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“see this is silent but is it helpful if YOU cant be silent?” i was gonna say the exact same thing LMFAO😭😭
:) Nice :).
Fellow "though I was bi, but being a lesbian ACTUALLY feels way better" THANKS FOR SHARING your story. You don't owe anyone a coming out, and it's a privilege to hear your story
Yessss!
real i thought i was bi for abt 3 days and then pan for a week-ish just bc i had never met a lesbian but then i was like wait what am i even talking abt lmao ive literally purposely pretended to like men i dont think thats normal for ppl who are actually attracted to them😭🙏
Yes to all of that. I was in the same situation and realising who you are and embracing that is the best feeling
Paige, you have done far more than "come out" with this video. You have offered potentially healing transparency about the complexity of your experience, and based on my own Autistic and other experiences I think this could be really empowering to some folks struggling with understanding themselves, especially among neurodivergers. I'm old and self aware now but some aspects of this could have really helped when I was a young adult. Thank you for being yourself on the internet.
I agree!
this really means a lot to me🥺
@@realpaigelayle It means a lot to me that my comment made it to you. I did consider that you might not want to read a ton of comments after all that sharing. In the warmest old auntie lady sense (tho I know I am a stranger), I am really proud of you being who you are, and you have done good in this world with your life...and you are young, you have so much more ahead of you. 😊
fully agree!!
I, too, am ASD, but honestly, I wasn't even thinking on the spectrum about her sexuality - I took it at face value. I just want good people to be happy and healthy.
“I feel in my body and soul as if I was sexually assaulted but I know cognitively they didn’t” I have always felt like a crazy person for experiencing this
Me too!!!!! . .. never heard anything like/ worded quite like this before idt .. it's really hot me thinking, and in the context of all this. Idk ??? But I'll continue to ponder on it and everything you've said here! - OP! ... thank you 😊 🙏🏼 💓 OP for always just being SO frank and honest about all sides of human humanness in your telling of things. Seriously admirable!!
Just being a woman in this society can feel like that. I am a SA survivor, but I can totally relate!
THIS! I’ve been struggling with these feelings for years now
LOVE FROM ANOTHER AUTISTIC LESBIAN 💕💕 i was bi curious too, in the straight way HAH
Same here! Hi fellow Autistic lesbian 🩷🥹
@ hii!! i love online spaces like this. it makes me realize i’m not the only one!! 💞💞
HI AUTISTIC LESBO GANG ❤🎉
@@kira4644Me too! I love meeting lesbians who are also autistic 🥹 Makes me happy to know we really aren't alone, especially now that Paige came out to us too 🩷
@ 🩷❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜
"clit flying off, hitting the wall" 😂.
Congrats on coming out 💖
I love when her tongue goes faster than her brain's filters! 😅
Those are a product I would actually endorse, provided they’re body safe, of course. It’s so annoying when they say it’s a quiet vibe, and it sounds like a whole blender.
@@sciencenotsrigma😂 a whole blender
This is so inspiring, Paige, not to quote my favorite show but I genuinely do believe that “Every time someone steps up and says who they are, the world becomes a better, more interesting place.” so proud of you and I wish you nothing but love and happiness in the future!
Nine nine!!!!
I CRY EVERY TIME I WATCH THAT PART
@@ric7044NINE NINE!!
RIP Andre, You’ll always be my Captain Holt!
Omg I assumed you were straight.
I remember how good it felt when I first said the words "I am a lesbian".
It's so good to confidently state your truth. Welcome home.
Fellow autistic lesbian here!🙋♀️I wish all the best to you, Paige!❤
Same!! I’m still somewhat in denial though because I know my parents would be disappointed if I was a lesbian
More support to go around.
I just wrote a whole essay in your comment section (without sending it; twice), because of how much this video speaks to me.
Thank you so much for this video and that you share your perspective in such a genuine and vulnerable way, while still being so badass!
We are so different in our identity, but so similar in many of the experiences you shared here and in the thoughts and feelings you had and have about those right now.
I feel less alone with my (neuro-queer) struggles through videos like this, and I am so, so grateful for you and your openness to share your perspective with us.
I hope you get to celebrate your identity lots, and am now already looking forward to June, for all of us!
