One of the Most Unsettling Phenomena of the Human Brain
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In this video, we consider the nature of memories, the implications and horrors of memory-related ailments, and the uncertainty of what it means to be "you."
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I think it stems from our fear of letting go of our egos. Egos are what we decided we are and gave meaning to. So maybe we should let go of what's uncontrollable and give everything in the now meaning. 💜 great video btw.
You went through like 3 different thumbnails with this one, I'm curious why did you change it like that?
@@dawiddulian2403maybe you had Alzheimer's😮
But in all seriousness the first one that saw had a caption "What if you forgot" guess what, I didn't
Are all regular human brain structure identical
“The advantage of a bad memory is that one enjoys several times the same good things for the first time.”
― Friedrich Nietzsche
I agree. I used to get drunk and high and watch movies and forgot a lot then enjoyed watching them again some time later.
When you mention that, there is an interesting Japanese concept 'Ichi-go Ichi-e" aka Once in a lifetime/ one time, one meeting.
@@kitsune_shinobuI like how the Japanese language has so many definitions for feeling for just random thought
Yeah but that doesn't work if like you forgot your childhood you can not re-live it
@pushkaranand3723 I have forgotten most of my childhood, and I'm not even 30 years old.
My wife, the love of my life had a brain injury that inhibits making new memories while she also lost a great deal of the old. She was 50 then, I’m her full time caregiver now for the last 8 years and have learned so much from this extremely difficult journey. The biggest take away I can share with anyone is to live in the present, nothing else really matters. Our days are filled with Love, good music, laughter (having a sense of humor is a must) and never taking anything too serious is the key to our happiness. To say we take time to stop and smell the roses is really an understatement, living in the moment is our life, we see roses everywhere now. I feel very blessed to have been given the ability to understand finally what is really important and how precious life truly is. ❤️ Be kind to each other.
"Reflect upon the Past.
Embrace your Present.
Orchestrate our Futures." --Artemis (DD3)
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Thank you for sharing, that is really beautiful. Even if she can't remember in her brain, she definetely does in her heart
This post is a thing of beauty. Thank you!
I have extreme anxiety, always worrying about if something bad will happen in the future. Seeing your comment made realize I spend too much time worrying about the future and not enjoying the present. I wish you and your family a wonderful life❤
I wish you both the best❤. Make time for yourself, being a caregiver is very draining.
it is said that some of your best days, you have yet to experience. A sad counterpoint to that is some of your best days, you've already forgotten
I know what you mean. I don’t remember much at all about my college days 40 years ago but my old friends tell me I had a great time 😎
The last 10 have been rough
maybe we forgot the details but the feeling is real
I took LOTS of mdma in my teens. Many times I have been completely stimulated with happiness and forgotten it at the same time 😅
I am not afraid of death as much as I am afraid of dementia. It's horrifying to me to still be alive yet what I will have built all my life to be dead.
You wouldn't know anything about it... and ignorance is bliss
@@jackbuff_I this is just wrong. Later stage dementia is pure suffering except for some clear moments but these people almost never know who they are, what is happening and the remainder of the brain reacts to this with extreme anxiety all the time, as well as depression and anhedonia caused directly by the shrinking of the brain. Combine this with your loss of physical function and helplessness and its pure hell just on your inside with no escape except death which is a kindness at this point. The "If I get dementia I wont notice all the BS going on, it will be peaceful"-trope is false
but sometimes you can have delusions, and believe that your ceiling fan is a lion that will kill you. that's not very blissful.@@jackbuff_I
@@jackbuff_Igo visit some people with dementia. Most of them don’t come off very blissful.
It is a fear of mine as well ....but I believe death to be similar
“Thinking is difficult, that’s why most people judge.”--George Carlin
Is this really from George Carlin? I thought that it was from one of the stoic thinkers..
Carl Jung but great quote!
