I've started to read more books! Please share some of your favorite non-fiction books down below :D Also! DO YOU WATCH GREY'S ANATOMY?! ALSO!!!!!! Do you want a full video about notetaking?
yes i do watch grey's, but im still on season 6 haha. YES YES YES video on notetaking please :). also, im more of a fictional typa girl, so i cant help in that department :p
No one and I mean NO ONE should hate when you cry. It’s an immense amount of vulnerability you’re showing us. Thank you for being honest and real with your herd❤️
We are all human, to expect you not to show a range of emotions isn’t fair. :) No worries I never judge. I’ve had plenty of these days, on my way to work, at a job I hated...at the beginning of Covid when I felt exhausted after working in a COVID unit and it was just a challenging day. Sending Love and positive energy!
Totally agree: this is not how I envisioned medical school to be like. It's so isolating right now, which is why I always look forward to your videos week to week. Its just good to see other students doing the damn thing too. Keep going!
"There's not much to look forward to when you get up and just sit in your chair." I felt that so much as a senior pre-med studying for the MCAT on top of regular classwork.
I always have this question that i want to ask to premed students since i searched on google and there was nothing So why do you guys study premed and take a very hard exam in order to apply to medical school when you can study medicine directly? Like why 3 more years of premed ? If you can clarify this to me i would appreciate it so much Thank you and good luck 💕
@@assil1132 We don't have the option to study medicine as an undergraduate student/right out of high school. Medical schools mandate that you take certain courses before you can apply and that you have a Bachelor's degree in something. Both as "weed out" courses for those who are not dedicated enough and also so they do not have to teach fundamentals in medical school. The entrance exam (MCAT) is the only part of the app that will be the same in how it's scored across applicants which is why they keep it. It is notorious for limiting those of low SES though so there is significant push back on keeping the exam. I'm not sure why the US does it like this when other countries don't but I suspect it's because many students are interested in medicine and then will decide to change course in university after shadowing doctors or volunteering in a hospital. Hope this answers your questions!
also..people need to understand that getting emotional is BOUND TO HAPPEN in medical school or in any other situation...it does not take away from your capability to be professional or a "good doctor." just feel what you feel and don't hesitate to let us know, sending u love and comfort!
Yes a Notetaking video breaking down what you’re looking-listening for pre-during-post lecture is something that I’ve been wanting someone to break down for a long time.
I was using the 3hr study with me yesterday thinking exactly that I'd like to see written vs anki note taking strategies! Thank you, Rachel, for apparently reading my mind?
@Rachel Southard, I just wanted to tell you that you are getting bigger on youtube and that means you are exposed to more people, more opinions, and everything, but every person that subscribed and followed you signed up for your way of being as a human, a medical student, women, etc. So we love you as you are and those who don't shall go and see other UA-camrs, I guess. But by being yourself you have gotten here, so keep doing that. I know that the comments and the pressure to be a certain way can impact your happiness, and that is not something to put at risk. Best of wishes.
I totally feel you when you said that you weren’t stressed,but you weren’t happy either. Completely resonated with that. Ps:- keep the footage of feeling stressed,etc coz it is refreshing in a sense,knowing that many people feel this way.
I definitely shed some tears along with you when you were crying because I felt every word you were saying so hard. I’m also a second year med student and the burn out and exhaustion from being cooped up studying day in and day out for months on end takes it toll. But I so admire your dedication and discipline and hopefully it’ll all be worth it in the end. You got this girl!
It doesn’t seem right that this is the kind of sacrifice medical school requires. Studying all day and spending all your time alone just seems like a recipe for unhappiness to me .
One of my subscribers told me about Libby app - where you can listen to audiobooks with your library card. Totally free. I. AM. ADDICTED! The book, Opening Up: The Healing Power of Expressing Emotions byJames Pennebaker, Ph.D is great.
I'm very happy you included the part where you mentioned you were unhappy about doing the same thing over and over again everyday and how theres not much to look forward to when you know youre just going to sit infront of the computer all day. That made me feel less crazy since i feel like that too
It's funny how I feel like I always relate to your vlogs so well. I literally just spoke to a friend today about how exhausted I've been from studying from my room all day everyday. I'm either on my bed or my desk - I'm tired lol. You're not alone girl ❤
its okay to be stressed, sad, anxious, and overwhelmed! life isn't all peaches n cream. we go through a roller coaster of emotions especially when it comes to certain situations like school or work that challenges us. Rachel keep posting what you post! we appreciate the reality of your life and the challenges of med school! keep being true and real :)
Rachel, I can't even imagine how hard it must be to go through these hard and trying emotional times and also having to decide wheter to include them in your vlog as you said, but I just want to say we all appreciate and cherish every second of your vlogs and I know for me, they are what many times keep me going through the week, I hope you feel better day by day and get rejuvenating sleep. 🖤
Hi Rachel, I'm in law school and I also didn't imagine my second year would be online like this. The mundanity is hard to deal with at times, thank you for talking about it. It is nice to have my feelings validated when you bring up these things. Some parts of online classes have been nice like not having to walk to class in the cold or rain or snow but it's just hard missing friends and teaching yourself everything. I try to be kind to myself if I'm not as productive as I should be because this year has been mentally draining, but it's almost over and classes won't be online forever. Anyway, I really appreciate your positive and grateful attitude for things like getting to go home and see your family and pups, it reminds me to be more grateful for things I take for granted.
If you feel comfortable sharing those vulnerable moments, please continue to do so. There are a great reminder for me that I am not the only one who gets in those weird moods and feeling sad/depressed/just generally not great even though everything seems absolutely fine. I really appreciated your honesty and realness and everybody who does not like that can go somewhere else 😌💛
As a fellow M2 I completely understand how you’re feeling. I miss going to campus and seeing my classmates. I miss going to class and interacting with people rather than watching lectures on 2x speed. Any change in environment at this point feels so refreshing, even if it’s just getting out of the house for a few hours.
something about rachel’s vlogs makes me want to be a better student and overall a better person. this semester was really hard for me and finals made it worse but i will be hopeful and do better next semester 🙂
Hey Rachel, I would just like to say, the reason I watch your videos so religiously is because you show the roller coaster of emotions you're on and I find it easy to relate. I love that about you. You don't show this glamorous Med school experience, with unlimited funds, a nice view from your apartment, and continuous, overpriced meals. It makes me feel like I'm not overreacting about PT school and helps me acknowledge that yes, I am under an insane amount of stress, but I'll get through it even when I feel super overwhelmed. And you will too. Watching your videos helps my mental health and helps me stay grounded. I appreciate you so very much.
