My condition that makes me feel like i'm dreaming all the time | derealisation/depersonalisation
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okay spaced out pals. here's the thing. everyone's telling us to just ignore it and that is SO ANNOYING TO HEAR because it's like
if you had a chronic pain in your arm and people tell you to ignore it it's like i LITERALLY CAN'T because it's SO OBVIOUS.
but the way to function with this is to pretend it doesn't bother you - over time your thinking patterns will change and though you will still be spaced out, it won't make you as depressed/anxious because it will just be something you have and that's it.
Yes, it sucks to think about that. DON'T GIVE UP HOPE - more research will be done, there are other options you haven't tried yet, you will feel present again one day - but just in case that day doesn't come/it takes a while, you might as well enjoy life as best as you can whilst feeling spaced out!
Last year I could barely talk to people I was that spaced out! I didn't want to leave my flat for fear my existence would be snuffed out it felt so fragile. But now I wake up and although I still am living in this weird dreamlike world, I can function and make an impression on the world, despite barely feeling like I'm in it.
It will be okay! I Promise! Don't give up hope! Practise loving what you can experience!
xxxx
I often feel like I’m observing the world and the people around me as if I’m not physically there, if that makes sense
Omgosh same here!!!
I feel the same while writing thisss. I pinch myself during school because I want to try and realize that I am awake. I got it around 1 year ago at school and I literally couldn't think straight or just do anything. It was a struggle for me to learn for a while but like I felt very confused most of the time. It disappeared for a while then came back during school (I am in school now, started school about 3 days ago now). I realized that bright lights make me really light headed and causes me to be more in a dream, it's confusing and I don't umderstand. I had mental break downs about it during school last year because I really felt that I wasn't alive. My emotions would be crying but my thoughts and eyes are a whole new thing.
yes !! exactly !!
Pretty sure thats called being an introvert
That’s derealisation / depersonalisation I guess , I have it too but don’t want to open up about it to my family and stuff just because I’ve had it as long as I can remember and so I’m learning to just deal with it .
I'm so thankful that derealization is getting more attention. Its TERRIFYING.
Had it since i was 9 and im 25 now. NON STOP 😭 sometimes i think im dead or in a coma and one day i will wake up
There's no treatment in my country..
:/
i remember telling a therapist 3 years ago when i was 15 that if still had dpdr by the time i was 18 then id kill myself.. i still have dpdr but im still here i guess lol
I thought it was just me, I didn't know this is even exit, i thought it just in my mind, this is even hard to explain to someone, I having this since i was 14 years old and now I am 29, this is get worse when i am afraid. is there any medicine for this ?
if you don't have this, it's not cool or fun. it's a living hell
i've had this thought a few times and then i just had an existential crisis
yeah it's definitely not fun
its horrible, not fun at all
Welp i think that life is a dream.
Like i am dead and now I'm in a diferent world if ya'll get it.
Its soo fricking horrible and kinda creepy when u really think about it.Or sometimes i think that i am the only one who is real and all the people around me are fake...
It's a horrible feeling..
So if anyone knows how to stop this PLEASE tell me..
fr, its painful. you wake up everyday hoping you feel real, and you dont
@@willowowen5160 yup that's the bad thing
I have never felt so connected to anyone in my life, this was scary to me how accurate this is to my life right now. I feel you girl, thank you for this
That description at 2:50 actually sounds more typical of a hypotensive episode, lying outside in the warm sun then standing up and walking, the visual symptoms are typical of postural hypotension, very common in younger people.
whoopsie doopsie I'm not gonna self diagnosie but it's time to go to a doctorosie
^^^^ do not click that, it's not real
doddlevloggle how does this work?
Fallen Poet its not real don't fall for it!!
What happens if you click on it? Asking for a friend
It's fake and could steal your information.
*when i read the title i was like YEAH FINALLY IM NOT THE ONLY ONE*
chaexic Me too
YASSS
legit, shits so hard to explain .
Woeful Warlock sameee my friends think im crazy lol
I have this condition too I’m young and it popped up randomly and I trying to get treatment
I’ve had this since elementary school and never realized it was a real thing. I used to have it every once and a while and now it’s everyday, it’s almost like living in a vr video game for me like it’s like you’re not actually there, you’re seeing everything but you don’t think you’re there. Everything feels too bright and everywhere I go I have to remind myself i’m alive and pinch myself to make sure i’m here
exctly the same for me
Oh my god, I just tried to explain to my sister the SAME exact thing! I feel like my “real” body is outside of myself and what I’m seeing is just a vr headset game. It’s super scary. Fluorescent lights tend to make it worse for me
@@828vee YES same. For some reason bright lights in stores when it’s dark outside bothers me the most. But yeah it’s a horrible feeling
@@briellejade._yes bright lights, especially the one at Walmart are almost too intense for me
I feel this too... the only problem is, I have chronic itching due to eczema, so pinching myself is about equivalent to how hard I scratch myself on the daily, and so I just end up with that persistent feeling and bleeding spots all over my back and arms...
i sometimes can’t tell my memories and dreams apart. I can’t tell if i’m sleeping or awake and the amount of deja vus i’m having is a painful lot. I forget things i said or thought seconds after doing so and it’s so scary because i DONT KNOW what it is.
www.carolynspring.com/blog/feeling-unreal-depersonalisation-derealisation-disorder/
Saame cuz one time i was talking to my sister about all the dumb stuff we used to do as kids and i told her about this one time when i did this and that and bla bla bla it was just a memory i had but then she told me that she didn't remember that and she told me that it (the 'memory') probably never happened because if it did she would have remembered it (she's older than me) and it was just a dream or smth and it really messed me up that day cause i was thinking (how many of my other memories and fake? How can i tell which is real and which isn't ?)
Also i can't remember half my childhood in the first placeso i was really sad bc i thought i wasted my whole childhood :/
Srry if there is any typos of if this text is too long or if it dosn't make sense bc i was typing this at the speed of light
Practicing deep breathwork as Wim Hof breathing. It s magical how it does reconnect you in minutes
@@srisra_br9o9a Omg yes!!! this is what happens to me too… I can’t even process the dreams I have half the time I can’t differentiate memories, thoughts, and feelings are so paralyzed… faint! I can’t remember my childhood, let along remember what I even said.. Sometimes I feel like I have no control of my emotions like if I blurt something absurd out i’m like shoot ! I can’t remember it feels like to feel whole again… personality is everywhere ! the self is disrupted foreal!
@@luceromoreno9081 Yes! yes! yes! You can’t even feel yourself dreaming ? let alone sleep….? when your sleeping it’s like your dead? … when your awake your partially dead??? hmmmm only someone with this would understand me
Thank you for talking about this! I don’t experience derealisation, however, it helps me understand it a lot better. I appreciate you talking about mental illness’ since it helps people who experience these types of things
Emma N. ARMY
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Imaari shut up
Imaari Hii
Does anyone ever have to be constantly telling them selves it's not a dream and it's reality?
Francisco Vergara yessssss it’s so scary cause I afraid I’m actually asleep and I my life is just a dream
Your okay! U are in reality just keep telling yourself self that your mind doesn't take over your life!!
Yes
I thought I was just high but yesh
I never knew it had it name. I just thought ok I'm just having an episode. I'd always called it a disassociative episode.
I'm coming back to this video now, years after first watching it, to let you know this was the first place I ever heard the word "depersonalization" after suffering with it quietly all through high school. I am 22 now and I am coping much better. Thank you for making the decision to talk about this; your channel became a safe space for me because of this video.
I know exactly what you mean, in hindsight I'd been dissociating for years, but only for a few hours/a day? at most. I came back to watch this video as I'm now over a month deep into the worst episode yet. It comes in waves and is lessening down (I hope), but I remember practically nothing of September. Probably for the best as what I vaguely remember happening is whatever I told other people and the idea of multiple panic attacks in a day must not have been pleasant for me. On the plus side, Wake Me Up When September Ends now has a whole new meaning to me.