@@janmeijer1627 No, Plato
Carl Jung*
And post quotes everyone else has posted
I did a semester of clinicals in a memory care unit while studying music therapy. It was crazy seeing how people’s bodies would change when they listened to a favorite song: their hands would relax and stop looking like claws, their shoulders and cheeks would soften and they’d look younger, their eyes would lose that glazed look, and faint smiles would replace the usual grimace.
Memory loss is such a difficult fate but there are ways to retain what makes us who we are. A lot of that really boils down to creating a strong sense of self before the dementia starts to disintegrate reality.
but if you have dementia, can you even comprehend that you have dementia? if you can’t even think about what’s happening to you, perhaps its not that bad for the patients. It is very terrifying when we talk like this because we have a normally functioning brain.
@@JASONKENTJANAwell, for my grandma I think it was terrible for her. She became scared, angry, bitter, she always thought her daughters had abandoned her despite them constantly visiting her. When she was still had half a working mind I saw the fear and confusion in her. So, maybe it’s not like that for everyone but I think the experience of dementia is horrific for many people.
I would be interested to also see the use of “nature sound therapy”. As someone who has a panic disorder, I turn on nature sounds (birds chirping, crickets, water trickling, etc) all the time and the effect is profound. Many older people grew up with the sounds of nature around them, I think it would also help calm them a lot.
Journaling took the fear of dementia for me. Assuming I'm still able to find the notebooks, I can read about lost memories, and I hope I'll still be able to trust myself that this really happened.
😂 Right! It's amazing to look back on previous states of mind. It's like triggering a different perspective you once had. Can't speak for everyone else; but I have changed drastically over the years. Easier for the mind to remember when you chunk it with your emotions and senses too.
I should probably try handwritten journaling. I have a digital journal for dreams, but sometimes when reading it I find an entry I vaguely remember. That is, the entry surprises me.
Hand writing these entries would probably stick better in my mind.
Human memory is unreliable and can be easily manipulated..rip
I’m not trying to be the bearer of bad news but if you have dementia you won’t even be able to read comprehend language
Live in the moment
everytime i'm living a good moment, the first thing that pops in my head is "damn... i can't believe i'm going to forget that". what i fear most is not forgetting because some sickness or advanced age, but getting my memories lost in between the business of daily life. i'm relief that today it's very easy to take pictures, record videos and things like that
are u joking bro were all gonna die either way?? u think youre gonna remember that you lived after u die? this is all a big nothing. life is a joke. we were never really here.
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@@MAX-de8feWhat about moving your mind to an artificial brain or something like it? If at any point in the future some being create a simulation highly advanced with emotions and memories, we could be in it without knowing.
"Life could be a dream" ♫
but the act of recording information so it doesn't get lost may sometimes decrease the quality of those activities when you look back at it (like everyone having their phones out instead of just enjoying the moment)
@@jerryatrick6127 @irinamc4280 the best moments happen when you're not even expecting, you don't even have the time to pick up your phone. what i meant is that now you can look to a picture of your friends, for example, and use that to recall the good memories you made together. imagine living in a time that even taking a picture was hard, it's only natural to slowly forget (at least the visual) things if you have nothing to remember them. yes, a lot of people overdo taking pictures and end up not even enjoying the real thing. honestly, it's kinda annoying haha
Because it’s so easy to forget or misremember past events I have this odd fear of accidentally not developing as a person or randomly not being myself anymore.
Unless one is TRULY vigilant about how the past 30-60 years transpired, it's extremely easy for one to "misremember" and bias the events that occurred. What's worse is when an individual's ego gets in the way; some "recall" winning trophies they never won, or successes that were actually failures. Pretty sad.
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@@Novastar.SaberCombatits kind of amazing actually. "Nah I won that shit".
0:50 neither… i love forgetting things, people, ex’s, embarrassing moments, money lost, etc.. I think that’s part of the beauty of life… we naturally filter out the forgettable shit
i want an average
Yea I'm not going to fight this bear either. I just need music to get on through to the other side;)
What sucks most about dementia is not knowing for sure if it's real, or just regular forgetfulness.
