when you said "[medication] kills who you are" it really struck a chord in me. i have bipolar type 2 and bpd with paranoid ideation and i'm tired of feeling like a slave to my brain chemistry. i absolutely believe that medication can be a useful tool when it comes to managing symptoms of mental illness but i also feel like it's often abused. it shouldn't be the first response to every problem mentally ill people have and alarmingly it's often the ONLY response. if (insert any mental illness here) is medication resistant it feels like there's little to no help available for it because it simply doesn't exist outside of medication. it's incredibly depressing when your choices boil down to taking borderline harmful cocktails of drugs or getting stuck in a psychiatric referral loop because no one knows how to deal with you.
@@daplayer1098 if they claim to be professionals then i expect them to act like it and know what they're doing. point blank period. mentally ill people are vulnerable by default and many of us are literally putting our lives on the line just by trusting these "professionals", only to be mistreated and abused. especially in psych wards etc where most of that stuff happens.
@@iconique93 Uhh right, I get it. Sorry because for some kind reason when I read "NO ONE knows how to deal with you" I inmediatly thought about family members and friends 😅... So I think I was reffering to that group of people hehe and I also know that doesn't make sense since you were talking about DOCTORS, but you are right about what you said lol
it's all good, it happens!! i mean i assumed you were talking about doctors in your response to my earlier comment lol. 💀 when it comes to family and friends it's much more tricky because you can't hold them to the same standards that you'd apply to professionals, though just loving and supporting your mentally ill family members and friends goes a long way, and when you pair that with education it becomes much easier to deal with.
I have bipolar 2 and I take Lamictal. Zero negative side effects for me and literally can't have side effects of weight gain and sex drive etc like most other meds. It's a very very good medication with minimal possible side effects. Biggest one I have is that it fucks with my word recall sometimes where I forget the word I'm trying to say. But in the face of seroquel and other stuff, or suicidal depression, it's wonderful
I haven’t been to your channel in a while. Since then I’ve been hospitalized twice for attempting and 3 years ago in April, it’ll mark my diagnosis of bipolar 2. Since then I think I’ve been on 4 mood stabilizers and antipsychotics? I now take lithium and Lamictal, clonazepam, lunesta, and something else for my thyroid. It’s the best combination I’ve had, but I feel myself slipping again. Constantly exhausted, could care less about a lot of things... just shit. I’m still trying to lose weight from this one med I was on. Made me seriously gain some weight. Idk man, I get you. And how you mentioned these old medications, I feel weird as hell taking lithium. It kinda works, but I don’t want to be on it long term. Sometimes I question everything. Hang in there.
I stopped meds last year. The worst part from stopping was the suicidality. The best part was the numbness was gone. Still going strong and i don't plan on going back on them. I took them for 10 years too
i have an issue where i sleep a lot in order to force myself to wake up. everyone even asks me oh have you been taking your meds bro? i'm like get a look at me; im depressed, really depressed of course i am. it's as if people don't care about me at all (deep down) and want to use mental illness or a brain disease as a reason to put me in a box. i wish people gave a shit and let me be and heck even just allow me to act and behave in my own way... i'm not hurting or effecting anybody on or off medication.. but let me reiterate, mental illness or a brain disease tends to place oneself in a box by others so often.
Sorry to hear your story man. For me antipsychotics have changed my life for the better. I wrote a book on my life story. Love your videos bro keep up the good work.
I get that man. It’s so frustrating to feel like everything you’re doing isn’t getting you anywhere. Hopefully you find a treatment that’s good for you soon. Life is just really sucky right now unfortunately.
You are a beautiful soul and you are totally not alone. I hope you become well and take care of yourself. I am glad to be able to know and understand what you have been going through and compare it with my life. I say you are spot on when it comes to the medication's side effect. It is something that only the people taking the medication would know as oppose to mental health professional who never take these pills and don't know what we are going through all this time.
I feel this. antipsychotics make me feel more emotionally blunted than I usually am, make me ungodly hungry, gave me TD and my symptoms, albeit lessened, are still ever-present. over it.
When our health care system is designed to be a for profit system it's not surprising that there's no real change in helping people with mental health problems bc who are they going to profit off of if we find ways to improve people's lives? It's disgusting and this for profit system needs to change 😔💔
I've felt the same way.been in mental hospitals around 16 times. I'm not on medication I'm 48 it gets easier the older you get but sometimes symptoms get a little stronger but you know why you feel the way you feel and that helps your videos are helping people keep making them
It's so good I have found this chanel. I see, that everyone is free to share opinion and experience. 3 years ago I was diagnosed with psychotic depression. We tried antidepressants+ anticonvulsants. But I still had symptoms. Then my doctor decided to try antipsychotics (atypical antipsychotics). Very low doze... But I got even worse. The main problem for me is aggression. Just can't control it. We had no choice but to cancel my antipsychotics. Thank you for sharing this video! Now I see, that a lot depends on chemistry in our brains. And sometimes regular treatment doesn't help. I don't complain. Now I am better, but afraid to have one more episode.
İt’s amazing to hear from you again! I nearly stopped eating again, i never took my medications. But luckily, i forced myself and had a small breakfast. I am quite worried about myself because it’s quarantine in my country so i can’t go to the clinic anymore. I watch your content a lot, it’s so amazing to learn about schizophrenia from a patient like you! I hope you’ll feel better soon and post more!
I’m glad you and your family are staying safe from COVID now! I miss you! I hope you’re doing well. You can always reach out if you need someone to talk to. ❤️ I’m sorry you’re having a hard time with your medication. I get that.
the mental health system is still in great need of improvement, sure we aren’t beat and tortured anymore but that’s a low standard. i’ve been hospitalized 10+ times and it is known that they try you on as many medications as they can at high doses in a short amount of time to numb you out so they can discharge you asap. my boarder line/ptsd/anxiety/ocd/adhd was always so severe that i would be in there for weeks unlike most who are given a week at most. how could one heal in a weeks time? i never found any comfort in medications and they had me on intense medications (lithium being one) i quit cold turkey at one point all 7 different medications i was on and since then have been trying to cope and take control of my treatment now that i’m an adult and stay sober but it feels impossible at times. i have tried a few medications since and have the worst reaction. i tried clomipramine and it caused me to have a 24 hour + long panic attack along with hallucinations. i’ve been in/out of treatment and seen by so many different people, it’s a gamble if you’re going to be seen by someone who has your well being as priority. something i try to remind myself during these times is that it will pass- the panic attack will pass. the anger will pass. the emptiness will pass. the hurt will pass. it is temporary, everything is, there is a comfort in that i believe. it can take a long time, trust me i know, but i try to remain hopeful for better days. i see social media romanticize mental illnesses all the time and it’s sickening, but for those who are truly in urgent need of treatment/support are left to suffer; as you said, so many are homeless/jailed sadly.
Same here. Tired of taking medication. Gained lots of weight and makes me feel bad. Feels like a burden sometimes. I know if I stop taking it, the weight melts of and feel better. But last time I did that had the worst relapse to date in 3 months. Thank God I'm still alive. What is holding us back from getting off meds? Isn't are battle not against flesh and blood but against the evil spiritual forces of this world. That is what's holding me back too.