Hey Rachel, I just wanted to make sure you know that you are pure perfection and inspiration. You are sometimes the only reason to study sometimes and I really wanted to thank you for that. You are amazing as a human. When I feel down and sad I just binge watch your videos. You really inspire me and I’m sure I can say that about a lot of people here to. We love you 💖 -all the Red Ants💓
I love how open you are about the emotions you’re feeling! It really makes me feel not so alone and really helps that you normalize it’s okay to not always be okay! Please don’t ever stop expressing your emotions in such an honest way, we love it and we’re here for and with you! COVID has been rough on us all and I know we can all relate to each other on this level! Love you Rachel!! ❤️
Rachel I feel you very hard. I’m in med school too and I’m struggeling with the exact same points. I’m just sitting inside my room and studying like 24/7 too and from times to times it really gets hard however this time will pass and we’ll live our normal life again and all the cool and fancy things we expected from medical school will happen, stay strong, you’re so brave!♥️
gosh i relate so much to the sleep troubles and the not looking forward to the day because you know you're just going to trade your bed for your desk... it sucks! and sometimes procrastination gets to me way too much. but we just gotta push through :)
It feels so good to know that I'm not the only one feeling like the days are all the same and there just isn't much to look forward in a day in times like these. Keep working hard Rachel, you truly are an inspiration for me and all of us, love ya xx
dude! you're being honest and transparent, which makes you appear stronger and makes us feel better about experiencing emotions the way we do! it's completely legit, and students everywhere know that feeling right now
I can’t even imagine doing medical school let alone ONLINE!! wishing you the best 😭 I’m an undergrad completing my sophomore year online and it’s really getting rough. It’s repetitive and I totally relate to how you feel tho of doing the same thing everyday. this online school is really tearing my mental health in all honesty
I JUST DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE THINK,that emotions are normal when you tell your whole story,but if you don’t...they will instantly judge you. Emotions are SO FREAKING normal people...why do we even have to apologize and tell the whole story about it,so you don’t judge. Rachel you are THE BEST PERSON EVER.It’s a fact,that you are going to be THE BEST DOCTOR EVER, because of your talent,your hard work,your passion,love and of course YOUR EMOTIONS for patients...you care about the world and that’s what we call emotions💘💘💘💘LOVE YOU FOREVER and thank you for being my best friend 💘💘💘💘
i don't think you should stop sharing the clips where you show your emotions because it makes your vlogs realistic and raw and in some way it personally makes me feel like i'm not alone in this journey and that feeling overwhelmed in medical school is totally normal and okay. so much love from a moroccan med student
Same when I realize people who i look up to still get stressed and upset I feel like I am good enough to achieve where they are at. When all these productivity youtubers seem to be perfect all the time, it can be really discouraging because I feel like I already get stressed out how could I ever get to where they are at. Her vlogs really just motivate me and remind me why I'm working so hard and that I got this.
Thank you for sharing these moments with us. I honestly have been feeling down as well. Being home all day in front of the computer watching lectures and studying alone it's actually very hard. It's a lot mentally. Sending you hugs!!!!!
The end of this video is very relatable. I'm a first year law student and recently it's been extremely difficult to find motivation, get a good night's rest, and fight feelings of anxiety/sadness. Online school is extremely hard and with the nature of such a difficult program like yours, it must be easy to feel burnt out. Hope you're able to find ways to lift yourself up and remain grateful for all the good things in life (gratitude seems to be the one thing that brings me back!) :) Thanks for sharing all the real aspects of post-grad life
If you're worried about showing emotion and crying on here, please don't be. This is exactly what makes your channel unique. The problem with a lot of other UA-camrs is how unrealistically perfect they are. Always overly optimistic, amazingly productive everyday, super organized, 5 am wake up times, etc. You're authenticity make your videos enjoyable to watch, so keep doing what you're doing :)
I can totally relate to the feeling of emotional exhaustion that comes with staying at your desk studying all day everyday, it gets lonely from time to time. It's alright to feel this way, we'll get through this eventually, let's hold on!
Rachel, from the bottom of my heart, you are the most relatable and honest med school vloggers out there. I'm only in undergrad, but I found your content to be very comforting, hopeful, and interesting. Wish you all the best in your future endeavors! Now, back to actually studying.
absolutely love when you include these clips where you're more open about your feelings. makes it feel so much more real and human and also reassures me that i'm not alone. keep up the good work, rachel. so much love! :)
9:48 Totally agree on struggling with happiness and the feeling of discontent. I used to enjoy university, but now I don't feel like I'm an engineering student. I just feel like I'm doing all these assignments and exams without a greater purpose in mind. I feel there is a huge disconnect between the educational and learning mindset and the actual experience of university (or post-secondary education), which is personally why I just don't have much passion for what I'm studying at the moment.
Hi Rachel...please don't apologise for feeling emotional. In fact, many of us appreciate the fact that you are so open about the rollar coaster that medical school is. It makes us med students (especially now in COVID) feel a tad more normal that we're not the only ones feeling emotional. Have a great week :)
I feel the EXACT same way regarding your struggle with doing the same thing, being in the same place and sitting at your laptop every single day. It's HARD. Some days are better than others. It also doesn't help now that it gets dark at 4/5pm everyday. Thank you for sharing this, helps me to know that I'm not alone
Hi Rachel! I've been watching your videos for over a year now and somehow I felt the need to comment on this one. There are so many wonderful things about you and in my opinion, the best one is your ability to be transparent and express your emotions. You are one of the few people on this platform that share the good AND bad parts about your life and I know I'm not alone when I say that I appreciate that so much. I think that your transparency is what makes your vlogs so positive because it shows your perseverance and strength which everyone watching can feel as well. Please continue to show those parts of your life because they help people more than you know
I understand feeling like crap having to sit at your desk all day alone. I’m lucky enough to live with my family and have my kitty cats and doggos to keep me sane. Thanks for sharing your feelings it made me feel better knowing that I’m not the only one feeling that way. Hang in there, you can do anything!! 💗
Seriously it’s perfectly normal to feel down when you’re studying so hard in your room all day all week! I’m sure many more people feel the same way as you do about this situation than other people who like to just pretend everything is going perfectly okay. I like how honest you are because that honest side of your videos is what got me through my studying period and then i passed the exam i was preparing for ❤️
Thanks so much for creating videos like these Rachel and I appreciate how u show the reality of med school- the highs and the lows. I’m a veterinary medicine student and I find these relatable 😄❤️
I love when you cry. It brings humanity and vulnerability to your channel that we can really relate to. We love you so much! Feel all those emotions girl and give yourself grace upon grace ❤️
I think you're such a warrior to get on here and talk about ALL your emotions you are feeling, even with repeated scrutiny from unhappy people who can't be honest with themselves regarding their own feelings more than likely... It makes me so happy to see you continue to be yourself, be real, and post it regardless! #youreallyareaREDANT
Please don’t stop showing the real moments, Rachel. I’m sure it isn’t easy to edit and look back on, but people deserve to see what this journey is really like. It’s so relatable. We all have struggles. That’s the biggest problem with social media IMO, we only see people at their best. It sets unrealistic expectations. Real life is hard. It’s okay to not be okay.
