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  • How do the schizophrenia hallucinations approach me?
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  • @leap2439
    @leap2439 3 місяці тому +920

    That sounds exhausting 😵‍💫😵‍💫

    • @MarieSyn
      @MarieSyn 3 місяці тому +4

      Exactly what I thought🤯

    • @UwUImShio
      @UwUImShio 3 місяці тому +1

      It is

    • @mazylotisflower
      @mazylotisflower 3 місяці тому

      Yes

    • @mazylotisflower
      @mazylotisflower 3 місяці тому

      What did they use to look like as a human?

    • @karlitapalacios-ws9zl
      @karlitapalacios-ws9zl 3 місяці тому

      I think I have a sleeping condition...basically I had HORRIBLE LIGHT NIGHTMARES, and I felt them, I had anxiety attacks and I stopped sleeping so as not to have them :(, sometimes I still have hallucinations where I feel like they are touching me... .or more things...when I'm sleepy...or when I have strong anxiety attacks.

  • @forrgle
    @forrgle 3 місяці тому +462

    I get hallucinations, I've never seen someone talk so open and honest about this. Thank you for being awesome

    • @quijybojanklebits8750
      @quijybojanklebits8750 3 місяці тому +4

      I get them when I have a high fever and they feel so real. I have adhd and asd.

    • @Witchy-Wonderland
      @Witchy-Wonderland 3 місяці тому

      How do your hallucinations come in; if you don’t mind me asking?

  • @faelyn.
    @faelyn. 3 місяці тому +557

    I'm usually able to tell the difference if I put on my glasses. if it stays just as crisp when i put on my glasses, I know it's not real, because hallucinations don't account for myopia and stay in "full definition" no matter what

    • @kellybraun5013
      @kellybraun5013 3 місяці тому +100

      Wow that’s wild as hell! Makes sense. I hope it’s not offensive to say that that is absolutely fascinating!

    • @onewingangel1117
      @onewingangel1117 3 місяці тому +37

      Interesting…can I ask if this would be similar to how I used to splash water on my eyes when I was little to ward off oncoming nightmares. I HAD to do the cold water because it was almost like a film over my eyes but it wasn’t really anything physically wrong with by eyes other than I was feeling tired and sleepy. The water always did the trick and I’d be able to reset basically and drift off to sleep normally.

    • @faelyn.
      @faelyn. 3 місяці тому +30

      @@onewingangel1117 i actually did something similar when I had no glasses, I would yawn obsessively to make my eyes water so it would cover my whole eye and it would make me see more clearly

    • @Zelphraeya_
      @Zelphraeya_ 3 місяці тому +41

      That's very interesting. I watched a video long ago where a guy mentioned how he uses his phone camera/ video footage to confirm if he is talking to a real person or a hallucination. I had never thought of glasses being used in a similar way, before.

    • @CosmicGardener
      @CosmicGardener 3 місяці тому +19

      That's so interesting but also makes a lot of sense.
      I hope this isn't diminishing but that's would be a really cool game mechanic.

  • @stephanieann6622
    @stephanieann6622 3 місяці тому +13

    I love the service dog idea. Idk if it was on this channel but this man uses a service dog to "greet" who hes talking to and if the dog doesn't interact he knows hes hallucinating. I think thats such a smart idea

    • @bekahdoug5572
      @bekahdoug5572 3 місяці тому +1

      There's another channel on YT, the guy uses his phone camera to differentiate between real people and hallucinations. He can't see the hallucinations in his phone camera. I thought that was brilliant too. I haven't heard of using a service dog. That's a great idea!

  • @khadijahshabazz7512
    @khadijahshabazz7512 3 місяці тому +200

    My husband used to confuse me with a hallucination at the same time have delusions that he could see me(in his head) at a hotel with another man. He would say, "I can see you, I know you're in hotel room with that Mexican guy right now!" I would be like, "HOW?? I'm literally standing right in front of you!" He legitimately believed I was using witchcraft to be in 2 places at once. 😭

    • @amelie7529
      @amelie7529 3 місяці тому +11

      Is it hard having a schizophrenic husband? My fiance has the disorder

    • @squirrelsinmykoolaid
      @squirrelsinmykoolaid 3 місяці тому +18

      ​@@amelie7529if you're with your fiancee now and they have schizophrenia, what would change once you got married other than your ability to leave as easily without all of the legal paperwork?

    • @amelie7529
      @amelie7529 3 місяці тому +6

      @squirrelsinmykoolaid when did people normalize divorce? I asked because I've never witness an episode

    • @ironman_546
      @ironman_546 3 місяці тому +55

      ​@@amelie7529If you have never witnessed an episode, please do not marry this person until you have. You don't know until you are there, and forever is a long time to be with someone who won't get help or is actually dangerous. Most people with this issue aren't, but some are. And divorce was normalized when no-fault divorce became a thing. It has since saved lots of women's lives because abuse can be impossible to prove in a court of law. It's commonplace because no one knows what they want forever at 21, or they can't see red flags before they say vows. And no one is the same person at 20 that they are at 40.

