Dude huge respect to you , not only did you upload this masterpiece but you also help the people that watch it in the comments? You're a Legend and i hope you're having a great time right now
5.q 06,no hay que te quiero dije me dijo muy ocupada en un poco triste porque me dijo mañana por el teléfono y me dijo ya te dije,la mayoría son mujeres en la tarde y me dormí en un mensaje a hpmi hermana 7h 7
*Sitting beside the window, Rain* It's 3 AM and you suddenly woke up but you don't know why, so your reflexes make you do your usual routine, alone breakfast, getting dressed, sitting at the window. You notice the clock on the Wall, it's on 3, then you also notice how dark it is outside, you see some rain drops outside in the darkness. The sound of the rain on your window is the only thing you hear besides the complete silence. You remember you gotta go to school in a few hours but don't mind it anyway, so you take your coat and your keys and slowly go outside without energy. In front of the door, you walk into the rain, step by step, somehow the rain on your hair and coat feels relaxing, it gives you a feeling of loneliness, melancholy and a bit of sadness. You go sit on a bench, it's still raining, thinking back to your childhood remembering the good old days, you start tearing up a little bit, the tears rolling down your cheeks feel a bit different than the rain. The rain slowly starts to stop, you go back inside, sit beside the window again and wait... just wait... then it's time you have to go to school but somehow, you don't want to, so you stay sitting on your chair beside the window, thinking about how school currently goes, might not have much friends and not doing anything, learning less and less. So you skipped school... what now? Do you want to go tomorrow? Probably not. You ask yourself while staring out the window: Why am i living the same day over and over? Why do i feel so empty all the time? The only thing that fills your soul is sitting beside the window. thanks for reading.
I read it nom me cry I wanna do it i wanna go outside in the street at 3am in the rain and just think about life and wonder around 😔 my life is the same the same and same thing it's like having a dream over and over again 😔 it's just a not explainable feeling😢😭
Today..I skipped school, I was just walking out of the town, in the rain. Directly to the mountains. I was listening to this, and the view was beautiful. Too bad I'm at home again.
thats plan a for me just walk and walk and walk going no where just walking enjoying the world allways seeing new places and people but never saying to ling i dont want to ever be somewhere for long
I could never do that. My school is in Downtown Stockton CA. It’d be a Miracle for me to make it out of Downtown in one piece. There’s even a place there called “Zombie Street” and considering Stockton’s reputation, I just hope you can understand what that means.
hey don’t give up i know things are tough and it hurts a lot but please don’t.. life can get really tough and it hurts but the thing is life is special and you just have to take a step i’m sorry for anything you have gone through but i promise it will get better
remember how when we were young and made fun of people because they were looking for someone to date and love? it turns out... most of us became that person...
im kinda the opposite but like not really, I get scared when people ask me out because sometimes I do like them, and I don't want to ruin the friendship, I just hate the idea of relationships. because of some circumstances in my life I kinda believe nothing lasts and I apply that to relationships 😼
i understand how you feel. but hey- i feel like telling them would be beneficial in two ways: 1) you get it off your chest so it doesn’t bother you forever; 2) (sort of relates to the 1) one) maybe turns out they like you back, it will make you feel so much better knowing that you said something. even if they dont like you back, at least be proud of the fact that you were brave enough to come forward with your feelings. its def not easy but accepting rejection and failure is a vital thing in life. destiny has bound you with the right person. i’m sure they’ll come along sooner or later :) don’t beat yourself up if someone doesn’t like you back the way you like them. it’s gonna be ok :))
(a sadly wholesome comment) *MENTIONS OF SUI*DE I fell so hard in love. I can't believe it. 4 months of knowing him, and the entire time he knew he loved me too. I was so tired and depressed, but when i met him, it changed. I became happy. afterschool we gamed the night away. All leading up to tonight. The night where we confirmed our relationship. I told him yesterday (as of 5/16/21) that i caught feelings, and i broke down in tears because i though he'd never like me back, that i was gonna get rejected per usual. but no. He loves me. And i love him. We're dating, and i love him so much, all i wanna do is be around him. He saved me from suicide, and i can't thank him enough. he treated me like a person when i needed it most.
“you’ve exceeded my expectations! well done!” - people “but how can that matter when i’ll never exceed or remotely meet my own expectations? how can you be proud of me when i’ve barely done anything? i can be so much better at school, in sports-god, my social skills are so goddamn awful too.” *how can you be proud of me when i’m not even proud of myself?*
TW: SH i relate to this so much. it got to the point where i couldn’t take it anymore. i felt constantly stared at and never good enough. my insomnia got really bad and my social anxiety went higher than ever. i ended up doing sh. (didnt put it for reasons-) i needed help. i’m currently getting help. i promise it can make you feel better. i understand things may not look like that right now, but i can say for sure that it WILL get better. i love you
@@user-pl1px1os1r im so happy to hear that you’re feeling better. i don’t have much to rant about, it’s just the classic *im the eldest sibling so i have to be the good example and get the best grades and be amazing at sports* and then my parents complain when im tired all the time. thanks for reaching out to me, we relate to each other a lot through the social anxiety part, and it’s good closure to know that it’s not only me who feels this way. again, thank you
@@hailey.elayne no problem at all. i know how it feels to be extremely low and i’m here to talk if you need it. and totally understandable. being expected to set an example for a your siblings is hard work. sometimes i wish i could do stuff without being criticised or having people pay heed to my actions all the time. remember you’re loved and you’re not alone. 🖤
@@user-pl1px1os1r thank you so much. i just got home from a really tough and exhausting practice so to hear you say that im loved really makes me happy. im always here for you too
Pov: its June of 2002, you've just gotten home from you're last day of school & summer has begun, only to see that it was raining late in the afternoon. Ur parent(s) makes you you're favorite snack as you do you're favorite activity inside the nice warm house. Life was good..
it’s 3 in the morning tired from sleep deprivation you get up and go to sit on your porch you light a cigarette and it start to rain “where did my life go” you think to yourself. you used to have so many friends you used to laugh and play and run around cheerfully now here you are alone remembering the friends and lovers you had in the past wondering what they are doing and why they left “i loved you” you say out loud now sobbing feeling a lonely void in your chest “i loved you all so much” where did time go ?
one thing i've learned as you gotta enjoy life bro.... instead of asking where did time go enjoy the now, make things happen now life is no where near over enjoy it!
I see all the comments about them being rejected, and I feel kinda bad. like ive always been the person people ask out- I don't like relationships because of reasons and always say no because of that. I know it hurts them and I hate that, but if I had said yes they would be believing a lie and it would put them and myself in a bad position
i just wanted her. only her. she was my sense of pride, joy, and she was their when i needed to rant. she never told me what was on her mind and what was bothering her though. but yesterday, we split up. she wanted out because we weren’t meant. she wanted the best for me, but she never knew that the best was her. i miss her a lot, and i’m going to be crying for awhile
listen she aint you, she was a heavy influence on you, but she isnt you, she shouldnt be your pride and joy, she cant control that. You are yourself, shes not you. If you keep thinking of her the weight on your back will get heavier, you just need to forget and get your mind off of it.
@@thornemusic thanks man. yesterday for some reason she texted me and called me. i answered back like an idiot. im sorry i let you down. i'll try to forget and move on. i'm going to learn from this that i don't miss her. i miss the idea of her. thanks homie
Nothing lasts forever, I lost the one person I wanted to be around all the time. The person who gave me a sense of life and cared for me all the time. I bottle this up because no one knows who they are. Nobody cares about them except for me. I wasn't able to help them when they needed me. My happiness in life is forever gone. I'd rather not be here, but they're in a happy place. For now, I'll be happy for both of us.
been in your spot for the past 15,i later discovered that i was the reason why iam always left behind,once i improved my self physically and mentally i had the life i always dreamed
i hate feeling like this. i've grown attached to him but he's not gonna text me and i know it. it's okay, he's probably just busy. i just wish he'd talk to me like he did before, my birthday is coming up but i wouldn't be surprised if he forgets or if he just doesn't talk to me.. i miss him.
I was in the same situation. If he can't simply bother to talk to you don't wait. Ik it might seem hard but I wasted 3 years of my life waiting for some toxic fuck. Maybe it isn't the same situation, but you only have one life. No need to spend it on waiting. Happy late/early birthday! Stay safe
same. but don’t worry okay? if he doesn’t do anything, drop you're. he’s not ment to be. it’s hard to drop someone you care, and love very much. but, you need to accept reality and do it. do what’s best. i hope you find someone that would talk to you daily, love you and give you all the attention you deserve.
She made me feel like she would never hurt me, she made me feel safe, and I felt loved, for the first damn time I actually felt loved by this “girl of my dreams” then she cheats on me with two guys, my best friend asked her out right after we broke up, ruined that friendship, exposed me, and replaced me. It’s like she doesn’t remember everything fucking memory we made, it’s like in her head I was just a fucking dream, one moment your having it, then you wake up and forget all of it.
She used to tell me “I love you” and it was the most innocent and heartfelt 3 words she would say to me. She meant it. She really loved me and wanted to be together. Only thing was, I didn’t know she meant it as a friend. She played me so hard I couldn’t see what she was doing to me..and today, she said it. She said “ I love you” and it..it just breaks me to remember I’m going to be by her side no matter what and she just lies to me every day with those stupid words. Dear Sophia, I love you and it’s okay..I know you’ll never love me. I’m proud of you for who you are, but I know now you’ll never get it. God bless all the people sharing their stories in the comments❤️
Bro i wish you all the happiness, im sure you are a beautiful person and im sure you will find someone who love you, don’t give, up look forward to the future, love yourself and take care
yep... and the only thing that has broken that wall for me is thinking how i can't be like anyone else and when i want to cry with everyone else i would not be able to
I met a girl named Lillian. Me and her would hang out everyday. She helped me with a lot. We hugged,we cuddled,we laughed together. Then I watched her slowly fade out into the distance with another girl. Eventually,she forgot I existed and I was left to have nothing but the memories of me and her.
