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  • @russogoob
    @russogoob 2 роки тому +7957

    Maeri is GLOWING, i love how both of the caretakers have bright, glowing auras but in completely different ways!!

    • @mimikyulover3411
      @mimikyulover3411 2 роки тому +186

      This makes me think, I wonder if people with synesthesia would see/taste etc. Different things for different alters

    • @GuyG.KTalesOfAnimals
      @GuyG.KTalesOfAnimals 2 роки тому +116

      @@mimikyulover3411 that is actually interesting! I have to say that my alters both taste differently and visualize 2 different sets of color when synesthesia

    • @mimikyulover3411
      @mimikyulover3411 2 роки тому +29

      @@GuyG.KTalesOfAnimals I was thinking more the other way, like a synesthet with no alters who would perceive the different between another person's alters, but that is also very cool!

    • @coffeewizard6852
      @coffeewizard6852 2 роки тому +30

      @@mimikyulover3411 so this is not the same really but I’m a practicing witch and I read auras and I can 100% say that they all have very different auras. Also it’s ok if you don’t believe in that stuff just my personal experience:)

    • @mimikyulover3411
      @mimikyulover3411 2 роки тому +14

      @@coffeewizard6852I do not know enough about witchcraft to have an opinion about it, but that's pretty cool!

  • @itac.2280
    @itac.2280 2 роки тому +9679

    Maeri: *comes into existence*
    Also Maeri, just two days after: We need a cat.

    • @DissociaDID
      @DissociaDID  2 роки тому +2438

      I was right! 🥰Maeri

    • @katn1952
      @katn1952 2 роки тому +301

      Well, everyone needs a cat 😁

    • @TheRidmunger
      @TheRidmunger 2 роки тому +44

      Maeri was formed? I have so many questions.

    • @itsaballoonparty
      @itsaballoonparty 2 роки тому +122

      a really smart move - a cat is almost like a type of caretaker!!

    • @claytonwade3570
      @claytonwade3570 2 роки тому +87

      @@katn1952 even cats need a cat

  • @bbokarilixie160
    @bbokarilixie160 2 роки тому +488

    Sally is giving mother vibes and Maeri is giving me healthy older sister vibes.

  • @midnight851
    @midnight851 2 роки тому +2705

    It's extremely clear how much Maeri's presence benefits the system. She carries herself in a very positive way and pushes the system to do things that are beneficial to everyone. Her energy is great. It's a pleasure to meet you~

  • @sunnybun7656
    @sunnybun7656 2 роки тому +1584

    Maeri feels like the embodiment of a warm cup of herbal tea on a rainy afternoon. Just cozy, comforting, and safe

  • @mommynico
    @mommynico 2 роки тому +2676

    If Maeri wants to try getting into gaming, I feel she would enjoy something like Stardew Valley since its cute and super chill. Nice to meet you! 💜

    • @maxjones3184
      @maxjones3184 2 роки тому +203

      Yes or animal crossing!

    • @manaspajamas5071
      @manaspajamas5071 2 роки тому +112

      Animal Crossing: New Horizons would be another great, chill one as well, in my opinion.

    • @memaeka4544
      @memaeka4544 2 роки тому +21

      I love watching Stardew twitch streams! Agreed!

    • @Readingcornervibes
      @Readingcornervibes 2 роки тому +20

      Or any Pokémon games!

    • @mommynico
      @mommynico 2 роки тому +20

      @@Readingcornervibes sword and shield would be so good! Very calm and the curry cooking in the pokecamp is the best part

  • @Mintfaery
    @Mintfaery 2 роки тому +3119

    It's so nice to meet you, Maeri! I love being able to meet caretakers and hear about the different unique methods of soothing their systems. Also that color blue is so lovely 😍

    • @DissociaDID
      @DissociaDID  2 роки тому +301

      Thank you! It's nice to meet you too

    • @Aidsperle
      @Aidsperle 2 роки тому +6

      @mintfaery I love your channel! Your aura is so calming and positive 💕

    • @1412mariLU
      @1412mariLU 2 роки тому +7

      Hi Mint
      How awesome to see you here on DissociaDID 🤗

    • @Mintfaery
      @Mintfaery 2 роки тому +3

      @@Aidsperle oh thank you so much!

    • @Mintfaery
      @Mintfaery 2 роки тому +3

      @MariLU hello love!

  • @RialVestro
    @RialVestro 2 роки тому +3715

    Maeri doesn't seem as confident as the others... except when she's talking about something she really likes then suddenly there's a burst of sudden confidence. Then back to nervous laughter. Don't be nervous you did great.

    • @ThatOneLadyOverHere
      @ThatOneLadyOverHere 2 роки тому +518

      I wonder if it's because she's new and just getting used to everything. I feel like once she gets the hang of things she is very confident and can easily take charge of situations. Like she doesn't seem to be afraid of stating things as they are and standing by her opinion, but is also recognizes when she doesn't know or it isn't her job to make that decision. She is definitely gonna be beneficial to the system.

    • @eternalconfusion6226
      @eternalconfusion6226 2 роки тому +299

      I had the complete opposite impression. She seems really confident and reminded me a lot of Chloe character wise. She is not a trauma holder so maybe that's why. And she even said for Kaya that they're "still" the boss. It will be interesting to see how she's going to grow. I am very happy that the system is coming together.

    • @Himeko-wv7fu
      @Himeko-wv7fu 2 роки тому +24

      So? How confident are you?

