There was a point where I was about to go to bed and realized that I had been drinking 4 beers and a bottle of vodka and I felt relatively sober and functional. That was the exact moment I realized that I must have crossed a threshold. Then I tried to quit the first time and thus started an 8 year plus battle.
That sudden switch is PROFOUND, one moment you’re good, next moment you’re completely hooked. The disease has taken hold and now it’s a battle. Thank you for this comment my friend, god bless 🙏
My dad lost his eyesight recently, and that was a stressor for me, which of course led to more drinking. It's awesome that your councillor is still doing his thing despite what this shitty universe has inflicted on him. Love your videos so much. ❤️
17 days? You give me hope! You got this! Show the warrior your and say NO to the monster. You created a beautiful community and that just goes to show who you are. Much love and blessings your way 🙏
man, you have no idea how much your videos have helped me during dark withdrawals, please dont give up brother, it dosnt matter if you fall down what matters is, you stand back up again
🖤much love to you trippy, it makes me genuinely happy when I hear I’m helping. You are an og of not only this channel but LD’s. I consider you a friend man, I ain’t going anywhere!!! We are gonna keep getting this!! Together!!!! Thank you my friend!!!! Hope you are doing well brother. Bless 🙏💯
Being a drunk is like riding a bike but you never forget how to loose you balance though …then your brain actually get smaller some freaking scary physical stuff going on in our bodies it’s not worth it start every day like it’s your first day in recovery and minutes turn into hours then days and years. Yaaay life is good live it and learn you are the future
You really have a great way with words. I wish everything wonderful for everyone here that struggles with addiction. I wish my Daughter had found this community before alcoholism took her beautiful self out of this world. Everything you said in this video is so so true.
Your daughters story crushes me, god bless both of you. I sent a prayer out not only for you but also your daughter. Thank you for being part of this community, you are always showing love. I’ve seen you over on LD’s channel doing the same thing and it’s beautiful. You have a place here and so does your daughter in spirit. Thank you for the kind words 🙏🖤, much love
@@Slayer-7373 I quit a dozen times only lasting 2 months at the most. 4 yrs now. After the first year I didn't miss alcohol at all. When you're deep into drinking your mind keeps you there
Congratulations keep it up and take it in and it’s the best lesson you can learn and take it a step further become a peer counselor too your such an intelligent young man, and your a strong person and you are loved and respected for taking control of your life Man that’s huge your success is already made a positive impact on so many of us so don’t forget that we love you and we are on this journey together Slayer , yep the fun disappears when you breakthrough but! Ahhh guess what you just leveled up to maturity that is the hardest part, you did it I’m proud of you too
Hey thank you so much brother 🙏, I appreciate this comment more than you know. When I read stuff like this it keeps me going. I’d love to do counseling and help people out that is a great idea!! I love y’all too man, this community is like a family. I really think I should consider looking into becoming a counselor one day. Anyways thanks again man, much love and take care. 🙏god bless
" I'm healing finally bec i'm not turning away from it - the pain / I'm facing things " --- WONDERFUL .. I had a hang up about something and a friend said of it, " oh I thought it would be cool to have that " ------- the point? The world does not judge us as harshly as we judge ourselves. We are enough, we are loveable, we are whole --- we are growing.
Love your statement "JUST ASSUME you have a PROBLEM, " if you're having a feeling about clues of addiction. I ignored that LITTLE VOICE, until just in time!!! What a great "WAVE"...rant as much as you superlatively do, as often as you like man !!!!!
I have a cousin who went through AA -- On the question of hmmm, am I an alcoholic? He said a famous quote " if you think you have a problem, you do have a problem " --
My dad was an alcoholic and he passed away from cirrhosis of the liver, hepatitis C, and esophageal varices. All of these complications were due to alcoholism. Stay strong and continue not to drink MY FRIEND! AND AS I SAID BEFORE, I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU MY FRIEND!!!!!
@@joshchapman3515 🙏so sorry to hear that about your dad brother. I must learn from reading comments like these though. This is exactly why I NEED TO STOP. I’m probably around the corner from some of those things. I will stay strong 💪, i appreciate you being here on this journey with me brotha. Much love and thank you!!!!!
Heyyy I was the 69th like! Nice. I don't know how you do it mate - you make so many good points and throw so many quotable lines just off the cuff. Love your videos, congrats on your progress, long may it continue.
Ohhhhhhh sh*t ;) 😂😂 But No for real though man thank you so much, that’s really awesome of you to say. I love your videos too man, let’s keep rollin 💪. Much love bro, be easy 💯
i agree 100% that marijuana is addictive. i have been dealing with marijuana addiction since i was 14, im 25 this year. i dont even know how it feels to be a sober adult having smoked every day for the last 10 years of my life. the feeling like you cant live without marijuana is so relatable. it is my mental crutch, it is my coping mechanism. i am still working on learning how to live life without weed and im not going to lie, its hard. i am not an alcoholic but i have met many friends along the way who are and your videos are a powerful insight into this insidious web self destruction. thank you man and i hope things keep going well for you.
100% man 85 completely takes over your life. To the point that you can’t do anything without smoking. You goto the store you smoke, you shower you smoke, you eat you smoke, you workout you smoke, every single thing in your life revolves around smoking and if you don’t smoke you can’t even do it because it’s so bizarre. I appreciate your comment man, I’m glad I’m helping you better understand this crazy addiction. God bless bro 💯
17 days sober, going strong 💪 Remember - our mind can only think one thought at the time. The trick is to not let it wander: keep it busy and simple. Work -> Sport -> read a book / play a video game -> sleep & repeat. You got this. All the best
Nice video Slayer! Once you start drinking alone, that's where things really go south. Of course there is nothing wrong with having a beer or two after work to unwind, but "real" alcoholics don't just stop at one or two drinks. It snowballs into infinite.. it's a death spiral, literally. Just as you and probably many others, when I first started drinking it was awesome, get a nice buzz goin', get a bit more talkative (especially nice for shy and introverted people) - But then you realize it helps dramatically with anxiety/panic disorder so you implement that into your daily or near daily routine. Eventually you feel as though you cannot be yourself and truly unwind without a few drinks in you. Eventually the alcohol takes over every aspect of your life and it's not longer just a social thing. You are constantly thinking about drinking. It really is hell. I'm 4 months sober almost to the day and I rarely think about it anymore. Although I have had a handful of dreams of drinking or going to buy alcohol, it's very weird. Once the physical withdrawal symptoms settle down you can start to think more clearly and you will realize it really is an actual poison and is low-key destroying your life. I have thought a few times, "damn, it would be great to have a few beers on this hot summer day," but it passes within a few minutes and the thought is completely gone. Dealing with the negative aspects are just not worth it. Drinking was awesome at the beginning, then it became the devil. Some people just need the wake up call one way or another to beat it. I was thinking about this the other day, life is literally just a chain of impulses, we live on it and go from one to the other. If we can control our impulses, we can (somewhat) control our life.
This comment is spot on 💯 I can totally relate. Congratulations my friend on the 4 months!!!!! That is AMAZING bro. If no one else has said it, I’m proud of you man. Life is 100% full of impulses and I think you’re right about if we can learn to control them then we do actually have some control over our lives. Thanks for this awesome comment, much love to you 🙏 god bless!
