my 13 year old brother has OCD and extreme Hypochondria, and he’s a huge fan of you, so i showed him this video because he’s felt really hopeless for the past few years and alone in dealing with how he can handle the anxiety he gets, so this was extremely helpful and has not only helped him with distracting his OCD and Hypochondria, but has also helped me and my mum with learning how to distract him too. Thank you!
I have diagnosed OCD, hypochondria, ADHD and Asperger's. Every single thing I forgot to do or couldn't concentrate on would result in me thinking I'm having a stroke or a seizure. Every single repeated action I have to do, like making sure the front door is locked, makes me very anxious, which leads to all sorts of imaginary physical symptoms arising, which leads to me thinking I have Serotonin Syndrome or some shit. Every single missed social cue makes me think I'm psychotic. This shit is horrendous. I can kinda rationalize it by asking myself, "Am I just constantly worried over this symptom, or is this more of an urgent feeling or panic?". If I'm just worried and ruminating about it for no reason and constantly over a good amount of time, I know it's just anxiety. If it's a sense of urgency or I straight up panic, it's probably an actual medical emergency. I can confirm it's not anxiety by doing some deep breathing. If the symptoms don't go away in around 3-10 minutes, I think I could consider calling 911. This video helped me a lot as well though... just knowing there are other people out there with this illness and having a laugh about it really makes things better.
Please do not utilize distraction as primary recourse for OCD. The only accepted treatment for OCD is confrontation of the anxiety. Distracting from obsessions will only lead to their perpetuation, not successfully coping with them. My OCD has gone through severe stages and even though it will never go away, through CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) I am able to live the majority of everyday with my OCD as a background thought rather than the crippling anxiety it once was
Dude…I wouldn’t wish any kind of anxiety disorder on my worst enemy. It’s so fucking crippling. Thanks for being so up front with your shit. It can help to know that you’re not alone.
I really hate how no one except maybe immediate family members will understand what you're going through. You realize what your mind is doing is insane but you can't stop it
Same I've worked through my agoraphobia to the point where it still bothers me but doesn't disrupt my life But before then I could not function in society I just never left my house as a teenager Not even for school
Charlie's rational self: its statistically highly improbable that I contracted rabies from that bat. Charlie's hypochondriac subconcious: It's Morbin time.
That's how I feel all the time. I feel like I'm always trying to convince myself that im not really feeling the way I feel. I feel like it's some sort of big boss battle in my head that I will prepare for for like a week, and I will throw all these facts and things at myself, completely proving why I do think I have actual problems. Then it's all shut down by one sentence, which is "what if ur just overreacting". Idk, I just feel like I've been in a loop for the past 2 years with this, and I'm terrified of opening up to anyone about it.
Man I relate to this so much. I've been considering doing a video on the topic myself, because I've lost many nights of sleep to random WebMD rabbit holes. A few years ago, during a vacation to Mexico, I got bitten by an iguana while I was (stupidly) feeding it lettuce out of the palm of my hand. It bled a fair bit and then was completely fine. Nonetheless I stayed up for 3 whole days observing my finger because I was worried it would get infected with flesh-eating bacteria and I'd only have a few hours to react before doctors would need to amputate my arm. And then even after it completely healed, I also would periodically have the intrusive thought of "what if you're the first person to ever get rabies from a reptile? What if the iguana had just finished eating an infected mouse or bat?" Nevermind that the iguana was acting completely normal and that iguanas are herbivores, it still would keep me awake for hours. It sucks because no matter how many people tell you that everything will be fine, and no matter how many reasons you have to just relax, you keep replaying the same questions in your mind like you're stuck in a loop. It really is debilitating, and also embarrassing watching other people roll their eyes because you keep bringing up the same nonsensical worries again and again. Thanks for sharing, Charlie.
What I've found the worst as well is that this is a disorder you can never talk about to people. Whenever i do im just met with the classic "lol just dont worry abt it 4head" or "ur not ill lol u just gotta stop thinking about it". Nobody understands how impossible it is to NOT think of these things, and they think they are helpful by saying "aha thats a stupid reason to worry", when in reality it just makes the person feel even more invalidated and suffocated in their concern.
Fuckin A. It's so refreshing to hear a content creator discuss issues like this. My hypochondria manifested itself in food, where I was terrified there was something wrong with the food I ate. It got so bad at one point I couldn't eat anywhere other than my own home. I've made strides by pacing myself and taking baby steps. Good for you for the progress you've made over the years!
Damn I can kinda relate. I actually became a vegetarian over this fear. I still have trouble washing dishes because I’m convinced I cannot get them clean enough, and I’ll be sick if I eat from them. It really fuckin sucks sometimes.
Yes!! I threw out a big thing of enchiladas and tortilla soup that I ordered on Uber eats, completely untouched because I was so terrified there was like raw pork juice in it ready to give me parasites and kill me. 🤦♀️
you should look into ARFID (avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder) disordered eating is pretty intertwined w/ anxiety/ocd (not like trying to diagnose you im just pretty sure some of the advice out there for it would help you out!!
@@okaywhat11 I did the same lmao look into arfid it’s avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder there’s some helpful advice out there whether u have the disorder or not! Also when I do dishes I do one round washing normally and another w hot vinegar water to sanitize bc vinegar is a natural antiseptic and also already food safe it kills the germies but you don’t have to be nervous about not rinsing it well enough like with bleach
the thing with anxiety or disorders that are related to anxiety, such as hypochondria, is that no matter how much logic you “throw” at these unreasonable and ineffective ways of thinking, that fear just won’t go away. it just won’t. there are neurological explanations for this as well.
yeah I agree, like with mine no matter how much research I do to calm myself down it doesn't stop, it stops when I forget about it or a new worry comes along
Its like depression for me. I am just constantly sad and I don't know the reason for it. Its just like I am unable to feel happy or that my brain is hellbent on sabotaging itself. No matter how much I try to find out what is actually causing it, I fail. I try to tell myself that I have no reason to feel this way and yet I do. At least people who have depression and a reason behind it can try and fix that issue, but I don't have a reason: I just am. I also get anxiety, and sometimes for nothing at all. Shit sucks. Stupid brain.
@@cancercentral9997 depression is a chemical inbalance in the brain and can be caused by literally nothing, it’s normal to feel sad for no reason, i struggled with bad depression from the age of 12/13 to 19 and i’m now 20 and just got out of that depression and it sucked i could barely do anything, what helped me most was talking about it and letting it out and going outside even if it’s just for a bit to take a walk because we are kinda just born to need natural sunlight and nature to feel happy which is weird but it does help a lot + find something to motivate you, i had no reason for being alive for a very long time at least i thought so but once i found a reason/my purpose my whole life changed and i was a lot happier
Honestly fr after this video I think I honestly might have some level of this, I overthink literally all day everyday, and not long ago I hit my head really hard on a table in the back of my cranium, and I CANT stop thinking that i might have caused a brain injury. I even went as far as going to the hospital to get it checked and they said it’s a minor concussion but I still can’t shake it. Every small pain feeling I feel I get freaked out and panic. And this happens with almost everything for example i was with my friends the other night and we saw a black widow eating a beetle, and I swear to god we looked away fro a few seconds to help another friends and went back and it was gone, and the whole rest of the night I was itching, checking my clothes, checking my friends clothes. And this stuff keeps me up at night, like I will lay down and it will not leave my brain no matter what I do. Like idk if this is what it’s like to be a hypochondriac but I feel like I might have something like it
"i can recognize how illogical and unnecessary this is but i can't help but be affected by it anyway, even to a state where it's debilitating" mental illness sufferers felt that thank you for opening up about this charlie
for sure if you went to an urgent care or an emergency room, they would try their best to reassure you, that the rabies suspicion is highly unlikely given that you just happened to see a bat fly around, and endless diagnostic tests can do more harm than good by at a minimum, suggesting problems that aren't there
didn't expect to see emu on this video but hey here you are haha. just want to say that I'm a fan of yours and your videos and learn a lot from them so thank you
True. Went to the ER cause I was having a panic attack and thought something was wrong with my heart and they did a bunch of tests just to calm me down
I do not think that's very good advice. People like myself with OCD can have many many irrational thoughts daily. Going to the emergency room daily is not a good suggestion. CBT therapy would be far more effective.
Charlie I’ve struggled with health anxiety for years. People don’t know the special place in hell it occupies until they go through it themselves. It’s one of the worst manifestations of obsessive fear. And yeah it’s soul-crushing and debilitating. I appreciate you bringing this up, I feel a little less alone.
I'm glad you're able to talk about this, and there's no doubt in my mind that videos like this not only help other people to better understand the disorder, but also helps the people who have it to not feel like they're alone.
Yeah for real after my dad had cancer and a few family members haveing problems I been like this. I'll watch a pimple 24/7 thinking it's a tumor lmao. I can joke about it cause it's so dumb honestly but I proably won't be the same
I have the same thing and I hate when people tell me "just think logically" as if I didn't know that the things I'm afraid of are extremely unlikely and many times surreal. I got a lot better when I went to the psych ward for 3 months because of my panic disorder and it also helped my hypochondria. Therapies and meds.
I hate how people address actual problems with stupid suggestions, like “Oh, just try to think positive” or something like that to someone with depression
Charlie, as someone dealing with hypochondria, and just having a panic attack an hour ago from it, it’s comforting to know I’m not alone in this horrible battle
@@Canandaiguas i had a similar issue, i was afraid of things like septic shock and infected wounds. it was so bad i would panic for hours and beg my parents to take me to the doctor, recently its now rabies, but seeing all these people have similar experiences makes me feel less alone
I dealt with being an extreme hypochondriac for many months during the pandemic in 2020, I prolly dealt with it daily from June to December of that year. I was depressed because of it, best thing I did was find a group of individuals going through it with me and we coached each other back. Though I’ll have little episodes, I’m much better. It does get better, it can only get better.
I imagine talking about this is not easy. Especially since people will now psychoanalyze when you do something different or weird but I had no idea it can be this bad. Glad your friends made the biggest difference in your life. It’s inspiring and I hope to find friends just as good as yours.
It’s hard bro it’s way to hard . There is some stuff you can’t just speak about because it’s so embarrassing and humiliating. The thing about hypochondria is that you want to get to the bottom of what you think you have no matter what . Wether that’s going to the doctor asking for unnecessary scans , not believing him . That’s what blows is even if the doctor tells you are ok you still think you aren’t ok still .
The way Charlie describes anxiety is so, so incredibly accurate and relatable. To logically and rationally understand that there is (probably) no danger, but to still have all your senses screaming at you that it's there is a true form of hell that's worsened by non-anxious people who dismiss it like it's nothing. It really makes me realize that we're all living in different versions of reality.
I'm glad they've changed the medical term for it to "illness/health anxiety" because that's really what it is, just a specified and focused form of it. By definition, the fear response is irrational and you can't out-logic the fears that anxiety presents, no matter how much factual evidence you have to debunk the ridiculous. edit: For example, even if I research a symptom, finding conditions or illnesses associated that don't fully match up, and I actually manage to rationalize "I don't have this one, I don't experience most of these symptoms," I'm still obsessively focused on what might be a minute and unremarkable function of the body and catastrophizing. I can't just have a cramp in my leg, it has to be a blood clot, and maybe nerve damage. It can't just be gas trapped in my gut, it has to be stomach cancer. Even when I do manage to talk myself back, I'm still overanalyzing every sensation I can perceive. It's absolutely ridiculous and kind of miserable at times.
Logically thinking is usually the problem. Because when you think rationally it doesnt matter how small the chance is, in your mind its possible. When you try to 'think the problem away' it will never fade because your concioussness is only busy with that subject which will lead to even more fear. It will become an uphill battle. The key is feeling. Go out of your thinking, and be in the here and now. Not in the future, nor the past. The fear will still be there, but because your in the here and now it has alot less power over you and it will fade.
@@thijs7204 "Because when you think rationally it doesnt matter how small the chance is, in your mind its possible." EXACTLY this. Perfectly succinct explanation. It doesn't matter how small the chance is, the point is there's a chance at all. Probability is a hell of a drug. lmao
Hypochondria is truly terrible. For me its not just being worried about illnesses anything that could kill me i am terrified of. Absurd things like a tornado might come and destroy my house or a airplane might crash directly into me its terrifying. I understand everyday that its not real but i cant just shake it off. People who dont have hypochondria do not understand the mental pain that we have to go through almost everyday. It is truly terrible.
thanks for this video, as someone whos a diagnosed hypochondriac sometimes it makes life absolute hell. more people need to know ab this disorder and how it affects people
Absolutely agree. I have ocd and often times I feel like people are not able to understand why I don’t want to do certain things. I will purposely not go out, hang out with friends, do things I genuinely love doing just because of the fear that in the middle of it, a random flare up will happen.
I have OCD as well so I greatly appreciated this video. It's one of those disorders that isn't valid in a lot of people's eyes, but people like you and I know that it's essentially a never-ending struggle that consumes your life.
"Jurassic world Dominion is so boring I think I got rabies." - Stories I never thought I'd hear. Glad you're able to talk about stuff like this. We all appreciate the honesty, and I'm sure your story will help someone dealing with something similar.
Charlie, as some one who has watched your content on and off for several years, you don’t know how much it matters to me that you’re talking about this. I became a hypochondriac at age 15 (I am 19 now), and have worried about every disease under the sun. My worst fear was schizophrenia, which you can’t really definitively label so despite seeing a doctor, I was still crippled by the fear of disease.
Same I once had a panic attack because I thought I heard a whisper and couldn't tell where it came from. I also have the same bat phobia for the exact same reason.
Me too, except with narcissism. I have panic attacks that my perception of reality might be so wrong that I can’t even tell that it’s wrong. It sounds ridiculous and oxymoronic, but it feels so real when it flares up. Good luck with your mental health :( you’re strong for having dealt with this.
@@silvercarroll2352 dude same! I though I was a narc too, but then I learned that narcs don’t care that they are narcs. I then wondered whether I really cared if I was narc or not and it was just pure insanity.
I had when I was youn and it went away in my 20s, I actually was lucky in the my anxiety and depression have also seemed to dissapear since my early 20s.
As someone with OCD, it’s so nice to see people talk about this. Health anxiety pretty much dominated my life for…since forever. It’s nice to know I’m not alone.
It's seriously so messed how awful and absolutely horrific hypochondria is and yet it's downplayed as a little quirk. Last year I sat with my dad in his car in front of the ocean, crying, because I truly believed I was terminally ill and dying soon.
And it's downplayed by medical professionals too! I have a "rare" condition and the amount of doctors that dismiss my problems since they aren't familiar with it and say it's "just" hypochondria (it isn't in my case)? It only makes it worse for everyone!
I mean, to my understanding, it’s the equivalent of a standard phobia, is it not? Do you see someone eat food off the floor that was sitting there for 3+ seconds and get a bad shiver?
do you go to a psychologist? My best friend has hypochondria and he's in therapy for 1 year and it really helped him. They made some serious progression in treating this mental problem.
