How Many Books Did I Read On My Physical TBR This Year? *not a lot*

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  • @thegirlinspired
    @thegirlinspired 5 місяців тому +676

    Don’t beat yourself up Des, you still read 36 books which is better than nothing. I think doing an unhaul sounds like a great way to start off a fresh year, with books you actually want to read. Another suggestion to maybe go along with your 5 book buying limit is to only allow yourself to buy a new book once you’ve read at least 2 off your existing physical TBR, that way you’ll always be reducing the number by at least 1. You’ve got this! ❤

    • @L-tb9kk
      @L-tb9kk 5 місяців тому +10

      omg thank u for this because i have a problem of buying more books that i can read so my physical tbr is just growing 😭 gonna do this from now on

    • @Lunaticdoodles
      @Lunaticdoodles 5 місяців тому +3

      @@L-tb9kkdude the book shopping addiction is real

  • @evelientx
    @evelientx 5 місяців тому +311

    7:53 i made a bingo card for my physical tbr for next year!! And i'm only allowed to buy a book when I finish a row on the card. So i made multiple 4x4 charts, each box is a book and i mixed them up so i wouldnt have all my most anticipated reads right next to each other. So whenever i read 4 books in one row im allowed to buy a new one. I might even get a tbr jar and put the titles of all the books in there and grab random ones to make it through the charts

  • @tourmii
    @tourmii 5 місяців тому +251

    Don’t beat yourself up! You’re not a regular book girly, you’re a booktuber! If it weren’t your job, you wouldn’t have bought so many… keep that in mind!

  • @hooflepoof630
    @hooflepoof630 5 місяців тому +246

    Can we appreciate how much Destiney has given us while sounding like she has the flu ❤❤❤

  • @jhcs6
    @jhcs6 5 місяців тому +182

    can we all agree that destiny's bookmas videos make our day??

    • @hannahjbeck
      @hannahjbeck 5 місяців тому +2

      yes and hello fellow carpenter

  • @aeriilyn
    @aeriilyn 5 місяців тому +102

    i have 20 books on my physical tbr and i find that too overwhelming..

    • @maggiemango6850
      @maggiemango6850 5 місяців тому +11

      I have 200 😭

    • @yeoubi5254
      @yeoubi5254 5 місяців тому +5

      ​@@maggiemango6850damnnn

    • @anniek1746
      @anniek1746 5 місяців тому +2

      Woow this is impressive

    • @kathryn-yd7bh
      @kathryn-yd7bh 5 місяців тому +5

      Same I managed to get my tbr down to 5 at the beginning of December read 1, in the middle of 2. But then I went book shopping and it's now 25.

    • @Huozy
      @Huozy 5 місяців тому +3

      I have 17 😪

  • @anaquil
    @anaquil 5 місяців тому +84

    I think the book tunnel in the beginning looks really good ! You should def do more videos from that angel !

  • @ameliaclark3582
    @ameliaclark3582 5 місяців тому +24

    you should do something like for every 5 books off your physical tbr, the reward is buying one new one

  • @ash31114
    @ash31114 5 місяців тому +23

    Something I do when I feel my physical TBR is a little too high for my liking, I will start grabbing about 5 books and start to read 20-30 pages. At that point I will either know 1. If I like it, 2. If I like it but not in the mood currently will I want to read this later, and 3. This can go to a new home. It really helps because sometimes a book sounded good when buying but 6-12 months later it’s not hitting the same lol

  • @taylors3111
    @taylors3111 5 місяців тому +27

    You still read a decent chunk of your TBR! I wouldn’t be too upset! Also, buying books can be just as fun as reading books, so as long as it’s still bringing you joy I wouldn’t be too hard on yourself. An unhaul is a great idea though and there are plenty of places to sell used books (ie pangobooks)

  • @laceygomez
    @laceygomez 5 місяців тому +48

    You’re not alone Des! I’m in a similar situation lol let’s just collectively agree that 2024 is the Year of The TBR.

