Schizophrenia Before and After Meds | My Story
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- Опубліковано 6 жов 2024
- What is the difference that medication makes for a person with Schizophrenia? In this video, Schizophrenia Advocate, Michelle Hammer explains what it was like for her before and after medication. Watch this episode of Schizophrenia and the City to find out the difference.
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Thanks, Michelle. Fascinating story and insight and so glad you eventually got the right diagnosis and meds..🥰💚🌱
thank you so much!
@@SchizophrenicNYChi good day! May i ask what medicine did you take to feel you better of your illness?
Michelle hammer is one of my new favorite UA-cam people I recently got diagnosed with schizophrenia and these videos have been a life support for my journey learning to live with it. Thank you
Stay strong. I’m trying to
I didn’t think I had voices, but the part where I thought I was dumb was spot on with how your voices made you feel. You actually come off as really smart
Thank you!!
I was accused of doing drugs when I never did them in high school. The concern was illicit drugs, not my mental health. I am glad things are changing
I remember laughing at the jokes I was being told by the voice I was hearing. However I got put in hospital for it. Great insight Michelle
Thank you
My mom was good for 20 year shes stoped taking her medicine 3 months now shes going back skisofreenia dont stop taking your medicine my heart brakes every day
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@@ShannonMillerme your mum is in withdrawal - you can't just stop taking meds - it takes years to do a proper taper.
Hi Michelle
I’m really sorry to hear about your horrific experiences before you went on meds.
I have a diagnosis of bipolar disorder. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was in a psychiatric unit for four months in 2011, but it didn’t stick.
My inner critic causes me to have social anxiety too. Whether it’s there or not is dependent on my mood. When I’m elevated, my inner critic turns into my inner number one fan. It gives me constant positive feedback and boosts my confidence - causing me to become more and more grandiose. When I’m depressed it constantly tells me I’m a lazy, useless pack of shit. I believe it and can’t motivate myself to do anything - including shower, clean my teeth or prepare food. I haven’t had a job for 13 years.
When I’m at a public gathering with people I don’t know, my thoughts waiver between “Don’t speak to anyone because you’ll say something stupid” and “You’d better say something because they’ll think you’re dull, or rude”. It’s paralysing.
I’m glad your meds are working for you, Michelle. My mood stabilisers and an anti-depressant keep me pretty even (too even sometimes) so my thoughts about my behaviour are mixed.
My worst recurring thought that can come up at anytime is “I hate you, and I’m never coming back!” Both of my parents abandoned my brother and I when I was three and-a-half. Neither of them said those exact words, but they argued on my father’s doorstep about who was going to look after us. “I don’t want them!” “Well, I don’t want them either. They’re your kids!” I concluded that they hated me and were never coming back.
My mother did come back 18 months later. Throughout the rest of my childhood she was constantly berating my behaviour, unless I was “good” - in which case the criticism let up temporarily or I got a slight bit of praise.
I learned through therapy that my hostile inner critic is a “broken record” playing my mother’s criticisms over and over in my mind.
Please know that I’m not making any assumptions about you, but I personally reckon that harmful childhood conditioning has a lot to answer for.
Love Elizabeth ❤️
Thank you so much for all of your extremely informative videos.
My son was just taken by police two days ago. They took him to the ER to wait for a bed in a psychiatric facility. He was recently diagnosed with Schizophrenia and the last month and a half has been an absolute nightmare. The voices he hears has him convinced that he has "super powers" and that his father and I are out to kill him. The female Sargent asked him "Do you have any feelings of wanting to cause harm to your parents" and he said "Absolutely. They've been lying to me my entire life" what these lies are I have no idea whatsoever and he won't say what they are. He also told the police "None of you understand what's going on right now with Trump and the upcoming apocalypse, but you'll soon find out."
My husband was having surgery this past Tuesday and that's when my son started blowing up my phone with text messages that called me every nasty name you can think of, while telling me he's destroying everything in the house, which he actually did.
He's over the age of 18 so me, even as his mother have no rights for a hospital to tell me if he's there, though I'm still trying. It's now been 48 hours and I don't know where he is or what's going on and I'm absolutely terrified for his future, not to mention I'm also terrified of where he's ended up because I know that there's really bad psychiatric units out there who don't hesitate just doping a patient up and leaving them them sit. I really hope that's not the type of place he's currently in.
I really appreciate you taking the time to do these videos because right now they're helping me tremendously ❤
I’m sorry for your situation with your son. I hope he gets better and things work out with him.💕
@SchizophrenicNYC Thank you so much. I have tons of hope right now and I'm researching everything I can possibly find, and I'm extremely grateful that I found your channel.
