamed "HEY, GET UP YOU IDIOT, IT'S A CAR!"
And when the car went away we just started laughing like idiots and we enjoyed every bit of it.
I can say it was such a good time, for the short time it lasted.
I wish I could live in the light of the stars like you.
@@ziphyperap3369 oh god, I was panicking that the car hurt you.
beautifully written though.
@@flowerslovers5793 hehe, thank you. I consider this a nice goal since english is not my main language.
Imagine driving your car down a lonely road and seeing these two guys lying in front of you. You'd never trust darkness again. In fact, that driver took some seconds before driving away, while I was telling him that there was no one else on the road.
It was kinda embarrassing, I must say. But it was worth the moment.
I just love when people are just being humans. No judgements No motives no games no bad intentions nothing but understanding and love. I think thats what they meant when they said that "humans are social animals." I just love when humans think beyond themselves and selflessly exist. I mean just look at the smile of a person who just helped someone. Its even brighter than the one who they helped. Thats how everyone of us is feeling after reading the comments section. As if we are there for each other, even if for the brief period of time. The feeling of understanding someone and just knowing that we are there for them is in itself a beautiful feeling and thats why this comments section is so heartwarming. Its a proof that we humans have a heart. Just a beautiful reminder aint it?
Everyone has had one of those nights.
I wouldn't say they're depressing in and of themselves but rather, overwhelming and... existential? A night of thinking, a night of pondering. You let your thoughts and imagination run haywire, in the end you're nothing but a passenger.
They have no pattern, come at seemingly random and they're irrational and erratic, there's beauty in that.
Beautiful, those nights.
Very beautiful, I hope you have a wonderful life fellow human! I'm so happy we all feel similar emotions and have similar thoughts. We all give each other warmth and comfort through our human spirit
I think its true meaninglessnes, its beaufull isn´t it
Yeah it's wild. I honestly love those nights and everytime they happen i just drop everything and enjoy them. It feels like every song i listen to has an echo i never noticed before, and i can just sit there and listen to them for the rest of the night.
It’s unique to everyone but everybody knows what ‘one of those nights’ is, it’s a lovely shared experience that changes from person to person, and I hope your those nights you have will be better soon!
I feel like I’m always trying to chase that feeling. Especially on nights when I’m writing or drawing, I find that it’s a huge source of inspiration for me
I remember visiting the ocean once, standing alone on the pier, gazing up at the stars. The moon hung just above the ocean, the stars bright, the night sky reflecting off the waves, dancing in a blurry image of the sky, the gentle sound of crashing waves and the soft, October breeze blowing in my hair. It was so pretty, and I felt alone, but not sad. The beautiful image felt like it was mine and mine alone to enjoy, and I felt greatful for whatever had created something so beautiful, and for the gift of being able to experience it. That was a special night.
thats it
"How rare, and beautiful it is to even exists" -sleeping at last, Saturn
That was beautiful.
@@midnightcity4691 ayee I love that song
@@midnightcity4691 "I tried to write it down
, But I could never find a pen" so powerful. I wish i could write down everything
I commented once but then a song really hit me and reminded me of a memory.. I snuck out when I was 17 to go “hook up” with a girl. We watched the stars until 4am and then went home. We didn’t kiss, but we fell in love. It’s been 8 years and we’re engaged now. This playlist reminds me of that night.
i'm so happy for you two
Aaaaaaaa this makes me cry even harder. Im happey for you both, many blessings
@@pacin_0782 thank you, many blessings to you friend
Thats just beautiful. Congrats and good luck!
Wow it's so beautiful ✨
You truly need to feel really proud for the fact that you've created a playlist for that moments in our lives where we feel the most raw and deep as human beings.
I loved this girl. She brought me joy, tears, memories, and eventually heart break. She was one the only girls to ever meet me parents (I usually brought home troublesome girls who I was with the night before).
I went to her house one night, we got high, we laughed, watched movies, and eventually she told me she had feelings for me. I held onto her tight. I never wanted to let go. That night replays in my head over and over again, wishing I could go back to it.
We moved things slow. She was house sitting one night for a family friend, so I went and gave her company. She met my parents that night. We watched That 70's Show, I cooked for her, it was magical. Like I said, we moved things slow, so when I left, we had our first kiss. It was angelic.
I went home, said goodnight to her, and fell asleep. I woke up at 2am to find she was throwing a party. I called her over and over again, but when the phone finally answered, it wasnt her. "Yeah, shes busy with Andrew. Locked the door haha sorry mate". I cried myself to sleep. I cried for days on end, wondering what was wrong with me. I started to write songs about her, I started to get more and more into music, but also drugs.
Its funny to think she left a long time ago but is still killing me slowly.
Horky hey, i don’t know if thisll help, but I’ll write it anyway. if this seems abrupt, it probably is: forget her. she has to live every day remembering how she dropped you and tore you apart, and if she doesn’t, there’s a god that she’ll have to answer to; and she will be silent before him. it isn’t obvious to your eyes, but you didn’t go in the wrong. she abandoned you after you gave yourself to her, and it’s horrific that she would just, forget. i hope that this helps you in some way, and if you want to talk, or anything else, there’s many routes to take, and id be happy to be one. if you read this, stick around. you’ll find a way out. stay safe. ❤️
She didnt deserve you king
Hey hork, i hope youre doin well.