(Schizoaffective here) I absolutely 100% agree that no meds EVER have taken away all the symptoms. I also get anxiety REALLY bad... not much ever helps. Currently at the max dose of Seroquel. I know it's bad but I've stopped a lot of meds because I just gave up.
I understand being tired of anti psyches tbh. I got off of mine this year, though I will say that anti psyches helped me a lot and was the only thing that made me be able to function/feel better. Ever since getting off of them, i still get symptoms of psychosis, but weirdly those symptoms have changed into something better if that makes any sense? Before taking anti psyches, my psychosis was heavily centered on what can closely described to "bad luck" (except on a supernatural systematic level.) But ever since taking anti psyches (for about 4-5 years) and getting off of them, my psychosis now heavily focuses on good luck and protection of that good luck. And even with the psychosis related to more sinister things, it's easier for me to "logic" my way out of it. For example, I was extremely suspicious that their were hidden cameras in my apartment that were watching/hearing me and that's why people laugh at me when I go to take walks, but i was able to to tell myself that it doesn't matter cause I never seen these hidden camera tapes on me released to the internet or UA-cam, so it shouldn't matter. Anti psyches are definitely not for everyone tho and that's the unfortunate thing about meds, it can suit some people and do horrendous things to another. Kinda like therapy. Literally therapy did nothing for me, but has saved countless other people who may feel like meds aren't beneficial to them or enough for them. If I compare my untreated psychosis to my psychosis after treatment, it's so drastically different and I never expected that to be honest. Anyways, sorry for rambling!
@@Slawsers It's been years since I've been sent to the psych ward, and I promised myself I'll never go back and I intend on keeping that promise :) Thank you for your concern though!
@@OneWhoPullsTheStrings oh congrats awesome 👏 glad your illness is going well and you’re fighting it fine that’s a good promise I’ve also made lol you must have good support around you to be off meds
Most of the doctors don't even have these illnesses themselves, so most of them just can't, or don't want to understand it. Feels like, they just want to shut you up with these medications. And the more tired you get, the more you don't want to take your medications anymore. So in the end, you're like still feel extremely horrible, but you still feel better without all the tablets. And that's probably one way to break out of the vicious circle of medication. It's like even when you think you can't get worse...it always can. With tablets. In the end, I guess you just cherish the way you're feeling and stay where you are, somewhere in between horrible medication, and the horrible distorted reality...
I feel the exact same way about the mental health system, they haven't a clue. Most of the time when seeing any therapist it quickly begins to feel like you're a test subject unless you lucky enough to get one of the rare ones like Dr. Mate Gabor.. Anyways, I appreciate your channel! We're not alone in our troubles..
I suffer from bipolar 1 with psychotic features and totally relate to how antipsychotics don't take away all the symptoms. To my knowledge, APs are supposed to lessen the severity of the episodes but not fully get rid of them. When I'm off them, I can really feel how severe my illness can get so being on them is essential for me.
Interesting insights man. I'm hoping to be a psychiatrist one day and just stumbled across this channel. Hearing your perspective & experiences with anti-psychotics is very useful. Take care & stay safe!
I feel the same. medication make me lose all motivation to do nothing.. also lag of workout for me. I always to go to work until my keyworker make me lose my job and go back to medication, all medication all have side effect. no medication can make you transforme your best self. there one time I refuse to take my medication for 3 month straight I was working out everyday until they told me.. if I don't take medication I can get recall kinda like blackmailing me...
I am soo tired of medication too! I have been on antipsychotics for 29 years now. I had the COVID19 vaccine yesterday too and have had bad side effects from it. It’ll pass but it’s just rough 💚
Vaslav Ninjinsky was a world famous dancer who became schizophrenic in 1919 and was in and out of institutions for the rest of his life. Anti-psychotics were not around and he was unable to recover without them, and got more and more incoherent to the point where he did not speak anymore. He also hallucinated at times too. However, after 30 years of not speaking, him and his wife walked into a bar one day. Musicians were playing one of his favorite tunes from childhood, and he danced eloquently to the music for the first time since he had lost his mind, impressing the musicians with his skills. He drank, talked, and laughed with them, which helped him finally learn to speak again. Sadly he died about 2 years later, but the fact that he got to dance, speak coherently and laugh again after 30 years of madness moved me to tears for hours - and I'm an emotionally flat schizotypal who rarely cries. I read his diary and it fucked me up because I have written disorganized speech similar to his for 7 years, and it was like I understood. His diary inspired me and made me feel emotions again for the first time in years. It also inspired me, because my brain scrambling around language will not stop me from achieving my dream, which is to become a writer. "I know that if everyone thinks I am a harmless madman they will not be afraid of me. I do not like people who think I'm a dangerous lunatic. I am a madman who loves mankind. My madness is my love for mankind" - Vaslav Ninjinsky. "I worked hard, but later I lost heart because I noticed that I was not liked. I withdrew into myself. I withdrew so deep into myself that I could not understand people. I wept and wept..." ~ Vaslav Ninjinsky "I know many people will say that I write nonsense, but I must say that everything I write has a deep meaning." ~ Vaslav Ninjinsky "I have come to the conclusion that it is better to write than to speak nonsense" ~ Vaslav Ninjinsky Before I flood your comments section with a damn novel; Vaslav Ninjinsky was the schizophrenic that truly inspired me and made me feel like I had to keep going, because he kept going and his diary and his pictures still influence minds to this day (no film of his dancing remains). He was always a strange introvert long before he became schizophrenic - he was a famous beautiful man but he hated parties, hated socializing, was clearly intuitively overloaded easily, stared at his hands instead of making eye contact, got irritated and angry easily, spoke tangentially and metaphorically when he did speak, and had serious trouble navigating everyday small talk and speech... Just like me, except my body is female and I am not famous. Reading his diary was like looking into a mirror. What truly intrigues me about him though, is the fact that when he first went schizophrenic they tried to show him his dancing, his pictures, his choreography, his paintings, but none of it made him feel better. None of it made his thoughts straighter. Reading his diary, it makes sense to me because he was mentally traumatized from dancing due to being sexually abused by certain patrons (he writes in his diary "all those dances were death") Also, his pictures were largely of WW1 related subjects - The outbreak of WW1 caused him to be placed on house arrest during his first mental breakdown, and his very last formal dance he brought out a chair, creepily stared at the audience for a half hour, then stood up and said, "I will now dance you the war... The war in which you did not prevent". However, while all of that failed, 30 years afterwards a song from his childhood that he loved was what triggered him to dance and speak clearly again. ~~~~~~ Good luck on finding medication that works for you. I am glad that there are options for those of us on the schizophrenic spectrum, unlike poor Vaslav and the countless people who suffered horribly without them. I am schizotypal apparently (they are confused with me, but that is my label for now) and meds are supposedly optional for me. I appreciate your honestly about them and I know that they are not a fix-all for my symptoms like I originally hoped. The psychiatry field has remained stagnant for too long - perhaps one day humanity will collectively focus on a cure for mental illnesses like it did on a vaccine for Covid19, when humanity finally decides to care about illnesses and diseases beyond which ones impact the economy and which ones do not (and the ones that do not do not get any attention of course).