@@TheTourbusIndividual can you please give me some good advice about my paranoia schizophrenia boyfriend stop taking his meds and now he's very cold and distance and broke up with me. Should I just leave him alone,..I'm so hurt and confused.
@sleepyjoes My son is home and doing very well with his therapy and medication, thank you very much. When my son is threatening to do harm to himself I'M CALLING THE POLICE! What would you have done, Sleepy Joe? Let him go ahead and do it? As I've said, asshole, my son is home and he couldn't wait to get back to his parents once he accepted the fact that he has a very serious mental illness.
Oh and P.S. STFU.
@cherruthhines7131 Honey, I'm still learning myself. However, you can't force him to take his medications, unfortunately he's decided like a lot of people do when it comes to anti-psychotics to stop taking them. If you truly love him, just continue being there for him. But if you're unsure about your relationship the best thing I can tell you to do is make yourself and your happiness your first priority, sweetheart.
Wow - I have my own voice in my head - I’m bad enough! I could imagine what it is like to have a voice that not your own - making your life unbearable- thank you for helping me to understand what it is like for people with this condition
How can you have a voice in your head that doesn’t belong to you?
We have a patron who comes to the library where I work who probably has schizophrenia. This is really helpful, thanks for sharing your story!
I got schizophrenia when I was a teenager but now I’m doing better, but I wish people would understand we’re not judge, but not everybody is like that some people understand I wish people can see it with their eyes I guess mental problems are invisible and I’m having a negative symptoms on meds
Goodness that is a nightmare!! I’m so glad you got through it!
I had psychosis supposedly caused by a depressive episode combined with alcohol withdrawal one time, and the first medicine i had to take made me feel awful so i resisted the second, but the second one made me feel a lot better overall. i was in the hospital at the time and i refused to leave my room until after i got the second one... turns out i have bipolar and most antidepressants are a no-go for me 😅
Thankyou Michelle, this is the Best ever detailed information educating about What is Schizophrenia, What is Paranoia and What is Bipolar, How it affects Schooling, University and How it creates temporary Workplace Disability. It would be such a blessing if there is STD coverage for meeting the Expenses and Coping with Workplace Disability, however there's some part of world 🌎 🌍 🌏 that are Uneducated, Alien, Ignorant about such Mental Health, end up with Cruel treatment to deal with this situation. I wish such ignored part of the World that are Genuine yet who are Uneducated, Ignorant, are provided with Mental Health Education, Monetary coverage which helps to deal with such STD.
Mental health care varies widely depending on insurance, whether there are good doctors available. For the most part, people with serious mental health conditions are not getting the care they need and deserve. You are an example of someone diagnosed with a schizophrenia who has received good quality mental health care. I've learned more from you and other mental health care advocates than from local professionals. Seriously, where are they? It's totally grassroots. I think you and other advocates should talk freely about the medicines that work for you. Most of the health care practicioners I've met think that just getting someone stable is a success. I know schizophrenia is a spectrum condition and recovery can be different for each individual, but we are back ass backwards in mental health care.
I take meds although I have had a few x
some voices it wasn't what I suffered the most you have gone through hell with your voices I'm glad meds helped
You are so strong
Thank you
I also get bullying voices. Makes you feel terrible, like crap
OF COURSE! I’d have schizophrenia if I lived in NYC too…..
How did you find my low viewed video and manage to insult it instead of supporting the cause. Do you harass major UA-camrs or only ones with 3k
U described it so clearly.. answer many question about my situation thanks for sharing
You’re welcome 😊
Complimenti, Michelle, per la tua forza d'animo. Sei grande ♥
Thank you
I have those voices too sometimes i feel like im actually wasting my breath heres something I got told which helped stop the voices "Always look after number 1"
Good channel mate we have DID or dissociative identity disorder but the voices we hear of course are different from the ones you must experience it. This us a good channel and it’s good you are bringing awareness to mental health. We have liked and subscribed.
Thank you!
@@SchizophrenicNYC your welcome Good newsy interview.
@@andersonsystem2 thank you!!
@@SchizophrenicNYC you’re welcome
I have schizophrenia too. I deal with a singular aberration, and I say the same shit to my voices "I'm getting a fuckin restraining order on you." Today Is my first day on only 25 mg of clozapine and I am feeling great. the mornings are a little seroquelly but the afternoons are great! I feel dopamine causing good responses instead of bad ones. The voices also to me have also sounded very faint and distant as though there is a barrier keeping me from them.
They aren't forming they aren't thinking for me they have truly fucked off and I couldn't be happier. ones even sad rn that I said they fucked off. I picked it up just like a radio signal but as I said it was faint. I hate that its real to us and people think what they do when you explain the complex to them. The more inside of you they can grow, WHEN THEY DISSAPATE CONSTANTLY or whisper very loudly. My brain is no longer split!
