thank you for sharing this. i’m kind of the opposite experience. in early elementary i was friends with a lot of boys and i liked playing rough, touching worms, and being covered in mud. but i also liked dolls and makeup. i went through a phase where i called myself a tomboy, i hated pink, i didn’t wear dresses, and i stopped wearing makeup for a bit. then in middle school i dressed feminine and wore makeup. i went through a bad breakup where i wish i would be a man and id treat my girlfriend like the best person in the world and i found out i was actually bi. in high school i started to really lean into myself and dress how i wanted which it changed a lot. sometimes very feminine but mostly very masculine. i had a couple months where i thought about binding my chest, which i never did but i bought bras that kind of made me look flatter. and now im halfway through college and i talked with a coworker of mine about some of my feelings about my gender and expressed how i thought about maybe going by she/they and they told me i should go for it. but for some reason i still have that voice in my head saying im too much of a girl/woman to do that. im hoping to gain the confidence and go by she/they. ive always had huge gender envy or euphoria when it comes to masculine presenting women and feminine presenting men. androgyny is something im very into and wish i could present that way. it’s nice to figure out how to express your true self and figuring out who i am and what i like.
I wish you luck on your journey! I go by she/they and oh my god it was so thrilling and satisfying to find the label, but follow what feels right for you!
Omg I feel what you mean. Go for she/they!!! The social anxiety and distress will bind you down but you have to push through. Remember you have this one life to live :)) and that's great!! As long as you are alive there is hope. Keep analyzing your childhood. it's crazy the breadth of emotion and knowledge it can open. It's a lot to take in. But it's ok. I am glad you might have the chance and the environment to take these steps. Remember, you are fortunate :) Also, she/they is actually a common set of pronouns that a lot of AFAB trans people who are figuring out their identity love to use. It's affirming and opening to us folks! So take the chance and we are with you!! I really resonated with what you said 🧡
@@boohae She`s a woman. People will only use she/her pronouns for her. When she talks about gaining the confidence to use `she/they`...she means she will force and coerce people to play along.
Hey, Cam. I'm not someone that comments on here very often but I just really felt the need to after this video. I've been following you for about 5 years now (since you identified as 'straight') and while I don't keep up with your content much now, I still keep your notifs on and always keep up with your personal journey. Seeing you go through both your sexual and gender identity journey is really impressive and I'm very proud of how far you've come. I identify as bisexual and have done for many many years so as someone who is part of the lgbtq+ community (even though said community doesn't always accept me) I always love to hear people's stories of their discoveries etc. I'm excited to see where this journey will take you, whatever direction it takes you in. Love you so much! ❤
Congratulations on coming out, Cam!! As a trans man who has only come out a little over 2 years ago, gender is a WILD ride. We are all proud of you!!!!
I relate to this so much as a transmasc nonbinary person. I still occasionally present fem but I feel so much better when someone refers to me as “he” or even calls me “bro” or “bud” . And after I got top surgery everything kinda clicked with my body. But there are many days where I’m genderless and very much just “they” which is why I’m nonbinary. Best wishes in your gender journey! It’s a spectrum and it’s meant to be explored. keep exploring! Much love❤
Gender is a wild roller coaster 🖤 I’m so proud of this journey you’re embarking on for yourself people change and evolve and grow and you’re allowing yourself space for that growth 🖤 we love you
You never OWE anyone your story or why you identify a certain way, but I also think it's so powerful and wonderful to be able to share your journey and what emotions and sensations exist behind the queerness and gender fluidity! I identify as gender queer, & just queer in general, and had a similar "ohhh THATS why I was like that as a kid" moment, plus a body thing that shook me from gender apathy to woahhh okay so this is something I have feelings on. Love ya Cam! Good luck on your journey ❤❤❤
The feeling of finding yourself is honestly so beautiful, i just recently find out im nonbinary but i havent fully accepted myself. I feel like I have internalized transphobia in a way specifically for nonbinary people because i don’t think it is real. But thinking about my life, i thought i was a trans man because one of the things i found that really made me happy was the people that would get confused over my gender after I cut my hair.😭 Ive loved when people saw me more androgynous I HATED being called a female. I also HATED but LOVED how often the questions “what even are you? / are you a boy or girl?” were asked because i didnt want to have to answer girl but I still felt some type of overwhelming happiness inside when people couldn’t tell, i loved being “nothing”. i didnt know about being ‘nonbinary’. its still confusing to me, im still figuring myself out and finding myself but hearing you has also made me want to continue my journey of accepting myself. Thank you for sharing your journey😭i feel more understood, you are really loved cam🫶 im so glad you’re finding yourself as well!❤
to anyone who needs to hear this. take your time in figuring yourself out, experiment with your style, wear pretty outfits to make yourself feel beautiful or cool outfits that make you feel more you. you dont own anyone an explanation as to why, all that matters is that you're happy with what you are and how you feel
I’ve been exploring my gender identity for a few years now, using many labels along the way. I wish I could give you some better positive feedback, but it’s still a struggle for me even now. I find myself avoiding thinking about it sometimes because my family is not supportive of gender identity at all tbh. So, just me expressing anything outside of what a ‘feminine cis woman’ should want or feel is most times out of the question or looked down on. But i will say community is important and has helped me to not feel so down when I have people to talk about it with. I made an amazing Army friend around the time I was dealing with first finding out about my sexuality/gender so she was what made me comfortable enough to talk about it. I would say for now queer and gender-fluid are the best umbrella terms for me. I hope you find a place that feels comfortable for you. Wishing you all the best. 💜
as a trans masc enby, I resonate with this so much (just in the opposite direction lol). I figured out my sexuality first, and once I had that, my brain went "now about the gender..." I was all about exact labels at first, but honestly now I just use queer overall in most cases, for both gender and sexuality :]
Same! I identify somewhere between this and gender-fluid or I just use queer or enby to sum it up. I wish I could be more expressive with my clothing though and pronouns in public. I just don’t feel safe about it, especially right now…
Cam, you are such a blessing. I so appreciate you for your honesty and your openness is a gift to all that take the time to listen too your posts. Thank you for continually teaching me about living in our complicated world and giving me the chance to see life from the eyes of others. I found you through your BTS posts; have experienced many of the mental health hardships that you too have endured; have enjoyed your humour and your music. But most of all I love the gentle, sweet, articulate Cam, that i see in this video. Thank you for being so brave. Love you!
thanks for telling us this! it’s super important and so empowering to tell people. very proud of you. gender is such a confusing thing. take your time in figuring it out, gender is something that you should embrace and have fun with. i resonated with so many things in the video, it was very calming to hear
congrats cam!! gender is so interesting. i thought I'd always be a girl, and then in 2020 realised im non-binary, and it took me almost four years to truly figure out that im genderfluid, and where those gender boundaries lie. i can't watch right now, but I'm excited to later, and I'm really proud of you for coming out. it's been so wonderful and inspiring watching you for the past five years discover who you are. once again, congrats:)
I was born female but of late ive been feeling more masculine. I really like when my friends call me manly or tell me they like my veiny hands ect. But i still like to look feminine its just that i also like to look masculine lots. I dont know what this means.. if anyone knows please help me out, becuse idk 😅 Also Cam, i love that you feel comfortable talking to us about this❤ we are always here to support you and listen, we are all very proud of you❤
it means you like being masculine and feminine. as far as being trans goes you can ask yourself tester questions to see how you feel. for the social side of gender, think about how you feel about being called by masc/femme titles like mrs. or sir. ask yourself if you’d rather be an aunt or an uncle or inbetween, what sort of parent you want to be, what kind of pronouns you like, etc. one clue for me was that i was absolutely devastated as a kid when i found out i had to be the mom and couldn’t be the dad when i grew up the other side to gender is the physical side. do you want to actually be male, or are you just enjoying the butch female vibe? if you could choose which parts you had and how masc/femme your body naturally was, what would you choose? it’s ok to test out shit and see how it feels. move towards whatever is honest and sincere. dont put too much pressure on yourself to figure it out
I truly relate to your story. I discovered I was Genderfluid about 4 years ago when I started dressing more like a boy, wearing masculine cosplays and I so badly wanted a binder and to just feel so masc (and being plus size this is pretty difficult lol). I even felt this way when I was a preteen, staring at myself in the mirror and thinking "why was I born a girl? Why couldn't I have been born a boy? I wish I was a boy." So I totally relate to your story!! And the cutting on the hair is the opposite for me, I cut my hair short like yours is now and I was in love with myself again!! Thank you for sharing your story. We are listening. We hear you. 🩷
Honestly Cami, you are so slay , thankyou for being comfy in youself an for telling us this wonderful information about yourself. Whether you're gender fluid or idk maybe a girl ! who knows! however you feel, thankyou for sharing, you beautiful soul. you look so pretty today btw if anyone hasnt told you. And by the way, crying is very ok, expressing your emotions is very very ok. Take your time, figure youself out in whatever pace suits you. Beautiful person x
OMG WE’RE SO PROUD OF YOU!!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ Love that you’ve learned more about yourself and explored your identity!! Such a beautiful journey of self discovery! 💕💕 Hope you’re doing well! ❤
I haven’t seen the whole video yet, but I love you no matter what. As long as you find your joy, that’s the main thing. It took until a year or so ago before I realized that I was genderqueer (and I’m in my mid-30s!). I knew that I didn’t really feel like I “fit” into a perfect little gender box, but the words to describe and express it didn’t really exist when I was growing up. But this isn’t about me; it’s about you. And whatever makes you happy and makes you feel good and makes you feel at peace in your own skin, then I’m happy for you too. And I know it can be stressful and exhausting when exploring your own identity, so try to give yourself some grace and don’t ever forget that you are loved and you are important and you matter 💜💜💜
Sooo proud of you for this omg let's gooo!!! It's perfectly fine to take your time in figuring things out and being open to it possibly changing in the future. I think for most of us it's been a long journey of finding our identity and becoming comfortable in it, and there's beauty in this journey! Personally I identify as nonbinary, not because I necessarily feel right "in the middle", but because I see this label as more of an umbrella term for any gender queer person who isn't 100% woman or 100% man, and I don't feel the need to define my gender with a more specific label. So for me "nonbinary" feels enough. I started coming out to some of my friends around 2018 and at this point I feel pretty comfortable in my identity, but I'm still struggling to navigate this whole thing with my family because I know they wouldn't react so well, which is affecting my mental health a lot nowadays. My gender dysphoria has been pretty bad lately, but honestly watching this video made me really happy and hopeful again! I've been watching you since I became an ARMY in 2019 and seeing your journey of self discovering feels very special. Genuinely love you, Cam! Congrats on coming out!
