I think he definitely should follow his dreams and the listener *should* support him in that. However I also feel he is poking holes in their relationship (“I thought I knew you” etc.) to make the decision easier on himself like “Oh we couldn’t have stayed together anyway because their trust issues would have torn us apart eventually therefore I’m making the right decision.” Like the listener is willing to try long distance, the listener is willing to work on themselves and their trust issues. The one who’s not willing to do that is him, he doesn’t want to be tied down and as much as he says we like to jump to conclusions he most definitely had his mind made up about this before we started this conversation. Also I hate when people break up with you and then try to pretend like it was for both of your benefits (“Neither of us will be tied down. You won’t have to feel guilty for keeping me here. You can find someone that you can 100% trust”). Like if this is important to you and you want to do this then *do it* but don’t tell me that it’s for both of our benefit because that’s bs. Furthermore, I don’t think Alex understands how trust issues from being cheated on work. Yeah you will think “What *if* my partner is cheating on me?” When they are going out but you at the same time *Know* that those are just intrusive thoughts like thinking “What if there is a monster in the dark corner of the room” It’s irrational and you know that. It doesn’t mean you are distrusting of the person. And it also doesn’t mean that it would be any better with any other person they meet making the “You deserve someone you can 100% trust” thing obsolete.
It just sounds like he's blaming her for the break up and consoling her for the blame at the same time. It's just annoying really, just say 'it's over' no need to make it seem like it's not meant to be
Bro really dropping our a$$es after 1 argument 💀 then coming with excuses for the breakup 😭 this got me mad instead of sad lol I’d drop his a$$, leave and never return and make sure he never sees me again
I was just getting annoyed about not getting my maths right and there he is, talking about how we suck, always taking things negatively. The whole time I was like : "My Professor Marston could NEVER"
Honestly, i just feel like Alex wanted to breakup since the last vedio, but he couldn’t say it outright cause he didn’t want to hurt the listener. But now he just got an excuse to breakup without the reason just being i don’t want to be in a relationship with you anymore. In my opinion his way of breaking up hurts more than if he would have just told the listener out right, now they will just be overthinking and stuff, i would be too, if someone broke up with me this way especially after saying i love you and all, a simple "i don’t want to be in a relationship with you" is better, its easier to get over that, then i love you but i can’t be with you
Right like just say whats on ur mind, rather than beating around the bush, that hurts so much more than just being outright and clear and I also feel like this nyc opportunity is a great excuse to separate himself
Alex talking to us like we’re something broken and needing fixing truly broke my heart, he probably means well but it was still like a knife to the heart.
I'm disappointed with him for so many reasons... Just seems don't right the way his acting and the way he just give up like just the listener was who made a mistake. After 4 perfect years and one hard time was enough. He was cruel in all of this too and I see another thing to the listener to be traumatized. This character used to be one of my favorites but I really don't like him now. He really, really disappointed me.
Alex: I don’t think I could do a long-distance relationship. Maybe if I was with the right person. Me: So, we’re breaking up? Alex: Don’t jump to conclusions. Why do you always assume the worst? Also Alex: I think we should break up.
Right? Then, listener walks away after break up and hes like "wait where are you going". Away. Like there's nothing more to be said so why stay around. dipping after a break up seems a normal turn of events. 😂
its so sad that he kept mentioning listener wasnt usually like this, which means that they were feeling insecure and really needed reassurance. And while, yes, its not ok to accuse your other half of cheating with no evidence, if this outburst is sudden then doesnt that mean something is clearly wrong with the relationship and not just one person? Not to mention throughout the entire video you could sense that he had already made up his mind to break up with them a while ago. listener was clearly trying to reach out and fix things but he just didnt want to anymore. I think he just realized that his job mattered more than his relationship. the one who felt tied down was him 😭
im sorry if you think his character isn't in the wrong here, there's something wrong with you. four years of relationship down to the drain because ONE trust issue, and instead of resolving it he's instigating the listener and put himself as the victim. "there's nothing to be convinced of if there's nothing happened" SO WHAT? WHATS SO WRONG about affirming your own partner? why are you so ready to leave your partner when they've put up with their pent up feelings, just WHY? why can't you just tell the listener okay, i can't do ldr, WITHOUT dragging the listener through the mud?? like... jesus... saku, you made a very cute and wholesome character so unlikeable at the span of 2 videos and that's truly a skill lol. if there's a video of us getting back with him i'm throwing it down to the ditch because this should be a blaring red flag fr fr
I really love this series because as an artist myself, I can relate to his passion and obsession with detail lmao. That's the best part of being an artist is, the constant desire for perfection and the feeling of never being good enough. It's possible to achieve success and recognition, yet you still feel worthless. Made me tear up fr, I hope they both achieve their dreams in their own ways.
"Youre the love of my life!" "Im happy!" "I love you and want to be with you!" "I don't think I could do long distance if its not with the right person.." Okay buddy pick a side and roll with it, I'm getting emotional whiplash here.
I feel like Alex is really selfish for telling listener the day before his departure. I can understand why he doesn't want to continue the relationship. But telling your partner the last minute is the whole different thing.
I feel so gaslighted here... he told us not to jump into conclusions and accusing us of doing it but in the end he prove us being right anyway. He didn't give us any choice other than jumping into that conclusion anyways. Like first he brought up the past promise of us not getting in the way of each other's dream, hinting that he actually wants to leave. Second, we said we could try long distance but then alex said we wouldn't be able to work in long distance. And third, when we said we'll follow him, he doesn't want us to go with him because it will get in the way of our dream. So what else is there except a break up? I feel like it would be a logical conclusion to make by the listener. He is not giving us any choice! And I'm pissed about it😤😤
Great job as always 😌👌 It’s difficult conversations like these where you really get a better understanding of yourself. The listener has been repressing all that paranoia throughout their relationship. I just hope they don’t think that’s a permanent aspect of their character and that they can seek any needed help/therapy. It’s hard to pin point Alex’s faults in their relationship, at least in my perspective. However, I will say that he does have a habit of keeping most of his experiences to himself. I know his reason is that he wants to really think things over in his head before exclaiming anything to anyone. It’s just that both this and the last audio prior had the listener finding out something that Alex neglected to mention. On top of that, Alex proceeds to assume things that the listener wouldn’t be able to pick up on due to their lack of information. He assumed the listener wouldn’t think he could ever cheat, because he has been cheated on, too. Yet he never told the listener about that experience. And then in this audio, he thinks he can’t tell the listener about the job offer, because he assumes the listener would just blow up on him. While their is some truth to that, it’s still a topic they’re inevitably have to talk about. Delaying it only made the listener upset, and they were able to actually have a civil discussion. Maybe it was emotionally driven but still civil and productive nonetheless. To me, Alex keep too much to himself and has trouble with communication.
"4 years gone to waste. Thanks, Alex. You just want me out from your life and just keep making excuses. I am your burden & I am that something that had been getting on your way to your success." - this is me if i had choice to say something. I guess delulu is not the solulu since this shit hurt more than anything.
Lol. I said "Okay." "I understand its your dream job." "You should go for it." So many times during this audio, it made it sound like Alex was just picking a fight to break up. I don't think I played the game right. 😂
I never agreed with Alex in this audio, and I just realized how much he gaslighted the listener. It’s so painful because the listener is literally trying to save their relationship, but Alex has already decided to break up with them.
Ugh, I love when audio's have hinted realism roped into the storyline. It makes the characters more lively and respected. The Walking, Rubbing, Crying, Sound Effects, ECT. Makes the whole story tie together nicely. And that's no exception with this one. I love, and I mean I literally love how you act out the character stories. Even the listener has a personality and they're silent on our end of the stick. This audio was definitely refreshing since we especially didn't have a "breakup" kind of thing going on yet, let this one be the first of many! (No please no /j) Lovely work as always, Saku!!
