The whole “fake it ‘til you make it” as a portrait photographer.. hated my own work but envied others’ portraits. Really, that was the worst. I stopped comparing my work to theirs. It actually improved the way I looked at my own work 🤙🏼
"Nobody has the capacity to worry about you while also worrying about themselves." - That's such a great way to get over my imposter syndrome. Thank you for making this video!
Thank you for sharing. I think the last time we spoke in person, you encouraged me to share my work more so it’s so crazy that you are sharing this now. I always admired your work and your ability to share it on social media, I would have never thought we share this same struggle as you always seemed so confident in what you do. I think I got some work to do and I am in the process of mustering up that courage 😊. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable, your best work is on the other side of fear ❤
awwww, i know that feel brother. Probably it's an outcome of comparison. When we start to measure ourselves against others and start to forget our own value, how unique and beautiful we are. And yeah, you're exactly right, about social media. Families and social can imprint us, but hopefully we can change our imprints and grow. Gotta overcome fear as well, which is the main and the only enemy, produced by our own brains. Have a good journey, Taha, and thanks for sharing the truth. much luv ❤
I appreciate you taking the time to watch the video. I found/experienced a lot of closure while filming this video. I will use it as a reminder to express without self-judgement. Learn from those results and hopefully inspire others a long the way 🙏🏽
It's great that you can see where I'm coming from. If feel we all struggle with this at some point. Hopefully more convos change this heaviness that many carry foe no good reason.🙏🏽
Well said... have you found solutions that work for you? Sometimes, the time away from the camera doing other stuff (not photography related) is the best solution.🤷🏽♂️
@@tahaphoto I started to embrace my current skill level and learn to be proud of it! There’s so much more to learn, but I’ve also come a long way. It’s a good feeling to just like where I’m at. Seems to be working out!
I always get excited when getting your video notifications. Loving your videos and your vibe! As I mentioned many times, you desrve more subscribers, but after all it's also a matter of algorithm. Finally, it's important to appreciate yourself, and not compare yourself with others. As for impostor syndrome, I experience it quite often, to believe I deserve nothing and I acomplished nothing, even after years of experience I still feel like a complete fraud and like my work is absolute shet, or atleast nothing special. No matter how much I read, learn and expand my experience, proving myself time after time the exact opposite, I still feel like I have no idea what I am doing, and that in reality I am a fraud. I don't have the solution to this, as myself am going through this state of mind, but therapy has helped a lot understanding a healthier approach on feelings, as before I was fighting everything with logic and proof. But the feeling never went away, because i was actually pushing the feeling away, invalidating it, thus making it stay with me the whole time. I found a better approach to be, staying with the emotion and try to feel it completely, trying to allow myself to feel helpless and depressive. Wierdly enough that let me fwel the source of the emotion and compassion starter to grow inside of me, freeing me of the judgements and all the negative emotional residue. I know this is a long text. As a conclussion, you are brave to make this video, your are not complaining of your shortcoming, you are creating an open bridge for inter human connection. Remember to rest enough, allow ypurself to do nothing, and when you start doing, do it for yourself, like you said :D Take care man!
Veres! Thank you for sharing your truths, being vulnerable, and ultimately sharing solutions to possibly help some of us going thru this rollercoaster of mental emotions. And for the record, you're great at what you do! Really, I mean that. I was watching your short film "24hrs Alone..." a very detailed approach to what goes on in your mind, life, what you think about yourself and your work. You're definitely great at what you do. 🙏🏽😊 Thank you for your continued support, it means a lot my friend. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
I've experienced imposter syndrome a lot in my life and still experience it time from time. I can recognise it now as a form of damaging self-sabotage. Looking back I've noticed paradoxically that I'm most likely to sabotage when I'm on the cusp of success or when life is going well. What's imposter syndrome for? Perhaps unconsciously it's a way of undermining ourselves , keeping ourselves small? An allegiance to some limiting mind set formed in early life? Wishing you all the best.