    • @AugustVonpetersborg
      @AugustVonpetersborg 3 місяці тому +4

      @@amelie7529 Like thirty years ago

  • @tatianna8214
    @tatianna8214 3 місяці тому +161

    Yes same! It’s like a shadow that comes and goes and the ghost downstairs they are here and present but not 24/7. Also I hear the neighbors but the whisper. I hear the neighbors more sometimes but other than that it comes and goes. Music really helps me calm down. You got this!

    • @SchizophrenicNYC
      @SchizophrenicNYC  3 місяці тому +30

      Yesss. You got this!!!!

    • @ccaselli7
      @ccaselli7 3 місяці тому

      U mean they're real ghosts, or spirits? I think it is the case, at least for some of these cases of so called schizophrenia.

  • @haileys5224
    @haileys5224 3 місяці тому +60

    Sounds kinda like a dream. Like there’s so many times in my dreams where a person isn’t actually there or the setting isn’t right, but some where in my brain is the explaination.

    • @micahrobbins8353
      @micahrobbins8353 3 місяці тому +10

      Yeah it reminds me of the way my dreams always depict people I know in a way that's visually unrecognizable. Sometimes they just look like a different person, sometimes they just look like a vague formless comcept of a human that my brain just accepts

    • @lilac7082
      @lilac7082 3 місяці тому +9

      Nice perspective. I think that is the closest way to describe it. They are both manifestations of your subconsciousness

    • @honeybee6858
      @honeybee6858 3 місяці тому +3

      It’s like u nailed it on the head ! 🙏

    • @aliveslice
      @aliveslice 3 місяці тому +1

      I'm here to say I second that 😄
      People in dreams aren't physical and nothing is fully there. And if you focus on something hard enough...it will change or disappear. But you still take it as reality

  • @joab757
    @joab757 3 місяці тому +44

    Nothing is better than someone who is completely conscious of the fact that they are hallucinating!
    My brother has it, but he never talks about it. Even when you can talk to him.

    • @jennymulhall816
      @jennymulhall816 3 місяці тому +8

      Poor lad, that’s tough. This lady gained more context and control as she got older. I don’t know how old your brother is, but I hope, in time, he can feel better about this part of himself. It’s just one thing in a thousand that make him who he is. ❤

    • @charghhhmaine1423
      @charghhhmaine1423 3 місяці тому +7

      I'm a borderline with hallucinations and mine are too damn stupid to be unaware that it isn't real 😂❤

    • @mackennawalls7226
      @mackennawalls7226 3 місяці тому +3

      I have schizoaffective disorder and I do a test to determine what’s going on every time I’ve gotten to the point I can avoid interacting with hallucinations however it does make me avoid interacting with non hallucinations (real people, animals and such)

    • @squirrelsinmykoolaid
      @squirrelsinmykoolaid 3 місяці тому +2

      This person is able to manage their symptoms because they got the help and support they needed. Sounds like your brother hasn't yet.

  • @theoneandonly3388
    @theoneandonly3388 3 місяці тому +47

    I imagine being an introverted person with schizophrenia that gets full blown people is the worst

  • @zraquel89
    @zraquel89 3 місяці тому +18

    Thank you for being honest and open about this ❤ my mother has been struggling with schizophrenia for 18 years... she'll never admit she has a problem. She has a huge pride about her and refuses to accept it. She is struggling again after being stable on medicine for years. I hope to show her your channel soon and help her understand what she's struggling with and that she's not alone ❤❤❤

    • @felisha209
      @felisha209 3 місяці тому

      Can’t imagine the stigma she’s faced as a black woman as well. Bless y’all

  • @holly-e-g
    @holly-e-g 3 місяці тому +13

    Do you ever experience a hallucination of someone who passed? My aunt has schizophrenia & she will tell my cousin & I that her son (my cousins little brother) who passed in 2014 had been over to the house to visit. We never tell her she’s wrong. We just listen & continue our visit. I am trying to learn everything I can about how to handle these situations in the best way possible.

  • @harerutoast
    @harerutoast 3 місяці тому +19

    I’m just glad that there’s meds that can help you❤

  • @AVspectre
    @AVspectre 3 місяці тому +14

    Thanks for sharing and helping us better understand your experience. 🙌

  • @kaseycampos6982
    @kaseycampos6982 3 місяці тому +69

    When I’m bored I approach my voices. I ask what are you doing and just strike up conversations. Maybe I need to increase my meds😂

    • @dianahchepkemboi2953
      @dianahchepkemboi2953 3 місяці тому +3

      You need to Increase medicine Bru 😂😂😂 don't listen to those voices

    • @queenteyona1301
      @queenteyona1301 3 місяці тому +2

      Omg ily haha

    • @88Limitless88
      @88Limitless88 3 місяці тому +2

      I don’t see what’s wrong worth that. Sounds like schizophrenic people see/ hear spirits. I think that’s pretty cool. This happens to little kids too.. why are they not labeled schizo?

