So for those of who must know... being 2 weeks postpartum, can barely move from having a c-section and being diagnosed with postpartum anxiety and then getting this call about my son... do you honestly think I could have driven myself over there? Anyway, my son's story is meant to spread awareness to help you and your kids not to "parent" shame.
Thanks for your "advice" Just so you know, we knew all the friends, their parents, where they lived. We randomly searched his phone and took it away when he got in trouble. We took the door off his room so he couldn't hide anything. We did soooo many things but in the end, a teenager is gonna do what a teenager wants to do and unfortunately for my son, this decision ended his life. It had NOTHING to do with what I did or didn't do.
@@dianavalverde8380 You can do everything right as a parent and these things can still happen. Anyway, you're being very insensitive and cruel to the family. Keep your two cents to yourself.
@Diana Valverde so teach us how to be perfect, like you! You know it all so I'll be waiting for your teaching videos. Do better, check yourself before God has to do it for you.
No matter how well you raise them, kids will always chose their own path. Social media, bad friends, bad influence all around. It will never go away. We live in a toxic world
@@hakimbandaru1915how is that not true? Have you even grew up around people who’ve done that type of stuff? I’ve had rich white friends with somewhat strict parents and good households become drug addicts based off there own decisions. I myself have great parents with not a single problem in my household and I’ve done pills like a idiot when I was 17 because I was influenced by others and my own dumb thoughts even tho my parents were heavily against that type of stuff. When you are young you are legit dumb and easily influenced so it doesn’t always matter if you have good parenting or not
To those parents who are claiming you would have stopped him from overdosing by doing this or that, I hope you never end up in the same situation and get humbled. Have a heart.
@@Keepmywifenameoutyourmfmouth "Not my kid"...it is said before tragedy strikes. Talk to your 16 year old, pray and hope that your child avoids any and all ways they can come into contact with things and people that can harm them. I have news for you: unless your kid is tied to your hip 24/7, they are as vulnerable to addiction or even being slipped something as the next kid. "Not my kid". How many times does it have to be said to stop saying that crap by parents who said it and then buried their kid? Good grief.
@@Musicball see that’s the CLEAR difference, my child respects me enough to understand that what I tell him isn’t to harm but to HELP him… I’ve explained YEARS ago and throughout the years what drugs does and how bad they are! And guess what: HE COMPLETELY UNDERSTANDS… I don’t have to have my child on a leash because when respect is established, my son knows and understands there are vices out there that is detrimental ! And ALL of that is established from young… so yeah “NOT MY KID”🤷🏾♀️😉
@@Keepmywifenameoutyourmfmouth I never said parents can’t. But you aren’t perfect and can’t prevent everything, no matter how hard you plan. That’s grandiosity if you think you can. What I really can’t stand is how some parents get on here and act like their special. They have some special plan so they want to slam the parents of the kids who died. How sick is that? “Hey everyone, I can do better than this woman who lost her son!”. “Look at me!”
@@jacobm.carter8060 if that’s how you took my comment, oh well🤷🏾♀️ I can’t tell you how to feel but what I will say is OF COURSE NO ONE IS PERFECT but as I said in my comment; my child RESPECTS ME enough to understand that what I TELL him is to help not hurt him; my child has ENOUGH RESPECT for me to not hide things such as being a fentanyl user; I KNOW my child enough to know the changes in his behavior… take it how you want but NOT EVERY PARENT has to see eye to eye or empathize with each other🤷🏾♀️ MANY teenagers grow up just fine! And that can be attributed to the parents whose raised them
As someone who is in recovery myself, don’t ever blame the parents. I’ve put my parents through hell and back and they keep doing everything they can to support me because they refuse to give up on me…it’s not easy dealing with family in active addiction.
I lost my beautiful 19 years old had a full life ahead of him he also died of fentanyl overdose I don’t know how he got it he was fine I moved out of the neighborhood I grew up in so my children can be around safe people of course it didn’t happen don’t ever say that it can’t happen to my child we need look out for each other before it’s too late
As a parent...thank you for these words. I hope you continue to fight/recover from addiction. Your family loves you very much. You can do all things through Christ, who strengthens you. Praying for you.
My mom was quick to give up on me. Keep in mind I was only 15 years old. She says her love is unconditional but based off that I don’t think it is. But anyway I also put my parents through hell and see where I was wrong now that I am also a parent. I stopped doing drugs on my own without anyone’s help or support because I knew I still could and it wasn’t too late for me. To this day my parents do t know what kind of drugs I was messing with. I’m going to just leave it in the past and say those were dark times. But you are very lucky your parents love you enough to root for you and your recovery. Not many parents have that type of love in them.
You say you gave them hell but I hope you also see the pain and recognize what you are doing to them I hope you change to better yourself and to stop hurting your parents by hurting yourself. You will never know what it's like until you have your own kids making those decisions and you see what it's like to have a broken heart.
If this helps remember that China wants you to continue smoking that. Remember people want you at your worst. Knowing that don’t give them what they wanted ok?
@@UCantNinjaMe u gotta realize drug dealers do not care if it isnt prescribed its most likely laced because they save so much money putting this fake shit in it
@@UCantNinjaMe drugs are being cut with Fentynal because it's extremely cheap to produce and is much stronger than heroine and other opiates. Meaning they can make more money off of a smaller amount of drugs. They also will sell these pills disguised as blue Percocets. It's literally the strongest opioid out there and even if you have a high tolerance to the drug, the smallest amount can be a fatal dose. These drugs dealers are not pharmacists or scientists. They don't know what they are doing and it's killing people.
It should. But it isn't. Schools are well-aware of this, as well as the federal government. Do you see a pattern? BTW, do you remember Nancy Reagan's effective campaign against drugs called "Just Say No." Change is possible.
I am now 3.5 months clean and sober from drugs and I always watched Texas documentaries while I was high wishing that wouldn’t happen to me, now finally my wish has come true and it won’t happen to me as I’m clean now and your videos really helped me so from the bottom of my heart ❤️ I would like to thank for saving my life ❤❤❤ much love T.D from Poland 🇵🇱
That is wonderful to hear. Thank you so much for your comments. We also have a series of Recovery stories that you might find interesting. Here’s a link to the playlist. Journey from Addiction to Recovery Series ua-cam.com/play/PLdCPA32W_p39Z8hi7xSIX3Fkqmhd7mRzj.html
I lost my son on August 7, 2022 from fentynl as well. I would like to share my story as well. Prayers to you and your family. No parent should have to bury a child. My heart goes out to you as a mother. GOD BLESS YOU!