The past week I've been feeling the same way, it really helped to see that i wasn't the only one that feels like my life consists of waking up, watching lecture, studying, keeping up with deadlines.... Thank you so much for sharing! watching your videos have encouraged meet not give up as a pre med student. Stay happy and healthy!
I really appreciate you continuing to show real emotions, im sure a lot of people can relate to your situation. As a full-time uni student that's had to do online study this year I get how hard it is to spend every day in a small room, trying to stay motivated and sane. Still grateful, still passionate but it gets really hard when it seems like the world around you is falling apart. You're doing amazing, thank you for being you and thank you for your content.
I understand the feeling of being in the same place doing the same thing all the time. I wish I could say that I feel better, but it is really hard to feel happy when you stare at the same screen all day every day. I personally find myself making the most of the moments that I get, if I get the chance to be with family, take it. When my dad comes home I spend as much time as physically possible with him. We will be back on campus' soon, just keep going. you are an inspiring person and can make any day better. I want to thank you for including these moments in your videos, it means a lot to know I am not the only person struggling mentally with these hard times.
Seeing this video literally made me feel like im not alone eventhough im spending every day in front of my computer watching lectures and not being able to go anywhere Definitely didnt picture my first year of med school going like this Thank you so much for your content ❤️❤️❤️
I feel like you shouldn’t apologize for having breakdowns or moments when the only thing that makes you feel better is crying. I don’t want your blogs to be sugar coded, I want to see what really happens behinds the screens, and even though I don’t personally know you, I know that once you are done with medical school you are going to look back and think that it all was worth it. Thanks
Please keep sharing the emotional side of medical school and life in general! Everyone has those days and it’s great to see that we are more similar than we think, especially nowadays when everything is not normal. I honestly cry sometimes too because my first year of college has all been online and the same routine gets tiring after a while. I love you Rachel so please continue being amazing and making my week with your videos 🤍
Rachel, I TOTALLY get you! I am a first year grad student in the health care industry and i had moved out of my parents this past July. I WAS NOT happy living away from them and just being stuck in my room focusing on the same thing after a long day of work. I was quick to move back in with my parents after 2 months because I found myself crying every night feeling alone especially during this pandemic. I made the choice to leave and I lost a friend (my roommate) because she didn't understand I wasn't okay being away and constantly told me I was gonna go downhill if I moved back with my parents. Point is, I did what made me happy and I've been SOO much better and even doing better in school. Your videos keep me motivated as well
Thank you for sharing some of the harder parts of medical school. I know I can't entirely understand, but I changed my course to pre-med a year before graduation, so I'm being inundated with really challenging classes. Quarantine sometimes takes the fun and inspiration out of learning. When your 100 square foot life boils down to school, basic hygiene, and meal prep it can feel desperately monotonous and lonely. I appreciate your perspective because it validates all of us who feel like we're stumbling our way through life right now. No one is perfect, especially not in these circumstances.
I love the vulnerability you share in your blogs and you make it seem a lot more real and not all unicorns and rainbows. I also love how you bounce back up immediately after a breakdown and take a moment to reflect your feelings and validate them and keep pushing through! You give me such raw impressions of how med school is and its hard and that's reality and that's what I want to watch. This just shows me you're human and I love these videos of you crying TBH. It's makes me feel okay about crying about school and reminding myself the end goal of it all! -side note: my end goal is PT school so Love hearing what other people go through in the health profession and helps prepare me for what grad school is going to be like!
I totally get that. Waking up, sitting and staring at the screen, trying to get work done till night comes. Its sad. sometimes I allow myself a little time off because it's just too repetitive and there seem to be no learning at this point, merely following my schedule everyday getting things done. So you're not alone! Hang in there!!
I love when you share things like this, it is so true that things are NOT normal and we forget that, at least I know I do. I get bogged down thinking I'm going to be stuck in my room studying forever!
It's so satisfying to be resonating with someone so far off.... I am a medical student too... And my entire life has been attending classes and studying the entire day since the past 6 months and it gets sooo depressing at times.... I just want everything to go back to how it was...
Never fear to be your emotional self. Your red ants tribe stand behind you because you are your authentic self. What you are going through is tough! You can do it! You have the fight, the strength and the brains! Just keep pushing. Much love dear! Couldn't of finished my education without you 💗
I personally love how real your vlogs are and it makes me feel „normal“ because I have days where I feel so unhappy, which does not really have a reason 💗
3rd year student here and I can tell you that it does get better! I struggled hard 2nd year with feeling isolated (especially with COVID). Studying for boards was absolutely awful. But 3rd year is so much better! You still study all the time but you are actually getting to practice medicine and you interact with pts. I know 2nd year is rough but you will get through it. There is light at the end of the tunnel!
Thanks for including that part where you were feeling sad because it pretty much outlines EXACTLY how I've been feeling lately. The monotony of this year is a real weight on mental health, and the encouragement of not socializing when we are social creatures is just a recipe for mental illness. Take care of yourself girl and know that you are helping others by being so vulnerable!
Online classes have fucked up so many of our mental healths! And I constantly remind myself that almost every student is feeling this way.. and that makes me kinda not alone.. You got this Rachel! We can get through this together!
