What does bipolar mania, hypomania and depression feel like?

I have been diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder, PTSD, social anxiety disorder. My mood has been elevated for a few weeks, but I am managing it with meds to sleep etc and my psychologist is monitoring me. I am referring to notes I made recently to help stop me going off on endless tangents. I am trying to control my speech to not talk too fast. I think I might be masking how energetic I am feeling (apart from the fidgeting).
Here I describe what bipolar mania, hypomania and depression feel like for me. Some people may relate. Others may experience it differently. My bipolar disorder is complicated by anxiety and PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder).
Mania is very intense compared with hypomania. Hypomania is for me like enjoying being on a tropical island. Mania is like being in an electric storm - exciting and dangerous. Depression is like cold, drizzly, grey weather for weeks or months on end.
Hypomania is like increasing the saturation of colours in a photo. Mania is like increasing the colours so much that they clash and also changing the hue. Depression is like taking out the colour and leaving greyscale and then darkening the picture.
Everything is fast in mania - my mind races and I speak so fast that no-one can interrupt me (pressure of speech). I have extreme energy and may have an extremely high libido (hypersexuality). Everything slows down in depression, I avoid everyone and I have no interest in sex.
My emotions are extremely intense in mania, including euphoria and anger. I feel so numb that I even shut down sadness in depression.
I have felt like I have special powers like seeing the future in mania. It feels spiritual. Apparently, it is my ability to see patterns combined with distorted thinking.
My self-esteem and confidence are very high in mania and low in depression. I face my fears when I am hypo(manic). I also tend to do trauma processing when my mood is up (but care is needed so that things don't spiral out of control).
I have no filter in mania and stop caring what people think (which overrides my social anxiety where I worry about people judging me). This has resulted in some people finding what I say to be hilarious and other people to be highly offended. I also say and do things that I normally wouldn't do.
I can be extremely sensory seeking and sensory avoiding when manic. I can be euphoric or I can be irritable.
I fidget a lot more when my mood is elevated. I have an anxious variety of bipolar until I hit euphoria, which feels incredible. But the poor decisions, risky behaviours and crash is not worth it, so my mood is closely monitored.
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Thank you for relating as to how bipolar affects you. I made a video describing how it affects me recently and aside from a few main points (me being type 2, not type 1) I'd say we have a fair bit in common with our experiences. I enjoy listening to people talk about their bipolar as it helps me to not feel alone and helps me process my own experiences. Good work, I'm looking forward to hearing more :)

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I also share how I process PTSD with creative expression