First Time Hearing The Tragic Truth by Five Finger Death Punch | Recovered Addict Reacts
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Thank you Joel Davidson for coming onto my Friday livestream and pledging to help with my outreach projects. Here is my token of appreciation, my reaction to my first time hearing The Tragic Truth by Five Finger Death Punch. As a recovered addict, I have overdosed multiple times and witnessed others go through it. It's devastating to see it play out like this. So accurate.
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He did an interview about his true life experience with dying from alcoholic withdrawals and how it changed his life and turned him to sobriety....this video is a true life experience.
Dying from alcohol withdrawal or from alcohol overdose?
@@ireallyreallyhategoogleeither is possible unfortunately atleast once the addiction is so bad withdrawals can do more harm than good
Wow, your analysis hits dead center on some things I'm dealing with. August of last year I died for six seconds and almost died another two times. It wasn't from an OD or self inflicted. I was so depressed I didn't want to realize how bad my health had gotten. I have Chron's disease, I ignored it for so long my colon actually exploded. I say exploded because of how the Dr.s described how bad it was when they did emergency surgery. It took almost eight hours of cleaning out the infection before they could end the first surgery. I spent a month the hospital and had another three surgeries for various reasons. My body was so destroyed after everything I have only been able to go to the gym for the first time this week. Even then I'm still only building my body back to a normal level. As in not getting winded using stairs. Since all this happened I've had several major realizations about my life. The main one being that my depression had me so low I didn't care if I just wasted away slowly. I'm now working on the issues I now realize led to all this, and I still have a ways to go. But this reaction hit harder than I could have expected. Thank you for keeping mental heath issues in the conversation.
Long time ago when I was 22 or something, I was visiting my friend Weylan and my eyes rolled up and my heart was dropping and bouncing back in my chest. I just know it was a heart attack. But I guess years later doctors cannot tell if I had a heart attack or what.
I am SO proud of you and happy that you can start getting back into a healthy routine. You got knocked down, but you're coming up swinging!
I loved the reaction and the message! We are not what has happened to us, we are the sum of our amazing potential
FFDP has always hit a certain place with me, Coming Down is another one of their videos that I related to as someone bullied, I'd recommend it.
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I was put into Rehab even though I wasn't doing marijuana or cigarettes, or alcohol. The red pill that the lady at the sign in hospital booth gave me, actually made me dizzy. And that's all they needed to do to me to count me into rehab. I even went to the Rehab counseling group. And I was last in line to respond why I ended up in Rehab. I just said I don't do drugs, I quit 3 months ago. What was happening is that I felt bad and should have deserved to be in a hospital bed and not rouse up all the time to go to counseling. So I guess this is what they do to make money there. By making me hallucinate on the red pill and then they get paid to enter me into the rehab.
My father has been spreading lies about me instead of admitting he is just paranoid father has FASD similar situation he tells people I am a crack head and meth head even though never touched people believe him because I am missing teeth only reason I am missing teeth is.my father beat me kidnapped me and denied me medical care my entire life from the time I was young.
@@digitalmouse3314 Jesus is your best hope! Pray to him perhaps.
i want to say thank you for doing these reactions, i myself is a recovering alcholic, and dealt with anxiety and panic attacks for over 15 years, ive dealt with it alone, and no help, but seeing more people like us, is disturbing and only advise i have to give is is to find your happy place and stay there, dont worry about what anyone else says, as long as you do you, you'll be fine. the thing i figured out in life is you cant help others, yes you can financialy and other ways, but they gotta help thereselves mentally. i have a brother now whos a serious alcholic, killing him, but nobody on planet earth gonna tell him what to do... he knows it just doesnt care. you have to want it first before help is involved
@@gossman75 What an awful experience! I'm sorry that happened to you!
Thank God I defeated my demons. It's still a day to day struggle. Seventeen years sober, I think they've finally left me alone. Thank you for your channel, Amanda. Love you girl.
