Absaloutly beautiful stuff Doug. I have been battling depression since I was 16. When I was 18 I was homeless & living in the woods or a phone box or sometimes on my friends couch ,I was crippled with depression ,addicted to drugs, I smoked weed all day every day. I had constant panic attacks. I had no life,no job, no girlfriend no nothing. I wanted to end it all everyday. Then one day when I was 23 I said enough is enough I made a choice there and then that I was gonna change. On the same day I gave up drink,smokes ,drugs.i started running and going to my local gym 5 days a week., I ate healthy everyday, I rebuilt my body & mind ,It was the hardest thing I ever done I literally went through hell but I wasn't going to ever go back to that place. I'm 27 now and nearly 5 years off it all, I'm working as a computer technician the last 4 years and I'm still training 5 days a week and eating healthy. I'm living in my beautiful apartment with the love of my life with my fiancé Rebecca.
THANK YOU SO MUCH for this Video ! I suffer from Depression for more than 25 Years. I call it the "Cancer of the Soul". Greets , much Love and all the BEST for you. Bernd from Germany.
This was incredibly encouraging of you to post. Thank you! I truly truly hope you'll manage to get out of it, because there is a way out. You just need to find yours. I've found mine. Wasn't easy, but I found it. I wish you all the best. Cheers from Norway.
i completely understand and here fighting this battle with everyone who suffers from depression. All these people are opening up because you posted this! It's truly brave what you did :)
Every time I see this clip I can't help but think how much further we need to go as a "World Society" with respect to Men's health. I take my hat off to you Doug for putting part of your story out there and helping people like me, realise that depression can be so easily overlooked. All respect and courage to you mate on your life journey. Just want you to know that I was inspired by your clip enough to join the 'Movember Challenge' in Australia. I hope by growing my moustache in November, the funds raised will be used to fight the good fight for men's health. Take care.
I'm in a similar situation and I was in your shoes last year but now I'm stuck at home all day trying to take the next step in the right direction. I support this whole video. So I believe in your ability to make it through this and your an inspiration for others to follow in your foot steps. You are a wonderful amazing man! Thank you for being you! I'm sending a hug out to you for this video. ~hugs~ you deserve it!
Hey olivia how r u hope u r out of depression by now Anyway if u need my help can i tell u a way by which i got in remission from depression in a week its a medication
Thank you for being brave and sharing your message. My thoughts and prayers are with you and I hope you find your way out of the darkness and feel that warm sun on your face all the way to your soul.
Love you so much for making this video! What I hate the most is the time passing by - I'm sitting still in the same place, and months and years are passing by like seconds. I'm wasting my life, but don't feel power anymore to try to fix it.
What a great gift to give us.... a honest discussion on depression. In awe and proud of your courage! I know you are already helping yourself and others. all the best another Irish Lad
Thank you so much for making this video. My hope and prayer is that it will go viral and change the way we all see depression, but even if not just the impact it will have on those who watch it will make it worth it. Thanks Doug.
No one could have explained depression better, I'm proud of you Doug, very few have the courage to talk about this serious and controversial issue. the world needs more people like you , who're willing to come out of this extremely dark and fearful place and fight for our place in society, to find a cure for this disease that plagues so many people who are forced to suffer in silence. all we need is the right form of help and understanding from the people in our lives. Thank you Doug
You inspired me to speak out and my deppression is as worse than ever but i know now I've got the help and support to get me through it speaking out wont be a over night cure but it makes u feel not alone
One way of dealing with depression is to talk to someone about your feelings. How about talking to millions? This video is a great evidence of that new advancements creates new solutions.
Huge respect Doug. I think you're an inspiration to the thousands of people that go through this torment. I lost my Father to depression & will always have regret that his illness wasn't understood properly. I wish you all the very best for the future, take care.
Well done on your heartfelt and articulate video. Experiencing those horrible feelings has armed you with rare empathy and a more compassionate world view, which is so sorely lacking in this world. As you say, you've discovered reserves of strength you never knew you had. Lots of luck with it all, every step of the way.
Thank you Doug...there are not many vids like this from a young man's perspective. I'm 45 and have lived with mental health issues all my life and its taken everything...relationships with women, friends, family and recently my professional career. I've never experienced the love of a wife and children out of fear that I would ruin the lives of others and possibly 'infect' those I've loved.I'm now @ a crossroads where I must try and live in peace with my own mind, or finally lose my mind in isolation and homelessness.Try and hang on to your family and friends because its when you become withdrawn and isolated, you will fall down, and get lost within your own rabbit-holes.You are very brave man to bring these topics to the fore and I think you will be ok :-)J
Thank you so much for having the courage to speak out. I hope you have found healing since this and if not I hope to help. Your video has inspired me to make some. Sending love and light. xoxo
Doug you've got no idea just how much your video has helped me over the last 5 or 6 years. Thank you for being open, honest and yourself. Life's good with support from family and friends and medication. Movember is almost here, here's to raising even more awareness about Men's Mental Health.
Thank you for making this powerful video an well done for being brave enough to share this. :) There is so much emotion in your video and this will definitely help others that are suffering. Your message will help not just those who are depressed but everyone else so that they can try to understand how you're feeling.
Hey Doug so good for you to open up about this, I have also struggled for 10 years now and now it’s worse than ever. Can’t not work because of severe anxiety. I have tried everything but nothing have worked… we need more people to open up and talk about it. I hope you are well
Thank you for being open. I am sorry you have been through this alone for so long. I have shared your video on my Facebook. A lot of people I know suffer depression and a lot of others are people I feel wouldn't know how to handle the situation. I am going through depression and have been for a very long time. You are brave, thank you for sharing your story and your message.