I’ve been bitten by a bat when I was a kid while I was asleep. I ended up in the newspaper because there a bat problem in my town (rural-ish Illinois) and I never even woke up when it bit me. I did however have bumps where it bit me so I knew what had happened. Turns out the bat was living in my chimney and flew out at night, bit me first, and then went to the bathroom where my mom was taking a bath and actually landed on her chest. She obviously freaked out and went to warn my nana who didn’t believe her and eventually the bat flew up where they were and they both ran and got me and we left. I had to get rabies shots and they were the most painful thing I had ever experienced at the time. They were multiple times a week and I would have to choose different limbs because they would still be sore by the time I went to get another shot. All this being said tho if a bat had truly bitten you I imagine someone else in the theatre would’ve told you because those bastards are wild when they fly around. Didn’t want to make ur symptoms worse so I’ll also say that bats having rabies is rare and it’s also even more rare to get bit in the first place. To this day I love bats they’re so cute and adorable and I want one as a pet so please no bat slander, thank you.
@@slowyourroll1146 It can actually take months or years for it to manifest. Although if it was a house cat then chances are minimal. The cat would have to actually be rabid to transmit rabies, and those symptoms are obvious.
As someone who has had to deal with extreme crippling health anxiety and been the doctors CONSTANTLY for the dumbest things, I understand this entirely.
It's really hard to not understate how well Charlie represented this disorder and how much this sort of video could help someone understand their diagnosis. Not only does he explain the thought process and the anxieties associated with OCD really well, especially since my experience has been that when I try to explain the thoughts it becomes something for people to gawk at, but he seems very mature in his understanding of how to live with it. I couldn't tell you how long I spent trying to fully eliminate my intrusive thoughts, for the longest time I thought since I knew my obsessions were irrational they would simply go away, but the first step to learning to live with OCD is understanding that the thoughts will unfortunately never go away and they don't come from any part of the rational mind, you simply need to find your own way to live with it, hopefully through healthy means. It's a tough pill to swallow but it's a necessary one in order to cope with the disorder. OCD and those who suffer from it get mocked pretty heavily, so having someone who's able to tell their story and receive nothing but possible support is a huge step in the right direction.
Exactly! It's so difficult to just exist. It's incredibly validating hearing other people talk about their experience with OCD and anxiety. Some days are better than others for me. I hope things have been well for you.
Yup, I suffer from OCD as well and the intrusive thoughts/urges are very distressing because they're centred around aspects important to your life. OCD itself is more than just obsessions about health, it actually encompasses many topics that a lot of people wouldn't associate with OCD. It's annoying because you know that these obsessions are irrational, but yet the urges and obsessions still feel very real. But what you said about coping with it is true, the more you try to forcefully push out these intrusive thoughts, the stronger they'll come back.
Thanks for sharing, Charlie. I got a loved one with hypochondria. Sometimes you just go to the doctor to alleviate someone else's anxiety so they can sleep that night even when you know youre gonna be fine. People often underestimate how badly some things can affect your day to day life when you become so good at masking it from them. I've psyched myself out with anxiety attacks so badly I've been shuffled off to the ER nearly a dozen times and it's always very embarrassing when you can see exactly what you're doing but can't stop it. Like watching a train wreck in slow motion. I can't imagine how bad COVID has been for you. Wishing you well and hoping that talking about it and generating public discussion brings some comfort.
I’m sorry to hear that. I have ocd and know exactly what I’m doing but continue to do it, it’s almost like I’m not even in control anymore when those flare ups happen because I know it’s irrational but yet I’m still doing it. I think it would be hard for someone who doesn’t have ocd or anything similar to understand it because it truly does get in the way of my life, and I’m not exaggerating when I say it affects me at least once every hour.
@@schmeppie2.094 i know exactly how it is man i started taking medicine and ut got better i suggest you do that yes you might get dependamt on it (like me) but god i would much rather that than the pain of ocd
@@keithanderson_ they're called intrusive thoughts, also look up 'catastrophising'. they're symptoms of anxiety, if it's life-ruiningly, can't leave the house bad it could be due to PTSD.
@@NellyLikesPirates Thankfully, it's never been that bad. And honestly, it's gotten better over the years. Nowadays, it rarely happens (really really rarely) but it still does happen to me.
@@keithanderson_ i only know so much because my PTSD is that bad, unfortunately 😅 i'm glad to hear you're feeling better, hopefully having the words for it will help a bit too.
@@NellyLikesPirates intrusive thoughts can be tied to OCD as well. I have ocd and struggle with intrusive thoughts, and i perform compulsions to try to get them to stop or to make sure those things wont happen. i have intrusuve thoughts ranging from mean thoughts in my head to violent images. it is really hard to deal with sometimes. just sharing in case this helps someone figure something out.
im in my teens and really like your content. i also have hypochondria and it wont even let me live. knowing one of my favorite youtubers has the same disorder makes me feel less alone. i hope we can both get better. thanks for making this video charlie!
If a bat swooped down to bite you, the audience around you would've started shrieking about seeing a bat fly into the audience. I know OCD doesn't let you think logically sometimes.
I'm glad Charlie posted this. Hearing someone like him talk about his own anxieties is kinda refreshing to hear. I used to think I was a paranoid weirdo because of my hypochondria and as a sufferer of hypochondria does suck so much. Every now and then you just think you have this super rare illness and you think you're gonna die. Or, ya know, always thinking you have some cancer or another. It sucks
Ah yes, the ol' cancer thought loop. Always a fun ride. My issues started at around age 9 when I saw House, and started worrying I had diabetes if I peed too much.
@@Cristyface I remember mine stated after I had a blood infection. They told me I could have died if I waited even a day later and from then on, my anxiety has been at a peak. Since my blood infection, hypochondria has been a bane in my life. Like Charlie, it's gotten better as I've gained common sense but it's still there
Man I didn't realize I was like this until seeing this video, since even as early as 4 years old I remember being terrified of diseases like cancer to a weird extent
It's strange but relieving seeing someone I kind of look up to also have OCD and hypochondria. Even right now it takes me a long time to type this since there's always something "not right". I recognize getting stuck in fear on something, it's basically your brain looking for things to be afraid off. and the shame of admitting to other people your anxious thought you know deep down is irrational. It sometimes can be comforting to know that there's other people with the exact same thought process. And I can tell you it can get better if you work on it.
I'm 22, almost 23 now, and I still can't listen to anything bad or hear about any sicknesses without thinking I somehow have it. As a kid I'd freak out and cry just constantly and make my mom take me to the doctor for literally anything. Anxiety sucks, hypochondria sucks.. I feel for you Charlie. ❤
I have a friend who’s a hypochondriac as well, despite his very logically sided brain. I told him about the concept of Occam’s razor, and he’s been using it ever since to pull himself out of episodes. It’s the idea that the simplest answer is usually the correct answer. The more assumptions you have to make to get to an answer, the less and less likely that answer becomes. This helped him, so maybe it can help Charlie and others too.
I suffer from anxiety and overthinking and this is so on point. Even though I am rational with myself I can’t help but think about the “worst case scenario” for like every situation. Hearing someone else talk through something like this is very interesting to hear. I hope you feel better Charlie.
My mother has severe OCD. It’s been horrible, and she goes through cycles over periods of about two or three months from better to worse. She’s currently on the better side, two months ago she was much worse. She also has hypochondria, and it’s gotten to a very high point. Now I’m not allowed to use headphones around her, because she thinks headphones (even wired or entirely powered off) release radio waves that cause cancer, which there’s so many things wrong with that statement. It’s destroyed my relationship with my mother and we are neutral at best, screaming at each other at worst. It’s also terrified me that I might inherit it, as I have a horrible nail biting problem (almost halfway through my nail bed atm) and I also have slight hypochondria, but not to a point that really affects me. I don’t want to turn out like her. Luckily I seem to be doing well at a relatively old age compared to when OCD symptoms start to appear, so maybe it’s just habits I have. For anyone who thinks OCD is easy, or God help me, quirky, you’re wrong.
This is a really big part of why it's so frustrating to see misinformation being spread... Imagine how many people are afraid of things that pose no reasonable threat because of all the false medical information out there.
I have undiagnosed ADHD and am possibly bipolar. People who use those terms, as well as OCD, colloquially to describe their "cute" little "quirks" would drive me up the wall if I hadn't been born in a time when mental health was a punchline. You're not OCD because you like to make your bed a certain way. You're not ADD because you'd rather scroll through TikTok than listen to a lecture about the growth rates of commercial grasses and you're not bipolar if you get grumpy before you've had your first Snickers bar of the day. I'm sorry about your mom. The curse of the internet age is that for every reputable scientific source about how electronics and cancer work there are roughly a half billion echo chambers on facebook full of idiots memeing the same old wive's tales that were soundly disproved decades ago.
Charlie, you probably won't see this, but my boyfriend has hypochondria too. He was born with heart problems that started to showcase in his teens. He ended up developing hypochondria after his experience with doctors. We love and support you, Charlie.
"I know it's irrational but I can't stop" "distractions are very helpful" I relate to this and understand completely. I'm not a hypochondriac but I have had OCD for years, and whenever my OCD flares up I know my obsessive thoughts and compulsions are irrational and dumb, but it's like something in my brain that just makes me keep thinking about it to the point that distractions are really the only way to keep my mind off whatever I'm obsessing about. I'm glad you opened up about this, it's nice to know that I'm not alone
Bro same here. Being aware of how ridiculous and illogical your anxiety and still being unable to stop worrying makes the whole situation infinitely more frustrating.
I’ve got depression (with comorbid anxiety) instead, but this is also a tactic I use! It generally only works in the buildup, not in the middle of things unfortunately, but ‘nope funny video time’ is definitely an effective strategy lol
This one hits home, after my mom dying from non small cell lung cancer when I was 10 . The same year my grandfather died of prostate cancer. And then lost my cousin who had a freak massive heart attack in his sleep at 30. I can say it's such a debilitating disorder. Hang in Charlie
This man's got the balls to tell this to everyone. I applaud you, Charlie. My anxiety gets pretty severe at times myself, this shit gets wild. I understand that pain completely.
I love hearing other people talk about their paranoid thoughts because it makes me feel less alone. I literally think I'm fucking insane most of the time because of my irrational thoughts
Ik this is old, but this is how I've been feeling lately. And what makes it worse, is that I'm terrified to get a therapist and actually find out what's wrong with me. What I think it is, is that I have some sort of social anxiety, and potentially like something along the lines of bipolar disorder. I just can't figure myself out, and I'm in this constant state of convincing myself that im crazy and it's not real. But when I try to ignore it, my mental health takes a dive and it ruins me. So I basically spend every week diving between these two things. And lately it's gotten really bad since for a while, I never actually noticed this pattern, but about a week ago, I finally realized how bad it's gotten to me. And this past week has just been absolutely miserable, I don't know what to do, I haven't been eating, I have a problem with self harm, and I've been trying to avoid that because unfortunately after nearly 2 years of being clean, I relapsed a few weeks ago. I've really been trying to keep myself in a steady mindset, and I even managed to text a friend about it, which was actually really big because I haven't opened up to anyone in almost exactly 2 years. Idk, I just get really really stressed about opening up to people, because I'm afraid they will tell me that I'm not actually feeling the way I feel. And I'm 15, so it's pretty damn hard to get some sort of diagnosis, because my mom gets really worried whenever I tell her anything, and I'm afraid she's gonna start actually paying attention to me, which I don't like because I just don't like the feeling of someone always paying attention to me and worrying about me. Idk, I just don't know what to do. Because I genuinely cannot tell if I'm just overreacting, or there is actually something wrong with me. I mean everything points to the fact that I do have something wrong with me, but I genuinely am so terrified of actually getting help, and then them telling me that I have nothing wrong with me. Idk, I'm just really upset, and I wish I could just think straight rather than feeling guilty about every little thing that I do. I also consider myself to be really self aware, so it really sucks because it makes me overthink about every little thing I do.
I'm so glad Charlie made this. Hypochondria and panic disorders have lead me to writing like, 10+ notes to family and friends "in case I die in the middle of the night of the random stomach pain I'm feeling". I've been to urgent care for what I was so sure was a heart attack. The amount of times I've been positive that I wasn't going to live another day, when in reality I've never had to receive treatment from a doctor for anything. I've never needed antibiotics, I've had a fever once in my entire life. It's easy to feel alone but this is pretty comforting.
I’m currently watching this video 2 years later and I really relate to your situation. For the past 2 years I have been scared to death of dying of a heart attack cause my heart was beating so fast or because i could feel my heart, and to this day I am still really paranoid of me dying due to a brain sickness that may be developing all this time, even though my gp and family can’t find anything. I still do want to get a scan cause I’m just that afraid and feel like that would bring me closure, but it’s just too hard for me to properly explain to someone and convince them to go along with me that I just stay in the same space. I went to therapy for half a year and it did get better compared to before but I still feel like I’ll be gone soon, how illogical that sounds
@@Pollos-Hermanos-Albuquerque100% man, it’s the absolute fucking worst. constantly stressing over something that may not even happen at all. you could be healthy as fuck and still have the feeling you’ll not survive for long
I couldn’t have said it better honestly. I’m 23 and have never had a job because of my hypochondria. I also have debilitating anxiety and will sometimes literally freeze up and start shaking uncontrollably. It’s also dangerous because anytime I get “sick” or have a health problem I don’t seek help because like you I’m self aware that it’s irrational. But the day I actually contract a serious illness I’ll probably just die.
Same here, going on 31 and it often feels like I'm the only one suffering from it. Just going out feels like a crippling mental battle I have to prep for. I wish I had some advice but I'm still just as confused as to how to deal with it myself. Therapy and medication were a bust for me but they might work for you if you find the right doctor.
Completely understand, I have avoided getting out of the house, hanging out with friends, doing things I genuinely like doing just because I’m afraid of a flare up in the middle of it. I’m seeing a therapist about it but I truly have lost just about all hope that it will get any better for me.
You definitely aren’t alone, i deal with very similar problems. I don’t go out with friends and I fear getting a job because I fear having a panic attack. Panic attacks are so fucking awful, i don’t think a lot of people understand just how absolutely scary they are. My panic attacks usually stem from claustrophobia and confronting a stranger or a crowd. And i don’t mean claustrophobia as in being in a tight gap or a box, i mean it as in just being in a room, or a car. If I feel like i don’t have an exit, i will panic. And at the same time i’m a huge hypochondriac, to the point where I’d think i was going to die. On the bright side, my claustrophobia has calmed down a lot over a few years. I can enter cars and rooms without panicking. But places like elevators, planes, trains and doctors offices still really make me panic. Good luck healing your minds, it does take time and it is possible always. Just know it will get better.
My mom's a hypochondriac, and I used to have a really bad immune system so everytime I was sick or she heard about something going around she'd suddenly have the illness. She even thought she was diabetic too when I was diagnosed with it after head trauma. But her hypochondria got better as her general paranoia and anxiety got better. Your community loves you and we all care about you.
People are usually not doing this. I may be wrong since almost nobody knows that i have a panic disorder but still, i think thats not the main problem. And yes Fact Checker this is indeed morbin.
I used to nurse a guy that had crippling OCD and Hypochondria. It literally controlled his entire life, to the point that he was hospitalised. Getting him to understand that his condition was the unhealthiest aspect of his life was 50% of his recovery. It was a long slow process, but with the right help you can learn to ease these anxieties. I know it's not something that people want to do, especially when they know that it is an irrational fear, but getting professional help is one of the best things that you can do. There is no shame in asking for help.