You can see Noah's beautiful spirit through his eyes and smile. No mother should get such a phone call. I hope that your message reaches many. God Bless you and your family.🙏
@Mister Jizmester You know your name is Mister Jizmester right? Your name doesn’t quite fit your response lol. Should’ve changed your name before posting, it would’ve looked better.
These stories really hit me hard. I got hooked on the pressed 30's in 2017, I was 21. The next five years of my life were an absolute hell. Lost my girlfriend, countless friends, and pushed my family away due to my addiction. I had no money, no future, no nothing. Was barely paying the bills. I am one year sober in 2 days now, and I am beyond thankful to be alive. I never overdosed and I actually feel some sort of weird guilt because of it. Why was i spared and all these kids aren't? I know I shouldn't feel like that but I can't help it. RIP to Noah. I will never touch opioids ever again.
Felt that been using fetty for two years now. Everyone aroind me is dying expect me why not me ??? It makes me feel horribly guilty too I was doing 12-15 percs a day smh. Kudos to you for turning it around NA strong !
@@kathenryyy916 thanks so much. 12-15 a day is crazy. I never did more than 2-3 a day but I did that for so long it was still hell on earth when I was trying to quit. Never appreciated being sober more than I do right now
My heart goes out to you. I lost my son from fentenyl also. People who judge and say you should have done this or that don't have a clue. These are our children and we would give our lives to keep them safe. The pain and guilt don't ever go away. We don't need holier than thou people judging us! Thank you for being so strong and sharing.
My wife recently passed from fentanyl OD…. My tears have formed a River I now drown in . My pain is only on this Earth . My grief is selfish because I feel she deserves to be here longer but who the fuck am I to question God. His will will be done but my tears will never stop . Y’all are not alone
Kids going astray is not always the parents' fault. Peer pressure is really a thing. I was raised well, surrounded by a very loving family. My parents would always remind me about the good values in life. But all those went out of the window when i met my friends, or so thought they were. Because of them, i learned to take a ton of types of drugs. Perhaps im just lucky to still be alive and able to realize how bad things were and how bad of an influence my so called 'friends' were. I feel very sorry for this mom. Parents should never bury their kids.
I give Ms. Rodriquez a lot of credit for taking the time and for having the strength to make this video. We need more education about this world wide emergency that is killing thousands, young and old. Praying for Ms. Rodriguez and her family...may her son rest in peace...
@@mtio2807 she was waiting for her friend to take care of them, i think they had a dad so she couldve just let the dad stay, but i cant remember if the dad was there
I can't believe people were shaming this mother. Where is your compassion, your empathy. She doesn't need to feel worse. She's trying to raise awareness yet you come at her for taking to long to get there. There are circumstances out of our control sometimes. Don't say what you would of done because it wasn't you that night! I pray you never have to feel her pain. But it could be your child next no matter how much you think you no them. It only takes 1 pill, 1 bad choice, 1 person to offer and it could be you in this video. Please offer love and support, prayers and love to this mother....not shame.
All of these videos should be played in middle schools & high schools!! Kids don’t know the reality & can give into peer pressure that will ultimately cost them their life. Watching it and seeing the impact, seeing the families cry, seeing the pictures would help so much I feel
I’m about the same age as Noah, and I can tell you that we need to teach more about the dangers of drugs not just in schools, but in serious political speeches to change this entire poison epidemic. We need serious drug laws too. It’s so sad and alarming that we need more poignantly tragic stories like this to discourage the usage of drugs. It’s genuinely painful to see so many lose their lives who are the same age as me due to something as stupid as drugs.
anti drug meetings and campaigns happen in school all the time it doesn't work. people need to realize its almost impossible to find legit percs, oxy, xans etc on the street like that anymore its all fent
@@hakimbandaru1915 You’re totally correct, however I’d say the majority of parents have no idea about what they’re children do after school and who they hang out with. Parents nowadays (not all) seem to neglect the idea of worrying for their children, and it’s important for students to learn the dangers of drug use somewhere so school is the next best thing. It shouldn’t have to be taught in school if parents thoroughly taught their children about drug-related dangers, but we’re in a drug epidemic and need as many resources as possible.
@jonnyfendi2003 yes there is. Don't be completly stupid. Accidental suggests you didn't mean the outcome. If that was true what you said it would be suicide. That's exactly like saying oh yes there's no such thing as rape because you know what can be done if you leave the house.
I prayed for you and your family. We lost our 28-year-old son in 2013. There is NO LOSS more profound than the loss of a child, none. Know that the comfort, peace and healing our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ can provide you is unexplainable. Give your heartache to the Lord. Knowing our son is healed and made whole in heaven awaiting our reunion is what helps me to live. Live your life with the joy knowing this is not our home. The time we spend on earth is a grain of sand compared to the beach being forever in heaven. Find joy.
I think that those parents that say they “would have stopped their son from overdosing” should feel EXTREMELY blessed that they have not been in a similar situation. Because clearly they don’t know that: you cannot stop your child from making certain choices, you can only show them the right example. Believe me.
I know this is a little different, but I lost my son at age 18 two months after graduating from high school in a surfing accident off the California coast, my heartfelt prayers to entire family and friends, Blessed Are Those Who Mourn, For They Shall Be Comforted, your story will hopefully save a life. 🙏🕊.
I am sorry for your loss. Grief is universal whether it is from illness, accident, murder or overdose. The empty space that loved one leaves behind is devastating.
All these stories are so heartbreaking...that is probably the very last thing you thought Noah would do is take a random drug. I can't even imagine what it's like to be you and suffer through this loss. Prayers for you and your family. RIP Noah
Smart to tell his sister not to eat or take anything not given by parents. I hope she keeps teaching her little ones this and uses their brother story to do that. God Bless you.
You show incredible strength and resiliency Ms. Rodriguez. This made me incredibly sad for you and your son. It just takes 1 mistake. When we’re young we think we’re invincible and it will never happen to us. I’m so sorry this happened to your family. My deepest condolences from one Texan to another.