Proud of you for your 17 years!
Thank you Joel Davidson for the request, and donation. A very good song choice and very inspirational.
As soon as the song came out and I saw it, I knew it had to be discussed here. The struggle is real, and addiction and depression go hand in hand. I hope that this reaction helps someone and I know the donation will touch someone's life through Amanda's outreach.
@@JD-mo4fv I'm sure it will, and not just the outreach the reaction itself. I'm sure at some point someone will watch this and it will have been exactly what they needed at the time.
Love this song you have such a good energy just thank you again for you and your channel
Amanda, another amazing reaction. Love helping your outreach program and helping bring mental heath to the fore front of the conversation and the role music has in helping us process and heal from our issues. See you on a live stream again soon. ;IGY6
I admire the courage it took for Ivan to make this song and perform it. I also admire his strength to fight back his demons. Much love Ivan Stay strong ❤️
A very touching reaction, awesome job.
So awesome that. You are react to my favourite song. So cool. I was feeling depressed and I almost relapsed today. Thank you for reacting to this. So Awesome.
Much love, I've been there myself, close to relapse, so I completely understand what you must be going through right now. Always remember you're not alone. I hate the cheches but "This too shall pass"... Funny story about that one I had a friend say that to me one time when I had a kidney stone SMH. Not sure if you will understand this next part but just "keep coming back it works if you work it. It works even if you don't work it, it just wont be working for you." If no one has told you to day that they love you, I do. Even though we've never met and I don't know your story every one of us in recovery knows the pain.
My Higher Power willing I'll never have to change my clean date. May 14, 2015. I pray you will never have to change yours.
I saw that 'almost' and I am very proud of you for sticking to your recovery!
Honestly thank you all fornstill being here. I see and love you all
I'm thankful that there are bands out there like death punch that make songs like this. Music is my therapy
Hey Amanda, loving the videos. Been watching for a while now, this is such a good song. Love Five Finger Death Punch
A few song suggestions
Adams Song - Blink 182
How do you get that lonely - Blaine Larsen
Coming down - Five Finger Death Punch
I've mentioned "Coming Down" a few times amazing song. Saved my life a few times.
Coming down absolute favourite from FFDP
I definitely adore all your feed back very true ❤
This feels good someone understands im 18 i started using coke and meth at age 15 i started being a vocalist using my struggles in afew rock bands i have been clean off coke and meth for about a year at this point i currently do have struggles with alcohol and do my best to fight it i appreciate you doing your best to support everyone its very inspirational
Hi Amanda. Thanks for all the awesome work that you're doing with your outreach. Hope you're well.
I think for a lot of people 5FDP feels personal. Someone who has been trapped inside their own mind knows how it feels. No one if perfect. I try not to judge people as much as I can but there has been a few times I'm guilty of doing it.
I can't say the devil made me do it. Speaks volumes. As you said we all made the choices. Keep up the great work, you should be proud of yourself.
This band hits mental and other disorders head on, without any escape. Ivan has struggled and so have so many of the fans . That is the connection , and I hope everyone survives. I just do.
Truly love that beginning quote
Omg, omg, omg!!!!! I've been in this place... Being homeless, your just walking around in a daze... I'm in tears
I love all your doing Amanda.. I have SEVERE PTSD and you are helping. Thank you, Bull Dozer.
The fact Ivan was dead, and was brought back still amases me. Love them or hate them, I love this band
not evil just imperfect prone to failure and falling but that is the beauty of the human condition is we can always with the right will and help rise above.
Amazing person, you shine. Perfect aura and blueish angel eyes and soul ❤
Damn, can Ivan really hit you in the feels. I have never really had addiction issues, although almost all my family has. admittedly I know I am in the minority. But when Ivan sings it, pours his heart and soul into the song. I can understand it. I can even sympathize where I really couldn’t before
A little over 10 years sober for me!!! I met Ivan Moody the singer of this band, he is such a good soul. Alcohol and drugs turn us into everything we hate
Proud of you!
