curantly going through this like ocd distorts what were your intentions or gives you a whole story that feels real but then when you debunk it and realize oh it was ocd just lying to me but the it comes back
@MrCaprisun2099 hey honestly it does get better ! I literally wanted to die over this but I'm so glad I could get through it. Try to live a little and get out of youre head !
I’m pretty sure I have this because I’m the kind of person that Has to have every single little question answered in order to be sure about certain things. Because if ONE question goes unanswered, I’ll usually have anxiety
I suffer with this and it’s by far the most difficult thing I’ve ever dealt with . It even takes my intrusive thoughts and thinks I do some of them it’s so confusing
I do too. But hear me out: Things will get better. It's so f*****g difficult, I think many of us here in the comment section know that. It's a hellhole, but if you're reading this, *youre doing great* . You will rise past it with help from professionals (if you can find some), friends, family and with a while lot of self work. I'm going through the wringer with it myself. I thought it was PTSD and believed everything it was telling me. I even had therapy for PTSD, but turns out it was OCD, and just now after just over a year of near endless trauma am I reaching out fir the help I need. It's difficult, it's given me the most toughest battles life has thrown at me. But There is a happy ending. For you, for all of us. Keep your head high. When you get up out of bed, it's courage. Every passing day you are doing something amazing by taking the day head on. You are amazing. You will be rid of this, or as least tame it. Have faith in yourself and trust the process. I wish you all the best fellow FMOCD person. Take care of yourself.
A story: So i have False Memory OCD. I spent the least year thinking it was PTSD, and so i believed every lie it was telling me. I spent so many nights shaking to sleep and was living in a hellhole. But YESTERDAY i decided to redearch what it was. I kept on looking up 'delusional memory from anxiety', 'delusional memory from PTSD', and i came across these videos. I checked them out and BAM; I had never related so much to these videos and peoples experiences. I feel so relieved that im.not going crazy, that im not the only one. I looked back through my life and realised that i have had the same thought process throughout it. Realising i have had OCD my entire life and that it takes trauma to unlock it has been horrific. I wish all my fellow FMOCD brothers, sisters, and ENBY siblings a very cosy night. You all deserve it.
I have this and it’s hell everyday I feel tired I feel guilty and anxious for things that never even happen I try to deny the things I did in these memory’s but that makes it worse every night before I sleep I have to ask did I do that or this and it’s painful to think about I feel like i don’t deserve anything I feel like I’m lying to people when I’m not I hate this feeling and I want I to stop everytime it dose stop it comes back and even worse and I feel guilt and anxious my mind keeps telling me I should be ashamed of myself and sometimes I don’t even know for what and I just agree with my mind but for some reason I feel like I deserve this
Oh my gosh. For YEARS I’ve suffered in anguish at times trying to accurately recall something horrific I fear I’ve done in the past... I can’t fathom how in logical actuality but I have never been able to shake this very foggy and butchered “ memory “….I am also in recovery and spent the last 20 years of my like often blacked out and or totally disoriented from alcohol, including when this event may have“ happened “. It’s gotten so bad I can almost recall trying to cover up the evidence the next day in my mind and it’s like this ridiculous movie. It’s just not possible though I could never live with myself. I’ve always had a conscience that would NEVER allow such a horrific situation to be swept under the rug…It makes me feel crazy and honestly incapable of functioning at times because of the guilt and shame and fear. I’ve tried to look up false memories before but I never know this was an actual syndrome. I do have ocd and ptsd from childhood. I feel like watching this was a gift from God for some peace… finally.
I understand this perfectly! My ocd takes advantage of times in my life that are foggy to tell me I’ve done terrible disgusting things but I’ve always had a very strong conscience and been very empathetic so it wouldn’t make any sense that I did those things
I have this voice in my head telling me that I did a thing which I would not do. But then I get images of me doing it and that voice is saying that i did do it. All of that is just making me insane. Sometimes I can’t get any sleep, i don’t do anything as days go by. Also having constant thoughts about what my friends would think of me if I indeed do that thing.