Gender is weird. I'm transmasc nonbinay and would hate feminine things before, but since starting T and looking more masculine, I now feel more comfortable wearing "feminine" stuff cause i'm perceived as a boy wearing "girls clothes". Find what brings you gender euphoria and run with that
Cameron i love you so much your such a comfort person and I’m so glad you decided to speak about this!💗 you’re a huge inspiration to everyone and we will all support you no matter what🩷💕💗
Love you, Cam❤️ I wish someone had told me being trans was hard (agender/genderfluid-ish) Take your time figuring stuff out, it’s for you, for you to feel good, don’t let ANYONE push you to figure it out faster than you’re comfortable❤️ You’re a very beautiful beautiful person❤️
Love you so much!!!!🥰 Thank you for feeling comfortable enough to share with us. We're all on our own journeys and it's not easy discovering things about yourself, and even harder to accept those things about yourself. I'm so happy you feel happy and the only thing I want in this world is to see you smile, so thank you & love you too!😘😘😘💜💜💜
I love this... everything about this chanel feels soo wholesome. I'm soo proud of you and you're helping me soo much with my current struggles through your youtube and patreon content! Thank you so much
I figured out I am genderqueer three years ago, and now I feel so much more comfortable with myself, but your video made me remember how I felt in the beginings of figuring it out, how I'd look back at stuff from my childhood and find hints and clues, and how much I longed to be seen for who I am by the rest of the world. Gender is so complexe and even after all these years I haven't found a definite answer or like label that fits perfectly with how I feel, and it's okay for me. I'm so happy you're taking the time to get to know yourself better, it really is a beautiful journey
Nice to see you again! I also identify with being genderfluid, as well as demiboy, which is part male and part nonbinary for me. Gender has been definitely a wild ride and I saw some childhood signs but never thought much about them as you mentioned. It wasn't until I sat down and had a discussion about it with someone that I thought I would finally critically evaluate it and realized how strange and fluid it was and how much more I related to feeling like boy and wanting to be seen as a boy rather than feminine or female, and I worried and gaslit myself for a while thinking this was all in my head and I was just cis but when I put on my first binder it definitely clicked that this was me, and I did not expect how happy I would be from putting a binder on, gender euphoria is awesome! Best wishes to you on your journey, it's definitely an exciting one!
Congratulations 🩷 Gender dysphoria is a hellish feeling, but I’m so so glad to hear that you have been able to talk about it and find this kind of euphoria! It’s such an important thing to talk about, especially when society emphasizes gender roles so strongly. I’ve never been the most traditionally “feminine” girl, so for a while I felt like it was impossible for me to be the person I wanted to be as a girl, and the constant discomfort in my own body was terrible. I eventually realized that it doesn’t really matter how traditionally feminine I am, and I can still be happy as a girl and be feminine in my own way, even if it doesn’t look like society’s image of “femininity”. But it took a while to get there, and I know a lot of people don’t end as the same gender they were before experiencing gender dysphoria, so it’s so important to remind people how personal gender is, and that it’s so valid to present in ways that make you feel happy without listening to what society says 💪 so thank you for making this video 🩷🩷 Also not to make it about me but I predicted back in like 2019 that you would eventually come out as genderqueer or start using she/her pronouns because my gaydar is absolutely infallible and I noticed that feminine energy in you a loooong while ago. Girlies know girlies when they see them fr.
hi Cam :) I'm not someone who comments often, but this feel like the type of video where discussing as much as possible is important, and I went through somewhat similar but opposite experience. I'm genderfluid (but born afab) and have labelled and presented as such for a little over two years now, and the way I figured it out was in pretty much the same way you did (I cut my hair really short), but I had the opposite reaction; I felt so much more like a person. I had always been somewhat out of place in terms of gender, but I didn't realize that there were other options than just "boy" and "girl", but then I saw myself with short hair, and my facial features are pretty androgynous, so I saw a completely different person, and I liked them a whole lot more. In that period of time, I was ina pretty bad place mentally, and I thought I was just a cis bisexual girl going through a breakdown, cutting all my hair off, but doing so made me realize there was something else that was off. after this, the chain of events that followed led me to find out that I am genderfluid and my sexuality is a little complicated. I usually just call myself queer to avoid confusion, but I'm still a little lost due to the fact that I know I fall somewhere on the ace spectrum, but also wOmen? idk, it's complicated, i've ended up kind of doing a mix of not caring, going with the flow, and giving up, in terms of my sexuality. whatever happens, happens, and if everyone involved is aware and happy, it's fine. but my gender was also something that (like it did for you) made me redefine my sexuality, and doing so made me get to a much better spot, mentally :) sorry this was so long, i ramble a lot, but if it has the potential to help make someone feel less alone, i don't think the word count matters much. love you Cam! hope you find what you're looking for and feel better
Cameron, we love you no matter what. So proud of you, you are and forever will be our icon. We are here to support you wherever you get to the point where you do figure it out. P.S, you are rocking the pink ❤
All I gotta say is that you are GLOWING in this vid lol Love u cam always a supporter to what you do and who you are :) thank you for spreading such positive messages it truly helps a lot of people even if it does not pertain to me. ❤
I've been supporting you since 2018 as a trans guy and this makes me so happy. I'm so proud of you. I hope you continue growing and healing. 💞🫂 Thank you for all you do. You are so soft in this video and your joy is infectious.
I haven't watched the entire video yet (I'm only at 0:19) but I just wanted to say that I'm genderfluid and I have considered calling myself Cameron along with my birth name partly thanks to you! Good luck on your journey, we love you and we are proud of you 💖
Figuring out who you are and what makes you happy is a lifelong journey. Please follow your heart and be who you are right now, and if that changes over time; that’s ok too. It’s called evolution. For three years I have enjoyed your content, and I’ve enjoyed who I’ve watched evolve. Keep looking within yourself for the happiness that is there. I’m the Mom of 5 adult children, and they are all perfect in every stage of their gender, and sexual journeys. The people who love you, love who you are inside. I believe in you!
