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Jubilee this is what a platform like UA-cam should be used for A way of sharing personal stories to other that says that they aren't alone and that they have something to love for
My best friend died and I still have her number on my phone. Every once in a while I would call her number, and when it goes to voicemail, I leave her a message, revealing all of my regrets and how much I love her. I know she won't reply, but it helps with the grief.
I'm so sorry you had to go through that pain, I know what it is like to lose someone so close to you. I'm sure she listens, she watches and she wishes she could be there with you to support you. You are so strong for even being here right now and I am proud of you for that. Please hold on, I know it hurts but you can do this ❤
Ooo "The influence you leave on somebody can be eternal. There's power in your presence, there's power in your influence, there's power in who you are"
Perhaps, though I disagree with the assertion that the secret-sharer allowed or faciitated the suicide of their friend. Suicide is solely the liberty of those who choose it; at best s/he could have postponed that choice. (A suicide which I'd class differently would be that of someone profoundly deluded/intoxicated who was simply unaware that their actions were exposing them to death.)
Jeremy Auldaney I know this isn't a comment you said anything about jesus in, however, Everything you're saying about "Jesus will save you" and shit, doesn't make people who doesn't believe in that feel any better. You AREN'T Helping anyone! Certainly not those who were molested! Saying "Jesus will save you" Or "He had demons" Or "Being gay is a sin" Doesn't help peoples fucking problems! We understand you have your own beliefs, but you could of simply said "God bless you" instead of making the situation worse, even by a bit.
Alexander Hamilton I'm sorry, I agree a hundred percent with what you are saying but I don't get where you are coming from with that comment... I didn't not mentioned any religion whatsover...
My secret is really just that I'm lonely. I have friends and a loving family and an amazing little dog, but no one I feel I could tell the world to. Luckily, life is a journey, and the path can always turn
I've felt the same way. I opened up about alot of my insecurieties for a guy I only met a week ago. We sort of became bestfriends and he helped me confess it for my parents. Things is alot easier now. And I don't feel alone.
But I feel alone when I'm with my friends. That's the only exeption . So I think I should get new friend. But thr thing is, I don't know where I'm going to find them.
Dwelling on the evil of this world can make you sick. The question is what can you do to make things right. Only God can do this. All good things come from God, by reading and studying to understand the Authorized King James Bible. The best is the Henry Morris Study Bible. Avoid new translations which are man's copyrighted words, whch twist the meaning into New Age Relegion of Antichrist.
I do the same. I think that we maybe, deep down, feel the urge to cry, but we don't know exactly why or we dont want other people to know the real thing that brokes us down, so we watch this things to have an excuse to relief those emotions and as an excuse if someone find us crying our hearts out. What do you think?
Idk why but my biggest secret is that i don’t know who i am, why is that? I think it’s because i am afraid of being judged by other people so i tried so many times to change myself and act like another person… and to this day i still don’t know who i am…
As soon as I heard that dad number thing I had to stop this and ask you guys who else paused the video at that minute? To meditate, or to write a comment, doesn't matter. Damn I didn't even lost my dad or smth like this to get so emotional but that thing ...
I had to stop bc i started to cry, my dad passed away 1 year ago and it just broke my heart, all the memories came back.. and his number... wont be answered anymore... i am 23 btw
I am like one of the prophets of old warning the people about what is coming and exposing all the lies people are being told by False News, and False Prophets. This is my life's work.
My secret: My dad use to be a grade A narcissist and abuser. The psychological torture that he put me through was unbearable and it still affects me to this day. He said things like "You look disgusting", "You're nothing but my slave", "I could care less how feel". He would also shame me for taking care of myself when I didn't offer him any care, he also guilted me into massaging his feet countless times which is very dehumanizing for a young boy. He yelled in my face countless times for standing up for myself and also applied physical force just assert dominance. He would also try and steal credit from any success I ever had. Now, Ive grown to be 6'6 215lbs at 22 years old. People see me, think I'm "badass", and want to know me but I don't allow people to get close at all. Im paranoid that people will try to manipulate me mentally to get things they want. I'm scared that someone with the right skill set will take advantage of my mind without me knowing. Not only is it hard for me to make friends because of this, I am very self conscious from my dad's remarks of my appearance when I was younger. Just wish I had a dad to connect with before and not one that manipulated for his own good. -First time speaking on this
Justball19 My ex was a narcissist. The manipulation and mental abuse were unbearable. I can’t imagine how difficult it must’ve been to have a parent who treated you that way. You’re not the person he said you were. You’re so much stronger, smarter, and more valuable. I send you healing and hope things start to get easier for you. 💗 Don’t be afraid to open up to others. Not everyone is out to trick you. Trust yourself. You’re wise enough to know who really cares and loves you.
You have got a worse dad... It'd be great if you choose to be a best dad....Show ur kid how an ideal dad must be Stay strong.. only you can change your life,be positive
I wouldn’t listen to my friend when she told me she was thinking about suicide. I mentioned it to an adult but passed it by. She committed suicide last year. I’m so so sorry. I’m so sorry I didn’t care enough to recognise her pain. I can never make it up to her.
There are times when you need to take things personally. I had a friend like yours, in 6th Grade, she was suicidal as well. If her friends weren't there, she would have lost her life back then.
I’ve had a similar situation. But my friend did not follow through. It’s not that i didn’t want to help them, it’s just that I didn’t know what to say and what to do
The one about the dad's phone number is very relatable... my dad died in April and I still call his phone just to hear his voice from his voicemail... I know I shouldn't because every time I do it I feel that surge of pain shoot through me that I felt when I realized he was really gone. I'm sorry I know you guys don't know me and really don't care I just wanted to rant about that.
I'm sorry.. I can only imagine what you feel and go through every time you hear his voice on that voicemail.. I hope you're okay and I hope you feel better in time ❤️
My deepest secret is I don't have any form of depression but when I'm really sad or made a bad mistake I imagine how people would react if I killed myself ultimately coming to the conclusion that no one at school will care
Summer Stuart I've had those thoughts before. Honestly, I talk to maybe 2 people from high school still. And that's ok. All of those other kids who I thought were so important and had so much power over how I felt about myself, I don't even think about them anymore. I haven't talked to 99% of them since high school. They don't matter. I just didn't realize that back then.
My secret: Sometimes I feel numb and want to walk right into a busy road or jump off of a cliff. There isn’t a reason for this, I would just feel lifeless. Even if I was in a busy area like a mall or at school I would zone out and go into a state of almost depression and want to end it there and then.
Spirit Fingers honestly I don’t know either but maybe it’s just myself, thinking that being this way is cool or something, but I don’t know. I think I’m just tired and need a lot of sleep
Loona Army ever since watching this video I’ve already started talking to someone and thank you for your suggestion and giving your time on replying to this comment!
I'm 15 and I've saved many suicidal people. It's a feeling of love. All he stress goes away once you realize a life is far more valuable than any form of stress. You feel on top of the world.
It’s honestly a dream job. The feeling o saving someone’s life, stopping that blade, unknotting that rope, closing that pill bottle, must feel great. You stop another funeral. Another tear from falling. Another heart from breaking, and another future from vanishing. I would love to work at one to feel that sense of doing something good in the world
I’m currently in the eighth grade. In the seventh grade, my math teacher asked me to come to his front desk. I went up and he asked me why my school work was suffering since I usually do just fine. I remember him saying this sentence “is there anything going on at home, because your usually not like this”. For at least the past week before he asked me, I’d just been scribbling on my notepad to pass the time. I think it was just a huge shock to me, because I didn’t notice that I was doing it. I replied “ya, nothings happening” and went back to my seat. I almost started balling my eyes out, but I managed to keep it together. The month beforehand, my mom had been diagnosed with breast cancer. I was depressed to a point where I didn’t even notice. I didn’t tell anyone because I didn’t want to. Sometimes you don’t know how far your sinking until your 10 feet below. But ya, that’s a day I’ll never forget. That’s my secret. And I haven’t told anyone about it before.
my biggest secret: i am very unhygienic. as a female, my mom tells me i should shower at least once a day but i never do. i go weeks without showering and whenever i get forced to shower, i actually only pour water onto myself out of laziness. i never wipe after i poop or pee and yes , i do keep the same underwear for weeks in a way where they’re all dirty so my mom is constantly buying me new underwear’s. when i’m on my period i just use toilet paper (my blanket is full of blood because of it) and i don’t brush my teeth unless i’m forced 😖
@@narra7867 I really hope that nothing physical, mental or psychological is causing your laziness... Please try and look for the cause of it Anyway good luck
@@narra7867I don't want to insult you, but you should be definitely see a psychologist. It's probably a disorder of some sort, since this is a really unhealthy behavior.
For every single person who is commenting/commented their story /secret, I just wanna to tell u, that u are all strong, fantastic, and everything, trust me...
My biggest secret: They harassed me because of my way of dressing, my physical appearance and the sport I play in. They gave me the nickname of a man and constantly threatened to beat me for no reason ... They were constantly shouting:LOOK IT'S GIRL WHO LOOK LIKE A MAN HAHAHAH. Because of that, I almost committed suicide.
@@emajuric2959 I'm so glad you didn't. People are angry and hurtful, you have to find your crowd, there are groups of people for every type out there and the internet is an amazing tool to find them. Having a group doesnt make it easy but it helps you feel less alone, and when those angry people do cone into your lives its easer to see that they are just sad and hurt and you don't have to be because you have found love. I can't tell you how many times i almost crossed that un-crossible line and as of today i wish i didn't. I know for me as the person i am it will come back but i try to remember that " No emotion or rough time that I'm going through is permanent the only thing that would be permanent would be death"
My secret: My best friend commited suicide 6 months ago. My first A-level exam was right after her funeral, so I had to focus on that (no idea how I managed to graduate under these conditions). The problem is that I wasn't able to say goodbye and let go at all, which is why the grief is still strong as ever. There are good days, of course, but then it hits me out of nowhere. We visited different schools and she was bullied at hers. I don't know exactly what they did to her. In my worst nights, I even thought of the possibility that it wasn't suicide. I haven't told anyone, of course. How could I?!
@Seki thanks for that 🧡 I was at my very lowest when I wrote this comment, which means that things are getting better (at the moment, at least. Of course grief hits every now and then). One step at a time. Anyway, your reply really cheered me up rn. Just wanted to say :)
That speech at 3:16 hit me so hard. Idk what about it , it just , means something to me. He says , " It's a suttle reminder that the influence you leave on somebody could be internal. There's power , in your presence. There's power in your influence. There's power in who you are " - Unknown
The Bible says thou shalt not kill. Suicide is murder. You could blame all sin on other people, but you are to blame for allowing them to do this to you.
Oh it’s so common. I find that from my experience and other people’s that I heard, it’s mostly a family member, that’s why most of them are hidden. Apparently, family honor is more important than a child’s trauma and safety.
My idol was my grandpa, he taught me to do what I lived for, he taught me to read. I have been above everyone else in reading ever since. He died when I got into fourth grade. When I was in reading class. I still write letters to him and bury them in the backyard so they might be taken by an angel and given to my best friend, Grandpa.
"My father died 14 years ago, but I still add his number to my contact list every time I get a new phone" That hit me so hard. I Just lost my Mumma 4 months ago I don't think I can ever remove her number from my contact list.. Love you mum xx 💔
Sorry for your loss, I’m 13 and I love my mom and dad so much, I always say “goodnight ma, love you” and goodnight pa love you” so when I think about them passing away I almost start crying in public, I wish our parents could live forever
If the person who was the last to have their secret read reads this, know it's not your fault that your friend took their own life. Because first off, even if you had replied that day, there's no guarantee the result would have been any different. Second, I know every person's experience with depression and suicide/suicidal thoughts/suicidal ideations is different, but, as someone who used to deal with depression and occasional suicidal ideations, I feel certain that your friend would not think of their decision to take their life as your fault. If anything, logic can be so twisted in the mind of person with depression that you can conclude that killing yourself is how you can relieve those around you and set them free to have joy. Purely because you are no longer their to burden them/bring them down. And, again, I can say from personal experience, it doesn't matter how loving or supportive a friend is, with depression it can twist your thoughts so that in your darkest moments, you are convinced that the other person(s) would be better off if you weren't there anymore. Your pain and grief from losing a friend is burden enough, please do not add the burden of responsibility that is not yours to bear. Where ever you are, and who ever you are, I hope that as time passes your pain at this lose becomes bearable and that you are able to release yourself from this guilt.
MireyaRivera i know this comment wasnt for me.. but this comment helped me because i had such a similar experience as that person. And it can be very easy to self blame... i just wanna say thank you.
That was beautifully said, thank you. Despite not personally relating to these situations, this has helped me understand guilt and how there are just some things you cannot control in the moment.
I don’t really want to say this but I think I should so I can move on When I was four my brother manipulated me into playing ‘doctor’ with him. He would tell me to touch him and he would touch me(this went on until I was eight). I never told anyone, I can’t even look him in the eyes anymore. I can’t even look in my own eyes in the mirror..
Bonna Bon Thank you I hope you can get through this, but tell someone! I tried, but my mom didn’t listen.. (she has favoritism towards my brother) but try. I don’t want others to go through the shame and disgust I feel towards myself.
Your brother is disgusting. I'm sorry that you have to go through that. I hope that he already stopped doing that. If you're still going through that, you should tell someone. Someone you trust or someone who can help you.
I know several people with similar situation as you. You are not alone. Your brother probably had some exposure to something inappropriate as well. Please hang in there.
100% same here. Especially the one who wished his/her dad would get a DUI just once. My dad used to own a sports motorcycle, and everytime he'd been riding it he'd come home and tell me stories like: "I just went to {town 200 km away} in 25 minutes" (going the limit it'd take around 37 minutes). Every time he'd say that I'd get scared that he'd crash and die the next time. It's also kind of funny though, when I got my first car he was the one who told me: "Ride safe", "Go the speed limit" and "Don't trust other trafficants too much". But every time he sat on his motorcycle saying goodbye and that I had to take care of the family dog while he'd be gone for the next couple of hours, I thought (and sometimes said) those exact same words.
my fear is that I will never find myself in a longterm relationship because I'm so so terrified of people and the hurt they could put on me, plus the fact that I've retreated into books and fantasy worlds so much that nothing in the real world will ever live up to what I imagine in my head.
There's nothing wrong with books and fantasy worlds. Sometimes they're the only things keeping us sane in this real world. And being afraid of not finding the right person is normal, this fear applies to anyone, whether its the most prettiest girl in the world or the most average one, same applies for males.
Being out of the real world is quite dangerous. Life would just pass you by. If you know any counseling center especially Christian counseling center you could get help.
The "I'm addicted to porn" could have SO much more meaning than it seems. For example: I know a girl who at 6 years old began watching porn, and is now 13. She still struggles with her addiction. She doesn't know where to go with her life because she is Christian and every day lives with a guilt. She wants to tell her family, but she *doesn't know how.* It's not a light matter.
i fell into that hole. im a girl, and im scared of love, sex and all that so idk what i was thinking. i would watch it and think how and why people would ever do that stuff... im 14 now and im scared of my future and my internet history.
