We Lost our Beautiful Jenny, She Finally Beat Cancer
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- Опубліковано 6 лис 2023
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Jenny Appleford
7211 Haven Ave, Unit E-407
Rancho Cucamonga, CA 91701
Kyle’s Channel:
/ @kyleapple9702
INSTAGRAM: jenny_appleford
FACEBOOK: Our Brave Jenny
For business inquiries: veganapplefords@gmail.com
DIAGNOSIS:
March 19th, 2021 Stage IIIA Non Small Cell Lung Cancer (Non-Smoking)
February 2022 Stage IV Non Small Cell Lung Cancer (spreading to Brain, and other parts of lung and lymph nodes)
Gene Mutation EGFR with Exon 20 Insertion
TREATMENTS: Received or currently Receiving
2021: 8 Rounds of Chemotherapy (Carboplatin and Paclitaxel) with 30 concurrent radiation treatments to chest and lung
Failed Immunotherapy directly after Chemo and Radiation (Durvalumab, 1 round)
2022: Chemotherapy
10 rounds of Chemotherapy (Carboplatin, Alimta, and Avastin)
6 with Carboplatin, 4 without
Targeted Brain Radiation (Completed)
CURRENT TREATMENT:
I am on a clinical trial for my specific gene mutation
The purpose of my channel is to document my cancer journey to look back on, and/or help anyone else going through anything similar. It is also to potentially help loved ones supporting those who are in this fight as well. This is also an easy way to update a lot of people at once. My main goal is to have footage of this journey for my husband and children to look back on. I originally created this channel as a sort of video diary for my
family.
Thank you so much for following along on this journey. Your love and support help me so much.
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Jenny won her cancer battle a long time ago because cancer NEVER took away her kindness, compassion, gratitude, motivation, humor and drive. In fact, all cancer did was motivate her to form this community that has reached around the world and unified so many of us. Thats Badass!!! She left behind this amazing legacy that will live on through you and your children. Jenny, thank you for everything.!
Amen!
Spot on.
Perfect
Amen. I’m praying for you and your family Kyle. 🙏🥲💔❤️
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So spot on in every way
My sister has the same cancer Jenny did, stage IV adenocarcinoma of the lung. She entered hospice care tonight. It’s been an absolutely brutal day. I discovered this channel about six months ago when she was diagnosed, and it’s helped me immeasurably in dealing with the grief of a loved one experiencing cancer. I’d like to think that in another day or so, Jenny might welcome my sister to the great beyond.
🙏 for your sister.
I also pray that your sister is welcomed with warm embraces by beautiful familiar faces in heaven my friend! Praying for peace and comfort for you and your ❤.
I'm so sorry for your loss. These women were blessed through their trauma by strong, loving men. They were both, are both blessed...🙏🎗💔💔
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Prayers for your sister to get well soon.
I stumbled across this channel today and it has completely destroyed me. I am a 33 year old man with a wife and daughter. We’ve been having some marital issues as of late and I was about to just say “screw it, it’s not worth fighting for anymore”… watching your journey has given me so much perspective and shown me what’s important and what’s not. I’m so sorry for the unimaginable pain you must be feeling.
Amen 🙏🏻
I went through this with my sister. I so know this.
I'm so glad to hear this.....If I could turn back the clock I never would have left my soul mate....when his sister called to tell he passed away it was worse than losing both parents....💔🙏💞
Ditto I could of wrote you're comment apart from I'm female
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I've been a nurse for 25yrs.. never heard someone say they beat cancer that way and I love it! Wish you and your kids all the love in the world ❤
As a nurse and a Christian beating diseases through death are always thought about
No more pain, no more suffering! No more cancer !!
I don’t know you, I didn’t know Jenny. Never saw any video from this channel before. And yet there you were in my recommended. I just want to let you know how insanely strong you are for making this video. I cried the whole time.
I’m so sorry for your loss❤️❤️❤️
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God bless you and your family.
Same 😢
Same 😢
Same❤
Nobody could have looked after and supported their wife any better than you Kyle through her cancer journey. Sending love to all your family
Definitely.
Amen
I am so very sorry for your loss. Words can’t express what an inspiration and how strong of a woman she was while fighting this hateful illness. She showed us she wasn’t going without a fight and she fought so hard! Rest peacefully with the angels now dear sweet Jenny❤️ Kyle your love for her was so strong and I know nothing will ever break that. She is free from pain now and watching over you and her babies and always will be. Find those Pennie’s and pick them up….she’s letting you know she’s still with you! My love, thoughts and prayers will continue for you, your children and family. ❤️🙏
He is, what an ideal husband should be... You have the qualities of THE husband every girl dreams of ...
So true
Seeing him rocking back and forth to keep himself strong crushed me as a father and husband
Same ❤
❤same here
I know right? I'm in bits I'm a six ft 7, 250lb guy crying like a kid 😢.
Sorry for your trouble
He's just so young too. It really drives the point home that we could easily be the ones rocking back and forth in that chair, trying to function, with a simple twist of fate.
I see you. I lost the love of my life (41 years together) to cancer 5 weeks before you lost Jenny. As she breathed her last breaths, I told her I will love her for the rest of my life. It has been very hard, especially the holidays, but I am making it one day at a time. I can’t wait to see her again some day. I will pray for you and your family. Please pray for me too. 😢 PS. I talk to my wife every day also, so please don’t think you’re weird for doing that.
You are a good man for good wife that is so hard
But gad will thank you because you stand and help her in a difffuclt time
Well i have no thing to say for you but if they something i think will help you really is that
Reading the holy quran
Gad bless you
I feel your pain .I know exactly how you feel. Hugs to you!
Sad for your loss ! 🙏( R.I.P.)
Life’s a bitch ……….. goodness knows why cards are dealt out
in various ways.
I believe there is a path which we all have to follow even when it’s seems unbearable.
