Rapist interview-James
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- Опубліковано 12 сер 2019
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of James, a man convicted of numerous violent crimes. For those viewers interested in hearing more of James, I posted another, longer interview where he talks about his first murder and his current pursuit, murdering convicted child molesters on Skid Row on my Patreon channel.
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James was more than willing to show me court documents of all his court cases and prison time. As for his other claims, I’m certain his family would tell a different story. James passed away in his tent in December 2019 from complications from a stabbing. I spoke with James five times and each talk got deeper and more disturbing. I can’t possibly upload the last two because I think I’d lose my channel. RIP
One month later...
I didn’t realize anyone else found James as interesting as I did. I’ve uploaded a second video of James to the Soft White Underbelly subscription channel. I remember when I was sitting with James on these long talks that went into the night, that no one will ever want to hear this, but apparently I was wrong.
🥺 wow.. please upload! even if not on this platform. these stories are incredibly interesting..
I hope he found peace he was a tortured individual
Also hope the victim he killed family peace
Good riddance.
@@emptypromises2962 I don't really know if "Good riddance" is the words I want to use but, I do think he would eventually kill if he wasn't killed. I don't know if all of what he was saying was true but, he has convinced himself that he is the victim and uses it to justify his actions.
I read that he died down further on the thread. As fascinating as I'm sure it would be to watch, I can only imagine how dark those videos must be. So hard to tell if he was lying about the abuse in his family or not.
Dude looks 17 and 53 at the same time
I was gonna say
🤣🤣😂😂...very true...
😂
Epic Gamer 225 it’s the cod shirt, and hair cut lmaoo
It’s the cod shirt
What really disturbs me is that either he's lying about his past and his family, or he isn't. And both of those scenarios are horrifying.
Why in gods name would he lie about that?
@@TwinkleCs No. I don't think so.
In the comment from the interviewer at the top of the page it is stated that he provided court documentation of his crimes. I’m pretty sure he is truthful.
@@AnastasiaLUVSU To justify his convictions.
@@gigisoglamorousipeeglitter7466 I don't think CapNCorn is questioning whether or not James was lying about his crimes/convictions, but about whether or not his father, mother and siblings all molested and raped him habitually as a child.
it's actually crazy how he described all the things he did and he's no longer in prison. yes his story is sad but rape, child molestation and murder and he's a free man the justice system is so fucked
Even crazier realizing that there are people serving longer jail sentences than him for selling drugs but never committing a violent crime. Shows where our values lie as a country.
Yup everyone knows system always been fucked up
The way we care for children is so important, you can create saints or Monsters just by how you raise children. A person can literally destroy multiple peoples lives indirectly by abusing and neglecting a child and essentially creating a human who would do the harm. He is a victim as well as the perpetrator 💔😞
@@prtdiva drugs is a violent crime
@@bugboxing229not as violent as r*pe and m*rder.
My sister and I were raised in a family of abuse and sexual abuse. My grandpa (a convicted rapist/molester) raped little girls the first victim was own daughter. He kept trophies. One of which was one of my cloth diapers he kept till his 70s. So as the rape and incest trickles down in families my sister was the one who continued the path. I was her victim. She used to say things like “if you weren’t my sister I’d marry you” etc. once I hit an age to know this was wrong I never spoke to them again. My grandpa died in prison and my sister is somewhere on the streets doing drugs. I’m waiting to come across her in one of these videos if she lives that long. No one believes us though the court documents are evidence enough.
Rape is a cycle. Abused people abuse others.
So sad 😢
What is deeply disturbing to me is that there is a movement to try and "normalise" paedophilia (calling it "intergenerational relationships"). This man is proof of just how devastating it is to the development of a person's psyche and how difficult it is to break the cycle of abuse. But you've survived it and I wish you peace sister.
Abusers were probably abused themselves but not all people who were abused continue to go on an abuse others. Luckily most victims don't continue these crimes.
Happened in my family, too. I was the youngest. Still think that since I didn't go public with it -- did it happen to someone else? If so, was that on me, for not getting it stopped. IDK.
Praise Be to Jesus Christ!
1st John 1:9-10 If we confess our sins,He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.If we say that we have not sinned, we make Him(God) a liar,and His(Gods) word is not in us.
honestly what I'm more amazed about is how you met these people and how you managed to convince them to do these interviews
He pays them..
@@Sandra-xn7qv so?
@@northernking4787 People do a lot of things for money. There’s of course nothing wrong with the main motivation being money for most of these people but I think that it’s another interesting insight into the human mind :)
@@northernking4787 so what? I'm just saying he pays them..ain't nothing wrong with that
@@northernking4787 imi
I was molested by my oldest brother for years, I’ve witnessed my mother getting abused almost daily by her boyfriend, he’s tried to kill me, and my brothers on multiple occasions, my mom was a violent person that would beat us with her fists all the time or when she was pissed. Looking at who I am today I’m glad I never let those events mold me into a terrible person. I’m glad I’m a good man and I would never hurt anyone the way I was hurt.
Edit: I wanted to thank everyone that posted uplifting comments. It means a lot thank you all again.
GOOD YOU MADE THE RIGHT CHOICES
Sorry you went through such horrors. I think you must have found a way to process the agony you went through, like reading fiction or some other creative outlet.
May God heal you
you are so strong ❤️❤️
Sounds like we had similar childhoods. Glad we made it out alive and are good functioning people
An interview that triggers both disgust and compassion.
Hope it's not the raping you're compassionate about.
No compassion from me.
@@magallanesagustin4952we live in a society that allows criminals to be rehabilitated. Cope
@@subsamadhi most criminals (especially rapists) can't and/or don't want to be rehabilitated and sending taxes on them is a waste of money and resources.
@magallanesagustin4952 yeah stay in your lane dipshit. Thats called your opinion
I was raped in my early 20's.. It changed me forever but I'm better now. Thank you for this. I've always wanted to hear the thoughts of a rapist and how they came to be because it's so far from anything normal.
Do you mind telling me your gender?
@@Saint.Holy.Sinnerwhy does it matter?
it doesn't matter but it's just out of curiosity @@eowla1
@@Saint.Holy.Sinner Look at my name and why do you want to know?
@@eowla1so we can know more
People fall into two categories:
1) People who want you to experience what they had to go through.
