I need to be honest, I'm struggling
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- Опубліковано 18 кві 2020
- Being a parent to a child with Autism has its challenges, but this is the hardest thing I ever had to go through.
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Ben Sound - Piano Moment
Steffen Daum - Goodbye My Dear
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We Autism mommas are the toughest women! We do have our breaking points and moments of depression. I have spent countless times when everybody in my household is finally asleep and I cry it out in the shower. I wash away the day and take the next day as a new start.....day by day....minute by minute. You are the best mom for your child. Please stay strong and focus on the fun....positive things. Even if it's playing a funny movie or blowing bubbles for the kids. I'm sending you an online hug🤗. I understand.....I have two boys on the spectrum too. You are amazing! You are a warrior!
PinkRazedDoodleDonut thank you so much xox
you sound so great , im awake , my son is awake as usual until maybe 3 or 4 am , if im lucky and if he is lucky aswell ,its enough we all have to deal with our children and your right we are the best , there are not many of us that would do what we do , with love , compasssion ,shire determination , i am absolutley so knackered its been 13 years grabbing sleep when i can wether its in the afternoon , im 50 and so im feeling it more and more , but i would move a mountain for my son , that s how i feel and i will fight so hard to keep him heathly and happy and make life an adventure a memory i know he will never forget but then life gets in the way , and people who i thought had all the answers or at least knew more than i have let me down ie the doctors and so called experts , i have faith in some , but its times like these , i feel like i am knocking my head against the biggest wall , why can't they hear me and just help my son , patience is the key , and for me keep calm, and speak softly i cannot loose it or get angry , like you sometimes i wait til he is asleep to have a little cry but my sons hearing is so intuned , he can hear me threw 3 rooms and 3 doors and i am whispering , anyway , i think , thank god there are mothers and fathers like you around to look after our unique children who love and adore them so much . he is my life and i am his , we are making the most of what we have ,living in the moment , with a glance into the future ,you never run out of love xxxx i thank my son for loving me so much i feel so blessed he does xxxx
Sending prayers and positive thoughts. Wishing Dylan a speedy recovery. You are an incredible mom. Stay strong. You’ve got this!
Thank you so much xox
Ah, my lovely strong fellow Asc mummy, I felt your frustrations and your sorrow in this video.. I’m keeping your son in my prayers and you don’t have to be iron built and strong all the time.. you ARE allowed to fall, allowed to be overwhelmed and allowed to need someone to hold you as you hold Dylan.. you will get answers and you as a family will come through this .. xx
Mandy Uk thank you. I was so worried to be so honest in this video but I felt I owed it to you all to let you know what’s going on .. xox
Sending you so much love!!! You’re such a strong mama! ❤️
Praying for you and Dylan! Thank you so much for sharing this. We love your family and share in your struggles.
Keep strong !💕 hoping for a speedy recovery for Dylan, sending love and hugs xxxx
When you cry it makes me cry as well because my son is autistic too , i can understand you very well . I hope 🤞 your son get better soon , tnx for sharing your vedios with us ❤️
Why is autism bad?
Big love and hugs hun, you're in my thoughts and I'm hoping & wishing Dylan gets better soon. Xxx
Vanessa Millwood thank you ❤️
Oh Tara You are such a strong, sensitive and kind person. Just hang in there. This too shall pass. Sending lots of love and hugs for you and your son, please dont feel alone. Hope he feels better soon. 😘😘
Appreciate your sincerity, honesty and sharing your life. Hoping Dylan gets well soon.
I'm so sorry to hear about all of this. My prayers and thoughts have been sent above wishing the best for you and your family
What an amazing mum you are !!!Sending prayers and strength ❤️
I am SO SORRY you're dealing with all of this. Prayers to your family as you're weathering this storm.
Sending a lot of love your way, and a big hug. 🙏
My heart goes to you and your precious son, Be strong and have faith that everything is going to be alright You and your family would be in my prayers. ❤️🙏
Sending my prayers all the way from Africa. ❤❤❤ You are an inspiration to me...I'm also on this journey and I see a lot of me in you; the positivity; the resilience; the fighting spirit and the unconditional love for your children. Aut moms are the best❤❤❤
I’m so sorry he isn’t feeling well! I will be praying for a quick recovery for him and your family! Thank you for sharing!
Thank you my friend
I wish you all the best and may your Dylan recover fast.