Bro i was diagnosed with the same thing; Severe anxiety disorder and panic disorder. I believe that anxiety attacks and panic attacks is the one of the 2 worse pains a human can feel. Loss of a loved one and anxiety and panic attacks. Add alcohol withdraw to it the anxiety is fucking uncomprehendable. Pure sheer terror. I've came close to a heart attack from it
@@Sadtrvsh My blood preasures been 180+ and heart rates been over 200+ bpm when having anxiety and panic attacks. Add the alcohol to it I've been at dangerous numbers
Hey kuhzzy I completely understand, I think you’re pretty spot on with that. A severe panic attack truly feels like you’re dying and your brain has no way to tell you that you’re not. It’s traumatic, leaves you with ptsd. Like you said add the withdrawal to it and you really have ptsd. Certain smells and things will take me right back there again and almost send me in an instant panic. Those numbers are super scary!!! Anxiety when it’s bad enough 100% becomes physical and not just mental anymore. Please be safe my friend and know you aren’t alone!!! God bless 💯
Yay!!♥️ Another video from Slayer! #HappySoberSaturdaySlayer! Thumbs Up!👍 & Shared Out!💞I’m so Happy and Proud of You! Much Love and Respect. Take good care of you and have a Beautiful Weekend!🏖
🙏🖤 thanks so much Cindy!!! You’re really an awesome person, always showing love in every community!!! I even saw you on jay Williams let’s live life!!!! Again thank you and god bless
Hey slayer. Thank u for responding 2 me. I'm feeling lost right now. Felt detached from the world . I've decided my marriage needs to end. Very heavy emotions I didnt want 2 feel. Learning soo much in IOP. It truly sucks to have to actually feel things u have avoided for 4yrs. Being sober almost a month, I'm seeing and feeling so many things. My counselor said we have 2 become comfortable with uncomfortable feelings. I am and I just wanna drink it away. I m choosing to watch your videos and stay strong. Thank u
Hey Shannon 👋, I’m so sorry you’re going through a hard time right now. I totally understand those feelings, it’s overwhelming. They all come flooding in when we get sober but like you said we really do have to become comfortable in the uncomfortable. It’s the one way we will heal from our traumas. I applaud you for staying sober and staying strong 👏💪💯 that is what I’m talking about!!! It’s an honor to be helping. Stay in the fight, we got this!!! Brighter days ahead!
I figured that IOP has cut into your upload time a bit. However, you are slaying, er, staying sober. You almost have 20 days since that last lapse! Congrats on that. Maybe we can do that collab/Zoom thing here directly. I still think since we both ran into trouble around the same time that would be a really good topic to discuss. I had a friend who was a pothead and all of his troubles were weed-based - from behavior to legalities. That was about the worst case of "pot addiction" I have ever seen. I appreciate the shoutout, bro. I am thinking about talking about our newish community.
Hey what’s up shades!!! Yea man it definitely has but like you said it’s helping me stay sober which is a great thing. I appreciate that man thank you 🙏 Also 100% man we will make it happen! I just need to figure out a good day and see if it works with you. We can email about it, I think the more Collabs us sober UA-camrs do the better. It’s great for the community and it keeps us more connected. We will make it happen man eventually I promise. Also yea man of course!! I appreciate the shout-out in your latest video talking about the community. Be easy my friend, bless 💯
You are such a wise young man, a total inspiration for me. I love your channel and support your sobriety. I am AA based but would appreciate if you would share what you can about the program your on. AA says if we could do it on our own we would, we must depend on a Higher Power. I like your leech analogy but what jumped out to me was it’s more insidious,it doesn’t want to kill you, then it would also die, it wants to suck the life out of you just enough to make you wish you were dead.
Awe 🙏 thank you so much this is so awesome of you to say. I will have to make an entire video on my IOP group, breaking down exactly what it is and what we do. Also tell you guys what I’ve been learning in it, would be super cool I think and beneficial. Also yes!!!! You are spot on!!! Makes you wish you were dead, that’s powerful. God bless 🙏
So great to hear you are in family counseling -- what a gift you have been given. Sorry about the panic attacks. I suffered terribly in my late 20s through 40s ish tbh. I never knew I needed to deal with stress. I didn't know I could say " this is too much " -- You can say // we can say --- " this is too Effing much " --- cry, shut down, isolate --- have a pity party to rest by ourselves if we need to. Just don't stay there --- We must Release the valve when we feel super Wound -- but I didn't know that // it's oK to say "this is too much" // ... I Could never smoke pot --- too much anxiety // paranoia --- love listening to your sobriety --- I am trying to decipher your accent -- can you at least tell me what part of the country? Pacific NW?
Wow Slay! I can totally relate to that driving over 100 mph! I used to do that every time I hit a back road!! I’m starting to realize that I was gambling big time with my life! It’s a scary thought and I still don’t understand completely why I did that.
I’m glad someone can relate 🙏, I think In a way we were running. Trying to escape whatever pain we were in and didn’t know what to do. It’s definitely dangerous and something neither of us should ever do!!! God bless 🙏🙏
Just wanted to wish you a good night. I did sub to LD. I have some bad days but your messages always make me feel less alone. Thank you so much. Take care and stay safe. ❤🙏
Hey Debbie thanks so much 🙏, you aren’t alone!! You have a whole community here. Seriously we are all here to help one another. It’s so awesome that I’m helping 🙏🖤 god bless. Have a great night!
Slayer! Glad you are doing better brother, even though you're still battling the panic attacks,etc(that's a bummer, sorry to hear that). 17 days sober is huge! Great job 👏👍 Keep the faith, and the whole Slayer community is your corner and we're fighting this evil, demonic disease with ya. 25 days sober here..Gonna try to quit this e-cig addiction again today..ugh.. nicotine is a beast as you already know...peace and love brother..stay strong 💪💯🙏..LK785..
💪💪appreciate you brother!! Thank you man!! 25 days is incredible bro!!! 🙌👏 if no one else has told you yet man I’m proud of you. I know how hard this battle is and you are out there getting it!! Super admirable bro. You will knock that e-cig addiction in no time don’t even worry about it, I do know how tough that can be though but we will get it. All things are possible with Christ right? Peace and love brotha, god bless 🙏💯💪
Hey I hope you’re having a good day as well!!! Thank you so much Debbie!! This is what it’s all about. That’s why these communities are so important. So people understand they aren’t alone, we are all so alike. I’m glad I’m helping, this whole community just wants to help one another and it’s pretty amazing. One day at a time, much love and god bless 🙏
Hey Slayer. I’ve been watching your vids for a bit, but this is my first time commenting. I just want to say bless you brother. Fuck the haters who don’t understand. I put on your vids when I’m doing my job and it keeps me on the right path. I relapsed recently and I can’t seem to stop drinking. These videos help me. Thank you.
Hey brother 🙏 thank you so much man, this comment is absolutely awesome! This is why I make the videos for people like you Man. It brings me actually genuine happiness to know I’m helping and hey I want to thank you because you’re helping me stay sober just as much!!! God bless you my friend!!!! Let’s take it one day at a time. 🙏
Bro your story is nearly exactly like mine. Same age that you started, same type of withdrawals, same desperation. All that. I’m 32 and been alcohol free for about 3 and a half years. It was so hard to imagine getting 6 months let alone 3 years. I just want you to know that you can do this. I love your videos. You’re taking the right steps in the right direction. It’s worth it and so are you. Keep going. We are in the no matter what club. We don’t drink no matter what. No matter how hard life gets and if we have no reason to keep going, we just don’t drink. It won’t make anything better. Stay strong bro.
Love this comment man thank you so much 🙏, also congratulations on the 3 and a half years of sobriety!!! 🙌👏 that is incredible and inspires me. Y’all have shown me the way to do it and shared your journeys and it helps me more than you know. We are definitely in the “no matter what club” haha. God bless man 🙏
Hey Slay🖤 what a wonderful update, you are doing the damn thing! 💪🏽 your commitment and hard work towards your sobriety and healing is admirable and inspiring. I have 6 months alcohol free today and waking up to your video felt like a gift. Thank you Slay, your videos help me a ton. Have a safe, sober & happy weekend…sending you lots of love🖤🖤🖤
CONGRATULATIONS ON 6 MONTHS!!!! WHOOOOOHHH lol, that is incredible nat. If nobody has told you already I want to say it, I’m super proud of you!!! 🙌💪🖤 Y’all really help me so much, heading that my videos help you guys is an absolute gift. Thank you for being on this journey with me, lots of love back to you!!! 🖤🖤🖤thank you 😁
@@Slayer-7373 Thank you SO much Slay, means more than you know! 🥲🙏🏽 actually no one else has told me so I really appreciate it….& I’m proud of you too!!! You & your videos as well as other amazing people I’ve come across in the sober community here on UA-cam have helped me get here & to keep pushing & I’m so, so grateful🙏🏽 We got this!!! 💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽
Thanks for the vid. They really help me stay in the right mindset. 9 months no alcohol here. No cravings at all but I always make sure to watch vids like this so I don’t forget the nightmare. Have you ever been into any athletic endeavors? Sports? Weightlifting? Hiking? I know it’s cliche but I have been exercising a lot and it creates a project to work on. I am the project and alcohol does not fit in to it at all. So it’s like a forcefield against the temptation. Anyway, glad to see you are back on track.
