The Letter That Will Never Be Sent: An Apology To An Ex. || Spoken Word Poetry
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- Опубліковано 27 сер 2024
- I went deep for this one. It's not something I'm used to as far as editing but it was definitely my favorite to edit and film. I tried to leave it as uncut as possible. Enjoy this one guys.. more is coming. Happy 2020!!
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Instrumental I used above.
I DON'T OWN ANYTHING BUT MY POEM AND MY VOICE.
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Most people say they don’t wish this kind of pain on even their worst enemy but... I always wish he feels the pain too...
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In my opinion I don't want anyone to feel that pain. I've felt it before and It was one of the worst times of my life.. I'm not taking away whatever she did or their situation at the time. It's just that pain I know personally, I don't want anyone too feel that way.
Jian Lei Zheng yea true
I Believe ok I will
I know how that feels... but at least the end of the he day it would hurt yoy
the facts that there’s stains & crossed out mistakes on the paper makes it even sadder
I had tears coming out.
This couldn’t be more accurate for what I am going through right now. Beautiful words. Much love ❤️
Same😭
S Cls I hope things get better for you! ❤️
@@celesteanderson3080 thank you
if you all cheated then u dont deserve redemption.. falling face first on someone elses d*^* is not justifiable for any of your gaslighting "he didnt give me enough attention"... funny thing is if he gave u all the attention and love, youll then say hes smuthering u where u would then plan your girls night to the club and proceed to cheat on the man u so call love. stay single and let your 30s show you your looks will fade and you suddenly now want to mature and find mr right... pathetic.
Ancient Assyrian Calm down!!! I for one did NOT cheat thank you very much. Perhaps some of us just found certain parts of this relatable etc. Hope you chill out and have a good day.
I can feel the incredible amount of pain in her voice no one should have to feel that pain.. I just want to give everyone who is a sad a hug. I want everyone to remember that
You're beautiful
You're smart
You're amazing
You're kind
You're talented
You're loved
Regardless about what anyone says about you beauty comes from the inside not the outside and even if you don't feel that way now just keep hanging in there someone will eventually come you're way and love you for you and see you for who you are I won't lie it may take time but the best things come in time.
Sorry for the long message and terrible grammar I hope everyone is having a good year now and from years to come.
@ gina mcentire you are a kind soul who understands the pain of others.may god bless you 🙏
Keep your hair on
We belong together
How can I make it up to you?
I was just so frustrated
I've watched this several times at 2am. This is exactly what I wanted to say to my beloved one. Sorry, I wanted to save myself, but I ended up drowning. If only I could turn back time, I would definitely hold us a little longer. I would rather be killed by you, by our toxic stories, than by myself. I still love you, Binnie. And I always.
Funny fact it's 2 am in Kenya and I am watching this video for the first time 😂
I'm literally crying listening to the poem and the piano music :'(
...if my pain brings happiness to him, that's all that matters!
If love is real enough to know you can always give a proposal in the way of explaining your love for a person who knows her worth. Because you never know what if she's feels same exact way
If you want to give love to a woman who knows her worth im sure all she needs is a proposal .. because what if she been betrayed all her life by men who broke her heart broke promises
The “I worry about you a lot” line and the ones after got me.. damn I guess I still care about you and how you’re doing..
Same because I'm worried about my friend Lauren Hampton.
I felt the tear drops through the screen . We all had one of those before
Exactly what I'm going thru rn.. if only she knew..
im going through it now, i still love him, ive loved him 2.5 yrs, i found out 2weeks ago he felt the same we dated for a week than he dumped me on our one week ani, he wont even talk it out with me he still has feelings for me i can tell, but im hurting he hurt me when he promised he wouldnt hurt me, he wont answer my texts, it just hurts, am i a bad person for being kinda happy hes hurting. i am sad hes hurting, hes hurting cuz he hurt me
@@michellecrowder6374 my meant to be soulmate of 4 years.. became a stranger just like that. After incidents of on and off. I just had to end it one day because i felt it was getttin to toxicty. and she wasn't feeling the same. or as maybe it was me that was feeling weak and pushed her away due to my depression. I know this out of context but we have to go through pain to learn from them and grow from them. You both might be hurting for now. But trust me.. it might be for the better. Take the pain as a lesson learned. and Move on and don't guilt trip yourself anymore because of you thinking of hurting him. I can only say this from my own experience. Its only been a year and im still thinking of her. sadly its not the same for her. so what more can you do? but to just live your life and moved on either whose right or wrong.
