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  • Опубліковано 26 лис 2022
  • This week was.... a lot 🥺
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  • @Sasha-16june
    @Sasha-16june Рік тому +418

    You’ve said on a number of vlogs that you’d love to do UA-cam full time. This is the universe pushing you into it. You’ve got this 💛

    • @Sasha-16june
      @Sasha-16june Рік тому +45

      Also reframe your mindset. You said you feel like a burden (which you’re not) but instead you should frame it as giving Nik this opportunity to take care of you.

    • @amylottie
      @amylottie Рік тому +10

      I second this comment! Put 100% into this 🫶🏼 sending love

    • @foolsgo1d
      @foolsgo1d Рік тому +5

      YES TO ALL OF THIS ❤❤

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому +18

      thank you 🥺💛

    • @amys3168
      @amys3168 Рік тому +1

      @@Sasha-16june and clearly he loves her and wants the best for her.

  • @CarterSullivan
    @CarterSullivan Рік тому +79

    Sending you big hugs❤ Rejection truly is redirection. When I got let go from my contract job 2 years ago today it was such a blessing in disguise because now I'm in a job I love SO much, am valued and appreciated and simultaneously getting to chase my dreams! Maybe it's time like you've mentioned before to find something part time while you focus more on UA-cam. The universe is trying to tell you something I think🥰

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому

      thanks Carter 🥺🥰 definitely a sign!

  • @pinkfluffybananaify
    @pinkfluffybananaify Рік тому +40

    Wow I feel you. I was bullied at my job, so much so that 2 weeks ago I was gonna take my life. I went into councling and meds and was told my job will be there when I come back. Those bullies got away with what they did, and I was let go as I'm a liability having mental issues. I was devastated, what the bullies did to me was bad enough, but my company handed me the rope. I'll never understand how lazy, toxic and nasty people always win. I have a 16yr old boy to look after and he is why I'm still here. You're not alone, we'll both come out the other end. Xx

    • @juliemclachlan1861
      @juliemclachlan1861 Рік тому +9

      Please don't let bullies have control over your life. Your family and friends are the important people. They would want you here. Thinking of you. Take care.

    • @pinkfluffybananaify
      @pinkfluffybananaify Рік тому

      @@juliemclachlan1861 thankyou Julie, that's very kind of you to say, I'm still in therapy and working through it all x.

    • @sammy8054
      @sammy8054 Рік тому +3

      Wow! I am so sorry you went through this. I’ve hit rock bottom plenty of times. It isn’t easy at all to get up and sometimes you need to hear a different voice to help you get up. Those people are very unhappy they have to ruin someone else’s. Pray that the Lord allows them to see you as he would. Just know it isn’t the end there’s so much more out there ❤

    • @tassiachagolla519
      @tassiachagolla519 Рік тому +1

      @kasuallyKartia you are not alone. As much as I hate to say it this stuff is so prevelant, and they do often get away with the horrific stuff they do. I hope you are doing better, be kind to yourself and give yourself time to heal. We spend so many hours at work, this stuff can really get to you. Its easy for people to dismiss how much this can take a toll on a human being. Many blessings to you and your son! Take care

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому +1

      I'm so sorry 🥺 i'm sending you all the love & strength 💛✨ Please please reach out if you ever need someone to talk too xx

  • @alexandratracey8252
    @alexandratracey8252 Рік тому +33

    My story is so similar. My boss and I on Friday were talking about a promotion, a large raise “to pay me what I am worth” and on Monday I got laid off. My boss was just as shocked as I was and in tears. Luckily too, I got 2 months pay with medical benefits, but it’s such a weird and shameful feeling. Even though I honestly don’t believe we should feel shame. Anyway. Good luck! You got this! ❤

  • @miscellaneousmabel
    @miscellaneousmabel Рік тому +174

    1. We love a supportive husband! Such a cute moment when he comes in while you’re doing your make up.
    2. Bennie is ADORABLE!
    3. You’re amazing and this is just a push into your new direction. Full time content creator😉🤞🏼
    Thank you for being so open and honest.

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому +6

      1. isn't he the best? I'm V lucky
      2. he's SO cute I die
      3. thank you so much 🥺💛 appreciate your support more thank you know x

    • @abigailsteeves9792
      @abigailsteeves9792 Рік тому +2

      I hope your doing okay! I think things will turn out for the better sometimes it just takes time to turn around! I had a really frustrating job experience this year. I got what I thought was my dream job and thought I was doing great with all the feed back I was getting from everyone, but at the end of my probation my boss was like you passed but thank god you turned it around in the last two weeks I was going to fire you and proceed to light into me for the remainder of the meeting about mistakes we made together since she was new to and it was the blind leading the blind. I had done literally nothing different in the last two weeks. I decided to leave after the meeting and I feel so much better now but it was such a hard decision I cried about it for a long time. I had all those same negative thoughts about myself and that I’m delusional, a total mess, making things difficult for my husband. Going to therapy has helped tremendously though. You’ve got it!!

  • @michellebanning4554
    @michellebanning4554 Рік тому +66

    Ella. You inspired me to quit my job when you quit yours. I started a new job and I absolutely hated it. I was regretting it. I quit that job too. I’m now in a job that I freaking love. I will never go back to the industry I was in before. Thank you for giving me courage.
    Also, they wouldn’t have paid you out and given you a good reference when they aren’t required to for no reason. They know they’ve screwed with you.