I feel u bro. It will be okay though, it gives you a history. Push through it. I did, Im that girl. I think you just have to forgive yourself and move on, even if you fall back into the trap again. At least thats what I'm trying to do. Good luck!
Pornography addiction is so awful. My partner was addicted and it took such a huge toll on our relationship. Physically and emotionally. He became abusive emotionally, with drawn, manipulative and totally sexually driven. 13 years later, he’s been in therapy since then, we have a baby on the way and are getting married in autumn. :) it is overcome able.
That's okay! I really don't know what my sexuality is.. I didn't figured it out yet bcs i never had a chance before but i guess i'm bisexual, too.. I mean boys and girls are both hot as fuck but idk haha
My secret is that I'm terribly scared of death and being forgotten. I use humour and I talk a lot so people see me but sometimes I feel like I have no purpose in life and I get suicidal thoughts.
@@Finnickzfilms You will be wrong. Love will never fill that hole because we human seek the truth and even with love, this question will remain unanswered.. "what is after death?".. love is good but the painful truth about love is that It's pain in the end.. One day you will lose that one you loved the most and if you dont know the truth, then life will take its lead and break you into pieces.. but if you know the truth, then nothing will harm you.. even death will be seen as a gift if you lived a good life according to the one who created you. So seek the truth and light (Islam) then everything in this world will follow you but if you seek the world and what is in it then you will never catch it. Take care for now
My deepest secret: I don't wanna feel love towards somebody because I'm afraid that I'll never be good enough and that I'll lose them and not be able to come back up from that. Ever.
I knew that this probably isnt gonna help you a lot but....you are one beautiful and amazing person and if someone truly loves u, they will love each and everything about u❤
You're wrong the fact that you feel that means you are noble and sweet. My advice is to love Till you can't no more So that if later something happens you can say that you loved. That you did not hold back that you loved till that person every day and that is true courage
My Secret: Me and my mom share a close relationship ever since I was younger I’ll run to her for anything but now it’s different how to you tell your own creator that you don’t want to exist anymore. I’ve been stuck in my room crying at night and when my mom comes home she always gets mad saying I never leave my room and how I never take care of myself. I’m in the lowest point of my depression where I don’t sleep at night I just cry and vomit and get really bad headache and I hate it. I know my mom loves me but why does she always have to say negative things about my body she knows how much I struggle with it she didn’t even notice when I lost 10 pounds or when I wore a hoodie during summer to hide self harm scars on my wrist. I love her but I’m fading from her and that shit scares me
My mom is like that to me my father and my older brother told me my mum family side women Always had 0 patient and can be rude what i do is just laugh it off because you dont Know the reason why your mother is the way she is if you have any questions tag me
I don't know who you are where do you live but I'm going through some it's a process I know you feel depressed you feel low but the best way to cut down your interaction with your mom I know it's harsh but it's what's is because the people only be specific time time for specific place I don't mean you start hate your mom I am only telling to make distance give her time to heal or your going to feel same I also have weight issue. I know when you want to talk or show achievement or tell some secret but she's not mood of listing I know that feeling if you want you share to I will also share mine @wonder bunny
my secret: I honestly doubt anyone is gonna read this, but it just feels good it get it out there, ya know? I had an amazzzzing childhood! That is, up until I was about 9 years old. My dad has never been around, and my mom is deaf so it’s always been hard for her to find a job since most require you to talk on the phone, etc. My mom couldn’t afford to live on the west and decided to move across the country (west coast to east coast) to my grandmother who offered me and my mom a place to stay and stuff like that. So my mom was excited to start a new life in the east, she planned on getting a new car since our current one was run down and she also planned to find a job and a house for us. She sold her car and took me and her furniture in a moving truck to the east. My grandmother has always been sooo nice. She has always been super funny and easy to get along with. When we got to her house it was around 3 in the morning and I wasn’t sure why but I felt anxious to start a new life there, where I would be in a new school, etc. (I was going into 4th grade) we stayed in her tiny guest bedroom to which me and my mom shared a bed. My mom was on the hunt for a job, and while my mom was out my grandma kept telling me how much fun we were gonna have when we would go to malls and stuff. A few months later, my mom still has no job. My grandmother seemed to be a lot more hot tempered than usual and would spark small arguments with my mom often. Then it got so bad to the point where she would barge into our bedroom and just start screaming at my mom. It was terrifying. Everyday when I came home from school she would be laying on the couch watching the news and would just stare at me up and down, nothing like “hello! How was your day?” Just a rotten glare and then she would look back at the tv. I couldn’t find any way to be happy. She turned all our family members on me and my mom, she threatened to kick us out, and since my mom is deaf I would hear my grandmother on the phone talking about how horrible me and my mom were and making up these lies to her friends. She was insane and she ALWAYS called me mentally sick when I tried to break up the fights between her and my mom. It was so scary, I was crying everyday and I have suicidal thoughts on the daily. Life didn’t feel like it was worth living anymore and I felt like I was never gonna escape. Finally, my mom found a friend we could stay with until she could hurry and find a small home for us. Her friend was so nice and considerate of our situation, she was like the grandma I never had. After a full year of being at the east for a year we moved back to the west. It was honestly still super bad since we had no home, so we had to live in a motel until we could get back on our feet. Although we found a home eventually, and it is much better! Although I still have a super rocky life, I’m out of that abusive home. I’m in 7th grade and I’m much better. I can sleep easy at nights and don’t have to worry what I have to deal with the next day. If you’re dealing with suicidal thoughts, depression, or anything along those lines or just need someone to talk to you can feel free to reply and we will talk. Sometimes life either throws feathers or bricks at you. You just have to be strong and fight through it.
The fact that you're so young yet so insightful and strong you are definitely someone worth praising. I wish you to have a long happy life filled with people that will love you and care about you.
My Secret: When i was at the age of 10 I was taken away from my family because our house was a mess, and the year that i spent away from my family was probably the happiest i have ever been.
You need more than emotions, you need facts baseed on truth. Not just assuptions and opinions. Absolute truth does exist, but the only one who knows it is God.
Jeremy Auldaney The irony. Your belief in God IS based on personal opinions, emotions, and assumptions. How can you talk about "fact" and "god" in the same breath? 😂
my biggest secret: I feel like I'm a disappointment when it comes to my mom. so when she said to me that one night "if you don't care, I don't care" it broke me and I cut my arm...
n u i t ۵ Girl believe me Everything will get better with time I know this sounds cliche but it really will. And just remember you are loved and you are important and you don’t have to care about what anybody says just love yourself and that will be enough
That's not that bad I'm someone who has been abused sexually a few times and physically for around 10 years as well as that my parents could care less about my existence I hate everyone and everything to the point were I wake up at night and say why do I exist
MLGsniper7 and this is why i don’t share why i’m mostly upset. i’m aware that my life isn’t as bad as yours but i still feel like a disappointment to my parents. you saying this makes me feel even more worse and want to close up even more than i already am because why am i feeling this way when i have a roof over my head, food to eat, and a family.
My secret: I'm bisexual, and I am in love with my bestfriend. It doesnt sound like that much of a secret, but heres my story: About 3 years ago, I moved from Iowa to Colorado, beacause my mom wanted to go to bible school. In Iowa, I had lots of friends, because that was the place I grew up. I was 10 when we got in our car and left. At the time, I had no soul. I was always blank, and never really showed emotions, so moving so far away didnt really make me cry, but my friends all balled their eyes out. When we got to Colorado, I had no friends at all. My parents took me out if the public school system and put me in a homeschool program, because they didnt like what public school was teaching now-a-days. But I wasnt exactly homeschooled at first... baisically I went to a school that does homeschool work. Like, you would just bring your school work (text books, work pages ect.) to this place, and do it there with other homeschooled kids. The whole reason for this school was so that homeschooled kids would have a chance to interact with other kids, instead of being home alone all the time. Anyways there I met 2 of my dearest friends that I still hang out with today, and I wont say their real names, but I will just call them lemon and lime. Me, lemon and lime hung out all the time and did a lot of weird stuff, such as breaking into other classmates lockers to steal their food. Then about 4 months later, my moms friend told her that some of my moms friend's friend's are moving to colorado, and they have a girl my age in their family, and they want to met us sometime. Next thing you know, their family comes walking up our doorstep to introduce themselves. With them, came this small blonde girl, with a green, fluffy and sparkly sweater and pink fluffy boots along with some leggings. She was a little shorter than me, but was as light as a feather. Her golden hair was shoulder length. She had the bluest eyes ever, with a tint of green around the pupil. She had a welcoming smile, that made me wonder if I looked pretty or not. She walked over to me and waved at me while looking down. I did the exact same. We were both shy towards each other. I took her to my room to get away from our parents boring conversation. We started talking and playing with some of the toys I had. When she left, I felt sad. Her name was complicated, so I forgot what it was and spent the next 3 hours, sitting on my bed, trying to figure out what her name was. Eventually I gave up and asked my mom if she knew, and she told me. I'm not gonna say her real name, so I will call her peach. A year went passed and we became best friends, and I mean BEST FRIENDS. We baisically live at each others houses, and act like sisters. We scream at each other over some stupid shit and drink from the same cup. We share food, have sleepovers whenever we can, and text each other till 3 am. Then one day, while we were hanging out, she said she wanted to tell me something. We went to a quiet place, and she told me she was gay. I told her that I still accept her and think of her the same way as I always did, which was true. Then she told me that she has a crush on her best friend that lived at her home state, and i will call her apple. I told her to tell apple how she feels and see what happens. She said she needed more time to think. A month had passed after that and I had thought a LOT about the whole situation. But I couldn't stop thinking about how mad I was at apple, and how much I hated her. I had no idea why I hated her, I had never even met her. And everytime I saw peach, all I wanted to do, was tell her to stay away from apple. But I stayed quiet. I eventually started having dreams about peach. We would be together, running through a field of flowers or some classy shit like that. I kept telling myself to stop feeling like this, and that I like boys. But I couldnt get peach out of my head. She was all I ever thought about. I would blow up her phone, and message her for no reason. I would steal her stuff, and wear the clothes she would leave at my house. Then I started making up senarios that we could be in before I would sleep every night. I would think to myself, "what would happen if we were locked in a room together?" or "what if we went on a road trip?". Then it happened. She texted me one day, saying "I GOT A GIRLFRIEND!". My heart dropped. I could hardly reply, but I managed to ask her who her girlfriend is, and sure enough it was apple. I wasnt sure what to do, so I just said I was happy for her. I literally felt like my heart was racing 10 times faster. I just wanted to stay in my room forever and never come out again. Later, peach asked if we could hang out, and I said sure. We went to a quiet place to talk about her new "girlfriend". She was so happy, jumping around like a rabbit. I just sat quiet while she told me the story on how she confessed to apple over texting and apple confessed as well. Then, all of a sudden, it just came out if my mouth without thinking, "I'm bisexual". I didnt even think about saying anything like that, and I just spat it out. I regreted saying it, but peach was like, "Really!? Thats great!" And she smiled at me. I felt like I was gonna cry. That adorable smile she gave me, belonged to someone else. Then she asked me if I liked any girls at the moment, and of course, I told her no. Months go by and apple is all that peach talks about. When we hang out, she was always texting her, and facetiming her. I felt like shit. Apple was really nice and all, but inside, I hated her. If she lived in another state, why couldnt they just forget about each other?? Then, me and my friend lime, had a sleep over. We watched a movie, and started to go to sleep, when lime asked if I wanted to play truth or truth(truth or dare without dares) and I agreed. We asked eachother some stupid questions, and then it got personal. Lime said, "If you tell me your deepest darkest secret, I will tell you mine". Sounded like a deal. So I told her I was bisexual, and trust me it wasnt easy. Then she told me she was bisexual too. Then it got EVEN DEEPER. Somehow, she got me to tell her that I was in love with peach. And then after I told her that, she told me that she had a crush on ME (LOL plot twist tho). I felt bad, because I couldnt return her feelings, cuz I was so head over heels for peach. But, then she asked me to kiss her, just to satisfy her this once. And so I did. Then we went to sleep. A month after that, peach started getting bullied online by her ex-friend(I will call her plum) from her home town (where apple lives). Peach started the fight, because plum was getting to close to apple. Peach and plum started fighting over instagram, and commenting rude things on each others posts. After reading the comments plum wrote about peach, I about lost it. I told peach that I could roast that bitch so hard that she would not ever even talk to peach again. Peach told me to stand down, and so I did. Then one day, something weird happened. Me and peach were taking a walk, and she just says "Me and apple broke up". A feel of releif filled me. I thought that maybe if I told her how I felt, we could be together. But then, she told me that she wasnt bisexual anymore, and that she was straight. All hope was lost from those few words. I dont know why I said this, but I told her that I was straight too. I guess I was scared of being the one gay friend. I still love her, so much. I just dont know what to say. And my parents are religous, so I dont wanna dissapoint them with the way I am. Dont get me wrong, my parents are so nice to me, and Im not scared of them, I just, dont wanna let them down. Me and peach are still as close as ever, but I just feel a little more for her then she does for me. Wow I cant believe you read all that... thanks for reading my rant.
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I have one: When I was fourteen, I really wanted another sibling, so I used those needles you put on shots to poke a hole into all of my parents condoms. I didn’t think it would work, but about four months later my mom told me she was pregnant. Now I have a ten year old little sister. I haven’t ever told anyone what i’ve done, and it’s my biggest secret. I don’t regret doing it though!
@@harrietdoesnt some of statics show that majority of couples (married or not) in long term relationships do not use condoms more like some oder form of contraceptive methods(pills etc.) but judging by people around me a lot of people just do the pull out thingy 😅
Deepest darkest secret: from the age of 11-14 I would not hesitate to show parts of my body to any guy. Whether it was on omegle or Kik. I always vowed never to show someone I knew in person that stuff, but someone online instead. I also used that stuff to cope with breakups. It's been two years and I can't look at my body with out feeling miserable at how I whored myself out as such a young age.
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I've recently grown so deep in my hatred for a specific person because of their narcissism and lack of care for anyone but themselves that I sometimes wish they were dead so I didn't have to deal with them and the constant anger they have caused my family and I anymore. My anger and frustration from them has contributed a lot to my depression but they refuse to even acknowledge how damaging the things they say and do are to my rapidly declining mental health.
My secret: I had a feeling I needed to go see my friend but instead I stayed home and watched tv. 3 days before my birthday she died in a car accident because her and her boyfriend were drinking. Last thing I said to her was please Don't go.
The first one got to me, because my dad's friend molested me and said that if I told anyone he would hurt me and my parents so I kept quiet for a very large portion of my life, but now I'm trying to be more open about since he died. I forgive him for what he did to me, but that's only because I'm not the kind of person to hate someone for my entire life. He died, and he can't hurt me anymore.