Don't you mean about the concept of dementia sucking ? It may just be forgetfulness.
if you are on the street because you didn't pay the rent, I think you know its real
Although my mother passed from Alzheimer's & Covid in 2021, my "real" mom passed away much earlier than that. I've always considered her death to be a sort of blessing. Not for me but for her. It is the most insidious disease.
Indeed
My mother died long before she died. Watching this horrific illness take her was unbelievably traumatizing. It gets so bad they forget to eat. One of our most basic needs. A journal won't help, as they lose the ability to see and hear. Science is trying to get us to live longer. But what of Alzheimer's? No thank you, my current longevity is more than enough.
Deepest condolences to you
@@icatzdeepest condolences to you
@@denisemcdougal6445 Thank you.
I like your channel because it makes me feel like I am not weird, there are other people who think like me and have those questions about life always spinning in their heads.
thank you
Oh no, you are most certainly weird. We all are.
try growing up with the last name 'weir' . my one solace has been
noticing other last names i'd never want.
and knowing they bear up to it too
@@137bob3dyou weird plus
I've become a hoarder because of memories. I will keep things that I deem valuable to me whatever it is, Movies, photos, items songs. I would save it in multiple hard drives and storage, I will photocopy any photos and hide any item I deem "important" because I want to remember how it felt in that moment. In my head throwing or losing those things away are basically me losing bits and parts of myself away.
Yes indeed😊
I have struggled with this a lot. I keep the most trivial things, little pieces of paper with squiggles in them, movie tickets, candy wrappers, little trinkets that just fill up space, because I think they are important, that I need them to remember... but they are so heavy.
I just want to live unburdened by them
Unburdened by memories
Unburdened by feelings that don't mean anything now
That won't mean anything in the future
Some I'll still cherish, of course.
My grandma's clothes, my friend's letters.
But not everything is a memory to carry into the future, to clench to.
I keep struggling
I'll keep working to diminish the hoarding
And I wish luck to you, cherish the essential things.
@@WizardLvl24it sounds like a poem 😱
@WizardLvl24
I struggle with a seemingly opposite problem. I struggle with memory but I've completely surrendered to the reality that moments are fleeing and memories are imperfect. In a real way I actively avoid improving my recall. I tell myself In that way I'm completely untethered, and my degrading mind will have less to seize from me in the end. I don't journal or take many photos. It's a very free, weightless feeling in a certain sense but the loneliness and existential dread are a crushing weight, too. I sometimes wonder if I even have an identity - is my personality just a character I'm playing?
I imagine there exists a good balance between our two extremes
@@michaeln1856 I'm kinda there with you. I operate on the assumption that no one would ever care anyway, I mean appereantly not even I care...
I’d rather die than slowly lose myself
Ok
May not have a choice
@@ChaosPeace2000 there's always a choice until you forget what you were deciding on doing.
That's like losing yourself instantly rather than slowly losing yourself -both are bad but one infinitely better than the latter
@@History_Channel2 i hop you mean dying being infinitley better, because that's what i think. you dont have to agree. if you get dementia, feel free to rot until you cant remember your spouse and children all you want, not that i'd wish this upon anyone. I don't have much of a fear of dying so much as a desire to live. life forgot is a life never lived at all.
my mom was diagnosed with dementia this winter. she’s still herself most of the time but the small sense of absence is in her
I’m so sorry prayers
My grandfather had Alzheimer’s. He forgot my name a lot but his essence was still there. He was a great man. Even though he had difficulties remembering who I was he still showed me kindness.
Must’ve been hard to loose someone you love twice :/
It's sad but we're forgetting every day
Everyday we do and think many things that we will forget. We choose what we think is good enough to remember. Alzheimer’s is a terrifying ordeal some of us will go though, if advanced Medicine doesn’t cure it
You’ll forget about my comment next month 🥺
We forget a lot. Our mind is talking with us every night when we sleep, but when we wake up we cant recall a thing.
Thanks Monsanto
"Feel the dread flow through you." - Pursuit of Wonder. Seriously, I prefer to know about what might be coming than to be ignorant of it. Ignorance is not bliss, it's hell.
