Dude huge respect to you , not only did you upload this masterpiece but you also help the people that watch it in the comments? You're a Legend and i hope you're having a great time right now
*Sitting beside the window, Rain* It's 3 AM and you suddenly woke up but you don't know why, so your reflexes make you do your usual routine, alone breakfast, getting dressed, sitting at the window. You notice the clock on the Wall, it's on 3, then you also notice how dark it is outside, you see some rain drops outside in the darkness. The sound of the rain on your window is the only thing you hear besides the complete silence. You remember you gotta go to school in a few hours but don't mind it anyway, so you take your coat and your keys and slowly go outside without energy. In front of the door, you walk into the rain, step by step, somehow the rain on your hair and coat feels relaxing, it gives you a feeling of loneliness, melancholy and a bit of sadness. You go sit on a bench, it's still raining, thinking back to your childhood remembering the good old days, you start tearing up a little bit, the tears rolling down your cheeks feel a bit different than the rain. The rain slowly starts to stop, you go back inside, sit beside the window again and wait... just wait... then it's time you have to go to school but somehow, you don't want to, so you stay sitting on your chair beside the window, thinking about how school currently goes, might not have much friends and not doing anything, learning less and less. So you skipped school... what now? Do you want to go tomorrow? Probably not. You ask yourself while staring out the window: Why am i living the same day over and over? Why do i feel so empty all the time? The only thing that fills your soul is sitting beside the window. thanks for reading.
I read it nom me cry I wanna do it i wanna go outside in the street at 3am in the rain and just think about life and wonder around 😔 my life is the same the same and same thing it's like having a dream over and over again 😔 it's just a not explainable feeling😢😭
5.q 06,no hay que te quiero dije me dijo muy ocupada en un poco triste porque me dijo mañana por el teléfono y me dijo ya te dije,la mayoría son mujeres en la tarde y me dormí en un mensaje a hpmi hermana 7h 7
Today..I skipped school, I was just walking out of the town, in the rain. Directly to the mountains. I was listening to this, and the view was beautiful. Too bad I'm at home again.
thats plan a for me just walk and walk and walk going no where just walking enjoying the world allways seeing new places and people but never saying to ling i dont want to ever be somewhere for long
I could never do that. My school is in Downtown Stockton CA. It’d be a Miracle for me to make it out of Downtown in one piece. There’s even a place there called “Zombie Street” and considering Stockton’s reputation, I just hope you can understand what that means.
“you’ve exceeded my expectations! well done!” - people “but how can that matter when i’ll never exceed or remotely meet my own expectations? how can you be proud of me when i’ve barely done anything? i can be so much better at school, in sports-god, my social skills are so goddamn awful too.” *how can you be proud of me when i’m not even proud of myself?*
TW: SH i relate to this so much. it got to the point where i couldn’t take it anymore. i felt constantly stared at and never good enough. my insomnia got really bad and my social anxiety went higher than ever. i ended up doing sh. (didnt put it for reasons-) i needed help. i’m currently getting help. i promise it can make you feel better. i understand things may not look like that right now, but i can say for sure that it WILL get better. i love you
@@user-pl1px1os1r im so happy to hear that you’re feeling better. i don’t have much to rant about, it’s just the classic *im the eldest sibling so i have to be the good example and get the best grades and be amazing at sports* and then my parents complain when im tired all the time. thanks for reaching out to me, we relate to each other a lot through the social anxiety part, and it’s good closure to know that it’s not only me who feels this way. again, thank you
@@hailey.elayne no problem at all. i know how it feels to be extremely low and i’m here to talk if you need it. and totally understandable. being expected to set an example for a your siblings is hard work. sometimes i wish i could do stuff without being criticised or having people pay heed to my actions all the time. remember you’re loved and you’re not alone. 🖤
@@user-pl1px1os1r thank you so much. i just got home from a really tough and exhausting practice so to hear you say that im loved really makes me happy. im always here for you too
im kinda the opposite but like not really, I get scared when people ask me out because sometimes I do like them, and I don't want to ruin the friendship, I just hate the idea of relationships. because of some circumstances in my life I kinda believe nothing lasts and I apply that to relationships 😼
i understand how you feel. but hey- i feel like telling them would be beneficial in two ways: 1) you get it off your chest so it doesn’t bother you forever; 2) (sort of relates to the 1) one) maybe turns out they like you back, it will make you feel so much better knowing that you said something. even if they dont like you back, at least be proud of the fact that you were brave enough to come forward with your feelings. its def not easy but accepting rejection and failure is a vital thing in life. destiny has bound you with the right person. i’m sure they’ll come along sooner or later :) don’t beat yourself up if someone doesn’t like you back the way you like them. it’s gonna be ok :))
remember how when we were young and made fun of people because they were looking for someone to date and love? it turns out... most of us became that person...
hey don’t give up i know things are tough and it hurts a lot but please don’t.. life can get really tough and it hurts but the thing is life is special and you just have to take a step i’m sorry for anything you have gone through but i promise it will get better
Pov: its June of 2002, you've just gotten home from you're last day of school & summer has begun, only to see that it was raining late in the afternoon. Ur parent(s) makes you you're favorite snack as you do you're favorite activity inside the nice warm house. Life was good..
it’s 3 in the morning tired from sleep deprivation you get up and go to sit on your porch you light a cigarette and it start to rain “where did my life go” you think to yourself. you used to have so many friends you used to laugh and play and run around cheerfully now here you are alone remembering the friends and lovers you had in the past wondering what they are doing and why they left “i loved you” you say out loud now sobbing feeling a lonely void in your chest “i loved you all so much” where did time go ?
one thing i've learned as you gotta enjoy life bro.... instead of asking where did time go enjoy the now, make things happen now life is no where near over enjoy it!
(a sadly wholesome comment) *MENTIONS OF SUI*DE I fell so hard in love. I can't believe it. 4 months of knowing him, and the entire time he knew he loved me too. I was so tired and depressed, but when i met him, it changed. I became happy. afterschool we gamed the night away. All leading up to tonight. The night where we confirmed our relationship. I told him yesterday (as of 5/16/21) that i caught feelings, and i broke down in tears because i though he'd never like me back, that i was gonna get rejected per usual. but no. He loves me. And i love him. We're dating, and i love him so much, all i wanna do is be around him. He saved me from suicide, and i can't thank him enough. he treated me like a person when i needed it most.
I see all the comments about them being rejected, and I feel kinda bad. like ive always been the person people ask out- I don't like relationships because of reasons and always say no because of that. I know it hurts them and I hate that, but if I had said yes they would be believing a lie and it would put them and myself in a bad position
Nothing lasts forever, I lost the one person I wanted to be around all the time. The person who gave me a sense of life and cared for me all the time. I bottle this up because no one knows who they are. Nobody cares about them except for me. I wasn't able to help them when they needed me. My happiness in life is forever gone. I'd rather not be here, but they're in a happy place. For now, I'll be happy for both of us.
She made me feel like she would never hurt me, she made me feel safe, and I felt loved, for the first damn time I actually felt loved by this “girl of my dreams” then she cheats on me with two guys, my best friend asked her out right after we broke up, ruined that friendship, exposed me, and replaced me. It’s like she doesn’t remember everything fucking memory we made, it’s like in her head I was just a fucking dream, one moment your having it, then you wake up and forget all of it.
i just wanted her. only her. she was my sense of pride, joy, and she was their when i needed to rant. she never told me what was on her mind and what was bothering her though. but yesterday, we split up. she wanted out because we weren’t meant. she wanted the best for me, but she never knew that the best was her. i miss her a lot, and i’m going to be crying for awhile
listen she aint you, she was a heavy influence on you, but she isnt you, she shouldnt be your pride and joy, she cant control that. You are yourself, shes not you. If you keep thinking of her the weight on your back will get heavier, you just need to forget and get your mind off of it.
@@thornemusic thanks man. yesterday for some reason she texted me and called me. i answered back like an idiot. im sorry i let you down. i'll try to forget and move on. i'm going to learn from this that i don't miss her. i miss the idea of her. thanks homie
i didn't know that i needed this so bad in my life until now. i'm going to sleep right now, with this melody surrounding my ears, my heart. good night, everyone.
been in your spot for the past 15,i later discovered that i was the reason why iam always left behind,once i improved my self physically and mentally i had the life i always dreamed
yep... and the only thing that has broken that wall for me is thinking how i can't be like anyone else and when i want to cry with everyone else i would not be able to
Bro i wish you all the happiness, im sure you are a beautiful person and im sure you will find someone who love you, don’t give, up look forward to the future, love yourself and take care
i hate feeling like this. i've grown attached to him but he's not gonna text me and i know it. it's okay, he's probably just busy. i just wish he'd talk to me like he did before, my birthday is coming up but i wouldn't be surprised if he forgets or if he just doesn't talk to me.. i miss him.
I was in the same situation. If he can't simply bother to talk to you don't wait. Ik it might seem hard but I wasted 3 years of my life waiting for some toxic fuck. Maybe it isn't the same situation, but you only have one life. No need to spend it on waiting. Happy late/early birthday! Stay safe
same. but don’t worry okay? if he doesn’t do anything, drop you're. he’s not ment to be. it’s hard to drop someone you care, and love very much. but, you need to accept reality and do it. do what’s best. i hope you find someone that would talk to you daily, love you and give you all the attention you deserve.