S C U M B A G I'm sorry that happened to you, and it takes even more courage to forgive the person. I would never be able to do that. I hope that never happens to you again
Forgiving someone who hurt you a lot ( physically or mentally ) is a tough thing to do. I'm glad that he can't hurt you anymore. You are amazing to be able to forgive someone like him
You , reading this , I love you more than anything in this world , no matter what you're going through , I'll be there to make your day better ,,thank you for reading this
Sean Jr Maybe you will see us all one day, walking down thw street, eating lunch somewhere, in the park who knows but your message probably just gave a lot of people confidence and strength so thank you
I actually burst into tears when I read this. I just had a severe panic attack and I’m not even in my own country, I’m on holiday in Scotland right now, but I’d much rather be in my bed at home with the curtains of my bedroom windows closed and cry for hours. I’m so tired of everything. I don’t want to live with depression and anxiety anymore.
As a Christian it always really bothers me when i hear about priests molesting or raping children. It is the complete opposite of what God and Jesus want of us, and instead of bringing people to believe, it makes them and their family shun God and creates anger and fear. Honestly so disappointing.
Callum Verdouw I know your feeling , it's the exact same thing that's happening to us Muslims , like the terrorists create such a false image about us. and we pay the price
Yeah I agree it's so sad. So disappointing and disgusting to see that the people we're supposed to be looking up to are committing the most horrendous acts.
And what's saddening is that there are so many people who have gone through this in a church. A church is supposed to be a place of worship where anyone should feel comfortable at. To violate people under the title "priest" or "pastor" is so gross and wrong.
"I'M ADDICTED TO PORN." This one really hit me. I'm just your average teenage girl, and yes I'm addicted to porn. I can't tell my parents. Some of my friends know but they just fuel the addiction. It's just as gross as cigarettes or heroin. I can't stop. I always come back. It's even worse because I'm female, people think that its only a problem men have.
I'm also addicted and I've been trying to stop and start a new chirstain life it's hard I went 2 months without porn but then it happens again this may or may not help keep yourself busy because when you're bored you'll probably be more interested in porn but if you're busy at school or something you're less likely to think about porn
You have to feel the pain en go throw the pain to get over the addiction. Just like Jesus. He didnt gave into sin, because he went through the pain of not living according his human nature. But we need a higher power to help us with this suffer. Because you have to believe it is worth it and that God will reward you with a better life. (Sorry for my bad english)(this is the way i overcame weed, nictonine and porn addiction)
noooobodyyyyy read thiiiiissss. i just needed to vent somewhere. sorry. My dad has been cheating on my mom since 2011. She's already called him out and stuff then. My mom died around February 2016 and he's still dating the same girl. Worst part is, he won't tell me about her. I don't even care if he has a girlfriend. I won't hate her, I'd just treat her like an aunt rather than a mother.
One of my biggest secrets: I am struggling. I am 12, and only just figuring who I am. I have been blackmailed, and threatened to be outed as gay to my school. I have been bullied and physically kicked and shoved. I have been back-stabbed and left behind by countless friends. I constantly have suicidal thoughts, and almost committed suicide 3 times. All my friends are starting to fade. Recently a guy I told I was gay liked me, and our friendship is awkward now. I spend all my time in the weekends lying around, on my devices. I barley see my dad. This isn’t as bad as a lot of people, and I try to have hope. I hope people in tougher conditions read this, and get this message: “Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations.”
I have four secrets which I will all take to the grave with me no matter what. Kudos for all the people being able to tell their secrets even if it was anonymously.
When I was small, I cried when my grandmother died. Now I feel no remorse when I say that i'm happy she's gone, she abused my mom when she was still a teenager, and when she didn't manage to control her she abused me and broke me down when i was just starting middle school. I was just a kid. It was traumatic hearing her scream and call me a mistake, she'd smack me around if I tried to stand my ground and would rip my notebooks whenever I wrote something wrong or when I would doodle in my notebooks. She never wanted me to follow my dreams. It saddens me that when I was a child I thought that was normal, only now when I'm in highschool I realized that I was manipulated into thinking that was okay. My mom feels horrible for leaving me alone so much with her, but It's not her fault. She worked hard to provide for me while my dad was working almost all day. Now I'm following my dreams, but the way she influenced me as a person still haunts me.
my biggest secret is i’m super insecure and constantly want to change myself for other people. i hate my body. i hate myself for not changing even though i want to. i always look at myself in the mirror and get disgusted. i’ve tried to love myself for who i am but i just can’t. this is the first time that i’ve written about this.
I feel u , but for me my mom tells me to lose weight and whenever i eat she says that im gonna look like a cow , she made me hate my body since i was 6 and at 13 i developed an ED and i lost weight and ppl told me " congrats " "u look pretty now " And this make me hate myself more , and i tell myself " so i was ugly " and now i fear gaining weight and i stopped eating food that i like ,i don't think losing or gaining weight is the solution to love my body
Not actually my "biggest" secret, but something I would never tell my parents about. I am raised Catholic, but I'm an agnostic atheist for like, I think, two years now. I can't tell them because they are conservative, religious people. Maybe I'll tell them when I get another breakdown. Where on my first breakdown, I told them that I need to consult professional help and consult a psychiatrist because I'm addicted to self-harm. I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. Suicide attempts are no secret of mine. I don't even know that other people knew about this.
Chevy Rupleix Damm... I hope it gets better for you bro. Do you have some relatives you could talk to, wich you think woulf be more accepting? I have heard that it helps to let things out.
As an atheist myself, I feel for you. It's hard to be a single non-believer in a sea of completely entranced worshippers. Take care of yourself, and make sure you're safe it you ever tell them. We'll make it through this.
Here is mine: My brother emotionally abused me for a long time and I wanted to die for a long long time People know but I’m too scared to tell him himself because I know it will destroy him I can’t express this to him because I’m scared
My biggest secret: I see people suffer, and sometimes I get glee from it. Sometimes when I make people suffer, I enjoy being evil. I'm scared. I'm scared that I'm losing empathy for living things. I'm scared that I'm losing my humanity.
I have a secret I told my father I wanted to be a boy he told. Me "What makes you think that being a boy would be better if you can't be a good daughter"
My secret: My friend and I went into the city the night of homecoming after I saved up a ton of money and we went to a hotel got a room went to the top floor that had a staircase to the roof we standed on the edge and we both almost jumped before I pulled us back because I knew that I had feelings for her so I told her and she started laughing we went back to the room and she asked me to be her girlfriend, were 18 now and still together, I sometimes wonder what would have happen if we jumped or if I didn't tell her at all.
My biggest secret is that i have an alcoholic mom and have developed insomnia because i'm scared she will get drunk when i sleep. Only my family and you that are reading this knows
my mum was an alcoholic and it was so bad. she quit completely. i had/have insomnia and its still really hard. i really wish you all the best and maybe you should ask her why she does it... dont ask if you know she will respond negatively or get agressive
My biggest secret No one knows that I’m suicidal, I’ve tried to kill myself several times. I don’t want to be like this, I’ve been going through this for several years, I want help but I don’t want anyone’s pity, I don’t want their views of me to change. I just want to die without anyone feeling bad for me, I don’t want to hurt people either. I just want disappear
Polarriis You are irreplaceable. You matter. The world will not be same without you. Everyone is special. I hope that whatever you are going through is over soon.
Same....i just wanna disappear but i know there are people who love me and care about me but still some way i want to be gone from this world and their memories so they wont grief over me when im gone
We can not blame you. But, with those words I know you're strong, you are. I wish you are. Life has a lot of suprises, there is a better one waiting, trust me.
My uncle was a down syndrome and when he was about to pass away he was in so much pain, he was literary crying and I used to sing him a song which I remember the lyrics word to word by heart now. I miss him soo much and love him sooooo much.
My biggest secret is that I secretly don’t like my dad , at ALL, he gave up on caring for me as his daughter and the only thing he does is buy me things instead of talk to me and make sure I’m okay . This comment section is the only person I’ve told
CityFanTv -everything man city I don’t mean to come across that way but I think a lot of parents don’t know how to communicate with their children , of course I appreciate the gifts my dad gives me , but I would trade all the gifts for spending time and talking with him. Maybe you just don’t understand what it’s like to be disconnected from a parent
@@cityfantv-everythingmancit2946 What? How? The girl clearly does not care about the material, she just wants love from her dad. If I want I could just waste 4% of my money on some random thing to shut you up, but I could never talk to you and listen to you like a real dad because that would actually take effort to do, buying you some random thing doesn't affect me, it's just me being a hypocrite.
the fact that some of these people in the comment section go through so much breaks my heart, because sometimes there are those who struggle in life because of people who like tormenting others, as if they don't already have enough going on in their life ;(
My step mom asked my dad your children or me? He said her the second she got done with her sentence. From then my mom was more of a father than her ever was
I have a friend that died, and I still call her number even though I know I'll never get a call back. The worst part is, I just want to apologize, because the last time I spoke with her, we argued over the stupidest thing
When i was a teenager, i was being raped. The guy that raped me thought that the blood is my menstruation blood and i couldn't say anything or fight him because i was too weak. I just sat there not knowing what to feel
Its Bxtim sex is (chiefly with reference to people) sexual activity, including specifically sexual intercourse, whereas Rape is defined in most jurisdictions as sexual intercourse, or other forms of sexual penetration, committed by a perpetrator against a victim without their consent and is very traumatic experience to the victim like the woman who commented above. Both not my own definitions btw they're from google and I'm sorry but I found the joke very distasteful.
My secret: 2 years ago I was in a relationship. At first he seemed like the perfect guy. I was even planning on proposing. Then one day when I was over at his house he started to touch me. I gently told him no but he continued. Eventually he had my clothes off and was trying to enter me. I was crying and beginning for him to stop. He wouldn't. Ive never told anyone this.
I’m so sorry. I hope you are healing. I had basically the same thing happen. You can move on and live a beautiful life and find healthy relationships. And just because that boundary was crossed does not mean you can’t start over. It is your choice what is and isn’t ok.
My secret: I wish my alcoholic dad never had my step sister, I was not jealous but hurt hurt at the fact he could never be a proper dad to me so why hurt another child? I look at families that have a mum and dad and I cry because I've never had a dad that was annoying, overprotective, loving, helpful. When I had a dad that would just buy me things to keep my happy for a short time and his love for alcohol. And everytime I go around to sleepover at his and see my step sister, there he is hiding the cans beside the sofa like I won't have seen it but everytime I do it makes me hate him so much. Why pick alcohol over your daughters? And now my step sister mum passed away with my unborn step brother, I feel hurt because my sister is going to go through the pain of not having a parent there in her life. Everyday I wake up scared not for my life but for hers, I'm scared my dad will become ill due to his need for alcohol I'm scared that my sister will feel how I feel now. I'm so fucking scared. Everytime I say dad might become ill due to alcohol why do I feel something that shouldn't? I feel this feeling not happiness but something because then I think will he realise me and my sister is more important than alcohol? Will he finally understand alcohol isn't worth it? He was never there for my school plays or parents evening never but i want him at my step sisters I want her to have a sober dad that I could never had. I never was able to type or form this with a voice but because of my dad I blame that he killed her mum and my unborn step baby brother the fact she had problems after my sister birth and only being pregnant a couple months later again makes me frustrated. And everytime it's the month of her passing I keep thinking another year my sister doesn't have a mum. And I'm afraid of those questions like "what was she like?" "Am I like my mum?" I won't be able to know the answer to them because my stubborn self never met my step sister mum and now I wish I had died instead of her mum. At least one of us would of had a family.
oh my gosh... I’m so sorry you have had to go through this. I can’t really relate, but just know that there will be a day where you can finally feel happiness. I hope you and your step sister have a good life, and I hope your father will realise his kids are more important than alcohol. I’m praying for you
You're such a good sister!!! She needs you, don't think that way, It's sad what's happening to your dad and how she's not there for her own daughter who's grieving, but you're there and taking care of her, she's so lucky to have you. Maybe It's time you talk to your dad and make him realize the pain he's causing to his kids. I wish you all the best!
Wow, that is so hard :( so so difficult. You sound like such a loving sister. Even though you suffered so much, you still want the best for others. I can't offer you much but know that I support you, I love you, I will talk with you if you want, and I will be praying for you
As someone who has younger siblings, I can relate. I would want my siblings to live their life being happy, live freely without a care. I don't want them smoking or slagging off, I want the best for them since I am the eldest sister. I struggle with my emotions, afraid that one day I might hurt them and myself. Like my dad, I give my siblings "Tough Love". Although I say bad things to them, I don't mean it. Does that make me a bad sister?
“There is power in your presence.”This hits home, you never know the impact you have on someone. So i try to be a blessing to someone and not a blight.
Ezra Fitz idk I found it quite sad because of how they're addicted to this fake, scripted form of pleasure...I assume by that they mean they constantly think of porn which is pretty unhealthy and saddening
That really hit me. It sounds utterly stupid to continue to add it, however, by thinking about it, I would do the exact same and it actually makes complete sense. Although having the number on your phone - a number you'll never call - is entirely pointless, it has no practical benefits however certainly mental ones.
My biggest secret: I've had bad thoughts my whole life. Nothing too bad, but in 5th grade, I made a friend. Or at least I thought I did. She was always there for me and I told her everything. But one day she snuck into my locker and wrote horrible mean things. She called me a "slut" "whore" etc. At the time, I didn't know it was her who wrote it. So she tried comforting me throughout me trying to find out who it was. She was lying to me the whole time. she said "Whoever wrote that is a horrible person" and she was right, she is a horrible person. Once I saw those words on my locker, I fell into a deep deep depression. I started cutting a lot. I hated myself and everything I was worth, which I thought wasn't a lot. Once I found out I was heartbroken. I never thought the girl that was always with me, the girl who stood by me, the girl who I thought was a friend, could backstab me like that. A couple of days later, a girl noticed a small cut on my wrist. She confronted me and then told the principal. The counselor talked to me and checked up on me every week. She then told my parents. I was afraid of how they would react. I was afraid they would hate me. Luckily I had a caring family, so they just talked to me about it. I was a bit happier that they knew. So I didn't have to hide it so much. The girl who told the principal, I soon became friends with. We talked about how much we hated that backstabbing girl. But its not over yet. My friend told the backstabbing girl that I was talking to her behind her back. The backstabbing girl then told me to meet her in the bathroom, being the idiot I am. I went. She then yelled at me and told me "If you have anything to say, say it to my face next time loser" And other awful things. And it wasn't just her, I didn't know but my 'friend' was hiding in the stalls listening. Also, she brought a couple of her friends to gang up on me as well. I didn't say anything as I shrugged and walked out. But as soon as I got home. I started crying, so, so hard. I soon filled out a bully form and changed all my classes so I wouldn't be with her. I never told anyone this. I still had depression and was cutting occasionally, but didn't tell anyone. I hated everything still, nothing really changed for the better. If anything it got worse because 2 of my 'friends' backstabbed me. Recently my grandmother had been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. Before she was diagnosed, I never thought I would cry at her death, but when I found out she was sick. I cried for days. I jinxed it, and now God is punishing me. I only feel worse about everything. I was so selfish and self-centered that I didn't think I would cry at her death. I regret everything I said about her because now she's dying. And I feel as if it is all my fault. Everything.