As an psych RN another theory has drilled itself into my brain about dementia - an individual’s memories are intact but they’re an unable to call them forward and connect them, or express them properly - verbally or physically. That is the frustration that many people with Alzheimer’s and other forms of dementia demonstrate with bouts of aggression, it’s a locked in claustrophobia of the self and the exterior…it’s that they cannot express what they’re feeling. To me that frustration is a more horrible diagnosis than just forgetting…
I agree. I worked as a CNA for a long time and trained to be an lpn. Dementia patients or Alzheimer’s patients seem to actually have a grasp on what is happening most of the time, and that’s terrifying. Reaching my mid 20’s and just getting out of a bad relationship, I often find myself fretting about my mental health and how the abuse will affect me permanently. Stay strong
@@snuglyghost Sorry to hear of your hard times, but keep your head high...you're doing something extremely valuable. Taking care of yourself is of utmost importance, as it's the only way you can help others.
As someone that I’m pretty sure is in the very early stages of dementia, I can say without a doubt yes, my memories are there but ability to recall them is getting worse everyday. That is VERY frustrating and the inability to express myself seems worse everyday too. Just those two things throw me into a rage. You can deal with that stuff for a little bit but after awhile your resilience runs out. I hope to God someone passes a bill in my state for legal suicide for people suffering from this stuff including myself if this continues to get worse
@@thingsnstuff85 im sorry for your struggles, my father’s side of the family were all dx’d with Alzheimer’s. Please know I’m sending up best thoughts to you and yours. All you can do is your best…though, even the basics are sometimes overwhelming.
@@Farcamp1 thanks for that kudos
I like how the name of the video and the thumbnail change every few hours to simulate the feeling of dementia. I can remember clearly the title of the video being "the fear of forgetting" and the thumbnail being a red head being open hlafway
I think there was a point also when it mentioned something about an illusion.
Bro is making my job harder by changing the title every few days 😂
not really, that's a common tactic to get more views, almost all popular youtubers do it because what people haven't clikced yesterday might today if it's diferent
Forgetting how to fear might be an equitable trade? I was going to add something, but I forgot what it was.......
The beautiful thing about life is that while it takes us forward, we must also answer to the past that shaped us. Its as if the past and the present are happening all at once
Well, that was a whole lot of nothing you just said. Makes sense though. It's usually the people who write like LotR Elves giving a speech that are full of it the most
i cant pour into text how much i love this channel and its content! as a young person, you really helped me reach a deep way of thinking and supported the development of my ability to truely understand and analyze human emotion. i have always had an interest in psychology and philosophy, and this channel really makes me find different ways of thinking! thank you!
It scaries me to realize that i'm slowly remembering that i had these symptons, feeling the time taking everything very slowly.
Your histories area unique! Every video a emotional journey. Great work!
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Sometimes I remember that I lost my mind and I get upset.
The mind in general, including the memories, is something that I feel the "historical materialism" ignores completely.
It is the factor that provides the subjectivity.
In my view, the "historical materialism" is an attempt to empty each individual subjectivity, so they could accept an objective truth, making them submissive to an authority.
Really good video.
Absolutely brilliant comment. And memories may be stored more places than we think. We are informed by our memories, but we are so much more than just what we define as 'memories'.
This is currently my most favourite video on this channel. The music, the video, the script. Just wonderful. I felt the video so much and enjoyed the journey.
Sometimes, I remember that I have memories but can't remember how they felt.. I've become amnesiac.
It is limited what you can take beyond the void veil; only certain memories can persist, and they are sparse and few.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1)
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@@Novastar.SaberCombat but when it stops? how many worlds? what's the point if we cant take more with us into the other. Maybe it stops when we are ready if not can it be stopped even.
I had a memory from when I was seven. What it was is not important. (I will say it was neither physical nor sexual abuse). I held this memory for over 30 years. It made me sad, angry, and confused. Then, I discovered it was a false memory. However, my emotional response was not a falsehood. I felt these things. How does one rectify 'real' emotions with something that never happened? It would mean my emotions were real, but also false, insofar as I created the emotions connected to the false memory.