Having cancer will do that to you too, when I was released from a month in the hospital a few months ago I was so scared of everything. Going outdoors, being near a cat or dog, being near plants, eating any foods, going into a public space, all of it scary. So many times I wanted to call my doctor and go back into the hospital where it was safe, you're not alone, and I really understand the feeling of nobody else understanding and knowing nothing is wrong, but still worrying. Good luck with all this man.
I’m autistic but I have so many ocd symptoms that I was initially diagnosed with ocd before the autism diagnosis. I understand how fucking awful these things are. I’m an adult now and my whole life I’ve had ya know that special blanket and pillow and I cannot get rid of it. I’ve had so many panic attacks about just the idea of losing either of them (out of nowhere for no reason). Thoughts that I’d rather die (as a young child) when my parents threatened to take them away as punishment. I don’t have hypochondria really but I have a tendency to obsess in a similar way over problems I have staying up at night unable to sleep because I’m afraid of that ‘what if I’m right’. Proud of your comfortability with sharing these experiences with us. Somehow feels nice knowing you know exactly how these hardships feel when the words have been overused to point of meaning something new.
I just have autism but I recall staying up many many nights fearing that I would get nuked or have the Majora's Mask moon fall on me while I'm sleeping, hell a single police or fire siren makes me believe a nuke is falling. I have to talk to my friends to get me to snap out of it. I also have a blahaj and I need to snuggle it every night so I can sleep. If someone took it away... I don't know what I would do...
I also have hypochondria, also since I was a kid. It largely started after a time when I was really sick for weeks (I was even hospitalized) and almost died. Ever since then everything could kill me according to my brain. I feel like people write us off as crazy and attention-seeking, but the fear is at such a level it's all you can think about. You're not thinking about getting sympathy, literally all that runs through your head is "holy shit I'm dying". There's a reason it's recognized as a disorder. As a kid I would be so terrified of throwing up I'd carry a plastic bag with me *everywhere* crumpled in my pocket (in case I couldn't reach a trash can or bathroom in time, was my reasoning then). Of course, this would make me anxious so I'd often wake up in the morning before school already feeling nauseous, then get anxious about it even more...it's a vicious cycle. When I got older this trend continued and only got worse/expanded past just being nauseous. I feel any sort of tightness or pain in my chest/neck/shoulders? Pulmonary embolism (blood clot in lung) or heart attack. Headache, no matter how mild? Brain aneurysm or stroke. Any sort of leg pain whatsoever? Blood clot, which leads to me freaking out about said pulmonary embolisms or heart attacks again. Any sort of indigestion, mild stomachache, etc? Stomach or colon cancer, even though I *know* I have ibs made worse by anxiety and have my whole life. I've missed so many college classes because of my hypochondria (either lying in bed worried I'm sick/dying or straight up in the ER for the hundredth time) I actually ended up withdrawing, and even had the formal order for it from a doctor. I, like Charlie, have also had way more CT scans, MRI's, X-Rays, etc. than usually necessary. For being so scared that everything is cancer, I sure have exposed myself to a lot of radiation. It sucks, but when it really flares up that badly clear exams to rule things out are the only things that get me to (mostly) believe I'm fine. It's hell, but I'm trying to get better about it. I've finally opened up about it to those close to me and got set up with a psychiatrist and therapist, and both are really helping so far. There's still bad days, though.
im so sorry for the impact this has had on you. this disorder hurts the mind viscously and can make you feel like there's no end. while I hate that anybody else has to suffer with this there's a silver lining in feeling that im not alone, that there are other people who feel the same pain I do. much love to you and I hope you can try to work through some of it and get to a spot where you can live life to the fullest
Might sound cringe and I'm not sure Charlie reads comments, but I was diagnosed with a couple of Learning Disorders from a young age and flunked out of school and got pretty messed up thinking my dead end retail job was all I was good for, but over the years I started practicing Art as a hobby and after 2 years of consistent practice I got accepted into University for Concept Art with a Portfolio I built up, your disabilities do not make you less then others I think sometimes they can even be your unique strengths, don't let it define you but use the lessons it teaches you to grow.
As someone who is a gym addict with health anxiety, suffering everyday after training thinking Im going to die due to heart rate, fatigue etc. Big respect for opening up its a constant suffering and a waste of joy.
I love how even he's telling us this story, he's being very critical and against what he is saying. Context but I have extreme COCD and whenever I have a compulsion and try to rationalize what my ocd is saying in order to yk, delay it or prevent me from having to do the ritual, it sorta always pans out into this 'versus' type situation yk where its just you against your ocd trying to outwit each other. Point being that charlie somewhat shows this interaction happening in real time.
Every single thing that Charlie says literally hits the nail for me. I've spent years of my life now in constant fear over every single possible thing that may be wrong with me, to the point of visiting the hospital dozens of times a year for absolutely nothing to show for it. I also have excessive soap use tendencies and I can't eat a single thing that seems out of the ordinary (like specs of unknown material in ice-cream, especially if it isn't listed or shown on the product even though every portion of the product have it). To anyone who experiences these things on the daily basis, I sympathize with you completely, and to Charlie as well.
Distractions aren’t the worst way to combat OCD or hypochondria, it’s actually a really good idea. Another good idea is if there’s no distraction available or not working, writing out your thought processes might help de-catastrophize any anxiety driven thoughts. Mental health issues never seem to go away, so the best we can do is always being aware of triggers and finding better ways to treat them.
I would never call myself an actual hypochondriac, but I can relate so hard. Even to this day (although thankfully less so) I'm still worried I've got some prion or tumour hidden in me that I don't know about. It's such an awful thing to deal with. Hope you can move past it.
Charlie talking about mental health is always a nice change of pace and I do think it helps some people, myself included. Thanks for making this video.
Hypocondria/health anxiety has been so hard to deal with and honestly feels life-ruining sometimes . Every week I'm having another breakdown about a new cancer or terminal illness that I'm convinced I have and freaking out about every little "symptom". Every headache is a brain tumor and every cold is leukemia. Once when I was 14 I cried for hours because I was convinced I had caught AIDS from the school drinking fountain (I had absolutely no logical reason to think this). Hearing other people's stories about dealing with this actually makes me feel better, especially when it's done in a humorous way like this
Feel free to absolutely cook my ass. But, I have found that coming to terms with the fact that life can end any day, brings a significant amount of peace to my life. I think about all the beautiful memories I have had, and can say that I have had a good life. Disclaimers: I am not a hypochondriac, and I have sui*idal thoughts (but only when I feel anxious and alone).
Never seen someone open up and talk about their anxiety/mental disorder like this. Super helpful in the fight against the stigma about them and for other people suffering from them. They are no joke. Thank you for sharing!
Many have but it's true that most don't because they don't think it's real I tell people about my struggles with OCD anxiety ADHD and so on and they just laugh like it's it joke
Well known influencers, UA-camrs, etc talking about mental health does help a lot. I have multiple mental illnesses and a lot of times I just hate being me because of it. Seeing someone who is successful, funny, charismatic, going through almost the same thing. It makes me feel like less of an outcast, though I wish you didn’t have to go through that but it is what it is. Thank you for making this video.
As a slight hypochondriac, it’s honestly really refreshing to hear about someone that has the same problem, rather than feeling like I’m making the people around me think I’m weird for kinda panicking about a slight chest pain. Thank you, Charlie
I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder. It runs in my family. Until I started medication and therapy, I was a mess. OCD is there, but not too bad. Hypochondria that I made worse by reading anything medical. I stopped doing that for the most part. I still find some conditions interesting so I'll look them up, but my fear and anxiety is under more control than before. My biggest symptom was (and is) ruminating/over thinking.
All 4 of these uh... Conditions... Are pretty much just feelings. Feelings that all people feel. Look at the amount of people who supposedly have these conditions on this post alone. I can't say for sure that what you experience isn't real. But I can say for sure that if you want them to be issues they will be. And if you want to be okay just understand that everyone feels this stuff and you are relatively just fine. Don't victim yourself. Seriously you're fine. Everyone is fine. Be strong.
@@erickradulescu9990 The only issue is that disorders are not easily solved by words. They are disorders for a reason, it's because people cannot manage them on their own. They have to take different routes to cope with their conditions in a way someone who does not have a disorder will not have to. I have ADHD and much of the general advice people give me is not good enough for my condition. Reminders are not enough for me to remember to do something and so I have to get much more creative if I want to get important things done. It's not going to be as simple as a mindset change to fix your problems. Boiling down your problems to just "feelings" is looking at the symptoms but not the source. You wouldn't tell someone with a leaky sink to not use it. You'd tell them to get a plumber.
@@erickradulescu9990 has gotta be some the worst advice ive seen in a while and it comes off as rudely ignorant, ADHD and Depression are much much more common than you‘d think, theres a reason why therapy exists, and why methods like anti depresants and adderal are used. Id suggest researching some of these disorders, they’re quite misunderstood by alot of people including you
@@erickradulescu9990 I'd be very careful with your wording here in the future. What you just said to me, was something lots of people told me throughout my life, which made me doubt myself, my feelings and demolished my self-worth. I'm officially diagnosed at this point. But what you just said, was the same BS that kept me from getting proper help, which almost made me end it all. You may mean well, but what you just said was nothing more than an insult. It's the analogical equivalent of telling someone in a wheelchair, that sometimes you don't feel like walking either. So you don't understand these conditions? That's fine. Do any amount of research. And I don't mean the Bible or Elon Musk tweets. I mean actual scientifically valuable research. These "feelings" are not ghosts. There is no-one arguing over whether feelings actually exist. A broken mind is as crippling as broken legs. Also, guess what, someone opening up about their problems, usually encourages other people to do the same. If you have a problem with that, GTFO. Please. Maybe you should have a look at your own mental health, if you feel this urge to diminish it's affects. Could be a sign of mental illness, in itself. Everyone is "not" fine. ffs
Anxiety is horrible especially in extreme cases like yours where your always looking over your shoulder but just to calm your nerves a bit, about what you said at 5:03 while bats are the #1 carrier for rabies 99% of human cases come from domesticated dogs that were somehow infected and the chances of a bat biting you are extremely low as long as you don’t try and pet them so don’t worry about invisible bat bites Charlie but make sure if you get a dog to vaccinate it every 1-3 years.
@@ixis6920 I was also thinking this comment seemed really counter productive. It’s like telling someone with anxiety who’s really afraid of being physically attacked that yeaaah they probably won’t get attacked but if they will it’ll probably be a man and here’s 3 different self defence techniques you should practice for that
I’m the exact same way, CT scans and all, and jesus christ as you were telling the story I started to have trouble breathing and was sweating just thinking about being in your shoes. I agree that it’s unhealthy but it doesn’t make you sound crazy I promise. I have about every form of anxiety there is, when your brain starts freaking out every ounce of rationality just evaporates. Thank you for sharing something so personal, it’s cliche to say this but it really does help others who are going through the same thing. Knowing that I’m not alone and that you’re powering through it and not going to the ER/getting the shot makes me feel like I’m capable of doing the same when a similar situation arises.
@@George-pl7eu well yeah that's why it's called a DISorder, disorders aren't rational. Especially anxiety disorders like Charlie's, for me Generalized anxiety Disorder makes my heart react before my brain even has time to think about it tbh. It's hard to understand if you aren't wired that way, but it's not something you can just "get over it" or "not let it consume you".
Thank you for opening up and talkin about this. I have anxiety, ocd, and emetophobia….they’re all pretty related. At my worst, my emetophobia has been debilitating too. i found every little insane scenario to convince myself i caught a stomach bug or food poisoning. I only ate crackers and gatorade for almost a whole year…basically severe ARFID. I agree that it’s always something that sticks, but that it has gotten easier over time. I hope your “flare-up” comes to an end soon. Take care of yourself!!
As someone else with OCD, I fully understand the illogical fear that it puts you through and I genuinely hope you remember that if you have your rabies vaccine, you should be 100% fine.
As someone with chronic anxiety and OCD,, I can tell you this story didn’t sound crazy at all to me. I have had extremely similar situations and when you’re anxious like that, it seems to totally justify itself. Like I realize it’s unlikely and then I imagine article titles of crazy things happening to me and being the exception. I’m glad Charlie felt comfortable to open up about this, because this totally is relatable to a lot of people
Me too. I have chronic anxiety and depression, and most of the time it’s death anxiety for other people. Which goes hand in hand with health anxiety for me, as if one of my family members gets sick I constantly worry
I struggle with really really bad OCD. Ive been hospitalized several times over it and there's not a second of my life my OCD doesn't at least hover in the back of my head. It's not just a obsession, it worms your way into your core personality. So when you ask "what if" the bat bit me I completely understand. So much of my life has been ruled by the phrase "what if". The ability to let go of something is a luxury I covet. These days I'm much better but learning to live in a world of uncertainty, a world where I don't know all the answers, a world where I could be wrong about anything has haunted me for so long. It's not easy to break a loop, but it is possible. Keep strong charlie.
As someone with OCD I understand so bad trying to communicate a story to people who don't have it and realizing you sound ridiculous while also 100% believing you're right and your life is in genuine danger because no one will believe you and take you to the hospital .... it's terrible.
I dunno if you'll ever see this charlie, but genuinely thank you for talking about this. I do have ocd and hypochondria, but this is literally my EXACT mental problems, since mid 2021 I've been regularly in debilitating hysteria fearing that some bat will somehow stealth bite me and make me die horribly of rabies. I've also thought I was gonna get it from walking in the same parking lot as a raccoon, since I know it was near my car, therefore the car now can transmit me rabies in my mind. It's legitimately kinda ruined my life, and I am insanely surprised someone else has this specific issue.
Same, What really sets me off is mad cows disease. Any slightly uncooked beef and now you have a irreversible neurological disease with a 100 percent fatality rate. I refuse to eat beef sometimes because of it, and if I do it keeps me up all night, even tho there are like 3 cases a year 😅
yeah i get a lot of that too. it's great that someone's talking about the "yes i know that it's stupid but i can't stop" aspect because i feel that gets drowned out bad in the trend of ocd just being the funny "make things symmetrical" disorder you see in media a lot.
If it helps, only 1-3 cases of rabies in humans happen in the USA each year. You can also get inoculated for it, but it's expensive (though if you get it for mental health reasons if might be covered by insurance) and from what I've been told it can cause some side effects. However it protects you from rabies for the rest of your life. A friend of mine who professionally does taxidermy (so works with dead animals) and also has anxiety got the vaccine for this same reason and while they were worried about the side effects while they happened and they're also horribly afraid of needles, it's eased their fears a lot now that that's all over. It's worth looking into!
