I listen to this song everyday I battled with addiction my entire life. Today I am 300 days sober and working hard at a treatment center to help other women in Recovery stay sober. It's an amazing song by an amazing artist!!
"My cigarette burnt my finger cause I forgot I lit it" and "and then I crawled back to the life that I said I wouldn't live in" give me goosebumps EVERY TIME
I crawled back to the life I said I wouldn't live in." This line hits hard whether it's about going back to a broken relationship or returning to being an addict. It's like a haunting echo of promises made and broken.
I see a lot of people on this thread dealing with some type of substance abuse. Like the scene in the video with the Bible says “it always seems impossible until it’s done” just remember tough times don’t last tough people do.. stay strong everybody
I have been living in a shell of my former life, begging for on my hands and knees everyday asking Jesus for forgiveness everyday dealing with my demons and burying them every step of the way I realize now I’m not my past self and haven’t been for almost five years now , I’m alcohol free for five months now; it’s hard cuz I feel it calling for me everyday but I know it’s not me anymore.
Hope you are still walking the straight and narrow. Listen, from personal experiences you are doing it right. Put your ALL in the Lord. Philippians 4:6 Be anxious for Nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication with Thanksgiving.Let your request be made known until God
I like how realistic this actually is. A lot of people see drugs in a black and white kind of way. It’s either good or bad. The experience itself isn’t really that way. The thoughts, the emotions, “I couldn’t open up, I’m always shiftin” “and then I crawl back to the life that I said I wouldn’t live in” the visions of someone he once loved becoming warped and disfigured staring back at him through the glass. Perfect song describing how things change, how we change, how drugs can make us change.
well indeed... my love just dumped me, and i just cannot get enough of this song.. and the burnt that i've caused myself for staying longer than i should
I crawled back to the life I said I wouldn't live in." This line hits hard whether it's about going back to a broken relationship or returning to being an addict. It's like a haunting echo of promises made and broken.
This song is perfect in many ways. I’m 4 years alcohol free and I’ve had a life of suffering anxiety and depression. We’re not alone in our pain. We’ve been damaged, but we’re not irreparable. There’s healing in music.
Yeah i think that's why this song grabs the center of my feelings and tells that prison between my ears doesn't seem so dark or lonely for a few mintues. To get that feeling../ high frim something other then substances is magic in itself God bless
@@parkerrhodes81 ive never gotten to try the 🍄🟫 i want to More than anything not for the high for the experience and the spiritual mental and emotional reset and cleansing thst after 7 years in prison i really fucken need. It will come
Same I fell in love with the rhythm I couldn’t hear the lyrics on the radio 😂😂 luckily I heard “ my cigarette burnt my finger cause I forgot I lit it “
I lost my brother/best friend to his addiction this year around my birthday. I asked him to send me a song. This is the one that played. I had never heard of Matt Maeson before. His words are like my buddy is singing to me.
This is the song my girlfriend and I bonded over the first time we met. I thought I was all cool showing it to her till she started singing every word, she already knew it. Months later and we went to see you live, and have kept on listening ever since. Thanks for your music Matt!
lyrics: [Chorus] Pushing past the limit Trippin' on hallucinogenics My cigarette burnt my finger 'Cause I forgot I lit it [Verse 1] Ripping with my sinners Because fuck it man, I ain't no beginner And then I crawled back to the life that I said I wouldn't live in [Pre-Chorus] 'Cause I couldn't open up I'm always shiftin Go find yourself a man who's strong and tall and Christian [Chorus] Pushing past the limit Trippin' on hallucinogenics My cigarette burnt my finger 'Cause I forgot I lit it [Verse 2] Drunken in Seattle To both ends without a paddle I don't remember your face or your hair or your name or your smile [Pre-Chorus] 'Cause I just couldn't open up I'm always shifting Go find yourself a man who's strong and tall and Christian [Chorus] Pushing past the limit Trippin' on hallucinogenics And then I crawled back to the life that I said I wouldn't live in [Bridge] 'Cause I carried on like the wayward son Now through and through I have come undone And now I am just but the wayward man What with my bloodshot eyes and my shaky hands 'Cause I carried on like the wayward son And now through and through I have come undone And now I am just but the wayward man What with my bloodshot eyes and my shaky hands [Chorus] Pushing past the limit Trippin' on hallucinogenics My cigarette burnt my finger Cause I forgot I lit it
Bro, can I say how deeply this song has touched my soul? I feel every sing word. I cry with the memories it brings to me. It's bittersweet but thank you.
Nothing gives me chills like this bridge. That second wayward son makes something like literally loosen in my chest. I remember you played it first at your Chicago show with betcha and it just immediately made me cry. Do you ever find yourself getting emotional on stage? Your songs feel like such catharsis- I can’t imagine having to perform them night after night. Is it draining or healing in a way?
I Just Heard This Song At 4AM On My Way To Work. Made Me Laugh & Cry In The Same Moment. For Those Of Us Who Have Been There...We're Alright. For Those Of Us Who Are Still There...We're Alright. Push Past The Limits Folks.
lmao. I was just telling a friend this. A different friend of mine introduced the song to me a week back and I've been listening obsessively to it since
this is one of my favorite songs by you, especially the video. They way you showed how drugs can effect you so many unstable and confusing ways really hits home for me. Absolutely love it.
Bro I find this funny cuz he said haullgentics which have been proven that those types of drugs hurt the least amount of people, there not addcitve and most people take shrooms acid or dmt come out wit a better attitude on life. Don't judge them like its meth smh 🤦🏻♂
I'm here cause I've been there and further. Seen and lost irreplaceable things in life. The pain in this song is real. Time waits for no one, chose love always I beg you. You'll have a better conscience I promise. I speak these words from my very heart. Love others and follow Jesus please! I've done and seen things that haunt my soul.