    • @DissociaDID
      @DissociaDID  2 роки тому +1243

      I'm not as abrasive as some of our System but I know how important the channel is to Kya and the others! It's existed longer than I have, and I wanted to make a good first impression! ☺

    • @ShellyLynnSnow
      @ShellyLynnSnow 2 роки тому +70

      You succeeded.
      I very much enjoyed learning about you and your role in the system. You have a very calm, soothing energy and voice. I hope to see you in more videos if you feel like making them. I, for one, would love to have the whole Seraphina story, she is adorable!

  • @creaturenamedalistair
    @creaturenamedalistair 2 роки тому +987

    Maeri seems like the type to make you tea in the middle of the night after you've had a nightmare. They seem very calming and understanding :)

  • @glitch3487
    @glitch3487 2 роки тому +3183

    I would love to know if Seraphina reacts differently to different alters. Cats have kind of a sixth sense so it would be interesting if she could tell who was fronting

    • @asmrdazzle
      @asmrdazzle 2 роки тому +112

      Yes!!!! I was wondering this as well.

    • @TheIndigoSystem
      @TheIndigoSystem 2 роки тому +257

      My cats react differently to mine

    • @mailyak442
      @mailyak442 2 роки тому +14

      Ooo yes

    • @thewitchbasket
      @thewitchbasket 2 роки тому +108

      A cat wouldn't really be able to tell that the body had a different alter fronting, but it would be able to tell that the body is acting or talking differently, and it would react to how it was being treated. A cat doesn't really have a concept of a personality independent from the body, but they still make very good companions.

    • @redhairak5342
      @redhairak5342 2 роки тому +10

      @@TheIndigoSystem can you give us an exemple?

  • @msb5775
    @msb5775 2 роки тому +1653

    Maeri seems very sweet, when she looks at the camera I sense genuine warmth from her. And she also doesn’t seem timid or shy to speak on camera. I hope she’s in more videos

  • @lenadesu2544
    @lenadesu2544 2 роки тому +3508

    Hey! I got a suggestion.. What if all alters take the MBTI personality test? And see how different everyone is and how they balance/support each other 😊

    • @genzdaddi
      @genzdaddi 2 роки тому +62

      I just posted the same!!

    • @lumiya_lumos1423
      @lumiya_lumos1423 2 роки тому +38

      That would be fascinating!

    • @aryb4801
      @aryb4801 2 роки тому +78

      I’m super into mbti, and I’ve been thinking about this a lot!! It would be interesting to see them to a more cognitive function based test like Sakinorva too

    • @tinuvielrhubarbe3850
      @tinuvielrhubarbe3850 2 роки тому +26

      I'm sure Maeri is ENFP!

    • @bridgetteclementsbr9610
      @bridgetteclementsbr9610 2 роки тому +12

      @@tinuvielrhubarbe3850 not me being an enfp

  • @rangergirlrocks
    @rangergirlrocks 2 роки тому +961

    I've been watching since Chole was around and I still am watching I can say welcome to the internet family Maeri but don't worry we'll be here fighting for everyone in the system when hate comes to the channel we'll always be here even at your low points

    • @kar4244
      @kar4244 2 роки тому +29

      I've been here since the interview with Anthony but have watched all of Chole so when Nin did her long "Meet Nin" stream I loved her already but still felt some loss for my friend Chloe. Kyle has been my favorite to watch on the channel so I miss his ridiculous but caring nature but am happy to welcome you to the channel and family Maeri!!

    • @Corpsee.
      @Corpsee. 2 роки тому +2

      Is Chloe not around anymore? I haven’t watched their videos in a while so..

    • @rangergirlrocks
      @rangergirlrocks 2 роки тому +21

      @@Corpsee. Chole merged with I believe Nina and became Nin then Nin merged with Kyle and is now Kya (Kia-ya)

    • @lyrichawkins2454
      @lyrichawkins2454 2 роки тому +14

      Yeah I’ve been around since near the very beginning and honestly there was so much loss but we also gained some amazing people. I guess I was most sad about the merge between Kyle and Nin but they both still exist inside Kya so it’s okay.
      I have watched them through it all and I am really glad that Maeri is here because they seem like they will be very helpful

    • @Corpsee.
      @Corpsee. 2 роки тому +4

      @@rangergirlrocks I watched a few videos to catch up, man I love Kya! I really loved kyle but you can see a lot of him in Kya, Nin sometimes as well. I never heard of fusing or final fusing before this.. for some reason I never questioned what the end goal is for DID.

  • @Juxsu
    @Juxsu 2 роки тому +601

    Wow... I am diagnosed with a few mental illnesses (not DID), and it's the first time listening to someone alone has calmed down my anxiety... Maeri is amazing.

    • @Juxsu
      @Juxsu 2 роки тому +40

      Aaaand... writing and publishing a comment got my anxiety back. It was good while it lasted 😅

    • @rosexthermite
      @rosexthermite 2 роки тому +16

      @@Juxsu it's okay, please know you're appreciated

    • @BridgetMLeach
      @BridgetMLeach Рік тому +3

      She had the same affect on me! ❤

    • @samerinaa
      @samerinaa Рік тому +1

      Yess certain voices have that peaceful expression vibe🩵🩵 idk if you’re interested in more people like that? There’s a woman on UA-cam Elizabeth Harper. She has a similar quality to her voice and personality 🩵

  • @sunny_bees1624
    @sunny_bees1624 2 роки тому +265

    I've only known Maeri for 15 seconds but i will end anything or anyone who dares to be mean to her !! So precious

  • @bilibili68
    @bilibili68 2 роки тому +467

    Sounds like Maeri was created so that the system could finally get a cat... that must be the worthiest and noblest of all the reasons to exist :D

  • @FluffHyune
    @FluffHyune 2 роки тому +632

    It’s so nice to meet you Maeri!!!