I have witnessed great positive help for severe anxiety hopelessness with antipsychotics. I have seen prevention of suicide and violence with low dose antipsychotics in the most broken people.
I have ocd and i have same thoughts in my brain , just no voice these are thoughts 😢
My neighbor above me went off his meds and now he's so loud. Sounds like he's hammering on the floor from 8am to 6pm driving me crazy.
Hard to admit but getting through to the other side of things help.
❤It's great that it got you the right treatment Michelle.😊
Thank you!
Hey Michelle! I have a question:
- do you typically have an internal monologue/hear an internal voice?
- if so, how distinct was this voice from your normal internal voice?
Asking because the things the voice said to you are definitely thoughts I intrusively have sometimes. When I’m feeling socially anxious, it can feel like a constant running audit of my behaviors and everything I say - like a constant “devil’s advocate.”
They’re not in line with what I want or truly think, yet it doesn’t necessarily feel like somebody else separate from me.
And then with work, it leans more towards the “wow, all the managers are in a meeting together? They’re talking about me/you. They know what a bad employee you are.” “Oops, I computer glitch! …they installed new software without your knowledge and are monitoring your every move.”
I imagine it’s a spectrum and that intrusive voices are similar to intrusive thoughts. However, I’m struggling to figure out the difference!
The paranoia could be bigger than just that. I recommend you speak with a professional. I’m not a dr, I’m just schizophrenic.
I’m so glad that I cured myself by ignoring and not believing in the hallucinations and delusions.
Mazel tov
@@SchizophrenicNYC Thank you!
The voices be just the same as you described at the start… they almost like that toxic ex that never want you talking or socializing with anyone, like AT ALL.
You are the best. Thank you.
Hey, you are so nice and easy to listen to. I have some question if you would answer me.
Do you have cognitive symptoms, and do you have social anxiety cosed by cognitive symptoms, and if you had them how you overcomed them.
For me it is rly hard to talk with people and follow conversation. My memory and focus are so bad, and i have trouble understanding conversation...
I experience that too. Was lately diagnosed with ADHD mostly inattentive type. Afraid to take medicine but I would non stimulants give a try, like Qelbree or Strattera.
Read in a study daily high dose of glycine reduces negative symptoms of schizophrenia. Started with 4g at night up to 30g after some days. Had no effect. 0.8g per kg bodyweight would be the max.
Lots of patience and compassion. We endured so much
My family member might have this situation, however, they don't want to believe it. She does things with her hands like moving it around like something is wrong with her nerves. Constantly talking about an old woman or man. I find it to be weird because nobody is around her and she states that they are picking at her and doing things to her. She will not accept that she is schizophrenic and thinks that it is just Major Depression.
Listening to the voices has gotten me in the pickle I am in. I'm on better meds now but ramifications of, it sucks
I never did find meds that made the symptoms decrease or go away at all. I'm without positive symptoms now, but I've been without meds for a couple years. I don't understand it. No rhyme or reason to it. I think I probably have negative symptoms still tho.
I still have severe paranoia even on meds and severe dizziness
Talk to your dr about that. That’s my best advice.
Yeah I've only been on this med for 2 months so I'm trying to see if there's any benefit to taking this one but so far it seems like this one is a junker too
Hi! I know a homeless person who is schizophrenic - he doesn’t make sense, nothing he says. If he had meds would this change? Also i don’t want the DOH to help him because i hear the shelters are dangerous. Any ideas how to get him psych help?
How long have you heard those voices before you got on medication and have you ever noticed that it's just you hearing it or other people around also
I was diagnosed at 22
"Who hath put wisdom in the inward parts? or who hath given understanding to the heart?"
(Job, 38:36)
I need a job?
@@SchizophrenicNYC One of the books that is part of the Old Testament of the Holy Bible, the book of Job was written by Moses. It is believed that Moses wrote this book when he was among the Midianites, around 1520 BC.
i dont know if my thoughts are voices or not. i used to think my thoughts were not my own. i also started laughing by myself for things poping up in my head. i dont hear a voice coming from somewhere outside my head. but it is something going on inside my head, really strange. i also see things in my peripheral vision, like a soaking wet and pale woman with long hair and her hair is in her face but not covering all of her face. and her eyes and really yellow/orange
have you told a Dr? Are these voices and images getting in the way of living your life?
Kind of reminds me of things on Cyberpunk kind of like a Johnny Silverhand in your head
I’m not a doctor but I have schizophrenic family members. The symptoms you describe sound way more like bipolar and ADHD with high anxiety. You’re too clear minded and articulate with your expressions and possibly manic right here on this video. Talking really fast.
Yeh...you are right
Thank you- how long did your meds take to calm the paranoid down?