I appreciate what you are saying and there are many serious problems with medications but it’s not good to generalise. Some ppl have schizophrenia so bad that they don’t know or accept that they are having delusions. And for some people those drugs offer real symptom relief. The side effects are still bad but some people are really helped.
So so nice to c u again, i chk every so often now to c if a new video has bn posted. I can imagine the frustration. I hope things get btr somehow. I truly miss your videos. ✨⭐💛
When I was severely depressed back in high school I would hear voices telling me to cut myself,to kill myself,that no one loved me,that I was worthless,but I also sometimes see shadow people at night in my room staring at me and it makes me really paranoid
I suggest you read about open dialogue therapy, a non-drug treatment for schizophrenia developed in Finland. You can also read about medication-free treatment being given to people with psychosis in Norway. Open dialogue is also occurring in Vermont in some places. But you are right, people abandon and leave behind the mentally ill constantly. Things have changed very little. Most people do not remit on the drugs. They are more about keeping people quiet and making them less bothersome.
Im tired of medications it caused me to become pre diabetic and to have a cholecystectomy too I was wrongly diagnosed with Schizoprehnia because i made destructive suicidal mistakes more then one time, and now im left with actions speak louder then words and I can't win against my doctors or the system itself
i remember the first dr who tried prescribing me medication asked me if i trusted her. i lied and said yes and she proceded to tell me about a medication she wanted me to take. after i tried it for a week i felt super down and had a headache so i stopped taking them. i told her why, she got mad and told me she wasnt going to see me again. on my meds now but because my mom has called the cops on me for wanting her help not just meds.
Hey Jacob, I agree about medications, in the sense that I also to a large extent use my medications (lithium and antipsychotic) as a sleep aid. Even though I'm sure they're doing other things, too. Then again, not sleeping is a symptom of mania, so making me sleep is part of what it's supposed to do, you could say.
Anti psychotics help tone down the extreme scales of certain behaviour, thinking, etc. Brings things into a more 'normal' scale even though it is not felt perhaps it is experienced from the outside I believe.
I agree. Yeah. I am a voice hearer (schizophrenic, whatever). And I am forced to take antipsychotic injections since the end of 2018 because I am under AOT Court order. I have been on several antipsychotics and I felt like shit on all of them. Right now I am on fluphenazine decanoate. But I sure don't want to be on it especially recently because recently my brother told me that an ophthalmology resident told him that fluphenazine decanoate is in a class of drugs called phenothiazines which accumulate in the retina and result in blindness. So I don't want to be on this antipsychotic but I don't think it is likely that there is another one that I can be on either as I am kind of managing on the one I am on now and I have bad experiences with other antipsychotics. I suffered akathesia on Haldol. I couldn't enjoy food on Risperdal and invega systenna. And I was a zombie on others.
I know how you feel. I've been on meds for the past 7/8 years. I'm currently on Sertraline (I'm from the uk I'm not sure of the US name of this) and it's okay. I'm potentially on the autistic spectrum are going through a diagnostic process currently. I'm finding that I'm so bored of taking these meds that just sort of don't do much and give me crappy side effects. They recommend seroquel to try but the side affects seemed worse that the sertraline. I hope you manage to switch okay and that the side affects aren't too bad. Good to hear from you Jacob💗
I'm on paliperidone its the only antipsychotic I have ever been on since being diagnosed with schizzoaffective disorder back in 2016 and the only side effect is weigh gain but I have a handle on that now other than that no side effects as for America and mental health you guys have alot of awareness and education necessary id say in my country new Zealand I have never experienced the negative stigma so far like people here are pretty understanding and accepting like its not really made fun of or ignored and if people do do that its usually based of their lack of mental health awareness damn I dont know I feel so lucky in my country
Exactly, ppl with mental health issues are treated like shit. Psychiatry aint even trying to do proper examination. You come with psychosis, get antipsychotics, go home. And they make your whole heatlh even worse. I am just second grade human.
Can you make a video of what the months to year leading up to your first episode was? Sorry btw if you already made this video. I was learning about schizophrenia in my psychology class (psychology major) and learned about the "Prodromal" stage of schizophrenia, where the person hasn't had their first full episode yet but experience borderline psychotic symptoms and other stuff. I was wondering what your experience was like, if you experienced that, and what it entailed.
Meds have barley changed. Hell, the understanding of mental illness hasn't really changed. Each individual person with a mental illness is so vastly different from each other. People brush it off like something we can just smile through. It needs to start getting treated like and other sickness. All the meds ive tried made my metal state worse or just shut me down. Its a nightmare 😂
If im lucky I sleep 2 hours most nights. Been like that since I was 15 with terrible health consequences. I stumbled upon weed a couple years ago and that removes that problem completely without any negative side effects. It's not for everyone but it has improved every aspect of my life
I was wrongly diagnosed with schizo affective disorder bi polar type and they put me on seroquel for a year and it destroyed me. I felt like absolute shit. Got properly diagnosed with PTSD and I'm so glad to be off the antipsychotics. When I was going through the withdrawal though that also sucked for a few weeks
Hey man I wanted to ask. Do you suffer from Depersonalization and/or Derealization in addition to your Schizophrenia? Im curious cuz people sometimes say the two disorders can go hand in hand.
(note, yes just rambling here, blame it on insomnia and getting sleepy so my mind wanders) You have mentioned before that when you have gone off medication it got so bad that you had to go to the mental hospital. I'm sorry if that is not the right term (mental hospital). I did know of a guy who was on one of the first-generation antipsychotics and he was very very sleepy and zombie-like, almost catatonic. I know with what you said before that it is hard for you to trust people so I hope I am not annoying you. It can scare me or rather I thinking too much if I should comment because I don't want to Piss ya off but I think my current sleep deprivation/insomnia can make it easier for me to not think toooooo much that I end up not even making a single comment even though you are cool opening up to us. I like that and it is inspiring you can talk on cam and all that (my social anxiety is too bad to do that right now). Oh, I have had a history of OCD. That was quite nuts but I tried to fix that part of myself. I do sometimes have some OCD though. It's just built into my, I think Nature/genes not nurture. My mom had it a lot checking the lights and stove etc before we leave just to make sure A fire wouldn't start. Well I know I am rambling. You also have said you can find people annoying (I think you said that) or rather you maybe don't find them annoying but you distrust people. I hear ya there. I will cut this short even though I just wrote a novel of sorts. LOL. oh I am a big enough watcher of your videos to know you like Lions. That is soooooo darn random. They are majestic animals. Well, that is all for now. Thanks for browsing this log comment or maybe one of your subscribers will just like it, not sure why. Oh and they say people making comments helps with that UA-cam algorithm. So At least I contribute that way. Thank you for updating us on your life. Some of us do truly care. I think it's my MBTI personality type. INFP who are usually pretty weird. Now I am starting to overthink all I wrote and just want validation from your fans, etc even if they neer comment I just don't like to be a burden. Yeah, Issues 101 here. LOL. Bye, for now, yup, again, these of us who I think matter have liked you making relatively more videos lately. Those are the people who should only matter, I just personally think. F the rest I say. You reveal how your family is doing, you're a class act, and I'm not sucking up to you there. lol. We who do not judge you I hope matter the most but whatever you think is the best thing since you are a unique individual. Heck, I wrote too much. forgive me folks, (I am trying to be humble) but then if I say I am sorry some take advantage and think, oh this guy is a man and just being weak apologizing. But yes,, I just wrote all this to reveal to you and others who like comment reading that others all around have their issues too. I OVERTHINK so much it p's me off. at least I have entertained some folks. I annoyed some, made some think ph I can relate to you JasonOnEarth, and others will be very critical and say I should not type too much. Hey with my past withs social anxiety keeping everything to myself at least I am trying something new. there's always a not constructive but destructive person out there. lol peace take care, love the Lions.