Hoping you gain strength to process & feel comfort that her spirit will be with you always.❣️
Jenny not only won her battle with cancer, she won the hearts of millions of people around the world. God bless you all xx
Amen 🙏🏻
Amen! So beautifully said!❤🙏🏼
🙏🏻praying for all🙏🏻
Prayers and Hugs.... Amen 🙏
Amen✝️🙏💔🌷
I don’t know if anyone has said this to you, Jenny’s husband, but I’m proud of you. For being the man that Jenny needed, the husband, the father, the provider. You worked hard. It’s the hardest thing. And you’re doing it. You’re going to be ok. I’m going to say extra prayers for you and your family tonight. God bless. ❤
He is so strong to be going through this with Jenny and now with the kids. Incredible, I can't imagine. Wish I could help in some way. Tough guy, loving guy, great guy.. hope you see this and know! Jenny was lucky to have you there. One great soul had another! Not a coincidence. Much love ❤
@@ifukturmomsface they have a gofundme linked to the homepage of her UA-cam
@@OfficerBMTHe explains how and why she said she beat cancer almost 5 minutes into the video. It makes sense then.
Pls. Ask God to be with you to pass the deep sadness
@@gisselgarciignore. It’s a troll.
My mom passed away on Tuesday from this horrible disease she watched Jenny through her journey she is the one that introduced me to Jenny’s utube. Thank you Jenny for helping my mom through her .
I’m so sorry for your lost
Thank you
I am so sorry about the loss of your beautiful mom. I was 12 when I lost my dad and 35 when I lost my mom. It's such a brutal loss. All you can do is live in honor of your mom and live your best life.
Peace and ❤
🙏 ❤️ 🙏
For You and Your Loved Ones
Always and Forever
Sorry my darling!! I lost my husband to cancer 6 years ago!! Hang in there...
So sorry bro. As a single dad myself my best advise is don’t underestimate you kids ability to pull you through anything just by being them. In time this will resonate into understanding I promise, you got this.
Advice
This is such beautiful advice ❤
Beautiful advice.
I love this message.
I love this message ❤
I worked for hospice for 9 years & I can honestly say that I have never seen a couple battle cancer as a team as you two did. You’re an amazing husband, father & human being & the gifts you gave her were immeasurable.
Please be kind & gentle w/ yourself during this time & keep talking to Jenny. Death changes our relationship, but it’s still a relationship. Instead of a relationship of presence, it becomes a relationship of memory.
Sending you so much love, light & peace right now.❤️🙏🕯️
Amazing comment x
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The wisdom, strength and emotional presence of hospice nurses never fails to amaze me. Thank you for this.
Yes thankyou, cancer knocked on our door in 2006, it stayed until 2014 when it took my husband. It leaves a mark on the living, but thankfully releases those who pass.
That is the best advice I got after my husband died: “Be gentle with yourself”. It helped me immensely during my grieving.
My beautiful mother died with this horrible cancer almost 30yrs ago. She lived 4 months after being diagnosed i know shes there welcoming everyone.
In the UK, on the 5th of November, we have bonfire night, where everybody has bonfires and sets off firework displays all night. It's the only time of year that fireworks are sold in most stores.
You said that Jenny found meaning in signs and numbers and things. Well, as she was turning into an Angel, the whole of the UK was lit up with bonfires and magical firework displays.
Your such an amazing family, I'm so sorry for your loss x
This was such a beautiful thing to share with him.
Kyle, you are truly the personification of the sanctity of marriage. You are a man among men, and your strength will never be forgotten by Jenny or your children. Rest now, knowing that Jenny resides among angels with God at her side, waiting for you in eternity. I pray for your continued strength and the wellbeing of you and your children.
Agree!
Amen... Beautiful ❤
I am so proud of him.
Perfectly said. Amen..❤⭐🌟💫
😭😭😭😭 he really is. She left a legacy of perfect people behind her and she will be missed even by people that only knew her online.
We knew this was coming but it still is so hard. Jenny now has no cancer, no pain just peace. She will always be with you Kyle.
I am an End of Life Doula and a Certified Music Practitioner. This was one of the most powerful and moving stories I have ever heard. Thank you for sharing. Grief is heavy, but love and time are lighter. You will get there. You are an incredible human being.
I had a NDE a couple of years ago, and it completely changed me, to KNOW death is not the end and you pass into a place where you feel such love that words can never do it justice.
It is important for everyone to remember that Jenny lived, not that she was dying, right up until her last peaceful breath. Kyle, you are a beautiful man, who has shared your family's journey with others. My love and hugs to you, yours and jenny's precious children. xxx
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Forever will I see Jenny coming down the walkway, twirling her skirts in her mommy fashion show. The love that encircled this very special family will endure throughout all the years to come. We love all of you so very much.💔❤
Thank you for such a wonderful tribute to Jenny, both with your words and the pictures at the end. This was such a hard video for you to make, but you did it well. It's wonderful that you were able to bring your bed into the living room and be able to cuddle with her and have the children do it, too. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time.
JENNY BEAT CANCER!!
Thank you Jenny for everything ❤ I never knew you but I will NEVER forget you!!
Kyle, your community is here for you and your family ❤ Jenny is not lost, she’s home.
Condolences, Love, Hugs and Strength be with you all, always 💕💕❤❤
I just lost my husband on Dec 8th.to cancer as well. I can easily relate to everything you’re saying. He was diagnosed in September and passed in December. This is one very tough road. ❤
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So sorry for your loss
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I feel your emptiness lost my wife last year 2-1-23 at 62 young my house is silent have my two sons to go forward it’s been so hard I lend you my hand 😢 stay strong for your children Jenny is with you ❤you will see signs of Jenny 🥰🙇🏼♂️🌅🌌
I can’t imagine Joe
Grief is not a record of what has been lost but of who has been loved. Thankyou for loving her, Kyle!
That is such a beautiful quote
Very beautiful
Bootiful quote.
Over a half-million views and 28,000 comments in 14 hours. Proof of how beloved your sweet Jenny is, was, and will be and how many lives she touched. May she rest in peace now. 🙏💔🙏
God bless Jenny and her family. RIP
I don't know you, but the amount of strength this takes is unimaginable. You are a wonderful human being. I am so sorry to hear about your loss
Jenny won this battle by living every day! Im certain she has helped so many, including myself, who just found out I have stage 3a SCLC at 39. Jenny is an inspiration and a friend that I am finding I relate to so much of her journey. It's the beginning for me, but by the grace of the Lord, I will fight with everything I have to live 🙏 Just like she did!!!
