My psychosis, a different reality | Jeroen Zwaal | TEDxEindhoven

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  • @MichaelLittle47
    @MichaelLittle47 5 років тому +92

    I like this man. Because he is honest. That's the healing.

  • @Smoke_DMT
    @Smoke_DMT 10 місяців тому +10

    I often feel like I'm in a personalized Cosmic Psych Ward and i have to prove my "Normalcy" in sone kind of interdimensional court judging my soul. So happy i have found others who endure such thinking, the mind really tries to convince us we are special or alone in this thinking and it further isolates us. Thank you for sharing.

    • @Lilassi
      @Lilassi 5 днів тому

      How did you find those people ?

  • @natasharomero8
    @natasharomero8 Рік тому +51

    Having a psychosis was the best thing that happened to me. I was so depressed and very anxious and had problems with drugs. Then I had a phycosis, it broke me down then allowed me to restart. Synchronicity was a big part of it.

    • @adiamalem9246
      @adiamalem9246 Рік тому +1

      What made you snap back to reality or feeling ok

    • @natasharomero8
      @natasharomero8 Рік тому +8

      @@adiamalem9246 just trying to stay positive. That's a hard question to answer really. I was honestly crippled with depression and anxiety afterwards but a big part of that was the wrong medication I had to try a few to see which worked. Also I forced myself to go for a walk everyday then started the gym and running but just do whatever makes you feel good! It took about a year to get back to some sort of reality. Staying away from drugs too obviously.

    • @natasharomero8
      @natasharomero8 Рік тому +6

      @@adiamalem9246 psychosis is actually so common so many people go through it but it's not talked about because I guess people are ashamed. But I met a lot of people who have been through it. I hope you can get through it because I know how hard it is. Stay STRONG BE POSITIVE!!

    • @lexigordon7071
      @lexigordon7071 Рік тому +10

      i recently had a drug induced psychosis where i ruined a lot of friendships and lost the trust of my family members. i feel lucid now but the guilt and trauma of what i experienced still weighs me down. i've been desperate to talk to people that understand but i have yet to find anyone- thank you for your comment

    • @natasharomero8
      @natasharomero8 Рік тому +6

      @@lexigordon7071 bless you it's so hard. Leading up to my phycosis I was awful to my friends and family but during my phycosis I felt that guilt so hard and I apologised to who I needed to and resolved most of it. I hope you resolve yours too but it does take time I suppose.

  • @rdtphoto
    @rdtphoto 2 місяці тому +3

    Imagine if it is true that we have a soul. Now imagine how a soul would conduct itself. Is a soul selfish? (Remember that selfishness is the exact opposite of love. Love is only giving) Is a soul holding grudges or negative towards others? Does the soul care about the car you drive? What came to me during my own psychosis is that I was in conflict with my own soul. I did not believe we had souls before that. What recovered me from psychosis was letting go of all negativity that was in conflict with the soul. Mainly expressing love for others, helping others, forgiving others, even the people who had stolen from me. Not talking bad on others. Once I did this I became so light and full of self love for the first time.

  • @suribuxton9079
    @suribuxton9079 3 роки тому +20

    Love this guys humor. The people who have seen the darkest things tend to have the best hunor at least in my opinion

  • @robbybobby6277
    @robbybobby6277 4 роки тому +44

    Very good video presentation. Helps people feel okay with their own mental and emotional confusion and turmoil. It's something we as a society need to learn to be more open about.
    Bottling up mental health issues isn't healthy, at all. It leads to more toxic experiences and feelings. Like anger and rage or bitterness or resentment or social isolation and alienation.
    If we can open up about mental illness we can be honest about it, with one another. I have Schizophrenia so I know what it's like. It took me many years to gain the control back over my mind that I know I now have. My first psychosis was 1996 and I was 18. I'm now 42. But I got there... Just as you did.
    Keep up the good work! We need more stories about it and more social workers with lived experience.
    It will help minimise the stigma.