I am taking haldol. It got rid of all hallucinations. The only thing is that I don’t feel like doing anything. No motivation. But I wish we all feel better
Try to do morning exercise, it really gets you going throughout the day, made me feel much better. Since you got nothing to do, try learning a new language, that's what im doing. I taking a truofloperasine with correctors, Best one so far, with not much side effects, im not gaining weight which is important. Just a bit of a lack of motivation. In States, do you get pension for being ill? Here we have some but not much.
I love your long hair! But I totally agree with what your saying. What type of scitzophrenia do you have? Type 1 or type 2? I've been diagnosed with unspecified scitzophrenia. What a bummer. Mental disorders are such a mystery. By the way, your the only youtuber I find myself relate too. And the sad part is is it doesn't go away. Once your diagnosed they can change what type of disorder you have but you'll pretty much have it until the day you die. It doesn't go away. And medicine only makes you brain dead or at least for me I feel that it does. Not that I'm brain dead but I feel like I am. I don't know what it's due too. Maybe the medicine?
Looks like you're having a hard time with the negative symptoms(Apathy, anhedonia, abulia and stuff), I'm no doctor, but you should really consider talking with ur doc about Low Dose Amisulpride, or Low Dose Aripiprazole, in my experience these have been very beneficial for my apathy, and many people benefit from these 2 APs. Best of luck man!
This is very true!. Last couple of months my doctor put me up a dose of 20 mg of abilify and it changed my life for the better. I can focus. I'm not bored anymore. I love life. Much more motivation and everything else. I'm also on LIthium oral and invega sustenna injection. I'm schizoaffective bipolar type btw
Buy a vr quest 2 it motivates me to go into another reality and get really good workouts till I’m dripping sweat and all my depression and worries go away from being so tired doing cardio with beatsaber a rythem game and thrill of the fight a boxing simulator also if you want to practice socialization do vrchat and If it gets awkward you can leave the world to another
I will just say that although I wasn't diagnosed with schizophrenia, I nonetheless had some psychotic depression at some point, and thus took the generic equivalent of seroquel. It had its benefits, but the medicstion wasn't always fun. Felt so lethargic. Also took anti-depresssnts and those had little benefit for me at all. I think "genetic medicine" is of utmost importance. If developed, it may be the case in the future, that doctors and chemical engineers, pharmacists, geneticists, and psychiatrists can help tailor medicine that our bodies respond to, and would also chart out, or be aware of, the genetic factors affecting medicine response.
If you tried to gradually get off the neuroleptics and live a year without them. You can get used to the voices, they do not carry anything terrible. You can ignore the hallucinations. Then you would be able to assess whether it is better for you to take the pills or live without them.
I have a question for you or anyone else who suffers from schizophrenia, my brother has paranoid schizophrenia, he has had it for about 12 years now, during these years he has changed so much, he has become sooo angry, he went from being the calmest mellowest person to the most angry person, he constantly calls me names, harasses me for not taking care of him and tells me he wishes I was dead, he does it to me and my parents and brother, I took care of him for 8 years and realized I couldn’t do it anymore due to it affecting my little kids... anyways is this a normal thing for some people with schizophrenia
I feel like we are still so far from understanding how to really treat mental illnesses. Hopefully we will be able solve the problems that come with mental illnesses without sapping the life force outta people. You’re not alone a lot of people feel this way about medication. Unfortunately going off meds isn’t a healthy option with a challenging illness. Let’s just hope within our lifetimes they will be able to provide more helpful management or even cure all these mental illnesses.
Have you ever seen a cat catch a bird and clench its jaws when you try to take its prey away from it? Your hallucinations will also keep you when you try to get away from the pills. But if you persist, they will loosen their grip.
Try like 2,000+ mgs of Niacin daily. IDK I read that in a book saying it prevents schizophrenia, of course you do your research and do the talk with your doc. Have a nice day everyone :)
They say that people with type O blood are more immune to covid so maybe you have type O blood too. My dad has Type O and i might too since i was around many people and never gotten covid either
Abilify made me restless too I couldn’t sit still even for a minute
this the worst thing its called akathisia
when you said "[medication] kills who you are" it really struck a chord in me. i have bipolar type 2 and bpd with paranoid ideation and i'm tired of feeling like a slave to my brain chemistry. i absolutely believe that medication can be a useful tool when it comes to managing symptoms of mental illness but i also feel like it's often abused. it shouldn't be the first response to every problem mentally ill people have and alarmingly it's often the ONLY response. if (insert any mental illness here) is medication resistant it feels like there's little to no help available for it because it simply doesn't exist outside of medication. it's incredibly depressing when your choices boil down to taking borderline harmful cocktails of drugs or getting stuck in a psychiatric referral loop because no one knows how to deal with you.
But if no one knows how to deal with you... How do you expect them to act if they don't know what else to do?
@@daplayer1098 if they claim to be professionals then i expect them to act like it and know what they're doing. point blank period. mentally ill people are vulnerable by default and many of us are literally putting our lives on the line just by trusting these "professionals", only to be mistreated and abused. especially in psych wards etc where most of that stuff happens.
@@iconique93 Uhh right, I get it. Sorry because for some kind reason when I read "NO ONE knows how to deal with you" I inmediatly thought about family members and friends 😅... So I think I was reffering to that group of people hehe and I also know that doesn't make sense since you were talking about DOCTORS, but you are right about what you said lol
it's all good, it happens!! i mean i assumed you were talking about doctors in your response to my earlier comment lol. 💀 when it comes to family and friends it's much more tricky because you can't hold them to the same standards that you'd apply to professionals, though just loving and supporting your mentally ill family members and friends goes a long way, and when you pair that with education it becomes much easier to deal with.
I have bipolar 2 and I take Lamictal. Zero negative side effects for me and literally can't have side effects of weight gain and sex drive etc like most other meds. It's a very very good medication with minimal possible side effects. Biggest one I have is that it fucks with my word recall sometimes where I forget the word I'm trying to say. But in the face of seroquel and other stuff, or suicidal depression, it's wonderful
I haven’t been to your channel in a while. Since then I’ve been hospitalized twice for attempting and 3 years ago in April, it’ll mark my diagnosis of bipolar 2. Since then I think I’ve been on 4 mood stabilizers and antipsychotics? I now take lithium and Lamictal, clonazepam, lunesta, and something else for my thyroid. It’s the best combination I’ve had, but I feel myself slipping again. Constantly exhausted, could care less about a lot of things... just shit.