Care about ya, bud
maybe she wanted more...lust..maybe she wanted to move faster, maybe things werent right with her and she needed attention immediately.
some people are like that. others just dont care and do whatever. but thats okay because future you would be happy youre still here, future you would be married with kids maybe even. you would have met your soulmate and have lived such a happy, great life that your last words would be "thank you"
ty to your parents for bringing you into this earth. ty for all the memories you made w people. and most importantly, ty to that girl who broke your heart because she taught you how to move on from heart breka and heart ache. so move on. forget her. because there is someone out there waiting for your love ❤
Horky You’ve got your whole life ahead of you homie, just keep looking forward❤️ Those feelings of betrayal and hurt sting like a bitch, but experiencing them helps you grow as a person. I was in an abusive relationship for a long time and it was hell, but it’s the lessons you learn from bad relationships that help guide you towards one that will last
I just found my people. I am home.
We’re all bound for it, friend. We’re all heading home. It shifts away under us while we sleep, but every morning we dust ourselves off and go after it again.
@@humbleherald2163... and yet, here we are again. Welcome Home.
welcome home :’)
This makes me happy
We are home buddy, we are together now
maybe you are stargazing
maybe you just came back home from a late-night party,
maybe your parents aren't home and you are about to go to sleep alone,
maybe you are coming back from watching a movie at the theatre,
maybe you've come back from a long vacation and the realization hits you that you have to go back to reality,
maybe it's a Sunday before you have work or school the next day,
maybe you have lost someone or something you have loved...
this music describes the night that follows the events or situations that have just occurred....
DecaMav nice man
Listening on a Sunday rn... Issa vibe
How lucky we are to have such beautiful materpieces under the touch of our fingers, no need to go somewhere, pay someone to witness them, just a click is enough
A blessed reality I live in
There's this famous latin saying that really gets me recently.
"Per aspera, ad astra." means "Through hardships, to the stars."
It makes me feel better, and think that everything will be better at the end of the day.
We're all struggling in some degree. But we can get past this. We can achieve what we want.
this comment is the one that stopped me. thanks, i'll keep this phrase close.
@@vrchatstranger766 cheers!
Great saying. It's actually our home state's motto in Kansas, except ours is reversed in phrasing: Ad Astra Per Aspera
I instantly got the shivers after reading that quote. Thanks for sharing :D
To the stars.
i know this comment will likely get lost among a sea of comments but i wanted to say. i’m such a sucker for little things in life. the stars on a clear night, driving around on a summer night, walking on the beach, sunrises/sunsets, my little sisters smile, my moms hugs
same. i feel like when i had those things, i didn’t appreciate them much, but now i need those moments more than ever.
Ur the one who enjoys more than many if u keep enjoying of little things. While Im righting this Im crying cz u know Im tired of thinking of everything, and while Im just 20 lose my hair and all I remember of last 2 years is sadness cz I seaked for it. Almost all of people tell me Im like 30 years old men. Im sick of beeing old. Enjoying of lil thinks lets u remember happiness and thats what keeps u alive :'( enjoy anything cz realy there is nothing that can realy end by thinking. Now I feel like walking makes me enjoy so much. Guess wrote a letter lol enjoy ur life
"my moms hugs"
I couldn't live without those. Warm, soft. They make you feel like home.
Happiness lies in appreciating the little things in life :)
I used to be like that. I dont know, things in my life changed. I am lucky to have a good life and im still happy with my life, but its not like before. I cant really experience those moments anymore. I sometimes get close though, so hopefully i will get them back one day. Maybe im just trying too hard. Hope y'all are having one of those nights right now and inner peace
I was diagnosed with Anxiety and Depression due to trauma from my childhood. Recently, everything has been coming back and my whole world has been flipped upside down. Tonight was one of those nights where I felt like ending it. But I stumbled upon this playlist, and the comment section. And my night changed into a different definition of "one of those nights". In a good way. Whoever posted this, I would like to say thank you. You saved me.
I had a shit childhood too,well still but i just try to talk to people and open up it makes me feel like im not alone in this shit situation,its nice and i kinda feel happy knowing im not alone.
same here
You're doing good samii. I appreciate this thoughts- your braveness to opens up. May your comment will saves someone else, too.
i struggled with depression for many years. i still feel depressed sometimes, but life is a lot better! and that is something i never thought i’d say. there is hope. there is no secret of how to cure depression. it is simply a habit of changing your mindset slowly. in the morning when you wake up, instead of thinking “today is already horrible,” “i want to go back to bed,” “i want to die,” etc., force yourself (and i mean FORCE yourself) to think only positive things like “today is already a good day,” “i am excited for today,” “i want to do so many things today,” etc. basically have an incredibly optimistic conversation with yourself in the morning. like you are talking to a child. not in an over exaggerated way, but in a reassuring way. it’s not easy at first because depression makes it so you only ever want to think negatively about everything, but overtime it becomes routine. you start to believe your thoughts. some people call it ‘the law of attraction.’ it may not work for everyone for different reasons, but i encourage anyone reading this to give it a try. but regardless of your mindset, your feelings are valid always. if you ever need someone to talk to, my instagram is @jaylee.parker. anyone who reads this can message me at any time. i don’t care how old this comment is. i will always be someone you can talk to.