She used to tell me “I love you” and it was the most innocent and heartfelt 3 words she would say to me. She meant it. She really loved me and wanted to be together. Only thing was, I didn’t know she meant it as a friend. She played me so hard I couldn’t see what she was doing to me..and today, she said it. She said “ I love you” and it..it just breaks me to remember I’m going to be by her side no matter what and she just lies to me every day with those stupid words. Dear Sophia, I love you and it’s okay..I know you’ll never love me. I’m proud of you for who you are, but I know now you’ll never get it. God bless all the people sharing their stories in the comments❤️
I met a girl named Lillian. Me and her would hang out everyday. She helped me with a lot. We hugged,we cuddled,we laughed together. Then I watched her slowly fade out into the distance with another girl. Eventually,she forgot I existed and I was left to have nothing but the memories of me and her.
@@silas537 sometimes we realize how friends we are with someone when we’re not forced together (school) (and yeah Ik it’s hard when not seeing each other everyday) We’re out there together and forced everyday, what about outside of school?, if it was rlly good, y’all would’ve talked everyday outside of school, we to lots of places even b4 that. Just thinking of that alone, makes me realize that I have basically no friends, I talk to a lot of peeps yes, but I don’t have a good strong connection with anyone and it’s jsut sad. These peeps are rlly my friends by jsut looking at it, we talk everyday at school, yeahsir, after, nah, it even takes them the longest to respond thru text or most of the time, never, yeah we’re not real friends, u can’t hurt an over-thinker, bcuz I’ve already seen it coming, and it’s about to be here in one week, summer time, the same thing, nothing after school, my birthday is coming up, but *tbh I don’t even want to do anything with my two friends* *bcuz why does it have to take my birthday to do something with y’all, huh? It’s jsut sad when u think about it. There was a time where we jsut wanted to go to the movies me and my friend was good on something, then the third one didn’t even respond, like I don’t get why it’s that hard , BRO WE ARE NOT FRIENDS, Y’ALL ARE JSUT WHAT I GOT 😔 But I’m going to high school next year, bye, hopefully it’s better, cuz it was my first year there too
i sat here and listened to the whole thing. i have no idea what came over me but it seemed like every emotion at once. it seriously made me dizzy and i started crying, not sure why. but now i can't sleep. tomorrow will be better
currently sitting at my window, it’s raining. listening to this masterpiece and reading all the comments. wondering where is the old me, liking the sun and caring about everything.
When you realise you’ve been drawing for an hour.. dude thank you. Your a legend. You made me feel worth something and to anyone else reading this, your doing great. never give up.
Imagine🖤 WARNING- a bit depressing,possible triggers of things happening in your past?? (I put it there just in case of any reason) You get home from school and walk to your room. You slide your bookbag off your shoulder and slump into bed. You stare at the blank ceiling feeling empty and cold. You couldn't figure out why you don't feel as much happy as you use too. All you wanted was to go back in the younger days of everything being fun. You think about how your teachers tried there best to make everything fun and following trends. They wanted you too feel like a kid while it lasted cause they know your not gonna be the same person they once knew you were. You look back at old photos in yearbooks of good days,happy days. You see your old friends and friend groups that now kind of parted because of personal problems or drama. You had a problem of letting go so you kept everything that each friend has given you. You only have three close friends that you trust dearly but still struggle to trust cause of issues. From losing people you became clingy. You remember how fun P.E used to be and how much motivation you had back then. You remember being so happy and care free,how you hated school,and hanging out with each of your friends,making your classmates smile. You missed the fun events and outside recess. Playing tag,hide and seek,or any other fun game. You remember those weird hand clap rhyme games that just randomly come into your life,becoming a memory. You look outside of your clear window with a tear slowly rolling down your cheek,feeling cold and empty. You miss the days of playing with your toys or playing old kid games. Playing house,kitchen or anything that was fun to you . You start to remember how slime,fidget spinners,and so many other things being a part of your life. How society has changed inlcuding the way peoples are now a days. All you ever wanted was to be in a carefree world where there was no toxic people or judgemental people. A world where people can enjoy what they love or how they are,how they want to dress,what they want to be,be who they want to be. You realize it started to rain a bit but gradually became slightly heavy. Thunder coming from the clouds,flashing and banging. You walk outside in your hoodie and sweatpants and sit in the middle of the road staring up at the sky with your back on the ground facing up. Luckily,there were barely anyone driving because of the rain and most of the lightening hazards appearing on peoples phones. You stare and let the rain fall on you,not giving a care of getting your clothing wet. Your hair becoming more damp and cold,your face covered in drops from the sky. You grow goosebumps from how cold the rain is and shiver. You close your eyes and breath slowly,remembering how your parents told you to be a kid while it lasted. You started to break down in multiple tears as too what feels like you made a pool of sadness. You wanted to be happy again,be carefree,hangout with old friends,no drama,nothing to make you feel unhappy. You sat in the road crying until it was dark outside,still raining. You then calmed down and sat in silence for a bit. Breathing gently and then walking back inside.
Y’know... this kinda reminds me of CoryxKenshin, remember when he was playing that one Japanese game where this person in the red cloak would chase him ? I think it’a called Monto ? Idk, but every time I listen to this, that video would always pop up into my head. Haha, miss Cory. Hope he’s doing well.
This song reminds me of going to the pond with my siblings and my heart shaped bowls with a Disney princesses design and dressing up as silvermist from tinkerbell with my old friends who are long gone
ive loved this girl for the longest time, she was my best friend, but recently she decided to just throw me away like i was nothing, she abandoned me, the history we had together, the fun times, all gone because she didnt need me anymore
I’ve made so many friends….I’ve always thought that they cared about me…..but when ever I stop hanging out with them they never bother to come and check on me they never will not even for 11 years..nobody does…I never can reach out for help…and my thoughts have gotten worse..I wish I had somebody so special..that would always be clingy to me..always check up on me…and always would been there for me on my darkest moments..and always never fails to make me smile….maybe I should just stop trying and just stay at home 24/7 scrolling through yt watching everybody enjoy there life….especially my friends…they seem like they don’t need me anymore…..nobody seems like they need me in their life..I wish I could of stayed as a child like the good old times…
A little bit on how I feel but in a different perspective. Trigger warning for flashbacks and such. You realize that as you get older, things change. Too fast. It hurts. Your friend groups split, forcing you to take a side, but you can't. So you're just left there alone. Year after year, things get harder and harder as time goes on. You find it hard to make new friends and your social skills slowly decrease. Wasn't I happy before? What happened? Then you remember the drama in your friend groups that tore you down. You remember being left on your own. Why? Why me? The empty feeling slowly encroaches like storm clouds bringing a heavy rain. You realize you're alone. You try to make friends, but you get spoken over and ignored. Now and then you message your old friends, but find out things have drastically changed since you last spoke. They've grown up while you're living in the past. Stuck, left behind, and alone. Thank you for reading.
That feeling of looking at the ceiling of your room listening to rain land on the windows. That feeling of wanting to cry but you just cant. That feeling of knowing that it's all meaningless. It just doesn't feel worth it anymore I've got no one to vent to it's just hard.
Imagine: You're walking up the steps, already hearing the pattering of the rain as you get closer to the doors outside. You take three more steps, already feeling the difference in temperature, the small traces of water already leaking through the door's broken seals. You push down on the handle slowly, hearing it squeal from grinding metal that's not been oiled in a long while. You hear the rain better now, stepping out, the door groaning even more. The smell hits you, that smell of rain hitting warm pavement. The door clicks behind you, having closed. You stand under the awning, covering a small area just over the doors. You hear the different thudding of rain on top, hitting the tarp, the rest of the rain hitting the ground with little splat sounds. You look out over the view, despite the rain clouds, you can see the sun setting in the distance. The school bells go off announcing the end of any club activities for the day. The tones playing in four notes, a familiar one. You walk out into the rain, feeling the cold drops fall into your skin, like cold little shocks. Your eyes flutter shut for a moment, soaking in the rain, looking up to it can grace your face with it's cool comfort. You look ahead again, opening your eyes, the water dripping through your now wet hair. You continue to take more steps, wanting to sit down on the edge. You gently kneel down, sliding your shoes off and then swinging your feet over the edge. Your legs and bottom now soaked from the wet pavement, but you don't mind it. You lean back on your hands, kicking your feet back and forth over the edge, hitting the side of the building almost in a rhythm. Like making music with the rain, humming a small melody to accompany it. Like the four similar notes to the school bell. Absorbed in your own world, you don't notice that you don't feel the rain on your shoulders and head anymore. You raise your eyebrows, looking up and to your left, a presence being felt. You look confused, before a small smile breaks over your face. They were there, sheltering you from the rain. It was silly, since you were already soaked, but you didn't mind, the gesture was kind and thoughtful. Instead, you pay next to you, wanting them to sit down. They stand there, a moment of hesitation before making a small sigh and shaking their head, like they thought you were daft. Despite it, they pull the umbrella back and close it, placing it down. They take off their shoes as well and sit down next to you. They stare at you for a moment, then out at the dusk in the distance. You look to the same light, gently leaning against them. You didn't know what to say in this moment. Maybe you shouldn't have said anything, but it was something that needed to be said. It didn't matter anymore, it was so long ago. But they were simple words you never got to say, so you'd say them now. "....I loved you...."