❤🧡💛💚💙💜
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🖤💜🤍💛
It makes me so happy that you’ve been able to find guys that just genuinely love you platonically. I’m at the point where I feel so disillusioned by men because of the number of times I’ve tried to foster what I thought was a mutually platonic friendships only to realize they actually wanted nothing to do with me if sex wasn’t involved. As someone who is attracted to some men but isn’t in a place to want to date ANYONE atm, it can feel very frustrating losing out on what you think are budding friendships because the person was only looking for one thing from you and didn’t see your value outside of it🙃
Absolutely 💯 and was discussing that with multiple women, who've all experienced the same on like a mass scale too!! I think that's a MAD social issue.. that really needs to be discussed so much!
Making friends is difficult and takes time and effort. I know many women who have many male friends who support them. You will have male friends too. Keep choosing to be true to your needs and it will happen. Please don't let a cold world make you colder.
In case this helps, as a woman with some wonderful platonic male friends, I can confirm such good men do exist. Plenty unfortunate run ins with the other sort too of course, not trying to invalidate your experience - just to say, the good ones are real 💜
Haven't seen your content in a really long time but I remember being a teenager and seeing your content, it made me feel so seen, so as a fellow lesbian I'm so proud that you're happy and comfortable too! Sending you so much love and big hugs💗
I keep watching the video and i can't believe how much similar childhoods we had, this is crazy🥺 thank you for sharing !!!
ew ive been around here that long that people have grown up seeing me in their GROWING UP? i didnt even think about that. frig thanks for commenting.
@@realpaigelayleLMAO real, even if my music does finally blow up someday or sum shit, im def gonna have to just deal w the repercussions of my digital footprint tbh😭💀
Your story both broke something in me and deeply expressed many many many feelings I’ve been struggling with for my whole life. Aside from having a good relationship with my parents, everything else about your experiences resonates with me. Especially the “feeling violated despite consenting” and being unable to say no.
welcome to the club!!! i love being autistic and i love being a lesbian! it’s one of the most beautiful ways to live life 🩷🤍🧡
so proud of you for feeling able to share this part of yourself with your audience 💗 you’re valid no matter what your label or lack of label is 💕 happy coming out paige!!
You really didn't have to "come out", we're respecting and appreciating you any way. You're probably helping a lot of people by sharing your story though. Thank you for being brave
Hi paige! I've been watching ur channel since I was like 13 and as a 17 year old autistic girl (queer too) I am really happy to see ur journey on this channel and i also really look up to you. As an autistic girl I feel seen, and so much of what u say im like "Girl me too". I'm so happy for u!! comphet is hard to deal with but the fact u could find urself is awesome and im proud of u. From a young autistic girl who looks up to u, thank you for all you do for the autistic comunity and congrats on coming out :)
@@boredgirl98 this means the world to me. thank you for commenting this. ❤️
@@realpaigelayle omg u responded! ur welcome and keep doing ur thing! ur awsome
HEY IM ALSO A 17YO AUTISTIC (plus adhd) LESBIAN GIRL, tbf i turn 18 in a month tho lol
Thanks for coming out. I am an autistic adhd straight woman, but I had always felt different about relationships and s*x, (also because of sensory issues) than the other straight women so I feel in some level what you were experiencing ❤
Omg! I was just wondering if other autistic people have sensory issues around sex. Apparently, not everyone says “ow,” every 5 seconds, or feels excruciatingly ticklish if you brush their arm or leg, or pretty much anything. No, my partner is not a heel. I’ve had that experience. too. 😫
11:35 lol I was waiting for this
Definitely went through similar things but while I didn’t have overtly homophobic parents, that feeling of generally just not being safe but still knowing certain things are just “right” is a mood
Porn addiction, play acting, rationalization, dissociating, etc. is on point too. I’m sorry that you and so many of us had to endure this. I’m glad we’re able to slowly live more authentic, fulfilling lives despite these traumatic experiences
17:15 The word you’re looking for is “liability”
22:19 sooooo, you ever notice how the internalized homophobia amongst women is really not talked about because we don’t end up murdering people because one woman made the other one feel a little fruity? It’s a trip once you start noticing that it’s not just the disgust you feel towards others being gay out loud, you start noticing that there are things DEEP in your brain that make you recoil at your own behavior, even when you know it feels right. Be kind to yourself
28:48 There will always be gatekeepers, bigots, narcissists TERFs/SWERFs, etc. in lesbian/sapphic circles, just like in the general population. Being queer doesn’t make any of us inherently virtuous. You’ve got a good head on your shoulders and you’ll be able to handle it. The gatekeeper gold/silver star lesbians can go kick rocks
As a closeted cis pan guy, I can't relate to a lot of this video BUT I can say that I am genuinely happy for you :) I was ashamed of myself and repressed it for many years because i was in some ways scared, but it finally felt good to admit it to myself, even if others don't know. I dream of a day when we don't feel like coming out is needed ❤
Congratulations! Thank you for sharing your story. Additionally as a straight male viewer my viewing tendencies will not change, in fact a lot of my favorite content creators are lesbians. I have found that lesbian creators often have better and much healthier advice regarding relationships compared to many straight male creators. Either way your sexuality doesn't change the quality of your neurodiverse centered content, so I am very happy for you and the future of your channel.
