can't imagine how difficult things have been lately :') it must've taken a lot to be this vulnerable, i hope your healing process is full of love and rest
From a nursing viewpoint: Your small veins is due to dehydration which is why the nurses had difficulty inserting an IV on you, so please continue to hydrate everyone especially in the transition period from winter to spring! Our kidneys are a filter in our body so without fluids, things can buildup instead which may turn into kidney stones. Nina, thank you for taking the time to telling us your worries, we are always here for you no matter what! You shouldn’t feel bad because you need to take a break, because not everyone can be on and in front 24/7, we’re all humans too. If you need more time off, it’s totally understandable! Sending love!!
My best friend’s pup of 10 years just passed recently, she’s still dealing with it a month later. Nina, take your time and give yourself a break, be kind to yourself💕💕💕
As someone who has passed 8+ kidney stones in the past 6-7 years, I am so sorry that you had to experience this, along with everything else you've had to deal with. Please please hydrate as much as possible! In my case, it seems that my stones were caused by my diet, along with not drinking enough water. When you pass your stone, it will be sent to a lab to analyze its composition as there are many types of kidney stones one can have (calcium oxalate and uric acid stones are the most common I believe). Mine were uric acid stones, and what has helped the most for me has been avoiding processed foods that contain high amounts of sodium (instant ramen, chips, etc.), along with avoiding drinking too much soda/coffee/anything other than water. If I choose to drink those, I make sure to supplement with lots and lots of water! Something like this requires somewhat of a lifestyle change, esp. if you don't want to experience this again. Whenever I cook, I am very mindful of how much salt I'm seasoning with, and aim for a middle ground of under seasoning where nothing is too salty but it isn't super bland either. I also carry a 64 oz water bottle with me everywhere I go, I make sure to never leave the house without it. I try my best to finish and refill it at least twice per day, three times would be ideal but it is pretty tough (you will be peeing a lot!!) I am not a doctor nor an expert, so def. take everything I've said here with a grain of salt, as everyone's body is different, and every stone experience is not the same! My last stone was 2 years ago, fingers crossed I never experience it again, and I hope you can stay stone free as well! Hang in there, you are a trooper!!
this month has also been rough for me bcs my mom passed away earlier this month and im trying to grieve and give myself a break but im graduating soon so school has made the month harder on me .. so i feel u ninz. i hope u know ur not alone and we're all sending love to u
the same happened to me back in 2019, I lost my mom in november and graduated 5 weeks later. family and friends' support was what helped me to go through it for sure. I hope you get as much support as you need, know you're not alone and your dear mom would be super proud of you as always. much love ❤️
death and grieving are really difficult things to process, still to this day I also don't know how to deal with it. give yourself time to feel everything that you need to feel, feel free to do things that will help you to deal with it. and yes, everything is really bizarre and feels really unreal, but everything will eventually be okay :) i love everything you do here on youtube, and i wish you all the very best💞💞
The biggest hug for you Nina 💕 I can't even begin to imagine how painful this month has been and how it felt to say goodbye to your dogs, I wish you the best dealing with it. I feel like it is a coincidence how today is the 1st anniversary since my cat passed away, so today I've been thinking that it's been a year since I experienced such a painful morning where we found her, I couldn't even see my kitchen bc I would burst into tears looking at the kitchen and not seeing her, it's just painful. Today I remember her as how beautiful she was and even though i would love to have her here, i get it that it's life😔 sooo I hope you can rest as much as possible and for your health to improve ♡
I've heard passing kidney stones is worse than giving birth 😬 I'm so sorry you've had to go through all of that in such a short amount of time. We're all here rooting for you ❤️
I had a very severe kidney infection last year to the point where i couldn’t move, breathe, speak, walk, etc. let alone eat drink or sleep. It was the worst pain i have ever experienced and by the time i could see my doctor and get medication they told me if i had gone in any later it would have gone into my blood stream and it could have killed me. I still have some issues due to the infection that i’m getting through. I’m so sorry for everything you’ve gone through recently and i wish you a fast recovery and some relief. You’re a wonderful strong person and we’re all here for you nina!
Despite having already lost all of my grandparents, the fact that now one of my parents is life-threateningly sick suddenly makes death feel much more real and close to me. I went through the weirdest transformation, from being //tw// suicidal, to feeling neutral about death (via medication), to being scared of death, and now to being absolutely terrified of my loved ones or me dying. So I feel like I can somewhat relate.
@sunflower I'm not feeling better and I do appreciate your words of support. I actually grew up with many friends practicing various kinds or "shades" of Islam, but I can honestly say that religion in general isn't for me. I feel happy that others find strength in it but I can't believe something that I don't believe.
@sunflower Thank you. :) In my opinion, neither my life nor life in general nor the universe as a whole need a purpose (outside of simply existing and outside of the meaning that I choose to bestow upon it). So since this isn't frightening to me the way it is to you, I have no need to look for external answers or to try and believe something that is implausible (or even undesirable) to me.
it‘s so crazy: I‘m currently going through a break up and I started to cry because all the feelings you described about grieving are the exact same feelings I‘m going through. I hope we are both getting better soon 🤍
this really hit close to home, i lost my chinchilla 6 weeks ago now and only 2 weeks later lost my dog too, both were sudden and the grieving process has been incredibly difficult and taken a huge toll on my mental health, so i know how painful it truly is.. so please take all the time you need for your mental health! we’re all sending you so much love & support 💞
I can see how difficult it must have been for you, Nina. I hope you find it in your heart to move forward, but for now I wish you and your family healing. Sending you so much love ♡
your videos have been such a comfort for me during my hard times, ive watched them over and over. i watch them a lot when i feel so empty and cant get out of bed and they give me a boost to to something even small for the day, like make a coffee or clean my room. i hope that we can now be your comfort in some way
Nina 🥺 I can't imagine what you're going through, I lost my childhood dog a few years ago and it still affects me when I think about him/see photos of him, and to see you go through that twice in such a short span of time hurts my heart so much. Wishing you all the best and sending all the love and strength possible 💕
i cried with you watching this. so hard seeing you go through this, but know that you can take all the time you need to pick yourself up again. we're all here for you, will wait for you, and are sending you love! you are definitely not alone~
"If they meant a lot to you, it's going to hurt" had me tearing up because this spring marks 2 years since we had to put down my cat (family cat but she had decided I was her favourite, so we joked she's mine) due to her health deteriorating quickly. Sadly, I wasn't there for her in her last moments because mom decided to put her down without telling me (I found out a few days later since I wasn't living at home) and I still don't know if it hurts more or if I'm thankful for that decision...
oh, nina, watching this broke me a little bit because i can relate a lot, especially when you talked about the kidney stone. i was also in a bad moment of my life, in 2018, and on the exact saturday that i said "i'm going to DO something about it", i woke up with pain on the same spot you described, but a little bit below. it took me a full week on painkillers and with a LOT of nausea (i vomited so much that my stomach was in pain), until i could go to a doctor on another city to prescript me the right medicine. the medicine was miraculous and i felt good right after taking it, but it was easily the worst week of my life. i REALLY feel you right now, and i really hope you'll feel better soon. take all the time you need. we love you and your videos. be kind to yourself, better days will come ♥
I appreciate this video so much. I lost a close family member two months ago and it’s so easy to feel like you’re alone in the pain, but you’re not. None of us are. Praying for you girlie 💗
i've been watching you for years and I want you to know you are a huge role model in my life. I love you so much and I'm so proud of you. I know how much you loved Marco and Polo. You've gone through so much in just a few months so please take your time and focus on yourself. I'm sending you and your family lots of love and prayers.