Hi, fellow FMOCD bromie. I recently discovered that I have FMOCD, and I just want to tell you something that's very important: You will get through this, even though it seems hard now. Go and seek help from professionals, friends or loved ones. Your soul is too precious to be taken down by OCD. If you're reading this, it means you're tackling each day. Even getting out of bed every day is brave and admirable. There is a future of brightness and happiness waiting for you. And I know that your head is doing its darnest to hesitate and call BS. Don't listen to it. You have a lot to offer the world, and that voice, I know the one you're talking about, will be gone for good. You will be free of it one day. You're strong, you will get through this. There is hope 🌱
The key thing is that the person feels personally responsible for everything that happens and will then do something to avoid the guilt of the situation
I had a lot of false memory OCD around zoom. I still think I've accidentally sent personal files in a zoom chat or that I was unmuted in a zoom class and people heard me say something embarrassing. I have gone back and watched class recordings where I thought I was unmuted and I wasn't...but then I think maybe the professor edited it out to protect me before posting or something. I still hold shame around it. It's really annoying. The more stressed/tired I am, the worse it gets. I have false memories of sending embarrassing messages in my college group chat. Even though I scroll back and can physically see that I never sent anything, I will assume someone else deleted it to help me save face or that I deleted it and forget (even though it would say "message unsent"!). It's debilitating and I carry so much shame because I think I did these things and that other people are judging me for them.
I have been dealing with a similar situation. I recently got a new phone and didn't remember if i reset it in front of the store manager. It bothered me for a week thinking that this manager had stolen my private information and pics of my partner. I googled who he was, where he's from and just tried to find every detail about him to prove his innocence or guilt. I went to the phone store to even see if there were cameras and to make myself familiar with him, thinking he'd shows signs of guilt.. he didn't even recognize me and he didn't seem suspicious, but for some reason I have been convincing myself he took my information. I am now over the situation and its gotten a lot better but sometimes my mind tries to convince me that im guilty of not resetting the phone.. Sounds ridiculous now that i've typed it out completely. but i hope all is well with you and you've worked on it.
Its helped me to tell myself im not interested in examining this or why should i waste my time examining something that is futile. It still comes up but it helps
@@DogMommy. So recently I had step backs and Ive done the hardest thing yet and decide to accept myself no matter what. I dont agree that it happened or try to fight. I just say I accept myself for who I am no matter what has happened in my life. Its very hard at first but soon you realize some things
@@johnbonamigo5696 I hope so. I feel like it for better for a week then all the sudden came back stronger. Hope one day I recover. I feel like I'm living a lie . And it sucks .
I’m going through this right now and it’s hell. I keep telling myself that I’ve been through it before and I will get through it again but it’s not really helping
I have this condition, but a more mild variation of it It’s easy to detect false memories if I don’t have any anxiety/palpitations, don’t feel guilt or forget about the false memory within a week But it’s still a painful ordeal to live through
I've had this for month now and I feel like I'm loosing my mind . I recently told my boyfriend I was this and he thinks I'm going crazy now 😭🥺 I'm so sad
i have this but it’s over my phone, sometimes i move my phone or take my phone out of my pocket and my brain completely erases what actually happened and created this story that i dropped me phone when i actually didn’t. this leaves me questioning it all day until the next one comes along and i forget about the previous one.