If you had been diagnosed then you have help, you will be ok soon, I'm fucked right now too.
I've been drawing while listening to these kinds of playlists on UA-cam and they've really helped me get in the mood when making dark post-apocalyptic scifantasy content. I also just started reading the comments and... goddamn... This place seems to have become something quite special, and I'm glad I happened upon it.
Love that genre! I bet the drawings are awesome
@@seanraggio3155 Thanks man! I do like how they've been coming along.
Possibly one of the greatest things in this world is just scrolling through these comments. Don't worry, no matter what happens, you'll be okay.
I know, I feel like I just found my people. I think I'll just play this vid on repeat for the rest of the day while I read every single one.
@@hackptui same
We read this comment with my friend Batu two months ago. It was a bad day for both of us. No matter what, we were saying everything will be fine. Now she is far away. Very sad for me. I miss her so much
I have cancer and I'm going to die one of these days, but hey, you said everything will be fine, it was as simple as saying that everything will be okay.
@Ngororero Boom It's a joke bro hahaha I was being sarcastic because things are not solved so easily ... I have to apologize I suppose
Since others are sharing stories I'll share mine. My life is boring. I have amazing parents and love most of my siblings. But its nights like these that I wish I was okay. I've been suicidal since the age of eleven. With many failed attempts, and the fact I was never hospitalized I felt like it was all in my head and that I should just get over it. Although life sucked, I was somehow making it through. Then it got worse. At the prime age of 16 and not even halfway through highschool I got sick. Soon I was diagnosed with a chronic illness that cant be cured. I wouldnt die from it but it affects my life everyday. I wish to be like a normal kid again. I wish my childhood wasnt taken from me. I always had medical problems. Scoliosis, asthma, a knee issue, etc. I could deal with those. But then I was diagnosed again. I cant even eat food without being swollen and in pain from it. I wish I could run away. Run away from the pills, the doctors, the people, all of it. I just want to act like it never happened. That I'm just a normal kid again. I want to go on road trips without worrying about bringing my 8 different medicines. I want to do stupid stuff and experience what getting high is like without fearing for my life. I want to work and make money. I want to be stupid and hang out with people and risk corona because it wont kill me. I wanna go to prom and not worry about how heavy the dress is or the fact I may want to go home early because I feel sick. I just want to experience what others get too. Sometimes you dont know how lucky you really are until it is too late. Thanks for reading if you did.
im so so sorry. I truly believe illnesses are such a living hell. I just wanted to maybe recommend trying some cbd oil or cbd products. Or even try getting into metaphysics? It might seem crazy at first but the mind is really powerful. You might not be able to get rid of the diagnosis itself, but you can lower the pain and even stop taking any meds.
@@michellesanchez8026 okay wait I might look into it! I'm at the point where I feel like my mental health is worse then my physical health and that's what's really bringing me down. Thank you so much for the recommendation tho I'll definitely check it out!
I’ve been there. I haven’t been able to get an education for 2 years due to my problems. It gets better. Once you get past the point where things keep getting worse, you start to appreciate and feel content with the few things you have left. The little things you can experience and enjoy become the very thing that keep you afloat.
Just make sure that you disregard anything you can’t do. Try to distance yourself from those “what if’s” or “im missing out.” The thoughts that only bring you down, try to only focus on the things that you can do. Dwelling on things that will not happen anytime soon will only break you even further.
Once I was able to master this, I started to lose the ability to know what it’s like to be truly disappointed or upset.
@@bigal.mackerel manifest with the law of attraction for healing,Ill manifest for you too
You're young by heart and never forget that..
I lost my brother to suicide a year ago. on those nights, this speaks into my soul and lifts a little bit of that pain off. beautiful.
- - i am sorry for your loss...
Sorry for your loss
My condolences. Couldn’t imagine what you’re going through.
Dear god, I am so sorry..
you’re a strong strong soul , thanks for sharing
I'm so glad i made it.
Listening to this takes me back to those nights.
But it also makes me realize i made it and i got through it and now i am fucking happy.
Life is a wonderful gift and worth every second. Come bad times, come good times, all shape us and make us who we are.
Honestly i am just glad to be here. The mix is beautiful and so are you.
Fellow person who made it. I am so proud of you, I am so proud of me, I am so proud of everyone who finds the strength to get up every single day and breathe. Crazy how life works, I never knew I was on the right path until one day it just worked out. Thankful, hopeful, and happy.
I'm with you. Just glad we made it. Hell yeah, life's good
Currently going threw a hard time, thank you