  • @Musicvideosfyp
    @Musicvideosfyp Рік тому +10

    Amazing! I believe I am just getting over a trauma/psychosis phase. I used to be so scared and thinking I was watching demons plan the ending of my life. Being with family and anxiety meds helps me a lot!

  • @libbymorrison8800
    @libbymorrison8800 3 роки тому +28

    Reading your comments , all resonate with my experience 5 years ago . I thought I was here to save the world , save someone from something bad happening , I thought I had met Jesus . The metaphors too! Like all of a sudden everything small and minute had huge meaning . It all made sense to me , but of course confused everyone around me . The colors were also out of this world , like a glow I’ll never forget . It’s too bad that I couldn’t feel seen or supported by my family and they had me to go to the hospital and behavioral center ... that is another story

    • @Bluewizard35728
      @Bluewizard35728 Рік тому +5

      I had almost identical experience. I even reached oneness where you feel the universe or God

    • @zacharylee8939
      @zacharylee8939 Рік тому +4

      I had the exact same experience too lol, it was extremely beautiful and profound but I ended up suffering from a lot of trauma due to how those in my immediate environment reacted.

    • @lexigordon7071
      @lexigordon7071 Рік тому +2

      i had this same thing! i thought i needed to sacrifice myself for the world like Jesus did, not thinking i was as important as him- but i just thought God was telling me that in order to be Christ like i had to prove myself through works.

    • @lexigordon7071
      @lexigordon7071 Рік тому +1

      @@Bluewizard35728 i would love to make a support group or something out of these chats, i think its insane and meaningful that we all had almost identical experiences

    • @Smoke_DMT
      @Smoke_DMT 10 місяців тому +1

      I wonder why this is such a common thing? This has happened to myself as well in a few extreme cases when I took too much psychedelics.

  • @phoenixrising9352
    @phoenixrising9352 4 роки тому +144

    My psychosis was hyper connected with everything, I was “God”.

    • @chickensandw1tch
      @chickensandw1tch 4 роки тому +12

      Thats lit

    • @corasmith8531
      @corasmith8531 4 роки тому +45

      I had a similar experience when I was in psychosis. The first time I believed I was humanity’s savior much like Christ, the second time I believed that I was a god, however one of many. I have taken away from my psychosis a spiritual world of metaphors. Just because all your thoughts in psychosis cannot be taken as “truths” in the literal sense, the very fact that you experienced another reality is innately spiritual and profound and people should not be forced to lose touch with that, in my opinion. Just my take on it, it’s always cool to hear about other people’s experiences and what they’ve gotten out of them :)

    • @chickensandw1tch
      @chickensandw1tch 4 роки тому +5

      Corey Lynne I’m very openminded to the idea of spiritual dimensions so rant on if you want, it’s fascinating I think :)
      I see shadow people and experience auditory hallucinations when sleep deprived. Other than that I’ve had DP/DR from weed and experimented with psychedelics. What triggered your psychosis and was did it feel good or bad?

    • @zaiasolomon4316
      @zaiasolomon4316 4 роки тому +7

      Bro I too had psychosis and thought God himself came to my house. Hope you are doing better, you will learn something from the experience, get well soon!

    • @karabear8076
      @karabear8076 4 роки тому +9

      @@corasmith8531 I experienced similar in my psychosis. It's remarkable what the brain can do. I saw full people in front of me talking to me and people I have known for my entire life looked different . I know it wasn't all "real". But I try to take what I can from it.

  • @Julieber1
    @Julieber1 6 місяців тому +1

    My friend up there who is giving a TED talk, it sounds more like a spiritual awakening that you’ve been experienced in those are confirmed experiences.

  • @RC-ey4gm
    @RC-ey4gm 4 роки тому +91

    Loss. Trauma. Sensitivity. Reality is actually crazy. Break from reality is actually like taking a break from stressful reality.

    • @justaperson9155
      @justaperson9155 4 роки тому +2

      Definitely

    • @alayna8168
      @alayna8168 6 місяців тому +1

      Psychosis is not a break from a stressful day. Stop romanticizing mental illness

    • @christinebadostain6887
      @christinebadostain6887 4 місяці тому

      Yeah, agreed. Define "reality." The world that exists in concrete terms is delusional. Why adhere to that?

