Just wanna pin this comment. Although you can’t technically withdrawal from pain killer (accetiphome) hard thing to spell btw. For me it could have been a load of things that caused this feeling of panic. All that matters though is that it was a panic attack and it triggered everything
Hello John ! I feel calmer and a littel bit better , i’m not scary from symtoms anymore sometimes i feel like 40-50% i’m recovered but is the recovery really so slow because i feel like the other 50% of recovery is never going to happened and ofc i can see more clear now but it’s just this thing that you still don’t feel your self like dreamy vision this is so annoying
Thank you bro. I'm struggling with DPDR for around 6 months now. I will use your tips to recover. Stay strong everyone, we are getting out of this shit soon...
it happened to me 5 days ago. ever since then i haven’t felt normal im starting to think i’m going insane, i keep reminding myself that i’m fine but i cant help myself
@@ylullgive its some weeks even a few months i’m on month 2 and i’ve been feeling a lot better but the first few weeks are rough but just know if you give it time it will get so much better if you do the right things
man i feel like living with this shit, and learning theres other people with it and who recover, a voice manifest in your head that tells you that you cannot recover and that youll live with it forever, its like theres something trying to trap me inside the state of mind and feeling. i hate it.
For those who got it from substance abuse, best advice is to stop abusing substances. Had it for 4 years and it got pretty bad then decided to stop and it's improving tremendously. Eat right sleep right and interact with the world also helps a lot.
@@tasis_nc7586 yeahh I don’t feel myself I can’t feel no emotions really it feels like I’m loosing my humanity smh🤦🏾♂️ it’s been 3 weeks since I been feel like this
i put dp/dr under the umbrella of anxiety/stress response.Ultimately, everyone that suffers with this will handle a gradient of symptoms of dp/dr.For me, when i was at my worst the dp dr was around but not too severe as i heard people go over.My real struggle is the body sensastions, heart palpitations, difficult breathing and swallowing,but my symptoms morph into one another until it cycles back to the body sensations.
I understand what you are going through. I also had severe health anxiety. the loop almost feels endless sometimes but you must power through and realize these are anxiety. Im not health proffesional so its always good to get checked out and you should. But i can see similaritys betwen you and me
just try to be the best version of yourself, find purpose, and try your best to keep healthy friendships or relationships, you’ll feel a lot more connected to yourself, the people you talk to every day, and connected to what you do every day. trust me, i spent months literally feeling my body numb, i felt like my consciousness was suppressed inside my body, shit was pretty bad. i just read the title and my fingers went numb, my shits are numb right now LOL. for the people wondering if they should stop doing drugs, it’s not the drugs bro, HOWEVER, if you smokin every day that shit will keep you there, so maybe have a productive week and smoke only on a friday or saturday. ey honestly the most you can do is just start doing healthier things, start loving yourself. you gon find yourself again, it gets better TRUST ME
Can't thank you enough for that video man. I hope this message finds you in good health. I had a terrible burnout from my programming job/lifestyle that led me to a very scary "thunderclap headache". Thought I had a stroke. My symptoms started after that. I went through panic attacks, to dizziness, headaches, health anxiety (about heart attack, stroke, cancer, rabies, schizophrenia and many more) and now I'm currently dealing with DPDR, tinnitus, TMJ, all of that because of built-up stress. I'm slowly recovering. My start symptom happened about 8 or 9 months ago. I've made a huge progress and was currently dealing with the DPDR very heavily. This video was extremely helpful. I truly wish you all the best and hope I can also record a video like that as soon as I recover. Thanks!!!
I have this issue after getting my first covid infection last year, i lost all my emotions and also my empathy and felt like i was a robot for almost an entire year (and still grapple with issues, but just not as bad as before). Its absolutely terrifying and something that can only be truly understood by those who experience it.
Do not touch any of your symptoms if you don't fix what and who made you dissociate from yourself, anxious or depressive. Find it and crush it, start from there. That's what I'm doing right now
big love i have shed light on my own behaviours after watching your video thank you for your honesty and openness and I hope more people are helped by you thank you
i overcome dpdr, but it took me around 3-4 years, and i'm still dealing with aftermaths and roots of it. so, guys, here's my tip: be brave to change your life! reason of my dpdr was constant stress and insecurities, so i solved that loong puzzle by 1) building good habits, that helped me to deal with stress (workouts, meditation, sleep schedule), 2) making goals, which helped to cope with insecurities and 3) positive mindset and a bit of carelessness. also discovering new hobbies, walking and discovering something new about things i liked also helped me a lot! hope this helps someone
What symptoms do u experience now I’ve had it for 2.5 years now from weed and I’m better than what I was before but I still experience emotional numbness,memory still a lil fucked up and this pressure sensation behind my eyes that’s so annoying
@@twilliams4880 Sorry to hear that! I know dpdr from weed is happen sometimes and it really sucks. Right now i'm dealing with same symptoms as you: a bit of emotional numbness and difficulties with memory and focusing. I thinks it can be classifisied to awarness issues, it's like if control was taken away from me and I became a NPC. So i started doing breathing practices (from wim hof channel) and spend time in nature. It became important to put away all devices and sit alone with my thoughts, looking out the window for 20-30 mins. The main thing I noticed is that all these symptoms really go away, BUT VERY SLOWLY. Over the past six months, I've gotten better, but the difference is so small that it's a little disappointing, but the main thing, i think, is keep going. Which I continue to do. And i hope you will too)
Finding this video has helped my anxiety so much. When you were talking about the schizophrenia thought loop example, i was reassured that someone else had experienced it because my depersonalisation gave me horrible panic attacks every night and extreme anxiety during the day, and i would have panic attacks because i thought i was losing my mind and that i am getting schizphrenia.
People with schizo phrenia according to what I have heard and read never are aware they are schizophrenic untill the people around them notice changes. when ur schizophrenic there is no doubt in your mind or questioning if its real because it would be a delusion. I hooe you are okay and recover!
Had it for 3 years. My worst moment was in a psyche ward crying on the ground thinking I was better off dead. I had Panic attacks every couple hours, not feeling real, brain fog, migraines, vision problems, disturbing thoughts and dreams. I NEVER thought I would recover, I was in deep. Just like John though, the DP manual saved me. Definitely check out Sean O'Connor's DP manual, it's worth it. It goes over EVERY symptom and how to recover. What eventually happened is that I stopped thinking about it, and it went away. anytime I felt anxious or panic attack coming on, I just focused on what was really happening in real life, and let those feelings run through me. Happy to say I'm back to 100% of who I was before it happened. Stay strong you guys, you'll pull through!
i definitely had dpdr issues for years but being busy is absolutely the key. ever since last year i took my life and work much more seriously and have seen drastic improvements on my mental and physical health. David Goggins was a huge factor in my new no-bullshit, grinding mentality. im so thankful for people like you who are able to explain these things for the public, cheers bro
Awesome video, more people that struggle with dpdr need to see this bc I remember how lost I felt when I had no idea why I felt the way i did with dpdr.
I remember when I was a little kid I used to feel like I was the only being who truly existed in this world. I would look in the mirror or look at my hands and get this extreme self awareness focused on my existence and I wouldn’t be able to recognize myself, a feeling like “this isn’t me”. But for some reason this was extremely comforting because it made me feel as tho even if my body were to die, I’d continue existing. One time I took shrooms and I had the same experience but it was like you described, scary as hell. I was recording my trip and I started to forget who I was and question everything about myself and my life. I don’t know if this is the same shit you’re describing but it’s interesting how I would react to the same feeling of existential awareness in completely different ways. I’m pretty spiritual so I think of it as our souls remembering that this body isn’t really us, we existed before they were created and we will continue to exist when they stop functioning. Great video bro made me reflect a lot
I appreciate this comment bro genuinely I do. I found honestly zero comfort in this at all and it genuinely freaked me out so bad. This experience changed my life for the better. Personally me and everyone is entitled to there own thing but Shrooms and weed just ain’t it for me fr and I can’t possibly do those drugs ever. I like to feel grounded and in the moment and present. I BELIVE we our own unique souls created by God in his image. And it’s our duty to try and help others and guide them in there suffering and hurt you know. I get where you coming from and for both of us it turned out to be okay and we learned ❤️
@@johnmakesmoneydamn i’m 17 and i had dpdr on my birthday. I used to be very passionate about trading, become financially free, etc,.. but dpdr hits me hard and kill that flame inside me a little bit. I saw you guys content about trading and I am a ict student too so i gave me hope that after dpdr, you can still be passionate with your hobbies. Hope I’ll be there soon again💪
I got DPDR after a panic attack from body dysmorphia and iterally all of this happened to me the exact way it happened to you, I really REALLY apreciate you for this video because its making my life worse when I know it can be good
Amazing video! Actually I am a pharmacy student and this is the first time I found someone who experienced panic attack withdrawals using acetaminophen. This medication is not as strong as opioids so it is very interesting to learn abt this
From my experience it seemed like not taking it for some reason caused that for me. And I can’t specifically guarantee and say that that was the direct cause exactly of the panic attack or wether it was my poor sugar filled diet. All that matters is that I panicked and it was bad 😭
You dont need to try to stop focusing on them. tryingis what gets you messed up. you are fighting the feeling and you cant do that. dont fight it and just let go of it. its Hard trust me I know that. but there is no other way. no matter how scary the symtpom dont fight it and keep the engine going, keep busy
alright to keep it short, i’ve been suffering with dpdr for as long as i can remember. it impacts my daily life, every second of the day. i’ve honestly grown accustomed to it. but recently it just clicked in my brain that if i’m constantly worrying about how others will perceive me or about everything that’s “wrong” in my life, OBVI i’m putting my body in a state of constant anxiety. so this gave me a new perspective, i decided to just stop caring. not stop caring in the sense where i go numb towards everything, but stop caring in the sense where i realize i can live my life without constantly searching for approval from others. alright just to sum it up, i’ve been feeling SO much better ever since i incorporated this mindset. yesterday i actually woke up for the first time in my life without immediate anxious questions storming up my brain. basically what i’m tryna say is you’re in control of your life, you choose who you want to be, you choose to be allow yourself the freedom of ACTUALLY enjoying life without the need of approval from others. anyways, AMAZING VIDEO AND BEST OF LUCK TO ALL SUFFERING WITH DPDR. we’ll recover.