So sorry your family is going through this! I will keep Dylan and the rest of your family in my thoughts and prayers ❤️
Stay strong Tara! All my prayers with you and family ❤
Thank you so much
You are so incredibly strong and a wonderful mum, hang in there! Sending you and your family all my love. ❤ Thank you so much for your update. It must be so hard seeing Dylan go through this. It's all right to talk about the ups and downs in caring for Dylan.
I needed this more than ever right now. You are not alone Mama! Thank you for the honesty and showing the ups and downs. You have no idea how much you’re helping other parents going through this by sharing his journey! Sending lots of love and well wishes for your beautiful boy and family. Take care ♥️
Kaylah Garcia thank you so much felt so vulnerable sharing this. But I want to be honest always x
Tara, you and Dylan.. and your family..Are in my daily prayers!! Lotslove
You’re such an amazing mum, you’re very strong. I hope Dylan gets well soon wishing him speedy recovery ❤️❤️❤️ keep positive hunny
thank you so much x
Sending all the love in the world to you and him. You are amazing and it will get better❤❤❤
Martina Schiavolin thank you so much x
Sending my prayers to him and i wish him well, you’re an amazing mother you helped me a lot god take all the bad things away from your family . ❤️❤️❤️
You and your family are in my prayers. Thank you for being open with your story.
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Tara, you are incredibly strong, loving, amazing mom! Many hugs and loads of positive energy for you to get through this difficult time ❤❤❤❤❤ I wish I could really give you a boost of strength, but from what I saw of you, you will get through it and find a way to help your lovely son. I wish all the health for him and your whole family! Many warmest hugs! ❤❤❤
I am sooooooo very encouraged by your bravery! Thank you for sharing this part of your journey with us. I'm sending a prayer of peace, expedient recovery, and many more blessings for you and your family.
Thank you so much xx
You're a wonderful mum and a great inspiration to many mums out there. The lord is your strength. Prayers and positive thoughts to Dylan. Get well soon super man
Sending you and your family much love and prayers! Thank you for being so real and sharing real life not only with ASD but with everything. I’m a new mommy to a shield with ASD and I find comfort and hope in watching your experiences. Thank you!
Thank you for taking the time to comment . Welcome to my on line family xox
Sending lots of love and prayers Tara. Thank you for sharing such a difficult time in your life with us, we are all in this together and can share what you are feeling. My son was recently unwell with kidney issues and the medical team would be so patronising when I'd say you'll struggle to get blood, they'd almost roll eyes at me until they experienced it for themselves. Questions like "how much pain is he feeling" and I am like he can't really understand that concept yet. Then they decide he is in no pain, until bloods and scans come back showing he must be in pain. It is horrible and heartbreaking but you'll get through this and so will Dylan - all my love and prayers are with you in this hard time. Your an amazing mum and so strong, we love you xx
Hannah Ahmed oh I feel you on this I really do! I get that all the time oh we have done this hundreds of times before lol then they try now luck makes me a giggle a bit! I hope your son is ok now? X
Loads of love and Healing to D,your doing an incredible job in extremely difficult times Tara. I hope Dylan turns a corner with his health soon and you can build your boy back up.x
Katie Vanston thank you my sweet friend. Just feel like I gotta kick myself in the butt and try find a way forward for dylan to make him better x
All my love and blessings for you, Dylan and beautiful family! 🙏✨🌹💜🦋
Thank you xox
Stay strong tara💕 my heart broke I literally can’t even imagine your pain. Pray pray pray❤️
Thank you so much xox
Sending you a virtual hug during this particularly challenging time. Thanks for your transparency. You’re an amazing mother 💜
Thank you so much! x
Sending you lots of hugs! You are amazing mom. And you’ll go through this like you always do. Compare to you I’m total failure for my ASD child. You’re are great example for me and I’m sure many more moms. Stay strong 😘
You’re an amazing mum and don’t you forget it all in this together. 🥰
Praying for you so hard right now. You are a such strong mom and we admire you so much Tara. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you so much xox
Prayers lifted for you and family and your precious son. Our father knows our needs and will know what to do. Many hugs and prayers lifted 💖💖💖💖
Oh my goodness, my heart sinks! Praying for you... you will get thru this ❤️
Thank you so much! x
Thank you for sharing your struggles and your triumphs. My daughter was diagnosed with Pervasive Developmental Disorder about 1985 when she was 5 years old. I learned some 20 years later that was the term then used for children on the autism spectrum. Knowledge and services did not become available until the 2000's. As well she had been diagnosed with another condition which was rare which took precedence in the mind of her Doc. I can relate to your feelings of wanting to do do everything you can for your child and his siblings. It can be very overwhelming. I am glad to hear you have Andrew's support because, as you know so well doing it on your own and keeping your sanity is nigh on impossible. At the time I was caring for my daughter I so desperately needed to hear the stories of others, the good , the difficult and the solutions. One important thing I have learned over the years is the importance of doing one thing in your day to do something in your day that is just for you that can't be undone. Clean dishes, a copper floor, a meal are always undone. Painting your toe nails, a bubble bath, listening undisturbed to a song that gives you pleasure can't be undone. Thank you for your sharing and may Gods blessings continue to be with you.