You and Jenny have shown the world what a loving and supportive relationship actually looks like.
Sharp cookie how are you
Kyle, the loss of your best friend and soulmate is a tragedy beyond words. I lost my beautiful wife of five months to a brain aneurysm and it was devastating. What kept my sanity were the words of a very kind Catholic priest who consoled me, especially with these few words - "Don't mourn who you've lost, but rejoice in who you had." Jenny will always be with you.
Amen 🙏
The words of the catholic priest are so powerful
I am so sorry for your loss sir .. the most painful time in one's life... ❤ 5 months is so short.
Dont cry because they died. Rejoice because they lived.
Amen
So sorry for your loss I lost my amazing Wife to ALS last June. Jenny sounded like a real fighter. Take care of yourself and heartfelt sympathy from me and my Son.
I found this channel a few minutes ago because I’m having fluid drained from my lungs soon and needed comfort. I saw the old video and am now here. I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m stage 4 breast cancer and 27. Cancer is so hard and so sad sometimes
Wishing you comfort ..I only found out my sister is battling stage 4 colon cancer..she only found out as well during a routine colonosccopy in December. Happened so. Fast..i don't know how to feel.i don't want to bother or. Burden her.shes gone thru chemo..she's so sick. From it ..I come from a family of 6 kids .they all have cancer..I'm going for a colonoscopy in May. I'm afraid of what I will find out..if I find that I do have cancer I will go out on my terms.im 65....Jenny beat cancer my prayers for Kyle Winnie & Ellis
Jenny saved my life.
hey Kyle. i really hope you see this b/c i just wanted to let you know that Jenny saved my life. about a year ago now, i became completely bedridden from Long-Covid. Dec-July of this past year were the hardest months of my life. at the age of 25, I had gone from being a D1 athlete, to suddenly being barely able to lift up my toothbrush. i essentially couldn’t move or even talk. i was so scared & genuinely wanted to give up. then, this past summer, i found Jenny’s channel. her strength & willingness to battle cancer really inspired me to keep going, so i did.
tonight, about an hour prior to you releasing this video, i walked around my kitchen, out of my wheelchair, & made myself a small dinner for the first time since Dec 2022.
Jenny did more than beat cancer. She inspired others to continue fighting for life, as life is so worth fighting for.
She is part of the reason why i’m still here today, & even more of a reason why i will continue to fight for my recovery.
Thank you so much to the both of you for bringing us all on this journey. ♥️
I'm so glad you are fighting for ur recovery. 💜 I hope Kyle sees this. She has inspired me too, in my own struggles. You deserve a full life. Sending u prayers 🙏
@@jamessickerwho cares?!? Why don't you take your negativity elsewhere??? No one wants that here.
Only someone, as truly special as Jenny, could make a mammoth amount of strangers across the world, feel like we have just lost one of our best friends 😢💔 Fly high Jenny 💫
To Kyle, Ellis, Whinny, family & friends. There are no words 😢 sending all my thoughts and prayers
My mum always made sure people understood my dad won his fight with cancer. A few years later she fought her own battle. I can’t take your pain, I can’t say anything to make you feel better but I do wish we could all have someone who loves us as much as you’ve shown your love and devotion to jenny. Much love to you and your kids.
I happened upon this channel by accident and was very moved by it. I saw the last post of Jenny, and I felt so sad at what she and the family were going through. It must have been a terrible time. Then I saw this post and the photos of Jenny. I didn't know her, but the sweetness and kindness of her character shone through. What a beautiful lady. I can't imagine what you must be going through, but I know you would be experiencing her loss profoundly. My deepest condolences to the family. 🦋
Jenny is in the arms of her heavenly father now. No cancer, no pain. You are a wonderful husband, father, and friend. Your family has touched the hearts of people all over the world. Stay strong. There will be tough days ahead but be strong. We love you and your beautiful family. You are in our prayers. 🙏 ❤️
In all of my 68 years I have never been so touched and emotionally involved with individuals I don't really know. Somehow it feels as if I do know you. Even as close as with my own children. Jenny, and in fact you too and your whole beautiful family has really been called to play an important role here on earth, and this from an old lady who is not particularly religious. Kyle, I feel so sad. Play life by ear, one footstep in front of the other day by day. You have made our Jenny a very happy girl for many years.
My condolences
So sad for your great loss, Kyle. You and Jenny gave 100% to the fight all the way and so admirably, and you must be exhausted. Please now take time off for yourself to rest up physically and recover from the demanding activities of past months. I 'd like to say that the kind of loving devoted husband you have shown yourself to be, is a credit to you. As a young man you have been are a shining example of true American manhood at its finest, and you can be very proud of yourself. With well-wishes to you and your dear children, please take care of yourself and them and God bless you all.
This is the last story I will follow , can’t do it anymore . These stories break my bloody heart ..
❤beautiful video of Jenny n her family. No words are enough to say how sorry I am for ur loss .
I lost my mom too cancer when I was 13.. breast cancer, so I can relate to every single ounce of your pain I’m 23 and it still hurts me till that day, I’m so sorry for your loss I’m so sorry for everything and I hope everything gets better for your family in the future❤ may Jenny rest in peace in the kingdom of God❤ my gf has brain cancer so please pray for us as we go through this time ty
I know this sounds intense, but “knowing” you and Jenny has made me appreciate life more. You have enriched my life. I’m a 74 year old grandma and I’m so touched by what you have gone through.