I do Uber I feel like this all the time and I’ll circle the block and I have bumpy uneven roads in my city so it’s not uncommon for the drive to get bumpy. Sometimes I try to overcome this and I don’t go back and I’m paranoid I hit somebody even tho I don’t remember hitting anybody or even seeing a person or hearing a sound just because my car has a bumpy feel when I drive. Today for example it happened to me when I was rushing to check my door because I was worried I didn’t lock it properly or my dog got out when I left. Only a 5 minute distance after I went in real quick and went back I didn’t see anyone or ambulance or cops or anything but I’m so paranoid I did. I even looked in the front and back of my car and under and everything looks normal and fine. I have severe anxiety and I’m under a lot of stress in my life. I often will circle my block a few times or head back home when I’m a few blocks away because I’m worried my dog got out or that I didn’t lock the door. I’m kind of crazy when I think about it like I’m sane I’m just under a lot of stress. It’s hard for me to distinguish false thought and reality sometimes. Iv been so paranoid I keep checking the news to see if anything pops up but I don’t see anything I get extra paranoid with this because I feel like the justice system doesn’t believe people if they say they have no recollection of something. I’ll be looking at the news all week and be paranoid and anxious. I refuse to take medication because I know it dumbs a lot of people down and I don’t want to feel like a shell of myself
Literally went back to the same spot 7 times today to try to replicate the exact feel of bumpyness. I know I have mental illness but I’m intelligent and creative so I wear it as a badge of honor but it does burden my life if im being honest
ive been dealin with false memories / ocd since I was a child, my mind kept making up things, mackerel was tuna, my parents kept scolding me becuz "why wont you remember a single important thing correctly even when we worked so hard to feed you day and night." I was 4 y.o. at that time, my bbsitter (aka my aunt) always beat me up with the hanger,belt and a few slap to the face every single day becuz i cant do any chores correctly as my "mind" always processed every word coming out of her mouth incorrectly "dont forget to close the oven everytime you use it." to "dont forget to check the fridge's wire." yep, pretti crazy understanding. I also have been dealin with constant deja vus and short temp memories which makes me forget things i want to remember.
Sir I have that problem and I loose control sometimes I fear I can loose control and fear is too much even at that time my heart are not physically but damage because of fear because I can cross the limit of ocd I forgot that time loose control but I am future doctor good person I have want to become bad but I have kind heart ocd fuok you I am doctor
Can OCD make you think 1. you JUST tried to do something bad (like hit someone), or 2. that you ARE going to _in the moment._ False memory about the past is absolutely a thing in OCD, but what about _in the moment_ ? Like, "Did I JUST try to...?" Or _in the moment,_ "I'm gonna do this," YET you weren't ACTUALLY gonna do it, it was just a false "intention" triggered randomly. You felt it, you thought you were about to do it, you "consciously" planned to _in the moment_ until you snapped out of it, realized right from wrong, or you didn't do it. Is either a thing in OCD? Let's use _in the moment_ in a different context to clarify. Someone comes at you with an open hand out, so consciously/subconsciously, you dodge.
Yes, yes absolutely! So many people have experienced this, it’s a huge part of OCD! If this beings you and solace, False Memory OCD still falls under OCD, meaning that you could still have symptoms from general OCD. *What you’re experiencing is intrusive thoughts.* I have FMOCD, and even with it I get them all of the time. You are not alone and it is completely valid and fact.
@@Muzansleftshoe Well, like I said, I don't mean in the _past._ I mean, in the _moment._ "I intend to hit this person" or "I _just_ intended to hit this person"
I think that my memories have gone, I am scared to think or go out, I am scared to do anything, then I think where I am living, it is my home, it is my children, it is my relatives, so first Like why can't you remember, I am scared, what is this? Plz any one help
That scary part is that it feels so real . And it's like u know one min that's its you're ocd but yet it feels so real
Exactly one minute it feels so undoubtably real and the next it doesn’t feel real at all and is obviously the ocd
Yeah. I hate having such an uncertain, wildly fluctuating grip on reality… I feel like I’m going insane.
curantly going through this like ocd distorts what were your intentions or gives you a whole story that feels real but then when you debunk it and realize oh it was ocd just lying to me but the it comes back
@MrCaprisun2099 hey honestly it does get better ! I literally wanted to die over this but I'm so glad I could get through it. Try to live a little and get out of youre head !
@@DogMommy.💙💙 glad you’re doing better. God bless you
Just had a false memory OCD episode and this described it exactly.
Did you ever through this and if so how ?
I’m pretty sure I have this because I’m the kind of person that Has to have every single little question answered in order to be sure about certain things. Because if ONE question goes unanswered, I’ll usually have anxiety
Thank you NOCD for being there to help us who are suffering with this cruel OCD disease!!
I pray for all of you who say they have this. I do too. Hes right. Give it time. The clouds will move out.