    • @drewbond4992
      @drewbond4992 3 місяці тому

      ​@88Limitless88 it's not cool and doesn't even sound cool always slipping from reality not knowing what's real what not. You hearing seeing being told bad afuwl things happen when there really not. It not always rays and sun shine. Nvm all the anxiety or if it's rly bad hearing that you should kill yourself or other just because you didn't take your medicine doesn't sound fun

    • @tylerforman3671
      @tylerforman3671 3 місяці тому

      ⁠@@88Limitless88yeah, I can tell you’re probably a kid, or just really uneducated so let me explain a few things. Schizophrenia is a legitimate mental disorder, and can be incredibly debilitating. It is diminishing, invalidating, and dangerous to imply that schizophrenic people are not hallucinating, only talking to ghosts or spirits. This could very well trigger someone’s delusions, and that is so unsafe, especially in a comment section full of people who experience them. Also, sch*zo is such an inappropriate word to describe people with hallucinations and/or delusions. It’s not just short for schizophrenic, it’s been used to insult, demean, and dehumanize mentally ill people for decades. I seriously recommend you do more research before speaking on topics like this.

  • @RDaniels28
    @RDaniels28 3 місяці тому +4

    As a soon to be clinical therapist I truly appreciate your videos ❤❤

  • @prezzlola
    @prezzlola 3 місяці тому +5

    I always wondered what hallucinations look like. Is it a person? A shadow? A beam of light? A floating object? This channel is really educational. Thanks for sharing.

  • @andyhu7205
    @andyhu7205 3 місяці тому +14

    My hallucinations are a lot more vivid and intense at night! My worst ones always come to me at night and say terrible things, while during the day it’s usually people coming to me at work

    • @onewingangel1117
      @onewingangel1117 3 місяці тому +1

      May I ask if you consider yourself a night owl or a morning or person or just a regular in between person. Wondering if the intensity has to do with your circadian rhythm or if you get really tired in the evenings and if they’re brought on by that extreme tiredness. Or if they “let loose” at night because you’re masking so much during the day? Thanks for elaborating if you choose to do so!

    • @Marika50
      @Marika50 3 місяці тому +1

      There is alot of evidence that hallucinations will be more vivid, more active, or actually only hapen once it starts getting dark. I used to work with people with alzhimers and dementia and many of them had visual and auditory hallucinations at night time. Some of them being very vivid.

    • @Marika50
      @Marika50 3 місяці тому +4

      ​@onewingangel1117 the brain in some people tends to hallucinate more vividly after dark. It's usually because the brain is already tiered from whole days worth of stuff and at night time your body naturally produces hormones to help you to go to sleep and your brain waves change from day time to night time. Also day time meds tend to wear off by the time it's night so it may be time for night time meds in some people depending on what meds you are on.
      I have worked with people with alzhimers and dementia who only hallucinate at night time and it was because it was dark and once you turned the light on they would be able to recognize that the visual hallucination is not there. It was not so easy with auditory hallucinations. Just had to hold their hand and let them work thru the noise they were hearing with a light on for a minute or two.

    • @nicoyabeauty
      @nicoyabeauty 3 місяці тому

      What terrible things

    • @andyhu7205
      @andyhu7205 3 місяці тому +2

      @@onewingangel1117 They get more vice at night because they’re more “opaque” is the best way to explain it

  • @blairpittams9380
    @blairpittams9380 3 місяці тому +11

    I receive a lot from your channel.
    I see that there's no shame in being innocently sick.
    But it's hard when others laugh at me,

    • @nevaehc
      @nevaehc 3 місяці тому +3

      Don't worry about what others think. If they were "decent" people, they wouldnt act ignorant to someone elses struggle. Flip them the finger and keep on moving superstar❤

  • @geetanjalichoudhury7426
    @geetanjalichoudhury7426 3 місяці тому +1

    So sweet of you to describe it....and you are really helping in removing the stigma attached to this disease because you are so smart and beautiful..

  • @geegeel7907
    @geegeel7907 3 місяці тому +4

    This is so insightful. Thanks for helping others understand what you all go through. It's seems scary. You seem extremely smart and brave. I COMMEND YOU for sharing.

  • @jxsslyy
    @jxsslyy 3 місяці тому +3

    i sometimes feel like i’m not real either for thinking this way or having this happen to me i don’t know how to feel

  • @christinapalafox
    @christinapalafox 3 місяці тому +3

    I'm not minimizing schizophrenia with this, but I used to do a LOT of meth. After about 5 days awake, one definitely experiences situations that you're describing. I've experienced it from the inside and seen it happen to others. The hallucinations unfold for me as you're describing your experience while medicated.