I got dpdr after a panic atacks and a miscarriage, 2 years later i am much better,i still struggle with the vision issues but i dont get anxious about it anymore. The moment i stopped focusing on it things staryed to change
okay this is actually extremely helpful. I have been feeling this way for over a year now and it started with my attempts, but as of late i have been, without knowing the correlation between anxiety and dpdr, just accepting that its okay to not be feeling and not be here in my body. Sooner or later i am gonna feel that, I will get help, so i should continue functioning and live like its normal life instead of wiating for the day i magically feel fixed to start getting back into life. I have been working with this assumption for a little over a month and I also got on anxiety meds for unrelated reasons and both of these combined have been actually helping. I clicked into this video cz even though I recovered from a month long intense episode and was fine for 2-3 days, last night it got triggered again. Just wanted to share this to tell you that what you are saying actually makes a lot of sense like jesus in these 11 minutes you explained the problem and the solution better than my therapist ever could. Thank you for this. Anyone who's skeptical of the advice boiling down to being "just continue functioning like its okay and ull be fine soon", its not just that its ACCEPTING that your current state is completely okay. The anxiety which is making you desperate to be normal again is the one fueling your condition and making it worse. Why checking in after a week doesnt work like they said is cz you're scared to face the reality that ur condition is persevering, and that nothing can fix it.
Hi John, randomly came to your video. You explain it good and you have a smart guy impression on the video. This; ‘not focusing’ or ‘not thinking’ issue. There is like ‘I will not think this in my brain’ and there is like ‘I will not focus/check/think whether I have freeze/dp in the body (and brain) right now or not, regardless of that I will do whatever I do normally.’ Which one you chose. I mean 1- I will not think this inside my brain. 2- I will not think/focus that I have this thing in my body.
The threat is the things in your body whatever you are aware. Like; my brain feels empty, my emotions are numb, etc etc. And the defence to these, are these same feelings also. I mean nobody needs to know details of that. I mean it is whatever you feel or see as a problem now. do you approve this
@@DPDRWhatspGrubu hey hows it going! Firstly its not a thing in your body. Its not a physical thing its a mental thing. I recognize your symptoms and how you are feeling because I understand that. Not thinking and Not focusing are basically the same thing. But understand that you cant fight it. when you fight it it actively reminds you of your condition. It is a hard thing to do but no matter what whenever you feel dpdr and you are scared and you get anxious thoughts. Go do somehting. a good and positive habbit. then your mind will be taken off of DPDR for a little if thats all. and slwoly it will get better
You explained everything so well! I am sorry you had these terrible moments but I am so glad you are well now and that you decided to spread awareness about DPDR. Thank you! I felt heard and seen. Everyone, please stay safe and don't panic! Losing your calmness is the trigger for DPDR. Don't feed fear with fear. Peace and love 💚💚
Thank you! life after DPDR feels odly good because I dont dwell on it anymore like i used to obsess over it, It is crazy how I thought it would be the end of me but know i only get reminded i ever had it form the amazing comments I get. Spreading awareness about this is very important , people need to know they can and will recover
Appreciate the video. Takes courage. I have to disagree that everyone’s dpdr is the same. Everyone experiences it differently. Like I don’t feel the unreality feeling at all or existential thoughts. I just have an unbearable detachment from my body and don’t feel it. Sensations are not properly experienced. I feel little anxiety. Just numb with a very distressing feeling. I’ve never had a panic attack in my life
I understand you , yes everyone’s DPDR can present with different intensity and symptoms. What I meant was that if you have a different symptom than someone else it doesn’t mean it’s a whole different thing. Everyone has the same condition but yeah it does present differently
I have had Dpdr for 2-3 years because I smoked weed when I was 12 and I thought I was going insane and I never told anyone bc I had so much fear of it or people where gonna tell me that I’m just soft but your video did help a lot I was stuck on a cycle with me being ok then I would go right back where I started now I just gotta brake that cycle
I never even said it out out loud, I was thinking of depersonalization and this video got recommended to me. The algorithm is on another level. But I’ve been having the same feelings
Progressive muscle relaxation exercises multiple times a day! :D Reinforce to your body that you're safe and with enough work and time it will believe it (because you are). Great video btw! Though I have one issue, and it's that I don't believe that anxiety is the main cause, I believe that anxiety is the symptom of the root cause - which is trauma. Trauma doesn't have to be full on anxiety, but DP/DR (caused by trauma) can cause anxiety. Once a suffering person shifts their mind from "I need to overcome anxiety" to "I need to overcome trauma trapped in my body" then they go from fighting the symptom to the cause. Sry if I misunderstood anything from the video btw! Love from the UK :)
Hi, how long have you suffered or still suffer from dpdr? I've had it for 6 years and recently discovered progressive muscle relaxation. It helped me a lot to be become concious of the level of tension in my body, but doesn't make my chronic dpdr go away. Did it help you?
Anyone else experiencing emotional numbness/anhedonia? I don’t know how to describe this symptom without sounding like a lunatic, I go on everyday with my life on autopilot, I still laugh, get irritated, at times I feel like crying, but I don’t “mentally/psychologically” feel my emotions anymore? Not around my body, the only thing I come close to feeling emotions is feeling sensations in my gut, and it’s very unsettling, I feel like I’m frozen in time, I can’t feel happiness. Joy, sadness, excitement, I just feel stale, bleak, and literally numb, I can’t feel any emotions anymore…
Yes, I believe it’s because what dpdr is doing, is basically taking distance from your feelings/emotions. It’s doing that to protect you from the stress/anxiety, but also takes away all the good emotions. So in the end you end up feeling numb. Don’t worry about it too much, you will recover from dpdr in time. Just be patient with it and it shall come sooner than you think. 🤙
I dunno how the heck this video got recommended to me after 2 years of my Lower back injury doing squats. I waited for 2-3 months so that my back heals on its own but nothing happened, these 2-3 months were the most tense months of my life as I just had a storm of outcomes in my mind. After 3 months, I went to an OrthoExpert and he gave me Pregabalin tablets to relieve nerve pain but after i woke up after taking my 1st dose, I felt like my brain was totally empty and I became emotionless from that day. I am still waiting to regain my personality and conciousness with time, but no changes have been seen, I have lost my nature, my knowledge, intellect and myself
I feel you and I understand your mental and physical pain. Both go hand in hand and destroy your life or that’s the way it seems. I recommend maybe finding people to talk to or even a therapist if you can afford one . I’m not a proffesional at all and I wish I could help more. Your symptoms do sound like DPDR though from my experience. Remeber DPDR is a respond to trauma and anxiety and it’s normal and can’t hurt you.