Not gonna lie, I was expecting a slight slam of the door. Not an "I'm extremely distressed and I want to break something", but a " I am trying to keep it together, but I slammed it harder than I thought I did, but I'm not going to apologize because I'm already outside" slam.
i feel he had already decided to go to New York, with him talking to his parents and all, but he just had to get rod of listener, and making them feel like it was their fault, making him not feel bad for leaving
Ngl i resonate more with listener than Alex- tho don't get me wrong, i understand where he's coming from especially the last audio, but like.. if listener's behavior just happened recently and not something that's normal in their 4 years of relationships, then surely there must be a reason behind it. "I thought i knew you" he says, about a moment of weakness for listener. It's those moments where those dark thoughts just creep up in your head, they don't need to have logic, cuz they just pop up and make everything worse, they're irrational. (And i think what adds more to this is listener's trauma from their past relationship, which needs to be adressed more cuz it's not healthy for them nor for anyone they're gonna be in a relationship with) Listener to me, was indirectly asking for reassurance, albeit it going the wrong way instead. Idk, if this didn't occur during the 4 years of their relationship and just now, then maybe find out the reason why. And honestly, he's clearly already made his decision at the beginning of this audio, and yes sure, he has every right to follow his dreams, especially when it's an opportunity of a lifetimd for his passion, but the reasons he gave is him trying to make the break up easier on himself. He says it's for his and listener's benefits, but it's not. Clearly, listener doesn't want any of it and is willing to try, but Alex refuses with excuses. Would've preferred it if he'd just out right said he didn't love listener anymore, without trying to discuss benefits and what not. He clearly does not want to be tied down and he should've just said that, instead of saying "we both wouldn't be tied down" like?? Honestly wouldn't want them to be back together?? Alex can go freely follow his dreams, and listener needs someone who can help properly heal their trauma and reassure them when their thoughts go haywire. That by the end, listener is with someone who helped them get better and confident with themselves. I'm sounding very listener biased (probs cuz i am) but idk- it sounds like there's a lot going on in their head and their mental state rn and i want them to feel better😭😭 Alex's job going extremely well for himself and his passions, whilst Listener is happy and healed with someone else. Win win.
You're absolutely correct. I sensed that he was attempting to gaslighting the listener by distorting reality, all in an effort to boost his own self-esteem. Personally, I wouldn't entertain the idea of reuniting with someone of his nature.
The angst was immaculate, I love how you portray the realism of relationships. The reality of relationships is that they can get very messy. I knew it was coming but that didn't stop my heart from tearing into shreds 😔✋🏼 Thank you for the update Crumpet King! ❤
STOP WE KNEW THIS WAS COMING BUT I DIDNT EXPECT THIS TO ACTUAL HAPPEN 😭 Edit: I just finished and I'm fricken balling at 10:30 am, my family is so concerned rn.
Soft breakups, where it's just not working out, dreams not aligning, future visions not lining up, but we still deeply love each other is THE ABSOLUTE WORST, especially if both still wants the best for each other but being together just really isn't the best for them anymore The whole time I was thinking to myself "if I had just shut their mouth that night and didn't say anything, we wouldn't be breaking up rn" (which, no, it will boil over at some point, like Alex said, listener need to trust their partner, and they clearly didn't) I was actually crying so much I got a headache, this level of angst is crazy (hits too close with my own breakup, tho not as gentle) ANYWAY, amazing audio, stellar work, 100/10, hoping and praying for a happy ending for them
That was a lot emotionally, hearing your voice cracked at the end when the listener want some time alone is so powerful. It's a wonderful job like always 🌼
The fact that I don't like angsty stuff because my heart couldn't take it/the pain but I am still listening to this audio because I just love how artist's love and point of view was shown and established here. It was indeed hard that you want to focus on your career and passion because it's literally your dream but people just couldn't understand and it's also hard to find someone who's also be supportive and doesn't doubt you. This is just too heart-wrenching but I still want to listen huhuhuhuhu. Thank you so much for this update at the same time, for writing this story, Saku.
All the listener hate in the comments is eating at me bro 😭 I don’t think either are to blame in the breakup. Listener clearly has some heavy trauma/ insecurities from past relationships which I can relate to. Trusting is one of the hardest things to do and as someone who’s been hurt over and over again in different relationships I know hard it is to let that kind of paranoia go. So I understand the frustration with listener but I don’t think it’s their fault the breakup happened. (Also I’m dying to know what triggered this behavior from listener. Because according to what Alex says in this audio, they’ve only recently been acting this way. So something had to have triggered these trauma responses if they’re only now starting to surface. Because I mean they’ve been together four years wouldn’t have Alex broken things off sooner if this behavior had happened before? If he had known listener had issues with trusting him would he have stayed this long? Idk I’m just curious since he keeps using that one argument as a reason to break up, saying that since then he hasn’t been able to put the same energy into the relationship as he did before.) Alex is passionate about what he does professionally and I think he had made up his mind about what to do about the job the minute he received that email. The fact that he had already discussed it with his parents and had no intention of doing long distance with listener proves that. He had since long checked out of the relationship. He chose his passion over his relationship and that’s okay. Sometimes the two ends in a relationship don’t meet up. Priorities can be different, paths may not align. It’s reality, and I think the writing and emotion in this audio really captures the human experience. Neither person is the bad guy, neither are perfect, and both deserve to be happy. Okay ramble over. This audio broke me but I’m also so excited for whatever comes next. Whether they get back together or stay apart I just want them both to be happy and healthy 🥲
I personally think that what caused the listeners trust issues to hit the surface because maybe we were holding it in and maybe we snapped? Based on the last audio we hear what listener did with Alex’s assistant and how we checked her info and stuff. Everytime Alex went out, listener was thinking alex was cheating, so each time he leaves it gets worse and worse. Listener probably saw all the signs with cheating (not talking, staying at work longer, etc etc) to where listener couldn’t hold it in anymore to where we snapped. Sorry if that’s confusing I’m bad at English💀
True, I just hope Listener can move on from this and not have a rebound if he comes back after being fired or something, they really don't need a rebound and honestly, a person that so easily flakes out of a relationship with them again. Mostly because their paths aren't aligned and won't align again because he's already shown that he values his job over the Listener and will do the same thing again in a heartbeat, so someone you can't trust really lol.
Here's my opinion on this audio, while I do believe that there are issues that the listener needs to resolve regarding their trauma of being cheated on, i do also sympathise with it because trauma doesn't leave a person completely, if anything it keeps u on edge most of the times when certain patterns start to repeat themselves, in this case , the listener being paranoid of being cheated on by Alex, i mean given their history and how less of attention and time alex has given the listener because of his work,i am not saying that he should leave his work but I think , Alex needs to improve his work life balance , also Alex has said that they have been in a relationship for 4 years, but for some reason this issue makes him think that he doesn't know the listener anymore, tbh its so childish and immature that you'd know somebody for about 4 years and ur instinct is to break up with them after an issue that should have been solved lile mature adults ,clearly because they aren't kids anymore, i am not blaming Alex for this , i am just saying that he may have just overreacted to this whole situation, and if he really did love his partner that much, he would have given long distance a chance or done something else to make it work , i feel like he gave up too easily while the listener was ready to change their old habits and work on themselves also when he said that long distance works well with the right person threw me off a bit and gave me the ick idk why lol but yea
This all seemed like a selfish reason to move on and away and get it over with, it could have been done better without Alex literally shouting at us with every word he said and him accusing us of jumping to conclusions but for some reason he was doing exactly what our conclusions were but somehow scolding the listener lol, this character was one of my fav , for some reason it just isn't anymore but oh well
But if there is a next audio i hope both of them realize their mistakes , of course accusing someone of cheating isn't good but ending a whole relationship of 4 years is much too weird and childish
Also the bit where he says that listener is usually level headed and calm but as soon as the listener acts a bit unusually ,this is how Alex is going to take that , bugs me alot ngl
I know right like instead of him understand why listener think like that and try to avoid all things that could cause misunderstanding, he did this. If he love listener so much, he could at least do that. I feel like, listener is the only thing he could throw away. Felt so mad when he already told his parent and seems to had already made his mind up but just need to get rid of listener in the end.