Omg, this story fits this song perfectly. I don’t think id have enough courage to sit on the edge of a building though, especially with all these like rumors about people, and hateful things being said, who wouldn’t have grudges against others. I’d be to afraid someone would push me or something along those lines 😬
thank you, for making this and a other thank you to the comments, I now know I'm not the only one suffering in silence, all of us are..these comments have thrown me back into my past thinking of all the good, and happy things, a real big thank you to each and every single one of you, I love you all equally!
As children we would have done anything to become adults, to have responsibilities....now as adults we would have done anything to be kids again, to be carefree, happy, and not worrying what would happen to us or the world. A time where we didn't care how we look or what other people might think of us. Now most of us are regretting what we could have done. But past is past and we can't really do anything about it but to go forward.
Hearing this reminds me of when you just close your eyes and go in to your mind, but there's nothing else there besides pain, sadness, and the hope of getting better that you've hidden away in the archives.
There was a VERY dark period for me when I cried everyday and never left my bed for 4 months.I finally got out of bed and got help.But even when I’m getting help, I still just want to disappear. And it’s so frustrating that I feel so numb, I have the urge to scream and cry, but nothing comes out. So all I can do is sit in a quiet, cold, dark room with my face buried in my knees. Everyone says to wait and it gets better but it’s been about 7 years of suffering and I’m a senior in highschool now. Ive had no motivation and been alone all this time and it’s so scary when I know I have to grow up and do things on my own. I never knew I was going to make it this far…
I’m so tired. Tired of people. People take, that’s all I’ve seen. I’m so tired. I gave everything for them, and it wasn’t enough. It was never enough. (Ty for this video, it rlly helped.)
Sorry to hear that. You are always enough. You are a good person. Dont say you aren't enough. Some people just dont recognize your worth. Stay strong!!
youtube sometimes gets personal with their comments like, very very personal. So far dude, ur the only one replying to them so huge thanks to you :> hope u have a great time!
This give me the feeling when you have some memories of you and your old friends that come back to your mind and then realise that they never really cared about you and you where always the one trying to make everyone feel comfortable and happy. And then you start realising that maybe it was your fault all along because you never really tried to speak to them again because you lost hope. I’m sorry
To my mom I still love you Please come home Me and your other kids are waiting for your cookies We are waiting for you to put the radio on We are waiting for you to tell us to help clean the house because guests are coming over We are waiting for you to tell us it’s movie night We are waiting for the smell of your food you make We are waiting for you to come back
We as kids were so happy to grow up because we get to anything we want and be able to drive and buy our own stuff and go to high school. but we never knew how stressful life was gonna be... our parents always told us never grow up fast but we didn't listen I'm now 15 and I'm barely able too speak to people irl and have no motivation for anything. I'm graduating late..
It’s interesting to see all these different paths of life all coming to one destination which is heartbreak but what people don’t understand is that u can turn anything into positivity it’s all about perspective.
there’s this ominous feeling i can’t shake off of me. something lingering over me, covering me like a weighted blanket, holding me down. i’ve tried and fought so hard against it but i’m on my knees, crippled, now. i’ve lost everybody, i can’t trust my family, my best friend left me for someone else, i’m being forced to not love someone who i thought i would spend the rest of my life with. my heart feels empty, desperate, alone, and cold. im confused, as to who i can trust, if anybody, because everybody’s already broken it. im losing sight of who i am, or at least, who i once was. i’m just getting dragged further and further, and it’s to the point to where it’s all the same now, just a daily routine, happening over and over again. anyways, sorry for anybody reading this, i just needed somewhere to get some of my thoughts out or else i’ll just internally combust
I'm not an expert about love, but I think I love her, I couldn't imagine my life without her I'd give my life for her at any point. but the only reason I'm not dating her is because what if it's just a phase? and I stop liking her within the next few weeks. I can't be there for her in the way she wants me to either, and I don't wanna ruin the friendship we already have together. you'll never see this but that's ok. I love you, ela.
recently, i lost my bestfriend. and it hurts like hell. i found out a few days ago he had passed due to an od. we had our whole lives planned out. once we turned 18, we were going to move in with each other. we were basically going to spend the rest of our lives together. but i guess God had other plans. i can still remember the day on his 16th birthday, he got his first car. it was a 1969 chevy camaro. nice ass car haha. we took our first ride to the beach. i feels as if it were yesterday. but now he's gone. love you brandon. always remember you bro!
Remember when we were happy Remember when a rainbow wasn’t called gay Remember when we wouldn’t judge our looks Remember when school was fun Remember when we thought our dad shoulders were the tallest thing Remember when we would act asleep so we can be carried inside by our mom/dad Remember when we thought the moon was following us *Remember when we were happy*
idk what it is but when i think about myself getting older and going to have to get a job i… i’m just scared of the future and what’s ahead of me. idk it might sound dumb…
That moment when you want to let it all out but your so used to being numb and not letting it out it just.. doesn’t happen.. and you can’t let it out.. it’s stuck there.
You still have time to fix it. You just live once, we all die anyways. Kind of morbid but don’t worry it will be okay, the world will still spin regardless if she forgives you or not. You will be okay
lol i remember now when i had my birthday at a hospital and had to get my iv redone (i absolutely hate needles) and after getting out of the hospital, i cried for a few months. i was doing online school the whole time until the last day of school/field day. the first half of the day they gave me a replacement birthday and the second half was field day. i was so happy i really love my school:)
i remember when i first truley loved someone. i remember all the times we hung out, all the memories we made, all the dinners we shared together at my house. I remember all the times we would hang out at my house and then just have her stay for dinner to afterwards, and drived her home after, and how she would always say bye like a million times, and then text me after saying "had fun! :)" and i would see it and smile. i remember all the times when we were at my house laying down together, i would lay down in between her legs, my head resting on her chest, or sometimes she would lay on me and we would watch netflix. but most importantly, i remember how she made me feel safe. she made me feel warm inside, like there was a beam of sunshine in me when she and i hung out. she made me feel better for the time we would talk. she could switch my mood in a second.... why did she leave???
this song feels like when you get to such a drained and tired mindset and start to care less ab everything, and stay in bed longer every day, eat less and less, become unhappier with yourself as you fall back into the hole u tried to climb out of.
I appreciate you so much bro, this music helped me go through a lot ... the word thank you isn't enough for you keep doing what you're doing *legend* ♥
She made me feel like it was my fault and I told her everything would be okay. It was a hidden cost I had to pay. I now see her at school sometimes, practically everyday. As if some unknown boundary exists between us, I’m glad she keeps her distance, knows exactly when and where to stay away. “I really need someone to talk to”- There was no delay. She could’ve easily spoken to me after revoking the block, but no, there was no relay. I don’t know why I was so gullible, things like that are more subtle than a stray. To anyone reading this: I wish beautiful moments to come your way.
“suicide doesnt stop the pain, it gives it to someone else..” I lost and uncle from suicide in 2018, i never knew he was suffering from depression, or that he committed.. i was told he was sick and died from that. I overheard my grandparents talking about him- thats how i learned the hard way of how he truly died. i was furious of him after that. But i still have no idea if he did die of suicide… my ears might’ve been playing tricks.
" you make me wanna go to sleep. " he says after flirting with another girl. "your boring" he says after i try so hard to do fun things with him. " her body is like a stick, ew. " he says about a girl in a photo, me knowing thats my body type. and yet i still love him so much.. words hurt rigo. words really fucking hurt.