@@silas537 sometimes we realize how friends we are with someone when we’re not forced together (school) (and yeah Ik it’s hard when not seeing each other everyday) We’re out there together and forced everyday, what about outside of school?, if it was rlly good, y’all would’ve talked everyday outside of school, we to lots of places even b4 that. Just thinking of that alone, makes me realize that I have basically no friends, I talk to a lot of peeps yes, but I don’t have a good strong connection with anyone and it’s jsut sad. These peeps are rlly my friends by jsut looking at it, we talk everyday at school, yeahsir, after, nah, it even takes them the longest to respond thru text or most of the time, never, yeah we’re not real friends, u can’t hurt an over-thinker, bcuz I’ve already seen it coming, and it’s about to be here in one week, summer time, the same thing, nothing after school, my birthday is coming up, but *tbh I don’t even want to do anything with my two friends* *bcuz why does it have to take my birthday to do something with y’all, huh? It’s jsut sad when u think about it. There was a time where we jsut wanted to go to the movies me and my friend was good on something, then the third one didn’t even respond, like I don’t get why it’s that hard , BRO WE ARE NOT FRIENDS, Y’ALL ARE JSUT WHAT I GOT 😔 But I’m going to high school next year, bye, hopefully it’s better, cuz it was my first year there too
i didn't know that i needed this so bad in my life until now. i'm going to sleep right now, with this melody surrounding my ears, my heart. good night, everyone.
Imagine🖤 WARNING- a bit depressing,possible triggers of things happening in your past?? (I put it there just in case of any reason) You get home from school and walk to your room. You slide your bookbag off your shoulder and slump into bed. You stare at the blank ceiling feeling empty and cold. You couldn't figure out why you don't feel as much happy as you use too. All you wanted was to go back in the younger days of everything being fun. You think about how your teachers tried there best to make everything fun and following trends. They wanted you too feel like a kid while it lasted cause they know your not gonna be the same person they once knew you were. You look back at old photos in yearbooks of good days,happy days. You see your old friends and friend groups that now kind of parted because of personal problems or drama. You had a problem of letting go so you kept everything that each friend has given you. You only have three close friends that you trust dearly but still struggle to trust cause of issues. From losing people you became clingy. You remember how fun P.E used to be and how much motivation you had back then. You remember being so happy and care free,how you hated school,and hanging out with each of your friends,making your classmates smile. You missed the fun events and outside recess. Playing tag,hide and seek,or any other fun game. You remember those weird hand clap rhyme games that just randomly come into your life,becoming a memory. You look outside of your clear window with a tear slowly rolling down your cheek,feeling cold and empty. You miss the days of playing with your toys or playing old kid games. Playing house,kitchen or anything that was fun to you . You start to remember how slime,fidget spinners,and so many other things being a part of your life. How society has changed inlcuding the way peoples are now a days. All you ever wanted was to be in a carefree world where there was no toxic people or judgemental people. A world where people can enjoy what they love or how they are,how they want to dress,what they want to be,be who they want to be. You realize it started to rain a bit but gradually became slightly heavy. Thunder coming from the clouds,flashing and banging. You walk outside in your hoodie and sweatpants and sit in the middle of the road staring up at the sky with your back on the ground facing up. Luckily,there were barely anyone driving because of the rain and most of the lightening hazards appearing on peoples phones. You stare and let the rain fall on you,not giving a care of getting your clothing wet. Your hair becoming more damp and cold,your face covered in drops from the sky. You grow goosebumps from how cold the rain is and shiver. You close your eyes and breath slowly,remembering how your parents told you to be a kid while it lasted. You started to break down in multiple tears as too what feels like you made a pool of sadness. You wanted to be happy again,be carefree,hangout with old friends,no drama,nothing to make you feel unhappy. You sat in the road crying until it was dark outside,still raining. You then calmed down and sat in silence for a bit. Breathing gently and then walking back inside.
idk what it is but when i think about myself getting older and going to have to get a job i… i’m just scared of the future and what’s ahead of me. idk it might sound dumb…
ive loved this girl for the longest time, she was my best friend, but recently she decided to just throw me away like i was nothing, she abandoned me, the history we had together, the fun times, all gone because she didnt need me anymore
Y’know... this kinda reminds me of CoryxKenshin, remember when he was playing that one Japanese game where this person in the red cloak would chase him ? I think it’a called Monto ? Idk, but every time I listen to this, that video would always pop up into my head. Haha, miss Cory. Hope he’s doing well.
currently sitting at my window, it’s raining. listening to this masterpiece and reading all the comments. wondering where is the old me, liking the sun and caring about everything.
I'm not an expert about love, but I think I love her, I couldn't imagine my life without her I'd give my life for her at any point. but the only reason I'm not dating her is because what if it's just a phase? and I stop liking her within the next few weeks. I can't be there for her in the way she wants me to either, and I don't wanna ruin the friendship we already have together. you'll never see this but that's ok. I love you, ela.
This song reminds me of going to the pond with my siblings and my heart shaped bowls with a Disney princesses design and dressing up as silvermist from tinkerbell with my old friends who are long gone
You still have time to fix it. You just live once, we all die anyways. Kind of morbid but don’t worry it will be okay, the world will still spin regardless if she forgives you or not. You will be okay
Just imagine... Your sitting in your room one day, the lights are dim, it’s pouring rain outside. Your just staring out your window blankly, the only sound is the sound of the pouring rain against your roof. As you sit their, you begin to feel sad. A feeling of loneliness begins inside you. You may have a lot of friends at school, yet somehow, when your alone, the life you have with your friends just disappears. You glance at your phone that is next to you, it’s 2:45 am. You look back up and out through your window, the road is empty and the only thing on it is rain water. A tear rolls down your cheek as you over-think about life. Are my friends real? Does anyone really love me? With your social anxiety, it’s hard to tell. They seem like they do, but trust issues come a long way. This was the first year you had ever had real friends, that’s why your so hesitant. A red car runs past on the road, bringing you back to reality. That’s when you realize you had been sobbing. You look back at your phone, 3:06 am. You sign, and wipe your eyes with your hoodie sleeve. “Time is an allusion that helps things make sense.” You begin to quietly sing, but your tears start up again at the same time. “So were always living in the present tense. . . It seems unforgiving when a good thing ends, but you and I will always be back then-“ You pause, and stare sadly out the window. “You and I will always be back then. . “ You think of your friends, hoping they will last. Also wanting someone to hug, but knowing everyone you know would probably push you away, disgusted. “Tomorrow is a new day. . “ you mutter, wiping your tears one last time. You get up from the floor and get on your bed, facing the window so as you slowly drift off to sleep, you can look at the lonely road that reminds you of yourself, and the pouring rain that reminds you of your tears. Tomorrow is a new day, you’ve made it through every day before this, and you will make it through the next.
Imagine: You're walking up the steps, already hearing the pattering of the rain as you get closer to the doors outside. You take three more steps, already feeling the difference in temperature, the small traces of water already leaking through the door's broken seals. You push down on the handle slowly, hearing it squeal from grinding metal that's not been oiled in a long while. You hear the rain better now, stepping out, the door groaning even more. The smell hits you, that smell of rain hitting warm pavement. The door clicks behind you, having closed. You stand under the awning, covering a small area just over the doors. You hear the different thudding of rain on top, hitting the tarp, the rest of the rain hitting the ground with little splat sounds. You look out over the view, despite the rain clouds, you can see the sun setting in the distance. The school bells go off announcing the end of any club activities for the day. The tones playing in four notes, a familiar one. You walk out into the rain, feeling the cold drops fall into your skin, like cold little shocks. Your eyes flutter shut for a moment, soaking in the rain, looking up to it can grace your face with it's cool comfort. You look ahead again, opening your eyes, the water dripping through your now wet hair. You continue to take more steps, wanting to sit down on the edge. You gently kneel down, sliding your shoes off and then swinging your feet over the edge. Your legs and bottom now soaked from the wet pavement, but you don't mind it. You lean back on your hands, kicking your feet back and forth over the edge, hitting the side of the building almost in a rhythm. Like making music with the rain, humming a small melody to accompany it. Like the four similar notes to the school bell. Absorbed in your own world, you don't notice that you don't feel the rain on your shoulders and head anymore. You raise your eyebrows, looking up and to your left, a presence being felt. You look confused, before a small smile breaks over your face. They were there, sheltering you from the rain. It was silly, since you were already soaked, but you didn't mind, the gesture was kind and thoughtful. Instead, you pay next to you, wanting them to sit down. They stand there, a moment of hesitation before making a small sigh and shaking their head, like they thought you were daft. Despite it, they pull the umbrella back and close it, placing it down. They take off their shoes as well and sit down next to you. They stare at you for a moment, then out at the dusk in the distance. You look to the same light, gently leaning against them. You didn't know what to say in this moment. Maybe you shouldn't have said anything, but it was something that needed to be said. It didn't matter anymore, it was so long ago. But they were simple words you never got to say, so you'd say them now. "....I loved you...."
Omg, this story fits this song perfectly. I don’t think id have enough courage to sit on the edge of a building though, especially with all these like rumors about people, and hateful things being said, who wouldn’t have grudges against others. I’d be to afraid someone would push me or something along those lines 😬
As children we would have done anything to become adults, to have responsibilities....now as adults we would have done anything to be kids again, to be carefree, happy, and not worrying what would happen to us or the world. A time where we didn't care how we look or what other people might think of us. Now most of us are regretting what we could have done. But past is past and we can't really do anything about it but to go forward.
When you realise you’ve been drawing for an hour.. dude thank you. Your a legend. You made me feel worth something and to anyone else reading this, your doing great. never give up.