my 9 year old cat died early last month, my family ignored the whole situation like it was nothing, I tried to do the same but it all came crashing down this month and its a horrible pain. I couldn't even talk to people without crying, I just wish it was a bad dream. things started to get better this week but sometimes I still feel a heaviness inside me. I love him forever and I did everything I could, I know he is much better than me now hahaha and that we will meet again one day. feel everything you have to feel Nina, your pain makes perfect sense. ❤
As someone whose had kidney stones multiple times, I feel you lady. I've had my back broken, given birth and the kidney stones were the worst. I relate to you so much about wanting to be knocked out. I begged my friend to hit me over the head with a frying pan because it was that bad. I'm so sorry that you had to go through this and I hope that you never have to again. Only people who have had kidney stones understand the "kidney stone dance". You literally cannot stand still/sit still because of the pain. Sending positive thoughts your way so so much. Borahae.
I lost my dog last month, and I know, I feel you! The pain is more than you could ever imagine… It’s ok to take time for your own and feeling all the emotions. It doesn’t get easier but you definitely understand how to live with the pain! Keep going Nina, sending you a lot of hugs!💖
I'll always admire people who can keep pets. Being an extremely emotional and sensitive person I could never recover if I ever lost a pet or someone close. I guess that's why I never had a pet.I knew I couldn't handle all the pain of letting it go or losing it. Loads of love and strength to you ❤
@@_ashmason007 thank you so much for you kind words! Is really hard but is totally worth it, all the love you receive from them is more than you could ever ask.💖
I went through this too 2 years ago, so this resonated a lot… I’m so sorry for your loss. I miss our pup everyday, but after a while you do get the strength back to continue on, so I’m glad to see you doing a lot better.. i wish you the best, and we will be looking forward to whatever you have in store next, whenever you feel ready 💜 Thank you so much for sharing your experience! Good luck with the stones too!! Stay safe and please take care of yourself and I hope the rest of the process is not too painful! 🤍🤍🤍
Take all the time you need! I have a cat and a dog and they are my whole world… I can’t imagine the pain you must’ve felt but I know one day I will have to feel it too. You are so strong for overcoming the grief and continuing to power thru those feelings, especially while dealing with your own health struggles 💗 sending you so much love and strength!! I have been watching your videos for years and I’m so happy to see posting again :) please continue to take care of yourself Nina!!!
Having a rough time rn. Made me cry. Seeing this video. Especially when u said like u feel like world is falling apart. Im feeling like that too. Thank you Nina for sharing this, I don’t really like sharing my feelings or when I’m hurting but seeing you express yourself made me feel it’s okay to talk about ur feelings.
us humans like to say we get over things but in realty, we really don't. And it okay to not get over certain events that happen in your life because when these traumatic or sad things occur, we can always look back and still get emotional by it even it seems like we had moved on from it. But I appreciate you being open to your viewers and letting us in on your feelings and health because we are here for you and it is scary to share something personal and sensitive to the media and a whole group of viewers you have. But you are a strong person and I hope life treats you better and brings so much positivity to you.
Thank you for sharing Nina, no one can describe the pain of losing a loved one. It’s been 2 years since my dog passed and I still get teary thinking about her. Im going through the hardest month right now too with a loved one going through health problems. I just wanted to say it’s so comforting knowing that Im not alone, and it’s okay to grieve, process and switch off. I truely hope it gets better and sending you all love and strength. ❤️❤️❤️
we are all so happy to have you back nina!! Hearing your story makes me feel so much less alone, I grew up with 4 animals my whole life, we had 2 dogs and 2 cats, around the age of 8 our first dog passed away of cancer, I was young at the time and was in shock as to what was happening but relied on my other 3 animals for coping. 2 years later our second dog passed away and I was around 10 and seriously fell into a pit, at such a young age it was really hard to understand death, I continued to grief of our 2 dogs deaths and once again relied on our 2 cats for comfort. I was extremely close to my cats (I'm a big cat person). Now I was around the age of 11 or 12 when we moved states with both our cats, they had been doing good even though they were becoming older my the day and around a year later our cat Wheezie began to suffer from health conditions which turned out to be tongue cancer...we had to put her down, I witnessed them slowly putting her to sleep in front of my own eyes and went home that night feeling the most pain i had ever felt...I was left with 1 cat, Lucy, now Lucy was very beginning to become very fragile, stiffening in joints, and very thin...she was getting old...i spent as much time with her as possible until the day we were preparing to move to another house she began to have sever complications...we had to put her down that night as well...I had witnessed my last animals death right before me...i remember being in the car sobbing, barely breathing..it was scary...i now had no animals left to turn to...I had truly never experienced that much pain before...It had been 2 years and im now 16 and still grieving over all my animals.. Hearing your story truly made me tear up, although i felt a since of comfort knowing I'm not alone. Im so much younger than you but I promise you things will get so much better, and I wish the best for you nina!! Keep staying strong, and take your time to rest and focus on yourself!
the physical pain you described plssss this happens to me a lot bc of a chronic illness that was discovered after getting surgery for something else but fr it HURTS ur actually the first person i heard who felt that pain too so you're definitely not alone stay strong i hope things get better for all of us
I find it comforting to think that we were a pet's lifelong companions and were able to offer them a great life, but it is heartbreaking that they made our lives much better but could only accompany us on part of our journey. Best wishes to you - and to anyone going through a rough patch these days - it takes time to rebuild some healthy physical/mental foundations so rest and take care of yourself :)
Nina, I'm sorry you have to go through this. I relate to your feelings a lot since I also lost an important family member, my dad. Thank you for sharing this with us, it did make me feel less lonely, like you said in the beggining of the video. Thank you, Nina. You are an inspiring and beautiful soul 💓
Thanks for sharing with us a little bit of what u have been through, remember we will always support you, thanks for being there for us, we love you really much! I am really thankful for having met you in youtube!