2) People who want to protect you from experiencing what they had to go through.
Very true.
Very wise dude
Ah yes, that good ol' Black & White. What a wonderful lense to look at the world through.
I really hope I fall into the second category.
People sort of want to do both.
To hear rape described as "a form of self-expression" is horrifying.
You haven't walked a mile in his shoes eh
@@roninhubbard9059 🤨
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Not sure I'd want to walk a mile in the shoes of a rapist and child molester. Seems kinda tainted.
@@roninhubbard9059 ???
@@roninhubbard9059 you can't be serious..
I feel horrible for the child he once was. He’s ashamed of himself but he knows he can’t change. He was raised by monsters and grew up to be one. Really a sad situation.
As a trauma survivor, it is my responsibility to avoid inflicting others with the same things I experienced. It is my responsibility to deal with my trauma and heal from it. I cannot repeat what was done to me, don't know why, but I just can't.
That's why I can't tell if his trauma truly turned him into the aggressor or if he's shifting blame for what he has become to reason with his evil ways.
@@suqmaddiqq It may be both. Maybe he was predisposed to developing such tendencies and the abuse pushed him over. But maybe not to the extent that he says because ultimately he wasn't forced to do the crimes but rather chose to do them.
Sending love and hoping for your peace and healing 🤍 Your responsibility not to inflict trauma amongst others is ultimately a choice that we all applaud and respect you for choosing. As an outsider who doesn’t ultimately know you or fully understand what you’ve been through, I can think of many reasons “why” you should heal and not repeat a pattern of trauma. One reason that sticks out to me is that repeating the pattern of trauma does not change what happened. And nothing can change or alter what happened, but also the trauma does not have to overwhelm all of the positive and beautiful things that can happen for and to you moving forward. Hopefully life and the world can repay you in kind by showing you beauty, peace, happiness, and healing which won’t take away what happened but also won’t be overshadowed by what happened. Hopefully the dark and the light can exist together and by living in the present you can experience them both for what they actually are and for what you can learn from them. I don’t have the answers at the end of the day, but I hope you can experience the kindness of people and see through experience that you’re never truly alone ever in this world. 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤗🤗🤗
Because we know more than anybody how much it hurts and how it ruined our lives.
I have no respect or compassion for abusive people who endured the same, in fact, I'd be more inclined to forgive an abuser who didn't realise the impact of what they were doing, over someone who did.
I think it's a very different story if your childhood consists of being molested all the time, and you think that's just normal.
He feels so sorry for himself. That he almost forgets how fucked up his actions are
Exactally bruh, He needs to stop feeling sorry for himself. I feel bad for what happened to him but that didnt give him the right to do it to other people. If hes been through it he should know how it will tourment a kid for the rest of their life. I agree with you and tbh i dont feel sorry for him i feel sorry about what happened to him but he deserves to rot in hell
@@imsodead9307 ok
@@jwwr8408 shut up
If you watch through a lot of these interviews, or even interact with abusers in real life, you'll notice all of them do this. A lot of times they even talk about ttheir abuse to others being hard on THEM. It's a lot of "I cant believe I'd do something like that" "I think about it every night" "It really breaks my heart that I hurt someone", almost like their all reading the same script. They'll do anything to flip the situation to make them look like victims
Alyssiah it's so bizarre to me.. I have been raped and my parents were physically (to the point of breaking bones and starvation) and emotionally abusive. As an adult I'd never scream at anyone, I'd never lift a finger against anyone and I'd never disregard another person's consent. It's interesting how different people deal very differently with similar situations.
Human psychology is so fascinating. Notice how despite everything he’s saying about how badly he was abused when he gets to the subject of the rape and murder he committed he can barely say the words of what he had done. Shame is a very powerful emotion.
There is nothing about this man that says he feels ashamed about any of his actions.
@@nicollettegordon360 Lack of eye contact, pursed lower lip, subdued posture, fidgeting, difficulty speaking. You don't see the signs because you're not looking for them, and fair enough.
I don't know I thought he seemed genuine in the abuse exaggerated or not, callousness or indifference towards his crimes could be sociopathy if he is legit in his crimes. It's not that strange of a story abused child becomes an abusive violent person. Some abuse themselves and others take it out on others.
@-- Do I? I'm sorry you think so little of me.
It's one of the strongest and most influential ones we have (well most of us have) and it can be incredibly helpful or harmful to a human being.
My main takeaway is that when I have kids, nothing will be more important than being good to them and making sure they have a safe place to grow up and a positive role model in me to look up to. And also that my parents deserve all the love in the world for taking care of me and raising me the way they did.
Great comment. Teach your kids right from wrong because if you don't do it, who will??
What a wonderful comment. 😊
God will bless you.
@@BigBaller-he1dz barely any parents are philosophically equipped to 'know' right from wrong themselves. (though there are things like this where it is pretty clear)
Anyways my point is that philosophy should be taught in school.
And make them strong enough to exist in a world where they live around monsters like this.
When I realised I was completely alone in this world, I nearly ended my life. I didnt r*pe anybody. C'mon man.
Dude…exactly 🤦🏻♀️ I hope you don’t feel so alone now ❤️ just remember there are, very unfortunately, millions of people who too feel the same. I’ve felt alone for nearly over 30 years. Find your people, they are on this Earth.
Just go to the brothel bro. It ain’t that deep.
Not everyone handles problems the same way . That's like me saying to you i realized I was alone and just accepted it instead of being suicidal trying to end my life . People deal with things differently.
@@jamesbennett5587 My point is there's no justification for r*pe. Being alone in the world is not a valid reason.
@@charlieamy2279 Thank you, it's good advice, I hope I will. I hope you've found your people too.
he said he grew up with his mother and two sisters... then later on he mentions an older brother beating him.. then he says he experienced no physical abuse.. idk man i dont even wanna finish the video
Morgan Barker I noticed that too. This pig makes me sick. At the end he compares himself to a soldier... I could vomit hearing that
Yeah, I also noticed the instability of his story. The first parts especially of his story struck me as lies. The murder part seemed more genuine. I think he might have created memories and also lied to cope with what he's done. I do not trust that man.
