Vent | stupid

I’m not making vent shit anymore but here we go again lmao
Yes if some of you fucker still stalking me and hunting me down and try to deplatform me
No
And shut up
Yes i am cst05, yes i am kateana01, YES I AM THOSE 2
Why i moved? CUZ I DON’T WANNA GET REMINDED OF MY PAST SELF
Yk i am so fucking immature and stupid idiotic back then
I am wrong, but no need to fucking take in your heart?
Like
Stop stalking me.
It’s been a year
I try to recover
I just wanna make content again.
At least for myself
I literally don’t take my work seriously anymore, i keep a lot of things unfinished because of drama everyday
I lost a lot of my skill because of the drama
It haunts me
I can’t focus
Do you still want to fucking stalk me even when i wish you all to move on?
I just wish you understand
I’m sorry for calling you r slur
And forcing you to work for my mod all cuz all the dev i invite are problematic people
I can’t do it
I won’t force anyone again
I won’t draw shitty stuff again
thats why i delete all my old stuff
I don’t wanna get reminded the time where i got groomed by someone who is 1 year younger than me, i was almost become probelmatic
And the amount of people accusing i’m a p3d0 is stupid
I never gr90med a child, not even once
I never liked nsfw at the first place, nor the fetish
It just
My dumb fuck immature brain thinks its ok, plus that gr00mer convince me to like it cuz no one gonna find out?
And they say “age is just a number”
I’m 19 now, i hate all nsfw shit, i may still look up those, but i don’t draw it anymore, i hate my past self for drawing ton of nsfw/fetish content, i am not going back there again
I only keep coming back because i need friends.
And a community who cared me.
I just need comfort, not hurt.
If you still stalk me and slander me
When you feel a remorse?
At least
Realize what you just did all of your time?
Do you realize i changed?
But if i don’t
Then why i tried to.
I am still recovering
Just here a thing
Yes we make mistake
Yes we draw shitty stuff
Yes we done very fucked up things
But at the end of the day
We’re just human after all.
We can recover
Even if its impossible for you.
One step at a time.
Unless my groomer he deserve jail and death sentence irl sorry i don’t forgive p2dos
And its for good reason.
We all can recover.
Even if it’s too late.
As long you’re NOT BECOMING P3DOPHILE STUPID FUCK
I hate myself.