Im going through this as well brother, i know how you feel
@@shantcheetah feel better bro,. the best is yet to come
Kevin Le i really hope so brother, i just want her to be happy in life, but i keep missing her everyday
Sometimes I'm feeling like am I really not a person anymore for not being able to feel anything inside
Not even a tear drop getting out of my eyes, couldn't feel anything inside but just empty as hell.
Where no feelings are being generated no cry no smiles no tears no nothing
Or maybe I'm. Just becoming unemotional everyday?
Understood I am worthless
But wish her to be happy wherever she is being.
And people that had gone away from me.
To get happy life to them as I still think of each and everyone
Mostly her whom I got love forever which might never be Enough for her.
Sometimes love is all about pain..when u love u have to prepare yourself for pain also.. i lost myself long time ago since she left me with a broken pieces. I was so devastated by the thought that she is gone
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Forever one love 🕊 £ I may not show it yet I'm just not a 3 person lover so forever ill stay single til death do us part. Was waiting for my chance to get a proposal buh it wasn't ever seen that I deserved one I guess
Thats one thing I always numbed the pain since my best friend who i fell for was moving forward with a love he deserved I felt so broken I couldn't ever imagine me having to tell him I broke more and more each and every day 💔
@@almamorecho6631 it seems like a person should not be imperfect in order to be loved, should not do any wrong or mistakes even unexpectedly to get loved. But here most of thr people lie, somehow fall in traps of absurdities in society , because of pressure or other reasons a person can't describe and fall into mazes and does sins or mistakes even when he/she dont have any intentions to do wrong. That's how everything falls apart.
You write so beautifully ..
thank you!
Oh Thank You
Thank you so much for your kind words
@@SkyeLove you are VERY talented! I consider your poems to be "Instant classics"
You know I have seen a hundred of videos but nothing wasn't relatable as it was it, even I was crying while watching this, it touched me so deeply, I Never comment on any videos but this made me do it, I really loved it, man. Very beautifully written ❣️💞
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Love hurt I know.
Do checkout my poems you will be able to relate to them.
This is so amazing.. your voice is so amazing, and your poems.
This is a part of life. Love hurts sometimes and other times its just not enough when your betrayed.
This was me three years ago...
But he forgot me...
He forgot me...
And he broke my heart...
Now he doesn’t even love his current girlfriend anymore.
He loves a woman. A taken woman.
And to Nate...I’m sorry. I should’ve told you when we were young...but I never did...and I had to break my own heart every day to fall out of love with you. Three YEARS I loved you...and not a day went by that I didn’t feel the pain of your rejection.
Three years I loved you...I doubt she has. I doubt you even were friends with me when I started loving you. You were my first love, Nate.
But that ended a year ago.
You had your chance.
But I’m still sorry.
WOW
Don't
Oh dear armyy! I hope you found your happinesss now and one day you will find someone who loves you for who you are!^^ keep fighting!♥️
This literally had me in tears because of how accurate it is and I honestly want to say every single one of those words to him, but I know it would just make things worse and squeeze citrus into the wound. And my friends say to get over him, but I adored him from day one and I just don't know how to "Let it go". Hurts to feel this way and everytime I tried talking to him again I walk away because even if I did do that, the spark won't be there anymore and the awkward silence will kill me worse than seeing the break up message he sent me because of the whole social distancing and him never being available to call.
You've earned a new subscriber, and I really do hope things get better for you in the future. ❤️
Omg, is this for real, I could not imagine a more painful voice than this, and also the tear drops rolling down from her face on the letter.