I love how you are open about your emotions. I’ve always felt like people expect you to be okay all the time. It’s reminding me it is not. Literally you are making my day! :)) (also, having similar day everyday... couldn’t relate more!!!)
Hey! Just wanted you to know that your vulnerability makes your vlogs and your channel unique. You're amazing and you've really shown me that everyone struggles, that people like you who are following their dreams and living a generally good life from an outsider's perspective still cry, it makes me feel not alone and watching you accomplish your dreams and working hard every day motivates me and isnpires ke to do the same. You're amazing! However if you don't feel comfortable sharing something don't do it because in the end it's your life and we're all very grateful just to see you every week (in tears or not). We supprt you Rachel!
I actually love your vlogs because you show how medical school really impacts you (especially during corona times). Many of the medical school vloggers just show themselves being super excited all day everyday which is not the reality. It's comforting to know that we all are struggling a little bit and that it's ok to not be fine once in a while. Keep up the good work and stay authentic:)
As a fellow medical student who cried for an hour and a half yesterday because I was around more than 3 people I love for the first time in months, your emotions are valid. This is hard, and everyone is doing their best and sometimes u need to let it out. Sending lots and lots of love
It's totally normal to feel this way and it's so helpful to include these emotional moments! And please just keep sharing them bcz you are a human and not perfect, furthermore, we feel so close to you.
Thank you for always being real with us, I had a really rough week and honestly I think it is also bc of always being in the same room and alone while watching my lectures and studying. Times are tough. I hope you are feeling better!
I’ve always admired your authenticity on UA-cam. It’s nice to feel like I’m not alone and pls know that you’re not alone!!! So many people here LOVE u!! Keep going red ant u got it
Please continue to share your emotions with us!! You do not need to apologize for being a human, with human emotions! I appreciate you for exactly who you are!! Med school is hard, living alone in Covid is hard. I love your videos. Please know that at least one person appreciates you for who you are!
Never apologize for not feeling 100% all the time. Online schooling is hard as heck and I've been getting the blues and feeling unmotivated myself, it felt really good to hear I'm not alone. Love you always. -Amanda
I felt this vlog deep in my heart, I’m in my 2nd year of physical therapy school after actually having to redo my 1st year because I feel into deep depression and chose to not continue with my summer semester and my only option was to have to retake all my first year classes before I could continue to the second year . I was not prepared for the immense amount of time spent alone and studying and feeling like I’m not getting to live my life and also the constant comparison among peers of how many hours people were putting into the content. The grind culture that doctoral programs revolve around is not healthy and honestly just not humane. I chose to make myself and my mental health a priority and I now perform better in school than I ever was when only sleeping 3 hours a night and surrounding myself with books. Balance is so important. From one doctoral student to another, I feel you girl and I hear you!
This is my first year in college and it’s all online. It’s been difficult to be at home all the time so I understand what you have to deal with although I’m sure the stuff you’re doing is way harder. Sometimes it helps me to just think about what I’m looking forward to in the future to get through this hard time.
I think it's very genuine to see you be honest about the emotions you experience. Of course we don't want to see you cry, but it's a great reminder to others who may be feeling similar feelings that they are not alone and it's human. I rarely comment, but wanted to let you know that.
Hi Rachel! You are awesome and an inspiration. I am a first year vet student, and spend all day in many lectures and then studying so I completely relate to how you feel❤️ You can never please everyone, there will always be someone who has something to say unfortunately:/
I typically switch back and forth from my parents and where I go to school because it is a couple of hours away but it definitely helps break up my months! highly recommend!
Please don’t apologize for being human❤️ feeling emotions and having days that are valleys instead of mountain tops is all part of the beauty of life. You are an inspirational being. So happy I am a follower of your channel. Stay strong❤️
I completely feel understand how you feel, studying for long hours all alone is exhausting, especially without family and your pets. Don’t feel bad about including those clips because it helped me realize that I’m not the only student feeling this way. We need things to look forward to because we can’t be productive if we’re unhappy. I hope you have a great week and feel a little better!!💕
Hi Rach! I just wanted to thank you and let you know that I appreciate you showing the raw moments of how you're feeling and everything. Just today, a few hours before you posted this I wasn't feeling very great either. I have been studying for the med school entrance exam for the past 7 months and that has all been in quarantine where I live, so I had a little breakdown due to lack of motivation and well... a burnout. I'm not usually one to comment on here but I just wanted to tell you we appreciate it when we can also relate
As a pre med student you motivate me so much because you show the good and the bad sides of it all and that’s just inspiring in it self how you don’t give up and continue working hard! Thank you for that, love you so much 🥰🥰❤️🥺
I definitely know how it feels to be alone in one's room all day and doing nothing but studying, but hang in there girl, you got this 💙 life now is only temporary!
Thank you so much for not portraying yourself anything other than who you really are. I’m a really sensitive person and I overthink a lot so I cry easily if something doesn’t go my way or if I am dealing with a difficult situation. Your videos really show that everyone is experiencing difficulties but it’s all worth it in the end. So thank you for that :) . Because a lot of the time I think I’m weak for crying even though I know my emotions are valid. The important thing is to push through and try your hardest!
I know some people may complain about expressing emotions but I want to remind you there’s lots of us who love that side of you too! I am currently searching for people who are sharing a more realistic view of life on UA-cam or social media and I think you are a great representation of that! Keep being you, you’re awesome and don’t need to change for anyone!
I've started to read more books! Please share some of your favorite non-fiction books down below :D
Also! DO YOU WATCH GREY'S ANATOMY?!
ALSO!!!!!! Do you want a full video about notetaking?
yes i do watch grey's, but im still on season 6 haha. YES YES YES video on notetaking please :).
also, im more of a fictional typa girl, so i cant help in that department :p
Omg I LOVE GREY‘S❤️
Yes to both Grey’s Anatomy and note taking✨💙
Yikessss! I really want a full video about notetaking!
YES PLEASE
All of us who wake up every day, watch lectures, and study all day felt that.
Oh my gosh yes, it gets so hard
#YouGotThis!
exactly
so true
Amin🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
No one and I mean NO ONE should hate when you cry. It’s an immense amount of vulnerability you’re showing us. Thank you for being honest and real with your herd❤️
We are all human, to expect you not to show a range of emotions isn’t fair. :) No worries I never judge. I’ve had plenty of these days, on my way to work, at a job I hated...at the beginning of Covid when I felt exhausted after working in a COVID unit and it was just a challenging day. Sending Love and positive energy!