I resonate with this a lot. It took me a long time to become comfortable with not knowing exactly what I am, but that’s okay. At first I thought I was gender fluid, then a demigirl, then ???, then fully trans. I identify currently as nonbinary, but I’ve never been able to determine if I should include myself in the trans umbrella because I have, in fact, partially medically transitioned with top surgery? (And SO happy about it!) I said I was trans at first when I got top surgery, but it felt like an insult to trans people since I didn’t do HRT (even though I’m technically medically ineligible for HRT). I realize that’s probably a silly way to think, but nonbinary felt right for me. But even figuring out I was nonbinary took freaking forever 😅 I didn’t get top surgery until last year when I was 31, for age reference. And as for sexuality, I’ve always been attracted to other gender queer folks, though, so I knew I was…something. And actually my friends would question my sexuality and gender even though I’d never mentioned my thoughts about it with them many many years before I even presented remotely masc. So…I think I just put out a gender queer energy. I think the transition journey is a bit different for people who didn’t grow up with this information at their fingertips, probably like you as well, but I’m so glad you are able to start figuring out this for yourself now💞 no matter what you land on, you’re not stuck with it if it doesn’t feel right later.
it felt really good and reassuring to listen to you talk about your experiences with gender in this video. I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to share this with us! wishing you all the best - figuring oneself out when everyone else thinks they already know who you are is tough, but I hope you allow yourself the patience and kindness to discover all the tiny facets that make up who you are :)
this came at the perfect moment wtff 😭😭 first, with how i was rly running dry w my yt homepage n i was trying to rem stuff i watched not even that long ago like weeks ago that jus doesnt come up on my homepage anymore cuz the algorithm is a little too sensitive I CAN WATCH YOU AGAIN 🫶🫶🫶 i love you pookie and second, how i have been going thru the exact same thing of questioning my gender in the background _all the time_ since like what a few months? it feels like more honestly it mightve been a year already but GOD you have no idea how happy i am for you to be sharing this video i havent even watched it yet i just had to comment first I FEEL SO SEEN IM GONNA CRY thank you thank you thank you and im so glad i have another video like this just talking about their feelings abt this with no unnaturalness _and_ it's from someone i really really respect as well as adore? i dont think thats the right term it feels weird im quite young but my god u make me happy 🫶 and i hope you also get happy feelings
We love you Cam, we’re proud you’re tapping into your identity, it’s a very healing experience. It can be extremely hard to figure these things out and it’s a difficult or even long process, so take your time and genuinely spend some good quality time with yourself, focus on becoming happy and loving yourself for who you are, you are perfect. I may not have had to deal with this but thank you for speaking up about this openly, a lot of others can relate and it could even be eye opening for the people here who also struggle with figuring out who they are.❤️❤️❤️
thank you for sharing this! i am non-binary/transmasc and my partner is transfemme - she recently realised she's a trans woman after identifying as non-binary for a few years. what i love about being genderqueer is that it is so fluid and can change so much, like, we have the power to define who we are and that's pretty cool! it was lovely to hear where you're at
This video made me feel so cozy and emotional 🥺🥺 Thank you for being so kind and sincere, Cam, I love this in you so so much! It always feels like home watching your videos, and I'm eternally grateful to you for that 🧡Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with us!! ❤
All I will say is 🎉🎊IM PROUD OF YOU 🎊🎉. Even if you are still not sure, I’m happy that you’re comfortable to say this. I’ll support you in whatever way you need. Love ya Cam💜
Thank you so much for your honesty and for sharing this with us.♡ As a genderqueer person that is struggling with figuring myself out, it is soo nice to hear stories like yours. To hear that there's a chance I can find happiness in my gender queerness and that it's okay to still be figuring things out. Thank you for sharing your story. I wish joy and all the best for your future, wherever it may lead you♡♡♡
im very much a casual watcher of your content, and i am surprised and glad to see you express something i relate so closely to. i love being a lesbian and my female body doesn't bother me in the context of sex and relationships, but i war with it constantly when it comes to my gender expression. i have curvy legs and a chest that i cannot hide without a binder, as soon as puberty hit i would hide my chest however i could, leading to my developing terrible posture from hunching. it's funny how you can have this relationship that is so high and low with yourself, and i can never settle on a set state of comfort because of the fluidity. love your videos and hope to see more from you in the coming months :)
Keep figuring out yourself without shame and without hurry! It's worth it I promise, the only thing that matters is to be happy with who you are and just know we are very proud of you for speaking about your experience ❤️
i've never felt non-binary, the words you're speaking are directly speaking to my heart, Im also figuring out a lot about my gender expression, and this video is comforting in some strange beautiful way, thank you
I had such a similar experience. When I was younger, I cut my very long hair and each year, I felt more comfortable with cutting It even shorter. Then, to test put new hairstyles, I let it grow out again and in the beginning it looked very androgynous. One day, my mother told me to go to the hairdresser and make her cut it very straight and neat, because it had grown out so messily. My hairdresser is a transwoman, who cut all my other experimental hairstyles and with whom I felt very comfortable talking about queerness.(I still do, but I don't go there very often nowadays, because I need to save my money). In the moment I told her to cut my, now shoulder-lenght hair in such a traditionally feminine way, I felt like my heart broke, because this wasn't what I wanted at all. I had grown to love the androgyny. That's, when I realised, I wanted to present masculine or androgynous sometimes. I wondered if I was trans, but it just never felt right to me. Transitioning was out of the question, it still is. I am just way to afraid of undergoing any physically altering procedures and also being a man forever was just not it for me. I still felt very feminine a lot of the time. I label myself genderfluid nowadays(my awakening was 5 or 6 years ago as I was still deep in puberty.) because this whole gender thing surprises me newly all of the time. At the moment, I have felt more feminine for a longer period of time and sometimes I get scared thinking I just made everything up, but as time goes on I am becoming more and more secure in just being who I am, being open to my gender changing from time to time and embracing different energies, as they come. Remember: Gender is a social construct and before you are anything, you are a human being with thoughts and emotions, who should do and say, what they feel comfortable with. This video comforted me a lot, because there is just not a lot of content for genderqueerness, especially not from content creators, who I have followed for such a long time as I have followed you. I do not watch your videos regularly, but when I do click on one, I feel a lot of comfort and happiness. Because I am not out to most of my family and mostly present traditionally feminine, I feel very seen by this video and your thoughts on your own genderqueerness. Thank you a lot, Cam! Also, love to everyone, who reads this!❤ English is not my first language. I am sorry if I have made any mistakes. If you notice any, please comment them, so I can do better next time.
I relate very heavily to this all and I appreciate you talking about it cam! I've always felt okay with the idea of being a boy but felt super uneasy and hated hints of masculinity in my appearance, and I felt for so long that it wasn't "bad enough" to make anything of, so I just pushed it down and ignored it, this video has helped me come to terms with my feelings and validated that I'm not the only one who feels this way
Gender is fluid, there is no age to figure stuff out. Thank you for your honesty and the trust to talk about this. I came out young, and my gender has become an ever changing thing, but ive come to a point that, whatever it is its me :)), good luck with your journey :D
congrats on beginning to start this journey! i'm agender and i started realizing it years ago because someone "misgendered" me online (it was an honest mistake and i didn't correct them) and the rush of gender euphoria that rushed through me is something i still can't completely explain. after a few years of procrastination because i didn't have time for all that, i realized i'm agender. and it's ironic because you'd think that would mean me becoming more gender non conforming, but i ended up feeling the freedom to embrace more stereotypical feminine things because the internalized pressure that i had to like them was gone when i accepted myself. it's been a journey
I also had this recent realization about my sexuality. I live in a country which is very homophobic and I am only out to my close friends and my brother. My parents don't know anything about my sexuality yet and if I tell them, I will also have to mentally prepare myself to get completely disowned by them. They might accept me but the chances are very slim. And because it was so hard for me to come to terms with my sexuality, I didn't even dare to think about gender. But deep down I knew, I just didn't want to accept it. I never felt comfortable with any label so I just started identifying as queer. I think the reason I didn't feel comfortable was because I was not comfortable with people assuming my gender. I recently dyed my hair red and everyone was complimenting me and my hair, and I did feel beautiful with my long red hair, almost like mermaid but soon my long started to feel like costume and I didn't want to dress overly feminine. I cut my hair very short and suddenly I felt like I look the way I feel. Now I don't feel pressure to dress in any particular or to do makeup. I feel free. I still wish to dress more masculine but I am not ready to buy more clothes. I am still figuring out everything. I still only use she/her pronouns. But cutting my hair was definitely a step in the right direction. So thank you Cam for making this video.