"Cuz I carried on like the wayward son and now through and through I have come undone, and now I am just but the wayward man, what with my bloodshot eyes and my shaky hands" I felt that deep
Lol right? Can't put a number on how many afternoons I woke up with burns around my first knuckles, but too many 😂. Shit hurts to think about, but it helps a lot knowing it's common, you know?
after my brother passed i fell into a dark hole of drugs and booze. i almost lost my marriage and my kids. it was super hard and 2 years later i still struggle but this song hits home and helps me get thru and helps me realize im not all alone in this world. thank you
You are definitely NOT alone. You don't know us. Can't see us. But I've been through some shit too and I'd be there for you or anyone who needed a helping hand. When you've walked the Steps, you know.
I think it's a metaphor at the end...the door opens and he seems to "wake up" and walks out of the door (the dark place). We all have that moment...alone ...sad..scared...the way ward son....and then someone/something opens the door. And we snap back to reality from our thoughts and anguish. It's hard. It's a dark place. But wait for the door to open.
Same thing .. threw it all away ... but I’m still here and it isn’t the way I want it ... but I’m still here and can’t do anything about , but move on rebuild ... this song bring a me back to middle of the darkness ... hope you’re on better days again ..
I cannot stop watching & listening to this. I lost my brother to addiction just a few months ago. This song & video really help paint the picture of what addiction does to someone. I get chills every time. Thank you for this beautiful work of art.
I remember when I was in a Treatment center last August there was a guy who would play this song every single morning of the 45 days I was there lol. I'm about 6 months sober now.
I’m here because of my mother, oddly enough. She died in 2022. Cancer. She was amazing, and I wish everyone could have met her, but…like it or not…she was an addict. The day after she died, my stepson introduced me to this song. Not every single line describes my mama, but a lot of them do. It’s become a “mama” song for me.
The depths of my addiction took me to the prison system, I first heard this song alone in my cell struggling to process my very being and it felt like a message from God ❤ thank you.
A friend of mine showed me this song prior to her passing, now everytime I hear it i get a reminder to keep pushing thru. Thank you for your music and every memory it contributes. And anyone reading this better days are ahead keep pushing !
This song is so deep. The first time I heard this song is was shocked because it’s so deep and the first time I heard ‘carried on like a wayward son’ I immediately thought about supernatural and now the show is over so it hits me harder
My brother took his life in January while tripping on mushrooms… this song is beautiful. If only his door would have opened sooner and showed him the light..
He's tripping balls on Acid, lol and Psychedelics are mind opening substances, like LSD, Psylocibin Mushrooms, Peyote, Ayahuasca Marijuana , Meo-5Dmt, DMT, are mind opening natural Spritual Plants an are produced in plants an animals and humans referring to dmt they often help people get off Addictions
@@christianmichael9367 Fuck. No. Fucking hell dude. Water hemlock is an all natural substance. So is arsenic and wolfsbane. "Tripping balls" is your brain shorting out.
“I just couldn’t remember your name your hair or your smile”. Whoa man.... that that hit real deep.. that’s literally how my last break up is going... his music is so damn deep.
I've never found a song that better describes the darker side of hallucinogenics and what abusing it can do to you. A lot of it is very subtle and symbolic. The old him is dead. He doesn't remember the past well or people. Telling her (or someone) to go find a better man who's christian really shows the loss of ego and confidence that comes with abuse.
Matt, want to thank and hug you! Suffering and struggles are deep scars and you bring them to light with your beautiful words & voice. We're NOT alone in our heartbreak ... you are REAL and understand. We are damaged but unbroken. There's hope to reach the other side of addiction and mental anguish, tell me about it. Don't give up. Peace to you all.
I used to listen to this song daily, many years ago. Back then, I was lost like this depiction, tossed in existential dread and godless moral decay. Jesus came and scooped me up from a pile of ashes and tears. Now, I’m the tall, strong Christian merely alluded to in his lyrics. If God saved me, He can save anyone.
I lost my ex to addiction. This makes me think of him so much. My heart goes out to anyone battling addiction, or anyone who has lost a loved one to it.. it just breaks my heart. RIP good people. You will be missed
When I was 8 my mom got me addicted to drugs had to fight for 5 years and this song brought tears to my eyes, so my bit of advice is No matter how impossible it seems You And only YOU can do it you have the strength to overcome it I believe in you ❤
After losing my best friend, my true love and soon to be mother of my child partner , 15 years later I thought I had healed. But after stumbling across this song it feels like I just lost her yesterday.
God, this is wonderful. Matt, i discovered you while randomly youtube diving a couple months back.... and I'm soooo glad i did! You sing with such emotion. Your music tells stories.... and it is fucking beautiful. I can't wait to watch your journey unfold, and to go on all the adventures your music takes me through.
I sit here in tears thinking about my brother who battled addiction to pills which ultimately lead to him hanging himself in 2012. I miss him so much and the scary thing is I just discovered Matt Maeson and he looks so much like my brother it's unreal.
Dude, you stand out. Your lyrics are great and the melodies as well. Ive being listening to lost of new songs, but coincidentally the ones I bothered searching about were yours and I didnt realize. You got talent. Keep at it
This song hits home... thank you.. I love the Bible part...It always seems impossible until it is done...So true.. you don’t get clean until you find God.. take it from me
Done 25 hits and lost my mind for maybe ever but at least 4 days! Fun and scary life-changing time with a friend who push past the limits, God rest his soul!