Totally agree: this is not how I envisioned medical school to be like. It's so isolating right now, which is why I always look forward to your videos week to week. Its just good to see other students doing the damn thing too. Keep going!
yes! we got each other backs😄
"There's not much to look forward to when you get up and just sit in your chair." I felt that so much as a senior pre-med studying for the MCAT on top of regular classwork.
I always have this question that i want to ask to premed students since i searched on google and there was nothing
So why do you guys study premed and take a very hard exam in order to apply to medical school when you can study medicine directly? Like why 3 more years of premed ?
If you can clarify this to me i would appreciate it so much
Thank you and good luck 💕
@@assil1132 We don't have the option to study medicine as an undergraduate student/right out of high school. Medical schools mandate that you take certain courses before you can apply and that you have a Bachelor's degree in something. Both as "weed out" courses for those who are not dedicated enough and also so they do not have to teach fundamentals in medical school. The entrance exam (MCAT) is the only part of the app that will be the same in how it's scored across applicants which is why they keep it. It is notorious for limiting those of low SES though so there is significant push back on keeping the exam. I'm not sure why the US does it like this when other countries don't but I suspect it's because many students are interested in medicine and then will decide to change course in university after shadowing doctors or volunteering in a hospital. Hope this answers your questions!
also..people need to understand that getting emotional is BOUND TO HAPPEN in medical school or in any other situation...it does not take away from your capability to be professional or a "good doctor." just feel what you feel and don't hesitate to let us know, sending u love and comfort!
Seriously!! People get sad!! I would hope I have a doctor who is able to cry when she feels sad because it’s healthy and an understandable emotion!!!
Yes a Notetaking video breaking down what you’re looking-listening for pre-during-post lecture is something that I’ve been wanting someone to break down for a long time.
I was using the 3hr study with me yesterday thinking exactly that I'd like to see written vs anki note taking strategies! Thank you, Rachel, for apparently reading my mind?
@Rachel Southard, I just wanted to tell you that you are getting bigger on youtube and that means you are exposed to more people, more opinions, and everything, but every person that subscribed and followed you signed up for your way of being as a human, a medical student, women, etc. So we love you as you are and those who don't shall go and see other UA-camrs, I guess. But by being yourself you have gotten here, so keep doing that. I know that the comments and the pressure to be a certain way can impact your happiness, and that is not something to put at risk.
Best of wishes.
You're the reason why I'm excited every saturday morning. Your vids are motivating. Please don't stop making videos🥺
I totally feel you when you said that you weren’t stressed,but you weren’t happy either. Completely resonated with that.
Ps:- keep the footage of feeling stressed,etc coz it is refreshing in a sense,knowing that many people feel this way.
I definitely shed some tears along with you when you were crying because I felt every word you were saying so hard. I’m also a second year med student and the burn out and exhaustion from being cooped up studying day in and day out for months on end takes it toll. But I so admire your dedication and discipline and hopefully it’ll all be worth it in the end. You got this girl!
It doesn’t seem right that this is the kind of sacrifice medical school requires. Studying all day and spending all your time alone just seems like a recipe for unhappiness to me .
I’m sure this is amplified with school being online right now, for sure :/
On top of very little sleep in the later years and as residency begins. Ridiculous!
One of my subscribers told me about Libby app - where you can listen to audiobooks with your library card. Totally free. I. AM. ADDICTED! The book, Opening Up: The Healing Power of Expressing Emotions byJames Pennebaker, Ph.D is great.
Yep Libby app is great! Free audio books, even free ebooks :) love the Public Library!
I'm very happy you included the part where you mentioned you were unhappy about doing the same thing over and over again everyday and how theres not much to look forward to when you know youre just going to sit infront of the computer all day. That made me feel less crazy since i feel like that too
It's funny how I feel like I always relate to your vlogs so well. I literally just spoke to a friend today about how exhausted I've been from studying from my room all day everyday. I'm either on my bed or my desk - I'm tired lol. You're not alone girl ❤
its okay to be stressed, sad, anxious, and overwhelmed! life isn't all peaches n cream. we go through a roller coaster of emotions especially when it comes to certain situations like school or work that challenges us. Rachel keep posting what you post! we appreciate the reality of your life and the challenges of med school! keep being true and real :)
Rachel, I can't even imagine how hard it must be to go through these hard and trying emotional times and also having to decide wheter to include them in your vlog as you said, but I just want to say we all appreciate and cherish every second of your vlogs and I know for me, they are what many times keep me going through the week, I hope you feel better day by day and get rejuvenating sleep. 🖤
Hi Rachel, I'm in law school and I also didn't imagine my second year would be online like this. The mundanity is hard to deal with at times, thank you for talking about it. It is nice to have my feelings validated when you bring up these things.
Some parts of online classes have been nice like not having to walk to class in the cold or rain or snow but it's just hard missing friends and teaching yourself everything. I try to be kind to myself if I'm not as productive as I should be because this year has been mentally draining, but it's almost over and classes won't be online forever.
Anyway, I really appreciate your positive and grateful attitude for things like getting to go home and see your family and pups, it reminds me to be more grateful for things I take for granted.
If you feel comfortable sharing those vulnerable moments, please continue to do so. There are a great reminder for me that I am not the only one who gets in those weird moods and feeling sad/depressed/just generally not great even though everything seems absolutely fine. I really appreciated your honesty and realness and everybody who does not like that can go somewhere else 😌💛
As a fellow M2 I completely understand how you’re feeling. I miss going to campus and seeing my classmates. I miss going to class and interacting with people rather than watching lectures on 2x speed. Any change in environment at this point feels so refreshing, even if it’s just getting out of the house for a few hours.
something about rachel’s vlogs makes me want to be a better student and overall a better person. this semester was really hard for me and finals made it worse but i will be hopeful and do better next semester 🙂
Hey Rachel, I would just like to say, the reason I watch your videos so religiously is because you show the roller coaster of emotions you're on and I find it easy to relate. I love that about you. You don't show this glamorous Med school experience, with unlimited funds, a nice view from your apartment, and continuous, overpriced meals. It makes me feel like I'm not overreacting about PT school and helps me acknowledge that yes, I am under an insane amount of stress, but I'll get through it even when I feel super overwhelmed. And you will too. Watching your videos helps my mental health and helps me stay grounded. I appreciate you so very much.