I’m still trying to lose weight from this one med I was on. Made me seriously gain some weight. Idk man, I get you. And how you mentioned these old medications, I feel weird as hell taking lithium. It kinda works, but I don’t want to be on it long term. Sometimes I question everything.
Hang in there.
Your not mentally I’ll your spiritually gifted go to a deliverance ministry Jesus will get rid of the oppression and it will be a gift after
I stopped meds last year. The worst part from stopping was the suicidality. The best part was the numbness was gone. Still going strong and i don't plan on going back on them. I took them for 10 years too
Eat healthy food, get plenty of exercise and think positive and you'll probably be better off without the meds
Nothing is wrong with any of you, It just you can read other people’s emotions
have you ever considered acupuncture？
@@justingonzalez2035 explain more please
i have an issue where i sleep a lot in order to force myself to wake up.
everyone even asks me oh have you been taking your meds bro? i'm like get a look at me; im depressed, really depressed of course i am.
it's as if people don't care about me at all (deep down) and want to use mental illness or a brain disease as a reason to put me in a box.
i wish people gave a shit and let me be and heck even just allow me to act and behave in my own way... i'm not hurting or effecting anybody on or off medication.. but let me reiterate, mental illness or a brain disease tends to place oneself in a box by others so often.
Sorry to hear your story man. For me antipsychotics have changed my life for the better. I wrote a book on my life story. Love your videos bro keep up the good work.
What's the name of your book?
It's Good to See You again.. I Wish You All The Best.. Your friend Jeffrey.
I get that man. It’s so frustrating to feel like everything you’re doing isn’t getting you anywhere. Hopefully you find a treatment that’s good for you soon. Life is just really sucky right now unfortunately.
You are a beautiful soul and you are totally not alone. I hope you become well and take care of yourself. I am glad to be able to know and understand what you have been going through and compare it with my life. I say you are spot on when it comes to the medication's side effect. It is something that only the people taking the medication would know as oppose to mental health professional who never take these pills and don't know what we are going through all this time.
I feel this. antipsychotics make me feel more emotionally blunted than I usually am, make me ungodly hungry, gave me TD and my symptoms, albeit lessened, are still ever-present. over it.
When our health care system is designed to be a for profit system it's not surprising that there's no real change in helping people with mental health problems bc who are they going to profit off of if we find ways to improve people's lives? It's disgusting and this for profit system needs to change 😔💔
I know it's really disgusting how everything in this world is just a big business an people can't get the help they need.
You ever listen to Nick drake - pink moon? Just asking since your username.
I've felt the same way.been in mental hospitals around 16 times. I'm not on medication I'm 48 it gets easier the older you get but sometimes symptoms get a little stronger but you know why you feel the way you feel and that helps your videos are helping people keep making them
It's so good I have found this chanel. I see, that everyone is free to share opinion and experience. 3 years ago I was diagnosed with psychotic depression. We tried antidepressants+ anticonvulsants. But I still had symptoms. Then my doctor decided to try antipsychotics (atypical antipsychotics). Very low doze... But I got even worse. The main problem for me is aggression. Just can't control it. We had no choice but to cancel my antipsychotics. Thank you for sharing this video! Now I see, that a lot depends on chemistry in our brains. And sometimes regular treatment doesn't help. I don't complain. Now I am better, but afraid to have one more episode.
İt’s amazing to hear from you again! I nearly stopped eating again, i never took my medications. But luckily, i forced myself and had a small breakfast. I am quite worried about myself because it’s quarantine in my country so i can’t go to the clinic anymore. I watch your content a lot, it’s so amazing to learn about schizophrenia from a patient like you!
I hope you’ll feel better soon and post more!
I’m glad you and your family are staying safe from COVID now! I miss you! I hope you’re doing well. You can always reach out if you need someone to talk to. ❤️ I’m sorry you’re having a hard time with your medication. I get that.
awe, i’m happy to see your face!! i’m sending nothing but love and positivity your way x
the mental health system is still in great need of improvement, sure we aren’t beat and tortured anymore but that’s a low standard. i’ve been hospitalized 10+ times and it is known that they try you on as many medications as they can at high doses in a short amount of time to numb you out so they can discharge you asap. my boarder line/ptsd/anxiety/ocd/adhd was always so severe that i would be in there for weeks unlike most who are given a week at most. how could one heal in a weeks time? i never found any comfort in medications and they had me on intense medications (lithium being one) i quit cold turkey at one point all 7 different medications i was on and since then have been trying to cope and take control of my treatment now that i’m an adult and stay sober but it feels impossible at times. i have tried a few medications since and have the worst reaction. i tried clomipramine and it caused me to have a 24 hour + long panic attack along with hallucinations. i’ve been in/out of treatment and seen by so many different people, it’s a gamble if you’re going to be seen by someone who has your well being as priority. something i try to remind myself during these times is that it will pass- the panic attack will pass. the anger will pass. the emptiness will pass. the hurt will pass. it is temporary, everything is, there is a comfort in that i believe. it can take a long time, trust me i know, but i try to remain hopeful for better days. i see social media romanticize mental illnesses all the time and it’s sickening, but for those who are truly in urgent need of treatment/support are left to suffer; as you said, so many are homeless/jailed sadly.
Same here. Tired of taking medication. Gained lots of weight and makes me feel bad. Feels like a burden sometimes. I know if I stop taking it, the weight melts of and feel better. But last time I did that had the worst relapse to date in 3 months. Thank God I'm still alive. What is holding us back from getting off meds? Isn't are battle not against flesh and blood but against the evil spiritual forces of this world. That is what's holding me back too.
Shalom my brother may the Lord Jesus bless you.
It's always good to hear from you again💕
(Schizoaffective here) I absolutely 100% agree that no meds EVER have taken away all the symptoms. I also get anxiety REALLY bad... not much ever helps. Currently at the max dose of Seroquel. I know it's bad but I've stopped a lot of meds because I just gave up.
I thought that I was the only one who didn’t have motivation!!!! Thanks man
You are awesome, Jacob, thanks a lot!
I agree with you so much dude. Everything you've said is spot on.
I understand being tired of anti psyches tbh. I got off of mine this year, though I will say that anti psyches helped me a lot and was the only thing that made me be able to function/feel better. Ever since getting off of them, i still get symptoms of psychosis, but weirdly those symptoms have changed into something better if that makes any sense? Before taking anti psyches, my psychosis was heavily centered on what can closely described to "bad luck" (except on a supernatural systematic level.) But ever since taking anti psyches (for about 4-5 years) and getting off of them, my psychosis now heavily focuses on good luck and protection of that good luck. And even with the psychosis related to more sinister things, it's easier for me to "logic" my way out of it. For example, I was extremely suspicious that their were hidden cameras in my apartment that were watching/hearing me and that's why people laugh at me when I go to take walks, but i was able to to tell myself that it doesn't matter cause I never seen these hidden camera tapes on me released to the internet or UA-cam, so it shouldn't matter.