13CrazyDaisies that makes sense like a coping mechanism. I cannot even wrap my head around what he’s admitting to. But this channel has brought a lot of issues to light for me. I had no idea how bad things could be.
@@ItsFranci
And he compares himself to a soldier in relation to the violence he perpetrated two weeks prior to the interview. The fact he's freely admitting to active violence is frightening.
this is exactly what i was following
He is another reason why children must be protected from sexual abuse because some abuse survivors remain victims, others become victimizers.
Brandy Brown do you honestly believe his stories about his sexual abuse? He is obviously a pathological liar and a psychopath, but I can’t prove you wrong and you can’t prove me wrong so I guess have your own opinion
Sicko Bamba that’s like calling a rape victim a liar without evidence. Just to let you know. Just because he raped and murdered and whatever else he did doesn’t make what may or not have happened a lie. Kids can go years a lifetime without ever telling people about their abuse because of this. People not believing them because of the crimes they’ve committed. Or for who their parents are. And so on. Just because he’s done all of this and has lied doesn’t mean he isn’t telling the truth about what happened to him.
Becca Tumlinson yeah and when you hear them out you see pain and emotion but this man says his mom, dad, sister sexually abused him. He shows no pain, he seams to be playing an act of his perception of a victim. Blaming anyone else for his actions showing no remorse. We can’t go believing this boy crying wolf.
He was never a victim. If you believed any of his stories you’re silly AF.
Autumn Marie Damn, Ms. Autumn, I so wish that was true. But I’ve worked with more than a few who were sexually abused and exploited by Mommy-Dearest from their earliest memories. I wish that was rare. It’s not. As they get older the shame is so overwhelming they retreat to booze and drugs because who are you gonna share this with? They ended up in my office because they were mandated and yeah, ya gotta work like hell on the relationship. But when they finally trust you, you have done what what it takes to connect with them as human beings, to do to deal with their hostility and shame, what comes out after is a child, broken by Mommy-Dearest. Does that make their crimes OK? OHHELLNO. “I don’t deserve to live” etc. they tell you. Most of mine were high risk suicide and some completed. Men are less likely than women to play out the typical scenario of “leading to a suicide” and more likely to complete due to no prior notice/behavior and the lethality of their methods-hanging, shooting, intentional OD. Help is available and ya can’t just take their drugs away all at once. A bit at a time and replace them with psychotropic meds a little at a time. Will they ever be OK or “safe?” No. Hell No.
And they are the first to tell you that. And *yes, they are violent.* Much of the time they aren’t even living in the here and now-the reality you and I live. They are so far removed from and dissociated from the here and now they are in something like a Dream State where their behavior doesn’t seem or feel real. They know they don’t belong and they know they are alone and words fail to explain....
*And nothing excuses, mitigates or makes their behavior less than horrific.*
This is a trainwreck. A little pendulum in your mind hears the shit this guy went through and feels compassion, but then he says something absolutely abhorrent that makes that pendulum swing the other way and makes you realise this is a monster
you can be a victim and a perpetrator
James is clearly an example of being a victim of his own circumstance. And I’m sure his mother and sisters were victim of their own circumstances. It will go generation to generation unless they heal themselves. This type of trauma requires a lot of rehabilitation, money, drive, spirituality, and more. Not everyone will make it out and sometimes thats the journey. While the acts and crimes he has committed is atrocious and devastating, this video does a great job of showing us what happened to him that lead him here. Thank you Mark for exposing this.
He acted on what he was taught. He was raped by his mother and family. People need to understand and believe disfunction to get to the truth. This kind of depravity is taught, he is a victim of his circumstance.
What a great comment.. your exactly right.. generational curses.. they have to break the chains .. I dont have much sympathy for him but it's clear to see he needs a miracle to change him.. unless god does a miracle for him I don't see him changing... Very scary guy .
The only way of helping him, is giving him hope, we think too much what he did or what he went trought, but he wants he said “I have nobody to call, you have” listening to that, probably he has no opportunities in life as well. As he said he was banished from his family and from society. Maybe before he “heals” society should be ready first because I ask anyone here “who is gonna give him a job?” For example, so I think everyone wishes him the best and want him to “cure by himself” but I wonder who would really help. Most of people don’t.
How is him being raped when he was 5 his own circumstances..
He was murdered in his tent stabbed to death homeless people don't like rapists and child molesters@@viniciuscaldas4143
Just like all sexual predators, he can't accept ANY responsibility. Everything he has done is someone else's fault. He should have never been released from prison.
Sounds like trump
@@Wingo537 Sounds like Biden as well. Or do accusations not count when its against someone you support?
@@IdealArc which rapist will you vote for?
I never understood the argument of not voting because you're choosing between two evils until this year. Fuck man. The world is a crazy place.
@@Wingo537 shut the fuck up lol
They don't have to. Once you are convicted it doesn't matter.
“i do what i want to” the most terrifying thing he said in this whole interview
Yep. This is why I am leary of strangers, guard is always up!
I’m a man and he scares me.
yeah that and the part that really fucked me up was "I hooked up with her" *pause* "I killed her." with the deadest look in his eyes.. everything about this interview gave me chills
LADIES KEEP THE BLAMMY ‼️💥
@@Devoted_Catholic777 pow pow 💥😵💫
I was raped growing up, physically abused, and mentally abused. It changes your mind about what is appropriate and how to manage relationships, for sure. But NEVER did I want to inflict rape on someone else. Rape is scary, painful, and cruel. Your body knows that. At least mine did.
As some who is a survivor of SA and CSA , the person who did that to me had also been repeatedly sexually abused as a child .But I’ve never hurt or wants to hurt anyone that way , humans are so complicated and fucked up ,So many random factors that can make two people of the same circumstance either grow up to-want to heal or help others despite their past or grow up to be a monster .I wanted some closure on why they did that to me and this interview was very insightful. I feel horrible that this man had experienced that as a child but I do not feel sympathy for the man he is now . Humans are weird man.
I was raped and left for dead by a very violent man. Glad I'm still here. I have no sympathy for this man in the interview. It's so wrong. And it changes you forever.
People like you inspire the rest of us to keep going. ❤️
Happy you're still here Jennifer and I hope you achieve everything you want want achieve in this life 💖
yup no sympathy for this man
Some people looses it! It doesn't justify what he has done but it does explain why he did what he did and who he became. Not every has a happy ending or is strong. Some people are truly broken.
