Ha! That word "inhabit" is precisely the one I've been ratiocinating, lecturing, and haranguing myself with for many months, now: finally fully invest in and inhabit the actual physical details of 53 years of uninterrupted c-PTSD-inspired disruptions in the nerve pathways everywhere and finally just face the bottomless, endless, amorphous, formless, nameless dread within. How rare it is for habitual thinkers to simply stop thinking about simply stopping thinking and simply stop thinking and FEEL. The chimeras dissolve like vampires in sunlight when you simply stop struggling and simply stop thinking and FEEL. Thank you for this powerful guided meditation opening clear pathways to genuine liberation and release.
Many (most?) people won't get the opportunity to open up to these repressed and avoided feelings. If you're there right now, I wish you strength in facing and being with them. It may be the most difficult thing you ever do. But Angelo is right, it is worth it 🙏
So concise, so clear, so helpful. I feel the burden lifting of being compelled by conditioning to cultivate and maintain identity. Wheee! I feel my feelings in my hands, my face, my chest, my stomach, my throat, my arms, my legs, my feet. I sense it and release it.
I’ve actually done this and had the exact experience you described. When you stay with the pain it feels overwhelming but suddenly it evaporates and all that is left is pure awareness that was seemed to be buried under the false sense of self.
It's pretty remarkable. Also it can seem like doing it once should dissolve all fixations, but it turns out you have to go back here many times (for most people). Noty that the pain mechanism is different in and of itself, but because the resistance patterns that are conditions based need to be exhausted and it requires exposure to various conditions and some time to get the the core of reactivity
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake I have a question regarding what you said about getting to the CORE of reactivity. If we do that, aren't we going back to reliving the past and not being in present? I've been wondering about this for a while now. I do understand what S A was asking. I've done that and there's relief. But I can't help to wonder.....
@@BlossomVpiano once you reach the core of reactivity you are very much present. Sone times you may delve into deeply rooted fixations as pointers to get you to the reactivity body , even childhood traumas etc, but often it’s just day to day reactivity that leads you there :)
Funny, I find myself at ease and listening ever more openly as you honor and welcome the more painful and difficult parts of the process. I once tried to describe this as “loving what has never been loved.” Not sure if that’s accurate, but it was the closest I could get. And the love that opens in that embracing acceptance is, at least in my experience, the sweetest, most grateful and unexpected love I have ever experienced. I am SO grateful for how embracing, deep, and expansive your teaching is. Nothing is shunned, nothing left out. Thank you. 🙏🦋🌊🌈🤬
Ok, cool. I was listening to this talk again this morning, and I was struck by what a setup for heartbreak this avoidance/aversion thing is. We are terrified by the energies within us that most crave and call out for love and acceptance. It happens in our relationships and it happens in our own internal process. What I perhaps appreciate most about your teaching is that you point to the inexpressible freedom of our true nature, while simultaneously loving and honoring the energies within us that still feel cut off from that freedom. No avoidance, no bypassing, no hint of judgment for any of the ways we can still get caught. This allows the whole being to breathe, open, and come along… 🙏🦋💎💜
Immediately without knowing anything.... it is.....direct.....neutral..... but also "the story" the "heavy" feeling of self is still present.... the wish (thought), strong desire that this finally stops🙃 Try to feel everything that shows up. Not easy to go through! You are a great help❤
Hey, Nat, Good on you for venturing into what has been avoided. For “inhabiting” what has been avoided. In my experience, this becomes less an act of determination and courage, and more a movement of tenderness. And the parts of us that are used to rejection feel and are so surprised to…what…actually be loved? It’s so profound, and ultimately so obvious. How could we expect to be free when we’re functionally despising so much of what’s within us? All the best to you in this embrace! 🙏🦋🤬💕
“Crossed over to the dimension before birth.” Now that describes my original trauma from four years old very accurately! This being, “a gateway to freedom”, is something that just goes over my head. Maybe it does lead to freedom, but freedom has its own new and different qualities and challenges. The change regardless is always welcomed, stagnation and stillness is far far worse than death or pain. Also, I recently learned that the awareness part of the psyche, is an area of the brain that processes matrix functions. Our sentient awareness is almost nothing more than a simple matrix calculator. (Edit, this might mean it could be much easier to create sentient consciousness than we think, and easier to observe and test the intensity level of sentient presence of a system, this could have huge implications in medicine, this hypothesis should be looked into) This area of the psyche does have an output, and it’s the largest and most complex output matrix function ever observed in nature. Our brains don’t have a lot of computational capacity, but it makes up for it in this one particular area, which handles our “entire” experience in a more complete and complex way due to the largest matrix processing function.