Anti psyches are definitely not for everyone tho and that's the unfortunate thing about meds, it can suit some people and do horrendous things to another. Kinda like therapy. Literally therapy did nothing for me, but has saved countless other people who may feel like meds aren't beneficial to them or enough for them.
If I compare my untreated psychosis to my psychosis after treatment, it's so drastically different and I never expected that to be honest.
Anyways, sorry for rambling!
Thank you for this comment!!! I'm glad to hear you're able to logic your way out of things :)
Sounds like a sticky Trap to being sent to the psych ward soon
@@cyndaquilisbestpokemon8327 Ahh thank you!!! 💕💕💕
@@Slawsers It's been years since I've been sent to the psych ward, and I promised myself I'll never go back and I intend on keeping that promise :) Thank you for your concern though!
@@OneWhoPullsTheStrings oh congrats awesome 👏 glad your illness is going well and you’re fighting it fine that’s a good promise I’ve also made lol you must have good support around you to be off meds
Most of the doctors don't even have these illnesses themselves, so most of them just can't, or don't want to understand it. Feels like, they just want to shut you up with these medications. And the more tired you get, the more you don't want to take your medications anymore. So in the end, you're like still feel extremely horrible, but you still feel better without all the tablets. And that's probably one way to break out of the vicious circle of medication. It's like even when you think you can't get worse...it always can. With tablets. In the end, I guess you just cherish the way you're feeling and stay where you are, somewhere in between horrible medication, and the horrible distorted reality...
Spot on Jacob thank you for uploading.
I feel the exact same way about the mental health system, they haven't a clue. Most of the time when seeing any therapist it quickly begins to feel like you're a test subject unless you lucky enough to get one of the rare ones like Dr. Mate Gabor.. Anyways, I appreciate your channel! We're not alone in our troubles..
I suffer from bipolar 1 with psychotic features and totally relate to how antipsychotics don't take away all the symptoms. To my knowledge, APs are supposed to lessen the severity of the episodes but not fully get rid of them. When I'm off them, I can really feel how severe my illness can get so being on them is essential for me.
Its been a while man. Good to see you are alive and survining covid
Interesting insights man. I'm hoping to be a psychiatrist one day and just stumbled across this channel. Hearing your perspective & experiences with anti-psychotics is very useful. Take care & stay safe!
Great vidoe man, I've only got mild mental illness (SAD) But your videos really make me feel less embarrassed by my situation. Peace be to you
Thanks for posting again
I feel the same. medication make me lose all motivation to do nothing.. also lag of workout for me. I always to go to work until my keyworker make me lose my job and go back to medication, all medication all have side effect. no medication can make you transforme your best self. there one time I refuse to take my medication for 3 month straight I was working out everyday until they told me.. if I don't take medication I can get recall kinda like blackmailing me...
I am soo tired of medication too! I have been on antipsychotics for 29 years now. I had the COVID19 vaccine yesterday too and have had bad side effects from it. It’ll pass but it’s just rough 💚
Shalom brother God bless you.
Vaslav Ninjinsky was a world famous dancer who became schizophrenic in 1919 and was in and out of institutions for the rest of his life. Anti-psychotics were not around and he was unable to recover without them, and got more and more incoherent to the point where he did not speak anymore. He also hallucinated at times too. However, after 30 years of not speaking, him and his wife walked into a bar one day. Musicians were playing one of his favorite tunes from childhood, and he danced eloquently to the music for the first time since he had lost his mind, impressing the musicians with his skills. He drank, talked, and laughed with them, which helped him finally learn to speak again. Sadly he died about 2 years later, but the fact that he got to dance, speak coherently and laugh again after 30 years of madness moved me to tears for hours - and I'm an emotionally flat schizotypal who rarely cries. I read his diary and it fucked me up because I have written disorganized speech similar to his for 7 years, and it was like I understood. His diary inspired me and made me feel emotions again for the first time in years. It also inspired me, because my brain scrambling around language will not stop me from achieving my dream, which is to become a writer.
"I know that if everyone thinks I am a harmless madman they will not be afraid of me. I do not like people who think I'm a dangerous lunatic. I am a madman who loves mankind. My madness is my love for mankind" - Vaslav Ninjinsky.
"I worked hard, but later I lost heart because I noticed that I was not liked. I withdrew into myself. I withdrew so deep into myself that I could not understand people. I wept and wept..." ~ Vaslav Ninjinsky
"I know many people will say that I write nonsense, but I must say that everything I write has a deep meaning." ~ Vaslav Ninjinsky
"I have come to the conclusion that it is better to write than to speak nonsense" ~ Vaslav Ninjinsky
Before I flood your comments section with a damn novel; Vaslav Ninjinsky was the schizophrenic that truly inspired me and made me feel like I had to keep going, because he kept going and his diary and his pictures still influence minds to this day (no film of his dancing remains). He was always a strange introvert long before he became schizophrenic - he was a famous beautiful man but he hated parties, hated socializing, was clearly intuitively overloaded easily, stared at his hands instead of making eye contact, got irritated and angry easily, spoke tangentially and metaphorically when he did speak, and had serious trouble navigating everyday small talk and speech... Just like me, except my body is female and I am not famous. Reading his diary was like looking into a mirror.
What truly intrigues me about him though, is the fact that when he first went schizophrenic they tried to show him his dancing, his pictures, his choreography, his paintings, but none of it made him feel better. None of it made his thoughts straighter. Reading his diary, it makes sense to me because he was mentally traumatized from dancing due to being sexually abused by certain patrons (he writes in his diary "all those dances were death") Also, his pictures were largely of WW1 related subjects - The outbreak of WW1 caused him to be placed on house arrest during his first mental breakdown, and his very last formal dance he brought out a chair, creepily stared at the audience for a half hour, then stood up and said, "I will now dance you the war... The war in which you did not prevent". However, while all of that failed, 30 years afterwards a song from his childhood that he loved was what triggered him to dance and speak clearly again.
~~~~~~ Good luck on finding medication that works for you. I am glad that there are options for those of us on the schizophrenic spectrum, unlike poor Vaslav and the countless people who suffered horribly without them. I am schizotypal apparently (they are confused with me, but that is my label for now) and meds are supposedly optional for me. I appreciate your honestly about them and I know that they are not a fix-all for my symptoms like I originally hoped. The psychiatry field has remained stagnant for too long - perhaps one day humanity will collectively focus on a cure for mental illnesses like it did on a vaccine for Covid19, when humanity finally decides to care about illnesses and diseases beyond which ones impact the economy and which ones do not (and the ones that do not do not get any attention of course).
U look well hun
I can relate to a lot of wat u say
Stay strong n keep going
I appreciate what you are saying and there are many serious problems with medications but it’s not good to generalise. Some ppl have schizophrenia so bad that they don’t know or accept that they are having delusions. And for some people those drugs offer real symptom relief. The side effects are still bad but some people are really helped.