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому +4

      omg you go girl! I am so glad everything worked out so well for you Michelle! definitely gives me hope 😅💛

  • @livscaglione4684
    @livscaglione4684 Рік тому +59

    I am such a firmer believer in as one door closes, another opens - we’ve got your back Ella! Trust the process ❤

  • @bekca
    @bekca Рік тому +69

    You can definitely make social media work! I don’t comment often but just wanted to say you have totally got this!! I would watch your videos whatever they are.
    Remember rejection is just redirection and in a year you’ll look back at this moment and be a completely different person.

  • @jackiek4159
    @jackiek4159 Рік тому +27

    I left a toxic job two years ago and it is still hard today dealing with the consequences knowing that you gave so much to a company who treated you like trash in the end! Sending you lot's of love and light girlie! Know that better things are coming your way! 💞✨

  • @SocksAmpersandSandals
    @SocksAmpersandSandals Рік тому +38

    Your vid was recommended to me by the algorithm. Not entirely sure why, but I’m glad it did 🫶🏾
    Sending you hugs from the 🇺🇸. I’ve never been in this position, so I can’t imagine how much of a shock it was, but your resiliency and positivity will pay off. Enjoy the break! So happy you have such a loving, doting husband to support and encourage you along away-he seems like a wonderful human. As you said, it’s about faith-God will guide and provide.

  • @smallcatalogue
    @smallcatalogue Рік тому +120

    I am so sorry to hear this, Ella. You are a deadset legend and we love and appreciate you. Unfortunately, it is fairly common for companies to put people on permanent contracts to cover mat leave and then let that person go at the six month period when they feel confident the mat leave person will come back. It’s no fun and really doesn’t feel right. Please don’t be embarrassed. You’ve not let anyone down. You are a treasure💕

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому +2

      I had no idea but seems like it's a lot more common than I realised 🥺 appreciate your sweet comment and support so much 💛 thank you!

  • @georgialrichards
    @georgialrichards Рік тому +20

    ELLA!!! repeat after me "I am not disappointing anyone"!!!!!!! sending all my love always!

  • @justunravelling2450
    @justunravelling2450 Рік тому +5

    This exact thing happened to me ,26 female quit my previous job due to toxicity and not fulfilling, found another job immediately, got praised of my work ethic and dedication and out of nowhere laid of on the sixth month mark on September. I couldn't even bring myself to tell my parents or siblings or friends for a whole month. I was in absolute denial until it dawned on me the first step to moving on is acceptable. Still unemployed trying to figure things out , can't wait for the year to end and be hopeful for 2023.

  • @natmichelle
    @natmichelle Рік тому +20

    Ella, what you have with Nick is SO PRECIOUS! I really appreciate how he is so supportive of you during this difficult time. You will get through this though. And it will be even better when you decide what the next step is. I am praying for you my friend!

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому +1

      he's the absolute best 🥰 thank you lovely 🥺

  • @MissStephanieWang
    @MissStephanieWang Рік тому +11

    Hey lovely, I work in construction too. The property market is cooling, interest rates are going up and so cash flow is a real problem for many companies. Don’t feel bad, it’s not a reflection on you. They wouldn’t have provided the additional pay if it was.
    We all have challenging seasons in our life but we overcome and grow. Best of luck on the next chapter. ❤

  • @suddenlythree
    @suddenlythree Рік тому +17

    In his 20’s my husband has lost many many jobs. Even though the reasons for losing his jobs were due to tardiness he still laughs about them to this day. I love how he processes this stuff, with humour and a ‘what’s next’ attitude. All will be well, you won’t know why this happened until it all unfolds perfectly.

  • @temiidee5885
    @temiidee5885 Рік тому +6

    It breaks my heart to hear you say you think you're a failure. You definitely aren't and I'm so sorry life has dealt you these crappy cards. It's so awful that a workplace can make you think everything is absolutely fine and drop this bombshell on you, I think that's just so wrong and isn't a reflection of you at all. I know you are going to move on to bigger and better things and you are going to just be SO successful.
    I'm also in awe of Nick and the love and support you both have for one another. Truly such a beautiful pairing and I know having one another, everything is going to work out and fall into place. We love you so much and are always so proud of you Ella xxx

  • @bixierin951
    @bixierin951 Рік тому +7

    I started crying before you even explained this, I’ve been in your position, and I promise you it only gets better from here. Sending lots of love

  • @melissaindrebo6550
    @melissaindrebo6550 Рік тому +5

    I totally understand what you’re going through, I was laid off from my job this year (I had worked for them for a number of years). I was really sad in the beginning but I knew it was a blessing in disguise getting let go. I set my goal that I wanted to get a job with the state for retirement benefits and I worked hard at applying for lots of jobs with the state. After 3 and half months I got a job offer. I look back now and I’m so much happier now than I was with my previous job.

  • @RachelCatherine
    @RachelCatherine Рік тому +6

    Gosh Ella, that sucks so much 😞 But like you said, it truly is their loss. I’m sure there are so many opportunities coming your way & I can’t wait to see the doors that open for you 💓

  • @purplerose4715
    @purplerose4715 Рік тому +1

    I went back to work and still am! The key rule, no matter how hard it gets at any age, whatever had been done to you, do not give up on yourself ever👏🏻🙏🏻

  • @shaeremphrey7289
    @shaeremphrey7289 Рік тому +4

    Ella 😢 I lost my job about one month ago! I was so shocked didn’t see it coming either and I’m half way through building a house too, the stress was unreal! But I have just started a new job I absolutely love, things happen for a reason. You’ve got this!