  • @Cherryxarts
    @Cherryxarts 2 роки тому +985

    Aw, It's nice to meet you Maeri! Your way of speaking is very soothing, very fitting for your job :)

  • @thedefenestrator2994
    @thedefenestrator2994 2 роки тому +580

    I recently found out I have DID, got diagnosed, and it explains a lot. I have 5 or 7 alters I know of, and only a couple have unique names; The Zealot and the Screamer. I was raised in a very religious home and I’ve also recently discovered I relate A LOT to cult survivors stories… so I think I might have been raised in a cult, too…
    And that’s where the Zealot come in. Even though I don’t believe in god anymore, that part of my past is still in there and he’s a survivor. He won’t speak to me because I’m a heathen, but I appreciate that he saved my life every time I was suicidal. He refused to die, always had hope in God and the afterlife. I don’t need God anymore but I can’t ignore how he helped me survive.
    The Screamer I think is a part of me from when I was a baby, and my mother would watch TV while I cried and screamed for hours because I needed her. I cried until I had no tears left, and screamed until my voice went out and mouth was dry. THEN she’d begrudgingly “nurture” me. My older brother confirmed he remembers that happening, and he hated her.
    Now when I’m really stressed the Screamer I can hear in my head, always screaming and crying, it makes hearing people extremely difficult. I’m trying to figure out how I can give that alter the nurturing and care they needed and never got, I think they’re just a baby who needs an actual caring figure.

    • @SilverSkylark
      @SilverSkylark 2 роки тому +48

      Not a system, but do you have a headspace/ would be able to build a headspace? There might be a change that one of your alters could nurture the Screamer inside.
      I also don't know if you'll need a headspace for that, or if they'd be able to nurture the baby just by existing and being around.

    • @thedefenestrator2994
      @thedefenestrator2994 2 роки тому +109

      @@SilverSkylark My therapist has been working on creating a headspace with me for just that, actually.
      I have been asking if one of my other alters, I used to call Anger but he’s much more nuanced than that, I think it would help him a lot to nurture Screamer.
      I as the control don’t really know how to intuitively help the screamer, but I can understand them. The rest have a consensus that they don’t want to be the control because for the last two years I have been at the helm and completely changing my life, going for a career in engineering, getting promotions at work, becoming a leader, getting my GED, going to therapy, cutting off toxic family and friend circles. I won’t stop. And the other parts are too young to have any confidence in everything I’m doing. So here I am. Lol. The newest part who can seize the day.

    • @thedefenestrator2994
      @thedefenestrator2994 2 роки тому +61

      @@orangesnowflake3769 Christian nondenominational. But I grew up in a Christian conservative homeschooled small town family with a single black family in the entire populace. So that should give you the gist of what kind of environment I had.
      I wasn’t TECHNICALLY raised in a cult because in cults you’re forced to stay, but we shared A LOT in common with them in ways of teaching about the outside world, nonbelievers, and how you have zero self worth without God and no matter what you do you will always be nothing. But “God” loves you so you can go ahead and ignore the crushing sense of mortal dread we’ve drilled into you.

    • @lumiya_lumos1423
      @lumiya_lumos1423 2 роки тому +36

      I am no expert, but perhaps something like a weighted blanket or some sort of swaddle blanket could help the Screamer feel comforted? Or perhaps loving touch to themself? I don’t have DID but I do have some pretty intense ptsd from childhood abuse and sometimes I feel what I identify as my child self comes up when trauma is triggered and I try to go back to the small scattered things I did have to seek comfort in (warm milk, coloring, playing outside). Obviously those things may be different for the Screamer since they are an infant but perhaps there may be other applications to nurture them?

    • @thedefenestrator2994
      @thedefenestrator2994 2 роки тому +35

      @@lumiya_lumos1423 That’s a great idea. I’ve wanted a weighted blanket for a long time and I’ve love to try that next time they’re coming forward with their stress. I know a few of my alters wanted to be a father, (I don’t like kids, so I’m not great at intuitively knowing how to help Screamer) so they might be up to that task.

  • @ewynrilcaldin6153
    @ewynrilcaldin6153 2 роки тому +187

    I really see Maeri and Sally drinking tea together and talking, probably in a greenhouse, surrounded by plant and cats x)

  • @CrybabyUsagi-SM
    @CrybabyUsagi-SM 2 роки тому +1084

    I’m so happy to see the system coming back around more! we’ve always loved watching you all❤️❤️

  • @theblueluna2218
    @theblueluna2218 2 роки тому +333

    Maeri and sally were sisters in an alternate universe and it’s so sweet. The caregivers always seems like they’d be like the caring aunt you always spend time with as a child

    • @ThatOneLadyOverHere
      @ThatOneLadyOverHere 2 роки тому +14

      Maeri gives me older sister vibes, like very large age gap older sister. They are both so sweet!