I just remembered tonight that I used to know Noah. I had no idea he was one of the kids who passed away from fentanyl in hays CISD this year. I went to the same middle school as him, and im pretty sure I sat next to him in my 7th grade math class for a good while. I never really knew him, and unfortunately i don’t remember almost anything about him other than that he was in at least one of my classes in 7-8th grade, but it was still really hard news to hear. As a high schooler myself, I know that a lot of high schoolers are just too stubborn to care when they see stuff like this. Many of them will continue doing drugs because they never think it will be them in this situation; that is, until *they’re* the one overdosing on what they didnt know was actually fentanyl. I really don’t know what it will take for these kids (my peers) to stop dying these totally preventable deaths. And no, that does not mean it was Noah’s fault, or any of the other victims’ fault. Yes, they weren’t making great decisions (which very well could be caused by peer pressure on a teen’s still developing brain), but they had no way of knowing for certain in that moment that the pill they were about to take was laced with fentanyl. And to anyone using this absolutely tragic loss as an excuse to criticize someone’s parenting, blame the victim, blame our current government administration, or whatever else: stop. This is a real human woman who lost her real human son; the child she had raised for almost 16 years. Let her and her family grieve. Rest in peace, Noah Rodriguez.
Big props youngn! Need more words like yours, from more kids like you! Continue ta speak up and speak out! Your words and actions could change and save lifes! Love!
@@deejaye2647 Yes, blame the government. Blame america, atleast most citizens. The reason this is happening is because the government allows shipments of drugs, because their people like it, citizens PAY for them. Its part governments fault, but also obviously the citizens part.
I'm so sorry for your loss 🙏. This brought tears to my eyes. My son graduated this past summer from high school and college as a dual graduate. He is now 19 and works for the school district, but I still talk to him, text him, and remind him every day to make good and wise decisions. You can never be too sure that stuff like this can't happen to your child - regardless of how old they get.
You explained this so beautifully and powerfully to your children. I am so sorry for you, your family and your son. This evil drug and the evil in people who distribute it makes me sooo angry. I lost someone I love to drugs. A young person. So horrible. I hope you get some peace
I can feel the devastation Noah's leaving has had on the family. Hugs and well wishes as the days pass. Thank you for sharing your story. May it save lives and prevent another family from having to go through your heartache.
I can't imagine your pain let alone the conversation you had to have with your 4 year old. Thank you for sharing. You are an amazing and strong momma. My condolences to your family....💜
Rest in peace Noah, I’m appreciative of my times speaking with you before your passing. He was a good kid and no parent deserves to go through this pain. My condolences go out to his family for real ❤.
Everything you've said is absolutely true, I'm a parent and no matter how much we try to be involved and protect our kids, sometimes the unimaginable happens. I am truly sorry for this painful loss, it aches me as a mother. Thank you for sharing Noah's life with us🙏
I am so very sorry for the loss of your son. Your courage to spread awareness after such a horrible loss is commendable and a lesson that this can happen to any family. I wish your family strength and peace as you move forward.
My oldest is 13 and I try very hard to be open with him in communication and I pray for him daily to protect him 🥺 praying for you as a mother this pain would be unbearable
So sorry for this family. It's not the parents fault. I tell my sons constantly how much it sucks for kids these days...that in my time we could experiment and try things, but now with this, one pill can kill. I can only hope they listen to me. They are good boys, but peer pressure is real and i can't hover every moment.
My Grandson OD'd and the cop who gave him NARCAN was that came to my car accident with my Grandson and the cop recognized him...YEAH MY GRANDSON WAS VALEDICTORIAN IN 2019....it is so unbelievable.
Naloxone is the active ingredient in Narcan and is also available in many generics as a nasal spray. In fact, the brand name Kloxxado delivers a higher dose of naloxone than Narcan (Kloxxado-8mg per dose, Narcan-4mg per dose). Naloxone can reverse an opioid overdose if administered quickly enough. Some areas have Naloxone available in the brand name Narcan or generic versions available for free. It is important to recognize that Naloxone is the drug, Narcan is just a brand name. Whenever someone uses the word "Narcan" in place of "naloxone", they're devaluing all the other equally effective brand options and promoting a specific pharmaceutical company.
I admire your courage to share what you have been through Ms. Rodriguez 😢😢. You are giving us parents a warning that drugs are everywhere and can destroy any kids in the neighbourhood. What should we do? The bad influence of the world is getting worse😢😢
I can guarantee this video has saved many lives so far, I just hope it's still around so I can show my kids what my wife and I can go through if they choose the wrong decision. I'm very sorry for what you went through and hope each day bring you back to how it felt before. Just remember that it will when we pass on to reunite again.
It takes tremendous courage to share this. The grief is so much and my heart goes out to you. I am so sorry you have experienced this loss. I truly have no words. My heart aches with you. Please know even though I don’t know you. You’re in my prayers and heart.
MY CONDOLENCES 🙏 I LOST MY NEPHEW WHO WAS 20 TO HEROIN IN 2014. MY MOTHER GOT THE CALL, I KNOW THE SCREAM YOU SPEAK OF. YOU'LL SEE NOAH AGAIN, IT'S PROMISED. GOD HAS HIM SAFE. TAKE CARE. IT WILL GET BETTER.
This could have happened to me when I was his age. Now it’s even harder for children to not be involved in some way. Rest In Paradise young man. May your wings spread far and wide as your journey is not over.
I lost my brother at 44 year's old November 9th 2022 from fentanyl overdose neighbor found him laying on the floor of his apartment what alerted her was his cat was in the hallway and his door was open. He was just a few months shy of having a New grand baby and in a couple days after his death was his other grand baby 1st birthday. He was 3 year's clean and was doing so good we don't know what happened my sister said he never showed any signs of using and was healthiest and happiest he's ever been. She said he was living a life he always wanted he had his kids back in his life he was getting seeing his grandbabies. We miss him dearly.
I'm so sorry for this family's loss!! Athletes get into drugs. They know it's wrong, but still get into it cause they think it'll help them perform better!! Now a days, evil is in the air. We have to raise our kids with Jesus.
I’m so sorry you lost your son. I’m sorry that you are reliving the pain in order to bring awareness to people about the dangers of fentanyl. If this helps even one person. Thank you and may God give you peace.
Janel, my heart goes out to you and your family. As parents we always try to educate and help our children. Idk who is trying to “shame” you but just know that you did nothing wrong. That young man made a bad choice but at the same time I’m sure he knew you loved him very very much. Stay strong my friend.