  • @EABeauty
    @EABeauty Рік тому +3

    It’s their loss and your gain. The way they went about this speaks volumes. Anyone who watches your videos can see you are highly competent across everything you do and put a lot of effort in- something any company could ever wish for in an employee. This will have been nothing to do with your abilities, skills or effort. You now have a window of time to pause and explore a new opportunity and despite it being a shock, this is an exciting time :)

  • @tialorabelin6993
    @tialorabelin6993 Рік тому +3

    2022 has been the worst year of my life, hands down. I lost my job recently, too, and had all the same questions and feelings you do. It’s just waves of feeling like a burden and a failure… But it’s not worth contemplating for even a second! If we are giving life our all, then we deserve contentment. I NEEDED THIS. Thank you! 💓

  • @BrittneySaylerAuthor
    @BrittneySaylerAuthor Рік тому +4

    I normally don’t comment on YT videos but felt like I had to comment on this one, because I feel like you’re mirroring a lot of what I’ve been going through this year.
    I was laid off early November and felt a lot of the same things you’re feeling. I kept telling my therapist the hardest part to process, after the complete shock, is that there was literally nothing I could have done to prevent this from happening.
    I just want you to know you are seen, you’re not alone & being vulnerable enough to share with your audience is a HUGE accomplishment in itself.
    Wishing you all the good coffee & healing your heart desires. Can’t wait to see what’s next for you!

  • @poppycalliope
    @poppycalliope Рік тому +3

    this video just appeared in my home page. I want you to know that it might feel hard right now but I know it will get better day by day. I'm sure you will achieve so many more in life and this is just the beginning. How amazing to have such a supportive environment both at home and here on your channel ❤❤

  • @ChloeAliceLily
    @ChloeAliceLily Рік тому +4

    Oh Ella, that sucks. I am so sorry to hear this! A very similar thing happened to me right at the end of 2019. I was covering maternity, had been for 6 months and then I was let go totally out of the blue. It was so awful and knocked me for six, especially as I didn’t see it coming at all and thought I was performing well. But, in reality, it was a blessing in disguise. Soon after I found another job in a similar field and had an absolute blast there - even during the pandemic. It gave me the leg up I needed, my colleagues there became my friends for life and earlier this year I applied for my dream job and got it. No doubt this will happen to you to! ❤ remember, everything you lose is a step you take. You can face this! 😊

  • @swirlymay
    @swirlymay Рік тому +2

    I’m so sorry to hear this, Ella. I too lost my job recently as part of a ‘company restructure’, and trust me, everything you are feeling is valid and okay. Be gentle with yourself, take the time that you can to process it, and heck yes! - 2023 for the win, for all of us! Much love xx

  • @lind1520
    @lind1520 Рік тому +2

    I’m still halfway through your vlog but I had to comment! Your husband is absolutely amazing and supportive, when he came in to reassure you and say how proud he is of you, it reminded me of my hubby. In times like this, our loved ones mean everything. You’re not arrogant at all, you have tremendous work ethic and that’s something to take pride in. You were completely blindsided with losing your job - the lighthearted conversation you had with your manager a week prior and then being told you would be let go is such a slap in the face … it’s clear you had already built a great foundation there at this job and got along really well with your colleagues. It definitely came unexpectedly and you should not feel any embarrassment, guilt or shame. You were good enough for this role and you ARE good enough for your next. Life has thrown us a few shitty curveballs this year, I feel you girl. 2022 has been a test to all of us. It’s not 100% the same but in August I found an awesome job and everything went really until October when the head manager berated me in front of the entire office and made me cry. Out of NO where. It was so out of the ordinary. And so unprofessional. I immediately went into a quiet room and burst into tears. I knew in my heart that I had to leave. That sometimes these things happen as a warning. So I left on the spot. And I’m so glad I did. Yeah, it left me without a job and income and put pressure on my husband (although he has never made me feel bad and supports me 1000%) however, I’m so incredibly glad I left. Safe to say a few things have come to light about the workplace since I left that has solidified my decision to leave. My point is lol - your worth is NOT defined by a job. This happened for a reason and you’ll be so glad it did. Not now, as it takes time, but within time comes in healing and more clarity. Then the next better chapter will come along and happen at the right time. In the meantime, enjoy this time to recharge, create amazing content and celebrate this Christmas time with your gorgeous friends and family. Sending you so much love. Cant wait to see more of your journey from here ✨✨❤️❤️

  • @crle1944
    @crle1944 Рік тому +3

    Honestly I keep my cv/resume up to date every few months cos I'm so scared of suddenly losing my job and having to scramble... My heart goes out to you!

  • @emmamichelle3782
    @emmamichelle3782 Рік тому +2

    I’m so sorry Ella, girl you had me teary when you cried.. just empath things. I hope things get better for you! Everything has a habit of working out. When one door closes another opens
    I’d love to see you do UA-cam full time, you’re amazing xx

  • @butterpecanrican_
    @butterpecanrican_ Рік тому +2

    This has happened to me too. I was completely blindsided. I had worked so hard at this place. Turns out it just was what it was. I eventually landed at a job where I could ultimately prove myself through my work. And I am as good as I thought I was.. better, actually. Your video was randomly recommended to me so the algorithm is blessing you. Take full advantage of it!