    • @theblueluna2218
      @theblueluna2218 2 роки тому +6

      @@ThatOneLadyOverHere oh definitely, sally suits the younger sister role, she seems a little more carefree and laid back. I assume that’s because she works with the littles a lot

  • @zeynepbalc6881
    @zeynepbalc6881 2 роки тому +505

    Maeri gave me a lot of sense of security. She's like a big sister that everyone loves and needs in their lives. Nice to meet you Maeri! You did so well! I hope everyone had a good day today, lots of love

    • @musicfeedsyoursoul8070
      @musicfeedsyoursoul8070 2 роки тому +4

      You mean Maeri’s source character? I know she said she was technically a fictive, but idk what her source would be

    • @DissociaDID
      @DissociaDID  2 роки тому +106

      I can be a big sister! I have a protective energy 🥰- Maeri

  • @yaoiover18justcos
    @yaoiover18justcos 2 роки тому +1019

    It is so refreshing for someone with mental health issues to "discover" a cat. Yes babe, they'll save your life. Register Seraphina cos she's OBVIOUSLY a real emotional support animal

    • @book_wolf_1939
      @book_wolf_1939 2 роки тому +21

      I relate to this so hard, my cat is super grounding for me when I'm midst an OCD inflicted panic attack

    • @cryingwatercolours
      @cryingwatercolours 2 роки тому +16

      Cats are just the best… my baby licks my tears when I break down and maybe she just wants some salt (😂) but it’s so soothing. I’m trying to train her to recognise and respond to my breakdown breathing by whistling really quickly and she’s doing so well, running over to me and licking and tapping my face to check on me 🥺🥺 my Pixel is my everything, don’t know where I’d be without her

    • @sofiapatrao2796
      @sofiapatrao2796 2 роки тому +7

      There is no legal registration in the US for emotional support animals just so you know in case you’re in the US :)

    • @yaoiover18justcos
      @yaoiover18justcos 2 роки тому +8

      @@sofiapatrao2796 yup, WA state! 😊 What it looks like here is a written note from your therapist saying they've treated you for x amount of time and deem the animal in question essential to your mental health. Then it becomes illegal for places of living to charge pet fees or deny entry to said animal

    • @sofiapatrao2796
      @sofiapatrao2796 2 роки тому +7

      @@yaoiover18justcos Thank you for doing research! That is correct! Most of the time it has to be A psychiatrist as they can write prescriptions, but that can vary from state to state :)

  • @CainEverest
    @CainEverest Рік тому +3

    I recently discovered I have atypical autism, which has also revealed that I have a separation in my brain that led to a couple pseudo-alters (how my therapist described them to me). They are extensions of myself but they have taken on personalities that channel through my body and they were VERY important to preserving my brain after I was smashed by a car last year. They took over at times while I was recovering but I barely remember any of it.
    I still hear some of them at times, and they've once again taken a backseat, but they are a part of me as extensions of my personality.
    It's a pleasure to meet you Maeri. Looking forward to your TikTok Lives!

  • @Amymay-ql4wv
    @Amymay-ql4wv 2 роки тому +753

    It must be strange to be aware you've only existed for a month, and being so aware of your purpose, your reason to be around, is that comforting ? I know many people want to know their purpose in life, is it comforting to know yours? Or do you find it brings pressures knowing what you need to amount to be? I'm just very curious how it must feel.

    • @nicolamacpherson9605
      @nicolamacpherson9605 2 роки тому +10

      Yes! This was all I could think when she said that too!

    • @nataliravn
      @nataliravn 2 роки тому +5

      Honestly, same.

    • @YiPeaches
      @YiPeaches 2 роки тому +60

      My alter Minsung came into existence having no idea who he was or why he was there, but only a few days later decided his job is to make the system rest. Just days after splitting off, he knew we work ourselves too hard and stress too much and noticed he was only in front if we were worn out and decided that was his job.

    • @paradox13
      @paradox13 2 роки тому +46

      For us knowing we have a purpose and knowing what that is can feel both depending? Like I know one of our trauma holders feels devastated her purpose is to hold trauma (this is shared with permission don't worry) vs other parts feel happy to know they're doing something useful/contributing.
      It also can feel stupid or "less then" if you see your role/purpose as "less important" than other roles. Which can be hard.

    • @NightPain
      @NightPain 2 роки тому +14

      I’m speaking about my alter Dami.
      Well at first, she was very afraid. She didn’t know who she was, why she existed and where she was as a whole. She couldn’t speak very well either. However, once she gathered an identity (well developed one) over the years, she says it is more comforting now. Almost like there’s a purpose for her to be there in a weird way? - May

  • @artnerd3727
    @artnerd3727 2 роки тому +429

    Omg Maeri is so sweet, it legitimately made me smile when she said that she has a pretty happy life cause I know your system has gone through a lot, especially these past few years!

    • @DissociaDID
      @DissociaDID  2 роки тому +128

      I'm so lucky to have the purpose I do! I love my life

    • @pinkpanda196
      @pinkpanda196 2 роки тому +5

      @@DissociaDID aww❤

  • @izzyfoshizzy
    @izzyfoshizzy 2 роки тому +573

    Maeri I love the fact that you just popped up and immediately went “yes cat good”

  • @alexia3552
    @alexia3552 2 роки тому +40

    Wow, instantly from the first second Maeri feels like a nurturing presence. She exudes warmth and safety. Thank you for letting us meet you!

  • @cassiecrossing6455
    @cassiecrossing6455 2 роки тому +206

    I just got diagnosed with DID this past Tuesday! And I can’t thank anyone else but you guys for helping me get there! I appreciate it so much.

    • @sosi1112
      @sosi1112 2 роки тому +19

      Omg that's so interesting! I am sorry you had to go through what ever you went through but I feel excited for you now that you know and maybe you can adjust to the diagnosis a little ❤️❤️ have you met some of your alters yet? Or have you always been conscious of each other? At what part of your journey are you if I may ask? I hope you're having a great day!

    • @cassiecrossing6455
      @cassiecrossing6455 2 роки тому +12

      @@sosi1112 omg I’m so sorry I’m just seeing this! I really appreciate your comment so much. I have met some of my alters, so far there’s 5 of us! Cassie (host/me!), Logan (protector), Bradley (protector/trauma holder), Nicolette (trauma holder), and Ember. I’m still very fresh in my journey, very new to the diagnosis. I’m still learning about it everyday, but I try to spread as much education as I can! I hope your day is wonderful as well!