Doug, Thank you so much for having the courage to share your story. You have already helped many, in many different ways. I will share your story with my children as well. And our friends. We are ONE. Sending you LOVE~
I had depression last year. I think it's time to share my tale. If I can help one person then that's great. I've had Aspergers Syndrome(form of Autism)all my life. I was diagnosed at the age of 10. I never really had many friends but most of primary school was okay. My condition really came to damage my life when I went into secondary school. The few friends that I had were no longer with me becuase I was in a different area to them. So I was more or less on my own. I went through 2 and a half years of torture. It was extreme. Everyday with severe bullying and being ignored by people who couldn't understand me I always needed that bit of help with getting around and that can be given a glare in a teenage enviroment. I was the weirdo boy in a mixed school. The freak. My year head and fellow teachers and staff members tried to help me but it was never enough. I had a spare copy of books so I wouldn't have to hurt my back for an hour a day(I had two bags). It felt awful. Noise and bad smells coming on a consistent basis. Not being able to concentrate and always looking like an idiot who sweats and panics. I had no friends. No one was compatible with me. The torture was too much. This and other complications lead me to my first suicide attempt in December 2014. I put my head under water but couldn't keep it there. The depression had really started at that point. It was too much to bare. I tried on and off for the next few months. In which time my levels of school attendace where at constant negociateion. Regular attacks and panics in school werd always a bad thing and highlighted my issues to everyone else. In May 2015, I left school about an hour after I got in. I ran home knowing what my plan was. That was it. The day of my death. With more intent then ever before I took off all my top layers of clothing and put a knife against my chest. I can stil remember it's feeling. I was ready to die. But I couldn't do it. The pain was too much and I made a call. That call was the most important call of my 16 year old life so far. I got a doctors appiontment and within a week was diagnosed with depression I went to therapy and got help. They put me on anti-depressents and I was still upset. I left school before I could do my exams. I did programmes in managing depression, didn't really work at the start. Felt suicidal. But after a few weeks after attendance. I began to reset myself and I got help. I still have a high level of anxiety but it's better then being depressed. I had and still have spells of moments when I am sad. But I am a lot better now. I had very bad and near death experieces and could very easily not be here now. I found things that helped me though and really dug into my hobbies. I do feel empathy for those who are going through this now. This is a topic that I feel needs to be talked about more. It needs to be something that people feel that they can talk about without peoole quesgioning them about it. It is a condition just like anything else and can be a fatal one. I got help and other people can do. There is always hope.
Daniel Fitzpatrick be strong my friend u're not alone, easy to say but l know its really complicated, l bileave in you like l am bileave l will be batter. :)
Thank you. I get it and completely understand it. I grew up in a culture where depression isnt something they want to talk or accept. I opened up about my depression 3 years ago. Lost some friends but I realized that it was great that I found out who my real friends are. My family have been very supportive, helpful, understanding and I couldnt have done it without them.
Dude: You ROCK! The courage it took to do this is astounding, and I'm so very glad you did. I know the pain of depression, and I'm so sorry you do too. Bravo for putting yourself out there; I'm sure this will help many.
Well done, you are stronger and more courageous than the average soul. It takes so much more strength to be open, honest and vulnerable. You have touched so many people and opened the door to so many mental prisons through your courage. Thank you.
Very brave of you lad to post this on social media... big step...powerful message that im sure will be of help to many sufferers! Well done you... ABSOLUTELY POWERFUL MESSAGE... GET UP THE YARD
Stumbled across this video and I remember watching this when u first posted it, it was when I was in such a dark place and I used to watch it repeatedly because everything u spoke about was just so relatable at the time almost a healthy way to cope with how I was feeling by watching it as well. Thank you for making such a powerful video I’m in a much better place now 💗
I have nothing but admiration for you Doug. You never know what's behind a smile. For anyone with depression, reach out when you need help. Ther is always someone who will hold out their hand and hold on to you
Dear Doug Leddin, I would like to say, thank you, to you, for taking the time, energy and effort to both upload and share this video with the youtube community. Thank You!
Weldone man this took massive guts to post. 10 years is a very long time to suffer in silence. Hope you're doing well. Thanks for sharing you're already after helping a lot of people.
I watched this video when I was in college, and I totally understand what's happening to those people who were still suffering. But we should never give up trying to feel better to try a better life, and even help other people go through. If we keep trying, there will be a better life waiting for us.
Amazing Doug. You are so brave and inspiring. You are right, it needs to be discussed more, too many people are hiding this pain. Burying it away because they don't want to feel like a burden to other people. But they're not. If only they reached out, more people than they think, would help them and support them in their difficult times.
Excellent. Well done, Doug. Each time we open up to other people we give them permission to open up too. What you're doing here is positive and proactive and good. Thank you for having so much courage.
thank you your a brave guy, ive had depression for two years now and i am recovering after getting professional help and it's exactly how i feel, I'm scared of people and society and how there will judge me, i haven't spoken to my friends for six months now because it makes me anxious but i do feel much much better then i was before but i do feel up and down and i want to tell people how I felt but again I'm scared. thank you
I was diagnosed with SEVERE ADHD in 1977, Im 45 now, and I can relate to Evan's thoughts, My battle with depression began in 1992, which normally that is when the onset of depression occurs. in addition I also fight PTSD, (post traumatic stress disorder) for those who are jus learning, anyway the incomprehensible levels of pain we endure are beyond words unless you have it!! and my illness has progressed now to where my moods bounce back and forth from Elation to EXTREME MELANCHOLY. Its frightening as hell and II'm quicly losing the war after 30 + years.