  • @chrisdrummond8893
    @chrisdrummond8893 Рік тому +1

    Kylie, exactly : ) I remember when I first heard the phrase" when you are down to nothing, God is up to something" , and I didnt appreciate the sentiment until years later when I was in a tragic situation.

  • @courtneybretterecker336
    @courtneybretterecker336 Рік тому +6

    I’m so sorry to hear Ella! You have had a rough 2022, I hope 2023 is much better for you. You have such an amazing husband who will support you and help you through this next stage of life. Please look after yourself and do things that fill your cup ❤

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому

      thank you Courtney 💛 I definitely got myself a good one x

  • @emilygrace880
    @emilygrace880 Рік тому +8

    Oh my gosh I’m heartbroken for you! Completely understand why you’d feel so blindsided by that situation, even if it’s like the ‘best’ case for a bad scenario. Ready to support you no matter what you do over the coming months girly ❤

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому +1

      you're the best! appreciate your support so much 💛

  • @lilacprincess
    @lilacprincess Рік тому +9

    Next year is a fresh start! At least mentally this is something you can 'leave' in 2022. I had something similar happen at my work and my colleague was given no explanation. The advice I gave her was that there will always be another opportunity waiting for you and this is such a small part of your life. You will do amazing things and we will always be here supporting you! 💜

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому +1

      such a good way of looking at it! Thank you so much for you support 💛

  • @suzannescorner199
    @suzannescorner199 Рік тому +2

    Girl, thank you for this video! I feel less alone.
    I passed my probation with flying colours and two weeks ago, my boss lets me know that although I am doing great, the company no longer has a need for my position.
    I am in the same situation. I feel like I've been dumped, I feel angry ("I've been doing amazing, how could they do this to me so close to Christmas?") and also scared ("Will I need to use all my resources to survive? When will I get a new job? Do I need to go freelance so I never need to rely on these cold bosses ever again?")
    You'll be fine but it is a blow to the ego!!
    Sending you love from the UK 💓

  • @sarahem9358
    @sarahem9358 Рік тому +1

    So sorry to hear Ella! Don’t take it personally, a lot of businesses are struggling at the moment and sometimes cutting staff is what they need to do, especially if they didn’t give you a reason. Don’t be hard on yourself, take this as an opportunity! Side note, Nick is so sweet 🥹😭❤

  • @simoneee4227
    @simoneee4227 Рік тому +10

    Don’t be embarrassed. If anyone asks you, including future employers just tell them you really didn’t get a reason why you were let go.Pretty weak effort on their behalf though
    May be it is a sign to do social media full time.
    You’re a great person so follow your heart xx

    • @EmsFitVenture
      @EmsFitVenture Рік тому

      Yes! Any future employer should be very understanding if you tell them you were covering a mat leave and they let you go at 6 month with no reason. I don’t know Australia but I’m willing to bet after that it would have been harder for the company to separate with you after that time?

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому

      thank you xx

  • @jpann26
    @jpann26 Рік тому +2

    "I still want to act with grace and respect, and I just don't think I can do that right now." Been there before! I lost my job last year. I was heartbroken. I understand how you feel!

  • @melissayoutube
    @melissayoutube Рік тому +10

    This is your sign to do social media full time. You’ve got this!! ❤ Also I think you hinted at Nick getting a pay rise at the end of this year, that is perfect timing for you to transition into something considered a little risky. I quit a job in 2020 and was so scared and my husband got a $50k pay rise later that same week. Then I quit another job in early 2022 due to a toxic environment and my husband got a $35k pay rise the next month. I took 6 months off and am now self employed doing remote work for an old boss of mine. The universe knows what it’s doing. I truly think you will succeed at social media, jump into it!

  • @kateanthony571
    @kateanthony571 Рік тому +3

    Omg I nearly got fired in probation at my current job and I literally had an identity crisis. Can totally sympathise with what you are feeling because I sat there thinking wtaf??? Am I the type of person to get fired??? I have always been a high achiever so it just completely threw me off. I am still with the company a year later and the new manager who tried to fire me loves me now. I think a lot of the time in life how someone else treats you actually has nothing to do with you, you’ll get through this & find something better.

  • @brionykate6928
    @brionykate6928 Рік тому +3

    I’m really sorry Ella. As you said, it’s a complete loss on their part. I truly hope a new opportunity comes your way.
    I’ve had a 2022 similar to you, just found out our land developer has delayed titling by 6 months meaning the price of our house will go up by over $60k. Now we have had to accept that we can no longer build our dream home and have to find a lawyer to help us understand whether we can get out of the contracts. So stressful

  • @megantaylor2374
    @megantaylor2374 Рік тому +1

    As many people have said when one door closes another will open the universe is telling you that your path is a different direction 😃 bonus to all this is hubby is so adorable and sweet xxx

  • @BlueJeanBaby2804
    @BlueJeanBaby2804 Рік тому +2

    So sorry to hear this!! Maybe this is the sign you need to do UA-cam full time 😊 make the most of having this time of year off and spend it with your loved ones 💜💜🤗🤗💕💕

  • @Emilykumar
    @Emilykumar Рік тому +1

    Ella, I can’t imagine what you are feeling 😢Where one door closes, another one opens. whatever’s next is going to be bigger and better! 💖