If there is one thing you should never do is stupid cry. Do not cry over people who won't cry for you. Those girls you called friends are nothing. They have nothing and they are useless. The only thing they can do is just be mean to people. And mean people go nowhere in life. So, hold your head up high, lift up your chest and block all those negative people out. Try talking to new people, people you don't know. And do not shut everyone out because that shit makes no fucking sense.
It’s not your fault and you will find real friends who appreciate you for who you are and I’m sure those backstabbers are just insecure about themselves. But you are important in this world and you have great purpose❤️
My secret: I grew up homeless and I still am. Growing up was hard after my family and I moved from Indiana when I was 6. It was like every time I turned my head we were evicted, living with someone and sleeping on their floor, or in a shelter. When I was younger I was embarrassed by not having things other kids had like new clothes, a room to myself, or at least a home to call my own. My family and I have bounced around from state to state and city to city just to have always end up in the same predicament. Homeless. Being in these situations impacted me negatively and positively, but the negativity still lingers in the air. I still remember when my family and in slept outside for the first time. I cried to myself and cried so bad because I was upset at the fact that this had always happened to us. I never showed how I felt to my family, so every emotion and every feeling was bottled up. Every time I cry I think about the days my mom couldn’t provide food for my siblings and I and all we could do was accept the fact that this was our reality. Currently I am 19 and is still with my family living in someone else’s house and I’m over it. It’s like we were put on Earth to make other people house feel like a home and not our own. I am basically an adult now, this coming February, and I’m stuck trying to find my new beginning. I feel like I am trapped and I just want to be free.
My secret : I was molested at the age of four by my own cousin. I didn't tell my mom until I recently became thirteen because he said that when I would become said age, he would have sex with me. I've spent nine years alone and depressed with this secret until now.
1:09 I'm catholic and I've honestly thought about that many times in my life. Religious or not I think we all have deep down. Its scary sometimes to think that maybe this right here is it that nothing comes before nor after, this is our one and only moment in time. Unfortunately no one will ever truly know what lies beyond until its your time to go and there’s no coming back once you’ve seen the truth. Its just the one thing that humanity can never know for certain and that's why I believe it scares us so much.
Same but don't worry it's completely normal. Saints and jesus disciples also had a lack of faith at times even though they saw his miracles. They all left jesus when he was getting crucified and Peter denied him 3 times. The closer you get to God the less you think about these things:) I was agnostic but now I am a very strong catholic. I know people like my mum and her friend and other friends to which jesus came in a dream and it changed their life forever. My mum's friend became a nun straight away because of a dream. My mum hadn't gone to mass in years and he came to her in a dream and she converted. God works in mysterious ways! So don't worry! Even my mum still has doubts and she has had amazing experiences. Its a normal thing:) I would recommend reading the whole of the new testament. That's it haha:D God bless you and God definitely has a plan for you don't be afraid:D he loves you you are so important to him! He is always with you!❤
My secret: Neither of my parents know that I never got over their divorce. That day, I was in so much shock, and I spent the day locked on my room crying. It's been four years, but I'm still not really over it. I'm also really insecure, and I always think about what people think of me.
I dont have any big secrets, but i have a lot of secrets that i guess you can call one step away from being big -i stole my bestfriends diary when i was 8. -i dont really like my bestfriend anymore -people think im selfish and mean and that i have no emotions but im too scared to show them who i am
diana C: I can really relate to the last one. I’ve been faking too long and I’m actually becoming mean though. I don’t know how to stop it. I’m becoming heartless and I’m really depressed about it.
My secret: I walked at graduation in april 2019. I was supposed to have finished all of my credits the summer after. But I had one class that was an incomplete. I took it as an incomplete because I was struggling a lot mentally and emotionally being so isolated from my family and friends, my husband. Also I had severe symptoms of endometriosis and adenomyosis and was in constant pain. It was a really big struggle to get my work done. I was driving every monday to school for 2 and half hours, I stayed with a friend but I never saw her...and then came back home on Thursday night. My husband works as a teacher and so I was alone all day Friday until 4. On Saturday he was a referee for soccer games. And sometimes on Sunday too. It was really hard to be alone all the time. 24/7 and never see him. And all of my family lives in another state, I have one sister here in Michigan but she is also in school 2 hours away. Well anyway I never finished my incomplete class. I still have one assignment left... and it's one year later. its super hard ( I have to program a neural network). Everyone thinks I finished my master's degree last summer and I haven't told anyone about it.... it's just so hard mentally for me to continue. phew. That felt really good to tell some strangers online.
My secret: My Father killed himself. It wasn’t just the fact he left my mom and his 3 daughters But how he did He took every Happy card birthday card Christmas card Get well card my Mother ever wrote to him. And circled certain words. About my mom. And my sisters. And I......
The fact that people trust to give out their secrets and people just comfort them just warms my heart! ❤️ I mean, people can choose not to share any information yet they do and y'all sopport them! Y'all are really amazing people and don't forget that!
the man who read the molestation story out loud hit me the most. I know exactly how it feels. mentally and physically fucking painful every. single. day. of. my. life. I even had to pause the video and cry because hearing that another person has been through something so traumatic HURTS. I was molested at 4 years old by a "friend", someone who was older than me and knew better, yet they did it anyway. and hearing the "dont tell anyone" words have never left my mind, after remembering my experience, having my mind blocking the trauma experience for my whole life till now. i never told anyone, until my parents found out. i never told them who did it. i never will. why? i dont know. i never will know why. but if anyone who is reading this, has gone through a similar experience, or even happening right now to you as i speak.. AS FOR HELP BEFORE ITS LATE. and this is coming from someone who kept it in for fucking 11 years. and if you even need someone to talk to, just comment, ill give you my social media and we can talk about whatever you need to let out. love ya. and for the person who went through that, i hope you get the justice you deserve..
Yoo Jiae's wife it really does feel better when you tell someone, like a weight is lifted off your shoulders. I was molested by my biological father when I was 6. I didn't tell anyone, not even my closest friend until I was 15,i always thought it was my fault, that I somehow deserved it, that I did something wrong, I know now that that isn't the case. I attempted suicide many times but I am thankful I never succeeded because now I have 4 beautiful nieces that I love more than anything.
My secret: I was pregnant at the age of 17 years old. I didn't know what to do. It took me weeks to figure it out. I finally told my ex boyfriend (current bf at the time) I wanted to keep the baby. He ended up crushing my stomach with his stomach as a joke. The pain of losing my baby without knowing what to do. As I felt our bond slowly slip away. A long with the in denial that it happened. My baby would be 10 years old this year. No one knows at all. I still dodge questions if I'm ever going to have a baby every year. Yet no one knows of the incident and to this day; I cannot get over it. You never can get over it no matter what.
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I would love to do this but live in the UK :'(
Jubilee this is what a platform like UA-cam should be used for
A way of sharing personal stories to other that says that they aren't alone and that they have something to love for
Who would ever do that...?
I want to do this,
This helped me a lot thank you. Knowing that im not the only one thats going through things.
My best friend died and I still have her number on my phone. Every once in a while I would call her number, and when it goes to voicemail, I leave her a message, revealing all of my regrets and how much I love her. I know she won't reply, but it helps with the grief.
Maníco i'm so sorry. this actually broke my heart
I can't joke about this. This is sad.
😥 sad
I'm so sorry you had to go through that pain, I know what it is like to lose someone so close to you. I'm sure she listens, she watches and she wishes she could be there with you to support you. You are so strong for even being here right now and I am proud of you for that. Please hold on, I know it hurts but you can do this ❤
I'm sorry they are looking after you ❤❤
Ooo "The influence you leave on somebody can be eternal. There's power in your presence, there's power in your influence, there's power in who you are"
Nakamura Michiko wish more people realized this
This made me cry.
I currently dont feel like living.. Pressure from school is unbearable and having my parents call me mentally ill every now and then doesnt help
@@DeluxeXIV hang in there buddy. Stay strong, the world needs you. Your life is extremely important 🙏
Perhaps, though I disagree with the assertion that the secret-sharer allowed or faciitated the suicide of their friend. Suicide is solely the liberty of those who choose it; at best s/he could have postponed that choice. (A suicide which I'd class differently would be that of someone profoundly deluded/intoxicated who was simply unaware that their actions were exposing them to death.)
My heart goes to all those people who had written those notes, and to all of those people who are going through such experiences.
Good, but what do you suggest they do?
Juliana Ramos same! Also we are name buddies 😃
Jeremy Auldaney I know this isn't a comment you said anything about jesus in, however, Everything you're saying about "Jesus will save you" and shit, doesn't make people who doesn't believe in that feel any better. You AREN'T Helping anyone! Certainly not those who were molested! Saying "Jesus will save you" Or "He had demons" Or "Being gay is a sin" Doesn't help peoples fucking problems! We understand you have your own beliefs, but you could of simply said "God bless you" instead of making the situation worse, even by a bit.
Alexander Hamilton I'm sorry, I agree a hundred percent with what you are saying but I don't get where you are coming from with that comment... I didn't not mentioned any religion whatsover...
I was replying to Jermy. If you look down at other's comments, he as been doing these things.
My secret is really just that I'm lonely. I have friends and a loving family and an amazing little dog, but no one I feel I could tell the world to. Luckily, life is a journey, and the path can always turn
Laina CDW ❤
I can relate. It's good to hear you have a positive outlook on life. Keep it up🙂
I feel the exact same way
I've felt the same way. I opened up about alot of my insecurieties for a guy I only met a week ago. We sort of became bestfriends and he helped me confess it for my parents. Things is alot easier now. And I don't feel alone.
But I feel alone when I'm with my friends. That's the only exeption . So I think I should get new friend. But thr thing is, I don't know where I'm going to find them.
I actually wish this was a lot longer than it was, every secret had an impact on me and it was heart breaking
Bambii Rawrness even the porn addiction one?
I have goosebumps
the porn one ?
Dwelling on the evil of this world can make you sick. The question is what can you do to make things right. Only God can do this. All good things come from God, by reading and studying to understand the Authorized King James Bible. The best is the Henry Morris Study Bible. Avoid new translations which are man's copyrighted words, whch twist the meaning into New Age Relegion of Antichrist.
Jeremy Auldaney can u like idk shut up lol
I wish I anonymously wrote my biggest secret and a stranger read it out loud so I could see what their reaction would be to my secret
The reaction should be, pray for this person to release them from the Demons who control them.
What's your secret
brittany bitch Its a mindfuck thing, the only person who knows is my best friend who I have known since I was born.
I honestly don't even think I have a secret
brittany bitch Luck you, then you won't have to worry about spilling a secret when you're drunk or anything
Sometimes I like to ask myself,
why do I keep watching things that make me cry
Sasaki Umiquema Yeh me too :(
I do the same. I think that we maybe, deep down, feel the urge to cry, but we don't know exactly why or we dont want other people to know the real thing that brokes us down, so we watch this things to have an excuse to relief those emotions and as an excuse if someone find us crying our hearts out. What do you think?
I do cause I love to cry and let my emotions go rampanting
Right!! That dad one had me boohoo crying... I lost my dad 5 years ago to cancer, so it hit home 😞
Dnt knw why I do this I cry for others relating to my self
bro idk why im fully crying reading these comments, you really don’t know what people are going through/have gone through and it’s scary
yeah,when you see someone you wouldn t know how many stuff they ve been through
Agreed, especially because most of the people that go through such thing telling their stories isn’t easy.
It's so terrifying. Someone could be suffering behind the scenes, and you'd never know till it's too late.
Idk why but my biggest secret is that i don’t know who i am, why is that? I think it’s because i am afraid of being judged by other people so i tried so many times to change myself and act like another person… and to this day i still don’t know who i am…
Why don’t I feel anything
i come here when i need to cry but i cant bring myself to do it alone. i burst into tears so quick
Emily & William its okay
honestlyyy :((
Literally why I’m here rn ahahah my bff is ignoring me
Emily & William ME TOO
Itz okay baby!
As soon as I heard that dad number thing I had to stop this and ask you guys who else paused the video at that minute? To meditate, or to write a comment, doesn't matter. Damn I didn't even lost my dad or smth like this to get so emotional but that thing ...
Alex Biscrem I did the exact thing and just thought about it
Alex Biscrem I lost my dad when I was 1, so I never knew what having a dad would be/feel like, and I still got the feels
Ares I'm sorry, mate :/ Wish you the best in life, tho
I had to stop bc i started to cry, my dad passed away 1 year ago and it just broke my heart, all the memories came back.. and his number... wont be answered anymore... i am 23 btw
Alex thanks man, you too
"There's power in your influence, there's power in who you are" wow
Vampires are Demon possesed. Vald Tepies was Dracula. One of the bloodline of the Nephilim Illuminati who are possesd by Satan himself.
The problem is what is wrong with you? You need to change your ways or you will be condemned by God when you die.
Jeremy Auldaney bro you got some serious issues
I am like one of the prophets of old warning the people about what is coming and exposing all the lies people are being told by False News, and False Prophets. This is my life's work.
Jeremy Auldaney This isn't the video. Go find someplace that your shoving of religious views down someone's throat will be useful.
My secret:
My dad use to be a grade A narcissist and abuser. The psychological torture that he put me through was unbearable and it still affects me to this day. He said things like "You look disgusting", "You're nothing but my slave", "I could care less how feel". He would also shame me for taking care of myself when I didn't offer him any care, he also guilted me into massaging his feet countless times which is very dehumanizing for a young boy. He yelled in my face countless times for standing up for myself and also applied physical force just assert dominance. He would also try and steal credit from any success I ever had.
Now, Ive grown to be 6'6 215lbs at 22 years old. People see me, think I'm "badass", and want to know me but I don't allow people to get close at all. Im paranoid that people will try to manipulate me mentally to get things they want. I'm scared that someone with the right skill set will take advantage of my mind without me knowing. Not only is it hard for me to make friends because of this, I am very self conscious from my dad's remarks of my appearance when I was younger.
Just wish I had a dad to connect with before and not one that manipulated for his own good.
-First time speaking on this
Justball19 My ex was a narcissist. The manipulation and mental abuse were unbearable. I can’t imagine how difficult it must’ve been to have a parent who treated you that way. You’re not the person he said you were. You’re so much stronger, smarter, and more valuable. I send you healing and hope things start to get easier for you. 💗 Don’t be afraid to open up to others. Not everyone is out to trick you. Trust yourself. You’re wise enough to know who really cares and loves you.
@@JJK10567 Hey, same! :) I'm always here if you ever want to chat or vent.
You are more than what your dad said to you people project their own insecurities on to others. I’m sure you are an amazing person stay strong 💖
Oh God I can relate to you 100 percent. How are you doing now?