Better to be remembering that you forget than forgetting to remember
Such a thrilling, sobering, haunting video. Thank you thank you thank you! Just shared this with three people I love.
I believe it is important to consider that each of us remembers the same thing differently. So a little understanding is important.
I wememba everting
Your videos are so thought provoking. Love it!
That parabel opened up a completely different way to think of dementia. And I worked as a nurse in a retirement facility
Thank you sir! I look forward to all your videos 😊
9:25 "Where am I? What am I doing?what am I?" Are questions that I've been asking myself all my life
"a good friend once told me we are memory. without them, we equal nothing"
-M. Shadows
We are passangers to our bodies,our minds and the universe. Awesome!
That's only what you perceive to be the case, my friend. Those pictures are a representation of your reality.
How is the most natural cycle 'unsetteling"?
Stay safe.
Be what you are.
Thank you for this effort
Amazing content. Love this channel, your insights and the clear and direct way you deliver everything. It's just brilliant!
Another beautiful video idea, loved it.
Thank you for sharing your extraordinary insights.
What’s under appreciated is how beautifully done this video is. The graphics, the changes in music as the tone changes, the highly visual storytelling narration. Amazing quality work.
It's given me some solace to consider the idea that forgetting, or at the very least having an imperfect memory, could be a blessing and a feature. Some moments serve no purpose and contribute little if they're remembered, freeing up space for moments that do matter. We don't complain about not remembering what we did exactly 5 years, 7 days, 18 hours, 2 minutes and 43 seconds in the past.
On the other hand, even if we forget some important events, that's not always a bad thing. There are some very traumatic things that happened to me in my past that i only vaguely remember, and I'm sure some that are completely forgetten. From a survival perspective, those could technically help me survive similar situations in the future. But now that I've been able to process the emotional impact of them, learning the lessons but letting go of the awful details or even the events outright, my life simply has become better.
It's fine, you're not human enough if you're not forgetting things
You're not human enough? What does that even mean?
@@randyt3558exactly what it means
Real
@@randyt3558 Forgetting is a common human experience, and some individuals forget more than others due to various factors, so if you're not forgetting things, memories, places, tastes, vision, people etc, you're not performing the regular act of being a human. If you remember everything you're nothing but a computer. Isn't it so?
no. Because everybody forgets something. So it's a spurious hypothesis. Simple minded even.@@Sayansv
Are we bound to enjoy this kind of topics until we die? We have forgotten to be open and vulnerable to one another.
Recently have been depressed which made my memory to go bad and had very similar thoughts about very similar topics myself. I find it shocking that another person had thoughts that are this similar to mine, I mean the most of the video just feels like someone read my thoughts from a few days ago out loud.
Another absolutely incredible video by Pursuit of Wonder, but it's also absolutely devastating.
I was drinking with some friends and I blacked out (for the first and hopefully last time since now I'll always put a stop after some drinks) after falling asleep, but they say I woke up did stuff and just kept falling asleep and waking up and they have pictures etc told me what I did, and for me i was just tired, sat down fell asleep for only one time and the next second i woke up on bed, hearing what I did from them but not recalling it even in the faintest, it's just weird, maybe that's what sleepwalkers feel like when they're told about what they did at night, at least my friends and the me I don't recall had a good time, to me it was just a second, we were partying but I got sleepy, then awake in bed, will it be I'm dying then a second later I forgot everything and I'm somewhere, something else, being born again or dk, anyway whatever will be will be 🖤
I could think of several things. Trying to forget problems so hard you forget everything, having low confidence and questioning everything and not traveling/moving.
Very good bro, u nailed this one!
I just finished watching the video, and I have to say, it really hit home. The video talks about dementia and how it affects people in a really moving way.
It shows how dementia slowly erases memories and cognitive ability until people with Alzheimer's disease don't even know who they are anymore. It's really sad to see how people go from being a bit forgetful to completely lost and confused.