Hey Rachel, I just wanted to make sure you know that you are pure perfection and inspiration. You are sometimes the only reason to study sometimes and I really wanted to thank you for that. You are amazing as a human. When I feel down and sad I just binge watch your videos. You really inspire me and I’m sure I can say that about a lot of people here to. We love you 💖
-all the Red Ants💓
I love how open you are about the emotions you’re feeling! It really makes me feel not so alone and really helps that you normalize it’s okay to not always be okay! Please don’t ever stop expressing your emotions in such an honest way, we love it and we’re here for and with you! COVID has been rough on us all and I know we can all relate to each other on this level! Love you Rachel!! ❤️
Rachel I feel you very hard. I’m in med school too and I’m struggeling with the exact same points. I’m just sitting inside my room and studying like 24/7 too and from times to times it really gets hard however this time will pass and we’ll live our normal life again and all the cool and fancy things we expected from medical school will happen, stay strong, you’re so brave!♥️
gosh i relate so much to the sleep troubles and the not looking forward to the day because you know you're just going to trade your bed for your desk... it sucks! and sometimes procrastination gets to me way too much. but we just gotta push through :)
It feels so good to know that I'm not the only one feeling like the days are all the same and there just isn't much to look forward in a day in times like these. Keep working hard Rachel, you truly are an inspiration for me and all of us, love ya xx
I submitted my deposit to medical school yesterday!! So excited
dude! you're being honest and transparent, which makes you appear stronger and makes us feel better about experiencing emotions the way we do! it's completely legit, and students everywhere know that feeling right now
I think it’s amazing that you show all aspects of your life and how you try to fight and balance it because that’s real life
I can’t even imagine doing medical school let alone ONLINE!! wishing you the best 😭 I’m an undergrad completing my sophomore year online and it’s really getting rough. It’s repetitive and I totally relate to how you feel tho of doing the same thing everyday. this online school is really tearing my mental health in all honesty
I JUST DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE THINK,that emotions are normal when you tell your whole story,but if you don’t...they will instantly judge you.
Emotions are SO FREAKING normal people...why do we even have to apologize and tell the whole story about it,so you don’t judge.
Rachel you are THE BEST PERSON EVER.It’s a fact,that you are going to be THE BEST DOCTOR EVER, because of your talent,your hard work,your passion,love and of course YOUR EMOTIONS for patients...you care about the world and that’s what we call emotions💘💘💘💘LOVE YOU FOREVER and thank you for being my best friend 💘💘💘💘
i don't think you should stop sharing the clips where you show your emotions because it makes your vlogs realistic and raw and in some way it personally makes me feel like i'm not alone in this journey and that feeling overwhelmed in medical school is totally normal and okay.
so much love from a moroccan med student
Same when I realize people who i look up to still get stressed and upset I feel like I am good enough to achieve where they are at. When all these productivity youtubers seem to be perfect all the time, it can be really discouraging because I feel like I already get stressed out how could I ever get to where they are at. Her vlogs really just motivate me and remind me why I'm working so hard and that I got this.
Thank you for sharing these moments with us. I honestly have been feeling down as well. Being home all day in front of the computer watching lectures and studying alone it's actually very hard. It's a lot mentally. Sending you hugs!!!!!
The end of this video is very relatable. I'm a first year law student and recently it's been extremely difficult to find motivation, get a good night's rest, and fight feelings of anxiety/sadness. Online school is extremely hard and with the nature of such a difficult program like yours, it must be easy to feel burnt out. Hope you're able to find ways to lift yourself up and remain grateful for all the good things in life (gratitude seems to be the one thing that brings me back!) :) Thanks for sharing all the real aspects of post-grad life
If you're worried about showing emotion and crying on here, please don't be. This is exactly what makes your channel unique. The problem with a lot of other UA-camrs is how unrealistically perfect they are. Always overly optimistic, amazingly productive everyday, super organized, 5 am wake up times, etc. You're authenticity make your videos enjoyable to watch, so keep doing what you're doing :)
I can totally relate to the feeling of emotional exhaustion that comes with staying at your desk studying all day everyday, it gets lonely from time to time. It's alright to feel this way, we'll get through this eventually, let's hold on!
Rachel, from the bottom of my heart, you are the most relatable and honest med school vloggers out there. I'm only in undergrad, but I found your content to be very comforting, hopeful, and interesting. Wish you all the best in your future endeavors! Now, back to actually studying.
absolutely love when you include these clips where you're more open about your feelings. makes it feel so much more real and human and also reassures me that i'm not alone. keep up the good work, rachel. so much love! :)
9:48 Totally agree on struggling with happiness and the feeling of discontent. I used to enjoy university, but now I don't feel like I'm an engineering student. I just feel like I'm doing all these assignments and exams without a greater purpose in mind. I feel there is a huge disconnect between the educational and learning mindset and the actual experience of university (or post-secondary education), which is personally why I just don't have much passion for what I'm studying at the moment.
Hi Rachel...please don't apologise for feeling emotional. In fact, many of us appreciate the fact that you are so open about the rollar coaster that medical school is. It makes us med students (especially now in COVID) feel a tad more normal that we're not the only ones feeling emotional. Have a great week :)
I feel the EXACT same way regarding your struggle with doing the same thing, being in the same place and sitting at your laptop every single day. It's HARD. Some days are better than others. It also doesn't help now that it gets dark at 4/5pm everyday. Thank you for sharing this, helps me to know that I'm not alone
Hi Rachel! I've been watching your videos for over a year now and somehow I felt the need to comment on this one. There are so many wonderful things about you and in my opinion, the best one is your ability to be transparent and express your emotions. You are one of the few people on this platform that share the good AND bad parts about your life and I know I'm not alone when I say that I appreciate that so much. I think that your transparency is what makes your vlogs so positive because it shows your perseverance and strength which everyone watching can feel as well. Please continue to show those parts of your life because they help people more than you know
I understand feeling like crap having to sit at your desk all day alone. I’m lucky enough to live with my family and have my kitty cats and doggos to keep me sane. Thanks for sharing your feelings it made me feel better knowing that I’m not the only one feeling that way. Hang in there, you can do anything!! 💗
Seriously it’s perfectly normal to feel down when you’re studying so hard in your room all day all week! I’m sure many more people feel the same way as you do about this situation than other people who like to just pretend everything is going perfectly okay. I like how honest you are because that honest side of your videos is what got me through my studying period and then i passed the exam i was preparing for ❤️
Thanks so much for creating videos like these Rachel and I appreciate how u show the reality of med school- the highs and the lows. I’m a veterinary medicine student and I find these relatable 😄❤️
I love when you cry. It brings humanity and vulnerability to your channel that we can really relate to. We love you so much! Feel all those emotions girl and give yourself grace upon grace ❤️
I think you're such a warrior to get on here and talk about ALL your emotions you are feeling, even with repeated scrutiny from unhappy people who can't be honest with themselves regarding their own feelings more than likely... It makes me so happy to see you continue to be yourself, be real, and post it regardless! #youreallyareaREDANT
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Please don’t stop showing the real moments, Rachel. I’m sure it isn’t easy to edit and look back on, but people deserve to see what this journey is really like. It’s so relatable. We all have struggles. That’s the biggest problem with social media IMO, we only see people at their best. It sets unrealistic expectations. Real life is hard. It’s okay to not be okay.