Do you ever experience lucid dreams?
@@Badass_Brains a ton. And sleep paralysis.
I think sleep paralysis can be quite frightening@@Sophiamaria457
i watched it for the first time right at the start when i was experiencing it but because my symptom was everything looking sharper instead of dreamier like hers, I denied it and spent 4 years basically lying to myself. Feels relieving now that I have the words to describe it!
It’s hard to imagine living like this all the time. I only had this during panic attacks, the first time I had no idea what a panic attack was. I kept having to remind myself that what was happening was happening NOW...that I wasn’t remembering it. I kept saying to myself, “Is this happening now? Am I here now?” It was very scary and very weird. It feels like you’ve been drugged which is exactly what I thought happened.
sign543 dude I love your profile picture
i cant relate sorry :(
it's awful, it's fucking terrible, had it 5 years now non stop and ive basically lost me teenage years to it, my whole teenage years are a blur and i want to die all the time yikes
@@katieh7927 Yep same I am like:Ok this is probs a dream all i need to do is jump of a roof and i'll wake up :)
But damn then i think like:Oh shit what is this isn't a dream (If u know what i am trying to say rn)
I have this it’s a fricking living hell.
Disassociation/derealisation is the brains way of pulling you away from trauma !!!! I feel you so much, dodie. I’m sorry you go through this on a daily, but one day you are going to be a new woman where this is so much less of a reality and you will experience things with the vividity you did as a teenager, but it will be so much better because you will be a grown up woman who has known pain and will appreciate the experiences so much more !!! LOVE YOU STAY STRONG!
Dana Taylor ❤️
This makes me feel confident. Thanks, even if you were talking to Dodie 😂💗
Dana Taylor at least we're not alone
Thank you for describing derealisation in such a mature way, that really helped me, as someone who does not experience derealisation (but does suffer from depression and social anxiety), understand what it is like to experience derealisation. Thank you dodie.
I also suffer from depression and social anxiety but I have slight feelings of derealisation and Dodie described it so well xx
i just got diagnosed with dpdr literally like two days ago and it feels SO GOOD to know that I’m not going crazy or whatever, but that it’s a Real Thing and that I’m not just making it up. i started having severe symptoms in the spring so it all went quite quickly thanks to some lovely friends that recognised what i was going through when i tried to explain my experiences and encouraged me to seek help. and it’s really great to know that other people feel this way as well. thank you!
If you don’t mind….do they give pills or something
What do you feel like now?
I had this for three years and really thought I would kill myself if it continued any longer. You explained this perfectly ❤️ I wish you had posted this when I first had it as there was only a wiki page on it and self-help forums so I really believed nothing was real. I did get depression from and did not do as well during exams. If you're suffering from, I know it seems like dp is all there is right now but there is a way out. I overcame it without therapy or any help but it is a process that took a while. All I remember is that one day I decided not to focus on it at all and try to divert my mind on to many different things. Recovery in it self probably took me about a year but I'm glad it's over. I don't even remember exactly what it felt like, only that I was miserable with it. Please keep going, look to the future, depersonalisation is not permanent it's a state you need to get out of by relaxing and overcoming anxieties. You can do this alone, with friends or a therapist. Good luck ❤️
Thank you so much for this comment, I’ve been dealing with it for nearly a month now and I’ve been so worried about it being a permanent thing
@@brandoncarr4097 I does feel like it will last forever and every moment is like eternity but it won't last and when you get better life feels amazing again. Reach out for help if you can, it must be harder to deal with stuck at home in a pandemic
i was scrolling through the comments looking for mine from three years ago. when i found yours i did a double take because what you wrote sounds so damn similar to my own experience and the advice i’ve been giving people!
it’s so strange.
but this is not my old comment 😂 nonetheless i’m very happy you got out of it.
@@sarac.2761 that is strange 😂 maybe I'll come across yours too someday - and thanks, you too! (if you've overcome it)
Me too, homie.
I appreciate your openness and honesty regarding this topic. Mental illnesses outside of depression and anxiety are rarely talked about in detail and there is still so much stigma around it. I really appreciate this video.
MinistressForMagic same here. I’ve never heard of this condition before, so it’s great to learn about it from someone who can explain what it feels like to them.
MinistressForMagic same, I have depression and ADHD and UA-cam and Reddit have been way more helpful than my doctors and therapist. We need more research on all of this.
Then you clearly do not even know about depression and anxiety. It is very common to have derealization with those disorders. It's basically a symptom of those disorders.
isn't derealization caused by anxiety and depression?
it is hard for many people to describe the symptoms they feel. and it is scary to tell others as fear that they might not be understood and they don't realize that many many many others feel the same
xoxXOXO l Also, depression and anxiety are unfortunetaly "so" represented that they end up being wildly misunderstood still, like people having an image of panic attacks in class from movies whereas for me it's much more like feeling like drowning and forgetting something hugely important at ALL times...
I burst into tears watching this I had no idea other people felt like this. Thank you for making this video it is incredibly validating to know I’m not alone
Nicole Winters Same here.
Me too :D
Me too :)❤️
I started crying as well. I’ve been sick for the past 5 years (it all started after a bad car wreck and PTSD) but the foggy/spacey/dreamy feeling has been more present this past year. I’ve been to so many doctors, had counseling (for awhile), gone to my psychiatrist, had eyes checked, gone to neurologist and had testing done, trying to sort things out yet somehow, other things kept popping up. I never thought that the dreamy feeling I was experiencing was valid, or that I was actually feeling it. ‘Maybe it was just a bad day, a bad week, a bad month,’ I kept telling myself. But it wasn’t. What I’m feeling is valid and real, even if everything else feels unreal. And watching this incredible video proved that. I found such an immense sense of comfort and of calmness after watching this video. I told my mom and we’re going to schedule an appointment with my counselor, to sort everything out, and then hopefully begin finding the best kind of treatment for me.
None of us are alone in this fight that we call life (I’m felling very poetic at the moment lol muh bad) and we can all find comfort with the incredible (and definitely real) people around us. Hope that you’re doing better, after finally knowing that you are definitely NOT alone💗💗
Me too
I recommend the Anxiety Ninjas videos. I was like this for over a year and it was horrible. I’ve watched his videos on it and slowly felt better about what I was going through and now I’m free from it, I sometimes get my little moments here and there but they don’t bother me, feeling normal again is 100% possible. :)
From my bad experience with it, I found that making it “who I was” or paying attention to it all the time and just simply ruminating on it made it worse and just struck more anxiety in me. So I’m not downing her ways or anything like that because maybe it helps her, but honestly for me personally, I found that it wasn’t the best idea to be writing about it and making it a big part of who I was because it wasn’t, I just stopped calling myself a sufferer. Once you understand what DPDR is, you’ll understand why circling your life around it like it’s something that’s not gonna end is a bad idea.
DPDR is there as a defence mechanism to help you through traumatic experiences which is why you hear some people say they felt out of body or that they don’t remember a certain event for example major pain like an animal attack, it helps you not focus on the pain but instead “the weird feeling”. So with that basic understanding of it, I was able to steer into trying to feel like myself again.
I know it doesn’t sound the easiest, but it’s simple. I thought I needed all the medication, all the weird treatments, all the nights of hospitalization when all I really needed was the education and support. I hope y’all get through it because I can assure you that it isn’t forever :)
Although it isn’t just as easy as watching videos, that’s what I’m making it seem like lol, it does take time and effort to help yourself get through it, not gonna lie it took me a while but it was all worth it in the end.
HERES A TIP- Surround yourself with your friends and good vibes even when you feel like you don’t have the energy, trust me when I was around my friends, their good energy made me feel better especially when I had really bad days, never stay home and sulk the whole time!
www.carolynspring.com/blog/feeling-unreal-depersonalisation-derealisation-disorder/
Thanks!