You have got a worse dad...
It'd be great if you choose to be a best dad....Show ur kid how an ideal dad must be
Stay strong..
only you can change your life,be positive
I wouldn’t listen to my friend when she told me she was thinking about suicide. I mentioned it to an adult but passed it by. She committed suicide last year. I’m so so sorry. I’m so sorry I didn’t care enough to recognise her pain. I can never make it up to her.
Jupiter Dreaming don’t blame yourself
There are times when you need to take things personally.
I had a friend like yours, in 6th Grade, she was suicidal as well. If her friends weren't there, she would have lost her life back then.
It is not your fault. You didnt notice it, do not beat urslef up over it.
I’ve had a similar situation. But my friend did not follow through. It’s not that i didn’t want to help them, it’s just that I didn’t know what to say and what to do
You’re a shitty friend
The one about the dad's phone number is very relatable... my dad died in April and I still call his phone just to hear his voice from his voicemail... I know I shouldn't because every time I do it I feel that surge of pain shoot through me that I felt when I realized he was really gone. I'm sorry I know you guys don't know me and really don't care I just wanted to rant about that.
I'm sorry.. I can only imagine what you feel and go through every time you hear his voice on that voicemail.. I hope you're okay and I hope you feel better in time ❤️
I'm sorry... I hope you eventually feel better
Alexis Wilk wow that means so much to me that you would care enough to comment... thank you ❤️❤️❤️
Curly Potato thank you so much and I hope so too ❤️
You're comment made me cry... im sorry to hear about you lost your father 😢❤
My deepest secret is I don't have any form of depression but when I'm really sad or made a bad mistake I imagine how people would react if I killed myself ultimately coming to the conclusion that no one at school will care
The point is it doesn't matter what others think! It is what you think that matters.
Summer Stuart I do that sometimes aswell
Jeremy Auldaney that's true, people should be more aware of that
Same
Summer Stuart I've had those thoughts before. Honestly, I talk to maybe 2 people from high school still. And that's ok. All of those other kids who I thought were so important and had so much power over how I felt about myself, I don't even think about them anymore. I haven't talked to 99% of them since high school. They don't matter. I just didn't realize that back then.
My secret:
Sometimes I feel numb and want to walk right into a busy road or jump off of a cliff. There isn’t a reason for this, I would just feel lifeless. Even if I was in a busy area like a mall or at school I would zone out and go into a state of almost depression and want to end it there and then.
hey are u bothered by something or someone.
Spirit Fingers honestly I don’t know either but maybe it’s just myself, thinking that being this way is cool or something, but I don’t know. I think I’m just tired and need a lot of sleep
@@yun-shi1677 Get some sleep and stay healthy don't think about this and why would it be cool
Loona Army ever since watching this video I’ve already started talking to someone and thank you for your suggestion and giving your time on replying to this comment!
Loona Army thank you 🙏🏻
do more videos like this, they're so powerful
yeah the "i'm addicted to porn" real
powerful stuff.
Gina ikr like I’m addicted to porn too
+nat2 💀
Agreed!!
Powerful.
Do more videos like these
IM ADDICTED TO PORN
a high schooler that worked on a suicide hotline? oh my god that must be so stressful
I'm 15 and I've saved many suicidal people. It's a feeling of love. All he stress goes away once you realize a life is far more valuable than any form of stress. You feel on top of the world.
@@paranormalactivity763 Maybe I should start working on a suicide hotline:)
As a person who saved few suicidal people, yes. It's so stressful and tiring but it's worth it 🤗
It’s honestly a dream job. The feeling o saving someone’s life, stopping that blade, unknotting that rope, closing that pill bottle, must feel great. You stop another funeral. Another tear from falling. Another heart from breaking, and another future from vanishing. I would love to work at one to feel that sense of doing something good in the world
They probably all died after
I’m currently in the eighth grade. In the seventh grade, my math teacher asked me to come to his front desk. I went up and he asked me why my school work was suffering since I usually do just fine. I remember him saying this sentence “is there anything going on at home, because your usually not like this”. For at least the past week before he asked me, I’d just been scribbling on my notepad to pass the time. I think it was just a huge shock to me, because I didn’t notice that I was doing it. I replied “ya, nothings happening” and went back to my seat. I almost started balling my eyes out, but I managed to keep it together. The month beforehand, my mom had been diagnosed with breast cancer. I was depressed to a point where I didn’t even notice. I didn’t tell anyone because I didn’t want to. Sometimes you don’t know how far your sinking until your 10 feet below. But ya, that’s a day I’ll never forget. That’s my secret. And I haven’t told anyone about it before.
Emmazilla I’m so sorry. Stay strong, my messages on instagram are always open.
@errorsweetie
my biggest secret:
i am very unhygienic.
as a female, my mom tells me i should shower at least once a day but i never do. i go weeks without showering and whenever i get forced to shower, i actually only pour water onto myself out of laziness. i never wipe after i poop or pee and yes , i do keep the same underwear for weeks in a way where they’re all dirty so my mom is constantly buying me new underwear’s. when i’m on my period i just use toilet paper (my blanket is full of blood because of it) and i don’t brush my teeth unless i’m forced 😖
@@narra7867 I really hope that nothing physical, mental or psychological is causing your laziness... Please try and look for the cause of it
Anyway good luck
@@narra7867I don't want to insult you, but you should be definitely see a psychologist. It's probably a disorder of some sort, since this is a really unhealthy behavior.
@@narra7867 sameeee. It's called Self-neglect. In my case, the cause, I think, is depression or psychosis but I'm not sure.
*labored breathing and uncontrolled crying*
Marie-Lynn Issa sadd reaccs
I'm your 1,000th like.
1,000 like
*Well this video was boring and a waste of time.*
Marie-Lynn Issa 1,000th like. 💕
For every single person who is commenting/commented their story /secret, I just wanna to tell u, that u are all strong, fantastic, and everything, trust me...
Thank you so much...
My biggest secret:
They harassed me because of my way of dressing, my physical appearance and the sport I play in. They gave me the nickname of a man and constantly threatened to beat me for no reason ... They were constantly shouting:LOOK IT'S GIRL WHO LOOK LIKE A MAN HAHAHAH. Because of that, I almost committed suicide.
@@emajuric2959 I'm so glad you didn't. People are angry and hurtful, you have to find your crowd, there are groups of people for every type out there and the internet is an amazing tool to find them. Having a group doesnt make it easy but it helps you feel less alone, and when those angry people do cone into your lives its easer to see that they are just sad and hurt and you don't have to be because you have found love. I can't tell you how many times i almost crossed that un-crossible line and as of today i wish i didn't. I know for me as the person i am it will come back but i try to remember that " No emotion or rough time that I'm going through is permanent the only thing that would be permanent would be death"
Plot twist: they were all reading their own secrets...
Woah
That actually makes this video more interesting
Woah that's powerful
o shit.
Emily Angelique you know that actually does makes kinda sence
My secret:
My best friend commited suicide 6 months ago. My first A-level exam was right after her funeral, so I had to focus on that (no idea how I managed to graduate under these conditions). The problem is that I wasn't able to say goodbye and let go at all, which is why the grief is still strong as ever. There are good days, of course, but then it hits me out of nowhere.
We visited different schools and she was bullied at hers. I don't know exactly what they did to her. In my worst nights, I even thought of the possibility that it wasn't suicide.
I haven't told anyone, of course. How could I?!
@Seki thanks for that 🧡
I was at my very lowest when I wrote this comment, which means that things are getting better (at the moment, at least. Of course grief hits every now and then). One step at a time.
Anyway, your reply really cheered me up rn. Just wanted to say :)
@@jasminw760 I hope you are doing bettet! Keep going, it is worth it💪
@@jasminw760 She will always watch you because she will guide you in spirit and you should try to forgive yourself.
The adding dads phone number one .. 😩
TimmyOSaurus that one killed me
My great grandmother passed away and my father and my aunt keeps her phone number
TimmyOSaurus tbh I can relate to that one
TimmyOSaurus I still do this with my best friends number.
TimmyOSaurus me with my dad too
That speech at 3:16 hit me so hard. Idk what about it , it just , means something to me. He says , " It's a suttle reminder that the influence you leave on somebody could be internal. There's power , in your presence. There's power in your influence. There's power in who you are "
- Unknown
sierra m eternal, not internal. But yeah, i agree with you :)
You are not responsible for another person's suicide.
Repeat after me
*You are not responsible for another person's suicide*
Right. But you should try, share the Gospel with them.
You can be, if you're a psychologist and give the wrong medicine or don't give them warnings about effects for example.
I think it is possible in a lot of cases actually.... it's a very difficult subject
not true. people kill themselves because of other peoples actions. not just because they feel like it.
The Bible says thou shalt not kill. Suicide is murder. You could blame all sin on other people, but you are to blame for allowing them to do this to you.
Too many sexual assault stories in the comment section it's sad how common they are.
ikr people are disgusting
ikr
Oh it’s so common. I find that from my experience and other people’s that I heard, it’s mostly a family member, that’s why most of them are hidden.
Apparently, family honor is more important than a child’s trauma and safety.
Yup
Amen
My idol was my grandpa, he taught me to do what I lived for, he taught me to read. I have been above everyone else in reading ever since. He died when I got into fourth grade. When I was in reading class. I still write letters to him and bury them in the backyard so they might be taken by an angel and given to my best friend, Grandpa.
CubyWolf awww thats so sweet
I am sure your grandpa must be really proud to have someone like you
That’s so cute ✨
THESE R YOUR BEST STYLE OF VIDEO.
true
"My father died 14 years ago, but I still add his number to my contact list every time I get a new phone" That hit me so hard.
I Just lost my Mumma 4 months ago I don't think I can ever remove her number from my contact list..
Love you mum xx
💔
Sorry for your loss, I’m 13 and I love my mom and dad so much, I always say “goodnight ma, love you” and goodnight pa love you” so when I think about them passing away I almost start crying in public, I wish our parents could live forever
My biggest secret is I watch Too much UA-cam at night when I should be sleeping
lol same
Lol
yes
same here bro😎
That's your biggest secret? Boring
If the person who was the last to have their secret read reads this, know it's not your fault that your friend took their own life. Because first off, even if you had replied that day, there's no guarantee the result would have been any different. Second, I know every person's experience with depression and suicide/suicidal thoughts/suicidal ideations is different, but, as someone who used to deal with depression and occasional suicidal ideations, I feel certain that your friend would not think of their decision to take their life as your fault. If anything, logic can be so twisted in the mind of person with depression that you can conclude that killing yourself is how you can relieve those around you and set them free to have joy. Purely because you are no longer their to burden them/bring them down. And, again, I can say from personal experience, it doesn't matter how loving or supportive a friend is, with depression it can twist your thoughts so that in your darkest moments, you are convinced that the other person(s) would be better off if you weren't there anymore. Your pain and grief from losing a friend is burden enough, please do not add the burden of responsibility that is not yours to bear.
Where ever you are, and who ever you are, I hope that as time passes your pain at this lose becomes bearable and that you are able to release yourself from this guilt.
MireyaRivera i know this comment wasnt for me.. but this comment helped me because i had such a similar experience as that person. And it can be very easy to self blame... i just wanna say thank you.
The comment was aimed at the specific person, but I'm glad that it was helpful to you.
Came here to write a similar comment -- well said. It's not your fault unless you forced/suggested/encouraged someone to take their life.
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That was beautifully said, thank you. Despite not personally relating to these situations, this has helped me understand guilt and how there are just some things you cannot control in the moment.
I don’t really want to say this but I think I should so I can move on
When I was four my brother manipulated me into playing ‘doctor’ with him. He would tell me to touch him and he would touch me(this went on until I was eight). I never told anyone, I can’t even look him in the eyes anymore. I can’t even look in my own eyes in the mirror..
Bonna Bon Thank you I hope you can get through this, but tell someone! I tried, but my mom didn’t listen.. (she has favoritism towards my brother) but try. I don’t want others to go through the shame and disgust I feel towards myself.
Your brother is disgusting. I'm sorry that you have to go through that.
I hope that he already stopped doing that. If you're still going through that, you should tell someone. Someone you trust or someone who can help you.
I'm sorry, but I love your profile name. Sorry you had to go through that.
I know several people with similar situation as you. You are not alone. Your brother probably had some exposure to something inappropriate as well. Please hang in there.
Damn, didn't think this video would get/affect me the way it did.
Less emphasis on Damn, and concentrate on posative things.
Jeremy Auldaney
word brother
100% same here. Especially the one who wished his/her dad would get a DUI just once.
My dad used to own a sports motorcycle, and everytime he'd been riding it he'd come home and tell me stories like: "I just went to {town 200 km away} in 25 minutes" (going the limit it'd take around 37 minutes).
Every time he'd say that I'd get scared that he'd crash and die the next time.
It's also kind of funny though, when I got my first car he was the one who told me: "Ride safe", "Go the speed limit" and "Don't trust other trafficants too much". But every time he sat on his motorcycle saying goodbye and that I had to take care of the family dog while he'd be gone for the next couple of hours, I thought (and sometimes said) those exact same words.
my fear is that I will never find myself in a longterm relationship because I'm so so terrified of people and the hurt they could put on me, plus the fact that I've retreated into books and fantasy worlds so much that nothing in the real world will ever live up to what I imagine in my head.
Same
Not alone
There's nothing wrong with books and fantasy worlds. Sometimes they're the only things keeping us sane in this real world. And being afraid of not finding the right person is normal, this fear applies to anyone, whether its the most prettiest girl in the world or the most average one, same applies for males.
This!
Being out of the real world is quite dangerous. Life would just pass you by.
If you know any counseling center especially Christian counseling center you could get help.
The "I'm addicted to porn" could have SO much more meaning than it seems.
For example:
I know a girl who at 6 years old began watching porn, and is now 13. She still struggles with her addiction. She doesn't know where to go with her life because she is Christian and every day lives with a guilt. She wants to tell her family, but she *doesn't know how.*
It's not a light matter.
i fell into that hole. im a girl, and im scared of love, sex and all that so idk what i was thinking. i would watch it and think how and why people would ever do that stuff... im 14 now and im scared of my future and my internet history.
I feel u bro. It will be okay though, it gives you a history. Push through it. I did, Im that girl. I think you just have to forgive yourself and move on, even if you fall back into the trap again. At least thats what I'm trying to do. Good luck!
@Dark Lightning spotted the one who misunderstood.
I thought I was the only female with a porn problem.
Pornography addiction is so awful. My partner was addicted and it took such a huge toll on our relationship. Physically and emotionally. He became abusive emotionally, with drawn, manipulative and totally sexually driven. 13 years later, he’s been in therapy since then, we have a baby on the way and are getting married in autumn. :) it is overcome able.
My secret:
I’m bisexual. And this comment section is the first group of people I’ve told, ever.