Okay, just saw this on my feed and I had to click over immediately. Haven't hit play yet, but I am very confident that this is going to be a great reaction video with some real and intense emotion.
I was right; that was wonderful. Thank you again.
Hey Amanda, loving your videos and fully support your message and outreach. I know, as a man that has battled depression for many years, how important this message is. Keep up the great work.
Just a quick song suggestion: Different Kind of Tears- Sully Erna (Godsmack).
I can safely say that I've never developed any addictions to drugs and alcohol, even though I've been in many circumstances that easily could've opened the gateways to them.
Sheer willpower is the only explanation I can think of as to how I've stayed clean since the day I was born.
I know one addiction you have that you dont know off.
Suger.
Here ya go, Amanda. 100 points for content. Plus a 25 point bonus for the t-shirt. Took a minute to find it but the corresponding mug is on it's way to my house now.
Love me some @RyanGeorge!
I've been gone awhile Amanda, I tried to die again. I can't see a bright light, I feel like Ivan, this song depicts me so much!! My demons will not go away!!! I'm slowly dying!!!
The demons never go away. Mine never went away. I just made friends with them. Is there anything we can do to support you?
If you've never experienced it, I was born with severe depression. My mom was manic (either crying or drunk) and my dad had severe anger problems. Ive been off and on illicit drugs, prescription drugs, and alcohol my entire life. I don't want this. I want to be normal. But I'm either so lethargic with no motivation or I'm drugged out. I've dreamed about building myself a tomb for the last 5 years sleeping 12 hours a day. Dreaming of sleeping in a tomb forever.
It makes sense that you turned to these vices, you were never taught how to cope and you were let down by the very people who should have been building you up. I hate to tell you that "normal" isn't real. It's just a setting on the dishwasher. But you CAN overcome the vices and you CAN find meaning and fulfillment in life. You CAN fight back!
so true i still have a little bit with trouble
I don't speack and understand english very easely but I love your reaction and the concept of your videos
The end of the video makes me cry, and when I see the comments, the description there are so much kindness, I will continue to watch your videos to improve my english skills
Have a nice day :)
I watched french UA-camrs to improve my french so this means a lot that I am now that for you with english!
Please do FFDP Coming Down. This video hit me so hard I still cry every time I see it.
100% agree
oh wow wow wow these t shirts are tight!
You should follow this up with The Darkness Settles In. It's what he says at the end.
You have a great message in here. Thank you.
Another you should check out is Coming Down....outstanding
I like the positive message at the end of this song and your positive message in the video as well. When in school we were almost thought to look down on those who struggle with addiction by the teachers. While those who used drugs and alcohol looked down on those who didn't. both of those views are fucked up. I like what you said that our bad choices shouldn't define us but we should learn from the past. now as far as statement "devil made me do it" as you said that doesn't usually apply. However while one needs to take responsibility for some of one's demons. (for me it would be being rude on the internet) some of the things really are out of person's control. I was smart enough and lucky enough (and you need both to succeed) not to be addicted to anything. (at least so far and I intend to keep it that way) But my desires are far beyond my means. and i don't consider this my fault. I do wish to be God and yes some of this has to do with my arrogance but for the most part its because I feel that this is the only way I can defend myself. I like and respect the fact that you are so positive despite your past problems. although its something I could never do if I ever faced addiction on top of my own demons.
Wow, this hits home... After losing my ex partner, I hit the bottle & certain substances pretty hard. I'm on the level now though, thanks in no small part to yourself Amanda, and this community. I've learned to channel those needs & feelings into my work. I'm a chef, so turning those negative and destructive energies and emotions into something positive, being able to give people a great meal & a great night out... Yeah, I'll take that. Thank you again, and much love ❤️x
This is SO beautiful! Thank you for sharing. If you can make any good vegan dishes, I'll have to come hire you one day!