    • @A_bunch_of_homos
      @A_bunch_of_homos 2 роки тому +6

      Congrats on the diagnosis! We're a system. We don't have a diagnosis at the moment tho haha, we think it's OSDD 1b tho. If you ever want to talk about system things, just let us know and we'll give your our Instagram.

  • @55JBJB
    @55JBJB 2 роки тому +326

    I absolutely adore the ombré of the system’s hair. Not only is it beautiful, but to me it symbolizes the growth of you all. The blonde was Chloe, the brown was Nin, and now the darker brown/black is Kya (obviously all other alters included in those integrations). It’s just so cool. Much love

  • @DL-kx6wn
    @DL-kx6wn 2 роки тому +231

    It's so great to see Maeri emerge as an external caretaker. It means the system recognized that there was a need to take care of themselves and thus dedicate an alter for this role. Self-care should be a priority.
    I wish Maeri and the system all the best going forward :)

  • @chaseme5428
    @chaseme5428 2 роки тому +245

    it's nice to meet you, hope the system is adjusting well and having a lovely time with things, good luck, all of you.

  • @soggy7683
    @soggy7683 2 роки тому +19

    omg maeri is just the physical emobodiment of a warm blanket, hot cocoa, good food cooking nearby and rain gently pattering on the windows🥺 she is just so calming and sweet. i have two anxiety based disorders and i have never had someone’s energy been able to put such a huge smile on my face and calm me down so easily. so happy to meet you maeri cant wait to see what you do

  • @weird6085
    @weird6085 2 роки тому +23

    Maeri reminds me a lot of Chloe, their voice mostly ! They are so calming, glowing et soft ! They are really conforting, reminds me of a sot blanket with some tee in front of a fireplace :3

  • @ingredi8409
    @ingredi8409 2 роки тому +546

    Gotta love Maeri rolling her eyes when saying Kya is "the boss" lmaaao

    • @DissociaDID
      @DissociaDID  2 роки тому +273

      She was standing right next to me the whole time 😅 Maeri

    • @andrewistvan3271
      @andrewistvan3271 2 роки тому +6

      @@DissociaDID is there like an internal world that you can see when not fronting? I sort of imagine the internal world as like an island where everyone has their own little area with one building that is where people can control from but I have no clue if that’s accurate. Other than that it’s a pleasure to meet you!

    • @skittles696
      @skittles696 2 роки тому +2

      @@andrewistvan3271 Believe they posted a video on this a while ago! Not sure if its still up, but basically took us through their inner world in sims

    • @andrewistvan3271
      @andrewistvan3271 2 роки тому +1

      @@skittles696 Would you mind giving me the title of the video? The closest thing I could find was the buddy system video

    • @andrewistvan3271
      @andrewistvan3271 2 роки тому

      @@armn2578 Yeah I found nothing.

  • @carid.6833
    @carid.6833 2 роки тому +144

    *protect this precious creature at all costs*

  • @Midnightmoon1611
    @Midnightmoon1611 2 роки тому +52

    Thank you so much for sharing about your system. I am a licensed mental health counselor and learning more from the system first hand has been so helpful (among my own research etc) I want to be the best support I can for my clients and your sharing has meant so much for me to better understand the experience of DID. Your system is so brave for doing this. I hope everyone is doing well.

  • @many-but-one
    @many-but-one 2 роки тому +17

    I watched this a few days ago. We had a recent split a couple weeks ago and she was really confused about what she was supposed to do. She felt kind of lost. She was also a fictive (somewhat). When she saw this video of you Maeri, we hadn't heard of an external caretaker role. She suddenly understood what she wanted to do. She's our newest, but has become so helpful and one of the most frequent fronters. I just wanted to say that your video really helped her understand her goals and what she felt like she wanted to be for the system. She is currently co-con and happy to see you on screen.🥰🥰 Much love! -Jules & Astrid

  • @erinmullen2397
    @erinmullen2397 2 роки тому +46

    Maeri is absolutely lovely. She really seems like she has such pure, open heart and I can understand how she's a great caretaker!

  • @camo770
    @camo770 2 роки тому +191

    Maeri is giving me such cutsie cottagecore vibes I cant handle the cuteness 😭💖

  • @ch0rkie
    @ch0rkie 2 роки тому +64

    (Sound levels are PERFECT by the way)
    Also lovely so see you in person, Maeri! Loved meeting you on Twitch, and I’m so glad you made a video!

  • @sarak9533
    @sarak9533 2 роки тому +153

    Its nice to meet you Maeri! Your whole aura is very calming and you seem to be a great caretaker

  • @maxonite
    @maxonite 2 роки тому +79

    Love the eyelashes and hair! Also the lighting really makes you guys’ eyes shine so beautifully! ❤️ Sorry for the superficial compliments, just had to say this 🥺 I really like Maeri, she seems very kind and calm!

  • @lauravgo
    @lauravgo 2 роки тому +22

    Maeri sounds so calming and fresh. I'm happy the system has her. ♡

  • @leahsmith6573
    @leahsmith6573 2 роки тому +81

    Maeri has such a calming aura about her, so I'm certainly not surprised that she's a caretaker! I'll have to keep up with the system's TikTok more so that I can see more of Maeri! She just seems absolutely lovely!