Whichever your gender you will always make the best BTS dubs! Thank you for sharing your creativity, your heart, your story and your light with us. You are inspirational in so many way ✨
Hey Cam, just know we are all here for you and no matter what you discover about yourself we’ll support you. I’m glad you are finally figuring out who you are deep down ❤❤
genderfluid is also a label i have strongly identified with at times in my life. trans too. I'm not fully sure where I stand now, but I like to think of myself as genderless, and just remove myself from the whole concept of gender. I do kind of recognize that this perhaps may be a defense mechanism because accepting the truth is too hard for me right now lol, but i still don't know what the truth even is atp. I do feel comfortable with the label genderqueer or genderless and i don't mind labels like nonbinary, trans and genderfluid. But it is all very confusing and extremely scary to explore in a cis and heteronormative world, and especially since i'm still living with my cishet family who are supportive, but just don't fully understand it. I can't wait to move out and just go crazy with the selfexpression and exploration. But anyway, i'm sending you and every other non-cis person love on their jouneys 💕💕
I’m so happy for you!! I’m happy you are feeling and becoming the person you want to be! Thank you for sharing your experience and journey with us. If you don’t mind, do share your experiences more on your journey! I don’t have to many friends who are part of the community. I knew a few classmates who are but I’m not close with them. I would love to learn more! I’m happy for you Cam! 🥰
hey cam!!! so happy for you, honey!!! I have never been through what you have experienced, but I have many people close to me that have expressed gender identity differently to how ever the fuck society wants us all to, lol. But I just think it's so beautiful... GENDER IS A SPECTRUM and it should me more normalised, even if you are cis-gender, like myself. I have experimented with my expression of my gender. Sometimes I show my masculine side more than my feminine, and vice versa, and if anything it makes me feel more like a woman, but then again... that's my journey... it's gonna be slightly different for everyone ^^ So proud of you!!!! It's okay to cry babes!! Express yourself!! i wish you the best on your journey of discovery, beautiful!!! And just FYI... you look beautiful no matter what you do, say or wear... in a suit or dress... short or long hair... makeup or no makeup.... I hope I'm saying this right, as a cis, straight, white girl lol... but I just wanted to show some love
I'm so proud of you for sharing this. It takes a lot of courage to let people into your life, and even let yourself explore who you are in this way. I've been watching you for years now and seeing you grow and find what brings you joy and euphoria is beautiful. Something I want to add to the conversation is the term fingender. If you're interested I think you might benefit from looking into this term. I'm assigned female at birth and don't mind if people call me a woman, but I've always known the term didn't fit. I identify as fingender, which means that your gender is rooted in feeling feminine. I feel like my femininity is super important to who I am, and it's the foundation of how I would define my gender, but I'm not a binary woman. Of course we all have both masculine and feminine energy, but the term fingender means that the feminine part of you is more important to who you are. I just wanted to add this in the comments in case it can help in any way ❤ (Actually I used to have super bad dysphoria and Yeonjun from TXT helped me realize I could fully embrace my femininity confidently without having to be a woman lol)
I have been figuring out myself since my early twenties. I am turning 26 this year. I still don't know anything 😅. That's why I go with unlabeled and genderqueer.... Just take your time and don't forget to take care of yourself ❤
As of now I also think I'm genderfluid and pansexual. I just feel great to know that it's a part of me right now. I've always loved feminine and masculine and androgynous energies and balancing them in me. I remember in the past I didn't think about my gender when I started puberty years ago, and I was fine being a female at birth, but then I would start to feel gender dysphoria and wanted male chromosomes/parts, feeling like it was hollow and empty down there and that my chest was in the way that I wanted it flat, and I felt like I was a feminine boy, and I really blocked out the female side for gender and sexuality, thinking that I only liked boys, but then I would have times where that would switch and I would be comfortable being a female with female parts and finding females attractive as much as males, so I was confused about the gender and sexuality part of my identity, only to find out that I am genderfluid and pansexual and really resonate with that. It feels comfortable to accept my authentic self and not block out my sides which change fluidly at random. I can't imagine not being genderfluid and pansexual, as it's just a part of my identity, who I am on the inside. And it feels so freeing, fun, and not limiting. Like I get to experience all those sides, HEAVEN YEAH!
I'm really proud of you, Cam. Take your time figuring it out, there's no deadline. At the end of the day, you're living your life for YOU, and we're all so happy that you're still here 💖 I personally identify as bi, and recently I've come to terms with being aromantic. It's a relief to feel like you know who you are, and I applaud you digging deep and working on yourself. Labels definitely aren't for everyone, but I do like feeling like I can better explain myself (if I had to) with said labels. (: Looking forward to seeing how your journey goes! You're loved and supported!! 🏳🌈
i thought i was nonbinary becasuse sometimes I don't feel like either gender but still would like to be called she but my aunt asked if id like to be called he and I said no right away. my aunt was relived because my family isn't so understanding and after telling my mom and aunt and brother which are the only people that no that I do go by they which is so nonsensical right but that's just the family I'm in but I am an adult and have figured this out like 6 months ago I think so this video did really resonate with me
How interesting the way you say that you didn't think about gender because it didn't matter. For me, it wasn't gender, it was sexuality. I literally never gave it any thought. I never dated, never wanted to date, never saw anyone as a potential partner or as some I wanted to sleep with. My friends and family never pressed me about any of that, either. So I just existed. After some time I was with a group who was talking about when they had their first crushes, and it hit me. I never had a crush. So anyway, long story short (too late), I had never looked into sexuality because... I had no interest. Growing up I only knew gay, straight, bi, and then later pan. None of which vibed with me. One day I heard about asexuality and looked it up. I was like "that's me!" I know there's a big spectrum, and I really don't know where I fall. That's not important to me. I'm just happy to know I'm not alone.
Hello. Respectfully and only if u are comfortable may I ask a question? As an asexual, do u still recognize people's attractiveness? Like, wow she/he is pretty or cute. But not be like sexually drawn. Im sorry Im not a native english speaker and I might be wording my question wrong, or in an offensive way. The reason is, what u describe is my experience.
@@jenjin9492 No problem! I do notice when people are handsome or pretty or cute. But I never see someone and feel any attraction, either romantic or sexual. It's like when I look at a piece of art. I feel exactly the same when I see a very pretty sunset as if I see a pretty person.
im so so sooooo happy for you getting learn all these things about your identity and how you want to express it!!! Wishing you all the joy as you navigate this next chapter of your life!
I'm a masculine cis woman. I've never been in a relationship (I'd like to imagine by choice) I'm not majorly fussed. I don't know where I'm going with this but I wanted to let you know your content is comforting and I love you *uncomfortable hug 😅
Grabbed my phone just to tell you I love you and am proud of you. 💙💙 I see your Instagram daily. Your videos, your songs, just who you are... You're truly a good, beautiful person. Cam, I hope to see you around for a long long time feeling everything you have to feel, sharing what you want to share with us, etc. Wishing you honestly the best. Happy coming out ✨🎉 Good luck on your journey. Lots of love 🎉💙💙✨✨
thanks for listening. love you!!
i love you so fucking much 🫶⭐️💗
and i am so proud of you always!!!
love you Cameron. 🫶🏽💜
@@OfficialRealBibbleBIBBLE IS THAT YOU?????
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I feel like gender euphoria/ joy isn't talked about enough when discussing gender exploration. Follow the joy, and wherever you end up we love you
aww that is such a sweet perspective 🥺
“Follow the joy” just healed a part of myself
thank you for sharing this. i’m kind of the opposite experience. in early elementary i was friends with a lot of boys and i liked playing rough, touching worms, and being covered in mud. but i also liked dolls and makeup. i went through a phase where i called myself a tomboy, i hated pink, i didn’t wear dresses, and i stopped wearing makeup for a bit. then in middle school i dressed feminine and wore makeup. i went through a bad breakup where i wish i would be a man and id treat my girlfriend like the best person in the world and i found out i was actually bi. in high school i started to really lean into myself and dress how i wanted which it changed a lot. sometimes very feminine but mostly very masculine. i had a couple months where i thought about binding my chest, which i never did but i bought bras that kind of made me look flatter. and now im halfway through college and i talked with a coworker of mine about some of my feelings about my gender and expressed how i thought about maybe going by she/they and they told me i should go for it. but for some reason i still have that voice in my head saying im too much of a girl/woman to do that. im hoping to gain the confidence and go by she/they. ive always had huge gender envy or euphoria when it comes to masculine presenting women and feminine presenting men. androgyny is something im very into and wish i could present that way. it’s nice to figure out how to express your true self and figuring out who i am and what i like.
I wish you luck on your journey! I go by she/they and oh my god it was so thrilling and satisfying to find the label, but follow what feels right for you!