@@MentalAmanda That would indeed be an honour and a privilege! I would love that! I can do vegan. If I was based in the States, I would have no hesitation, and would probably cater for you for no more than the costs of the ingredients. Unfortunately, for now at least, I'm stuck in the UK. Thank you again, and much love ❤️ xx
I've never heard the super hero saying before. Damn....
To be honest, this is maybe first comment i ever wrote on YT. most of FFDP songs hit me deeply in the guts, as they know my, ours, life story. Depression, addiction, alchohol, drugs, suicide(not me, but family member)...you name it. My late grandmother was alchoholic, died from liver failure...my father, her son, is also alchoholic, and i strugle every day not to be one. Some days harder, some days easier. I could go on and on with my life story, and belive me there is much to tell. I'm now 46, and after all i've been through, to be honest, sometimes ask myself how am i still alive.
As lifelong metalhead, i can tell you, this kind of music can make every day better. As for FFDP, they have much more songs that deal with bad side of life.
Sending hugs and kisses from other side of the world, little coutry named Croatia :)
I'm honored to be your first! I'll try to be gentle! You're still alive because you fought to be stronger than all of that. And I'm SUPER proud of you!
@@MentalAmanda To be honest, did't think i would ever get a response. Thnx Amanda XOXO
Ivan saying don’t tell the fans got to me. He didn’t want to let anyone down.
I'm a Retired Marine i served honorably for 24 years. I enlisted in 1990 and left for Bootcamp at Parris Island SC. 3 days after graduating high school June 9th 1991. After Bootcamp and MCT ( Marine Combat Training) i made the short walk to my MOS school which was SOI ( School of Infantry) towards the end of SOI representatives for Marine Recon came asking if anyone wanted to try out for Marine Recon i did. I became part of 2nd Marine Force Recon by chance and decided to make a career in the Marine Corps. My first expiration in Combat was in 1993 in Somalia then again in Haiti in 1994 it wasn't until 1999 that i was back in Combat in Kosovo. After returning from Kosovo i figured i would never be back in Combat i was wrong. I ended up doing 2 tours in Iraq and 3 tours in Afghanistan. I was wounded in 2004 while fighting in Fallujah Iraq not really badly none the less i went back in 2006 to Ramadi Iraq it was this tour that my mental health started to be affected, i lost 2 of my best friends fellow Marines a day apart from each other. After returning home from that tour i just felt like i didn't belong so i volunteered to go to Afghanistan and just kept going back. I started my 3rd tour in Afghanistan during 2012 i had been in Country for 5 months when i was badly wounded during what ended up being a brutal 6 hour long battle. I ended up getting hit in my lower right leg the bullet shattered 3 inches of bone. Another Marine and best friend ran out and started to drag me to cover when we were both hit from a burst of Machinegun fire. One of the rounds hit me in my left armpit it went thru my left lung missed my heart and spine then excited out my back. I passed out shortly after that when i came to i had already been Medavaced and getting ready to be flown to Germany and from there to the State's. I didn't find out that my buddy who tried to get me to cover died in the helicopter on the way to the hospital he bled out next to me. I recovered and was in the Marine Corps for 2 and a half years before Retiring. I had been given Oxycodone for the pain and shortly found myself addicted to it and using it to hide from the unseen wounds. After Retiring and my care being taken over by the VA it didn't take them long to figure out i was abusing the pain pills and taking me off them. At that point is when i became addicted to Heroin it wasn't long after that i found myself with a gun in my hand and getting ready to kill myself. Luckily i was interrupted and taken to the VA hospital where i finally asked for help. I have been diagnosed with having Severe PTSD, Treatment Resistant Depression, Mild TBI and Substance Abuse Disorder. I'm glad that my plans to take my own life were interrupted and i was able to get the help i so desperately needed. What people don't realize is just how dark of a place someone's in when they think that death is the only way out. The fear i felt while in that dark place was worse than any fear i had ever had in Combat....yes that's right even more fearful than the last time i was wounded. I am now doing really good i now talk to groups of Veterans and have talked at a couple of high schools telling them my story.