  • @Tessilla-ie4pn
    @Tessilla-ie4pn 3 місяці тому +4

    Big hugs, yes thank you sweetie. And thank you for letting me know that there is a path that can make it better.❤

  • @jademoon7938
    @jademoon7938 3 місяці тому +5

    I have always interpreted it as like thinking there’s a ghost in the room with you. When a chair moves or you hear things, you’re like, something is in here. But it’s not usually a person you can see or anything. But you don’t feel crazy talking to it really and saying, “You need to leave” actually makes you feel better even though there’s no one there. Like they’re there but they’re not there. I have read a lot about schizophrenia. I’m neurodivergent but I had a lot of the predispositions to it, my race, gender, being a twin, experimenting with drugs young.
    Turns out I don’t have it and I just see and hear shit most people don’t. Until they’re with me and it happens lol. My friend started crying one time because I was saying there was something in the house and we were standing in the kitchen and this huge exhale sigh came from the space next to us like someone was standing there and she started crying and freaked out lmaoooo like these are not hallucinations when they happen around other people they get deeply upset by it…
    But yeah from my understanding it feels like they’re very similar experiences. Things are there when they’re not really there but they are there lol.

    • @IrinaZumba
      @IrinaZumba 3 місяці тому

      Sounds like you have the ability to see the spirit realm or something. Schizophrenia might also be a spiritual thing.

  • @flameepidemic4839
    @flameepidemic4839 3 місяці тому +3

    I once was so sleep deprived i was hallucinating and super paranoid. The most memorable was sitting in class and having this shadow man thing behind my teacher. It was like everyyhing else faded bc i was like oh crap and it screamed a demonic voice ITS ALL YOUR FAULT then acyed like it was gonna charge at me. I threw my pencil on accident.
    During this time i was talking really weird and also yalking to things that werent there. I cant imagine yhat being an average day forever. Its so stressful

  • @GoldenSheenObsidan
    @GoldenSheenObsidan 3 місяці тому +1

    You’ve described my own ma’s busy lots of things going round in her distractive mind.

  • @Magna_Carta5
    @Magna_Carta5 3 місяці тому +5

    My dad struggled to find a medication regimen, then would become convinced he was being poisoned, start all over again. He often didn't know reality from what wasn't, and his habit of puuling a gun on every suspected hallucination really isolated him. He was scary sometimes, but he was my dad, and I loved him. I wish he could have found what worked before he lost his life out there in the wilderness, alone.

  • @DanceySteveYNWA
    @DanceySteveYNWA Місяць тому

    UA-camrs holding and talking into those mini mics is hilarious 😂(to me)

  • @nickstebbens
    @nickstebbens 2 місяці тому

    This is wonderfully informative, thank you for explaining this. I think I see what's going on. When you said "I have to finish this conversation" it reminded me of someone I know with OCD. What helped them is "what happens if you just wait a few minutes to do your thing?" and then you start to learn how to get over your fears about not 'finishing' the compulsion, which in this case seems to be finishing the conversations. So what happens if you try saying to them something like "okay, I'll think about this and get back to you later?"

  • @deannag3273
    @deannag3273 3 місяці тому +1

    I’ve always thought that people that have schizophrenia are just accessing another realm.

    • @angelbug
      @angelbug 3 місяці тому

      They aren't and spreading sh like this is harmful

    • @deannag3273
      @deannag3273 3 місяці тому +2

      @@angelbug I said “I thought”, and you know they aren’t for a fact?!…you don’t! So be quiet 🤫. And keep it pushing. As a matter of fact I’m going to continue to believe they are accessing a demonic realm, because when they have an episode it’s always dark and negative, arguing with them, or wanting them to harm themselves. But you believe whatever you like dear. What’s harmful is not opening your eye to reality.

    • @angelbug
      @angelbug 3 місяці тому

      @deannag3273 Yes we do know for a fact. We know it's a mental illness, not demons. Keep harming mentally ill people then

  • @Forever18or21
    @Forever18or21 3 місяці тому +1

    I wish mental health and schizophrenia was talked about back then , I won’t have to lose my uncle, he’s condition was so bad he constantly seeing and hearing people laughing at him. His meds somehow made him worst , and took the kitchen knife and go outside and find anyone to tries to laugh at him…until one day he couldn’t take it anymore. He was the nicest guy I know until his schizophrenia takeover.

  • @WolfRaven119
    @WolfRaven119 3 місяці тому

    The appearing and reappear sounds a lot like how I dream. The unnatural movement usually clues me in.

  • @xqiuvmah
    @xqiuvmah 3 місяці тому +5

    Do you ever see something weird that is real, but think it must be your schizophrenia? Im not schizophrenic, but i once thought i was going insane when a guy wearing clothes covered in candy wrappers (saftey pinned on) walked up to the bus stop and stared at me. There were 4 other people waiting, but they gave no reaction about such an unusual person. It wasn't until we boarded the bus and he said "sup" to the bus driver and the driver gave him a nod and a fist bump.
    The guy must have had hundreds, maybe even thousands of cand wrappers all saftey pinned to his clothes. He walked up and stared at me sitting on a short wall for nearly a minute before the bus arrived. The other people waiting didnt look at him, look away from him, or do anything but continue whatever they were doing before. This was before smartphones were popular and only a few people had one, and definitely no one riding the bus would waste money on such a pointless luxury.

