Dysphoric - Cavetown (Lyric Video)
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- Опубліковано 6 бер 2018
- I guess it’s just one of those days :/
This song does not belong to me, it belongs to the rightful owner(s) (Cavetown)
Here’s the link to my last video:
• To Hold Amber - Caveto...
Lyrics:
Don't let me see what I am
cause I can't stand it, no I cant
I'm coming back round again
It's been over a year, I thought this was the end
And now I don't remember comfort
because what I am is what I'm not
I don't belong here, it's just hopeless
Find me a way out if you love me at all
Don't let me hear what they say
cause I can't stand it everyday
I'm thinking that I should leave now
And I don't think I'm coming back this time
Cause now I dont remember comfort
because what I am is what I'm not
This phantom skin it's weird to live in
So find me a way out if you love me at all
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so i checked up on this video today and realized today marks 5 years since i’ve uploaded it. i also realized we hit 3 million views. that’s incredible! thank you guys a ton
You're welcome, you deserve it!!!
what a coincidence that i come back so soon after
congrats! on 3 mil views
:)
Congratulations :D
"What i am is what im not"
It hits too close
Same..
Same
You are valid be who you are
Oh yeah same and ive almost definitely fucked up my chances of top surgery with improper binding
@@jude297 I'm so sorry honey
just wanna let y'all trans kids know i love you and will always support you no matter what 💕💕💕
Thanks! I really needed to hear that!
Thank you so much... those are the words I've wanted to hear, but knew I never would. This means the world to me.
🥺
Thank you!!
I’ll be able to buy a binder in a safe environment and get a masculine haircut in January :,D
best of luck my friend
Aww yay congratulations 🎊
How's it going
What type of binder? I've been looking in to one for a while now
I hope your doing great :)
Advice for trans boys: When you're on your period and getting cramps, pretend you're an assassin on a mission who just got stabbed in the abdomen by your target and can't tell anyone for the sake of your pride.
-Your local trans/genderfluid individual (who definitely is NOT an assassin)
How the hell did you manage to make me feel like a badass while I'm curled up in a ball of pain? Thanks dude
this comment is so fucking awesome, my god ily
my periods make me severely dysphoric so for this i will be forever grateful
IM NONBINARY AND FELT LIKE A BADASS IN PAIN
@@FallingAsh20 i actually love this
Here is some advice from a trans male:
when a transgender guy is on his period he tends to be really dysphoric. in that case, be as nice as possible if you wanna keep ur head
@kovuchii Heyyyy, if you cannot get a haircut you could always put your hair in a ponytail or a bun and wear a hat or a baseball cap to make it sorta look like you have shorter hair! I'm not sure about the binder situation though. You could always ask a friend to order online and have it shipped to their house or pick it up on the little amazon box things at stores. If they don't understand gender dysphoria then try explaining it to them or showing them a video on it. Sorry if i couldn't help very much. But good luck~~ Lots of love.
@kovuchii No problem!!
something that might maybe bring you some comfort, testosterone increases when someone is on their period, so think of periods as free testosterone
Also when you’re on your period you don’t have a lot of estrogen in your body so it helps with the mindset. I’m going on t in a month. Can’t wait 😊
i just started mine so this made me feel better
yes I'm a trans guy, yes i like skirts, yes i like painting my nails. it really hurts when i see people calling cis guys "kings" when they do these things, but when i do people start calling me by my dead name again. it sucks.
You're strong and knowing who YOU are is the most important thing. Don't let anyone take it from you and above all, be yourself. It can be SO hard but I believe in you
Bro, youre an absolutle King. Here, youll need it: 👑
I know it is not fair at all
Don’t listen to them, you are an absolute KING! Here, take your crown back 👑
YOU ARE A KING!!!
A trans boy in an unaccepting house, transphobic friends, no binder and not allowed to cut my hair, I’m struggling, but Cavetown makes me feel the incredible need to be able to hug music
Hey, ur a valid boy
@@noname7187 hey. ik everything probably seems dark for you rn. im sorta in the same situation. i see you. i hear you. you matter. i hope you see this and know that one day, if you keep fighting someone will find you. you wont be alone like this forever. you have a future.
You got this! I’m in a super similar situation I hope everything works out for you, you’re valid!
@@Imtired879 Oh wow. This notif made me jump. 2 years ago, yikes. I’ve definitely changed a lot as a person. I have since gained an amazing friend that helps me keep going though! I’m sure things get will better for you, and you’re valid too man! Hope your situation gets better! Hang in there fella :]
@@deceptionvex I’m so happy everything worked out for you :)
This song hit so hard. I’m a closeted trans man living with my parents. I asked for a haircut before, but i got told that i would look too much like a boy. I feel so trapped here, but I’m terrified to tell my parents, because one of them is transphobic. Hearing songs like these, and seeing other trans ppls stories helps remind me that I’m not all alone.
Im starting Testosterone tomorrow wish me luck
Hows the 7 month treating you?
Congrats on 1 year bro!
hey how was that 1 yr?
congrats on 1 year!!
it's nice to see that people still come here and support people even after a full year
i want to cut my hair but my parents think its too "boy-ish" and that a girl shouldn't have short hair. but little do they know that im actually a boy Ah-Haha
Just go for feminine models with short hair, for the cut you want. It makes the haircut seem way more feminine, in the photo, until SHABAM I'm a guy
@The Nerdy Musician closet demiboy gang (☞ ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)☞
when i had long hair i used to wear it i a pony tail or bun every day and night because i didn’t like to have my hair down. eventually i started getting really bad headaches to the point where i couldn’t even put my head on my pillow. so i told my mom this and how my curly hair was hard to manage and that it was starting to get hot she FINALLY (after 2 years) let me cut my hair. So then she told me to pick a style and it was one i didn’t really like to much but it was good enough. so i got the hair cut and i’m glad i was wearing a mask cause the entire time i was smiling SO MUCH. i ended up styling my hair differently like how i originally wanted it (miles mckenna hair) and now my hair looks like his and i feel successful. but anyway, when i told my mom i want the hair cut she said “you know people will think you’ll look like a lesbian, right” and i just said okay 😂. but fast forward to now, i LOVE my hair and my family will sometimes call me a boy as an insult but secretly it gives me so much confidence ✌️✨
-closeted trans non-binary person 🌈
Sleepy Bird I wanna grow out my hair but my parents think it’s too girlish. I don’t identify as a female either and I’ve told my mom that I don’t want to physically change my body to express myself. Even though she never says it out loud I think she finds it weirder that I want to be girly as a boy than girly as an actual girl
Maybe show them feminine folk with short hair & say you want look like them? That’ll possibly trick them into letting you cut your hair short! Idk just a possible idea!