Dear Janel, only you walk in your shoes. No one else has the right to judge. In your heart you know you did what you could in the midst of a COVID pandemic, with a newborn and so many etcs. God bless you and your son. Be strong, dear.
I'm so very sorry for the loss of your son. I will take this opportunity to educate as many people as I can. This killer drug is everywhere. I live up here in Southern Alberta, Canada, and we all know someone who has died from this drug. I can think of 3 this year, but if I really looked into it, there would be way more. I hope we can save more people with these kinds of stories and bring awareness. 🙏 thank you for sharing your experiences. Your son will be remembered for being a beautiful soul.
My condolences to you and your family for the loss of your Son. Thank you for sharing your story to warn others. I am horrified that this is happening in our Community.
This one broke my heart I’m a single mom and my sons name is Noah. No parent should ever I mean ever have to bury their children. This is something that will always tear at my heartstrings
Thank you for sharing your story. It was very brave of you to do so. Noah was a beautiful a boy and I am so sorry for his loss. Sending love, prayers and strength your way.
I am so very sorry for your loss as a mother this breaks my heart, i wish i could take your pain away if i could i would in a heart beat. sending you healing prayers and a big hug from one mother to another from Manchester England. RIP Noah
I’m gonna sit with my kids today and show them this video. Even tho they will get mad and be like why u showing us we know we know,, Hell no peer pressure is so strong and real we have to keep fighting for our kids and try to show them right because the world for sure is showing them what’s bad.
I remember being a kid and saying ok mom yeah we get it whatever, but this stuff really does happen. So sad, prayers to everyone who lost someone to this.
So sorry for your loss, mrs. Truly. Thank you for sharing. It’s not your fault, and I couldn’t imagine to be on your shoes, not being able to run and try to save your son because you can’t leave your other babies. Must be so hard and tough. Hope people understand. I’m just sending you a big hug. God bless you.
I try to put myself in your shoes when that horrible moment you knew he ws gone. I really can't imagine the heartbreak, but you must feel so helpless. Usually in a bad situation we can do something to fix it, there is a solution, but with this situation there is no making it better. I feel so bad for you, your husband and your little girl. Thank you for telling us about Noah, he sounded like a great boy.
My heartfelt condolences on your monumental loss. You and your family are in my prayers. Lastly, thank you for sharing so that others might learn from your loss.
As a mom I hurt for you. I have 5 and COVID affected my kids bad. Several suffering from depression and one I had to put in the hospital for suicide ideation. I pray for strength for you and your family.
So for those of who must know... being 2 weeks postpartum, can barely move from having a c-section and being diagnosed with postpartum anxiety and then getting this call about my son... do you honestly think I could have driven myself over there? Anyway, my son's story is meant to spread awareness to help you and your kids not to "parent" shame.
Don't explain yourself, people like that don't deserve answers. We'll just pray that they never have to play all that out in real life.
Even if you had driven there, it wouldn't have helped. Sorry people are reacting this way.
Thanks for your "advice" Just so you know, we knew all the friends, their parents, where they lived. We randomly searched his phone and took it away when he got in trouble. We took the door off his room so he couldn't hide anything. We did soooo many things but in the end, a teenager is gonna do what a teenager wants to do and unfortunately for my son, this decision ended his life. It had NOTHING to do with what I did or didn't do.
@@dianavalverde8380 You can do everything right as a parent and these things can still happen. Anyway, you're being very insensitive and cruel to the family. Keep your two cents to yourself.
@Diana Valverde so teach us how to be perfect, like you! You know it all so I'll be waiting for your teaching videos. Do better, check yourself before God has to do it for you.
No matter how well you raise them, kids will always chose their own path. Social media, bad friends, bad influence all around. It will never go away. We live in a toxic world
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That’s not true. You are trying to excuse absentee parenting.
@@hakimbandaru1915how is that not true? Have you even grew up around people who’ve done that type of stuff? I’ve had rich white friends with somewhat strict parents and good households become drug addicts based off there own decisions. I myself have great parents with not a single problem in my household and I’ve done pills like a idiot when I was 17 because I was influenced by others and my own dumb thoughts even tho my parents were heavily against that type of stuff. When you are young you are legit dumb and easily influenced so it doesn’t always matter if you have good parenting or not
@@hakimbandaru1915 Lol... you got mush for brains
sadly yea cruel people out here
To those parents who are claiming you would have stopped him from overdosing by doing this or that, I hope you never end up in the same situation and get humbled. Have a heart.
Well said. Thank you.
@@Keepmywifenameoutyourmfmouth "Not my kid"...it is said before tragedy strikes. Talk to your 16 year old, pray and hope that your child avoids any and all ways they can come into contact with things and people that can harm them. I have news for you: unless your kid is tied to your hip 24/7, they are as vulnerable to addiction or even being slipped something as the next kid. "Not my kid". How many times does it have to be said to stop saying that crap by parents who said it and then buried their kid? Good grief.
@@Musicball see that’s the CLEAR difference, my child respects me enough to understand that what I tell him isn’t to harm but to HELP him… I’ve explained YEARS ago and throughout the years what drugs does and how bad they are! And guess what: HE COMPLETELY UNDERSTANDS… I don’t have to have my child on a leash because when respect is established, my son knows and understands there are vices out there that is detrimental ! And ALL of that is established from young… so yeah “NOT MY KID”🤷🏾♀️😉
@@Keepmywifenameoutyourmfmouth I never said parents can’t. But you aren’t perfect and can’t prevent everything, no matter how hard you plan. That’s grandiosity if you think you can. What I really can’t stand is how some parents get on here and act like their special. They have some special plan so they want to slam the parents of the kids who died. How sick is that? “Hey everyone, I can do better than this woman who lost her son!”. “Look at me!”
@@jacobm.carter8060 if that’s how you took my comment, oh well🤷🏾♀️ I can’t tell you how to feel but what I will say is OF COURSE NO ONE IS PERFECT but as I said in my comment; my child RESPECTS ME enough to understand that what I TELL him is to help not hurt him; my child has ENOUGH RESPECT for me to not hide things such as being a fentanyl user; I KNOW my child enough to know the changes in his behavior… take it how you want but NOT EVERY PARENT has to see eye to eye or empathize with each other🤷🏾♀️ MANY teenagers grow up just fine! And that can be attributed to the parents whose raised them
As someone who is in recovery myself, don’t ever blame the parents. I’ve put my parents through hell and back and they keep doing everything they can to support me because they refuse to give up on me…it’s not easy dealing with family in active addiction.