  • @a.m.o.l3873
    @a.m.o.l3873 3 роки тому +6

    Godbless you and your family. You are a true empath, you have a true gift of healing. You glow with the universe within you.

  • @sharonfisher3179
    @sharonfisher3179 4 роки тому +30

    "Stay awkward, brave, and kind."--Brene Brown

  • @rainbowgirl4795
    @rainbowgirl4795 3 роки тому +59

    I had psychosis and I had a lot of synchronicities I can't explain that...

    • @frozenlime
      @frozenlime 2 роки тому +6

      Like a synchronistic explosion of synchronicities? 🥳

    • @rainbowgirl4795
      @rainbowgirl4795 2 роки тому +2

      @@frozenlime yes

    • @danntbeltran
      @danntbeltran 2 роки тому +8

      Like I everything made sense even things that don’t make sense like dividing by 0

    • @rainbowgirl4795
      @rainbowgirl4795 2 роки тому +3

      @@danntbeltran after that yes. It was like meeting my fears and dreams...

    • @Bluewizard35728
      @Bluewizard35728 Рік тому +15

      I had the same. I was connecting dots at lighting speed

  • @cathypico
    @cathypico 4 роки тому +13

    Thank you for sharing your story. It’s healing to hear♥️

  • @HairdresserOrActor
    @HairdresserOrActor 3 роки тому +16

    I
    never had a schizophrenic episode in my life until some guy bought me a drink and hours later I started seeing things and could not sleep, I would see scary looking things in walls like demons and in people.. when I would scratch my arm the feeling would be delayed and wouldn't show up until seconds later and when people would talk the words would be delayed with their mouths. The tv would also talk to me and this was literally after I had a drink from some stranger. ( first time it wasn’t even alcohol it was a regular drink ) This “episode“happened for months until my parents realized they couldn’t do anything. I called the police the same night and they tested my blood for drugs and said nothing was found in my system, I was just paranoid. Then, eventually I had to go to the mental hospital because I couldn't sleep for months even when I tried to. This happened in 2018, no schizophrenics in my family or nothing. Now in 2020 back in June the same thing happened some guy bought me a drink , my friend drank out of it as well and nothing happened to her ( I swear I had felt a pill ) and I had another episode and had to go to the mental institution because I wasn't in my right mind, seeing and hearing things. They said I had psychosis and schizophrenia, is it my mind playing tricks on me making me think they did something to my drink or am I actually schizophrenic because I never experienced this ever, the first time it happened I was 19. Now I am 22.

    • @josedeluna1080
      @josedeluna1080 3 роки тому +2

      Did you go through synchronicities as well? Did you feel as if something was going to take you?

    • @HairdresserOrActor
      @HairdresserOrActor 3 роки тому +3

      @@josedeluna1080 yep

    • @josedeluna1080
      @josedeluna1080 3 роки тому +3

      @@HairdresserOrActor we’ll be okay🥺❤️

    • @RRandomRick
      @RRandomRick 3 роки тому +3

      I just had a psychotic break from a Marijauna high. I’m going to go get seen by a mental health institution as well. The psychotic break I experienced was the scariest thing I ever experienced, derealization of reality. I’m better now. You will be okay. Be strong and persevere.
      @@HairdresserOrActor

    • @HairdresserOrActor
      @HairdresserOrActor 3 роки тому +1

      @@RRandomRick yea I read somewhere that weed can make it more likely to have psychosis and schizophrenia but
      I just got back to smokin it bc I feel like wats more to lose lol if I have another breakout I do , can’t stop it when it happens but I guess prevent it by not smokin and drinking bc my doctors said alcohol can play a big part in psychosis and schizophrenia too for those who already have it