I remember when I was 11 crying to this song wishing I could just be cis.
Now years later I am in the process of starting T. Please if you are a trans kid please know that it does get better and you are not disgusting you are perfect the way you are.
i'm 16 crying in the dark at midnight wishing i were a cis man. thank you for this validation, i really needed this today
what does cis mean? (srry if I sound rude..)
@@rottinqc0rpse this isnt rude at all to be cis just means to identify with the gender you were assigned at birth🖤
@@BennyBenny-td1ry i understand exactly what you are going through, i'm going through the same thing. you are valid and it has to get worse before it gets better. i am nowhere near that point of getting better but i've just learned that you have to believe in yourself. i will be your trans brother in solidarity. this world needs you man
I'm 11 and this will definitely help because I'm trans myself
the emotion in his voice is breathtaking.
His voice is just that good lol
my parents are transphobic and I'm a male for sure, i haven't been able to even cut my hair, but in 15 days I'm chopping it off when I drive to a hair salon. I'm tired of hiding.
How’d they react?
I hope that went well for you!
@@williamwu4535 YES
@@williamwu4535 I CANT SEE YOU BUT I AM SURE YOU ARE GORGEOUS WITH A LONG HAIR
YASSSS KINGGGGG
I know u put this comment like 6 months ago but still I’m very proud or you
My mom has reverted back to calling me by my dead name and calling me a girl because she thinks I'm just confused. And I really hurts because I know that who she thinks I am isn't me. I went from being accepted and looking like a guy to being called girl and being seen as one. I can't wait for the day I can leave this house and finally be myself, completely, 100% me.
Edit: I usually don’t do edits like this but so many people in the replies have been asking, and I don’t have time to reply to all of them. But for anyone wondering, I’m doing... fine now. I’m still not accepted by my family, I don’t think I’ll ever be. I did realize that she was right about one thing though, I’m not a boy. But I’m also not a girl. I’m non-binary, I’m just me.
I hope things get better for you soon my dude~
Hey im really sorry to hear that but just remember that you know who you are and that no-one can't take that away form you
Same
I hope you're doing okay my dude! If yo mom doesn't support you for who you are then we'll support you! ^ ^
@@yellowcoom1741 bruh ur ohshc name lmao
not me crying because of all the supportive people in the comments giving me euphoria
Same bro
As a fem trans guy, you are completely valid ! you being masculine does not define you being a guy at all! You are amazing just the way you are, so go be the amazing femboy you are !
haha always come back to this when i’m having a dysphoric breakdonw
That's why I'm here ;-;
It's a really good song. I do the same things.
Hahahahaha
Me
:')
haha same here
Yeah me too :/
The name: Dysphoric
Me: *clicks* ah yes
Aria Dreemer that is very much adequate
Literally what I did.
same 😭🖐️
ATSUSHI PFP AAA
0:20 “I’m coming back round again. It’s been over a year, I thought this was the end” hits hard man. I’m bad with words but for me this symbolizes both dysphoria and anxiety. Like finally breaking free of either feeling and then having it happen again after you thought you had finally gotten rid of it.
this song hurts,
it hits just the right places
Yeah I’m cis. Yeah I’m a male. Yeah I listen to Cavetown. If someone needs a supportive brother, I’m here for you whether you’re gay and your family doesn’t accept you, or you’re trans and have a supportive family, or bi and nobody believes you, I DONT CARE I WILL STILL LOVE AND SUPPORT YOU CAUSE YOURE VALID 👍🏻
we stan a supportive brother
Thanks Kiri!!
Thank you
Awww kirishima you really are best boi 💕
Q-Q
I just spent a hour crying im getting a binder delivered to a friends house and its 100% free i was crying to her over the phone "im finally gonna be flat"
HENRYMAISHON i’m so happy for you! getting a binder for the first time is honestly the most euphoric feeling. please remember to take care of yourself though!
I’m so happy for you dude! ❤️
Omg I’m so happy for you, I’m crying lol. No really. There’s tears running down my face..... maybe one day I’ll be in your position?
just remember your not gonna be completely flat, its designed to make your tibbys look like pecks. but for real Im happy for you!
@@jesushatsunemiku6165 I hope so!
hey, if your nonbinary and listening to this song: i want you to know that you are trans enough. you are valid and belong in the trans community if it’s something you would be comfortable in :)
You know thank you so much for this it is going to help me out so much
Thanks, I needed that right now
thanks^^
i'm non-binary and possibly transmasc.. idk
I needed this
Thanks a ton. I needed this right now
Saw this pop up in my recommended and thought I'd give this a listen for old times sake. And holy crap did I forget how utterly draining dysphoria is. So glad I got the meds I needed.
This song hits me and I can relate to every word and I’m so so sorry for anyone who is struggling with dysphoria. (Edit: Dang, it’s been a year.. or two.. I can’t believe people actually liked my comment it was just when I started figuring myself out, well thanks for all the likes :) )
I'm wanting to die bc I have lots of gender dysphoria and I wanna tell my family but their gonna get mad at me and not accept me I'm ftm trans
Heylookmeghansgaming!!! i’ll be ur new dad i accept you child
I’ve told my parents they ignore it and pretend it just because I have autism which I don’t by the way! And they said I didn’t want to get dressed in the girls changing rooms because of sensory overloads which is just a lie getting changed in their was hell but not for that reason and even with out that getting changed is awful and my mum deliberately called me her daughter on social media where everyone can see and My parents are trying to take me away from my friends I just want to be cis so bad man it’s hell I would rather rip my skin of then keep living like this
@@bigscareddog540 a d o p t me p l s
Asher Hewer MY FAMILY DO THAT TOO IM CRYING THEY SAY ITS CAUSE I SEE THE WORLD DIFFERENTLY DUE TO ASPERGERS SYNDROME I JUST CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE
No one:
Literally no one:
Dead ass no one:
Me: *Play this at my funeral, okay?*
let the waterworks flow
I dont think I'm coming back this time,,,
@no, my name is tyler oh shit
mood
At mine too
"This phantom skin is weird to live in." That hit hard.