Congratulations on the 9 months brother that is awesome!!!! 💪💪, I’m glad they are keeping you on track. That’s exactly why i started this channel and reading comments like yours really help me man. Knowing I’m actually helping people is incredible. Also I love hiking, I was into some sports growing up. Definitely two things I should bring back into my life. I love your project analogy. Much love to you atlas, take care brother 🙏
@@Slayer-7373yo, I wanted to add something more about that “forcefield” analogy. I know from experience how bad it sucks to get in great physical shape and then convince myself I can handle a drink like “normal people”. Then after a six month bender, I am sick, fat, weak, depressed, and facing a week of withdrawals. I have gotten to the point where I am just not willing for this to happen again. I am stronger than ever now and I know I am not “normal” when it comes to substances and I am really at peace with that. I consider myself a convalescent party animal. This isn’t advice, just my experience with it. I want to see you get control of this thing.
@@AtlasAtPeacethat’s beautiful brother that you came to that point. I’m definitely not normal either when it comes to that stuff lol. You give me hope though man, 9 months is just epic. Ill get this thing I just gotta do what I know I gotta do. Anyways, god bless bro and thank you. 🙏
Hey Slayer!!! I'm so happy for you for both the program and the family counseling!! I really hope that the counseling helps you all!! I also hope that the program supports you well! I am so glad that you're able to share your wisdom with those individuals in real time. I hope that they take it seriously and it sticks with them. As far as pot, it's just substances!! I was the same way! If something helps me escape, I just want to stay in that altered state of mind at all times. Pot now makes me anxious, so I'm definitely not susceptible to picking that up ever again! I am anxious enough naturally haha This topic is so important because the change from fun to addiction comes out of nowhere. You see small signs, and if you don't want to look at them, or you don't notice them, then by the time you're willing to look, it feels impossible to turn it around. But it's not impossible. It may take a long time to get it right, but it's SO worth it It's freedom when you step away from addiction. Hopefully, someone will watch your videos and turn back before that point ever even comes. Big love, Slay!! So glad you're doing well ❤❤❤🎉
Thank you so much Amanda as always!! 🙏🖤, its a 100% chance whenever I read your comments they make me smile lol. I always take your wisdom and advice, thank you again my friend. Glad we are all on this journey together, helping one another. It’s amazing I can’t say this enough. I hope so too about the videos, I hope so too 🙏. Big love to you as well!!! 🙏🖤 hope you’re doing awesome.
@Slayer-7373 👋😊❤️ pretty okay!! Crazy, exciting, and exhausting time in life, but I'm still kicking and still sober!! So I'll take it! Haha have a wonderful day tomorrow 🫂🙏
Thanks for another video bro❤ that is definitely cool that the therapist/counselor is blind. I know bringing up all of that family stuff can be hard but the process is worth it when you can get it all out... yeah you definitely have to relearn how to live after addiction. You can do this!!
🙏thanks so much Olivia!!! I think it’s pretty cool as well. Like you said it’s hard but it’s all part of the process I think. This community has just been amazing. God bless 🖤🙏 and thank you again!!!! One day at a time.
I knew an older man whose girlfriend insisted he go to detox from alcohol. The next day she got a call saying he had passed away from DT complications.
That is horrific….. but it’s a sad reality of what can come from this disease. Poor guy was trying to get help that’s sad. Hope you’re doing well Rita, much love 🙏🖤
@@Slayer-7373 Although these vitamins can be very helpful for some, a warning here: be careful with methylated supplements. It can help tremendously but it also can cause extreme anxiety and brain hyperexcitability (which I guess has something to do with genetics). I lived through it and it took me more than a year for my brain to recover after a couple of months use (note: I didn't drink during that time). Just a word of caution because I don't wish this upon anybody. Take care Slayer, wishing you the best !
Hey thank you Debbie!! I loved doing those with LD. He’s a really good dude, I’m glad you’re enjoying them!! Definitely give LD a subscribe! 🙏 god bless
It was a really good group today, thanks Deb 🙏 hope you’re doing well yourself. Next couple days I want another video up. This community has just been amazing. Bless 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Thank you. I'm resigned to the fact that if I drink again it will only be death and destruction. You're right about addiction coming back twice as strong when you relapse. My last relapse I really hit the booze big time. No more!
Good to see your face and hear your voice. Prayers for you as you take this deep dive into IOP. Don’t forget to keep God in the center of everything, even the IOP journey.
I appreciate this brother, good to see all of y’all and talk to y’all. You are so right though God must be in the center of everything for it to work properly I really do believe that. One day at a time, with god 🙏. Thanks so much man and god bless. 🙌
So glad to see your video..Congratulations on all your hard work and courage staying sober. I hope you have a good Sunday. Thank u for all your honesty. I know it will help so many to hear what I say. Take care, Deb. 🙏❤
Thank you so much for your message. I think it's so beautiful that you always find the time to respond to comments. Many days you are the only person I connect with. Thank you for that. I hope your day is going ok and you have a good nite. Take care,be safe.🙏🙏❤❤
Bro I feel you mine started with weed and couldn’t live with out it. But now I’m not too interested in it. alcohol had taken the place of weed. Shit sucks. Sober 1 week now let’s get it!
Lets gooooooo!!!!!! Congratulations on the 1 week my friend!!! That is awesome. Let’s keep kicking alcohols a$$!!!! We sound like the same person when it comes to the green lol. Anyways much love to you!!! Keep up the good work.
@@Slayer-7373 thanks man! I’m 27 and have had my relapses in the past when trying to quit. Yesterday was a test for me I was invited to a party. I was gonna go but I was like nah i thought about the temptations there. As alcoholics we really have to completely change our life and habits. The old us has passed on
You sound like the true sober you now - I've noticed after a relapse your videos lack energy but this one has your trademark Slayer passion. I'm so happy you're doing something active to keep sober (the outpatient program) and it's encouraging that your parents are involved. That's awesome for you, but awesome for them because they'll get to understand that you're an addict and not just a badly behaved son. As long as you lock into your head that the next time you drink YOU WILL DIE you should be ok. I'm terrified of picking up a drink, I've convinced myself that if I relapse I'll have a withdrawal seizure after a few days and die. I don't mean to use scare tactics but it's reality. You've pushed your luck SO hard lately, the next relapse statistically means death.
Love ya brother, this comment hit me hard. I want it this time and I want it badly. When I’m sober I do have a genuine passion for this,I feel a real calling to talk about this stuff. Anyways thanks again man, hope all is well. Bless! 💯
Also slayer I was going to say if your having a craving super super bad get to a movie 🍿 theater rite away where it’s air conditioning nice and cool ! And watch a movie 🎥 with pop corn 🌽 and soda 🥤 and plenty of food 🍱 and sweets 🍬 ‼️ It hella works for me it totally got my mind off of thinking about alcohol 🥃 my boy ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️
Hey bro I Will definitely try this some time!!! This sounds super chill and like a great way to take your mind off those temptations and cravings. I appreciate the advice brotha, god bless 💯🙏
What do you do for work? If you don't mind me asking. If you'd rather not say that's chill too man. At least you have a job and putting that work in. One of my old buddies is like 37 years old married with a kid and still lives with his parents with no job. lol He doesn't even try. One day at a time bro!