After having a very bad day today and now watching this video I can say that it was my worst day today; Take care of yourself everybody, never neglet your health and love yourself :)
God knows how much I cried w you in this video T-T I am always rooting for you and proud of you for being this strong and being able to share this ,and I'm sure marco and polo are watching you from heaven and are proud too ! Keep goin neen, ill always love and support you
my heart breaks for you so much Nina. I hope you heal well especially through everything you’ve been through :( 🤍 We all are sending you love and virtual hugs! 🤍 and please take a break as long as you need
this made me emotional... i've never had dogs, but i lost two loved ones in less than a year around 2020/2021. my life turned upside down and i think i still haven't grieved enough because i had to move on with my life around that time. but i miss them deeply. thank you for opening up, nina. i hope you're taking care of yourself. sending much love to you
i’m not a dog person, but i was a grandma’s girl, i lost both of mine over the course of 5 months, one of them was my second mom, it fucking hurts, so bad, and you do feel like your life’s slowly falling apart, it’s a feeling i wouldn’t wish on anyone and i’m so sorry you’re going through this, i wish i could say it gets better but the best we can do is live in peace and surround ourselves with the people we love the most, even if one of them is gone. i hope you can find peace and light in these dark times nina, sending you so much strength and love. we got this🤍
I also lost my grandparent both of them in 20 century time and lost one of them in Feb this month I had a real hard time because the people I loved more than my parents were them and I lost them and cried and cried like I had a near point were I had to go to the hospital but I know the experience and I am experiencing it at a young age which is hard too I support u and I experienced a lot in young age like being body-shamed losing friends I don't even know how I handled it so plz try and take care as much as possible I support u all throughout the way🖤🤍
Hi Nina. I haven't watched the video, but just based off the title.... I just finished crying because I made a hard decision today. It's been rough for me too. I hope I can watch this video and be conforted in knowing I'm not alone. I hope this message tells you you're not alone either. I hope things can get better soon for you, if they haven't already.
I'm sorry to hear about this rough patch, Nina. Life is a Hawaiin rollercoaster ride. We get calm, smooth waves we can happily cruise on, and sometimes we get wild waves that wipe us out. We get back on the board and keep surfing because that's what we do. Keep surfing, Nina.
You're literally the strongest and inspiring person I've ever come across. Everything you do makes me feel like I can also put my life together, like actually finding out who I am as a person as well, you're not only inspiring but very relatable especially now that you're stepping out to talk out your thoughts and emotions.
I'm so sorry for your loss Nina, I recently got a cat myself and I can't even imagine my life without them anymore so my heart grieves for you, I'm proud of you for being able to share your feelings with us even if it is hard to do so. It takes a lot of courage to do so. I hope you continue to take the time to grieve and heal and take care of yourself too . Sending you the best wishes
i went through the same thing this year too...letting go is not a normal experience and so whatever time u need take it. im not in the same place where i had plenty of time to grieve, so please don’t do what i did and listen to yourself n ur body. sending love, rest in peace marco & polo. 🤍
Love and appreciate you so much Nina 🥺🫂💞 im so sorry about marco and polo, they were such a joy to meet through your videos. Grieving is hard but I'm glad to hear you're making it through that process 💜 Thank you for being so open about your experience these past few months - as someone who lives with anxiety I related to a lot of your thoughts and feelings. Please continue to be kind to yourself, your wellbeing matters most. We're still here for you, you've built an amazing community here and we will be happy to see you whenever you choose to share this space with us 🫂
I feel your pain, a few years back I lost my younger dog due to cancer and now I have my oldest one still but he’s almost 15 so I’m very anxious to lose him. I wish you all the best and hope your health gets better! I had to go to the ER too last year for heart reasons but I'm still enjoying life even with my health problem now. You have a great mindset on it and it's the best way to get your life together! Sending love and hugs!! xx
I literally relate SO MUCH to all of this, the way we've had too many experiences in common amazes me. Every day I pray for a better day, and from now on, I'll do the same for you! Hope things get better for us soon :(((
I can understand nina how u must have felt and your condition right now cause even I lost my cat .. And the pain it just hurts Hang in there neen. It will soon get better. Once again I'm so sorry for your loss.. Love you so much 💕💕 I'm always there for you✨
nina!!! been watching you since high school (graduated college a year ago now). thank you for helping me make it through when i felt so hopeless. please take all the time you need to rest! we love you so much!! 💕❤️
This whole thing brought up a lot of emotions for me and I’m happy you’re doing better. I really wish you all the best and hope that everything will be at a good high for you soon. Take good care 🤎
i just found out about your channel this last month and i cant describe how much help it has been to watch your videos every day, thank you, i'm sending so much love to you
I might be just a stranger to you but everytime I see you it feels like having new sister and I'm soooo proud of you♡ Please taking care of urself♡♡ We love youuu
out of everything that you spoke about, i understand the emetaphobia and small veins thing... like i will literally not throw up, my brain will refuse until my body literally pushes it out, even if i want to throw up, like idk, but i feel you, and i hate needles, and having small veins doesn't help! im so sorry that you're going through all of this nina, and i pray that you can continue to heal, and progress. remember, you've experienced one of the greatest physical pains that a human can (kidney stones), so you can keep going, you are strong! :)
I'll be watching this video later but even from the title, I just wanted to send lots of love & virtual hugs to you!! Thank you for always being my source of peace and fun with all the content you make, especially being so open with all of us which I'm sure many of us are so proud of you for doing so and appreciate! I will always be supporting you as one of your friends/subscribers ^^
holy crap. You're strong as hell because 'rough month' is a total understatement. You persevered but the biggest thing is that you got back up. You definitely inspired me to pick myself up again as well :)
nina, thank you so much for opening up with us and sharing all of this. i've been experiencing health issues and constant health-issue-related anxiety for the past year or so and it makes me feel so comforted that i'm not the only one who's been afraid and scared and had to learn how to move on. i'm not alone in this and neither are you, neen. i wish you all the best and send you all the love in the world. take care of yourself, we love love love you.
i cried watching this vid nina, losing a best friend is the toughest thing one can experience, i also have a dog and i love her so so much i will never be ready to say goodbye to her. i actually immediately hugged her when i got very emotional when you talked abt marco and polo, they're in a better place now, run free babies🕊️ you've been strong nina! i hope everything goes well for you!
When you talked about losing your dogs... I felt that in my gut. The day I found out my dog was sick last March was the same day we had to have him put down, and it was not easy at all. It's still difficult; he bridged a gap between my father and me and brought so much love to our family. Thank you for being so transparent with us. You didn't owe it to us at all, but we really thank you. Love ya girly.
I’m sending my love to you and to all the people in the comments 💜 life is hard sometimes, so just take care of yourself and concentrate in things that makes you happy. A virtual hug to all of you buddies 💕 we got this
i had the same thing happen to me in july with kidney stones and it was one of the most terrifying things that happened to me (we basically had identical bruises) but one thing is to just keep drinking lots and lots of water and try to avoid really salty foods! it was super overwhelming for me too (and i unfortunately had bad experiences with the doctors) but please just rest lots and take each day slowly. and as for your doggies, i lost one of mine a few years ago now and i have never felt heartbreak like it. it was also my first time dealing with death and it felt so isolating because lots of people don’t think that it’s a big deal because they’re a pet but they’re part of your family. i really hope you’re doing okay these few days and that your anxiety has been improving. take care of yourself nina and don’t worry about posting lots of content!!