This is such a kind comment. Sending you hugs, Grandma ❤
I've only been on this channel for about 5 or 6 days. But I thank Kyle for sharing. I've lost a lot of people in my life and I have to say I've felt grief, mourning, sadness, and even sickness after a death but I have never felt emptiness after a death. I'm so glad that Kyle told me you can feel emptiness, it makes me appreciate what I have. After my dad passed away 34 years ago I got deathly sick myself, that is where you learned you can pass away from someone near you passing away. Kyle make sure you and your children get good sleep. If you can't sleep, seek help to be able to sleep. I pray you won't get sick Kyle.
i'm 67
I've started writing this comment and deleted it about ten times now because I don't even know what to say. I just want you to know that I don't think anyone on the planet could have given Jenny more love and support than you did throughout this whole process. You are an amazing husband and father. Jenny exudes care and kindness in every single video, and I think we can all feel the magnitude of this loss.
Perfectly said.
Yes. Perfectly said.
So true and well put ❤️
I have done this too, im lost for words.
You are so right sending lots of love to the family thank you for your words I couldn’t think of what to say my mind and thoughts are frozen beautiful Jenny rest in peace I’m sure my sister Jocelyn will welcome uou with own arms another victim of cancer
Dear Kyle, I've followed you and Jenny's courageous and loving journey through one of the most horrible battles, that of cancer. I laughed and cried with you both all the way to the moment when she began her journey into the arms of her God. Her sweet kindness and the very brave decision you both made to share with all of us, has made it easier for many people dealing with this horrible disease. I am 70 years old and will be undergoing my very first PET CT scan to verify a lung cancer diagnosis, among other medical issues. I just pray that I too, like your beautiful Jenny, can face what's ahead for my two daughters and I with as much courage, dignity, grace and honesty as you both have done. I will continue praying for you and your beautiful children for the Lord's peace, guidance and comfort for your hearts as you each continue Jenny's legacy of loving kindness. Thank you both for sharing your lives, and even Jenny's passing with us and giving us such beautiful, deep and honest insight into how to defeat this horrendous disease as Jenny did. I will make her wish of letting all know that she finally DID beat cancer as I make it my wish too. I will also pick up each penny that I come across and put them in a jar to give to the Cancer Foundation in Jenny's honor. May God be with you and your family. Love, Liz C.
You will see her again, made perfect and whole. ❤
I have liver, bone and lung cancer from an unknown primary. I hope to meet Jenny someday in heaven. You have been very inspirational to all of us. Kyle, you’re an amazing caregiver. Treat yourself carefully right now.
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Prayers for you during your journey 🙏🙏🙏
Bless your sweet heart, many blessings to you and my best wishes to you.
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Just a random guy from the UK, who has been watching for over 6 months. I'm very sorry to hear that Jenny is no longer with us. You are an amazing man, and an amazing farther. I can't bare to even think about the pain you must feel right now. Keep strong brother.
So sweet!! 😊
This was hard to watch 😢 my mom passed away from cancer in 2011 and I'm still heartbroken 💔 I still feel her presence and I know she's watching over me. I hope you find some kind of comfort ❤ prayers to you and your kids❤
RIP Jenny. ❤
You were a true fighter and inspiration.
Hugs and support to you all. 🌻🥰
She save up her last energy to stand up and give you a hug, handing you the batton of her life to you, to continue where she has left off. What a sweet moment to cherish Kyle ❤Jenny family.
Perfect thoughts, that was such a beautiful last tribute to Kyle and Jenny. She saved her last burst of energy to give Kyle that last and unforgettable gift!!
🙌🏼 She gave her last burst of energy for you, Kyle the love of her life. Her soulmate 🫂.
She truly loved you Kyle dearly.
Such a beautiful comment and so true. Love to you all.
My heart aches for you all. Kyle you are an amazing husband and father. Jenny was so beautiful and she is a shining light for us all! We will all be here for you and your children. ❤
Yes!
Kyle, after C.S. Lewis lost his wife from cancer he wrote 2 things I want you to know. “The act of living is different. Her absence is like the sky, spread over everything”. And “No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. I am not afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid.” It’s from a small book called “A Grief Observed”. Later, when you can, in quiet moments I recommend you read it. It says everything. My heart hurts for all of you, but for Jenny, albeit this was what he called “a severe mercy”, she’s free, and some part of my heart has a bit of joy for that.
I know your hurt Kyle I'm so sorry❤
What a beautiful thing to pass on. Those 2 passages sure seem like they're perfectly fitting. 😢❤
I was given that book when my fiance died on Christmas. Lovely book.
That is a beautiful message for Kyle. I am also very grateful because I have never read CS Lewis’ book on grief - I will now.
That CS Lewis book was one of the best books I’ve read for loss and grief. Highly recommend. Definitely read that book.
Your wife is right beside you and your kids in spirit she wont leave you i hope you believe in it like i do i got cancer myself and u will die too but i know i can be with my Family and friends forever i send u my heart ❤ sorry for my english i am German
Ich wünsche Dir viel Kraft und ganz viel Liebe um Dich herum❤
@@2001jahr Dankeschön ❤️
Jenny didn't deserve this. And Kyle by her side for everything. Truly amazing family. So sorry for your loss. Sweet Jenny will be missed 🐞💔
There is no pain as deep as grief. One of the hardest things is that life just goes on, the world keeps spinning yet you feel suspended. The daily care and routine of Winnie and Ellis will help you so much. What a blessing they are. Jenny’s most beautiful legacy. ❤❤❤❤
Very well said. ❤
Kyle, as a mom who lost her daughter to a long battle with brain cancer I want to let you know that I understand this quiet time. I want to also let you know it is about to get more quiet. When everyone leaves it gets hard. There is some weird "relief" it is mostly physical, your body mind and spirit are tired, and it wants to heal, you might want to fall apart but the body does its own work on some level I don't understand. It wants to heal. You might find yourself needing more sleep.
It might be hard meeting the needs of the kids, it's ok, you are all in a place of loss and trauma. Lean on your support team, let them take them out for ice cream, play dates, keep them busy so you can find your feet again. distractions like school, clubs, friends, it will help them. You will find a new normal, do NOT feel guilty about it, it's survival and your wife would want you to find a way to have fun with your kids, work, laugh, celebrate again. It won't be the same but it will come. It feels impossible today and many feel that way for a couple months but you will heal a tiny bit, in baby steps, let yourself, sometimes we think if we move forward we are not honoring or we are forgetting, you will never forget, you will just find a way to grieve and live at the same time, live in layers.