@@johnmakesmoney I am not worried that will it hurt me or not, the main thing is that I lost my own touch, I had a strong personality who used to engage in every activity , but nowadays just living on kinda Autopilot
@@assassings3030 yeah that’s a normal feeling , your right it won’t hurt you but it’s a obviously causing distress because you are here commenting about it which is okay. Your worried and want your old life back. And that’s understandable. The only way too do that would be to stop obsessing over it and let it be by your side like a bird following you. Don’t give the bird any thought or don’t say anything to it . It will be annoying you but the more you just move on without giving it mind the bird will slowly fly away. Get checked out by a doctor to make sure everything is alright and speak to them about your problems. Maybe the medication you were prescribed wasn’t good for you, but don’t take my word for it I’m not a proffesional
Been wondering if I have DID for a bit now… I’ve kinda figured I don’t, but this video my dissociation definitely doesn’t function like DPDR. I know it’s not what you intended with this video, but thank you for helping me realize it
That’s defiantly not what I intended and Like I said I’m not a proffesional so don’t take anything I say as guaranteed. Go to a Doctor and a mental health proffesional asap to get checked out . A UA-cam video shouldn’t be your reason for self diagnosis, but regardless I wish you healing from whatever is going on
Yeah I thought the same. I do have problems with depersonalization and derealization, but those are not the full picture in my case. Doesn't explain the amnesia, notes and messages I have written but couldn't have written, and the different behaviors and/or identity in response to triggers. By messages and notes I couldn't have written, I mean I don't remember them nor would I write them for many reasons, it's literally just not "me" behavior. If you suspect you have DID, and it's still causing you issues, like not remembering what you've done or not understanding who you are at the moment, I would suggest getting help with a trauma informed psychologist or something. It's better if they specialize in CPTSD, DID, or other disorders dissociative in nature. DID is 99% due to childhood trauma and most likely a disorganized attachment style, so if you're planning on dealing with it, you need to realize that you can be hit with extremely uncomfortable truths about your past and present. DID, just like DPDR, is a defense mechanism and in some ways, a bad habit the brain has learnt. If you poke around too much with these defense mechanisms, you'll also come in contact with the things it defends you from. In the case of DID, you'll come in contact with different parts of you dealing with... well different parts of your struggles. I really hope you can find someone that can properly help you with your issues, I'm searching for one right now. The best thing to remember is that the diagnosis doesn't matter, the symptoms does and what you do about it does. It seems like you've already understood this reading your comment, but reminder can be helpful. I wish you luck with your mental health.
I suffer from it… In DBT therapy there is a practice where you drive your attention to a current moment, trying to truly feel the taste, touch etc. When I do that, I become too self-aware and lose the touch with reality. Like I can feel that my body and spirit are separate things, the world starts looking like a game, I overthink a lot. I went to forums for the answers (lol) and everyone started saying it was a spiritual awakening. And that put me into a full blown psychosis… Can you guys meditate and “be in the moment” without derealizing? Is it just me?😢 I don’t know what to do. Something that helps millions makes me lose my mind
well the point wasnt to focus on "reality" in the sense that you constantly try and focus on other stuff other than DPDR. Thats not what I was trying to say. What i was saying is that you have to get busy and work, read,draw,game, etc. at first it will not seem like anything is happening. But there will be a moment where you realize that for 10 seconds you forgot about dpdr and were doing whatver you were doing. If your constatly trying hard to not focus on dpdr and focus on other things it wont work because your making the effort in trying to remove it. You have to do other things but not force it. Live with it until it it fades away.
hey john! I'm not trying to scare you, but just so you know it is very common to have periods where the dpdr comes back and then goes away again in the process of recovery. i started having dpdr about 3 years ago and there were periods of multiple months where I didn't experience any symptoms and then slowly they came back before receding again. I only say this so that you don't get discouraged if that does happen 👍 ❤ currently I havent had any symptoms for about a year but it was an up and down journey where it came back and went away again maybe 5 times. this up and down recovery seems to be very common from what ive read from other people that have recovered and my own experience too.
Hey OFCOURSE I had symptoms come back and I nerve got discouraged because that was apart of the whole process . Me understand that dpdr was just caused by my anxiety mad eke realize that when I felt my symptoms than I was anxious about it. So when I did feel the symptoms I made sure to get my mind away from it the fast as possible. Thanks for being concerned ❤️
I had similar things happen to me, I hurt myself in the gym doing a deadlift back in November last year. In January I developed sciatica and it hung around for about 2 months, I tried taking time off, walking, chiropractor and then started taking Tylenol, ibuprofen etc and they didn’t seem to help either. Went to the local gp to try and get a referral for a physio, the lady doc also said to go on melobic, an NSAID. Within 24 hours I felt weird mentally and physically, it’s been 3 weeks now and I still feel out of it. Crazy dreams and insomnia started straight away, plus felt like I was in a dream and everything Just felt off. The crazy thing is that I only took two tablets and I’m still feeling horrible. I hope to god this shit ends and I can get my life back. I’m trying to be less anxious about everything and stay positive.
@@johnmakesmoney not really, I just remember feeling strange the next day, and it just gradually fell into this strange state of mind. When I was at work it felt like I was dreaming at all the time and totally didn’t feel like it was me. Tbh I don’t feel super anxious and just before all this I was feeling quite good mentally and physically except for the sciatica woes which were plaguing me a bit.
@@johnmakesmoney I’ve been saying since the beginning that I just don’t feel right. I don’t feel myself, everything feels a bit off like it’s a dream. I thought it was brain fog or maybe a lack of sleep but it just never changes. Ive even had thoughts like id had a stroke or there’s something in my brain that’s been damaged. Kinda horrifying to think that this may be permanent. Did you get any other physical issues like feeling unsteady, slow and maybe a little lightheaded and dizzy?
@@pct2025 I was usually just sleepy and tired when I was experiencing DPDR. I have read that DPDR can also have an onset that isnt defined by an event but I dont know if this is true or not Im not a proffesional in that field. I suggest going to a doctor first just to make sure everything is okay
@@johnmakesmoney I went to the doc a bunch of times. Had a CT scan because when I said I felt like I was dreaming he said it could be demyelation of the brain. It came back with no obvious cause, plus bloods were good. The funny thing is that the sciatica went as soon as I took the 2 meloxicam tablets, and before that I’d tried other NSAIDS, chiropractor, time off etc etc and nothing worked at all. But unfortunately this brain issue that has popped up feels like 100 times worse than any leg or back pain. I went to work this morning and I was totally fatigued, had to go home and sleep for an hour.
All my research i did i found out that some people on reddit had DPDR also had vitamin b12 deficiencys or the other way around so struggling with derealization for 5 months i checked my b12 levels and they are low but i was also having panic attacks for a bit anyway i noticed the b12 supplements make my derealization go away I get energy again and start to feel like myself again you can have mental symptoms if your vitamin b12 is below 500
ive had this for 2-3 years, its like my vision is like being in a dream, it has ruined my life, and its caused chronic anxiety where i cant really leave the house, im so afraid, ive forgotten what its like to feel normal and real, im trying to find anxiety meds that work, but i just cant imagine myself not experiencing this everyday, im scared this will be my life forever, ive tried everything and nothing is making it go away, please help me
It seems like you are in a constant state of fear and fight or flight, I can try my best to help you. DPDR is a response to anxiety, so when you got it for the first time ever you most likely panicked and had even more anxiety because of it DPDR is porbably constantly on your mind and you are scared that this is what your life has become and i had the same exact symptoms. I thought my life was over and I was living in horror. What I did was first I would recognize what I had, Understand that you can recover from this awfull thing. Also understand that it cant hurt you at all. Check out the @dpdrmanual on youtube I found comfort in listening to the recovery storys of others. It gave me so much hope. Stop googling and looking for answers on the internet. It makes it worse . My recovery started with that. I would not look or even google what I had anymore once I knew what it was. Than anytime I felt DPDR or its awfull symptoms I would immediatly get busy. I would start playing games or solve puzzles to atleast get my mind off it for a few seconds. If you still have it whille doing these tasks Recognize it but continue. Dont let your thoughts roll into more thoughts. Everytime I would get a bad thought such as "this is it and my life is screwed" I would stop there and breath and count to 10 and than move on. Its very hard at first but the thoughts you are get are an anxious thought loop. Those thoughts just keep on firing your mind. Its hard but you have to live your life as if you dont have DPDR. I also feared going outside but I did it anyway no matter how I was feeling jsut to teach my brain that I am okay in these situation. Lastly I wish I can give you every little detail but there is too much to commment it all. If you have spare money I reccomend purchasing the DP Manual because without it I couldnt have got the info I have now. Im not a proffesional in anyway But this is what helped me recover, Always use youre resources and contact a proffesional and a doctor always , this doesnt substitue proffesional help. I wish you recovery and God bless
I’m so sorry to hear of your struggles. I’m in pretty much the same situation. I’ve found seroquel gives some relief. Basically antipsychotics may help you
I really recommend you try therapy man... Sounds like your dealing with a LOT of extreme emotions, that's not something that you should try fixing on your own, because it's just much much harder without help. Dealing with emotions is not easy, especially if they are intense! Even more so because in todays world no one learns/teaches how to deal with emotions. What you need is to learn how to recognize and control your emotions, otherwise they will control you, and the vicious cycle continuous... There's absolutely hope man, keep it up!