the words and hurt a lot are or sound like bullets from a gun in your heart and also in your mind and your conscience and I think that before saying people should think well before what they are going to say I think it is better to ignore these things than these types of people say it's not worth the ball
loss. at some point in time everyone experiences loss. it’s such a simple feeling of emptiness. of desperation when all feels wrong. yet so complex. that feeling of when you lose someone close to you. you fall out of love. you fall in love with someone you know you can’t have. it hits you. but what’s more painful then loss itself if dealing with it. it’s a fact that the world doesn’t stop for anyone. so even at your lowest. it never stops. and some people never fully recover. in the event that you are to be facing loss head on, they’re is no guarantee that you’ll come out the other end. they’re won’t be a safety net to fall on. something to rely on. because as cruel as it is, you have no one but yourself. nothing is forever. not the people you love, not your friends. not the internet. not even you. in your life time, you are all you have. people come and go. they’re is no way of telling when the clock runs out and your overdue. someone once said that people always want a magical solution to all they’re problems yet they refuse to believe in magic. that’s just how life is. it won’t stop for you. it won’t want for you to pick yourself off the ground and dust yourself off. that’s not how it works. and for that i’m incredibly proud of you. with everything i just mentioned you still manage to be here. today. right now. and although everyone is in a different boat sailing through the waves life throws at you, it’s damn impressive that you’ve survived this long. that we as humans have evolved to stand here right low. so thank you. xoxo, mikayla
I miss my cat.. I miss going outside and seeing him on his bed all snuggled up I miss giveing him cuddles I miss him resting on my shoulders I miss him not being there for me when i need him I miss playing with him I miss him coming to greet me everyday I miss him like crazy.. but i need to learn to move on no matter how much it hurts.. i know hes waiting up in heaven for me.. my time will come soon and finally i can be with my one true friend
I guess since everyone is telling their story- i'd like to tell mine. This song reminds me of my grandmother who always took the time to love me, care for me, treated me like the only child on earth. Knowing we were in a house with 5 other kids who did not love me as they did their own siblings. To them I was disposable, Not to my grandmother though. She told me I had potential and not just any but the kind who could turn peoples lives into a whole different view. She told me I was the good in their sadness and as hopeless as anyone could be she told me i could change that. I had a wonderful life and i still do. Amazing mom, most- precious family and a very special best friend. Sometimes i feel like i've still failed her though, when i think about it it's always "i wish you could have came back, why did you leave me?, why did you leave without saying goodbye to me??". It broke my heart entirely, I have a corrupted family down in Texas, that's the family i don't relate myself to. My fathers side. Many birthdays past, Christmas's, special holidays. Not a word from my father, he was supposed to love me. He was supposed to be the one who cared about me, no- his mental health mattered more. I never liked being in a garage, That's where he was most of the time. Pushing me away, handing me over to someone else who took the time to actually care about me. Until she left me, my father got to see it. My whole other family got to see it. Me who cared about her in no other way anyone else could. I didn't see it. I wasn't there when she needed me most. How could i be so blind?. She always looked at me always smiled. I remember this watch she got me for Christmas. My father wasn't there he was locked up. Nobody else really gave me presents except my grandmother. It was a Minnie mouse watch, red, black, and white. Even had the little bow Minnie always wears on it. As clumsy and stupid as i was i broke it the next day. That watch didn't mean as much back then because i was only a kid, but remembering back on it. I regret breaking that watch. It was the only thing i had of her. Nobody sent me anything of hers, not even her ashes. I CARED ABOUT HER THE MOST. I DID. and everyone looked at me like a joke because i was only 7. My father only recently started talking to me. My mother has a hatred for him so i keep it secret. He was never there for me when i needed him most, i always needed him because out of that household they kept me in i was no one. I had nobody else after my grandmother. He could make up for it but he's always got something better to do then talk to his own daughter- or so he claims. I stopped talking to them all of them. i was the type of kid whose parents split and went back and forth moving from one place to another because they had their differences. One day after i turned 9 i came back to my moms place, she was in a really bad state without me. She got so angered when my father called her that night. She yelled at me in rage "You can pick who you want to be with so who is it?! Say it now! tell him you want to be with me and want nothing to do with him. I was in shock, I had just got back and my mother was yelling at me about staying. I had no choice i was better off with her anyways. Now i'm going through so much more and thinking about it, maybe i was better off begging my mother not to let my dad go. None of it really turned out well in the end but i stay and stand proud being who i am to go through what ever is happening. Maybe my family hated me, Maybe my father didn't pay me any attention, Maybe just maybe- My grandmother left without saying goodbye. But i know and i try to be the most amazing little girl she saw when she first looked at me. I want to make her proud and show her that her attempts weren't useless after all. that maybe i would become something in other peoples lives. and i did. And i was happy. sorry if this was pretty long i just really wanted to share this- To anyone who is going through just- god awful things. you're not alone and you CAN get through this, you don't have to be perfect you, you don't have to be someone else. You can be you and accomplish things nobody ever believed you could. You May struggle and you may hurt. But these challenges are what make you strong as a individual person. I promise you'll be something great!, and when you're name is up in lights and everyone sees your talent. You can say "i did this, I did this on my own. just me. And I'm proud."
I know this was commented 10 months ago.. but I read this entire thing and im glad I found this comment and I hope you're doing well. im sorry you were the one who had to go through this.. but we all have to go through stuff in our life, right?
@@RlXXIA Thank you so much that means a lot, I’ve been doing amazing lately. You’re right we all go through things I’m hoping everyone else has the strength to get through as much as i do. I hope you’re doing well also!! and thank you again
@@Holly-ng9ti I didnt know u were gonna reply so quickly! im going through stuff myself and the end of the comment helped me out a little so thank you c: im glad you're doing well and of course, you're welcome. you have a good day too!
Dude huge respect to you , not only did you upload this masterpiece but you also help the people that watch it in the comments? You're a Legend and i hope you're having a great time right now
Thanks bro this comment actually just made my day even better 😂😂 hope everything is good for you 💯
@@jay1k308 Im glad that i was able to help and yeah , im fine atm , thanks for asking ! ^^
That's a good video you give off I respect you bro
Sry ment vibe not video
That is a good vibe you give off I I respect bro auto correct
*Sitting beside the window, Rain*
It's 3 AM and you suddenly woke up but you don't know why, so your reflexes make you do your usual routine, alone breakfast, getting dressed, sitting at the window. You notice the clock on the Wall, it's on 3, then you also notice how dark it is outside, you see some rain drops outside in the darkness. The sound of the rain on your window is the only thing you hear besides the complete silence. You remember you gotta go to school in a few hours but don't mind it anyway, so you take your coat and your keys and slowly go outside without energy. In front of the door, you walk into the rain, step by step, somehow the rain on your hair and coat feels relaxing, it gives you a feeling of loneliness, melancholy and a bit of sadness. You go sit on a bench, it's still raining, thinking back to your childhood remembering the good old days, you start tearing up a little bit, the tears rolling down your cheeks feel a bit different than the rain. The rain slowly starts to stop, you go back inside, sit beside the window again and wait... just wait... then it's time you have to go to school but somehow, you don't want to, so you stay sitting on your chair beside the window, thinking about how school currently goes, might not have much friends and not doing anything, learning less and less. So you skipped school... what now? Do you want to go tomorrow? Probably not. You ask yourself while staring out the window: Why am i living the same day over and over? Why do i feel so empty all the time? The only thing that fills your soul is sitting beside the window.
thanks for reading.
bro that was powerful damn thanks :))
Alr wait gimme 50hrs to read this
I read it nom me cry I wanna do it i wanna go outside in the street at 3am in the rain and just think about life and wonder around 😔 my life is the same the same and same thing it's like having a dream over and over again 😔 it's just a not explainable feeling😢😭
@@bartplayzzz8824 feelings are sometimes too powerful ;-;
duude, i got the sale thoughts yesterday 1am..
UA-cam has the most sad comments that made me cry than any other app I’ve been on….
Let this be a zone where you can get your feelings out I hope everything gets better for you
Exactly
5.q 06,no hay que te quiero dije me dijo muy ocupada en un poco triste porque me dijo mañana por el teléfono y me dijo ya te dije,la mayoría son mujeres en la tarde y me dormí en un mensaje a hpmi hermana 7h 7
just life sucks tbh.
@@BurningSorrows yes sir
this is a type of song i would listen to if i want to cry but i can't
Same
It’s like I feel like crying but I can’t
@@jasminejones5690 it just feels like you shed all your tears already
@@jasminejones5690 same
Yesterday I was thinking about the girl I love.. I heard this music, and I felt asleep, thinking bout her
Today..I skipped school, I was just walking out of the town, in the rain. Directly to the mountains. I was listening to this, and the view was beautiful. Too bad I'm at home again.
That actually sounds like a w I might have to do the same
thats plan a for me just walk and walk and walk going no where just walking enjoying the world allways seeing new places and people but never saying to ling i dont want to ever be somewhere for long
I could never do that. My school is in Downtown Stockton CA. It’d be a Miracle for me to make it out of Downtown in one piece. There’s even a place there called “Zombie Street” and considering Stockton’s reputation, I just hope you can understand what that means.
“you’ve exceeded my expectations! well done!”
- people
“but how can that matter when i’ll never exceed or remotely meet my own expectations? how can you be proud of me when i’ve barely done anything? i can be so much better at school, in sports-god, my social skills are so goddamn awful too.”
*how can you be proud of me when i’m not even proud of myself?*
TW: SH i relate to this so much.
it got to the point where i couldn’t take it anymore. i felt constantly stared at and never good enough. my insomnia got really bad and my social anxiety went higher than ever. i ended up doing sh. (didnt put it for reasons-) i needed help.
i’m currently getting help. i promise it can make you feel better. i understand things may not look like that right now, but i can say for sure that it WILL get better. i love you
@@user-pl1px1os1r im so happy to hear that you’re feeling better. i don’t have much to rant about, it’s just the classic *im the eldest sibling so i have to be the good example and get the best grades and be amazing at sports* and then my parents complain when im tired all the time.
thanks for reaching out to me, we relate to each other a lot through the social anxiety part, and it’s good closure to know that it’s not only me who feels this way. again, thank you
@@hailey.elayne no problem at all. i know how it feels to be extremely low and i’m here to talk if you need it. and totally understandable. being expected to set an example for a your siblings is hard work. sometimes i wish i could do stuff without being criticised or having people pay heed to my actions all the time. remember you’re loved and you’re not alone. 🖤
@@user-pl1px1os1r thank you so much. i just got home from a really tough and exhausting practice so to hear you say that im loved really makes me happy. im always here for you too
@@hailey.elayne of course. you deserve to know that.
too scared to ask anyone out cuz of the fear of rejection or heartbreak... and also ruining the frendship completely.