I lost my beautiful 19 years old had a full life ahead of him he also died of fentanyl overdose I don’t know how he got it he was fine I moved out of the neighborhood I grew up in so my children can be around safe people of course it didn’t happen don’t ever say that it can’t happen to my child we need look out for each other before it’s too late
As a parent...thank you for these words. I hope you continue to fight/recover from addiction. Your family loves you very much. You can do all things through Christ, who strengthens you. Praying for you.
My mom was quick to give up on me. Keep in mind I was only 15 years old. She says her love is unconditional but based off that I don’t think it is. But anyway I also put my parents through hell and see where I was wrong now that I am also a parent. I stopped doing drugs on my own without anyone’s help or support because I knew I still could and it wasn’t too late for me. To this day my parents do t know what kind of drugs I was messing with. I’m going to just leave it in the past and say those were dark times. But you are very lucky your parents love you enough to root for you and your recovery. Not many parents have that type of love in them.
You say you gave them hell but I hope you also see the pain and recognize what you are doing to them I hope you change to better yourself and to stop hurting your parents by hurting yourself. You will never know what it's like until you have your own kids making those decisions and you see what it's like to have a broken heart.
If this helps remember that China wants you to continue smoking that. Remember people want you at your worst. Knowing that don’t give them what they wanted ok?
The way her daughter says “…Why would they give my brother something bad to eat.” Hit tremendously hard We are all Brothers in this life
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I honestly have the same question as her, like why do people do this..
@@UCantNinjaMe u gotta realize drug dealers do not care if it isnt prescribed its most likely laced because they save so much money putting this fake shit in it
@@UCantNinjaMe drugs are being cut with Fentynal because it's extremely cheap to produce and is much stronger than heroine and other opiates. Meaning they can make more money off of a smaller amount of drugs. They also will sell these pills disguised as blue Percocets. It's literally the strongest opioid out there and even if you have a high tolerance to the drug, the smallest amount can be a fatal dose. These drugs dealers are not pharmacists or scientists. They don't know what they are doing and it's killing people.
This should be shown in schools nation wide
Agreed!
Yes like that drinking and driving video of the burnt victim. Alcohol has turned into fentanyl
Exactly 💯
It should. But it isn't. Schools are well-aware of this, as well as the federal government. Do you see a pattern? BTW, do you remember Nancy Reagan's effective campaign against drugs called "Just Say No." Change is possible.
Not dare paperwork
I’m not sure how I came across this story but please, know that you and your family are in my thoughts. I’m so sorry.
I don't feel bad 😔😔😔
I am so sorry, & my heart is with his family ❤️ teenagers everywhere have been hit so hard by this changing world
@@stassibonassi7373 you don't feel at all, heartless
@@stassibonassi7373 stay outta the comments with your negativity cause I'm pretty sure no one asked
@@stassibonassi7373 okay well no need to comment that whats wrong with u
I am now 3.5 months clean and sober from drugs and I always watched Texas documentaries while I was high wishing that wouldn’t happen to me, now finally my wish has come true and it won’t happen to me as I’m clean now and your videos really helped me so from the bottom of my heart ❤️ I would like to thank for saving my life ❤❤❤ much love T.D from Poland 🇵🇱
That is wonderful to hear. Thank you so much for your comments. We also have a series of Recovery stories that you might find interesting. Here’s a link to the playlist.
Journey from Addiction to Recovery Series
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That's amazing so proud of you 😊
Another funeral today for my husband's friend's teen son. He was only 14. Fentanyl is everywhere, all of our children are at risk. 💔
@@supastarmom where do you live
I had a neighbor whose grown son passed away from the same thing about a year before Noah did. She died from a broken heart about 2 years later
Sad
Oh my heart goes to their families. God protect us from this evil!
Did the death certificate say died from a broken heart or did she fail to realize that life goes on
@@erikrobles5727 That was mean
@@erikrobles5727 broken heart syndrome is very real. Ever see people who have heart attacks right after they lose a loved one?
I lost my son on August 7, 2022 from fentynl as well. I would like to share my story as well. Prayers to you and your family. No parent should have to bury a child. My heart goes out to you as a mother. GOD BLESS YOU!
I’m so sorry for your loss…heartbreaking 😢
praying for you and sending you comfort 🙏🏾
Sorry hun ..😭😭
I'm really sorry for your loss 😔 May your son rest in peace 🙏🏻 ✨️
I’m so very sorry. 😢
My son also struggles with Opioid Use Disorder. 😢
You can see Noah's beautiful spirit through his eyes and smile. No mother should get such a phone call.
I hope that your message reaches many. God Bless you and your family.🙏
Your comment is one of the reasons why I got sober and clean. I didn’t want my family to get that call.
@Mister Jizmester You know your name is Mister Jizmester right? Your name doesn’t quite fit your response lol. Should’ve changed your name before posting, it would’ve looked better.
@@Onelightoftheworld im still an alcoholic
@@JesseGMan7 do you like my name?
These stories really hit me hard. I got hooked on the pressed 30's in 2017, I was 21. The next five years of my life were an absolute hell. Lost my girlfriend, countless friends, and pushed my family away due to my addiction. I had no money, no future, no nothing. Was barely paying the bills. I am one year sober in 2 days now, and I am beyond thankful to be alive. I never overdosed and I actually feel some sort of weird guilt because of it. Why was i spared and all these kids aren't? I know I shouldn't feel like that but I can't help it. RIP to Noah. I will never touch opioids ever again.
Keep it going. You can do it 💪🏽
@@Food-is_Life thank you very much. I definitely will.
Felt that been using fetty for two years now. Everyone aroind me is dying expect me why not me ??? It makes me feel horribly guilty too I was doing 12-15 percs a day smh. Kudos to you for turning it around NA strong !
@@kathenryyy916 thanks so much. 12-15 a day is crazy. I never did more than 2-3 a day but I did that for so long it was still hell on earth when I was trying to quit. Never appreciated being sober more than I do right now
@@Luke24160-3 a day? Your one of the fake junkies you wasn’t no real addict you just want an excuse smh. I know custys taking 10+ a day
My heart goes out to you. I lost my son from fentenyl also. People who judge and say you should have done this or that don't have a clue. These are our children and we would give our lives to keep them safe. The pain and guilt don't ever go away. We don't need holier than thou people judging us! Thank you for being so strong and sharing.