Dear god this is so relatable 😭😭 I feel like this might be a very common autistic afab experience, comphet is so confusing and even more so when you're autistic.
You look so relaxed and... yourself here!!! So happy for you 💖❤
You're much braver than me. My dad still doesn't know and I'm 31 now. Also my mother never found out I was Bi. I'm very happy for you Paige!!! ❤🎉
God this video made me cry. I'm so proud of you and I hope you know how emotionally intelligent you are and how brave you are for unlearning all this trauma instead of perpetuating it. You are inspirational!
As an autistic girl who is bisexual, I could relate to a lot of what you were saying and I feel really seen. Thank you so much for sharing your story and congrats on coming out❤️
As someone who is both aromantic and asexual, I relate SO MUCH to convincing yourself that you're having crushes on whomever everyone else says you're supposed to be attracted to just because you're unconsciously trying to fit a societal standard that was directly or indirectly imposed on you. Ultimately, even though I never actually dated anyone and I didn't look into corny stuff out of curiosity until I was in my early 30's, it was those fake crushes that made me only realize what my sexual orientation was when I was 23 and my romantic orientation when I was 27. It can be very confusing and it's something I haven't seen discussed that much.
your dad rambling about his special interest and early porn addiction god i feel that so so hard i’m so happy for you and proud of you 💞💓 thank you so much for trusting us a teeny tiny bit you sharing your stories with us means more than you’ll ever know
🎉🎉🎉 Welcome to the Sapphic Society! 🎉🎉🎉
It's always so heartwarming to watch someone come into themselves like this. I'm so glad you were able to have this realization and really work out what it was that you really wanted. CompHet is a big issue, especially in religious communities. It can be very difficult to reconcile the person you are inside with what your surroundings are telling you that you should be. I wish you all the best in this new stage of your life!
Thank you for making this video Paige. Congratulations 🤍
god you have no idea how much this helped me. Ive been feeling impending doom lately at the thought of dating a man and for a month or two ive been wondering if im ACTUALLY a lesbian or if im doing it for other reasons. Thank you for sharing, and the ocd part, AUGH 😭
You’re not alone! It’s such a hard thing to navigate. 💕💖
Your smile the first 1:25 mins alone! Bliss! As an audience, I’m just glad you’ve learned one more thing about yourself. I’m cheering you on and hope you continue to stay safe. 🌺🏳️🌈💖
Thanks for reflecting on this. Please recognize how courageous this act of solidarity is. Growing up, I was resentful of being outed due to the misogyny and homophobia I experience. But when I came out as pan I was very encouraged by a queer relative's words of encouragement. For us women, we're told we just don't know better due to covert misogyny that permeates with other forms of marginalization. Like everyone perceived femme got lumped into the hysteria category. The shame queer people experience, especially in marginalized genders conditions people to believe there's something wrong with them. It needs to end.
It takes a while. I came out as gay in my 20s. I discovered I was trans at 30. Lost weight at 40 and finally found my femininity. At 44 I discovered I am AuDHD. Thank you Paige and all the other queerdos on UA-cam.
Paige get out there and explore, there's time wasted in the past.
I love that you've come out❤
I'm so happy you feel safe enough to "come out" online (even though, you already like said it, maybe a year ago). You felt safe enough to elaborate, and also share some pretty hard stuff to share.