For transguys:
You are just as masculine as the other boys! Don't let anyone tell you something else! 🚹
For transgirls:
You are just as beautiful as the other girls! Don't let anyone tell you something else! 🚺
*gnc trans guys crying in the background*
@@HoneyPOWMorethanjustahoneypot what is gnc?
@@laura-vq6zc gender non-conforming. like, feminine guys or masculine girls
@@HoneyPOWMorethanjustahoneypot they are also beautiful and worthy :D
@@HoneyPOWMorethanjustahoneypot yall aint any less male 💕❤
I showed my bestfriend this song to maybe help her understand my dysphoria... she cried and I just feel really bad.. but it helped. Everyone I've shown this song to has backed off. They've stopped calling me things that really trigger my dysphoria.
"and I don't think I'm coming back this time"
man that hits hard rn.
“What I am is what I’m not” I actually want this line tattooed, it hits me so damn hard 🥺
Sometimes I really wish I wasn’t like this, I wish I was cis, straight, girly, skinny and beautiful. I wish I was normal
hAh mood. (:(
Me too
Chihiro Fujisaki *kith kith*
Holoshreksuals *kith kith*
Heh...
Mood...
When you support everyone but yourself and fall deep into a depression and rethink you sexuality gender identity and stuff that's what the past 2-3 years of my life has been
I'm gonna support you too
Same...
Hey, I relate too much to this.......
Just know, after a bit you start to learn how to support yourself. After holding up people for a long time your start to apply what you learned from supporting others to supporting yourself.
It's hard at first, but it gets easier as the time goes by, and it's always a bonus when you get a friend or sibling or just someone who can also help you support you.
I feel that I realized that I liked guys when I was 12 and was sacred. Now I'm 16 and I'm pan and a trans girl and I accept it all. It's been such a journey.
i told my mom my preferred name and pronouns a few days ago. she told me she wouldn't use them for a few reasons. (my dad didn't know about me questioning yet, etc.) but that night while i was cleaning the kitchen she called me echo, my preferred name. i almost cried. i don't think she even realizes how much that means to me.
she also told me we would work on getting a binder and cutting my hair a bit shorter (my hair is shoulder length right now because when i got my haircut all of the hints i gave her that i wanted a more masculine hairstyle just flew over her head, so she told me to not get one that went over shoulder length)
i'm scared of what my dad would think though. he's not a bad person, but i've learned to never go to him about my mental health.
My binder's arriving today!
kewl
YAY!! CONGRATS!
Bruh I’m so upset to hear Robbie was forced to come out because some asshole pointed out a post on purpose on tumblr where he used the T slur before he was popular and when he publicly talked about being trans and was just a teen. Some fucking asshole dug into his past and brought this to light and he had to come out in fear of being called transphobic. Forcing someone to come out is not okay and can make them extremely dysphoric and a violation of privacy. All around the situation is horrible, much love to CT we lysm.
I kind of always thought everyone already knew that he was, even before he came out. Like as FtM it just seemed obvious so I was very confused when all of this happened lol.
I started listening to cavetown when I was in sixth grade and I was surprised when I found out he wasn’t out at that time because I always kinda knew he was transgender
@@vflower3655 Yeah, I thought it was really obvious.
😂 ❤ yep 🩸
Remembering when my old toxic friend tried to get me to stop listening to cavetown because of the slur thing
3 panic attacks in the same store. scars all over my body. all I write is "off" in my journal. I move and my arm touches my chest. I remember everything. It all floods to my brain, and out my eyes. I remember what my body is. I can feel the weight being in all the wrong places. it absolutely crushes me. anything I was thinking about is just pushed aside to remind me what I am. I can't look in the mirror without seeing someone that isn't me. all I see a girl that failed at being a girl. god even the word girl, she/her pronouns used on other people, makes me feel this way. nothing feels right, I hope this can all change someday.
it will change, stay strong, you can do it. and if you want it, im sending you a big virtual hug :,)
you can make it! I'm rooting for you
I've never heard someone put exactly how I feel to words before this
wait omg i just saw this got a lot of likes and comments HELLO??? ily all 🥺
Me too noone knows I hate being a girl
My school band has uniforms and I get the boys’ one, I’m so happy :D
having my first ever dysphoric breakdown, im not sure if this song is helping or making it worse but im gonna keep on listening to it, it's just so amazing.
@The Unnamed Cousin yep, cavetown's a he/him
Me, a closeted non-binary person being misgendered all the time but too scared to correct anyone: 👁💧👄💧👁
I'm not even closeted anymore lol I'm just too scared to correct anyone
Eventually though, get through this stuff and be ourselves
@@magicalmarshmallow6133 same
@@magicalmarshmallow6133 same. my friends and I were talking and then they called me by my dead name, but I was too scared to correct them. Even tho I have told them :(
@@magicalmarshmallow6133 same ;v;
I hate that this song isn’t on Spotify :(
laptop tip! use a youtube link to mp3 and download the mp3 of the song, go to spotify and setting, show local files. From there, it should pop up! the only downsides are other people can't listen to it, only see that it is added to your playist and you can't play it on anything that isn't what you downloaded it on. hope this helps :D
@@pianopaeonia thank uu !!
@@pianopaeonia bro thankyou
same i looked it up but its not on it- :'(
there’s a version by mars on spotify
God I want a chest binder
It hurts knowing that they’ll never understand what’s happening to me at all.
Dysphoria is a curse, nothing else. It’s absolutely a horrible thing. Its obviously not the absolute worst thing a human can deal with but it’s definitely up on the list. Personally dysphoria just makes me constantly want to cry and hide myself from people when I’m in public. I often have to come home and just cry in my bathroom because of bad dysphoria days. To all my fellow trans people, I wish you all have an amazing day and that all your transitions go well!
That’s exactly how I feel and I hate it..
@pajamas don't give up. No matter how deep in a hole you are in, you can always get back up. There's people in your life who care for you. Even though I'm a stranger I really hope the best for you.❤️I myself too deal with dysphoria and I really am terrified of coming out to my family. How I cope with it is think that one day, even if I tell them and they don't love me, I can leave and live the life I want. And block them out completely. I can find someone to love and understand me. And I can finally be free. Hope this helps you.