You are such a beautiful man. I felt your story was about me. The darkness I feel inside. The private pain that know one else will understand. I have talked about my darkness to my family and friends. But that still doesn't help my struggle to live each day without wondering if this will be the day......
Saw this video on Goop site. And I'm here because I also suffer from depression. Ive been and still am to be true in a lengthy depression for about 1,5 year. Its cost me my job and career, lost touch with family members and friends, and my economy is ruined as well. Basically my life is totally altered. I never would have thought this would happen 2-3 years ago. Like a bolt of lightening. It sneaks up on you and eats away slowly and irreperably. Thats how I feel it, has become a part of me now, and I want to rid of it, just feeling that is a good start i think. It is such a stigma for me to talk about yet that is the problem :( Depression as I see it is a stigma, that view needs to be changed. really kudos to you for posting this and letting ppl know that many, many feel the same, many "normal" ppl suffer as well and you are not alone in this suffering, and this doesnt have to be.
+Svada Nada There is a way out. I know it can be extremely hard to find, but there is a way out. What worked for me, doesn't necessarily work for you, but I'd love to just give you some of my "methods". I didn't use any medication. I'm scared of it, and I was sure I'd never get out of it if I started using medication. I read a book by Dr. David Burns - Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy. I went to a psychiatrist for some time, and a psychiatrist masseuse. I also told myself several times during the day, before I fell a sleep and when I woke up: I'll be fine! There is a light at the end of my tunnel. It takes time. But hopefully, you'll manage to have the happy ending as I've had.
"Possibly the most nerve wrecking thing I have ever done is writing this and clicking "Post".", Dough, possibly this video has helped a lot of people in the world. Thanks!
Thank you so much for this video. I hope, if I share your video with some people, they could understand me too. Many hugs and lots of blessings to you.
very good and true , its important to speak up and talk , depression is just like any other condition and is due to so many factors around , and due to neurochemical changes in brain , person suffering is not responsible as it put across in our society , so i would also say, lets talk , speak up ,if you have any low feeling, feel like not talking, feel like anxious, or alone ,speak up ,speak to your parents, friends, teachers , siblings and if more or doesnt work out speak to a doctor , come out and speak ..
Fair play to ya lad , you are one very courageous human being . I recommend (if you already haven't) , researching the suffering that our fellow beings on this planet go through everyday , once you do I have full confidence you will become a vegetarian and further help to relieve the collective pain and suffering felt on this planet of ours , thanks again for this video .
I feel the same way... im feeling depression since my parents got separate when I was 7 years old. im now 21 years old, married and got two beautiful kids... but still everyday I wake up can't find the satisfaction, the attention, the compression I need.... I don't know how all of this is gona end up but im still here watching your video thank you.
something about what you said at the end brought me to tears for some reason, im not sure why.. maybe this isn't even the right place to post this, i just cant seem to open up to people about my issue, even my family. Just inching towards the issue always makes them drop the subject and walk away just like that, and just brush it off.
* I took a benadryl about ten minutes ago, so forgive me if this isn't exactly coherent. I have long-running dysphoria that often dips into severe depression, as well as run-of-the-mill ADHD. I am so glad to see depression getting more nonjudgmental attention, because that means people with depression can converse about coping methods while enjoying the solidarity that most people without mental illness take for granted. What personally helps me get through the worst phases of deep depression without fail is a change of environment. Nothing fancy or expensive - actually, the more rustic, even primitive (camping and hiking in a place very different from my current geographic location), the better. Even just going on a day hike an hour outside of town can help immensely! There is much to be said for getting back in touch with the simple flow of nature. There is even more to be said for temporarily changing your environment in general - new city, new culture, new whatever. It gently guides you, and sometimes forces you, into new perspectives on everything around you - and a change of perspective can really kick depression's ass. Even if the ass-kicking process is seemingly slow as molasses, at least it is happening. I know everyone's brain is unique, and this may not work for everyone - but if you're feeling severely depressed, and haven't tried it, please do. Getting away from the everyday grind and jumping into a totally new environment with no major responsibilities for a few hours/ days/ weeks is the only thing that makes me feel truly peaceful. It's like giving my brain a cool, refreshing shower. Sure, it will probably get dirty again down the road, but that's what more showers are for. And the shower doesn't have to be camping or hiking or a vacation - just any action or ritual that works for you. Acting is key I think, whether we're talking about big events or everyday mental maintenance. - not letting yourself become stagnant, and thus wallowing in the depression and letting it slowly cave in on you. Make sure you do something that feels productive every day - even if it's just doing the laundry, or taking a walk/ jog, or reading a chapter out of that book you've been meaning to finish, or catching with a friend/ family. Take it one step at a time, if you have to. If you feel too depressed to get out of bed, but you manage to do it regardless (no matter what time that happens), then you've just done something awesome! Acknowledge that, and allow yourself to feel good about it. If you can, try to make sure, day by day, that no day is a zero-sum day. This helps me in the long run, between the things that really recharge my soul (for me, camping/ traveling). And - just as important - don't get down on yourself if you have a bad day and stay in bed. Allow yourself to go through what you're going through, without judgement. Forgive yourself, and love yourself like your dog loves you - unconditionally. The world judges us enough already, but the only opinion that matters is our own. We must take an active role in shaping that opinion into something positive, because no one else can or will do it for us. Listen to your dog. He knows how wonderful you are. Anyway...if you can find something that consistently makes you feel at peace, then that is very likely your path toward the light during the dark times. Peace is, in my opinion, way better than simple happiness. Peace is curative and contemplative and forgiving, and it feels worlds more sustainable than something so wonderful, yet fleeting, as happiness. Certainly not putting down happiness, but peace is greater and more profound than any one basic emotion, which is all happiness is. And anyway, happiness is far easier to stumble across naturally when you're feeling at peace with yourself. So this definitely turned into a rambling mess, but my eyelids are getting heavy and I'm just gonna leave it as is. I truly hope everyone suffering for depression (or just suffering in general) finds peace and wellness and a great life.