@@milanolasz1386 ehh tbh i’ve tried therapy ages ago but it didn’t do much, my life had gotten insanely worse, but i went on heavy anxiety meds and im lowkey just chilling a bit now lol
This all started around 4 weeks ago after a combination of 24 hours of sleep deprivation (stayed up all night watching “deviant adult media” that I thought I had come to terms with the fact I was into), feeling sick with a cold, taking meds I was out of for a week at a new time, and taking night time cold medicine alongside said meds, and then waking up at 1:00pm in a panic. Since then, nothing’s felt right, and I feel like I’ve been getting worse maybe. Right now I keep ping-ponging between different mental states. From just anxiety, to depression and anhedonia, to this null empty feeling like nothing matters, to this sociopathic cold feeling where it feels like I can’t care about anything. Real life problems can’t feel real (like my usual anxieties about money or my job, or my physical health), I feel like I have no emotional connection or empathy, I can’t care about my special interests (as an autistic that is really concerning for me) sometimes it’s hard to remember what I truly liked vs what I was neutral on vs what I disliked. I feel like I’m not as strongly opinionated as I was before, like my morals and things I cared strongly about don’t feel real/matter, and neither does my sense of humor. I keep forgetting things (could also just be my ADHD). Playing a game with my friends gave me a panic attack because I just couldn’t feel right. It’s like I lost my own sense of self, like my personality itself is gone. I feel disconnected from my usual daydreams and the stories I was working on, I feel like I’m starting to fear or avoid my own interests due to this sense of wrongness, it feels like some of my interests might not return, like I’ve turned them into/convinced myself that I’ll never liked these things. (As someone with ADHD, once I stop engaging with something, it’s really hard to start again and I’m worried that this interest will fade away/already faded because I can’t interact with it right now. I’ve been having random memory flashes/sensations to random points in my life, while remembering what I want to is extremely difficult (plus I can’t remember the emotions connected to it). It sometimes feels like I’m becoming another person/people or like I’m going insane. Previously familiar concepts now feel foreign and strange, random conversations of people going through their day, stuff like that. I feel cognitively less intelligent and it takes me longer to remember how to do basic things. Anything to do with death or violence sets off this bizarre existential anxiety, where before I could compartmentalize it, like an all or nothing black and white sort of feeling about it. Time feels like it takes forever. Sometimes the world physically looks strange (like there’s this filter in front of it, but that one doesn’t really bother me too much). It feels like I’m not present enough to the point where I’m missing out on things happening right in front of me/things I’m directly participating in. Sometimes it feels worse than others, like I don’t feel every symptom at the same time, but it never really goes away. I’ve had this sensational for about 4 weeks now, but it’s so hard to remember life before that it feels like I’ve always been like this. Sometimes it feels like I’ve always been like this and was just faking before (stupid state-specific memory). I’m in therapy now and just got on an SSRI (which helped me with my anxiety last time, so I could focus on distraction/help accept the feelings of DPDR). Although now I need to wait through the hellish couple of weeks where your body needs to get used to the SSRI during which anxiety and depression get worse. Last time this happened was back in June-July of 2020 and it took until November for me to even start to feel better, like I was healing, and I feel like I was still somewhat vulnerable feeling until around a half a year or so later. (And I only feel like I healed because I was in the perfect storm of being in a dorm room nearly 24/7 with my roommate who had similar interests to me, plus needing to focus on school work, cooking, and going to the store, then second semester my other roommates also came back and we had daily and weekly routines, stayed up late watching stuff, played video games, studied, got food together, went on errands as a group, got drunk together, and they had some emotional support animals in the form of their pet rats and a tank of shrimp, so there was that) Plus one of the things that got me out was discovering a new special interest/community, but said new interest was the first thing that I noticed I felt disconnected from. I’m scared of that disconnect possibly being permanent due to all the other things I dropped due to ADHD when I don’t stay actively involved. Like it’s really hard for me to jump back into a community I was gone from, and then sustain it. So that’s also causing me anxiety.
@@johnmakesmoney yep, and I know it’s all just anxiety (and my rational brain taking over while anxiety is screwing with everything else) and I need to just focus on the grounding techniques (breathing exercises, 5-4-3-2-1, counting, naming things, muscle stretching, tactile, cold shock, etc.) and radical acceptance of the fact that I feel this way right now (and that it’s okay, and doesn’t mean anything is wrong with me or that I’m changing), so the things i normally do without any expectations, make sure I’m healthy physically, pivot my mind when i begin to spiral, stop “checking” to see how i feel all the time, stop comparing to my “past self”, stop panic searching forums and the internet for “help” etc. It’s really difficult to do so though, and I often find myself slipping up, by following thought spirals and catastrophising, or by just panicking over nothing, or by avoiding things. I’ve been here before and got out. So I just need to do that again…. Somehow. I just want my life back, man. To just enjoy the things I know I’m supposed to love, with the people I know I love. It’s really hard to see the things I was looking forward to come to pass and feel nothing. It’s hard to not feel like I ruined my life. It’s hard not to constantly try to rush into things that I usually enjoy and then fall into a panic when they don’t feel right.
@@dimetrodon2250 I’m glad you have a great mindset going into these tough times and trying your best to get better. You mentioned a lot of the techniques that I used for my own recovery. You also mention not checking the internet yet you’re here hahaha , I understand the struggle. I also felt so awful and I even tried calling 988 because I had no clue what to do and I was constantly terrified and in horror. One thing I regret about this video I made is that I wish I could help more but I’m not a proffesional of some sort , and I don’t want to give any advice that might harm instead of help . Because someone might interpret what I say in a different way. I’ll try my best, I don’t know if you mentioned it or not but has someone diagnosed you with DPDR or anything else ?
@@johnmakesmoney I have ADHD and am on the Autism spectrum, and have a history of depression and anxiety. When I first felt this way, 3-4 years ago, I was in contact with a councilor at my college and over the phone described how I was feeling, and they replied: “that sounds like Depersonalization”. And everyone ive talked to or described how I felt to all said “yep, I get that, or I’ve been through that” or “you’re describing DPDR to a tee.” The anhedonia, anxiety, intrusive thoughts, existential fears, random memory spirals, disconnect from everything, disconnect from everyone, inability to escape even inward (imagination and daydreaming replaced with rumination), that almost sociopathic emotionally numb feeling, uncomfortable lack of empathy, ping-ponging mental states, the sensation of becoming another person, feeling like I’m not present, problems with memory, cognitive decline like I’m actually not as smart as I was before, that buzzing feeling in your head, the feeling like simple concepts suddenly make no sense or that you can’t relate, that feeling of nothing being or feeling real, my vision sometimes feeling like everything is behind glass or not real, my head sometimes feeling like it’s being squeezed, this feeling like I need to run away, the inability to think deeply or complexly about anything, the feeling like I’m going insane while I know that I’m not, all things that I’ve been told sound exactly like DPDR, even when I myself kept questioning whether there was something else going on since “just anxiety” doesn’t seem to be enough of an explanation for all of this.
@@dimetrodon2250 I would like to mention the proportionality bias, this bias states that “when we instinctively conclude that the magnitude of the cause should match the magnitude of its effects.” Basically just because the effects and symptoms seem so huge that you can’t just accept that something like anxiety would cause that. Unfortunately and I mean this with respect and sympathy you have a lot of underlying pre existing conditions that are most deifnetly fueling this awful feeling. There is a lot to unpack and I haven’t lived your life but I can imagine that there’s a lot of complex ins and outs only you understand. What I can say confidently is that DPDR the disorder itself is a symptom of trauma and anxiety and panic. It isn’t something you get when you hit your head or you can’t be born with it. Take a look and go back to see how much of your day is spent obsessing and catastrophizimg about dpdr. It’s probably a lot. I don’t know how your financial situation is but if you think you are suffering from dpdr which it seems like you should consider purchasing the DPDR manual and going through the audio book and all the videos. It’s like 80 dollars ma so promise on my life I’m not using this as an add or I’m being paid for this, but this saved me and the information there could be useful in someway to you.
I have been struggling with it since 2021 but this year is literally the worst for now i cried every single day before going to school now that it is summer i want to recover from it cause next year is grade 12 and i feel like from then to now it is just getting worse
It will get better. Say to yourself: “I’m having a thought that the world is unreal” when it happens (or say what fits your thoughts/sensations) This way you remind yourself that it’s actually just your brain acting up.