As someone with hypochondria, i relate to literally EVERYTHING you're saying. At 22 years old i went to the hospital last week to make sure i didnt have anything serious like mouth cancer. Want to know what i had instead? Wisdom tooth eruption. I need surgery for it. Since 2018, I have gone to the hospital almost 14 times for the smallest things like "oo ouchie, kidney hurt just a little, must be dying" and the doctor telling me i havent drank water in almost 2 weeks, and "I am having some headaches, i must have brain cancer" and being told it was my anxiety was going through the roof (this was around the time people thought north korea was going to go duke nukem on us). There are MANY more dumb stories like this, and my mom having to drive me almost 3 towns over to the nearest hospital for me at random times of the day and night, And on those long drives, i psyche myself out even worse. on one car ride, I even wrote my own will and gave it to my mom before i went into the hospital alone. And you want to know what's funny about all this? A sign of hypochondria is making a video like this and talking about it, because you're secretly afraid of what might happen, and wanted to make sure that everyone knew that if ANYTHING happened, you would know that everyone else could also see the signs, or let others know that somethin MAY be wrong. I bet a part of you wants to write a will or record a video that starts with "if you're seeing this, i'm dead" (yes, I have one too :D) Anyways Charlie, I just wanted to say i completely fluffing relate, and I hope it isnt as bad as you think. Stay OFF google and webmd, and ask someone else to look it up for you, and let them ask more before going to the doctor's. I know that sometimes my brain will tell myself that i have something because i read it off google.
What's so bad about the concept of death? When I'm dead, sucks for others, but I won't feel hurt or pain. I'm trying to understand the psychology of a hypochondriac.
@@FrederickBorne Mf if you die then you die, you’re gone, thats it, no fucking respawning or some shit. People fear death because nobody knows what happens afterwards, all they know is that they are no longer capable of doing anything they want to. Hell, fearing death isnt even being a hypochondriac, that’s just being human.
I use to be like that and would google just about every little pain I felt. Unfortunately I’ve kinda spiraled into the opposite direction where if there’s something wrong with me I’d rather not know and just kinda say “fuck it, I guess I’ll die then”.
@@FrederickBorne It's pointless to try and rationalize something like hypochondria. Even hypochondriacs know logically that it's irrational, but it seems like the part of your brain that has a phobia and the part that's rational are totally different. We know so little about the human brain
im like this specifically with Cancer. I'm terrified of Cancer causing everyone I love to die a long painful death from it. It doesn't help that I got Cancer myself a few years ago, but I recovered. it feels good knowing people somewhat share in my misery.
i’m kinda embarrassed, but this just made me tear up a bit lol. i’ve struggled with serious ocd and hypochondria for most of my life, and my onset was around the same time as yours - maybe the rituals a little earlier, around 9/10 years old - and this made me feel really reassured. appreciate you, man
I can relate to this on a personal level. As someone with OCD there are a lot of parallels between the two disorders and I can perfectly relate to the feeling of knowing something is irrational but still not having control over it. Thank you for making this video, genuinely. ❤️
I personally really appreciate you opening up about this. I've been struggling with OCD and hypochondria for years, and for the past 3 months it's been the worst it's ever been. I've had 5 major panic attacks and breakdowns in just these past three months because I either think I'm dying or having a heart attack just because I stood up for a bit and my heart rate sped up (I'm only 18 and pretty healthy). It's comforting knowing it's not just me, in a way.
hey, im not trying to give you something else to worry about so heres a warning that im about to talk about a chronic illness that has to do with the high heart rate when standing thing; POTS, or postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome (which i have), is characterized by a heart rate increase of over 40bpm upon standing up along with (sometimes) a sharp decrease in blood pressure, which can cause blackouts, ringing in ears, and feelings of dizziness and weakness. no one really knows exactly what causes it or what it even is, but having lots of sodium and water help symptoms. As far as I know, no one has died as a direct result of POTS. again, im not trying to freak you out or anything but if that sounds like what you’re experiencing then its probably a good idea to look into it :) edit: also feel free to ask if you have any questions
Similarly, I had a close friend who struggled with panic attacks, which turned out to be caused in large part by stomach ulcers. Not sure whether it's related or not, but just letting you and others know in case it helps someone else
@@s1ren_exe This is interesting, thank you. :) My heart rate doesn't speed up all that much, but I do tend to blackout or get dizzy upon standing. I assume I might have an iron deficiency or something, especially considering my diet.
i feel you, charlie. as an hypochondriac myself whose afraid of rabies shitless, i often have nightmares about getting rabies and it's terrifying. stay strong, dude.
i completely understand what you are going through, and personally i can relate a lot. the thing that helps me is looking back in the past where i thought something was wrong with me, and i ask myself “is there something wrong with me, or is this just my anxiety?” because in the past nothing was wrong and it was just my anxiety playing tricks on me.
This video really makes me feel better about my OCD. Just hearing someone Ive folowed for years and genuinely enjoy watching talk about something so similar. OCD is different for everyone that has it and for me its Movements and how stuff happens, I tend to keep doing the same motion over and over again like say, putting something down or even just moving a mouse cursor somewhere on the screen. I know its very excessive and that I look like a complete dumbass but I just cant stop once it starts. One minute I can be just fine but the next every single thing I do doesnt feel right and bothers me for the next 20 minutes. It just feels nice finding out someone I respect and admire goes through something similar without even seeming like it.
As someone that has suffered from serious OCD for the most part of my life, this video has really resonated with me. And for the people that think it's quirky or fun to have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, you guys have no idea. Having OCD is not wanting your room to be tidy or clean, or washing your hands after you go to the bathroom (that's basic hygiene lol). Having OCD is washing your hands 40 times in a row. Is not being able to use your towel after you shower because you think it's dirty. Is not going to rooms in your house for over an year because you think they are going to contamine you. Hearing stories such as yours, Charlie, is really important. Nobody wants to feel alone.
I'm not diagnosed but I've had 2 episodes which felt exactly how existential ocd is described. If I didn't have social/mental safety nets I'd have probably killed myself.
While I'm not OCD, my mother was a hypochondriac and it did a number on my anxiety. If I so much as sneezed or coughed, she would immediately have me wheeled off to the emergency room. Not a fun childhood to have. I feel for Charlie and everyone else who struggles with OCD and hypochondria.
Also it can have nothing to do with contamination at all. Some OCD is just purely mental, and sufferers really couldn’t care less about their room tidiness
As someone with OCD, it is so important to talk about how it affects everyone and it’s so good to hear others stories and to tell your own. Some weeks I diagnose myself with schizophrenia, some weeks it’s cancer, and some weeks it’s my bones decaying. OCD is truly a curse, but I’m glad your making through it.
@@kandykess and I'm sorry for you. It's just what we go through. OCD is killer, and people don't take the time to recognize it. You ever need anyone to rant or vent to, comment here and I'm glad to listen
My husband is also a hypochondriac. He was convinced for MONTHS he had worms, and I finally took him to see a doctor who confirmed he in fact did not and was perfectly healthy. He also is extremely paranoid of heart attacks and will freak out, even in his sleep, if his limbs fall asleep.
@@somedudeinatunnel3102 same but not really, anytime I have a pain in my arm or in my chest I assume I'm having a heart attack, but its cause I'm fat just assume its killing me lol
I feel like a major part of this contracts from the OCD, as OCD has a lot to do with "what if" statements. Basically like "This happened, what if this happens?? will I die??" and as soon as there is a slight connection, the mind sticks that memory and keeps referring to it whenever something new happens. Like, "this previous time it did lead to something bad so now I'm extra terrified by this new thing". Eventually if things keep "connecting" it will be severely impeding on a person's life and I think this is one of the things people often forget about.
I have ocd and hypochondria and I feel like very few people have taken my issues seriously and given me the help I need because of the stigma. I’m really thankful that you’re opening up about stuff like this, it makes me feel so much better about myself and makes me hopeful that people will take ocd and hypochondria seriously after seeing you open up about it. Thank you so much, I know how hard what you’re going through is.
As someone who suffers from general anxiety, I can't imagine how your condition must affect you. Especially since its anxiety about your health. Its hard to just push it away when its technically a legitimate concern
I have had an absolutely crippling fear of death my whole life so bad that when I was younger I would have panic attacks where all I could do was curl into the fetal position and shake I’m 21 now and I can manage it almost completely but without distractions I always come back to it so Charlie I wholeheartedly understand that struggle bc I’ve lived with it all my life
hope it brings some relief knowing that Einstein, Nikola Tesla, and numerous other physics geniuses believed in the afterlife. What scared me the most growing up was the finality and nothingness of it, but I’m better now believing that religion aside, it’s scientifically improbable for there to NOT be consciousness after death.
DUDE. I have(had?) the same thing. I had a severe mental breakdown in 2020/2021, the worst was about a 'rogue bat'. I literally just woke up one day with 2 little pricks on my abdomen. Must be a bat with rabies right? I went super crazy for a month waiting for the rabies to kick in. But it wasnt just rabies, it was all diseases. Every little thing is supposed to kill me right? Getting back to the gym regularly and exercising seems to have cured it this year for me. But I still have PTSD with stuff like going to the doctor etc.
I had this thing recently when I started watching Toronado chasers a lot. Did a bing on all the craziest Tornados on youtube and literally for a week or so every time it got a little dark out for rain I'd be panicking and searching for those Tornado clouds lmao. I live in Toronto, we've never had any Tornadoes here but shit gets to you when you get too much into it.
holy fuck charlie, i’ve watched for a long long time and struggling with this same exact thing, the fact that someone else gets it especially someone’s content i enjoy a ton is really really a new feeling i cant describe. thank you for talking about this. you’re not alone.
My mom has this issue except when you tell her she's fine she accuses you of not believing her, making things up, or doctors just being unwilling to help her. Causes a lot of strain on our relationship :\
Trust me when I tell you it’s extremely difficult. I’ve struggled with hypochondria for the last three years and it is absolutely debilitating, you convince yourself that you have a life threatening illness you aren’t able to rationalise about it. It’s very when hard when other people that are able to think rationally about it dismiss you or tell you that it’s nothing even though they are usually right. Try not to take it personally if she says you don’t believe her or that you don’t care she doesn’t mean it, she is just scared and desperate for the anxiety/pain to go away.
Yeah, got to agree with ben. My case is similar to your mom, i constantly vent out to people hoping they'd understand what i'm going through but they just reassure me that i'm fine but it never works. It's scary and hard to convince yourself that you're okay without having proof that you are, and sometimes you just feel frustrated that no one understands and will help you because you feel like you are in a critical state of moment. Yeah, I suppose i understand where you're coming from too but honestly, she's probably really anxious and confused and sometimes just being there for the person helps.
as terrifying as it sounds to possibly get rabies, there is also a slight chance you could transform into morbius
lmfao, W comment
Even worse
Can someone explain the whole morbius thing to me💀
@@BLANKONTOP there's no explaining morbius, it's just get morb or be morb
@@BLANKONTOP morbius was a bad movie
my 13 year old brother has OCD and extreme Hypochondria, and he’s a huge fan of you, so i showed him this video because he’s felt really hopeless for the past few years and alone in dealing with how he can handle the anxiety he gets, so this was extremely helpful and has not only helped him with distracting his OCD and Hypochondria, but has also helped me and my mum with learning how to distract him too. Thank you!
aw this is cute
I love this, this is why its important to be able to talk about mental health issues, you're never truly alone
Based and hopepilled.
I have diagnosed OCD, hypochondria, ADHD and Asperger's. Every single thing I forgot to do or couldn't concentrate on would result in me thinking I'm having a stroke or a seizure. Every single repeated action I have to do, like making sure the front door is locked, makes me very anxious, which leads to all sorts of imaginary physical symptoms arising, which leads to me thinking I have Serotonin Syndrome or some shit. Every single missed social cue makes me think I'm psychotic.
This shit is horrendous. I can kinda rationalize it by asking myself, "Am I just constantly worried over this symptom, or is this more of an urgent feeling or panic?". If I'm just worried and ruminating about it for no reason and constantly over a good amount of time, I know it's just anxiety. If it's a sense of urgency or I straight up panic, it's probably an actual medical emergency. I can confirm it's not anxiety by doing some deep breathing. If the symptoms don't go away in around 3-10 minutes, I think I could consider calling 911.
This video helped me a lot as well though... just knowing there are other people out there with this illness and having a laugh about it really makes things better.
Please do not utilize distraction as primary recourse for OCD. The only accepted treatment for OCD is confrontation of the anxiety. Distracting from obsessions will only lead to their perpetuation, not successfully coping with them. My OCD has gone through severe stages and even though it will never go away, through CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) I am able to live the majority of everyday with my OCD as a background thought rather than the crippling anxiety it once was
Dude…I wouldn’t wish any kind of anxiety disorder on my worst enemy. It’s so fucking crippling. Thanks for being so up front with your shit. It can help to know that you’re not alone.
I really hate how no one except maybe immediate family members will understand what you're going through. You realize what your mind is doing is insane but you can't stop it
Same
I've worked through my agoraphobia to the point where it still bothers me but doesn't disrupt my life
But before then I could not function in society
I just never left my house as a teenager
Not even for school
exactly
panic disorder is a fucking bitch i barely get any sleep because i wake up in the middle of the fucking night with an attack
To each their own id wish my anxiety on a lot of disgusting ppl lol
Charlie's rational self: its statistically highly improbable that I contracted rabies from that bat.
Charlie's hypochondriac subconcious: It's Morbin time.
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Wtf happened here
the fact that he can still put in humor while talking about a disorder is outstanding, absolute chad
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Same, im glad charlie is able to cope with humor to make himself feel better :)
No he's better
He's charle😎
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@@niggabear then why are you bothering watching his content
charlie's condition is like preparing for the worst argument you'll never have in your head .
That really is how anxiety disorders are man eventually you either come to terms with it or you can tackle the problem head on and get a therapist
Honestly, PTSD is much tougher. You not only worry about that; you worry about EVERYTHING.
Social Anxiety is harsh, as well.
@@90daytrial75 Depends on the severity of the condition. Sometimes, therapists don't really help, stop or can treat some.
Pretty much. Speaking from experience, unfortunately. 😅
That's how I feel all the time. I feel like I'm always trying to convince myself that im not really feeling the way I feel. I feel like it's some sort of big boss battle in my head that I will prepare for for like a week, and I will throw all these facts and things at myself, completely proving why I do think I have actual problems. Then it's all shut down by one sentence, which is "what if ur just overreacting". Idk, I just feel like I've been in a loop for the past 2 years with this, and I'm terrified of opening up to anyone about it.
Man I relate to this so much. I've been considering doing a video on the topic myself, because I've lost many nights of sleep to random WebMD rabbit holes.
A few years ago, during a vacation to Mexico, I got bitten by an iguana while I was (stupidly) feeding it lettuce out of the palm of my hand. It bled a fair bit and then was completely fine. Nonetheless I stayed up for 3 whole days observing my finger because I was worried it would get infected with flesh-eating bacteria and I'd only have a few hours to react before doctors would need to amputate my arm. And then even after it completely healed, I also would periodically have the intrusive thought of "what if you're the first person to ever get rabies from a reptile? What if the iguana had just finished eating an infected mouse or bat?" Nevermind that the iguana was acting completely normal and that iguanas are herbivores, it still would keep me awake for hours.
It sucks because no matter how many people tell you that everything will be fine, and no matter how many reasons you have to just relax, you keep replaying the same questions in your mind like you're stuck in a loop. It really is debilitating, and also embarrassing watching other people roll their eyes because you keep bringing up the same nonsensical worries again and again.
Thanks for sharing, Charlie.