It is the right thing to post this on social media, Doug. And I really feel for your pain from the point of view of my own experience as a life long depressive (I'm now 69). But, unlike yourself, I've always been blessed with being able to refuse to see it as some sort of disgrace. I always managed to be open and honest. Nobody despised me, but key people, such as work supervisors, often didn't understand that I couldn't just "shake it off," or "pull myself together!"
Hi Doug, well done on making this video. I do hope it helps people in Ireland lose the stigma that surrounds mental health, I feel what you are going through. I hope my subscribers hit this page and watch the video. Stay safe Bob
I was diagnosed with depression last month. Usually I'd get bouts of depression that last for about 2 weeks & I can usually power through but since last year it hasn't gone. I'm on medication now.
Thank you Doug. Physical blood is being perceived. A bleeding soul is being ignored. Or worse, attempted to get fixed. Fixed, often with a few words which, in fact, make it dive even deeper into darkness. ... When smiling takes more than enthusiasm combined with the muscles of your face.
My grandfather took his own life. He wasn't taking/didn't want to take his antidepressant. I was 13 at the time. Nobody told me or my brothers the truth. He did it on Christmas Eve. My younger brothers were in another room and heard the gunshot. He obviously wasn't himself. He loved his grandchildren. He wasn't thinking straight. My GP told me I should continue to take my antidepressant indefinitely. If I were in Brazil I'd have to pay a psychiatrist every month to get my prescription. It's so prohibitive for many people. Please avail of your GP and get help. There is plenty of services in Ireland.
Depression is not always chemical imbalance in the brain, depression is also something that caused to a human being, from a long time of abuse, loss of loved one, illnesses....and thats what I think I have, and as long as you have your memory, your past and what you had to go threw is not ever going to go away from talking about it...the depression sometimes fades away but resurfaces the minute you experience something else that upsets you in no return. So that is why, no one should ever be judge for having depression, because you dont know what this person has gone threw in his life. You cant erase your thoughts like that, its not that easy. Never ever judge a person with depression. No one wants to feel depressed and everyone who is suffering wish they never had it. We live in a society that doesnt care, I have no friends that will be willing to hear my feelings, much less my depression. People with depression have been judged and have not received the support that they needed from family or friends. Most people with depression have tried talking to someone but no one was really there for them. People these days are so busy with their lives that that the only time they want to socialize with other friends ( for example) is on an outdoor setting where most of the time, it involves alcohol. I'm the type who will listen and will always try to reach out but if you are not the person that they want the reaching out to, they will not care what you have to say (witch I had that happen). I just learned to control my depression and accepted things for what they are. Like they say sometimes, the only person that can make you happy is you, and that might be true, maybe they meant that you cant depend one others to make you feel better because thats not going to happen ...I dont know... only my perspective.
brave brave doug..we are at the cusp of social change in regard to mental health stigma. and the way we treat one another as human beings...things like the W.R.A.P. programme need to be implemented in every school and workplace across the country...i hope you get 2 billion hits on your facebook page!
Absaloutly beautiful stuff Doug.
I have been battling depression since I was 16.
When I was 18 I was homeless & living in the woods or a phone box or sometimes on my friends couch ,I was crippled with depression ,addicted to drugs, I smoked weed all day every day. I had constant panic attacks.
I had no life,no job, no girlfriend no nothing.
I wanted to end it all everyday.
Then one day when I was 23 I said enough is enough I made a choice there and then that I was gonna change.
On the same day I gave up drink,smokes ,drugs.i started running and going to my local gym 5 days a week., I ate healthy everyday, I rebuilt my body & mind ,It was the hardest thing I ever done I literally went through hell but I wasn't going to ever go back to that place.
I'm 27 now and nearly 5 years off it all, I'm working as a computer technician the last 4 years and I'm still training 5 days a week and eating healthy. I'm living in my beautiful apartment with the love of my life with my fiancé Rebecca.
Nigel Mc morrow What a great ending for you sir
THANK YOU SO MUCH for this Video !
I suffer from Depression for more than 25 Years. I call it the "Cancer of the Soul".
Greets , much Love and all the BEST for you.
Bernd from Germany.
@@user-bq1fg3fo2e depression doesn't care about countries nor anything.
Thank you, Doug. You're a brave soul.
Well Done Doug. Thank you so much for telling your story. You are not alone :)
Powerful video. You are brave for sharing your story and this will help so many. Thank you and sending much love and support!
This was incredibly encouraging of you to post. Thank you!
I truly truly hope you'll manage to get out of it, because there is a way out. You just need to find yours. I've found mine. Wasn't easy, but I found it. I wish you all the best. Cheers from Norway.
i completely understand and here fighting this battle with everyone who suffers from depression.