Keeping your family in my prayers! You *will* get through this and be stronger on the other side! You're clearly an incredible mother, and Dylan is lucky to have you! One day at a time, one foot in front of the other. You've got this!!
Sorry for the late reply it’s been a bit crazy here as you can imagine I really appreciate your message so thank you very much
Thinking of you. Sending prayers your sweet boy feels better soon and you get the answers you need. 🙏❤️
Thank you so much!
Wishing Dylan a speedy recovery. Thank you for this channel. Thank you for your honesty. I see you as my family too..Stay safe. Stay strong.
big hugs to you and thank you x
God I cried so much!! I’m sending you love and lots of prayers. Our Noah is turning four in two days, and we are constantly worried about such issues, he gets better in some aspects of his development, but then goes through phases were it’s hard and scary, and no matter how much I read and watch stories of other parents talking about this, you always end up in a dark place....praying for your baby to get well ♥️
thank you so much x
Prayers for all of you! God can do anything if you believe 🙏🏽
I feel you..may God bless you and get you through these difficult times
I’m sorry, you are strong, you will get through this🌸
This cant of been easy to share, thank you for being honest & showing that when they do get poorly Autism still impacts them, sending virtual hugs xx
thank you so much, really wondered should i share or not .. sending big hugs back to you x
Thank you for sharing this. As a mom with a naughty toddler, I sometimes feel tired to take care of the family and work at the same time. But after watching a few of your videos and see other parents with autistic child's comments, I feel I've been spoiled. You taught me and other parents who haven't been through all these what it is like to be strong for our own child! You'll get through this! It's just another obstacle to concur and a phase in life to remember.
Thank you so much x
BIG hug and all my love.🙏💓
You are an amazing mum and an inspiration. Stay strong xxx
Samia Kenley ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for sharing your story, once again, even though it is so hard. Health challenges with our ASD children can be especially trying, to be sure. Your family will be in my prayers. +
Thank you so much that means a lot
I love the spirit you have to keep going on. That's the most valuable treatment for anything. I love you and your family. My prayers are with Dylan and you. Dylan will be absolutely alright. Faith, believe and let's keep going on. Love and prayers for your family.
Bless you thank you x
We have a son also with Autism. Speak Blessings over Dylan and Speak positive things towards him at all times. He is an angel, And a child of God. As all of our children are.
Thank you so much xox
Praying for your family 😭❣️
You are such a beautiful mum, strong woman and you will get through this!! I truly believe the power of positive energy and prayers... I'm praying for you n Dylan...
Unfortunately I know exactly what you are going through right now, and how overwhelming n draining all this is (hospital, testings, waiting for results...)
THANK YOU FOR BEING SO TRANSPARENT
this community is here for you too ❤ wish I could give you a cuddle mumma. love you
As you well know, there's always ups and downs with these kids. I hope you get your answers soon so you can deal with it . Not knowing and feeling helpless is very hard. We went through a rough patch when epilepsy pop out its ugly face.. But that also passed and medication helped us to regain control over that. It's very unfortunate that it's happening now when the NHS is so overwhelmed with COVID19. Take it one day at a time and at the end of the day go over the positives and that that made you smiled. Big hugs xxxxx
Marta G thank you ❤️❤️
Dylan is lucky to have you ❤️❤️❤️ I wish him speedy recovery and calmer days for your entire family ❤️
Thank you so very much x
Just seeing this video now and it makes me want to just give you a hug. I hope things have gotten better for you and Dillon.