Guys I promise you it gets better when you’re in your 20’s and people actually start being mature and caring about your feelings. Teenage and especially high school relationships suck, and it’s no one fault. You’re all just going through your adolescent journeys right now, try to be forgiving towards yourself and even others because you never know what they might be dealing with. Someone’s trauma is never an excuse to constantly treat you poorly though, you always deserve better ❤️❤️
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What a beautiful poem and I love the emotion it brought out in me this touched my heart so much. I used to be in love with my middle school girlfriend although we were only kids it felt so real we were together the whole 8th grade year. We spend mornings together, classes together, lunch together, after school and even sometimes on the weekends we would hang out. We were so in love with each other. It was so pure but then the school year ended and my parents decided to move 60 miles away because of my dads job. I never got to say goodbye because it happened so fast during the summer and back then there was no Facebook to communicate all I had was her phone number. She went to high school and so did I. We would talk on the phone every other day then it was once a week then just small text and then we eventually stopped talking. I felt that I was losing her. Then one day broke my phone and lost complete contact with her. Fast forward 10 years later I find her on Facebook she is now married with a beautiful daughter. And now I regret not writing down her phone number safe. I feel that my life is not complete without her 😔
God damn, I can feel your pain resoante through me. Keep It up honey, this Is gorgeous.
OMG, This is so hard breaking and makes me cry.
My dear, I know how you feel about that.. I was so sad when my ex leave me for the past 6 years... Then on this faithful day I came across a video on UA-cam there was this friend of mine that drop a message on my email, and she explained perfectly well to me that there is this great powerful man that can help me with my situation.. Then for that moment I was doubting her but I was having these mind set let me try if it is going to work for me know then and I message him on his WhatsApp number
Know and behold the man told me that I should give him only three days that my ex is going to come back to me.. On that faithful day my ex text me on first place I was so very excited and now my ex is with me now i am so great full to him.
You can text him on his WhatsApp
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this was the saddest most relatable thing i’ve ever watched, especially at this point in my life rn.
I know because I cried and I was also thinking about my friend Lauren Hampton
I almost wrote the same letter. I thought about it and deleted the app. We were in a long distance relationship, waiting to meet after the world went back to normal.Then we had an argument. I refused to compromise my boundaries . I left it up to you and you left. Later I discovered by accident that you never existed. You were a scammer who stole someone’s identity, I was mad at a picture of you and you weren’t even real. I have cried more tears in the last week than in my entire life.It will take a while to erase those feelings . I am 73 years old and thought my dreams had come true. What does that say about me. It will never be a man that makes me cry again .
Pam darling I envy ur strength
Life is full of surprises
Age factor isn't issue
Anyways enjoy your journey 👍
Love for the unknown
Wish I could get a letter like this even just admitting we where both wrong and move on to the next step of proving pure love to someone and fixing us
I'm crying right now 😭
Wow! That was beautifully sad. Keep writing. 💜
I can feel the pain in her voice . I feel so sad for her
This is the most accurate thing at this point of my life. I wish nobody had to go through this pain but this happens at some point in your life and we wish it didn’t but it does and as much as we try we can’t change it😔😩
My dear, I know how you feel about that.. I was so sad when my ex leave me for the past 6 years... Then on this faithful day I came across a video on UA-cam there was this friend of mine that drop a message on my email, and she explained perfectly well to me that there is this great powerful man that can help me with my situation.. Then for that moment I was doubting her but I was having these mind set let me try if it is going to work for me know then and I message him on his WhatsApp number
Know and behold the man told me that I should give him only three days that my ex is going to come back to me.. On that faithful day my ex text me on first place I was so very excited and now my ex is with me now i am so great full to him.
You can text him on his WhatsApp
+2349058821669
My dear people. Be strong, please! I was going through this and I know its hard but please, dont give up! I can promise you will be okay more than ever. Just be safe.
I cried lessening to this because this so relatable.