Nah bro you gotta conquer that, that's the only way to gow and become the person you want to be
im kinda the opposite but like not really, I get scared when people ask me out because sometimes I do like them, and I don't want to ruin the friendship, I just hate the idea of relationships. because of some circumstances in my life I kinda believe nothing lasts and I apply that to relationships 😼
i understand how you feel. but hey- i feel like telling them would be beneficial in two ways:
1) you get it off your chest so it doesn’t bother you forever;
2) (sort of relates to the 1) one) maybe turns out they like you back, it will make you feel so much better knowing that you said something. even if they dont like you back, at least be proud of the fact that you were brave enough to come forward with your feelings. its def not easy but accepting rejection and failure is a vital thing in life. destiny has bound you with the right person. i’m sure they’ll come along sooner or later :) don’t beat yourself up if someone doesn’t like you back the way you like them. it’s gonna be ok :))
@@paigemccollough5488 ye
Im scared to ask anyone out cause i was rejected 4 times
remember how when we were young and made fun of people because they were looking for someone to date and love? it turns out... most of us became that person...
it’s like looking for light in a dark room. maybe one day you’ll find someone or something to make your life brighter :(
I though you were russel macneil ryan :(
Holy shit that was deep....
This was deep asf
@@jay1k308 i know it’s sad asf 😵💫
It's crazy how I used to have a crush on this person for 6 years. And the fact that I still love them with all my heart, somebody already has them.
Same
6 years means you loved them
@@rathouse101 Deeply loved them with all my heart
I knew what you mean but I had to let them go because they didn’t see me as that and sucked seeing them happy with someone else
same 8 years and he found a gf and his gf even told me she would never date him… and now look at them
Laying in bed staring at the ceiling while slowly giving up..I cant physically keep living like this but I cant get better..
hey don’t give up i know things are tough and it hurts a lot but please don’t.. life can get really tough and it hurts but the thing is life is special and you just have to take a step i’m sorry for anything you have gone through but i promise it will get better
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I hope things have gotten better for you since
Jesus is near to you🩷 just turn to Him🫂
Pov: its June of 2002, you've just gotten home from you're last day of school & summer has begun, only to see that it was raining late in the afternoon. Ur parent(s) makes you you're favorite snack as you do you're favorite activity inside the nice warm house. Life was good..
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@@tsiaa6790 ik right, but hey the new memories that will happen & new experences will be fun as hell (i cant spell bc i type to quick)
it's crazy how we can share our problems with online strangers but not with family or friends.
it just feels more comfortable and there’s people out there that actually understand and can relate to a problem we’re having
@@melissag5310 maybe man
fr:/
That is crazy
@@jay1k308 because bro
That’s right. I loved u, didn’t love me back...
@Gary Feola hmmmm
Seems kinda sus
@Gary Feola bot
@Luciano Ernest bot
☹️:(
My parents hated me
So here i am
No ones gonna see this, but I truly think. I’ll be single for my whole life and I’m fine with it....
hey i did man its ok
Ye me too
Same here.
With a bad mindset comes bad things not so jus try to stay positive love isn’t for everybody dawg n thas aight jus kno u did good enough tryin💯🙌🏽
same boat..
I don’t think I love someone else, I can’t even love myself. You cannot blame people that don’t love you back.. they just don’t.
*its 2 am, you and your nephew play minecraft after a school day. you were so damn happy and cant remember the last time u were happy now*
it’s 3 in the morning tired from sleep deprivation you get up and go to sit on your porch you light a cigarette and it start to rain “where did my life go” you think to yourself. you used to have so many friends you used to laugh and play and run around cheerfully now here you are alone remembering the friends and lovers you had in the past wondering what they are doing and why they left “i loved you” you say out loud now sobbing feeling a lonely void in your chest “i loved you all so much” where did time go ?
one thing i've learned as you gotta enjoy life bro.... instead of asking where did time go enjoy the now, make things happen now life is no where near over enjoy it!
(a sadly wholesome comment) *MENTIONS OF SUI*DE
I fell so hard in love. I can't believe it. 4 months of knowing him, and the entire time he knew he loved me too. I was so tired and depressed, but when i met him, it changed. I became happy. afterschool we gamed the night away. All leading up to tonight. The night where we confirmed our relationship. I told him yesterday (as of 5/16/21) that i caught feelings, and i broke down in tears because i though he'd never like me back, that i was gonna get rejected per usual. but no. He loves me. And i love him. We're dating, and i love him so much, all i wanna do is be around him. He saved me from suicide, and i can't thank him enough. he treated me like a person when i needed it most.
Congratulations 😁 but... don't rely on someone else for your happiness you have to be happy with you at the end of the day
Not me can't having this because i'm homosexual in a homophobic place 💀
Jotaro got you... Even tho he killed you.. Your still a warrior to me.
May God bless the both of you
I see all the comments about them being rejected, and I feel kinda bad. like ive always been the person people ask out- I don't like relationships because of reasons and always say no because of that. I know it hurts them and I hate that, but if I had said yes they would be believing a lie and it would put them and myself in a bad position
You fs did the right thing... don't force yourself into anything
Nothing lasts forever, I lost the one person I wanted to be around all the time. The person who gave me a sense of life and cared for me all the time. I bottle this up because no one knows who they are. Nobody cares about them except for me. I wasn't able to help them when they needed me. My happiness in life is forever gone. I'd rather not be here, but they're in a happy place. For now, I'll be happy for both of us.
She made me feel like she would never hurt me, she made me feel safe, and I felt loved, for the first damn time I actually felt loved by this “girl of my dreams” then she cheats on me with two guys, my best friend asked her out right after we broke up, ruined that friendship, exposed me, and replaced me. It’s like she doesn’t remember everything fucking memory we made, it’s like in her head I was just a fucking dream, one moment your having it, then you wake up and forget all of it.
i just wanted her. only her. she was my sense of pride, joy, and she was their when i needed to rant. she never told me what was on her mind and what was bothering her though. but yesterday, we split up. she wanted out because we weren’t meant. she wanted the best for me, but she never knew that the best was her. i miss her a lot, and i’m going to be crying for awhile
listen she aint you, she was a heavy influence on you, but she isnt you, she shouldnt be your pride and joy, she cant control that. You are yourself, shes not you. If you keep thinking of her the weight on your back will get heavier, you just need to forget and get your mind off of it.
@@thornemusic thanks man. yesterday for some reason she texted me and called me. i answered back like an idiot. im sorry i let you down. i'll try to forget and move on. i'm going to learn from this that i don't miss her. i miss the idea of her. thanks homie
Don't trust anyone with your feelings, never.
@@Blocktacke yes, i learned that the hard way. thank you though
@@glueyyyy You welcome, take care.
i didn't know that i needed this so bad in my life until now. i'm going to sleep right now, with this melody surrounding my ears, my heart. good night, everyone.
How was your sleep? ^^
*this brings out an emotion that shouldn’t be real*
it hurts seeing people living their best lives with friends while im always in my bed just watching them through a screen. wish i had friends
Damn this is fucked up ..... I'm srry bro if you ever need anyone I'm here
Yo, if you need a friend, I can try to help you :D
you and me both
been in your spot for the past 15,i later discovered that i was the reason why iam always left behind,once i improved my self physically and mentally i had the life i always dreamed
@@abdullamohammed_ how do you do that when you have mental illness that causes you to stay left behind.
I have depression, bipolar, adhd. It’s hard.
anyone know the feeling where they wanna cry but cant...
yep... and the only thing that has broken that wall for me is thinking how i can't be like anyone else and when i want to cry with everyone else i would not be able to
I let it all out so I can’t anymore
Damn I thought I was the only one...
I hope everything is better now!! can we get an update??
@@tspil Same w you I hope everything is better now!! do you have an update?
This is what realizing you're falling back into depression feels like
Nothing makes sense anymore 💔
I’ve been rejected every time I liked someone but now I’m just numb to it all
Srry to hear that bro... one day you'll find someone who appreciates you for you!
I understand, i am at the point where i don’t really believe in love for myself anymore
Bro i wish you all the happiness, im sure you are a beautiful person and im sure you will find someone who love you, don’t give, up look forward to the future, love yourself and take care
@@missann0316 That’s rough but keep you head up ❤️
@@kalane45pc really thank you I needed that you take care too❤️
People always told us it's fun being young but it's never fun watching someone you loved for years leave and not look back
Yeah
Agree bro same shit
losing a bsf bc they changed and got influenced by the wrong people hurts.
@@Elin524 thank you sm bae :(
I know exactly what that feels like, I am so sorry that happened to you, I’m here for you.
@@Partyrockingvoid thank you :)
Going through this right now, it’s so fucking painful. It’s like I’m suffocating.
@@silas537 nothing lasts forever, you must understand that.
i hate feeling like this. i've grown attached to him but he's not gonna text me and i know it. it's okay, he's probably just busy. i just wish he'd talk to me like he did before, my birthday is coming up but i wouldn't be surprised if he forgets or if he just doesn't talk to me.. i miss him.