Hei I don't know if you will ever read this but you really helped me a lot with this comment. I went over to Anxiety Ninjas channel and now I feel so much better to know that it's a coping mechanism and there's a way out. Thank you so much for recommending him!
@@kaislaaurora7865 🤍🤍🤍 an update, I’m now 20 and I’ve never felt better.
thank you for your comment!
I remember when I was around 8 years old and I looked at my mom and said, "are you real? is this real?" and she got scared I was showing signs of early onset psychosis, but I was just going through derealization. It's so difficult to socialize during it because I feel like an alien masquerading as a human in an ill fitting skin suit. Everything feels like almost like a stimulation. It's not as jarring/scary as it was for me when I was a kid, but I think it's mostly because it's become my "normal".
It makes it so difficult to learn anything or create anything! I feel nothing 95% of the time and just floating through life. Mine doesn't feel like a dream but like my life is a movie happening through my eyes.
i feel the same-- i've never been able to completely explain it, but "life is a movie happening through my eyes" is really accurate to me as well
@@megsnicolec I wish you good luck on your journey through life.
This is a pretty awful handicap but we just have to hope it can be treated one day!
It's probably really common to be misdiagnosed as depressed, many can't comprehend the emptiness we feel. No happiness, but no sadness either, true limbo.
It's thought to be caused by extreme emotional stress, and you can randomly "come back" at any time. 🤞
lauren yh imagine having this, being type 1 diabetic and having mental problems and family members who have passed.
lauren and having exams. 😔
me too
You probably won’t see this but I just wanted to say that in music class, we have to write about our favorite artist and I chose you. You have been such an inspiration that even when you are in your lowest low you can make it out. Thank you
Luise H this is so cute, I hope Dodie sees it
Just to make you feel better lots of UA-camrs have secret accounts just to read the comments so you have hope of her seeing this
Same with me!! I had to do a 5 page project on dodie with a discography, biography, introduction and a bunch of other stuff.
I did a website for ict on dodie
coming back to this vid roughly 5 years later now experiencing dpdr chronically for around 3 years almost moved me to tears. dodie as a musician and a personality was always my biggest inspiration through tween years and now being freshly 18 revisiting the music and youtuber sides of dodie is so connecting with my younger self (a part of my life i often forget because of the dpdr). thank you for inspiring me to play little songs on my uke and love the world with my whole heart
i was diagnosed with this about two or three years ago because i had just lost my sister to suicide and i blamed myself for it and our situations are similar in the way we experience it. as for your suggestions for helping with it, i think i might try the tmsing as well as taking that vitamin as i haven't done those yet. also thank you for posting about this because i am glad that i am not alone!
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- i like to remind myself that im present by always keeping a journal with me and reading all the notes my friends have written to me and most of the time it does the job.
- every so often i get up and do some streched.
- also, have someone hug you or touch you in an uplifting way!
- of course, always try to think positively!
hoshijoo I’m so sorry thank you
hoshijoo people using my name in conversations and touching my shoulder is so helpful! Also warm things like hot showers and steamy soup. The same with really cold things like ice water. Doesn't fix it totally but it makes the world a little brighter! Thanks for the tips!
hoshijoo :( ♡
I'm so sorry about your sister. Weirdly enough, I started dissociating after I also lost my sister to complications due to a suicide attempt (also two years ago) -- it can feel very isolating and scary. But you're right, you're not alone.
When dodie talked about it... it's weird because I felt so many of these things before like sometimes my vision used to go black (and thinking back to it it was when I was really stressed out also) I remember one time I looked in the mirror and it didn't look like myself... like I knew I was looking at me but I didn't recognized myself like something was off and I can't explain why. And I 100% remember like last year and 2 years ago I felt like I wasn't thinking correctly like I didn't feel grounded at all. I forgot about everything and if became hard to think correctly? I really don't know how to explain not thinking correctly. It's like my brain wasn't organizing experiences and thoughts correctly. Idk I'm not saying I have this condition because it doesn't happen to be a lot but I remember experiencing some of these things before
I can’t thank you enough for making this. When I clicked your video, I was hopeful but doubtful that you’d be talking about what I’ve been experiencing. Halfway through, I burst into tears. I’ve been feeling so scared and alone this past year, because no one I talk to seems to understand it.
I’m an organized, motivated, extroverted person and when these derealization spells hit, it’s like I’m PRETENDING to be all of those things. Doing ordinary tasks is overwhelming. Conversations are like climbing a mountain. And my memory is completely shot- short term and long term.
Again, thank you so much for talking about this. I feel better already just knowing I’m not alone. And to anyone else feeling this way, remember to take a moment to breathe and be kind to yourself ❤️
I started crying too, I'm not sure I have depersonalization, but it seems close. I try to keep conversations alive to feel grounded or I completely lose track of time and get lost in thought, or even just blank for a bit. I really hope nothing is wrong with me and that this is normal teenager stuff.
omg this is literally like reading my own thoughts!
alyciadweeb oh god I’m so glad I’m not alone holy hell. Peace and love to all of you
alyciadweeb exactly, and time goes by so quickly it’s like you’re already living in the past. You look back at the day and don’t remember doing half the things you did
I am the same way!! Extroverted and motivated. At first I thought the disosiation was very interesting, just once in a while, but then it started to worry me after a few weeks of it being constant. I lost my motivation, things stopped mattering. I still cared but couldn't bring myself to do anything, and nothing felt real, no consiquenses or gains.
I never realized there were more people that experienced this it’s good to know I’m not the only one
i feel like i'm always in a video game? like when you're controlling the character and the other people are just kind of around you and they're just NPCs and you can kind of hear them but not really and i'm the character and everyone else is just part of the game.
OH MY GOSH YES
Kshithi Dilip lmao i forgot about this comment, i'm now professionally diagnosed✨
@@moonpixie33 I'm glad you got the help you need 💖💖💖
Kshithi Dilip thank u, they told me they couldn't do anything tho and that i just have to "try not to think about it" like what am i supposed to do with that lmao
@@moonpixie33 ah crap that blows I'm sorry, I hope you find the help you need then 💖 you're not alone and you're so valid 💖
To everyone reading the comments. Feeling spacey (brain fog) is a VERY common thing and most people will experience it at some point in their life. It is when it occurs for an extended amount of time (EX: months, years) and interferes with your daily life and relationships that it becomes a disorder. There is so much self-diagnosing these days that everyone seems to all have clinical depression, obsessive compulsive disorder, and an anxiety disorder. Please don't add this one to the list. It is hard enough for this one to be understood and taken seriously.
Just trust me when I tell you that every single person in the comments does not have DP/DR disorder...
Emmy F thank you!
excatly!
Ashwaghanda cured mine!!! I ran out two weeks ago tho so it’s back lol but
tanye west i’m glad i found this comment bc i have like 10-20 minute episodes of brain fog like every couple days or so and i felt like it wasn’t this chronic disorder but i can relate to how it’s described bc i have these episodes every so often. i was trying to see if people have what i have and i know this isn’t quite the same. thank u for confirming that this disorder is chronic
I agree on this. I have it as a part of my PTSD so when someone's like "oh I get that." But they don't sleep till 3am and stare at screens all day...
I notice people with depersonalization/derealization have a _thing._ For dodie, it's looking in the mirror and not recognizing herself. For me, it's staring at my hand and realising _this isn't my hand._ So i wrote something that describes it.
You stare at the back of your hand. You see the cracks in your skin, the crevices, the spiderweb of ridges. They've allways been there. It is your hand, after all.
But this time it's different. The cracks are deep and dark enough to fall into. The crevices create baren river beds, branching across the rest of your hand. It seems dry and brittle. Like it could crumble at any moment.
You hunt down a bottle of lotion, but nothing changes.
Now it shimmers. The light catches it, and your hand seems a lot bigger than your hand should be.
_Is this really your hand?_
Someone has turned the sharpness up, a little too much. But there is no picture. There is no camera. There is simply a hand that you do not recognize, and something like panic making its slow way up your chest, using your ribs like the rungs of a ladder.