I've had constant depersonalization since I was 17, 32 now almost half my life. I dunno what to do, I'm in trauma therapy, working out, have close friends. my brain is just broken
Profile pic was the last picture of me a few months before it happened when I was 18... 26 now, lost my friends, job, personality, emotions, feeling, pleasure, body feels dead and weak, I feel like a ghost. I feel like I'm not here, like there's an invisible brick wall between me and everything. My mind doesn't stop, its 24/7 ruminating and negative thoughts no matter what I try nothing helps
@@99_Miming I understand how you feel And I was there. Just know that recovery is possible. No matter how bad it seems. DPDR is a symptom of anxiety and a normal brain repsonse. Its not suposed to last like it did for the unfortunate few like me and you. Recognize that its a anxious thought loop. its a habit your experiencing with your thoughts constantly bringign the worst. Dont ignore the thoughts but let them be like a bird in the air. they fly by you look at them and once they are gone you think ntohign of them. That is very hard when you are in a really bad state but I got out and you can too. 1.) understand that DPDR is normal But we just have a horrible case of it 2.) its fueled by anxiety and anxious thoughts 3.) the more piece of mind you give these thougts the more they persist I would reccomend checking out the DP Manual on youtube. Sean the guy who runs it has created an amazing place with info. If you have the extra money i would reccomend buying the DP manual on his site also because it was very important for me to get through. You can check out the recovery storys he posts and even mine for some hope. I cant give you all the info in a single youtube comments but Just know you can and will recover if you put your mind too it. Dont fight the anxiety. This shouldnt substitue any proffesional health so its always good to go to a doctor or a mental health proffesional. I wish you the best recovery and if you have questions I can do my best to answer
i’ve had derealztion for a few days now. it’s really scary🥺😢. i was having multiple panic attacks due to this. i don’t want to have it anymore, i hope it just goes away. it’s the most scariest thing ever, i feel so unsafe.
Trust me when I say it doesn’t last forever and it’s something that can be recovered from. No matter what your thoughts are telling you. I suggest to tell someone around you what’s going on and talking to a proffesional or a doctor if that’s possible. DPDR is a normal brain response to stress, panic , or trauama. It’s similar to fight or flight mode and it’s not meant to last but for re accruing stress or panic , or panic about the condition itself is what causes it to persist. It’s a symptom of anxiety so take a breath count to 10 and don’t let it take over you. Ask me any questions I’ll be glad to answer
@@johnmakesmoney i do have a question so i have moments in my day where i feel that the derealiztion is gone but then it comes back. is this a sign that i’ll get out of it soon?
@@jazzyhearts The only sign that you will know you can get out of dpdr is those few seconds where you forget you have it. For me it started as like a minute where I didnt think about it and I was completely not focused on it. But when it came back to my mind I was like "damn for a minute I didnt think about it" than it becomes a process of expanding that time frame of forgetting about it. But also remeber this and this is important , If you constantly keep checking on yourself to see if its still there than that will only make it persist more. you have to get out of the habit of constatnly self checking yourself because that reminds your brain that you still have it. Recovery is completly personal and there si no timeframe that guarantees anything. You have to actively put in a effort to recover also, things like staying busy and doing things that might trigger it but teaching yourself you are still safe. For example when I got dpdr I stayed in my bed for like 3 days and I was scared to do anything else. And eventualyl I had to go outside so I did and even though I would get anxious I would still do it to makesure I teach my brain that I am safe. Establish that your safe, Stay as busy as possible, and dont fight the thoughts and the symptoms. You almost have to live likle you dont have it. BUT alot of people say "isnt that just ignoring it" well no its not. you can aknowledge it but thats it. Its like a song stuck in your head, you dont fight it, let it stay in your head and eventually you will forget about it. Remeber Im not a profesional but this information is what helped me recover.
No , DPDR is a symptom anxiety. It isn’t some awakening or realization it’s a normal human brain response. I hope all is well with you and yes it is a defense mode. But it’s not due to some awakening or truth. It’s just anxiety
Your very anxious and seeking reassurance and that's understandable because I was like that too. I'm not a mental health professional but based off mine and hundreds of other recovery story's seeking reassurance and constantly questioning will only make it worse. I wont answer your question but just know your mind is making up alot of BS because you are in fight or flight mode
did u ever had headaches from it? i started to have dpdr 5 days ago and it was the most scary experience i’ve ever had in my life. i thought i was going to pass out and my parents did too so they rush me to the hospital at 3am. doctor said im fine but my heart was racing obviously at that time i was scared of the feeling and i didn’t know what was actually wrong w me. anyways. ever since that i haven’t been sleeping good and i’ve been in fight or flight mode just waiting for things to either go back to normal or get worse (i started googling and seeing that i might have brain tumor or brain cancer or brain damage) which made me even more anxious
i’m sorry if this is a lot but i need to know if it’s normal to have really bad headaches and start to think something is seriously wrong w u like i mentioned brain damage etc.. also if i was lucky to get any sleep i would wake up questioning my whole life and eveyrthing around me.. did u feel the same?
@@ylull I felt similar , I’m not a doctor so I’m not qualified to tell you what your headache is. Regardless of that DPDR is a normal brain response to anxiety. The thing is we got scared and it caused extreme panic and fight or flight . Watch my video and listen to my points on how I recovered. Also check out the @dpmanual on UA-cam for more information. What ur feeling from DpDR is normal and don’t let it eat you up. Your fighting it and it’s making it worse. Don’t use this info as a substitute for PROFFESIONAL help. I’m not a mental or physical health proffesional. But from my experience it is very similar to me so I relate. Break the thought habit and love as if you don’t have dpdr . I can go more into detail if you would like
I STARTED THIS DPDR THING IN LATE JUNE RANDOMLY I FELT REALLY BAD ANXEITY FROM JUNE 28- MID JULY THEN EVERY SO OFTEN I WOULD GET HIT HARD FROM DEREALIZATION ONLY FOR A COUPLE OF SECONDS NO EVER SENICE JANUARY 3-4 UNTIL NOW I AM GOING REALLY BAD DEREAIZATION
hey I hope you know everything will be okay and yu can and will recover. I can tell this shitty asss condition is freaking you out so just take a step back and calm down. watch my video through and see if anything helps.. I can explain certainn parts if yoyu dont understand
I started having dpdr after taking venlafaxine anxiety medication I took onetime had a paick attack ND I feel dead like idk if the medication messed up mi brain a scared am failing as a mom I don't wanna do nothing at home
hey you are not failing as a mother! you have to just understand that the panic attack is what caused it! I promise you your brain is not failing because of DPDR and you are okay and will be safe. Here I have some things you can try to do to help yourself. Understand that DPDR is normal and its just your body protecting you. And dont obsess over it whenever you get a thought about DPDR take 10 seconds and get as busy as possible. Break the loop and dont feed it with your anxiety. all the scary thoughts are normal and i had them too.
How long did it take you to recover? I went through this about 3 years ago and it lasted about 4 months. so I should know that it will pass and I will be okay. But my mind will not let me calm down and I feel like it’s never going to end. It feels like I’m going to be stuck like this forever - no matter how much I try to rationalize with myself
It took me like 2-3 months to recover. But having a set time for recovery is counter productive because that forces you to think about it. I was also in you shoes, I couldn’t seem to think that I can calm down but trust me little steps make it possible. And when you do recover you won’t realize it because it fades
Thats how it was for me at the start. If you check if its working than thats counter intuitive because If it was working than that thought wouldnt come about.You cant dwell on the fact wether these thoughts are there or not , you have to just seem them as something like a bird flying by. Im not a proffesional so make sure to go to a doctor and talk to them about your concerns
I’m not a mental health proffesional of any sort, there’s plenty of resources though. Possibly a therapist can help. I never experienced trauma so I’m not qualified but I hope you find something that works for you
Hey John, I have experienced these symptoms too. Is there an email or some sort of thing platform you and I could discuss this too? just to see if we have the same symptoms.
Man no need to invalidate yourself just cause you aren’t a “professional” that’s your personal first hand experience! Tbh the MAJORITY of mental health “professionals” haven’t helped me as much as a few UA-camrs have so far lol, I’ll only say 1 therapist I’ve met has truly helped me
@@hay_Z2021 I understand your point and yeah your right my experience is first hand. But I need people to understand I’m not a substitute for proffesional health. It’s just like a basic saying to make sure I’m not liable for anything that could happen if someone takes the advice wrong yk. Or they try and it doesn’t show results.
I Watch myself the whole day, who am i, what do i See and i feel like im Disconnected to my Brain and to my thougts i get anxiety of Thinking what my Brain is. Its Like my Brain is not me. Am afraid to be alone with my Brain and me. Is this also dpdr and existensial thoughts?
Yes that sounds like DPDR. MY thoughts would make up stuff like I am not in control and like my brain was damadged. DPDR is scary but it cant hurt you. watch my video and if oyu have any questions let me know
TRIGGER WARNING. My story: It's 2007 and I'm 13. I was going through a rough time at school, being bullied, and was extremely stressed and anxious all the time. I got home one day, and I tried to kill myself using a deodorant, spraying it and then inhaling it face down. What I was thinking I don't even know. I know (I think) there's no science behind any of this by the way. Anyway I go to sleep, thinking 'don't be an idiot'. When I wake up I feel fucking weird. Really odd. I go for a bath to 'wake myself up' but I can't wake up. I look down at my hands - they aren't my hands. Wtf? I go for a walk with my mum and our dogs and we're walking under fluorescent streetlights and all I can think is... this isn't my body. I don't feel real. All my conversation came from outside of myself. I was disconnected, unplugged, through glass. I could see other people but it was like I was never fully looking at them. I wondered if they could see the void I felt. I walked through as a zombie for a while not knowing how in the world I was meant to act. I'm now almost 30. That feeling never went. I just adapted to it pretty well I guess. But I live through a glass wall every day and as the years have passed, I've also become extremely sensitive to light, noise and crowd activity - developing what the doctor says are autistic traits even though I was never an autistic child. It's like my body has had to adapt to this new condition in the only way it can. I did have fleeting, very unusual, very uncommon moments where the world would look real and I would for several seconds, like the tape shifting... but it never lasted obviously. I never learned to drive either, because driving feels like GTA lol. I'm a relatively functional adult. I see friends, I swim, I work a low activity job that pays the bills... but I am and have always been a profoundly anxious individual who never fully found a way to deal with that, and I have essentally grown up 'unwhole' as a result of the dp/dr, which I' still reckoning with. When I first got this too, nobody even knew what the hell it was. There wasn't all the info there is now. There was a bit but not loads. Doctors had no clue. So it was very lonely. Not so lonely these days as there's more an emphasis on mental health etc, but difficult to talk about it with people who don't understand, so I don't usually. Honestly, I've had it longer than I haven't had it... I wouldn't even know what lays beneath it at this point.