  • @onewingangel1117
    @onewingangel1117 3 місяці тому +1

    Is it similar to having a conversation with someone that you know is in the room going in and out of the room but never actually seeing them?

  • @notCynicalReally
    @notCynicalReally 3 місяці тому +2

    I have migraine related hallucinations-- audio, visual, even gustatory. I felt fine, maybe a little tired and off, but everything felt real. No one realized what was going on until it looked like I was having a full on stroke.

  • @SamsungGalaxy-ng3cy
    @SamsungGalaxy-ng3cy 3 місяці тому +1

    I feel bad for youuuu😭😭😭😭

  • @qutielove2208
    @qutielove2208 3 місяці тому

    I am so sorry but I bursted out laughing when you let me finish my conversation 😂😂😂I don't think you mean to be but you are hilarious!!! 😅😅😅

  • @Stardipped_Paws
    @Stardipped_Paws 3 місяці тому

    Our brains are so complex and weird, it's insane!

  • @storyandasong
    @storyandasong 3 місяці тому

    Why does this sound like what Allison Dubois experiences as a physic on ‘Medium’.

  • @bekahdoug5572
    @bekahdoug5572 3 місяці тому +1

    My ex boyfriend (diagnosed schizophrenic) has a hallucination named "Paul", an older white guy that has "been with him" since he was a child (he's 40 now). "Paul" is VERY real to him, talks to him, and my ex talks out loud to him, sometimes for hours I could hear him talking to him in the bathroom. "Paul" would comment during our fights and just during every day life. This hallucination is VERY MUCH real to him. He knows nobody else sees "Paul", and has started having a harder and harder time not responding to him in public spaces or in front of people who don't know about him. I also noticed that over the 11 years we were together he became more and more delusional. My ex would tell me "Paul" watched me while he was gone and caught me doing things (that I obviously wasn't doing). He believed what "Paul" told him too. It was really bad towards the end.

  • @ninetailskwami
    @ninetailskwami 3 місяці тому

    i've been diagnosed with it twice. mine is childhood-onset, so i've had it for a little under 2 decades, it's pretty much all i know. that also means it's changed a lot over time and has had waves, but everytime i hear someone else share their experience and it doesn't 100% match up with my current one, i start immediately trying to convince myself that i somehow tricked two doctors into misdiagnosing me. then i remember all the insanely odd shit ive said, done, believed, and seen over the years 😂

  • @glenngeeful
    @glenngeeful 3 місяці тому +4

    Lately I visually see rats in my home due to stress...bad sees are usually because of stress. Otherwise, colors talk and sou ds make shapes and it's fine, distracting at times but fine

  • @smudddggee1429
    @smudddggee1429 3 місяці тому +2

    My hallucinations have died down since I was a kid but being a kid going through these issues, my family would shame me or say my imagination is high and I'd get made fun of so now as an unmedicated adult, I'm able to "control" more then I use to and its not as harsh but they do vet really bad when I'm having a VERY VERY VERY stressful day. It kinda reverts back to when I first started truly dealing with everything

    • @smudddggee1429
      @smudddggee1429 3 місяці тому +1

      Like "their" still there and I can still hear voices and a bunch but at this point I can point out what's real and what's not. What I can hear and what others can't

    • @smudddggee1429
      @smudddggee1429 3 місяці тому +1

      I was SHOVED to learn this way, it's a way of survival. I didn't get therapy til I was maybe 12? And I only really got it cause my depression was just so terribly bad I was forced into it. It wasn't until maybe a year I finally came clean and felt like I can say certain things? It wasn't until my second therapist where I was a little older maybe 16-17 when I was able to fully get the help I needed, then at 18 I went back and had other things (trauma) get resolved when I started to truly lose myself again then I got put on medication which made me a damn zombie. I stopped taking that and stopped going when covid hit. It wasn't til covid was over when I finally restarted my therapy and it just wasn't the same. I had a new lady who never seemed to listen or understand which was okay, she was very kind and I liked her

  • @aforetime9
    @aforetime9 3 місяці тому

    Past life Regression to understanding why they're there.. Claire's

  • @belladonnaplumb9376
    @belladonnaplumb9376 3 місяці тому +1

    I barely know anything about schizophrenia but from what you said in this video I'd imagine it's best to just let you finish right? Instead of how some might try to snap you out of it or something like that.
    I know it's not impossible I'd ever meet someone with it so I just want to know better how to interact with them

  • @JFL1991
    @JFL1991 3 місяці тому +1

    For me it’s not halucinations, i see patterns in people that give me anxiety. So I pray it away.