You stare at the hand until it is no longer a hand; it is something dark and terrifying. It is a physical representation of your own crumbling psyche. You shove it into your pocket, anywhere, just as long as it is out of sight.
One day you'll look at it again. And maybe that day you'll recognize your own hand.
It is your hand, after all.
thehydrangea andtherose I get the exact same thing, it always starts with the hand and the more I look at it the more foreign and scary it looks, then it generally progresses to the rest of my body which then just feels completely disconnected to my brain. Scary stuff
thehydrangea andtherose it hurts to read how you go through that, I'm speechless.
i actually have both, i mean it's not really that bad, it's just the moments of confusion, of "wait... this is me? i'm a person" it's really bizarre, stay strong though! did you go to any specialist btw?
I have that thing with hand too and also I always feel like I'm just memory already in the past..
I do that thing too, but with my legs. It’s weird, like if I’m sitting and I look at my legs I’m like “woah those are attached to my body. like those are my legs”. I experience the mirror thing that dodie was explaining also though.
i come back to this every once and awhile, cause i found this a few years ago when i was feeling this way and ever since then i haven’t felt so alone in this. thank you so much for making this apart of your platform. while i haven’t been able to see a professional, i’ve been able to speak to my parents about this which is a huge step for me. thank you so so much.
Practicing deep breathwork as Wim Hof breathing. It s magical how it does reconnect you in minutes
I immediately clicked on this because finally someone feels the same way.
me too!
me too.. me too. it's terrifying for me
I experience this all the time, for about 3 weeks every month consistently
oh boy I'm getting a bit teary-eyed and I don't wanna self diagnose, but I've been feeling this for as long as I can remember. It's so relieving to hear that what I might be experiencing is something that is real and shared. I've asked so many people including friends and family, and I've never been able to understand why other people are so normal. I'm almost crying now and I just wanna say thank you so much for putting this information out there.
Elise Beaufeaux, I completely relate to this. I had no idea this was an actual mental diagnosis until my friend sent me this video and explained it. I’ve also felt like this sense, well forever, and I can’t remember a time when I didn’t. I am only a teen and I don’t know how to tell my parents in a way they will understand or seek help. But I’m glad I am not the only one who has felt the same way!
Same dude. At fourth grade I always feel like I was drifting and everything seemed like a film. My teacher always called me out for this. He was the best though, made my elementary days lighter.
Have u recovered
same!
Hope you're better now.
I have this too well i have autism and ptsd so it comes in the package. Very very odd but honestly im glad i have it. Sometimes it can be very soothing to just space out from the world but it also makes you quite vulnerable to bad people. I feel you girl ♡
It must be really weird and tiring to have derealization all the time! I only feel this on anxiety attacks including sometimes depersonalization but all the time! you're so brave 💝 thank you for sharing it
Oh my goodness.
Dodie.
This is nuts!
As soon as i read the title i freaked out, because i constantly feel this way, especially when I’m in a new place. I always tell my friends “I always feel like my life is a dream” and they tell me I’m crazy and that it will go away and it’s nothing to be depressed about.
Thank you for making reality feel a bit more real for me.💗
Edit: listening to the part in your book about watching a movie made me remember the first time i felt this way. I haven’t thought of this since it happened.
I was 10 and on my class trip to Disney World. One we arrived, nothing felt real, but i was still aware. We went on the Finding Nemo ride, and became entangled in the beauty of the ride. The characters were right there, like i could almost reach my small hand out and touch them. Once we got off, i was in a daze. My body was doing what it was supposed to do. Stick with the group while we walked around visiting the different attractions, laugh with my friends. But my brain felt like mush. I was watching a first person movie, and i was the uncontrollable main character.
This may sound kinda weird but I really like the way you write. Anyways, I hope you feel better soon!
EXACTLY but weirdly it wasn't a new place for me ... I went to 6 flags with my best friends and it didn't feel like anything was real and my brain didn't wanna work. I tried to hold onto my friend to ground myself and the cold handlebars but it didn't work... I felt like that for a long time maybe an hour or so
Maria Winchester
Thank you so much! You are so kind :)
Wow,
Hi I’m fourteen, and yesterday I went to a therapist for the first time because of derealization. Being in school, you need to constantly stay focused and on task. Yet class would go by in a blur, it was like there were white clouds over my vision and sound was muffled. And after class, my friends would ask what was wrong, I would be sitting in my seat with a distorted face not looking at anything just staring forward. I looked confused by they would say, whilst in reality I was trying to wipe away the clouds blocking away my vision. I felt as though I was going insane. Already depressed I felt defeated, left alone in the world. I have started to self harm, as I fell only deeper into depression because of the stress mental illness brings upon us. Yet as I went to a therapist yesterday and I found out I’m not alone. It was so funny to see this video pop up on my feed after all this happened. I haven’t tried any treatment yet, but I hope so soon. I’m seen as an annoyance to teachers as when they ask me to read or answer a question I take at least 30 seconds to snap out of my state. And though it seems like not much time, 30 seconds is enough to get you some bullying. I’m seen as a freak and a weirdo, and I’m scared to talk about it. Yet watching this video, I felt as though I was talking to a friend! You are such an inspiring beautiful person, and I hope you realize that! Xoxo Mollie from Seattle
P.S
If anyone else does read this, if you are feeling this way reach out to a trusted teacher! My old teacher from 7th grade (Ms. Weed) yes weed.. She is absolutely amazing and sweet. I told her about how I felt, and it really kickstarted my journey to getting better!
Hope all goes well! I am also considered an annoyance to my teachers, like I will ask a question and they yell at me for not paying attention but I was, I feel like I just blank out as if there's a tiny hole of my memory from something someone just said or showed is missing, and its hard to focus on classwork, (and that means late assignments ick) and it makes me feel better to see someone my age going through something similar, (oml I suck at writing)
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Same, it's just so hard when you have to deal with this at school. I've once forced myself to focus on what the teacher is saying but it felt so blurry but no one knew. I'll try to tell my mom so she can get me a therapist. Hope to recover, hope you do too
I hope that therapy can help you! Thanks for sharing your story, I know it will help somebody too scared to reach out xx
Thank you for sharing! I can’t relate that much besides the depression but I think you’re a very strong person and wish you the best of luck on the road to recovery!
You have no idea how happy this video makes me. I was extremely scared that I was going crazy or something when I began experiencing depersonalization and anxiety (including panic attacks) after this extremely stressful even in my life. Depersonalization was just such a scary state to be in. So hazy, feeling like you’re in autopilot. I had been seeing a therapist for depression but just tying to explain my depersonalization was the HARDEST thing ever and you did it so well!
Thank you for making me feel like I’m not alone/ going crazy!
I just want to say thank you for sharing this with us. I fell exactly like you for 4 years now and I could never explain to myself or to the others what I was going through but now, thanks to you (and to my girlfriend that finds you) I can finally name this black beast that ruined my life for so long. I feel almost every sensations that you described in the book and I immediatly start crying and I'm crying right now while I'm writing this and I don't know why but i guess is for because I don't feel alone anymore. Thank you so much and
I hope with all my heart that you can get better as soon as possible
the background is so lovely (and so are you)
Yeah, that lamp, innit?
Roses are red, violets are blue?
Wait.. Then how do you know that you feel like your dreaming, if you never know what not dreaming is?
Hey Monika Hey Hey hey Monika.
A little bit of Monika 💖💜💙💛💕💞💓
I have autism, and severe PTSD. I'm also going blind from a eye disease. Because of Dodie, I found out that my floaty fake-ish feeling wasn't normal. So thank you Dodie 🌻♥
Lianne De Graaf sending my love to you 💕✨
big boyyy getting abused by your dad will do that to ya
Lianne De Graaf aww, I’m sorry! I have depression and anxiety. We’ll get through, buddy!