@@NikolaiWar listen I can confidently say that iosnt the reson DPDR happens. I dont want to be rude but that study wont help with anything. It is a symptom of anxiety
@@johnmakesmoney buddy listen to me im 27 old skilled in chemistry science and i was learned from an professor skilled in eye condition and effect of emotion on eye and dp-dr its most effective on eye emotion ...look after Dr Ainoha defederico i think that her name
Just wanna pin this comment. Although you can’t technically withdrawal from pain killer (accetiphome) hard thing to spell btw. For me it could have been a load of things that caused this feeling of panic. All that matters though is that it was a panic attack and it triggered everything
Hello John ! I feel calmer and a littel bit better , i’m not scary from symtoms anymore sometimes i feel like 40-50% i’m recovered but is the recovery really so slow because i feel like the other 50% of recovery is never going to happened and ofc i can see more clear now but it’s just this thing that you still don’t feel your self like dreamy vision this is so annoying
accetiphome is a crazy statement
Thank you bro. I'm struggling with DPDR for around 6 months now. I will use your tips to recover. Stay strong everyone, we are getting out of this shit soon...
Same here bro, we will get through it together
@@kg4484 Let's do it
it happened to me 5 days ago. ever since then i haven’t felt normal im starting to think i’m going insane, i keep reminding myself that i’m fine but i cant help myself
@@ylullgive its some weeks even a few months i’m on month 2 and i’ve been feeling a lot better but the first few weeks are rough but just know if you give it time it will get so much better if you do the right things
Thank you for this, going to try this. Been struggling with this alongside panic disorder for 5 years now
man i feel like living with this shit, and learning theres other people with it and who recover, a voice manifest in your head that tells you that you cannot recover and that youll live with it forever, its like theres something trying to trap me inside the state of mind and feeling. i hate it.
I understand how you feel. That’s how anxiety works it always pokes at you. It’s hard to unlearn that
For those who got it from substance abuse, best advice is to stop abusing substances. Had it for 4 years and it got pretty bad then decided to stop and it's improving tremendously. Eat right sleep right and interact with the world also helps a lot.
Damn wtf 4 years??? that’s a long ass time idk if that supposed to be going on for that long fr🤦🏾♂️🤦🏾♂️
Do you still have it?
@@tasis_nc7586 yeahh I don’t feel myself I can’t feel no emotions really it feels like I’m loosing my humanity smh🤦🏾♂️ it’s been 3 weeks since I been feel like this
Ive been doing it for 3, gets old real fast.@@antoineperkins1332
Thank you i have it 2 years
i put dp/dr under the umbrella of anxiety/stress response.Ultimately, everyone that suffers with this will handle a gradient of symptoms of dp/dr.For me, when i was at my worst the dp dr was around but not too severe as i heard people go over.My real struggle is the body sensastions, heart palpitations, difficult breathing and swallowing,but my symptoms morph into one another until it cycles back to the body sensations.
I understand what you are going through. I also had severe health anxiety. the loop almost feels endless sometimes but you must power through and realize these are anxiety. Im not health proffesional so its always good to get checked out and you should. But i can see similaritys betwen you and me
just try to be the best version of yourself, find purpose, and try your best to keep healthy friendships or relationships, you’ll feel a lot more connected to yourself, the people you talk to every day, and connected to what you do every day. trust me, i spent months literally feeling my body numb, i felt like my consciousness was suppressed inside my body, shit was pretty bad. i just read the title and my fingers went numb, my shits are numb right now LOL. for the people wondering if they should stop doing drugs, it’s not the drugs bro, HOWEVER, if you smokin every day that shit will keep you there, so maybe have a productive week and smoke only on a friday or saturday. ey honestly the most you can do is just start doing healthier things, start loving yourself. you gon find yourself again, it gets better TRUST ME
Can't thank you enough for that video man. I hope this message finds you in good health. I had a terrible burnout from my programming job/lifestyle that led me to a very scary "thunderclap headache". Thought I had a stroke. My symptoms started after that. I went through panic attacks, to dizziness, headaches, health anxiety (about heart attack, stroke, cancer, rabies, schizophrenia and many more) and now I'm currently dealing with DPDR, tinnitus, TMJ, all of that because of built-up stress. I'm slowly recovering. My start symptom happened about 8 or 9 months ago. I've made a huge progress and was currently dealing with the DPDR very heavily. This video was extremely helpful. I truly wish you all the best and hope I can also record a video like that as soon as I recover. Thanks!!!
I have this issue after getting my first covid infection last year, i lost all my emotions and also my empathy and felt like i was a robot for almost an entire year (and still grapple with issues, but just not as bad as before). Its absolutely terrifying and something that can only be truly understood by those who experience it.
You are right it is honestly so bad and scary I cant explain in words. I hope all is well for you and I wish you more recovery
Do not touch any of your symptoms if you don't fix what and who made you dissociate from yourself, anxious or depressive. Find it and crush it, start from there. That's what I'm doing right now
big love i have shed light on my own behaviours after watching your video thank you for your honesty and openness and I hope more people are helped by you thank you
i overcome dpdr, but it took me around 3-4 years, and i'm still dealing with aftermaths and roots of it. so, guys, here's my tip: be brave to change your life!
reason of my dpdr was constant stress and insecurities, so i solved that loong puzzle by 1) building good habits, that helped me to deal with stress (workouts, meditation, sleep schedule), 2) making goals, which helped to cope with insecurities and 3) positive mindset and a bit of carelessness.
also discovering new hobbies, walking and discovering something new about things i liked also helped me a lot! hope this helps someone
God Bless brother thank you for the comment!
What symptoms do u experience now I’ve had it for 2.5 years now from weed and I’m better than what I was before but I still experience emotional numbness,memory still a lil fucked up and this pressure sensation behind my eyes that’s so annoying
@@twilliams4880 Sorry to hear that! I know dpdr from weed is happen sometimes and it really sucks. Right now i'm dealing with same symptoms as you: a bit of emotional numbness and difficulties with memory and focusing. I thinks it can be classifisied to awarness issues, it's like if control was taken away from me and I became a NPC. So i started doing breathing practices (from wim hof channel) and spend time in nature. It became important to put away all devices and sit alone with my thoughts, looking out the window for 20-30 mins.
The main thing I noticed is that all these symptoms really go away, BUT VERY SLOWLY. Over the past six months, I've gotten better, but the difference is so small that it's a little disappointing, but the main thing, i think, is keep going. Which I continue to do. And i hope you will too)
恭喜🥳
Finding this video has helped my anxiety so much. When you were talking about the schizophrenia thought loop example, i was reassured that someone else had experienced it because my depersonalisation gave me horrible panic attacks every night and extreme anxiety during the day, and i would have panic attacks because i thought i was losing my mind and that i am getting schizphrenia.
People with schizo phrenia according to what I have heard and read never are aware they are schizophrenic untill the people around them notice changes. when ur schizophrenic there is no doubt in your mind or questioning if its real because it would be a delusion. I hooe you are okay and recover!
@@johnmakesmoneythank god…..
Same
Had it for 3 years. My worst moment was in a psyche ward crying on the ground thinking I was better off dead. I had Panic attacks every couple hours, not feeling real, brain fog, migraines, vision problems, disturbing thoughts and dreams. I NEVER thought I would recover, I was in deep. Just like John though, the DP manual saved me. Definitely check out Sean O'Connor's DP manual, it's worth it. It goes over EVERY symptom and how to recover. What eventually happened is that I stopped thinking about it, and it went away. anytime I felt anxious or panic attack coming on, I just focused on what was really happening in real life, and let those feelings run through me. Happy to say I'm back to 100% of who I was before it happened. Stay strong you guys, you'll pull through!
i definitely had dpdr issues for years but being busy is absolutely the key. ever since last year i took my life and work much more seriously and have seen drastic improvements on my mental and physical health. David Goggins was a huge factor in my new no-bullshit, grinding mentality. im so thankful for people like you who are able to explain these things for the public, cheers bro
Thank you so much brother! I'm recovering from it right now, and understanding how DPDR works really helps.