To my mom I still love you Please come home Me and your other kids are waiting for your cookies We are waiting for you to put the radio on We are waiting for you to tell us to help clean the house because guests are coming over We are waiting for you to tell us it’s movie night We are waiting for the smell of your food you make We are waiting for you to come back
I love her but wish we never met at the same time ,all the pain she has caused me over the past weeks I thought what we had was special until I see her treating other people better than me. I thought our level of trust was good until now it’s crazy all the nights I spent helping her feel better all the times I butt my head in to help her when she didn’t want it then when it comes to me she doesn’t show me the same. It rlly hurts knowing ur putting so much time into one person who wouldn’t do the same back
For me she doesn't like anyone and theres no way she could like me, and the problem is I dont wanna ruin our relationship since I trust her a lot as much as my childhood friend, it really sucks because I suck at everything, lifes really sad, and I dont even know what to do, i'm just bad at everything
i sat here and listened to the whole thing. i have no idea what came over me but it seemed like every emotion at once. it seriously made me dizzy and i started crying, not sure why. but now i can't sleep. tomorrow will be better
" you make me wanna go to sleep. " he says after flirting with another girl. "your boring" he says after i try so hard to do fun things with him. " her body is like a stick, ew. " he says about a girl in a photo, me knowing thats my body type. and yet i still love him so much.. words hurt rigo. words really fucking hurt.
the words and hurt a lot are or sound like bullets from a gun in your heart and also in your mind and your conscience and I think that before saying people should think well before what they are going to say I think it is better to ignore these things than these types of people say it's not worth the ball
A little bit on how I feel but in a different perspective. Trigger warning for flashbacks and such. You realize that as you get older, things change. Too fast. It hurts. Your friend groups split, forcing you to take a side, but you can't. So you're just left there alone. Year after year, things get harder and harder as time goes on. You find it hard to make new friends and your social skills slowly decrease. Wasn't I happy before? What happened? Then you remember the drama in your friend groups that tore you down. You remember being left on your own. Why? Why me? The empty feeling slowly encroaches like storm clouds bringing a heavy rain. You realize you're alone. You try to make friends, but you get spoken over and ignored. Now and then you message your old friends, but find out things have drastically changed since you last spoke. They've grown up while you're living in the past. Stuck, left behind, and alone. Thank you for reading.
There was a VERY dark period for me when I cried everyday and never left my bed for 4 months.I finally got out of bed and got help.But even when I’m getting help, I still just want to disappear. And it’s so frustrating that I feel so numb, I have the urge to scream and cry, but nothing comes out. So all I can do is sit in a quiet, cold, dark room with my face buried in my knees. Everyone says to wait and it gets better but it’s been about 7 years of suffering and I’m a senior in highschool now. Ive had no motivation and been alone all this time and it’s so scary when I know I have to grow up and do things on my own. I never knew I was going to make it this far…
ive had a crush on this girl for almost 8 months now. we were very very close, we hung out everyday and i thought that i had finally met someone who genuinely cares about me for who i am as a person. she had no idea i had a crush on her for a long time. turns out she didnt like me back. she told me that we could still be friends, but she told me recently that she wanted to take a break from our friendship because she feels uncomfortable around me nowadays, but my gut is telling me that we might not start talking again, i dont want her to leave. i have 0 friends. i dont want to be alone again. my life is miserable enough. i just want 1 friend who i can talk to. i cry in my bed in the middle of the night thinking about what i would do without her. i dont even care about whether or not she likes me back or whatever. i just care that she likes me as a friend. as i write this, i still am not aware of what i did that made her want to stop talking to me and im really confused. i wish that i had somebody to vent to about this. but im stuck here, writing a stupid comment that nobody is even going to take the time to read. all i want to do right now is talk to her. about anything. i dont care what. i just want to have a conversation with her again. i just wish that i was more comfortable talking about my problems. i wish that i wouldnt hate myself so much for wanting to talk about my problems. i wish i would stop ruining all of my friendships because im so emotionally distant from everyone. i wish that i can just have a friendship that lasts. i just want to not be alone. please. i dont care about anything else. i always come back to this whenever i think about her. it brings me back to when she actually liked me as a person. we where on a call. it was 2am. she was venting to me about her family issues. she said one thing to me that stuck with me. she said that she saw a side to me that no one else could see. it made me feel appreciated as a person. we where listening to this when she was venting to me. i look at our relationship now and i see how distant we have become. the last few times that we talked to each other, i only ever spoke when i was trying to make a joke, i enjoyed making her laugh. but i realize now that all i did was screw up our friendship and i failed to actually connect with her on an meaningful level. i feel that all i am now is an empty husk. all that i ever did was tell jokes and make her laugh, to the point to where it felt like an obligation. she started to appreciate me less and less as a person and saw me more as someone who is just there so they can humiliate themselves all for the sake of a dumb joke that will make her laugh for 5 seconds. i was never this close to anyone before. i ruined it. im certain that i will never find someone like her again. if she leaves me for good, im not going to make any more friends. im scared that if i make another friend like her, i am going to ruin the relationship like ive done so many times before. i dont want to experience this pain again.
there’s this ominous feeling i can’t shake off of me. something lingering over me, covering me like a weighted blanket, holding me down. i’ve tried and fought so hard against it but i’m on my knees, crippled, now. i’ve lost everybody, i can’t trust my family, my best friend left me for someone else, i’m being forced to not love someone who i thought i would spend the rest of my life with. my heart feels empty, desperate, alone, and cold. im confused, as to who i can trust, if anybody, because everybody’s already broken it. im losing sight of who i am, or at least, who i once was. i’m just getting dragged further and further, and it’s to the point to where it’s all the same now, just a daily routine, happening over and over again. anyways, sorry for anybody reading this, i just needed somewhere to get some of my thoughts out or else i’ll just internally combust
This reminds me of my confusion, why I can’t figure out why I hate life, why I hate myself. I never understand what caused me to feel how I feel, I have the ideal life, my mum is nice, I have a couple friends, I have a s/o who loves me, what could’ve gone wrong? I’ve always had this dream of killing someone before I die, I’m not sure why, but I’ve been planning to do it for a while. I never really cared about other people’s feelings, I don’t care about anyone, I hate everyone, people think I’m so supportive of them if there sad but really I hate them and want to smash there face in with a hammer, why do I feel like this? What’s wrong with me.. I tried to tell a councillor about this and they say it’s about wanting power, I think it’s true, all I want is to be powerful, look down on people. I want to see someone’s terrified face when they realise I’m not defenceless, I want to see there face when they realise I’m powerful, I’m intimidating. Is that bad?.. is there something wrong with me? Am I crazy? I’ve always wanted to kill someone then kill myself right after so I wouldn’t have to go to prison (and I’m suicidal but we don’t talk about that), it’s selfish I know, to take someone’s life away just because of my psychotic needs, but I can’t stop thinking about when I swing the rusty hammer, and watch it bash there skull in. I don’t want to just kill any person I can get my hands on, I’d like to kill the person that made me feel useless, the person that thought they could boss me around as If I don’t have feelings, the person who constantly played with my emotions, but that isn’t just one person, that’s everyone... :)
I'm going to answer your question in full honesty: Yes, yes you are crazy if those are your actual thoughts, if you kill someone and then yourself like in a school shooting that wouldn't make you feel better if you feel nothing anyway, it would only make other people uselessly get hurt, *but* there is a slim chance, just a slim chance there might be someone who will rescue you out of your mental state that you are in right now, you might not think or hope that at all, the only thing you can do is wait. If there is some kind of afterlife, you will regret what you did, if you do what you described you want to do.
@@erisch.3716 ngl this made me feel a bit better, ive always said "im going to kill someone when i get the chance" but i never actually got the chance, does that mean something? anyways, there are many professionals trying to help me at the moment and i think i might be getting better.
Ik people are telling stories on how they have crushes or have been heartbroken but I’m going to talk about how I may have to break someone’s heart sadly… I have this friend which me have known each other for many years. I figured out they had a crush on me because my friend told me that they kept talking about me and taht they loved me ever since we became friends. I consider myself straight and they are pan and I support them. They have become more touchy to me and is always around me. I realized that they are little toxic because they have hit me some times (not as a playful way), they have said rude comments sometimes, and have said disgusting things I have been uncomfortable with, plus every time I get hurt physically or mentally they have told me to “suck it up” and that they have been through worse. I have been trying to get out of the friendship but they have kept on saying “your my only friend” “your the best” which I’m scared they will be alone which has made me feel anxious. I don’t know how I can reject them without hurting them or losing the friendship cause I know I will think I’m a bad person. I just hope they can some how lose feelings towards me and don’t like me anymore…
That feeling of looking at the ceiling of your room listening to rain land on the windows. That feeling of wanting to cry but you just cant. That feeling of knowing that it's all meaningless. It just doesn't feel worth it anymore I've got no one to vent to it's just hard.
thank you, for making this and a other thank you to the comments, I now know I'm not the only one suffering in silence, all of us are..these comments have thrown me back into my past thinking of all the good, and happy things, a real big thank you to each and every single one of you, I love you all equally!
That moment when you want to let it all out but your so used to being numb and not letting it out it just.. doesn’t happen.. and you can’t let it out.. it’s stuck there.
Growing up i had fallen in love with a guy and he did too. But now I've fallen out of love with him. I'm sorry. It was just after all the time we spent together and what you had said to me broke me. I use to love you but now i don't. You broke my trust and my entire being.
lol i remember now when i had my birthday at a hospital and had to get my iv redone (i absolutely hate needles) and after getting out of the hospital, i cried for a few months. i was doing online school the whole time until the last day of school/field day. the first half of the day they gave me a replacement birthday and the second half was field day. i was so happy i really love my school:)
We as kids were so happy to grow up because we get to anything we want and be able to drive and buy our own stuff and go to high school. but we never knew how stressful life was gonna be... our parents always told us never grow up fast but we didn't listen I'm now 15 and I'm barely able too speak to people irl and have no motivation for anything. I'm graduating late..
When you put your heart and soul into the relationship, share your secrets, your fears, your dreams. And in the end you lose everything, that feeling of them taking everything with them when they leave. Why bother telling people anything these days, the only outcome is nothing but pain and misery.