Lianne De Graaf AuTiSmO
Mussolini Mozart I really really really like your profile pic
Hi, I’ve been dealing with this everyday for 3 years now and I wanna thank you for making this video. I know it’s been 5 years since you’ve made this video but I want you to know it’s helped me a lot, derealization has been really scary for me, it causes me to feel fatigued, very far away from my surroundings and things are very unfamiliar. It’s more intense in stores and such (as you described in the video). I hope everyone in the comments who have been experiencing this have found some sort of thing or will find some sort of thing to help them :)
Hello i relate to you so much:(
I cried to this. I feel so heard.❤
I've missed your honest ass so much, dodes.
tiffy lol
I always feel like I’m dreaming and it feels like what I’m seeing isn’t real, and sometimes I panic. Can anyone relate?
ODS_Cobbtune yeah it happened to me yesterday and it was crazy. i was in the city on a saturday night with thousands of people and there were loud music playing and the lights were flashing and it made me feel dizzy. i felt like i wasn’t in the real world and everything felt like i was dreaming. i have anxiety (diagnosed by a psychiatrist) and i think that is the cause. it makes me feel like nothing matters and everything around me seemed fake. i also started to laugh uncontrollably over not even funny things and i felt like i was high or drunk or something. i’m really worried this feeling won’t go away, i don’t feel like myself after it. i would always feel like this after a party or watching fire works and bright flashing colourful lights. i feel like we both should seek help before this feeling corrupts and affects our daily lives and our relationships with other people.
I wonder how to stop it because I have the same thing
SSF Wulf yeah, and sometimes I get lightheaded and it’s really weird
I'm a hypochondriac, every time I feel like I'm sick I get this
I had it when I was young and I had many episodes and then it just never came back. But it was terrifying and I’d often feel like I was gunna faint. I remember my teacher yelling at me when I told her I felt like I was going to faint again. I couldn’t help it and often asked ppl around me if I was in a dream. Huh I wonder why that just randomly stopped. I was told it was panic disorder
I’ve had this constantly for 3 years now. Severe trauma, anxiety and depression triggered it.
I ignore it as much as humanly possible however it never leaves. I guess I could say I’m used to it now although everyday is a living nightmare.
Losing hope. What’s the point in living when you don’t feel love to your loved ones? What’s the point in living if you don’t feel present or real?
There’s no way of knowing if it’s possible for my individual case to get better. If only I could skip ahead to see how my life turns out so I could decide what to do with the suffering now.
Do you also feel like ur mind or brain isn’t connected with your body
@@Itsmoeski I do and I don’t know how to fix it
5 years now living with derealisation, don’t give up it gets better. Mine did not ever go away but definitely got better with time. Life is beautiful even with difficulties!
Same though… i just ignore it for over 5 years and its gotten “normal” for me even though when i talk about it i realize not everyone understands and that its not a normal thing..
I honestly feel like crying watching this. I have felt these things and I always just thought it was my depression/anxiety. And every time I explained it to someone they look at me weird and say “I’m not eating or sleeping well” or “do some exercise” but even if I do it happens. This is the first time I have felt like I’m not going crazy or the only one that feels this way... thank you so much for this video. This means so much to me...
I love that dodie reads the book instead of asking people to go get the book and read it for themselves
I have an exercise I do when it gets really bad. Take a deep breath and Name 5 things you can see, 4 things you can feel, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell and one you can taste. It helps ground you and remind you you are here.
Thanks I'll try this
That’s what I do as well!
That's awesome thank you!I have severe panic attacks because i feel like I'm not grounded in reality.
I'm always writing song names/titles and one that came to me out of this problem is called "I forgot I was on earth" lol ;D It's best to just have some humor about it and try to force your mind away from the negative thinking into a positive outlet. I've dealt with it for years and it is a struggle. Call it ocd, call it pseudo balber affect, call it derealization or depression, call it what you want it's all just terror. Ppl dont even realize (me included once) that every auto negative thought that the mind has naturally sends electrical impulses to the body yhat tells it how to feel so we to train how talk back to ourselves. We have and will continue to grow in a world full of wounds but fight club must go on. God Bless you all!
yup, this helps!!
i feel like i’m dreaming and it’s giving me an anxiety attack.
lucky
@@genjiiixxx yes
@@genjiiixxx why not? life is so boring, and i wanna know what one feels like
@@cosmicjessica3201 If it gives someone anxiety attack it's not that cool is it?
Practicing deep breathwork as Wim Hof breathing. It s magical how it does reconnect you in minutes
I also had chronic DP and DR and this goes away until you accept it as part of the anxiety, or until you decide to stop running away and learn to feel ignored and lose fear, no more pessimistic comments when saying that this is a disease, until that you learn to accept and feel, they will not go away.
I am psychologist
There's something I've read somewhere that helps me "come back", or ground myself to reality when I feel like my surroundings aren't real : around you, you should try to find
- 5 things you can see
- 4 things you can touch (and imagine what the sensation would be)
- 3 things you can hear
- 2 things you can smell
- 1 thing you can taste.
This technique helped me a few times, it forces you to be aware of what's really around you.
Achlucide same it helps
yes!! also helps with panic attacks
thank you
Thank you
I don't have derealization but when I have felt a panic attack coming on, this has helped me immensely
i needed this. i thought i was going insane but finally seeing someone publicly address it is so comforting & makes me feel less alone.
Callie Marie same
i remember 4 years back when i was 16, watching your videos, i couldnt imagine what it was like going through depersonalization and it was the first i have heard of this condition. eventually my mental health gotten worse to the point i actually developed depersonalization, and i was trying to remember who it was who i found the condition from. i have finally found you and i have got to say it really sucks to deal with this condition. it feels like im high without the high and it really makes me panic. i hope it has gotten well for you too
I am not sure if anyone is here to read this but I found something that helps after I have struggled with it for a long time.
Imagine that this life WAS real, for example, you are actually at death bed right now and suddenly, you time warp to the random day of your life.... And you are here now, suddenly able to live life again. Trivial things start to look charming, and nostalgic, and even the encounter to rude people makes you think "aw, yeah these things happen too". You don't feel so hurt because everything makes you feel warm, the existence of yourself makes you feel warm, and your short comings and weakness are kinda adorable.
Practice this every occasion you remember, and the life feels so much more real.
I never ever considered other people could have this. I thought I was going crazy. I read a comment below that perfectly described my own experience. Feeling a kind of invincibility and not caring as much as usual since the world doesn't really feel real until you "wake up". Like you're watching someone live their/your life through a window. The first few times were extremely disorientating when I woke up. It's gotten less disorientating the more times it has happened.
I keep reading comments that actually relate to what I’m dealing with and I’ve never been able to find someone dealing with the same thing as me. I feel the same way
Echo Nov i can relate., except from that i never “wake up from it” which sucks
I thought i was just crazy tbh
Echo Nov (I’m not sure if I have the same thing because mines a little weaker) I have a thing where I feel almost like I’m looking at life in 3rd person, but my senses are fine, I just feel dizzy and disoriented..
Echo Nov same
I almost got chills when you said something about Christmas lights. I first had an "episode" of depersonalization and derealization at a Christmas lights show when I was only TEN years old. I felt like I was going insane. I took me so long to find out I wasn't alone, but I've never connected to any of the symptoms people had mentioned until this video. Thank you so SO much. This video has, and I really mean it, changed my life.
I dont think I have this but the Christmas Lights and a few other things I could relate to
I don't think i have ever related to a comment like i just have.Everything you said resonates with me and I can see many similarities
I went through the same thing a few years ago and it was the scariest time of my life. Funny enough, I didn't even know what it was until I googled "if feels like I'm dreaming all the time." It felt like I was looking through foggy glass and nothing felt vivid, I felt like I couldn't appreciate my surroundings and it caused severe panic attacks. I remember thinking "how am I going to function like a normal adult with this?"
The worst part was that no one understood, so thank you for making this video and bringing awareness to derealization.