I made a comment trying to explain dysphoria. It was pretty long, but I’m hoping it’ll help someone somewhere understand our pain, or maybe even their own. I basically talk about how it feels for me, and try to give the best possible understanding I can to anyone who can read three pages of babbling
Yeah it is absolute hell. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemies. I wish this all would just end, that I didnt have to be surrounded by people who call me by my dead name and by she/her pronouns. I have to sit and write thank you letters with my dead name on them. My chest hurts from binding so much, but I cant help but to keep it on because when I feel my chest I cant help but to hide in my room and cry.
On the bright side, I guess I get to start T when all of this Quarantine is over with.
Honestly I'm really lucky. My dysphoria isn't all that bad. It's just severe discomfort and at worst a feeling of my body not being mine. But it doesn't really make me cry. Not that bad anyway. It just kinda makes me feel hopeless. Mainly when ppl misgender me. Cuz it feels so impossible that I'll get treatment or be able to transition.
Me, a transguy: *doesn't cry, no matter how much I need to*
Cavetown/Robbie: Hold my lemonade-
Dysphoria and Talk to Me gets me everytime, and for anyone who needs it, you are valid♡ Stay safe and Happy Pride Blm
Thank you, and just saying...
Think everyone needs to here this*
*you are valid. It doesn't matter if you are trans, nonbinary, genderfluid, cis etc. You. Will. Always. Be. Valid.*
@@demontomfoolery ty :) I like your username.
Is that a fander I spy 👀
@@brookecatherine2883 falsehood -shh don't call me out-
thanks for the songs man!!
As someone who can't come out to their parents, this song hurts.. a lot.
Same here :( 💜
I feel so bad for everybody in this comment section, so, like, how are you?
Same though came out to them once never again
For everyone in the comments saying they're not trans but can relate. Dysphoria is something anyone can go through and comes in many forms. It's to be so insecure and not feel connected to a part of you. I'm a cis female and don't care about my gender but I have facial dysphoria. The most commonly known form of dysphoria is gender dysphoria. Those of you going through this are so brave! Everyone here is :)
Me: Nah I don't have gender dysphoria. I'm secure in my female existence.
Cavetown: I'm a dumb teen boy-
Me: Lol I relate.
Cavetown: *This Is Home*
Me: Lol me too.
Cavetown: *song legit called Dysphoric*
Me: Lol I feel that.
edit - ummm so it turns out that I'm trans in case anyone was curious-
this was originally about me being very deeply in denial because for some reason I was like 'haha yeah I want to b a boy still cis tho'
You don’t need Dysphoria to be trans. Don’t let ANYBODY tell you different :)
Bastian Leo
It can be a feeling and not a hatred
mood
Bastian Leo Discomfort, disgusts and sadness
@@xxthat_weird_enbyxx2438 Dysphoria isnt hatered. Dysphoria is just incongruence.
Nonbinary person here, this song literally saves my life and I’m really sad it’s not on spotify
hi! i'm non binary too! hope you're having a wonderful day!
Same here hon
Yay!! Fellow enbies!!! I was looking for y’all
i was looking for y’all! hello! i hope you’ve all been well :)
I also am non-binary! And same here.
I used to cry to this song, not understanding why. I'm 21 now and 5 yrs on T lmao. It gets better
me: *chilling having a really good day*
dysphoria: hey😏
I'm a trans guy, and the thing that makes me the most dysphoric isn't my height, chest, voice, or even how stupidly wide my hips are. It's cis boys.
I'm aware I'm feminine, and whenever I'm around masculine cis guys it makes me realize how much I don't act like an actual guy. I speak femininely, dress femininely, walk femininely, and occasionally paint my nails, and sometimes it makes me feel like I'm not trans enough. Like I'm not trying hard enough to pass.
A while ago, I went to the bathroom a minute or two before the bell rang, and it rang before I was able to finish up and leave. The bathroom almost instantly flooded with boys, and the moment I opened the stall door I just... froze. Froze, and panicked. When I finally managed to make myself go wash my hands and leave, I heard some guy in the hallway say to his friend, "There was just a girl in the boy's bathroom", and I practically ran to my bus, and almost started crying on the way home. It hurt, a lot.
tl;dr: feminine trans guys are still trans, please respect our pronouns :(
EDIT: wow thank you guys all for your support, since posting this I've started to identify as non-binary, using he/they(/possibly it?) pronouns and the last two times I've confused cis guys, instead of getting upset about it, I just laughed instead. Just a little while ago, some guy in the locker room said to his friend about me, "That's her. Er.. them. Er..... it." I'm aware he was trying to get under my skin, but I enjoyed it more than I really should have. :)
wow thats sad at least you have the courage to use the boys bathroom have any tips on how to now be extreamly scared to use the boys bathroom i just dont use the public bathroom cuz im to scared and thats not masculine
being feminine will never make you less of a boy, and remember there will always be somone who loves you and accepts you.
Feminine boys are still boys! You’re valid no matter what.
Femboys exist and their as much as a boy as the others
Your valid. Your 'trans enough'! It's ok to be feminine. Just be you! And I'll support you!
i'm not trans so i can't relate but i would give so much to take that pain off of your shoulders. to everyone reading this, i hope with my whole heart thaf you find happiness one day and that you keep going💕
edit: i didn't realize so many people liked this comment ?? anyways i'm nonbinary now so like-
this really means a lot. I'm a trans man and knowing there are allies out there make the struggle a bit easier.
@@wayward_clique9309 i'll always be here for my trans siblings! since i posted this i found out im nb so thats kinda whack but im proud of you for coming so far and im sure you look extremely handsome today💕
that's awesome that you found your identity. the trans community always has our non-binary pals backs.@@linalea04
shockedmushroomghosts i know what it's like to have fake support, my grandparents and great grandparents "support" me but they say im ill and there gonna get god to help me. one day we'll both get to be ourselves. one we can say to the people who "supported" us : look at me now, im truly myself, im truly happy.
i hope you have a good day/night, one day you're gonna get to become your true self
Same
This song has honestly saved my life, and I’m sure so many more
cis: why do trans people like cavetown so much???
me, a trans enby:
Today i broke down on the floor crying and i don't know the reason.
I closed my eyes and the only thing i could see was myself, short hair, flat chest, smiling.
That's when i realized; i'm a boy.
I always related to this song and i didn't know why.