This has to stop now. It's gone on too long already. I don't care how, but it has to stop now.
Absolutely 💯
My wife recently passed from fentanyl OD…. My tears have formed a River I now drown in . My pain is only on this Earth . My grief is selfish because I feel she deserves to be here longer but who the fuck am I to question God. His will will be done but my tears will never stop . Y’all are not alone
Praying for you and your heart to heal. I am so sorry.
So sorry 💔💔💔💔💔💔
💔🙏🏻 my heart goes out to you
I am so sorry you lost your wife. Please know my thoughts are with you. I lost my best friend to this poison. Sometimes the pain is just blinding.
I am so very sad to learn about your wife but to be sure your God had nothing to do with it nor any other God. Choices are our own. Peace be with you.
This is a parents worst nightmare. I'm sorry that you had to go through this and thank you for sharing your story.
Kids going astray is not always the parents' fault. Peer pressure is really a thing. I was raised well, surrounded by a very loving family. My parents would always remind me about the good values in life. But all those went out of the window when i met my friends, or so thought they were. Because of them, i learned to take a ton of types of drugs. Perhaps im just lucky to still be alive and able to realize how bad things were and how bad of an influence my so called 'friends' were. I feel very sorry for this mom. Parents should never bury their kids.
Heartbreaking when kids think their friends are better than/ know more than their parents
I give Ms. Rodriquez a lot of credit for taking the time and for having the strength to make this video. We need more education about this world wide emergency that is killing thousands, young and old. Praying for Ms. Rodriguez and her family...may her son rest in peace...
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@@mtio2807 she had legit toddlers at home… it wouldn’t be that easy to just up and leave like that
@@mtio2807 you cant leave toddlers at home alone
@@mtio2807 I don’t know… you should ask her, not me. Thank you
@@mtio2807 she was waiting for her friend to take care of them, i think they had a dad so she couldve just let the dad stay, but i cant remember if the dad was there
My heart is broken for this momma and her family may peace and love come to you ✌❤❤
I can't believe people were shaming this mother. Where is your compassion, your empathy. She doesn't need to feel worse. She's trying to raise awareness yet you come at her for taking to long to get there. There are circumstances out of our control sometimes. Don't say what you would of done because it wasn't you that night!
I pray you never have to feel her pain. But it could be your child next no matter how much you think you no them. It only takes 1 pill, 1 bad choice, 1 person to offer and it could be you in this video. Please offer love and support, prayers and love to this mother....not shame.
Yes. That right there. Thank you for sharing.
All of these videos should be played in middle schools & high schools!! Kids don’t know the reality & can give into peer pressure that will ultimately cost them their life. Watching it and seeing the impact, seeing the families cry, seeing the pictures would help so much I feel
I am not sure why this is in my recommended, but your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
I wish you all the best.
Because fake Blue Perks laced with Fentanyl are killing people and they are trying to warn the public. Spread the word.
They want people to see that’s why
@@TriniLush7 😒
We need to start educating our kids on drugs man, there’s stuff you just can’t ever mess around with. Rip Noah
I’m about the same age as Noah, and I can tell you that we need to teach more about the dangers of drugs not just in schools, but in serious political speeches to change this entire poison epidemic. We need serious drug laws too. It’s so sad and alarming that we need more poignantly tragic stories like this to discourage the usage of drugs. It’s genuinely painful to see so many lose their lives who are the same age as me due to something as stupid as drugs.
Huh ur 16-17 pick a age already kid
@@drowz9825 lmaooo
anti drug meetings and campaigns happen in school all the time it doesn't work. people need to realize its almost impossible to find legit percs, oxy, xans etc on the street like that anymore its all fent
Listen boy, school is not responsible for your drug addictions, it’s the absentee parents fault.
@@hakimbandaru1915 You’re totally correct, however I’d say the majority of parents have no idea about what they’re children do after school and who they hang out with. Parents nowadays (not all) seem to neglect the idea of worrying for their children, and it’s important for students to learn the dangers of drug use somewhere so school is the next best thing. It shouldn’t have to be taught in school if parents thoroughly taught their children about drug-related dangers, but we’re in a drug epidemic and need as many resources as possible.
Can we just thank her for sharing this? Also she came to my school and gave me a bracelet Remember NOAH RODRIGUEZ 😊😊😊
I lost my son to accidental OD . It is horrible no matter the age . My heart goes out to you. It is so hard . 🧡
@@mtio2807 turn right back around and say this
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There is no such thing as an accidental od. Even as a teenager, we are well aware that every time you do drugs you could die.
@jonnyfendi2003 yes there is. Don't be completly stupid. Accidental suggests you didn't mean the outcome. If that was true what you said it would be suicide.
That's exactly like saying oh yes there's no such thing as rape because you know what can be done if you leave the house.
She means someone killed him
I prayed for you and your family. We lost our 28-year-old son in 2013. There is NO LOSS more profound than the loss of a child, none. Know that the comfort, peace and healing our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ can provide you is unexplainable. Give your heartache to the Lord. Knowing our son is healed and made whole in heaven awaiting our reunion is what helps me to live. Live your life with the joy knowing this is not our home. The time we spend on earth is a grain of sand compared to the beach being forever in heaven. Find joy.
😢such a handsome young man. I to lost a son at the age of 14 due to a tragic accident. My heart goes out to you 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾😪
I am so sorry for your loss.
💔🕊 I'm so sorry 😪
Omg these stories bring so much awareness. I’m so glad they all get to tell their stories
I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. This is heartbreaking.
I think that those parents that say they “would have stopped their son from overdosing” should feel EXTREMELY blessed that they have not been in a similar situation. Because clearly they don’t know that: you cannot stop your child from making certain choices, you can only show them the right example. Believe me.
As a Father of 5 this tears me up knowing it can actually happen to anyone. My blessings go out to his family 🙏🙏
This must have been horrifying for this poor family. The bravery Mrs Rodriguez is displaying to help others is incredible.
I know this is a little different, but I lost my son at age 18 two months after graduating from high school in a surfing accident off the California coast, my heartfelt prayers to entire family and friends, Blessed Are Those Who Mourn, For They Shall Be Comforted, your story will hopefully save a life. 🙏🕊.