So so nice to c u again, i chk every so often now to c if a new video has bn posted. I can imagine the frustration. I hope things get btr somehow. I truly miss your videos. ✨⭐💛
Great to see you again.😊🐣😷🙂
missed your videos ❤️
When I was severely depressed back in high school I would hear voices telling me to cut myself,to kill myself,that no one loved me,that I was worthless,but I also sometimes see shadow people at night in my room staring at me and it makes me really paranoid
I suggest you read about open dialogue therapy, a non-drug treatment for schizophrenia developed in Finland. You can also read about medication-free treatment being given to people with psychosis in Norway. Open dialogue is also occurring in Vermont in some places. But you are right, people abandon and leave behind the mentally ill constantly. Things have changed very little. Most people do not remit on the drugs. They are more about keeping people quiet and making them less bothersome.
Im tired of medications
it caused me to become
pre diabetic and to have
a cholecystectomy too
I was wrongly diagnosed with Schizoprehnia because i made destructive suicidal mistakes more then one time, and now im left with actions speak louder then words and I can't win against my doctors or the system itself
i remember the first dr who tried prescribing me medication asked me if i trusted her. i lied and said yes and she proceded to tell me about a medication she wanted me to take. after i tried it for a week i felt super down and had a headache so i stopped taking them. i told her why, she got mad and told me she wasnt going to see me again. on my meds now but because my mom has called the cops on me for wanting her help not just meds.
Hey Jacob, I agree about medications, in the sense that I also to a large extent use my medications (lithium and antipsychotic) as a sleep aid. Even though I'm sure they're doing other things, too. Then again, not sleeping is a symptom of mania, so making me sleep is part of what it's supposed to do, you could say.
so good to hear from you friend :)
Being Schizophrenic as well I don’t even know how I’m still alive. I only take Risperidone which didn’t exist some years ago. This age is livable.
The reason ur not super depressed is the medication ironically its also depressing taking it.
*love the jacket very much* you watching wandaVision. love that you took care of your mom wo catching it. bc...nm my opinions on the topic. gr8 vid.
love you bro 💙 it’s been a while
Anti psychotics help tone down the extreme scales of certain behaviour, thinking, etc. Brings things into a more 'normal' scale even though it is not felt perhaps it is experienced from the outside I believe.
I agree. Yeah. I am a voice hearer (schizophrenic, whatever). And I am forced to take antipsychotic injections since the end of 2018 because I am under AOT Court order. I have been on several antipsychotics and I felt like shit on all of them. Right now I am on fluphenazine decanoate. But I sure don't want to be on it especially recently because recently my brother told me that an ophthalmology resident told him that fluphenazine decanoate is in a class of drugs called phenothiazines which accumulate in the retina and result in blindness. So I don't want to be on this antipsychotic but I don't think it is likely that there is another one that I can be on either as I am kind of managing on the one I am on now and I have bad experiences with other antipsychotics. I suffered akathesia on Haldol. I couldn't enjoy food on Risperdal and invega systenna. And I was a zombie on others.
Look up V2k ( Voice to Skull ) your not crazy or hearing voices they are being projected.
I know how you feel. I've been on meds for the past 7/8 years. I'm currently on Sertraline (I'm from the uk I'm not sure of the US name of this) and it's okay. I'm potentially on the autistic spectrum are going through a diagnostic process currently. I'm finding that I'm so bored of taking these meds that just sort of don't do much and give me crappy side effects. They recommend seroquel to try but the side affects seemed worse that the sertraline. I hope you manage to switch okay and that the side affects aren't too bad. Good to hear from you Jacob💗
I'm on paliperidone its the only antipsychotic I have ever been on since being diagnosed with schizzoaffective disorder back in 2016 and the only side effect is weigh gain but I have a handle on that now other than that no side effects as for America and mental health you guys have alot of awareness and education necessary id say in my country new Zealand I have never experienced the negative stigma so far like people here are pretty understanding and accepting like its not really made fun of or ignored and if people do do that its usually based of their lack of mental health awareness damn I dont know I feel so lucky in my country
Exactly, ppl with mental health issues are treated like shit. Psychiatry aint even trying to do proper examination. You come with psychosis, get antipsychotics, go home. And they make your whole heatlh even worse. I am just second grade human.
You’re doing a great job
Any little sound on that abilify stuff will sound like a damn jet
did you see jordan petersons akathesia experience he just went thru? also interesting/rough. hes starting to get better now. but it was about a year
Hey!
I like your videos, I’m wondering have you ever tried ECT? or DBS?
Kind regards
Abilify and risperidona make me feel lack of motivation, tired 😔 and hunger
Can you make a video of what the months to year leading up to your first episode was? Sorry btw if you already made this video. I was learning about schizophrenia in my psychology class (psychology major) and learned about the "Prodromal" stage of schizophrenia, where the person hasn't had their first full episode yet but experience borderline psychotic symptoms and other stuff. I was wondering what your experience was like, if you experienced that, and what it entailed.
You’re so right
Meds have barley changed. Hell, the understanding of mental illness hasn't really changed. Each individual person with a mental illness is so vastly different from each other. People brush it off like something we can just smile through. It needs to start getting treated like and other sickness. All the meds ive tried made my metal state worse or just shut me down. Its a nightmare 😂
Dont get me wrong, try meds if you think you need them. But my personal experiences with it sucks.
I have trouble sleeping, and everything over the counter, gives me Restless Leg Syndrome.
If im lucky I sleep 2 hours most nights.
Been like that since I was 15 with terrible health consequences.
I stumbled upon weed a couple years ago and that removes that problem completely without any negative side effects.
It's not for everyone but it has improved every aspect of my life
I feel you bro
I was wrongly diagnosed with schizo affective disorder bi polar type and they put me on seroquel for a year and it destroyed me. I felt like absolute shit. Got properly diagnosed with PTSD and I'm so glad to be off the antipsychotics. When I was going through the withdrawal though that also sucked for a few weeks
You can also move to new York and use electo magnetic pulse theory. It lasts for three months. They have an office in New york
i dont do pity. but i do aim for joint shared solutions. gr8 vid.
Hey man I wanted to ask. Do you suffer from Depersonalization and/or Derealization in addition to your Schizophrenia? Im curious cuz people sometimes say the two disorders can go hand in hand.
(note, yes just rambling here, blame it on insomnia and getting sleepy so my mind wanders)
You have mentioned before that when you have gone off medication it got so bad that you had to go to the mental hospital. I'm sorry if that is not the right term (mental hospital).
I did know of a guy who was on one of the first-generation antipsychotics and he was very very sleepy and zombie-like, almost catatonic.
I know with what you said before that it is hard for you to trust people so I hope I am not annoying you. It can scare me or rather I thinking too much if I should comment because I don't want to Piss ya off but I think my current sleep deprivation/insomnia can make it easier for me to not think toooooo much that I end up not even making a single comment even though you are cool opening up to us. I like that and it is inspiring you can talk on cam and all that (my social anxiety is too bad to do that right now).
Oh, I have had a history of OCD. That was quite nuts but I tried to fix that part of myself. I do sometimes have some OCD though. It's just built into my, I think Nature/genes not nurture. My mom had it a lot checking the lights and stove etc before we leave just to make sure A fire wouldn't start.