I hope so because there not moving over there 🥺
I suffer with this and it’s by far the most difficult thing I’ve ever dealt with . It even takes my intrusive thoughts and thinks I do some of them it’s so confusing
I do too. But hear me out:
Things will get better. It's so f*****g difficult, I think many of us here in the comment section know that. It's a hellhole, but if you're reading this, *youre doing great* . You will rise past it with help from professionals (if you can find some), friends, family and with a while lot of self work. I'm going through the wringer with it myself. I thought it was PTSD and believed everything it was telling me. I even had therapy for PTSD, but turns out it was OCD, and just now after just over a year of near endless trauma am I reaching out fir the help I need.
It's difficult, it's given me the most toughest battles life has thrown at me.
But
There is a happy ending. For you, for all of us. Keep your head high. When you get up out of bed, it's courage. Every passing day you are doing something amazing by taking the day head on. You are amazing. You will be rid of this, or as least tame it. Have faith in yourself and trust the process. I wish you all the best fellow FMOCD person. Take care of yourself.
A story: So i have False Memory OCD. I spent the least year thinking it was PTSD, and so i believed every lie it was telling me. I spent so many nights shaking to sleep and was living in a hellhole. But YESTERDAY i decided to redearch what it was. I kept on looking up 'delusional memory from anxiety', 'delusional memory from PTSD', and i came across these videos. I checked them out and BAM; I had never related so much to these videos and peoples experiences. I feel so relieved that im.not going crazy, that im not the only one. I looked back through my life and realised that i have had the same thought process throughout it. Realising i have had OCD my entire life and that it takes trauma to unlock it has been horrific.
I wish all my fellow FMOCD brothers, sisters, and ENBY siblings a very cosy night. You all deserve it.
I have this and it’s hell everyday I feel tired I feel guilty and anxious for things that never even happen I try to deny the things I did in these memory’s but that makes it worse every night before I sleep I have to ask did I do that or this and it’s painful to think about I feel like i don’t deserve anything I feel like I’m lying to people when I’m not I hate this feeling and I want I to stop everytime it dose stop it comes back and even worse and I feel guilt and anxious my mind keeps telling me I should be ashamed of myself and sometimes I don’t even know for what and I just agree with my mind but for some reason I feel like I deserve this
I'm sorry I can't help but to smile when reading because I'm not the only one feeling this way and u just explain how I feel .
It's just getting worse for.me . It's weird because I never worried about this stuff before
R u ok now ?
I’m sorry, miles. I know exactly the weighty feeling you just described…
I've been feeling like this for going on 3 years...
Oh my gosh. For YEARS I’ve suffered in anguish at times trying to accurately recall something horrific I fear I’ve done in the past... I can’t fathom how in logical actuality but I have never been able to shake this very foggy and butchered “ memory “….I am also in recovery and spent the last 20 years of my like often blacked out and or totally disoriented from alcohol, including when this event may have“ happened “.
It’s gotten so bad I can almost recall trying to cover up the evidence the next day in my mind and it’s like this ridiculous movie. It’s just not possible though I could never live with myself. I’ve always had a conscience that would NEVER allow such a horrific situation to be swept under the rug…It makes me feel crazy and honestly incapable of functioning at times because of the guilt and shame and fear.
I’ve tried to look up false memories before but I never know this was an actual syndrome. I do have ocd and ptsd from childhood. I feel like watching this was a gift from God for some peace… finally.
I understand this perfectly! My ocd takes advantage of times in my life that are foggy to tell me I’ve done terrible disgusting things but I’ve always had a very strong conscience and been very empathetic so it wouldn’t make any sense that I did those things
It happens when I'm sober, but being a drinker, that's always when it's worst. And the false memories even take the form of dreams now.
These short videos are great. Thanks
I have this voice in my head telling me that I did a thing which I would not do. But then I get images of me doing it and that voice is saying that i did do it. All of that is just making me insane. Sometimes I can’t get any sleep, i don’t do anything as days go by. Also having constant thoughts about what my friends would think of me if I indeed do that thing.