Thank you so much. Dylan is slowly slowly getting better ❤️
My thought is with you and is praying for your family. Thank you for your honest talking. Keep going, this too shall pass as you said. 🙏😘
Thank you so much , it will i just got to get back up again and fight again x
Just saw this now. You are so strong and awesome. I have a autistic son too, I know what you’re going through! Don’t ever give up! This video helped me so much! Thank you! Sending good vibes your way! ❤
You’re an incredible Mama to all of your children. I hope your son feels better soon. I will keep praying 🙏🏽❤️
Sarah Issa thank you xox
Big hugs for all of you!!! You’re doing amazing. Hope everything will be good very soon. Take care xxx
thank you so much lovely xx
Oh dear so sorry to hear this praying and sending positive energy
You are hope for lot many parents like me. You are really very strong mom and an inspiration. I cried while watching this. Hoping your son will be healthy and all right soon. Sending prayers your way 🙏🙏🙏
Oh tara my heart truly goes out to you! Your a fantastic mom and have a beautiful family.
Although a very different scenario, my 10 yr old daughter wouldn't eat due to crippling anxiety and the thought of choking on her food so she stopped and I only know of that heartache but I really hope and🙏to god that your boy can and will get through this... all of you stay strong.
Much love sending to your family and tara a big massive hug ❤
Max F thank you so much really appreciate it x
Dylan is so lucky to have you. You are a fantastic Mom and a beautiful person. ❤️🍀❤️
Love you tara. Please stay strong. Not just for your family but for our families please. You are the best. You can do it.
I watched a few of your videos last fall, but haven’t watched again until I just saw your latest video now. I have a 2.5 year-old Grandson who is a late or delayed talker. He’s had many tests but has not received a diagnosed of Autism. I have been impressed w/your strength, dedication, and fiercest love for your children & family. I am a Christian & believer in God and how He answers prayer(s). I will add Dylan’s health issues and you and your entire family to my prayer list! God bless Dylan, you, & Dylan’s medical Doctors that they will get an accurate dx SOON! 🤗🌹♥️🌷💝
God Bless you. Stay Strong . You are a Beautiful mummy and a Beautiful person xx
You are just such an inspiration to everyone and every parent. You’ve been such a great source of comfort and reassurance for all of us with autistic children in our lives and families and as a thank you for your soul, your honesty, your compassion and your insights I will pray for you every day. As a Muslim we pray 5x a day and I most certainly will remember your family and Dillion in each of those prayers. Please god he makes a full recovery. Amen. Please god he has no untoward or serious diagnoses. Amen. Please god he and all your family are blessed with good health, peace and strength. God bless you. You are such a strong fighting spirit and you’ll carry your son through this.
Bless you beautiful angel-mom ! ❤️
Prayers for your precious son. Prayers for y o u and the family. 💕
Thank you xx
You do a really great job. you are the best mother for dylan, i pray for you and wish you a lot of strength also for the rest of your family. Thank you for the Videos. Hugs from Germany.
I do believe everything will get better!
Hey, thank you for your honesty. So very sorry that Dylan is unwell and has lost an awful lot of weight. Be strong for Dylan and positive for your family. I am certain, if anyone can find the way out of this situation, you can.
Will keep praying for Dylan, you and your family and may the good Lord bless all of you, always.
Cheng Lim ❤️❤️❤️
Oh dearest, God love you precious lady and I will pray daily for you and your family. You are not alone and I know how brave you are. You have such a gorgeous family.
Thank you so much for your lovely message sending you a big hug
Sending so much love ❤️ so thankful for you ❤️
Be strong dear ,hugs to you and Dylan not forgetting everyone in the family.Take care❤️
sikhulile Tshuma thank you so much 💗
Thankyou for being so honest xxx. I am having a hard time at the moment with my 11 year old boy. Feel like I can't cope. You are allowed to break down.
Foz it’s such a difficult age. I’ve heard it does pass though so hang on in there x
You are a great mom and a strong person.... Been following you just since last week. This too shall pass, must just be a phase. All will be well... Prayers for you and your family.