First of all, thank you for your sacrifice. It doesn't go unseen or unappreciated. Second, I am SO happy you are not only still here, but thriving. You are a beacon for other veterans who might be feeling helpless because you have so much stacked against you, but you overcome those trials like Hercules himself. So proud of you!
It surprised me when that music video came out. I always loved this song, but it didn’t have a music video for years.
Just realy thank you for share your own experience!
Now i understood this video because my own experience with alcohol!
The thing with alcohol... It`s a drug you will understand as a drug if it`s "too late" for! It`s just a neurotoxin!
There is a point, you cant stop drinking, because you got that you cant get sleep without. Thats the point you are an alcoholic for real!!!
Your body get issues over years you cant believe, you cant sleep without alcohol or your dreams becomes your hell alive on earth every single night, you will hate everyone just because and so on...
If there is anyone drinking, dont believe in my experience, just test your self:
! Dont drink in a situation or a day where you normally have alcohol!
If you couldnt resist, trust me, you are an alcoholic and drift away from your planed life! Pls stop that and searching for help!
This help is available in every country, you just have to recognize the problems of your own soul!
sry Amanda, great reaction! just do your way ahead! sry >.
I'll be celebrating 22 months clean and sober on Friday. YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!!!!!!🤘❤️🤘❤️🤘❤️🤘❤️🤘❤️🤘❤️🤘❤️🤘❤️
Proud of you!!!!!
That was me but was addicted to pot, killed emotions I didn't want to feel after a lot of crap, I then have had to learn to live with dealing with those things inside my own head, I still don't think anyone will ever really understand me, but i have been off everything for 6 years now
When I was at school I had a serious stutter and dyslexia so bullying was a real problem to the point I stopped talking most of the day and everyone’s attitude was get over it so I berried everything deep down, because of that later on I lost all tolerance to anyone who laughed at me and had a serious anger problem, when I was 17 I started drinking and using other drugs which didn’t do me any favours but I thought if I was numb I wouldn’t hurt as much even though I was hurting others, that went on for 20 years, now I am 13 years clean and sober it wasn’t easy but it gets easier, I started painting to keep my mind occupied that helped I have a good life now but I still don’t talk much, life is hard but it can get better I’m living proof of that ❤️.
I'm so proud of you! I was bullied too and it's definitely hard to get over, but once you understand that hurt people hurt people, you understand that it isn't YOU at all but their own insecurities. You're amazing and your voice matters!
@@MentalAmanda thank you ❤️
Taking back our power!
If we only ever remember one thing...
Every day is a new day. Even if today wasn't my best day, I can start over tomorrow.
You mentioned being honest.
If we're not honest WITH OURSELVES we start the day in quicksand.
When we can stop deceiving ourselves, we start on solid ground.
But these are all just platitudes if our mind is not healthy or is poisoned by substances.
And it's exceptionally difficult to separate a poisoned mind from unhealthy paradigms.
If it were easy, our society wouldn't be swimming in the worst mental health crisis in our history.
My belief is that the breakdown of community is at the heart of the crisis.
Our societal fabric is fraying on the edges, at the corners and everywhere in between.
With all the tools in literally, the palm of our hands, we continue to choose the worst possible sources of entertainment, information and communication.
It's just so tragic. With the power available to us in the form of the cell phone, equipped with the most innovative technology known to man, we still allow ourselves to be broken down to the lowest common denominator, and give in to our baser instincts.
Tragic.
I appreciate your channel and your sincerest desire to combat the stigma of the crisis.
Your work is absolutely necessary for the hopes of tomorrow.
i will be one to admit this... i literally cried because of this and i still am.....
I totally get what you said about doing something you said you never thought you'd do. I never thought I'd drink and drive. What a surprise it was to me when I woke up from a coma and find out I drank and drove.
When we know better, we do better!