  • @jamiem7223
    @jamiem7223 Рік тому +2

    Thank you for being honest and telling your story with raw emotion on this platform. It couldnt have come at a more perfect time for me and it's incredibly validating to see that I'm not alone in the unemployment chapter of life. I echo all of your emotions about feeling like a failure but you are not and I will say you are a lovely natural communicator. Any company would be so lucky to have you!! Sending hugs

  • @thesimplethingsinlife422
    @thesimplethingsinlife422 Рік тому +1

    Sometime something that seems so big and bad in the moment turns out to look more like a blessing once a little time passes! Looking back at previous job loss or career changes or even big life changes that once seemed to be the end😢 turned out to be some of the best things that ever happened 😊 your journey is yours just keep moving forward look for things you enjoy and take time to heal yourself ❤ best of wishes for you in your journey 🎉

  • @carolcommagia6777
    @carolcommagia6777 Рік тому +1

    I can’t believe I found your channel again!!! 🥰🥰🥰 I used to watch your videos a LONG time ago, then I stoped watching youtube and now I’m slowly redescoverying my favorites youtubers! I’m so happy that your video was in my recommendations. Whatever path you choose to take, I wish you the happiest life and I am excited to follow along.

  • @curlyhairlove
    @curlyhairlove Рік тому +2

    So sorry this happened Ella! I had a similar experience recently, I’m a freelancer and one of my main clients gave me notice that they wanted to end our contract and I also felt pretty blindsided by it. Here’s to moving on to better things even if we weren’t quite ready to look for them yet 🙈💗

  • @theawreys
    @theawreys Рік тому +1

    Sending you love during your healing journey. The universe is definitely guiding you out of your comfort zone. Trust the plan and keep going girl. You are an inspiration
    Much love,
    Mel ♥

  • @erin7306
    @erin7306 Рік тому +1

    I'm so sorry this has happened to you. It is an awful feeling to be let go from your job. I was made redundant 2 months ago from my dream job. It was a confusing situation and I had to go through a grieving process, because I had lost something important to me. It does get better and it's great that you have a UA-cam channel to put your creative energy into. You've got this, you will be okay!

  • @experiencetherain
    @experiencetherain Рік тому +2

    Their loss honestly! They would have known you were an asset, the only thing I can think of is that they wanted to cut costs and it was easier not to renew a probation than end a post-probation contract! Or perhaps it was your social media. But either way, it definitely was not you as a person or your performance. I know I don’t know you, but your ethic and morals shine through your UA-cam videos! I’m sorry this happened to you :(
    But hey- i firmly believe this will open the door to a job you love even more, and you’ll be looking back thinking wow, I’m so glad that happened, because now I’m here!

  • @emilysutton5777
    @emilysutton5777 Рік тому +1

    I know you’re struggling to find a reason but from the outside the reason seems so clear - that the universe knows you’re meant for bigger and better things and you are capable of so much more than that job could offer you! 💜

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому

      this is such a sweet way of putting it 🥹 thank you 🥰💛

  • @Lulu-oi9ue
    @Lulu-oi9ue Рік тому +1

    I am soo grateful for my life and I know that life will throw challenges my way and I know it’s all temporary and things will work out for the best. I plan to do something that makes me feel uncomfortable in regards to my career but I’m going for it. Sometimes I think of I lost my job it would be like ripping a Band-Aid off and forcing me to do what I want with my life.

  • @emlad
    @emlad Рік тому +2

    Hiii!! New sub from Canada here 🥰 just wanted to say I think this video was a sign from the universe for me because I resonate immensely with your story right now, and I really needed the reminder that I’m not alone..we’re not alone. ❤ thank you for sharing your life so candidly - it’s such a brave thing to do, and it has really helped me this morning!! 🥹🫶🏻

  • @kate390
    @kate390 Рік тому +4

    This is 100% your time to go full time with UA-cam!!! You’ll kill it ❤

  • @islakenny2650
    @islakenny2650 Рік тому +2

    Ella you are not letting us down at all, we are so proud of you! You are so loved 💞💞

  • @kamesharamnarine
    @kamesharamnarine Рік тому +1

    Your video just popped up in my recommended. While I have not yet watched it, I felt drawn to write this comment first. First, I am sending you so much love through this difficult time. I was let go from an internship this October due to funding issues, so I truly empathize with your pain. It was a tough time and it became difficult to not let it weigh me down.
    Please know that it gets so much better and in ways you can't ever imagine! I was stuck in a position I hated and it felt like my life had gotten out of control because of this. While my time at the internship was short-lived, it opened the door to my current job, which has been a dream role of mine for years and is pushing me towards my career and creative passions!
    So, let yourself have time to completely process it and keep your head up - you've got this ♥

  • @emtbrollins
    @emtbrollins Рік тому

    I lost my job a little over a year ago. I did however kind of know it was coming. Regardless, I understand that feeling of failure, embarrassment, and not wanting to burden or worry others. The best part is you have people that WANT you to burden them with your woes and problems. WE come seeking to catch up on your life at least weekly! That doesn't even include your closest friends and family as well. Best thing to do right now is realize for whatever reason, that job just wasn't 'your' job, appreciate the experiences that came with it, and use it all to continue your journey to success & wholeness. Life is a lot of trial and error, tripping and falling, & new beginnings. You seem like a genuinely sweet person, don't ever let external circumstances cause you to become jaded or to question your abilities and worth. You're beautiful! You're wonderful! And you will be just fine!