Look up this song for an hour you can find an hour of this song so you don't have to keep replying the son, btw if you see this I just want to say your welcome if you look it up 😁😀☺
Hey if you look up this song for an hour you can find it there so you don't have to keep replaying the song, btw if you see this just want to say your welcome! 😁😀☺
I AM WANDERING WHY YOU RE NOT IN THE TRENDING YET ? Gosh,Matt you're amazing,I'm happy that I've discovered you.You inspire me,you always give me good vibes,you are the best.KEEP IT UP!
I was in the talking phase with a girl, we were planning on going on a date after I got my liscence. I was a few weeks away from getting it. Her dad is pretty die hard Chrisitian and wouldent like me so we were gonna go out behind his back. After a while she seemed to get more distant, and I was okay if she didint feel the same anymore, so one night we decided to talk, and we both came forward saying how we felt things felt off and that maybe it wasant the best that we went out, because I wasant religious and I was a couple hours away. But we still wanted to be freinds cause we got along really well. Two weeks later she was texting me and the group chat we were in that she was dating this guy who was six foot, ripped, and "Christian". She was making out in the backseat of his car with him, behind her dads back. He was also the guy she told me not worry about, and asked me if it was okay if she talked to him while we were talking. So hearing that lyric really did rip through lol I really do miss the facetimes until four am with her talking about all the things we wanted to do for date ideas together
This song reminds me when i was just a lonely rolling stone. Having friends in different towns, living day by day. Week long camping trips to who knows where. Festivals, new faces and parties swelling around me. I dont regret a thing, but compared to that, everything i do just never seems as fun as being that free. Be free and happy
Every time I hear this it gives me chills for the loved ones in my life, it hits home hard! I wish I could get people that don’t understand addiction to listen to artist like Matt Maeson that put it out there for that reason. I’m a New Fan for Life, He’s Amazing!!
This is Daphne from the comment before you I'm not sure I'd wanna reexperience it again but this makes me crave that time and reaction again cuz its perfectly accurate to what happened
This song still hits hard. No matter when it is where I am. This song will still be with me. It is the understanding for me. "It's the'not being the only one for me.'"
The lyric in the chorus “ my cigarette burns my finger cause I forgot that I lit it” was a reality for me well kind of, I overdosed when I was 13 and was repeatedly hallucinating that I was burning myself with a cigarette that I forgot about but it wasn’t even there. I kept thinking I was on fire and eventually my mother found me took me to the hospital and they pumped my stomach and I had a security guard at the end of my bed because I kept ripping off the ECG wires and trying to get to the rack of doctor pants I wanted so much over and over and over again. This song is epic and I love it. It reminds me of a time when I was beginning to escape from the real in any way possible , a life I continually try to not go back to. Wishing for Much love an success for you💕
Definitely, I hear ya. The first time I heard those lyrics, it made me instantly think of my younger years of insane drug usage & the many times I burnt myself, from being so fucked up & completely oblivious to the cigarette burning down to nothing bw my fingers. The lyrics made me strongly relate, but at the same time, they made me shudder, reliving those awful years but ultimately thankful I made it out alive & I'm still kicking.
Allison MacRae I’m glad your alive and kicking still too friend 💕 keep fighting the good fight for what we know is a better life even though it’s so tempting to just escape... just one more time. This music is very healing and a good reminder to stay good ..your right about that🙏🤗
Everyone has a different part of the song that hits them. I've never done hallucinogens, so for me the line was "Go find yourself a man who's strong and tall and Christian."
"I dont remember your face, or your hair or your name or your smile..." "Cuz I just couldnt open up I'm always shiftin" I cant count how many people I've pushed away because I'm not enough for myself, let alone anyone else.
@@lavans5721 same man. Ive pushed people away because i felt like i told them too much. I never wanted to put my problems on someone else. I guess just pushing them away felt better than explaining my own mind
This song reminds me of after I broke up with my girlfriend of 5 years. I wasn't into drugs but I was under alot of emotional stress from the military and after i found out she had cheated on me. I started smoking for the first time and I remember feeling like I was developing schizophrenia seeing crazy things that weren't there. With the help of some really good friends and the Gods help I was able to see the light at the tunnel. There is always hope
Trust Me brother it gets better, usmc over here I know what you been through. Just give it time it gets better Even if it doesn’t seem like it does it will There’s a reason why things happen. Just enjoy life man Cheers bro.
'Ripping with my sinners, cause fuck it man I ain't no beginner' You put it into words for all of us. There isn't enough real people in this world. Thankyou Matt.
I have been waiting for new music from Matt for what seems like forever and now that its here, I am NOT disappointed! I love this song and the music video, especially the scene with the eye dropper and the gun, holy shit. He's such an underrated artist.
I'm so glad I got out of this lifestyle. May have been too late to save relationships I had with most people but not myself and that's all that matters.. just heard this song for the first time last night and I've played it so many times already lol. I'll be covering it one day soon and it'll forever be a song I play during live performances in the future . Getting sober made that future possible 🖤🥀
Pushing past the limit Tripping on hallucinogenics My cigarette burnt my finger Cause I forgot I lit it Ripping with my sinners Cause fuck it, man, I ain't no beginner And then I crawled back to the life That I said I wouldn't living Cause I just couldn't open up I'm always shifting Go find yourself a man Who's strong and tall and christian Pushing past the limit Tripping on hallucinogenics My cigarette burnt my finger Cause I forgot I lit it Drunken in Seattle Two more Xans and without a paddle I don't remember your face Or your hair, or your name, or your smile Cause I just couldn't open up I'm always shifting Go find yourself a man Who's strong and tall and Christian Pushing past the limit Tripping on hallucinogenics And then I crawled back to the life That I said I wouldn't living Cause I carried on like the wayward son And now through and through, I've come undone And now I am just but the wayward man What with my bloodshot eyes and my shaky hand Cause I carried on like the wayward son And now through and through, I've come undone And now I am just but the wayward man What with my bloodshot eyes and my shaky hand Pushing past the limit Tripping on hallucinogenics My cigarette burnt my finger Cause I forgot I lit it
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Can't believe this song is already 6 years old
I'm sorry you said what? I'm not old lol
Annd it’s going to be a classic imo
Woah
Don't say that, time is already moving fast enough xD
I listen to this song everyday I battled with addiction my entire life. Today I am 300 days sober and working hard at a treatment center to help other women in Recovery stay sober. It's an amazing song by an amazing artist!!