Hi, fellow FMOCD bromie. I recently discovered that I have FMOCD, and I just want to tell you something that's very important:
You will get through this, even though it seems hard now. Go and seek help from professionals, friends or loved ones. Your soul is too precious to be taken down by OCD. If you're reading this, it means you're tackling each day. Even getting out of bed every day is brave and admirable. There is a future of brightness and happiness waiting for you. And I know that your head is doing its darnest to hesitate and call BS. Don't listen to it. You have a lot to offer the world, and that voice, I know the one you're talking about, will be gone for good. You will be free of it one day. You're strong, you will get through this. There is hope 🌱
@@occasionalclipsiguess6969heyyy! Thank you for writing those kind words❤ I wanna know if you have gotten better and how?
Hell is real and it’s OCD
I believe I have this, and it's been ongoing for months now.
Read Ephesians 6
you will get through this❤️ I have the same thing, it is hell. absolute hell. but you can do this, take care of yourself 💗
@@jesuslovesyou2946 what does that have to do with anything?
Did you get better
@@Alritealritealrite fr that's what I'm sayin 🤦♂️
The key thing is that the person feels personally responsible for everything that happens and will then do something to avoid the guilt of the situation
I had a lot of false memory OCD around zoom. I still think I've accidentally sent personal files in a zoom chat or that I was unmuted in a zoom class and people heard me say something embarrassing. I have gone back and watched class recordings where I thought I was unmuted and I wasn't...but then I think maybe the professor edited it out to protect me before posting or something. I still hold shame around it. It's really annoying. The more stressed/tired I am, the worse it gets. I have false memories of sending embarrassing messages in my college group chat. Even though I scroll back and can physically see that I never sent anything, I will assume someone else deleted it to help me save face or that I deleted it and forget (even though it would say "message unsent"!). It's debilitating and I carry so much shame because I think I did these things and that other people are judging me for them.
I have been dealing with a similar situation. I recently got a new phone and didn't remember if i reset it in front of the store manager. It bothered me for a week thinking that this manager had stolen my private information and pics of my partner. I googled who he was, where he's from and just tried to find every detail about him to prove his innocence or guilt. I went to the phone store to even see if there were cameras and to make myself familiar with him, thinking he'd shows signs of guilt.. he didn't even recognize me and he didn't seem suspicious, but for some reason I have been convincing myself he took my information. I am now over the situation and its gotten a lot better but sometimes my mind tries to convince me that im guilty of not resetting the phone.. Sounds ridiculous now that i've typed it out completely. but i hope all is well with you and you've worked on it.
What now ? Just prank hhhh you send nothing
Im going through this right now.
Dude The similarities to my own are so surreal
I struggle with this. I’m having an episode now and it’s the worst feeling
Its helped me to tell myself im not interested in examining this or why should i waste my time examining something that is futile. It still comes up but it helps
I just feel like I'm never getting better
@@DogMommy. So recently I had step backs and Ive done the hardest thing yet and decide to accept myself no matter what. I dont agree that it happened or try to fight. I just say I accept myself for who I am no matter what has happened in my life. Its very hard at first but soon you realize some things
@@johnbonamigo5696 I hope so. I feel like it for better for a week then all the sudden came back stronger. Hope one day I recover. I feel like I'm living a lie . And it sucks .
I’m going through this right now and it’s hell. I keep telling myself that I’ve been through it before and I will get through it again but it’s not really helping
I have this condition, but a more mild variation of it
It’s easy to detect false memories if I don’t have any anxiety/palpitations, don’t feel guilt or forget about the false memory within a week
But it’s still a painful ordeal to live through
I've had this for month now and I feel like I'm loosing my mind . I recently told my boyfriend I was this and he thinks I'm going crazy now 😭🥺 I'm so sad
this is an extremely helpful and powerful video
I’m dealing with the same stuff I have false memories
I would have this graphic image in my head and I'd be like did my brain create this image or is it true. It's horrible...
:o spot on!!!!
i have this but it’s over my phone, sometimes i move my phone or take my phone out of my pocket and my brain completely erases what actually happened and created this story that i dropped me phone when i actually didn’t. this leaves me questioning it all day until the next one comes along and i forget about the previous one.