He’s leaving for 3 months and then 8 years I’m probably not gonna be able to wait I wanted to build our life while we we’re still young but I don’t think it’ll happen now I’m just slowly pulling away so he’ll be the one to leave me so he won’t get hurt my love for him will always be endless.
She made me feel like it was my fault and I told her everything would be okay. It was a hidden cost I had to pay. I now see her at school sometimes, practically everyday. As if some unknown boundary exists between us, I’m glad she keeps her distance, knows exactly when and where to stay away. “I really need someone to talk to”- There was no delay. She could’ve easily spoken to me after revoking the block, but no, there was no relay. I don’t know why I was so gullible, things like that are more subtle than a stray. To anyone reading this: I wish beautiful moments to come your way.
I’m so sorry to everyone around me. I used to be so happy and now I’m so angry and sad all the time. I don’t know what happened. Everyone always says that they miss the old me but I don’t know where she went or when she’s coming back, but I miss her too.
It’s interesting to see all these different paths of life all coming to one destination which is heartbreak but what people don’t understand is that u can turn anything into positivity it’s all about perspective.
My mother always says, “things are always prettier when we wait for them.” Don’t rush love, it will come to you at its own pace, you just need to have patience and faith. Waiting years for the right person is 100 times better than rushing into a wrong relationship that might hurt you. Stay strong and keep looking for your person.
This give me the feeling when you have some memories of you and your old friends that come back to your mind and then realise that they never really cared about you and you where always the one trying to make everyone feel comfortable and happy. And then you start realising that maybe it was your fault all along because you never really tried to speak to them again because you lost hope. I’m sorry
All of you listen, to whoever reading this, to whoever is going through a hard time.. I just want you to know you are amazing, beautiful, and perfect.. You don't need to change yourself to make "everything better" Ive learned the hard way, just keep going I know you can do this, it can be hard sometimes but I know that if you try you will succeed, if you don't, try again, because it will be worth it.. I don't say this just to say it, but don't let people drag you down, don't let them control you over what you want/think.. Don't listen to people who hurt you because it will end up you hurting yourself too. Don't give up because there are people that love you, and if you don't think that... Well just know, whoever is behind that screen, I don't care who you are.. You're amazing and I love you
This reminds me of me and my friends as kids, we would get home from the bus after school and hop on Xbox. When games were fun and that is what we loved to do together. We would hang out, mess around and have fun at whatever we did. Yes we argued but I feel like everyone has had an argument with friends. Now we’ve gotten to the point were we don’t talk we play once a week and it makes me sad. If I could go back and watch all of are funnest, stupidest and overall dumb things we did, I would do lots to get that feeling back.
sometimes i wonder "what am i doing with my life'' im currently sitting in a dark room with my head on my desk crying, just wanting too go back too the times when i could truly smile, but hey thats life.
To my old friends.... I was always a third wheel, too ugly to be in photos, or even to be invited anywhere because i would be too embarrassing. When i was getting bullied right in front of your faces, you didnt even help, you just stood there and acted as if you didnt hear a word. Now, 4 years later I found new friends, better friends, more loyal friends whom I belive will always stay with me. I've lost weight, became prettier and now instead of being called 'elephant' I get called 'Skinny' and 'stunning'. In a way, I was bullied into losing weight, but that didnt give you the right to not help me. When I felt suicidal, and deoressed you didnt give a shit, I was the other person who could help myself, and now look at me! I am doing amazing, so I guess all I have to say is sorry, sorry for you for losing such an amazing person.
It hurts to see people having fun and enjoying life, I mean I’m also glad for them aswell, but it makes me jealous. Why can’t I be that way? Why do I have to be one of the few on this planet to be tied to a chain and not be able to go out and live life the way they’re supposed to. Why do I have to be this way. I want to go outside, play in the rain, start a garden, go bungee jumping, see the world. But I’m trapped here, on the couch, it takes too much effort for me to get up to get something to eat. I hate it. I want to be a different person, I want to change. And people tell me to change like it’s that easy. What did I do wrong? I don’t deserve this. It’s like a civil war is constantly going on between my body and my brain. I’m always begging myself to change, to be a better person. What am I doing wrong? Is there something I’m missing?
Dude huge respect to you , not only did you upload this masterpiece but you also help the people that watch it in the comments? You're a Legend and i hope you're having a great time right now
Thanks bro this comment actually just made my day even better 😂😂 hope everything is good for you 💯
@@jay1k308 Im glad that i was able to help and yeah , im fine atm , thanks for asking ! ^^
That's a good video you give off I respect you bro
Sry ment vibe not video
That is a good vibe you give off I I respect bro auto correct
UA-cam has the most sad comments that made me cry than any other app I’ve been on….
Let this be a zone where you can get your feelings out I hope everything gets better for you
Exactly
5.q 06,no hay que te quiero dije me dijo muy ocupada en un poco triste porque me dijo mañana por el teléfono y me dijo ya te dije,la mayoría son mujeres en la tarde y me dormí en un mensaje a hpmi hermana 7h 7
just life sucks tbh.
@@BurningSorrows yes sir
*Sitting beside the window, Rain*
It's 3 AM and you suddenly woke up but you don't know why, so your reflexes make you do your usual routine, alone breakfast, getting dressed, sitting at the window. You notice the clock on the Wall, it's on 3, then you also notice how dark it is outside, you see some rain drops outside in the darkness. The sound of the rain on your window is the only thing you hear besides the complete silence. You remember you gotta go to school in a few hours but don't mind it anyway, so you take your coat and your keys and slowly go outside without energy. In front of the door, you walk into the rain, step by step, somehow the rain on your hair and coat feels relaxing, it gives you a feeling of loneliness, melancholy and a bit of sadness. You go sit on a bench, it's still raining, thinking back to your childhood remembering the good old days, you start tearing up a little bit, the tears rolling down your cheeks feel a bit different than the rain. The rain slowly starts to stop, you go back inside, sit beside the window again and wait... just wait... then it's time you have to go to school but somehow, you don't want to, so you stay sitting on your chair beside the window, thinking about how school currently goes, might not have much friends and not doing anything, learning less and less. So you skipped school... what now? Do you want to go tomorrow? Probably not. You ask yourself while staring out the window: Why am i living the same day over and over? Why do i feel so empty all the time? The only thing that fills your soul is sitting beside the window.
thanks for reading.
bro that was powerful damn thanks :))
Alr wait gimme 50hrs to read this
I read it nom me cry I wanna do it i wanna go outside in the street at 3am in the rain and just think about life and wonder around 😔 my life is the same the same and same thing it's like having a dream over and over again 😔 it's just a not explainable feeling😢😭
@@bartplayzzz8824 feelings are sometimes too powerful ;-;
duude, i got the sale thoughts yesterday 1am..
this is a type of song i would listen to if i want to cry but i can't
Same
It’s like I feel like crying but I can’t
@@jasminejones5690 it just feels like you shed all your tears already
@@jasminejones5690 same
Yesterday I was thinking about the girl I love.. I heard this music, and I felt asleep, thinking bout her
Today..I skipped school, I was just walking out of the town, in the rain. Directly to the mountains. I was listening to this, and the view was beautiful. Too bad I'm at home again.
That actually sounds like a w I might have to do the same
thats plan a for me just walk and walk and walk going no where just walking enjoying the world allways seeing new places and people but never saying to ling i dont want to ever be somewhere for long
I could never do that. My school is in Downtown Stockton CA. It’d be a Miracle for me to make it out of Downtown in one piece. There’s even a place there called “Zombie Street” and considering Stockton’s reputation, I just hope you can understand what that means.
Laying in bed staring at the ceiling while slowly giving up..I cant physically keep living like this but I cant get better..
hey don’t give up i know things are tough and it hurts a lot but please don’t.. life can get really tough and it hurts but the thing is life is special and you just have to take a step i’m sorry for anything you have gone through but i promise it will get better
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I hope things have gotten better for you since
Jesus is near to you🩷 just turn to Him🫂
remember how when we were young and made fun of people because they were looking for someone to date and love? it turns out... most of us became that person...
it’s like looking for light in a dark room. maybe one day you’ll find someone or something to make your life brighter :(
I though you were russel macneil ryan :(
Holy shit that was deep....
This was deep asf
@@jay1k308 i know it’s sad asf 😵💫
too scared to ask anyone out cuz of the fear of rejection or heartbreak... and also ruining the frendship completely.
Nah bro you gotta conquer that, that's the only way to gow and become the person you want to be
im kinda the opposite but like not really, I get scared when people ask me out because sometimes I do like them, and I don't want to ruin the friendship, I just hate the idea of relationships. because of some circumstances in my life I kinda believe nothing lasts and I apply that to relationships 😼
i understand how you feel. but hey- i feel like telling them would be beneficial in two ways:
1) you get it off your chest so it doesn’t bother you forever;
2) (sort of relates to the 1) one) maybe turns out they like you back, it will make you feel so much better knowing that you said something. even if they dont like you back, at least be proud of the fact that you were brave enough to come forward with your feelings. its def not easy but accepting rejection and failure is a vital thing in life. destiny has bound you with the right person. i’m sure they’ll come along sooner or later :) don’t beat yourself up if someone doesn’t like you back the way you like them. it’s gonna be ok :))
@@paigemccollough5488 ye
Im scared to ask anyone out cause i was rejected 4 times
(a sadly wholesome comment) *MENTIONS OF SUI*DE
I fell so hard in love. I can't believe it. 4 months of knowing him, and the entire time he knew he loved me too. I was so tired and depressed, but when i met him, it changed. I became happy. afterschool we gamed the night away. All leading up to tonight. The night where we confirmed our relationship. I told him yesterday (as of 5/16/21) that i caught feelings, and i broke down in tears because i though he'd never like me back, that i was gonna get rejected per usual. but no. He loves me. And i love him. We're dating, and i love him so much, all i wanna do is be around him. He saved me from suicide, and i can't thank him enough. he treated me like a person when i needed it most.