Paul! Your take on "I.S" so well articulated. Thank you for sharing. I can relate to the "life is going well" bit. I tell myself it's only a matter of time til the wheels come off. It's so counterproductive, honestly. However, what does seem to work for me is the following: 1. Spend less time analyzing the task in front of me and just DO the task in front of me (i.e - going out to shoot in hopes of gaining one solid image/story). 2. Once the task is complete, I follow that action through to the end by SHARING that image/s. 3. Only later, maybe a couple days, weeks, or months will I study it, critique it, adjust it, etc... 4. Keep fear at a distance, as its only job in this scenario is to protect me from critique, all the while suffocating the growth I just established through doing and sharing. Does that make sense, Paul? The bottom line is the more I do/act/process, the more I believe I'm not an "impostor". And only in retrospect does this continue to prove true! Thanks for taking the time to watch... and read. t.
Taha there is a disconnect in this modern age we are all now living, especially when it comes to "Imposter Syndrome", due, I personally believe - caused by the dependency that most current creatives have with social media. I am a child of the late 60's and the entirety of the 70's, my life experiences are different than some one born in the last 20 years, I'm 61 Y.O. as such I have no interest in social media - save for UA-cam which I believe is more educational media than social. So, my tolerance for trying new creative things for my own self indulgence and my own education is more a test of my own abilities and what I want to accomplish within the creative avenues I'm venturing into. The only person I'm competing with is myself. I have no interest or desire to compare my abilities against someone else's. I have followed my creative heart where ever it took my spirit, music - yes, I play guitar, writing - yes, Art -yes (painting and sculpting), photography - yes that too. I paid the bills by becoming a finish carpenter, only after dropping out of college art school OCA, and after graduating from IAD with an interior design degree - worked that for 11 years before quitting to become a carpenter at 33. And throughout the late 70's until now my greatest hobby has been repairing and restoring analogue film cameras, that's more than 35 years of collecting and fixing cameras. I'm I a photographer, yes, am I a professional photographer - no, does it matter - not to me. Loving yourself and understanding what is important to you personally takes courage and honesty, and leaning on social media, will, I believe - taint your expectations of what it is you really want to do.
Clarhett, my friend. Thank you for sharing your honest thoughts with the community 🙏🏽. I could sit and agree with every point you made... I think , however, what resonated with me most was this idea of you constantly moving towards the things your heart called for. You were always ok with the journey, not the outcomes nor the thoughts of others. Awesome, honestly. Clearly, you enjoy getting your hands dirty with those anologue cameras. Inspiring share. Cheers🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
I like the topic of this video, and you have good intention, but saying ''this is ridiculous'', or ''you will be good enough if you put enough work'' to yourself is not going to help. Is invalidating your own emotions, and ironically enough, you are actually gaslighting yourself. Sometimes the way out is going backwards, feeling that emotion and following it to see where it comes from, because there is a legitimate reason why you are feeling it. By feeling it, you gain understanding, empathy and freedom. Many times we rationalize and offer logical resoning, to ourself and the ones around us, thinking solutions will solve the problem, but our inner self needs understanding, not logical statements or rationalization. So be attentive to your emotions, and let them guide you to the underlying vulnerable emotion, hidding fear beneath thoughts or even other emotions. For example anger is an emotion which covers an umbrella of emotions like shame, sadness and so on, as a defensive mechanism.