  • @teddybear283
    @teddybear283 Рік тому

    Don’t worry this happens all the time and you will overcome it. You will look back and be thankful one day because it led you to a better position

  • @DevonBlank
    @DevonBlank Рік тому +1

    I’m so sorry to hear this Ella. I know this won’t keep you down for too long and you’ll move forward to what’s right for you.

  • @jackie.mendoza
    @jackie.mendoza Рік тому +2

    Dudeeee, I was let go a few months ago and it was one of the hardest things emotionally that I had to go through. I still get a reoccurring dream that I am being let go and it's so silly. I feel you friend!!

  • @haylou6707
    @haylou6707 Рік тому +1

    Really feeling for you during this time Ella. Sometimes something good has to end so something better can come along. The universe has your back 🫶🏽

  • @annac9534
    @annac9534 Рік тому +1

    I have never seen a video from you before, your channel has never presented itself in my algorithm; however, seeing you cry has broken my heart.
    Your positivity despite your setbacks is admirable, but I hope you’re giving yourself grace and the time you need to process. I know for many people, a job loss can feel like a death has occurred.
    I understand your sentiments with 2022 being shit while also having some great moments. I’ll be keeping you in my thoughts.
    I’ve subscribed to your channel and I’m looking forward to future content.

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому

      thank you for your sweet comment 🥺 appreciate your support so much x

  • @tinag1461
    @tinag1461 Рік тому +104

    Sounds like a toxic workplace if they have entertained the thought of you staying and suddenly dropped a bombshell on you.

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому +3

      trueeeee tbh

    • @yvettemadelaine
      @yvettemadelaine Рік тому +8

      Absolutely. So unprofessional of them. Someone avoided having a difficult conversation months ago, and wasn’t transparent with you. Don’t blame yourself- no good company would blindside an employee like that. You will find something better.

    • @amberstiffler7985
      @amberstiffler7985 Рік тому +2

      It does sound like a toxic workplace. I had the same thing happen to me at one of my previous jobs. It was just a normal day and out of the blue they called me in just to say I was fired. When I would ask why. They avoided the question and not explaining the bad parts that I had done wrong. Most days before it happened it seemed like I was picked on by the supervisors by them stopping by more than other employees. The same thing others would get away with I would get in trouble for when it was right at the clock out time.

  • @efua.penny_
    @efua.penny_ Рік тому +1

    I’ve been a silent watcher since your au pair days in Canada & all I can say is you’ve come A LONG WAY !! Although this time may be tough it could be the universe telling you to follow your heart and do UA-cam/social media full time 🙏🏾🙏🏾

  • @ladyindaroom
    @ladyindaroom Рік тому

    I remember losing my job three almost four years ago. My boss at the time did it in such a kind way. I still got paid, and he gave me a beautiful reference letter. I found another job about a month later, and am still working there.
    To God Be all the Glorayyyyyyy

  • @jessicaatkins4089
    @jessicaatkins4089 Рік тому +4

    Time to join the social media full time club😁. And definitely not disappointing us, some things are just out of our hands.

  • @donnalichtfuss7527
    @donnalichtfuss7527 Рік тому +1

    Wait a bit. Let yourself get through the process. Same happened to me after 17 years at my job. You could be telling my story. I ended up with a better job, more money, and I'm so much happier.

  • @MorganDunn
    @MorganDunn Рік тому

    I was promoted to a management position and then a week later (right when my probation was ending) I got let go. When they let me go they also praised me! It was so very strange. But... it turned out to be the biggest blessing. It urged me to take a leap into a new industry, totally new career and I am IN LOVE with it. It was brutal at the time, I had some incredibly low points, but wow... looking back, I am so very glad it happened. It can be a kick in the guts at the time though!

  • @BettinaRae
    @BettinaRae Рік тому +1

    Oh hun. How stressful. I’m sorry this is happening to you. Especially during a build which is so freaking stressful in itself. I hear you on feeling like you just want this all to be over. I was exactly there earlier in the year during our nightmare build. We are finally out the other side and I just want to remind you that you will get through this. Hold on. You’ll get there. 💜

  • @managing_the_motherload
    @managing_the_motherload Рік тому +1

    Your husband, super sweet. I don't know why this video popped up on my feed, but just virtual hug it's a journey for sure, and yes this year hasn't been below average for sure. Maybe my trauma hasn't healed from 2020's mess, but it makes me nervous to get excited and hopeful for a new year. 😬

  • @malibu30388
    @malibu30388 Рік тому +6

    I’m so sorry this happened to you Ella ! I had a similar situation happen to me years ago and whilst at the time I felt devastated .. I truly believe it happened for a reason and lead me to where I am at now ! Was a blessing in disguise ! Now you are one step closer to your dream job of full time content creator ❤ love you girl !!! You are not a failure !!!!