Wow just wow! It's almost like I am in my exes mind...i intend she reaches out and sees I still care... I'm a grown ass man and this brought tears in my eyes! You are truly talented.
I'm a poet yey I love poetry it is a heart beat for life challenges we all face keep it up
i want to know who hurt a beautiful soul like you.🤧
I admired how you wrote, it totally reflects my current situation. How i wish it didn't happened, but I was late to realize that you gave me my happiest days. Now you're with someone else all I really wish he'll put a smile in your face. I wanted to win you back, but it was late.
I could help but just have tears running down my face while this was being written... I hope you know your loved ❤️
😖 omg that's so heartbreaking
This makes me want to sob but like bravo girl
There was this guy I met, we clicked instantly, I began to fall in love we slowly got closer and closer, He said I love you and I said I love you too. We met in person and had the best time of our lives he said I love you again and as a dummy I said I love you too❤️ He said when we part ways again he was gonna do more to make it workout between us. We’ve been off and on for years.. the last time he said we will never be together and that I should move on because he’s already moved on. He said goodbye, I wanted to be friends it hurt so bad to let him leave I had no one to go to I got into drugs it’s getting bad again a simple hello from him would just make me feel like a millionaire but I don’t think he will come back this time🥺
Ik this feeling I loved someone so much her mom is what broke us apart I lost feeling
"I think I still need you, so prove me wrong if I don't" 🖤
My bested al gues
I'm triggered, I'm pressed, I'm hurt
This is exactly me, I was the one who broke up first because I wanted to save myself but i guess i just dig myself up to the ground and become more sad and broken.
Love you from the bottom of my heart 💓!! You know exactly how to Express out the feelings of others who are depressed 😊😊😊😊!
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Love hurt I know.
Do checkout my poems you will be able to relate to them.
I love your poetry! For every dark night there is a brighter day!
It's really heart touching... I can't imagine this pain...but I can feel as I too loved and still love someone
I'm literally crying, why does love hurt so bad ?😭 💔
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Love hurt I know.
Do checkout my poems you will be able to relate to them.
It just does because I had 3 loves and I cried alot when love hurts.
Wow!!! This is mind blowing!!! The pain is so surreal!!
My girl broke me so badly that I now hate myself. I know I should move on but I feel numb. My eyes are dry still my heart cries.
:((( felt
Same here bro,mine's cheated 6+ times.She sent this to me,so I am watching it and crying
Nine threw me away like I was trash man
im 15 and this will definetely stick in mind the next time a guy asks me out. like, hell naw i dont wanna suffer!
My boyfriend of 4 years broke up with me. All because I made a decision to tell him that I thought I had feelings for another guy but I realized I never did I misread a friendship for feelings. I never acted on the emotions and never cheated but yet he still felt betrayed. Now the one person I love left me for my mistake. I wish I could take it all back😔.
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Love hurt I know.
Do checkout my poems you will be able to relate to them.
It's been over four years...this one hurts even more. I lived this exactly to a T. The part of turning to alcohol broke me in a way I never thought because of how badly it fits me. My doctor told me when I had my blood drawn for lead level tests that my liver enzymes were really high...I haven't drank heavily in over a year all of it because a steel color eyed blonde haired woman told me that she was in love with me and I stupidly fell for her because she snuck in as a friend and destroyed the walls around my heart...now I wonder how she is, if she is happy, where her life is taking her...maybe I wouldn't be wondering if I hadn't lost my mind at the diagnosis of pancreatic cancer in my mother...all I know is I'm tired of hurting, tired of being tired and there isn't another who could replace her. She made me love being in love and she made being in love easy.