Omg I feel what you mean. Go for she/they!!! The social anxiety and distress will bind you down but you have to push through. Remember you have this one life to live :)) and that's great!! As long as you are alive there is hope. Keep analyzing your childhood. it's crazy the breadth of emotion and knowledge it can open. It's a lot to take in. But it's ok. I am glad you might have the chance and the environment to take these steps. Remember, you are fortunate :) Also, she/they is actually a common set of pronouns that a lot of AFAB trans people who are figuring out their identity love to use. It's affirming and opening to us folks! So take the chance and we are with you!! I really resonated with what you said 🧡
the way you just described basically my exact experience wow. i’m still really figuring things out but i’m glad someone else is feeling a similar way
@@hjordisbackman8365 i’m glad we can relate to each other on this. i wish you the best of luck in your self discovery
@@boohae She`s a woman. People will only use she/her pronouns for her. When she talks about gaining the confidence to use `she/they`...she means she will force and coerce people to play along.
as a trans boy, I understand this so much, you are loved honey❤️
Is your profile photo park jimin 💜
@@Parkjkookie1831 it's jin i think
@ibtissam9597 you're right.
@@ibtissam9597 yeah it's Jin
hey? gender fluid and struggling with it? me too :)) this vid feels nice, thanks
yes yes yes exactly
Same here, it really is difficult
Hey, Cam. I'm not someone that comments on here very often but I just really felt the need to after this video. I've been following you for about 5 years now (since you identified as 'straight') and while I don't keep up with your content much now, I still keep your notifs on and always keep up with your personal journey. Seeing you go through both your sexual and gender identity journey is really impressive and I'm very proud of how far you've come.
I identify as bisexual and have done for many many years so as someone who is part of the lgbtq+ community (even though said community doesn't always accept me) I always love to hear people's stories of their discoveries etc. I'm excited to see where this journey will take you, whatever direction it takes you in. Love you so much! ❤
Congratulations on coming out, Cam!! As a trans man who has only come out a little over 2 years ago, gender is a WILD ride. We are all proud of you!!!!
I relate to this so much as a transmasc nonbinary person. I still occasionally present fem but I feel so much better when someone refers to me as “he” or even calls me “bro” or “bud” . And after I got top surgery everything kinda clicked with my body. But there are many days where I’m genderless and very much just “they” which is why I’m nonbinary. Best wishes in your gender journey! It’s a spectrum and it’s meant to be explored. keep exploring! Much love❤
Awesome bro👍
And we all cheered 🎉 thanks for sharing your story. I’m 22 and have been struggling with my identify since I learned how many possibilities there are.
Gender is a wild roller coaster 🖤 I’m so proud of this journey you’re embarking on for yourself people change and evolve and grow and you’re allowing yourself space for that growth 🖤 we love you
You never OWE anyone your story or why you identify a certain way, but I also think it's so powerful and wonderful to be able to share your journey and what emotions and sensations exist behind the queerness and gender fluidity! I identify as gender queer, & just queer in general, and had a similar "ohhh THATS why I was like that as a kid" moment, plus a body thing that shook me from gender apathy to woahhh okay so this is something I have feelings on. Love ya Cam! Good luck on your journey ❤❤❤
The feeling of finding yourself is honestly so beautiful, i just recently find out im nonbinary but i havent fully accepted myself.
I feel like I have internalized transphobia in a way specifically for nonbinary people because i don’t think it is real.
But thinking about my life, i thought i was a trans man because one of the things i found that really made me happy was the people that would get confused over my gender after I cut my hair.😭
Ive loved when people saw me more androgynous
I HATED being called a female.
I also HATED but LOVED how often the questions “what even are you? / are you a boy or girl?” were asked because i didnt want to have to answer girl but I still felt some type of overwhelming happiness inside when people couldn’t tell, i loved being “nothing”. i didnt know about being ‘nonbinary’.
its still confusing to me, im still figuring myself out and finding myself but hearing you has also made me want to continue my journey of accepting myself. Thank you for sharing your journey😭i feel more understood, you are really loved cam🫶 im so glad you’re finding yourself as well!❤
to anyone who needs to hear this. take your time in figuring yourself out, experiment with your style, wear pretty outfits to make yourself feel beautiful or cool outfits that make you feel more you. you dont own anyone an explanation as to why, all that matters is that you're happy with what you are and how you feel
Oh this is such a lovely video, the way your eyes light up a bit as you keep talking, it's so beautiful
I’ve been exploring my gender identity for a few years now, using many labels along the way. I wish I could give you some better positive feedback, but it’s still a struggle for me even now. I find myself avoiding thinking about it sometimes because my family is not supportive of gender identity at all tbh. So, just me expressing anything outside of what a ‘feminine cis woman’ should want or feel is most times out of the question or looked down on.
But i will say community is important and has helped me to not feel so down when I have people to talk about it with. I made an amazing Army friend around the time I was dealing with first finding out about my sexuality/gender so she was what made me comfortable enough to talk about it. I would say for now queer and gender-fluid are the best umbrella terms for me.
I hope you find a place that feels comfortable for you. Wishing you all the best. 💜
I can’t get over how pretty you are Cam. Also Congratulations on coming out. You have my support 100%. Love you boo 💜
we love you Cameron! we hope you’re doing well!!
as a trans masc enby, I resonate with this so much (just in the opposite direction lol). I figured out my sexuality first, and once I had that, my brain went "now about the gender..." I was all about exact labels at first, but honestly now I just use queer overall in most cases, for both gender and sexuality :]
Same! I identify somewhere between this and gender-fluid or I just use queer or enby to sum it up. I wish I could be more expressive with my clothing though and pronouns in public. I just don’t feel safe about it, especially right now…
@jaelove.bts7 yeah, I get that, it's tough right now😭
Cam, you are such a blessing. I so appreciate you for your honesty and your openness is a gift to all that take the time to listen too your posts. Thank you for continually teaching me about living in our complicated world and giving me the chance to see life from the eyes of others. I found you through your BTS posts; have experienced many of the mental health hardships that you too have endured; have enjoyed your humour and your music. But most of all I love the gentle, sweet, articulate Cam, that i see in this video. Thank you for being so brave. Love you!
thanks for telling us this! it’s super important and so empowering to tell people. very proud of you. gender is such a confusing thing. take your time in figuring it out, gender is something that you should embrace and have fun with. i resonated with so many things in the video, it was very calming to hear
congrats cam!! gender is so interesting. i thought I'd always be a girl, and then in 2020 realised im non-binary, and it took me almost four years to truly figure out that im genderfluid, and where those gender boundaries lie. i can't watch right now, but I'm excited to later, and I'm really proud of you for coming out. it's been so wonderful and inspiring watching you for the past five years discover who you are. once again, congrats:)
I was born female but of late ive been feeling more masculine. I really like when my friends call me manly or tell me they like my veiny hands ect. But i still like to look feminine its just that i also like to look masculine lots. I dont know what this means.. if anyone knows please help me out, becuse idk 😅
Also Cam, i love that you feel comfortable talking to us about this❤ we are always here to support you and listen, we are all very proud of you❤
it means you like being masculine and feminine. as far as being trans goes you can ask yourself tester questions to see how you feel.
for the social side of gender, think about how you feel about being called by masc/femme titles like mrs. or sir. ask yourself if you’d rather be an aunt or an uncle or inbetween, what sort of parent you want to be, what kind of pronouns you like, etc. one clue for me was that i was absolutely devastated as a kid when i found out i had to be the mom and couldn’t be the dad when i grew up
the other side to gender is the physical side. do you want to actually be male, or are you just enjoying the butch female vibe? if you could choose which parts you had and how masc/femme your body naturally was, what would you choose?