The past week I've been feeling the same way, it really helped to see that i wasn't the only one that feels like my life consists of waking up, watching lecture, studying, keeping up with deadlines.... Thank you so much for sharing! watching your videos have encouraged meet not give up as a pre med student. Stay happy and healthy!
I really appreciate you continuing to show real emotions, im sure a lot of people can relate to your situation. As a full-time uni student that's had to do online study this year I get how hard it is to spend every day in a small room, trying to stay motivated and sane. Still grateful, still passionate but it gets really hard when it seems like the world around you is falling apart. You're doing amazing, thank you for being you and thank you for your content.
I understand the feeling of being in the same place doing the same thing all the time. I wish I could say that I feel better, but it is really hard to feel happy when you stare at the same screen all day every day. I personally find myself making the most of the moments that I get, if I get the chance to be with family, take it. When my dad comes home I spend as much time as physically possible with him. We will be back on campus' soon, just keep going. you are an inspiring person and can make any day better. I want to thank you for including these moments in your videos, it means a lot to know I am not the only person struggling mentally with these hard times.
Seeing this video literally made me feel like im not alone eventhough im spending every day in front of my computer watching lectures and not being able to go anywhere
Definitely didnt picture my first year of med school going like this
Thank you so much for your content ❤️❤️❤️
I feel like you shouldn’t apologize for having breakdowns or moments when the only thing that makes you feel better is crying. I don’t want your blogs to be sugar coded, I want to see what really happens behinds the screens, and even though I don’t personally know you, I know that once you are done with medical school you are going to look back and think that it all was worth it. Thanks
i get the struggle doing the same thing in the same place everyday can get to you , it always makes me feel overwhelmed
I relate when you cry and it makes me feel like I'm not the only one. You're still doing well which shows that I can also do it.
Please keep sharing the emotional side of medical school and life in general! Everyone has those days and it’s great to see that we are more similar than we think, especially nowadays when everything is not normal. I honestly cry sometimes too because my first year of college has all been online and the same routine gets tiring after a while. I love you Rachel so please continue being amazing and making my week with your videos 🤍
Thank you so much for showing your emotions and vulnerable states it's honestly a relief to see that I am not the only one feeling that way
this is your channel , you should do whatever you please and personally, i love hearing your emotions
Rachel, I TOTALLY get you! I am a first year grad student in the health care industry and i had moved out of my parents this past July. I WAS NOT happy living away from them and just being stuck in my room focusing on the same thing after a long day of work. I was quick to move back in with my parents after 2 months because I found myself crying every night feeling alone especially during this pandemic. I made the choice to leave and I lost a friend (my roommate) because she didn't understand I wasn't okay being away and constantly told me I was gonna go downhill if I moved back with my parents. Point is, I did what made me happy and I've been SOO much better and even doing better in school. Your videos keep me motivated as well
Thank you for sharing some of the harder parts of medical school. I know I can't entirely understand, but I changed my course to pre-med a year before graduation, so I'm being inundated with really challenging classes. Quarantine sometimes takes the fun and inspiration out of learning. When your 100 square foot life boils down to school, basic hygiene, and meal prep it can feel desperately monotonous and lonely. I appreciate your perspective because it validates all of us who feel like we're stumbling our way through life right now. No one is perfect, especially not in these circumstances.
I love the vulnerability you share in your blogs and you make it seem a lot more real and not all unicorns and rainbows. I also love how you bounce back up immediately after a breakdown and take a moment to reflect your feelings and validate them and keep pushing through! You give me such raw impressions of how med school is and its hard and that's reality and that's what I want to watch. This just shows me you're human and I love these videos of you crying TBH. It's makes me feel okay about crying about school and reminding myself the end goal of it all!
-side note: my end goal is PT school so Love hearing what other people go through in the health profession and helps prepare me for what grad school is going to be like!
I totally get that. Waking up, sitting and staring at the screen, trying to get work done till night comes. Its sad. sometimes I allow myself a little time off because it's just too repetitive and there seem to be no learning at this point, merely following my schedule everyday getting things done. So you're not alone! Hang in there!!
I love when you share things like this, it is so true that things are NOT normal and we forget that, at least I know I do. I get bogged down thinking I'm going to be stuck in my room studying forever!
It's so satisfying to be resonating with someone so far off.... I am a medical student too... And my entire life has been attending classes and studying the entire day since the past 6 months and it gets sooo depressing at times.... I just want everything to go back to how it was...
Never fear to be your emotional self. Your red ants tribe stand behind you because you are your authentic self. What you are going through is tough! You can do it! You have the fight, the strength and the brains! Just keep pushing. Much love dear! Couldn't of finished my education without you 💗
I personally love how real your vlogs are and it makes me feel „normal“ because I have days where I feel so unhappy, which does not really have a reason 💗
3rd year student here and I can tell you that it does get better! I struggled hard 2nd year with feeling isolated (especially with COVID). Studying for boards was absolutely awful. But 3rd year is so much better! You still study all the time but you are actually getting to practice medicine and you interact with pts. I know 2nd year is rough but you will get through it. There is light at the end of the tunnel!