  • @hillarycab
    @hillarycab 5 місяців тому +18

    this is actually super impressive how much you were able to read! plus an unhaul sounds smart! who knows, you might gift someone their new favorite book

  • @AJKaneMusic
    @AJKaneMusic 5 місяців тому +29

    You made me want to count my own books... I have 371 physical books on my shelves and I've officially read 44 LOL I blame kindle and not at alllll my self control :P

    • @Jennakhalaf
      @Jennakhalaf 5 місяців тому +5

      my kindle is stopping me from picking up any physical books lol

    • @AJKaneMusic
      @AJKaneMusic 5 місяців тому

      Honestly me too, its just too easy to read on @@Jennakhalaf

    • @MysticDivinerLJ
      @MysticDivinerLJ 5 місяців тому +1

      @@Jennakhalafsame and I’m not mad about it either. (Surprisingly)

  • @yogevnaor4585
    @yogevnaor4585 5 місяців тому +3

    4:25
    "Not a happy family,
    How to kill your family"
    I dieddddd

  • @whitmorgan
    @whitmorgan 5 місяців тому +16

    I’m soo sorry you’re sick!! I hope you you get a lot of rest, and recover soon!

  • @kayladempsey6661
    @kayladempsey6661 5 місяців тому +13

    reading 36 out of the 190 is still a good thing!! i read very little off my physical tbr as well, but the ones i did read i was so proud of myself! definitely doing an unhaul at the beginning of the year would be such a great fresh start to the new year!

  • @bookswithellen
    @bookswithellen 5 місяців тому +2

    unhauls are so therapeutic and really help me when i’m trying to feel a bit less overwhelmed by my physical tbr. i would defo recommend!! i also think it helps with general motivation for reading when you only have books you’re really interested in

  • @kaitlynkleven
    @kaitlynkleven 5 місяців тому +3

    I really think you should 100% do a realistic y haul girl, it’s totally okay, books are literally so easy to go crazy on we’ll buy 10 books read 2 then buy 10 more like every month and end up with so many books, girl just in the past 6 months I collected over 100 books on my TBR. 😂 I’m done buying books unless it’s a new release I absolutely need.

  • @StrawberryLemonBooks
    @StrawberryLemonBooks 5 місяців тому +2

    I feel youuuu- I have around 250 books on my physical tbr right now 😭
    Excited to see the video of your entire physical tbr next year 💕

  • @jayda7074
    @jayda7074 4 місяці тому

    don't be too hard on yourself des

  • @SierraCloud04
    @SierraCloud04 5 місяців тому +1

    This makes me feel so much less alone with the amount of books that are my TBR. I have 70 books on my TBR currently. I do think the amount you have is crazyyyy but I believe in you! For me buying books and reading them is a form of therapy and it’s something I enjoy doing when I get to treat my self! And I just got into reading maybe July of this year and I just wanted so many books and I couldn’t resist!! Also destiny I do suggest if there are any books that you don’t think you’ll read you should donate them to a little libraries or even do giveaways!

  • @Rach.nooksbooks
    @Rach.nooksbooks 5 місяців тому +2

    I put all my tbr books on a different shelf even if it means a series is not together. It just helps see how much I haven't read.

  • @leahtison7082
    @leahtison7082 5 місяців тому +10

    I made myself a little checkbox of my physical tbr on notion this year! maybe that would help u so u don’t have to pull out like 200 books lol😭

  • @Sophie-lf9zn
    @Sophie-lf9zn 4 місяці тому

    I successfully went from 80 books on my physical TBR to about 20 last year, so maybe I have some tips that might help 😅🫶🏻
    1. I didn‘t allow myself to buy new books, except to continue a series I‘m reading, to buy limited edition special editions that I really wanted, or when I had a giftcard, or the books for my bookclub.
    2. If I really wanted to read something that wasn‘t on my physical TBR, I got it from the library or read it as an e book. You can always buy the books you liked for your bookshelf later! (except maybe special editions)
    3. I didn‘t start any new series until I finished all that I had started or that I already owned.
    4. I sorted through my whole TBR and grouped them into moods/seasons, e.g. when would it make the most sense to read it, winter, spring, summer, autumn… and made a TBR bookwall. It really helps to visualise it!