And for me I was so much in my thoughts that I didnt even realise IM sitting in my room, im at work etc always somewhere else. And you cant go i to your body when u are not in the room with yourself. I have been on this Journey for so long And Just now im getting the fundamental things. You can be so identified with your mind ahh.
Hi I have a question.. How to know this kind of state is not an avoidance? a detour from meeting life? I see when I stop activity and ''do'' what you describe it happens as you say. But the minute I go about my day the reactivity almost immediately sets in. In the next encounter with someone, or a life issue like the house owner raising the rent. Should I just continue with it again and again and again? And still, how to make sure it doesn't itself become an escape route from life, as it feels sometimes this is the case for me..
While it can be frustrating and challenging to shift gears so often, I think the texture and contrast is very important for awakening. It's not necessary to permanently disengage, but the ego and collective ego's message that you have to stay engaged with life bc it is your responsibility is pretty distorted these days methinks. Generally speaking I think we are overly engaged, ambitious, and distracted and this is causing a lot of anxiety and depression. :)
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake It definitely causes exactly what you said over here.. moving between anxiety and depression.. Pushing so very hard, into anxiety, and then collapsing into depression. This has been my movement for years. Nothing diagnosed or hardcore, but still there in my experience, and getting unbearable as the years go by. And then the moments when time collapses it feels like heaven.. What did you mean by texture and contrast? Between these two modes of sinking into this immediate intimacy, compared with the habitual stress of going about life as the ego? Thanks!
Perceived ego threats can subjectively feel like impending physical death, total dissolution of the self. The ego generates the fear that when it dies, the body itself must die along with it. One part of the ego talks to the other parts like an echo chamber in a bubble, and it convinces itself that it’s threatened. So it conjures up ALL SORTS of creative, insidious, defense mechanisms in order to “survive.”
Because it's not your thoughts, your emotions, your sounds, your smells, all undivided, it seems collective, unrelated to anyone... you perceive emotions "apparently from others" undivided. I clearly feel the emotions of "others",.....no story, only sensation and even sensation is not known! Pure sensation... thoughts create a story about it... make it to something. That's what I can say about it....neither right nor wrong, just a story the mind doesn't get.
Living with a false sense of self (mind identification) is itself traumatic. There is a fundamental recoil from the rawness of being physically in existence that occurs very young in life. When we reqind this clock back that far and the uppermost layers are gone, we feel directly the deep resistance patterns.
“Stay here until there’s no need to leave anymore.” Beautiful pointer, thank you.
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Ha! That word "inhabit" is precisely the one I've been ratiocinating, lecturing, and haranguing myself with for many months, now: finally fully invest in and inhabit the actual physical details of 53 years of uninterrupted c-PTSD-inspired disruptions in the nerve pathways everywhere and finally just face the bottomless, endless, amorphous, formless, nameless dread within. How rare it is for habitual thinkers to simply stop thinking about simply stopping thinking and simply stop thinking and FEEL. The chimeras dissolve like vampires in sunlight when you simply stop struggling and simply stop thinking and FEEL.
Thank you for this powerful guided meditation opening clear pathways to genuine liberation and release.
Many (most?) people won't get the opportunity to open up to these repressed and avoided feelings. If you're there right now, I wish you strength in facing and being with them. It may be the most difficult thing you ever do. But Angelo is right, it is worth it 🙏
I want someone to hold my hand while I’m going through these flames 😂
@@Susan-ol4ys
i’m holding your hand,i’m in the same fire 🙂
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❤️
The music creates an eerie, somewhat disturbing feeling.