Keep it up! Rooting for you whoever you are
Awesome!!
Good for you Cari! You deserve to be happy!
You’re doing a great job, mate! Keep it up 🙌🏻
Congratulations 🥳👏🏻👏🏻
"My cigarette burnt my finger cause I forgot I lit it" and "and then I crawled back to the life that I said I wouldn't live in" give me goosebumps EVERY TIME
Yeah and a thermal burn from cigarette. Thanks for the tune
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I crawled back to the life I said I wouldn't live in." This line hits hard whether it's about going back to a broken relationship or returning to being an addict. It's like a haunting echo of promises made and broken.
That scene with the eye dropper and the gun... Holy shit man
Could be the next joker 🤔
@@jonnie297
Gotham reference?
Nelson mandela said that btw
Just made it to 1k likes but yea dats crazy
Shit ain’t fun...
I see a lot of people on this thread dealing with some type of substance abuse.
Like the scene in the video with the Bible says “it always seems impossible until it’s done” just remember tough times don’t last tough people do.. stay strong everybody
Amen!🙏🏻
Love bro 🙏🏻
🙏🏽🙏🏽🫡
It’s hard when your mental health isn’t well😢
I have been living in a shell of my former life, begging for on my hands and knees everyday asking Jesus for forgiveness everyday dealing with my demons and burying them every step of the way I realize now I’m not my past self and haven’t been for almost five years now , I’m alcohol free for five months now; it’s hard cuz I feel it calling for me everyday but I know it’s not me anymore.
You are not alone. From one addict to another. I was and am in your same boat. 13 years for me. Keep it up you are worth it.
keep pushing brother!!!
Hang in there! Don’t give in, keep fighting for yourself!
Hope you are still walking the straight and narrow. Listen, from personal experiences you are doing it right. Put your ALL in the Lord.
Philippians 4:6 Be anxious for Nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication with Thanksgiving.Let your request be made known until God
Many Blessings to you 🌻
I like how realistic this actually is. A lot of people see drugs in a black and white kind of way. It’s either good or bad. The experience itself isn’t really that way. The thoughts, the emotions, “I couldn’t open up, I’m always shiftin” “and then I crawl back to the life that I said I wouldn’t live in” the visions of someone he once loved becoming warped and disfigured staring back at him through the glass. Perfect song describing how things change, how we change, how drugs can make us change.
Somewhere between years of depression and on and off again addiction and drug use, you find a song that speaks to you.
This is that song
💜
Damn man. This hit hard. I can relate and hope you're well.
Stay strong buddy, there’s hope and a better life for all of us out there.
You have support. We aren't friends, yet, but we got you
Yeah, I feel. After all the pain, even after getting better, this song just makes me know he "gets it" in a way others can't
I get the vibe that its not just about drugs, its about not being able to open up and losing who you love, and then yourself.
I think you hit the nail on the head.
That happened to me and is happening..
How i felt when my wife left me. Exacly how i felt when i first heard this song.
perfectly said, hits the same for me
well indeed... my love just dumped me, and i just cannot get enough of this song.. and the burnt that i've caused myself for staying longer than i should
I crawled back to the life I said I wouldn't live in." This line hits hard whether it's about going back to a broken relationship or returning to being an addict. It's like a haunting echo of promises made and broken.
This song is perfect in many ways. I’m 4 years alcohol free and I’ve had a life of suffering anxiety and depression. We’re not alone in our pain. We’ve been damaged, but we’re not irreparable. There’s healing in music.
True anough
Eat shrooms you'll thank me later.
Yeah i think that's why this song grabs the center of my feelings and tells that prison between my ears doesn't seem so dark or lonely for a few mintues. To get that feeling../ high frim something other then substances is magic in itself God bless
@@parkerrhodes81 ive never gotten to try the 🍄🟫 i want to More than anything not for the high for the experience and the spiritual mental and emotional reset and cleansing thst after 7 years in prison i really fucken need. It will come
"Ill crawl back to the life that i said i wouldnt live in" man that shit hit hard for the hell my family has been through the past few years
Hey man, I hope everything is going better for your family. Felt this comment
Dude I’m sorry I know it’s tuff going through stuff like that I’m praying for you man
You might be stranger, but damnit I hope you are okay
Support, strangers or not, we all care and are here.
Don’t give up on your fam, they need you more than you know.
Heard this on the radio today and I'm so glad I did
Magical Marshmallow Me too!
@@chomker8164 well glad I'm not the only one!
Same I fell in love with the rhythm I couldn’t hear the lyrics on the radio 😂😂 luckily I heard “ my cigarette burnt my finger cause I forgot I lit it “
@@KuraiSomnium Total mood! XD
Same here!
He’s got that voice that makes me want to cry
I cryed to this just yesterday
Same
It makes me feel that way too
Favorite cry to song actually
I lost my brother/best friend to his addiction this year around my birthday. I asked him to send me a song. This is the one that played. I had never heard of Matt Maeson before. His words are like my buddy is singing to me.