Especially "cause what i am is what i'm not"
I always felt weird and not like myself.
I'm so sorry.
Be who you want to be
Dude, that's sad, just remember to be _YOU_ and do what makes _YOU_ happy
Subscribe to pewdiepie And Not tgay I realized I was a boy when I started realizing in most of my dreams I was a dude. And Everytime I had imagined my future I literally wasn't there. Like I imagined some dog I would have but I just wasn't there. I couldn't see myself. Then I started seeing myself as a boy with an amazing husband and some adopted kid with a dog. I just wanna. Tim travel. Skip everything. And just get to that point. I don't wanna come out to my parents they're transphobic. My family is. I don't wanna wait til I get out of college to transition. I don't even wanna go through the process I just wish I was actually born a dude and not some ugly girl with a gross body.
@@bronk1022 Me too. My parents are against anything that isn't cisgender and straight. I cut my hair short without my parent's consent and they flipped out and got pissed. They're used to it now, but they're still homo/transphobic. If you (and everyone else who see's this comment) need someone to talk to my snapchat is Darling.rat and my Instagram is Hourtohour.note. stay strong💕
Dysphoria is an awful thing, the depression and anxiety it brings on eats at your soul. Its awful feeling like a stranger in your own skin. 🌼 I feel for all the transwoman and men who have to experience this, I know how it feels. 💙🌼
(NON BINARY LOVE ASWELL !! didnt mean to leave you guys out 🖤)
I definitely can relate to this song
I relate to all this when I came out to my grandmother she said she looked up the symptoms of dysphoria and I have none of them I do I have anxiety and depressions thoughts (I don’t want to self diagnose myself) and it sucks cuz she always asks why I’m sad and I say I’m fine but I’m really not I hate my body and want to be a boy it’s painful going to school all I and many other trans children can do is go through it till we can get surgeries and such
and enbies!
@@prageruwu69 yep!! i'm nonbinary and struggle with dysphoria that gets really bad at times, we have dysphoria too
I'm a tranfem. It's such a trap that we all live one time, but not even in our bodies.
I binded for the first time at school yesterday
It was the first time I've ever felt comfortable there 😊
I’m so happy for you! :D
Im planning to do that next term :D
I literally just had the biggest dysphoria-induced breakdown day of my life. First, i had a panic attack because my grandma took my binder without telling me and even though i *tried* to push the panic attack back, it didnt work. Then, i had a bout of really bad voice dysphoria so bad i refused to talk. And now im sitting here, listening to this, hating my feminine body and crying because 4 years is a long time to wait until i can get out of my parents house and into a supportive environment...
Update: I'm almost 17. My parents are still unsupportive, but I'm out as trans and I'm much happier now. It does get better! There are people who love and support you. Keep going, don't close your eyes just before the flowers bloom.
I wish you the best luck to finally be able to be the one you truly are
I wish you luck! I'm honestly in the same position right now (I was born male so its different but same concept). Just know that you arent alone!💖 Much love from georgia
You're a boy. A handsome boy, a king, infact. I hope that things are a little better now. I'm sorry that I don't have any advice for you but I'm going throught the same thing except i haven't moved schools, I just have no friends. It will get better. And we will get binders and medically transition, even if it takes a long time. We will get what we want :)
Oh wait- i replied to the wrong comment... but this still applies you! Especially the first part
Three years now :)) keep going I believe in you !
For some reason I feel fake. I question if I'm really trans
I think we've all felt that way before. Just know that you are who you are, and nobody knows you better than you know yourself. You may be trans, you may not be. Just do whatever feels right to you. If anybody has a problem with it, they don't deserve to know you. And you deserve better than them.
The fact that you're worried about this tells me that it means a lot to you. I don't think any "fakers" would question themselves on whether or not they're fake.
I know you'll figure yourself out. Some people take time in doing so, and if that ends up being you, that's okay. Whether you're trans or not, fluid or static, binary or otherwise, that's okay. Just stay strong. There's no rush. Do what makes you happy, and strive to become the person you want to be.
I'm rooting for you!
@@rileyrandall9612 This is a SUPER unhealthy mindset to have actually
It's normal to question yourself. I do sometimes, too
But for one thing, you don't actually need dysphoria to be trans. Dysphoria is defined as distress related to your birth sex, and you don't need to feel that way in order to be trans
Also, whether you transition or not is up to you, whether you're dysphoric or not. Do what feels right to YOU. Just be aware of any changes that can occur, and if you don't want those changes, perhaps you can find other options
And don't worry about "embarrassing" anyone. Every trans person has different experiences. If any trans person is embarrassed of you based on how you present, what your gender is, or whether or not you choose to transition, they have some internal transphobia they need to sort through
Do what feels right to YOU. Don't worry what anyone else says or thinks
Whether you're cis, trans, or nonbinary, you'll find what makes you happiest. And that's the road you should take. Don't let anyone scare you away from your options
@@rileyrandall9612 That...is very innacurate.
I myself have very severe dysphoria, both by the actual definition AND by yours. But I was able to get access to HRT, fully covered by my insurance (side from a monthly $10 co-pay) before I ever got my diagnosis.
Wanna know how?
My doctor and my insurance company weren't transphobic.
If you look at any sources that say that dysphoria is required to be trans, I think you'll find that all those sources are either outdated (from 2010 or earlier), or were written by cis people. Current research has proven that dysphoria is not required to be trans.
And spreading the idea that being trans requires dysphoria bars questioning people from figuring themselves out, and keeps dysphoric trans people feom seeking transition because we worry about not being "trans enough."
Please stop spreading transphobic ideas like this. It causes actual harm to ALL trans people, and gives cis people more reasons to gatekeep in the medical field, like what happened to you.
@@rileyrandall9612 I don't mean to come off as rude, and I'm sorry if I came off that way
You have a great day as well!
But, in the future, maybe stop spreading the idea that anyone can dictate whether or not somebody else is trans, at least on other peoples' comments. If you make your own priginal comment it's fine, but you shouldn't spread false information (whether they are your beliefs or not. Not every trans person feels the same, and it can be hurtful)
@@rileyrandall9612 Oh, don't worry! I just hope I didn't come off as rude or angry. I feel very strongly on thid topoc as well
As for the differing brains thing...I have a degree in human psychology. The thing about men and women having differemt brains is actually false. There are differences in EVERY brain, and while some can generally be attributed to different genders, this has less to do with nature, and more to do with the environment (an example of this would be the way that emotions are processed. Men tend to show less of an emotional response if they were raised in a conservative family. Those raised in more open-minded families tended to have "female" emotional responses!)