So concise, so clear, so helpful. I feel the burden lifting of being compelled by conditioning to cultivate and maintain identity. Wheee! I feel my feelings in my hands, my face, my chest, my stomach, my throat, my arms, my legs, my feet. I sense it and release it.
Thank you , thank you, thank you Angelo ❤❤❤
I’ve actually done this and had the exact experience you described. When you stay with the pain it feels overwhelming but suddenly it evaporates and all that is left is pure awareness that was seemed to be buried under the false sense of self.
It's pretty remarkable. Also it can seem like doing it once should dissolve all fixations, but it turns out you have to go back here many times (for most people). Noty that the pain mechanism is different in and of itself, but because the resistance patterns that are conditions based need to be exhausted and it requires exposure to various conditions and some time to get the the core of reactivity
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake hi Angelo. Great video. Thank you.
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake I have a question regarding what you said about getting to the CORE of reactivity. If we do that, aren't we going back to reliving the past and not being in present? I've been wondering about this for a while now. I do understand what S A was asking. I've done that and there's relief. But I can't help to wonder.....
@@BlossomVpiano once you reach the core of reactivity you are very much present. Sone times you may delve into deeply rooted fixations as pointers to get you to the reactivity body , even childhood traumas etc, but often it’s just day to day reactivity that leads you there :)
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake I see. How do we know how many more conditions it needs to be exposed to?
Funny, I find myself at ease and listening ever more openly as you honor and welcome the more painful and difficult parts of the process. I once tried to describe this as “loving what has never been loved.” Not sure if that’s accurate, but it was the closest I could get.
And the love that opens in that embracing acceptance is, at least in my experience, the sweetest, most grateful and unexpected love I have ever experienced.
I am SO grateful for how embracing, deep, and expansive your teaching is. Nothing is shunned, nothing left out.
Thank you.
🙏🦋🌊🌈🤬
I think that’s a very good way of putting it
Ok, cool.
I was listening to this talk again this morning, and I was struck by what a setup for heartbreak this avoidance/aversion thing is.
We are terrified by the energies within us that most crave and call out for love and acceptance. It happens in our relationships and it happens in our own internal process.
What I perhaps appreciate most about your teaching is that you point to the inexpressible freedom of our true nature, while simultaneously loving and honoring the energies within us that still feel cut off from that freedom.
No avoidance, no bypassing, no hint of judgment for any of the ways we can still get caught.
This allows the whole being to breathe, open, and come along…
🙏🦋💎💜
Wow, that's such a beautiful expression of the process. Thank you for sharing "loving what has never been loved".
Sacred poetry! 💜🙏💜
Thank you, Terry!
Glad to hear from you.
All blessings on you as any hidden or denied places open to this love…
🙏💜🔥💜🪴🌻
Oh yes, wonderful! Yes! So true.
Immediately without knowing anything....
it is.....direct.....neutral.....
but also "the story" the "heavy" feeling of self is still present.... the wish (thought), strong desire that this finally stops🙃
Try to feel everything that shows up.
Not easy to go through!
You are a great help❤
@Nat
👍🤗
Hey, Nat,
Good on you for venturing into what has been avoided. For “inhabiting” what has been avoided.
In my experience, this becomes less an act of determination and courage, and more a movement of tenderness. And the parts of us that are used to rejection feel and are so surprised to…what…actually be loved?
It’s so profound, and ultimately so obvious. How could we expect to be free when we’re functionally despising so much of what’s within us?
All the best to you in this embrace!
🙏🦋🤬💕
Man I was always looking at emotions/sensations in my head mind lol. And they are always right her right now for me mostly in my stomach. Thanks
awesome, it's amazing how much we experience in and through thoughts, hard to even recognize the degree until it stops happening
A good meditation is sitting and finding the boundary between thinking and feeling..
“Crossed over to the dimension before birth.” Now that describes my original trauma from four years old very accurately! This being, “a gateway to freedom”, is something that just goes over my head. Maybe it does lead to freedom, but freedom has its own new and different qualities and challenges. The change regardless is always welcomed, stagnation and stillness is far far worse than death or pain.