This is the song my girlfriend and I bonded over the first time we met. I thought I was all cool showing it to her till she started singing every word, she already knew it. Months later and we went to see you live, and have kept on listening ever since. Thanks for your music Matt!
lyrics:
[Chorus]
Pushing past the limit
Trippin' on hallucinogenics
My cigarette burnt my finger
'Cause I forgot I lit it
[Verse 1]
Ripping with my sinners
Because fuck it man, I ain't no beginner
And then I crawled back to the life that I said I wouldn't live in
[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause I couldn't open up
I'm always shiftin
Go find yourself a man who's strong and tall and Christian
[Chorus]
Pushing past the limit
Trippin' on hallucinogenics
My cigarette burnt my finger
'Cause I forgot I lit it
[Verse 2]
Drunken in Seattle
To both ends without a paddle
I don't remember your face or your hair or your name or your smile
[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause I just couldn't open up
I'm always shifting
Go find yourself a man who's strong and tall and Christian
[Chorus]
Pushing past the limit
Trippin' on hallucinogenics
And then I crawled back to the life that I said I wouldn't live in
[Bridge]
'Cause I carried on like the wayward son
Now through and through I have come undone
And now I am just but the wayward man
What with my bloodshot eyes and my shaky hands
'Cause I carried on like the wayward son
And now through and through I have come undone
And now I am just but the wayward man
What with my bloodshot eyes and my shaky hands
[Chorus]
Pushing past the limit
Trippin' on hallucinogenics
My cigarette burnt my finger
Cause I forgot I lit it
Needs more chai
omg you actually replied i love your music man keep up the great work!
It's y'all not tall
pastelblack I
If you are an addict.. recovering.. this song makes so much sense
Bro, can I say how deeply this song has touched my soul? I feel every sing word.
I cry with the memories it brings to me.
It's bittersweet but thank you.
Me to
Only a matter of time until the rest of the world discovers you
The7thMastermind so true🔥
The7thMastermind true he is so good 👻👻👻
One year later and here I am.
@@Jameseslick22 same. But I've liked put it on me for a couple of months now
i dont understand how I'm this late....
Nothing gives me chills like this bridge. That second wayward son makes something like literally loosen in my chest. I remember you played it first at your Chicago show with betcha and it just immediately made me cry. Do you ever find yourself getting emotional on stage? Your songs feel like such catharsis- I can’t imagine having to perform them night after night. Is it draining or healing in a way?
I Just Heard This Song At 4AM On My Way To Work. Made Me Laugh & Cry In The Same Moment.
For Those Of Us Who Have Been There...We're Alright.
For Those Of Us Who Are Still There...We're Alright.
Push Past The Limits Folks.
I’m so mad that I didn’t find this song until now
I literally just heard it for the first time in a lyft i was riding in just now lol
lmao. I was just telling a friend this. A different friend of mine introduced the song to me a week back and I've been listening obsessively to it since
If he wasn’t from my area code I probably would have just discovered it on radio too. Welcome!
Same
i found it last night and it’s been on repeat since
this is one of my favorite songs by you, especially the video. They way you showed how drugs can effect you so many unstable and confusing ways really hits home for me. Absolutely love it.
honestly I feel it in my chest hearing this song.
@@CrackTheo Same.. Not really sure a lot of people actually understand that.
Brando Facts, the eye droplet to gun scene was crazy. Drugs are bot always good, honestly they’re bad most of the time at least for me
It could also represent how drugs, especially in the case of hallucinogenics, cause people to face what's already there
Bro I find this funny cuz he said haullgentics which have been proven that those types of drugs hurt the least amount of people, there not addcitve and most people take shrooms acid or dmt come out wit a better attitude on life. Don't judge them like its meth smh 🤦🏻♂
I'm here cause I've been there and further. Seen and lost irreplaceable things in life. The pain in this song is real. Time waits for no one, chose love always I beg you. You'll have a better conscience I promise. I speak these words from my very heart. Love others and follow Jesus please! I've done and seen things that haunt my soul.
How is this man still not fully discovered some of the best music I’ve heard in a long while, you can hear his heart in his songs
"Cuz I carried on like the wayward son and now through and through I have come undone, and now I am just but the wayward man, what with my bloodshot eyes and my shaky hands" I felt that deep
This songs speaks volumes to someone who’s struggled with addiction!! The line “my cigarette burnt my finger cause I forgot I lit it “ hits so home !!
I know that line was always fucking wit me
Lol right? Can't put a number on how many afternoons I woke up with burns around my first knuckles, but too many 😂. Shit hurts to think about, but it helps a lot knowing it's common, you know?
after my brother passed i fell into a dark hole of drugs and booze. i almost lost my marriage and my kids. it was super hard and 2 years later i still struggle but this song hits home and helps me get thru and helps me realize im not all alone in this world. thank you
You are definitely NOT alone. You don't know us. Can't see us. But I've been through some shit too and I'd be there for you or anyone who needed a helping hand. When you've walked the Steps, you know.
I think it's a metaphor at the end...the door opens and he seems to "wake up" and walks out of the door (the dark place). We all have that moment...alone ...sad..scared...the way ward son....and then someone/something opens the door. And we snap back to reality from our thoughts and anguish. It's hard. It's a dark place. But wait for the door to open.
Keep your head up homie you got this i was on drugs starting at 13yrs old. Now I'm 38 and been sober now for 6yrs an counting!🙏🏼🙌🏼💪🏼
My brother died to. And I too almost lost everything. I'm glad we survived that grief. Praying for you 🙏
Same thing .. threw it all away ... but I’m still here and it isn’t the way I want it ... but I’m still here and can’t do anything about , but move on rebuild ... this song bring a me back to middle of the darkness ... hope you’re on better days again ..
I cannot stop watching & listening to this. I lost my brother to addiction just a few months ago. This song & video really help paint the picture of what addiction does to someone. I get chills every time.