This is what im feeling now😑really sad to being crazy for someone
very emotional!!...very touching and a true heartfelt message!! in reading some of the comments I noticed a lot of woman said that they truly felt the pain in her voice as she was reading the message and they added"No one should ever have to go through that much pain. I can hear it in her voice, and the words that she was trying to put on paper"..... and yes, i'll see it right now. I'm probably that guy on the other end of the letter..... you could truly feel her pain... even though she was probably an actor reading the message. It was very heartfelt, and you could tell by the comments it touched peoples heart!!.... but have you ever stopped and thought about the betrayal, gut, wrenching agony, anguish, heart breaking pain, the guy must've went through!!! I know there's pain on both sides and heartbreak effects both parties!! it's been two years for me and I can still feel the 10 swords in my back like it was yesterday...... my heart felt like it was pumping out blood internally, going to every part of my body, but not through the veins and arteries!!! for months and months of sleepless nights, tears, gosting, and loneliness .....I hung on!! because I do believe in true love ....I do believe in unconditional love, and mostly, I believe God can change lives!!! PS..... did she really have to put that little zinger in there about never fighting for her? Because I can speak as a guy...... she had no idea how much I fought for her ....and for us!!
When the tears hit the paper... that one hit home
Everything will be okay and you have to be brave♡♡
I was just waiting for your video :’(
I was listened to all ur voice mail videos when me and him
Broke up and that was nearly a year ago and until this day I still miss . And today I listened to those again and I just let those tears fall down my cheek ..
This hit hard😓 if only the situation I was in at the time was different. Months later I still feel myself crushed and nothing is the same anymore.
This was a beautiful piece💯
Sending you power to fight 💪 loved your poetry! :)
Most terrifying situation that we had in our lives ..life goes on..😭
This is so moving, I wish I could send you a letter but I just can't muster that courage because am not sure you would even read it and instead tear it🥵,,, yeah I know it's over but I still love you,, I know I made a mistake but trust me; you are the one who pushed me to it! I just wanna say thank you and glad that I tried though I wish I could hold on a little longer, sad that that chance is negligible. I miss you and still do love you Sylas.😘
i feel this more than i think i should it pains me to hear that someone else feels the same as me
I love you Tina and always will! Don't give up on me.
My dear, I know how you feel about that.. I was so sad when my ex leave me for the past 6 years... Then on this faithful day I came across a video on UA-cam there was this friend of mine that drop a message on my email, and she explained perfectly well to me that there is this great powerful man that can help me with my situation.. Then for that moment I was doubting her but I was having these mind set let me try if it is going to work for me know then and I message him on his WhatsApp number
Low and behold the man told me that I should give him only three days that my ex is going to come back to me.. On that faithful day my ex text me on first place I was so very excited and now my ex is with me now i am so great full to him.
You can text him on his WhatsApp
+2349058821669
Greetings from Italy 🇮🇹🤝
It's like someone said whats in my heart for 2 years!
I love you. I wish I could give each and every one of you’s a big hug and take away all of your pain.
Wow!! You ate an amazing poet. I'm in tears
She feels like that after month and a half . I still feel this after a year and a half
Wow your words are beautiful
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Love hurt I know.
Do checkout my poems you will be able to relate to them.
Some people think love is bull$hit but it’s not if you love someone be there for them don’t let them go
This is totally off topic but I love that you listen to 5sos
YES !!!! THEY ARE MY FAVES
Haven't moved on. Just noticing the changes. Not much changed.Help urself not everyone else. Love you always. Didn't crush ur dreams just being honest. The part you do so well.
I felt that...,this was on my recommendations and unfortunately in this case I’m the one who got screwed over and I feel in my heart this was telepathically from him* .....yeahhh I hope he gets it back ten folds. I’m only mad because he’s not coming forth, I would’ve took him for a wild ride but the lord knows I have no breaks and installed fear in his heart to approach me. You can say my ego is bruised and that’s the honest truth. I can’t rest either not from a broken heart because I’ve healed from that but mainly because I was done soooo wrong in the worse possible way and I didn’t deserve that. I need justice, not revenge just justice and I believe in karma but this time I don’t want it to be someone else doing it for me. If only I could take this into my own hands.....then sometimes I think to myself that god is doing me a favor that it’s not coming from me because I’m known to go overboard and once I snap back into reality, I know I’ll regret it all. Maybe it is for my own good, my protection. I wouldn’t and couldn’t live with the aftermath. And even when I still know all this the freaking urge is still there. That’s why I can’t sleep. Resentment....I hate having a good heart. He’s crushed all my dreams and now I’m just numb. Not bad, not a sellout but just numb. I hate being good. I don’t have the capability to be evil and hurt innocent people but I’m however more than capable to hurt those who hurt me. I guess it’s true what they say....hurt people, hurt people....idk why I’m watching these videos tonight. Every single one of them is triggering me to hell but hopefully I could purge this all out tonight. Instead of running away all the time and keeping myself busy with work. I guess tonight is the night..... I hope whoever is reading this is doing better and if you’re on my end of the stick, leave a comment. I’d love to hear your story. That’ll help me a lot. Thank you 🙏
I wish you would have just been honest with me. Because I’m dying because of you all.