Congratulations 😁 but... don't rely on someone else for your happiness you have to be happy with you at the end of the day
Not me can't having this because i'm homosexual in a homophobic place 💀
Jotaro got you... Even tho he killed you.. Your still a warrior to me.
May God bless the both of you
“you’ve exceeded my expectations! well done!”
- people
“but how can that matter when i’ll never exceed or remotely meet my own expectations? how can you be proud of me when i’ve barely done anything? i can be so much better at school, in sports-god, my social skills are so goddamn awful too.”
*how can you be proud of me when i’m not even proud of myself?*
TW: SH i relate to this so much.
it got to the point where i couldn’t take it anymore. i felt constantly stared at and never good enough. my insomnia got really bad and my social anxiety went higher than ever. i ended up doing sh. (didnt put it for reasons-) i needed help.
i’m currently getting help. i promise it can make you feel better. i understand things may not look like that right now, but i can say for sure that it WILL get better. i love you
@@user-pl1px1os1r im so happy to hear that you’re feeling better. i don’t have much to rant about, it’s just the classic *im the eldest sibling so i have to be the good example and get the best grades and be amazing at sports* and then my parents complain when im tired all the time.
thanks for reaching out to me, we relate to each other a lot through the social anxiety part, and it’s good closure to know that it’s not only me who feels this way. again, thank you
@@hailey.elayne no problem at all. i know how it feels to be extremely low and i’m here to talk if you need it. and totally understandable. being expected to set an example for a your siblings is hard work. sometimes i wish i could do stuff without being criticised or having people pay heed to my actions all the time. remember you’re loved and you’re not alone. 🖤
@@user-pl1px1os1r thank you so much. i just got home from a really tough and exhausting practice so to hear you say that im loved really makes me happy. im always here for you too
@@hailey.elayne of course. you deserve to know that.
Pov: its June of 2002, you've just gotten home from you're last day of school & summer has begun, only to see that it was raining late in the afternoon. Ur parent(s) makes you you're favorite snack as you do you're favorite activity inside the nice warm house. Life was good..
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@@tsiaa6790 ik right, but hey the new memories that will happen & new experences will be fun as hell (i cant spell bc i type to quick)
It's crazy how I used to have a crush on this person for 6 years. And the fact that I still love them with all my heart, somebody already has them.
Same
6 years means you loved them
@@rathouse101 Deeply loved them with all my heart
I knew what you mean but I had to let them go because they didn’t see me as that and sucked seeing them happy with someone else
same 8 years and he found a gf and his gf even told me she would never date him… and now look at them
That’s right. I loved u, didn’t love me back...
@Gary Feola hmmmm
Seems kinda sus
@Gary Feola bot
@Luciano Ernest bot
☹️:(
My parents hated me
So here i am
it’s 3 in the morning tired from sleep deprivation you get up and go to sit on your porch you light a cigarette and it start to rain “where did my life go” you think to yourself. you used to have so many friends you used to laugh and play and run around cheerfully now here you are alone remembering the friends and lovers you had in the past wondering what they are doing and why they left “i loved you” you say out loud now sobbing feeling a lonely void in your chest “i loved you all so much” where did time go ?
one thing i've learned as you gotta enjoy life bro.... instead of asking where did time go enjoy the now, make things happen now life is no where near over enjoy it!
it's crazy how we can share our problems with online strangers but not with family or friends.
it just feels more comfortable and there’s people out there that actually understand and can relate to a problem we’re having
@@melissag5310 maybe man
fr:/
That is crazy
@@jay1k308 because bro
I don’t think I love someone else, I can’t even love myself. You cannot blame people that don’t love you back.. they just don’t.
I see all the comments about them being rejected, and I feel kinda bad. like ive always been the person people ask out- I don't like relationships because of reasons and always say no because of that. I know it hurts them and I hate that, but if I had said yes they would be believing a lie and it would put them and myself in a bad position
You fs did the right thing... don't force yourself into anything
No ones gonna see this, but I truly think. I’ll be single for my whole life and I’m fine with it....
hey i did man its ok
Ye me too
Same here.
With a bad mindset comes bad things not so jus try to stay positive love isn’t for everybody dawg n thas aight jus kno u did good enough tryin💯🙌🏽
same boat..
i just wanted her. only her. she was my sense of pride, joy, and she was their when i needed to rant. she never told me what was on her mind and what was bothering her though. but yesterday, we split up. she wanted out because we weren’t meant. she wanted the best for me, but she never knew that the best was her. i miss her a lot, and i’m going to be crying for awhile
listen she aint you, she was a heavy influence on you, but she isnt you, she shouldnt be your pride and joy, she cant control that. You are yourself, shes not you. If you keep thinking of her the weight on your back will get heavier, you just need to forget and get your mind off of it.
@@thornemusic thanks man. yesterday for some reason she texted me and called me. i answered back like an idiot. im sorry i let you down. i'll try to forget and move on. i'm going to learn from this that i don't miss her. i miss the idea of her. thanks homie
Don't trust anyone with your feelings, never.
@@Flametube1 yes, i learned that the hard way. thank you though
@@glueyyyy You welcome, take care.
Nothing lasts forever, I lost the one person I wanted to be around all the time. The person who gave me a sense of life and cared for me all the time. I bottle this up because no one knows who they are. Nobody cares about them except for me. I wasn't able to help them when they needed me. My happiness in life is forever gone. I'd rather not be here, but they're in a happy place. For now, I'll be happy for both of us.
it hurts seeing people living their best lives with friends while im always in my bed just watching them through a screen. wish i had friends
Damn this is fucked up ..... I'm srry bro if you ever need anyone I'm here
Yo, if you need a friend, I can try to help you :D
you and me both
been in your spot for the past 15,i later discovered that i was the reason why iam always left behind,once i improved my self physically and mentally i had the life i always dreamed
@@abdullamohammed_ how do you do that when you have mental illness that causes you to stay left behind.
I have depression, bipolar, adhd. It’s hard.
i hate feeling like this. i've grown attached to him but he's not gonna text me and i know it. it's okay, he's probably just busy. i just wish he'd talk to me like he did before, my birthday is coming up but i wouldn't be surprised if he forgets or if he just doesn't talk to me.. i miss him.
I hope everything works out but don;t stress too much the moment you stop stressing and worrying about it is when everything gets easier
I was in the same situation. If he can't simply bother to talk to you don't wait. Ik it might seem hard but I wasted 3 years of my life waiting for some toxic fuck. Maybe it isn't the same situation, but you only have one life. No need to spend it on waiting. Happy late/early birthday! Stay safe
same. but don’t worry okay? if he doesn’t do anything, drop you're. he’s not ment to be. it’s hard to drop someone you care, and love very much. but, you need to accept reality and do it. do what’s best. i hope you find someone that would talk to you daily, love you and give you all the attention you deserve.
She made me feel like she would never hurt me, she made me feel safe, and I felt loved, for the first damn time I actually felt loved by this “girl of my dreams” then she cheats on me with two guys, my best friend asked her out right after we broke up, ruined that friendship, exposed me, and replaced me. It’s like she doesn’t remember everything fucking memory we made, it’s like in her head I was just a fucking dream, one moment your having it, then you wake up and forget all of it.
She used to tell me “I love you” and it was the most innocent and heartfelt 3 words she would say to me. She meant it. She really loved me and wanted to be together. Only thing was, I didn’t know she meant it as a friend. She played me so hard I couldn’t see what she was doing to me..and today, she said it. She said “ I love you” and it..it just breaks me to remember I’m going to be by her side no matter what and she just lies to me every day with those stupid words.
Dear Sophia, I love you
and it’s okay..I know you’ll never love me.
I’m proud of you for who you are, but I know now you’ll never get it.
God bless all the people sharing their stories in the comments❤️
Don't let yourself get used bro.... no matter who it is... your a person and deserve to be happy
*this brings out an emotion that shouldn’t be real*
This is what realizing you're falling back into depression feels like
Nothing makes sense anymore 💔
I’ve been rejected every time I liked someone but now I’m just numb to it all
Srry to hear that bro... one day you'll find someone who appreciates you for you!
I understand, i am at the point where i don’t really believe in love for myself anymore
Bro i wish you all the happiness, im sure you are a beautiful person and im sure you will find someone who love you, don’t give, up look forward to the future, love yourself and take care
@@missann0316 That’s rough but keep you head up ❤️
@@kalane45pc really thank you I needed that you take care too❤️
losing a bsf bc they changed and got influenced by the wrong people hurts.
@@Elin524 thank you sm bae :(
I know exactly what that feels like, I am so sorry that happened to you, I’m here for you.
@@Partyrockingvoid thank you :)
Going through this right now, it’s so fucking painful. It’s like I’m suffocating.
@@silas537 nothing lasts forever, you must understand that.
anyone know the feeling where they wanna cry but cant...
yep... and the only thing that has broken that wall for me is thinking how i can't be like anyone else and when i want to cry with everyone else i would not be able to
I let it all out so I can’t anymore
Damn I thought I was the only one...
I hope everything is better now!! can we get an update??
@@tspil Same w you I hope everything is better now!! do you have an update?
I met a girl named Lillian. Me and her would hang out everyday. She helped me with a lot. We hugged,we cuddled,we laughed together. Then I watched her slowly fade out into the distance with another girl. Eventually,she forgot I existed and I was left to have nothing but the memories of me and her.
Sorry for your loss. it happens unfortunately :/
Dam ;(
Went through this exact thing with a girl. Best friends for 8 years but I got homeschooled and I guess she found a replacement. It fucking sucks.
There’s no way she forgot u exist (only its like 20 years later or something, cuz that’s jsut crazy)
@@silas537 sometimes we realize how friends we are with someone when we’re not forced together (school) (and yeah Ik it’s hard when not seeing each other everyday)
We’re out there together and forced everyday, what about outside of school?, if it was rlly good, y’all would’ve talked everyday outside of school, we to lots of places even b4 that.