You will find that your kids seem to be doing better than you expected. Honestly (this is just my opinion) they have been letting go little by little, instinctually. They will grieve differently. Just keep checking in. Give them permission to feel what they need to, and don't hide your grief from them, but do let them know you are the same dad they can count on you are just missing mom. The quiet may feel like torture, really it's a rest. Someone is missing in your house, in your life. That space is big, it is a universe but it is also a place of remembering and connecting. Talk to her if you feel comfortable. Let her know you are wide open for her love and communication but you also want her to be where she is suppose to be now, do her own healing.
She graduated, that is all, we all will, she just did it first. I am pretty sure where ever that is she will make it a precious place for you to all come home to. She chose the right husband. She isn't gone, she just isn't in that body, you can still love each other, that doesn't change, and those kids are parts of her you get to hold onto. Be kind to yourself. Rest, heal, follow your instincts, be sad, cry, get mad, smash dishes, what ever helps. There is no short cut through grief but you are not meant to live there forever. You will carry it in your pocket the rest of your life but you will also live, love, and do amazing things.
Right now just honor and celebrate this beautiful woman of yours, love those kids up the best you can and when you are ready start making small goals for what is next. I found that distracting myself helped. I created a job for myself, that honored my daughter. I took my youngest song on adventures, just small ones. I journaled, I had a grief support group for a short time. This time is hard, I know how hard it is, but you will access an even deeper well of strength and you will be ok.
Please, if it ever feels like more pain that you can bear reach out, here, with your friends, family, a therapist. We all need support and shoring up. No shame in it. Don't know you, your family or Jenny personally but we all belong to the same club. We understand great love, and we understand the greatest sorrow, what is more we endure, survive, and understand a strange beauty that can not be described.
Much love and healing prayers to your tribe.
Beautifully said. Thank you. I lost my darling husband to cancer 30 years ago when he was 42. I still miss him and talk to him frequently. Prayers for peace and strength.
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Well said! Bless you
I'm so 😞 😢 I couldn't watch after awhile. Missed some of it .God Bless her children a nd u to.❤
Kyle , my heart goes out to you. I lost my 34 year old son in 2018. So hard to handle living without him. You have so many memories with beautiful¹ Jenny. Just hold her in ¹your heart . THANK YOU, And Jenny so much for the strength you have given to all of us. Peace to you and your loved ones
I lost my mom to the same cancer- same story, she never smoked, was a hiker, ate macrobiotic, etc. I’m just finding her story, and I’m here to say that you are an incredible soul that she had to support her, and to tell her story.
It will never make sense to us on earth, but as a fellow care taker and watching her journey which was so similar to my mothers, I find comfort in knowing that I’m not alone in the loss that I had. Sending you lots of love and support. I can’t imagine what you’re going through as a father. You will always miss her. I’m 6 years now, and still miss my mom.
You’re going to do amazing things in her honor and if you need someone, I am here.
I hope you are seeking support, as I didn’t do that until 2 years later… sending you lots of love and support. In any way you need.
My friend thank you for making these posts. I am going through what you are going through. My wife died of cancer 3 days ago. We are both in our early fifties, so it was too young. My children are adults, so I will be living with my son and helping to raise my grand daughters. I find myself just walking around aimlessly, looking bout windows with the hopes of seeing my wife return.
Jenny passed on a Sunday, the Lord’s Day, that is a special day to leave this world. We will all meet again in our eternal home. My prayers will always be with Kyle, the kids, Ashley , and the rest of her devoted family and circle . This channel has inspired many. I am thankful.
Your wife's strength and humor in her last days are something I will always remember. Jenny did beat cancer, her rest is well deserved. I'm sorry for your unimaginable loss, and I pray that you and your family will be uplifted with the same strength that Jenny fought so bravely with.
your videos have touched thousands literally. what you did was make this less scary for so many people showing them what to expect. you just gave thousands a gift. you showed people how, when, what to expect you cannot put a price on that. YOU HELPED THOUSANDS THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU GAVE COMFORT YOU ARE GOLD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Further proof that only the good die young. She IS perfect & beautiful, especially now that she beat cancer. It's ok to cry, even around the children.
Dear Kyle - one of the greatest gifts you and Jenny have left for Ellis and Winnie is showing them what true unconditional love and support means. They will each grow up and know what a true partner looks like - undying love, support, acceptance and care. They will know what to look for because you and Jenny showed them this each and every day. Thank you for letting us all be part of your universe - we are here for you. Big hugs also to Jenny’s beautiful sister Ashley - thank you for being their constant rock. ❤
There are no words that can take away your pain in losing your beautiful Jenny. Just know that you have prayers from all over the world for you and your family as you go through this extremely difficult time. Jenny will never be forgotten. 🙏
@GrandmasHouseFun. Thank you for your comment as I couldn't have typed that at this moment 😩😭🙏
I wish i could jump through my screen and wrap my arms around you right now ,god give you strengh at this hard time ,rest in peace jenny now your an angle up above🙏⚘⚘⚘⚘thinking of you all xxxxxxx
@@kcloveonaleash It’s my pleasure. Words are so difficult at times like these. We all now have the honor of carrying a part of Jenny with us. Her spirit will only grow stronger. 💕
Darling Jenny gone too soon but rests in peace after an intense battle with cancer. My very very deepest sympathy to you Kyle and your Two Beautiful Children. You Kyle have been an amazing loving and comforting Husband to Jenny. She would never have survived as long as she did without your support dear Kyle. One amazing Man, Husband & Father. May God bless and comfort you all .. I will forever be close to you, Jenny & Kyle and your Babies with so much love, prayers and thank for sharing this journey with us. Be strong Kyle and please stay in touch with us
Estoy totalmente de acuerdo contigo en estos momentos tan difíciles una no sabe ni qué decir, pero estoy segura de qué ella descansa en paz y tuvo la gran suerte de haber pasado la enfermedad arropada y querida por sus familiares y por todos nosotros,yo no suelo hacer comentarios aúnque he seguido su historia desde el minuto 1,mira cariño has demostrado ser un marido ejemplar y un padre maravilloso,tienes qué ser fuerte por tus niños son muy pequeños y adorables, porque ella así lo quiere,yo sé qué es muy fácil hablar desde fuera pero lo único qué te puedo ofrecer es mi apoyo y cariño desde la distancia y porsupuesto rezar por ella, ella os cuida en todo momento y siempre estará con vosotros para todo, qué nunca sé te olvide, habéis sido todo un ejemplo cómo padres y cómo pareja y nunca estaremos lo suficiente agradecidos y creo qué puedo hablar por todos por habernos hecho partícipes de ésta historia triste pero a su vez maravillosa porque ha sido con tanto amor,bueno cielo ánimo y siempre hacia adelante,te mando todo el amor del mundo, todo a partir de ahora estará bien porque te lo mereces, me quito el sombrero ante tí y tú esposa ha sido una luchadora incansable de principio a fin, todo un ejemplo a seguir, siempre os llevaré en mi ❤
You sir, are a strong man for posting this. My sincere condolences to you and your family.