it’s ok to test out shit and see how it feels. move towards whatever is honest and sincere. dont put too much pressure on yourself to figure it out
@@notreal-duh thank you so much 😭🙏 this was very very helpful💕
I truly relate to your story. I discovered I was Genderfluid about 4 years ago when I started dressing more like a boy, wearing masculine cosplays and I so badly wanted a binder and to just feel so masc (and being plus size this is pretty difficult lol). I even felt this way when I was a preteen, staring at myself in the mirror and thinking "why was I born a girl? Why couldn't I have been born a boy? I wish I was a boy." So I totally relate to your story!! And the cutting on the hair is the opposite for me, I cut my hair short like yours is now and I was in love with myself again!! Thank you for sharing your story. We are listening. We hear you. 🩷
Honestly Cami, you are so slay , thankyou for being comfy in youself an for telling us this wonderful information about yourself. Whether you're gender fluid or idk maybe a girl ! who knows! however you feel, thankyou for sharing, you beautiful soul. you look so pretty today btw if anyone hasnt told you. And by the way, crying is very ok, expressing your emotions is very very ok. Take your time, figure youself out in whatever pace suits you. Beautiful person x
As a gender fluid person, this is very comforting
We missed you Cam ❤
OMG WE’RE SO PROUD OF YOU!!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ Love that you’ve learned more about yourself and explored your identity!! Such a beautiful journey of self discovery! 💕💕 Hope you’re doing well! ❤
I haven’t seen the whole video yet, but I love you no matter what. As long as you find your joy, that’s the main thing. It took until a year or so ago before I realized that I was genderqueer (and I’m in my mid-30s!). I knew that I didn’t really feel like I “fit” into a perfect little gender box, but the words to describe and express it didn’t really exist when I was growing up. But this isn’t about me; it’s about you. And whatever makes you happy and makes you feel good and makes you feel at peace in your own skin, then I’m happy for you too. And I know it can be stressful and exhausting when exploring your own identity, so try to give yourself some grace and don’t ever forget that you are loved and you are important and you matter 💜💜💜
Sooo proud of you for this omg let's gooo!!! It's perfectly fine to take your time in figuring things out and being open to it possibly changing in the future. I think for most of us it's been a long journey of finding our identity and becoming comfortable in it, and there's beauty in this journey! Personally I identify as nonbinary, not because I necessarily feel right "in the middle", but because I see this label as more of an umbrella term for any gender queer person who isn't 100% woman or 100% man, and I don't feel the need to define my gender with a more specific label. So for me "nonbinary" feels enough. I started coming out to some of my friends around 2018 and at this point I feel pretty comfortable in my identity, but I'm still struggling to navigate this whole thing with my family because I know they wouldn't react so well, which is affecting my mental health a lot nowadays. My gender dysphoria has been pretty bad lately, but honestly watching this video made me really happy and hopeful again! I've been watching you since I became an ARMY in 2019 and seeing your journey of self discovering feels very special. Genuinely love you, Cam! Congrats on coming out!
Gender is weird. I'm transmasc nonbinay and would hate feminine things before, but since starting T and looking more masculine, I now feel more comfortable wearing "feminine" stuff cause i'm perceived as a boy wearing "girls clothes". Find what brings you gender euphoria and run with that
Cameron i love you so much your such a comfort person and I’m so glad you decided to speak about this!💗 you’re a huge inspiration to everyone and we will all support you no matter what🩷💕💗
Love you, Cam❤️ I wish someone had told me being trans was hard (agender/genderfluid-ish) Take your time figuring stuff out, it’s for you, for you to feel good, don’t let ANYONE push you to figure it out faster than you’re comfortable❤️ You’re a very beautiful beautiful person❤️
Love you so much!!!!🥰 Thank you for feeling comfortable enough to share with us. We're all on our own journeys and it's not easy discovering things about yourself, and even harder to accept those things about yourself. I'm so happy you feel happy and the only thing I want in this world is to see you smile, so thank you & love you too!😘😘😘💜💜💜
I love this... everything about this chanel feels soo wholesome. I'm soo proud of you and you're helping me soo much with my current struggles through your youtube and patreon content! Thank you so much
wherever you end up, i just hope you feel comfortable in your body and being yourself (whoever that is) because you deserve it. i love you, cam
hi cam!! its so good to see your face!! we love and support you in everything!!
I figured out I am genderqueer three years ago, and now I feel so much more comfortable with myself, but your video made me remember how I felt in the beginings of figuring it out, how I'd look back at stuff from my childhood and find hints and clues, and how much I longed to be seen for who I am by the rest of the world. Gender is so complexe and even after all these years I haven't found a definite answer or like label that fits perfectly with how I feel, and it's okay for me. I'm so happy you're taking the time to get to know yourself better, it really is a beautiful journey
You're such a beautiful person and soul, Cameron. We're here for you and this journey of self-discovery ❤
Nice to see you again! I also identify with being genderfluid, as well as demiboy, which is part male and part nonbinary for me. Gender has been definitely a wild ride and I saw some childhood signs but never thought much about them as you mentioned. It wasn't until I sat down and had a discussion about it with someone that I thought I would finally critically evaluate it and realized how strange and fluid it was and how much more I related to feeling like boy and wanting to be seen as a boy rather than feminine or female, and I worried and gaslit myself for a while thinking this was all in my head and I was just cis but when I put on my first binder it definitely clicked that this was me, and I did not expect how happy I would be from putting a binder on, gender euphoria is awesome! Best wishes to you on your journey, it's definitely an exciting one!
Congratulations 🩷 Gender dysphoria is a hellish feeling, but I’m so so glad to hear that you have been able to talk about it and find this kind of euphoria! It’s such an important thing to talk about, especially when society emphasizes gender roles so strongly. I’ve never been the most traditionally “feminine” girl, so for a while I felt like it was impossible for me to be the person I wanted to be as a girl, and the constant discomfort in my own body was terrible. I eventually realized that it doesn’t really matter how traditionally feminine I am, and I can still be happy as a girl and be feminine in my own way, even if it doesn’t look like society’s image of “femininity”. But it took a while to get there, and I know a lot of people don’t end as the same gender they were before experiencing gender dysphoria, so it’s so important to remind people how personal gender is, and that it’s so valid to present in ways that make you feel happy without listening to what society says 💪 so thank you for making this video 🩷🩷
Also not to make it about me but I predicted back in like 2019 that you would eventually come out as genderqueer or start using she/her pronouns because my gaydar is absolutely infallible and I noticed that feminine energy in you a loooong while ago. Girlies know girlies when they see them fr.
hi Cam :) I'm not someone who comments often, but this feel like the type of video where discussing as much as possible is important, and I went through somewhat similar but opposite experience. I'm genderfluid (but born afab) and have labelled and presented as such for a little over two years now, and the way I figured it out was in pretty much the same way you did (I cut my hair really short), but I had the opposite reaction; I felt so much more like a person. I had always been somewhat out of place in terms of gender, but I didn't realize that there were other options than just "boy" and "girl", but then I saw myself with short hair, and my facial features are pretty androgynous, so I saw a completely different person, and I liked them a whole lot more. In that period of time, I was ina pretty bad place mentally, and I thought I was just a cis bisexual girl going through a breakdown, cutting all my hair off, but doing so made me realize there was something else that was off. after this, the chain of events that followed led me to find out that I am genderfluid and my sexuality is a little complicated. I usually just call myself queer to avoid confusion, but I'm still a little lost due to the fact that I know I fall somewhere on the ace spectrum, but also wOmen? idk, it's complicated, i've ended up kind of doing a mix of not caring, going with the flow, and giving up, in terms of my sexuality. whatever happens, happens, and if everyone involved is aware and happy, it's fine. but my gender was also something that (like it did for you) made me redefine my sexuality, and doing so made me get to a much better spot, mentally :)
sorry this was so long, i ramble a lot, but if it has the potential to help make someone feel less alone, i don't think the word count matters much.
love you Cam! hope you find what you're looking for and feel better
Hey cam, one thing I love and admire about you is how open you are with us. As always sending you lots of love
Cameron, we love you no matter what. So proud of you, you are and forever will be our icon. We are here to support you wherever you get to the point where you do figure it out.
P.S, you are rocking the pink ❤
As a Mom, I would love to give you a big hug. It's all going to work out. ♥️
All I gotta say is that you are GLOWING in this vid lol
Love u cam always a supporter to what you do and who you are :) thank you for spreading such positive messages it truly helps a lot of people even if it does not pertain to me. ❤
Can you look wonderful. I love hearing your voice again! 🩵I don’t care what or who you are, I’ll always be cheering for you :)
I've been supporting you since 2018 as a trans guy and this makes me so happy. I'm so proud of you. I hope you continue growing and healing. 💞🫂 Thank you for all you do. You are so soft in this video and your joy is infectious.
I haven't watched the entire video yet (I'm only at 0:19) but I just wanted to say that I'm genderfluid and I have considered calling myself Cameron along with my birth name partly thanks to you! Good luck on your journey, we love you and we are proud of you 💖
Figuring out who you are and what makes you happy is a lifelong journey. Please follow your heart and be who you are right now, and if that changes over time; that’s ok too. It’s called evolution. For three years I have enjoyed your content, and I’ve enjoyed who I’ve watched evolve. Keep looking within yourself for the happiness that is there. I’m the Mom of 5 adult children, and they are all perfect in every stage of their gender, and sexual journeys. The people who love you, love who you are inside. I believe in you!