  • @Boz-mj8qu
    @Boz-mj8qu Рік тому +17

    Cannabis has been shown to be the most dangerous of all substances in relation to psychosis and schizophrenia.
    A 2017 study showed that if you experience a cannabis induced psychosis, you have a roughly 1 in 2 chance of being diagnosed with schizophrenia within 20 years. That is the highest conversion rate to schizophrenia of all drugs, even more than meth psychosis (which is roughly 1 in 3).
    And if you smoke cannabis daily, particularly as a teenager, your risk of experiencing psychosis goes up 5 times.
    There needs to be far more awareness of this.
    To put in perspective, a study showed that up to 50% of those diagnosed with schizophrenia in Amsterdam could have avoided the illness had cannabis not been consumed.

    • @shefaliagrawal4587
      @shefaliagrawal4587 7 місяців тому +1

      How to create this awareness ? Cannabis is the cheapest, most accessible substance available to people, mostly young students who consume too much. By the time they realize, the damage is already done

    • @flor.7797
      @flor.7797 6 місяців тому

      thanks for raising awareness about the dangers of THC. Hower this can't possibly be proven: "up to 50% of those diagnosed with schizophrenia in Amsterdam could have avoided the illness had cannabis not been consumed."

    • @Rebecca-GLaines
      @Rebecca-GLaines 5 місяців тому

      My ex sister in law has a family history of schizophrenia, she's on meds, but when she stops, she has to be admitted to the hospital dt episodes. (She's an RN as well!!) Anyways, weed is her cure. Truly, she wouldn't need the meds, but she can't keep her license and smoke, but she would live a happier, more safe and sane life if she could smoke.
      I'm not a weed user. But I know many who do use it, I don't think it's "bad" and has many good medical uses

    • @starman617
      @starman617 9 днів тому

      @@Rebecca-GLaines What are "dt episodes"?

    • @Rebecca-GLaines
      @Rebecca-GLaines 9 днів тому +1

      @@starman617 Due to episodes

  • @juliebagnellgrant9978
    @juliebagnellgrant9978 5 років тому +9

    Brave man, I salute you.

  • @mrcoldblood2240
    @mrcoldblood2240 3 роки тому +4

    I was Convinced that i was being Hunted by Demons for years, never slept cause if i slept at dark as in during the dark sky there would be a greater chance for them to take me and at Day or when it was light outside almost everything got away for the time being but i was sleep depraved to the point of being Blind, i would walk in the city while technically sleeping or only seeing a light cloudy vision and Whenever the mist came i would hear it hum, it was humming a song. Theres alot more but i'm kinda fine today i don't bow down to the fear but i do feel/see it. Today especially i just feel like crawling out of my skin, i genuinly have that feeling of that i'm probably dying, like a sickness or inner damage, I'm so tired even though i've had my sleep.

  • @lisamuir4261
    @lisamuir4261 5 місяців тому

    Wow. I can see the complexity and variabled differential points. Sure i may not have this worded properly yet. I will keep going though. ❤

  • @williamwhitelight39
    @williamwhitelight39 3 роки тому +9

    We are all Gods, generator operator destroyer. In the giant play of everything, we are all pieces of God.

    • @Lilassi
      @Lilassi 5 днів тому

      Explain some more please ?

  • @chickensandw1tch
    @chickensandw1tch 4 роки тому +6

    As he said ”time til half past 2” it was just thinking about how much time I had left until half past 2 for my snackbreak at work

  • @aaronrashid2075
    @aaronrashid2075 4 роки тому +44

    What if everyone else is hallucinating this life, but the schizophrenics are the ones who escape the hallucinations? Would that make schizophrenics more realist than normal humans?

    • @mikewazzupski
      @mikewazzupski 4 роки тому +5

      Well all of us are actually hallucinating our conscious reality so it is a really interesting thought, i agree.

    • @4xrru
      @4xrru 3 роки тому +5

      Ahhhhhhhh no.

    • @mandyvanoosten7077
      @mandyvanoosten7077 3 роки тому +1

      indeed my friend!