The stuff about wanting to be loved by men because your dad treated you like he hated you is so real. I definitely have a relationship with men that is very much begging them to like me coz that's what I did with my dad. And I learned that u could control and perform for men alot better by being what they want and it's all a performance. I still think I'm bisexual because I do think I am attracted to men on a deeper level than that but I think it's nearly impossible to connect with men in an actual intimate way within patriarchal structures and it's so hard to find men who know how to be truly intimate coz it's sort of a performance for them too, a performance of masculinity and male sexuality that is the mainstream.
*and the crowd goes wild!!!* I always felt the same way about coming out, which lead to a lot of compulsory heterosexuality on my part. Sexuality is so complex, but I'm happy you've come to understand yourself in such a way! Congratulations
Congratulations! So excited for you, and thank you for sharing. More authenticity and self knowledge in the world is a beautiful thing, and invites others to be true to themselves too 🎉🎉🎉
congrats on your coming out, Paige!!!
Good for you. I totally don’t care who you date, but I hope you have all the relationships you want, and get on with life.
I appreciate hearing your perspective as an autistic person, so I am happy that you make videos again. You have shown a world of darkness with your experiences, but sharing it enables some reflection and risk mitigation for me, and for that I am truly grateful.
Having meaning in life supposedly is a mitigation for unavoidable suffering, so I hope that you can appreciate the meaningfulness of giving value to others through these videos.
All the best to you!
/Someones dad.
thank you, a dad.
Les🐝an !!💖i’m proud of you for doing a coming out video because no one ever needs to do that and it’s brave to talk abt all this online❤
this, like most of your vids are so relatable to the point i feel like you’re in my brain. happy for you dude ♥️
This is such an important and vulnerable video. I can only say that I understand truly so much of this. Thank you for sharing and for being a strong and brave voice so consistently.
You're so good at explaining how you felt or why you did or didn't something how you're thinking about your thoughts. Thanks so much for being so open about how experience life and relationships. 🙏
Thank you for sharing this experience because as another autistic lesbian i know there are soo many girls that need the words to understand their own similar experiences. It is really brave.
Also, welcome to the community! You have every right to be in lesbian spaces and i hope they bring you joy and affection as they have to me. The vast majority of people will welcome you with a lot of kindness and those who don't probably don't understand what the community is and should be about, so don't listen. ANOTHER COOL, SMART, KIND, BRAVE LESBIAN IN THIS WORLD, YAY! 🎉
Omg I can't believe someone else physically feels pain when thinking about painful stuff! I was just talking to my Mum about that.
Congratulations Paige, so happy to see someone so happy about being her true self. You are an inspiration!
14:21 that's a big OCD mood! I have it for different reasons but definitely relate :'D
i love love love hearing the thought explosion and the connecting of the dots that is discovering you're a lesbian. thank u sm for sharing, congratulations!!
Nice to meet you. Thank you for the honour of letting us into a part of your life that you didn't need to or owe us.
I am feeling so seen!!
that's kinda interesting when you mention about feeling others pain in your own body because when i was younger and with someone i used to know, they asked me about watching tv and if i felt pain when watching characters get hurt and i said i did and they did too. We are both autistic too. But one thing ive noticed that i do not understand that relates to this, is that not only do i get the weird uncomfortable sensation in body as though it were my own in a weird way, but the fact i get an uncomfortable sensation just below my bum cheeks, like right near the back of my thighs at the top, like that area feels uncomfortable and almost burning like in response to anothers pain too. IDK why, its so weird and why specifically that spot.
Congratulations and I am also an autistic lesbian and this story is so inspiring
A lot of my favorite UA-camrs are lesbian so this makes sense lol I’m nonbinary transfemme and possibly thinking about doing HRT and I feel the same way you do about men. Congratulations!!
So proud of you!!! You have matured a lot in the past 5 years, and I appreciate your insight and candor on this channel. If people in your life can’t accept that you’re a lesbian, that’s their problem and not yours-it’s 2025, why are we still being homophobic?
Good luck on your endeavors going forward! ☺
YOU GO GIRL !!! as a fellow queer autistic i feel so seen when my favs come out too.