My derealization did eventually get better, and it isn't constant anymore. However I do fall back into episodes every once and awhile... But being able to put a name to it, and understand that I'm not in any danger from it, really really helps with coping.
Hey are you better now? I’ve been derealzing and it’s causing me to stop eating and become sick from the anxiety.I was perfectly okay before, it was really sudden and I think my existential thoughts had caused it.Help?
@@neonovember3072
hey, Im on day 1.
read this
www.carolynspring.com/blog/feeling-unreal-depersonalisation-derealisation-disorder/
Thank you for talking about this! I don't have the same exact thing as you but I also struggle with derealization/depersonalization especially when stressed, and it sucks. For me it's a cloudy feeling and sometimes I have to remind myself that I'm here, pouring myself water, or watching a movie, or doing whatever I'm doing. I appreciated this video because it opened my eyes to other symptoms people can have and made me feel less alone.
I have been absolutely floored by this video.
I can’t believe one of my favourite artists also suffers with a dissociative disorder. I’m only 20 seconds into the video, and the moment you mentioned derealization I almost cried, because I’ve never been able to relate to anybody in some aspects with my DPDR (depersonalization/derealization disorder). I’ve only started seeing somebody other than my counsellor about it very recently, so it’s as if the stars aligned for this video to be uploaded.
Thank you so much, Dodie. This video means a lot to me and the countless other unspoken sufferers of dissociative disorders.
*Edit:* I made a short film on my channel earlier this year called Permanent Shadows, in which the main character dissociates from reality a couple of times throughout the course the film. Not a perfect depiction of the symptoms, and not what the film is primarily about but just something I feel is relevant.
dontlookatluke I could relate to it too! :'( feels good to know.
I have OCD, anxiety, and a panic disorder and it's so great that Dodie is spreading he message and helping to "normalize" and de-stigmatize mental health and discussions about it
On a side note.....
DODIE HAS HAD SO MUCH CONTENT LATELY I AM GOING CRAZY! ITS GREATTTTTTT
Sophia Wilson your all over her comments omg Ive seen you so much its registered XD
Sophia Wilson I KNOW ITS GREAT😍😍😍😍
Chill with the comments, Sophia.
Ruqayyah Qadri I’m sorry I can’t help itttt I love me some dodie😂
Sophia Wilson your even on no views videos of her sure I'm sharing that I also watch them but your just impressive I even start to think you to is recommending videos you've commented on I'll see you as top to second comment even though you will have at most 10 likes XD
This happened to me once
And it was *TERRIFYING*
Coconut .*. Grease I have this feeling often where it’s like I’m watching a video of my life, like I’m disconnected from it and am like in the back of my head.
Try having it 24/7 :(
did it go away on its own or did you figure out a way to control it?
I had when i play with my 9 yo niece coz she moves her head like 👈👉👈👉👈👉 and i do the same maybe thats why it is happening lol
i’ve watched this video so many times and always recommend it to people because of how you describe it. it brings a sense of comfort knowing it not a lone even if it feels like it
I’m crying right now, I thought I was crazy or something and I felt alone. Thank you for this video, really, I realize I’m not alone and I feel a lot of relief simply knowing this.
I feel you so fricking much
You're not alone hey,i hope you feel better. Also surround yourself with the right kind of people, that will not make you feel shitty
You and me both. I truly thought I was alone in this
I am crying too :( , i thought that i am going crazy or that something bad is happening with my brain, nobody really believe me, my friends don't even know what i am talking about when i tell them how bad i feel with this condition... but we are in this together! And we are enough strong to get rid of it.
I didn’t realise this was an actual thing, I thought I was just tired and not really with it.
she didn't say she did and even if she thinks she does and/or does have it you don't have to be rude about it
aBEEgail thank you
You could be suffering from narcolepsy if you're chronically fatigued. That's much more likely than the condition which has been described in this video.
Alright, no offence to anyone but I don’t need strangers on the internet telling me what I do or do not/might or might not have. I’m currently seeking actual professional medical help.
Rosie Ferris I hope you figure out what you have and that it doesn't give you much trouble
God, I've been feeling like this on and off since probably midway through quarentine, and you were right, knowing I'm not alone really is pretty comforting. Its so. Frustrating to feel like Im not myself, because I generally LIKE being myself! It makes me feel broken. But this video is kind of helping me feel... idk less broken. Less like this constant feeling is going to ruin my life. Ive recently started like, actually looking for help stopping it and this video existing is just so, *so* comforting. Jesus this is getting rambly but just. Thank you.
I watched this before i realized i had this and derealization is terrifying, but its comforting to know you're not completely alone on that
Its now come to a point where i can sense when im going to derealize and thankfully pretending to pull myself back into my body has been helping
It's so refreshing to have someone talking about this, I have never had anyone who truly understands what I am describing. This open dialogue has encouraged me to talk to my mom and get help. Thank you for all of this positive conversation!
Emory Brinson me too my dude. I may just send this video to my mom to help me tell her about it
+Rachel Webster I hope everything works out! Sending good vibes :)
Emory Brinson awe thank you!!! Same to you fellow spaced out human 😊
This comment is going to disappear under a lot of others, but I wanted to tell you that I heard your song "in the middle" in a store here in France, I so was so supprised ! But I had a lot of fun singing in public one of your songs, it was so weird ! ^^
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Cool!
Vraiment??? Mais c’est trop cooool!!
Mais c'est génial!
Trop cool! Quel magasin?
i come back to this video often to just cry and feel less alone in my feelings of dissociation. thank you for making this, i really appreciate it
www.carolynspring.com/blog/feeling-unreal-depersonalisation-derealisation-disorder/
Dilpreet I’m also Punjabi and it is very painful to live like this.
I feel like I'm living inside a bubble, just existing, not moving any back or forth in life, just seeing everyone from inside it, carry on with their daily life feeling themselves. I don't even feel like I m a part of this world anymore, I feel so disconnected with myself, people, life, feelings, the world, everything. I feel like I m already dead since the day I experienced this and whenever I go outside, I feel lost as if I'm in some different timeline.
Same bruh sameeeeee
And still now i feel the same 🤌
Hey dodie, if net neutrality ends up being repealed in the US, I just wanted to say how much you’ve helped me this past year. It breaks my heart when I think of not ever getting to listen to your music or watch your videos in the same way ever again. Your videos and songs have kept me afloat when I felt like drowning, and I don’t know where I’d be if it weren’t for you. Thank you so much, you’ve helped me feel again. You’ve helped me figure myself out and made me laugh and cry in the best ways. If by any chance you see this, and if net neutrality ceases to be, goodbye.
Rebecca Ogden
I'm so sorry..but I don't think this is the end. People are so outraged at this that I don't think it'll last long. But maybe not. And I hope that maybe you'll be able to watch her still, it mostly depends on your internet provider..
You will still be able to access video just for a bigger price
Hopefully congress will see how upsetting and negatively impactful it will be to people... especially those who can't afford to pay for everything
do you actually know what net neutrality is?? it sucks that it's being repealed, but you can still access the internet lol
Ashley Kane it's for a higher price though bro
Woaaah the descriptions were so good. During one really stressful final exam week, I experienced a bout of depersonalization that lasted a few hours. Thankfully, I managed to google my symptoms and discover what I was experiencing and why it was happening. I think that helped me come out of it (on top of the stressors being gone). It was a horrifying experience, and I can't imagine having it chronically. You are so so lovely, Dodie. Stay strong
basically the last 4 years of my life feel blurry, i can't remember the feeling of being present in our dinner last week, it feels like everything is 2D and I struggle a lot with spacial thinking, which leads me to me being super anxious and scared about driving
This is exactly how I feel. I never feel present and my family doesn’t understand why I hate driving so much.