Also, I recently learned that the awareness part of the psyche, is an area of the brain that processes matrix functions. Our sentient awareness is almost nothing more than a simple matrix calculator. (Edit, this might mean it could be much easier to create sentient consciousness than we think, and easier to observe and test the intensity level of sentient presence of a system, this could have huge implications in medicine, this hypothesis should be looked into) This area of the psyche does have an output, and it’s the largest and most complex output matrix function ever observed in nature. Our brains don’t have a lot of computational capacity, but it makes up for it in this one particular area, which handles our “entire” experience in a more complete and complex way due to the largest matrix processing function.
Wow…speechless (almost ☺️) fireworks 💥 🙏🏼
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Hi, with great appreciation, thank you for making these videos.
My pleasure!
Brilliant.
And for me I was so much in my thoughts that I didnt even realise IM sitting in my room, im at work etc always somewhere else. And you cant go i to your body when u are not in the room with yourself. I have been on this Journey for so long And Just now im getting the fundamental things. You can be so identified with your mind ahh.
yes!!! A more important recognition than most realize!
STAY... 🐶... STAY...
in awareness...
( I gave myself a treat 🦴)
😂😜😁😋😉😋😃...
THANKS... Angelo...
LOVE ♥️
LAUGHTER 😜
GRATITUDE 🙏...
Miss Margie
Maybe the most succinct, direct, efficient pointing for later realization on the internet? I’d struggle to find something better than this…
Thx for your comments
Something clicked and I started to sense the fear 💜
wonderful
Just feel it
Hi
I have a question.. How to know this kind of state is not an avoidance? a detour from meeting life?
I see when I stop activity and ''do'' what you describe it happens as you say.
But the minute I go about my day the reactivity almost immediately sets in. In the next encounter with someone, or a life issue like the house owner raising the rent.
Should I just continue with it again and again and again?
And still, how to make sure it doesn't itself become an escape route from life, as it feels sometimes this is the case for me..
While it can be frustrating and challenging to shift gears so often, I think the texture and contrast is very important for awakening. It's not necessary to permanently disengage, but the ego and collective ego's message that you have to stay engaged with life bc it is your responsibility is pretty distorted these days methinks. Generally speaking I think we are overly engaged, ambitious, and distracted and this is causing a lot of anxiety and depression. :)
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake It definitely causes exactly what you said over here.. moving between anxiety and depression.. Pushing so very hard, into anxiety, and then collapsing into depression.
This has been my movement for years.
Nothing diagnosed or hardcore, but still there in my experience, and getting unbearable as the years go by.
And then the moments when time collapses it feels like heaven..
What did you mean by texture and contrast? Between these two modes of sinking into this immediate intimacy, compared with the habitual stress of going about life as the ego?
Thanks!
@@gadiely welcome
🙏
Perceived ego threats can subjectively feel like impending physical death, total dissolution of the self. The ego generates the fear that when it dies, the body itself must die along with it. One part of the ego talks to the other parts like an echo chamber in a bubble, and it convinces itself that it’s threatened. So it conjures up ALL SORTS of creative, insidious, defense mechanisms in order to “survive.”
Very true.
Please can someone tell me where all these immense sensations coming from ,as I haven't experienced that many traumas in this life so fat
Many thanks
Because it's not your thoughts, your emotions, your sounds, your smells, all undivided, it seems collective, unrelated to anyone... you perceive emotions "apparently from others" undivided.
I clearly feel the emotions of "others",.....no story, only sensation and even sensation is not known! Pure sensation... thoughts create a story about it... make it to something.
That's what I can say about it....neither right nor wrong, just a story the mind doesn't get.
@@birgit8996 thanks a lot 🙏🏽
@Niranji Perera
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Living with a false sense of self (mind identification) is itself traumatic. There is a fundamental recoil from the rawness of being physically in existence that occurs very young in life. When we reqind this clock back that far and the uppermost layers are gone, we feel directly the deep resistance patterns.
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Thankyou 🙏🏽
🙏❤️❤️❤️
🙏🙏🙏
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I felt it ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎
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It îs only the begining,,,,,,!
Stay
Imagining meeting the Almighty and being excoriated. "You had one job..."
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Gratitude for this, 🎯♥😶 🙏☮ may the power of love, grace, courage and understanding happen to all. Thanks for sharing 🙏
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