I agree. I have more layers to peel back. I have more to share... it will take time. I will share more of what holds me back ... from ME🤦🏽♂️. I just needed to say something, share something! I feel better that I did and that others can empathize with where I'm coming from. Now I can put this fismrst chapter behind me and move deeper and forward at the same time. Keep helping us all out with your honest and valuable insight. I wish you all the happiness and balance in your life.🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
You sounds like few hours ago victim of motivation seminar, which appears to be timeshare fraud. :) Also it is common mistake to think what opinion how to take it better should only come from those who did it better. All of the great coaches I have during my sport time were not remarkable athletes in their time. And been unsatisfied and willing to make it better is part of healthy creativity. Regarding someone else already took it good is just self excuse to stay lazy. Here is no similar moment. Because each moment is unique. And even if where are several photogs at same place, same moment, it is impossible to have similar shots. I know one photog who makes living by photography for hospitals in Chicago. Sure it is cliché on top of another one. But he is staying alive and creative by walking on the streets with same cameras he makes money. One thing is work for clients another is getting remarkable pictures. Photos for clients is paid routine, finding perfect picture is life long journey. What do we know about corporate work of Elliot Erwitt ? .... Nothing. But everyone knows his photography of dogs, which he took while not on assignments. Which is just one book...
Kostya! Always a pleasure getting your brilliant take here on the channel. Thank you for sharing. Each video I share removes another layer of old me. I had to make this video, now that it's done I can get back to digging waaaay deeper. Finding more of me and who i really am. Thanks for the perspective. I hope you are well, my friend 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
Brother this is what I needed. It's a shame I didn't see it when it was posted - I was really struggling with imposter syndrome for a while, finally back in the grove. Blessings be upon you.
Please share your experiences with "Imposter Syndrome". 🙏
The whole “fake it ‘til you make it” as a portrait photographer.. hated my own work but envied others’ portraits. Really, that was the worst. I stopped comparing my work to theirs. It actually improved the way I looked at my own work 🤙🏼
"Nobody has the capacity to worry about you while also worrying about themselves." - That's such a great way to get over my imposter syndrome. Thank you for making this video!
You're welcome, Shazlin! Thanks foe watching. I hope you and the family are doing well.✌🏽❤️
Thank you for sharing. I think the last time we spoke in person, you encouraged me to share my work more so it’s so crazy that you are sharing this now. I always admired your work and your ability to share it on social media, I would have never thought we share this same struggle as you always seemed so confident in what you do. I think I got some work to do and I am in the process of mustering up that courage 😊.
Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable, your best work is on the other side of fear ❤
The struggle is real. Only thru reflection can we see our accomplishments. The process is the gift. Keep sharing, keep believing in self.🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
awwww, i know that feel brother. Probably it's an outcome of comparison. When we start to measure ourselves against others and start to forget our own value, how unique and beautiful we are. And yeah, you're exactly right, about social media. Families and social can imprint us, but hopefully we can change our imprints and grow. Gotta overcome fear as well, which is the main and the only enemy, produced by our own brains. Have a good journey, Taha, and thanks for sharing the truth. much luv ❤
I appreciate you taking the time to watch the video. I found/experienced a lot of closure while filming this video. I will use it as a reminder to express without self-judgement. Learn from those results and hopefully inspire others a long the way 🙏🏽
I feel this on so many levels! I’m glad you finally made this video, it’s a very good conversation 🤙🏼
It's great that you can see where I'm coming from. If feel we all struggle with this at some point. Hopefully more convos change this heaviness that many carry foe no good reason.🙏🏽
@@tahaphoto we gotta normalize the process of improving and getting better at a pace that works for us, rather than just praising the top tier ✌🏼
Well said... have you found solutions that work for you? Sometimes, the time away from the camera doing other stuff (not photography related) is the best solution.🤷🏽♂️
@@tahaphoto I started to embrace my current skill level and learn to be proud of it! There’s so much more to learn, but I’ve also come a long way. It’s a good feeling to just like where I’m at. Seems to be working out!
@@HaiTomVlog amazing. Keep going 🙏🏽
I always get excited when getting your video notifications. Loving your videos and your vibe!
As I mentioned many times, you desrve more subscribers, but after all it's also a matter of algorithm.
Finally, it's important to appreciate yourself, and not compare yourself with others.
As for impostor syndrome, I experience it quite often, to believe I deserve nothing and I acomplished nothing, even after years of experience I still feel like a complete fraud and like my work is absolute shet, or atleast nothing special. No matter how much I read, learn and expand my experience, proving myself time after time the exact opposite, I still feel like I have no idea what I am doing, and that in reality I am a fraud.