I do Uber I feel like this all the time and I’ll circle the block and I have bumpy uneven roads in my city so it’s not uncommon for the drive to get bumpy. Sometimes I try to overcome this and I don’t go back and I’m paranoid I hit somebody even tho I don’t remember hitting anybody or even seeing a person or hearing a sound just because my car has a bumpy feel when I drive. Today for example it happened to me when I was rushing to check my door because I was worried I didn’t lock it properly or my dog got out when I left. Only a 5 minute distance after I went in real quick and went back I didn’t see anyone or ambulance or cops or anything but I’m so paranoid I did. I even looked in the front and back of my car and under and everything looks normal and fine. I have severe anxiety and I’m under a lot of stress in my life. I often will circle my block a few times or head back home when I’m a few blocks away because I’m worried my dog got out or that I didn’t lock the door. I’m kind of crazy when I think about it like I’m sane I’m just under a lot of stress. It’s hard for me to distinguish false thought and reality sometimes. Iv been so paranoid I keep checking the news to see if anything pops up but I don’t see anything I get extra paranoid with this because I feel like the justice system doesn’t believe people if they say they have no recollection of something. I’ll be looking at the news all week and be paranoid and anxious. I refuse to take medication because I know it dumbs a lot of people down and I don’t want to feel like a shell of myself
Literally went back to the same spot 7 times today to try to replicate the exact feel of bumpyness. I know I have mental illness but I’m intelligent and creative so I wear it as a badge of honor but it does burden my life if im being honest
This anxiety has made me feel suicidal at times
Does real event and false memory go hand in hand?
Yes
So I took the trash to the curb and my mom says I never did and I just walked back I'm confused
ive been dealin with false memories / ocd since I was a child, my mind kept making up things, mackerel was tuna, my parents kept scolding me becuz "why wont you remember a single important thing correctly even when we worked so hard to feed you day and night." I was 4 y.o. at that time, my bbsitter (aka my aunt) always beat me up with the hanger,belt and a few slap to the face every single day becuz i cant do any chores correctly as my "mind" always processed every word coming out of her mouth incorrectly "dont forget to close the oven everytime you use it." to "dont forget to check the fridge's wire." yep, pretti crazy understanding. I also have been dealin with constant deja vus and short temp memories which makes me forget things i want to remember.
I am so sorry 😞
Have this really bad
me too bro 🤕
Me to. 🥺
I remember saying things to people that i never said to anyone
Sir I have that problem and I loose control sometimes I fear I can loose control and fear is too much even at that time my heart are not physically but damage because of fear because I can cross the limit of ocd I forgot that time loose control but I am future doctor good person I have want to become bad but I have kind heart ocd fuok you I am doctor
Can OCD make you think 1. you JUST tried to do something bad (like hit someone), or 2. that you ARE going to _in the moment._ False memory about the past is absolutely a thing in OCD, but what about _in the moment_ ? Like, "Did I JUST try to...?" Or _in the moment,_ "I'm gonna do this," YET you weren't ACTUALLY gonna do it, it was just a false "intention" triggered randomly. You felt it, you thought you were about to do it, you "consciously" planned to _in the moment_ until you snapped out of it, realized right from wrong, or you didn't do it. Is either a thing in OCD? Let's use _in the moment_ in a different context to clarify. Someone comes at you with an open hand out, so consciously/subconsciously, you dodge.
Yes, yes absolutely! So many people have experienced this, it’s a huge part of OCD! If this beings you and solace, False Memory OCD still falls under OCD, meaning that you could still have symptoms from general OCD. *What you’re experiencing is intrusive thoughts.* I have FMOCD, and even with it I get them all of the time. You are not alone and it is completely valid and fact.
@@Muzansleftshoe Well, like I said, I don't mean in the _past._ I mean, in the _moment._ "I intend to hit this person" or "I _just_ intended to hit this person"
I think that my memories have gone, I am scared to think or go out, I am scared to do anything, then I think where I am living, it is my home, it is my children, it is my relatives, so first Like why can't you remember, I am scared, what is this? Plz any one help
This is literally me. It’s hell. I’ve been suicidal over it.
what are your thoughts?
I fear one day theyll find a body and my ocd will finally be proven right.
I have this
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Dr
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