Amazing lady ❤
Why thank you
I need help for my child she sleeps do much.God help me
I don't have much hair but I keep forgetting to buy shampoo or dry shampoo , it's been two months since I washed my hair I'm on m ds but I don't think we'll and stress, I also have lyme disease in my 🧠
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I wish the antipsychotics were cheap without doctors, without prescriptiobs because low dose antipsychotics takes really long time to work are not scary and they are not narcotics, I despise the ignorance bullyingand stigma. Low dose antipsychotics can cause weight gain and man boobs and that doesn’t matter if they can stabilize your moods, prevent suicide despair and ability to survive world. People need to stop reckless greedy lawsuits against mental health help.
WHAT IS IN YOUR HEAD, IS THIS THE OUTCOME OF WHAT YOU THINK OF YOURSELF, RELATING TO THE VOICES. ARE ALL VOICES NEGATIVE ? HOW AND WHY THIS HAPPENS?
Thanks
It's sounds like you talk to you self. To think is to talk to with you self. And then somthing little wrong make think voice.
That's sad, what u went through,
its ok
@@SchizophrenicNYC 💚🖤💚
What medication worked best for you? I know everyone reacts to medication differently.
In the cases that things achieve success medication works has you described. There is no way in this illness to have great times before medication.
Agreed.
The main issue is people are judgmental bullies. You basically were a mirror to their own paranoias particularly the teacher incident. I’m not saying you shouldn’t be on meds because you seem happy but some people do an overkill and are basically numbed by medication.
hey Michelle just wanted to know what meds were prescribed to you and how long did you take them for until you saw results. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia years ago and I'm kind of at the point where its my last resort. any help on what worked for you would be appreciated. thank you
I don’t share what meds I take because everyone has different body chemistry and meds work differently for everyone because of that.
@@SchizophrenicNYC I understand. do you know of anyone from the west you could recommend, that has years of experience. I don’t really want to go on meds because of bad story’s I’ve heard online, but if you could guide me to a professional I would appreciate it, thank you
@@SchizophrenicNYCWell put RE: how (psych) meds vary amongst individuals. Un4tun8ly 4 me; I can no longer take psych meds (4 Bipolar Disorder) bc of the cumulative negative side effects from them. Furthermore; being on psych meds made me feel suicidal. Going off them (via taper 6.5 yrs ago) ELIMIN8D those suicidal ideations. Again; if u truly believe that psych meds r addressing ur issues, more power 2 u, Ms. Hammer.
good video!
Thanks!!
@@SchizophrenicNYC 🙂
can u please tell m e what emedacation u take
Hi, I prefer not to share that information because everyone’s brain chemistry is different and I don’t want someone to take my meds and something goes terribly wrong.
Medicines work wonders, don't they?!
I think so!
@@SchizophrenicNYC I totally agree. Good luck with your illness
I can't function without , I'll be under a bridge yelling at my self
What’s the earliest age it can start ?
Birth I believe
I wonder if schizophrenia is caused by trauma or if you’re born with it. I know you can get it from using drugs, but I don’t know too much besides that.
Do you get a lot of framing up i do...even under section....
I don’t understand the question
What meds are you on
Its V2K voice to skull
ECT every 2 weeks plus meds
How long did it take them to find the right medication for you?
8 years
Thank you so much for sharing 🙏🏻 You are amazingly strong
Love
తెలుగులో ఈ వీడియో ఎవరైనా చెప్పండి
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This is not sch. , she is acting
You who reading this,i invite you to islam,to discover islam
That nose is giving me hallucinations
Antisemite
Talk to Jesus , all day long 🫶🏼💓🕊️
Awesome video thanks! I understand because I also have the mean voices even though I don’t actually hear them… they are more like downloads like intrusive thoughts but they are there often tormenting me some are nice tho like a funny personal life narrator… hehe But the mean thoughts really torment me and makes me want to end it all because it’s hard to endure the emotional pain. So I’m not diagnosed but I totally get it.
Don’t give up. Tell someone close to you so you can get some help. You are not alone in this world.
@@SchizophrenicNYC Thank you lovely ❤️
You are very similar to my daughter, she also has schizophrenia. She is on meds and has to work and sacrifice to keep her weight down because of the meds. On the video you look to be in good shape. So I guess you didn't experience weight gain? I am going to give her your website so she can talk to you. Thanks I appreciate your effort.
I workout as well
People should like the mental health videos so UA-cam promotes them how come there’s so many views and so little likes? come on people don’t be stingy. ❤
Thank you for saying that!!
Thank you for being so brave. It helps to know that I’m not alone ❤
You’re welcome. 💕💕💕💕
I remember laughing at the jokes I was being told by the voice I was hearing. However I got put in hospital for it. Great insight Michelle