    • @4xrru
      @4xrru 3 роки тому +1

      Read my reply please

    • @4xrru
      @4xrru 3 роки тому +1

      @@mandyvanoosten7077 Read my reply

  • @angiemirles1799
    @angiemirles1799 3 роки тому +21

    Mine is like I can see everything and hear and do everything but non of it is real to me has anyone else felt like this?

    • @Limoneaid819
      @Limoneaid819 3 роки тому +2

      I feel like this a lot when I’m in big crowds of people mine is usually triggered in huge social situations it’s so scary to me it feels like I’m dying everything feels so fake it last for weeks

    • @simonacland9028
      @simonacland9028 3 роки тому

      yes i have that when it is a new situation especially. feels like it is virtual video game or something. the good thing is it means you're a genuine human and in touch with yourself! dont worry just roll with it.

    • @relaxnsleep3490
      @relaxnsleep3490 3 роки тому +1

      You may be suffering from depersonalisation as it’s called but that’s only a lil guess. Cheers.

    • @saichandreddymandapati6567
      @saichandreddymandapati6567 3 роки тому +1

      I think I know what you are taking about!

  • @salamartin5492
    @salamartin5492 4 роки тому +31

    I don't know if this is psychosis but after this period of quarantine sometimes it appends to feel like if I'm the only human on the planet even if I see people around me. It's so scary when it happens. What can I do?

    • @Beiskraft
      @Beiskraft 4 роки тому +11

      If you have someone to talk to maybe that would help. All we humans struggle with this life and meaning. You are not alone!

    • @salamartin5492
      @salamartin5492 4 роки тому +3

      @@Beiskraft thank you

    • @Zmaqo
      @Zmaqo 4 роки тому +4

      It could be various of other things also. However if you only "feel" like that, and don't "think" that it's true, it probably isnt psychosis

    • @salamartin5492
      @salamartin5492 4 роки тому

      @@Zmaqo i don't know anymore

    • @sanshorshes
      @sanshorshes 4 роки тому +3

      Call a psychologist, talk to a professional

  • @sagamghamal9370
    @sagamghamal9370 3 роки тому +13

    I sometimes see stuff and feel but never tell it because I dont want to go back to psyc ward. it was horrible so here is a message if u see and feel stuff dont tell anyone because no one will believe u.

    • @loridrblake9770
      @loridrblake9770 3 роки тому +7

      This is sad. I spent many years trying to find support. I became my own advocate and learned about psychology, spirituality (because a lot of the visions of the mentally ill are archetypes of the nature of our creation), I got a bachelor's degree in philosophy, psychology, social science, & native studies so that I could understand more clearly what I was going through. I finally got the help I needed, I have a great support system & am finally ok with my diagnosis & medication. I am looking forward to my life, now. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here. You are not alone and above all, you are Loved and worthy of Love. Thank you, Lori

    • @nwobhm1992
      @nwobhm1992 3 роки тому +2

      Why not nobody would say he is hallucinating for fun. Nobody wants schizophrenia bcuz it leaves a mark of disability on a person...

    • @tamarapetrov4990
      @tamarapetrov4990 2 роки тому +2

      It has taken me 25 years of good solid relationships with 2 psychiatrists over that time (and many years before that with bad ones), to be happy to admit to am having hallucinations for exactly this reason. I still have certain things I wont mention, or will phrase very carefully to avoid hospital

  • @Headspace101
    @Headspace101 7 місяців тому

    I heard a voice say ‘bitter’ in a whisper at 49. I thinks it was a German saying Thanks- but threw me for a moment!

  • @ahappyfamily2gmail588
    @ahappyfamily2gmail588 3 роки тому +5

    My question to Jeroen? Do you take medication on a regular basis or are you able to function without it?

  • @antonemilia4484
    @antonemilia4484 4 роки тому +14

    February 2018 was a very weird month for psychosis.

    • @mariemay7721
      @mariemay7721 4 роки тому +3

      Feb. 2018 was my sons first episode... it is now 2020 and we are still trying to get him help! I myself have not been myself since that time ,searching day and night on how to reach him and bring him back to reality😢😢

    • @taeb8731
      @taeb8731 3 роки тому

      Feb 2018 was the start of me and mine too.