@@savannag3062 yeah I figured as much. Please don’t come near my life or bring your friend near it either. You both deserve one another. Only one place for people like you two
@@savannag3062 what don’t you get?
@@snoopyw6589 your comment?
@@savannag3062 what part. That I understand most of what’s gone on. That two people that I truly loved with all my heart still play with mine like it can be tortured on a daily basis. That I feel bad because of how much everyone lies to me. Or that I’m not enough nor have I ever been told or shown I was. This is what I meant. Hopefully answers your questions
And I'm still the problem and the unworthy and the one all alone, because I choose that over being around fake friends
made me cried , how EMOTIONAL it was girl!!!!!!!!😢❤️😢
This made me cry😭
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Love hurt I know.
Do checkout my poems you will be able to relate to them.
Welcome back love your work big thumbs up
This is very touchy and i can relate to it.
This is how I felt and still somewhat feel I plan on showing my ex who is my friend again this video when we meet up to hang out in person
I really miss him
The one on my display picture, he is still my lover boy. He gave me the best 4 years of my life . Things weren’t working between us but I still love him
I just talked with him and he was so clam and patient. This was probably the last time we talked
But World 🌍
Today I wanna say all I wish is, him. And I lobe him no matter what.
why am I still here?
I write this letter every day Jamie.
Skye that's the most beautiful thing I have ever heard
I recommend you to a man who can help you manifest anything you want to manifest within two-day ❤❤❤
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Everything said in this video is just ripped from my head :(
I am going thru this rn guys please pray fr me , the pain is too much my heart cant take it any more . I don't know why love hurts so much ?
My dear, I know how you feel about that.. I was so sad when my ex leave me for the past 6 years... Then on this faithful day I came across a video on UA-cam there was this friend of mine that drop a message on my email, and she explained perfectly well to me that there is this great powerful man that can help me with my situation.. Then for that moment I was doubting her but I was having these mind set let me try if it is going to work for me know then and I message him on his WhatsApp number
Low and behold the man told me that I should give him only three days that my ex is going to come back to me.. On that faithful day my ex text me on first place I was so very excited and now my ex is with me now i am so great full to him.
You can text him on his WhatsApp
+2349058821669
Greetings from Italy 🇮🇹🤝
@@laurapolin7301 😂😂thanks for the concern , but i am not interested in doing black magic okay . And also you can't scam me . That is a nigerian number and people like u stay here in the comment section scamming people . Thanks to this poor scammer who lives in lagos 😂😂
My heart shook and reminded the sleepless nights where I cried and cried but couldn't make a sound coz I use to sleep with my mom and that was even harder 💔
I wish a lot more women would do what she is done by admitting her own faults and as for me I'm stuck in a lifetime of pain missing the one woman that I loved with all my heart.. I pray someday that she will think about it like that and maybe call me or write me a letter because I would read it because I never stop believing and I'll never stop trying
The voice cracking, Whoa! 💔
This is so sad. U have a Beautiful handwriting
What abt to an ex crush 😓 or someone you like that moved away
why do people leave for single small mistake....i was one left behind for my mistake even i tried hard she never came back...i still hope i hav got some chance so i was watching your content and it really made me blue i could nt watch your video but m listening your words with eyes closed to learn something to express myself to her. . this is an alone journey fr me from past 5 years...yet i wanted her so badly....i dont know this would help me or not.....thanks alot for all the stuff with your viewers people like you are good saviours for the ppl like me.thanks alot i could not say more you're just a guide whom i am taking reference from to get my lv back.thank you
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@@oliveblair7756 thank you will do
The word sorry doesn't fix everything in life and If you are truly sorry then show that person that you are with your actions and not just your words
4 years ago, I broke up with my fiancee after 10 years together, to be more precise, in the last 2 months before the breakup, she started using drugs every day, and only hanging out with such people...