@@hazelmezarte5644 right? I feel the same way, they should have communicated more on this issue, to me it seems like he was the one who jumped to the conclusion of breaking up and that quickly also. YES it made me so mad that we were the last people to know out of everyone, maybe he already had made his mind and was just telling us about it now, whatever it is, it's just so heart breaking to think he would think like that lol
look, Ik I should expect such gut wrenching angst from Saku himself BUT I AM STILL NOT PREPARED 😭 … I am trying so hard not to cry rn ITS SO HARD edit: scratch that, I’m sobbing my eyes out-
he cud've just said he doesn't wanna be with the listener anymore... like??? whelp added trauma also the stay safe at the end? i don't think the listener is coming out of this unscathed mentally or physically.
If someone is leaving you, it doesn't mean that they're bad, or you're bad, or they don't love you. It means they're not choosing you. Which is the most important thing in the relationship: you either choose your love or go the other way. We'll all have to accept it
Honestly I think I'm just emotionally disconnected, this whole audio i was just thinking to myself "why is this such an issue, it was a lapse in judgement, why are you so emotional" When someone goes through a traumatic thing like being cheated on trust goes out the window, like if you were in an abusive relationship, you always have a warning light in the back of your head. Like you can see the signs you learn from a past experience so you don't get put in the same situation. When you see the signs and recognize things you get defensive so no one can catches you off guard, so you dont get hurt again. But then I think about his pov and I kinda understand but this is where I put logic over feelings, I think if he truly loved the listener like he says he did he would have understood them and understood why what happened happened. Sorry that was just my little take, don't mean to offend anyone with this, it was a great audio made me think about more than usual 😅
No, No!!! You snapped with this one!!! It felt weird this entire time! It just felt like he was making excuses to just cut us off. Like-this was the first time out of four whole years that listener has ever done this. And while I do agree, yes, it was wrong to accuse him of cheating with no proof, it was ONE TIME. Listener was willing to make a change in order to keep Alex with them for a long distance relationship. I’d imagine that they’d probably get themselves help in order to achieve the goal of long distance in the first place, and I believe that if Alex loved them as much as he says he does he’d support them in their endeavor. Like, if it really hurts him as much as it seems like it does, then he’d do EVERYTHING in his power to make the relationship work. Now, it’d be different if listener accused him multiple times, and refused to make a change, but they were willing to do so. And what’s this about “I thought I knew you”, too? Because of one argument where listener let their paranoia get the better of them you suddenly don’t know them after FOUR YEARS TOGETHER? And keep in mind, the listener is usually a calm and level headed individual-this ONE TIME they step out of their usual temperament-and suddenly you don’t know the person you’ve been dating for FOUR YEARS??? HUH???? And why is breaking up going to be your first choice as if there are not other alternatives???? Like?????? I COMPLETELY and utterly believe that he would’ve broken up with us regardless whether or not got a job opportunity in New York. He had long since checked out of that relationship, and I felt like he used this opportunity he got in NY as a crutch to break up with listener, too. And honestly? If he’s gonna break up with listener after a single argument, then I really do not think he loves them as much as he says he does…
I think about it from his p.o.v too, and I guess I understand how he feels as well. Like-I cannot even imagine how hurt he felt that listener accused him of cheating, but THIS ONE THING made you decide that your relationship of FOUR YEARS is not even worth saving???? Mm-Mmh! Something here is not adding up, and the math is NOT MATHING!
You all get it!! Like this is the first time that one of Saku's characters gave me the ick, like he was not making any sense at all and it seemed to me like he had been waiting to break up for a while and was just waiting for the listener to make a mistake so he could have an excuse. Something is definitely up 🧐
i feel like you can love someome and still want to let them go if it's for the best. but i definitely agree the whole job in new york was sort of an excuse for him to get it out of his chest
@@killerqueen6733 I see your point, he definitely cares for the listener but I think it's kind of weird that he gave up on a relationship with someone he supposedly loves so much so easily, I really wonder if there's more to it
I had a horrible week and even if this audio tore my heart out I'm greatful for the new uptdate of this story. I can not address enough the quality of everything, from the script to the voice acting. You can actually feel the way emotions scalate so smoothly toward the peak and then ugh the pain. I loved it, thank you so much Saku
I went from screaming when I saw the title to literally bawling my eyes out to the end😭😭. My sister saw me crying, I just said it's because of the angst, then continued on crying. I hope this is not the last audio from Alex. My tears just won't stopppp😭😭
I saw the title 2 days ago and i was not prepared for it. i needed ages to process it and now i’m crying. you’re truly amazing saku that you are able to make me and other feel emotions with your work. i love your audios so much. you’re so talented. i’ll miss alex 😭❤️‼️
There HAS to be another audio where we get together or something because my heart just broke and i couldn't stop crying, i wasn't prepared, saku you're too good at this 😭😭
major plot twist: i'm gonna get hit by a car, a random bullet, or someone's gonna stab me, I'll die soon after and this'll leave him with utter loneliness (i love angst)
Well I just relieved memories I wanted to forget..I had a similar argument with one of my ex's (except it ended with me slapping him). The fucking gaslighting, the bs comment implying you weren't the right person. An nothing you can say will be right. All you can do is walk away and clear your head and breath. Just let them leave and let them realize, it was never you. Seriously all listener needed was reassurance instead of being accused of being needy and clingy without words, and then he goes behind their back with all of that? Fuck emotional cheating burns just as bad as the act of. And guess what you jerk? You did cheat, just not the way you thought.