I hope everything works out but don;t stress too much the moment you stop stressing and worrying about it is when everything gets easier
I was in the same situation. If he can't simply bother to talk to you don't wait. Ik it might seem hard but I wasted 3 years of my life waiting for some toxic fuck. Maybe it isn't the same situation, but you only have one life. No need to spend it on waiting. Happy late/early birthday! Stay safe
same. but don’t worry okay? if he doesn’t do anything, drop you're. he’s not ment to be. it’s hard to drop someone you care, and love very much. but, you need to accept reality and do it. do what’s best. i hope you find someone that would talk to you daily, love you and give you all the attention you deserve.
She used to tell me “I love you” and it was the most innocent and heartfelt 3 words she would say to me. She meant it. She really loved me and wanted to be together. Only thing was, I didn’t know she meant it as a friend. She played me so hard I couldn’t see what she was doing to me..and today, she said it. She said “ I love you” and it..it just breaks me to remember I’m going to be by her side no matter what and she just lies to me every day with those stupid words.
Dear Sophia, I love you
and it’s okay..I know you’ll never love me.
I’m proud of you for who you are, but I know now you’ll never get it.
God bless all the people sharing their stories in the comments❤️
Don't let yourself get used bro.... no matter who it is... your a person and deserve to be happy
I met a girl named Lillian. Me and her would hang out everyday. She helped me with a lot. We hugged,we cuddled,we laughed together. Then I watched her slowly fade out into the distance with another girl. Eventually,she forgot I existed and I was left to have nothing but the memories of me and her.
Sorry for your loss. it happens unfortunately :/
Dam ;(
Went through this exact thing with a girl. Best friends for 8 years but I got homeschooled and I guess she found a replacement. It fucking sucks.
There’s no way she forgot u exist (only its like 20 years later or something, cuz that’s jsut crazy)
@@silas537 sometimes we realize how friends we are with someone when we’re not forced together (school) (and yeah Ik it’s hard when not seeing each other everyday)
We’re out there together and forced everyday, what about outside of school?, if it was rlly good, y’all would’ve talked everyday outside of school, we to lots of places even b4 that.
Just thinking of that alone, makes me realize that I have basically no friends, I talk to a lot of peeps yes, but I don’t have a good strong connection with anyone and it’s jsut sad.
These peeps are rlly my friends by jsut looking at it, we talk everyday at school, yeahsir, after, nah, it even takes them the longest to respond thru text or most of the time, never, yeah we’re not real friends, u can’t hurt an over-thinker, bcuz I’ve already seen it coming, and it’s about to be here in one week, summer time, the same thing, nothing after school, my birthday is coming up, but
*tbh I don’t even want to do anything with my two friends*
*bcuz why does it have to take my birthday to do something with y’all, huh?
It’s jsut sad when u think about it.
There was a time where we jsut wanted to go to the movies me and my friend was good on something, then the third one didn’t even respond, like I don’t get why it’s that hard , BRO
WE ARE NOT FRIENDS, Y’ALL ARE JSUT WHAT I GOT
😔
But I’m going to high school next year, bye, hopefully it’s better, cuz it was my first year there too
i sat here and listened to the whole thing. i have no idea what came over me but it seemed like every emotion at once. it seriously made me dizzy and i started crying, not sure why. but now i can't sleep. tomorrow will be better
POV: you look back and remember all the good times you had as a child and then realized how much you've changed...
currently sitting at my window, it’s raining. listening to this masterpiece and reading all the comments. wondering where is the old me, liking the sun and caring about everything.
That actually sounds relaxing....
When you realise you’ve been drawing for an hour.. dude thank you. Your a legend. You made me feel worth something and to anyone else reading this, your doing great. never give up.
Nah thank you bro I hope all goes well for you 💯
@@jay1k308 Thanks! it has been going well. 🫶
This song reminds me of life and how I should be grateful for everything.
There’s always someone who’s in a situation worse than u, gotta be grateful for everything u get
The pain in ur heart is temporary
So dont dwell on it forever
fax
i love him man. everything ab him. his smile everything, it’s been a heart and every piece of love my heart holds goes to him.
Imagine🖤
WARNING- a bit depressing,possible triggers of things happening in your past??
(I put it there just in case of any reason)
You get home from school and walk to your room. You slide your bookbag off your shoulder and slump into bed. You stare at the blank ceiling feeling empty and cold. You couldn't figure out why you don't feel as much happy as you use too. All you wanted was to go back in the younger days of everything being fun. You think about how your teachers tried there best to make everything fun and following trends. They wanted you too feel like a kid while it lasted cause they know your not gonna be the same person they once knew you were. You look back at old photos in yearbooks of good days,happy days. You see your old friends and friend groups that now kind of parted because of personal problems or drama. You had a problem of letting go so you kept everything that each friend has given you. You only have three close friends that you trust dearly but still struggle to trust cause of issues. From losing people you became clingy. You remember how fun P.E used to be and how much motivation you had back then. You remember being so happy and care free,how you hated school,and hanging out with each of your friends,making your classmates smile. You missed the fun events and outside recess. Playing tag,hide and seek,or any other fun game. You remember those weird hand clap rhyme games that just randomly come into your life,becoming a memory. You look outside of your clear window with a tear slowly rolling down your cheek,feeling cold and empty. You miss the days of playing with your toys or playing old kid games. Playing house,kitchen or anything that was fun to you . You start to remember how slime,fidget spinners,and so many other things being a part of your life. How society has changed inlcuding the way peoples are now a days. All you ever wanted was to be in a carefree world where there was no toxic people or judgemental people. A world where people can enjoy what they love or how they are,how they want to dress,what they want to be,be who they want to be. You realize it started to rain a bit but gradually became slightly heavy. Thunder coming from the clouds,flashing and banging. You walk outside in your hoodie and sweatpants and sit in the middle of the road staring up at the sky with your back on the ground facing up. Luckily,there were barely anyone driving because of the rain and most of the lightening hazards appearing on peoples phones. You stare and let the rain fall on you,not giving a care of getting your clothing wet. Your hair becoming more damp and cold,your face covered in drops from the sky. You grow goosebumps from how cold the rain is and shiver. You close your eyes and breath slowly,remembering how your parents told you to be a kid while it lasted. You started to break down in multiple tears as too what feels like you made a pool of sadness. You wanted to be happy again,be carefree,hangout with old friends,no drama,nothing to make you feel unhappy.
You sat in the road crying until it was dark outside,still raining.
You then calmed down and sat in silence for a bit.
Breathing gently and then walking back inside.
Great now im crying 😍but seriously thanks for this
@@actuallydeceased8786 no problem:) sorry I made you cry:(
@@mo.jitto_ ITS OKI ,really it is plus it was more like crying tears of kinda joy 🖤
I can't read
@@cloudtheclod That's alright:)
6 years, so much time dedicated to you, waiting for you, and dreaming of a future. Yet you can just leave so easily.
this song makes me think of life and my childhood, i feel so nostalgic and knowing that one day im gonna die just kinda hurts
I’m the exact same way man I’m constantly thinking that
That’s deep
LOL and im thinking of kill myself and you thinking of that ,is kinda funny
I love these types of music, it gives me a weird vibe but I like it, it's like feeling lonely but not lonely at the same time and just sounds amazing
Y’know... this kinda reminds me of CoryxKenshin, remember when he was playing that one Japanese game where this person in the red cloak would chase him ? I think it’a called Monto ? Idk, but every time I listen to this, that video would always pop up into my head. Haha, miss Cory. Hope he’s doing well.
Yea I love cory... I model some of my content after him tbh I hope I can become a big goutuber like him one day
Update he never retired 😁🔥
This song reminds me of going to the pond with my siblings and my heart shaped bowls with a Disney princesses design and dressing up as silvermist from tinkerbell with my old friends who are long gone
that actually sounds lit
this song is what deep down pure depression feels like
This is nice to cry to lol, but seriously, thank you for this dude and ur support in the comments :)
Np bro!
ive loved this girl for the longest time, she was my best friend, but recently she decided to just throw me away like i was nothing, she abandoned me, the history we had together, the fun times, all gone because she didnt need me anymore
You need a hugYoshi here have one I might not be your girl or even anything but I’m here with u!
I’ve made so many friends….I’ve always thought that they cared about me…..but when ever I stop hanging out with them they never bother to come and check on me they never will not even for 11 years..nobody does…I never can reach out for help…and my thoughts have gotten worse..I wish I had somebody so special..that would always be clingy to me..always check up on me…and always would been there for me on my darkest moments..and always never fails to make me smile….maybe I should just stop trying and just stay at home 24/7 scrolling through yt watching everybody enjoy there life….especially my friends…they seem like they don’t need me anymore…..nobody seems like they need me in their life..I wish I could of stayed as a child like the good old times…
same
A little bit on how I feel but in a different perspective.
Trigger warning for flashbacks and such.
You realize that as you get older, things change. Too fast. It hurts. Your friend groups split, forcing you to take a side, but you can't. So you're just left there alone. Year after year, things get harder and harder as time goes on. You find it hard to make new friends and your social skills slowly decrease. Wasn't I happy before? What happened? Then you remember the drama in your friend groups that tore you down. You remember being left on your own. Why? Why me? The empty feeling slowly encroaches like storm clouds bringing a heavy rain. You realize you're alone. You try to make friends, but you get spoken over and ignored. Now and then you message your old friends, but find out things have drastically changed since you last spoke. They've grown up while you're living in the past. Stuck, left behind, and alone.