Did he drown or what?
Im sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry, may your son rest in peace. 🙏
I am sorry for your loss. Grief is universal whether it is from illness, accident, murder or overdose. The empty space that loved one leaves behind is
devastating.
Do not judge...until you have been faced with a crisis you have no idea what you would do. I will pray for this family.
As a mom I couldn’t even imagine how this feels. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family. ❤️
I am so so sorry for your loss. I send this to my son straight away. He is almost 14.
All these stories are so heartbreaking...that is probably the very last thing you thought Noah would do is take a random drug. I can't even imagine what it's like to be you and suffer through this loss. Prayers for you and your family. RIP Noah
People are so quick too say why the parents didn’t do anything.. but they don’t know our struggles.. I’ll keep you and your family in my prayers
These stories are so heartbreaking, these are babies, people's babies... why are people so greedy. My heart goes out to you, may God show up for you
I think this is a very important message that this channel is spreading. I hope that they reach far and wide.
Smart to tell his sister not to eat or take anything not given by parents. I hope she keeps teaching her little ones this and uses their brother story to do that. God Bless you.
You don't need to explain yourself to anyone. I'm so sorry for your loss. My prayers go out to you and your family.
im sorry for your loss mom- he will always be your son, no matter what - no matter that he is gone - your love still lives on.
You show incredible strength and resiliency Ms. Rodriguez. This made me incredibly sad for you and your son. It just takes 1 mistake. When we’re young we think we’re invincible and it will never happen to us. I’m so sorry this happened to your family. My deepest condolences from one Texan to another.
I just remembered tonight that I used to know Noah. I had no idea he was one of the kids who passed away from fentanyl in hays CISD this year. I went to the same middle school as him, and im pretty sure I sat next to him in my 7th grade math class for a good while. I never really knew him, and unfortunately i don’t remember almost anything about him other than that he was in at least one of my classes in 7-8th grade, but it was still really hard news to hear.
As a high schooler myself, I know that a lot of high schoolers are just too stubborn to care when they see stuff like this. Many of them will continue doing drugs because they never think it will be them in this situation; that is, until *they’re* the one overdosing on what they didnt know was actually fentanyl. I really don’t know what it will take for these kids (my peers) to stop dying these totally preventable deaths. And no, that does not mean it was Noah’s fault, or any of the other victims’ fault. Yes, they weren’t making great decisions (which very well could be caused by peer pressure on a teen’s still developing brain), but they had no way of knowing for certain in that moment that the pill they were about to take was laced with fentanyl.
And to anyone using this absolutely tragic loss as an excuse to criticize someone’s parenting, blame the victim, blame our current government administration, or whatever else: stop. This is a real human woman who lost her real human son; the child she had raised for almost 16 years. Let her and her family grieve.
Rest in peace, Noah Rodriguez.
very well said.
Gavin Hanz that was very nice what you said. ❤❤
Ofcourse we can blame our current government - are you kidding?
Big props youngn! Need more words like yours, from more kids like you! Continue ta speak up and speak out! Your words and actions could change and save lifes! Love!
@@deejaye2647 Yes, blame the government. Blame america, atleast most citizens. The reason this is happening is because the government allows shipments of drugs, because their people like it, citizens PAY for them. Its part governments fault, but also obviously the citizens part.
I'm so sorry for your loss 🙏. This brought tears to my eyes. My son graduated this past summer from high school and college as a dual graduate. He is now 19 and works for the school district, but I still talk to him, text him, and remind him every day to make good and wise decisions. You can never be too sure that stuff like this can't happen to your child - regardless of how old they get.
Man This broke my heart
You explained this so beautifully and powerfully to your children. I am so sorry for you, your family and your son. This evil drug and the evil in people who distribute it makes me sooo angry. I lost someone I love to drugs. A young person. So horrible. I hope you get some peace
I can feel the devastation Noah's leaving has had on the family. Hugs and well wishes as the days pass. Thank you for sharing your story. May it save lives and prevent another family from having to go through your heartache.
This loss brought me to tears. He’s smile, so beautiful. Sorry for your loss. RIP young man.
I can't imagine your pain let alone the conversation you had to have with your 4 year old. Thank you for sharing. You are an amazing and strong momma. My condolences to your family....💜
Rest in peace Noah, I’m appreciative of my times speaking with you before your passing. He was a good kid and no parent deserves to go through this pain. My condolences go out to his family for real ❤.
We have to stop this. Any way possible. It has to stop now.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Noah was so young and beautiful, you are such a courageous mom. Thank you for sharing your heartbreaking story.
Everything you've said is absolutely true, I'm a parent and no matter how much we try to be involved and protect our kids, sometimes the unimaginable happens. I am truly sorry for this painful loss, it aches me as a mother. Thank you for sharing Noah's life with us🙏
Amen in Jesus name.
I am so very sorry for the loss of your son. Your courage to spread awareness after such a horrible loss is commendable and a lesson that this can happen to any family. I wish your family strength and peace as you move forward.
My oldest is 13 and I try very hard to be open with him in communication and I pray for him daily to protect him 🥺 praying for you as a mother this pain would be unbearable
Amen in Jesus name.
So so sorry.
Sorry for the loss of your precious boy.
Thank you Janel for your story. Sorry for your loss. These stories will help sober up some teens wanting to explore.
Sorry for your tremendous loss! 🙏
So sorry for this family. It's not the parents fault. I tell my sons constantly how much it sucks for kids these days...that in my time we could experiment and try things, but now with this, one pill can kill. I can only hope they listen to me. They are good boys, but peer pressure is real and i can't hover every moment.
My Grandson OD'd and the cop who gave him NARCAN was that came to my car accident with my Grandson and the cop recognized him...YEAH MY GRANDSON WAS VALEDICTORIAN IN 2019....it is so unbelievable.
Naloxone is the active ingredient in Narcan and is also available in many generics as a nasal spray. In fact, the brand name Kloxxado delivers a higher dose of naloxone than Narcan (Kloxxado-8mg per dose, Narcan-4mg per dose). Naloxone can reverse an opioid overdose if administered quickly enough. Some areas have Naloxone available in the brand name Narcan or generic versions available for free.
It is important to recognize that Naloxone is the drug, Narcan is just a brand name. Whenever someone uses the word "Narcan" in place of "naloxone", they're devaluing all the other equally effective brand options and promoting a specific pharmaceutical company.