@@MentalAmanda Ha of course I knew not to beforehand, that's why I never drank and drove. That's why I couldn't believe it. I still have no memory of it or the funeral I was at before or many other things that happened prior. Now I'm just a disabled Marine who feels like an old man looking back and dreaming of days long gone.
@@marinedude_06 You still have many days ahead. Daydream about where you could go!
@@MentalAmanda Hey have you heard the song by Insomnium Heart Like A Grave? If not then please react to it.
There's an older fan (not sure)made video that has some powerful images , including Ivan walking with a flowering cross.....ps this video was released on his 42 birthday.
My friend Lou I saved him in 2017 drove him to rehab got him in and he was clean for 6 months my work picked up he called me hundreds of times I figured he was just being a asshole then I called his phone and nothing I text his girlfriend she said he's gone I wish I would have figured it out he is in heaven now I miss u lou.
RIP Lou. He knew you cared.
Good reaction. I think you should check out a group from New Zealand called Devilskin. the song Sweet Release is about dealing with suicide.
Shivers from head to toe ........ hope he continues to stay away from the demon drink ....... love n light xxx
He's still sober! And has a line of products called Moodys Medicinals
Part 1 Everyone say i would never do that but when the mind is clouded but demons its often easy to slip and there deal i say that because i suffer from chronic pain do to a back problem that cant be full fixs the best they can do is burn the nevors over and over hopping it will work and mental health isnt any better as well ptsd autism adhd bipolar depression and bullied to the point i was kicked out of school for biting a teacher for 5 years but he had it coming so i had to tech my self any what im saying is there always a light at the end of the tunnel
Enjoying your reactions to FFDP. Check out their song “The Bleeding”
You should react to Five Finger Death Punch COMING DOWN.
Part 2 hears my light at the end of the tunnel so to speak think of it as 3 lvls now 1st level the dark thoughts is gates 2nd lvl the temptation in witch the chains are trying pull down to the releaf and the 3rd lvl is the dance in witch you battle the devil and when you can walk out the other side with much damage your doing great the road is rough but your a fighter ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
"I'm running from a man I swore I'd never be, no one ever has to face tomorrow but I'm the one that has to face me" I love that line cause I swore that I'd never drink and drive, every single day for the last 13 and a half years I wake up and have to face the consequences of that action. I deal with a brain injury as a consequence. Some days are easier than others of course, I have to remind myself that once a Marine, always a Marine and nothing can take that away from me.
You are still you and you are still lovable and worthy despite that mistake! And this is coming from someone who has been MASSIVELY impacted by drinking and driving.
@@MentalAmanda The worst part is that I've no memory of ever doing it or the funeral I was on the way back from. It was the first time, the last time I ever drank and drove. I was in a coma for 3 weeks. A shit ton of speech therapy, I still have some balance issues, obviously memory issues, dexterity issues. I have weakness on my right side cause most of the damage was on the left side of my brain.
@@MentalAmanda And thank you for that, reminding me that I'm still lovable though I doubt it. No one wants to get into a relationship with a disabled dude. The hardest part is not being able to meet new people.
@@MentalAmanda Sorry, I always forget to something. How has drinking driving effected you, if you don't mind my asking?
@@marinedude_06 I bet you learned a lot from the experience! And you are a SURVIVOR now - and you can be a superhero with one hell of a backstory.
True story about this. Ivan did actually die. He died in his house I believe in the kitchen in front of his daughter. He tried to quit I believe by himself and his body shut down. The hand you see in the video is his daughters hand cause he said she pulled him back. He is sober to this day. I am an addict myself and I am sober almost 3 years. This song is very relatable to any addict. To all other addicts out there you are not alone and we are here for you!
Proud of you for your three years!