  • @skylamei
    @skylamei 3 місяці тому +1

    How can I help my aunt? Her untreated schizophrenia has basically fried her brain and she is a big stress to the rest of the family. She is 40 something years old and lives in my grandparents attic. My grandma, her mom, passed away in September and she’s only gotten worse. It’s hard on my 15 year old cousin, her daughter, whose been raised by our grandparents, I worry about my grandpa’s health and ability to “deal” with her much longer. My aunt use to be one of my best friends when I was younger. She’s always been “the black sheep”, she’s had years of drug addiction that affected our entire family, but I always understood her. Now it’s to a point I haven’t been able to actually talk to her in years and she feels gone. Last couple times I’ve tried “talking her out of it” she held on tighter to every delusion. Sending me novel length paragraphs in gibberish basically. The computers, snakes, aliens are in her brain, she’s ripped out all of her hair because of it. It’s like she’s pulling the “snakes” out of her head, off her body. 90% sure she’s back on drugs. She accidentally admitted it the other day when I was pressing her and she says “I DON’T HAVE A MENTAL ILLNESS I HAVE A DRUG ADDICTION.” Idk honey, you have both then I guess. Anyway. It really hurts me. Everyone has given up on her, because she is that difficult, refuses treatment/medicine, but I still have a sliver of faith left in her, or hope anyway. I’m mad at her. She’s pretty much dead without being dead, so she’s just deadweight on everyone and refuses to acknowledge anything real. The emotions I feel are very large. I wish we could get some advice.

  • @amberwright-smith8281
    @amberwright-smith8281 3 місяці тому

    Thanks for explaining!❤

  • @yajy4501
    @yajy4501 3 місяці тому

    Life is a wild ride haha

  • @kasiako355
    @kasiako355 3 місяці тому

    Thank you for sharing so openly your experiences. I find it really brave of you! Also fascinating. I wonder, have you ever tried some kind of meditation and visualisation in order to, hm, protect yourself from the things you see, so they could not approach you? I am curious if that could work and help somehow.

  • @plasmavortex5388
    @plasmavortex5388 3 місяці тому

    I know similar hallucinations from overdosing on benadryl and laughing gas. Don't do it! I was snapping in and out of reality and suddenly talked to people that didn't exist. I had a full party going on in my garage that was actually not happening. Just me sitting there. I was very happy that all went away.

  • @simong.h.4563
    @simong.h.4563 3 місяці тому

    Wow
    That must be a lot.
    Much love to you ❤

  • @Icypebblez
    @Icypebblez 3 місяці тому

    I’m undiagnosed but I find myself saying “bro shut up” out loud a lot or “you’re annoying stfu” 😅literally arguing with a voice in my head that either said something offensive or something stupid, also the feeling of being watched I respond with a “nobodies watching you stop please stop” and it keeps going to where I say “I’m f**ing annoyed and there’s no reason for all this nonsense” It’s stressful.🙄

  • @CharleneCash1973
    @CharleneCash1973 25 днів тому

    I have several mental diagnoses which I am medicated for.
    I always hear a
    "muffled in my head"...along with some random tune or song in the distance..
    I've been alone and speak...to ..myself.
    I've wondered to I do that without realizing it and no one points it out because they kinda..know I'm weird..
    Lol

  • @MASHkicksass
    @MASHkicksass 3 місяці тому

    Love and appreciation for you sharing your experience ❤ also is your hat the same as the painting in the background? I love it! So beautiful 🤩

  • @jesiccahouston8865
    @jesiccahouston8865 3 місяці тому

    So i just discovered there are in fact service dogs for schizophrenia. Its actually really cool how they work. Have you considered getting one??

  • @J.RO.
    @J.RO. 2 місяці тому +2

    Slow down and smell the roses 🌹, as beautiful as you are.....❤

  • @MossMan888
    @MossMan888 3 місяці тому

    Theres this poem about a man who wasnt there, I feel it kinda describes this feeling. Its called antigonish, if you dont feel like searching for the poem it'll be here, but it might trigger those with dissociative disorders, so discretion advised:
    Yesterday, upon the stair,
    I met a man who wasn't there
    He wasn't there again today
    I wish, I wish he'd go away...
    When I came home last night at three
    The man was waiting there for me
    But when I looked around the hall
    I couldn't see him there at all!
    Go away, go away, don't you come back any more!
    Go away, go away, and please don't slam the door... (slam!)
    Last night I saw upon the stair
    A little man who wasn't there
    He wasn't there again today
    Oh, how I wish he'd go away...

  • @rebecca2981
    @rebecca2981 3 місяці тому +1

    Is it possible to have „nice“ hallucinations? I often hear about horror hallucinations of demonic angryness, but I asked myself if someone had like nice whispers and something. Hallucinations are very hard for me to understand, but so fascinating and scary at the same time.

  • @mysticofmaddness9180
    @mysticofmaddness9180 3 місяці тому +1

    So, the medication helps you to tell the difference between what’s real and what isn’t by dulling the hallucinations?