Thank you so much! and thanks for subscribing to my you tube family xox
My love honestly I sensed something I worry so much wirh Harrison and notice things like his dark eyes when he not been toilet, dehydration getting them to drink and not managed to get blood either Thankyou so much from our heart yes please keep us informed sending you a virtual hug 🤗 xxxxx
nicola richardson sending you a huge hug I hope Harrison gets better soon too. Xxo
Keep faith, this too shall pass. Big hugs to you momma.
I have just come across your videos today. I am watching all. You are so wonderful, and strong. I will be praying for you all. My son is just 4 the end of March and has ASD. Thank you for your strength. Sending you a BIG hug! My son is back in his program with one on one and they are only allowing a few kids back in and wearing mask etc. But I must tell you as well i am so emotional everyday about COVID-19 and praying i am making the correct choice by sending him back. he needs his therapy. Stay Strong Mama you are amaZing! Thank you again for your videos. My day has gotten better as I sit here watching them. HUGS!
Prayers and love to you and your family. You are an amazing woman, and you have helped me with these videos. I just found out about my son's diagnosis a week ago. Love and light to you!
sending you a big hug x
hi all the way from Dubai . God bless you for the good you do . We have a 3 year old autistic son and it has been very hard for my wife . I cannot imagine the pain mothers go through
You have helped me so much with your great true to life videos,my six year old great nephew has non verbal autism. In tears watching today,so worrying and frustrating waiting to get results,whatever the outcome you will be amazing and even you don’t feel it,once you know what is the problem you will be able to start tackling it with all your strength and love. Thinking of you all x
thank you my friend x
I understand completely what you are going through. I’m about to say my rosary before I get to sleep. Please know I daily remember your and your family. My idea on autism has made me realize no two kids are alike and consequently there lies the difference. . You are going to be fine. Such a precious family. I was hoping to get to Ireland and spent some time with my twin, sadly that isn’t going to work. We are the youngest of a family of nine and the my sister has Alzheimer’s. I can’t believe seven of my siblings are deceased. It reminds me of how fleeting life is. God love you all, thanks for sharing and do be kind to you.🙏😘😉
We are your family,please don't worry.I too talk to myself and there are times I am lonely and cry and cry.
sending hugs to you x
Your this video is such an example for all posting on gifted kids.Other vlogs by other people show only the good.Which is absolutely not normal for mother's like us.This video of yours is so much like me,myself a mother..mother of a gifted child.I am from India.Tears roll down the eyes of we mother's all the time.We wipe of and set to chores.Salute to us!We are amazing !
Stay strong tara. I can totally relate to the pain when u see your child struggling. Just hold on. Dylan is a brave boy and so are you. U will get through this.....
anjali sinha thank you xox
I totally understand the stress. We were ok with the autism but the medical issues are hard for us too and it’s ok to feel like that. Our children are precious. I hope ur son comes through and he gets the right treatment
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Noreen Ahmad sending you a big hug mama too . It will be ok we can do this together x
Sending you lots of love and I big hug ❤️xxx
I watched your UA-cam since the first one, it was like destiny that my son has find out and timeline of his autistic is like yours, what I mean is when I saw Dylan, it is bright my way out, his smile and loved by ones around give me my son's smile again.
My son is 6.5yrs old now, hospital and doctor visit is disaster as yours, once in the emergency, put in sleep because he was able to do anything but screaming, my heart was torn apart with holding him and think what is going to be in the long run of his life.
Hope you, your family and Dylan go through this together.
Sutthida Sukkamol sending your a huge hug.. in this together x
Thank you for sharing your life with us. I am so sorry.
Love and hugs, you are amazing, everything gonna be ok, thanks for your pure feelings
I appreciate that thank you so much x
Your beautiful son was sent to you for a reason, you are so strong and so loving..he is so blessed to have a mother like you❤️ I’m praying for you and your family ✝️🛐♾️
With the kind of mom Dylan has, so smart, strong, positive and most of all, overflowing with the love for Dylan, yes he will get better. How could he not? Yourself are so determined. You know more than anyone that a mother's love is pretty much omnipotent. You've overcome so many other problems too. Your love for Dylan is bigger than the problem itself. We love you and thank you for opening up.
From Japan(mother of a six-year-
old with autism )
star hiro oh thank you so much! So much love back and thank you for your support ❤️❤️
Stay strong my prayers are with your family!!
Thank you ❤️
You are amazing mum And strong . Thinking of you and pray things get better soon. You are the rock of your family . I watched from day one. Much love to you.
Thank you so much!