All these people are opening up because you posted this! It's truly brave what you did :)
Every time I see this clip I can't help but think how much further we need to go as a "World Society" with respect to Men's health. I take my hat off to you Doug for putting part of your story out there and helping people like me, realise that depression can be so easily overlooked. All respect and courage to you mate on your life journey. Just want you to know that I was inspired by your clip enough to join the 'Movember Challenge' in Australia. I hope by growing my moustache in November, the funds raised will be used to fight the good fight for men's health. Take care.
I'm in a similar situation and I was in your shoes last year but now I'm stuck at home all day trying to take the next step in the right direction. I support this whole video. So I believe in your ability to make it through this and your an inspiration for others to follow in your foot steps. You are a wonderful amazing man! Thank you for being you! I'm sending a hug out to you for this video. ~hugs~ you deserve it!
Hey olivia how r u hope u r out of depression by now Anyway if u need my help can i tell u a way by which i got in remission from depression in a week its a medication
Thank you for being brave and sharing your message. My thoughts and prayers are with you and I hope you find your way out of the darkness and feel that warm sun on your face all the way to your soul.
you're so so wonderful. much love and light
Love you so much for making this video!
What I hate the most is the time passing by - I'm sitting still in the same place, and months and years are passing by like seconds. I'm wasting my life, but don't feel power anymore to try to fix it.
Find the power, I hope you'll keep on the fight. Keep going, beautiful!
I can help u r y good now? I knw a medication
What a great gift to give us.... a honest discussion on depression. In awe and proud of your courage! I know you are already helping yourself and others.
all the best
another Irish Lad
Very brave of you to post this and hopeful too. Kind of like shining a light onto shame or fear. Thank you x
Thank you so much for making this video. My hope and prayer is that it will go viral and change the way we all see depression, but even if not just the impact it will have on those who watch it will make it worth it. Thanks Doug.
Good man Doug. Very brave and important thing to do. You're on the right path buddy.
Thank you. This is just great. I know that you have made a difference in someone's life by doing this video
No one could have explained depression better, I'm proud of you Doug, very few have the courage to talk about this serious and controversial issue. the world needs more people like you , who're willing to come out of this extremely dark and fearful place and fight for our place in society, to find a cure for this disease that plagues so many people who are forced to suffer in silence. all we need is the right form of help and understanding from the people in our lives. Thank you Doug
You inspired me to speak out and my deppression is as worse than ever but i know now I've got the help and support to get me through it speaking out wont be a over night cure but it makes u feel not alone
You are a beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing a bit of yourself.
One way of dealing with depression is to talk to someone about your feelings. How about talking to millions? This video is a great evidence of that new advancements creates new solutions.
Very well done this will change someone's life !
Huge respect Doug. I think you're an inspiration to the thousands of people that go through this torment. I lost my Father to depression & will always have regret that his illness wasn't understood properly. I wish you all the very best for the future, take care.
Well done on your heartfelt and articulate video. Experiencing those horrible feelings has armed you with rare empathy and a more compassionate world view, which is so sorely lacking in this world.
As you say, you've discovered reserves of strength you never knew you had.
Lots of luck with it all, every step of the way.
This is so courageous, and so beautiful. Thank you, Doug, for creating this, and for sharing your story. Sending you love from California.
Thank you Doug...there are not many vids like this from a young man's perspective. I'm 45 and have lived with mental health issues all my life and its taken everything...relationships with women, friends, family and recently my professional career. I've never experienced the love of a wife and children out of fear that I would ruin the lives of others and possibly 'infect' those I've loved.I'm now @ a crossroads where I must try and live in peace with my own mind, or finally lose my mind in isolation and homelessness.Try and hang on to your family and friends because its when you become withdrawn and isolated, you will fall down, and get lost within your own rabbit-holes.You are very brave man to bring these topics to the fore and I think you will be ok :-)J
Thank you so much for having the courage to speak out. I hope you have found healing since this and if not I hope to help. Your video has inspired me to make some. Sending love and light. xoxo
Doug you've got no idea just how much your video has helped me over the last 5 or 6 years. Thank you for being open, honest and yourself. Life's good with support from family and friends and medication. Movember is almost here, here's to raising even more awareness about Men's Mental Health.
This changed me it made me realise that living my life with depression is wrong I
thanks this literally saved by life
Thank you for making this powerful video an well done for being brave enough to share this. :) There is so much emotion in your video and this will definitely help others that are suffering. Your message will help not just those who are depressed but everyone else so that they can try to understand how you're feeling.
Hey Doug so good for you to open up about this, I have also struggled for 10 years now and now it’s worse than ever. Can’t not work because of severe anxiety. I have tried everything but nothing have worked… we need more people to open up and talk about it. I hope you are well
Thank you for being open. I am sorry you have been through this alone for so long. I have shared your video on my Facebook. A lot of people I know suffer depression and a lot of others are people I feel wouldn't know how to handle the situation. I am going through depression and have been for a very long time. You are brave, thank you for sharing your story and your message.