I stumbled on this because my mother has dementia and it’s only a matter of time before she passes too and Im preparing if it’s even possible. I hope I'm as strong as you when I get to that point.
Chris W from Texas
So sorry for your loss. Im a 2 time cancer survivor. I am 25 year cancer free. I also knows how it feels to see someone that lost their life from cancer
I’m 60 years old and even though I didn’t meet her in the physical form, her spirit was the kindest I ever “met”! And I can honestly say that about you, too, Kyle! You were her beautiful caretaker her Kyle. I’ll be praying for you and the kids. Praying as you go through your grief. Thank you for sharing. We know how hard this video had to be. Sending lots of love to you and your beautiful children!
What you have said is precious I think xx
Caretaker is such an underrated word. It’s so descriptive and it’s an honoured tittle to have in my opinion.
Blessed I am ❤❤
Rhonda I couldn’t agree more with your comment ❤ This beautiful family is the salt of the earth. 😢
@@danahatzimichaels1190
If only there were more of such people ⭐️
Kyle, you are immense. Your loss is huge but your love is immense. You feel empty but you are full of love. I have never heard a man speak his feelings as eloquently as you. You are a credit to Jenny and your family ❤
So sorry for your family's loss, we're all here for you
I can barely watch this, but i did because she was the best soul i have ever watched.
You are an amazing husband and Father.
She beat cancer, i truly believe this!!!
Physically hurt my soul seeing this video in my subscription box. I hope you know that thousands of us, although through a screen love her so so so much and just like we were here for Jenny throughout her journey, were here throughout yours. My condolences go out to you and the kids and everyone else who knows Jenny
I immediately burst into tears reading the title. Your silence said everything.
I am SO sorry Kyle. Nothing I can say will ease the pain but I'm glad she is no longer in pain. She will forever be with you guys, watching you and your beautiful children.
You guys were everything to her and she loved you all VERY much. You gave her a wonderful life.
I just came across this video. I'm sorry for your pain. My prayers are with you & your children. Jenny's hugs are still there from your precious children's embrace. ❤ 🙏
Thats the hardest thing ive ever had to watch. You showed so much strength while in so much pain. You and jenny have the same beautiful spirit. She lives on in your children. 🐞
Jenny's death is so personal. I have never met her, but this just made me burst out in tears. My heart is heavy. Thank you, Kyle, for taking care of her till the end. I pray that you, the kids, the rest of the family and friends may be comforted and find healing through this season. Rest in peace beautiful Jen. 😢😢😢😢😢
Angel number 55 represents change, growth and spiritual awakening. Jenny is now transitioning to the other place. It takes time. Look for signs, she will let you know when she is at Peace. Stay strong as we all know you will. But, fully grieve her loss.Take time. Breathe. God Bless .🙏❤️
My deepest condolences, Kyle. You will get through this horribly sad moment; she lives on in you and your children. Godspeed, Jenny. We all came to love you and your family. Sending your family lots of 🕯🕯🕯🕯. Spread your 🪽 Jenny, and fly away. 😢
Such beautiful souls❤️❤️🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️❤️
I loved her. She’s taught me a lot. She was scared, yet the most courageous person I know. She was tired, but summoned the strength to live life until the end. She was humble, beautiful, and absolutely adored her precious children. We should all be so blessed to know and have this kind of love at least once in our lives. I don’t understand why God allows these diseases to happen. Up until the end, I prayed for a miracle. We have to believe there is a better place than here and we are just passing through. Jenny is there now. I will continue prayers for you and the kids. Sending love and hope for happiness in the future as you deal with this devastating loss.
Kyle- words fall short. In 2016, my 28 year old son died- not from cancer, but loss is loss no matter the cause. People told me to focus on the years I had with him rather than the loss and grief and not be sad. What no one told me, and i now share with you, is that it is possible to be both incredibly grateful and happy to had shared time with your loved one and incredibly heartbroken, sad, lost, angry and confused at the same time. Grief is an emotion you learn how to tame and live with. Its not something you get over, but rather something you learn to live with and carry with you like a rock in your pocket. The early days will feel like its too much to bear but as you develop your coping skills, eventually it will lessen and somedays you will barely notice it. Wishing you and everyone around you moments of peace in the coming days as you embark on your journey forward.
Wise words
So well said. Thank you.
It is so very heavy. You are right.
So true.. I lost my baby brother at the age of 28 to rejection of bone marrow transplant to leukemia in 1995. Left an empty hole in all of us. And to this day sometimes that hole is bigger than me. But most days I can remember him and talk about him and smile about him. That time will eventually come Kyle. In the meantime grieve your precious wife, friend, mother to your children and worry about nothing else. As time goes on life will fall into place. Lots of love and hugs to all of you. May the Peace of the Lord be with you all.