Something that helps during derealization is socializing and engaging in activities around you. It makes you feel grounded and proves that you're really there. I've had a couple of derealization episodes, which were horrible, and that's helped me. Right now I have less of those, so just know that it'll be okay, those feelings are just temporary if you seek and get the help you might need. I sincerely hope you'll find it and wish you all the best with recovery. x
You go through your normal day, when all of the sudden... everything changes. Nothing fully computes in your head and you feel zoned out. Your brain and body feel like two separate things instead of a full working “machine”.
Or at least that’s my experience with derealization.
I talk about it and nobody understands, so to know that there are people like me; it makes all the difference.
I feel that a lot too! My best friend is the only one who knows and I plan to tell other friends soon but yeah. It’s really strange.
SOS Save Our Seas right?! it’s so nice to feel safe in a community like this- even though it might not be an in person conversation, it’s still a convo with a real person who understands the real experience! (Sorry for the long sentence reply- i’m a bit insane lol)
This one almost made me teary eyed, thank you so much for describing this so well.
Same! The only person I know who knows this feeling is a friend I have, and we don’t even talk a lot. Whenever I bring it up to my friends they look at me like I’m nuts
Tbh sometimes it is worse than this. You feel disconnected even from your brain, like you are not sure if the thoughts are really yours. If there is even you at all
ANYONE ONE ELSE FEEL LIKE THIS : too derealised to talk to your therapist. I walk in and simultaneously faded out of my own body and yet im sitting there and saying im in pain, expressing all that's happened in recent weeks but looking at them, they look bored and annoyed and i realise that all this time my mouth wasnt moving. When it finally does move i end up muttering 'im fine' but they know im not, they just dont know what they can do to help as i cant say it. If ur having this problem, take a notepad in with with and write down ur thoughts as u think them before they run out of ur mind. What u could also do is write a list of feelings in a notepad and when in therapy, point to whichever one ur experiencing - once u start the conversation, it becomes easier to hold on to reality. If something really painful or sensitive comes up remember - u r as real as u want to be and so is the room ur in, the world u r in and the mind u OWN. U arent a slave to it, u just have to learn how to be good roommates :) hope this helps someone. Love to u all❤💜💙
Janai P thank you so much, this is great advice. I haven’t had a ton of problems talking to my therapist, in fact I’m saying more than I ever have, but even then there are a million thought that spring up that never leave my head. It helps a ton to think of your mind as a roommate and not a window you look through, to think of the world as just as real as you are, I really really appreciated this comment. Thank you again.
Ahhhhh thanks for the tips
Janai P Oh how I wish I had a therapist
Janai P sameee
Janai P therapist don't help me 😞
It is incredible to me to watch this again after 3 years. I remember watching this, in tears, when it first came out because It put a name on how I felt a large percentage of the time. Three years later and A LOT of therapy and I RARELY feel this way. The world around me seems more sure and firm. I used to ask my husband daily, “Is this real? Are you real? Are we dreaming?” I now can’t remember the last time I asked him that. It is possible to get better, even when it feels so impossible at times. Of course, I still have moments of confusion and insecurity about reality, but I have trained my brain, as my therapist taught me, to stop believing the doubts! So when a thought comes in of “is this real?”, I tell myself forcefully and with conviction that YES. It is real. Because experience has taught me that I never question reality in my dreams. So if I am questioning, it must be REAL LIFE. Progress is possible, people!
how i explain my depersonalization is like, you know how when you say a word over and over again and it starts to just sound like nonsense? that's very very similar to how i feel when i look in the mirror. the longer i look in the mirror, the more unsettled i become with the fact that this random, weird looking stranger knows all my thoughts and feelings and memories. and the longer i look at myself in the mirror, the more everything else around me starts to become fuzzy and distorted and wrong. and eventually i just become very numb and blank and sad and lost. it's similar to trying to run in a dream: you become lightheaded and confused and it feels like you're stuck at the bottom of the ocean with weights around your ankles. anyway, hope this helped anyone who was wondering what it felt like :)
I am so glad you now know what derealisation is now and that you are getting help for it!
does she still have depersonalization or is it the same thing as derealization?
edit: oop, she answered it.
Karis Lee they are different.
Omg. This cannot be real? Is it Dodie?
It's not real, someone is impersonating Dodie to post spam (or scam or attack) links. Happens to most big youtubers, sadly.
Always be suspicious and assume a fake identity. Never click the link.
If you want to verify someone's youtube identity, click on the avatar and check it is the right person.
At least on PC, the uploading user has their name highlighted in all their comments.
I’m in tears... i had no idea that other people felt this way too.
i have been struggling with this as well for almost a year and had no idea what was happening to me... 2 months later but now im in tears too
this made me feel so much less alone. thank you.
when she says that the sensation 'never did' go away, she really meant 'hasn't yet'
Thank you so much for sharing this. Seriously, this means a lot to me
To me too. And I CANNOT BELIEVE she had it.
I ALWAYS explain it as feeling like I'm dreaming all the time. I've never heard anyone else say it feels like they're dreaming. This was in my recommended and I've never clicked a video so fast because this is so accurate. It's the scariest thing I've ever experienced and do experience everyday. I'm sorry you've had to suffer. It's frustrating.
NessyGames i started experiencing the feeling of “not existing” or not feeling myself in the moment ever since i was around 8 years old, i’m 15 now. But it doesn’t happen all the time, it has been getting better over time. But when i do feel that way i look at my hands and i just feel like i’m a ghost or something. My mom after a few years began being concerned about it and we called the doctor and i told them what my “symptoms” were and I’m not sure if she mention this condition along with anxiety. But is it a similar feeling?
Yes, mostly it feels like my emotions are dulled down. I don't feel real, I feel like I'm in a dream, everything including my memories is a bit of a blur, and I feel numb quite a lot. Everyone experiences things differently. It happens after being through something traumatic/multiple traumatic things and then your brain detaches and tries to protect you by essentially making you numb.
I connected with this video so much as well. Mine comes and goes. And the severity differs as well but when I’m not feeling there I literally can’t get out of bed. It messes with my mind so much! The only thing that helps me is when I get ultra focused on something in a quiet space( so like a UA-cam video in the car or something) or sleeping. It sucks though I can’t even look in the mirror without this overwhelming feeling of that not being me. I had an episode I guess you can call it back a few years ago and I couldn’t stop crying. I went to my doctor and he told me I had allergies!! Now none of my family believes me and they think that I am a hypochondriac. But I have felt what you are feeling I know there isn’t something right with me but I feel like nobody will ever take me seriously.
I always say that im having an out of body experience like astral projection while im awake
NessyGames Yeah I haven’t clicked on anything so quickly..
So I had this for about 4 months ish and I’ve really started to come out of it so here are some tips if your feeling a little lost in your this feeling
1) I always found it much easier to cope when I was happy whilst experiencing this , however happiness comes and goes and you can’t always rely on it. however there is one this that will help you even when you are feeling the lowest of lows and that is..... MEANING. This can be hard for a big reason -life has no inherent meaning, however this gives us the freedom of creating our own so I recommend u draw ur self a lil stick figure of yourself and you write all the things that give you hope and meaning this can be extremely difficult( especially if your inclined to existential dread like moi) but this will get you through rough times by having a reminder that you have meaning and purpose. if you feel lost and meaningless then now is the best time to think about what gives you purpose.
2) ‘living=experiencing’ if you feel really disconnected and spacey just know that that is a state of BEING just as well as joy and hurt and all other feelings you are experiencing therefore you are here and present because of it.
3) you WILL get better! This is really hard to even imagine especially if yours is really bad but if you let it pass and don’t let it overtake you you absolutely will get better. to help me with this I drew a rough graph of my recovery- it has many bumps and many lows but day by day, month by month you will get better. I know because I’ve been there. You can and will overcome this
4) rescue remedy!
5) this is just something that worked personally for me but I found anything science or maths based really good it’s a great distraction and requires lots of focus. In particular biology I found it really grounding- possibly because I’m learning about life.