Doug, Thank you so much for having the courage to share your story. You have already helped many, in many different ways. I will share your story with my children as well. And our friends. We are ONE. Sending you LOVE~
Thank you for this upload. I struggle with depression as well and have recorded a video explaining it and my outlet but I'm so nervous to post it
fair play about speaking out Doug that was a speech of a talented great man ;)
I had depression last year. I think it's time to share my tale. If I can help one person then that's great. I've had Aspergers Syndrome(form of Autism)all my life. I was diagnosed at the age of 10. I never really had many friends but most of primary school was okay. My condition really came to damage my life when I went into secondary school. The few friends that I had were no longer with me becuase I was in a different area to them. So I was more or less on my own. I went through 2 and a half years of torture. It was extreme. Everyday with severe bullying and being ignored by people who couldn't understand me I always needed that bit of help with getting around and that can be given a glare in a teenage enviroment. I was the weirdo boy in a mixed school. The freak. My year head and fellow teachers and staff members tried to help me but it was never enough. I had a spare copy of books so I wouldn't have to hurt my back for an hour a day(I had two bags). It felt awful. Noise and bad smells coming on a consistent basis. Not being able to concentrate and always looking like an idiot who sweats and panics. I had no friends. No one was compatible with me. The torture was too much. This and other complications lead me to my first suicide attempt in December 2014. I put my head under water but couldn't keep it there. The depression had really started at that point. It was too much to bare. I tried on and off for the next few months. In which time my levels of school attendace where at constant negociateion. Regular attacks and panics in school werd always a bad thing and highlighted my issues to everyone else. In May 2015, I left school about an hour after I got in. I ran home knowing what my plan was. That was it. The day of my death. With more intent then ever before I took off all my top layers of clothing and put a knife against my chest. I can stil remember it's feeling. I was ready to die. But I couldn't do it. The pain was too much and I made a call. That call was the most important call of my 16 year old life so far. I got a doctors appiontment and within a week was diagnosed with depression I went to therapy and got help. They put me on anti-depressents and I was still upset. I left school before I could do my exams. I did programmes in managing depression, didn't really work at the start. Felt suicidal. But after a few weeks after attendance. I began to reset myself and I got help. I still have a high level of anxiety but it's better then being depressed. I had and still have spells of moments when I am sad. But I am a lot better now. I had very bad and near death experieces and could very easily not be here now. I found things that helped me though and really dug into my hobbies. I do feel empathy for those who are going through this now. This is a topic that I feel needs to be talked about more. It needs to be something that people feel that they can talk about without peoole quesgioning them about it. It is a condition just like anything else and can be a fatal one. I got help and other people can do. There is always hope.
Daniel, I give you all of my best wishes and respect. Que Dieu te bénisse.
+Moise Mensah Thank You.
Daniel Fitzpatrick Please, be strong and keep on going. I've been there five years ago and I rose above it. You will too.
+Moise Mensah Thank you.
Daniel Fitzpatrick be strong my friend u're not alone, easy to say but l know its really complicated, l bileave in you like l am bileave l will be batter. :)
Thank you. I get it and completely understand it. I grew up in a culture where depression isnt something they want to talk or accept. I opened up about my depression 3 years ago. Lost some friends but I realized that it was great that I found out who my real friends are. My family have been very supportive, helpful, understanding and I couldnt have done it without them.
you are really brave to make such a video. congrats! all the best for you!
Dude: You ROCK! The courage it took to do this is astounding, and I'm so very glad you did. I know the pain of depression, and I'm so sorry you do too. Bravo for putting yourself out there; I'm sure this will help many.
Oh, man your video appears on my Facebook page when I needed it most. Thank you so much.
I know now, that im not lonely on this. You are amazing.
Thank you for sharing, I'm glad you did this.
Thanks, I've just been sat in my room for the last few days. Don't think I can go on. Just want to be my old self again.
thank you so much for this video xxx
Well done, you are stronger and more courageous than the average soul. It takes so much more strength to be open, honest and vulnerable. You have touched so many people and opened the door to so many mental prisons through your courage. Thank you.
Very brave of you lad to post this on social media... big step...powerful message that im sure will be of help to many sufferers! Well done you... ABSOLUTELY POWERFUL MESSAGE... GET UP THE YARD
Well done Doug, very brave. Stay strong and take care :)
Stumbled across this video and I remember watching this when u first posted it, it was when I was in such a dark place and I used to watch it repeatedly because everything u spoke about was just so relatable at the time almost a healthy way to cope with how I was feeling by watching it as well. Thank you for making such a powerful video I’m in a much better place now 💗
Doug, thank you for having the courage to share.
I have nothing but admiration for you Doug. You never know what's behind a smile. For anyone with depression, reach out when you need help. Ther is always someone who will hold out their hand and hold on to you
Dear Doug Leddin, I would like to say, thank you, to you, for taking the time, energy and effort to both upload and share this video with the youtube community. Thank You!
Weldone man this took massive guts to post. 10 years is a very long time to suffer in silence. Hope you're doing well. Thanks for sharing you're already after helping a lot of people.
I watched this video when I was in college, and I totally understand what's happening to those people who were still suffering. But we should never give up trying to feel better to try a better life, and even help other people go through. If we keep trying, there will be a better life waiting for us.
Amazing Doug. You are so brave and inspiring. You are right, it needs to be discussed more, too many people are hiding this pain. Burying it away because they don't want to feel like a burden to other people. But they're not. If only they reached out, more people than they think, would help them and support them in their difficult times.
This video couldnt be more perfectly timed and helpfull to my life, Thank you!
Awesome mate! Great message and very brave of you, I don't think there is a person in the world who wouldn't be able to relate to this!
This Is Incredible!! Thanks for Sharing!!
Excellent. Well done, Doug. Each time we open up to other people we give them permission to open up too. What you're doing here is positive and proactive and good. Thank you for having so much courage.