I will say this, I do maintenance and I’m a supervisor haha. It’s a great job and I know the bosses very well. That’s really sad enough to say the only reason I haven’t been fired. It’s another reason I have to stay sober because I love my job, great benefits it’s super chill but if I mess up again they told me I’m gone. Also hopefully your old buddy gets it together 😂. Much love bro, one day at a time! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 True that man you don’t wanna mess up and lose that job. Let that be a driving force to stay sober. Good thing you know your co workers well. Just remember that if you are about to drink think of your job. Think of the consequences. One day at a time for sure! 🙏❤️
Been catching up on your videos, so sry I'm late to this one, but I 'll chime in on the weed thing. I started smoking weed at 14 years old and was totally against drinking, but was a massive pot head and I'll say that I was never addicted to pot on a physical lvl, but I WAS addicted to getting a buzz on a mental level. I was even taking pills that I shouldn't have been taking to get me high, till I OD'd on them and had to go to the ER...That quickly put a stop to my pill taking days which only lasted maybe a year and a half and never got hooked on them. I was addicted to a buzz, so when I moved out of state I lost all my weed connections...That's when I started drinking....Had to get high some how, I told myself and it's legal and also would never have all those bad stories I had heard about booze happen to me. WRONG. That's a very big wrong. I had started drinking the way I used to smoke weed. All day every day. Kinda wish I had stuck to weed. Ya, I've heard people say they need to smoke weed and it's physically addictive. was never that way for myself...When I didn't have smoke, which was almost never, I got "The Jones" for it, that's all, but weed is a strange drug and seems to effect different people differently. Some people may have a natural genetic tolerance for booze, like if you're Irish or Russian decent. I'm of the previous decent, but booze WILL catch up to anyone no matter whatever. At this point I'd say that booze is the worst drug and should be banned, but that's a double edged sword. Anyways, rock on and GL to all reading this. :)
No need to apologize at all my friend!! I’m glad you are here now. I can totally relate to what you wrote about w33d. I started drinking when green was getting too much for my pockets so I switched to booze. That was the start to disaster. Green was always very mentally addictive for me and it sucked when I’d run out. I honestly agree about booze being the worst drug too…. It’s absolutely disastrous. Thanks for this awesome comment brother 🙏
Man you can't believe how lucky you are! 1,5 year straight! And you not only still can talk, you're intelligent and articulate, I've seen people lose their entire shit for exactly this period of hard use of cocaine and alcohol, they can't walk anymore, they don't have any working memory and his speech is awful, it's sad! You are absolutely lucky! I'm so happy for you! Please study something difficult like mathematics, you are really smart and intelligent, you should work with that and let it evolve, make another man out of you
@@Slayer-7373 this comment of mine made me realise, alongside other symptoms like dropping things constantly, that I'm showing early signs of dementia. Although I don't think I ever was an alcoholic, I've had my share of booze until I was 48 and now I'm scared. Come Monday, I'll search for medical advice. I'll let you know if it gets confirmed. In any event, thanks for your content.
I completely understand that world understand man, it’s okay it happens. It’s gonna be tough brother, but I know you can do it. Do whatever it takes, goto detox if you need to. Whatever it takes!! 🙏🙏
@Slayer-7373 I probably have to go to detox I've been drinking heavily since I got out the psych ward back in April cuz of drink heavy how fucked is that.
@@Jaythecarnivore i completely understand man, I went on a year and half binge, it was brutal, so brutal coming off of it. You will thank yourself man if you get medically detoxed, don’t put yourself through the hell and danger of white knuckling it. Then once you’re out just give it time, when I was sober for almost 4 months I started to finally feel some what normal then I drank again and it reversed it. You got this bro, stay on this community we are all here to help one another. Be safe, keep me updated 🙏
I've been watching your videos for 2 months BEFORE 😢 I went into my 3rd detox July 1st. I'm really struggling but your honest videos really help me beyond words. Im doing I.O.P now and AA. THANK YOU SLAYER!! I feel we r on this journey together❤
Hey Shannon 🖤 I’m so sorry you’re struggling, you aren’t alone. We are 100% on this journey together!!! You will get through this. You have a whole community here if people that want to help including me. Much love to you and big hugs!!!! 🖤🙏 keep me updated
@@Slayer-7373 look at why. Our society demonizes alcohol, rebels take it on as a cause. The legal drinking age is 21. In France 16 year old kids can have wine at restaurants. Now look deeper. Per capita, France consumes twice as much alcohol as Americans do. And France has three times less cirrhosis of the liver. The problem is demonizers of alcohol equate consumption with alcoholism. The above data clearly disproves that. You are an alcoholic based on our social construct that didn’t teach moderation. It seems you have no control over consumption. So without self control then yes stay sober.
Utube Will start paying soon. Slay, You can do this! We just need to stay close to each other for support and protection. Avoid isolating because it’s dangerous to wonder off alone. Stay with your tribe. Do you have an email. If so I’ll send you my number. You are Not alone in this.♥️
You are 100% right Cindy, I could be making money already but I just haven’t had the time to set it all up. The money comes second, this community comes first. God bless you Cindy thank you 🙏
There was a point where I was about to go to bed and realized that I had been drinking 4 beers and a bottle of vodka and I felt relatively sober and functional. That was the exact moment I realized that I must have crossed a threshold. Then I tried to quit the first time and thus started an 8 year plus battle.
That sudden switch is PROFOUND, one moment you’re good, next moment you’re completely hooked. The disease has taken hold and now it’s a battle. Thank you for this comment my friend, god bless 🙏
My dad lost his eyesight recently, and that was a stressor for me, which of course led to more drinking. It's awesome that your councillor is still doing his thing despite what this shitty universe has inflicted on him. Love your videos so much. ❤️
🙏🖤keep your head up brother, appreciate you man.
Music + Guarana + herbs made me stop everything now these 3 things combined give me the high states of mind i need
I will have to look into this, thank you my friend ! ☀️
17 days? You give me hope! You got this! Show the warrior your and say NO to the monster. You created a beautiful community and that just goes to show who you are. Much love and blessings your way 🙏
Thank you so much nidia 🙏🖤, you’re so sweet and supportive it’s awesome!! Much love back to you!! God bless
man, you have no idea how much your videos have helped me during dark withdrawals, please dont give up brother, it dosnt matter if you fall down what matters is, you stand back up again
🖤much love to you trippy, it makes me genuinely happy when I hear I’m helping. You are an og of not only this channel but LD’s. I consider you a friend man, I ain’t going anywhere!!! We are gonna keep getting this!! Together!!!!
Thank you my friend!!!! Hope you are doing well brother. Bless 🙏💯
Being a drunk is like riding a bike but you never forget how to loose you balance though …then your brain actually get smaller some freaking scary physical stuff going on in our bodies it’s not worth it start every day like it’s your first day in recovery and minutes turn into hours then days and years. Yaaay life is good live it and learn you are the future
This is an awesome comment man. 100% spot on, spittin knowledge. God bless 🙌
So glad the IOP is working for u. Keep going man, unpacking all this crap will definitely help setting up on a path of peace. Proud of you!
@@_.Sparky._ appreciate you more than you know brotha!!! Thank you!!! One day at a time 💪💪
You really have a great way with words. I wish everything wonderful for everyone here that struggles with addiction. I wish my Daughter had found this community before alcoholism took her beautiful self out of this world. Everything you said in this video is so so true.
Your daughters story crushes me, god bless both of you. I sent a prayer out not only for you but also your daughter. Thank you for being part of this community, you are always showing love. I’ve seen you over on LD’s channel doing the same thing and it’s beautiful. You have a place here and so does your daughter in spirit.
Thank you for the kind words 🙏🖤, much love
The leech analogy is great! Great video!!! Congratulations on 17 days!!
Thanks so much Kathryn :) 🙏🖤💪
The longer you go without alcohol, less you think about it. I see how people act on it and it's a good reminder why i never went back
Absolutely man, you’re 100% spot on. This disease sucks!
@@Slayer-7373 I quit a dozen times only lasting 2 months at the most. 4 yrs now. After the first year I didn't miss alcohol at all. When you're deep into drinking your mind keeps you there
Congratulations keep it up and take it in and it’s the best lesson you can learn and take it a step further become a peer counselor too your such an intelligent young man, and your a strong person and you are loved and respected for taking control of your life Man that’s huge your success is already made a positive impact on so many of us so don’t forget that we love you and we are on this journey together Slayer , yep the fun disappears when you breakthrough but! Ahhh guess what you just leveled up to maturity that is the hardest part, you did it I’m proud of you too
Hey thank you so much brother 🙏, I appreciate this comment more than you know. When I read stuff like this it keeps me going. I’d love to do counseling and help people out that is a great idea!! I love y’all too man, this community is like a family. I really think I should consider looking into becoming a counselor one day. Anyways thanks again man, much love and take care. 🙏god bless
" I'm healing finally bec i'm not turning away from it - the pain / I'm facing things " --- WONDERFUL .. I had a hang up about something and a friend said of it, " oh I thought it would be cool to have that " ------- the point? The world does not judge us as harshly as we judge ourselves. We are enough, we are loveable, we are whole --- we are growing.