Seeing our precious Nina cry breaks my heart,stay strong neenz and take all the time you need,we will always be here for when you ready to come back💖Sending love your way
Your video was suggested to me. Twenty seconds in my eyes began to water because same girl. Same. We will get through this 💖 I have been feeling very lonely / alone. This helped ♡ sorry for all you went through
Sending lots of love Nina! You’re content has brought so many people joy and comfort, I just hope that you can experience that joy yourself :D Please take care of yourself and I hope you feel better !
tw // mental health + pet loss I felt the exact same way when my dog millie passed away a few years ago. I was 8 when I got her as a puppy and she'd been my best friend until I was 21. I'm happy she got to live a long life and we all knew it was coming because she had been having a lot less energy (she was always playing with toys even in her old age) and started having seizures and it got really bad sometimes, we think she may have had strokes because 2 separate times after a seizure she could hardly walk and didn't want to eat or drink water for a while. I remember the first time it happened I just broke down crying and hugging her :( but she got better the first time so I remained hopeful for a while. unfortunately she passed away at home, we were considering taking her to be put down because it was clear at that point that she probably wasn't going to get better and we didn't want her to suffer more. this time around she hardly wanted to get up, and I had just left my room for a second to let the other dogs into the backyard and when I came back she was on the floor, I don't wanna go into too much detail but it was just an awful thing to see and thinking about it still makes me cry tbh. I just felt so helpless and watching her pass on was, like you said, a really weird experience tbh. I've grown up with a family who fosters dogs and I've seen dogs get sick and known ones who died but never seen it in person before. fortunately I didn't have a job at the time because I totally would've needed a long break after that lol. and afterwards I was SO anxious about the other dogs we had. I was terrified of them getting sick or dying too, like sometimes I'd be trying to fall asleep at night and because the dogs sleep in my room, I would listen really hard to make sure they were still alive, which sounds ridiculous but I guess that's how untreated anxiety is lol. eventually they got adopted out and although I've always been a HUGE dog person, I just can't take care of another pet right now, and probably not again for a while. I'm a sensitive person and like, it's hard enough to take care of myself, I tried my best to take care of my dogs while I had them but after the other crap in life I've been through, taking care of another living being just became bad for my mental health tbh. like I know for some people it actually helps them but I'm weirdly the opposite haha. also I'm living with my partner now and we plan on moving and traveling a lot so we probably won't get any pets for a while anyway, which is funny because as a teen I always swore I couldn't be with someone who didn't want a pet, but god damn, I need a break and I need to get my own shit together before taking care of another furry friend. it's ok to need a break, I sure as hell need a long one lol. it's so unfair that dogs have such short lifespans when they're the sweetest beings on the planet :( I love your mindset about this whole thing, about just focusing on the present :) it's a lil hard for me when I feel like my life still is very far from where it needs to be, but I'm trying my best to take care of myself and not be too hard on myself (ok maybe that's a lie I'm not trying my absolute best, BUT I do drink enough water lmao)
Hey!!! I’m really sorry about what happened to your dog and what you had to witness. I also own pets but instead of dogs I have cats, a 5-6 year old and a one year old. I always think about how I would feel if they were to die and I always can’t get myself to be emotional about it but now thinking about it, it’s probably because I can’t imagine losing them. Even though my cats aren’t like dogs where they’ll come to comfort you when your upset and they won’t cuddle with me they’re still a big part of my life. I hope I don’t have to witness them passing away but you’re unbelievable strong and so so so loving for taking care of your dog until it’s last days. I’m sure your dog couldn’t ask for any better and lived a beautiful long-lasting life. If you ever need to talk, you can come back to this reply, I will always be open to talk about anything and since we’re strangers it might be easier to talk about some things so don’t be afraid to open up. Much love. ❤️
I can't imagine how much pain you've been through but I know you'll get to live with the memories of Marco and Polo and things will eventually start being easier again ♥ Please take as much time as you need and recover from your kidney stone or any other health issues! Nobody wants you to push through because at some point everybody would collapse :( Life is unpredictable...
I cried with you while watching this video. March is also rough to me too.I am also still on the grieving process when my dad passed away 6 months ago and the way I looked at life felt the same way as u did, too. I had a health issue too (had a leg injury) and I was so anxious when I felt so much pain and had a trauma too going to hospitals because of what happened to my Dad. Hugs, Nina! Thank you for being transparent. Happy for u for overcoming your battles. ❤️
15:57 literally, I was begging the nurses to sedate me. The worst physical pain ever. On the way to ER I remember I got sick from the stomach twice. I wish you the best from now on!
That is life. You don't know when you're time is gonna come. So please, people, love yourself, love and be close to your family, friends, closed ones, and let people know how much you mean to them. And HEALTH. First. You cannot enjoy or acheive anything in life, if you aren't fit and healthy. Make your body your priority. Eat good food. Exercise. Get out of the house, even if it's terrifying. Enjoy and have fun as much as you can. Goals, ambitions, dreams, are great, but if they aren't making you a happier person then there's no use of them. Find joy in the little things. Be patient, grateful. Be kind to everyone, because just like Nina all people, and idols you admire virtually, on youtube, on the screen maybe going through something huge and we may not know. Appreciate what you have. Peace 🌻💖
Sending you lots and lots of love! I lost my cat last november and my 10 year old dog in december, and I still feel empty. It was the first time I had to deal with grief on that level and it feels just like that. Feeling sad, hopeless, fragile and somehow grateful for all the memories. I hope you get well soon and wish you happiness in the little things, even when life feels like it is falling apart. You are very loved 💕
also yes, pls stay hydrated!! While I didn’t have a kidney stone, last year I experienced extreme vertigo for two weeks after overworking & eating too much ramen & takeout food. Big wake-up call to keep my body functioning and healthy. We’re rooting for you Nina!! 💕
thank you so much for sharing this part of yourself nina!! i also had an incredibly hard past year when i recently was diagnosed with ocd. a lot of things that you said in this video about anxiety and fear for the next day resonated with me so much. it's just really nice to know that when these bad things happen, no one is truly alone. i love that you said you're trying to focus on the present more now and i'm also trying to do the same, even though it can be very hard sometimes to not live in fear. i believe in us tho, we got this!! i hope you are healing and living life as it comes, love u!!!
can't imagine how difficult things have been lately :') it must've taken a lot to be this vulnerable, i hope your healing process is full of love and rest
sending u so much love 💖 it must have been so hard but i’m proud of u for posting this & pushing through!!
It makes me so sad to see you like this. I hope you’re taking the time you need to heal and grow. Always rooting for you Nina 💜
Exactly
ditto ❤️
Agree
Hello
From a nursing viewpoint: Your small veins is due to dehydration which is why the nurses had difficulty inserting an IV on you, so please continue to hydrate everyone especially in the transition period from winter to spring! Our kidneys are a filter in our body so without fluids, things can buildup instead which may turn into kidney stones.
Nina, thank you for taking the time to telling us your worries, we are always here for you no matter what! You shouldn’t feel bad because you need to take a break, because not everyone can be on and in front 24/7, we’re all humans too. If you need more time off, it’s totally understandable! Sending love!!