Thank you for reading.
My life in a comment.
So fucking relatable
The feeling when you want to cry but you can't cuz you're numb yet you're in so much pain. Am I the only one?
Everyday feels the same.
This makes me remember all the things i've done in my life and makes me regret them.
I love this. Good job :)
That feeling of looking at the ceiling of your room listening to rain land on the windows. That feeling of wanting to cry but you just cant. That feeling of knowing that it's all meaningless. It just doesn't feel worth it anymore I've got no one to vent to it's just hard.
a lot of people suffer from the same thing. its okay! just keep in mind that everything will be alright :)
Imagine:
You're walking up the steps, already hearing the pattering of the rain as you get closer to the doors outside. You take three more steps, already feeling the difference in temperature, the small traces of water already leaking through the door's broken seals. You push down on the handle slowly, hearing it squeal from grinding metal that's not been oiled in a long while. You hear the rain better now, stepping out, the door groaning even more. The smell hits you, that smell of rain hitting warm pavement. The door clicks behind you, having closed. You stand under the awning, covering a small area just over the doors. You hear the different thudding of rain on top, hitting the tarp, the rest of the rain hitting the ground with little splat sounds. You look out over the view, despite the rain clouds, you can see the sun setting in the distance. The school bells go off announcing the end of any club activities for the day. The tones playing in four notes, a familiar one. You walk out into the rain, feeling the cold drops fall into your skin, like cold little shocks. Your eyes flutter shut for a moment, soaking in the rain, looking up to it can grace your face with it's cool comfort. You look ahead again, opening your eyes, the water dripping through your now wet hair. You continue to take more steps, wanting to sit down on the edge. You gently kneel down, sliding your shoes off and then swinging your feet over the edge. Your legs and bottom now soaked from the wet pavement, but you don't mind it. You lean back on your hands, kicking your feet back and forth over the edge, hitting the side of the building almost in a rhythm. Like making music with the rain, humming a small melody to accompany it. Like the four similar notes to the school bell.
Absorbed in your own world, you don't notice that you don't feel the rain on your shoulders and head anymore. You raise your eyebrows, looking up and to your left, a presence being felt. You look confused, before a small smile breaks over your face. They were there, sheltering you from the rain. It was silly, since you were already soaked, but you didn't mind, the gesture was kind and thoughtful. Instead, you pay next to you, wanting them to sit down. They stand there, a moment of hesitation before making a small sigh and shaking their head, like they thought you were daft. Despite it, they pull the umbrella back and close it, placing it down. They take off their shoes as well and sit down next to you. They stare at you for a moment, then out at the dusk in the distance. You look to the same light, gently leaning against them. You didn't know what to say in this moment. Maybe you shouldn't have said anything, but it was something that needed to be said. It didn't matter anymore, it was so long ago. But they were simple words you never got to say, so you'd say them now. "....I loved you...."
u good?
@@buaischetursun8781 yes, I'm alright. It's just a story that I felt kinda fit
Omg, this story fits this song perfectly. I don’t think id have enough courage to sit on the edge of a building though, especially with all these like rumors about people, and hateful things being said, who wouldn’t have grudges against others. I’d be to afraid someone would push me or something along those lines 😬
thank you, for making this and a other thank you to the comments, I now know I'm not the only one suffering in silence, all of us are..these comments have thrown me back into my past thinking of all the good, and happy things, a real big thank you to each and every single one of you, I love you all equally!
Yea np :)
As children we would have done anything to become adults, to have responsibilities....now as adults we would have done anything to be kids again, to be carefree, happy, and not worrying what would happen to us or the world. A time where we didn't care how we look or what other people might think of us. Now most of us are regretting what we could have done. But past is past and we can't really do anything about it but to go forward.
This speaking volumes 🙏🏾
thanks this really helps with my depression.
"I'll be waiting for you until you come back again, here and now, forever..."
Hearing this reminds me of when you just close your eyes and go in to your mind, but there's nothing else there besides pain, sadness, and the hope of getting better that you've hidden away in the archives.
There was a VERY dark period for me when I cried everyday and never left my bed for 4 months.I finally got out of bed and got help.But even when I’m getting help, I still just want to disappear. And it’s so frustrating that I feel so numb, I have the urge to scream and cry, but nothing comes out. So all I can do is sit in a quiet, cold, dark room with my face buried in my knees. Everyone says to wait and it gets better but it’s been about 7 years of suffering and I’m a senior in highschool now. Ive had no motivation and been alone all this time and it’s so scary when I know I have to grow up and do things on my own. I never knew I was going to make it this far…
POV:...it's 4am and you're still up all night crying into your pillow...
I’m so tired. Tired of people. People take, that’s all I’ve seen. I’m so tired. I gave everything for them, and it wasn’t enough. It was never enough.
(Ty for this video, it rlly helped.)
Sorry to hear that. You are always enough. You are a good person. Dont say you aren't enough. Some people just dont recognize your worth. Stay strong!!
youtube sometimes gets personal with their comments like, very very personal. So far dude, ur the only one replying to them so huge thanks to you :> hope u have a great time!
This give me the feeling when you have some memories of you and your old friends that come back to your mind and then realise that they never really cared about you and you where always the one trying to make everyone feel comfortable and happy.
And then you start realising that maybe it was your fault all along because you never really tried to speak to them again because you lost hope.
I’m sorry
To my mom
I still love you
Please come home
Me and your other kids are waiting for your cookies
We are waiting for you to put the radio on
We are waiting for you to tell us to help clean the house because guests are coming over
We are waiting for you to tell us it’s movie night
We are waiting for the smell of your food you make
We are waiting for you to come back
My condolences :(
No cause this made me cry...
God loves you , and I hope you feel better soon . ♥️
this actually made me cry 🤩
I'm crying. I wish you all the best...
We as kids were so happy to grow up because we get to anything we want and be able to drive and buy our own stuff and go to high school. but we never knew how stressful life was gonna be... our parents always told us never grow up fast but we didn't listen I'm now 15 and I'm barely able too speak to people irl and have no motivation for anything. I'm graduating late..
I’ve never felt so calm, thank you. I’ve been going through so much right now and this just made me feel free.
It’s interesting to see all these different paths of life all coming to one destination which is heartbreak but what people don’t understand is that u can turn anything into positivity it’s all about perspective.
there’s this ominous feeling i can’t shake off of me. something lingering over me, covering me like a weighted blanket, holding me down. i’ve tried and fought so hard against it but i’m on my knees, crippled, now. i’ve lost everybody, i can’t trust my family, my best friend left me for someone else, i’m being forced to not love someone who i thought i would spend the rest of my life with. my heart feels empty, desperate, alone, and cold. im confused, as to who i can trust, if anybody, because everybody’s already broken it. im losing sight of who i am, or at least, who i once was. i’m just getting dragged further and further, and it’s to the point to where it’s all the same now, just a daily routine, happening over and over again.
anyways, sorry for anybody reading this, i just needed somewhere to get some of my thoughts out or else i’ll just internally combust
Gotta be high on live to succeed in it, gotta be high on love to believe in it.
Fax that's a w quote
I'm not an expert about love, but I think I love her, I couldn't imagine my life without her I'd give my life for her at any point. but the only reason I'm not dating her is because what if it's just a phase? and I stop liking her within the next few weeks. I can't be there for her in the way she wants me to either, and I don't wanna ruin the friendship we already have together.
you'll never see this but that's ok.
I love you, ela.
recently, i lost my bestfriend. and it hurts like hell. i found out a few days ago he had passed due to an od. we had our whole lives planned out. once we turned 18, we were going to move in with each other. we were basically going to spend the rest of our lives together. but i guess God had other plans. i can still remember the day on his 16th birthday, he got his first car. it was a 1969 chevy camaro. nice ass car haha. we took our first ride to the beach. i feels as if it were yesterday. but now he's gone. love you brandon. always remember you bro!
Remember when we were happy
Remember when a rainbow wasn’t called gay
Remember when we wouldn’t judge our looks
Remember when school was fun
Remember when we thought our dad shoulders were the tallest thing
Remember when we would act asleep so we can be carried inside by our mom/dad
Remember when we thought the moon was following us
*Remember when we were happy*
I’ve been listening to this song over and over again before i go to sleep bc nobody understand me the way this song does
I'm srry man. I feel you 🖤 If you need someone to talk to we all in the comments
still remember when we were still kids and still not know the word "REALITY"...
idk what it is but when i think about myself getting older and going to have to get a job i… i’m just scared of the future and what’s ahead of me. idk it might sound dumb…
that don’t sounds dumb, i feel the same, ur not alone :))
and it’s okay to feel scared, but u will get through it, u can do that :))
i feel the same way, it's really scary thinking about the future, bc we can't even know what is going to happen
That moment when you want to let it all out but your so used to being numb and not letting it out it just.. doesn’t happen.. and you can’t let it out.. it’s stuck there.
Imagine being the "good guy" and being treated like shit damn
Puts a hole in your heart sometimes
Just because i was mad, i lost my 5 years friendship with a girl.