I can also say that, while the research you mentioned is indeed being studied currently, it's not for the reasons you were led to believe. These studies are being done as a way to legally deny healthcare to those whose bodies don't match the "gender" of their brain. This will lead to eugenics if it goes to far, and I am very against it
I'm a trans woman, but this song hits hard.
Same
It doesn't matter if your a trans woman,man or nonbinary or anything else. I feel like this song is for everyone who experiences this.
Same
Same sister. This song helped me get out of a suicidal dysphoric spiral… thank goodness this song exists!
Tell me you're not cis without telling me you're not cis
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
I’m thinking of singing this song to my best friend to show her how I feel. I can’t keep it a secret from her anymore
Go for it man, I believe in you
I hope everything goes well for you
Good luck, im amazed at your bravery
Do it b! I believe in you!
Lost_at_sea good luck |-/
I hate being dysphoric so much
I wish i could just be the man i am inside, i wish i could express how i feel outside
Benjamin T idk if I dysphoric...but it feels like it. I want to be female..but I feel like I am binded by my gender currently
same honestly
I feel ya dude
I feel the same way
I'm sorry you all have to go through this as well, just know that a day will come where we all can become the people we /truely/ are, and this alone is proof that we arent alone in this ride
I listened to this song repeatedly until I started testosterone, like it got me. Now I’m having the same pain waiting for top surgery after 3 years of comfort. This song hurts and gets me.
Today is my birthday and my bf said he was going to buy me a binder but he couldn't because the store canceled the order, but i was so happy just to know that he thought of giving it to me as a gift, i love him so much...
Happy birthday to me:)
In my opinion dysphoria is one of the worst pains there is. And only a small portion of the people in the world have to experience it. Though it doesn’t hurt physically the amount of discomfort your mind is put through is horrible. My dysphoria doesn’t give me a break. Never. When I’m older I’m going on t, when I can afford it I’m having top surgery, and maybe even bottom, I hope so anyway..
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I can only explain dysphoria for me as painful. Like the panic and anxiety of being hurt and knowing you're hurt, but being nearly completely unable to find where the wound is- as if you'd tripped and fell and you know you're bleeding and you're scared that it'll get worse, but there's no wound, just that intense panic, and every time you hear your dead name or dead pronouns, it's like another shard of bone shoved into your skin, but you can't find the wound. It's misery.
I would actually challenge that since I'm fairly certain most people experience dysphoria in some form or another, certainly not the same dysphoria as you but no experience is felt the same way by anyone anyway. I don't identify as trans but I probably could, I just don't want to for a number of reasons, and having talked about this to a lot of people in a lot of situations I think transness is just an inherent part of being human in the society we live in. No one really knows what being a boy or a girl feels like, it's just that for trans people the word they were assigned doesn't fit their experiences with the world or themself in such a strong way that they have to pick a different one or they won't be able to function. The word they pick also depends on their experiences with themself and the world around them, as does the ways in which they change outwardly to fit that word. Basically it's just a whole tangled mess of perceptions and assumptions and labels and requirements set by your subconscious in response to the information it receives, and that's something most people understand, some more than others.
Izuku Midoriya Yes me too. Dw you’re not the only one 🖤
Trans folk here, well I can say as a FTM that youre right, I'm still 11, but i know that I'm trans and I'm experiencing dysphoria, it's fricking horrible, I see myself and I only can say: you still look like a girl
I hate it with all my heart
I'm a boy but my parents refuse to accept it. My father just thinks I'm being bratty when I ask him to use my name and pronouns and acts like it's political and infringing on his free speech, and although my mom is a bit better she won't use them (even though I've explained how uncomfortable I am being called a girl). I hate meeting people because they always introduce me with my deadname, sometimes with a "she goes by..." or "she wants to be called..." and anybody who might've called me a boy will follow my parents' example and use she/her. Medically transitioning is completely out of the question until I'm at least 18 and I know my parents are going to hate me for it.
The concept of being comfortable and happy just seems so foreign. It feels like I'll never be able to have the life or the body I want. I know consciously that that's not true, I know I'll get there eventually, but it's so hard to convince myself of that sometimes.
im sorry my dude
things will get better. it may take years, but i PROMISE you, thing will get better. I wish you luck in your transition dude.
sending love, Mickey- fellow ftm
Nonbinary comrade here to tell you everything will get better. You’ll meet people who accept you for who you are and call you your proper pronouns. You’re valid, and deserve to be accepted. You’re a man, and you deserve better than you’ve got.
Ik i'm like a month later. But transguy here(and almost 22)--I use to feel the same exact way as you did, but things DO get better. It might take a while, or it might happen sooner, who knows--but at some point, things will start to look bright. It wasn't until last year I was able to start testosterone, and things have been much better!(Though my mom constantly tries to tell me I need therapy becuz it's a "big change i'm going through" and i'm depressed etc, but truth is, I haven't been this happy in a long while and if i'm depressed, it's cuz she's constantly putting me down :l She says she's supportive but she can get transphobic in arguments(in particular, especially bad ones. And she always goes too far in even minor arguments so I really don't know how supportive she actually is.) I'm sorry yours aren't and for your sake, I really hope they come around!
I told my mum and she was too ashamed of me to tell my dad
"find me a way out if you love me, at all" hits too hard for me
_i sadly relate to this song ;_
I'm a Genderless {agender} enby, who's parents aren't the _most_ accepting, especially my father, but my mom has made an attempt with my preferred pronouns, but my preferred name? not so much. But my teachers have actually been calling me by my preferred name and pronouns, which is honestly wonderful. And I've known I have been nonbinary since about 2 years ago, during the summer of 2019.
At first I was skeptical, not understanding what 'nonbinary' meant, and convinced I was trans, but honestly that didn't feel right, going by *just* male pronouns. after doing some research, I figured out I _was_ nonbinary, and labeled myself as just simply enby for the time being. Fast forward two years later, a few months ago I figured out I am either Agender or Demiboy.