I found my oldest brother dead by his own hand that gave me same kind of ideas but at his funeral my mom said to me don't do that please I made a promise to my mom and we are still alive also my nieces and nephews helps alot for me to stay sane and music like FFDP too cause somehow in there I find my peace and for that Sentenced between 96-05 still keeps me alive
i work in the military where the mental health stigma is often fatal. I joined to reach them before its too late. But i feel like its not enough to be in and be with them when this crap starts.
I think itt's more than enough. You're saving many lives and I admire you. Thank you for protecting our soldiers 💖
Love you Amanda. Your the best channel on UA-cam. I mean that... Dan or aka BullDozer
I quit drinking and drugs the same way still struggling with depression but just don’t numb it with drugs anymore
I understand. It was similar for me. It's because the reasons that drove the urge to use in the first place still have to be addressed. You got this and we've got your back. Proud of you for your recovery!
I physically act out my PTSD dreams. I live alone. I wonder what my neighbors think when I scream for help at 4am
I've woke up screaming from panic attacks too. Unless you're in an apartment, they likely don't even hear.
2 things if i may..... I like your reference to your shadow. Perfect depiction of an inescapable past. A monster, or demon and consequences I can never separate from....escape just isn't the right word.
And yes, we are all sinners, it's just human nature. We all fall short But remember that many faiths don't believe that we're born into sin or are irredeemabley evil. Those are the ones to stay away from, those are the ones simply selling something
The first verse of this song hits hard for me because I turned heavily to the bottle after my brother died but I did kick the addiction though
I'm very sorry for your loss but also very proud of you for overcoming addiction!
@@MentalAmanda I struggle daily with wanting to pick the bottle back up again but if you ever get the chance to react to metallicas song until it sleeps their opening line is something I ask myself everyday he says where do I take this pain of mine? I run but it stays right by my side is exactly where I am still 6 years after losing my brother the pain always comes in waves
@@tylercoley8353 There are mornings where all I want is a line. But we are better than that. Your brother and my parents deserve for us to stay strong and share their love and wisdom with the world.
@@MentalAmanda I've done my fair share of line pills mixing drugs and liquor and I've wondered why I'm still here and my brother isn't but I must accept that it's all part of a higher plan from God he's does everything for a reason that I'll never understand until my time comes and I will continue to fight for my other siblings but it's also hard knowing I'm the last of my bloodline as well
@@tylercoley8353 Maybe you're still here to share his love and wisdom since he can't do that on this plane anymore
You need to check out seether and amy lee broken awesome track and hits home
How did you do it? How did you escape? I cant even count my scars. All I want is to feel better, to feel good.
I do a free 5 day challenge where I teach the framework of what I did.
www.happinessboost.life
I Apologize is another good one of Ivan dealing with his demons
Avatar Black Waltz song to get out there for people suffering with depression more specifically thinking of suicide love 5 Finger Death Punch they sing about Veterans life in USA they good. Avatar is a good band that takes mental health seriously.
I see a therapist biweekly. You ask for truth. been stabbed, been shot, sold my gun because it misfired when i put it to my head. I am not allowed weapons because of my mental state
Also do a reaction to Jullia brennans - inner demons
You mentioned mansions...Have you ever heard of the artist NF? I recommend his song "Mansion". It speaks to the rooms you are talking about.
Yup, here ya go!
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Gawd this is so me.
FFDP has lots of songs with meaning, they have one that I'm not sure if it would be good for you to listen to called Coming Down it is directly about suicide.
RIP DIME AN VINNIE
I swore I'd never hurt a woman. But I've broken hearts. My Demons keep reminding me and making me hate myself! I try to forgive myself but keep getting dragged back down
We've all broken hearts. Every single one of us. Often we break up with a person or have to be brutally honest with a person knowing it will hurt them to circumvent even greater hurt down the road. You aren't a bad person. You are worthy of love and forgiveness.
I agree that the Devil didn’t make you do it. All he does is throw temptation at you. It’s how you deal with the temptation that decides what’s next.
The leader of DARE in high school drank as much as the rest of us we couldn’t do some drugs because it would show up on our UA for sports. The drugs we used could be hidden
That's crazy!