I feel the exact same way. Reliving memories and all. Also, now that you bring up the emotional cheating, you're right. I didn't understand why his relationship with Natalie felt off to me but that sums it. He didn't make an effort to include the Listener on the day-to-day of his work and has the Listener disjointed and confused about it. Like... You knew we were studying Law, idiot, ofc we may need extra breakdowns but that's life. You make the effort to include your partner in the various areas of your life, work being a crucial one. But instead he chose the easier option, to socialise with his "pretty" (he didn't have to say she was pretty, the callousness from the jump. We wanted to know if he ever looked at her that way to take in these features of her, cuz tbh when you're invested in someone, your gaze doesn't go that far, at least for me) coworker who is well versed in his field. Also, growing distant after we begged for reassurance, trivializing the impact of being cheated on and the unwillingness to decenter himself from the issue (it becomes about HIM, how dare we NOT trust HIM). Even if you love and trust someone, reassurance about your standing in a person's life is necessary, especially when you're neglecting an individual and giving an excessive focus onto another individual. Alex is a big red flag. I'm not saying the Listener handled the situation perfectly, but Listener didn't hound Alex repeatedly. It's only one argument. Imo, I don't see how a character like the Listener acted out of character when placed in such a sad situation. Giving someone reassurance isn't always some sweet walk in the park. The Listener deserved better. I totally get the increased self-consciousness after being accused of being interested in another person but I feel like Alex missed the point of everything we were saying and couldn't understand the way the trauma affects the Listener. Yes, the Listener needs to resolve their issues and trauma but relationships also serve as a way for an individual to gain the love and support that can expedite the process. Alex has issues related to self-esteem, relationships and identity. The Listener ironically has the same issues.. They seem to weirdly parallel each other. Idk what direction this series is gonna go but altho the character boils my blood (and tbh triggers me lol), I commend Saku for invoking such strong reactions over a man who is not real T^T
okay..idk about you guys but.. i started crying bro. This is something everyone can relate to and it hurts knowing the truth or finding it out. so i kinda just could not hold back my tears..the most emotional video but overall amazing ❤
Wasn't expecting to see this in the Starbucks drive thru at 10am in the morning but once you're a Crumpet you've gotta expect the unexpected with Saku 💀 I've been in the mood for some angst but I guess today Alex dumped us 😔 I'm gunna enjoy this now while driving home with my drink feeling like the main character while getting dumped. Thank you Saku!! I've been missing you a lot recently and I'm really thankful you uploaded! 💗 I haven't listened to it yet, but I already know it's gunna be so so so SOOOOOO amazing!!!! Love always, Author-San☆
The individual dreams and goals, the sacrifices, and the decisions that we have to make on top of the prior conflict between Alex and us, oh this painfully beautiful and realistic. Saku YOU ARE AMAZING ❤️❤️🥲❤️❤️
This is a letter for ZSaku that I don't actually know if he'll see before it gets buried but I don't care. AHEM King Crumpet, I am just a little bug that has been following your channel for a little over a year now. In that time I've consumed many a content, whether that be while I'm studying for finals (which makes the whole uni student listener very immersive omg), going to sleep, or simply going about my day to day life. And it has been a happy journey where I jump at jumpscares, laugh at the jokes and funny moments, learn new things, grow flustered when your voice goes closer to the mic. (A very nice voice hehe) I understand you like angst. I too, enjoy angst. The fics I've written are a testament to that. But congratulations, take your crown. For you have broken this stoic face of mine (not actually stoic all the time since my poker face is for shit) and made tears generate and fall for the first time when listening to an audio. (From anyone.) True, I make jokes about crying or sobbing but it's all on the inside. (Like the numb little bug that I am lmao) But you have taken a character I have truly gushed and blushed over and had him shatter my heart in ways I didn't know was possible. So take your crown while I cradle what is left of this torrent of emotions you have given me. Let me wait out for the lessening of the building dread I experienced while waiting for the outcome. I much would have preferred you yelling at me instead. But I consume this content nonetheless. (That's more poetic than I've managed to be for like... Three weeks. Which is saying something since it wasn't very poetic lmao) Sincerely, A Crumpet of Stupidity
Was listening to this when I was doing my homework and literally had to put my laptop away to focus on the angst. It was so good my heart shattered. ALSO felt very targeted as a pre-law student felt like I was gagged
After Listener gets home they are packing their bags and LEAVING CAUES if he wants to break up then let’s break up their is no way listener should beg him to stay we ain’t down bad for this walking red flag 🚩🫶🏻👋🏻
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when he said that he could do long distance with the right person broke my heart cuz he was implying we weren’t the right person💔
Yess!! Like i was literally like ”so I’m not the right person?”. That line really broke my heart.
and he had the audacity to act like we were misinterpreting him 😭
@@a.cardooo YES LIKE WHAT ELSE COULD THAT MEAN??? 😭
@@a.cardooo IM GLAD YOU GIYS GETTING BECAUSE WHAT ELSE COULD THAT MEAN????
OMGGG, I'M GLAD I'M NOT THE ONLY ONEEEEE! 😭 LIKE YES, HELLO? WHO SHOULD I THINK THAT YOU'RE IMPLYING IT TO? 😭
my toxic trait is thinking he will have a relationship with that coworker in the future and we will be right but whatever
Don’t jinx it please
it surely will happen that way
@@cloudie7269 how can I even jinx this we brokeup already😭😭
@@ire.m no him getting with the girl
That’s exactly what I was thinking, like let me find out she got offered a job in NYC too 🙃🙃
“I’ll always love you” don’t piss me off 😭😭 just say you are falling outta love FR
“with the right person i think i’d be able to do it”
the conversation would’ve ended right there.
Real
He really was gonna let that slide like we know what u mean 💀
The last audio was the Listener's way of indirectly asking for reassurance and now we got dumped. 💀
Saku, I need another part!!!! 😭😭😭😭
SO REAL
right?? like 😭😭
PLEASE 😭😭😭😭
How dare you require reassurance after being cheated on! I feel so betrayed, I ThOuGhT I kNeW yOu!
This series went from flirty photo shoots to depressing break up too quickly 😭😭
They could NEVER make me hate this listener😝🥳
u so real for that
For real im a listener defender till the day I die
I think he definitely should follow his dreams and the listener *should* support him in that. However I also feel he is poking holes in their relationship (“I thought I knew you” etc.) to make the decision easier on himself like “Oh we couldn’t have stayed together anyway because their trust issues would have torn us apart eventually therefore I’m making the right decision.”
Like the listener is willing to try long distance, the listener is willing to work on themselves and their trust issues. The one who’s not willing to do that is him, he doesn’t want to be tied down and as much as he says we like to jump to conclusions he most definitely had his mind made up about this before we started this conversation. Also I hate when people break up with you and then try to pretend like it was for both of your benefits (“Neither of us will be tied down. You won’t have to feel guilty for keeping me here. You can find someone that you can 100% trust”). Like if this is important to you and you want to do this then *do it* but don’t tell me that it’s for both of our benefit because that’s bs.
Furthermore, I don’t think Alex understands how trust issues from being cheated on work. Yeah you will think “What *if* my partner is cheating on me?” When they are going out but you at the same time *Know* that those are just intrusive thoughts like thinking “What if there is a monster in the dark corner of the room” It’s irrational and you know that. It doesn’t mean you are distrusting of the person. And it also doesn’t mean that it would be any better with any other person they meet making the “You deserve someone you can 100% trust” thing obsolete.
OMGGG. OMG YES. I WAS THINKING THE SAME THING.
U SO REAL FOR THIS
This is so well said, you explained it way better than I could never.
It just sounds like he's blaming her for the break up and consoling her for the blame at the same time. It's just annoying really, just say 'it's over' no need to make it seem like it's not meant to be
@@preciousiweka2397THANK YOU. I would not be surprised if Listener gets trauma for the way he broke with them.
I feel like he kept making up excuses to break up with us and wasn’t actually fighting for the relationship.
He was doing EXACTLY that. I’m glad more and more people are seeing this.
Ngl I also think this might be like the listeners like last string causing them to go down a bad path ( drug)
I knew this was gonna happen, king of angst
Bro really dropping our a$$es after 1 argument 💀 then coming with excuses for the breakup 😭 this got me mad instead of sad lol I’d drop his a$$, leave and never return and make sure he never sees me again
EXACTLYYY
Sameee
I'd be so petty. I would make sure he sees me at every turn while I'm striving, glowing, happy af so he realizes how bad he fucked up
Him: I'll always love you
Me: say that to your next partner
FRRRR 😭
😭😭😭😭😭😭 I'm wheezing and crying and cackling and sobbing bc of this
I was just getting annoyed about not getting my maths right and there he is, talking about how we suck, always taking things negatively. The whole time I was like : "My Professor Marston could NEVER"
@@Nash_AuroraFR! Professor Marston is the best bf
@@akors. 🥺🥺 I miss him
“The best 4 years of my life...” but it wasn’t enough.
Honestly, i just feel like Alex wanted to breakup since the last vedio, but he couldn’t say it outright cause he didn’t want to hurt the listener. But now he just got an excuse to breakup without the reason just being i don’t want to be in a relationship with you anymore.