Awesome, good luck with everything. After your last video, I wasn't sure if you were going to be on this channel anymore, so I'm quite pleased to see you back, and with what feels like such a positive revelation.
i can confidently say that everyone here is happy for you and supports you
Grrr your first few sentences resonate. I’ve never came out but it’s literally never been a secret. Yet my friends are always shocked if I do something not straight and I’ve been contemplating “coming out”
Fellow autistic queer woman here, and your story might as well be my story (and, I'm sure, many other autistic women's stories). Thank you for sharing yours. I'm so happy for you ❤️
congrats on coming out paige!! figuring out identity is so hard and i’m so glad you’re able to feel comfortable enough to share this with us! if you’re even ready to change the label you use, that’s okay! things change
as a fellow neurodivergent lesbian who used to date men, I've never felt more seen
thanks for sharing this about yourself. i love listening to other people with autism talk about attraction and sex. it just works with my brain and makes so much sense to me.
You are so brave & I am truly impressed by how well you know yourself & such a young age. So much of your story resonates with me…especially the Dad stuff. Thrive on & thanks for your views & perspectives! You have taught me a lot … I was diagnosed at age 52.
i want to be 52 one day and still continue to learn
thanks for being awesome 😊
I’m proud of you for being honest🥰 we have so much in common it’s crazy! From narcissistic parents to wanting a 🍆 , autism, feeling everything, even the disassociation with men and being sexualized at a young age, nuts
thank you so so so much for sharing your story - especially right now when things feel scary for LGBTQ+ people. i’m mega proud of you! i’m autistic, gay, non-binary, and grew up in a christian conservative home. i relate to a lot of your story.
also loved your sponsor section, your energy was so cute 🧚
I’m a bi autistic woman, and honestly this helped me a lot and helped me realized so much bout myself internally (like reflecting on myself and why I do/think what I end up doing and etc) and I got a narc parent+a parent raised by a narc and has issues surrounding that that were projected onto me, and genuinely this helped me really grow and accept myself too in a lot of ways. Thanks so much for this fr, you’re amazing and I’m so happy for you too!! Also, I lowkey kinda notice you seem happier more than before in your past vids cuz of coming out and accepting yourself as a lesbian, (swear not tryna be weird when I say that, just I found your channel when I was 19yrs literally RIGHT AFTER I found out I had autism and your channel helped me so much and I’m 22yrs now so yeah been watching your channel for a while Lol😅), and I’m glad+happy for you to see that you’re happy and comfy in yourself now.
Big hugs and lots of love/support from a fellow Canadian too btw!🤗
As a fellow lesbian I have always gotten that vibe, but I'm big on letting people come around to labeling or not labeling themselves in their own time. Being a trans woman, I had a real weird relationship with my sexuality for a long time. Like I definitely Googled more than once: "can you be a transgender lesbian" or some variation of that trying to figure out exactly where I fit and what to call myself before I was comfortable with using the term myself. I do thank you for coming out though. Even though you don't live in the US, we live in times where there is a big conservative push against the LGBTQIA+ Community compared to what it has been in recent years and I think it is important now more than ever for us especially those of us with a platform to speak up and not let ourselves be drown out by the wave of ignorance sweeping through much of the world.
Paige thank you so much for sharing this, you can’t imagine what it means to me right now 💕
I keep rewatching it because it brings me so much comfort to see this right now. I’m very grateful to have people like you who I can relate to❤️
Cool, I'm just glad you're still posting on here
I feel seen 😢❤ thank you for sharing Paige.
Ok. Now I am crying. I am so happy you are filling the need that remained from your parental neglect with platonic male friendships.
you look like you are glowing!
thanks for sharing
this explains so much
We Love You Paige!!
Kudos on your journey of self discovery. Kudos on your journey of finding your strength. (And condolences on you having to have had some of the rough spots along the way.) I will happily keep watching your videos, because I often find that you have interesting things to say, and I enjoy the various energies with which you say them, and I don't expect anything at all in return. Best!
As a young queer teen seeing you share your personal journey helps me so much to understand myself. ❤
SCREAMED, been watching for years, thank you so much for sharing your story, I’m so excited for you!!!