It hurts
You still have time to fix it. You just live once, we all die anyways. Kind of morbid but don’t worry it will be okay, the world will still spin regardless if she forgives you or not. You will be okay
hope you're alright
hope your doing well now
lol i remember now when i had my birthday at a hospital and had to get my iv redone (i absolutely hate needles) and after getting out of the hospital, i cried for a few months. i was doing online school the whole time until the last day of school/field day. the first half of the day they gave me a replacement birthday and the second half was field day. i was so happy i really love my school:)
it’s hard not texting someone you want to text so badly...
One hour..Thirteen Minutes..seven seconds..Worth it
This brings me into another world but idk how.
I love this it numbs me like it's so calming makes me forgot what's happend this year...
This is a big help for school/just chilling and just wanted to thank you for this.
Hell yea np :) hope everything goes great for you in life! All my videos are a good place to chill !
i remember when i first truley loved someone. i remember all the times we hung out, all the memories we made, all the dinners we shared together at my house. I remember all the times we would hang out at my house and then just have her stay for dinner to afterwards, and drived her home after, and how she would always say bye like a million times, and then text me after saying "had fun! :)" and i would see it and smile. i remember all the times when we were at my house laying down together, i would lay down in between her legs, my head resting on her chest, or sometimes she would lay on me and we would watch netflix. but most importantly, i remember how she made me feel safe. she made me feel warm inside, like there was a beam of sunshine in me when she and i hung out. she made me feel better for the time we would talk. she could switch my mood in a second.... why did she leave???
Maybe fate decided that you were to receive someone better!
this song feels like when you get to such a drained and tired mindset and start to care less ab everything, and stay in bed longer every day, eat less and less, become unhappier with yourself as you fall back into the hole u tried to climb out of.
People really just be chilling here, living day by day just having no one but yourself…
I appreciate you so much bro, this music helped me go through a lot ... the word thank you isn't enough for you
keep doing what you're doing *legend* ♥
Yoooo i appreciate this sm bro I hope everything goes well for you on life
She made me feel like it was my fault and I told her everything would be okay. It was a hidden cost I had to pay. I now see her at school sometimes, practically everyday. As if some unknown boundary exists between us, I’m glad she keeps her distance, knows exactly when and where to stay away. “I really need someone to talk to”- There was no delay. She could’ve easily spoken to me after revoking the block, but no, there was no relay. I don’t know why I was so gullible, things like that are more subtle than a stray. To anyone reading this: I wish beautiful moments to come your way.
“suicide doesnt stop the pain, it gives it to someone else..”
I lost and uncle from suicide in 2018, i never knew he was suffering from depression, or that he committed.. i was told he was sick and died from that. I overheard my grandparents talking about him- thats how i learned the hard way of how he truly died. i was furious of him after that. But i still have no idea if he did die of suicide… my ears might’ve been playing tricks.
not even 10 seconds into the video memories came to my mind and i started crying , I wanna go back to 2014:(
This is what a never ending emotion of emptiness feels like.
i hope he doesn't leave me, he's my favorite person
I hope he doesn't leave you either... I hope you get it All figured out!
@@jay1k308 THANK UU
@@Angi34653 np!😁
Did he leave?
@@Average_Explosion_Enthusiast i left him:(
" you make me wanna go to sleep. " he says after flirting with another girl. "your boring" he says after i try so hard to do fun things with him. " her body is like a stick, ew. " he says about a girl in a photo, me knowing thats my body type. and yet i still love him so much..
words hurt rigo. words really fucking hurt.
Don't stay with toxic people. Try to heal your wounds emotions.
the words and hurt a lot are or sound like bullets from a gun in your heart and also in your mind and your conscience and I think that before saying people should think well before what they are going to say I think it is better to ignore these things than these types of people say it's not worth the ball
loss. at some point in time everyone experiences loss. it’s such a simple feeling of emptiness. of desperation when all feels wrong. yet so complex. that feeling of when you lose someone close to you. you fall out of love. you fall in love with someone you know you can’t have. it hits you. but what’s more painful then loss itself if dealing with it. it’s a fact that the world doesn’t stop for anyone. so even at your lowest. it never stops. and some people never fully recover. in the event that you are to be facing loss head on, they’re is no guarantee that you’ll come out the other end. they’re won’t be a safety net to fall on. something to rely on. because as cruel as it is, you have no one but yourself. nothing is forever. not the people you love, not your friends. not the internet. not even you. in your life time, you are all you have. people come and go. they’re is no way of telling when the clock runs out and your overdue. someone once said that people always want a magical solution to all they’re problems yet they refuse to believe in magic. that’s just how life is. it won’t stop for you. it won’t want for you to pick yourself off the ground and dust yourself off. that’s not how it works. and for that i’m incredibly proud of you. with everything i just mentioned you still manage to be here. today. right now. and although everyone is in a different boat sailing through the waves life throws at you, it’s damn impressive that you’ve survived this long. that we as humans have evolved to stand here right low. so thank you.
xoxo,
mikayla
I miss my cat..
I miss going outside and seeing him on his bed all snuggled up
I miss giveing him cuddles
I miss him resting on my shoulders
I miss him not being there for me when i need him
I miss playing with him
I miss him coming to greet me everyday
I miss him like crazy.. but i need to learn to move on no matter how much it hurts.. i know hes waiting up in heaven for me.. my time will come soon and finally i can be with my one true friend
I’m sorry…… RIP I hope you can get better soon
I guess since everyone is telling their story- i'd like to tell mine.
This song reminds me of my grandmother who always took the time to love me, care for me, treated me like the only child on earth. Knowing we were in a house with 5 other kids who did not love me as they did their own siblings. To them I was disposable, Not to my grandmother though. She told me I had potential and not just any but the kind who could turn peoples lives into a whole different view. She told me I was the good in their sadness and as hopeless as anyone could be she told me i could change that. I had a wonderful life and i still do. Amazing mom, most- precious family and a very special best friend. Sometimes i feel like i've still failed her though, when i think about it it's always "i wish you could have came back, why did you leave me?, why did you leave without saying goodbye to me??". It broke my heart entirely, I have a corrupted family down in Texas, that's the family i don't relate myself to. My fathers side.
Many birthdays past, Christmas's, special holidays. Not a word from my father, he was supposed to love me. He was supposed to be the one who cared about me, no- his mental health mattered more. I never liked being in a garage, That's where he was most of the time. Pushing me away, handing me over to someone else who took the time to actually care about me. Until she left me, my father got to see it. My whole other family got to see it. Me who cared about her in no other way anyone else could. I didn't see it. I wasn't there when she needed me most. How could i be so blind?. She always looked at me always smiled.
I remember this watch she got me for Christmas. My father wasn't there he was locked up. Nobody else really gave me presents except my grandmother. It was a Minnie mouse watch, red, black, and white. Even had the little bow Minnie always wears on it. As clumsy and stupid as i was i broke it the next day. That watch didn't mean as much back then because i was only a kid, but remembering back on it. I regret breaking that watch. It was the only thing i had of her. Nobody sent me anything of hers, not even her ashes. I CARED ABOUT HER THE MOST. I DID. and everyone looked at me like a joke because i was only 7.
My father only recently started talking to me. My mother has a hatred for him so i keep it secret. He was never there for me when i needed him most, i always needed him because out of that household they kept me in i was no one. I had nobody else after my grandmother. He could make up for it but he's always got something better to do then talk to his own daughter- or so he claims. I stopped talking to them all of them. i was the type of kid whose parents split and went back and forth moving from one place to another because they had their differences. One day after i turned 9 i came back to my moms place, she was in a really bad state without me. She got so angered when my father called her that night. She yelled at me in rage "You can pick who you want to be with so who is it?! Say it now! tell him you want to be with me and want nothing to do with him. I was in shock, I had just got back and my mother was yelling at me about staying. I had no choice i was better off with her anyways. Now i'm going through so much more and thinking about it, maybe i was better off begging my mother not to let my dad go. None of it really turned out well in the end but i stay and stand proud being who i am to go through what ever is happening.
Maybe my family hated me, Maybe my father didn't pay me any attention, Maybe just maybe- My grandmother left without saying goodbye. But i know and i try to be the most amazing little girl she saw when she first looked at me. I want to make her proud and show her that her attempts weren't useless after all. that maybe i would become something in other peoples lives. and i did. And i was happy.
sorry if this was pretty long i just really wanted to share this- To anyone who is going through just- god awful things. you're not alone and you CAN get through this, you don't have to be perfect you, you don't have to be someone else. You can be you and accomplish things nobody ever believed you could. You May struggle and you may hurt. But these challenges are what make you strong as a individual person. I promise you'll be something great!, and when you're name is up in lights and everyone sees your talent. You can say "i did this, I did this on my own. just me. And I'm proud."
I know this was commented 10 months ago.. but I read this entire thing and im glad I found this comment and I hope you're doing well. im sorry you were the one who had to go through this.. but we all have to go through stuff in our life, right?
@@RlXXIA Thank you so much that means a lot, I’ve been doing amazing lately. You’re right we all go through things I’m hoping everyone else has the strength to get through as much as i do. I hope you’re doing well also!! and thank you again
@@Holly-ng9ti I didnt know u were gonna reply so quickly! im going through stuff myself and the end of the comment helped me out a little so thank you c: im glad you're doing well and of course, you're welcome. you have a good day too!