In my opinion his way of breaking up hurts more than if he would have just told the listener out right, now they will just be overthinking and stuff, i would be too, if someone broke up with me this way especially after saying i love you and all, a simple "i don’t want to be in a relationship with you" is better, its easier to get over that, then i love you but i can’t be with you
Right like just say whats on ur mind, rather than beating around the bush, that hurts so much more than just being outright and clear and I also feel like this nyc opportunity is a great excuse to separate himself
Naur I wouldve dump his ass when he mentioned with the right person. If he wanted to make it work he would, but its JUST EXCUSES. OUT WITH HIM
I DEMAND A FOLLOW UP WHERE THE MAN REGRETS
Please
RIGHT??? like just say you wanna break up, don't be like digging random shit from ONE ARGUMENT
Alex talking to us like we’re something broken and needing fixing truly broke my heart, he probably means well but it was still like a knife to the heart.
Alex: “Stay safe”
Me: Now i hope i get ran over.
I was lowkey hoping the same 😭
Ngl me too-the twist would be SO good 💀
Truck-kun take me now-
Its the gaslighting for me😭
I thought I was the only one who felt that way. 😭😭😭
@@Brymie1798 no girl, its not just you😭
Nah cause.... I'll probably break up with him
I’m glad more people are seeing it 😭
I KNEW THIS WAS GONNA HAPPEN😭MY JAW DROPPED WHEN I SAW THE TITLE. Saku knows what he is doing. Master of angst.
ME TOOO😭
🥹🥹🥹
Cryibg ong
this whole audio is so "you're losing me" coded and i don't think i can handle that 😭
you’re so right omg🤧
oh my god ive found my swiftie people
The bridge of your losing me is so listener coded to me I’m literally sobbing in my bed
YOURE SO RIGHT IM SOBBING NOW
Yesss
I'm disappointed with him for so many reasons... Just seems don't right the way his acting and the way he just give up like just the listener was who made a mistake. After 4 perfect years and one hard time was enough. He was cruel in all of this too and I see another thing to the listener to be traumatized. This character used to be one of my favorites but I really don't like him now. He really, really disappointed me.
Real, like we all get a bit jealous but jeez
“Lately I feel like we’ve been drifting apart’
Then paddle back...
Alex: I don’t think I could do a long-distance relationship. Maybe if I was with the right person.
Me: So, we’re breaking up?
Alex: Don’t jump to conclusions. Why do you always assume the worst?
Also Alex: I think we should break up.
Thank goodness someone else is mentioning this cause his back and fourth was giving me whiplash 💀
FR BRUH
@@moony-_-.FR.
Right? Then, listener walks away after break up and hes like "wait where are you going".
Away. Like there's nothing more to be said so why stay around. dipping after a break up seems a normal turn of events. 😂
Thought I was the only one
its so sad that he kept mentioning listener wasnt usually like this, which means that they were feeling insecure and really needed reassurance. And while, yes, its not ok to accuse your other half of cheating with no evidence, if this outburst is sudden then doesnt that mean something is clearly wrong with the relationship and not just one person? Not to mention throughout the entire video you could sense that he had already made up his mind to break up with them a while ago. listener was clearly trying to reach out and fix things but he just didnt want to anymore. I think he just realized that his job mattered more than his relationship. the one who felt tied down was him 😭
He has the audacity to cry when he broke up with us first🙄
im sorry if you think his character isn't in the wrong here, there's something wrong with you. four years of relationship down to the drain because ONE trust issue, and instead of resolving it he's instigating the listener and put himself as the victim. "there's nothing to be convinced of if there's nothing happened" SO WHAT? WHATS SO WRONG about affirming your own partner? why are you so ready to leave your partner when they've put up with their pent up feelings, just WHY? why can't you just tell the listener okay, i can't do ldr, WITHOUT dragging the listener through the mud?? like... jesus... saku, you made a very cute and wholesome character so unlikeable at the span of 2 videos and that's truly a skill lol. if there's a video of us getting back with him i'm throwing it down to the ditch because this should be a blaring red flag fr fr
my delulu ass thinking that me verbally saying things can change the trajectory of these audios, regardless of how ominous the titles are 🤡
BRUH LITERALLY ME UGHH
I can imagine either Alex sitting there thinking or pouring crying as soon as the listener closed the door.
He better be
WELL GUESS WHAT WERE ALL CRYING TOO SO HE CAN JOIN😭😭😭
I really love this series because as an artist myself, I can relate to his passion and obsession with detail lmao. That's the best part of being an artist is, the constant desire for perfection and the feeling of never being good enough. It's possible to achieve success and recognition, yet you still feel worthless.
Made me tear up fr, I hope they both achieve their dreams in their own ways.
"Youre the love of my life!"
"Im happy!"
"I love you and want to be with you!"
"I don't think I could do long distance if its not with the right person.."
Okay buddy pick a side and roll with it, I'm getting emotional whiplash here.
What's the time stamp for when he that
14:16 "so you're ready to have a mature conversation with me?"
OOOOHHHH THAT RUBBED ME THE WRONGEST OF WAYS
I feel like Alex is really selfish for telling listener the day before his departure. I can understand why he doesn't want to continue the relationship. But telling your partner the last minute is the whole different thing.
honestly, and why is he so shocked that they’re mad? what did expect? he had his mind made up from the jump… there was no working it out.
Well he did say maybe you deserved someone better ...
I feel so gaslighted here... he told us not to jump into conclusions and accusing us of doing it but in the end he prove us being right anyway. He didn't give us any choice other than jumping into that conclusion anyways. Like first he brought up the past promise of us not getting in the way of each other's dream, hinting that he actually wants to leave. Second, we said we could try long distance but then alex said we wouldn't be able to work in long distance. And third, when we said we'll follow him, he doesn't want us to go with him because it will get in the way of our dream. So what else is there except a break up? I feel like it would be a logical conclusion to make by the listener. He is not giving us any choice! And I'm pissed about it😤😤
At least the playlist doesn't say it's complete- I would cry sm if it did 😀
I Hope they have a happy ending 😭
@@Yunalol69 i dont think they will 😭🤚
@@Mourovac me too 🥲🥲
Yeah watch us get into a car crash or a gang fight in the next audio because we were so riled up
@@claracatlady9844 listener about to start dealing drugs 💀
he always talk about himself.. like the relationship only revolves around him.hahaha the listener doesn't even have the right to feel anything. lol.
Why is he treating the listener like this 😭😭
Idk that broke me so bad 😭
His character gave me the ick🤚🏻
last audio definitely felt like listener was trying to say, "Just because you say that you love means I feel loved by you" 😓
Great job as always 😌👌
It’s difficult conversations like these where you really get a better understanding of yourself. The listener has been repressing all that paranoia throughout their relationship. I just hope they don’t think that’s a permanent aspect of their character and that they can seek any needed help/therapy. It’s hard to pin point Alex’s faults in their relationship, at least in my perspective. However, I will say that he does have a habit of keeping most of his experiences to himself. I know his reason is that he wants to really think things over in his head before exclaiming anything to anyone. It’s just that both this and the last audio prior had the listener finding out something that Alex neglected to mention. On top of that, Alex proceeds to assume things that the listener wouldn’t be able to pick up on due to their lack of information. He assumed the listener wouldn’t think he could ever cheat, because he has been cheated on, too. Yet he never told the listener about that experience. And then in this audio, he thinks he can’t tell the listener about the job offer, because he assumes the listener would just blow up on him. While their is some truth to that, it’s still a topic they’re inevitably have to talk about. Delaying it only made the listener upset, and they were able to actually have a civil discussion. Maybe it was emotionally driven but still civil and productive nonetheless. To me, Alex keep too much to himself and has trouble with communication.
Four years?! and just poof gone? wow.
Fr!! After one argument??
@@xxstingerxx9651that's why I think there's going to be another video after this
Why do I feel like we're being gaslighted the whole time?