Awesome video, more people that struggle with dpdr need to see this bc I remember how lost I felt when I had no idea why I felt the way i did with dpdr.
my immense joy from thjs video is unsormantiable! yuh
I remember when I was a little kid I used to feel like I was the only being who truly existed in this world. I would look in the mirror or look at my hands and get this extreme self awareness focused on my existence and I wouldn’t be able to recognize myself, a feeling like “this isn’t me”. But for some reason this was extremely comforting because it made me feel as tho even if my body were to die, I’d continue existing.
One time I took shrooms and I had the same experience but it was like you described, scary as hell. I was recording my trip and I started to forget who I was and question everything about myself and my life.
I don’t know if this is the same shit you’re describing but it’s interesting how I would react to the same feeling of existential awareness in completely different ways. I’m pretty spiritual so I think of it as our souls remembering that this body isn’t really us, we existed before they were created and we will continue to exist when they stop functioning.
Great video bro made me reflect a lot
I appreciate this comment bro genuinely I do. I found honestly zero comfort in this at all and it genuinely freaked me out so bad. This experience changed my life for the better. Personally me and everyone is entitled to there own thing but Shrooms and weed just ain’t it for me fr and I can’t possibly do those drugs ever. I like to feel grounded and in the moment and present. I BELIVE we our own unique souls created by God in his image. And it’s our duty to try and help others and guide them in there suffering and hurt you know. I get where you coming from and for both of us it turned out to be okay and we learned ❤️
@@johnmakesmoney glad you got through that shit bro
@@johnmakesmoneydamn i’m 17 and i had dpdr on my birthday. I used to be very passionate about trading, become financially free, etc,.. but dpdr hits me hard and kill that flame inside me a little bit. I saw you guys content about trading and I am a ict student too so i gave me hope that after dpdr, you can still be passionate with your hobbies. Hope I’ll be there soon again💪
I got DPDR after a panic attack from body dysmorphia and iterally all of this happened to me the exact way it happened to you, I really REALLY apreciate you for this video because its making my life worse when I know it can be good
You got this bro ❤️ keep going and use my advice . I hope it helps truly
I'm literally just coming down from DPDR! ❤
Amazing video!
Actually I am a pharmacy student and this is the first time I found someone who experienced panic attack withdrawals using acetaminophen. This medication is not as strong as opioids so it is very interesting to learn abt this
From my experience it seemed like not taking it for some reason caused that for me. And I can’t specifically guarantee and say that that was the direct cause exactly of the panic attack or wether it was my poor sugar filled diet. All that matters is that I panicked and it was bad 😭
Trying to not being aware of my dpdr symptoms are there and not focusing on them makes me focus and worry about them even more.
You dont need to try to stop focusing on them. tryingis what gets you messed up. you are fighting the feeling and you cant do that. dont fight it and just let go of it. its Hard trust me I know that. but there is no other way. no matter how scary the symtpom dont fight it and keep the engine going, keep busy
The thing that is hard for me right now is getting sleep! I can't sleep through the night my anxious thoughts don't let me.
alright to keep it short, i’ve been suffering with dpdr for as long as i can remember. it impacts my daily life, every second of the day. i’ve honestly grown accustomed to it. but recently it just clicked in my brain that if i’m constantly worrying about how others will perceive me or about everything that’s “wrong” in my life, OBVI i’m putting my body in a state of constant anxiety. so this gave me a new perspective, i decided to just stop caring. not stop caring in the sense where i go numb towards everything, but stop caring in the sense where i realize i can live my life without constantly searching for approval from others. alright just to sum it up, i’ve been feeling SO much better ever since i incorporated this mindset. yesterday i actually woke up for the first time in my life without immediate anxious questions storming up my brain. basically what i’m tryna say is you’re in control of your life, you choose who you want to be, you choose to be allow yourself the freedom of ACTUALLY enjoying life without the need of approval from others. anyways, AMAZING VIDEO AND BEST OF LUCK TO ALL SUFFERING WITH DPDR. we’ll recover.
I appreciate this comment and I’m glad your feeling better boss ❤️
Thank you brother be blessed❤
Amazing vid john
Im so grateful to you! Thank you...
thank u so much for this John. Hope this help through this
I will try this, thank you for sharing. I feel a lot more motivated and comfortable with myself after this video, which is a good sign.
Thank you for this video you are amazing bro
I MAY BE ABLE TO FUNCTION AGAIN!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH
I got dpdr after a panic atacks and a miscarriage, 2 years later i am much better,i still struggle with the vision issues but i dont get anxious about it anymore. The moment i stopped focusing on it things staryed to change
okay this is actually extremely helpful. I have been feeling this way for over a year now and it started with my attempts, but as of late i have been, without knowing the correlation between anxiety and dpdr, just accepting that its okay to not be feeling and not be here in my body. Sooner or later i am gonna feel that, I will get help, so i should continue functioning and live like its normal life instead of wiating for the day i magically feel fixed to start getting back into life. I have been working with this assumption for a little over a month and I also got on anxiety meds for unrelated reasons and both of these combined have been actually helping. I clicked into this video cz even though I recovered from a month long intense episode and was fine for 2-3 days, last night it got triggered again.
Just wanted to share this to tell you that what you are saying actually makes a lot of sense like jesus in these 11 minutes you explained the problem and the solution better than my therapist ever could. Thank you for this. Anyone who's skeptical of the advice boiling down to being "just continue functioning like its okay and ull be fine soon", its not just that its ACCEPTING that your current state is completely okay. The anxiety which is making you desperate to be normal again is the one fueling your condition and making it worse. Why checking in after a week doesnt work like they said is cz you're scared to face the reality that ur condition is persevering, and that nothing can fix it.
Thank you for this comment I wish you more recovery ❤️
Hi John, randomly came to your video. You explain it good and you have a smart guy impression on the video.
This; ‘not focusing’ or ‘not thinking’ issue. There is like ‘I will not think this in my brain’ and there is like ‘I will not focus/check/think whether I have freeze/dp in the body (and brain) right now or not, regardless of that I will do whatever I do normally.’
Which one you chose.
I mean
1- I will not think this inside my brain.
2- I will not think/focus that I have this thing in my body.
The threat is the things in your body whatever you are aware. Like; my brain feels empty, my emotions are numb, etc etc. And the defence to these, are these same feelings also.
I mean nobody needs to know details of that. I mean it is whatever you feel or see as a problem now.
do you approve this
@@DPDRWhatspGrubu hey hows it going! Firstly its not a thing in your body. Its not a physical thing its a mental thing. I recognize your symptoms and how you are feeling because I understand that. Not thinking and Not focusing are basically the same thing. But understand that you cant fight it. when you fight it it actively reminds you of your condition. It is a hard thing to do but no matter what whenever you feel dpdr and you are scared and you get anxious thoughts. Go do somehting. a good and positive habbit. then your mind will be taken off of DPDR for a little if thats all. and slwoly it will get better
@@johnmakesmoney Yes John, thanks. Prophet Hz. Muhammed says; Don’t fight anxiety, you will be tired and fall under it. You run away from anxiety.
You explained everything so well! I am sorry you had these terrible moments but I am so glad you are well now and that you decided to spread awareness about DPDR. Thank you! I felt heard and seen.
Everyone, please stay safe and don't panic! Losing your calmness is the trigger for DPDR. Don't feed fear with fear. Peace and love 💚💚
Thank you! life after DPDR feels odly good because I dont dwell on it anymore like i used to obsess over it, It is crazy how I thought it would be the end of me but know i only get reminded i ever had it form the amazing comments I get. Spreading awareness about this is very important , people need to know they can and will recover
Appreciate the video. Takes courage. I have to disagree that everyone’s dpdr is the same. Everyone experiences it differently. Like I don’t feel the unreality feeling at all or existential thoughts. I just have an unbearable detachment from my body and don’t feel it. Sensations are not properly experienced. I feel little anxiety. Just numb with a very distressing feeling. I’ve never had a panic attack in my life
I understand you , yes everyone’s DPDR can present with different intensity and symptoms. What I meant was that if you have a different symptom than someone else it doesn’t mean it’s a whole different thing. Everyone has the same condition but yeah it does present differently
well said
I have had Dpdr for 2-3 years because I smoked weed when I was 12 and I thought I was going insane and I never told anyone bc I had so much fear of it or people where gonna tell me that I’m just soft but your video did help a lot I was stuck on a cycle with me being ok then I would go right back where I started now I just gotta brake that cycle
I never even said it out out loud, I was thinking of depersonalization and this video got recommended to me. The algorithm is on another level. But I’ve been having the same feelings
saw this video at the perfect time. incredible vid and was super comforting so thank you for sharing and for the vid :’D
Progressive muscle relaxation exercises multiple times a day! :D Reinforce to your body that you're safe and with enough work and time it will believe it (because you are). Great video btw! Though I have one issue, and it's that I don't believe that anxiety is the main cause, I believe that anxiety is the symptom of the root cause - which is trauma. Trauma doesn't have to be full on anxiety, but DP/DR (caused by trauma) can cause anxiety. Once a suffering person shifts their mind from "I need to overcome anxiety" to "I need to overcome trauma trapped in my body" then they go from fighting the symptom to the cause.