In general, this video is a strong reminder of how delicate our minds are and how much of an impact dementia and other conditions can have on people and their families. It makes you think about what memories, identity, and life really mean, and it encourages you to be more understanding and compassionate towards those who are going through such a tough time.
We are as infinite as the moment we are now . Death is simply an end goal to spite for a bit . If we forget our lives we are gone if we are gone then dead , instead we have lived . Be eternal fr
I was diagnosed with DID a couple years back but i was aware of it for a few years before that. I have very little memories of my childhood and the ones I do have are split up among alters who can and cant remember it. Its hard not knowing what youve done or being unable to remember anything youve done. I think that its important you cherish the memories you have you have no clue how lucky you are.
Beautiful imagery.
thanks for reminding me
Thank you
Recently I have a new sense of my memories being a store of information about myself.
Not so much to review and argue or modify with 'what i should have said', or
'I should have done that differently', but an opportunity to accept my self
and my actions without judgement.
This is one of the most beautiful vedios ive ever watched.
I was on a medicine for 3 years that caused cognitive issues. Memories was the hardest to wrangle.
But I was happy. If something uoset me, I'd forget what the upset was for, then move on. When it came back to my awareness, it usually wasn't important anyway.
It's been years since that med, but it taught me that we take ourselves too seriously.
I experience early onset frontal temporal dementia, among many other things, due to a mutation.
Some experiments have me functioning better at the moment, but I was close to death numerous times before understanding what was happening and how to mitigate it.
I just want to say some thing..
Despite the loss of memories, the inability to form them, and the complete loss of functions:
YOU'RE STILL IN THERE!!!!!
And it is pure fucking HELL.
Your brain has a subconscious backup memory.
It doesn't include all the details, but the totality of everything is still there.
You just feel it.
Its like..standing outside a house.
Not recognizing it but somehow knowing it's yours.
You know there is something inside you need, but you dont know what it is or why you need it.
And you can't find a way in, the door is gone and the windows are just shadows.
This is incredibly scary to read and I’m very sorry for your unfortunate circumstances, I wish and pray for nothing but luck and fortune for you and hope it is able to improve, but what you have said has gave me insight on what one of my family members is currently going through and I thank you greatly for this, thank you and may peace be with you🫶🤗
This here. I'm not as smart as I used to be. I remember being smart. It doesn't feel good knowing that. Not at all.
Another good video
Thanks for uplifting my evening. It brought back the horrors of my mother's dementia,-- and my mother-in-law's premature dementia nightmare. Now what do I do? Comedy? That might help.
Memories always engage our senses! How it felt, how it looked, how it smelled, how it tasted, and what it sounded like. So every time you’re enjoying something take it all in, so you can remember it forever ❤
I’ve read about the neuroscience and nutritional support of dementia, and this video was the most poetic and philosophical take on the condition I have ever heard.
Finally a little early today for my pursuit of wonder
“Where am I? What am I doing? What am I?”
I am here, I am experiencing life to the fullest. I am Alive.
This video projects a feeling that is dangerous and untrue.
great, now I'm sad and can't recall specific memories from my childhood
Dissociation shares many symptoms with dementia.
False or missing memories, disrupted sense of self, personality changes, etc.
Noticing the similarities in my experiences i share with dementia patients makes me feel all the more for them, i do hope one day a treatment is found.
❤Thanks. So simple to understand about a very difficult topic is great service to mankind and keeping them aware. The point is degree of affection and connections present in older generations is diminishing now is creating a fear amongst older people now is becoming a serious concern is my observation may not be true. Thanks again.
I used to wish I can forget some parts I dont want to remember. But in life, when you make that wish, everyone forget you, and its so worse I suffer everyday for the last 4 months…..
Love the music
I can find will and strength in telling those who scorn me "I will outlive you, and forget you."