Congrats on your first coming out, I know it seems difficult now to ever tell anyone but soon it will be easy. Wish you the best❤️
congrats fam ❤️ hope u live a life full of love support and happiness
That's okay! I really don't know what my sexuality is.. I didn't figured it out yet bcs i never had a chance before but i guess i'm bisexual, too.. I mean boys and girls are both hot as fuck but idk haha
Well tell someone else you trust
Love from the usa❤
Speedyy thank you and love yourself please
My secret is that I'm terribly scared of death and being forgotten. I use humour and I talk a lot so people see me but sometimes I feel like I have no purpose in life and I get suicidal thoughts.
Islam.. the answers you are looking for my brother. Dig deep into Islam and you will fill that hole in your heart. The truth
@@psychogamingx1206 No thanks ahah I think I just need some love
@@Finnickzfilms You will be wrong. Love will never fill that hole because we human seek the truth and even with love, this question will remain unanswered.. "what is after death?".. love is good but the painful truth about love is that It's pain in the end.. One day you will lose that one you loved the most and if you dont know the truth, then life will take its lead and break you into pieces.. but if you know the truth, then nothing will harm you.. even death will be seen as a gift if you lived a good life according to the one who created you. So seek the truth and light (Islam) then everything in this world will follow you but if you seek the world and what is in it then you will never catch it. Take care for now
@- fullsun. tysm omg I didn't know this "thing" existed, I looked it up and I think you might be right as I actually have most of the symptoms wow
same :/
My deepest secret:
I don't wanna feel love towards somebody because I'm afraid that I'll never be good enough and that I'll lose them and not be able to come back up from that. Ever.
I knew that this probably isnt gonna help you a lot but....you are one beautiful and amazing person and if someone truly loves u, they will love each and everything about u❤
same feeling yo
You’re not alone ❤️
I kinda feel the same
You're wrong the fact that you feel that means you are noble and sweet.
My advice is to love
Till you can't no more
So that if later something happens you can say that you loved. That you did not hold back that you loved till that person every day and that is true courage
My Secret:
Me and my mom share a close relationship ever since I was younger I’ll run to her for anything but now it’s different how to you tell your own creator that you don’t want to exist anymore. I’ve been stuck in my room crying at night and when my mom comes home she always gets mad saying I never leave my room and how I never take care of myself. I’m in the lowest point of my depression where I don’t sleep at night I just cry and vomit and get really bad headache and I hate it. I know my mom loves me but why does she always have to say negative things about my body she knows how much I struggle with it she didn’t even notice when I lost 10 pounds or when I wore a hoodie during summer to hide self harm scars on my wrist. I love her but I’m fading from her and that shit scares me
Wonder Bunny you can talk to me I care because I have same problem but your one is worth you are so stronggg
hey there, i totally feel you. you can talk to me, dont let it be burden for yourself.. i sincerely hope you find your happiness
My mom is like that to me my father and my older brother told me my mum family side women Always had 0 patient and can be rude what i do is just laugh it off because you dont Know the reason why your mother is the way she is if you have any questions tag me
I don't know who you are where do you live but I'm going through some it's a process I know you feel depressed you feel low but the best way to cut down your interaction with your mom I know it's harsh but it's what's is because the people only be specific time time for specific place I don't mean you start hate your mom I am only telling to make distance give her time to heal or your going to feel same I also have weight issue. I know when you want to talk or show achievement or tell some secret but she's not mood of listing I know that feeling if you want you share to I will also share mine @wonder bunny
Is everything OK now?
my secret:
I honestly doubt anyone is gonna read this, but it just feels good it get it out there, ya know?
I had an amazzzzing childhood! That is, up until I was about 9 years old. My dad has never been around, and my mom is deaf so it’s always been hard for her to find a job since most require you to talk on the phone, etc. My mom couldn’t afford to live on the west and decided to move across the country (west coast to east coast) to my grandmother who offered me and my mom a place to stay and stuff like that. So my mom was excited to start a new life in the east, she planned on getting a new car since our current one was run down and she also planned to find a job and a house for us. She sold her car and took me and her furniture in a moving truck to the east.
My grandmother has always been sooo nice. She has always been super funny and easy to get along with. When we got to her house it was around 3 in the morning and I wasn’t sure why but I felt anxious to start a new life there, where I would be in a new school, etc. (I was going into 4th grade) we stayed in her tiny guest bedroom to which me and my mom shared a bed. My mom was on the hunt for a job, and while my mom was out my grandma kept telling me how much fun we were gonna have when we would go to malls and stuff. A few months later, my mom still has no job. My grandmother seemed to be a lot more hot tempered than usual and would spark small arguments with my mom often. Then it got so bad to the point where she would barge into our bedroom and just start screaming at my mom. It was terrifying. Everyday when I came home from school she would be laying on the couch watching the news and would just stare at me up and down, nothing like “hello! How was your day?” Just a rotten glare and then she would look back at the tv. I couldn’t find any way to be happy. She turned all our family members on me and my mom, she threatened to kick us out, and since my mom is deaf I would hear my grandmother on the phone talking about how horrible me and my mom were and making up these lies to her friends. She was insane and she ALWAYS called me mentally sick when I tried to break up the fights between her and my mom. It was so scary, I was crying everyday and I have suicidal thoughts on the daily. Life didn’t feel like it was worth living anymore and I felt like I was never gonna escape. Finally, my mom found a friend we could stay with until she could hurry and find a small home for us. Her friend was so nice and considerate of our situation, she was like the grandma I never had. After a full year of being at the east for a year we moved back to the west. It was honestly still super bad since we had no home, so we had to live in a motel until we could get back on our feet. Although we found a home eventually, and it is much better! Although I still have a super rocky life, I’m out of that abusive home. I’m in 7th grade and I’m much better. I can sleep easy at nights and don’t have to worry what I have to deal with the next day. If you’re dealing with suicidal thoughts, depression, or anything along those lines or just need someone to talk to you can feel free to reply and we will talk. Sometimes life either throws feathers or bricks at you. You just have to be strong and fight through it.
fitness and fashion Glad it’s better for you now!
❤️❤️❤️ you're a such strong person that I admire
Your grandma sounds like a total douche
Me and my mom are currently living with my grandma and my grandma is really nice
The fact that you're so young yet so insightful and strong you are definitely someone worth praising. I wish you to have a long happy life filled with people that will love you and care about you.
love ya :)
My Secret:
When i was at the age of 10 I was taken away from my family because our house was a mess, and the year that i spent away from my family was probably the happiest i have ever been.
I’m so sorry. I hope your doing okay now ❤️
Is everything OK?
My father hit me with a car as a kid and swore to never tell anyone or he’ll do it again.
Shrekisha tell the police, someone, please be safe!
Oml... I really hope you’re okay! Please, tell someone you trust about this for your own safety. Not that awful father.
did he hit you intentionally? sorry if its to personal
Tell the police and you can report in anonymously.
are you writing this from hell?
I thought this would be like "I shit in the toilet, but blamed it on my cat when my roommate saw." This was sad 😭
So many real emotions, beautiful concept!
You need more than emotions, you need facts baseed on truth. Not just assuptions and opinions. Absolute truth does exist, but the only one who knows it is God.
Jeremy Auldaney The irony. Your belief in God IS based on personal opinions, emotions, and assumptions. How can you talk about "fact" and "god" in the same breath? 😂
"I'm addicted to porn"
I came here to be nosy but then I realized how big this was
Scarlet Gilder righttttt 😂😂😭😭
my biggest secret: I feel like I'm a disappointment when it comes to my mom. so when she said to me that one night "if you don't care, I don't care" it broke me and I cut my arm...
💌 You are loved even when you dont feel it
n u i t ۵ Girl believe me
Everything will get better with time
I know this sounds cliche but it really will. And just remember you are loved and you are important and you don’t have to care about what anybody says just love yourself and that will be enough
That's not that bad I'm someone who has been abused sexually a few times and physically for around 10 years as well as that my parents could care less about my existence I hate everyone and everything to the point were I wake up at night and say why do I exist
MLGsniper7 and this is why i don’t share why i’m mostly upset. i’m aware that my life isn’t as bad as yours but i still feel like a disappointment to my parents. you saying this makes me feel even more worse and want to close up even more than i already am because why am i feeling this way when i have a roof over my head, food to eat, and a family.
@@auocados4875 you are not a disappointment, they are a disappointment for not careing about you.
My secrets are too deep to share but I don't care. I let them suffocate me.
Michelle Same 😔
Don’t
Same
Edgy.
same, i cry all the time
Who else thought their darkest secret wasn't shit compared to these
Me...
@@workharddieproud3295oh come on, tell. Me to
Phoenix Fan 4 Life same fam
Rainy Day I’ll tell you mine if you tell me yours
@@jorjabryant4733 really? Is that you in the profile pic.
My secret:
I'm bisexual, and I am in love with my bestfriend. It doesnt sound like that much of a secret, but heres my story:
About 3 years ago, I moved from Iowa to Colorado, beacause my mom wanted to go to bible school. In Iowa, I had lots of friends, because that was the place I grew up. I was 10 when we got in our car and left. At the time, I had no soul. I was always blank, and never really showed emotions, so moving so far away didnt really make me cry, but my friends all balled their eyes out. When we got to Colorado, I had no friends at all. My parents took me out if the public school system and put me in a homeschool program, because they didnt like what public school was teaching now-a-days. But I wasnt exactly homeschooled at first... baisically I went to a school that does homeschool work. Like, you would just bring your school work (text books, work pages ect.) to this place, and do it there with other homeschooled kids. The whole reason for this school was so that homeschooled kids would have a chance to interact with other kids, instead of being home alone all the time. Anyways there I met 2 of my dearest friends that I still hang out with today, and I wont say their real names, but I will just call them lemon and lime. Me, lemon and lime hung out all the time and did a lot of weird stuff, such as breaking into other classmates lockers to steal their food. Then about 4 months later, my moms friend told her that some of my moms friend's friend's are moving to colorado, and they have a girl my age in their family, and they want to met us sometime. Next thing you know, their family comes walking up our doorstep to introduce themselves. With them, came this small blonde girl, with a green, fluffy and sparkly sweater and pink fluffy boots along with some leggings. She was a little shorter than me, but was as light as a feather. Her golden hair was shoulder length. She had the bluest eyes ever, with a tint of green around the pupil. She had a welcoming smile, that made me wonder if I looked pretty or not. She walked over to me and waved at me while looking down. I did the exact same. We were both shy towards each other. I took her to my room to get away from our parents boring conversation. We started talking and playing with some of the toys I had. When she left, I felt sad. Her name was complicated, so I forgot what it was and spent the next 3 hours, sitting on my bed, trying to figure out what her name was. Eventually I gave up and asked my mom if she knew, and she told me. I'm not gonna say her real name, so I will call her peach. A year went passed and we became best friends, and I mean BEST FRIENDS. We baisically live at each others houses, and act like sisters. We scream at each other over some stupid shit and drink from the same cup. We share food, have sleepovers whenever we can, and text each other till 3 am. Then one day, while we were hanging out, she said she wanted to tell me something. We went to a quiet place, and she told me she was gay. I told her that I still accept her and think of her the same way as I always did, which was true. Then she told me that she has a crush on her best friend that lived at her home state, and i will call her apple. I told her to tell apple how she feels and see what happens. She said she needed more time to think. A month had passed after that and I had thought a LOT about the whole situation. But I couldn't stop thinking about how mad I was at apple, and how much I hated her. I had no idea why I hated her, I had never even met her. And everytime I saw peach, all I wanted to do, was tell her to stay away from apple. But I stayed quiet. I eventually started having dreams about peach. We would be together, running through a field of flowers or some classy shit like that. I kept telling myself to stop feeling like this, and that I like boys. But I couldnt get peach out of my head. She was all I ever thought about. I would blow up her phone, and message her for no reason. I would steal her stuff, and wear the clothes she would leave at my house. Then I started making up senarios that we could be in before I would sleep every night. I would think to myself, "what would happen if we were locked in a room together?" or "what if we went on a road trip?". Then it happened. She texted me one day, saying "I GOT A GIRLFRIEND!". My heart dropped. I could hardly reply, but I managed to ask her who her girlfriend is, and sure enough it was apple. I wasnt sure what to do, so I just said I was happy for her. I literally felt like my heart was racing 10 times faster. I just wanted to stay in my room forever and never come out again. Later, peach asked if we could hang out, and I said sure. We went to a quiet place to talk about her new "girlfriend". She was so happy, jumping around like a rabbit. I just sat quiet while she told me the story on how she confessed to apple over texting and apple confessed as well. Then, all of a sudden, it just came out if my mouth without thinking, "I'm bisexual". I didnt even think about saying anything like that, and I just spat it out. I regreted saying it, but peach was like, "Really!? Thats great!" And she smiled at me. I felt like I was gonna cry. That adorable smile she gave me, belonged to someone else. Then she asked me if I liked any girls at the moment, and of course, I told her no.
Months go by and apple is all that peach talks about. When we hang out, she was always texting her, and facetiming her. I felt like shit. Apple was really nice and all, but inside, I hated her. If she lived in another state, why couldnt they just forget about each other?? Then, me and my friend lime, had a sleep over. We watched a movie, and started to go to sleep, when lime asked if I wanted to play truth or truth(truth or dare without dares) and I agreed. We asked eachother some stupid questions, and then it got personal. Lime said, "If you tell me your deepest darkest secret, I will tell you mine". Sounded like a deal. So I told her I was bisexual, and trust me it wasnt easy. Then she told me she was bisexual too. Then it got EVEN DEEPER. Somehow, she got me to tell her that I was in love with peach. And then after I told her that, she told me that she had a crush on ME (LOL plot twist tho). I felt bad, because I couldnt return her feelings, cuz I was so head over heels for peach. But, then she asked me to kiss her, just to satisfy her this once. And so I did. Then we went to sleep.
A month after that, peach started getting bullied online by her ex-friend(I will call her plum) from her home town (where apple lives). Peach started the fight, because plum was getting to close to apple. Peach and plum started fighting over instagram, and commenting rude things on each others posts. After reading the comments plum wrote about peach, I about lost it. I told peach that I could roast that bitch so hard that she would not ever even talk to peach again. Peach told me to stand down, and so I did. Then one day, something weird happened. Me and peach were taking a walk, and she just says "Me and apple broke up". A feel of releif filled me. I thought that maybe if I told her how I felt, we could be together. But then, she told me that she wasnt bisexual anymore, and that she was straight. All hope was lost from those few words. I dont know why I said this, but I told her that I was straight too. I guess I was scared of being the one gay friend. I still love her, so much. I just dont know what to say. And my parents are religous, so I dont wanna dissapoint them with the way I am. Dont get me wrong, my parents are so nice to me, and Im not scared of them, I just, dont wanna let them down. Me and peach are still as close as ever, but I just feel a little more for her then she does for me.
Wow I cant believe you read all that... thanks for reading my rant.
that was the most amazing thing i have ever read holY SHITFUCKOMGOD I LOVE YOU
OMAH GAWD I LOVE YOU TOO
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I can relate.....