Zamn that’s a lot of words
What I've found the worst as well is that this is a disorder you can never talk about to people. Whenever i do im just met with the classic "lol just dont worry abt it 4head" or "ur not ill lol u just gotta stop thinking about it". Nobody understands how impossible it is to NOT think of these things, and they think they are helpful by saying "aha thats a stupid reason to worry", when in reality it just makes the person feel even more invalidated and suffocated in their concern.
Sad to hear you went through this, and glad Charlie is sharing this.
And I didn't think I would find you in comments, Tierzoo. Love your videos.
id react the same way
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Fuckin A. It's so refreshing to hear a content creator discuss issues like this. My hypochondria manifested itself in food, where I was terrified there was something wrong with the food I ate. It got so bad at one point I couldn't eat anywhere other than my own home.
I've made strides by pacing myself and taking baby steps. Good for you for the progress you've made over the years!
Damn I can kinda relate. I actually became a vegetarian over this fear. I still have trouble washing dishes because I’m convinced I cannot get them clean enough, and I’ll be sick if I eat from them. It really fuckin sucks sometimes.
Yes!! I threw out a big thing of enchiladas and tortilla soup that I ordered on Uber eats, completely untouched because I was so terrified there was like raw pork juice in it ready to give me parasites and kill me. 🤦♀️
SAME
I still suffer from this and it is so comforting to see similar people here.
Empathy
you should look into ARFID (avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder) disordered eating is pretty intertwined w/ anxiety/ocd (not like trying to diagnose you im just pretty sure some of the advice out there for it would help you out!!
@@okaywhat11 I did the same lmao look into arfid it’s avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder there’s some helpful advice out there whether u have the disorder or not! Also when I do dishes I do one round washing normally and another w hot vinegar water to sanitize bc vinegar is a natural antiseptic and also already food safe it kills the germies but you don’t have to be nervous about not rinsing it well enough like with bleach
the thing with anxiety or disorders that are related to anxiety, such as hypochondria, is that no matter how much logic you “throw” at these unreasonable and ineffective ways of thinking, that fear just won’t go away. it just won’t. there are neurological explanations for this as well.
yeah I agree, like with mine no matter how much research I do to calm myself down it doesn't stop, it stops when I forget about it or a new worry comes along
yup even tho i know it my head im overreacting i still cant stop
Its like depression for me. I am just constantly sad and I don't know the reason for it. Its just like I am unable to feel happy or that my brain is hellbent on sabotaging itself. No matter how much I try to find out what is actually causing it, I fail. I try to tell myself that I have no reason to feel this way and yet I do. At least people who have depression and a reason behind it can try and fix that issue, but I don't have a reason: I just am.
I also get anxiety, and sometimes for nothing at all. Shit sucks. Stupid brain.
@@cancercentral9997 depression is a chemical inbalance in the brain and can be caused by literally nothing, it’s normal to feel sad for no reason, i struggled with bad depression from the age of 12/13 to 19 and i’m now 20 and just got out of that depression and it sucked i could barely do anything, what helped me most was talking about it and letting it out and going outside even if it’s just for a bit to take a walk because we are kinda just born to need natural sunlight and nature to feel happy which is weird but it does help a lot + find something to motivate you, i had no reason for being alive for a very long time at least i thought so but once i found a reason/my purpose my whole life changed and i was a lot happier
Honestly fr after this video I think I honestly might have some level of this, I overthink literally all day everyday, and not long ago I hit my head really hard on a table in the back of my cranium, and I CANT stop thinking that i might have caused a brain injury. I even went as far as going to the hospital to get it checked and they said it’s a minor concussion but I still can’t shake it. Every small pain feeling I feel I get freaked out and panic. And this happens with almost everything for example i was with my friends the other night and we saw a black widow eating a beetle, and I swear to god we looked away fro a few seconds to help another friends and went back and it was gone, and the whole rest of the night I was itching, checking my clothes, checking my friends clothes. And this stuff keeps me up at night, like I will lay down and it will not leave my brain no matter what I do. Like idk if this is what it’s like to be a hypochondriac but I feel like I might have something like it
"i can recognize how illogical and unnecessary this is but i can't help but be affected by it anyway, even to a state where it's debilitating" mental illness sufferers felt that
thank you for opening up about this charlie
for sure if you went to an urgent care or an emergency room, they would try their best to reassure you, that the rabies suspicion is highly unlikely given that you just happened to see a bat fly around, and endless diagnostic tests can do more harm than good by at a minimum, suggesting problems that aren't there
Well rabiemia is a scary disease rabie - standing for rabies, emia - presence in blood, anyways you're right have a nice day :D
didn't expect to see emu on this video but hey here you are haha. just want to say that I'm a fan of yours and your videos and learn a lot from them so thank you
True. Went to the ER cause I was having a panic attack and thought something was wrong with my heart and they did a bunch of tests just to calm me down
I do not think that's very good advice. People like myself with OCD can have many many irrational thoughts daily. Going to the emergency room daily is not a good suggestion. CBT therapy would be far more effective.
Man scares himself with medical facts gets hipochondria.
Charlie I’ve struggled with health anxiety for years. People don’t know the special place in hell it occupies until they go through it themselves. It’s one of the worst manifestations of obsessive fear. And yeah it’s soul-crushing and debilitating.
I appreciate you bringing this up, I feel a little less alone.
I'm glad you're able to talk about this, and there's no doubt in my mind that videos like this not only help other people to better understand the disorder, but also helps the people who have it to not feel like they're alone.
@@Savetion. it’s embarrassing how many times you’ve copy and pasted this bro get a hobby turbo virgin
Yeah for real after my dad had cancer and a few family members haveing problems I been like this. I'll watch a pimple 24/7 thinking it's a tumor lmao. I can joke about it cause it's so dumb honestly but I proably won't be the same
@@zoggy7737 dude doesn't even watch the videos and been doing this for months
Well said
Im also hypocondriach and i also have ocd. Him talking about this makes me actually feel better.
I have the same thing and I hate when people tell me "just think logically" as if I didn't know that the things I'm afraid of are extremely unlikely and many times surreal. I got a lot better when I went to the psych ward for 3 months because of my panic disorder and it also helped my hypochondria. Therapies and meds.
@Kavetion No.
@@AgentRoadblock he's a bot
@@captainelgato8313 I noticed , i just have fun with them.
I hate how people address actual problems with stupid suggestions, like “Oh, just try to think positive” or something like that to someone with depression
This is so true, they will say "oh, you're fine nothing is wrong with you." Meanwhile you are clearly panicking all the time.
Charlie, as someone dealing with hypochondria, and just having a panic attack an hour ago from it, it’s comforting to know I’m not alone in this horrible battle
its terrifying. i thought i had diabetes at 13
@@Canandaiguas i had a similar issue, i was afraid of things like septic shock and infected wounds. it was so bad i would panic for hours and beg my parents to take me to the doctor, recently its now rabies, but seeing all these people have similar experiences makes me feel less alone
@@Canandaiguas lmao same age and same thing. I don’t have hypochondria but for months I was over worried.
I dealt with being an extreme hypochondriac for many months during the pandemic in 2020, I prolly dealt with it daily from June to December of that year. I was depressed because of it, best thing I did was find a group of individuals going through it with me and we coached each other back. Though I’ll have little episodes, I’m much better. It does get better, it can only get better.
I have to wash my hands after feeding my dogs and everytime something on my body aches I immediately assume the worst. It is such a terrible feeling.
I imagine talking about this is not easy. Especially since people will now psychoanalyze when you do something different or weird but I had no idea it can be this bad. Glad your friends made the biggest difference in your life. It’s inspiring and I hope to find friends just as good as yours.
It’s hard bro it’s way to hard . There is some stuff you can’t just speak about because it’s so embarrassing and humiliating. The thing about hypochondria is that you want to get to the bottom of what you think you have no matter what . Wether that’s going to the doctor asking for unnecessary scans , not believing him . That’s what blows is even if the doctor tells you are ok you still think you aren’t ok still .
congrats for sharing, charlie. not many people confess problems like this as calmly and freely as you.
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@YeaMan shutup
@Wrath I bro is hate watching
@@Savetion. 🤓
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The way Charlie describes anxiety is so, so incredibly accurate and relatable. To logically and rationally understand that there is (probably) no danger, but to still have all your senses screaming at you that it's there is a true form of hell that's worsened by non-anxious people who dismiss it like it's nothing. It really makes me realize that we're all living in different versions of reality.
I'm glad they've changed the medical term for it to "illness/health anxiety" because that's really what it is, just a specified and focused form of it. By definition, the fear response is irrational and you can't out-logic the fears that anxiety presents, no matter how much factual evidence you have to debunk the ridiculous.
edit: For example, even if I research a symptom, finding conditions or illnesses associated that don't fully match up, and I actually manage to rationalize "I don't have this one, I don't experience most of these symptoms," I'm still obsessively focused on what might be a minute and unremarkable function of the body and catastrophizing. I can't just have a cramp in my leg, it has to be a blood clot, and maybe nerve damage. It can't just be gas trapped in my gut, it has to be stomach cancer. Even when I do manage to talk myself back, I'm still overanalyzing every sensation I can perceive. It's absolutely ridiculous and kind of miserable at times.
There is always danger
Logically thinking is usually the problem. Because when you think rationally it doesnt matter how small the chance is, in your mind its possible. When you try to 'think the problem away' it will never fade because your concioussness is only busy with that subject which will lead to even more fear. It will become an uphill battle.
The key is feeling. Go out of your thinking, and be in the here and now. Not in the future, nor the past. The fear will still be there, but because your in the here and now it has alot less power over you and it will fade.
@@thijs7204 "Because when you think rationally it doesnt matter how small the chance is, in your mind its possible." EXACTLY this. Perfectly succinct explanation. It doesn't matter how small the chance is, the point is there's a chance at all. Probability is a hell of a drug. lmao
Hypochondria is truly terrible. For me its not just being worried about illnesses anything that could kill me i am terrified of. Absurd things like a tornado might come and destroy my house or a airplane might crash directly into me its terrifying. I understand everyday that its not real but i cant just shake it off. People who dont have hypochondria do not understand the mental pain that we have to go through almost everyday. It is truly terrible.
thanks for this video, as someone whos a diagnosed hypochondriac sometimes it makes life absolute hell. more people need to know ab this disorder and how it affects people
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Absolutely agree. I have ocd and often times I feel like people are not able to understand why I don’t want to do certain things. I will purposely not go out, hang out with friends, do things I genuinely love doing just because of the fear that in the middle of it, a random flare up will happen.
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@@schmeppie2.094 i suffer from the exact same thing but have never attributed it to OCD. What makes you think its OCD and not social anxiety?
hi dork dumb
just kidding i love ur vids
I have OCD as well so I greatly appreciated this video. It's one of those disorders that isn't valid in a lot of people's eyes, but people like you and I know that it's essentially a never-ending struggle that consumes your life.
"Jurassic world Dominion is so boring I think I got rabies." - Stories I never thought I'd hear.
Glad you're able to talk about stuff like this. We all appreciate the honesty, and I'm sure your story will help someone dealing with something similar.
Charlie, as some one who has watched your content on and off for several years, you don’t know how much it matters to me that you’re talking about this. I became a hypochondriac at age 15 (I am 19 now), and have worried about every disease under the sun. My worst fear was schizophrenia, which you can’t really definitively label so despite seeing a doctor, I was still crippled by the fear of disease.
Same:( I hope you get over this stupid ass shit lol
Same I once had a panic attack because I thought I heard a whisper and couldn't tell where it came from. I also have the same bat phobia for the exact same reason.
Me too, except with narcissism. I have panic attacks that my perception of reality might be so wrong that I can’t even tell that it’s wrong. It sounds ridiculous and oxymoronic, but it feels so real when it flares up.
Good luck with your mental health :( you’re strong for having dealt with this.
@@silvercarroll2352 dude same! I though I was a narc too, but then I learned that narcs don’t care that they are narcs. I then wondered whether I really cared if I was narc or not and it was just pure insanity.
I had when I was youn and it went away in my 20s, I actually was lucky in the my anxiety and depression have also seemed to dissapear since my early 20s.
The moments where Charlie freaks out over cockroaches hits different now
Yeah:'(
You couldn't have said it better, I thought haha funny he is scared of bugs but now I really feel for him.
The hypochondria is the powerhouse of the cellroach
Cockroaches aren't a sickness. That's not how it works.
@@dreddscott3873 Respectfully, I don’t think u understood the comment
As someone with OCD, it’s so nice to see people talk about this. Health anxiety pretty much dominated my life for…since forever. It’s nice to know I’m not alone.
It's seriously so messed how awful and absolutely horrific hypochondria is and yet it's downplayed as a little quirk. Last year I sat with my dad in his car in front of the ocean, crying, because I truly believed I was terminally ill and dying soon.
And it's downplayed by medical professionals too! I have a "rare" condition and the amount of doctors that dismiss my problems since they aren't familiar with it and say it's "just" hypochondria (it isn't in my case)? It only makes it worse for everyone!
@@stressedvulture It makes it really hard to talk to medical professionals out of fear that they'll just blame every issue you have on your condition.
I mean, to my understanding, it’s the equivalent of a standard phobia, is it not?
Do you see someone eat food off the floor that was sitting there for 3+ seconds and get a bad shiver?
do you go to a psychologist? My best friend has hypochondria and he's in therapy for 1 year and it really helped him. They made some serious progression in treating this mental problem.
@@yesman2678 nah, it's often 24/7 worry, most people can just avoid phobia's, this follows you around everywhere.
I’ve been bitten by a bat when I was a kid while I was asleep. I ended up in the newspaper because there a bat problem in my town (rural-ish Illinois) and I never even woke up when it bit me. I did however have bumps where it bit me so I knew what had happened. Turns out the bat was living in my chimney and flew out at night, bit me first, and then went to the bathroom where my mom was taking a bath and actually landed on her chest. She obviously freaked out and went to warn my nana who didn’t believe her and eventually the bat flew up where they were and they both ran and got me and we left. I had to get rabies shots and they were the most painful thing I had ever experienced at the time. They were multiple times a week and I would have to choose different limbs because they would still be sore by the time I went to get another shot. All this being said tho if a bat had truly bitten you I imagine someone else in the theatre would’ve told you because those bastards are wild when they fly around. Didn’t want to make ur symptoms worse so I’ll also say that bats having rabies is rare and it’s also even more rare to get bit in the first place. To this day I love bats they’re so cute and adorable and I want one as a pet so please no bat slander, thank you.
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What about rabies in cats? I think i got bit by one a few weeks ago and ive been forever paranoid about it.
@@wavyhomeboy if it's been more than 10 days and you're still kicking, you either didn't get rabies or you're a madlad and survived the ordeal
@@slowyourroll1146 It can actually take months or years for it to manifest. Although if it was a house cat then chances are minimal. The cat would have to actually be rabid to transmit rabies, and those symptoms are obvious.
Charlie being open to talk about his experience of OCD, while wearing his serious white shirt, is so rational of him.
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Ngl, Charlie deserves OCD. XD
Charlie having OCD is so cool
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As someone who has had to deal with extreme crippling health anxiety and been the doctors CONSTANTLY for the dumbest things, I understand this entirely.