  • @theaurorasystem9784
    @theaurorasystem9784 2 роки тому +109

    Hi Maeri! Really happy to meet you! I didn’t know you all had a streaming channel; I’ll have to check it out. I’m sure the rest of our system would love to as well!!!
    ~The Host of the Aurora System

  • @silly_hugger_fluffer
    @silly_hugger_fluffer 2 роки тому +175

    We’re all going to miss Kyle, and Nin, Nadia(?) and any others that aren’t who they once were in the system, but It’s exciting to see new faces such as Kya and and Maeri! I’m so happy that this system was able to get through 2020 and 2021, and I’m looking forward to continuing on with the system as it is now ❤

    • @manaspajamas5071
      @manaspajamas5071 2 роки тому +27

      I, too miss Kyle, Nin, Nadia, Chloe, and whomever else has merged. But the one thing DissociaDID's always stressed is they're still here, just in a different way; I think of it as when someone passes away you still feel their presence with you (at least I do), and it's even better because alters never really die, they just go dormant. Maybe we'll see them again, maybe not, I only hope they'll find peace and healing as they continue on this upward slope.

    • @susannahellmuth81
      @susannahellmuth81 2 роки тому +6

      Where did Nadia merge into?

    • @Readingcornervibes
      @Readingcornervibes 2 роки тому +6

      @@susannahellmuth81 I think Chloe and Nadia merged into Nin? And the Nin and Kyle into Kya sorry that’s probably wrong!

    • @rach5233
      @rach5233 2 роки тому +19

      @@Readingcornervibes chloe and nina merged into nin, not nadia :) as far as im aware we dont know what happened to nadia, but maybe theyve talked about it on patreon?

    • @taylorl.9875
      @taylorl.9875 2 роки тому +15

      @@Readingcornervibes Chloe and nina became nin, nin and Kyle became kya ❤️ Nadia was around before the channel went on break; I hope she’s okay

  • @ALISESOR
    @ALISESOR 2 роки тому +62

    Lovely to meet you Maeri! Holding the mic closer helps a LOT and I look forward to seeing and hearing more from all of you! I also wanted to shout out a huge thank you for all your videos! It's helped me in so many ways trying to understand what is going on with me (still not 100% but managing is better than spiraling!)!

  • @LyricAndCompany
    @LyricAndCompany 2 роки тому +5

    We've got a few fictives who are very similar to their sources, and then there's me. I started off pretty similar, and then within a few months I'd changed my name, grown ears and a tail in headspace (how?? I still don't know), and went through a complete gender identity crisis. It's a wild ride sometimes lol it's nice to meet you Maeri! Glad you're settling in alright!

  • @KayBbyXOXOXO
    @KayBbyXOXOXO 2 роки тому +34

    Watching Maeri get excited about the things she likes makes me so happy!! Such a contagious smile!

  • @hayleybrajcic925
    @hayleybrajcic925 2 роки тому +81

    Wow Maeri exudes serenity. She must be so good at her role and such a lovely alter to have around. So nice to meet you!

  • @Ari-kx1wj
    @Ari-kx1wj 2 роки тому +455

    Maeri, the day after moving in: guys we have to get a cat why don't we have a cat already smh
    It's nice to meet you!

  • @nadiawright7453
    @nadiawright7453 2 роки тому +291

    How does it feel when you are first "created" or "formed" as an alter? Do you automatically understand the system and what your role is or do you have to learn who you are, and what DID/alters are before developing your role?

    • @Teddy-cn5xq
      @Teddy-cn5xq 2 роки тому +53

      For us, we come knowing who we are already but we have to meet everyone else after we "appear" and kind of introduce ourselves. We learn our roles by how we act and feel as we live just like how we found a protector and a co-host. We just kind of assume that is why we were created.

    • @FelishaMarie24
      @FelishaMarie24 2 роки тому +14

      @@Teddy-cn5xq hi, I have some question, do you hear them all at once in your head? Like different type of voices? Does having different alter affect how you dream? Could you describe in words how does it feel mentally? I would appreciate to know more. ✨💗

    • @jkstcibg
      @jkstcibg 2 роки тому +22

      For. This system precisely uh, after we rather appeared or formed, we know who we are already and just, have to introduce ourselves to the others.. I suppose we find out our roles through the way we act?

    • @jkstcibg
      @jkstcibg 2 роки тому +10

      Though the answer for this is unclear and is still figuring this system out.

    • @melissaperks7647
      @melissaperks7647 2 роки тому +10

      We recently had a new alter come about, she knew some things abt the system but I still don’t know her role. She might know her role but I don’t yet

  • @evely21writer
    @evely21writer 2 роки тому +10

    Maeri seems like the type of person I would love getting a hug from and would feel like she really truly cared about me. She did great!

  • @80s_rockgod49
    @80s_rockgod49 2 роки тому +64

    Maeri is so cute! Nice to meet you! Your voice is so calming.

  • @sugasweet1239
    @sugasweet1239 2 роки тому +21

    Love that you guys are allowing yourself to have the DissociaDID brand (project) whilst simply being Kya&Co or whoever&co( I know that’s a lot of pressure on the “host” to be the boss as Maeri said). Im happy to see the system keep working towards functional multiplicity with grace and wiggle room for growth. 💗💗💗💗

  • @RoKer13
    @RoKer13 2 роки тому +51

    Maeri’s voice and accent are so calming/soothing! Her personality reminds me a lot of mine lol Although I haven’t been reading lately, I want to get back into it though. And the fact you decided about the cat, you’re my favorite now 😂

  • @chaengsuki9105
    @chaengsuki9105 5 місяців тому +1

    ì just love the alters in this system! Everyone is so well spoken and just idk glow in their own way. The caretakers just give off ball of sunshine vibes and if anyone hurts them its on sight.