Nah nevermind he's good
this comment is so funny to me for some reason
@@killerqueen6733 😂 I think I literally wrote that because I had math stress
@@Nash_Aurora lmaao that's so real though math is stressing 😭
@@killerqueen6733 After this I actually even passed 🥺
y'all I'm not gonna lie I want them to cut ties and just move on. I feel like they're just not meant for each other
"4 years gone to waste. Thanks, Alex. You just want me out from your life and just keep making excuses. I am your burden & I am that something that had been getting on your way to your success." - this is me if i had choice to say something.
I guess delulu is not the solulu since this shit hurt more than anything.
"I will always love u- GET FIFTY PERCENT OF DOMINO'S" 😭😭 THAT SCRARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME
Lol. I said
"Okay."
"I understand its your dream job."
"You should go for it."
So many times during this audio, it made it sound like Alex was just picking a fight to break up.
I don't think I played the game right. 😂
He was pulling any excuse out of his ass in order to break up, so you’re not wrong at all💀
I never agreed with Alex in this audio, and I just realized how much he gaslighted the listener. It’s so painful because the listener is literally trying to save their relationship, but Alex has already decided to break up with them.
Ugh, I love when audio's have hinted realism roped into the storyline. It makes the characters more lively and respected. The Walking, Rubbing, Crying, Sound Effects, ECT. Makes the whole story tie together nicely. And that's no exception with this one.
I love, and I mean I literally love how you act out the character stories. Even the listener has a personality and they're silent on our end of the stick.
This audio was definitely refreshing since we especially didn't have a "breakup" kind of thing going on yet, let this one be the first of many! (No please no /j)
Lovely work as always, Saku!!
SAKU ANGST?? IM HERE FOR ITTT
Edit: dude I thought this was gonna be a one shot, and I just realized it’s ALEX????? Literally crying bye
Yes, unfortunately it’s our sweet photographer boy 😭
ITS 9AM AND YOU GONNA BREAK MY HEART LIKE THIS?!
When I tell you my heart literally skipped a beat when I saw the title.
I knew this was coming 😭
Not even gonna watch it now I'm not mentally ready yet.
DAMN THE DRAMA, THE ACTING, THE TENSION, EVERYTHING WITH THIS AUDIO IS SO GOOD. You did an amazing job Saku! The King of Angst did NOT disappoint!!
Not gonna lie, I was expecting a slight slam of the door. Not an "I'm extremely distressed and I want to break something", but a " I am trying to keep it together, but I slammed it harder than I thought I did, but I'm not going to apologize because I'm already outside" slam.
I KNEW IT. Ever since the argument audio I knew this is about to come up
I KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN AND YET IT STILL HURTS JUST AS BAD
What is that emoji
@@Bri._.276the emojis are from UA-cam only, and have to pay for it
REMEMBER PEOPLE, NOTHING SAID THIS WAS THE FINAL!!!!
At this point I'm PRAYING it's not 😭😭😭😭
@@elenakarry2869 IT DOESN'T SAY COMPLETE SO....😭😭🙏
yeah but, the thought of it is still there😭
Keeping that Lil bit of hope for us 😭😭😭 thank youuu ❤
IM PRAYING WE FET BACK, IF NOT IM BAWLING
i feel he had already decided to go to New York, with him talking to his parents and all, but he just had to get rod of listener, and making them feel like it was their fault, making him not feel bad for leaving
Ngl i resonate more with listener than Alex- tho don't get me wrong, i understand where he's coming from especially the last audio, but like.. if listener's behavior just happened recently and not something that's normal in their 4 years of relationships, then surely there must be a reason behind it. "I thought i knew you" he says, about a moment of weakness for listener. It's those moments where those dark thoughts just creep up in your head, they don't need to have logic, cuz they just pop up and make everything worse, they're irrational. (And i think what adds more to this is listener's trauma from their past relationship, which needs to be adressed more cuz it's not healthy for them nor for anyone they're gonna be in a relationship with) Listener to me, was indirectly asking for reassurance, albeit it going the wrong way instead. Idk, if this didn't occur during the 4 years of their relationship and just now, then maybe find out the reason why.
And honestly, he's clearly already made his decision at the beginning of this audio, and yes sure, he has every right to follow his dreams, especially when it's an opportunity of a lifetimd for his passion, but the reasons he gave is him trying to make the break up easier on himself. He says it's for his and listener's benefits, but it's not. Clearly, listener doesn't want any of it and is willing to try, but Alex refuses with excuses. Would've preferred it if he'd just out right said he didn't love listener anymore, without trying to discuss benefits and what not. He clearly does not want to be tied down and he should've just said that, instead of saying "we both wouldn't be tied down" like??
Honestly wouldn't want them to be back together?? Alex can go freely follow his dreams, and listener needs someone who can help properly heal their trauma and reassure them when their thoughts go haywire. That by the end, listener is with someone who helped them get better and confident with themselves. I'm sounding very listener biased (probs cuz i am) but idk- it sounds like there's a lot going on in their head and their mental state rn and i want them to feel better😭😭
Alex's job going extremely well for himself and his passions, whilst Listener is happy and healed with someone else. Win win.
You're absolutely correct. I sensed that he was attempting to gaslighting the listener by distorting reality, all in an effort to boost his own self-esteem. Personally, I wouldn't entertain the idea of reuniting with someone of his nature.
The angst was immaculate, I love how you portray the realism of relationships. The reality of relationships is that they can get very messy.
I knew it was coming but that didn't stop my heart from tearing into shreds 😔✋🏼
Thank you for the update Crumpet King! ❤
STOP WE KNEW THIS WAS COMING BUT I DIDNT EXPECT THIS TO ACTUAL HAPPEN 😭
Edit: I just finished and I'm fricken balling at 10:30 am, my family is so concerned rn.
It's so late at night and I cried reading the title. Angst once again, you never fail at it Saku 😔
Soft breakups, where it's just not working out, dreams not aligning, future visions not lining up, but we still deeply love each other is THE ABSOLUTE WORST, especially if both still wants the best for each other but being together just really isn't the best for them anymore
The whole time I was thinking to myself "if I had just shut their mouth that night and didn't say anything, we wouldn't be breaking up rn" (which, no, it will boil over at some point, like Alex said, listener need to trust their partner, and they clearly didn't)
I was actually crying so much I got a headache, this level of angst is crazy (hits too close with my own breakup, tho not as gentle)
ANYWAY, amazing audio, stellar work, 100/10, hoping and praying for a happy ending for them
That was a lot emotionally, hearing your voice cracked at the end when the listener want some time alone is so powerful. It's a wonderful job like always 🌼
The fact that I don't like angsty stuff because my heart couldn't take it/the pain but I am still listening to this audio because I just love how artist's love and point of view was shown and established here. It was indeed hard that you want to focus on your career and passion because it's literally your dream but people just couldn't understand and it's also hard to find someone who's also be supportive and doesn't doubt you. This is just too heart-wrenching but I still want to listen huhuhuhuhu.
Thank you so much for this update at the same time, for writing this story, Saku.
All the listener hate in the comments is eating at me bro 😭
I don’t think either are to blame in the breakup.
Listener clearly has some heavy trauma/ insecurities from past relationships which I can relate to. Trusting is one of the hardest things to do and as someone who’s been hurt over and over again in different relationships I know hard it is to let that kind of paranoia go.
So I understand the frustration with listener but I don’t think it’s their fault the breakup happened. (Also I’m dying to know what triggered this behavior from listener. Because according to what Alex says in this audio, they’ve only recently been acting this way. So something had to have triggered these trauma responses if they’re only now starting to surface. Because I mean they’ve been together four years wouldn’t have Alex broken things off sooner if this behavior had happened before? If he had known listener had issues with trusting him would he have stayed this long? Idk I’m just curious since he keeps using that one argument as a reason to break up, saying that since then he hasn’t been able to put the same energy into the relationship as he did before.)