6) focus on FACTS you are a human that has got a bit to overwhelmed and your brain has decided this is what’s its gonna do for a while. You are experiencing a common coping mechanism your brain uses but your probably thinking about it way to much and it’s the only thing you can think about. It will pass if you simply let it. The coping mechanism was designed to fade away but our “clever” minds decided to ruminate and obsess over this feeling until it becomes controlling. Just experience it when you come out of it you’ll realise how crazy it was to feel like that and how incredibly strong you are
7) write yourself a paragraph to read when it’s really bad this could say things like breathe in and out your just very overwhelmed and this is how your coping, it will pass- For example
8) this is it- this is probably the worst it gets just know that like everything change is inevitable your are coping with dp/dr and living and battling through it. Everyday you chose to live and to breathe is a victory what your dealing with can be an actual nightmare but just know you ( probably) won’t get any worse the only other place to go from here is up ❤️
Alyssa Eve thank you this helped
Did you recover
@@hungryburger6195
Thanks for your comment I actually did, I started fully recovering in the new year and I’ve honestly never been more happy to just feel normal. I very rarely get feelings of dissociation now and when I do I kind of have fun with it and I’m not scared about it (which ironically makes the feeling go completely away) so yeah I would say I completely recovered
@vip yeah a lot of people find general cognitive things a bit harder, memory can also tie into it too so don’t fret it’s all common symptoms!
I'll cry when 6 happens😭😭😭😭God help me
Yeah I've had this since i was a child. I don't remember a time where I wasn't floating. It gets worse when my anxiety disorder acts up so I currently can't focus my eyes correctly. It is incredibly frustrating.
Dude I’m telling you it triggers anxiety
Disassociation is quite frankly one of the most horrifying things I’ve ever experienced. I have PTSD, and in high stress situations I’ll have episodes where I depersonalize or derealize, and the only way I’ve ever known how to describe it is that it feels like your astral projecting and yet your still expected to function like you’re inside your body. My episodes can last a few hours, but I can’t imagine how it would feel to have an episode and never be able to come out of it. Props to you for sharing something like this, especially when it’s so difficult to explain to others who’ve never felt it.
Abi Wilson
While I can't understand what you are going through just know that others dont have to be able to understand in order to help you. If nobody you know is able to help with this right now just know that sooner or later you will meet someone or someone's who will be able to make you more comfortable and happy. I'm proud of you for getting through your life regardless of the struggle. Because that is true strength. Stay strong :)
Abi Wilson Yes! Its exactly like this, Abi.
For me, my disassociation comes for months at a time. I’m lucky that at least it isn’t all the time and it does vary. When I am in a episode, they are strong. I find it feels like I’m just watching a movie and my body moving isn’t really me. It is terrifying. I find making/hearing noise tends to calm me. Especially with repetitive noises, I.e a heat pump or talking or rain
This is really comforting to me
Most of the time I feel like I’m not actually living, I can’t remember where I went on vacation, I forget memories that I should remember (I went for skydiving once and I can’t remember anything), my thoughts get really messy and I can’t recognize myself anymore, and I’ve had multiple episodes where I had to stop myself in the middle of the road to do a reality check because my whole body felt numb
Up until now I thought it was because of my depression, but I just realized that maybe it’s something more than that
Thank you for bringing this up, I’m going to do more research about it and hopefully I can help myself now
oh my god your name is Milena too??? IM NOT ALONE IN THE WORLD?!?
this was made 2 years ago but i came back to the comments again. a year before this video was made i was diagnosed with derealisation. my friend's phone showed this notification because she is a big fan of your music and videos..i was so happy when i read the notification. most people think i'm crazy when i describe how it feels to them, but knowing other people experience the same things makes me feel better about it. we will get through this! i feel like this comment section is a safe space for me to read other people's stories and how it effects them. you are not alone.
thank you for saying this and speaking out. i feel seen and represented. this matter, you matter. sending you love.
my terapist told me 10 days ago that i have depersonalization too. im kinda freaked out because it sucks and what you say about it makes me so scared because i dont think that mine is too bad yet. i hope it doesnt get worse bc it is already really hard to handle.
isabella I have it too. Don't worry, a tip on how to cope, what I always do is when ever I feel stressed and then go into the dream mode thing, I always squeeze something and say "this is reality, this is reality" over and over
I've been through that and it got really worse at some point, and I think you can handle it
stay strong 💛
Nevaeh Carey thank you it means a lot to me! i hope you get better 💛
João Pedro Galindo obrigada!! espero que tu esteja melhor hoje
had derealisation for 3-4 years and now i can say im at least 80% recovered so dont ya worry guys, its not forever and it's there to help you and not harm you, after the period of derealisation is over you will feel everything so strong you will kinda miss being numbed out sometimes haha jk, but yeah i promise you , you WILL feel again
How did you get out?
Thank you so much, all I want is too feel sadness again
@@lebdrbebbdjdjddb6896 yeah me too. seems crazy to others when you tell them that you miss feeling sadness but without sadness nothing really matters.
Howd you recover please help
@@Lana-jg7lg same with me. I now have it rarely. It kinda stopped with me when I got out of depression.. I don't know if it's linked but with me it looked that it was linked to my depression
this vid is honestly so helpful to send to people because dodie explains it so good
I cried the first time I stumbled across this video because I had never heard my exact feelings and sensations put into words so perfectly and it was bizarre because I wasn't even looking for anything related to this or to mental health at all on youtube but it still somehow came up in my recommended videos. Since discovering this over two years ago I've not only discovered my love for Dodie and her music but I too have started my journey to hopefully beating this thing. I've started therapy (twice) once with a therapist who was not a good fit and again recently with a new therapist who I have a better feeling about. She specializes in EMDR therapy which I've heard can help and I'm excited to try. And although I still struggle with all of it I'm hopeful, and this is just my long-winded way of saying thank you thank you thank you for making this.
THIS IS A THING?
I HAVE THIS TOO
AND I WENT TO THE COUNSELOR AT SCHOOL FOR IT
THIS MAKES ME FEEL 1620348273567128904 TIMES BETTER
Magical Guinea Pig I went to the school counselor and was called insane so nOpe never again
Insane bc of the derealization if that wasnt clear lol
juliepoolie oh my god thats horrible!
the counselor at my school said that shed talked to other students with derealization and helps me a lot. dont worry, there are so many people in the comments on this video and just in general that will love you and support you and help you and you are most definitely not insane.
i didn't know what it was called until now, and i get this when i'm really stressed
juliepoolie you are not insane, that’s terrible that you were called that! stay strong 💛💛
When you forget about it you lose the feeling but then you remember it and it comes back
Exactly
nah not for me
not for me
THIS COMMENT RIGHT HERE. This is me, everyday
Yep
i started having derealisation not so long ago, but i found some things that help me sometimes. first of all, i just roll with it like its a badtrip - you can't control it, you just wait until it goes away, because eventually it goes away every time (for people who don't have it chronically). second, i try not to concentrate on it, cause anxiety just makes if worse and do stuff that grounds me: people help a lot - hugging, touching; tiktok and just concentration on one not deep thing
maybe somebody finds it helpful
@bluehawk56 than you should go to a therapist. derealisation is usually just a side symptom for some other issue
I’m so sorry… Mines never went away too..
I literally don’t know how to feel feels like I have to find my personality… this can’t be normal experiencing this constantly 24/7 for 11 yrs
11 years? I’m so sorry to hear that. It sounds like a living hell. I’ve been stuck like this for 2 months and I’m already tired. Have you managed to get better since you posted this?
the first time i watched this i cried tbh. i didnt know this was a thing until this video and i thought i was insane or something. this video is rad and im happy you made it
Boot Snoot same:/
Even though this is a serious issue
I love the fact you’re just getting on with it, not looking for sympathy and making this video purely to educate others and gives tips on how to cope with this😊
I don’t suffer from Depersonalisation or Derealisation but I’m glad you covered this topic to help others 😊💙