And one other thing... We call those pennies you find Pennies from heaven and my cousin picks them up and places them in a jar. Her pennies are from her parents. So maybe get each of you a jar and as you find pennies put them in your jar and see how much she leaves them for you.
it filled my heart to hear the family coming together for him and the kids. Not everyone has that and it sounds like he still has a lot of people who care for him.
it's tough to watch our loved ones go slow.
I am sorry for your loss.
Grief equals the love you had. Oh, I feel for you! I lost my husband too from a strange illness. I miss him and my love for him still grows. Continue to love, it keeps memories alive for you and your kids. Love and prayers for all of you.
Dear sweet Kyle, thank you for reaching out to all of us, Jenny’s “peeps”. You are a remarkable person, loving and courageous as always. Thank you for this tribute to Jenny while you are grieving and suffering through the emptiness and anger that is grief. The photos with music are so precious, thank you for that as well. Each day is a new day and the Appleford family will be a great part of each new day forever! Love and comfort to all. 🕊️🫂🙏🏻🐞🦋💐😘
So heartbreaking to hear of beautiful Jenny’s passing. Not only did she kick cancer’s butt, she left the world a much better place … she inspired others and gave hope and courage to everyone fighting a personal battle. Our love, thoughts and prayers are with you all 🌹xx
Agree totally jenny was a real fighter 😢Kyle was so amazing
Sweetheart she is there with you. I know how hard this is. On September 20, 2006, I lost my husband of 23 years. I am remarried, but miss my first husband like crazy. I still cry often. I talk to him all the time. The grieving process takes a while to get through. Take your time. She knows you love her. Take care of yourself.
Kyle & Family, I just found this channel by chance this evening. I want to extend my sincerest condolences to you and your children and your family. Jenny was the epitome of STRENGTH & BRAVERY. The things she endured I could NEVER in a MILLION years! Through it all she had SUCH grace, positivity & a STRONG spirit!! What an AMAZING wife, mother & best friend. I think Jenny was an old soul as well. The fact she passed on 11/5 @ 5. Angel numbers!!! I know in my heart she is with you and your beautiful children always. However, I know having the woman you love be absent from your life physically is absolutely gut wrenching and it SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!! Grief is like shards of glass cutting you in every part imaginable. I know this. But being able to receive signs from her (which I'm sure she has got your attention many times already) helps when the grief is so overwhelming. My heart is broken for you and your babies. It's NOT fair! 😭💔😭💔 Sending all of my love to you and you are an AMAZING husband and father!!!
The fact that you selflessly took the time to update all of her YT supporters, despite the incredibly tough circumstances you're facing right now, says everything we all already knew about you guys. Thank you endlessly for everything that you both had the courage and bravery to share with us over the years. Jenny created the most beautiful legacy that we will all always remember her for. Praying fervently for you, Kyle, your kiddos, and the rest of your precious family and friends.
There are over 26k comments here so far, and I highly doubt that my words will reach you Kyle..but I hope you feel the love we're sending you. I know it won't replace Jenny's love in your life, but I hope we can continue to make you feel loved in her absence. Your family is so special, and beautiful. Jenny, you are already missed, and will continue to be missed by thousands upon thousands of lives that you touched. Kyle I pray for your comfort, for your strength, for your children, your entire family. Cancer is a thief, and it's ok to be mad at it. No one deserves to have cancer, yet none of us can control it. We do what we can to try and get rid of it. Sometimes it works, sometimes it does not, and there is no rhyme or reason. We are so proud of you Jenny, for overcoming every trial you faced. You never gave up. You did every single thing you could to extend your life. You really did beat cancer, because it no longer controls you. No more pain, no more illness, no more long hours at the hospital. We know you'll keep your angel eyes out for Kyle, Winnie, Ellis, and all your loved ones. What an amazing role model you are Jenny. Kyle your heart is broken and hurting, and in some ways, maybe it will forever..but please know that there will come a day that the sting in your heart isn't so harsh. You WILL have more good days than bad days. Jenny may physically be gone, but your memories will be with you forever, and her spirit will too. You will eventually figure out how to live your new normal. Take it one minute, one hour, one day at a time. Love and hugs to you all.
I know.. It is a thief a very mean disease. I lost my father almost a yr ago to stage 3 lunge cancer.
Danielle, what a beautiful comment. It might take some time but Kyle will read it. Thanks for putting into words what so many of us think. Love, Susan🇨🇭
I'm so sorry you lost your sweet Jenny. God will help ease your grief but she will live on through you ❤
I know how you feel. 😢 when my sister died there were so many people in the apartment but I felt so alone without her 😢😢😢. Before she died it was only her and me, I was the only one taking care of her for the last 2 (almost 3) years 💔.
At least we know that they (your wife and my sister) are not suffering now. 😇😇
Kyle-You are not alone!! In 45 minutes you already have almost 40,000 views! It was very rapid when she was given the 6 months and I know she was scared, but she's resting in God's arms now. It's 2:14 in the morning in New York and I'm crying as if I lost a dear friend. The past few days I could feel this was it. I saw a video from four days ago. I checked in again a few days ago which is when she passed. God has you in the palm of his hands. God is holding up your children. You are a beautiful soul who did the work of an angel for your angel. We are still here for you.
I just finished teaching the poem "Nothing Gold Can Stay" to my seventh-graders. We talked about treasuring moments and people that we love. When I sat down at my desk, I saw the notification that Jenny had passed. I am so sorry for your loss. You are the best husband anyone could ask for and an awesome dad too. Sending you all love and prayers. Jenny was an amazing woman.
We are gifts to each other. Don't forget to say thank you, everyone. Thank you.
So sorry for your incredible loss
Jenny's words that she beat cancer have changed my life. My Mom will be gone 30 years in February. She had breast cancer. She died two weeks to the day after I turned 17. She was only 42. She fought so hard. Now, thanks to Jenny, I will say my Mom beat cancer. I'm battling breast cancer myself now. But, no matter what, I see it differently.