💝💝💝
I have one:
When I was fourteen, I really wanted another sibling, so I used those needles you put on shots to poke a hole into all of my parents condoms. I didn’t think it would work, but about four months later my mom told me she was pregnant. Now I have a ten year old little sister. I haven’t ever told anyone what i’ve done, and it’s my biggest secret. I don’t regret doing it though!
U already said this on a different video I-
Mad
Using condoms while being married is strange to me for some reason
Maša Štrbac no its not, what if they dont want to have kids? Its not strange at all
@@harrietdoesnt some of statics show that majority of couples (married or not) in long term relationships do not use condoms more like some oder form of contraceptive methods(pills etc.) but judging by people around me a lot of people just do the pull out thingy 😅
Deepest darkest secret: from the age of 11-14 I would not hesitate to show parts of my body to any guy. Whether it was on omegle or Kik. I always vowed never to show someone I knew in person that stuff, but someone online instead. I also used that stuff to cope with breakups. It's been two years and I can't look at my body with out feeling miserable at how I whored myself out as such a young age.
I used to go on Instagram when I was 14 and use #paypigs to get money on PayPal by sending nudes to people. I made over 500$
11??????
ani t. yep.
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c g yeeks
"There is power in who you are"
Wrong, Satan's lie. Only Jesus has the power to save you from addiction.
Jeremy Auldaney
Lies don't bring Religion into this
I've recently grown so deep in my hatred for a specific person because of their narcissism and lack of care for anyone but themselves that I sometimes wish they were dead so I didn't have to deal with them and the constant anger they have caused my family and I anymore. My anger and frustration from them has contributed a lot to my depression but they refuse to even acknowledge how damaging the things they say and do are to my rapidly declining mental health.
Who is it? Don't say their name though
Wrap a metal bar round there head but make sure they don’t know it’s you
My secret:
I had a feeling I needed to go see my friend but instead I stayed home and watched tv. 3 days before my birthday she died in a car accident because her and her boyfriend were drinking. Last thing I said to her was please Don't go.
chelsey kelley It is not your fault
The first one got to me, because my dad's friend molested me and said that if I told anyone he would hurt me and my parents so I kept quiet for a very large portion of my life, but now I'm trying to be more open about since he died. I forgive him for what he did to me, but that's only because I'm not the kind of person to hate someone for my entire life. He died, and he can't hurt me anymore.
S C U M B A G I'm sorry that happened to you, and it takes even more courage to forgive the person. I would never be able to do that. I hope that never happens to you again
Forgiving someone who hurt you a lot ( physically or mentally ) is a tough thing to do. I'm glad that he can't hurt you anymore. You are amazing to be able to forgive someone like him
You , reading this , I love you more than anything in this world , no matter what you're going through , I'll be there to make your day better ,,thank you for reading this
You don't know me
Sean Jr Maybe you will see us all one day, walking down thw street, eating lunch somewhere, in the park who knows but your message probably just gave a lot of people confidence and strength so thank you
Thank you
I love you too and I'll always be there for you too!! You're such a beautiful soul!!
I actually burst into tears when I read this. I just had a severe panic attack and I’m not even in my own country, I’m on holiday in Scotland right now, but I’d much rather be in my bed at home with the curtains of my bedroom windows closed and cry for hours. I’m so tired of everything. I don’t want to live with depression and anxiety anymore.
As a Christian it always really bothers me when i hear about priests molesting or raping children. It is the complete opposite of what God and Jesus want of us, and instead of bringing people to believe, it makes them and their family shun God and creates anger and fear. Honestly so disappointing.
Callum Verdouw I know your feeling , it's the exact same thing that's happening to us Muslims , like the terrorists create such a false image about us. and we pay the price
So true.
Yeah I agree it's so sad. So disappointing and disgusting to see that the people we're supposed to be looking up to are committing the most horrendous acts.
And what's saddening is that there are so many people who have gone through this in a church. A church is supposed to be a place of worship where anyone should feel comfortable at. To violate people under the title "priest" or "pastor" is so gross and wrong.
Dounia K Abrahamic religions are horrible. You guys love to solely focus on the good.
"I'M ADDICTED TO PORN." This one really hit me. I'm just your average teenage girl, and yes I'm addicted to porn. I can't tell my parents. Some of my friends know but they just fuel the addiction. It's just as gross as cigarettes or heroin. I can't stop. I always come back. It's even worse because I'm female, people think that its only a problem men have.
I'm also addicted and I've been trying to stop and start a new chirstain life it's hard I went 2 months without porn but then it happens again this may or may not help keep yourself busy because when you're bored you'll probably be more interested in porn but if you're busy at school or something you're less likely to think about porn
Im also addicted to porn but tbh its not that bad its not like heroin its normal
Don't worry everyone Loves porn ✌
Eww 💀🥀💯
You have to feel the pain en go throw the pain to get over the addiction. Just like Jesus. He didnt gave into sin, because he went through the pain of not living according his human nature. But we need a higher power to help us with this suffer. Because you have to believe it is worth it and that God will reward you with a better life. (Sorry for my bad english)(this is the way i overcame weed, nictonine and porn addiction)
noooobodyyyyy read thiiiiissss. i just needed to vent somewhere. sorry.
My dad has been cheating on my mom since 2011. She's already called him out and stuff then. My mom died around February 2016 and he's still dating the same girl. Worst part is, he won't tell me about her. I don't even care if he has a girlfriend. I won't hate her, I'd just treat her like an aunt rather than a mother.
If you need to vent, there's a really good website called blahtherapy.com!
thank you^^
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awwwwwww
;(((((
hot tip--writing nobody read this really makes people want to read it :)
One of my biggest secrets:
I am struggling. I am 12, and only just figuring who I am. I have been blackmailed, and threatened to be outed as gay to my school. I have been bullied and physically kicked and shoved. I have been back-stabbed and left behind by countless friends. I constantly have suicidal thoughts, and almost committed suicide 3 times. All my friends are starting to fade. Recently a guy I told I was gay liked me, and our friendship is awkward now. I spend all my time in the weekends lying around, on my devices. I barley see my dad. This isn’t as bad as a lot of people, and I try to have hope. I hope people in tougher conditions read this, and get this message:
“Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations.”
trust me,a girl bullies me and i don t give a fuck about her.And abot the blackmail thing,tell a teacher.I support you!♡
Please keep holding on♡♡♡
You got this ! Hope you'll find the one ! And also don't not care bout those bullies !
I have four secrets which I will all take to the grave with me no matter what. Kudos for all the people being able to tell their secrets even if it was anonymously.
M.T.P letting it out will help. If you ever want to talk to someone I’m here
i have one secret i will take to the grave as well,i think i can relate to not wanting to tell anyone.
When I was small, I cried when my grandmother died. Now I feel no remorse when I say that i'm happy she's gone, she abused my mom when she was still a teenager, and when she didn't manage to control her she abused me and broke me down when i was just starting middle school. I was just a kid. It was traumatic hearing her scream and call me a mistake, she'd smack me around if I tried to stand my ground and would rip my notebooks whenever I wrote something wrong or when I would doodle in my notebooks. She never wanted me to follow my dreams. It saddens me that when I was a child I thought that was normal, only now when I'm in highschool I realized that I was manipulated into thinking that was okay. My mom feels horrible for leaving me alone so much with her, but It's not her fault. She worked hard to provide for me while my dad was working almost all day. Now I'm following my dreams, but the way she influenced me as a person still haunts me.
my biggest secret is i’m super insecure and constantly want to change myself for other people. i hate my body. i hate myself for not changing even though i want to. i always look at myself in the mirror and get disgusted. i’ve tried to love myself for who i am but i just can’t. this is the first time that i’ve written about this.
Writing is a step so be proud I still haven't faced my fears so u have subtracted at least one step so continue
I feel you😥
I feel u , but for me my mom tells me to lose weight and whenever i eat she says that im gonna look like a cow , she made me hate my body since i was 6 and at 13 i developed an ED and i lost weight and ppl told me " congrats " "u look pretty now "
And this make me hate myself more , and i tell myself " so i was ugly " and now i fear gaining weight and i stopped eating food that i like ,i don't think losing or gaining weight is the solution to love my body
I can 100% relate to you.
Bro that's literally me
Not actually my "biggest" secret, but something I would never tell my parents about.
I am raised Catholic, but I'm an agnostic atheist for like, I think, two years now. I can't tell them because they are conservative, religious people. Maybe I'll tell them when I get another breakdown. Where on my first breakdown, I told them that I need to consult professional help and consult a psychiatrist because I'm addicted to self-harm. I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. Suicide attempts are no secret of mine. I don't even know that other people knew about this.
Chevy Rupleix Damm... I hope it gets better for you bro. Do you have some relatives you could talk to, wich you think woulf be more accepting? I have heard that it helps to let things out.
The best thing you can do is tell them, I went through the same thing, most likely they will never bring it up, it makes them uncomfortable
As an atheist myself, I feel for you. It's hard to be a single non-believer in a sea of completely entranced worshippers. Take care of yourself, and make sure you're safe it you ever tell them. We'll make it through this.
Chevy Rupleix My family are agnostics, although we still go to church every week.
You being agnostic isn't a bad thing. I have the same situation but I don't have extreme depression and my family are methodists.
Damn this is deep..
fatma yildiz that's so confusing omg 😂
Madison Williams I thought you were talking to yourself for a second 😂
Dennis BD 😂😂😂
wow, and I thought you meant that as a "That's what she said joke" xDD
That's.. also what she said? 😆😆
Here is mine:
My brother emotionally abused me for a long time and I wanted to die for a long long time People know but I’m too scared to tell him himself because I know it will destroy him I can’t express this to him because I’m scared
My deep secret is
My grandpa yelled at me and I told him I didn’t care if he died and got a heart attack that same night haven’t told anyone
XdeadplayX x it’s not your fault
@@artsywoodz what!!?? He yelled to his grandpa: i dont care that you die
Never say that to your family
bru no offence bit thats really fucked up
r/thathappened
My biggest secret:
I see people suffer, and sometimes I get glee from it. Sometimes when I make people suffer, I enjoy being evil. I'm scared. I'm scared that I'm losing empathy for living things. I'm scared that I'm losing my humanity.
Pray find passion in religion and if you have bad thoughts or harmful thoughts please don't commit to them counseling, therapy, meditation can help
Talk about this to a professional. It's really important, don't be afraid.
I suggest you talk to a professional??I'm not sure what's happening to you,but talking to someone about this is quite important.
It's a mentality that's alot of people have just talk to a therapist
You have to fight it. I get nasty thoughts too but I know there’s an internal war going on inside in fact inside of all of us.
I have a secret
I told my father I wanted to be a boy he told. Me "What makes you think that being a boy would be better if you can't be a good daughter"
Damn
Your amazing wether you decide to boy or girl.. smile stay strong your worth it❤️☺️🤗😇
He will regret it after he sees how famous and great you will become
Emilio NH if he ever says that again then say “what made you think you could be a good father if you aren’t even a good person”
You can be waterever you want!💗
Stay strong and if you still live whit him try yo live in peace💗.....
My secret:
My friend and I went into the city the night of homecoming after I saved up a ton of money and we went to a hotel got a room went to the top floor that had a staircase to the roof we standed on the edge and we both almost jumped before I pulled us back because I knew that I had feelings for her so I told her and she started laughing we went back to the room and she asked me to be her girlfriend, were 18 now and still together, I sometimes wonder what would have happen if we jumped or if I didn't tell her at all.
I am happy that it worked out for you😊
I have so many secrets that I usually dont tell.
People look at you different.
It's scary
You give off edgy middle school vibes
My biggest secret is that i have an alcoholic mom and have developed insomnia because i'm scared she will get drunk when i sleep. Only my family and you that are reading this knows
my mum was an alcoholic and it was so bad. she quit completely. i had/have insomnia and its still really hard. i really wish you all the best and maybe you should ask her why she does it... dont ask if you know she will respond negatively or get agressive
My biggest secret
No one knows that I’m suicidal, I’ve tried to kill myself several times. I don’t want to be like this, I’ve been going through this for several years, I want help but I don’t want anyone’s pity, I don’t want their views of me to change. I just want to die without anyone feeling bad for me, I don’t want to hurt people either. I just want disappear
Polarriis You are irreplaceable. You matter. The world will not be same without you. Everyone is special. I hope that whatever you are going through is over soon.
Polarriis 3:20
idk how old you are, but you didn't come this far through your shitty(i'm guessing) life to only come this far.
Same....i just wanna disappear but i know there are people who love me and care about me but still some way i want to be gone from this world and their memories so they wont grief over me when im gone
We can not blame you. But, with those words I know you're strong, you are. I wish you are. Life has a lot of suprises, there is a better one waiting, trust me.
My uncle was a down syndrome and when he was about to pass away he was in so much pain, he was literary crying and I used to sing him a song which I remember the lyrics word to word by heart now. I miss him soo much and love him sooooo much.
My biggest secret is that I secretly don’t like my dad , at ALL, he gave up on caring for me as his daughter and the only thing he does is buy me things instead of talk to me and make sure I’m okay . This comment section is the only person I’ve told
I'm so sorry 💛 stay strong
I totally relate... 😔
Lizzie Turner your acting spoiled
CityFanTv -everything man city I don’t mean to come across that way but I think a lot of parents don’t know how to communicate with their children , of course I appreciate the gifts my dad gives me , but I would trade all the gifts for spending time and talking with him. Maybe you just don’t understand what it’s like to be disconnected from a parent
@@cityfantv-everythingmancit2946 What? How? The girl clearly does not care about the material, she just wants love from her dad. If I want I could just waste 4% of my money on some random thing to shut you up, but I could never talk to you and listen to you like a real dad because that would actually take effort to do, buying you some random thing doesn't affect me, it's just me being a hypocrite.
the fact that some of these people in the comment section go through so much breaks my heart, because sometimes there are those who struggle in life because of people who like tormenting others, as if they don't already have enough going on in their life ;(
My step mom asked my dad your children or me? He said her the second she got done with her sentence. From then my mom was more of a father than her ever was
Yoongi's smile is my reason to live. Your dad is a piece of shit and your mom is awesome
Yoongi's smile is my reason to live fuck that hits
Listen you are strong, you are loved and most importantly you are raised by a brave woman💜
I have a friend that died, and I still call her number even though I know I'll never get a call back. The worst part is, I just want to apologize, because the last time I spoke with her, we argued over the stupidest thing
When i was a teenager, i was being raped. The guy that raped me thought that the blood is my menstruation blood and i couldn't say anything or fight him because i was too weak. I just sat there not knowing what to feel
i have no words.. i wish i could hug you im gonna get emotional
Its Bxtim honestly that is a terrible thing to say
Its Bxtim sex is (chiefly with reference to people) sexual activity, including specifically sexual intercourse, whereas Rape is defined in most jurisdictions as sexual intercourse, or other forms of sexual penetration, committed by a perpetrator against a victim without their consent and is very traumatic experience to the victim like the woman who commented above. Both not my own definitions btw they're from google and I'm sorry but I found the joke very distasteful.