My best friend’s pup of 10 years just passed recently, she’s still dealing with it a month later. Nina, take your time and give yourself a break, be kind to yourself💕💕💕
As someone who has passed 8+ kidney stones in the past 6-7 years, I am so sorry that you had to experience this, along with everything else you've had to deal with. Please please hydrate as much as possible! In my case, it seems that my stones were caused by my diet, along with not drinking enough water. When you pass your stone, it will be sent to a lab to analyze its composition as there are many types of kidney stones one can have (calcium oxalate and uric acid stones are the most common I believe). Mine were uric acid stones, and what has helped the most for me has been avoiding processed foods that contain high amounts of sodium (instant ramen, chips, etc.), along with avoiding drinking too much soda/coffee/anything other than water. If I choose to drink those, I make sure to supplement with lots and lots of water! Something like this requires somewhat of a lifestyle change, esp. if you don't want to experience this again. Whenever I cook, I am very mindful of how much salt I'm seasoning with, and aim for a middle ground of under seasoning where nothing is too salty but it isn't super bland either. I also carry a 64 oz water bottle with me everywhere I go, I make sure to never leave the house without it. I try my best to finish and refill it at least twice per day, three times would be ideal but it is pretty tough (you will be peeing a lot!!) I am not a doctor nor an expert, so def. take everything I've said here with a grain of salt, as everyone's body is different, and every stone experience is not the same! My last stone was 2 years ago, fingers crossed I never experience it again, and I hope you can stay stone free as well! Hang in there, you are a trooper!!
ty for sharing your experience!! i hope you never have to go through it again
i wish u all the happiness man sorry for what happened to you ..may ur health be good now
i’ve also had them multiple times in the past and its truly the worst pain i’ve ever experienced… drinking water is so so important!!
🥺 love you honey! Crying with you and how much the pain must’ve affected you 😭 doggos are the sweetest beans and truly a selfless best friend
this month has also been rough for me bcs my mom passed away earlier this month and im trying to grieve and give myself a break but im graduating soon so school has made the month harder on me .. so i feel u ninz. i hope u know ur not alone and we're all sending love to u
Oh my gosh. hope you have been doing better
school's annoying but you got it!
the same happened to me back in 2019, I lost my mom in november and graduated 5 weeks later. family and friends' support was what helped me to go through it for sure. I hope you get as much support as you need, know you're not alone and your dear mom would be super proud of you as always. much love ❤️
Hope you're feeling better
sending love to you, sun
death and grieving are really difficult things to process, still to this day I also don't know how to deal with it.
give yourself time to feel everything that you need to feel, feel free to do things that will help you to deal with it.
and yes, everything is really bizarre and feels really unreal, but everything will eventually be okay :)
i love everything you do here on youtube, and i wish you all the very best💞💞
The biggest hug for you Nina 💕 I can't even begin to imagine how painful this month has been and how it felt to say goodbye to your dogs, I wish you the best dealing with it. I feel like it is a coincidence how today is the 1st anniversary since my cat passed away, so today I've been thinking that it's been a year since I experienced such a painful morning where we found her, I couldn't even see my kitchen bc I would burst into tears looking at the kitchen and not seeing her, it's just painful. Today I remember her as how beautiful she was and even though i would love to have her here, i get it that it's life😔 sooo I hope you can rest as much as possible and for your health to improve ♡
I've heard passing kidney stones is worse than giving birth 😬
I'm so sorry you've had to go through all of that in such a short amount of time. We're all here rooting for you ❤️
I had a very severe kidney infection last year to the point where i couldn’t move, breathe, speak, walk, etc. let alone eat drink or sleep. It was the worst pain i have ever experienced and by the time i could see my doctor and get medication they told me if i had gone in any later it would have gone into my blood stream and it could have killed me. I still have some issues due to the infection that i’m getting through. I’m so sorry for everything you’ve gone through recently and i wish you a fast recovery and some relief. You’re a wonderful strong person and we’re all here for you nina!
Despite having already lost all of my grandparents, the fact that now one of my parents is life-threateningly sick suddenly makes death feel much more real and close to me.
I went through the weirdest transformation, from being //tw// suicidal, to feeling neutral about death (via medication), to being scared of death, and now to being absolutely terrified of my loved ones or me dying.
So I feel like I can somewhat relate.
@sunflower I'm not feeling better and I do appreciate your words of support.
I actually grew up with many friends practicing various kinds or "shades" of Islam, but I can honestly say that religion in general isn't for me.
I feel happy that others find strength in it but I can't believe something that I don't believe.
@sunflower Thank you. :)
In my opinion, neither my life nor life in general nor the universe as a whole need a purpose (outside of simply existing and outside of the meaning that I choose to bestow upon it).
So since this isn't frightening to me the way it is to you, I have no need to look for external answers or to try and believe something that is implausible (or even undesirable) to me.
it‘s so crazy: I‘m currently going through a break up and I started to cry because all the feelings you described about grieving are the exact same feelings I‘m going through. I hope we are both getting better soon 🤍
this really hit close to home, i lost my chinchilla 6 weeks ago now and only 2 weeks later lost my dog too, both were sudden and the grieving process has been incredibly difficult and taken a huge toll on my mental health, so i know how painful it truly is.. so please take all the time you need for your mental health! we’re all sending you so much love & support 💞
I can see how difficult it must have been for you, Nina. I hope you find it in your heart to move forward, but for now I wish you and your family healing. Sending you so much love ♡
your videos have been such a comfort for me during my hard times, ive watched them over and over. i watch them a lot when i feel so empty and cant get out of bed and they give me a boost to to something even small for the day, like make a coffee or clean my room. i hope that we can now be your comfort in some way
Nina 🥺 I can't imagine what you're going through, I lost my childhood dog a few years ago and it still affects me when I think about him/see photos of him, and to see you go through that twice in such a short span of time hurts my heart so much. Wishing you all the best and sending all the love and strength possible 💕
i cried with you watching this. so hard seeing you go through this, but know that you can take all the time you need to pick yourself up again. we're all here for you, will wait for you, and are sending you love! you are definitely not alone~
"If they meant a lot to you, it's going to hurt" had me tearing up because this spring marks 2 years since we had to put down my cat (family cat but she had decided I was her favourite, so we joked she's mine) due to her health deteriorating quickly. Sadly, I wasn't there for her in her last moments because mom decided to put her down without telling me (I found out a few days later since I wasn't living at home) and I still don't know if it hurts more or if I'm thankful for that decision...
sending you hugs Nina, you're such a strong person, take your time ! we really love you ♡
oh, nina, watching this broke me a little bit because i can relate a lot, especially when you talked about the kidney stone. i was also in a bad moment of my life, in 2018, and on the exact saturday that i said "i'm going to DO something about it", i woke up with pain on the same spot you described, but a little bit below. it took me a full week on painkillers and with a LOT of nausea (i vomited so much that my stomach was in pain), until i could go to a doctor on another city to prescript me the right medicine. the medicine was miraculous and i felt good right after taking it, but it was easily the worst week of my life.
i REALLY feel you right now, and i really hope you'll feel better soon. take all the time you need. we love you and your videos. be kind to yourself, better days will come ♥
Nina, you're so strong, and everything that happened is just for a moment. I hope you have more happy moments from now on. Stay strong. Love you 🙏💜
I appreciate this video so much. I lost a close family member two months ago and it’s so easy to feel like you’re alone in the pain, but you’re not. None of us are. Praying for you girlie 💗
i've been watching you for years and I want you to know you are a huge role model in my life. I love you so much and I'm so proud of you. I know how much you loved Marco and Polo. You've gone through so much in just a few months so please take your time and focus on yourself. I'm sending you and your family lots of love and prayers.
my 9 year old cat died early last month, my family ignored the whole situation like it was nothing, I tried to do the same but it all came crashing down this month and its a horrible pain. I couldn't even talk to people without crying, I just wish it was a bad dream.
things started to get better this week but sometimes I still feel a heaviness inside me.