Just thinking of that alone, makes me realize that I have basically no friends, I talk to a lot of peeps yes, but I don’t have a good strong connection with anyone and it’s jsut sad.
These peeps are rlly my friends by jsut looking at it, we talk everyday at school, yeahsir, after, nah, it even takes them the longest to respond thru text or most of the time, never, yeah we’re not real friends, u can’t hurt an over-thinker, bcuz I’ve already seen it coming, and it’s about to be here in one week, summer time, the same thing, nothing after school, my birthday is coming up, but
*tbh I don’t even want to do anything with my two friends*
*bcuz why does it have to take my birthday to do something with y’all, huh?
It’s jsut sad when u think about it.
There was a time where we jsut wanted to go to the movies me and my friend was good on something, then the third one didn’t even respond, like I don’t get why it’s that hard , BRO
WE ARE NOT FRIENDS, Y’ALL ARE JSUT WHAT I GOT
😔
But I’m going to high school next year, bye, hopefully it’s better, cuz it was my first year there too
i didn't know that i needed this so bad in my life until now. i'm going to sleep right now, with this melody surrounding my ears, my heart. good night, everyone.
How was your sleep? ^^
People always told us it's fun being young but it's never fun watching someone you loved for years leave and not look back
Yeah
Agree bro same shit
Imagine🖤
WARNING- a bit depressing,possible triggers of things happening in your past??
(I put it there just in case of any reason)
You get home from school and walk to your room. You slide your bookbag off your shoulder and slump into bed. You stare at the blank ceiling feeling empty and cold. You couldn't figure out why you don't feel as much happy as you use too. All you wanted was to go back in the younger days of everything being fun. You think about how your teachers tried there best to make everything fun and following trends. They wanted you too feel like a kid while it lasted cause they know your not gonna be the same person they once knew you were. You look back at old photos in yearbooks of good days,happy days. You see your old friends and friend groups that now kind of parted because of personal problems or drama. You had a problem of letting go so you kept everything that each friend has given you. You only have three close friends that you trust dearly but still struggle to trust cause of issues. From losing people you became clingy. You remember how fun P.E used to be and how much motivation you had back then. You remember being so happy and care free,how you hated school,and hanging out with each of your friends,making your classmates smile. You missed the fun events and outside recess. Playing tag,hide and seek,or any other fun game. You remember those weird hand clap rhyme games that just randomly come into your life,becoming a memory. You look outside of your clear window with a tear slowly rolling down your cheek,feeling cold and empty. You miss the days of playing with your toys or playing old kid games. Playing house,kitchen or anything that was fun to you . You start to remember how slime,fidget spinners,and so many other things being a part of your life. How society has changed inlcuding the way peoples are now a days. All you ever wanted was to be in a carefree world where there was no toxic people or judgemental people. A world where people can enjoy what they love or how they are,how they want to dress,what they want to be,be who they want to be. You realize it started to rain a bit but gradually became slightly heavy. Thunder coming from the clouds,flashing and banging. You walk outside in your hoodie and sweatpants and sit in the middle of the road staring up at the sky with your back on the ground facing up. Luckily,there were barely anyone driving because of the rain and most of the lightening hazards appearing on peoples phones. You stare and let the rain fall on you,not giving a care of getting your clothing wet. Your hair becoming more damp and cold,your face covered in drops from the sky. You grow goosebumps from how cold the rain is and shiver. You close your eyes and breath slowly,remembering how your parents told you to be a kid while it lasted. You started to break down in multiple tears as too what feels like you made a pool of sadness. You wanted to be happy again,be carefree,hangout with old friends,no drama,nothing to make you feel unhappy.
You sat in the road crying until it was dark outside,still raining.
You then calmed down and sat in silence for a bit.
Breathing gently and then walking back inside.
Great now im crying 😍but seriously thanks for this
@@actuallydeceased8786 no problem:) sorry I made you cry:(
@@mo.jitto_ ITS OKI ,really it is plus it was more like crying tears of kinda joy 🖤
I can't read
@@cloudtheclod That's alright:)
idk what it is but when i think about myself getting older and going to have to get a job i… i’m just scared of the future and what’s ahead of me. idk it might sound dumb…
that don’t sounds dumb, i feel the same, ur not alone :))
and it’s okay to feel scared, but u will get through it, u can do that :))
i feel the same way, it's really scary thinking about the future, bc we can't even know what is going to happen
The pain in ur heart is temporary
So dont dwell on it forever
fax
POV: you look back and remember all the good times you had as a child and then realized how much you've changed...
ive loved this girl for the longest time, she was my best friend, but recently she decided to just throw me away like i was nothing, she abandoned me, the history we had together, the fun times, all gone because she didnt need me anymore
You need a hugYoshi here have one I might not be your girl or even anything but I’m here with u!
Y’know... this kinda reminds me of CoryxKenshin, remember when he was playing that one Japanese game where this person in the red cloak would chase him ? I think it’a called Monto ? Idk, but every time I listen to this, that video would always pop up into my head. Haha, miss Cory. Hope he’s doing well.
Yea I love cory... I model some of my content after him tbh I hope I can become a big goutuber like him one day
Update he never retired 😁🔥
currently sitting at my window, it’s raining. listening to this masterpiece and reading all the comments. wondering where is the old me, liking the sun and caring about everything.
That actually sounds relaxing....
I'm not an expert about love, but I think I love her, I couldn't imagine my life without her I'd give my life for her at any point. but the only reason I'm not dating her is because what if it's just a phase? and I stop liking her within the next few weeks. I can't be there for her in the way she wants me to either, and I don't wanna ruin the friendship we already have together.
you'll never see this but that's ok.
I love you, ela.
This song reminds me of going to the pond with my siblings and my heart shaped bowls with a Disney princesses design and dressing up as silvermist from tinkerbell with my old friends who are long gone
that actually sounds lit
this song makes me think of life and my childhood, i feel so nostalgic and knowing that one day im gonna die just kinda hurts
I’m the exact same way man I’m constantly thinking that
That’s deep
LOL and im thinking of kill myself and you thinking of that ,is kinda funny
This song reminds me of life and how I should be grateful for everything.
There’s always someone who’s in a situation worse than u, gotta be grateful for everything u get
Just because i was mad, i lost my 5 years friendship with a girl.
It hurts
You still have time to fix it. You just live once, we all die anyways. Kind of morbid but don’t worry it will be okay, the world will still spin regardless if she forgives you or not. You will be okay
hope you're alright
hope your doing well now
Everyday feels the same.
i miss being happy. i wish everything was okay and easy. everything is becoming too much to handle anymore.
Ikr
@@3hion I relate to yall on this one so heavy i stg im srry yall going through this its fucked up
Im srry everything is like that for you I understand where you're coming from I hope things have gotten better for you !
Just imagine...
Your sitting in your room one day, the lights are dim, it’s pouring rain outside. Your just staring out your window blankly, the only sound is the sound of the pouring rain against your roof. As you sit their, you begin to feel sad. A feeling of loneliness begins inside you. You may have a lot of friends at school, yet somehow, when your alone, the life you have with your friends just disappears. You glance at your phone that is next to you, it’s 2:45 am. You look back up and out through your window, the road is empty and the only thing on it is rain water. A tear rolls down your cheek as you over-think about life.
Are my friends real?
Does anyone really love me?
With your social anxiety, it’s hard to tell. They seem like they do, but trust issues come a long way. This was the first year you had ever had real friends, that’s why your so hesitant. A red car runs past on the road, bringing you back to reality. That’s when you realize you had been sobbing. You look back at your phone, 3:06 am. You sign, and wipe your eyes with your hoodie sleeve.
“Time is an allusion that helps things make sense.”
You begin to quietly sing, but your tears start up again at the same time.
“So were always living in the present tense. . . It seems unforgiving when a good thing ends, but you and I will always be back then-“
You pause, and stare sadly out the window.
“You and I will always be back then. . “
You think of your friends, hoping they will last.
Also wanting someone to hug, but knowing everyone you know would probably push you away, disgusted.
“Tomorrow is a new day. . “ you mutter, wiping your tears one last time.
You get up from the floor and get on your bed, facing the window so as you slowly drift off to sleep, you can look at the lonely road that reminds you of yourself, and the pouring rain that reminds you of your tears.
Tomorrow is a new day, you’ve made it through every day before this, and you will make it through the next.
Loneliness is not lack of company. Loneliness is a lack of purpose
holy shit that was deep... I honestly think it could be a combo of both, that's the worse you could have it
Thanks for sharing yo, I hope everything is well for you :)
Imagine:
You're walking up the steps, already hearing the pattering of the rain as you get closer to the doors outside. You take three more steps, already feeling the difference in temperature, the small traces of water already leaking through the door's broken seals. You push down on the handle slowly, hearing it squeal from grinding metal that's not been oiled in a long while. You hear the rain better now, stepping out, the door groaning even more. The smell hits you, that smell of rain hitting warm pavement. The door clicks behind you, having closed. You stand under the awning, covering a small area just over the doors. You hear the different thudding of rain on top, hitting the tarp, the rest of the rain hitting the ground with little splat sounds. You look out over the view, despite the rain clouds, you can see the sun setting in the distance. The school bells go off announcing the end of any club activities for the day. The tones playing in four notes, a familiar one. You walk out into the rain, feeling the cold drops fall into your skin, like cold little shocks. Your eyes flutter shut for a moment, soaking in the rain, looking up to it can grace your face with it's cool comfort. You look ahead again, opening your eyes, the water dripping through your now wet hair. You continue to take more steps, wanting to sit down on the edge. You gently kneel down, sliding your shoes off and then swinging your feet over the edge. Your legs and bottom now soaked from the wet pavement, but you don't mind it. You lean back on your hands, kicking your feet back and forth over the edge, hitting the side of the building almost in a rhythm. Like making music with the rain, humming a small melody to accompany it. Like the four similar notes to the school bell.