It's really hard to not understate how well Charlie represented this disorder and how much this sort of video could help someone understand their diagnosis. Not only does he explain the thought process and the anxieties associated with OCD really well, especially since my experience has been that when I try to explain the thoughts it becomes something for people to gawk at, but he seems very mature in his understanding of how to live with it. I couldn't tell you how long I spent trying to fully eliminate my intrusive thoughts, for the longest time I thought since I knew my obsessions were irrational they would simply go away, but the first step to learning to live with OCD is understanding that the thoughts will unfortunately never go away and they don't come from any part of the rational mind, you simply need to find your own way to live with it, hopefully through healthy means. It's a tough pill to swallow but it's a necessary one in order to cope with the disorder. OCD and those who suffer from it get mocked pretty heavily, so having someone who's able to tell their story and receive nothing but possible support is a huge step in the right direction.
Exactly! It's so difficult to just exist. It's incredibly validating hearing other people talk about their experience with OCD and anxiety. Some days are better than others for me. I hope things have been well for you.
I'm sorry if you get mocked bro that sucks
Yup, I suffer from OCD as well and the intrusive thoughts/urges are very distressing because they're centred around aspects important to your life. OCD itself is more than just obsessions about health, it actually encompasses many topics that a lot of people wouldn't associate with OCD. It's annoying because you know that these obsessions are irrational, but yet the urges and obsessions still feel very real. But what you said about coping with it is true, the more you try to forcefully push out these intrusive thoughts, the stronger they'll come back.
Thanks for sharing, Charlie. I got a loved one with hypochondria. Sometimes you just go to the doctor to alleviate someone else's anxiety so they can sleep that night even when you know youre gonna be fine. People often underestimate how badly some things can affect your day to day life when you become so good at masking it from them. I've psyched myself out with anxiety attacks so badly I've been shuffled off to the ER nearly a dozen times and it's always very embarrassing when you can see exactly what you're doing but can't stop it. Like watching a train wreck in slow motion. I can't imagine how bad COVID has been for you. Wishing you well and hoping that talking about it and generating public discussion brings some comfort.
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I’m sorry to hear that. I have ocd and know exactly what I’m doing but continue to do it, it’s almost like I’m not even in control anymore when those flare ups happen because I know it’s irrational but yet I’m still doing it. I think it would be hard for someone who doesn’t have ocd or anything similar to understand it because it truly does get in the way of my life, and I’m not exaggerating when I say it affects me at least once every hour.
@@schmeppie2.094 i know exactly how it is man i started taking medicine and ut got better i suggest you do that yes you might get dependamt on it (like me) but god i would much rather that than the pain of ocd
I feel this. Not exact issues but just having negative thoughts and knowing how ridiculously dumb they are, but being unable to shake em. Stay well.
Bro I have this same exact situation but I can't really explain it to people. I really want to know is there a specific name for this condition.
@@keithanderson_ they're called intrusive thoughts, also look up 'catastrophising'.
they're symptoms of anxiety, if it's life-ruiningly, can't leave the house bad it could be due to PTSD.
@@NellyLikesPirates Thankfully, it's never been that bad. And honestly, it's gotten better over the years. Nowadays, it rarely happens (really really rarely) but it still does happen to me.
@@keithanderson_ i only know so much because my PTSD is that bad, unfortunately 😅 i'm glad to hear you're feeling better, hopefully having the words for it will help a bit too.
@@NellyLikesPirates intrusive thoughts can be tied to OCD as well.
I have ocd and struggle with intrusive thoughts, and i perform compulsions to try to get them to stop or to make sure those things wont happen.
i have intrusuve thoughts ranging from mean thoughts in my head to violent images. it is really hard to deal with sometimes.
just sharing in case this helps someone figure something out.
im in my teens and really like your content. i also have hypochondria and it wont even let me live. knowing one of my favorite youtubers has the same disorder makes me feel less alone. i hope we can both get better. thanks for making this video charlie!
If a bat swooped down to bite you, the audience around you would've started shrieking about seeing a bat fly into the audience. I know OCD doesn't let you think logically sometimes.
Look on the bright side. We could possibly have a real life DR Michael Morbius.
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@@forgivezharion6989 I hope you're recovering from twitter
@Spectre don't argue with a shitposter, they will shitpost anything even serious topics
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my thoughts exactly
I'm glad Charlie posted this. Hearing someone like him talk about his own anxieties is kinda refreshing to hear. I used to think I was a paranoid weirdo because of my hypochondria and as a sufferer of hypochondria does suck so much. Every now and then you just think you have this super rare illness and you think you're gonna die. Or, ya know, always thinking you have some cancer or another. It sucks
literally thought i was a paranoid weirdo until i saw this video
Ah yes, the ol' cancer thought loop. Always a fun ride. My issues started at around age 9 when I saw House, and started worrying I had diabetes if I peed too much.
@@Cristyface I remember mine stated after I had a blood infection. They told me I could have died if I waited even a day later and from then on, my anxiety has been at a peak. Since my blood infection, hypochondria has been a bane in my life. Like Charlie, it's gotten better as I've gained common sense but it's still there
Man I didn't realize I was like this until seeing this video, since even as early as 4 years old I remember being terrified of diseases like cancer to a weird extent
Does it, yeah? Rolls eyes
It's strange but relieving seeing someone I kind of look up to also have OCD and hypochondria. Even right now it takes me a long time to type this since there's always something "not right". I recognize getting stuck in fear on something, it's basically your brain looking for things to be afraid off. and the shame of admitting to other people your anxious thought you know deep down is irrational. It sometimes can be comforting to know that there's other people with the exact same thought process. And I can tell you it can get better if you work on it.
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YES the hardest part for me is telling other people when I have an episode
Great video big man
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@Ludwig shouldnt your last video be in Mougle Mail instead of your main channel?
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I'm 22, almost 23 now, and I still can't listen to anything bad or hear about any sicknesses without thinking I somehow have it. As a kid I'd freak out and cry just constantly and make my mom take me to the doctor for literally anything. Anxiety sucks, hypochondria sucks.. I feel for you Charlie. ❤
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Going through this right now, thank you!
I have a friend who’s a hypochondriac as well, despite his very logically sided brain. I told him about the concept of Occam’s razor, and he’s been using it ever since to pull himself out of episodes. It’s the idea that the simplest answer is usually the correct answer. The more assumptions you have to make to get to an answer, the less and less likely that answer becomes. This helped him, so maybe it can help Charlie and others too.
Occam's, but yeah. It seems he need therapy or something.
Occam's razor is a fallacy
@@ScotchMisty it surely is
@@ScotchMisty It can be used as a fallacy, but it's also a useful tool of reasoning.
@@iPlayBeanGame Don’t call me Shirley
I suffer from anxiety and overthinking and this is so on point. Even though I am rational with myself I can’t help but think about the “worst case scenario” for like every situation. Hearing someone else talk through something like this is very interesting to hear. I hope you feel better Charlie.
My mother has severe OCD. It’s been horrible, and she goes through cycles over periods of about two or three months from better to worse. She’s currently on the better side, two months ago she was much worse. She also has hypochondria, and it’s gotten to a very high point. Now I’m not allowed to use headphones around her, because she thinks headphones (even wired or entirely powered off) release radio waves that cause cancer, which there’s so many things wrong with that statement. It’s destroyed my relationship with my mother and we are neutral at best, screaming at each other at worst. It’s also terrified me that I might inherit it, as I have a horrible nail biting problem (almost halfway through my nail bed atm) and I also have slight hypochondria, but not to a point that really affects me. I don’t want to turn out like her. Luckily I seem to be doing well at a relatively old age compared to when OCD symptoms start to appear, so maybe it’s just habits I have. For anyone who thinks OCD is easy, or God help me, quirky, you’re wrong.
This is a really big part of why it's so frustrating to see misinformation being spread... Imagine how many people are afraid of things that pose no reasonable threat because of all the false medical information out there.
@@someturtle6500 facts no 🧢
Sounds like she might have ocd bt penguin definitely doesnt. clearly a hypchondriac who cant tell the difference and just told an outright lie.
Lol
I have undiagnosed ADHD and am possibly bipolar. People who use those terms, as well as OCD, colloquially to describe their "cute" little "quirks" would drive me up the wall if I hadn't been born in a time when mental health was a punchline. You're not OCD because you like to make your bed a certain way. You're not ADD because you'd rather scroll through TikTok than listen to a lecture about the growth rates of commercial grasses and you're not bipolar if you get grumpy before you've had your first Snickers bar of the day.
I'm sorry about your mom. The curse of the internet age is that for every reputable scientific source about how electronics and cancer work there are roughly a half billion echo chambers on facebook full of idiots memeing the same old wive's tales that were soundly disproved decades ago.
Charlie, you probably won't see this, but my boyfriend has hypochondria too. He was born with heart problems that started to showcase in his teens. He ended up developing hypochondria after his experience with doctors. We love and support you, Charlie.
"I know it's irrational but I can't stop" "distractions are very helpful" I relate to this and understand completely. I'm not a hypochondriac but I have had OCD for years, and whenever my OCD flares up I know my obsessive thoughts and compulsions are irrational and dumb, but it's like something in my brain that just makes me keep thinking about it to the point that distractions are really the only way to keep my mind off whatever I'm obsessing about. I'm glad you opened up about this, it's nice to know that I'm not alone
Bro same here. Being aware of how ridiculous and illogical your anxiety and still being unable to stop worrying makes the whole situation infinitely more frustrating.
I’ve got depression (with comorbid anxiety) instead, but this is also a tactic I use! It generally only works in the buildup, not in the middle of things unfortunately, but ‘nope funny video time’ is definitely an effective strategy lol
This one hits home, after my mom dying from non small cell lung cancer when I was 10 . The same year my grandfather died of prostate cancer. And then lost my cousin who had a freak massive heart attack in his sleep at 30. I can say it's such a debilitating disorder. Hang in Charlie
This man's got the balls to tell this to everyone. I applaud you, Charlie. My anxiety gets pretty severe at times myself, this shit gets wild. I understand that pain completely.
I love hearing other people talk about their paranoid thoughts because it makes me feel less alone. I literally think I'm fucking insane most of the time because of my irrational thoughts
Same bro you're not alone ❤❤❤😂
same. so tiring
Ik this is old, but this is how I've been feeling lately. And what makes it worse, is that I'm terrified to get a therapist and actually find out what's wrong with me. What I think it is, is that I have some sort of social anxiety, and potentially like something along the lines of bipolar disorder. I just can't figure myself out, and I'm in this constant state of convincing myself that im crazy and it's not real. But when I try to ignore it, my mental health takes a dive and it ruins me. So I basically spend every week diving between these two things. And lately it's gotten really bad since for a while, I never actually noticed this pattern, but about a week ago, I finally realized how bad it's gotten to me. And this past week has just been absolutely miserable, I don't know what to do, I haven't been eating, I have a problem with self harm, and I've been trying to avoid that because unfortunately after nearly 2 years of being clean, I relapsed a few weeks ago. I've really been trying to keep myself in a steady mindset, and I even managed to text a friend about it, which was actually really big because I haven't opened up to anyone in almost exactly 2 years. Idk, I just get really really stressed about opening up to people, because I'm afraid they will tell me that I'm not actually feeling the way I feel. And I'm 15, so it's pretty damn hard to get some sort of diagnosis, because my mom gets really worried whenever I tell her anything, and I'm afraid she's gonna start actually paying attention to me, which I don't like because I just don't like the feeling of someone always paying attention to me and worrying about me. Idk, I just don't know what to do. Because I genuinely cannot tell if I'm just overreacting, or there is actually something wrong with me. I mean everything points to the fact that I do have something wrong with me, but I genuinely am so terrified of actually getting help, and then them telling me that I have nothing wrong with me. Idk, I'm just really upset, and I wish I could just think straight rather than feeling guilty about every little thing that I do. I also consider myself to be really self aware, so it really sucks because it makes me overthink about every little thing I do.
I'm so glad Charlie made this. Hypochondria and panic disorders have lead me to writing like, 10+ notes to family and friends "in case I die in the middle of the night of the random stomach pain I'm feeling". I've been to urgent care for what I was so sure was a heart attack. The amount of times I've been positive that I wasn't going to live another day, when in reality I've never had to receive treatment from a doctor for anything. I've never needed antibiotics, I've had a fever once in my entire life. It's easy to feel alone but this is pretty comforting.
I’m currently watching this video 2 years later and I really relate to your situation. For the past 2 years I have been scared to death of dying of a heart attack cause my heart was beating so fast or because i could feel my heart, and to this day I am still really paranoid of me dying due to a brain sickness that may be developing all this time, even though my gp and family can’t find anything. I still do want to get a scan cause I’m just that afraid and feel like that would bring me closure, but it’s just too hard for me to properly explain to someone and convince them to go along with me that I just stay in the same space. I went to therapy for half a year and it did get better compared to before but I still feel like I’ll be gone soon, how illogical that sounds
@@bonkbonkbonkbonkbonkbonkdon’t know why out of all the shit in my body I picked my heart to be petrified of it Sucks
@@Pollos-Hermanos-Albuquerque100% man, it’s the absolute fucking worst. constantly stressing over something that may not even happen at all. you could be healthy as fuck and still have the feeling you’ll not survive for long
I can’t imagine how hard the pandemic has been for people suffering from hypochondria. Thank you for sharing, Charlie.
This was exactly what i was thinking before he even mentioned the bat or rabies
@@vb0406 yeah, i recall him saying before that he rarely ever left the house when the pandemic was bad
god, as a hypochondriac i can share that the strand covid that effects breathing has terrified me so much.
I couldn’t have said it better honestly. I’m 23 and have never had a job because of my hypochondria. I also have debilitating anxiety and will sometimes literally freeze up and start shaking uncontrollably. It’s also dangerous because anytime I get “sick” or have a health problem I don’t seek help because like you I’m self aware that it’s irrational. But the day I actually contract a serious illness I’ll probably just die.
Hope you’re doing good bro, I deal with similar issues
Hope you can force yourself to a therapist one day. CBT can be extremely helpful for people who have a tendency towards avoidance.
Same here, going on 31 and it often feels like I'm the only one suffering from it. Just going out feels like a crippling mental battle I have to prep for.
I wish I had some advice but I'm still just as confused as to how to deal with it myself. Therapy and medication were a bust for me but they might work for you if you find the right doctor.
Completely understand, I have avoided getting out of the house, hanging out with friends, doing things I genuinely like doing just because I’m afraid of a flare up in the middle of it. I’m seeing a therapist about it but I truly have lost just about all hope that it will get any better for me.
You definitely aren’t alone, i deal with very similar problems. I don’t go out with friends and I fear getting a job because I fear having a panic attack. Panic attacks are so fucking awful, i don’t think a lot of people understand just how absolutely scary they are. My panic attacks usually stem from claustrophobia and confronting a stranger or a crowd. And i don’t mean claustrophobia as in being in a tight gap or a box, i mean it as in just being in a room, or a car. If I feel like i don’t have an exit, i will panic. And at the same time i’m a huge hypochondriac, to the point where I’d think i was going to die.