  • @EmeraldChest312
    @EmeraldChest312 Місяць тому +1

    What happens when you try to come into contact with one of them? Do they move away or does your hand just phase through them? What's it like?

  • @addiemunson2119
    @addiemunson2119 3 місяці тому +1

    I've lost two friends to schizophrenia. Their hallucinations seemed scary. Are all visual and auditory hallucinations scary? ❤❤❤❤❤

  • @Lizziesgrubaroundtheglobe
    @Lizziesgrubaroundtheglobe 3 місяці тому +1

    Do any of the voices/hallucinations say things that reflect situations, emotions and fears that are going on in your life and change with different circumstances or is it really random things? 💖

  • @EJ1443
    @EJ1443 3 місяці тому +1

    Is it like a colored in ghost? Like you know how ghost in films are white/grey colored?
    Is it like that but in color?

  • @mageguy3
    @mageguy3 3 місяці тому

    So it’s like a dream where I’m talking to someone who’s there who wasn’t there before and then it’s not there anymore but then it’s someone else

  • @kirstenlane6632
    @kirstenlane6632 3 місяці тому

    Theres a book called "brain energy" by chris palmer that seems worth reading regards to mental illness and other brain related stuff.

  • @nofrackingzone7479
    @nofrackingzone7479 3 місяці тому

    Damn that has to be challenging. How do you manage adult relationships if you don’t mind me asking?

  • @stephanieandrade6186
    @stephanieandrade6186 Місяць тому

    Do you ever have hallucinations right when you wake up a couple months ago I woke up out of my sleep and as soon as I open my eyes, there was a face in my face! It was clear as day. It was a black man. He was probably in his late 60s early 70s. He had three deep wrinkles in his forehead and he just had this look of disgusted on his face like I did something horrible and just as soon as I saw the face, it faded back into the darkness of my room, and then I got up and went to the bathroom like I needed to.

  • @cotton-fly
    @cotton-fly 3 місяці тому

    Would some people consider this connection to spiritual world where you’re seeing spirits ?

  • @XcrazymoonX
    @XcrazymoonX 3 місяці тому

    Yes but also it’s like a pretend friend you have a confidant in and they show up only when needed. Or NOT needed or not a friend at random.

  • @terrimiller908
    @terrimiller908 3 місяці тому

    I know somebody on tons of medicine also but they do not have any symptoms like you’re having their meds make all that go away. Is that normal?

  • @JakeCCarline
    @JakeCCarline 3 місяці тому

    Damn, that's hard. It's rare that I leave the street. Granted it's a busy part of a city where you never see the same people but today because my phone plan went out and I know nobody after here 4 years. I had to hop on a bus with no clue of which store carries the plan. Of course I went to the wrong place across the city. And it took a mile and a half walk around the area to pin point it. Was ok cause hours to finally reach the right one.
    Did what I needed. Had to order a new phone. But I tell you after several months of being away from home, seems alien to me.
    And I'm always under the impression everyone's kidding around as wealthy visitors in character. No matter who they are. They seem to already try and tell you they know everything of you right down to things you said alone weeks ago. I don't think it's strange. I just believe my life was diagnosed with schizophrenia because I didn't appreciate or really know enough to find it easy to be this way. In my opinion the only way out of total hallucinations are to get used to everyone and how they are. make more effort to have all types of purpose outside the comfort in your daily basis.
    Not real easy without examples made. But I'm sure that's what's needed. I do see their just hanging on and being someone for as many as they can. I haven't been medicated in a year. But Its true that our lives are very hard to become ourselves. With practice and being humbled in the situation makes a difference..

  • @johnking7054
    @johnking7054 3 місяці тому

    My dad had schizophrenic. Drinks and beat me a lot… but anyways.
    Did it get passed down? Idk but I will never forget how I hallucinated two of my friends next to me and made them breakfast. 😅

  • @Gimpinalong
    @Gimpinalong 3 місяці тому

    Not a full body but there enough to talk to etc reminds me of how I dream. Ya know, when you know you’re at your aunts house in a dream but it looks nothing like her house but it’s her house… the brain is interesting

  • @SeeMrSmith
    @SeeMrSmith 3 місяці тому

    I’m a real person thanks I wish we could accept that and see that the person as a vision is for you first and I’m open to hearing about it. I see how it can be an experience not delusional but the build up see to be a lack of understanding by people.

  • @stoneyvowell1239
    @stoneyvowell1239 3 місяці тому

    So it sounds like they kind of fade in and out? Or maybe you just happened to notice them? Almost like they surprised you but you know they're there so you're not surprised because you saw them out of the corner of your eye.

  • @limpethead
    @limpethead 3 місяці тому

    Hands up. Who with Schizophrenia smoked Cannabis through their teenage years?

  • @lilowonder6274
    @lilowonder6274 3 місяці тому

    Does listening to music quiet down those voices or visions in any way??