  • @hollyperry7866
    @hollyperry7866 5 місяців тому +1

    An unhaul is a great idea!! I actually would enjoy watching that:) my book goal for next year is to use the library more

  • @amelias4277
    @amelias4277 5 місяців тому +11

    I have never been this early my entire life. Love you Des! Thank you so much for putting so much time and effort into vlogmas

  • @roseybluebell820
    @roseybluebell820 5 місяців тому +2

    It's okay Des

  • @agothbee
    @agothbee 5 місяців тому +1

    don't feel too defeated cause this is literally your job and jobs can get overwhelming at times also it's a cardinal fact that book buying is a whole other hobby than just reading. i love you. thanks for making the videos you make they seriously make my days better, and overall just being you. hope you feel better ❤❤❤

  • @itsagoddam.pandamic
    @itsagoddam.pandamic 5 місяців тому +16

    Don't beat yourself up, reading 33 books in a year is really good for a lot of people.

    • @leoniecst
      @leoniecst 5 місяців тому +2

      She read a lot more than that. She just read 33 of the ones she planned on reading this year but bought many many new ones

  • @miayar
    @miayar 5 місяців тому

    our reading journeys truly evolve over time. one season of your life you might be more interested in a series or book than you will be come the next. so books you bought because you were interested in them before but a year passes and you haven’t touched it yet, doesn’t mean you failed as a reader or you’re buying too many books. we all, whether it be physical or through a list, have a never ending tbr. i think that’s the beauty of reading, having the world at your fingertips and finding the books that speak to you in any given moment in time. books are constantly be recommended every day among every facet of the book community and it’s hard to keep track of the ones you want to read unless you buy it or write it down, whatever your go-to method is. i, too, have a very extensive tbr but i’ve ignored it for the better part of this year because there are so many new books surfacing that catch my eye more than the books on my tbr, so they become an addition to my more “immediate” tbr. as a mood reader, i WANT to read the books i can’t stop thinking about and if that’s not something that i bought a few months ago, but rather a book a friend recommended or that i saw several times on my fyp, then so be it. there’s no right or wrong way to reading or accumulating a tbr, be that physically or not.

  • @natii3336
    @natii3336 5 місяців тому +3

    your hair is sooooo prettyyy, I love it!!!

  • @emmaclark5836
    @emmaclark5836 5 місяців тому

    i would love to watch an unhaul video! and i feel like there’s probably so many books you’re never going to read so it would be satisfying to see a huge chunk get knocked out

  • @kerisbookishcorner2864
    @kerisbookishcorner2864 3 місяці тому

    I have SUCH struggles with reading down my TBR. And no trouble at all buying more books 😂
    I was instantly curious how mine would be if I did this, but then immediately followed by being afraid to know how many books are actually on my physical TBR… 😬

  • @melissaslibraryy
    @melissaslibraryy 5 місяців тому +1

    Yesssss a book unhaul would be amazing !! I’m interested in seeing what books you don’t think you’ll get to or ones you read that got a low rating/won’t reread 😊

  • @_foreverabookaddict_
    @_foreverabookaddict_ 5 місяців тому +1

    I have to do the same this next year. I have SO many physical books. But for real, start with A Man Called Ove!!!! That book 📖 😍🤗🩷 so freaking good!!!

  • @kenzcanuel1
    @kenzcanuel1 5 місяців тому +1

    ohhhh to have your bookshelf it's iconic

  • @Leyliv00
    @Leyliv00 5 місяців тому

    Thanks for keeping up with this videos, we appreciated your hard work❤. I love the video hehe I’m pretty sure that you can complete that porcentaje next year

  • @ashleygunn1036
    @ashleygunn1036 5 місяців тому +2

    Don't feel too despondent!!! You did great!

  • @Orangecakez_00
    @Orangecakez_00 5 місяців тому +1

    your hair looks soo good in this video!! wow!

  • @chelseastiles1497
    @chelseastiles1497 5 місяців тому

    honestly i love your hair this color like i love it normally but it looks so cute like this especially with your fit

  • @emmaskapetis7603
    @emmaskapetis7603 5 місяців тому

    Don't worry❤. I was in a seven month reading slump so I constantly change my Goodreads goal lol. Thankfully I'm now definitely out of that but I've definitely read a lot less books this year.