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Love your statement "JUST ASSUME you have a PROBLEM, " if you're having a feeling about clues of addiction.
I ignored that LITTLE VOICE, until just in time!!!
What a great "WAVE"...rant as much as you superlatively do, as often as you like man !!!!!
Appreciate this Craig!!! Thanks brother for always being here and showing love. You are a huge part of this community!!!! God bless. 🙏
Hey Craig - that’s what did it for me…”just assume you have a problem”! Hope you’re having a great day.
@Micru866 Yup, and it took a long time to listen to the voice, and follow up with the assumption!! Thanks for chiming in , and have a great Sunday 👍 👌
I have a cousin who went through AA -- On the question of hmmm, am I an alcoholic? He said a famous quote " if you think you have a problem, you do have a problem " --
My dad was an alcoholic and he passed away from cirrhosis of the liver, hepatitis C, and esophageal varices. All of these complications were due to alcoholism. Stay strong and continue not to drink MY FRIEND! AND AS I SAID BEFORE, I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU MY FRIEND!!!!!
@@joshchapman3515 🙏so sorry to hear that about your dad brother. I must learn from reading comments like these though. This is exactly why I NEED TO STOP. I’m probably around the corner from some of those things.
I will stay strong 💪, i appreciate you being here on this journey with me brotha. Much love and thank you!!!!!
Heyyy I was the 69th like! Nice.
I don't know how you do it mate - you make so many good points and throw so many quotable lines just off the cuff. Love your videos, congrats on your progress, long may it continue.
Ohhhhhhh sh*t ;) 😂😂
But No for real though man thank you so much, that’s really awesome of you to say. I love your videos too man, let’s keep rollin 💪. Much love bro, be easy 💯
i agree 100% that marijuana is addictive. i have been dealing with marijuana addiction since i was 14, im 25 this year. i dont even know how it feels to be a sober adult having smoked every day for the last 10 years of my life. the feeling like you cant live without marijuana is so relatable. it is my mental crutch, it is my coping mechanism. i am still working on learning how to live life without weed and im not going to lie, its hard. i am not an alcoholic but i have met many friends along the way who are and your videos are a powerful insight into this insidious web self destruction. thank you man and i hope things keep going well for you.
100% man 85 completely takes over your life. To the point that you can’t do anything without smoking. You goto the store you smoke, you shower you smoke, you eat you smoke, you workout you smoke, every single thing in your life revolves around smoking and if you don’t smoke you can’t even do it because it’s so bizarre.
I appreciate your comment man, I’m glad I’m helping you better understand this crazy addiction. God bless bro 💯
@Slayer-7373 you have a great understanding of all of this stuff man, keep putting out these videos, you are doing a great thing
@@qwayzayyy1 🖤will do brother. Thank you
17 days sober, going strong 💪 Remember - our mind can only think one thought at the time. The trick is to not let it wander: keep it busy and simple. Work -> Sport -> read a book / play a video game -> sleep & repeat. You got this. All the best
Appreciate this brother!!! 💪💪 y’all’s advice has been on point! We got this!!
Nice video Slayer!
Once you start drinking alone, that's where things really go south. Of course there is nothing wrong with having a beer or two after work to unwind, but "real" alcoholics don't just stop at one or two drinks. It snowballs into infinite.. it's a death spiral, literally.
Just as you and probably many others, when I first started drinking it was awesome, get a nice buzz goin', get a bit more talkative (especially nice for shy and introverted people) - But then you realize it helps dramatically with anxiety/panic disorder so you implement that into your daily or near daily routine. Eventually you feel as though you cannot be yourself and truly unwind without a few drinks in you.
Eventually the alcohol takes over every aspect of your life and it's not longer just a social thing. You are constantly thinking about drinking. It really is hell.
I'm 4 months sober almost to the day and I rarely think about it anymore. Although I have had a handful of dreams of drinking or going to buy alcohol, it's very weird.
Once the physical withdrawal symptoms settle down you can start to think more clearly and you will realize it really is an actual poison and is low-key destroying your life.
I have thought a few times, "damn, it would be great to have a few beers on this hot summer day," but it passes within a few minutes and the thought is completely gone.
Dealing with the negative aspects are just not worth it.
Drinking was awesome at the beginning, then it became the devil. Some people just need the wake up call one way or another to beat it.
I was thinking about this the other day, life is literally just a chain of impulses, we live on it and go from one to the other. If we can control our impulses, we can (somewhat) control our life.
This comment is spot on 💯 I can totally relate. Congratulations my friend on the 4 months!!!!! That is AMAZING bro. If no one else has said it, I’m proud of you man. Life is 100% full of impulses and I think you’re right about if we can learn to control them then we do actually have some control over our lives.
Thanks for this awesome comment, much love to you 🙏 god bless!
Bro i was diagnosed with the same thing; Severe anxiety disorder and panic disorder. I believe that anxiety attacks and panic attacks is the one of the 2 worse pains a human can feel. Loss of a loved one and anxiety and panic attacks. Add alcohol withdraw to it the anxiety is fucking uncomprehendable. Pure sheer terror. I've came close to a heart attack from it
Heart problems from alcohol with drawl or panic attacks? Either way shits scary
@@Sadtrvsh My blood preasures been 180+ and heart rates been over 200+ bpm when having anxiety and panic attacks. Add the alcohol to it I've been at dangerous numbers
Hey kuhzzy I completely understand, I think you’re pretty spot on with that. A severe panic attack truly feels like you’re dying and your brain has no way to tell you that you’re not. It’s traumatic, leaves you with ptsd. Like you said add the withdrawal to it and you really have ptsd. Certain smells and things will take me right back there again and almost send me in an instant panic.
Those numbers are super scary!!! Anxiety when it’s bad enough 100% becomes physical and not just mental anymore. Please be safe my friend and know you aren’t alone!!! God bless 💯
Definitely scary!!!!
@@Slayer-7373 Anxiety is fked bro
In my opinion, everyone needs each other and everyone needs friends!!!!
@@joshchapman3515 100% josh!!
Yay!!♥️ Another video from Slayer! #HappySoberSaturdaySlayer!
Thumbs Up!👍 & Shared Out!💞I’m so Happy and Proud of You! Much Love and Respect. Take good care of you and have a Beautiful Weekend!🏖
🙏🖤 thanks so much Cindy!!! You’re really an awesome person, always showing love in every community!!! I even saw you on jay Williams let’s live life!!!! Again thank you and god bless
@@Slayer-7373 We watch all the same channels! 👍💞
You rock brother
You rock my friend!!!! Thank you! 🙏
Thank you so much! - AJ
Hey slayer. Thank u for responding 2 me. I'm feeling lost right now. Felt detached from the world . I've decided my marriage needs to end. Very heavy emotions I didnt want 2 feel. Learning soo much in IOP. It truly sucks to have to actually feel things u have avoided for 4yrs. Being sober almost a month, I'm seeing and feeling so many things. My counselor said we have 2 become comfortable with uncomfortable feelings. I am and I just wanna drink it away. I m choosing to watch your videos and stay strong. Thank u
Hey Shannon 👋, I’m so sorry you’re going through a hard time right now. I totally understand those feelings, it’s overwhelming. They all come flooding in when we get sober but like you said we really do have to become comfortable in the uncomfortable. It’s the one way we will heal from our traumas. I applaud you for staying sober and staying strong 👏💪💯 that is what I’m talking about!!! It’s an honor to be helping. Stay in the fight, we got this!!! Brighter days ahead!
I figured that IOP has cut into your upload time a bit. However, you are slaying, er, staying sober. You almost have 20 days since that last lapse! Congrats on that. Maybe we can do that collab/Zoom thing here directly. I still think since we both ran into trouble around the same time that would be a really good topic to discuss. I had a friend who was a pothead and all of his troubles were weed-based - from behavior to legalities. That was about the worst case of "pot addiction" I have ever seen. I appreciate the shoutout, bro. I am thinking about talking about our newish community.