I resonate with this a lot. It took me a long time to become comfortable with not knowing exactly what I am, but that’s okay. At first I thought I was gender fluid, then a demigirl, then ???, then fully trans. I identify currently as nonbinary, but I’ve never been able to determine if I should include myself in the trans umbrella because I have, in fact, partially medically transitioned with top surgery? (And SO happy about it!) I said I was trans at first when I got top surgery, but it felt like an insult to trans people since I didn’t do HRT (even though I’m technically medically ineligible for HRT). I realize that’s probably a silly way to think, but nonbinary felt right for me. But even figuring out I was nonbinary took freaking forever 😅 I didn’t get top surgery until last year when I was 31, for age reference. And as for sexuality, I’ve always been attracted to other gender queer folks, though, so I knew I was…something. And actually my friends would question my sexuality and gender even though I’d never mentioned my thoughts about it with them many many years before I even presented remotely masc. So…I think I just put out a gender queer energy. I think the transition journey is a bit different for people who didn’t grow up with this information at their fingertips, probably like you as well, but I’m so glad you are able to start figuring out this for yourself now💞 no matter what you land on, you’re not stuck with it if it doesn’t feel right later.
it felt really good and reassuring to listen to you talk about your experiences with gender in this video. I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to share this with us! wishing you all the best - figuring oneself out when everyone else thinks they already know who you are is tough, but I hope you allow yourself the patience and kindness to discover all the tiny facets that make up who you are :)
Cam, wherever you land, I wish you happiness.
this came at the perfect moment wtff 😭😭 first, with how i was rly running dry w my yt homepage n i was trying to rem stuff i watched not even that long ago like weeks ago that jus doesnt come up on my homepage anymore cuz the algorithm is a little too sensitive I CAN WATCH YOU AGAIN 🫶🫶🫶 i love you pookie
and second, how i have been going thru the exact same thing of questioning my gender in the background _all the time_ since like what a few months? it feels like more honestly it mightve been a year already but GOD you have no idea how happy i am for you to be sharing this video i havent even watched it yet i just had to comment first I FEEL SO SEEN IM GONNA CRY thank you thank you thank you and im so glad i have another video like this just talking about their feelings abt this with no unnaturalness _and_ it's from someone i really really respect as well as adore? i dont think thats the right term it feels weird im quite young but my god u make me happy 🫶 and i hope you also get happy feelings
We love you Cam, we’re proud you’re tapping into your identity, it’s a very healing experience. It can be extremely hard to figure these things out and it’s a difficult or even long process, so take your time and genuinely spend some good quality time with yourself, focus on becoming happy and loving yourself for who you are, you are perfect. I may not have had to deal with this but thank you for speaking up about this openly, a lot of others can relate and it could even be eye opening for the people here who also struggle with figuring out who they are.❤️❤️❤️
Cam coming to terms with their gender identity and taking steps to figure themselve out?
Gotta be one of my favourite genders ❤ You go Queen!!
thank you for sharing this! i am non-binary/transmasc and my partner is transfemme - she recently realised she's a trans woman after identifying as non-binary for a few years. what i love about being genderqueer is that it is so fluid and can change so much, like, we have the power to define who we are and that's pretty cool! it was lovely to hear where you're at
i must say, your voice is so so soothing. i love it sm
This video made me feel so cozy and emotional 🥺🥺 Thank you for being so kind and sincere, Cam, I love this in you so so much! It always feels like home watching your videos, and I'm eternally grateful to you for that 🧡Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with us!! ❤
All I will say is
🎉🎊IM PROUD OF YOU 🎊🎉. Even if you are still not sure, I’m happy that you’re comfortable to say this. I’ll support you in whatever way you need. Love ya Cam💜
I thought you were going to say “Socks first”😂
@@astormyday1313 lol I thought about it, tho 🤔 🤣
Thank you so much for your honesty and for sharing this with us.♡
As a genderqueer person that is struggling with figuring myself out, it is soo nice to hear stories like yours. To hear that there's a chance I can find happiness in my gender queerness and that it's okay to still be figuring things out.
Thank you for sharing your story. I wish joy and all the best for your future, wherever it may lead you♡♡♡
You are the most lovable person ever Cam. Sincerely, I love you.
im very much a casual watcher of your content, and i am surprised and glad to see you express something i relate so closely to. i love being a lesbian and my female body doesn't bother me in the context of sex and relationships, but i war with it constantly when it comes to my gender expression. i have curvy legs and a chest that i cannot hide without a binder, as soon as puberty hit i would hide my chest however i could, leading to my developing terrible posture from hunching. it's funny how you can have this relationship that is so high and low with yourself, and i can never settle on a set state of comfort because of the fluidity. love your videos and hope to see more from you in the coming months :)
you are so cool for this!!!!!
So glad to see your notification again 🫶🏻 hope you’re doing well
Keep figuring out yourself without shame and without hurry! It's worth it I promise, the only thing that matters is to be happy with who you are and just know we are very proud of you for speaking about your experience ❤️
i've never felt non-binary, the words you're speaking are directly speaking to my heart, Im also figuring out a lot about my gender expression, and this video is comforting in some strange beautiful way, thank you
I had such a similar experience. When I was younger, I cut my very long hair and each year, I felt more comfortable with cutting It even shorter. Then, to test put new hairstyles, I let it grow out again and in the beginning it looked very androgynous. One day, my mother told me to go to the hairdresser and make her cut it very straight and neat, because it had grown out so messily. My hairdresser is a transwoman, who cut all my other experimental hairstyles and with whom I felt very comfortable talking about queerness.(I still do, but I don't go there very often nowadays, because I need to save my money). In the moment I told her to cut my, now shoulder-lenght hair in such a traditionally feminine way, I felt like my heart broke, because this wasn't what I wanted at all. I had grown to love the androgyny. That's, when I realised, I wanted to present masculine or androgynous sometimes. I wondered if I was trans, but it just never felt right to me. Transitioning was out of the question, it still is. I am just way to afraid of undergoing any physically altering procedures and also being a man forever was just not it for me. I still felt very feminine a lot of the time. I label myself genderfluid nowadays(my awakening was 5 or 6 years ago as I was still deep in puberty.) because this whole gender thing surprises me newly all of the time. At the moment, I have felt more feminine for a longer period of time and sometimes I get scared thinking I just made everything up, but as time goes on I am becoming more and more secure in just being who I am, being open to my gender changing from time to time and embracing different energies, as they come. Remember: Gender is a social construct and before you are anything, you are a human being with thoughts and emotions, who should do and say, what they feel comfortable with.
This video comforted me a lot, because there is just not a lot of content for genderqueerness, especially not from content creators, who I have followed for such a long time as I have followed you. I do not watch your videos regularly, but when I do click on one, I feel a lot of comfort and happiness.
Because I am not out to most of my family and mostly present traditionally feminine, I feel very seen by this video and your thoughts on your own genderqueerness. Thank you a lot, Cam!
Also, love to everyone, who reads this!❤
English is not my first language. I am sorry if I have made any mistakes. If you notice any, please comment them, so I can do better next time.
Bestie, it’s almost been a month please come back! We all miss you. ☹️💗
I relate very heavily to this all and I appreciate you talking about it cam! I've always felt okay with the idea of being a boy but felt super uneasy and hated hints of masculinity in my appearance, and I felt for so long that it wasn't "bad enough" to make anything of, so I just pushed it down and ignored it, this video has helped me come to terms with my feelings and validated that I'm not the only one who feels this way
Gender is fluid, there is no age to figure stuff out. Thank you for your honesty and the trust to talk about this. I came out young, and my gender has become an ever changing thing, but ive come to a point that, whatever it is its me :)), good luck with your journey :D
I'm AFAB but I dress hyper femininely ( lolita fashion) and femininity is AMAZING! Have fun and do what makes you feel best ❤
congrats on beginning to start this journey! i'm agender and i started realizing it years ago because someone "misgendered" me online (it was an honest mistake and i didn't correct them) and the rush of gender euphoria that rushed through me is something i still can't completely explain. after a few years of procrastination because i didn't have time for all that, i realized i'm agender. and it's ironic because you'd think that would mean me becoming more gender non conforming, but i ended up feeling the freedom to embrace more stereotypical feminine things because the internalized pressure that i had to like them was gone when i accepted myself. it's been a journey
I always felt like I a female and now it's back and forth between man and female now leaning towards a woman now ❤
I like that you are normalising feeling confused. It’s normal
I also had this recent realization about my sexuality. I live in a country which is very homophobic and I am only out to my close friends and my brother. My parents don't know anything about my sexuality yet and if I tell them, I will also have to mentally prepare myself to get completely disowned by them. They might accept me but the chances are very slim. And because it was so hard for me to come to terms with my sexuality, I didn't even dare to think about gender. But deep down I knew, I just didn't want to accept it. I never felt comfortable with any label so I just started identifying as queer. I think the reason I didn't feel comfortable was because I was not comfortable with people assuming my gender. I recently dyed my hair red and everyone was complimenting me and my hair, and I did feel beautiful with my long red hair, almost like mermaid but soon my long started to feel like costume and I didn't want to dress overly feminine. I cut my hair very short and suddenly I felt like I look the way I feel. Now I don't feel pressure to dress in any particular or to do makeup. I feel free. I still wish to dress more masculine but I am not ready to buy more clothes. I am still figuring out everything. I still only use she/her pronouns. But cutting my hair was definitely a step in the right direction. So thank you Cam for making this video.