  • @nadiyakhan3215
    @nadiyakhan3215 5 місяців тому +1

    LOVE YOU DES!!!🥰

  • @ashleygunn1036
    @ashleygunn1036 5 місяців тому +1

    Feel better soon!!

  • @trishabarroga4635
    @trishabarroga4635 4 місяці тому

    Charlee is so adorable! Playing catch up with your videos and bestie Sara's ♥

  • @sian9720
    @sian9720 5 місяців тому

    Appreciated the realness of this! 💞

  • @care2998
    @care2998 5 місяців тому +1

    You and Sara are saying bookmas!! I have so many books on my shelves that I really want to get to in 2024. I’ve been buying so many books the past two months, so I would have a lot of holiday reads lol.

  • @jess-ui6zj
    @jess-ui6zj 5 місяців тому

    you could start the year with an unhaul! i love those videos and it’s normal that your tastes change. (also you could unhual books u read and hate. it makes me so ANGRY seeing them in my shelves that getting them out of my house made me feel 10x better lol)

  • @ambercastleberry9879
    @ambercastleberry9879 5 місяців тому +1

    I would love to see a book unhaul and new physical tbr video in the new year!

  • @shelbyherron7201
    @shelbyherron7201 5 місяців тому

    An unhaul would be such a good start! I feel like half those books could get booted & then it won't feel so daunting!

  • @tiyanak6613
    @tiyanak6613 5 місяців тому

    I would love to see a ‘all the books I bought in 2023’ video! Loving this bookmas/vlogmas content 🤍

  • @shelleylawrence8397
    @shelleylawrence8397 5 місяців тому

    Your reading nook is soooo cozy & sweet. Also, I love your jacket.

  • @AliVanSickle
    @AliVanSickle 5 місяців тому

    I see that I fell in love with hope!! Omg it's so good, I sobbed and rated it 10 stars hahha

  • @AnaBeatriz-kw1mz
    @AnaBeatriz-kw1mz 5 місяців тому +1

    A video idea: make little pieces of paper with the names of these books you haven't read yet and draw them out or put them in the TBR game you made and try to read them in a video, I'd love to watch ❤

  • @sarahrath3
    @sarahrath3 5 місяців тому

    Be proud of yourself for having some really great goals going into the new year! Don’t get too frustrated with yourself but let this video be something that you can come back to and motivate your goals!

  • @francesca9470
    @francesca9470 5 місяців тому

    girl read Holiday Romance this december while it still counts - my favourite christmas romance book I've read in ages! Also hope you feel better soon :(

  • @CaylaGrace
    @CaylaGrace 5 місяців тому

    I’m so sorry you’re sick 🙏🏻 hope you recover quickly!

  • @elisazouza
    @elisazouza 5 місяців тому +1

    i done so bad this year with reading due to a breakup and i read so much with him and it put me in a slump but i read tomorrow and tomorrow before we broke up and that book is engraved in me

  • @CarliRas
    @CarliRas 5 місяців тому

    Love your videos and feel better soon!❤

  • @Televinita
    @Televinita 5 місяців тому

    An unhaul video would be fun! And freeing for you, I think.
    P.S. You have the cutest little supervisor.

  • @jess-ui6zj
    @jess-ui6zj 5 місяців тому

    you could start the year with an unhaul! i love those videos and it’s normal that your tastes change.

  • @emmavicana
    @emmavicana 5 місяців тому +1

    Redeeming love is so good you have to read!

  • @shaylaatiles
    @shaylaatiles 5 місяців тому +1

    33 books is still a lot !!! Don’t beat yourself up. My new goal next year is if I don’t read the book that’s been on my shelf for over a year by the end of 2024, it’s gotta go.
    Edit: feel better, Des 💗

  • @ishaahmed7041
    @ishaahmed7041 5 місяців тому

    The unhaul sounds like such a great idea! I’m definitely looking forward to that video if you do make it 🤞🏽 WILL FEEL LIKE A WEIGHT LIFTED OFF UR SHOULDERSSS

  • @katpod7297
    @katpod7297 5 місяців тому

    you can make a series of reading books on your tbr for a video idea or you could also do viewers pick books from my tbr to read, just to help you meet your goal for the new year if you want to ❤

  • @hedgie58921
    @hedgie58921 5 місяців тому

    Would love an unhaul video! Especially be brutal with the books you still havent read after a year.