Just like the molestation as a child changed this man forever.
The fact someone like him is on the streets, shows that the justice system is a joke.
He was found dead in his tent read the description.
@@leolee5907 he was let out before though, that's the point
@@leolee5907 exactly he died on the streets not in a cell
Yeah I done more time than him for barely participating in a robbery. Yeah I’m black. So there you have it.
@@crazylazy812 I'm so sorry man
What a horrific human. But an important part of humanity to understand as well. Thank you so much for these groundbreaking videos. Thank you for your courageous work.
Data Rose Browne, his abusers are the horrific humans! He's a human who has lived a horrific existence!
@@jsmith5509 What if his abusers had the same as him. What if they were molested as a child too. Would you still consider them a "human who has lived a horrific existence!". If we were to hear the story from the victims of his actions I feel like no people would have any sympathy for him. It's interesting how once you hear someones story how you can have sympathy for them but when you hear it from the victim how you can think of the perpetrator as unhuman.
@@micah6635exactly and they most assuredly had the same things happen to them. You can sympathize with the child but hate the adult they become
What? Understanding people like him is pointless...
He is a human. At one point this man was an innocent baby. All humans have the altitude to live unconditional love and deserve unconditional love. Things aren’t so black and white. May he and those he hurt find peace wherever they are.
One of my favorite interviews was with the child hood victim of rape who grew up and murdered his abuser.
have the link or name by any chance?
@@joeshabeClark Fredericks if I recall correctly
@@fkirfirt9606 thank you! him indeed.
honestly, I don't blame him at all...
yup and the man that did it to him he had to see him in the school district and he was a prominent person in society who had done it to many others. When he saw him as an adult and he acted like he never hurt him is what really triggered the murder
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I don't feel sorry for this man. I feel sorry for the child that he used to be, and the potential that was squandered
Well, he is still suffering. That hurt child is still inside him.
Facts!!! 😂😂😂🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾
And he is just ONE of MANY!
@impatience1 yeah, he never had a snowballs chance in hell, did he? It's very sad..
People need to understand childhood trauma can have profound effects on the brain...it can be altered forever.
as a victim of sexual abuse, i feel bad for the child he used to be but not the man he is now. i’d never think of harming someone the way i was harmed.
Same here
Same
Such a good way to put it
Facts
same
currently healing from assault by someone who was also assaulted when he was younger. its no excuse but it's devastating the impact it creates on their life, and how it really affects them onward. thank you for this video
I’ve watched countless of these videos and I was not expecting any of this. Wow. Good video
There are people serving life sentences for drug charges or crimes they didn’t even commit and this man is free.... This is America 🙃
Amerikkk
Yes he is white...
America loves protecting sexual predators...fuckin sick
SMDH
And this is Europe too.
He’s lying about a lot of things. Yes, he was clearly had a terrible upbringing but now he’s a genuine psychopath
Tyler Thompson exactly what I meant
@@zhannahealy6003 no
Zhanna Healy I didn’t use it lightly in the slightest. It’s very obvious he has psychopathic tendencies. Regardless of what you say friend, I’m aware how badly it can develop through trauma. Again, I don’t use it lightly and neither has the photographer. But it’s always super obvious to people who are empaths that this guy is exactly that.
Tyler Thompson
Psychopaths are born, sociopaths are made.
Zhanna Healy
The amigdala is smaller in the prefrontal cortex and the way they process oxytocin is different than a neurotypical. (I think)
The reason he’s alone is his choices. He needs to choose a heal and become kind to himself and others. I was abused and that’s been my path out. Gave up booze, cigarettes, weed, caffeine. Still battling demons, insomnia. With the few friends I have and meditation etc I hope for a better future. I’m 62.
“I did nothing except what I was taught” is absolutely haunting
I've watched a few of this creator's uploads now, and will go on to watch more. There is no emotional manipulation through music, no personal bias revealed through text. The questions are asked in a matter-of-fact way without sympathy or condemnation. Viewers will form their own judgments, whether they tend to have an all-or-nothing mentality or they analyze human nature and environments in a complex way, but at least they'll think for themselves. The content isn't easy to watch, but the participants are given a voice.
Well said.
Here ye here ye! I agree. And it begs the question, what is he doing that instills such trust in these people to open up to him? Good old fashioned empathy and non-judmental reporting- that's what the world needs now. More than ever. And it is abuot time the world gets to see an uncensored (for the most part) raw, unbiased and un-"sob" story painted. Kudos to Mark and everyone with Soft White Underbelly. I would love to be involved because I truly think what you guys are doing is not just entertainment or sensationalism, gawking at the "freaks" like so many productions are today. It is clear that you genuinely care and have their best interests at heart. And blelive me, living on the streets and having to arm themselves just in case because of all the elements and strains of people that are out there - they are absolute experts at knowing if someone is using them or trying to exploit them. So, there willingness to open up to you and with the raw authentiity that they do not only shows the trust you vuild but it speaks volumes to your heart and end goal. I truly believe each one of the stories will move mountains to help so many people. I smell an Emmy. (Or Webby, as the case may be). Just truly great reporting from the heart. A rare thing to see these days.
Exactly 100%
@@HeidiSvenson they open up to him cuz he has been doing this for years... they know him, he helps them with food cloth sometimes, he even help some of those ppl get out of drugs, prostitution, slavery....
And for those ppls, to see someone "normal" reaching out to them without discriminating letting them open up its something that probably never experience.
I've already sing up for they patreon, this video there is 36mins
@@HeidiSvenson My guess is that he signs a document that says he cannot release the footage without written consent from the person first. So they get to tell their story without consequence or obligation. Kind of like unconditional love. No strings attached listening? lol
As a rape survivor I wasn't sure how this interview would make me feel, but I made the informed choice to watch it. This was an articulate individual who never had a chance in life. It doesn't excuse his horrific crimes, but it does explain why he never formed a healthy mental association with love, family or sex. I truly believe that hurt people hurt people. These interviews are hard to watch, but they are so important.
@Macysond how is that victim mentality? victim mentality would imply that someone is constantly being sorry for themselves and never blames themselves for things that happened; all Jenn did was mention being a survivor and how victims can turn into abusers
Omg wake up!! The dude is a predator, not a victim!!