On the bright side, my claustrophobia has calmed down a lot over a few years. I can enter cars and rooms without panicking. But places like elevators, planes, trains and doctors offices still really make me panic. Good luck healing your minds, it does take time and it is possible always. Just know it will get better.
My mom's a hypochondriac, and I used to have a really bad immune system so everytime I was sick or she heard about something going around she'd suddenly have the illness. She even thought she was diabetic too when I was diagnosed with it after head trauma. But her hypochondria got better as her general paranoia and anxiety got better. Your community loves you and we all care about you.
This shit is scary... imagine having this and people taking advantage of them for sick laughs. Thank you for sharing Charlie, strongest Chad here
It’s morbin
People are usually not doing this. I may be wrong since almost nobody knows that i have a panic disorder but still, i think thats not the main problem. And yes Fact Checker this is indeed morbin.
yeah except its nowhere near as bad as ocd which he is pretending to have because hes a scumbag.
@@Instabruh.User.. Your days are numbered
They did that with my paranoia in school. It sucked. All well
I used to nurse a guy that had crippling OCD and Hypochondria. It literally controlled his entire life, to the point that he was hospitalised. Getting him to understand that his condition was the unhealthiest aspect of his life was 50% of his recovery. It was a long slow process, but with the right help you can learn to ease these anxieties. I know it's not something that people want to do, especially when they know that it is an irrational fear, but getting professional help is one of the best things that you can do. There is no shame in asking for help.
Having cancer will do that to you too, when I was released from a month in the hospital a few months ago I was so scared of everything. Going outdoors, being near a cat or dog, being near plants, eating any foods, going into a public space, all of it scary. So many times I wanted to call my doctor and go back into the hospital where it was safe, you're not alone, and I really understand the feeling of nobody else understanding and knowing nothing is wrong, but still worrying. Good luck with all this man.
I’m autistic but I have so many ocd symptoms that I was initially diagnosed with ocd before the autism diagnosis. I understand how fucking awful these things are. I’m an adult now and my whole life I’ve had ya know that special blanket and pillow and I cannot get rid of it. I’ve had so many panic attacks about just the idea of losing either of them (out of nowhere for no reason). Thoughts that I’d rather die (as a young child) when my parents threatened to take them away as punishment. I don’t have hypochondria really but I have a tendency to obsess in a similar way over problems I have staying up at night unable to sleep because I’m afraid of that ‘what if I’m right’. Proud of your comfortability with sharing these experiences with us. Somehow feels nice knowing you know exactly how these hardships feel when the words have been overused to point of meaning something new.
I have both
I just have autism but I recall staying up many many nights fearing that I would get nuked or have the Majora's Mask moon fall on me while I'm sleeping, hell a single police or fire siren makes me believe a nuke is falling. I have to talk to my friends to get me to snap out of it. I also have a blahaj and I need to snuggle it every night so I can sleep. If someone took it away... I don't know what I would do...
I also have hypochondria, also since I was a kid. It largely started after a time when I was really sick for weeks (I was even hospitalized) and almost died. Ever since then everything could kill me according to my brain. I feel like people write us off as crazy and attention-seeking, but the fear is at such a level it's all you can think about. You're not thinking about getting sympathy, literally all that runs through your head is "holy shit I'm dying". There's a reason it's recognized as a disorder. As a kid I would be so terrified of throwing up I'd carry a plastic bag with me *everywhere* crumpled in my pocket (in case I couldn't reach a trash can or bathroom in time, was my reasoning then). Of course, this would make me anxious so I'd often wake up in the morning before school already feeling nauseous, then get anxious about it even more...it's a vicious cycle.
When I got older this trend continued and only got worse/expanded past just being nauseous. I feel any sort of tightness or pain in my chest/neck/shoulders? Pulmonary embolism (blood clot in lung) or heart attack. Headache, no matter how mild? Brain aneurysm or stroke. Any sort of leg pain whatsoever? Blood clot, which leads to me freaking out about said pulmonary embolisms or heart attacks again. Any sort of indigestion, mild stomachache, etc? Stomach or colon cancer, even though I *know* I have ibs made worse by anxiety and have my whole life. I've missed so many college classes because of my hypochondria (either lying in bed worried I'm sick/dying or straight up in the ER for the hundredth time) I actually ended up withdrawing, and even had the formal order for it from a doctor.
I, like Charlie, have also had way more CT scans, MRI's, X-Rays, etc. than usually necessary. For being so scared that everything is cancer, I sure have exposed myself to a lot of radiation. It sucks, but when it really flares up that badly clear exams to rule things out are the only things that get me to (mostly) believe I'm fine. It's hell, but I'm trying to get better about it. I've finally opened up about it to those close to me and got set up with a psychiatrist and therapist, and both are really helping so far. There's still bad days, though.
Wow thanks for sharing this, wishing you the best of luck in getting better
im so sorry for the impact this has had on you. this disorder hurts the mind viscously and can make you feel like there's no end. while I hate that anybody else has to suffer with this there's a silver lining in feeling that im not alone, that there are other people who feel the same pain I do. much love to you and I hope you can try to work through some of it and get to a spot where you can live life to the fullest
Might sound cringe and I'm not sure Charlie reads comments, but I was diagnosed with a couple of Learning Disorders from a young age and flunked out of school and got pretty messed up thinking my dead end retail job was all I was good for, but over the years I started practicing Art as a hobby and after 2 years of consistent practice I got accepted into University for Concept Art with a Portfolio I built up, your disabilities do not make you less then others I think sometimes they can even be your unique strengths, don't let it define you but use the lessons it teaches you to grow.
I have learning disorders too but for me it makes it impossible for me to drive anywhere and do practical jobs if I haven't experienced it yet
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@@Savetion. Nutshell
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@@Savetion. still pretty funny, Charlie a W
As someone who is a gym addict with health anxiety, suffering everyday after training thinking Im going to die due to heart rate, fatigue etc. Big respect for opening up its a constant suffering and a waste of joy.
How did you get into working out then ?
Always trained but one person died of anerism at my gym next to me and that set off my fear of my health.
May be just get a smart watch with heart rate monitor. That should make things clear no?
@@GnanaPrakash86AP i think heart rate monitor will make it worse base on my experience.
If you dont take 400mg of coffein and 50mg dmaa like me , i think youre good
I love how even he's telling us this story, he's being very critical and against what he is saying. Context but I have extreme COCD and whenever I have a compulsion and try to rationalize what my ocd is saying in order to yk, delay it or prevent me from having to do the ritual, it sorta always pans out into this 'versus' type situation yk where its just you against your ocd trying to outwit each other. Point being that charlie somewhat shows this interaction happening in real time.
Yeah it’s a frustrating cycle, but in the end the compulsion to fight it makes the obsession worse. It gets so tiring
Every single thing that Charlie says literally hits the nail for me. I've spent years of my life now in constant fear over every single possible thing that may be wrong with me, to the point of visiting the hospital dozens of times a year for absolutely nothing to show for it. I also have excessive soap use tendencies and I can't eat a single thing that seems out of the ordinary (like specs of unknown material in ice-cream, especially if it isn't listed or shown on the product even though every portion of the product have it). To anyone who experiences these things on the daily basis, I sympathize with you completely, and to Charlie as well.
I've been learning to cope with it over time and it's better but it's still on my mind.
Hey Charlie,
I have severe ocd regarding hand washing and feeling “dirty”. You’re not alone. Thank you for bringing attention to OCD. Much love!
yeah same
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bruh this video wasn't about ocd.
@@yoinkysploinky3912 Hypochondria is a form of medical-based OCD and severe aniexty.
Distractions aren’t the worst way to combat OCD or hypochondria, it’s actually a really good idea. Another good idea is if there’s no distraction available or not working, writing out your thought processes might help de-catastrophize any anxiety driven thoughts. Mental health issues never seem to go away, so the best we can do is always being aware of triggers and finding better ways to treat them.
I would never call myself an actual hypochondriac, but I can relate so hard. Even to this day (although thankfully less so) I'm still worried I've got some prion or tumour hidden in me that I don't know about. It's such an awful thing to deal with. Hope you can move past it.
Charlie is such a great person, he never makes it about himself and is still able to open up about things like this.
Charlie talking about mental health is always a nice change of pace and I do think it helps some people, myself included. Thanks for making this video.
when you see this title normally you think nothing of it. But when charlie makes a video with serious topic you know it’s about to go down
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if u see those bozos in top of the comment there spams ok
yeah you just think its just another sad day for youtube or smth like that
@Wrath I You've left over 130 comments on this channel. You're obsessed. Go do something else.
Hypocondria/health anxiety has been so hard to deal with and honestly feels life-ruining sometimes . Every week I'm having another breakdown about a new cancer or terminal illness that I'm convinced I have and freaking out about every little "symptom". Every headache is a brain tumor and every cold is leukemia. Once when I was 14 I cried for hours because I was convinced I had caught AIDS from the school drinking fountain (I had absolutely no logical reason to think this). Hearing other people's stories about dealing with this actually makes me feel better, especially when it's done in a humorous way like this
Feel free to absolutely cook my ass. But, I have found that coming to terms with the fact that life can end any day, brings a significant amount of peace to my life. I think about all the beautiful memories I have had, and can say that I have had a good life. Disclaimers: I am not a hypochondriac, and I have sui*idal thoughts (but only when I feel anxious and alone).
Never seen someone open up and talk about their anxiety/mental disorder like this. Super helpful in the fight against the stigma about them and for other people suffering from them. They are no joke. Thank you for sharing!
Really? Is this your first day on UA-cam?
Bro 💀💀 is this the only person you watch on UA-cam ?
Lol lurk more scrub
Many have but it's true that most don't because they don't think it's real I tell people about my struggles with OCD anxiety ADHD and so on and they just laugh like it's it joke
Well known influencers, UA-camrs, etc talking about mental health does help a lot. I have multiple mental illnesses and a lot of times I just hate being me because of it. Seeing someone who is successful, funny, charismatic, going through almost the same thing. It makes me feel like less of an outcast, though I wish you didn’t have to go through that but it is what it is. Thank you for making this video.
As a slight hypochondriac, it’s honestly really refreshing to hear about someone that has the same problem, rather than feeling like I’m making the people around me think I’m weird for kinda panicking about a slight chest pain. Thank you, Charlie
i know your pain bro.
I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder. It runs in my family. Until I started medication and therapy, I was a mess. OCD is there, but not too bad. Hypochondria that I made worse by reading anything medical. I stopped doing that for the most part. I still find some conditions interesting so I'll look them up, but my fear and anxiety is under more control than before. My biggest symptom was (and is) ruminating/over thinking.
"Healthy Distractions are immensely helpful."
As someone with ADHD, depression, OCD and anxiety disorder, I can wholeheartedly second this.
All 4 of these uh... Conditions... Are pretty much just feelings. Feelings that all people feel. Look at the amount of people who supposedly have these conditions on this post alone. I can't say for sure that what you experience isn't real. But I can say for sure that if you want them to be issues they will be. And if you want to be okay just understand that everyone feels this stuff and you are relatively just fine. Don't victim yourself. Seriously you're fine. Everyone is fine. Be strong.
@@erickradulescu9990 Congratulations - you just cured the world of mental illness! Please collect your Nobel Prize.
@@erickradulescu9990 The only issue is that disorders are not easily solved by words. They are disorders for a reason, it's because people cannot manage them on their own. They have to take different routes to cope with their conditions in a way someone who does not have a disorder will not have to. I have ADHD and much of the general advice people give me is not good enough for my condition. Reminders are not enough for me to remember to do something and so I have to get much more creative if I want to get important things done. It's not going to be as simple as a mindset change to fix your problems.
Boiling down your problems to just "feelings" is looking at the symptoms but not the source. You wouldn't tell someone with a leaky sink to not use it. You'd tell them to get a plumber.
@@erickradulescu9990 has gotta be some the worst advice ive seen in a while and it comes off as rudely ignorant, ADHD and Depression are much much more common than you‘d think, theres a reason why therapy exists, and why methods like anti depresants and adderal are used. Id suggest researching some of these disorders, they’re quite misunderstood by alot of people including you
@@erickradulescu9990 I'd be very careful with your wording here in the future.
What you just said to me, was something lots of people told me throughout my life, which made me doubt myself, my feelings and demolished my self-worth.
I'm officially diagnosed at this point.
But what you just said, was the same BS that kept me from getting proper help, which almost made me end it all.
You may mean well, but what you just said was nothing more than an insult.
It's the analogical equivalent of telling someone in a wheelchair, that sometimes you don't feel like walking either.
So you don't understand these conditions? That's fine. Do any amount of research.
And I don't mean the Bible or Elon Musk tweets. I mean actual scientifically valuable research. These "feelings" are not ghosts. There is no-one arguing over whether feelings actually exist. A broken mind is as crippling as broken legs.
Also, guess what, someone opening up about their problems, usually encourages other people to do the same.
If you have a problem with that, GTFO. Please.
Maybe you should have a look at your own mental health, if you feel this urge to diminish it's affects. Could be a sign of mental illness, in itself.
Everyone is "not" fine. ffs
Anxiety is horrible especially in extreme cases like yours where your always looking over your shoulder but just to calm your nerves a bit, about what you said at 5:03 while bats are the #1 carrier for rabies 99% of human cases come from domesticated dogs that were somehow infected and the chances of a bat biting you are extremely low as long as you don’t try and pet them so don’t worry about invisible bat bites Charlie but make sure if you get a dog to vaccinate it every 1-3 years.
@0100101 010101 Well the anti rabies vaccine is one of those just in case they catch it from an wild animal
@0100101 010101 congratulations. They most probs never were rabies carriers
Jesus christ that was a long sentence
You just made his anxiety worse thx
@@ixis6920 I was also thinking this comment seemed really counter productive. It’s like telling someone with anxiety who’s really afraid of being physically attacked that yeaaah they probably won’t get attacked but if they will it’ll probably be a man and here’s 3 different self defence techniques you should practice for that
I’m the exact same way, CT scans and all, and jesus christ as you were telling the story I started to have trouble breathing and was sweating just thinking about being in your shoes. I agree that it’s unhealthy but it doesn’t make you sound crazy I promise. I have about every form of anxiety there is, when your brain starts freaking out every ounce of rationality just evaporates. Thank you for sharing something so personal, it’s cliche to say this but it really does help others who are going through the same thing. Knowing that I’m not alone and that you’re powering through it and not going to the ER/getting the shot makes me feel like I’m capable of doing the same when a similar situation arises.
Every human in the world has irrational fear. There's a ways to work around it to laugh at the irrational fear rather than it consume you
@@George-pl7eu well yeah that's why it's called a DISorder, disorders aren't rational. Especially anxiety disorders like Charlie's, for me Generalized anxiety Disorder makes my heart react before my brain even has time to think about it tbh. It's hard to understand if you aren't wired that way, but it's not something you can just "get over it" or "not let it consume you".
thanks for sharing your story man frfr, takes balls to talk about personal shit in youtube comments
I have the same it's good to know there are others who understand my expirience
Thank you for opening up and talkin about this. I have anxiety, ocd, and emetophobia….they’re all pretty related. At my worst, my emetophobia has been debilitating too. i found every little insane scenario to convince myself i caught a stomach bug or food poisoning. I only ate crackers and gatorade for almost a whole year…basically severe ARFID. I agree that it’s always something that sticks, but that it has gotten easier over time. I hope your “flare-up” comes to an end soon. Take care of yourself!!