God bless this mother
Rest in Peace Noah, so sorry for your loss Mama, this is a crisis😢
As a mother my heart breaks for you. Thank you for sharing your story.
I admire your courage to share what you have been through Ms. Rodriguez 😢😢. You are giving us parents a warning that drugs are everywhere and can destroy any kids in the neighbourhood. What should we do? The bad influence of the world is getting worse😢😢
I can guarantee this video has saved many lives so far, I just hope it's still around so I can show my kids what my wife and I can go through if they choose the wrong decision. I'm very sorry for what you went through and hope each day bring you back to how it felt before. Just remember that it will when we pass on to reunite again.
It takes tremendous courage to share this. The grief is so much and my heart goes out to you. I am so sorry you have experienced this loss. I truly have no words. My heart aches with you. Please know even though I don’t know you. You’re in my prayers and heart.
MY CONDOLENCES 🙏 I LOST MY NEPHEW WHO WAS 20 TO HEROIN IN 2014. MY MOTHER GOT THE CALL, I KNOW THE SCREAM YOU SPEAK OF. YOU'LL SEE NOAH AGAIN, IT'S PROMISED. GOD HAS HIM SAFE. TAKE CARE. IT WILL GET BETTER.
This is heartbreaking. Prayers for peace and comfort. Understand, this absolutely could have happened to anyone. You did everything right.
This could have happened to me when I was his age. Now it’s even harder for children to not be involved in some way. Rest In Paradise young man. May your wings spread far and wide as your journey is not over.
This must have taken so much courage and strength. Thank you for sharing his story with us 💜
I lost my brother at 44 year's old November 9th 2022 from fentanyl overdose neighbor found him laying on the floor of his apartment what alerted her was his cat was in the hallway and his door was open. He was just a few months shy of having a New grand baby and in a couple days after his death was his other grand baby 1st birthday. He was 3 year's clean and was doing so good we don't know what happened my sister said he never showed any signs of using and was healthiest and happiest he's ever been. She said he was living a life he always wanted he had his kids back in his life he was getting seeing his grandbabies. We miss him dearly.
Thank you for going through this again so maybe others dont have to...
i have a little brother and you just never know what can happen in life. this touched my heart 🙏 rip Noah
I'm so sorry for this family's loss!! Athletes get into drugs. They know it's wrong, but still get into it cause they think it'll help them perform better!! Now a days, evil is in the air. We have to raise our kids with Jesus.
These stories are breaking me man. My friend died from a fent overdose. Please God, please 🥺
I’m so sorry you lost your son. I’m sorry that you are reliving the pain in order to bring awareness to people about the dangers of fentanyl. If this helps even one person. Thank you and may God give you peace.
I'm so sorry for the loss of Noah.
She's a true steel magnolia. And I applaud that she tells her daughter (and other children) the truth of what happened.
My deepest condolences to you and the family. May God continue to give you comfort peace and strength.
Janel, my heart goes out to you and your family. As parents we always try to educate and help our children. Idk who is trying to “shame” you but just know that you did nothing wrong. That young man made a bad choice but at the same time I’m sure he knew you loved him very very much. Stay strong my friend.
So sorry for your loss!
Dear Janel, only you walk in your shoes. No one else has the right to judge. In your heart you know you did what you could in the midst of a COVID pandemic, with a newborn and so many etcs. God bless you and your son. Be strong, dear.
As a parent my heart goes out, now and days parents need to be involved even more with all this crazyness
I'm so very sorry for the loss of your son. I will take this opportunity to educate as many people as I can. This killer drug is everywhere. I live up here in Southern Alberta, Canada, and we all know someone who has died from this drug. I can think of 3 this year, but if I really looked into it, there would be way more. I hope we can save more people with these kinds of stories and bring awareness. 🙏 thank you for sharing your experiences. Your son will be remembered for being a beautiful soul.
People are well aware unless you are living under a rock. Get real
@@jonnyfendi2003 shutup
@@munax-pd9tu people are well aware of this crap.
My condolences to you and your family for the loss of your Son. Thank you for sharing your story to warn others. I am horrified that this is happening in our Community.
This one broke my heart I’m a single mom and my sons name is Noah. No parent should ever I mean ever have to bury their children. This is something that will always tear at my heartstrings
Thank you for sharing your story. It was very brave of you to do so. Noah was a beautiful a boy and I am so sorry for his loss. Sending love, prayers and strength your way.
I am so very sorry for your loss as a mother this breaks my heart, i wish i could take your pain away if i could i would in a heart beat. sending you healing prayers and a big hug from one mother to another from Manchester England. RIP Noah
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@@p.j4545 beautiful words spoken.
@@melodygodbey3092 Thank you very much Melody, you have a very beautiful name. xox
I’m so sorry, you,& your family are mourning the loss of your son. May he Rest In Peace with God🪦🕊👼🏾🕊
I’m gonna sit with my kids today and show them this video. Even tho they will get mad and be like why u showing us we know we know,, Hell no peer pressure is so strong and real we have to keep fighting for our kids and try to show them right because the world for sure is showing them what’s bad.
I remember being a kid and saying ok mom yeah we get it whatever, but this stuff really does happen. So sad, prayers to everyone who lost someone to this.
So sorry for your loss, mrs. Truly. Thank you for sharing. It’s not your fault, and I couldn’t imagine to be on your shoes, not being able to run and try to save your son because you can’t leave your other babies. Must be so hard and tough. Hope people understand. I’m just sending you a big hug. God bless you.
I try to put myself in your shoes when that horrible moment you knew he ws gone. I really can't imagine the heartbreak, but you must feel so helpless. Usually in a bad situation we can do something to fix it, there is a solution, but with this situation there is no making it better. I feel so bad for you, your husband and your little girl. Thank you for telling us about Noah, he sounded like a great boy.
This is the reason why opioids are something I'm never gonna take, even for medical reasons. RIP Noah. I never knew you but fly high buddy.
So heartbreaking💔 Thank you for sharing and spreading awareness. Bless you and your family 🙏
My heartfelt condolences on your monumental loss. You and your family are in my prayers. Lastly, thank you for sharing so that others might learn from your loss.
As a mom I hurt for you. I have 5 and COVID affected my kids bad. Several suffering from depression and one I had to put in the hospital for suicide ideation. I pray for strength for you and your family.
I am so very sorry for your loss.