Victim. Not survivor, victim.
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@Macysond Let go of your stupidity
That’s disgusting that his mom never apologized or felt ashamed for what her and the rest of the family did.. but instead she was asking how he remembered that..
Also, it seriously makes me wonder how these serious criminals can tell their life story and say how they acted out as a kid because of the abuse they suffered and how it impacted them and to this day, still impacts them, and continue to do the same thing to others and children as well.
that lean-in with the lighting and discussion at 5:50 is incredible. it's so revealing of the unsaid.
He feels too sorry for himself. Scary when a person doesn’t know right from wrong.
Yo L I think it’s his way of defending his behavior moreso to give an explanation to those that judge.
He well knows wright from wrong, he just doesn't care and like he said he does what he wants.
So what makes him knw nw, hw is it that nw he seems to knw the difference
He can't know if it's never been showed or taught to him.If what he 's experienced Is just violence and abuse, that would be the norm for him
He knows right from wrong. That’s why he is trying to use emotional manipulation to make you feel bad for him. He’s trying to make his family seem terrible so that he can look better. He knows EXACTLY what he is doing. He just isn’t smart or very good at it.
Im relatively new to this channel so you may have allready answered this question but have you ever felt in danger or actually been attacked?? The diversity of your interviewees is stunning and a real eye opener to a scottish highlander, different planets... fantastic and good luck in your future work xx
guy acted like he was the only person anything bad happens to, or the only person alone. narcissist.
Nobody cared about him so he doesn’t care of anybody. That’s normal conséquence of his childhood.
How is this guy still on the streets - system failed us again.
Mike Martinez he passed away!
It says in the description he died in his tent in December 2019 from stab wounds
@@thewatcher6312 what description?
tyrone loki Not in the description, the creator of this video commented in the comment section that the man died from being stabbed.
@@pxmpkxn6163 ah ice sea, ice sea
the he keeps having to validate his words, "and this is the complete truth" just makes its feel like more of a lie
Exactly
Yur
agreed.
True
Gloria Lok23 no he does that because his abusers tried to make him think it was a lie
I think it's really amazing to make content about this and to hear the other side as well!
To understand them will help us all as a society to prevent things like that from happening.
Thanks and thank you in general for your work it's amazing!
One thing though some time it feels like you record it and an highway or something the sound make it hard to listen. But anyway love your channel
Why is he on the streets? Our system is beyond broken
“I did nothing except what I was taught.” That was absolutely chilling.
That is a bit of excuse don't you think?
@@danyg7251 it a whole different reality for dudes like that
@@snapped223 i Know but he excuse himself behind the "i did what they teach me". And that is more dangerous.. he have to acknowledged that he did.
@@danyg7251 You're in no position to condemn this guy.
And I'd say absolutely true. .. give me a child until he's 7vyears old and I will you show you the man... neuroscience has proved Loyola right. Children’s experiences in those first seven years - when formation of the neural networks is governed largely by emotion - will affect their behaviour throughout life..
NOBODY IS COMMENTING ABOUT THE END, CAMERA MAN WAS PROLLY SCARED ASF💀💀
dominick melcho for what tho I’m confused
@@antoniowolfe2041 yeah idek his mood changed so fucking fast i was so confused
More like a sociopath, psychopaths are intelligent
bcuz no one could finish the video lmfao
Nbsssss shacking boots 😂😂
Thank you for sharing your experience.
What a rotten shame that he became another by product of irresponsible parents. He’s so far gone that he cannot feel free from his demons.
He is mercilessly guilt-ridden and self loathing. But because he is a narcissistic monster the only thing he truly knows is how to indulge in his own suffering and misery.
Narcissism is a coping mechanism and a form of self preservation that your brain adapts in early childhood/adolesence to protect yourself from hurt. Your soul essentielly gets butchered.
This guys childhood is absolutely fucking diabolical so its really no surprise that he is the way he is.
I mean imagine having every person youre supposed to trust molest and rape you and then turn their back on you. Makes me sick
But he is an adult with responsibility and anyone with some form of humanity left inside would chose to be the light instead of just another vessel of fucking evil
Im 100 when I say that evil people are not born they are created by their enviroment, I believe we need to understand the monster to prevent a future monster from forming.
But fuck this guy anyways Im not excusing his demonic behavior because its all just an excuse at the end of the day
I've met hundreds of guys like this... you can never tell if they are telling the truth and they speak in half truths. However one thing is true... that it is sad to see a wasted life.
I worked at a prison for many years and know what you mean. Most inmates are conmen in some fashion. A lot of them liked to hype up their charges for cred. Some lying altogether and trying to make themselves tougher that way. Some lie about their past to justify their actions. So when I see this, it is so hard for me to believe any of it. But that's just me and based off of my life experiences and what I saw in the prison. I had the ability to see their pretrial investigations and see whether they were lying or not. A lot were. I would only believe them about their pasts of it could be verified by someone other than them. This is still an interesting interview.
@@chefcalebify #truth working in criminal justice/corrections will open a persons eyes. Not for everyone (I can't wait to retire) but god bless them all!
They are not he's a B.Ser
soon you will have less prisoners to torture and hopefully lose your job when biden gets through with you blue folks.
@@KrolKaz 😂 think about what you said.... now the child molesters, murders, rapists, and thieves will be YOUR neighbors! Seriously, I wish he would... I'm retired military and a country boy. I no longer really need a job. What I need is an excuse to make myself retire to my farm.
I had to pick my jaw off the floor when he said "my mother".
4real!!! But that's proper Karma 😂😂😂. 16 was big and strong enough to overpower her like she had been overpowering him and forcing her will
@veronica carlson from what I read and understand rape is rarely about the sexual act but more about power and control. That would explain why his mother felt the need to call the police.... Maybe
It’s sad
Ong I was just about to come comment on that shit🚫
I laughed
The tragic part of this is that it’s not only James’ experience- it happens every day all over the world.
