It has been nearly 5 years now, and I still think of the same real event that makes me feel like a monster with no irredeemability. The guilt and shame has nearly cost me my life. I want the pain to stop. I want to believe I am a good person, but I do not know. [edit: thank you for the replies, they truly mean a lot]
The thing is we search for false labels, what its a good or a bad person? Which exact percentage of good or bad makes one label or another? Which specific actions feed more the percentage to one side or another? Good and Bad person is a societal useful label for social end but ITS NOT REAL ON ITSELF. I use this example: We say -> I saw this or that, I can see him, but no, that's a practical term, because what your eyes see is light on top of matter, not matter on itself. When you think fully rationally OCD dies.
I am praying the lies end and the Lord sends you truth as the waves of the ocean which are unstoppable. I pray kindness turns into a way of living and just as the rivers of lies/fear that have carved pathways of thought in your mind, i pray new floods of love and protection of your peace , creates a new system of thought flowing in your mind. rerouting all the bad into the best life for you and your family ❤In Jesus name Amen 🙏
Thank you! For me, this has been the hardest theme for me to learn to handle but listening to you describe it reaffirms to me that it is OCD and that the ERP will work if I stick with it.
Thanks. I feel like i imagined what someone feels about me & i feel like im crazy & no matter what i cant get any answers & it has dragged on for years. I still dont have any answers but maybe it's less important now. Im trying to let go.
I didnt write message or visited my coworker in hospital and she died. I know she had friends, but she also trusted me, but I just was running with life and wasn’t so attentive and she died. I regret that I was bad person, I ruminate that she maybe died angry or disappointed in me that I wasn’t there for her. I always helped when she asked, but I never offered my help more than text- if what, don’t hesitate to write me. I suffer also from ocd and I can’t get out of my head that I should did better and I will always regret it and it will ruin my now.
How about if I got a thought in the past and I was able to disregard it but now that my OCD has flared up again it has latched to that thought and now its making me believe that I might have had that thought for reasons that I know aren't true. Can OCD do that make you doubt into believing things you know in your heart it didn't mean anything when you had that thought in the first place while OCD wasnt active.
I was feeling the same, now after monthes of obsessions, I've started to think I really did what I did without any doubt. What I did was no where close to what other people with real event or false memory ocd did. I don't deserve to live. I don't have access to pistol in my country and I can't obtain it illegally either. I've already purchased rope and thinking of hanging myself but only thing that stops me is my parents and how would they feel after I kill myself and also fear of hell. I can't breathe anymore, I feel pain in my chest everyday. I don't do anything but sleep the whole day and almost eat nothing.
i am dealing with the same thing. i have horrible false memories to the point I literally feel like I’m going to throw up and faint. I feel like I do not deserve happiness or to live, I hate this and I’m scared to talk to someone about it
I fear I have crossed a moral line that can never be uncrossed, I feel like I can never be fixed. The sad part, I truly believe this while I haven’t done anything to deliberately hurt anyone or anything.
You know, thinking about a past event may have nothing to do with OCD. I have OCD, but it isn't why I feel bad about my past mistakes, like at work. Especially when commenters on UA-camrs don't ease up on the shaming.
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder attacks many things you care about. You're looking for reassurance, though. Stop it :P it makes the OCD worse in the long term
That’s a good question though bc say for example someone molested someone years ago, and now they’re going over it cause they do actually have OCD.. then it’s like sucky cause it’ll be Real Event OCD or possibly False Memory OCD? So fd up dude
There is SOOOO MUCH MORE than this. Psychology cannot explain away guilt with OCD. Where is the information about correction of the wrong????? The psychology has quickly lowerd the morality of society, and created jobs for psychologyists like him.
Unfortunately, you don't know what you're talking about. You could correct every wrong that you have done or has been done to you across your whole lifetime, atone for your guilt, become a saint, be given full public exoneration by God himself but OCD would still find a way to make you doubt your own thoughts. This is not about the events, it is about uncertainty and doubt, period. Educate yourself before you throw in nonsense comments like these.
"OCD is punishing you already for whatever is in your head" Sad but true!
I actually started crying at that point. Completely unexpectedly.
I felt relieved and started crying after this sentence!
@@lora422 SAME.
It is such a relief knowing you’re not alone with a sickness, which is very hard to explain.
It has been nearly 5 years now, and I still think of the same real event that makes me feel like a monster with no irredeemability. The guilt and shame has nearly cost me my life. I want the pain to stop. I want to believe I am a good person, but I do not know.
[edit: thank you for the replies, they truly mean a lot]
The thing is we search for false labels, what its a good or a bad person? Which exact percentage of good or bad makes one label or another? Which specific actions feed more the percentage to one side or another?
Good and Bad person is a societal useful label for social end but ITS NOT REAL ON ITSELF.