Absorbed in your own world, you don't notice that you don't feel the rain on your shoulders and head anymore. You raise your eyebrows, looking up and to your left, a presence being felt. You look confused, before a small smile breaks over your face. They were there, sheltering you from the rain. It was silly, since you were already soaked, but you didn't mind, the gesture was kind and thoughtful. Instead, you pay next to you, wanting them to sit down. They stand there, a moment of hesitation before making a small sigh and shaking their head, like they thought you were daft. Despite it, they pull the umbrella back and close it, placing it down. They take off their shoes as well and sit down next to you. They stare at you for a moment, then out at the dusk in the distance. You look to the same light, gently leaning against them. You didn't know what to say in this moment. Maybe you shouldn't have said anything, but it was something that needed to be said. It didn't matter anymore, it was so long ago. But they were simple words you never got to say, so you'd say them now. "....I loved you...."
u good?
@@buaischetursun8781 yes, I'm alright. It's just a story that I felt kinda fit
Omg, this story fits this song perfectly. I don’t think id have enough courage to sit on the edge of a building though, especially with all these like rumors about people, and hateful things being said, who wouldn’t have grudges against others. I’d be to afraid someone would push me or something along those lines 😬
As children we would have done anything to become adults, to have responsibilities....now as adults we would have done anything to be kids again, to be carefree, happy, and not worrying what would happen to us or the world. A time where we didn't care how we look or what other people might think of us. Now most of us are regretting what we could have done. But past is past and we can't really do anything about it but to go forward.
This speaking volumes 🙏🏾
When you realise you’ve been drawing for an hour.. dude thank you. Your a legend. You made me feel worth something and to anyone else reading this, your doing great. never give up.
Nah thank you bro I hope all goes well for you 💯
@@jay1k308 Thanks! it has been going well. 🫶
To my mom
I still love you
Please come home
Me and your other kids are waiting for your cookies
We are waiting for you to put the radio on
We are waiting for you to tell us to help clean the house because guests are coming over
We are waiting for you to tell us it’s movie night
We are waiting for the smell of your food you make
We are waiting for you to come back
My condolences :(
No cause this made me cry...
God loves you , and I hope you feel better soon . ♥️
this actually made me cry 🤩
I'm crying. I wish you all the best...
this song is what deep down pure depression feels like
I’m in love with her but she’s not in love with me she’s in love with her friend… :) sucks when you can’t go.
I love her but wish we never met at the same time ,all the pain she has caused me over the past weeks I thought what we had was special until I see her treating other people better than me. I thought our level of trust was good until now it’s crazy all the nights I spent helping her feel better all the times I butt my head in to help her when she didn’t want it then when it comes to me she doesn’t show me the same. It rlly hurts knowing ur putting so much time into one person who wouldn’t do the same back
For me she doesn't like anyone and theres no way she could like me, and the problem is I dont wanna ruin our relationship since I trust her a lot as much as my childhood friend, it really sucks because I suck at everything, lifes really sad, and I dont even know what to do, i'm just bad at everything
@@shinzou7838 I’m so sorry, you could tell her how you feel.
@@j1m326 yes I feel the same.
@@aurorana5374 nah bro, you have more pain, also dont be sorry, at least I have 1 person that i trust the most, and yeah I will
i sat here and listened to the whole thing. i have no idea what came over me but it seemed like every emotion at once. it seriously made me dizzy and i started crying, not sure why. but now i can't sleep. tomorrow will be better
This is nice to cry to lol, but seriously, thank you for this dude and ur support in the comments :)
Np bro!
" you make me wanna go to sleep. " he says after flirting with another girl. "your boring" he says after i try so hard to do fun things with him. " her body is like a stick, ew. " he says about a girl in a photo, me knowing thats my body type. and yet i still love him so much..
words hurt rigo. words really fucking hurt.
Don't stay with toxic people. Try to heal your wounds emotions.
the words and hurt a lot are or sound like bullets from a gun in your heart and also in your mind and your conscience and I think that before saying people should think well before what they are going to say I think it is better to ignore these things than these types of people say it's not worth the ball
People really just be chilling here, living day by day just having no one but yourself…
i love him man. everything ab him. his smile everything, it’s been a heart and every piece of love my heart holds goes to him.
A little bit on how I feel but in a different perspective.
Trigger warning for flashbacks and such.
You realize that as you get older, things change. Too fast. It hurts. Your friend groups split, forcing you to take a side, but you can't. So you're just left there alone. Year after year, things get harder and harder as time goes on. You find it hard to make new friends and your social skills slowly decrease. Wasn't I happy before? What happened? Then you remember the drama in your friend groups that tore you down. You remember being left on your own. Why? Why me? The empty feeling slowly encroaches like storm clouds bringing a heavy rain. You realize you're alone. You try to make friends, but you get spoken over and ignored. Now and then you message your old friends, but find out things have drastically changed since you last spoke. They've grown up while you're living in the past. Stuck, left behind, and alone.
Thank you for reading.
My life in a comment.
So fucking relatable
There was a VERY dark period for me when I cried everyday and never left my bed for 4 months.I finally got out of bed and got help.But even when I’m getting help, I still just want to disappear. And it’s so frustrating that I feel so numb, I have the urge to scream and cry, but nothing comes out. So all I can do is sit in a quiet, cold, dark room with my face buried in my knees. Everyone says to wait and it gets better but it’s been about 7 years of suffering and I’m a senior in highschool now. Ive had no motivation and been alone all this time and it’s so scary when I know I have to grow up and do things on my own. I never knew I was going to make it this far…
6 years, so much time dedicated to you, waiting for you, and dreaming of a future. Yet you can just leave so easily.
still remember when we were still kids and still not know the word "REALITY"...
I love these types of music, it gives me a weird vibe but I like it, it's like feeling lonely but not lonely at the same time and just sounds amazing
ive had a crush on this girl for almost 8 months now. we were very very close, we hung out everyday and i thought that i had finally met someone who genuinely cares about me for who i am as a person. she had no idea i had a crush on her for a long time. turns out she didnt like me back. she told me that we could still be friends, but she told me recently that she wanted to take a break from our friendship because she feels uncomfortable around me nowadays, but my gut is telling me that we might not start talking again, i dont want her to leave. i have 0 friends. i dont want to be alone again. my life is miserable enough. i just want 1 friend who i can talk to. i cry in my bed in the middle of the night thinking about what i would do without her. i dont even care about whether or not she likes me back or whatever. i just care that she likes me as a friend. as i write this, i still am not aware of what i did that made her want to stop talking to me and im really confused. i wish that i had somebody to vent to about this. but im stuck here, writing a stupid comment that nobody is even going to take the time to read. all i want to do right now is talk to her. about anything. i dont care what. i just want to have a conversation with her again. i just wish that i was more comfortable talking about my problems. i wish that i wouldnt hate myself so much for wanting to talk about my problems. i wish i would stop ruining all of my friendships because im so emotionally distant from everyone. i wish that i can just have a friendship that lasts. i just want to not be alone. please. i dont care about anything else. i always come back to this whenever i think about her. it brings me back to when she actually liked me as a person. we where on a call. it was 2am. she was venting to me about her family issues. she said one thing to me that stuck with me. she said that she saw a side to me that no one else could see. it made me feel appreciated as a person. we where listening to this when she was venting to me. i look at our relationship now and i see how distant we have become. the last few times that we talked to each other, i only ever spoke when i was trying to make a joke, i enjoyed making her laugh. but i realize now that all i did was screw up our friendship and i failed to actually connect with her on an meaningful level. i feel that all i am now is an empty husk. all that i ever did was tell jokes and make her laugh, to the point to where it felt like an obligation. she started to appreciate me less and less as a person and saw me more as someone who is just there so they can humiliate themselves all for the sake of a dumb joke that will make her laugh for 5 seconds. i was never this close to anyone before. i ruined it. im certain that i will never find someone like her again. if she leaves me for good, im not going to make any more friends. im scared that if i make another friend like her, i am going to ruin the relationship like ive done so many times before. i dont want to experience this pain again.
Tell her your feelings try not to stress her too much maybe your gut is right but if you truly love her respect her opinions
The saying goes:”There’s plenty of fish in the sea”, but I’m starting to think I’m landlocked.
there’s always freshwater fish
There are plenty of fish in the sea, but my hook is broken.
there’s this ominous feeling i can’t shake off of me. something lingering over me, covering me like a weighted blanket, holding me down. i’ve tried and fought so hard against it but i’m on my knees, crippled, now. i’ve lost everybody, i can’t trust my family, my best friend left me for someone else, i’m being forced to not love someone who i thought i would spend the rest of my life with. my heart feels empty, desperate, alone, and cold. im confused, as to who i can trust, if anybody, because everybody’s already broken it. im losing sight of who i am, or at least, who i once was. i’m just getting dragged further and further, and it’s to the point to where it’s all the same now, just a daily routine, happening over and over again.
anyways, sorry for anybody reading this, i just needed somewhere to get some of my thoughts out or else i’ll just internally combust
I like being alone but not lonely. It’s just not the same without her yk.