    • @bestshortclips18
      @bestshortclips18 3 роки тому

      @@taeb8731 how are you doing now?

    • @taeb8731
      @taeb8731 3 роки тому

      @@bestshortclips18 enlightened and freed thank you

    • @brandoncruz7047
      @brandoncruz7047 2 роки тому +1

      @@mariemay7721 my heart is out for you, I’m 18 bout to be 19 in a month and have had psychosis for about 4 years. It gets better. Respect to you as my mom has done everything she can as well. I pray for your strength and for your sons health. ❤️

  • @luuk9659
    @luuk9659 13 годин тому

    Was a magical experience, I got messages of extraterrestrials and angels. Felt like predictions of events that are comming

  • @magneticmoonstone
    @magneticmoonstone 7 місяців тому +1

    What to do if my psychosis ended but I still have these psychotic thoughts crippling into my mind? My psychosis was about reality not being real and everything being a simulation, and even though I am not in an episode now, the thoughts are still there. The problem is that I cannot prove them wrong (it’s impossible) which makes it so much worse… I just want to be normal again

    • @lampwizard4871
      @lampwizard4871 7 місяців тому

      Look into Vitamin D.
      Especially if you don't get much sun. Get your blood checked at the Drs

    • @ashtree336
      @ashtree336 5 місяців тому +3

      Talk to someone you trust. Focus on your physical health. Go on walks. Even if life is a simulation, don't you want to try to do well and have a good time? Ocd can look like psychosis especially with ruminating. Check out Maria Bamford

  • @BLFulle
    @BLFulle Рік тому +1

    Two things, Justin Bieber peed in a bucket at a restaurant and everyone just thought he was annoying.
    The second thing, I totally understood his #3 Still about his father and the parachute.
    I don't think I really understand what psychosis is.

  • @catc6012
    @catc6012 3 роки тому +1

    Who is this Howard Gelt (sp?)? he is referring to? Nothing relevant shows up in my searches?

  • @adiamalem9246
    @adiamalem9246 Рік тому +1

    What made you guys snap into reality???

  • @nguyentantamphantamtamrevi212
    @nguyentantamphantamtamrevi212 4 роки тому +2

    september

  • @Natsnetw
    @Natsnetw 2 роки тому +2

    Can someone return to normal

  • @alienn4145
    @alienn4145 3 роки тому +2

    I almost blew up my house

  • @bartoszklaczynski2803
    @bartoszklaczynski2803 5 місяців тому

    I wonder If he is healthy without any meds.

  • @lutchieperegil7857
    @lutchieperegil7857 3 роки тому +1

    Why you guys think so much exaggeration of the Past Lives, and makes yourselves so Get into it, that it's a Biggest Deal?
    It's a Normal Life, and a Normal Experiences... Be happy and be grateful of the Bad And Good Experiences out from every Peculiar Moments.
    You Folks must Focusing on what's Bestest for every Situations, as what the Future might gives out from it.
    See 🙈 how it gives this Man--- Psychosis Illness.

  • @fettmaneiii4439
    @fettmaneiii4439 4 роки тому +4

    Some people never get out of their psychosis. This man is another perfect example. Stuck in his sense of self importance, stuck in the vague beliefs of "healing". Another delusional manipulator.

    • @biscuffer2518
      @biscuffer2518 3 роки тому +12

      @Puggelicious You just asked a man named Moth Monma Poppa Bobba Fett Mane the 3rd to explain his comment
      Hes a moron just move on

    • @jacob_6281
      @jacob_6281 3 роки тому +1

      @@biscuffer2518 fair point lol

    • @nwobhm1992
      @nwobhm1992 3 роки тому

      Yeah i thought so

    • @gaminggardener9719
      @gaminggardener9719 5 місяців тому

      what do you mean by this statement?

  • @kt1696
    @kt1696 Рік тому +1

    Did you have to take antipsychotic medication?