I love him forever and I did everything I could, I know he is much better than me now hahaha and that we will meet again one day.
feel everything you have to feel Nina, your pain makes perfect sense. ❤
As someone whose had kidney stones multiple times, I feel you lady. I've had my back broken, given birth and the kidney stones were the worst. I relate to you so much about wanting to be knocked out. I begged my friend to hit me over the head with a frying pan because it was that bad. I'm so sorry that you had to go through this and I hope that you never have to again. Only people who have had kidney stones understand the "kidney stone dance". You literally cannot stand still/sit still because of the pain. Sending positive thoughts your way so so much. Borahae.
I lost my dog last month, and I know, I feel you! The pain is more than you could ever imagine… It’s ok to take time for your own and feeling all the emotions. It doesn’t get easier but you definitely understand how to live with the pain! Keep going Nina, sending you a lot of hugs!💖
I'll always admire people who can keep pets. Being an extremely emotional and sensitive person I could never recover if I ever lost a pet or someone close. I guess that's why I never had a pet.I knew I couldn't handle all the pain of letting it go or losing it. Loads of love and strength to you ❤
Sorry, I don't quite understand, is ninas dog dead?
@@_ashmason007 thank you so much for you kind words! Is really hard but is totally worth it, all the love you receive from them is more than you could ever ask.💖
@@B.r__ay sadly, yes…😓
I went through this too 2 years ago, so this resonated a lot… I’m so sorry for your loss. I miss our pup everyday, but after a while you do get the strength back to continue on, so I’m glad to see you doing a lot better.. i wish you the best, and we will be looking forward to whatever you have in store next, whenever you feel ready 💜 Thank you so much for sharing your experience! Good luck with the stones too!! Stay safe and please take care of yourself and I hope the rest of the process is not too painful! 🤍🤍🤍
I feel you girl. March has been a tough month for me too. But we'll get through it. I know we will. Fighting 🙏🏻❤️
Take all the time you need! I have a cat and a dog and they are my whole world… I can’t imagine the pain you must’ve felt but I know one day I will have to feel it too. You are so strong for overcoming the grief and continuing to power thru those feelings, especially while dealing with your own health struggles 💗 sending you so much love and strength!! I have been watching your videos for years and I’m so happy to see posting again :) please continue to take care of yourself Nina!!!
sending lots of hugs, strength and love
Having a rough time rn. Made me cry. Seeing this video. Especially when u said like u feel like world is falling apart. Im feeling like that too. Thank you Nina for sharing this, I don’t really like sharing my feelings or when I’m hurting but seeing you express yourself made me feel it’s okay to talk about ur feelings.
us humans like to say we get over things but in realty, we really don't. And it okay to not get over certain events that happen in your life because when these traumatic or sad things occur, we can always look back and still get emotional by it even it seems like we had moved on from it. But I appreciate you being open to your viewers and letting us in on your feelings and health because we are here for you and it is scary to share something personal and sensitive to the media and a whole group of viewers you have. But you are a strong person and I hope life treats you better and brings so much positivity to you.
Thank you for sharing Nina, no one can describe the pain of losing a loved one. It’s been 2 years since my dog passed and I still get teary thinking about her. Im going through the hardest month right now too with a loved one going through health problems. I just wanted to say it’s so comforting knowing that Im not alone, and it’s okay to grieve, process and switch off. I truely hope it gets better and sending you all love and strength. ❤️❤️❤️
we are all so happy to have you back nina!! Hearing your story makes me feel so much less alone, I grew up with 4 animals my whole life, we had 2 dogs and 2 cats, around the age of 8 our first dog passed away of cancer, I was young at the time and was in shock as to what was happening but relied on my other 3 animals for coping. 2 years later our second dog passed away and I was around 10 and seriously fell into a pit, at such a young age it was really hard to understand death, I continued to grief of our 2 dogs deaths and once again relied on our 2 cats for comfort. I was extremely close to my cats (I'm a big cat person). Now I was around the age of 11 or 12 when we moved states with both our cats, they had been doing good even though they were becoming older my the day and around a year later our cat Wheezie began to suffer from health conditions which turned out to be tongue cancer...we had to put her down, I witnessed them slowly putting her to sleep in front of my own eyes and went home that night feeling the most pain i had ever felt...I was left with 1 cat, Lucy, now Lucy was very beginning to become very fragile, stiffening in joints, and very thin...she was getting old...i spent as much time with her as possible until the day we were preparing to move to another house she began to have sever complications...we had to put her down that night as well...I had witnessed my last animals death right before me...i remember being in the car sobbing, barely breathing..it was scary...i now had no animals left to turn to...I had truly never experienced that much pain before...It had been 2 years and im now 16 and still grieving over all my animals..
Hearing your story truly made me tear up, although i felt a since of comfort knowing I'm not alone. Im so much younger than you but I promise you things will get so much better, and I wish the best for you nina!! Keep staying strong, and take your time to rest and focus on yourself!
sending lots of love and please take care of yourself. we will always wait for you and when you need to take a break please do. ❤
the physical pain you described plssss this happens to me a lot bc of a chronic illness that was discovered after getting surgery for something else but fr it HURTS ur actually the first person i heard who felt that pain too so you're definitely not alone stay strong i hope things get better for all of us
I find it comforting to think that we were a pet's lifelong companions and were able to offer them a great life, but it is heartbreaking that they made our lives much better but could only accompany us on part of our journey. Best wishes to you - and to anyone going through a rough patch these days - it takes time to rebuild some healthy physical/mental foundations so rest and take care of yourself :)
I'm so sorry for your losses and health struggles.
Nina, I'm sorry you have to go through this. I relate to your feelings a lot since I also lost an important family member, my dad. Thank you for sharing this with us, it did make me feel less lonely, like you said in the beggining of the video. Thank you, Nina. You are an inspiring and beautiful soul 💓
Thanks for sharing with us a little bit of what u have been through, remember we will always support you, thanks for being there for us, we love you really much! I am really thankful for having met you in youtube!
After having a very bad day today and now watching this video I can say that it was my worst day today; Take care of yourself everybody, never neglet your health and love yourself :)
God knows how much I cried w you in this video T-T I am always rooting for you and proud of you for being this strong and being able to share this ,and I'm sure marco and polo are watching you from heaven and are proud too !