Thank you for this beautiful work of art.
I remember when I was in a Treatment center last August there was a guy who would play this song every single morning of the 45 days I was there lol. I'm about 6 months sober now.
Thank you Spotify, for showing me this beautifully constructed and heartfelt song. And thank you, Matt, for giving us that pleasure.
This song hits home.
"I couldn't open because I'm always shifting"
With my blood shot eyes and my shaky hands.
I’m here because of my mother, oddly enough. She died in 2022. Cancer.
She was amazing, and I wish everyone could have met her, but…like it or not…she was an addict. The day after she died, my stepson introduced me to this song. Not every single line describes my mama, but a lot of them do. It’s become a “mama” song for me.
How is this song 2 years old and just now taking off on alt-nation?
that's how i discovered it too
David Friedman SAME
literally what I thought. I saw the date and was like 🤭 why is alt nation NOW telling me about this lol
Getting played in Colorado
Radio can sometimes be slow to pick up on something unless it already had a following.
Carry on my wayward son
For there'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more
All of his songs remind me of sam and dean :(
RIP supernatural
i thought it was just me
Supernatural💔
The memories, stories and emotions attached to this song will i think forever make this one of the heaviest impactful song for me
This song is a straight-up, unabashed, without a doubt, stainless steel jam. I could not help but replay multiple times. Bravo.
The depths of my addiction took me to the prison system, I first heard this song alone in my cell struggling to process my very being and it felt like a message from God ❤ thank you.
life is amazing, good for you girl
A friend of mine showed me this song prior to her passing, now everytime I hear it i get a reminder to keep pushing thru. Thank you for your music and every memory it contributes. And anyone reading this better days are ahead keep pushing !
This song is so deep. The first time I heard this song is was shocked because it’s so deep and the first time I heard ‘carried on like a wayward son’ I immediately thought about supernatural and now the show is over so it hits me harder
My brother took his life in January while tripping on mushrooms… this song is beautiful. If only his door would have opened sooner and showed him the light..
Damn bro I’m so sorry
fuck dude my heart hurts hearing that. My condolences.
Shit I'm sorry man. My brother took his life a year ago too.
I'm so sorry.
I am so sorry man prayers to him and you. ❤
His music hits different when you've struggled with addiction.
Fr fr
And then I crawled back to the life that I said I wouldn’t live in…💔
You'll always struggle with addiction. It's siren song will beckon to you for all of the years of your life. Beware of the id
He's tripping balls on Acid, lol and Psychedelics are mind opening substances, like LSD, Psylocibin Mushrooms, Peyote, Ayahuasca Marijuana , Meo-5Dmt, DMT, are mind opening natural Spritual Plants an are produced in plants an animals and humans referring to dmt they often help people get off Addictions
@@christianmichael9367 Fuck. No. Fucking hell dude. Water hemlock is an all natural substance. So is arsenic and wolfsbane. "Tripping balls" is your brain shorting out.
I'm quite addicted to this perfect song. Well done, Matt.
This man has captivated me. I'm hooked on his music so hard.
Same
In my old age when I eat shrooms I always have to cry for the things I can’t change to lighten the load on my heart so this song takes me there
“I just couldn’t remember your name your hair or your smile”. Whoa man.... that that hit real deep.. that’s literally how my last break up is going... his music is so damn deep.
Is it sarcasm?
I've never found a song that better describes the darker side of hallucinogenics and what abusing it can do to you. A lot of it is very subtle and symbolic. The old him is dead. He doesn't remember the past well or people. Telling her (or someone) to go find a better man who's christian really shows the loss of ego and confidence that comes with abuse.
Damn it they’re called “hallucinogens.” It sounds pretty in the song but don’t start saying it lol.
@@DNPinthePP the dictionary definition of hallucinogenic means, "(of a drug) causing hallucinations". Sit down son.
Ichigo Kurosaki I know that it’s a word, dingus, but it’s not the *right* word. HALLUCINOGENS (noun) have HALLUCINOGENIC (adjective) effects.
@@DNPinthePP facts
weak....hallucinogens are great and there is no dark side only all positive. Also cigarettes are not hallucinogens
Matt, want to thank and hug you! Suffering and struggles are deep scars and you bring them to light with your beautiful words & voice. We're NOT alone in our heartbreak ... you are REAL and understand. We are damaged but unbroken. There's hope to reach the other side of addiction and mental anguish, tell me about it. Don't give up. Peace to you all.
I used to listen to this song daily, many years ago. Back then, I was lost like this depiction, tossed in existential dread and godless moral decay. Jesus came and scooped me up from a pile of ashes and tears. Now, I’m the tall, strong Christian merely alluded to in his lyrics. If God saved me, He can save anyone.
You don’t understand how much I love your music. Thank you for everything! Im such a big fan.
I lost my ex to addiction. This makes me think of him so much. My heart goes out to anyone battling addiction, or anyone who has lost a loved one to it.. it just breaks my heart. RIP good people. You will be missed
IVE BEEN WAITING FOR SOMETHING NEW IM SO EXCITED
This song makes me feel things I never knew I could feel
When I was 8 my mom got me addicted to drugs had to fight for 5 years and this song brought tears to my eyes, so my bit of advice is No matter how impossible it seems You And only YOU can do it you have the strength to overcome it I believe in you ❤
I'm glad you're doing better but holy shit what an awful mother. She was supposed to be looking out for you
Glad you were a lucky one, my dad got me hooked at 12, and I am 38 and still haven't been able to stop.
After losing my best friend, my true love and soon to be mother of my child partner , 15 years later I thought I had healed. But after stumbling across this song it feels like I just lost her yesterday.