But theres the next thing. I am also Demiromantic, and haven't came out to my parents yet. As far as they know, I'm a Bisexual Nonbinary. I really am not. I'm torn between wondering if I'm Panromantic or Demiromantic. And almost constantly feel Dysphoria when someone calls me by my deadname and pronouns, and almost always get jealous when I see someone else looking androgynous {someone that goes on my bus looks extremely androgynous which makes me *j e a l o u s* every time}
anygays, thank you for listening to me. Have a wonderful day whomever you are!!
I'm not trans (mad respect and support for anyone who is. Dysphoria sounds like hell, and you're all so much stronger than I could ever dream of being) but, I'm currently having a massive identity crisis and I feel like the lyrics of this song kinda relate to that too even if that isn't what they were intended to be about exactly. I don't know. I just really love all of Robin's music lol
That's exactly how I feel. I don't know who I am.
@@mooncrater1286
I feel ya. We'll both figure it out eventually though, right? Keep your head up.
That’s totally valid! You can relate to music for any reason, even if it isn’t the original meaning of the song
I love this song because it fits in with a lot of other emotions people feel, even if it’s based on dysphoria. And yes, dysphoria is hell.
I hope you feel better soon
Younger me: I'm a girl and I'll grow up to be gorgeous and I'll have a boyfriend
Brain: cut your hair
Me: why?
Brain: just do it
Me: fine
Brain: get a binder
Me: a what?
Brain: you need a flat chest get.a.binder
Me: jeez fine
Brain: good....
Me: anything else?
Brain:.......get a packer
Me: ALRIGHT FINE
Brain: now change your name and pronouns
Me: okay what's the deal with this
Brain: 👁👄👁
Me: I don't have to
Brain: but you'd be happier as a guy correct?
Me: yes
Brain: exactly now change them
Me: Why?
Brain: you're transgender
Me: okay I'll change them
Brain: oh and you'll never experience sexual attraction
Me: ARE YOU F-
so your a transgender asexual- cool! question tho whats it like to be asexual?
@@daniellehall2765 it's pretty normal the only difference is no sexual attraction like someone else might want to "do the deed" But I wouldn't because I can't experience attraction in that way if you get what I mean
@@kissxingqiu oh thanks lol I think I understand it a little better now
@@daniellehall2765 no problem :)
Oh you’re ace! There’s no polite way to ask this, but do ace people still do *coughing* _themselves?_
Yeah. Im a woman.
I might not like pretty dresses, or long hair.
but I'm still a woman.
right?
wait...
what is this feeling I'm feeling.
the first time I heard the full definition of trans, I thought.
"cool. this isn't me though."
but more I think about it...
I think it is me.
this is my coming out.
Hi. Im Oliver. I am a boy. I am proud to be me.
I love he/him
I love the feeling of having short fluffy hair.
and being recognised as a man in public
And now is time to leave my past in the past..
because he, is me.
Edit: hi! this is a pretty old comment, but first of all I wanna say happy pride month! but also, I now go by the name Caleb. Thank you all for the love on this comment. Keep on being proud of who you are.
I glad you found out who you are, and that you are happy with who you are. I hope everyone is accepting towards you. Congratulations!
I'm crying so hard bc yes I agree I may not be able to be as proud as you because of where I live but yes..so much yes
short fluffy hair solos
-tyler
Hello Oliver! My name is Oliver too!
Oh, man, you made me cry 😅
rip nex benedict, i directly thought about this song when i heard that, stay strong fellas
man I’m not even trans or gender fluid but this song lowkey makes me cry. I have so many friends who’re apart of the lgbtq+ community and I love them so much- that was offtopic man but honestly, don’t listen to what anyone says. you’re valid. I love you. don’t lose hope or faith man. You’ve got this.
Ay thank you sm
Hey, non-binary person here. My gender dysphoria is rarely ever missing from my life, especially at school. Sure, I can hide my chest, but I still have a girlish haircut, and my school won't let us wear hoods or hats, so I can't transition back and forth at school. Most of the kids in my class know I'm at least gay, but they don't get any of the rest of it, and it's really hard sometimes. I hope that one day, I will be met with acceptance and love. 🖤🖤🖤
I’m sure you will, you’re perfect the way you are don’t let anyone change that ❤️ you’re amazing!!
@@ashhh_okumura aw, thank you, much love! ♥️🖤 a small update is that i shaved my hair and moved, so i can finally be who i wanna be!
@@fayetheweirdogoblin5087 Aw i'm So Glad! hope everything is well :)
I'm NB and Pan! ;D I know how it feels! I'm glad you feel better. I hope I do, someday. ^^
came out to my cousin lastnight, and just came out to my brother not even 10 minutes ago
i don’t know how to feel but they support me and respect me, so that’s good i guess
i’m not sure how to feel like i said, do i laugh it off or like what lmao, idfk
"this phantom skin is weird to live in" literally got me sobbing- 😭
dysphoria is the complete opposite of euphoria and it kinda scars me to know that.
As a non binary person who has social anxiety who is scared to come out to my parents Cavetown has always calmed me down and he will ALWAYS have a soft spot in my heart
Coming back again, it's been 5 years since i used to listen to this song, and im still too afraid to transition
I may be a stranger but you got this. I hope this gives you comfort
hi the ppls in the comment section going thru a lot w dysphoria and unaccepting parents etc. i just wanna let you know how loved you are and i wish u all the best
As someone struggle with gender dysphoria (and also parents who don't even try to use proper pronouns smh), I can relate to this so much. It helps me when I'm feeling down and I'm so grateful for that.
It sucks to have unsupportive parents I hope they come around ❤️
rip man. unsupportive parents suck, but things will get better. you aren't alone.
I’m enby and I’m fed up of people telling me I don’t exist and I’m just a women who gets confused. The only one who’s confused is the people who say I am.
Hello, my enby pal, you exist and are very much valid. You're not just confused and I hope you have a really nice day/night, and take care!!
Hey. I love you and I see you and you're gonna be ok.
i’m an enby too! this is too relatable
I am non- binary. I am too scared asking for a binder. I made my first binder a few days ago. I was jumping for joy. I started crying realizing that this is me. My friend was so supportive. I can’t tell my parents. My brother said that they are weird and that their should only be two genders. My mom agreed with him. I guess I don’t have a supportive family. That hurt me a lot. They don’t know but it still hurt
Please be very careful. Homemade binders are not anywhere near as safe as a commerical one. Also I am very sorry that your family wasn't supportive. Hopefully they'll come around eventually.