I don't have the solution to this, as myself am going through this state of mind, but therapy has helped a lot understanding a healthier approach on feelings, as before I was fighting everything with logic and proof.
But the feeling never went away, because i was actually pushing the feeling away, invalidating it, thus making it stay with me the whole time.
I found a better approach to be, staying with the emotion and try to feel it completely, trying to allow myself to feel helpless and depressive. Wierdly enough that let me fwel the source of the emotion and compassion starter to grow inside of me, freeing me of the judgements and all the negative emotional residue.
I know this is a long text. As a conclussion, you are brave to make this video, your are not complaining of your shortcoming, you are creating an open bridge for inter human connection.
Remember to rest enough, allow ypurself to do nothing, and when you start doing, do it for yourself, like you said :D
Take care man!
Veres! Thank you for sharing your truths, being vulnerable, and ultimately sharing solutions to possibly help some of us going thru this rollercoaster of mental emotions. And for the record, you're great at what you do! Really, I mean that. I was watching your short film "24hrs Alone..." a very detailed approach to what goes on in your mind, life, what you think about yourself and your work. You're definitely great at what you do. 🙏🏽😊 Thank you for your continued support, it means a lot my friend. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
@@tahaphoto my pleasure Taha, keep doing what you love!
Off topic, but that's a really awesome t-shirt!
✌🏽😂 I love it too. thx. Got it at Uniq-Lo a cpl yrs back. 🫡
I've experienced imposter syndrome a lot in my life and still experience it time from time. I can recognise it now as a form of damaging self-sabotage. Looking back I've noticed paradoxically that I'm most likely to sabotage when I'm on the cusp of success or when life is going well. What's imposter syndrome for? Perhaps unconsciously it's a way of undermining ourselves , keeping ourselves small? An allegiance to some limiting mind set formed in early life? Wishing you all the best.
Paul! Your take on "I.S" so well articulated. Thank you for sharing. I can relate to the "life is going well" bit. I tell myself it's only a matter of time til the wheels come off. It's so counterproductive, honestly. However, what does seem to work for me is the following:
1. Spend less time analyzing the task in front of me and just DO the task in front of me (i.e - going out to shoot in hopes of gaining one solid image/story).
2. Once the task is complete, I follow that action through to the end by SHARING that image/s.
3. Only later, maybe a couple days, weeks, or months will I study it, critique it, adjust it, etc...
4. Keep fear at a distance, as its only job in this scenario is to protect me from critique, all the while suffocating the growth I just established through doing and sharing.
Does that make sense, Paul? The bottom line is the more I do/act/process, the more I believe I'm not an "impostor". And only in retrospect does this continue to prove true!
Thanks for taking the time to watch... and read.
t.
I feel like that all the time but I'm trying to push through that feeling. I do it by creating more and shooting more..
Brilliant. This is the exact solution that has been working for me as well. Thx for sharing. 🙏🏽
Totally agree with you, I have the same feelings.
Indeed, Mathew. I feel better that I'm not alone. I can move fwd on creating more and thinking less.🙏🏽
Every. Single. Day. ❤
It's amazing how we continually forget we're good enough. I have to remind myself Every. Single. Day.
@@tahaphoto Indeed! 🥰
It’s all part of growth…is it not?!
Good vid!!