  • @Amica82
    @Amica82 5 місяців тому

    Unhauling books can feel really good. I recently unhauled three that I either started and just knew weren’t for me or that I just knew I didn’t want to read. It made me feel better to not see them anymore.

  • @Showtunediva
    @Showtunediva 5 місяців тому

    Destiny, I hope you feel better soon!
    Books I can recommend to you out of the books you haven’t read 4:20 , 4:24 , 5:32, 5:39 ( I keep rewinding and missing the Circe timestamp so I hope it’s in the right spot.)

  • @booknerd369
    @booknerd369 5 місяців тому +2

    I finally finished City of Glass! Seriously, block out like and hour and by page 100 you will not be able to put it down. My Best Friend's Exorcism and Love in the Time of Serial Killers are also great reads

  • @kryssygrzybowski723
    @kryssygrzybowski723 5 місяців тому

    I know that one of your 2024 goals is to get through a big chunk of your physical tbr, so another good way to make it seem like that is to just unhaul your books. I know I personally have books that i’ve collected that i don’t want to read. Years down the road, if you find you want to read it, you can always repurchase. But there’s no use keeping books on your physical tbr that you don’t want to read anymore. It helps reduce your physical tbr while opening up room for potential books you love!

  • @ena6628
    @ena6628 5 місяців тому +1

    Yeah i would love an unhaul!

  • @popsiclepunk2112
    @popsiclepunk2112 5 місяців тому

    Yes do an unhaul it will make you feel so much better!!!

  • @elizabethcore2156
    @elizabethcore2156 5 місяців тому

    Unhaul for sure! Make a video of dropping some in free little libraries, sell some if you like, and do a few giveaways. Whatever is left place on your shelves together and 1-2 have to go on your monthly TBR.

  • @sydneybaur3312
    @sydneybaur3312 5 місяців тому +2

    It’s okay I have actually 270 books on my Tbr I had no idea I was humbled to say the least 🥲 loving your bookmas 🤍

  • @howlkingdom121
    @howlkingdom121 5 місяців тому

    Dont worry miss gurl i understand!!
    This year i Decided to stop buying books (even tho i still buy books) without reading them. So i made a goal to read books before i got more so that the books i had would get smaller and Smaller and could get rid of books i didnt want!!
    Im happy that u read the books you have and even read others u were more in the mood for

  • @jsicasantos
    @jsicasantos 5 місяців тому

    des you should do a bookmass video reorganizing your shelf’s

  • @Filmlover9100
    @Filmlover9100 5 місяців тому

    you should do a bookshelf tour or reorganizing my bookshelf video!! Love your videos and recs

  • @Thedancinghorses
    @Thedancinghorses 5 місяців тому +1

    HII! Exited to watch!

  • @aprajita5477
    @aprajita5477 5 місяців тому

    I freaking love you!

  • @fa3ryg1rl1
    @fa3ryg1rl1 5 місяців тому

    I view collecting books/ curating a home library and reading them two different things. I don't pressure myself to read them asap, I'll just read them when I get to them. I'm fine even if I have books on my shelves for 10 or 20 years. If I hit a point where I absolutely know that I'll never read the book then I'll unhaul it but otherwise I just happily collect. For me, my TBR is just a list of books that I would like to read soon. It's not the physical books I own.

  • @bayaaiken
    @bayaaiken 5 місяців тому

    yes do an unhaul!

  • @juliakoczor
    @juliakoczor 5 місяців тому

    a book unhaul would be a slay video idea!

  • @bookmarkedatmidnight
    @bookmarkedatmidnight 5 місяців тому

    Girl same..
    let’s smash that tbr list in 2024 💪

  • @tiachu
    @tiachu 5 місяців тому

    awww des I hope you feel better soon!! :(( 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

  • @naughtytwins8892
    @naughtytwins8892 5 місяців тому +1

    I read riot house after seeing your last video. It was so good.