and then she started insulting me, by telling me that im worthless in general as a man, belittling, underestimating...
of course , I tried to reason with her and explain that this kind of society, drug use and general behavior is not in accordance with her age... nothing that I told her fell on fertile ground with her...
one day, I wanted to make myself a coffee, I opened the fridge and realized we didn't have any milk... I got dressed and told her I was going to the store to get milk, on the way I was thinking about why she treats me like that and should I listen all her insults and generally her bad behavior towards me ...
on the way home from the store, I thought about all the bad things she said to me and that I don't need it and I don't want anyone to treat me like that and that I'm going to move out of our shared apartment where we were tenants..
I came home, and asked her if she wanted coffee too, she said yes, I made coffee for both of us and invited her to sit down at the table together because I have something important to tell her...
and I told her that I'm moving out of the apartment!
she just asked; when!? I hope it will be soon!?
I said that tomorrow is the day when the rent has to be paid for next month, after I pay rent i will pack my stuff and then I have to call a friend and ask if he will accept me in his apartment for a while until I find an apartment for myself...
after we broke up, and I moved from apartment we communicated for a while by phone, calls or SMS, I told her if she needed any help with anything to send sms or call, and I helped her as much as I could, with finances for a while, because I felt some kind of "moral obligation to help her", that's how I would describe it...
after few months, we stopped communicating completely and i announced my plan to go back to my hometown, and i did it...
she was informed that im going back to my hometown from our frend from some small talk...
next day she came to my friends place where i lived after our break up , ring the doorbell, unfortunately,i was the fool who opened the door...
she start yelling at me; how i dare to go to my hometown and she needs to find out it from someone else and not from me, that im a hole, etc...
I answered; sorry, but we are not together anymore, it will be almost a year, i dont need to inform you where and with who I'm going ...
she put her hand in coat pocket and put out a box, box with ring, with words; you know what's in the box, I don't need it anymore, now you can sell it or just throw it in river, as you wish...
after that I moved to my hometown, she called me few times and we spoke about everything, how she's doing and other things, few times she called me and just cries on phone, and it happened again, silence between us, no calls or sms, nothing, just silence...
one day, after a long time since we didn't communicate, I didn't know and I wasn't really interested in what was happening in her life, I was convinced that everything was as it should be and that she was fine, I received a phone call from a mutual acquaintance, more precisely, from one of the same people with whom she liked to hang out and do all kind of drugs...
hey,im sorry for disturbing you, but, i need to inform you, you know of who I'm talking about, she disappeared and went away, she didn't answer any of our phone calls and/or sms, and no one knows where she is...
her best (at the time) friend had a spare key to her apartment, they decided to enter the apartment to check if something had happened to her, medical or drug related sort of condition, when they entered in the apartment it was devastated and all her belongings, all her clothes and shoes were gone, apartment was empty, they only found her identity card and phone on the table...
they decided and agreed to inform the police about her disappearance...
along with the police, her entire company with which she loved socializing and enjoyed various drugs, searching and tried to find her...
after 6 days they found her, when she sees them, she was smiling with words; oh, there you are, how are you...
thank God she was alive and well, after that, (they)so called friends, suggested her that for her is best to return home to her parents, because what she is doing is not good, she needs some time to rest in well known place and around well known people, and take better care of herself...
after many hours of painstaking negotiations with her about why is good that she needs to go home, hometown and to parents, she finally agreed, but even then the problems did not stop...