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому

      I'm so glad things worked out well for you! It gives me hope 😂 appreciate your support so so much!! 🤍🤍

  • @louloulouable
    @louloulouable Рік тому +4

    For what it's worth I think doing social media fulltime when you've said you weren't ready recently might not be a great idea
    So much pressure! But if you can do a part time job that might be the perfect in between:)

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому

      A good point! Definitely something to consider ☺️

  • @IWIllNomYou
    @IWIllNomYou Рік тому +1

    New to your channel, and I feel you took on the situation very well. Love your videos and aesthetics so far the fact you reached out to me means you are doing something right on UA-cam !❤️❤️

  • @BusesTrainsandbubbletea
    @BusesTrainsandbubbletea Рік тому +1

    Bring on 2023, take the time until next year to refresh and reset. You’ve got this girl. It sucks when something really good happens in an otherwise sucky year, I got engaged in 2020 lol. And still haven’t gotten married yet. Honestly no need to feel embarrassed honestly low key hope they see this and what this has done to you cause it happening out of the blue was not the right way to go about it.

  • @Demi_CheChe
    @Demi_CheChe Рік тому

    I'm in the exact same situation I have been left redundant from A job during my day of working at home and then was out of a job for ten days. Had to the move houses in a few weeks and the. Sort bills and stuff out , Christmas round the corner. Then I got another job, was only there for a week and kinda wasn't feeling it but was also asked to leave. So now I have no job again. Hooray. This year has ended horribly , also like you was the best and the worst year in the past 5 years or so. I resonated so much with this vlog! My first time coming here but I had seen this video on my recommendations and had to watch.
    Mental health and self esteem is at an all time low , a job shouldn't define who we are and how successful we are, as long as we can take care of ourselves, family and hobbies then awesome. But the way things have happened to you, I get it. It's embarrassing and saddening and just a massive kick to the future and career that you may be planning on. I now want a job that is decent pay but also something I would love to be a part of and do.
    I'm so happy to see what next year will bring and I have some cool things planned. I just want to be creative, get paid for being me and not some number in a corporate machine and enjoy life. Because now I just want the Xmas holidays to be over with and move onto something else!
    Good luck for the job hunt and new place xx

  • @wunderwriter1
    @wunderwriter1 Рік тому +1

    I’m so sorry to hear this, but sadly I’m not surprised. Here in the states, when someone is hired as a fill in, regardless of how well skilled they are or how well they fit in, there is a reluctance to convert them to permanent unless the person they’re replacing has stated definitively they won’t be coming back. Since unemployment insurance is paid by the employer, the sooner they are assured the permanent employee will be returning, the more likely they are to lay off the fill in person in order to minimize their expenses (since a lay off is a valid reason for an unemployment insurance claim, even if the employee was never classified as permanent). I don’t know how things work there, but as a retired HR Manager, please be assured their decision had very little, if anything, to do with you or your performance, and was much more likely a purely financial decision based upon the reality that whomever you replaced has probably determined they cannot afford to stay home and will be returning in the new year. If you loved the job, another position in the same field may be a good fit. Don’t consider this an indictment of your abilities; business decisions are almost always made with no nod to personalities, but only to the bottom line. If you received accolades for your performance all along, feel confident knowing it came down to dollars and cents. The sound you heard is one door closing so a much more suitable one can open for you. You’ve got this.

  • @sunflowers4110
    @sunflowers4110 Рік тому +1

    Hello Ella, I'm really sorry this happened to you! I'm the same age as you, 25, and I have been having a pretty bad 2022 as well. It is their loss to lose someone like you at the workplace. I just want to say that I believe everything happens for a reason. This will soon be just another memory for this year. I hope everything will work out for you in the future

  • @30bella7
    @30bella7 Рік тому +1

    Ella you are awesome and you spoke about this with grace! I work in construction and it is a very bad time for the industry - I don’t know any details but like you said maybe there is more going on that anything to do with you personally.
    You’ll come through this so easily, enjoy the holiday season before you get back in ❤️ sending lots of love!

  • @collectingriches7995
    @collectingriches7995 Рік тому

    That’s why I always say always have a back up plan and never be tooooo positive because work places can drop you anytime, and show you aren’t important. Never give 100 percent.

  • @jamierenae3833
    @jamierenae3833 Рік тому

    I was at a job for 14 years, loved it & had no plans on leaving…until my position was cut to part time & I was forced to leave. I was devastated but it honestly was one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I found a knew job that was perfect and put such a positive spin on my life & created growth & change in me that I didn’t even know I needed. It’s normal to feel upset but just know that this could just be an opportunity that puts you in an even better direction.

  • @emsta0236
    @emsta0236 Рік тому +1

    Thank you for always being so transparent! I say this is life shoving you into a new direction in a very abrupt way!

  • @cillamatijosavich4945
    @cillamatijosavich4945 Рік тому +1

    Hoping all turns out well for you, maybe yr being pushed to be around more kinder compassionate ppl. You deserve better. Best of luck sweetheart. Go celebrate.. 🙏🏽🙌🏽🌸💖

  • @Ana-zf7im
    @Ana-zf7im Рік тому +1

    Awww Ella you are not a failure and you aren’t letting anyone down ❤ You are amazing and so inspiring!!

  • @kellybarbe1523
    @kellybarbe1523 Рік тому

    2022 has been a rough year for me also-was supposed to be getting married-was too sick-cancelled it and our honeymoon cruise-company I worked for sold the facility I work at new company decided they would not be needing my services and I have to have surgery next week that has me so anxious I can't sleep! Here's to 2023 being a better year for everyone!