I am a child sexual abuse survivor. 3 years old, a family member. Extreme childhood trauma changes your brain. This is how sociopaths are made. You can't feel bad for the boy he once was but hate the man now because, that little boy is still in there, frozen in time, reliving the abuse over and over. That's what complex PTSD does to you. It creates "parts" of you that are frozen in time. They never grow up. They never heal and they never go away. Unless you find an extremely good trauma therapist and work for years to help manage the trauma.
agreed. mine wasn't as bad as what he described. but i tried to hide it and live as if nothing happened for a while and then i fell apart inside. i am in general an angry/ cynical/ cold shouldering person, and i often come across people who seem very entitled who want me to make them feel good randomly when i feel like shit inside.
Thank you.
please say this again people rather sweep it under the rug but traumatized is a like hell on earth
Wishing you the best ! I can't even imagine
I don't even think I can remember back to 3 years old
@@shaylynmarie9572 , these things (i was molested by a friend around 10) never leave. this is me speaking for her here, but whenever you encounter someone who makes you feel things that you distinctly felt in the abuse moment, even if it's not as severe or physical, you feel that psychological seed and your mind always brings it back up...i tried to forget it and i unfortunately ended up telling "friends" a few years after, and they randomly brought up the person's name when they felt like controlling my behavior, and i didn't even remember telling them, but i did....something brought it out even though there was the other half of me trying to live a comfortable lie...
this is the most brave interview ive ever seen. the way you didn't hold any judgement and let him try to explain himself is something i could never have done.
I guess you're not that brave 🤷🏿♀️
why not?
@@milkjug7800 she's not evolved enough to see that everything is perfect.
@@avi7278 seek help
@@ordinarypeople2270 and your not at all that understanding
Thank you for this interesting interview. It's an impressive example of how violence in a family environment can leave its mark.
This is one person I do not have compassion for. Zero.
that doesn't change much
I feel like he is a pathological liar. Something about him ...
Might be a harsh way to look at it, but him pausing so long before answering the question on him murdering someone... I feel like he was trying to think of the story to make up. Then gave up and said he didn’t want to talk about it. 🤷🏻♀️
same
No way he had done all that and still be free, also he started sentences and then switched them up mid sentence
Either that or the meth is just hitting
Same
This just shows how important it is to show your child love growing up.
We didn't need this video to know that lol
@@TonyDanza4Lyfe maybe u didn't. maybe someone else did.
@@delicatedidi777 right
@@delicatedidi777 Literal Truth 🙏
But not too much love.. otherwise you end up like this guy..
It is so understandable that you do not want to lose your channel ,Keep safe Mark .
On the surface, I had a similar childhood experience: father dies, and raised by a mother and two older sisters.
I didn't suffer egregious abuse - just the usual trauma bonding: hitting of palms with a wooden spoon as a method of punishment from time to time.
At 47 years of age, I still remember the tears and the sobbing which made it hard to breathe.
Unsurprisingly, I don't speak to any of my family and I emigrated from the UK many years ago.
This interview is terrifying. I don’t know how you stayed so calm Mark.
People are very different. I've seen people crying and shaking in situations that don't make me blink. I've been crying and shaking in situations that don't make other people blink. Shit's wild.
Yes terrifying individual!
@@jodilopez7164 a screwed up individual yes, but not terrifying. He's just a busted ass dope head
Paul are you a girl or something? He doesn't want you.
What was he supposed to do?
His eye avoidance is pure shame. He is a shame filled victim and demented maniac. Existence is insane.
I agree. I think he is lying about the beginning part about his entire family raping him, maybe even most of the interview.
He is a rapist though willing to talk about crime
Ted Bundy did the same thing to try to save his own skin. I love how greasy mark gets though
don’t use the word “victim” when describing him
he stopped being a victim the moment he raped
My heart was pumping so hard during this....
I just….never thought a story could be so sad and disturbing. I’m truly disgusted but I cannot help but feel sympathy for the childhood trauma.
I was molested as a child by my sister and brother but I broke the chain and became the person I am today with a good life and a full time job. This man is 1 yr older than me.
Well be prepared to be called a liar, people in the comments think it can't happen, family members can't molest or pick on 1 person.
Little Miss eats crisps for breakfast I know that’s right. The world can be an ugly place
Mercy. I read your comment, your profile name and sent you a hug. Your strength is understated in your comment.
I am sorry that happened to you. Thank you for your bravery. I’m so happy you have been set free!
Plz dont make comparison everyone is different
Your content is amazing. Absolutely haunting. These should be used for inspiration for actors who have to play difficult roles.
X16sct X55 Thank you for the kind words. I’ve thought the same thing regarding character study for actors. Some of affectations and quirks in these individuals are so riveting to watch. James is a great example of that. For an actor, the odd, but real mannerisms in some of these people would be incredibly useful I would think. Thanks for watching. ML
Soft White Underbelly That is exactly right. I really hope you keep going with these. Phenomenal work and a very original take - I think you’ll really blow up soon. Need some exposure from one of the big podcasters on this platform!
X16sct X55 Yes, I cant deny it’s a little disappointing to only get a few dozen views when I post a new video, but I understand that this content is definitely not for everyone. I think it takes a very strong and brave person who wants to hear the truth no matter how ugly it is, in order to get to the core of the problem. I really appreciate the small number of viewers who follow what I do. Even if my channel never goes anywhere I’m still learning so much about what it is to be human. I see so clearly how the struggles we all face in different forms and degrees are very misunderstood.
Strangley enough, I'm an actor...doing research
leon jackson That’s great! I often think, Oh, some actor is going think, “This is the best resource I could ever find!”.
Glad to see a fellow mw3 player talk about his favorite pasttime!
Bro 🤦🏾♂️🤣
Thank you for this video....tragic and an example how anyone could become like this with environments that create such fractures and horrors.
There is never an excuse to sexually force yourself on to another person, ever.
vikki victoria he’s not giving excuses. he’s explaining.
@@mariem1078 explaining or excusing. He made is choice to be better then his parents or to be like them.
Gaming Billy when your sexual abused as a child your brain is rewired and he doesn’t see the same things that neuro typical people would
@@maditry3066 I've been sexually abused brutally, and I'm not a psychopath. Sexual abuse is no excuse or explanation for sexually abusing others , it's called learnt behavior.