Hey what’s up shades!!! Yea man it definitely has but like you said it’s helping me stay sober which is a great thing. I appreciate that man thank you 🙏
Also 100% man we will make it happen! I just need to figure out a good day and see if it works with you. We can email about it, I think the more Collabs us sober UA-camrs do the better. It’s great for the community and it keeps us more connected. We will make it happen man eventually I promise.
Also yea man of course!! I appreciate the shout-out in your latest video talking about the community. Be easy my friend, bless 💯
You are such a wise young man, a total inspiration for me. I love your channel and support your sobriety. I am AA based but would appreciate if you would share what you can about the program your on. AA says if we could do it on our own we would, we must depend on a Higher Power. I like your leech analogy but what jumped out to me was it’s more insidious,it doesn’t want to kill you, then it would also die, it wants to suck the life out of you just enough to make you wish you were dead.
Awe 🙏 thank you so much this is so awesome of you to say. I will have to make an entire video on my IOP group, breaking down exactly what it is and what we do. Also tell you guys what I’ve been learning in it, would be super cool I think and beneficial.
Also yes!!!! You are spot on!!! Makes you wish you were dead, that’s powerful.
God bless 🙏
So great to hear you are in family counseling -- what a gift you have been given. Sorry about the panic attacks. I suffered terribly in my late 20s through 40s ish tbh. I never knew I needed to deal with stress. I didn't know I could say " this is too much " -- You can say // we can say --- " this is too Effing much " --- cry, shut down, isolate --- have a pity party to rest by ourselves if we need to. Just don't stay there --- We must Release the valve when we feel super Wound -- but I didn't know that // it's oK to say "this is too much" // ... I Could never smoke pot --- too much anxiety // paranoia --- love listening to your sobriety --- I am trying to decipher your accent -- can you at least tell me what part of the country? Pacific NW?
Wow Slay! I can totally relate to that driving over 100 mph! I used to do that every time I hit a back road!! I’m starting to realize that I was gambling big time with my life! It’s a scary thought and I still don’t understand completely why I did that.
I’m glad someone can relate 🙏, I think In a way we were running. Trying to escape whatever pain we were in and didn’t know what to do. It’s definitely dangerous and something neither of us should ever do!!! God bless 🙏🙏
@@Slayer-7373 I completely agree!
Just wanted to wish you a good night. I did sub to LD.
I have some bad days but your messages always make me feel less alone. Thank you so much.
Take care and stay safe. ❤🙏
Hey Debbie thanks so much 🙏, you aren’t alone!! You have a whole community here. Seriously we are all here to help one another. It’s so awesome that I’m helping 🙏🖤 god bless. Have a great night!
Late night slayer upload? Heck yea
Hey Jeff! Hope you have a Beautiful Weekend!🏖
God bless you Jeff!!! 🙏🙏 thank you brother.
Slayer! Glad you are doing better brother, even though you're still battling the panic attacks,etc(that's a bummer, sorry to hear that). 17 days sober is huge! Great job 👏👍 Keep the faith, and the whole Slayer community is your corner and we're fighting this evil, demonic disease with ya. 25 days sober here..Gonna try to quit this e-cig addiction again today..ugh.. nicotine is a beast as you already know...peace and love brother..stay strong 💪💯🙏..LK785..
💪💪appreciate you brother!! Thank you man!! 25 days is incredible bro!!! 🙌👏 if no one else has told you yet man I’m proud of you. I know how hard this battle is and you are out there getting it!! Super admirable bro. You will knock that e-cig addiction in no time don’t even worry about it, I do know how tough that can be though but we will get it. All things are possible with Christ right?
Peace and love brotha, god bless 🙏💯💪
@@Slayer-7373 Amen to your entire comment Boss..Thx!! .💯🙏👍
naltrexone helped me get sober. you got this❤
That is awesome olives, congratulations on your sobriety 🙏🖤🙌, I love reading comments like these. Much love to you and thank you !!!
Hey Slayer!❤ Great video! Congratulations on your program! You are making it happen Slayer❤. Wow!
🖤🙏thank you so much chp, I really do appreciate you being here and part of this community. :)
I hope you're having a good day. Thank u for your responses to my comment. Hearing from u helps me every day. Please take care and be safe..🙏❤🙏
Hey I hope you’re having a good day as well!!! Thank you so much Debbie!! This is what it’s all about. That’s why these communities are so important. So people understand they aren’t alone, we are all so alike. I’m glad I’m helping, this whole community just wants to help one another and it’s pretty amazing.
One day at a time, much love and god bless 🙏
You've got this..🤗♥️
🖤🙏thank you.
One day at a time.
I’m learning a lot about myself drinking from your videos
@@zenobiasirmons6596 this is exactly why I make these videos!!! This is awesome!!! Much love to you!
Hey Slayer. I’ve been watching your vids for a bit, but this is my first time commenting.
I just want to say bless you brother. Fuck the haters who don’t understand. I put on your vids when I’m doing my job and it keeps me on the right path. I relapsed recently and I can’t seem to stop drinking. These videos help me. Thank you.
Hey brother 🙏 thank you so much man, this comment is absolutely awesome! This is why I make the videos for people like you Man. It brings me actually genuine happiness to know I’m helping and hey I want to thank you because you’re helping me stay sober just as much!!!
God bless you my friend!!!! Let’s take it one day at a time. 🙏
Bro your story is nearly exactly like mine. Same age that you started, same type of withdrawals, same desperation. All that. I’m 32 and been alcohol free for about 3 and a half years. It was so hard to imagine getting 6 months let alone 3 years. I just want you to know that you can do this. I love your videos. You’re taking the right steps in the right direction. It’s worth it and so are you. Keep going. We are in the no matter what club. We don’t drink no matter what. No matter how hard life gets and if we have no reason to keep going, we just don’t drink. It won’t make anything better. Stay strong bro.
Love this comment man thank you so much 🙏, also congratulations on the 3 and a half years of sobriety!!! 🙌👏 that is incredible and inspires me. Y’all have shown me the way to do it and shared your journeys and it helps me more than you know. We are definitely in the “no matter what club” haha. God bless man 🙏
Wonderful update 👏👏. Keep going, Slayer ❤
Thanks so much Jean 🙏🖤 will do 💪
Hey Slay🖤 what a wonderful update, you are doing the damn thing! 💪🏽 your commitment and hard work towards your sobriety and healing is admirable and inspiring. I have 6 months alcohol free today and waking up to your video felt like a gift. Thank you Slay, your videos help me a ton. Have a safe, sober & happy weekend…sending you lots of love🖤🖤🖤
CONGRATULATIONS ON 6 MONTHS!!!! WHOOOOOHHH lol, that is incredible nat. If nobody has told you already I want to say it, I’m super proud of you!!! 🙌💪🖤
Y’all really help me so much, heading that my videos help you guys is an absolute gift. Thank you for being on this journey with me, lots of love back to you!!! 🖤🖤🖤thank you 😁
@@Slayer-7373 Thank you SO much Slay, means more than you know! 🥲🙏🏽 actually no one else has told me so I really appreciate it….& I’m proud of you too!!! You & your videos as well as other amazing people I’ve come across in the sober community here on UA-cam have helped me get here & to keep pushing & I’m so, so grateful🙏🏽 We got this!!! 💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽
@@natsnikkii🖤:) 👏
@@Slayer-7373 🖤🖤🖤
Thanks for the vid. They really help me stay in the right mindset. 9 months no alcohol here. No cravings at all but I always make sure to watch vids like this so I don’t forget the nightmare. Have you ever been into any athletic endeavors? Sports? Weightlifting? Hiking? I know it’s cliche but I have been exercising a lot and it creates a project to work on. I am the project and alcohol does not fit in to it at all. So it’s like a forcefield against the temptation. Anyway, glad to see you are back on track.
Congratulations on the 9 months brother that is awesome!!!! 💪💪, I’m glad they are keeping you on track. That’s exactly why i started this channel and reading comments like yours really help me man. Knowing I’m actually helping people is incredible.