I am so obsessed with this song. Playing it on repeat
Just heard it today, and it's on my head already.
Same here. It’s been a while since a song has done that to me but this guy nailed it!
Dude, I was not this guy, but I saw my son grow from a deceased baby to a grown man in the clouds. Thank You!!
Hm?
Well that looked like an awful trip. Just heard this on the radio on my way to work this morning. Can't believe it is 2 years old!
Just heard it on the radio this morning as well ! 🤔 😆 had to come listen to it at the end of the night.
God, this is wonderful.
Matt, i discovered you while randomly youtube diving a couple months back.... and I'm soooo glad i did! You sing with such emotion. Your music tells stories.... and it is fucking beautiful. I can't wait to watch your journey unfold, and to go on all the adventures your music takes me through.
If you like other similar artists let me know! I just found him and I'm looking for more!
I sit here in tears thinking about my brother who battled addiction to pills which ultimately lead to him hanging himself in 2012. I miss him so much and the scary thing is I just discovered Matt Maeson and he looks so much like my brother it's unreal.
The fact that a song like this exists makes me feel a lot less alone in the world.
Dude, you stand out. Your lyrics are great and the melodies as well. Ive being listening to lost of new songs, but coincidentally the ones I bothered searching about were yours and I didnt realize. You got talent. Keep at it
I have been sober 5 years and this song basically is a reminder of my life as a user. Looking back helps me be grateful for the full life I live now.
This is the best song I've heard in a while. Wow.
This is insane. I can't describe to you how much I relate to what's going on in this video. But it really hits home. Makes me feel less alone
"I don't remember your face or your hair or your name or your smile."
Idk why but that really speaks to me.
he needs a lot of love ok
Aηηιє don’t we all
Dylan Colby I love you
Its fictional
@@NickBeno, No, it's not. He wrote the song from the heart, and you can absolutely hear it in the music!
Your music is so real. It truly hits different than any other artist. You deserve the world man
Absolutely ❤❤
Absolutely love Matt’s music. He’s my sons ages and his amount of talent is mind blowing
In other words, you're ancient :P jk jk
This song hits home... thank you.. I love the Bible part...It always seems impossible until it is done...So true.. you don’t get clean until you find God.. take it from me
I agree ❤
This video made me feel things I never thought I could feel. My whole past flashed before my eyes. Woah.
Done 25 hits and lost my mind for maybe ever but at least 4 days! Fun and scary life-changing time with a friend who push past the limits, God rest his soul!
I can NOT stop listening to this. I can’t believe I JUST around it. Thanks 🙏🏻 💕💕
Look up this song for an hour you can find an hour of this song so you don't have to keep replying the son, btw if you see this I just want to say your welcome if you look it up 😁😀☺
Hey if you look up this song for an hour you can find it there so you don't have to keep replaying the song, btw if you see this just want to say your welcome! 😁😀☺
This song is about drugs if you don’t know it’s a bad song
@@jhookjackfishing1924 one man's "drug" is another's medicine 😉
@@jhookjackfishing1924 Oh no its about drugs, welp there is that cant listen to it. /s
Best lyrics I've heard in a long time. Amazing song
This song is a life saver thanks Matt
I AM WANDERING WHY YOU RE NOT IN THE TRENDING YET ? Gosh,Matt you're amazing,I'm happy that I've discovered you.You inspire me,you always give me good vibes,you are the best.KEEP IT UP!
That gun scene is fucking powerful
This song remains endlessly relatable; in fact, it's aging like fine wine. This song/album is something I keep coming back to.
“Who’s strong and tall and Christian.”
This line an arrow to my heart 🩸💔
I was in the talking phase with a girl, we were planning on going on a date after I got my liscence. I was a few weeks away from getting it. Her dad is pretty die hard Chrisitian and wouldent like me so we were gonna go out behind his back.
After a while she seemed to get more distant, and I was okay if she didint feel the same anymore, so one night we decided to talk, and we both came forward saying how we felt things felt off and that maybe it wasant the best that we went out, because I wasant religious and I was a couple hours away. But we still wanted to be freinds cause we got along really well.
Two weeks later she was texting me and the group chat we were in that she was dating this guy who was six foot, ripped, and "Christian". She was making out in the backseat of his car with him, behind her dads back. He was also the guy she told me not worry about, and asked me if it was okay if she talked to him while we were talking.
So hearing that lyric really did rip through lol I really do miss the facetimes until four am with her talking about all the things we wanted to do for date ideas together
@@gabelinsenbigler1675Welcome to women, bro.
I’m short
@@lanceeeee1 Haha me too! But at least I'm Christian!
Facts
He is absolutely amazing. Mesmerizing. And that's to be modest
This song reminds me when i was just a lonely rolling stone. Having friends in different towns, living day by day. Week long camping trips to who knows where. Festivals, new faces and parties swelling around me. I dont regret a thing, but compared to that, everything i do just never seems as fun as being that free. Be free and happy
The lyrics. The video. Powerful message.
im still pissed he made so many bangers then vanished off the earth bro come back i miss you
Hes still making music, hes putting out some new stuff soon. Look on his Socials. He also just got Married
Whats some other good ones?
@@mattmason4589 Feel Good, Grave Digger, Tribulations, Mr. RATTLEBONE
PLEASE
@@gibbysmalls1867 feel good is so underated, its literally my favorite song
Every time I hear this it gives me chills for the loved ones in my life, it hits home hard! I wish I could get people that don’t understand addiction to listen to artist like Matt Maeson that put it out there for that reason. I’m a New Fan for Life, He’s Amazing!!
Thanks for pulling me out of a dark place Matt Maeson. The power of your music.