As someone else with OCD, I fully understand the illogical fear that it puts you through and I genuinely hope you remember that if you have your rabies vaccine, you should be 100% fine.
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I also suffer from hypochondria
As someone with chronic anxiety and OCD,, I can tell you this story didn’t sound crazy at all to me. I have had extremely similar situations and when you’re anxious like that, it seems to totally justify itself. Like I realize it’s unlikely and then I imagine article titles of crazy things happening to me and being the exception. I’m glad Charlie felt comfortable to open up about this, because this totally is relatable to a lot of people
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Same here
@@Savetion. Mad and balding
Me too. I have chronic anxiety and depression, and most of the time it’s death anxiety for other people. Which goes hand in hand with health anxiety for me, as if one of my family members gets sick I constantly worry
@@jumpobumpo you should really consider therapy
I struggle with really really bad OCD. Ive been hospitalized several times over it and there's not a second of my life my OCD doesn't at least hover in the back of my head. It's not just a obsession, it worms your way into your core personality. So when you ask "what if" the bat bit me I completely understand. So much of my life has been ruled by the phrase "what if". The ability to let go of something is a luxury I covet. These days I'm much better but learning to live in a world of uncertainty, a world where I don't know all the answers, a world where I could be wrong about anything has haunted me for so long. It's not easy to break a loop, but it is possible. Keep strong charlie.
As someone with OCD I understand so bad trying to communicate a story to people who don't have it and realizing you sound ridiculous while also 100% believing you're right and your life is in genuine danger because no one will believe you and take you to the hospital .... it's terrible.
I dunno if you'll ever see this charlie, but genuinely thank you for talking about this. I do have ocd and hypochondria, but this is literally my EXACT mental problems, since mid 2021 I've been regularly in debilitating hysteria fearing that some bat will somehow stealth bite me and make me die horribly of rabies. I've also thought I was gonna get it from walking in the same parking lot as a raccoon, since I know it was near my car, therefore the car now can transmit me rabies in my mind. It's legitimately kinda ruined my life, and I am insanely surprised someone else has this specific issue.
Same, What really sets me off is mad cows disease. Any slightly uncooked beef and now you have a irreversible neurological disease with a 100 percent fatality rate. I refuse to eat beef sometimes because of it, and if I do it keeps me up all night, even tho there are like 3 cases a year 😅
yeah i get a lot of that too. it's great that someone's talking about the "yes i know that it's stupid but i can't stop" aspect because i feel that gets drowned out bad in the trend of ocd just being the funny "make things symmetrical" disorder you see in media a lot.
Lol he won't see lmao
If it helps, only 1-3 cases of rabies in humans happen in the USA each year. You can also get inoculated for it, but it's expensive (though if you get it for mental health reasons if might be covered by insurance) and from what I've been told it can cause some side effects. However it protects you from rabies for the rest of your life.
A friend of mine who professionally does taxidermy (so works with dead animals) and also has anxiety got the vaccine for this same reason and while they were worried about the side effects while they happened and they're also horribly afraid of needles, it's eased their fears a lot now that that's all over.
It's worth looking into!
As someone with hypochondria, i relate to literally EVERYTHING you're saying. At 22 years old i went to the hospital last week to make sure i didnt have anything serious like mouth cancer. Want to know what i had instead? Wisdom tooth eruption. I need surgery for it. Since 2018, I have gone to the hospital almost 14 times for the smallest things like "oo ouchie, kidney hurt just a little, must be dying" and the doctor telling me i havent drank water in almost 2 weeks, and "I am having some headaches, i must have brain cancer" and being told it was my anxiety was going through the roof (this was around the time people thought north korea was going to go duke nukem on us). There are MANY more dumb stories like this, and my mom having to drive me almost 3 towns over to the nearest hospital for me at random times of the day and night, And on those long drives, i psyche myself out even worse. on one car ride, I even wrote my own will and gave it to my mom before i went into the hospital alone.
And you want to know what's funny about all this? A sign of hypochondria is making a video like this and talking about it, because you're secretly afraid of what might happen, and wanted to make sure that everyone knew that if ANYTHING happened, you would know that everyone else could also see the signs, or let others know that somethin MAY be wrong. I bet a part of you wants to write a will or record a video that starts with "if you're seeing this, i'm dead" (yes, I have one too :D)
Anyways Charlie, I just wanted to say i completely fluffing relate, and I hope it isnt as bad as you think. Stay OFF google and webmd, and ask someone else to look it up for you, and let them ask more before going to the doctor's. I know that sometimes my brain will tell myself that i have something because i read it off google.
What's so bad about the concept of death? When I'm dead, sucks for others, but I won't feel hurt or pain.
I'm trying to understand the psychology of a hypochondriac.
@@FrederickBorne Mf if you die then you die, you’re gone, thats it, no fucking respawning or some shit. People fear death because nobody knows what happens afterwards, all they know is that they are no longer capable of doing anything they want to. Hell, fearing death isnt even being a hypochondriac, that’s just being human.
I use to be like that and would google just about every little pain I felt. Unfortunately I’ve kinda spiraled into the opposite direction where if there’s something wrong with me I’d rather not know and just kinda say “fuck it, I guess I’ll die then”.
@@FrederickBorne It's pointless to try and rationalize something like hypochondria. Even hypochondriacs know logically that it's irrational, but it seems like the part of your brain that has a phobia and the part that's rational are totally different. We know so little about the human brain
im like this specifically with Cancer. I'm terrified of Cancer causing everyone I love to die a long painful death from it. It doesn't help that I got Cancer myself a few years ago, but I recovered.
it feels good knowing people somewhat share in my misery.
i’m kinda embarrassed, but this just made me tear up a bit lol. i’ve struggled with serious ocd and hypochondria for most of my life, and my onset was around the same time as yours - maybe the rituals a little earlier, around 9/10 years old - and this made me feel really reassured. appreciate you, man
I can relate to this on a personal level. As someone with OCD there are a lot of parallels between the two disorders and I can perfectly relate to the feeling of knowing something is irrational but still not having control over it. Thank you for making this video, genuinely. ❤️
I personally really appreciate you opening up about this. I've been struggling with OCD and hypochondria for years, and for the past 3 months it's been the worst it's ever been. I've had 5 major panic attacks and breakdowns in just these past three months because I either think I'm dying or having a heart attack just because I stood up for a bit and my heart rate sped up (I'm only 18 and pretty healthy). It's comforting knowing it's not just me, in a way.
hey, im not trying to give you something else to worry about so heres a warning that im about to talk about a chronic illness that has to do with the high heart rate when standing thing;
POTS, or postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome (which i have), is characterized by a heart rate increase of over 40bpm upon standing up along with (sometimes) a sharp decrease in blood pressure, which can cause blackouts, ringing in ears, and feelings of dizziness and weakness.
no one really knows exactly what causes it or what it even is, but having lots of sodium and water help symptoms. As far as I know, no one has died as a direct result of POTS. again, im not trying to freak you out or anything but if that sounds like what you’re experiencing then its probably a good idea to look into it :)
edit: also feel free to ask if you have any questions
Similarly, I had a close friend who struggled with panic attacks, which turned out to be caused in large part by stomach ulcers. Not sure whether it's related or not, but just letting you and others know in case it helps someone else
@@s1ren_exe This is interesting, thank you. :)
My heart rate doesn't speed up all that much, but I do tend to blackout or get dizzy upon standing. I assume I might have an iron deficiency or something, especially considering my diet.
@@mikec518 This is the absolute worst thing you can do to hypochondriacs
i feel you, charlie. as an hypochondriac myself whose afraid of rabies shitless, i often have nightmares about getting rabies and it's terrifying. stay strong, dude.
@@Savetion. ok
@@Savetion. cool...
@@Savetion. are you a robot? if not im sorry
@@gherbo1609 even so, someone would have to tell the bot to say that, which is just sad overrall
Bruh take some diazepam.... or clonazepam...it will help
i completely understand what you are going through, and personally i can relate a lot. the thing that helps me is looking back in the past where i thought something was wrong with me, and i ask myself “is there something wrong with me, or is this just my anxiety?” because in the past nothing was wrong and it was just my anxiety playing tricks on me.
This video really makes me feel better about my OCD. Just hearing someone Ive folowed for years and genuinely enjoy watching talk about something so similar. OCD is different for everyone that has it and for me its Movements and how stuff happens, I tend to keep doing the same motion over and over again like say, putting something down or even just moving a mouse cursor somewhere on the screen. I know its very excessive and that I look like a complete dumbass but I just cant stop once it starts. One minute I can be just fine but the next every single thing I do doesnt feel right and bothers me for the next 20 minutes. It just feels nice finding out someone I respect and admire goes through something similar without even seeming like it.
Same
As someone that has suffered from serious OCD for the most part of my life, this video has really resonated with me. And for the people that think it's quirky or fun to have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, you guys have no idea. Having OCD is not wanting your room to be tidy or clean, or washing your hands after you go to the bathroom (that's basic hygiene lol). Having OCD is washing your hands 40 times in a row. Is not being able to use your towel after you shower because you think it's dirty. Is not going to rooms in your house for over an year because you think they are going to contamine you. Hearing stories such as yours, Charlie, is really important. Nobody wants to feel alone.
I'm not diagnosed but I've had 2 episodes which felt exactly how existential ocd is described. If I didn't have social/mental safety nets I'd have probably killed myself.
Wow so cool
While I'm not OCD, my mother was a hypochondriac and it did a number on my anxiety. If I so much as sneezed or coughed, she would immediately have me wheeled off to the emergency room. Not a fun childhood to have. I feel for Charlie and everyone else who struggles with OCD and hypochondria.
dude what the fuck, i have OCD and the towel part always happens to me, i didn't know anybody else has that
Also it can have nothing to do with contamination at all. Some OCD is just purely mental, and sufferers really couldn’t care less about their room tidiness
As someone with OCD, it is so important to talk about how it affects everyone and it’s so good to hear others stories and to tell your own. Some weeks I diagnose myself with schizophrenia, some weeks it’s cancer, and some weeks it’s my bones decaying. OCD is truly a curse, but I’m glad your making through it.
For me right now, I'm afraid of n fowlri. It's an awful fear that I doubt will ever get me.
@@unqualifiedscienceguy1396 I’m so sorry dude :(
@@kandykess and I'm sorry for you. It's just what we go through. OCD is killer, and people don't take the time to recognize it. You ever need anyone to rant or vent to, comment here and I'm glad to listen
Same here. My therapist specializes in OCD and she’s the GOAT. Probably need to schedule an appointment soon bc it’s been awhile.
The worst part of having hypochondria for me is getting a pain in your side and thinking your kidneys are failing.
I’m an 18 year old who struggles with the same problem it’s so draining to think I’m dying from this or that every other second
i have the same thing
Feeling like you're dying but at the same time not wanting to inconvenience the doctors in case you're not dying is indeed not pleasant
My husband is also a hypochondriac. He was convinced for MONTHS he had worms, and I finally took him to see a doctor who confirmed he in fact did not and was perfectly healthy. He also is extremely paranoid of heart attacks and will freak out, even in his sleep, if his limbs fall asleep.
I feel for him, I'm the exact same way. I think I'm having a heart attack and/or stroke every single day. It's incredibly debilitating.
@@somedudeinatunnel3102 I'm sorry you go through that, I know how it can fuck up your life.
@@somedudeinatunnel3102 same but not really, anytime I have a pain in my arm or in my chest I assume I'm having a heart attack, but its cause I'm fat just assume its killing me lol
I feel like a major part of this contracts from the OCD, as OCD has a lot to do with "what if" statements. Basically like "This happened, what if this happens?? will I die??" and as soon as there is a slight connection, the mind sticks that memory and keeps referring to it whenever something new happens. Like, "this previous time it did lead to something bad so now I'm extra terrified by this new thing". Eventually if things keep "connecting" it will be severely impeding on a person's life and I think this is one of the things people often forget about.
You've described exactly what it's like for me. Like to a T. That's crazy to me.
I have ocd and hypochondria and I feel like very few people have taken my issues seriously and given me the help I need because of the stigma. I’m really thankful that you’re opening up about stuff like this, it makes me feel so much better about myself and makes me hopeful that people will take ocd and hypochondria seriously after seeing you open up about it. Thank you so much, I know how hard what you’re going through is.
As someone who suffers from general anxiety, I can't imagine how your condition must affect you. Especially since its anxiety about your health. Its hard to just push it away when its technically a legitimate concern
I have had an absolutely crippling fear of death my whole life so bad that when I was younger I would have panic attacks where all I could do was curl into the fetal position and shake I’m 21 now and I can manage it almost completely but without distractions I always come back to it so Charlie I wholeheartedly understand that struggle bc I’ve lived with it all my life
hope it brings some relief knowing that Einstein, Nikola Tesla, and numerous other physics geniuses believed in the afterlife. What scared me the most growing up was the finality and nothingness of it, but I’m better now believing that religion aside, it’s scientifically improbable for there to NOT be consciousness after death.
DUDE. I have(had?) the same thing. I had a severe mental breakdown in 2020/2021, the worst was about a 'rogue bat'. I literally just woke up one day with 2 little pricks on my abdomen. Must be a bat with rabies right? I went super crazy for a month waiting for the rabies to kick in. But it wasnt just rabies, it was all diseases. Every little thing is supposed to kill me right?
Getting back to the gym regularly and exercising seems to have cured it this year for me. But I still have PTSD with stuff like going to the doctor etc.
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I had this thing recently when I started watching Toronado chasers a lot. Did a bing on all the craziest Tornados on youtube and literally for a week or so every time it got a little dark out for rain I'd be panicking and searching for those Tornado clouds lmao. I live in Toronto, we've never had any Tornadoes here but shit gets to you when you get too much into it.
holy fuck charlie, i’ve watched for a long long time and struggling with this same exact thing, the fact that someone else gets it especially someone’s content i enjoy a ton is really really a new feeling i cant describe. thank you for talking about this. you’re not alone.
My mom has this issue except when you tell her she's fine she accuses you of not believing her, making things up, or doctors just being unwilling to help her. Causes a lot of strain on our relationship :\
Trust me when I tell you it’s extremely difficult. I’ve struggled with hypochondria for the last three years and it is absolutely debilitating, you convince yourself that you have a life threatening illness you aren’t able to rationalise about it. It’s very when hard when other people that are able to think rationally about it dismiss you or tell you that it’s nothing even though they are usually right. Try not to take it personally if she says you don’t believe her or that you don’t care she doesn’t mean it, she is just scared and desperate for the anxiety/pain to go away.
Yeah, got to agree with ben. My case is similar to your mom, i constantly vent out to people hoping they'd understand what i'm going through but they just reassure me that i'm fine but it never works. It's scary and hard to convince yourself that you're okay without having proof that you are, and sometimes you just feel frustrated that no one understands and will help you because you feel like you are in a critical state of moment. Yeah, I suppose i understand where you're coming from too but honestly, she's probably really anxious and confused and sometimes just being there for the person helps.