Keep goin neen, ill always love and support you
my heart breaks for you so much Nina. I hope you heal well especially through everything you’ve been through :( 🤍 We all are sending you love and virtual hugs! 🤍 and please take a break as long as you need
this made me emotional... i've never had dogs, but i lost two loved ones in less than a year around 2020/2021. my life turned upside down and i think i still haven't grieved enough because i had to move on with my life around that time. but i miss them deeply.
thank you for opening up, nina. i hope you're taking care of yourself. sending much love to you
much love to you, nina
i’m not a dog person, but i was a grandma’s girl, i lost both of mine over the course of 5 months, one of them was my second mom, it fucking hurts, so bad, and you do feel like your life’s slowly falling apart, it’s a feeling i wouldn’t wish on anyone and i’m so sorry you’re going through this, i wish i could say it gets better but the best we can do is live in peace and surround ourselves with the people we love the most, even if one of them is gone. i hope you can find peace and light in these dark times nina, sending you so much strength and love. we got this🤍
i'm sincerely praying for ur fast recovery, nina !! stay hydrated & pls take care of urself. sending u strength & love
I also lost my grandparent both of them in 20 century time and lost one of them in Feb this month I had a real hard time because the people I loved more than my parents were them and I lost them and cried and cried like I had a near point were I had to go to the hospital but I know the experience and I am experiencing it at a young age which is hard too I support u and I experienced a lot in young age like being body-shamed losing friends I don't even know how I handled it so plz try and take care as much as possible I support u all throughout the way🖤🤍
sending you a speedy recovery for ur health and heart! ❤️
Hi Nina. I haven't watched the video, but just based off the title.... I just finished crying because I made a hard decision today. It's been rough for me too. I hope I can watch this video and be conforted in knowing I'm not alone. I hope this message tells you you're not alone either. I hope things can get better soon for you, if they haven't already.
life is so hard. so so hard. but we got this.
i hope you're okay! remember after rain comes sun. take it one step at a time and it will be alright.
I'm sorry to hear about this rough patch, Nina. Life is a Hawaiin rollercoaster ride. We get calm, smooth waves we can happily cruise on, and sometimes we get wild waves that wipe us out. We get back on the board and keep surfing because that's what we do. Keep surfing, Nina.
You're literally the strongest and inspiring person I've ever come across. Everything you do makes me feel like I can also put my life together, like actually finding out who I am as a person as well, you're not only inspiring but very relatable especially now that you're stepping out to talk out your thoughts and emotions.
I'm so sorry for your loss Nina, I recently got a cat myself and I can't even imagine my life without them anymore so my heart grieves for you, I'm proud of you for being able to share your feelings with us even if it is hard to do so. It takes a lot of courage to do so. I hope you continue to take the time to grieve and heal and take care of yourself too . Sending you the best wishes
i went through the same thing this year too...letting go is not a normal experience and so whatever time u need take it. im not in the same place where i had plenty of time to grieve, so please don’t do what i did and listen to yourself n ur body. sending love, rest in peace marco & polo. 🤍
I hope you feel better! We will love you always and never hesitate to take a break when needed ✨
Had a kitten die in my arms in January and my dad was diagnosed with cancer in February. This year has been very hard for me too :(
Love and appreciate you so much Nina 🥺🫂💞 im so sorry about marco and polo, they were such a joy to meet through your videos. Grieving is hard but I'm glad to hear you're making it through that process 💜 Thank you for being so open about your experience these past few months - as someone who lives with anxiety I related to a lot of your thoughts and feelings. Please continue to be kind to yourself, your wellbeing matters most. We're still here for you, you've built an amazing community here and we will be happy to see you whenever you choose to share this space with us 🫂
Aww Nina💖💖💖 thank you for sharing and I’m so glad you are feeling better. Sending so many hugs your way!
I feel your pain, a few years back I lost my younger dog due to cancer and now I have my oldest one still but he’s almost 15 so I’m very anxious to lose him.
I wish you all the best and hope your health gets better! I had to go to the ER too last year for heart reasons but I'm still enjoying life even with my health problem now.
You have a great mindset on it and it's the best way to get your life together!
Sending love and hugs!! xx
I literally relate SO MUCH to all of this, the way we've had too many experiences in common amazes me. Every day I pray for a better day, and from now on, I'll do the same for you! Hope things get better for us soon :(((
It's so great to have you back! I hope you can get well soon and feel better 😊
I can understand nina how u must have felt and your condition right now cause even I lost my cat .. And the pain it just hurts
Hang in there neen. It will soon get better. Once again I'm so sorry for your loss..
Love you so much 💕💕
I'm always there for you✨
I understand that feeling, it’s so so painful.. thank you for sharing this with us, stay strong and we love you 💗💗
nina!!! been watching you since high school (graduated college a year ago now). thank you for helping me make it through when i felt so hopeless. please take all the time you need to rest! we love you so much!! 💕❤️
This whole thing brought up a lot of emotions for me and I’m happy you’re doing better. I really wish you all the best and hope that everything will be at a good high for you soon. Take good care 🤎
i just found out about your channel this last month and i cant describe how much help it has been to watch your videos every day, thank you, i'm sending so much love to you
I might be just a stranger to you but everytime I see you it feels like having new sister and I'm soooo proud of you♡ Please taking care of urself♡♡ We love youuu
out of everything that you spoke about, i understand the emetaphobia and small veins thing... like i will literally not throw up, my brain will refuse until my body literally pushes it out, even if i want to throw up, like idk, but i feel you, and i hate needles, and having small veins doesn't help! im so sorry that you're going through all of this nina, and i pray that you can continue to heal, and progress. remember, you've experienced one of the greatest physical pains that a human can (kidney stones), so you can keep going, you are strong! :)
I'll be watching this video later but even from the title, I just wanted to send lots of love & virtual hugs to you!! Thank you for always being my source of peace and fun with all the content you make, especially being so open with all of us which I'm sure many of us are so proud of you for doing so and appreciate! I will always be supporting you as one of your friends/subscribers ^^
so sorry for your loss Nina. I've lost my 5 month old puppy before, can't imagine how difficult it must be with childhood dogs
Get well soon Nina
holy crap. You're strong as hell because 'rough month' is a total understatement. You persevered but the biggest thing is that you got back up.
You definitely inspired me to pick myself up again as well :)
nina, thank you so much for opening up with us and sharing all of this. i've been experiencing health issues and constant health-issue-related anxiety for the past year or so and it makes me feel so comforted that i'm not the only one who's been afraid and scared and had to learn how to move on. i'm not alone in this and neither are you, neen. i wish you all the best and send you all the love in the world. take care of yourself, we love love love you.
i cried watching this vid nina, losing a best friend is the toughest thing one can experience, i also have a dog and i love her so so much i will never be ready to say goodbye to her. i actually immediately hugged her when i got very emotional when you talked abt marco and polo, they're in a better place now, run free babies🕊️ you've been strong nina! i hope everything goes well for you!
It's so hard to see you going through this, but i hope u know that everything will be okay.
I love you, Neen. We are here for u! Always. ❤️
When you talked about losing your dogs... I felt that in my gut. The day I found out my dog was sick last March was the same day we had to have him put down, and it was not easy at all. It's still difficult; he bridged a gap between my father and me and brought so much love to our family. Thank you for being so transparent with us. You didn't owe it to us at all, but we really thank you. Love ya girly.
I’m sending my love to you and to all the people in the comments 💜 life is hard sometimes, so just take care of yourself and concentrate in things that makes you happy. A virtual hug to all of you buddies 💕 we got this
i had the same thing happen to me in july with kidney stones and it was one of the most terrifying things that happened to me (we basically had identical bruises) but one thing is to just keep drinking lots and lots of water and try to avoid really salty foods! it was super overwhelming for me too (and i unfortunately had bad experiences with the doctors) but please just rest lots and take each day slowly. and as for your doggies, i lost one of mine a few years ago now and i have never felt heartbreak like it. it was also my first time dealing with death and it felt so isolating because lots of people don’t think that it’s a big deal because they’re a pet but they’re part of your family. i really hope you’re doing okay these few days and that your anxiety has been improving. take care of yourself nina and don’t worry about posting lots of content!!