Thanks, i really hit the rock bottom today and this video gave me a courage. You're not alone.
thank you your a brave guy, ive had depression for two years now and i am recovering after getting professional help and it's exactly how i feel, I'm scared of people and society and how there will judge me, i haven't spoken to my friends for six months now because it makes me anxious but i do feel much much better then i was before but i do feel up and down and i want to tell people how I felt but again I'm scared. thank you
I was diagnosed with SEVERE ADHD in 1977, Im 45 now, and I can relate to Evan's thoughts, My battle with depression began in 1992, which normally that is when the onset of depression occurs. in addition I also fight PTSD, (post traumatic stress disorder) for those who are jus learning, anyway the incomprehensible levels of pain we endure are beyond words unless you have it!! and my illness has progressed now to where my moods bounce back and forth from Elation to EXTREME MELANCHOLY. Its frightening as hell and II'm quicly losing the war after 30 + years.
Thank you dude. Looking forward to checking out your channel. Want you to know you have a kindred spirit and friend in St Pete, Florida.
you are a beautiful soul and I admire your strength.
Love you for speaking up...
Fair play to you! Great video, and a powerful message.
You are such a beautiful man. I felt your story was about me. The darkness I feel inside. The private pain that know one else will understand. I have talked about my darkness to my family and friends. But that still doesn't help my struggle to live each day without wondering if this will be the day......
wake up Kaz Bouman :):):):):)
Saw this video on Goop site. And I'm here because I also suffer from depression. Ive been and still am to be true in a lengthy depression for about 1,5 year. Its cost me my job and career, lost touch with family members and friends, and my economy is ruined as well. Basically my life is totally altered. I never would have thought this would happen 2-3 years ago. Like a bolt of lightening. It sneaks up on you and eats away slowly and irreperably. Thats how I feel it, has become a part of me now, and I want to rid of it, just feeling that is a good start i think. It is such a stigma for me to talk about yet that is the problem :( Depression as I see it is a stigma, that view needs to be changed. really kudos to you for posting this and letting ppl know that many, many feel the same, many "normal" ppl suffer as well and you are not alone in this suffering, and this doesnt have to be.
+Svada Nada There is a way out. I know it can be extremely hard to find, but there is a way out.
What worked for me, doesn't necessarily work for you, but I'd love to just give you some of my "methods".
I didn't use any medication. I'm scared of it, and I was sure I'd never get out of it if I started using medication.
I read a book by Dr. David Burns - Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy. I went to a psychiatrist for some time, and a psychiatrist masseuse. I also told myself several times during the day, before I fell a sleep and when I woke up: I'll be fine! There is a light at the end of my tunnel. It takes time. But hopefully, you'll manage to have the happy ending as I've had.
"Possibly the most nerve wrecking thing I have ever done is writing this and clicking "Post".", Dough, possibly this video has helped a lot of people in the world. Thanks!
You can see the hurt in your eyes. Stay strong buddy, wise words you just said there
Powerful and moving. I am sure it's going to create awareness and help a lot of people.
Absolutely beautiful. I suffered for too long. But no more. X
Thanks for telling your story, I appreciate you.
Thank you so much for this video. I hope, if I share your video with some people, they could understand me too. Many hugs and lots of blessings to you.
very good and true , its important to speak up and talk , depression is just like any other condition and is due to so many factors around , and due to neurochemical changes in brain , person suffering is not responsible as it put across in our society , so i would also say, lets talk , speak up ,if you have any low feeling, feel like not talking, feel like anxious, or alone ,speak up ,speak to your parents, friends, teachers , siblings and if more or doesnt work out speak to a doctor , come out and speak ..
Well done, brave brother. Me too. Thank you for using your voice.
Fair play to ya lad , you are one very courageous human being . I recommend (if you already haven't) , researching the suffering that our fellow beings on this planet go through everyday , once you do I have full confidence you will become a vegetarian and further help to relieve the collective pain and suffering felt on this planet of ours , thanks again for this video .
I feel the same way... im feeling depression since my parents got separate when I was 7 years old. im now 21 years old, married and got two beautiful kids... but still everyday I wake up can't find the satisfaction, the attention, the compression I need.... I don't know how all of this is gona end up but im still here watching your video thank you.
something about what you said at the end brought me to tears for some reason, im not sure why.. maybe this isn't even the right place to post this, i just cant seem to open up to people about my issue, even my family. Just inching towards the issue always makes them drop the subject and walk away just like that, and just brush it off.
I have the same problem, last week a told my girlfriend and my mom i am depresieve for last 10 years.
Simply. Thank you.
* I took a benadryl about ten minutes ago, so forgive me if this isn't exactly coherent.
I have long-running dysphoria that often dips into severe depression, as well as run-of-the-mill ADHD. I am so glad to see depression getting more nonjudgmental attention, because that means people with depression can converse about coping methods while enjoying the solidarity that most people without mental illness take for granted.
What personally helps me get through the worst phases of deep depression without fail is a change of environment. Nothing fancy or expensive - actually, the more rustic, even primitive (camping and hiking in a place very different from my current geographic location), the better. Even just going on a day hike an hour outside of town can help immensely! There is much to be said for getting back in touch with the simple flow of nature. There is even more to be said for temporarily changing your environment in general - new city, new culture, new whatever. It gently guides you, and sometimes forces you, into new perspectives on everything around you - and a change of perspective can really kick depression's ass. Even if the ass-kicking process is seemingly slow as molasses, at least it is happening.
I know everyone's brain is unique, and this may not work for everyone - but if you're feeling severely depressed, and haven't tried it, please do. Getting away from the everyday grind and jumping into a totally new environment with no major responsibilities for a few hours/ days/ weeks is the only thing that makes me feel truly peaceful. It's like giving my brain a cool, refreshing shower. Sure, it will probably get dirty again down the road, but that's what more showers are for. And the shower doesn't have to be camping or hiking or a vacation - just any action or ritual that works for you.