During an episode of psychosis (lasted three months straight), I (20 at the time, now 22), lost all memory of my life and perception of self up to that moment. I remember frequently thinking "Oh god... I can't remember my name or where I'm from or what year it is or who the president is; I can't remember much of anything." My brain was just this numbingly empty void. Eventually, as I came out of psychosis, I began to regain my sense of self and all of my memories, but it was a terrible hellscape plane of existence; permanent torture, pain, and confusion. I couldn't even recognize objects or myself in the mirror; like ego death. Very interesting perspective I hold to be ripped away of my memories & cognitive function and then regain it all completely back after a few months of recovery.
That was a very cool video essay.
🎯 Key Takeaways for quick navigation:
00:03 🧠 *Memory and Identity*
- Memories shape our identity, influencing who we believe we are.
- The richness of life is derived from clear, consistent memories.
- Our identity is tied to our ability to retain and access memories.
01:19 🧠 *Understanding Dementia*
- Dementia refers to symptoms impairing memory, thinking, and other functions.
- Alzheimer's disease is the leading cause, characterized by abnormal protein deposits in the brain.
- Dementia progresses through stages, gradually diminishing cognitive abilities.
04:38 🧠 *Profound Implications of Dementia*
- Dementia illuminates the abstract nature of consciousness and selfhood.
- William Utermohlen's self-portraits visually depict the effects of dementia on self-perception.
- Dementia challenges notions of existence and the formation of meaning.
06:24 🧠 *Fragility of Memories*
- Memories are inherently fragile and susceptible to distortion.
- False memories can be formed due to suggestibility and cognitive biases.
- The mind's inherent blind spots contribute to the uncertainty of memory recall.
08:12 🧠 *Existential Reflections*
- Alzheimer's and dementia reveal the fragility of human existence.
- Our identities are constructed from imprecise memories, vulnerable to decay.
- The questions posed by those with dementia reflect broader existential inquiries about existence and consciousness.
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This is cool
I heard of a story where someone's last memory is when he was 19 yrs. old. Every morning he would wake to the horror that was an old man and robbed of his life, and would spend the whole day in anger, shock and sorrow until he fell asleep, and it would start all over again.
It's just as bad for my family. We remember almost everything. Heck, I remember eating ashes out of a trash can I knocked over at age 2, and I'm 53.
A slight digression, dreams are made up of memories mixed with true emotions and subconscious perceptions of reality.
My father passed away 3 years ago, I see him in my dreams and at that moment he’s alive, because my majority of my memories, he’s present.
He’ll truly die when everyone who knew and experienced him, forgets about him.
My gran has dementia and my true feeling is that I hope she passes away sooner than later because living with no memories is simply not worth it.
I could go on forever about my personal views on memories.
Keep a journal, and review it regularly.
With modern tech its very easy. I dictate my journals, title them, and save them in archives as mp3s. With a delay for retrieval I could tell you in detail what important things were happening in each week or so, going many years back.
This video makes me intensely sad. My grandma has Alzheimers and I've watched her wither away from the person she used to be. My Dad is much like her. He is already showing signs of memory loss and he's barely turned 65. I already have witnessed the significant loss of a person through this damn disease. Now I'll have to see it happen again to my Dad. It kills me inside.
Although you focus and exploration about dementia is quite a bit, what caught me early on in your discussion was this. You mentioned how our memories are there for us, like a photo album (my wording here), think about, recall, remember, and there’s a memory, etc. But, what is missing what some of us have **Aphantasia**. I can not think up memory, try to imagine it, and then “see” the image(s) of my request to my brain. I only came across this word, this rare condition, a few years ago. I have heard of photographic, eidetic memory years before. But never gave my missing Mind’s Eye much thought. I am not alarmed by this. This my normal. I can be mildly envious of those who can see their rememberings. Aphantasia- this title hasn’t been around very long. And studies inconclusive but those of us that have are numbered as quite a small portion of the population (primarily Western biased). So, an interesting philosophical, scientific, medical episode. I also really like the graphics you use, not boring, irritating, flash and splashes of movie clips, emojis, etc
Death by dementia or dementia is the scares me the most. Like you simply cannot hold onto anything while saying goodbye to this world. Because of this i care about my memories so much. As said in the video memories make our personality in the end. But sadly, i cannot recall my memories in detail. I always forget the things i enjoy. The book i have read,the films i have watched,the things that i tought of...