Dh Dior just because you didn’t doesn’t mean that’s not an explanation for another. The brain doesn’t work the same for everyone. When I was at a sex trafficking treatment center there was a 7 year old girl who molested her first girl when she was just 4 n the girl she molested was also 4. It’s about your brain, extent of the trauma and they way u process it, your environment and who all is in your support system.
He’s showing signs of being a crack addict, the movement, the sniffing, the speaking. He’s also so clearly a pathological liar.
I’m just bored I thought that was obvious
I thought I was the only one thinking that. He can’t be still and he sniffing every 5 secs
No shit he WAS drug addict .
His missing teeth are all the indication you need
You realize you dont snort crack right?
I´ve seen this interview more than 10 times. I think the way he explains his suffering is something that one cannot forget. RIP James.
Rest In piss
There's no excuse for the actions you take, and you can't blame someone else for a crime you committed. I will say that you are a product of your environment, and many of your choices and ways of thinking are influenced by how you were raised as a child. It's just unfortunate that a human being can fall victim to circumstances like this man.
He doesn't need to be free. He WILL offend again and he WILL hurt more children. I do not feel sympathy for him. He's proud of what he is.
That's right. He is a dangerous man and I cannot understand why he is out there, free, about to make other victims. This is insane.
He died.
Hes not asking for your sympathy, Abi. He's speaking his truth
Deedee Smithey good. he deserves it
@- spudman It's completely different, but thanks for your opinion .👍
Serious criminals do enjoy playing the victim.
true. BUT hurt people do hurt people.
Alex Ruland hurt people can’t use that as an excuse to hurt someone else
@@shaealrousan5196 absolutely true. it's not an excuse. plenty of hurt people, hurt in the worst possible ways, go on to do GOOD things for themselves and the people around them. it's never an excuse but it can help us understand the why.
Obviously hes narcissistic
Don’t be too quick to judge people. It’s not his fault that he thinks and acts the way he does. Hes probably a danger to society but I still feel bad that this is what his life has been setup to be. He can’t change the way his mind is
Thanks for sharing
An amazing insight into the aftermath of not only childhood sexual abuse but of being dehumanised and treated worse than a dog by his family who were all abusing him. So you can multiply childhood trauma tenfold. And yes, through my work experience I can say that boys raping their mothers is not an uncommon occurrence. It just never gets officially reported or disclosed as the father usually has absolute control over the family. What a very sad and painful life he lived.
Currently binge watching every single one of your videos...this one takes the cake. You are an amazing interviewer and have a heart of gold. Thank you so much for covering these people's stories! But please be safe. A story isn't worth your personal safety.
I've been doing the same thing.
Me too
Me too
@Tammy Boatrite me too.....
Brooke Hammett the interviewing a prostitute-kelly really was the one that got to me :(
This guy is a pathological liar, it’s very obvious.
Let's say even if it was true. Let's humor the idea that everything he said was true. Does being raped as a child mean rape other people when you get older. You subject others to the same violence you were put through. It's like come on, stop with the bs. I know many people who have been sexually assaulted and they never became rapists. He needs to be put down, he will strike again. I hope that next victim has a gun and shoots him.
@@joshua22267 not everybody can transcend their trauma
The lunging two second stare is a dead give away.
@Jon Doe yeah i know it can be bullsh** i was just saying that not everybody can get over a trauma, in case of being true his story.
Pretty much as soon as he got it out that his whole family was molesting him, including both sisters, it seemed obvious that he would lie about anything.
NO SYMPATHY FOR CHILD ABUSERS AT ALL
For me, the most freshening interview ever.
His self pity and failure to accept his responsibility for what he did is truly disgusting.
Edit: stop commenting damn. He’s dead, get over it.
...I'm sure if you experienced 1 percent of what he did you wouldn't be saying what you're saying
ok buggy exactly! And it’s one thing to not know what right or wrong is as a young child, but if you’re SIXTEEN you know what you are doing is wrong. And if he can connect the trauma to his actions, he clearly has the ability to understand what he’s doing....
I don't agree with you.. He's a totally broken human.. He's quite intelligent but he didn't know how to be any different... His story was tragic from start to finish..I'm not exceuses his crimes but I think it explains why he's committing them
are you saying that about the drug addict videos? Because same mentality.
He admitted to murdering multiple people, Niki, it’s not the same mentality lol
I work in mental health and this is what we do all day, hear stories like this from abusers and victims, and help to heal abusers and victims. He is both, a lot of people are. His story isn't challenging or heavy, it's really, really common. There are people like James literally everywhere and I do feel compassion towards them AND their victims. His brain is affected by trauma and won't have developed beyond that young age, hence the excuses and poor reasoning. Why do some people end up like James and others don't? I don't know, there are lots of theories. But it's not my job to judge, it's my job to heal. If he hurt someone I knew though, I'd be pretty f#$&!+g angry all the same
Nobody cares where u work
@@taylorjohnson9321 Is it not relevant to the story? What's your problem?
@@taylorjohnson9321 Obviously 216 people do.
Hi Jenna, the phenomena of the age freezing at a point, you know the explanation of why is that? Greetings from Nicaragua 🔵⚪🔵
I suffer from cPTSD and never ever hurt anybody elsephysically or on purpose. I greatly dislike the attitude, that trauma justifies for such a cruel behaviour. It is exactly this attitude that makes people turn away from traumatized people - they fear to be hurt in any way by them. Please keep that in mind, when you verbalize your personal thoughts.
His trauma motivated him to commit these disgusting crimes, and the crimes just add to his trauma.
It’s rare to find a perpetrator who wasn’t once a victim.
Completely chilling.
Well Mark, I went into this wanting to try and wrap my mind around the mind of a rapist. You managed for me to feel empathy for his experience. I love your work, keep it up
I see so many comments arguing about whether or not you shouls empathise with this guy. You're not wrong if you do empathise with him and you're not wrong if you don't. I don't think that's the point though. Shouldn't we discuss how to actually make things better?
Exactly! I'm almost certain that the point of these videos is to show how badly mental health is dealt with and what would be avoided if people actually helped.