Yes it is. I just wish it wasn't so mentally draining . Thanks for watching🙏🏽
Taha there is a disconnect in this modern age we are all now living, especially when it comes to "Imposter Syndrome", due, I personally believe - caused by the dependency that most current creatives have with social media. I am a child of the late 60's and the entirety of the 70's, my life experiences are different than some one born in the last 20 years, I'm 61 Y.O. as such I have no interest in social media - save for UA-cam which I believe is more educational media than social. So, my tolerance for trying new creative things for my own self indulgence and my own education is more a test of my own abilities and what I want to accomplish within the creative avenues I'm venturing into. The only person I'm competing with is myself. I have no interest or desire to compare my abilities against someone else's. I have followed my creative heart where ever it took my spirit, music - yes, I play guitar, writing - yes, Art -yes (painting and sculpting), photography - yes that too. I paid the bills by becoming a finish carpenter, only after dropping out of college art school OCA, and after graduating from IAD with an interior design degree - worked that for 11 years before quitting to become a carpenter at 33. And throughout the late 70's until now my greatest hobby has been repairing and restoring analogue film cameras, that's more than 35 years of collecting and fixing cameras. I'm I a photographer, yes, am I a professional photographer - no, does it matter - not to me. Loving yourself and understanding what is important to you personally takes courage and honesty, and leaning on social media, will, I believe - taint your expectations of what it is you really want to do.
Clarhett, my friend. Thank you for sharing your honest thoughts with the community 🙏🏽. I could sit and agree with every point you made... I think , however, what resonated with me most was this idea of you constantly moving towards the things your heart called for. You were always ok with the journey, not the outcomes nor the thoughts of others. Awesome, honestly. Clearly, you enjoy getting your hands dirty with those anologue cameras. Inspiring share. Cheers🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
Taha, I really need a new video, por favor, tengo abstinencia jajajaja
Yes, brother! I agree. I'm working on it... it's almost complete. Thanks for your patience 🙏🏽
I like the topic of this video, and you have good intention, but saying ''this is ridiculous'', or ''you will be good enough if you put enough work'' to yourself is not going to help.
Is invalidating your own emotions, and ironically enough, you are actually gaslighting yourself.
Sometimes the way out is going backwards, feeling that emotion and following it to see where it comes from, because there is a legitimate reason why you are feeling it. By feeling it, you gain understanding, empathy and freedom.
Many times we rationalize and offer logical resoning, to ourself and the ones around us, thinking solutions will solve the problem, but our inner self needs understanding, not logical statements or rationalization.
So be attentive to your emotions, and let them guide you to the underlying vulnerable emotion, hidding fear beneath thoughts or even other emotions.
For example anger is an emotion which covers an umbrella of emotions like shame, sadness and so on, as a defensive mechanism.
I agree. I have more layers to peel back. I have more to share... it will take time. I will share more of what holds me back ... from ME🤦🏽♂️. I just needed to say something, share something! I feel better that I did and that others can empathize with where I'm coming from. Now I can put this fismrst chapter behind me and move deeper and forward at the same time. Keep helping us all out with your honest and valuable insight. I wish you all the happiness and balance in your life.🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
@@tahaphoto wish you the same my man! Take care and see you soon.
You sounds like few hours ago victim of motivation seminar, which appears to be timeshare fraud. :) Also it is common mistake to think what opinion how to take it better should only come from those who did it better. All of the great coaches I have during my sport time were not remarkable athletes in their time. And been unsatisfied and willing to make it better is part of healthy creativity. Regarding someone else already took it good is just self excuse to stay lazy. Here is no similar moment. Because each moment is unique. And even if where are several photogs at same place, same moment, it is impossible to have similar shots. I know one photog who makes living by photography for hospitals in Chicago. Sure it is cliché on top of another one. But he is staying alive and creative by walking on the streets with same cameras he makes money. One thing is work for clients another is getting remarkable pictures. Photos for clients is paid routine, finding perfect picture is life long journey. What do we know about corporate work of Elliot Erwitt ? .... Nothing. But everyone knows his photography of dogs, which he took while not on assignments. Which is just one book...
Kostya! Always a pleasure getting your brilliant take here on the channel. Thank you for sharing. Each video I share removes another layer of old me. I had to make this video, now that it's done I can get back to digging waaaay deeper. Finding more of me and who i really am. Thanks for the perspective. I hope you are well, my friend 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
Brother this is what I needed. It's a shame I didn't see it when it was posted - I was really struggling with imposter syndrome for a while, finally back in the grove. Blessings be upon you.
Much love and respect. Happy you found it when you did. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 keep going💪🏽