  • @hals_and_pals806
    @hals_and_pals806 2 роки тому +7

    Maeri has the calmest presence. I want to make tea and sit quietly in a room reading together 🍵 🥰

  • @mahariwynn1339
    @mahariwynn1339 2 роки тому +111

    Nice to meet you Maeri! Marysa is our caretaker, though she does both internal (mostly) and external (if it's been a very bad day). We can't wait to get to know you better

    • @aiyisss-2914
      @aiyisss-2914 2 роки тому +1

      Is it the caretaker things to have mostly M name? Cause mine is Maya 🤣

  • @LittleDergon
    @LittleDergon 2 роки тому +14

    I love how you have set up boundaries between your project and your social side

  • @sarcasdidsystem8536
    @sarcasdidsystem8536 2 роки тому +88

    We're always very excited to see you upload anything here or share stuff on Instagram! You're pretty much our role model as we learned soo much from you in our beginnings as a newly discovered system about 3 years ago 😆
    Really good to meet you Maeri! Awesome name spelling, and you're really nice and beautiful! ✨
    Hope your day is going well DissociaDID! 💜💙

    • @TheEDFLegacy
      @TheEDFLegacy 2 роки тому +2

      Just got to say I like your punny username (SarcasDID). That's clever. 😂👍

    • @sarcasdidsystem8536
      @sarcasdidsystem8536 2 роки тому +1

      @@TheEDFLegacy Lol, yeah, our partner system chose it based on a personality trait that kinda all of us have (sarcasm). It was smart indeed 😄

  • @powerfulferret
    @powerfulferret 2 роки тому +17

    It’s so lovely to see you guys uploading content again. I’m so glad you’ve gotten back to a place where you feel comfortable creating new content. It’s wonderful to meet you Maeri!

  • @analuiza5792
    @analuiza5792 2 роки тому +13

    i really like the spelling of maeri's name, it's so pretty! she speaks very soothingly too, this was such a pleasant video to watch and it's great to know maeri!! i think this is the first time such a new alter makes a "meet the alters" video, i'll be excited to see more of maeri in the future

  • @lisad.2810
    @lisad.2810 2 роки тому +80

    Also Maeris interaction with Puffin on the podcast was so sweet! Maeri seems like a very nice and caring person.

  • @beatriznery2805
    @beatriznery2805 2 роки тому +23

    It’s so great to meet you, Maeri! I caught one of your reading streams on TikTok and it was absolutely lovely. I’m really happy to see the system coming back online more. I’ve missed seeing you!

  • @cj_is_okay
    @cj_is_okay 2 роки тому +26

    Maeri has just this great vibe to her, just hearing her talk is very calming. Lovely meeting you Maeri :D

  • @leslieholland7843
    @leslieholland7843 2 роки тому +10

    Maeri, the sound was great, and you did a great job on this video. Welcome! I have a therapy kitty, we got her to help with my late husband's PTSD trauma from being a Marine Corps Scout/Sniper. He knew, during flashbacks, that there were no kitties in battle, so our cat Ariana would cuddle him and purr and Brien would come to realize where and when he was. Brien passed away, and Ariana has been critical in helping me heal from that trauma. A warm, purring cat helps tremendously on bad days, and her antics always make for great comic relief. So glad you all have Saraphina. Blessings to all of you!

  • @thev0idnati0n
    @thev0idnati0n 2 роки тому +22

    Not only was I recently diagnosed with DID, but the dynamic between Maeri and Kya sounds like a dynamic that I (external caretaker, because I didn't know this was a thing until now) have with one of the Boys in my mind. He's nice, but he can have a little temper.

  • @emelinawarsing6292
    @emelinawarsing6292 2 роки тому +10

    Ah Maeri you’re a gem!! I also love these changes y’all have made by living ur life on all these platforms! I can tell y’all are getting comfortable and I’m happy Bc nobody deserves to be living in survival mode constantly 🥺❤️

  • @Yupinachii
    @Yupinachii 2 роки тому +18

    Legit the sweetest person I've had the pleasure of meeting?watching? on the internet ;w; hi Maeri! You're doing a great job, much love to everyone!

  • @mich9727
    @mich9727 2 роки тому +50

    Hi Maeri it’s so nice to meet you, hope the system is doing alright ❤️

  • @Squidafiad
    @Squidafiad Рік тому +2

    Oh my god, Maeri you are so adorable! I love you and your system, you guys are all fantastic and strong. I am always glad to see your face and hear from each and every one of you. Anyone should feel glad to have you in their life, and I hope the best for you. Continue to stay strong guys!

  • @KattKitt22
    @KattKitt22 2 роки тому +20

    As soon as Maeri started to speak I thought to myself “That sounds familiar to another alter.” And for the life of me I couldn’t remember the alter’s name 😭 Thank goodness Maeri mentioned Sally and explained everything 💜

  • @rixanajopson8764
    @rixanajopson8764 2 роки тому +79

    Audio is great on this one! No problems whatsoever. Sounds perfect. Lovely to meet you Maeri! Also, as someone else mentioned, you might like Stardew Valley or The Sims, both very chill games. :)

    • @swiftly_produced2694
      @swiftly_produced2694 2 роки тому

      They dont have a Nintendo switch, but im pretty sure that they would love animal crossing

  • @L1z3.04
    @L1z3.04 2 роки тому +6

    Honestly Maeri should do asmr or something like that! She (?) seems so so sweet and kind and is SO comforting to listen to

  • @msb5775
    @msb5775 2 роки тому +47

    It’s interesting and refreshing to see someone who’s learning to use the internet for the first time. Maeri is coming up with her own creative ideas (like reading bedtime stories) that I wouldn’t have even thought of. These days a lot of content on the internet is commercialized to just get views 😔

  • @michellinkapawlowski1795
    @michellinkapawlowski1795 2 роки тому +174

    I don't know why, but she's giving me strange vibes that she would be good at ASMR. I would love her maybe doing it one day. I love you Guys!!!!