Also I love hiking, I was into some sports growing up. Definitely two things I should bring back into my life. I love your project analogy.
Much love to you atlas, take care brother 🙏
@@Slayer-7373yo, I wanted to add something more about that “forcefield” analogy. I know from experience how bad it sucks to get in great physical shape and then convince myself I can handle a drink like “normal people”. Then after a six month bender, I am sick, fat, weak, depressed, and facing a week of withdrawals. I have gotten to the point where I am just not willing for this to happen again. I am stronger than ever now and I know I am not “normal” when it comes to substances and I am really at peace with that. I consider myself a convalescent party animal. This isn’t advice, just my experience with it. I want to see you get control of this thing.
@@AtlasAtPeacethat’s beautiful brother that you came to that point. I’m definitely not normal either when it comes to that stuff lol. You give me hope though man, 9 months is just epic. Ill get this thing I just gotta do what I know I gotta do.
Anyways, god bless bro and thank you. 🙏
@Slayer-7373 you're dropping plenty of sound wisdom right here in your video!! Great to see ya doing better. Thanks for explaining IOP !°
The thanks all goes to you Craig! I appreciate you brother! Be easy my friend. 🙏
Hey Slayer!!! I'm so happy for you for both the program and the family counseling!! I really hope that the counseling helps you all!! I also hope that the program supports you well! I am so glad that you're able to share your wisdom with those individuals in real time. I hope that they take it seriously and it sticks with them. As far as pot, it's just substances!! I was the same way! If something helps me escape, I just want to stay in that altered state of mind at all times. Pot now makes me anxious, so I'm definitely not susceptible to picking that up ever again! I am anxious enough naturally haha
This topic is so important because the change from fun to addiction comes out of nowhere. You see small signs, and if you don't want to look at them, or you don't notice them, then by the time you're willing to look, it feels impossible to turn it around. But it's not impossible. It may take a long time to get it right, but it's SO worth it
It's freedom when you step away from addiction. Hopefully, someone will watch your videos and turn back before that point ever even comes. Big love, Slay!! So glad you're doing well ❤❤❤🎉
Thank you so much Amanda as always!! 🙏🖤, its a 100% chance whenever I read your comments they make me smile lol. I always take your wisdom and advice, thank you again my friend.
Glad we are all on this journey together, helping one another. It’s amazing I can’t say this enough. I hope so too about the videos, I hope so too 🙏.
Big love to you as well!!! 🙏🖤 hope you’re doing awesome.
@Slayer-7373 👋😊❤️ pretty okay!! Crazy, exciting, and exhausting time in life, but I'm still kicking and still sober!! So I'll take it! Haha have a wonderful day tomorrow 🫂🙏
@@amandaflaherty7528proud of you 🙏🙌🖤
@@Slayer-7373 🥹 I'm proud of you, too!! ❤️
Brilliant.
You are brilliant my friend!!! 🙏
Thanks for another video bro❤ that is definitely cool that the therapist/counselor is blind. I know bringing up all of that family stuff can be hard but the process is worth it when you can get it all out... yeah you definitely have to relearn how to live after addiction. You can do this!!
🙏thanks so much Olivia!!! I think it’s pretty cool as well. Like you said it’s hard but it’s all part of the process I think. This community has just been amazing.
God bless 🖤🙏 and thank you again!!!!
One day at a time.
@@Slayer-7373 🩷🩷🩷
Your so inspiring. Thank you
This is really awesome of you to say crystal 🙏🖤 thank you!!
I knew an older man whose girlfriend insisted he go to detox from alcohol. The next day she got a call saying he had passed away from DT complications.
That is horrific….. but it’s a sad reality of what can come from this disease. Poor guy was trying to get help that’s sad.
Hope you’re doing well Rita, much love 🙏🖤
look in to some vitamin B complex and some extra methylfolate, really helped with my anxiety !
I’ve got a vitamin B complex that I should start taking, I’ll look into methyfolate. Thanks brother 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Although these vitamins can be very helpful for some, a warning here: be careful with methylated supplements. It can help tremendously but it also can cause extreme anxiety and brain hyperexcitability (which I guess has something to do with genetics). I lived through it and it took me more than a year for my brain to recover after a couple of months use (note: I didn't drink during that time). Just a word of caution because I don't wish this upon anybody. Take care Slayer, wishing you the best !
So awesome to hear your path and the steps you are putting in place. You’re an inspiration. Thankyou for your channel. ❤
🖤🙏thank you so much Kirsten, y’all inspire me too.
Jekyll/Hyde/Monster spot on, great work bro
Thank you my friend. 🙏🙏
I've been watching the vids u did on LDs channel about 4 months ago. Thank you for them.
Hey thank you Debbie!! I loved doing those with LD. He’s a really good dude, I’m glad you’re enjoying them!! Definitely give LD a subscribe! 🙏 god bless
_Good to see you, Slayer, and glad you're getting the help you need. Yeah, I don't think eating salads does much for advanced alcoholism._
Hey 👋 good to see you don as well my friend!! Thank you as always. Also yes 😆😂 a salad ain’t gonna save ya lol. Much love my friend, take care 🙏
I hope you had a good day and have a good evening. Thinking of you. Take care, Deb. 🙏❤❤
It was a really good group today, thanks Deb 🙏 hope you’re doing well yourself. Next couple days I want another video up. This community has just been amazing. Bless 🙏
I really appreciate you checking in. Again this community is the best
I'm so glad you had a good group yesterday. It must help a lot to talk with and listen to others. I'm glad u have that in your life. Deb
34 days sober. Never going back.
That is amazing!!! 👏💪 keep going!! Don’t look back. Proud of you.
@@Slayer-7373 Thank you. I'm resigned to the fact that if I drink again it will only be death and destruction. You're right about addiction coming back twice as strong when you relapse. My last relapse I really hit the booze big time. No more!
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Good to see your face and hear your voice. Prayers for you as you take this deep dive into IOP. Don’t forget to keep God in the center of everything, even the IOP journey.
I appreciate this brother, good to see all of y’all and talk to y’all. You are so right though God must be in the center of everything for it to work properly I really do believe that. One day at a time, with god 🙏. Thanks so much man and god bless. 🙌
Awesome video! Congrats on sticking with the treatment and counseling!
Thanks so much Angela :) 🙏🖤 one day at a time!!
So glad to see your video..Congratulations on all your hard work and courage staying sober. I hope you have a good Sunday. Thank u for all your honesty. I know it will help so many to hear what I say.
Take care, Deb. 🙏❤
🖤🖤 thank you Debbie!!! I hope you have an amazing Sunday yourself. I appreciate you!
Thank you so much for your message. I think it's so beautiful that you always find the time to respond to comments. Many days you are the only person I connect with. Thank you for that.
I hope your day is going ok and you have a good nite. Take care,be safe.🙏🙏❤❤
Bro I feel you mine started with weed and couldn’t live with out it. But now I’m not too interested in it. alcohol had taken the place of weed. Shit sucks. Sober 1 week now let’s get it!
Lets gooooooo!!!!!! Congratulations on the 1 week my friend!!! That is awesome. Let’s keep kicking alcohols a$$!!!! We sound like the same person when it comes to the green lol.
Anyways much love to you!!! Keep up the good work.
@@Slayer-7373 thanks man! I’m 27 and have had my relapses in the past when trying to quit. Yesterday was a test for me I was invited to a party. I was gonna go but I was like nah i thought about the temptations there. As alcoholics we really have to completely change our life and habits. The old us has passed on
@@Brentburns1 very proud of you man, you made the absolute best decision you could. Let’s keep getting it ! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 thanks bro u too!
Good morning. I hope you have a good day. Thinking of you. Take care. 🙏❤
🖤🙏good morning Debbie! You take care as well.
You sound like the true sober you now - I've noticed after a relapse your videos lack energy but this one has your trademark Slayer passion. I'm so happy you're doing something active to keep sober (the outpatient program) and it's encouraging that your parents are involved. That's awesome for you, but awesome for them because they'll get to understand that you're an addict and not just a badly behaved son. As long as you lock into your head that the next time you drink YOU WILL DIE you should be ok. I'm terrified of picking up a drink, I've convinced myself that if I relapse I'll have a withdrawal seizure after a few days and die. I don't mean to use scare tactics but it's reality. You've pushed your luck SO hard lately, the next relapse statistically means death.