  • @Turtlerabbit85
    @Turtlerabbit85 3 місяці тому

    If I have schizophrenia, who should I seek for help?

  • @Rebleraysavage
    @Rebleraysavage 3 місяці тому

    I will pray for...... y'all😂❤ actually I think you're doing great

  • @theprodigalson4003
    @theprodigalson4003 3 місяці тому

    Hmm weird and cool , Thanks for opening a wormhole into your brain for us

  • @cleob9956
    @cleob9956 3 місяці тому

    I don’t know if you’ve seen the lady’s (with schizophrenia) channel who went full ketogenic diet and almost all if not all of her symptoms are gone.

  • @whitneymiller3809
    @whitneymiller3809 3 місяці тому +1

    Why are the hallucinations ALWAYS MEAN?? It never seems to be any that are positive or even slightly uplifting. 😓

  • @tone9850
    @tone9850 3 місяці тому

    So they like disappear 😕?
    Is it like fussy looking or cloudy or like a faded image? 🤔

  • @umbellicalchick5635
    @umbellicalchick5635 3 місяці тому

    May i ask what other symptoms of schizophrenia youve had? Like the 'negative' symptoms of disorganized thoughts, monotone affect, etc?

  • @officialdulcegomez
    @officialdulcegomez 3 місяці тому

    Should I show my mom the videos so she can realize???

  • @JaeCampbell-uq3nj
    @JaeCampbell-uq3nj 3 місяці тому

    Would you describe it as an a energy. You can just feel it

  • @oki1349
    @oki1349 3 місяці тому

    Are they scary to you or more comforting to have them around you? This is very interesting and educational.

  • @jadehill4491
    @jadehill4491 3 місяці тому

    Would it be helpful to kindly ask them to wait for you in another room? I know not every hallucination is one that responds, or is kind, but what if the ones that talk with you "understand"?

  • @Rash_cookie
    @Rash_cookie 3 місяці тому

    So do see people or things you’re familiar with? I’m just curious and thank you for sharing with us

  • @jeannielopez447
    @jeannielopez447 3 місяці тому

    What if you’re just seeing spirits and other dimensions? Will we still be categorized mentally ill or spiritually aligned?

    • @angelbug
      @angelbug 3 місяці тому

      They aren't.

  • @christinerippert8350
    @christinerippert8350 3 місяці тому

    Are there meds that make hallucinations go away completely?

    • @emjakos3548
      @emjakos3548 3 місяці тому +1

      I'm sure that depends entirely on the person.

  • @keerstonyoung3848
    @keerstonyoung3848 3 місяці тому

    💔

  • @nicolebro8399
    @nicolebro8399 3 місяці тому

    Lemme just finish ky conversation, jesus....🤨

  • @To_The_Above
    @To_The_Above 3 місяці тому

    Meds make you less aware/conscious about them but didnt meds affect your awareness/consciousness about reality ?

  • @Skyekey13
    @Skyekey13 3 місяці тому

    Do you find the diet affects the condition?

  • @confusedwhale
    @confusedwhale 3 місяці тому

    Quick question, are you telling the hallucinations to hold on for your real life conversations, or are telling the real people to hold on so you can finish your conversations with your hallucinations?

  • @Krma-3
    @Krma-3 3 місяці тому

    So is that how you tell who is real and who isn't? And are they combinations of people you know? Do they have features of people you have met before. Or Seen in your life? Because we all have an inner context we hear things in our heads when we are thinking. Usually we hear it in a voice that's either similar to our own. Like we say in our head what we are reading. Or we hear our own voice in our head as we are thinking about something... Like I should really get that done tomorrow. It is normal to have that inner context Yours materializes into visual and audio hallucinations that come from outside you And sound separate from you. And our often triggered from the subconscious, mind and intrusive thoughts that most of us can avoid. Yours are just
    Represented to you as hallucinations in a much more visual auditory way. We all have intrusive thoughts in our head. Everyday, but we don't hear them with our ears or see somebody talking to us telling them to us. Or demanding we do them. So I really respect you for sharing your experience and helping those of us who have not experienced this understand, More about how your world is. And how this occurs for you.❤. Much love and respect. I would love to know how you're able to differentiate between What is a hallucination? and your dog can be trained to help you! There's Another person who has hallucinations who has trained their dog to greet real people. So if he points to the hallucination and says greet and the dog doesn't move They know that what they are talking to and seeing is a hallucination and that's a brilliant way.
    To use service dog training to help you. If you choose to do that for the future! Sending you love and all the best. And please keep being an advocate ❤ Sorry for the long comment And questions
    But I really appreciate what you're doing for so many people!

  • @Lalabaster
    @Lalabaster 3 місяці тому

    Do they sometimes repeat the same sentence thing over and over? A fam member does this.

  • @cramp4221
    @cramp4221 3 місяці тому

    I really like how your hat matches with the painting in the back