Wth go get evidence and sue him. That is the worst thing that could happen.
My secret:
2 years ago I was in a relationship. At first he seemed like the perfect guy. I was even planning on proposing. Then one day when I was over at his house he started to touch me. I gently told him no but he continued. Eventually he had my clothes off and was trying to enter me. I was crying and beginning for him to stop. He wouldn't.
Ive never told anyone this.
Im so sorry this has happened to you
Thank you for telling us. I really really appreciate it. You are very brave for telling us and you should give yourself some credit.
That's horrible. Did you punish the offender?
I’m so sorry. I hope you are healing. I had basically the same thing happen. You can move on and live a beautiful life and find healthy relationships. And just because that boundary was crossed does not mean you can’t start over. It is your choice what is and isn’t ok.
My secret:
I wish my alcoholic dad never had my step sister, I was not jealous but hurt hurt at the fact he could never be a proper dad to me so why hurt another child? I look at families that have a mum and dad and I cry because I've never had a dad that was annoying, overprotective, loving, helpful. When I had a dad that would just buy me things to keep my happy for a short time and his love for alcohol. And everytime I go around to sleepover at his and see my step sister, there he is hiding the cans beside the sofa like I won't have seen it but everytime I do it makes me hate him so much. Why pick alcohol over your daughters?
And now my step sister mum passed away with my unborn step brother, I feel hurt because my sister is going to go through the pain of not having a parent there in her life. Everyday I wake up scared not for my life but for hers, I'm scared my dad will become ill due to his need for alcohol I'm scared that my sister will feel how I feel now. I'm so fucking scared. Everytime I say dad might become ill due to alcohol why do I feel something that shouldn't? I feel this feeling not happiness but something because then I think will he realise me and my sister is more important than alcohol? Will he finally understand alcohol isn't worth it? He was never there for my school plays or parents evening never but i want him at my step sisters I want her to have a sober dad that I could never had.
I never was able to type or form this with a voice but because of my dad I blame that he killed her mum and my unborn step baby brother the fact she had problems after my sister birth and only being pregnant a couple months later again makes me frustrated. And everytime it's the month of her passing I keep thinking another year my sister doesn't have a mum. And I'm afraid of those questions like "what was she like?" "Am I like my mum?" I won't be able to know the answer to them because my stubborn self never met my step sister mum and now I wish I had died instead of her mum. At least one of us would of had a family.
oh my gosh... I’m so sorry you have had to go through this. I can’t really relate, but just know that there will be a day where you can finally feel happiness. I hope you and your step sister have a good life, and I hope your father will realise his kids are more important than alcohol. I’m praying for you
You're such a good sister!!! She needs you, don't think that way, It's sad what's happening to your dad and how she's not there for her own daughter who's grieving, but you're there and taking care of her, she's so lucky to have you. Maybe It's time you talk to your dad and make him realize the pain he's causing to his kids. I wish you all the best!
Wow, that is so hard :( so so difficult. You sound like such a loving sister. Even though you suffered so much, you still want the best for others. I can't offer you much but know that I support you, I love you, I will talk with you if you want, and I will be praying for you
Don’t you mean half sister ?
As someone who has younger siblings, I can relate.
I would want my siblings to live their life being happy, live freely without a care.
I don't want them smoking or slagging off, I want the best for them since I am the eldest sister.
I struggle with my emotions, afraid that one day I might hurt them and myself.
Like my dad, I give my siblings "Tough Love". Although I say bad things to them, I don't mean it. Does that make me a bad sister?
“There is power in your presence.”This hits home, you never know the impact you have on someone. So i try to be a blessing to someone and not a blight.
I like how there all deep then there's "I'm addicted to porn"
Ezra Fitz idk I found it quite sad because of how they're addicted to this fake, scripted form of pleasure...I assume by that they mean they constantly think of porn which is pretty unhealthy and saddening
This is very real. Porn is lust. Lust for anything is a sin.
Jeremy Auldaney Eh everything is a sin nowadays padre
Chloe ikr
hundaebyun jonghaowon I agree with you
The dead father's contact.... Wish i never saw this video.. sob
No Music No Fun I was about to start sobbing then the next guy said I'm addicted to watching porn ...
That really hit me. It sounds utterly stupid to continue to add it, however, by thinking about it, I would do the exact same and it actually makes complete sense. Although having the number on your phone - a number you'll never call - is entirely pointless, it has no practical benefits however certainly mental ones.
This hit me the hardest I think
No Music No Fun I would do the same thing, but I have his number.
My biggest secret:
I've had bad thoughts my whole life. Nothing too bad, but in 5th grade, I made a friend. Or at least I thought I did.
She was always there for me and I told her everything. But one day she snuck into my locker and wrote horrible mean things. She called me a "slut" "whore" etc. At the time, I didn't know it was her who wrote it. So she tried comforting me throughout me trying to find out who it was. She was lying to me the whole time. she said "Whoever wrote that is a horrible person" and she was right, she is a horrible person. Once I saw those words on my locker, I fell into a deep deep depression. I started cutting a lot. I hated myself and everything I was worth, which I thought wasn't a lot. Once I found out I was heartbroken. I never thought the girl that was always with me, the girl who stood by me, the girl who I thought was a friend, could backstab me like that. A couple of days later, a girl noticed a small cut on my wrist. She confronted me and then told the principal. The counselor talked to me and checked up on me every week. She then told my parents. I was afraid of how they would react. I was afraid they would hate me. Luckily I had a caring family, so they just talked to me about it. I was a bit happier that they knew. So I didn't have to hide it so much. The girl who told the principal, I soon became friends with. We talked about how much we hated that backstabbing girl. But its not over yet. My friend told the backstabbing girl that I was talking to her behind her back. The backstabbing girl then told me to meet her in the bathroom, being the idiot I am. I went. She then yelled at me and told me "If you have anything to say, say it to my face next time loser" And other awful things. And it wasn't just her, I didn't know but my 'friend' was hiding in the stalls listening. Also, she brought a couple of her friends to gang up on me as well. I didn't say anything as I shrugged and walked out. But as soon as I got home. I started crying, so, so hard. I soon filled out a bully form and changed all my classes so I wouldn't be with her. I never told anyone this. I still had depression and was cutting occasionally, but didn't tell anyone. I hated everything still, nothing really changed for the better. If anything it got worse because 2 of my 'friends' backstabbed me.
Recently my grandmother had been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. Before she was diagnosed, I never thought I would cry at her death, but when I found out she was sick. I cried for days. I jinxed it, and now God is punishing me. I only feel worse about everything. I was so selfish and self-centered that I didn't think I would cry at her death. I regret everything I said about her because now she's dying. And I feel as if it is all my fault. Everything.
It is not your fault. I send you lots of love from my heart.
If there is one thing you should never do is stupid cry. Do not cry over people who won't cry for you. Those girls you called friends are nothing. They have nothing and they are useless. The only thing they can do is just be mean to people. And mean people go nowhere in life. So, hold your head up high, lift up your chest and block all those negative people out. Try talking to new people, people you don't know. And do not shut everyone out because that shit makes no fucking sense.
It’s not your fault and you will find real friends who appreciate you for who you are and I’m sure those backstabbers are just insecure about themselves. But you are important in this world and you have great purpose❤️
It's not your fault, I'm sorry you're going through this
It's not your fault and I hope you find true friends in the future
My secret:
I grew up homeless and I still am. Growing up was hard after my family and I moved from Indiana when I was 6. It was like every time I turned my head we were evicted, living with someone and sleeping on their floor, or in a shelter. When I was younger I was embarrassed by not having things other kids had like new clothes, a room to myself, or at least a home to call my own. My family and I have bounced around from state to state and city to city just to have always end up in the same predicament. Homeless. Being in these situations impacted me negatively and positively, but the negativity still lingers in the air. I still remember when my family and in slept outside for the first time. I cried to myself and cried so bad because I was upset at the fact that this had always happened to us. I never showed how I felt to my family, so every emotion and every feeling was bottled up. Every time I cry I think about the days my mom couldn’t provide food for my siblings and I and all we could do was accept the fact that this was our reality. Currently I am 19 and is still with my family living in someone else’s house and I’m over it. It’s like we were put on Earth to make other people house feel like a home and not our own. I am basically an adult now, this coming February, and I’m stuck trying to find my new beginning. I feel like I am trapped and I just want to be free.
Who's life now bub :)
Stay strong, no season can last long. This too shall pass. Just stay strong :)
Videos like this got everybody opening up. So wholesome. Thanks for doing videos like this.
My secret :
I was molested at the age of four by my own cousin. I didn't tell my mom until I recently became thirteen because he said that when I would become said age, he would have sex with me. I've spent nine years alone and depressed with this secret until now.
Brianna Gonzalez Ulloa you are a brave girl. Stay strong
Dear lord. That's awful. At least you told someone.
Stay strong
Don't ever give up. We love you, and you are loved 😘😘🙂🙂🙂❤❤❤ 🍑🍑🍑
I've been molested and I now face depression
I think I once told my Mom but I can't remember anything about the fact It haunts me to this very day
1:09 I'm catholic and I've honestly thought about that many times in my life. Religious or not I think we all have deep down. Its scary sometimes to think that maybe this right here is it that nothing comes before nor after, this is our one and only moment in time. Unfortunately no one will ever truly know what lies beyond until its your time to go and there’s no coming back once you’ve seen the truth. Its just the one thing that humanity can never know for certain and that's why I believe it scares us so much.
Catholics are pagans
Same but don't worry it's completely normal. Saints and jesus disciples also had a lack of faith at times even though they saw his miracles. They all left jesus when he was getting crucified and Peter denied him 3 times. The closer you get to God the less you think about these things:) I was agnostic but now I am a very strong catholic. I know people like my mum and her friend and other friends to which jesus came in a dream and it changed their life forever. My mum's friend became a nun straight away because of a dream. My mum hadn't gone to mass in years and he came to her in a dream and she converted. God works in mysterious ways! So don't worry!
Even my mum still has doubts and she has had amazing experiences. Its a normal thing:)
I would recommend reading the whole of the new testament. That's it haha:D
God bless you and God definitely has a plan for you don't be afraid:D he loves you you are so important to him! He is always with you!❤
My secret:
Neither of my parents know that I never got over their divorce. That day, I was in so much shock, and I spent the day locked on my room crying. It's been four years, but I'm still not really over it. I'm also really insecure, and I always think about what people think of me.
i feel this
I dont have any big secrets, but i have a lot of secrets that i guess you can call one step away from being big
-i stole my bestfriends diary when i was 8.
-i dont really like my bestfriend anymore
-people think im selfish and mean and that i have no emotions but im too scared to show them who i am
diana C: I can really relate to the last one. I’ve been faking too long and I’m actually becoming mean though. I don’t know how to stop it. I’m becoming heartless and I’m really depressed about it.
I can really relate to the last one a lot. But I’m scared to even write this comment 😥😥
Kenya_Chan dont be scared am here you can always talk to me
I relate to the last one
@X4TERUMI lol am 20
My secret:
I walked at graduation in april 2019. I was supposed to have finished all of my credits the summer after. But I had one class that was an incomplete. I took it as an incomplete because I was struggling a lot mentally and emotionally being so isolated from my family and friends, my husband. Also I had severe symptoms of endometriosis and adenomyosis and was in constant pain. It was a really big struggle to get my work done. I was driving every monday to school for 2 and half hours, I stayed with a friend but I never saw her...and then came back home on Thursday night. My husband works as a teacher and so I was alone all day Friday until 4. On Saturday he was a referee for soccer games. And sometimes on Sunday too. It was really hard to be alone all the time. 24/7 and never see him. And all of my family lives in another state, I have one sister here in Michigan but she is also in school 2 hours away. Well anyway I never finished my incomplete class. I still have one assignment left... and it's one year later. its super hard ( I have to program a neural network). Everyone thinks I finished my master's degree last summer and I haven't told anyone about it.... it's just so hard mentally for me to continue. phew. That felt really good to tell some strangers online.
🤗
My secret:
My Father killed himself.
It wasn’t just the fact he left my mom and his 3 daughters
But how he did
He took every Happy card birthday card
Christmas card Get well card my Mother ever wrote to him. And circled certain words. About my mom.
And my sisters. And I......
i am crying so hard :'( i hope nothing but happiness for you
sorry to hear that.i hope you are able to be strobg through it
tha k you for sharing your pain
Just know that I am there for u if u ever need someone to talk to sweetheart..
Hold on, I'm confused?
may • 27 years ago me too but i thought it would be insensitive to ask
The fact that people trust to give out their secrets and people just comfort them just warms my heart! ❤️ I mean, people can choose not to share any information yet they do and y'all sopport them! Y'all are really amazing people and don't forget that!
the man who read the molestation story out loud hit me the most. I know exactly how it feels. mentally and physically fucking painful every. single. day. of. my. life. I even had to pause the video and cry because hearing that another person has been through something so traumatic HURTS. I was molested at 4 years old by a "friend", someone who was older than me and knew better, yet they did it anyway. and hearing the "dont tell anyone" words have never left my mind, after remembering my experience, having my mind blocking the trauma experience for my whole life till now. i never told anyone, until my parents found out. i never told them who did it. i never will. why? i dont know. i never will know why. but if anyone who is reading this, has gone through a similar experience, or even happening right now to you as i speak.. AS FOR HELP BEFORE ITS LATE. and this is coming from someone who kept it in for fucking 11 years. and if you even need someone to talk to, just comment, ill give you my social media and we can talk about whatever you need to let out. love ya. and for the person who went through that, i hope you get the justice you deserve..
Yoo Jiae's wife it really does feel better when you tell someone, like a weight is lifted off your shoulders. I was molested by my biological father when I was 6. I didn't tell anyone, not even my closest friend until I was 15,i always thought it was my fault, that I somehow deserved it, that I did something wrong, I know now that that isn't the case. I attempted suicide many times but I am thankful I never succeeded because now I have 4 beautiful nieces that I love more than anything.
at the age of eleven to this day, i have run my own suicide hotline. people have told me things they’ve never told anyone.
dogsocks wtf
That's very nice
Would love to do that
My secret:
I was pregnant at the age of 17 years old. I didn't know what to do. It took me weeks to figure it out. I finally told my ex boyfriend (current bf at the time) I wanted to keep the baby. He ended up crushing my stomach with his stomach as a joke. The pain of losing my baby without knowing what to do. As I felt our bond slowly slip away. A long with the in denial that it happened. My baby would be 10 years old this year. No one knows at all. I still dodge questions if I'm ever going to have a baby every year. Yet no one knows of the incident and to this day; I cannot get over it. You never can get over it no matter what.
That's what you get for not having an abortion
@@DonkMel there're complications with abortion as well
@@DonkMel she never said she wanted an abortion...
I'm sorry you had to go through that. Maybe you should seek therapy , it might not help you get over it but it could help. Keep fighting ♡