Well I know I am rambling. You also have said you can find people annoying (I think you said that) or rather you maybe don't find them annoying but you distrust people. I hear ya there. I will cut this short even though I just wrote a novel of sorts. LOL. oh I am a big enough watcher of your videos to know you like Lions. That is soooooo darn random. They are majestic animals. Well, that is all for now. Thanks for browsing this log comment or maybe one of your subscribers will just like it, not sure why. Oh and they say people making comments helps with that UA-cam algorithm. So At least I contribute that way. Thank you for updating us on your life. Some of us do truly care. I think it's my MBTI personality type. INFP who are usually pretty weird. Now I am starting to overthink all I wrote and just want validation from your fans, etc even if they neer comment I just don't like to be a burden. Yeah, Issues 101 here. LOL. Bye, for now, yup, again, these of us who I think matter have liked you making relatively more videos lately. Those are the people who should only matter, I just personally think. F the rest I say. You reveal how your family is doing, you're a class act, and I'm not sucking up to you there. lol. We who do not judge you I hope matter the most but whatever you think is the best thing since you are a unique individual. Heck, I wrote too much. forgive me folks, (I am trying to be humble) but then if I say I am sorry some take advantage and think, oh this guy is a man and just being weak apologizing. But yes,, I just wrote all this to reveal to you and others who like comment reading that others all around have their issues too. I OVERTHINK so much it p's me off. at least I have entertained some folks. I annoyed some, made some think ph I can relate to you JasonOnEarth, and others will be very critical and say I should not type too much. Hey with my past withs social anxiety keeping everything to myself at least I am trying something new. there's always a not constructive but destructive person out there. lol peace take care, love the Lions.
I am taking haldol. It got rid of all hallucinations. The only thing is that I don’t feel like doing anything. No motivation. But I wish we all feel better
Try to do morning exercise, it really gets you going throughout the day, made me feel much better. Since you got nothing to do, try learning a new language, that's what im doing. I taking a truofloperasine with correctors, Best one so far, with not much side effects, im not gaining weight which is important. Just a bit of a lack of motivation. In States, do you get pension for being ill? Here we have some but not much.
Do you ever plan on stop taking them? Or , do you think it could get worse if you stop taking them?
Medication gets annoying it just does......
You’re so cute and chill ❤️ btw I always watch at the end of the day cause your voice is calming
I love your long hair! But I totally agree with what your saying. What type of scitzophrenia do you have? Type 1 or type 2? I've been diagnosed with unspecified scitzophrenia. What a bummer. Mental disorders are such a mystery. By the way, your the only youtuber I find myself relate too. And the sad part is is it doesn't go away. Once your diagnosed they can change what type of disorder you have but you'll pretty much have it until the day you die. It doesn't go away. And medicine only makes you brain dead or at least for me I feel that it does. Not that I'm brain dead but I feel like I am. I don't know what it's due too. Maybe the medicine?
He is a good looking guy surprises me any time a good looking person has issues like mine are because I don't look good an I done stupid things.
The awful feeling you got from latuda sounds like akathisia. I got it from olanzapine and aripiprazole (abilify) as well
Looks like you're having a hard time with the negative symptoms(Apathy, anhedonia, abulia and stuff), I'm no doctor, but you should really consider talking with ur doc about Low Dose Amisulpride, or Low Dose Aripiprazole, in my experience these have been very beneficial for my apathy, and many people benefit from these 2 APs. Best of luck man!
This is very true!. Last couple of months my doctor put me up a dose of 20 mg of abilify and it changed my life for the better. I can focus. I'm not bored anymore. I love life. Much more motivation and everything else.
I'm also on LIthium oral and invega sustenna injection. I'm schizoaffective bipolar type btw
Buy a vr quest 2 it motivates me to go into another reality and get really good workouts till I’m dripping sweat and all my depression and worries go away from being so tired doing cardio with beatsaber a rythem game and thrill of the fight a boxing simulator also if you want to practice socialization do vrchat and If it gets awkward you can leave the world to another
I will just say that although I wasn't diagnosed with schizophrenia, I nonetheless had some psychotic depression at some point, and thus took the generic equivalent of seroquel. It had its benefits, but the medicstion wasn't always fun. Felt so lethargic. Also took anti-depresssnts and those had little benefit for me at all. I think "genetic medicine" is of utmost importance. If developed, it may be the case in the future, that doctors and chemical engineers, pharmacists, geneticists, and psychiatrists can help tailor medicine that our bodies respond to, and would also chart out, or be aware of, the genetic factors affecting medicine response.
I hope all your best dreams come true
If you tried to gradually get off the neuroleptics and live a year without them. You can get used to the voices, they do not carry anything terrible. You can ignore the hallucinations. Then you would be able to assess whether it is better for you to take the pills or live without them.
I have a question for you or anyone else who suffers from schizophrenia, my brother has paranoid schizophrenia, he has had it for about 12 years now, during these years he has changed so much, he has become sooo angry, he went from being the calmest mellowest person to the most angry person, he constantly calls me names, harasses me for not taking care of him and tells me he wishes I was dead, he does it to me and my parents and brother, I took care of him for 8 years and realized I couldn’t do it anymore due to it affecting my little kids... anyways is this a normal thing for some people with schizophrenia
Your brother is a victim of gangstalking and is a targeted individual
I feel like we are still so far from understanding how to really treat mental illnesses. Hopefully we will be able solve the problems that come with mental illnesses without sapping the life force outta people. You’re not alone a lot of people feel this way about medication. Unfortunately going off meds isn’t a healthy option with a challenging illness. Let’s just hope within our lifetimes they will be able to provide more helpful management or even cure all these mental illnesses.
I am trying a new antipsychotic Caplyta less sedating then seroquel new idea glutamine in the brain to target???
I decided not to take meds fir my severe ptsd. I could take 9 differant scripts if I wanted.
I was diagnosed with major depression with psychotic features my sophomore year of high school
Have you suffered from TD from any of your meds?
I was put on seroquel 6 years ago when I was hospitalized for wanting to commit suicide because I was having trouble sleeping
Does You do philosophy?
There is a telepathic transmission of thoughts at a distance. Do you believe that?
What about NAC?
Latuda gave me really intense panic attacks, to the point where I would snap at someone if they were talking to me.
Have you ever seen a cat catch a bird and clench its jaws when you try to take its prey away from it? Your hallucinations will also keep you when you try to get away from the pills. But if you persist, they will loosen their grip.
Trilafon... garbage.
Meditation is good man there studies showing it can help with mental health also switch doctors or medication untill you find something that works
Try like 2,000+ mgs of Niacin daily. IDK I read that in a book saying it prevents schizophrenia, of course you do your research and do the talk with your doc. Have a nice day everyone :)
PS: Its vitamin b3
They say that people with type O blood are more immune to covid so maybe you have type O blood too. My dad has Type O and i might too since i was around many people and never gotten covid either
Lighten up
i just switched from abilify to zyprexa and i dont even have enough motivation to get out of bed