I use this example: We say -> I saw this or that, I can see him, but no, that's a practical term, because what your eyes see is light on top of matter, not matter on itself.
When you think fully rationally OCD dies.
It’s your mind not what actually happened
We can talk in privare if you need, can you give me a way to contact you?
I am praying the lies end and the Lord sends you truth as the waves of the ocean which are unstoppable.
I pray kindness turns into a way of living and just as the rivers of lies/fear that have carved pathways of thought in your mind, i pray new floods of love and protection of your peace , creates a new system of thought flowing in your mind. rerouting all the bad into the best life for you and your family ❤In Jesus name Amen 🙏
This is me.... Dear God help each one of us who struggles in this area .and our family members too
in Jesus name ! Amen❤
You might’ve just saved my life
Are you doing better?
please reply
@@Harvey-02 I’m still struggling, but I know someday everything will be okay. Thanks for asking ❤️
Keep fighting and there will always be something better in life
Thank you! For me, this has been the hardest theme for me to learn to handle but listening to you describe it reaffirms to me that it is OCD and that the ERP will work if I stick with it.
This video is absolute gold. So well explained and will help many people including myself.
thanks for making this!
Great video. Thanks
I struggle with this a lot . It's torturous.
Wow thank you so much for this
It is all depend how Strong the ocd is .. sometimes intervention with pills is necessary*
Thank u❤
Thanks. I feel like i imagined what someone feels about me & i feel like im crazy & no matter what i cant get any answers & it has dragged on for years. I still dont have any answers but maybe it's less important now. Im trying to let go.
This is how my brain works 😢
I didnt write message or visited my coworker in hospital and she died. I know she had friends, but she also trusted me, but I just was running with life and wasn’t so attentive and she died. I regret that I was bad person, I ruminate that she maybe died angry or disappointed in me that I wasn’t there for her. I always helped when she asked, but I never offered my help more than text- if what, don’t hesitate to write me. I suffer also from ocd and I can’t get out of my head that I should did better and I will always regret it and it will ruin my now.
How about if I got a thought in the past and I was able to disregard it but now that my OCD has flared up again it has latched to that thought and now its making me believe that I might have had that thought for reasons that I know aren't true. Can OCD do that make you doubt into believing things you know in your heart it didn't mean anything when you had that thought in the first place while OCD wasnt active.
I fear I might have committed a grievous crime… i am so scared
I was feeling the same, now after monthes of obsessions, I've started to think I really did what I did without any doubt. What I did was no where close to what other people with real event or false memory ocd did. I don't deserve to live. I don't have access to pistol in my country and I can't obtain it illegally either. I've already purchased rope and thinking of hanging myself but only thing that stops me is my parents and how would they feel after I kill myself and also fear of hell. I can't breathe anymore, I feel pain in my chest everyday. I don't do anything but sleep the whole day and almost eat nothing.
Please seek help. There is always another way. You are loved and deserve to be happy again ❤
@@callumstefanelli4039 some crimes are irredeemable, I am in that category.
i am dealing with the same thing. i have horrible false memories to the point I literally feel like I’m going to throw up and faint. I feel like I do not deserve happiness or to live, I hate this and I’m scared to talk to someone about it
I fear I have crossed a moral line that can never be uncrossed, I feel like I can never be fixed. The sad part, I truly believe this while I haven’t done anything to deliberately hurt anyone or anything.
You know, thinking about a past event may have nothing to do with OCD. I have OCD, but it isn't why I feel bad about my past mistakes, like at work. Especially when commenters on UA-camrs don't ease up on the shaming.
What if you did something truly horrible? Is it still OCD?
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder attacks many things you care about. You're looking for reassurance, though. Stop it :P it makes the OCD worse in the long term
@@Anglisc1682 Lol thank you for catching me.
That’s a good question though bc say for example someone molested someone years ago, and now they’re going over it cause they do actually have OCD.. then it’s like sucky cause it’ll be Real Event OCD or possibly False Memory OCD? So fd up dude
I'd say that would be one's conscience.
@@0nullnil It's alright, man. I have exactly the same problem
There is SOOOO MUCH MORE than this. Psychology cannot explain away guilt with OCD. Where is the information about correction of the wrong????? The psychology has quickly lowerd the morality of society, and created jobs for psychologyists like him.
no it’s a bit different bro
you can correct a wrong but there’s a different between guilt as torture and guilt as a way to point forward towards a better decision
Unfortunately, you don't know what you're talking about. You could correct every wrong that you have done or has been done to you across your whole lifetime, atone for your guilt, become a saint, be given full public exoneration by God himself but OCD would still find a way to make you doubt your own thoughts. This is not about the events, it is about uncertainty and doubt, period. Educate yourself before you throw in nonsense comments like these.
@@EdSygrove pretty much, ocd knows no limits or bounds, it will eat you alive if you dont go hard on it.