they collected money and buys her plain ticket, everything vas fine, everyone was happy and smiling, and half an hour before the plane took off, she told her parents that she did not want to go home, that she wanted to go somewhere else...
negotiations again, explaining that a one-way ticket had been bought for her, and everything was ready for her to go home...
finally, 15 minutes before plane need to get off, she agreed, no one believed she was going home until they saw that she got in the plane...
while all this drama lasted, I was in contact with her parents, informing them about all the scenarios and scenes that were happening...
the plane finally took off, she was supposed to be in her hometown in 3 hours, her parents were waiting for her at the airport...
after 3 hours the plane landed, everyone got off the plane including her...
when she saw her parents waiting for her, the drama starts again...
yelling and swearing at her parents, calling her parents ugly names, and everyone else who tried to calm her down and reason with her...
after several warnings from the airport security to calm down and behave properly, she simply started making even more scenes and problems, attacking the security and parents, insulting everyone who addressed her with any words, she simply did everything bad that one can imagine...
the drama at the airport ended with a call to the police who came "just because of her" to the airport, accompanied by an ambulance, doctor and medical staff...
the police had to resort to forced arrest, handcuffing , and at the end by tying her to the bed of a hospital vehicle with the help of the police and medical staff, police escorted them to the hospital, where she ended up undergoing psychiatric treatment for 2 and a half months after being examined by a psychiatrist...
and that's the last I know of her...
I was writing letters like you, after all, i need to ask myself, WHY!!
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I cried watching this...coz I am in the same situation....feeling the same emotions.
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What about a letter to your family?
What if you had a family that claimed they loved you, but when you needed them most they all shunned you?
They laughed and they pointed
And they gossiped, schemed, and plotted
Saying :"You're the problem, you're the crazy, you're the unworthy of love, and that's why you deserve to suffer and die."
So they take and they take and they take
Then they create and create and create
Until you're all alone on the streets with no trust in anyone.
Then they have the audacity to say "nobody has done anything to you, we love you, you're welcome anytime."
As they smile in your face acting as if nothing ever happened.
So they expect you to come crawling in as if nothing ever happened and act as if nothing ever happened,
But the truth is something DID happen, and they all know
Yet not one of them who say they care and love you has held themselves accountable for the pain they have caused
And you have begged and pleaded for it to stop and help you heal, but they only plot harder against you.
Then how would you feel?
Would you feel the words
"We love you, we care, you are welcome here," to be true?
When they continue to do evil acts of oppression to keep you down and blue?
No you wouldn't. Because their actions of self justification aren't loving, so their words ring empty in your ear.
You choose to be alone and suffer then to be around fake people
Who lie to you yet look you in the face and smile saying "we care."
The reason I say thos is because I know what I'd do , and HAVE done, because I care, and it's admit my wrongs and apologize and try to mend that brokeness that I broke in them, but you can't make other's want to forgive and mend. However, the difference in them and me, is I at least have them the opportunity to heal by saying "I'm sorry I caused you pain, and if you ever decide to forgive me Trey, your mama is right here." But he chose to not forgive and push me away. So what can I do? I guess sit all alone, because who wants to mingle with fakes. Who smile in your face as they scheme, plot, and plan behind your back saying "We care," yet never give YOU that opportunity to heal, when you've begged and pleaded for that love, but they could care less because their actions have not matched their words.
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This hit me in so many ways because I relate to this but with so many different exs
I love all your spoken word poetry stuff. And this one is such a punch to the gut as I know how it feels. 😔
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Love hurt I know.
Do checkout my poems you will be able to relate to them.
This Poem is so sad...
My ex blocked me on everything and I still feel so alone,I mean I have friends,but they aren't the same.
They're FRIENDS not a lover,I treat both the same but for other people I guess friends aren't the same as a lover and shouldn't be treated the same.
I honestly wish I could tell him how much I miss him and love him and want a future with him still.
But I guess I can sit here in the darkness every night just listen to old recordings of me and him and his songs.
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