Oh wow, this video speaks to me, speaks directly to my heart. But first of all, congrats on figuring out who you really are and opening up about it!! It takes a lot of work and courage
So happy for you Paige! Welcome to lesbianism, it’s so wonderful. Life with my wife to be is so simple and contented and calm. I’ve never been happier. Pushing through internalised homophobia was the best thing I’ve ever done for myself, and I can see it’s a huge and beautiful step for you, too ❤
you are glowing! ☺ much love and soooooo happy for you
It always weirds me out and amazes me how I relate to certain experiences Paige shares, especially cause it's rare for me to relate to people around me (don't know many autistic people)
There's so much I wanna say about this but it boils down to: I'm happy Paige exist and I get to hear her and know a little bit of her ❤
Im so glad you're happy and gave a great group of friends. I love how honest you are about yourself. Youve taught me at 38 so mmuch about myself and how to help my son. Thank you for being you and being out there loads of love xxxx
Thank you for being so brave and thank you for being so honest about who you are and your feelings and opinions.
thank you
Thank you for sharing, super proud of you for giving yourself permission to be yourself
Love this so much Paige! Feels so good to hear someone explain the feelings and experiences I've also felt over the years, and you explained it so well 💗
live laugh love lesbian!!!!!! congrats paige!! youve been through so much and come so far, for what its worth this fellow autistic lesbian is so proud of you 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🧡🤍🩷 and very thankful to you too!! your videos have helped me so much in my own unmasking journey (,:
Paige is bloody gorgeous, inside and out.
That is all.
Well, you are loved, and I am happy you are coming into yourself! You will always be loved even if you know it or not!
Paige! Yes! I resonate with everything you said so much! My dad was a great dad but I still relate to the people pleasing to men. Definitely comp het
Aw, way to go!!!!
Omg welcome to the skittle squad!!! Ahaha jokes aside this was a very vulnerable video and im glad you shared it. I also had v abusive parents and it's hard to talk abt sometimes but its nice to see more people talking about their experiences esp in regards to our community! my dad was homophobic passive aggressively and then would just pretend like he didnt care if i was str8 or gay. im panromantic, he just acted like he didnt care and honestly ppl suspect hes bi anyway. like theres nothing wrong w it but men are conditioned to like ... act a certain way so they struggle to say it its v sad. and my dad was a freakin cop so you imagine what that looked like fr, i think my autism comes from him. Anyway i totally understand where you come from and appreciate you sharing
also i follow you on my main channel but i lost yt premium atm cuuuzzz $$ lol
Paige you are perfect just the way you are, it doesn’t matter who you love ❤️ I tell my kids that all the time. I’m sorry you’ve felt shame, and not been able to be your authentic self. Im glad you can be yourself now x
Hey welcome to the community! I know it can be scary to come out especially with how things are but you have a whole community out there that will love you for who you are.
You got me smiling!!! So happy for you to be able to live authentically to yourself
yayy paige!!! congrats on coming out and thank you for sharing your story with us :)
I'm so happy for you I have tears in my eyes! Congratulations
14:20 SAME HERE this is such a suffocating feeling and i still haven't unlearned this yet (currently 23). in my case i didn't have narcissistic parents exasperating this problem, but ever since i was a little kid up until present day i've struggled with feeling like people can hear my thoughts and so my thoughts HAVE to be pure and innocent and harmless and present a perfect image of me at all times, even at the dead of night or when completely alone. which in turn is made a lot more stressful when it's coupled with intrusive thoughts that fill me with guilt and shame. and not to get tmi for a youtube comment, but even to this day despite knowing it's irrational, i still feel these ways and don't feel comfortable or able to allow myself to think of anything suggestive. and i keep having to remind myself that i'm an adult and its normal, so why can't i? there is no issue, so why is it so hard for me to accept that i am allowed? i've been improving somewhat in the last year or so but ughh it's confusing
anyways sorry i didn't mean to vent about something you mentioned on the side, i just relate very much to that and don't hear people talk about that ever. thank you for your transparency as always, it's so refreshing for me personally, especially as another autistic queer person :)
i'm just a stranger but i've watched your videos for years, and for what it's worth i'm proud of you for coming to an understanding on your sexuality after all the stresses you went to get here, and it's lovely to see you so smiley and excited about it! shoutout queer joy, shoutout lesbians!!
I’m so glad you’re talking about this. I’ve been having similar realizations and have been ruminating on the way I was groomed and had to accept the ways of men or I was crazy. I’ve known since I was so young and that loop of thinking I need male attention…. Ooooh boy. 💜💜💜
I'm sorry you went through that and i hope it will keep getting better so you will be able to be more and more yourself
As a straight cis autistic man my best friend is a bi woman and we have such a deep and strong plutonic friendship and I cherish that so much. Plutonic friendships with different genders are awesome