Seeing our precious Nina cry breaks my heart,stay strong neenz and take all the time you need,we will always be here for when you ready to come back💖Sending love your way
this made me so emotional too :'>> sending my love nina. wishing you all the best in your healing. may you only have better and happier days ahead 💜💜
Wishing you good and fast recovery ❤️
Your video was suggested to me. Twenty seconds in my eyes began to water because same girl. Same. We will get through this 💖 I have been feeling very lonely / alone. This helped ♡ sorry for all you went through
Sending lots of love Nina!
You’re content has brought so many people joy and comfort, I just hope that you can experience that joy yourself :D
Please take care of yourself and I hope you feel better !
tw // mental health + pet loss
I felt the exact same way when my dog millie passed away a few years ago. I was 8 when I got her as a puppy and she'd been my best friend until I was 21. I'm happy she got to live a long life and we all knew it was coming because she had been having a lot less energy (she was always playing with toys even in her old age) and started having seizures and it got really bad sometimes, we think she may have had strokes because 2 separate times after a seizure she could hardly walk and didn't want to eat or drink water for a while. I remember the first time it happened I just broke down crying and hugging her :( but she got better the first time so I remained hopeful for a while. unfortunately she passed away at home, we were considering taking her to be put down because it was clear at that point that she probably wasn't going to get better and we didn't want her to suffer more. this time around she hardly wanted to get up, and I had just left my room for a second to let the other dogs into the backyard and when I came back she was on the floor, I don't wanna go into too much detail but it was just an awful thing to see and thinking about it still makes me cry tbh. I just felt so helpless and watching her pass on was, like you said, a really weird experience tbh. I've grown up with a family who fosters dogs and I've seen dogs get sick and known ones who died but never seen it in person before. fortunately I didn't have a job at the time because I totally would've needed a long break after that lol. and afterwards I was SO anxious about the other dogs we had. I was terrified of them getting sick or dying too, like sometimes I'd be trying to fall asleep at night and because the dogs sleep in my room, I would listen really hard to make sure they were still alive, which sounds ridiculous but I guess that's how untreated anxiety is lol. eventually they got adopted out and although I've always been a HUGE dog person, I just can't take care of another pet right now, and probably not again for a while. I'm a sensitive person and like, it's hard enough to take care of myself, I tried my best to take care of my dogs while I had them but after the other crap in life I've been through, taking care of another living being just became bad for my mental health tbh. like I know for some people it actually helps them but I'm weirdly the opposite haha. also I'm living with my partner now and we plan on moving and traveling a lot so we probably won't get any pets for a while anyway, which is funny because as a teen I always swore I couldn't be with someone who didn't want a pet, but god damn, I need a break and I need to get my own shit together before taking care of another furry friend. it's ok to need a break, I sure as hell need a long one lol. it's so unfair that dogs have such short lifespans when they're the sweetest beings on the planet :(
I love your mindset about this whole thing, about just focusing on the present :) it's a lil hard for me when I feel like my life still is very far from where it needs to be, but I'm trying my best to take care of myself and not be too hard on myself (ok maybe that's a lie I'm not trying my absolute best, BUT I do drink enough water lmao)
Hey!!! I’m really sorry about what happened to your dog and what you had to witness. I also own pets but instead of dogs I have cats, a 5-6 year old and a one year old. I always think about how I would feel if they were to die and I always can’t get myself to be emotional about it but now thinking about it, it’s probably because I can’t imagine losing them. Even though my cats aren’t like dogs where they’ll come to comfort you when your upset and they won’t cuddle with me they’re still a big part of my life.
I hope I don’t have to witness them passing away but you’re unbelievable strong and so so so loving for taking care of your dog until it’s last days. I’m sure your dog couldn’t ask for any better and lived a beautiful long-lasting life.
If you ever need to talk, you can come back to this reply, I will always be open to talk about anything and since we’re strangers it might be easier to talk about some things so don’t be afraid to open up.
Much love. ❤️
I can't imagine how much pain you've been through but I know you'll get to live with the memories of Marco and Polo and things will eventually start being easier again ♥ Please take as much time as you need and recover from your kidney stone or any other health issues! Nobody wants you to push through because at some point everybody would collapse :( Life is unpredictable...
I cried with you while watching this video. March is also rough to me too.I am also still on the grieving process when my dad passed away 6 months ago and the way I looked at life felt the same way as u did, too. I had a health issue too (had a leg injury) and I was so anxious when I felt so much pain and had a trauma too going to hospitals because of what happened to my Dad.
Hugs, Nina! Thank you for being transparent. Happy for u for overcoming your battles. ❤️
15:57 literally, I was begging the nurses to sedate me. The worst physical pain ever. On the way to ER I remember I got sick from the stomach twice. I wish you the best from now on!
Thank you for this video! this month has been hard for my own reasons and still is but knowing others going through it, is reassuring in some odd way.
nina ): i'm so so sorry this month was rough for you. you have all my support and love.
sending you all the love nina
That is life. You don't know when you're time is gonna come. So please, people, love yourself, love and be close to your family, friends, closed ones, and let people know how much you mean to them. And HEALTH. First. You cannot enjoy or acheive anything in life, if you aren't fit and healthy. Make your body your priority. Eat good food. Exercise. Get out of the house, even if it's terrifying. Enjoy and have fun as much as you can. Goals, ambitions, dreams, are great, but if they aren't making you a happier person then there's no use of them. Find joy in the little things. Be patient, grateful. Be kind to everyone, because just like Nina all people, and idols you admire virtually, on youtube, on the screen maybe going through something huge and we may not know. Appreciate what you have. Peace 🌻💖
The minute you described the cramp I immeadiately knew what it was, i went through the same thing ;_;
Just a reminder to take things slow .its okay ,know that everything happens for a reason and we ll get through this
Sending you lots and lots of love! I lost my cat last november and my 10 year old dog in december, and I still feel empty. It was the first time I had to deal with grief on that level and it feels just like that. Feeling sad, hopeless, fragile and somehow grateful for all the memories. I hope you get well soon and wish you happiness in the little things, even when life feels like it is falling apart. You are very loved 💕
sometimes life grows us in unexpected areas . glad to hear you developing yourself still .
goodluck neighbor ^_^
also yes, pls stay hydrated!! While I didn’t have a kidney stone, last year I experienced extreme vertigo for two weeks after overworking & eating too much ramen & takeout food. Big wake-up call to keep my body functioning and healthy. We’re rooting for you Nina!! 💕
You've got this, Nina
thank you so much for sharing this part of yourself nina!! i also had an incredibly hard past year when i recently was diagnosed with ocd. a lot of things that you said in this video about anxiety and fear for the next day resonated with me so much. it's just really nice to know that when these bad things happen, no one is truly alone. i love that you said you're trying to focus on the present more now and i'm also trying to do the same, even though it can be very hard sometimes to not live in fear. i believe in us tho, we got this!! i hope you are healing and living life as it comes, love u!!!