I just want remember good and meaningful things when i hit bed. And i cant recall any meaningful detail.This gives me great anxiety and sadness. Like i cannot imagine my grandfathers face or the rally car i like.There is just nothing. It is becoming unbearable. I dont know to do.
I feel like i cannot contain my conscious.
I dont want drift away like this...
I kinda have the same feeling, but at the same time I wonder - why would it scare me, this slow disappearing into nothing, like the death of the universe from entropy. If death is ahead anyway, then as Epicurus said - when I exist, it is not here, and when it comes, it is no longer me. In a way, this is what saying goodbye to the world is, a gradual goodbye, drifting away. Whereas most people die suddenly, torn from the world, with no possibility of goodbye. Of course, this is hard to see for those who cares for me when I'm ill. For them it's the hardest.
I started thinking about my parents, they are 50 now and extremely happy, healthy, and loving. I am terrified of the possibility of either of them going through this. I cant bear watching their light drain like i did my grandparents.
We’ve already seen several cases on UA-cam where peoples’ memories last only seconds. A very difficult life.
I want to show another side of this as it relates to dementia and memory loss. I grew up in my Grand parents house. My Grandfather lived until 94, he suffered severe gout for at least 15 years before his death. It was so bad he would scream in the night. He had several exploratory surgeries during this time, I have no clue why when it was gout, but this was in the 1980s and maybe they though it was some intestinal issue or cancer. My Grandmother and my mother took great care of him during this, but still at some point in the 1980s he decided he no longer wanted to live and stopped eating. My family had to put him in a nursing home at that point, and they gave him IVs, he lived in nursing homes for another 5 or 6 years and grew very very thin. One day he decided to stop eating once again and this time he passed away by the next day. My grandmother lived to 100 years old, in the end she went to an assisted living facility (her decision at the urging of some of our relatives, family politics, and she regretted it after she went there but it was too late), then in a few years she went in to its nursing home. She was so frail near the end, they staff had to be super careful with her. When they would pick her up to put her in bed her skin was so thin it sometimes would rip open. My grandfather asked why god would not let him die all the time, my grandmother was miserable as well. Neither had dementia or any type on noticeable memory loss. They were both sharp and aware of everything until the very end, it was a horrible experience for them both. This has left me with strong feelings about the end of our years and the importance of quality of life. I know dementia is a horrible condition, but I have seen the horror of people living so long that their bodies fail them and they are in pain and suffering and fully aware of it the entire time, which is the worse fate? I would love to see no one suffer either one.
i don't feel like I am scared of death. But dementia, it fucking scares me! I'm still young, but if I get it I might actually k my self (after the first few stages). It gives me the spooks
Living a thousand years with only a 24 hour memory seems like a blessing. That's a win-win.
Clicking on this expecting to hear something I've never considered before. I'm a nurse and this is my daily reality. It's sad but I face this reality almost daily. It's hard
My Grandfather passed from ALZ rather early and it is my worst fear, has been from the moment i understood what that kind of brain malfunction can, does and did happed to someone in my family.
✨❤️✨ thank you
It's so insane that our entire lifes, every dream, every waking moment from our birth to our death in 70-80 years time is just one microscopic - almost non existent part of the existence of the entire universe. But what makes it "real" if we can't perceive it? Yes, others see it. But what is real and what is not when you are non-existent?
There's so much shit I wish I could forget.
I learned that forgetting is a matter of distance and cleaning up triggers
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I just want to cry, I feel so lost
The Father (Starring Anthony Hopkins) is a must-watch movie to fully explore the tragedy of what the experience of losing oneself to dementia would be like. It is heart rending, raw, and tragic, and I can't imagine a better depiction of the experience.
Utermohlen was a brilliant man, and highlighted the vital role of artists in expressing that what would otherwise be inexpressible, though subjectively, at least accessible to the everyday person through the artist’s perception and soul.