impermanence ✘ grey's anatomy (season 17)

“Something terrible happens, we blame ourselves and we don't want to feel it so we run. We run from joy too, because we think we don't deserve happiness. But it's a package deal: there is no joy without pain."
How can I possibly put into words how special this season was? I started this video months and months ago and it went through a lot of transformations as the series progressed and as I found new ways to showcase all the devastating, wonderful things that happened. The more time goes by the more I realise how perfect the season finale was - the symbolism of the lung transplant breathing literal fresh air into someone's damaged lungs, cut with Maggie and Winston's beautiful wedding, the freedom that an end to a year of suffering and isolation and loneliness finally brought.
This was a series all about healing and about perspective and about learning to breathe, and I wanted to show in this video what I think has always been the most important message of Grey's Anatomy, and one that I think Dr Wyatt so perfectly summarised in 5x03: "Yes, horrible things do happen. Happiness in the face of that? That's not the goal. Feeling the horrible, and knowing that you won't die from those feelings. That's the point."
I have learnt so much from this show and although I did love the recent seasons, this was the first one I have absolutely adored since s11 (season 14 excluded because that was a masterpiece) - and boy did it deliver. In a year that has been so difficult for so many people, when we have collectively lost so much, it felt like coming home, like reuniting with old friends, and - as the soundtrack so aptly verbalised - like breathing again. The way it not only brought back familiar faces but recalled earlier seasons, quotes, and scenes, making everything feel so circular and so precious, like a self-contained memory - but also showing that progress, and change, is inevitable. We can find comfort in the past but we have to keep moving.
I hope you enjoy this edit. I spent months on it, and it means a lot to me. I know I say this with every video, but I think it's my favourite video I've ever made. It's definitely the one closest to my heart, and I think making it helped me heal in the same way that watching these episodes the first time around did. I will always remember the feeling when Derek Shepherd returned on our screens for the first time in 6 years.
I hope you are finding a way to heal too. What a long year and a half it's been. Sending my love to you all ♡
**i don't own anything**
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[@AlixZouzou]

Thank you for adding station 19 s4, Carina’s reaction to her brother’s death was truly heartbreaking. Stefania Spampinato’s acting was soooooo good !

[@petrichor.9271]

Wasn't it phenomenal? 🤩🤩 I've actually never watched a full episode (I really want to I've just never gotten around to it), but I'd seen clips from this one and couldn't *not* put it in!!

[@emirachelnatalie3397]

I just finished it and it WAS FREAKING AMAZING. Like you need to get so many views on this or I'll sue everyone lol. Simply beautiful!!

[@petrichor.9271]

thank you so much!! 🥺🥺🥺

[@xHalsteadsAngelx]

YOURE BACK! I’ve missed you on all platforms for so long ❤️

[@petrichor.9271]

im back baby!!! i am so sorry for my absence, it has just been a very long year and i have struggled to balance everything. thank you endlessly for the support, it means the world 💓💓💓💓

[@xHalsteadsAngelx]

@@petrichor.9271 missed seeing you videos so much but so glad you’re back ❤️ hope you had a nice, well deserved break x

[@pinkdaisies467]

This is absolutely gorgeous!💕

[@petrichor.9271]

thank you so much!!!

[@melinafan97]

I love this so so much !!

[@shreyalapsia9438]

this was simply beautiful, the best edit I have ever seen :)

[@petrichor.9271]

thank you so much, this is too kind 💓💓💓

[@dionim.8159]

What a video! This is art! This is pure Poetry!!!♥️♥️♥️

[@alisegunn4498]

What a. Video this etc this. Pure poetry

[@emirachelnatalie3397]

this is amazing!!!!