10 Years Sober I My Road to Recovery I Jesus
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- Опубліковано 31 жов 2019
- 10 Years Sober!!
This is my story.
I can’t believe I made it to year 10!
Praise God. Cause, I didn’t know how I was even gonna make it through the last two weeks.
I’m so grateful God brought me this far, and I hope and pray that God keeps guiding and protecting me on this life of sobriety.
Thank you so much for watching~
(2015 refers to the school year 2015-2016, the events that lead to the hardship was Spring 2016)
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I did this alone, but you don’t have to.
Find a good support group near you at your local church or through AA.
aa.org
You are not in this alone.
Tell me your story in the comments below.
There are people all over the world that want to help you, check it out, and sobriety is a great way to take back control of your life so you can live it to the fullest~*
We can do this sober life full peeps~!
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Congratulations, praise Jesus.
Thank you so much! Praise Jesus indeed~!*
Congratulations on 10 years of sobriety! This was so inspirational !
Thank you so much!!
Amen
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I don’t know you in person, but have been following you on Instagram and here on you tube for a while now, but I am so freaking proud of you for being sober for 10 years. I have admired your work ethic, caring manner with your students, and your brilliance as a violinist. Your sharing of your struggle and sobriety publicly makes me have even more respect for you. I have a friend who is now 14 years sober and others. So I know how difficult it can be to get and stay sober. Congratulations!👏👏💐
awww thank you so much for your support and for being part of my online music fam~!* 14 years that's amazing~!
I literally went back and forth about putting this up all day. It literally went up like 10 mins before midnight~!
I'm blown away by the support on here and Instagram. Thank you smuch~!*
I hope my testimony helps someone else down the line~!*
This is heartbreaking, you've gone through so much especially with your injury too, I can't believe that your teaching was brought into question by the very people you poured yourself into as well... (Also I think I remember the college vlog about drama with another classmate if that's what was related to this too) I can't relate to the alcoholism since I'm very straight-edge (my logic is I'm too fragile to dabble and will fall apart if I even try + I'm not very well off so I need to save money too) but I do have a lot of empathy for problems of addiction since my family and my OCD tendencies in everyday life..
Kind of ironic though, some of the people I want to cut away from my life are actually both of my teachers so it's a bit complicated (I'm also on a media purge as well)... I still keep in contact but I'm reminded of a lot of trauma whenever talking to them and don't feel free/also dreading having to see them sometimes for performances. I won't go into it but whenever I'm in call/or conversing with them, at the back of my mind it's like "Have you forgetten all those years ago?"
awww thank you so much! I feel a lot of healing waves from reading your comment!
I'm so happy that my testimony gave you a little boost to your "BRING IT" inner warrior in life, the one that helped you get through your suicidal moments, but I'm so sorry for what you've been through.
I'm sorry that you felt like you had no support from teachers or friends cause your friends wouldn't understand. I had that happen once with a teacher, and no one believed me for months, so I just shut my face and smiled my way through the semester and finally he started attacking them as well, and finally literally one semester later, multiple people were coming to me like "oh my gosh Grace, what do I do? like...what are we going to do?" and literally like 1/3 of the studio just didn't come back and another 3rd was like...I'm just here for the visa. So I get you. It's hard, trusting somebody like a mentor only for it to become a toxic relationship, yet seeking validation. Most people in music have been through that so I hope that gives you some comfort that there is a community of battered hearts. Sad,...but yes there's a community that can understand this.
I literally had to stop caring. (partially cause of other things I was ....I can't talk about it since I'm still in it and don't want to deal with the threats and like ramifications of talking about what's happened) BUT what I can tell you, for me, validation from that teacher just doesn't matter. After multiple verbal beatings and public humiliation, one of my friends, who was also dealing with her professor being like that with her, pointed out that 1) our performance is ours, it's our voice so we should play how we want, with the education we received, with our hearts and souls 2) they are not good human beings so their opinion should have no weight on the lives of people who are trying to better themselves. Cause some teachers are just haters. People who hate where they are in life and think that putting down a student is a way for them to pathetically deluded themselves into feeling like they have some power, significance. Like they even matter. So I would give you the same advice that my friend gave me, force yourself to not care about their opinion until your opinion matter more than theirs. It'll take time. They took years to break you, it'll take years to build yourself up.
It helps to have support from friends who will try to understand or have been through the experience themselves. However, the point of bonding has to be to move past/come to peace/learn from, the pain rather than to marinate in it until the hate consumes you. Cause this is not hurting their lives, but it is hurting yours, so for me...I just said.. I will NEVER be him. I will NEVER teach like him. When I get a university position, I will be there for my students, I will NOT do to them, what he has done to me and my friends. So I would just be like..." that teacher...is my checklist for what I DO NOT want to be in my life." that also returns some power back into your life. I think that's where healing can start. Hope this gives you some comfort. I think you are very strong to fight with those devasting thoughts about life and ending it all. Do you have support now? there are hotlines, and great churches have small groups that love to be there and support others. Like that's their gift, calling in life, to love and encourage people. I hope you find your group in your living area and you'll also have a group here too!
( Oh the paper behind the blessed sign is not the AA prayer. it's actually scripture. "Commit to the LORD whatever you do, And he will make your paths succeed" It's Proverbs 16:3. It's my daily reminder to get my head out of my butt, remember where I got these gifts and for what reason I was given them, and also to remind myself that I'm protected that if I give my heart completely to the LORD and steward these gifts correctly, no matter who tries to hurt me, threaten me, derail my career, that God will make a way for me that no man can stop. And I want my kids to know that they are always protected and they should give everything they do 100% of their hearts toward God and "Do You" cause that's the only way you're not to regret life, so I have that on the mantel as a reminder.