Some songs take me to certain moments in my life that I wish I could just relive one more time. This is one of those songs
This is Daphne from the comment before you I'm not sure I'd wanna reexperience it again but this makes me crave that time and reaction again cuz its perfectly accurate to what happened
This song still hits hard. No matter when it is where I am. This song will still be with me.
It is the understanding for me. "It's the'not being the only one for me.'"
The lyric in the chorus “ my cigarette burns my finger cause I forgot that I lit it” was a reality for me well kind of, I overdosed when I was 13 and was repeatedly hallucinating that I was burning myself with a cigarette that I forgot about but it wasn’t even there. I kept thinking I was on fire and eventually my mother found me took me to the hospital and they pumped my stomach and I had a security guard at the end of my bed because I kept ripping off the ECG wires and trying to get to the rack of doctor pants I wanted so much over and over and over again. This song is epic and I love it. It reminds me of a time when I was beginning to escape from the real in any way possible , a life I continually try to not go back to. Wishing for Much love an success for you💕
Definitely, I hear ya. The first time I heard those lyrics, it made me instantly think of my younger years of insane drug usage & the many times I burnt myself, from being so fucked up & completely oblivious to the cigarette burning down to nothing bw my fingers. The lyrics made me strongly relate, but at the same time, they made me shudder, reliving those awful years but ultimately thankful I made it out alive & I'm still kicking.
Allison MacRae I’m glad your alive and kicking still too friend 💕 keep fighting the good fight for what we know is a better life even though it’s so tempting to just escape... just one more time. This music is very healing and a good reminder to stay good ..your right about that🙏🤗
Soulseedart You’re both super strong 💖💖 Good luck I wish you the best :)
Allison MacRae I love you both so much ❤️ Please stay alive and take care of yourself
Klorox Bleach thank you for your kind words 💕 positivity and love are what heals this foe. 🙏
Everyone has a different part of the song that hits them. I've never done hallucinogens, so for me the line was
"Go find yourself a man who's strong and tall and Christian."
"I dont remember your face, or your hair or your name or your smile..."
"Cuz I just couldnt open up I'm always shiftin"
I cant count how many people I've pushed away because I'm not enough for myself, let alone anyone else.
@@lavans5721 same man. Ive pushed people away because i felt like i told them too much. I never wanted to put my problems on someone else.
I guess just pushing them away felt better than explaining my own mind
This song seared my heart in remembrance of loving someone who couldn't love
me back but I saw the potential and had to walk away
This song reminds me of after I broke up with my girlfriend of 5 years. I wasn't into drugs but I was under alot of emotional stress from the military and after i found out she had cheated on me. I started smoking for the first time and I remember feeling like I was developing schizophrenia seeing crazy things that weren't there. With the help of some really good friends and the Gods help I was able to see the light at the tunnel. There is always hope
Hey man I'm glad you found your way home, I hope you're doing ok
Trust Me brother it gets better, usmc over here I know what you been through. Just give it time it gets better Even if it doesn’t seem like it does it will There’s a reason why things happen. Just enjoy life man Cheers bro.
Hits my feels everytime! Whether it’s in the morning or later at night when you’re tripping on hallucinogenics. ✨🍄
'Ripping with my sinners, cause fuck it man I ain't no beginner'
You put it into words for all of us.
There isn't enough real people in this world.
Thankyou Matt.
I have been waiting for new music from Matt for what seems like forever and now that its here, I am NOT disappointed! I love this song and the music video, especially the scene with the eye dropper and the gun, holy shit. He's such an underrated artist.
Kind of a Vance joy voice. I try to listen to this every morning. Makes my day 😀
I can’t even say how much I love this song , he is so talented . I hope more people agree . He deserves the admiration. Such a masterpiece 💕
I'm so glad I got out of this lifestyle. May have been too late to save relationships I had with most people but not myself and that's all that matters.. just heard this song for the first time last night and I've played it so many times already lol. I'll be covering it one day soon and it'll forever be a song I play during live performances in the future . Getting sober made that future possible 🖤🥀
All you fighting for your very agency and well being, you can do this and you're worth it!
Never give up. Things do get better.
Pushing past the limit
Tripping on hallucinogenics
My cigarette burnt my finger
Cause I forgot I lit it
Ripping with my sinners
Cause fuck it, man, I ain't no beginner
And then I crawled back to the life
That I said I wouldn't living
Cause I just couldn't open up
I'm always shifting
Go find yourself a man
Who's strong and tall and christian
Pushing past the limit
Tripping on hallucinogenics
My cigarette burnt my finger
Cause I forgot I lit it
Drunken in Seattle
Two more Xans and without a paddle
I don't remember your face
Or your hair, or your name, or your smile
Cause I just couldn't open up
I'm always shifting
Go find yourself a man
Who's strong and tall and Christian
Pushing past the limit
Tripping on hallucinogenics
And then I crawled back to the life
That I said I wouldn't living
Cause I carried on like the wayward son
And now through and through, I've come undone
And now I am just but the wayward man
What with my bloodshot eyes and my shaky hand
Cause I carried on like the wayward son
And now through and through, I've come undone
And now I am just but the wayward man
What with my bloodshot eyes and my shaky hand
Pushing past the limit
Tripping on hallucinogenics
My cigarette burnt my finger
Cause I forgot I lit it
I think it’s “live in” - not living. I crawled back to the life that I said I wouldn’t “live in”.
The life I wouldn’t live in.
It's the people like you that make this whole internet thing work. Thanks for posting lyrics. ❤
This song reminds me of a time period in my life, and more specifically one of my old friends. I miss her. This song reminds me of her.
what type of hellucinigenics, because im trying to upgrade.. weed and cocain just aint cutting it theses days.
You are so expressive with an amazing voice. I'm going through hell and your music helps a lot. Thank you.