Alex is passionate about what he does professionally and I think he had made up his mind about what to do about the job the minute he received that email.
The fact that he had already discussed it with his parents and had no intention of doing long distance with listener proves that.
He had since long checked out of the relationship. He chose his passion over his relationship and that’s okay. Sometimes the two ends in a relationship don’t meet up. Priorities can be different, paths may not align. It’s reality, and I think the writing and emotion in this audio really captures the human experience. Neither person is the bad guy, neither are perfect, and both deserve to be happy.
Okay ramble over. This audio broke me but I’m also so excited for whatever comes next. Whether they get back together or stay apart I just want them both to be happy and healthy 🥲
I personally think that what caused the listeners trust issues to hit the surface because maybe we were holding it in and maybe we snapped? Based on the last audio we hear what listener did with Alex’s assistant and how we checked her info and stuff. Everytime Alex went out, listener was thinking alex was cheating, so each time he leaves it gets worse and worse. Listener probably saw all the signs with cheating (not talking, staying at work longer, etc etc) to where listener couldn’t hold it in anymore to where we snapped.
Sorry if that’s confusing I’m bad at English💀
True, I just hope Listener can move on from this and not have a rebound if he comes back after being fired or something, they really don't need a rebound and honestly, a person that so easily flakes out of a relationship with them again.
Mostly because their paths aren't aligned and won't align again because he's already shown that he values his job over the Listener and will do the same thing again in a heartbeat, so someone you can't trust really lol.
NOT THE "I STILL LOVE YOUS" THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE GOD DAMN THING
Here's my opinion on this audio, while I do believe that there are issues that the listener needs to resolve regarding their trauma of being cheated on, i do also sympathise with it because trauma doesn't leave a person completely, if anything it keeps u on edge most of the times when certain patterns start to repeat themselves, in this case , the listener being paranoid of being cheated on by Alex, i mean given their history and how less of attention and time alex has given the listener because of his work,i am not saying that he should leave his work but I think , Alex needs to improve his work life balance , also Alex has said that they have been in a relationship for 4 years, but for some reason this issue makes him think that he doesn't know the listener anymore, tbh its so childish and immature that you'd know somebody for about 4 years and ur instinct is to break up with them after an issue that should have been solved lile mature adults ,clearly because they aren't kids anymore, i am not blaming Alex for this , i am just saying that he may have just overreacted to this whole situation, and if he really did love his partner that much, he would have given long distance a chance or done something else to make it work , i feel like he gave up too easily while the listener was ready to change their old habits and work on themselves also when he said that long distance works well with the right person threw me off a bit and gave me the ick idk why lol but yea
This all seemed like a selfish reason to move on and away and get it over with, it could have been done better without Alex literally shouting at us with every word he said and him accusing us of jumping to conclusions but for some reason he was doing exactly what our conclusions were but somehow scolding the listener lol, this character was one of my fav , for some reason it just isn't anymore but oh well
But if there is a next audio i hope both of them realize their mistakes , of course accusing someone of cheating isn't good but ending a whole relationship of 4 years is much too weird and childish
Also the bit where he says that listener is usually level headed and calm but as soon as the listener acts a bit unusually ,this is how Alex is going to take that , bugs me alot ngl
I know right like instead of him understand why listener think like that and try to avoid all things that could cause misunderstanding, he did this. If he love listener so much, he could at least do that.
I feel like, listener is the only thing he could throw away. Felt so mad when he already told his parent and seems to had already made his mind up but just need to get rid of listener in the end.
@@hazelmezarte5644 right? I feel the same way, they should have communicated more on this issue, to me it seems like he was the one who jumped to the conclusion of breaking up and that quickly also.
YES it made me so mad that we were the last people to know out of everyone, maybe he already had made his mind and was just telling us about it now, whatever it is, it's just so heart breaking to think he would think like that lol
I was just reading then this came on 😭 When I tell you my jaw dropped 😭
look, Ik I should expect such gut wrenching angst from Saku himself BUT I AM STILL NOT PREPARED 😭
… I am trying so hard not to cry rn ITS SO HARD
edit: scratch that, I’m sobbing my eyes out-
Saku, I just woke up man. I didn’t wanna cry this early in the morning
he cud've just said he doesn't wanna be with the listener anymore... like???
whelp added trauma
also the stay safe at the end? i don't think the listener is coming out of this unscathed mentally or physically.
If someone is leaving you, it doesn't mean that they're bad, or you're bad, or they don't love you. It means they're not choosing you.
Which is the most important thing in the relationship: you either choose your love or go the other way. We'll all have to accept it
WHY DID I LITERALLY PREDICT THIS? LIKE I KINDA SAW IT COMING FROM THE LAST AUDIO FOR HIM
Honestly I think I'm just emotionally disconnected, this whole audio i was just thinking to myself "why is this such an issue, it was a lapse in judgement, why are you so emotional"
When someone goes through a traumatic thing like being cheated on trust goes out the window, like if you were in an abusive relationship, you always have a warning light in the back of your head. Like you can see the signs you learn from a past experience so you don't get put in the same situation. When you see the signs and recognize things you get defensive so no one can catches you off guard, so you dont get hurt again.
But then I think about his pov and I kinda understand but this is where I put logic over feelings, I think if he truly loved the listener like he says he did he would have understood them and understood why what happened happened.
Sorry that was just my little take, don't mean to offend anyone with this, it was a great audio made me think about more than usual 😅
No, No!!! You snapped with this one!!! It felt weird this entire time! It just felt like he was making excuses to just cut us off. Like-this was the first time out of four whole years that listener has ever done this. And while I do agree, yes, it was wrong to accuse him of cheating with no proof, it was ONE TIME. Listener was willing to make a change in order to keep Alex with them for a long distance relationship. I’d imagine that they’d probably get themselves help in order to achieve the goal of long distance in the first place, and I believe that if Alex loved them as much as he says he does he’d support them in their endeavor. Like, if it really hurts him as much as it seems like it does, then he’d do EVERYTHING in his power to make the relationship work.
Now, it’d be different if listener accused him multiple times, and refused to make a change, but they were willing to do so. And what’s this about “I thought I knew you”, too? Because of one argument where listener let their paranoia get the better of them you suddenly don’t know them after FOUR YEARS TOGETHER? And keep in mind, the listener is usually a calm and level headed individual-this ONE TIME they step out of their usual temperament-and suddenly you don’t know the person you’ve been dating for FOUR YEARS??? HUH???? And why is breaking up going to be your first choice as if there are not other alternatives???? Like??????
I COMPLETELY and utterly believe that he would’ve broken up with us regardless whether or not got a job opportunity in New York. He had long since checked out of that relationship, and I felt like he used this opportunity he got in NY as a crutch to break up with listener, too. And honestly? If he’s gonna break up with listener after a single argument, then I really do not think he loves them as much as he says he does…
I think about it from his p.o.v too, and I guess I understand how he feels as well. Like-I cannot even imagine how hurt he felt that listener accused him of cheating, but THIS ONE THING made you decide that your relationship of FOUR YEARS is not even worth saving???? Mm-Mmh! Something here is not adding up, and the math is NOT MATHING!
You all get it!! Like this is the first time that one of Saku's characters gave me the ick, like he was not making any sense at all and it seemed to me like he had been waiting to break up for a while and was just waiting for the listener to make a mistake so he could have an excuse. Something is definitely up 🧐
i feel like you can love someome and still want to let them go if it's for the best. but i definitely agree the whole job in new york was sort of an excuse for him to get it out of his chest
@@killerqueen6733 I see your point, he definitely cares for the listener but I think it's kind of weird that he gave up on a relationship with someone he supposedly loves so much so easily, I really wonder if there's more to it
For 5 hours I have been gathering my courage for this. Let's go!😭
Ooh me too
Here we go again! I’ve been refusing to listen to this for months after hearing it the first time 😕
Another therapy session, here I come✊😭
I had a horrible week and even if this audio tore my heart out I'm greatful for the new uptdate of this story. I can not address enough the quality of everything, from the script to the voice acting. You can actually feel the way emotions scalate so smoothly toward the peak and then ugh the pain. I loved it, thank you so much Saku
saku, we desperately need alex please 😭 the angst is killing me
I waited this long for part 2 and now I need part 3! My heart!!!! I didn’t expect it to end like that!