"Don't tell me what I am, Because I can't stand it"
THIS IS WHAT I FEEL EVERYDAY WHY IS THIES FONG SO GOD DAMN ACCURATE
I'm listening to this, relating to it in such a personal way. I got my hair cut short and bought my own binder because no one else will do it. I'm lucky, though. There are people who can't do any of that because of so many in their life who won't support them. To all of you out there who are in that situation, I want you to know that your feelings are valid and that despite the current situation, you will transition to the gender that you feel you are later in life. But until then, know that a random person on the internet is here to talk and is wishing you well on your transition.
This gives me an window into what some of my friends feel, and...now I feel an even greater sense of respect for them than I already do. I'm even more proud of them for living through dysphoria now.
Thank you so much for being a great ally for your friends you will never quite fully realize how much you mean to them as my friends mean to me. 💙
Billy Cipher Is that friend Dipper Pines?
No, kid, but you’re pretty close!
There's a lot about trans dysphoric, but you guys suffering from non-binary dysphoria are valid too!
I’m also naturally curvy and I’m trans so it makes me have intense dysphoria, I guess that why I’m listening to this song tho 😂
This im non binary and a few months ago i introduced my self as using they/them pronouns they audibly gasped…. And in the next sentence misgendered me in-front of the entire class. If I didn’t have a stupid famine body maybe that wouldn’t happen
"What I am is what I'm not." hit, it hit really hard.
"it's been over a year" really gets me, especially right now, because around this time last year I realised I'm trans and I never thought that I'd be where I am today; short hair, boys clothes, out to some of my close friends and family. I know nobody is going to read this but if you are and you feel like you can't continue anymore, trust me it gets better, sure you might be unhappy and dysphoric, but it just takes time, that's what I told myself while i had long hair and I still tell myself that to this day, but don't give up because I believe in you and people love you
Thank you. I needed this- and you needed this, I'm sure. I'm sleeping now, so if you reply now I won't be able to reply back, but good luck, and good night.
@@yogurtofthemultiverse2200 I'm glad I could help you, good luck
Thank you. I came out to my family two weeks ago (I've known I'm trans for a while, but I was always to afraid to say), and my family said I was too young to know (I'm 16). I just can't help but thinking of going off to college and cutting all my hair off and getting a binder and buys myself boys clothes and coming back home as Alex, the son, grandson, brother. Sometimes it feels so close, but other days I can't even imagine it happening because I get so depressed about not being able to express myself that I don't want to get out of bed.
I'll hold on though, I'll make it out, the light at the end of the tunnel is gonna be my future self wearing the most repulsive ugly Hawaiian shirt with dress pants and a silver box chain dangling around my neck with a pair of hipster glasses frames opening my family's front door shouting "Hello, I'm back from college!" in the manliest voice possible.
I know that's blown out of proportion, but, hey, it makes me laugh and hope a bit more.
I don't belong here, it's just hopeless
The world is yours. You belong here, creat things that make you happy. This is not hopeless, please look to the sky and know that, this pain, it has purpose. Please look at the world around you and see all the life and beauty, i know how hard it is to see the light. That its scary and blinding but its warm it will melt away the ice from your body. You're going to feel free and like you can walk on air. Please stay and see all that is lovely. Its waiting for you. You will find it, you're gonna see the light. I care about you. (If you want you can DM me on insta if that helps my user is @plesant.alien Im willing to talk with you or just send you pictures of animals or memes). :) I care.
Okay, I know these are just the lyrics to the song, but just know that you do belong here. You do matter, and you do have worth.
"if the universe didn't need you, you wouldn't be here"
you belong. you have a gift. A talent. as @ sophie jones said " if the world didn't need you, you wouldn't be here" better days will come my friend
“Things are as they are. Looking out into the universe at night, we make no comparisons between right and wrong stars, nor between well and badly arranged constellations.”
-Alan Watts
Yes I'm nonbinary. I would like to present myself as a "pretty boy" but can't really do that because I'll look feminine. I wanna be happy in my skin. I'm gonna have to wear a dress today. Its Easter I have to meet family and act like how they want. I wanna be pretty the way a boy can. I wanna look like no gender at all. I just wish mom would understand
I remember going to a family reunion dressed in a black t-shirt black pants combat boots and rainbow gloves and seeing one of my aunts and left the kitchen leaving me and my aunt and she came over to me and pointed to my gloves and said "explain" soi told her I was pan and she said "tell me something I don't know" then I told her I was gender fluid
then she said "oh what name do you want to go by" so I told her
Hex and "she said OK what pronouns" she I told her what pronouns I wanted that day and she told everyone at that reunion that me and her were besties. It warmed me heart so much 🥺
I feel like a dude sometimes, I feel like a girl sometimes. I feel non-binary sometimes. sometimes I wish I was born a boy. I hate my feminine voice, I hate my feminine mannerisms. I hate my hips. But I still identify as a female sometimes. I like being a butch woman. I like being a feminine boy. I like being a confusing nonbinary pal. And thats ok, you matter, youre valid.
Edit: I am a trans boy. Thank you ❤️
have you heard of genderfluid?
I'm glad you found yourself! :)
I'm so happy you found yourself
“Don’t let me hear what they say. Because I can’t stand it everyday, I’m thinking that I should leave”
I relate to this so hard. Like if I don’t come out I hear them say “she” all the time and I’m slowly starting to not be able to handle it. If I do come out my town is so judgemental I can’t stand to listen, so maybe I should just go.
I understand how you feel but if we go we will never be able to transition in the future when we are able to move. I realize i'm making this comment like a year later, how are things now?
Crazy cookie i came out to my family and they still say she a lot but they call me Oliver now and they’re trying to understand. I don’t speak to my brothers anymore bc they’re bigots and I’ve been bullied a couple of times but my friends have been accepting. It’s rocky but it’s bearable. Thank you for asking I hope things get better for you too
Your town must be really crappy. I’ll provide my discord if u ever want to talk
I came out as trans to my mom today!!!
She's letting me start testosterone as my christmas gift and my gf is buying me a packer & a stp.
Took me 14 years to figure out who I am and only a few months to feel so accepted ^^
Your lucky, my parents arnt homophobic but just transphobic 🥲
Trans people seem so chill
“But now I don’t remember comfort”
I agree, but this song is the comfort to meh.