  • @rubymoon1487
    @rubymoon1487 5 місяців тому

    The books I'd love to see you read is The Infernal Devices trilogy & A Man Called Ove! I think you'd really enjoy the Infernal Devices especially 😊

  • @oreneishii
    @oreneishii 5 місяців тому

    Let’s all help her. Maybe we can collectively finish her TBR! Lol I can contribute crossing off Circe and Float.

  • @madisonhoffman8180
    @madisonhoffman8180 4 місяці тому

    I made my reading goal for 2024 super simple & easy. My goal is to read 24 books this year & before buying any new books I have to read at least half if not all of my books that I own now. I do own a few books that are the beginning of a series so another rule I made forever myself is to read as many stand alone books first before reading book 1 of a series. I’ve not a huge reader but I want to become an avid reader. I want to start out simple & not force anything.

  • @annacahill127
    @annacahill127 5 місяців тому

    i think a book unhaul is a great idea! you want to feel happy looking at your TBR shelves, not like it's a burden to read them & get through them!

  • @anuradhakulkarni8121
    @anuradhakulkarni8121 5 місяців тому

    First of all, DON'T beat yourself up!!! The fact that you read 33/36 books is amazing as well! And second of all The Adventure of Sherlock Holmes is one of ym favorite series. It has several plot twist shocking, there are so many connections and the cases that Holmes solves are so un predictable so its just a great series. AND you don't even have to read them in order. You can read them in any way you want. Some of the BEST ones are "Hound of Baskervilles" "The Dancing Men"(short story) "The Scandal in Bohelimia", Ect.... But I will reccommend one thing that is that read the Reichanbach Fall AFTER a couple books. Like when you feel like you have a connection with the charecters. Some trigger warning I can give about the whole series would be death, drugs, maybe mild language. ALSO if you do fall in the rabit hole like me there is alot content of Sherlock :D. I better stop now this comment is too long and I can write an entire book on why I reccommend and LOVE this series :D

  • @gracelyn5117
    @gracelyn5117 5 місяців тому

    You should do un haul! It feels so good ! I might do that this year too. I need to lower my physical tbr😩🥲

  • @myajackson380
    @myajackson380 5 місяців тому

    I hope you feel better ❤

  • @J0SH.0
    @J0SH.0 5 місяців тому

    video idea. go to a mall the week before the holiday and ask people how many books they've read this year and what was their favorite book out of those.
    I would guess, for the average person, reading anything north of 5ish books is a lot.
    all this to say that 36 books is a lot. (also buying/collecting books is a completely separate hobby to reading by itself.)

  • @chocolateoreo6489
    @chocolateoreo6489 5 місяців тому

    I’m sending you and Charlie love❤❤

  • @carolenie
    @carolenie 5 місяців тому

    But the good thing is: soooooo many amazing books waiting on your TBR for you!!! :) lots of my favorites to be read :))

  • @AndreaMelissa
    @AndreaMelissa 5 місяців тому

    im caught up on bookmas 🤭🤭🤭

  • @camrynh7357
    @camrynh7357 5 місяців тому

    i felt like i had a lot on my tbr and i used the app Libby to borrow the audiobooks and it helped a TON

  • @Rhea-jr9cd
    @Rhea-jr9cd 5 місяців тому

    love u!!!!

  • @LittleMissSunnydays.4456
    @LittleMissSunnydays.4456 5 місяців тому

    I would Unhaul any you haven’t read that you won’t , any books that weren’t going to be a re-read! I have been working on getting through my physical shelves also! Another great idea if you get more books then make a deal to get rid of books based on how many you bought . Kinda like if you buy a book then you get rid of a book , if you buy 3 books then you get rid of 3 .

  • @anaquil
    @anaquil 5 місяців тому

    Also, idk if you got your hair done, but this blonde makes you look so much better!

  • @gabbyl85
    @gabbyl85 5 місяців тому

    yes des please do an unhauling! it would take so much stress off you you shouldn’t waste time reading books you don’t wanna read