Love u cameron! u inspire me so much in many ways
I'm so incredibly happy for you! Thanks for telling us how you feel about who you are. I love you so much! 💜
Whichever your gender you will always make the best BTS dubs!
Thank you for sharing your creativity, your heart, your story and your light with us. You are inspirational in so many way ✨
Thank you for sharing your thoughts, experience, and emotions. You are not alone, and I know others do not feel alone because of you posting this.
Hey Cam, just know we are all here for you and no matter what you discover about yourself we’ll support you. I’m glad you are finally figuring out who you are deep down ❤❤
genderfluid is also a label i have strongly identified with at times in my life. trans too. I'm not fully sure where I stand now, but I like to think of myself as genderless, and just remove myself from the whole concept of gender. I do kind of recognize that this perhaps may be a defense mechanism because accepting the truth is too hard for me right now lol, but i still don't know what the truth even is atp. I do feel comfortable with the label genderqueer or genderless and i don't mind labels like nonbinary, trans and genderfluid. But it is all very confusing and extremely scary to explore in a cis and heteronormative world, and especially since i'm still living with my cishet family who are supportive, but just don't fully understand it. I can't wait to move out and just go crazy with the selfexpression and exploration. But anyway, i'm sending you and every other non-cis person love on their jouneys 💕💕
I’m so happy for you!! I’m happy you are feeling and becoming the person you want to be! Thank you for sharing your experience and journey with us. If you don’t mind, do share your experiences more on your journey! I don’t have to many friends who are part of the community. I knew a few classmates who are but I’m not close with them. I would love to learn more! I’m happy for you Cam! 🥰
hey cam!!! so happy for you, honey!!! I have never been through what you have experienced, but I have many people close to me that have expressed gender identity differently to how ever the fuck society wants us all to, lol. But I just think it's so beautiful... GENDER IS A SPECTRUM and it should me more normalised, even if you are cis-gender, like myself. I have experimented with my expression of my gender. Sometimes I show my masculine side more than my feminine, and vice versa, and if anything it makes me feel more like a woman, but then again... that's my journey... it's gonna be slightly different for everyone ^^
So proud of you!!!! It's okay to cry babes!! Express yourself!!
i wish you the best on your journey of discovery, beautiful!!!
And just FYI... you look beautiful no matter what you do, say or wear... in a suit or dress... short or long hair... makeup or no makeup.... I hope I'm saying this right, as a cis, straight, white girl lol... but I just wanted to show some love
You be you and do what makes you happy your videos make me happy😊
I'm so proud of you for sharing this. It takes a lot of courage to let people into your life, and even let yourself explore who you are in this way. I've been watching you for years now and seeing you grow and find what brings you joy and euphoria is beautiful. Something I want to add to the conversation is the term fingender. If you're interested I think you might benefit from looking into this term. I'm assigned female at birth and don't mind if people call me a woman, but I've always known the term didn't fit. I identify as fingender, which means that your gender is rooted in feeling feminine. I feel like my femininity is super important to who I am, and it's the foundation of how I would define my gender, but I'm not a binary woman. Of course we all have both masculine and feminine energy, but the term fingender means that the feminine part of you is more important to who you are. I just wanted to add this in the comments in case it can help in any way ❤ (Actually I used to have super bad dysphoria and Yeonjun from TXT helped me realize I could fully embrace my femininity confidently without having to be a woman lol)
I have followed you for a long time and I'm so so proud and happy for you cameron❤
I have been figuring out myself since my early twenties. I am turning 26 this year. I still don't know anything 😅. That's why I go with unlabeled and genderqueer....
Just take your time and don't forget to take care of yourself ❤
As of now I also think I'm genderfluid and pansexual. I just feel great to know that it's a part of me right now. I've always loved feminine and masculine and androgynous energies and balancing them in me. I remember in the past I didn't think about my gender when I started puberty years ago, and I was fine being a female at birth, but then I would start to feel gender dysphoria and wanted male chromosomes/parts, feeling like it was hollow and empty down there and that my chest was in the way that I wanted it flat, and I felt like I was a feminine boy, and I really blocked out the female side for gender and sexuality, thinking that I only liked boys, but then I would have times where that would switch and I would be comfortable being a female with female parts and finding females attractive as much as males, so I was confused about the gender and sexuality part of my identity, only to find out that I am genderfluid and pansexual and really resonate with that. It feels comfortable to accept my authentic self and not block out my sides which change fluidly at random. I can't imagine not being genderfluid and pansexual, as it's just a part of my identity, who I am on the inside. And it feels so freeing, fun, and not limiting. Like I get to experience all those sides, HEAVEN YEAH!
it's alright baby whatever you are we'll love you nonetheless
I'm really proud of you, Cam. Take your time figuring it out, there's no deadline. At the end of the day, you're living your life for YOU, and we're all so happy that you're still here 💖 I personally identify as bi, and recently I've come to terms with being aromantic. It's a relief to feel like you know who you are, and I applaud you digging deep and working on yourself. Labels definitely aren't for everyone, but I do like feeling like I can better explain myself (if I had to) with said labels. (:
Looking forward to seeing how your journey goes! You're loved and supported!! 🏳🌈
Congrats Cameron and I hope you're doing well!!!! 💗
im so proud of you! This whole video made me smile
i thought i was nonbinary becasuse sometimes I don't feel like either gender but still would like to be called she but my aunt asked if id like to be called he and I said no right away. my aunt was relived because my family isn't so understanding and after telling my mom and aunt and brother which are the only people that no that I do go by they which is so nonsensical right but that's just the family I'm in but I am an adult and have figured this out like 6 months ago I think so this video did really resonate with me
im literally crying, this is the rapper that raised me
How interesting the way you say that you didn't think about gender because it didn't matter. For me, it wasn't gender, it was sexuality. I literally never gave it any thought. I never dated, never wanted to date, never saw anyone as a potential partner or as some I wanted to sleep with. My friends and family never pressed me about any of that, either. So I just existed.
After some time I was with a group who was talking about when they had their first crushes, and it hit me. I never had a crush. So anyway, long story short (too late), I had never looked into sexuality because... I had no interest. Growing up I only knew gay, straight, bi, and then later pan. None of which vibed with me. One day I heard about asexuality and looked it up. I was like "that's me!" I know there's a big spectrum, and I really don't know where I fall. That's not important to me. I'm just happy to know I'm not alone.
Hello. Respectfully and only if u are comfortable may I ask a question?
As an asexual, do u still recognize people's attractiveness? Like, wow she/he is pretty or cute. But not be like sexually drawn. Im sorry Im not a native english speaker and I might be wording my question wrong, or in an offensive way.
The reason is, what u describe is my experience.
@@jenjin9492 No problem! I do notice when people are handsome or pretty or cute. But I never see someone and feel any attraction, either romantic or sexual. It's like when I look at a piece of art. I feel exactly the same when I see a very pretty sunset as if I see a pretty person.
@@cloudsn thank you. I like your analogy with the painting.
You are a beautiful human! I love your content and am glad you are doing what you need to in order to stick around. We need you.💜
woah--i followed you years ago and this is my first time seeing you for such a long time! welcome to the club
Love you Cam❤Will always support you, no matter what you identify as. I hope you feel more comfortable in your own skin now
im so so sooooo happy for you getting learn all these things about your identity and how you want to express it!!! Wishing you all the joy as you navigate this next chapter of your life!
I'm a masculine cis woman. I've never been in a relationship (I'd like to imagine by choice) I'm not majorly fussed. I don't know where I'm going with this but I wanted to let you know your content is comforting and I love you *uncomfortable hug 😅
Grabbed my phone just to tell you I love you and am proud of you. 💙💙 I see your Instagram daily. Your videos, your songs, just who you are... You're truly a good, beautiful person. Cam, I hope to see you around for a long long time feeling everything you have to feel, sharing what you want to share with us, etc. Wishing you honestly the best. Happy coming out ✨🎉 Good luck on your journey. Lots of love 🎉💙💙✨✨