am i agoraphobic?
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- Опубліковано 2 лип 2024
- an honest talk. i felt i had to make this video to help myself get unstuck. if you can relate, i hope that if anything this gives you some comfort to know you're not alone. i'm sorry that it may come off very negative but i've been having a hard time lately. see you soon in the next video i hope! x
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I've come to this realization almost a week ago. I used to love going outside alone. Mountain hikes, dinner dates. Somewhere it changed, I simply thought "I like staying at home more now." That's not true. I miss being a part of the world, but I'm terrified of all the things that could go wrong & all the ways I could get hurt. I can't remember the last time I was able to leave the house alone, I can barely leave my room. I've stopped driving. All this to say - I understand & I see you. We will get through this tough time somehow, I have faith. I don't want fear to keep us from living anymore.
My goodness I relate so so much ❤️ I would walk in the park with you with our kiddos
Sounds so lovely-thank you so much ❤️
I would recommend looking at the three principles. It sounds like you have a lot of thoughts that don’t quiet down. Psychology has it backwards is a great podcast. Sending lots of love
Always rooting for you 💛
Would you be ok with a car trip? Maybe when it's not much traffic and go somewhere in nature? I love taking rides to get out and then just to look at the stars. I love stargazing.
Hi Andie.
I don't know how to start so I'll try my best. I think it was about two months ago when I was looking for videos on leaving art school. I felt like the college I enrolled in was not helping me at all in what I wanted to become. I felt lost and I wanted to seek more information online when I found your video about your experience with dropping out. Your video really gave me a lot to think of, about my life and what I needed to do. I really believe that being an artist is part of what I want to do in my life, and its something that I can't let go. I worked started working as a barista like almost two years ago, around March 2022. I worked until about I think April 2023 before I slowly getting less hours and quit around august. I started a program to get a certificate in May, which lasted about ten weeks because I need it to get into another certificate program which would take another four semesters so that I may actually choose my major because I didn't attend a single day of high school.
I felt lost since I started working up until I March 2023 when I started asking myself what I wanted to do. Without graduating high school, my options are really limited, there isn't a GED equivalent option for me, at least not that I know of at that time. Right now I have finished 1/4 of the semesters for my certificate and I feel like it has been a waste of four months. I know that art is what I truly want to do, so I am looking to go the self taught route, I am not sure yet.
After watching your Art School video, I wanted to see how you were doing and I watched your day in the life video which I think was posted just several days before. I was glad to see that you're doing better, and I thought you seemed happier. I wanted to reach out to you and comment on your video on how you have helped me by giving me a different perspective on my life but I was doing my college assignments then, and it just felt out of place to comment after a few days have passed.
I know its tough, I can see it. I have some anxiety myself, before working, I spent like four years at home and mostly talked to my mother and grandmother and with people online. I still have anxiety even though I have some friends now. I still feel like I am alone most of the time. I think that we have to understand that everyone is really alone to our thoughts most of the time, so its hard not to feel alone.
After covid, it was really hard for me to leave the house too, but I had to, because I had a job and my life wasn't going anywhere.
Do you have any hobbies or games that you play that lets you socialize with other people? Can you count what you like about going out? A bookstore, a cafe that you like, enjoying the park?
I just want to say that you're not alone in this world, we might not be able to read each other's minds but we exist. Everyone has their struggles and yours are not invalid. I really hope you're doing better and better everyday, and have the strength to face your challenges. I am sorry about this long and boring text, I don't really know how to express what I want to say.
There are billions of people on this Earth, every person with their own lives, it could seem like nobody cares because its hard for many to care about themselves, much less another person, but I believe inherently that people do care even if we don't say it.
It's a really rare gift that anyone of us were able to meet and communicate when there is so much going on. I think I speak for everyone when I say that you should not hesitate to speak to me or anyone here. I am not always online but I'll try to reply when I can.
Sorry for commenting again, I forgot to say some things. From your videos it looks like you're doing art again. I really think you should continue to do art even if it makes you happy or sad. Sometimes art is expressing yourself, sometimes its just to create a nice picture, it can be anything. Maybe you could do some videos on art in public, paint a flower in a park, bring a sketchbook and sketch some people. Maybe something good will come out of it. Personally I can't get enough of sketching. If you can, post more of your videos, I am sure people would love to see more of your art.
You should make more videos
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Are you sticking with the shaved hair
Sounds like a lot of trauma and your nervous system is taxed.