Thanks for including that part where you were feeling sad because it pretty much outlines EXACTLY how I've been feeling lately. The monotony of this year is a real weight on mental health, and the encouragement of not socializing when we are social creatures is just a recipe for mental illness. Take care of yourself girl and know that you are helping others by being so vulnerable!
Online classes have fucked up so many of our mental healths! And I constantly remind myself that almost every student is feeling this way.. and that makes me kinda not alone.. You got this Rachel! We can get through this together!
I love how you are open about your emotions.
I’ve always felt like people expect you to be okay all the time. It’s reminding me it is not.
Literally you are making my day! :))
(also, having similar day everyday... couldn’t relate more!!!)
you should totally do a notebook flip through of all notebooks you have/completed so far! it would be so pleasing and inspiring
Hey! Just wanted you to know that your vulnerability makes your vlogs and your channel unique. You're amazing and you've really shown me that everyone struggles, that people like you who are following their dreams and living a generally good life from an outsider's perspective still cry, it makes me feel not alone and watching you accomplish your dreams and working hard every day motivates me and isnpires ke to do the same. You're amazing! However if you don't feel comfortable sharing something don't do it because in the end it's your life and we're all very grateful just to see you every week (in tears or not). We supprt you Rachel!
I actually love your vlogs because you show how medical school really impacts you (especially during corona times). Many of the medical school vloggers just show themselves being super excited all day everyday which is not the reality. It's comforting to know that we all are struggling a little bit and that it's ok to not be fine once in a while. Keep up the good work and stay authentic:)
As a fellow medical student who cried for an hour and a half yesterday because I was around more than 3 people I love for the first time in months, your emotions are valid. This is hard, and everyone is doing their best and sometimes u need to let it out. Sending lots and lots of love
It's totally normal to feel this way and it's so helpful to include these emotional moments! And please just keep sharing them bcz you are a human and not perfect, furthermore, we feel so close to you.
Thank you for always being real with us, I had a really rough week and honestly I think it is also bc of always being in the same room and alone while watching my lectures and studying. Times are tough. I hope you are feeling better!
Greys anatomy making me question my existence all over again
Someone should give this woman a hug
Yes I legit binge watch your videos lmao they’re THAT good.
I’ve always admired your authenticity on UA-cam. It’s nice to feel like I’m not alone and pls know that you’re not alone!!! So many people here LOVE u!! Keep going red ant u got it
Please continue to share your emotions with us!! You do not need to apologize for being a human, with human emotions! I appreciate you for exactly who you are!! Med school is hard, living alone in Covid is hard. I love your videos. Please know that at least one person appreciates you for who you are!
Never apologize for not feeling 100% all the time. Online schooling is hard as heck and I've been getting the blues and feeling unmotivated myself, it felt really good to hear I'm not alone. Love you always. -Amanda
I felt this vlog deep in my heart, I’m in my 2nd year of physical therapy school after actually having to redo my 1st year because I feel into deep depression and chose to not continue with my summer semester and my only option was to have to retake all my first year classes before I could continue to the second year . I was not prepared for the immense amount of time spent alone and studying and feeling like I’m not getting to live my life and also the constant comparison among peers of how many hours people were putting into the content. The grind culture that doctoral programs revolve around is not healthy and honestly just not humane. I chose to make myself and my mental health a priority and I now perform better in school than I ever was when only sleeping 3 hours a night and surrounding myself with books. Balance is so important. From one doctoral student to another, I feel you girl and I hear you!
This is my first year in college and it’s all online. It’s been difficult to be at home all the time so I understand what you have to deal with although I’m sure the stuff you’re doing is way harder. Sometimes it helps me to just think about what I’m looking forward to in the future to get through this hard time.
can you do a video on "Task Management".
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I think it's very genuine to see you be honest about the emotions you experience. Of course we don't want to see you cry, but it's a great reminder to others who may be feeling similar feelings that they are not alone and it's human. I rarely comment, but wanted to let you know that.
Hi Rachel!
You are awesome and an inspiration. I am a first year vet student, and spend all day in many lectures and then studying so I completely relate to how you feel❤️ You can never please everyone, there will always be someone who has something to say unfortunately:/
good luck in vet school!
I typically switch back and forth from my parents and where I go to school because it is a couple of hours away but it definitely helps break up my months! highly recommend!
Please don’t apologize for being human❤️ feeling emotions and having days that are valleys instead of mountain tops is all part of the beauty of life. You are an inspirational being. So happy I am a follower of your channel. Stay strong❤️
I completely feel understand how you feel, studying for long hours all alone is exhausting, especially without family and your pets. Don’t feel bad about including those clips because it helped me realize that I’m not the only student feeling this way. We need things to look forward to because we can’t be productive if we’re unhappy. I hope you have a great week and feel a little better!!💕
Hi Rach! I just wanted to thank you and let you know that I appreciate you showing the raw moments of how you're feeling and everything. Just today, a few hours before you posted this I wasn't feeling very great either. I have been studying for the med school entrance exam for the past 7 months and that has all been in quarantine where I live, so I had a little breakdown due to lack of motivation and well... a burnout.
I'm not usually one to comment on here but I just wanted to tell you we appreciate it when we can also relate
Good luck on the exam! #YouGotThis!
You’re not alone with feeling the major isolation💞 We’re all here for you!! And can I just say the ending clip made my whole week!!
As a pre med student you motivate me so much because you show the good and the bad sides of it all and that’s just inspiring in it self how you don’t give up and continue working hard! Thank you for that, love you so much 🥰🥰❤️🥺
I definitely know how it feels to be alone in one's room all day and doing nothing but studying, but hang in there girl, you got this 💙 life now is only temporary!
It's okay not be okay! Med school is rough and it's normal to be emotional. We support you in every shade of your emotion
Thank you so much for not portraying yourself anything other than who you really are. I’m a really sensitive person and I overthink a lot so I cry easily if something doesn’t go my way or if I am dealing with a difficult situation. Your videos really show that everyone is experiencing difficulties but it’s all worth it in the end. So thank you for that :) . Because a lot of the time I think I’m weak for crying even though I know my emotions are valid. The important thing is to push through and try your hardest!
dude, video speed controller is seriously the best. I couldn't live without it.
I know some people may complain about expressing emotions but I want to remind you there’s lots of us who love that side of you too! I am currently searching for people who are sharing a more realistic view of life on UA-cam or social media and I think you are a great representation of that! Keep being you, you’re awesome and don’t need to change for anyone!