As a recent viewer of Soft White Underbelly interviews, I am getting a sense what the channel is about. It is about hearing and acknowledging humanity, despite how ugly that can get. Some become so ugly that we avert our eyes and ears from them. Despite their appearance and behavior, they deserve a voice. Everyone, regardless of their past (good or bad) or their deeds (good or bad) have a story that is worth hearing. Though my past is nothing resembling James' past, I know what it is like to be hurt; I also know what it is like to hurt others. I would not want to be discarded by society. I'm sure ALL people that are interviewed don't remember everything accurately, and have a measure of self-protection or justification. (Don't we all?)
Isnt it that we all are responsible for one another, and as long as people end up like this man, we are failing in some way. Calling people monsters and arguing about whether or not we should empathise with him is missing the point. He is a human with human capability. If he can turn out like this you may well have done too.
@@peachyvibes7107 could have been you
Finally, I see a comment not arguing about the situation and judging him and only taking it as an analysis
He was broken as little boy, he couldn’t grow into a man so he became a monster. I mourn the little guy in him, I mourn the innocence that was taken so soon.
there's thousands of people who experience these horrible things as children, and still don't grow up and hurt people. there's also thousands of people who have ideal childhoods and then hurt people... this popular trend of blaming someone's childhood for their lack of intelligence and empathy is just giving people an excuse and making it easier for them to play the victim card
@@humanbean3 so easy to say when not in a persons like this circumstance. he hadn't even grown up and he was hurting people. anybody molesting their mother at 16 has clearly had no moral foundation instilled into their childhood. some do not turn violent but the majority of violent offenders in the community faced tough upbringings.
@@Jaidavirocks I realize my comment sounds harsh, it's just depressing seeing how popular and easy people can start blaming all their selfish actions on other things and people...
I mourn for his rape and murder victims 💯
@@humanbean3 facts.
This dude doesn’t deserve to be wearing a MW3 shirt
Least Maladjusted COD Player
How am I JUST finding this channel? My mind is blown. THIS is the content we need. It's mindboggling to me that people come out in drones to watch weirdos stuff their faces with food, using state of the art mic's that pick up every chew and swallow and yet, something so fascinating and gritty as these interviews doesn't get the shine and recognition they deserve. I'm SO grateful I stumbled across this channel. This is what's needed right now. 🖤
Crystal Morris Crystal, Welcome! I’m glad you found my channel. ML
@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly absolutely!
Me too..I just stumbled onto it too and I find it intriguing!!
@@jennifertrubach995 😉
Lolll🤣 spot on!!!!!!
You can tell he’s had some sort of therapy. It takes a lot of self awareness to be aware of how and why you became a monster.
It's very sad to think that there might be a "too late" line to be crossed
I was abused, by my mother, then i was s^xually assaulted, and m0lested by 3 different boys (i was 6 the first time). The first one did it for a year, until i finally told someone, another was a few timea on a school bus, and the last was later at 12 in a group home. My girl cousin also got on top of me when i was 9 or 10, and i woke up to her using me as a "Toy" for herself, she was about 10 or 11. The abuse from my mother started at 8 until i was 17. Punched kicked, beaten, chased, hit with a belt up my back, the back of my legs. I had bruises most days, and got called out of school, so my mom wouldnt get caught. This is only a small part of my story. But i didnt become a Grapist
Bullshit. He was not raped by his entire family.
@@Thekoryostribalpodcast You said it. Everyone deals with things differently, everyone processes their trauma differently.
I don't believe he had a second of therapy in his life. People are a lot more self-aware than we think.
opening to reveal this monster man casually wearing a call of duty modern warfare 3 t-shirt is oscar level comedy
How in the hell has this guy been released from prison? He should never see the light of day. Goodness.
I was abused as a young boy. But growing up hearing that abuse victims almost always become abusers is EXACTLY the reason I'm a 46 year old man who has no children. I certainly don't have any desire to impose such trauma on another human being or anything. Nothing like that, the way I see it is that you're supposed to protect your children 1000% at all times and there is nothing more sacred. Then it's my duty time my unborn children to protect them from the trauma that happened to me. And statistics show that over a lifetime, I somehow probably would. So that will NEVER happen. I love children, their ability to forgive is profound. I told everyone since I was 12 that I'd never have kids just not why and EVERYONE said "it's just a phase." Nope, ask my wife of 13 years, if there's ANYTHING I can do in this world, it's to commit to something. Nobody has any loyalty anymore.
You wouldn't abuse your kids alex..because you have heart. And your selflessness and strength is stronger then what was done to you.
Nah. It takes a special kind of person to want to inflict the pain they went through to someone else.
Theres a certain kind of ocd where ppl obsess about potentially being paedophiles but they actually aren't...maybe something to check out & get some healing hunnii 😔
@@bashleyrespectfully4562 I think thats just OCD. OCD can drive you insane in some cases but only if specific intrusive thoughts repeat, and a lot of people can’t handle it and let it take over their lives. Often a silent killer hiding behind other disorders.
Yes sometimes I wish my dad just killed himself like his dad did so he didn't impart what his mother did to him onto me
I was starting to get worried about your safety in this interview. Best luck to you. I appreciate your brutally honest pieces.
Thankfully our Mark is a buff dude! Lol. He can definitely handle himself. I do also worry someone will go off on him someday.
@@sleepy4325 he is a skinny man in his early 60s so nah
Safety? Lmao wow didn't watch the same video unless you just a scary individual
@Whia Didju he wasn't mad at him he was mad at people telling him that they know how he feels. Then says he has nobody.. he can't call his mother or brother but the people that tells him this can. He was saying "fuck you" to them. That's wasn't aimed at Mark. Go back and listen.
@Whia Didju I didn't say his family said that. I said PEOPLE... he clearly says when PEOPLE tell him how they have no one in their life so they know how he feels. AGAIN. GO BACK AND LISTEN.
He thinks he does horrible things as a result of being alone, but never stops to wonder if he’s alone as a result of doing horrible things.
This guy making excuses. Most people who were abused do NOT abuse.
youd be surprised but thats actually the case a lot of the time
I’ve seen people get the death penalty for a lot less than what he’s done, and he’s walking free no strings attached. No can tell me the justice system isn’t fucked lol
he’s dead... If you read Marks comment up top. He was stabbed in his tent, died from complications.
@@twideman7866 shouts out to who did it
Got that street justice
@@willbellamy590 This is such a senseless comment.
@@Yrathus completely cognizant and clear headed, I’m glad he was taken out, thank the lord.