I went from screaming when I saw the title to literally bawling my eyes out to the end😭😭. My sister saw me crying, I just said it's because of the angst, then continued on crying. I hope this is not the last audio from Alex. My tears just won't stopppp😭😭
JAW DROPPED????? I WAS LITERALLY LIKE "No no no aint no wayyyyy"
Omg Saku you have out done yourself this time, the emotions in this audio is crazy ROUND OF
👏🏽👏🏽APPLAUSE 👏🏽👏🏽
How disgusted and confused I looked when he sobbed into my ears after HE broke up with us.💀
The sad part is that i listened to this after a break up….Best way to cry all night-
I’m so sorry. Hope you’re doing okay🤍
the skill it takes to have an entire audience turn on a character like this is astounding 😭 loving this thru my inflated blood pressure
The last bit gave goosebumps and I literally had to pause, put on a shock face, my hands on my mouth.
Hands down. 😭
I saw the title 2 days ago and i was not prepared for it. i needed ages to process it and now i’m crying. you’re truly amazing saku that you are able to make me and other feel emotions with your work. i love your audios so much. you’re so talented. i’ll miss alex 😭❤️‼️
I broke to cry when Alex crying 😢 king of angst as always ❤
there better be a comfort audio after this one because if not 😭😭😭
There HAS to be another audio where we get together or something because my heart just broke and i couldn't stop crying, i wasn't prepared, saku you're too good at this 😭😭
tbh i dont think it would happen 😭
@@slapmymamaintheballs739 might have it because it doesn't say the end yet so yea lol
major plot twist: i'm gonna get hit by a car, a random bullet, or someone's gonna stab me, I'll die soon after and this'll leave him with utter loneliness (i love angst)
Well I just relieved memories I wanted to forget..I had a similar argument with one of my ex's (except it ended with me slapping him). The fucking gaslighting, the bs comment implying you weren't the right person. An nothing you can say will be right. All you can do is walk away and clear your head and breath. Just let them leave and let them realize, it was never you. Seriously all listener needed was reassurance instead of being accused of being needy and clingy without words, and then he goes behind their back with all of that?
Fuck emotional cheating burns just as bad as the act of. And guess what you jerk? You did cheat, just not the way you thought.
I feel the exact same way. Reliving memories and all. Also, now that you bring up the emotional cheating, you're right. I didn't understand why his relationship with Natalie felt off to me but that sums it.
He didn't make an effort to include the Listener on the day-to-day of his work and has the Listener disjointed and confused about it. Like... You knew we were studying Law, idiot, ofc we may need extra breakdowns but that's life. You make the effort to include your partner in the various areas of your life, work being a crucial one. But instead he chose the easier option, to socialise with his "pretty" (he didn't have to say she was pretty, the callousness from the jump. We wanted to know if he ever looked at her that way to take in these features of her, cuz tbh when you're invested in someone, your gaze doesn't go that far, at least for me) coworker who is well versed in his field.
Also, growing distant after we begged for reassurance, trivializing the impact of being cheated on and the unwillingness to decenter himself from the issue (it becomes about HIM, how dare we NOT trust HIM).
Even if you love and trust someone, reassurance about your standing in a person's life is necessary, especially when you're neglecting an individual and giving an excessive focus onto another individual.
Alex is a big red flag.
I'm not saying the Listener handled the situation perfectly, but Listener didn't hound Alex repeatedly. It's only one argument. Imo, I don't see how a character like the Listener acted out of character when placed in such a sad situation. Giving someone reassurance isn't always some sweet walk in the park. The Listener deserved better. I totally get the increased self-consciousness after being accused of being interested in another person but I feel like Alex missed the point of everything we were saying and couldn't understand the way the trauma affects the Listener. Yes, the Listener needs to resolve their issues and trauma but relationships also serve as a way for an individual to gain the love and support that can expedite the process.
Alex has issues related to self-esteem, relationships and identity.
The Listener ironically has the same issues..
They seem to weirdly parallel each other.
Idk what direction this series is gonna go but altho the character boils my blood (and tbh triggers me lol), I commend Saku for invoking such strong reactions over a man who is not real T^T
okay..idk about you guys but..
i started crying bro.
This is something everyone can relate to and it hurts knowing the truth or finding it out.
so i kinda just could not hold back my tears..the most emotional video
but overall amazing ❤
YOU ALWAYS KNOW HOW TO DELIVER! I LIKE HOW EVERY PAST DECISION ENDS UP AFFECTING THIS ONE
Wasn't expecting to see this in the Starbucks drive thru at 10am in the morning but once you're a Crumpet you've gotta expect the unexpected with Saku 💀
I've been in the mood for some angst but I guess today Alex dumped us 😔
I'm gunna enjoy this now while driving home with my drink feeling like the main character while getting dumped.
Thank you Saku!!
I've been missing you a lot recently and I'm really thankful you uploaded! 💗
I haven't listened to it yet, but I already know it's gunna be so so so SOOOOOO amazing!!!!
Love always,
Author-San☆
BRUH WITH THAT BE SAFE AT THE END I JUST KNOW WE ARE NOT MAKING IT HOME 😭
Low-key dont want to lol
The individual dreams and goals, the sacrifices, and the decisions that we have to make on top of the prior conflict between Alex and us, oh this painfully beautiful and realistic. Saku YOU ARE AMAZING ❤️❤️🥲❤️❤️
This is a letter for ZSaku that I don't actually know if he'll see before it gets buried but I don't care.
AHEM
King Crumpet,
I am just a little bug that has been following your channel for a little over a year now. In that time I've consumed many a content, whether that be while I'm studying for finals (which makes the whole uni student listener very immersive omg), going to sleep, or simply going about my day to day life. And it has been a happy journey where I jump at jumpscares, laugh at the jokes and funny moments, learn new things, grow flustered when your voice goes closer to the mic. (A very nice voice hehe)
I understand you like angst. I too, enjoy angst. The fics I've written are a testament to that.
But congratulations, take your crown. For you have broken this stoic face of mine (not actually stoic all the time since my poker face is for shit) and made tears generate and fall for the first time when listening to an audio. (From anyone.)
True, I make jokes about crying or sobbing but it's all on the inside. (Like the numb little bug that I am lmao)
But you have taken a character I have truly gushed and blushed over and had him shatter my heart in ways I didn't know was possible.
So take your crown while I cradle what is left of this torrent of emotions you have given me. Let me wait out for the lessening of the building dread I experienced while waiting for the outcome. I much would have preferred you yelling at me instead. But I consume this content nonetheless. (That's more poetic than I've managed to be for like... Three weeks. Which is saying something since it wasn't very poetic lmao)
Sincerely,
A Crumpet of Stupidity
Aint no way you did this to us Saku 😭
Was listening to this when I was doing my homework and literally had to put my laptop away to focus on the angst. It was so good my heart shattered. ALSO felt very targeted as a pre-law student felt like I was gagged
this made me so anxious my ear started ringing and that's when you know a story is well written oh my god
After Listener gets home they are packing their bags and LEAVING CAUES if he wants to break up then let’s break up their is no way listener should beg him to stay we ain’t down bad for this walking red flag 🚩🫶🏻👋🏻