  • @sheriberrix
    @sheriberrix Рік тому +2

    So sorry to hear, Ella... but I also fully believe this is an opportunity to go onto bigger and better things. And you will be able to look back on this in hindsight and see how it all worked for a reason. Lack of clarity and communication really sucked, but really see it as It's them, and not you! I'm excited to see what next year brings you. And who knows, maybe it's finally time to chase full time UA-cam ! Regardless, we are here for you the whole way.

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому

      thank you so much Sheri! definitely not how envisaged things ending but hopefully a blessing in disguise x

  • @bernifolmli4511
    @bernifolmli4511 Рік тому +1

    Girl I’m so sorry! Last year was like your year for me, I got married and pregnant but had the worst year professionally- like I wanted to quit my job daily, would cry all the time and it just felt so sad that the best year of my life also was simultaneously one of the worst! Sending you so much love ❤

  • @andreadejarnette6733
    @andreadejarnette6733 Рік тому

    Oh honey....God is always waiting to give you better!! When we are hurting like you are hurting now it's the best opportunity for you to grow and move into something new! After you do get another job you're going to thank God and the universe for losing the other job. But my advice to you young lady is to pick something you really really want to do and move in that direction. I wish I would have done that every time I lost a job. Good luck to you and God-bless and Merry Merry Christmas! You got this girl….🥰

  • @victoriamyatt1709
    @victoriamyatt1709 Рік тому

    It's great that you're being so positive about the situation even when it's so fresh still. One day you will look back on this and be glad that it changed your path. When one door closes, another opens. Sometimes life throws you a few curb balls, often one after the other. Its not embarrassing at all, you lasted the whole six month probation period, it's not like they sacked you. Its just that you're still in shock and it made you feel like you failed but you didn't, you have bigger and better ahead, it's how you recover from this that matters. It will make you more experienced and stronger to face lifes adversities as there will be many ahead, just focus on the positive. Bless you.

  • @cara2749
    @cara2749 Рік тому +1

    Ella thank you for sharing this video with us! As I was watching I was feeling all your frustration and sadness, I really empathise with you... I would be so frustrated by being blindsided like that, I honestly wouldn't know how to process all my feelings either! So glad you have great supports and we're all cheering you on! xx

  • @allybear7704
    @allybear7704 Рік тому

    This almost the exact same situation that happened to me. I was doing great, Great feedback. Then when logging in for my one on one, my boss said I no longer fit the role and then left the room for me to talk with HR. They refused to give me solid reason and that was it. The self doubt and the knock to my confidence was very difficult to process. A month later, I am still healing but taking advantage of this situation to find out what really inspires me to work each day and be selective about my next position while also pursueing side hustles. Thank you for this video, it helped me feel less alone and worthy again!

  • @Kate-it1py
    @Kate-it1py Рік тому +1

    This has also been the worst year of my life. I also go married, which has been the best day of my life so far. It’s incredible. Good luck.

  • @jennifershakira409
    @jennifershakira409 Рік тому

    Hi Ella, felt very sad watching your video. My heart goes out to you. I live in Western Australia. I lost job in the middle of the pandemic. I used to work in Newzealand for a Australian company, I had good performance review, the management praised me a lot, everything was perfect but when the pandemic started & lockdown happened, my manager called me and said that my employment ended, they didn't give me any good reason. I used to think exactly like you....
    I thought what did I do wrong etc etc.because I was the only one who lost the job during covid lockdown....I was so depressed.
    Please keep faith in God, everything happens for a reason....fast forward..6 months later, I got a better job opportunity in WA & I moved to Western Australia.
    All the best to you and remember there is light at the end of the tunnel, wishing you success in 2023 & God bless you 🙏🙏

  • @vintagegal5616
    @vintagegal5616 Рік тому +1

    Honey, if you knew how many times in my life I lost my job, got fired, and feeling devastated, I could write a book. And so will you.😊 Get back up and dust off your shoes, and start again. That’s how we all do it. And we are here to listen.❤️

  • @esseaem1451
    @esseaem1451 Рік тому

    I know this feels so difficult and probably like the end of the world, especially if this has never happened to you. You’ve got this though, and this is the perfect time to jump into something you’re passionate about. You also don’t have to be gracious right now, you’re allowed to be angry. All of your feelings are valid. Sending you love and peace! I stumbled across you thanks to the algorithm and I’m grateful I did!

  • @yrbzl
    @yrbzl Рік тому +6

    OMG i can’t believe this.. given that it has nothing to do with your performance it’s probably a budget/money based decision but it’s so terrible that they’ve done that to you. take it as a sign that something much better is out there for you and your potential was being undervalued. social media full time??? hehe

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  Рік тому

      Thank you!! that means so much 🥺🤍

  • @meganbaker4580
    @meganbaker4580 Рік тому +1

    I am so sorry to hear this Ella. I can only imagine how heart breaking it would feel. I was let go from a position a few years ago without proper reason whilst on probation and it absolutely shattered me at the time. Thankyou for being vaulnerable with us - I know you and Nick will come to the best decision for your future, don’t feel pressure to meet any external expectations, all that matters is you, nick and what you both want for your future. You are a beautiful team. I hope that the hardships are over and that you can have some peace shortly ❤

  • @alishad6372
    @alishad6372 Рік тому +1

    Keep your head up Ella ! It happens to the best of us and I hope the 2023 brings you much joy and even better opportunities! We love and support you so much and I always enjoy watching your Vlogs thank you for always keeping it real ❤