I don’t know if rap is a no go for you but “going through changes” and deja vu” are two songs by Eminem that I feel really speak to/about the struggles with addiction and depression. Give them a listen sometime.
Gotta do their song A Little Bit Off as well. The video is pretty cool too. Also I Apologize
Hey Amanda, your videos are important and mean a lot to many people. Away from that, it would make me very happy if you would check out the song "Fix You" by Coldplay. Sending you lots of love and support from Germany. ❤
Awesome song and reaction, please react to Citizen Soldier - Irreplaceable
Weighed Down With Sorrow by Insomnium is a request I have
Another song about addiction you should try is the 11th hour by lamb of God
I overdosed on prescription depression pills. It took me 2 days talk walk again
I'm glad you're here and seeking healing.
@@MentalAmanda How did you do it? All I want is for it to end Im tired
@@ashleymartin9656 Honestly, I had to restructure my entire life from the ground up. From what I was consuming to my habits to who I let in my life. I actually give the breakdown in my free five day challenge: www.happinessboost.life
It's normal to feel tired when the weight of the world is on your shoulders. Rest and take steps toward healing.
Next song called stronger than my strom by citizen soldier please
I work in rehab, Have I been there? Course I have.
I do it for free now I'm retired.
Addicts are not criminals. They are victims
As a recovered addict myself, I don't consider myself a victim, but a survivor. Either way, you are correct, addiction isn't a criminal act.
This isn’t necessarily related to the video, but since you mentioned it I wanted to share. As a Christian, I take the Bible word for word. The reason we believe that mankind is naturally evil is because God tells us that in His Word. The reason He says that is because we must rely on Jesus for our hope and salvation, not ourselves. After all, we’re the ones who brought sin into the world in the first place. Jesus is the One who paid for our sin in the cross, and believing in Him is our only way of salvation. We can’t save ourselves. Again, just sharing because you mentioned it, and I’m concerned for the souls of those who don’t know Jesus. As someone who has struggled with mental health for most of my life, I know that He is the reason I’ve gotten where I am today. He’s my only true hope. Anyway, I appreciate your videos and will continue watching. Hope all is well.
While I don't believe the same as you, I'm glad that you found something that has brought your peace and healing.
This destroyed me... Omg
I would like to make a reaction request please
Citizen solder numb to everything
Was the smaller hand his inner child?? Just walking out and being like "we're going out together. sorry kid. I dont care about us anymore." Damn... Hard to watch. Thanks for this video.
I only live on 56 US a month that's it or I'd contribute to this and a few others sorry just too poor
Never apologize!
@@MentalAmanda Thank You , it means a lot , not for status (sake) to hear this
Not sure what mainstream religion you’re talking about, but as a Catholic, that’s not what we teach.
Which part specifically are you referring to?
It's funny how you bring up mainstream religion. My mother is a devout Christian so I was brought up with the bible being heavily taught, I won't say preached to us as that would be too harsh. But I know the scriptures to a good extent, and they say repent and you will be forgiven and that Christ will forgive you. BUT and this is a big F@#€ing but, it seems that the practitioners of religions are the ones that can't forgive or allow someone to move on and leave their past behind. My mother is a prime example of it, and yet can't see her own failures or if she does she just denies them.
Anyone can make a bad choice in life, and making that choice may not be their fault. But what they do afterwards can really show the character of that person, even if the first act of courage after the fact us to ask for help. Then applaud that and help them up.
Unto thine own self be true. XX
The start of this video sounds like toxic positivity, and you get a dislike for that.
Even though UA-cam doesn't care any more about dislikes.
Toxic positivity is the expectation to only show culturally "positive" emotions while masking the "negative" ones. Realizing that there is always hope doesn't mean pretending that circumstances aren't challenging or sometimes flat out miserable. It means seeing an end to the suffering 💖 This channel very much encourages sharing no matter where you are in your journey.