Love ya brother, this comment hit me hard. I want it this time and I want it badly. When I’m sober I do have a genuine passion for this,I feel a real calling to talk about this stuff.
Anyways thanks again man, hope all is well. Bless! 💯
thanks for posting bro, it helps a lot.
Hey the thanks goes to you my friend, y’all help me just as much. Bless 💯🙏
Keep it up you sound happy
Will do Anna, thank you 🙏:)
Thanks for all the advice and info bro. Keep on keeping on. Much love
For sure brother, thank you man. Much love and god bless 🙏
Looking forward to your story. I listened to bat country's rock bottom. Totally INSANE!!!
Unfortunately I have more than one lol, much love brother!! 🙏
Also yes bat country’s video on his rock bottom was insane!! Shout-out to BC.
Love you mate, I'm right there with you
@@adsinozable aye love you too brother, thank you man. 🙏
@@adsinozable god bless 💯
Also slayer I was going to say if your having a craving super super bad get to a movie 🍿 theater rite away where it’s air conditioning nice and cool ! And watch a movie 🎥 with pop corn 🌽 and soda 🥤 and plenty of food 🍱 and sweets 🍬 ‼️
It hella works for me it totally got my mind off of thinking about alcohol 🥃 my boy ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️
Hey bro I Will definitely try this some time!!! This sounds super chill and like a great way to take your mind off those temptations and cravings. I appreciate the advice brotha, god bless 💯🙏
This works for me as well
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I think alcohol is gateway drug, i don't end up using other drugs without alcohol
Alcohol is 100% a gateway drug and THE gateway drug if there is one.
Thanks for the comment brother, god bless 💯
What do you do for work? If you don't mind me asking. If you'd rather not say that's chill too man. At least you have a job and putting that work in. One of my old buddies is like 37 years old married with a kid and still lives with his parents with no job. lol He doesn't even try. One day at a time bro!
I will say this, I do maintenance and I’m a supervisor haha. It’s a great job and I know the bosses very well. That’s really sad enough to say the only reason I haven’t been fired. It’s another reason I have to stay sober because I love my job, great benefits it’s super chill but if I mess up again they told me I’m gone. Also hopefully your old buddy gets it together 😂.
Much love bro, one day at a time! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 True that man you don’t wanna mess up and lose that job. Let that be a driving force to stay sober. Good thing you know your co workers well. Just remember that if you are about to drink think of your job. Think of the consequences. One day at a time for sure! 🙏❤️
@@DATONEGAMER25 absolutely man, it’s another tool in my tool box of sobriety in a way. Another reason to stay sober.
🙏thanks brother. We got this
Good video
Hey thank you my friend. 🙏
Been catching up on your videos, so sry I'm late to this one, but I 'll chime in on the weed thing. I started smoking weed at 14 years old and was totally against drinking, but was a massive pot head and I'll say that I was never addicted to pot on a physical lvl, but I WAS addicted to getting a buzz on a mental level. I was even taking pills that I shouldn't have been taking to get me high, till I OD'd on them and had to go to the ER...That quickly put a stop to my pill taking days which only lasted maybe a year and a half and never got hooked on them. I was addicted to a buzz, so when I moved out of state I lost all my weed connections...That's when I started drinking....Had to get high some how, I told myself and it's legal and also would never have all those bad stories I had heard about booze happen to me. WRONG. That's a very big wrong. I had started drinking the way I used to smoke weed. All day every day. Kinda wish I had stuck to weed. Ya, I've heard people say they need to smoke weed and it's physically addictive. was never that way for myself...When I didn't have smoke, which was almost never, I got "The Jones" for it, that's all, but weed is a strange drug and seems to effect different people differently. Some people may have a natural genetic tolerance for booze, like if you're Irish or Russian decent. I'm of the previous decent, but booze WILL catch up to anyone no matter whatever. At this point I'd say that booze is the worst drug and should be banned, but that's a double edged sword. Anyways, rock on and GL to all reading this. :)
No need to apologize at all my friend!! I’m glad you are here now. I can totally relate to what you wrote about w33d. I started drinking when green was getting too much for my pockets so I switched to booze. That was the start to disaster. Green was always very mentally addictive for me and it sucked when I’d run out. I honestly agree about booze being the worst drug too…. It’s absolutely disastrous. Thanks for this awesome comment brother 🙏
Man you can't believe how lucky you are! 1,5 year straight! And you not only still can talk, you're intelligent and articulate, I've seen people lose their entire shit for exactly this period of hard use of cocaine and alcohol, they can't walk anymore, they don't have any working memory and his speech is awful, it's sad! You are absolutely lucky! I'm so happy for you! Please study something difficult like mathematics, you are really smart and intelligent, you should work with that and let it evolve, make another man out of you
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@@Slayer-7373 this comment of mine made me realise, alongside other symptoms like dropping things constantly, that I'm showing early signs of dementia. Although I don't think I ever was an alcoholic, I've had my share of booze until I was 48 and now I'm scared. Come Monday, I'll search for medical advice. I'll let you know if it gets confirmed. In any event, thanks for your content.
Wow a blind councillor 😮
Yea pretty cool right?
@@Slayer-7373 yeh if someone can overcome being blind you can overcome AUD.
@@Redsnapper123 absolutely.
Got drunk last night woke up on the floor half an hour ago pissed myself don't k own wtf happend I need help. I'm 29btw
I completely understand that world understand man, it’s okay it happens. It’s gonna be tough brother, but I know you can do it. Do whatever it takes, goto detox if you need to. Whatever it takes!! 🙏🙏
@Slayer-7373 I probably have to go to detox I've been drinking heavily since I got out the psych ward back in April cuz of drink heavy how fucked is that.
@@Jaythecarnivore i completely understand man, I went on a year and half binge, it was brutal, so brutal coming off of it. You will thank yourself man if you get medically detoxed, don’t put yourself through the hell and danger of white knuckling it. Then once you’re out just give it time, when I was sober for almost 4 months I started to finally feel some what normal then I drank again and it reversed it. You got this bro, stay on this community we are all here to help one another.
Be safe, keep me updated 🙏
I drink a tall can every Saturday is that an alcoholic?
I would not consider that an alcoholic my friend, if it’s really just 1 tall boy each Saturday I see nothing wrong with that. God bless 🙏
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@@seg6629 🖤thanks seg, hope you’re doing well :).
@@Slayer-7373 I'm ok good days bad days xxx
Thankyou !!!! For asking
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I've been watching your videos for 2 months BEFORE 😢 I went into my 3rd detox July 1st. I'm really struggling but your honest videos really help me beyond words. Im doing I.O.P now and AA. THANK YOU SLAYER!! I feel we r on this journey together❤
Hey Shannon 🖤 I’m so sorry you’re struggling, you aren’t alone. We are 100% on this journey together!!! You will get through this. You have a whole community here if people that want to help including me. Much love to you and big hugs!!!! 🖤🙏 keep me updated
Also the thanks goes to you! 🙏
Not true. You never learned moderation. You only believe in pendulum swings… dry on one side, drunk on the other. I think you need maturity.
@@StarwaterCWS fair enough, god bless brother. 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 look at why. Our society demonizes alcohol, rebels take it on as a cause. The legal drinking age is 21. In France 16 year old kids can have wine at restaurants.
Now look deeper. Per capita, France consumes twice as much alcohol as Americans do. And France has three times less cirrhosis of the liver.
The problem is demonizers of alcohol equate consumption with alcoholism. The above data clearly disproves that.
You are an alcoholic based on our social construct that didn’t teach moderation. It seems you have no control over consumption. So without self control then yes stay sober.
Utube Will start paying soon. Slay, You can do this! We just need to stay close to each other for support and protection. Avoid isolating because it’s dangerous to wonder off alone. Stay with your tribe. Do you have an email. If so I’ll send you my number. You are Not alone in this.♥️
You are 100% right Cindy, I could be making money already but I just haven’t had the time to set it all up. The money comes second, this community comes first. God bless you Cindy thank you 🙏