Acting is key I think, whether we're talking about big events or everyday mental maintenance. - not letting yourself become stagnant, and thus wallowing in the depression and letting it slowly cave in on you. Make sure you do something that feels productive every day - even if it's just doing the laundry, or taking a walk/ jog, or reading a chapter out of that book you've been meaning to finish, or catching with a friend/ family. Take it one step at a time, if you have to. If you feel too depressed to get out of bed, but you manage to do it regardless (no matter what time that happens), then you've just done something awesome! Acknowledge that, and allow yourself to feel good about it. If you can, try to make sure, day by day, that no day is a zero-sum day. This helps me in the long run, between the things that really recharge my soul (for me, camping/ traveling). And - just as important - don't get down on yourself if you have a bad day and stay in bed. Allow yourself to go through what you're going through, without judgement. Forgive yourself, and love yourself like your dog loves you - unconditionally. The world judges us enough already, but the only opinion that matters is our own. We must take an active role in shaping that opinion into something positive, because no one else can or will do it for us. Listen to your dog. He knows how wonderful you are.
Anyway...if you can find something that consistently makes you feel at peace, then that is very likely your path toward the light during the dark times. Peace is, in my opinion, way better than simple happiness. Peace is curative and contemplative and forgiving, and it feels worlds more sustainable than something so wonderful, yet fleeting, as happiness. Certainly not putting down happiness, but peace is greater and more profound than any one basic emotion, which is all happiness is. And anyway, happiness is far easier to stumble across naturally when you're feeling at peace with yourself.
So this definitely turned into a rambling mess, but my eyelids are getting heavy and I'm just gonna leave it as is. I truly hope everyone suffering for depression (or just suffering in general) finds peace and wellness and a great life.
It is the right thing to post this on social media, Doug. And I really feel for your pain from the point of view of my own experience as a life long depressive (I'm now 69). But, unlike yourself, I've always been blessed with being able to refuse to see it as some sort of disgrace. I always managed to be open and honest. Nobody despised me, but key people, such as work supervisors, often didn't understand that I couldn't just "shake it off," or "pull myself together!"
+Aindrias O Baoighill . Doug is blessed too.
+Helenaville Sure - he made this video!
Hi Doug, well done on making this video. I do hope it helps people in Ireland lose the stigma that surrounds mental health, I feel what you are going through.
I hope my subscribers hit this page and watch the video.
Stay safe
Bob
+Bob Flavin Would never have thought you suffered also Bob, best wishes man!
+S Wallace I think everyone does in their own way. Something dark always lurks and pops out when you least expect it. Last year was tough.
Incredible video that hits home. Spot on about living two lives too!
Beautifully done. I wish you were a friend of mine to talk to over a cup of coffee. You get it. This helped me, thank you.
Thank you for sharing your heart.
I was diagnosed with depression last month. Usually I'd get bouts of depression that last for about 2 weeks & I can usually power through but since last year it hasn't gone. I'm on medication now.
thank you so much for sharing
Thank you Doug.
Physical blood is being perceived. A bleeding soul is being ignored. Or worse, attempted to get fixed. Fixed, often with a few words which, in fact, make it dive even deeper into darkness.
... When smiling takes more than enthusiasm combined with the muscles of your face.
Thank you for your COURAGE!
Well done You are a shining example x
not an easy thing to do, well done doug. I feel your pain
My grandfather took his own life. He wasn't taking/didn't want to take his antidepressant. I was 13 at the time. Nobody told me or my brothers the truth. He did it on Christmas Eve. My younger brothers were in another room and heard the gunshot. He obviously wasn't himself. He loved his grandchildren. He wasn't thinking straight. My GP told me I should continue to take my antidepressant indefinitely. If I were in Brazil I'd have to pay a psychiatrist every month to get my prescription. It's so prohibitive for many people. Please avail of your GP and get help. There is plenty of services in Ireland.
Thank you for saving my life
I just love this, so brave, what a man
Well done, brave and very honest. Fair play.
Depression is not always chemical imbalance in the brain, depression is also something that caused to a human being, from a long time of abuse, loss of loved one, illnesses....and thats what I think I have, and as long as you have your memory, your past and what you had to go threw is not ever going to go away from talking about it...the depression sometimes fades away but resurfaces the minute you experience something else that upsets you in no return. So that is why, no one should ever be judge for having depression, because you dont know what this person has gone threw in his life. You cant erase your thoughts like that, its not that easy. Never ever judge a person with depression. No one wants to feel depressed and everyone who is suffering wish they never had it.
We live in a society that doesnt care, I have no friends that will be willing to hear my feelings, much less my depression. People with depression have been judged and have not received the support that they needed from family or friends. Most people with depression have tried talking to someone but no one was really there for them. People these days are so busy with their lives that that the only time they want to socialize with other friends ( for example) is on an outdoor setting where most of the time, it involves alcohol. I'm the type who will listen and will always try to reach out but if you are not the person that they want the reaching out to, they will not care what you have to say (witch I had that happen). I just learned to control my depression and accepted things for what they are. Like they say sometimes, the only person that can make you happy is you, and that might be true, maybe they meant that you cant depend one others to make you feel better because thats not going to happen ...I dont know... only my perspective.
brave brave doug..we are at the cusp of social change in regard to mental health stigma. and the way we treat one another as human beings...things like the W.R.A.P. programme need to be implemented in every school and workplace across the country...i hope you get 2 billion hits on your facebook page!
Thank you......
Thank you Doug.
You are beautiful. Thank you so much for this.