Thank you for sharing this. Jenny's clearly a very busy Angel. ❤
Warm wishes from Germany 🌻 breast cancer here as well 🫶🏼
Prayers for you 🙏
If she could've answered you back, Kyle, she would have said "thank you" to you as well. The loving support you've given to your beautiful Jenny, Ellis and Winnie has been amazing. Don't forget to take care of yourself during this new, trying adjustment in your life. It's going to be hard, but you are so very strong. In your own time, one day at a time, you will slowly be able to manage the awful emptiness of her physical loss. You have the most beautiful angel watching over you all now. Thank you both for allowing us to be a part of your journey. Not only does it help others, but it is such a beautiful gift for the kids to always have. I pray God wraps his arms around you and your family, to comfort and strengthen you all during such a difficult time.
This was so beautifully said ❤❤ I was going to leave my own post , but reading this, you said exactly what I wanted to say . Kyle, you are the best husband and dad anyone could ever ask for, the love and support you showed Jenny and the kids just through this channel was truly incredible. You’re so strong, more so than you even realize , and that’s Jenny’s wings holding you up now as you go through this next chapter. We love you and the kids Kyle , we’re here for you . Sending love , hugs and support , I’m so very proud of you all, Especially Jenny❤❤❤❤🐞🦋🪽
Just beautiful 😢 God bless Jenny, you and all your family. You did her proud ❤ RIP beautiful lady.
Bless you in this sad time ❤️🙏🙏🙏
Kyle, my heart dropped when I saw this notification. I had to wait until I was in a still and quiet place to watch. I am sending so many prayers for you and your family and I am sending warm enveloping compassion. Think of it as many hugs being sent to you through energy and healing vibrations. I feel so blessed to have come across Jenny's channel as it gave me a glimpse into your beautiful lives. Thankyou for allowing me into your world. You and Jenny have taught me a lot. You are both inspirational. The level of love, kindness and respect that you have for one another us what every couple should strive for. I mentioned this in another comment, after watching your relationship, it has shown me what I have been missing out on. You are both an example of what a healthy relationship should look like. In Jenny's honor, I vow to only allow healthy relationships in my life. Unfortunately, I have had toxic relationships in my past and I believe it was due to my empathic and healing nature. I kept giving people chances that did not prove that they deserved them. I just want to thank you for giving a beautiful representation of what a healthy relationship looks like. We should all strive for this.
In saying this, I offer you my condolences. I am sending love to you and your family and hope that you can all be there for eachother in your time of need. I know that Jenny is at peace, you have a bright angel watching out for you on the other side. You are all so blessed. Prayers up 🙏
Beautiful
I'm literally crying cause its so unfair.
I have stage 4 cancer, and I made it less than 6 minutes into this video before I started sobbing for my sweet husband. He just spent 2 days off work caring for me after surgery (again), cleaning, cooking, helping me change my bandages, he even washed my hair for me. He finally went back to his full time job today. I saw this video title, and now I'm absolutely beside myself. Jenny's beautiful light will always shine through you. She gave her light to you. I hope it guides you to a lifetime of joy, wonder, and love!
I have stage 4 terminal breast cancer.. it stinks.. 🙏 for you and everyone battling this demon... Hugs
i am so sorry. I really do not what to say to someone in your situation except that as a stranger I feel for you
@@Regina0964 It's brave & kind of you to offer comfort despite your own cancer. God be with you, Regina.
Praying for you.
@@Regina0964 Praying for you.
I'm so so sorry for your beautiful loss, sending you hugs of love and comfort
I lost my bestfriend around the same time Jenny went to heaven. I still think of him every day. Im so sorry for your loss.i hope u heal and live the life ur life to the fullest for Jenny. Appreciate both of you.
Hi Kyle. I know you have tons of messages on here, but I’m hoping you’ll one day come across mine. First I want to tell you that I’m proud of you for having the strength to post this video. You allowed me to see the cancer fight from a whole new angle and I appreciate you for that. I don’t have words for your loss. Sorry and all that other stuff isn’t going to make you feel any better. I lost my beautiful wife on Sept 24th from brain and spinal cancer. I miss her dearly. I’m trying to find ways to get through this, somehow I’m getting by each day. Bonnie was only 33. I just turned 40. Loss at our ages is extremely difficult and I feel inside that you’re going to continue to be one heck of a father to your children. Jenny is beyond proud of you. I know exactly what you’re going through, Kyle. There is a widower group for men only on Facebook I joined if you feel it may help you as well. Right now you need to just take this one moment at a time.
I’m so sorry for your loss, thanks for reaching out to Kyle. May God give you the strength and help you through the process.
Hugs hugs hugs to you as well!
I pray the Lord will strengthen you and give you peace. My son had Leukemia and is now with the Lord. I find strength in knowing that someday I will see him again! For me, I look at it as if he has on on a long journey and is travelling the universe! When we meet again, he will have incredible stories to tell me!! Think about it! If we truly believe that Jesus is tak8ng care of our loves ones in Paradise, then truly it is no different that if they chose to live on the other side of the world from us. right!?!
So, sit down and write them letters! It will help! And ANYONE reading this, pleade, if you have kids, and they are missing a parent, or anyone, have them write letters to them. It will help.
My goodness I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for taking care to mention the widower group to Kyle. I hope he sees it and I hope you both find comfort!
Ugh , my heart just breaks for you too I know everyone goes through difficult times and it’s hard . Everyone like his comment so Kyle sees ❤
Kyle, as perfect as Jenny has been in your eyes, you have been just as perfect through hers. The two of you have shared a connection that is so powerful it draws others in. Part of that was through Jenny’s inherent kindness and gentle spirit, certainly. Part of it was due to your unwavering support throughout your entire time together. You show up for not just the big moments but for ALL the moments. The way you so openly show your love for people is incredibly rare.
As much as this journey was Jenny’s, it was also yours, Ellis’, and Winnie’s. The choice to share the ups and downs, display vulnerability and humility, and be frank about the prognosis with the goal of helping others cope with their own journeys speaks volumes.
May you all find comfort together in your many memories as you process how Jenny’s victory over cancer changes each of you.
So sorry for your loss, prayers for you and your family ❤
This is painfully sad and also beautiful. All the love, with all the loss. Bless your family ❤❤