This reminds me of my confusion, why I can’t figure out why I hate life, why I hate myself. I never understand what caused me to feel how I feel, I have the ideal life, my mum is nice, I have a couple friends, I have a s/o who loves me, what could’ve gone wrong? I’ve always had this dream of killing someone before I die, I’m not sure why, but I’ve been planning to do it for a while. I never really cared about other people’s feelings, I don’t care about anyone, I hate everyone, people think I’m so supportive of them if there sad but really I hate them and want to smash there face in with a hammer, why do I feel like this? What’s wrong with me.. I tried to tell a councillor about this and they say it’s about wanting power, I think it’s true, all I want is to be powerful, look down on people. I want to see someone’s terrified face when they realise I’m not defenceless, I want to see there face when they realise I’m powerful, I’m intimidating. Is that bad?.. is there something wrong with me? Am I crazy? I’ve always wanted to kill someone then kill myself right after so I wouldn’t have to go to prison (and I’m suicidal but we don’t talk about that), it’s selfish I know, to take someone’s life away just because of my psychotic needs, but I can’t stop thinking about when I swing the rusty hammer, and watch it bash there skull in. I don’t want to just kill any person I can get my hands on, I’d like to kill the person that made me feel useless, the person that thought they could boss me around as If I don’t have feelings, the person who constantly played with my emotions, but that isn’t just one person, that’s everyone... :)
I'm going to answer your question in full honesty: Yes, yes you are crazy if those are your actual thoughts, if you kill someone and then yourself like in a school shooting that wouldn't make you feel better if you feel nothing anyway, it would only make other people uselessly get hurt, *but* there is a slim chance, just a slim chance there might be someone who will rescue you out of your mental state that you are in right now, you might not think or hope that at all, the only thing you can do is wait. If there is some kind of afterlife, you will regret what you did, if you do what you described you want to do.
@@erisch.3716 ngl this made me feel a bit better, ive always said "im going to kill someone when i get the chance" but i never actually got the chance, does that mean something? anyways, there are many professionals trying to help me at the moment and i think i might be getting better.
@@ed3n509 That's good to hear, hope you get better.
@@ed3n509 Dude it’s the first time someone has e x a c t l y the same thoughts as me I’m feeling less lonely. (Dw we are crazy together (: )
@@fandqngo3156 this made me feel so much better lmao everyone else was saying I need help, also it’s getting worse atm lol
I loved him
I cared for him
I hoped for him
I was always with him
I..
I lost him
The feeling when you want to cry but you can't cuz you're numb yet you're in so much pain. Am I the only one?
i shouldnt have ever loved you, you don’t know me.
Damn...
Ik people are telling stories on how they have crushes or have been heartbroken but I’m going to talk about how I may have to break someone’s heart sadly…
I have this friend which me have known each other for many years. I figured out they had a crush on me because my friend told me that they kept talking about me and taht they loved me ever since we became friends. I consider myself straight and they are pan and I support them. They have become more touchy to me and is always around me. I realized that they are little toxic because they have hit me some times (not as a playful way), they have said rude comments sometimes, and have said disgusting things I have been uncomfortable with, plus every time I get hurt physically or mentally they have told me to “suck it up” and that they have been through worse. I have been trying to get out of the friendship but they have kept on saying “your my only friend” “your the best” which I’m scared they will be alone which has made me feel anxious. I don’t know how I can reject them without hurting them or losing the friendship cause I know I will think I’m a bad person. I just hope they can some how lose feelings towards me and don’t like me anymore…
*its 2 am, you and your nephew play minecraft after a school day. you were so damn happy and cant remember the last time u were happy now*
That feeling of looking at the ceiling of your room listening to rain land on the windows. That feeling of wanting to cry but you just cant. That feeling of knowing that it's all meaningless. It just doesn't feel worth it anymore I've got no one to vent to it's just hard.
a lot of people suffer from the same thing. its okay! just keep in mind that everything will be alright :)
thank you, for making this and a other thank you to the comments, I now know I'm not the only one suffering in silence, all of us are..these comments have thrown me back into my past thinking of all the good, and happy things, a real big thank you to each and every single one of you, I love you all equally!
Yea np :)
That moment when you want to let it all out but your so used to being numb and not letting it out it just.. doesn’t happen.. and you can’t let it out.. it’s stuck there.
i hope he doesn't leave me, he's my favorite person
I hope he doesn't leave you either... I hope you get it All figured out!
@@jay1k308 THANK UU
@@Angi34653 np!😁
Did he leave?
@@Average_Explosion_Enthusiast i left him:(
it's crazy how a person that you love so much, can hurt you the most
fax
i lost all my friends and love. but i hear this music and im crying its ok :>
natural
Hope Ur ok person
Don't cry:(
I wish I could hug everybody In the comment section. I’m so sorry what happened to you, and I hope you are all okay. Love you, stay safe
Growing up i had fallen in love with a guy and he did too. But now I've fallen out of love with him. I'm sorry. It was just after all the time we spent together and what you had said to me broke me. I use to love you but now i don't. You broke my trust and my entire being.
lol i remember now when i had my birthday at a hospital and had to get my iv redone (i absolutely hate needles) and after getting out of the hospital, i cried for a few months. i was doing online school the whole time until the last day of school/field day. the first half of the day they gave me a replacement birthday and the second half was field day. i was so happy i really love my school:)
No suicidal shit, life doesn’t hit the same.
We as kids were so happy to grow up because we get to anything we want and be able to drive and buy our own stuff and go to high school. but we never knew how stressful life was gonna be... our parents always told us never grow up fast but we didn't listen I'm now 15 and I'm barely able too speak to people irl and have no motivation for anything. I'm graduating late..
When you put your heart and soul into the relationship, share your secrets, your fears, your dreams. And in the end you lose everything, that feeling of them taking everything with them when they leave. Why bother telling people anything these days, the only outcome is nothing but pain and misery.
He’s leaving for 3 months and then 8 years I’m probably not gonna be able to wait I wanted to build our life while we we’re still young but I don’t think it’ll happen now I’m just slowly pulling away so he’ll be the one to leave me so he won’t get hurt my love for him will always be endless.
Nah don't do that spend as much time as you can with him before he goes.... you'' regret not spending time
She made me feel like it was my fault and I told her everything would be okay. It was a hidden cost I had to pay. I now see her at school sometimes, practically everyday. As if some unknown boundary exists between us, I’m glad she keeps her distance, knows exactly when and where to stay away. “I really need someone to talk to”- There was no delay. She could’ve easily spoken to me after revoking the block, but no, there was no relay. I don’t know why I was so gullible, things like that are more subtle than a stray. To anyone reading this: I wish beautiful moments to come your way.
I’m so sorry to everyone around me. I used to be so happy and now I’m so angry and sad all the time. I don’t know what happened. Everyone always says that they miss the old me but I don’t know where she went or when she’s coming back, but I miss her too.
Powerful
It’s interesting to see all these different paths of life all coming to one destination which is heartbreak but what people don’t understand is that u can turn anything into positivity it’s all about perspective.
I never loved a single person
So I'm hurt. I wanna love someone, but it doesn't work
I'm sorry to hear that.. I hope everything gets better
My mother always says, “things are always prettier when we wait for them.” Don’t rush love, it will come to you at its own pace, you just need to have patience and faith. Waiting years for the right person is 100 times better than rushing into a wrong relationship that might hurt you. Stay strong and keep looking for your person.
This give me the feeling when you have some memories of you and your old friends that come back to your mind and then realise that they never really cared about you and you where always the one trying to make everyone feel comfortable and happy.
And then you start realising that maybe it was your fault all along because you never really tried to speak to them again because you lost hope.
I’m sorry
All I’ve ever asked for was a hug. And nobody gave it to me. It’s funny how some of us never get the simplest things in life even if we’re good.
i’m sorry i’m late here’s a virtual hug!! 🫂
All of you listen, to whoever reading this, to whoever is going through a hard time.. I just want you to know you are amazing, beautiful, and perfect.. You don't need to change yourself to make "everything better" Ive learned the hard way, just keep going I know you can do this, it can be hard sometimes but I know that if you try you will succeed, if you don't, try again, because it will be worth it.. I don't say this just to say it, but don't let people drag you down, don't let them control you over what you want/think.. Don't listen to people who hurt you because it will end up you hurting yourself too. Don't give up because there are people that love you, and if you don't think that... Well just know, whoever is behind that screen, I don't care who you are.. You're amazing and I love you
thank you ma bro.
This reminds me of me and my friends as kids, we would get home from the bus after school and hop on Xbox. When games were fun and that is what we loved to do together. We would hang out, mess around and have fun at whatever we did. Yes we argued but I feel like everyone has had an argument with friends. Now we’ve gotten to the point were we don’t talk we play once a week and it makes me sad. If I could go back and watch all of are funnest, stupidest and overall dumb things we did, I would do lots to get that feeling back.
I’ve been listening to this song over and over again before i go to sleep bc nobody understand me the way this song does
I'm srry man. I feel you 🖤 If you need someone to talk to we all in the comments
Gotta be high on live to succeed in it, gotta be high on love to believe in it.
Fax that's a w quote
sometimes i wonder "what am i doing with my life'' im currently sitting in a dark room with my head on my desk crying, just wanting too go back too the times when i could truly smile, but hey thats life.
Sorry you’re going through that bro I hope everything gets better!
To my old friends....
I was always a third wheel, too ugly to be in photos, or even to be invited anywhere because i would be too embarrassing. When i was getting bullied right in front of your faces, you didnt even help, you just stood there and acted as if you didnt hear a word. Now, 4 years later I found new friends, better friends, more loyal friends whom I belive will always stay with me. I've lost weight, became prettier and now instead of being called 'elephant' I get called 'Skinny' and 'stunning'. In a way, I was bullied into losing weight, but that didnt give you the right to not help me. When I felt suicidal, and deoressed you didnt give a shit, I was the other person who could help myself, and now look at me! I am doing amazing, so I guess all I have to say is sorry, sorry for you for losing such an amazing person.
This is a gr8 story ! Glad you Bossed up
It hurts to see people having fun and enjoying life, I mean I’m also glad for them aswell, but it makes me jealous. Why can’t I be that way? Why do I have to be one of the few on this planet to be tied to a chain and not be able to go out and live life the way they’re supposed to. Why do I have to be this way. I want to go outside, play in the rain, start a garden, go bungee jumping, see the world. But I’m trapped here, on the couch, it takes too much effort for me to get up to get something to eat. I hate it. I want to be a different person, I want to change. And people tell me to change like it’s that easy. What did I do wrong? I don’t deserve this. It’s like a civil war is constantly going on between my body and my brain. I’m always begging myself to change, to be a better person. What am I doing wrong? Is there something I’m missing?
This makes me remember all the things i've done in my life and makes me regret them.
I love this. Good job :)