    • @kelde1387
      @kelde1387 2 роки тому +9

      i was looking for this comment because i feel the same. that's the first thing I noticed about her, even her expressions and movements feel very asmr and of course her voice and just the way she speaks.

    • @georgedarlington8563
      @georgedarlington8563 2 роки тому +4

      exactly what i was thinking!

  • @kyeishaharvey
    @kyeishaharvey 2 роки тому +8

    Maeri's entire energy is calming and warm and makes me feel happy and almost looks like a beautiful glowing fairy. I hope we see more of you.

  • @isabellathomas1314
    @isabellathomas1314 2 роки тому +16

    Maeri is so sweet, calming, and wholesome. Also, good on her for putting her foot down in adopting the precious little fluff known as Seraphina.

  • @alialynngonz
    @alialynngonz 2 роки тому +11

    Maeri, you’re such a beautiful soul and I am so happy to meet you! (also the body’s hair looks absolutely STUNNING today)

  • @vryvry3999
    @vryvry3999 2 роки тому +72

    Maeri: * *star-wipes into existence* * id like to order one cat please okay thank you
    ~*~
    Seriously tho, it's lovely to meet you Maeri! You seem lovely, thank you for looking after the system and the body!

  • @DeeDeexx
    @DeeDeexx Рік тому +4

    I love Maeris energy and aura. I just felt like I was sitting next to a calm stream trickling over rocks. Or something like that. Very calming and relaxing. 🙂.

  • @lexshia
    @lexshia 2 роки тому +23

    3:30 awww, i would totally listen to this like ASMR vids, your voice is soothing too 😭

  • @ImogenDeighton
    @ImogenDeighton Рік тому +9

    The part where Maeri says ''It's just Kya saying balls about 8 times in a row as she gets destroyed buy a machine.'' is just my favorite part of the video.

  • @rotisseriepossum
    @rotisseriepossum 2 роки тому +7

    I feel like Maeri would be rly into embroidery or knitting. Idk but knitting is super grounding/calming for me

  • @blue-wb1sf
    @blue-wb1sf 2 роки тому +8

    can maeri make asmr 😭 genuinely so comforting and relaxing just hearing them talk I can't explain ir

  • @gillypiexo
    @gillypiexo 2 роки тому +4

    Proud of you. You guys taught me about dissociation. I live in the USA where complex ptsd is not recognized nor diagnosed. so i have heavy dissociation, derealization & depersonalization, But these will only ever be recognized as symptoms of PTSD. It is absolutely a miserable place & situation where, I can go through over ten years of therapy & psychiatrists & diagnostic assessments, with no one teaching me,nor asking me about any of this. Thank God I took the time to seriously research different keywords trying to describe what i had been experiencing-for days, and find other people saying my experiences and leading me to your system. Blessings.

  • @pandaryuzaki
    @pandaryuzaki 2 роки тому +19

    I get you Kya xD We feel the same way about our bunny. She's our emotional support pet and our everything. We love her because she has taken the best in us.

  • @LoreEclectic
    @LoreEclectic 2 роки тому +9

    Maeri seems like such a sweetheart! I'm glad she's been able to make changes to help the system

  • @Gineyinabottle
    @Gineyinabottle 2 роки тому +8

    Hi Maeri! A huge pleasure to meet you! For a 1st UA-cam vid, you did amazing! Your presence is really calming & sweet.. Hope we can get to know you more in the future

  • @bekahbabie
    @bekahbabie 2 роки тому +10

    You’re so calming even for me!! Like if I ever met you I just know I would feel at home with you right away~ I’m so happy the system has someone as reliable and comforting as you 💜

  • @meganscanlon9560
    @meganscanlon9560 2 роки тому +103

    I'm curious what/who the source was for Maeri since she is a fictive. I love how she seems to be getting to know the alters in the system and she's so go with the flow about her purpose and demeanor.

  • @anaisgelinas
    @anaisgelinas 2 роки тому +4

    Omg, I love her SO MUCH! She is soooo calming, just hearing her talk makes my anxiety feel better. She must be such a blessing for the system!!

  • @Myms365
    @Myms365 2 роки тому +26

    Nice to meet you Maeri, I often saw your tiktok lives and really enjoyed it! You seem really sweet! 😊
    I hope everyone is doing okay in the system, take care! ❤️

  • @TheFirebelly
    @TheFirebelly 2 роки тому +9

    I had the pleasure of hearing Maeri on The System Stream! Looking forward to getting to know you, and I'm so happy to see the system back on UA-cam again

  • @Embeeech
    @Embeeech 2 роки тому +6

    She is so sweet and adorable, her bright and positive energy reminds me so much of how Chloe was 🥰 she’s a bit more calm and relaxed than Chloe was though!

  • @istolejungkooksbananamilk5746
    @istolejungkooksbananamilk5746 2 роки тому +16

    omg Maeri seems extremely sweet and genuine!! Nice to meet youuu, this was a lovely introduction :)

  • @lelabrownell880
    @lelabrownell880 Рік тому +3

    I’d love to get another video of Maeri to see how she's settled in with the system, and see who she’s closer to now :)