Sry if I misunderstood anything from the video btw! Love from the UK :)
Hi, how long have you suffered or still suffer from dpdr? I've had it for 6 years and recently discovered progressive muscle relaxation. It helped me a lot to be become concious of the level of tension in my body, but doesn't make my chronic dpdr go away. Did it help you?
Anyone else experiencing emotional numbness/anhedonia? I don’t know how to describe this symptom without sounding like a lunatic, I go on everyday with my life on autopilot, I still laugh, get irritated, at times I feel like crying, but I don’t “mentally/psychologically” feel my emotions anymore? Not around my body, the only thing I come close to feeling emotions is feeling sensations in my gut, and it’s very unsettling, I feel like I’m frozen in time, I can’t feel happiness. Joy, sadness, excitement, I just feel stale, bleak, and literally numb, I can’t feel any emotions anymore…
Yes. Sometimes I would laugh and feel nothing. Sometimes I cry but I don't feel like I really care about what I'm crying about.
Yep, same here
Yes, I believe it’s because what dpdr is doing, is basically taking distance from your feelings/emotions. It’s doing that to protect you from the stress/anxiety, but also takes away all the good emotions. So in the end you end up feeling numb. Don’t worry about it too much, you will recover from dpdr in time. Just be patient with it and it shall come sooner than you think. 🤙
It’s interesting how drugs generally trigger this, both elicit and legal ones…
I dunno how the heck this video got recommended to me after 2 years of my Lower back injury doing squats. I waited for 2-3 months so that my back heals on its own but nothing happened, these 2-3 months were the most tense months of my life as I just had a storm of outcomes in my mind. After 3 months, I went to an OrthoExpert and he gave me Pregabalin tablets to relieve nerve pain but after i woke up after taking my 1st dose, I felt like my brain was totally empty and I became emotionless from that day. I am still waiting to regain my personality and conciousness with time, but no changes have been seen, I have lost my nature, my knowledge, intellect and myself
I feel you and I understand your mental and physical pain. Both go hand in hand and destroy your life or that’s the way it seems. I recommend maybe finding people to talk to or even a therapist if you can afford one . I’m not a proffesional at all and I wish I could help more. Your symptoms do sound like DPDR though from my experience. Remeber DPDR is a respond to trauma and anxiety and it’s normal and can’t hurt you.
@@johnmakesmoney I am not worried that will it hurt me or not, the main thing is that I lost my own touch, I had a strong personality who used to engage in every activity , but nowadays just living on kinda Autopilot
@@assassings3030 yeah that’s a normal feeling , your right it won’t hurt you but it’s a obviously causing distress because you are here commenting about it which is okay. Your worried and want your old life back. And that’s understandable. The only way too do that would be to stop obsessing over it and let it be by your side like a bird following you. Don’t give the bird any thought or don’t say anything to it . It will be annoying you but the more you just move on without giving it mind the bird will slowly fly away. Get checked out by a doctor to make sure everything is alright and speak to them about your problems. Maybe the medication you were prescribed wasn’t good for you, but don’t take my word for it I’m not a proffesional
@@johnmakesmoney But I only took One dose and just stopped taking it bcoz the pain went off with just one Dose only
@@assassings3030 I’m not a doctor so I don’t know anything about that I wish I could help
Been wondering if I have DID for a bit now… I’ve kinda figured I don’t, but this video my dissociation definitely doesn’t function like DPDR. I know it’s not what you intended with this video, but thank you for helping me realize it
That’s defiantly not what I intended and Like I said I’m not a proffesional so don’t take anything I say as guaranteed. Go to a Doctor and a mental health proffesional asap to get checked out . A UA-cam video shouldn’t be your reason for self diagnosis, but regardless I wish you healing from whatever is going on
Yeah I thought the same. I do have problems with depersonalization and derealization, but those are not the full picture in my case. Doesn't explain the amnesia, notes and messages I have written but couldn't have written, and the different behaviors and/or identity in response to triggers. By messages and notes I couldn't have written, I mean I don't remember them nor would I write them for many reasons, it's literally just not "me" behavior.
If you suspect you have DID, and it's still causing you issues, like not remembering what you've done or not understanding who you are at the moment, I would suggest getting help with a trauma informed psychologist or something. It's better if they specialize in CPTSD, DID, or other disorders dissociative in nature. DID is 99% due to childhood trauma and most likely a disorganized attachment style, so if you're planning on dealing with it, you need to realize that you can be hit with extremely uncomfortable truths about your past and present. DID, just like DPDR, is a defense mechanism and in some ways, a bad habit the brain has learnt. If you poke around too much with these defense mechanisms, you'll also come in contact with the things it defends you from. In the case of DID, you'll come in contact with different parts of you dealing with... well different parts of your struggles.
I really hope you can find someone that can properly help you with your issues, I'm searching for one right now. The best thing to remember is that the diagnosis doesn't matter, the symptoms does and what you do about it does. It seems like you've already understood this reading your comment, but reminder can be helpful. I wish you luck with your mental health.
I suffer from it… In DBT therapy there is a practice where you drive your attention to a current moment, trying to truly feel the taste, touch etc. When I do that, I become too self-aware and lose the touch with reality. Like I can feel that my body and spirit are separate things, the world starts looking like a game, I overthink a lot. I went to forums for the answers (lol) and everyone started saying it was a spiritual awakening. And that put me into a full blown psychosis… Can you guys meditate and “be in the moment” without derealizing? Is it just me?😢 I don’t know what to do. Something that helps millions makes me lose my mind
Great vid mate
Hey, i relate to you completely, thank you for this video it really made me not feel alone fr. I hope youre doing well :)
Thank you and I’m trying my best everyday ! Still deal with stuff but atleast knowing how to combat it is what is important
it's hard to not focus on dp/dr and instead focus on "reality" when the dp/dr is my reality. I don't understand how it makes sense
well the point wasnt to focus on "reality" in the sense that you constantly try and focus on other stuff other than DPDR. Thats not what I was trying to say. What i was saying is that you have to get busy and work, read,draw,game, etc. at first it will not seem like anything is happening. But there will be a moment where you realize that for 10 seconds you forgot about dpdr and were doing whatver you were doing. If your constatly trying hard to not focus on dpdr and focus on other things it wont work because your making the effort in trying to remove it. You have to do other things but not force it. Live with it until it it fades away.
hey john!
I'm not trying to scare you, but just so you know it is very common to have periods where the dpdr comes back and then goes away again in the process of recovery. i started having dpdr about 3 years ago and there were periods of multiple months where I didn't experience any symptoms and then slowly they came back before receding again. I only say this so that you don't get discouraged if that does happen
👍 ❤
currently I havent had any symptoms for about a year but it was an up and down journey where it came back and went away again maybe 5 times.
this up and down recovery seems to be very common from what ive read from other people that have recovered and my own experience too.
Hey OFCOURSE I had symptoms come back and I nerve got discouraged because that was apart of the whole process . Me understand that dpdr was just caused by my anxiety mad eke realize that when I felt my symptoms than I was anxious about it. So when I did feel the symptoms I made sure to get my mind away from it the fast as possible. Thanks for being concerned ❤️
I had similar things happen to me, I hurt myself in the gym doing a deadlift back in November last year. In January I developed sciatica and it hung around for about 2 months, I tried taking time off, walking, chiropractor and then started taking Tylenol, ibuprofen etc and they didn’t seem to help either. Went to the local gp to try and get a referral for a physio, the lady doc also said to go on melobic, an NSAID. Within 24 hours I felt weird mentally and physically, it’s been 3 weeks now and I still feel out of it. Crazy dreams and insomnia started straight away, plus felt like I was in a dream and everything
Just felt off. The crazy thing is that I only took two tablets and I’m still feeling horrible. I hope to god this shit ends and I can get my life back. I’m trying to be less anxious about everything and stay positive.
Did you experience a panic attack of any sort ?
@@johnmakesmoney not really, I just remember feeling strange the next day, and it just gradually fell into this strange state of mind. When I was at work it felt like I was dreaming at all the time and totally didn’t feel like it was me. Tbh I don’t feel super anxious and just before all this I was feeling quite good mentally and physically except for the sciatica woes which were plaguing me a bit.
@@johnmakesmoney I’ve been saying since the beginning that I just don’t feel right. I don’t feel myself, everything feels a bit off like it’s a dream. I thought it was brain fog or maybe a lack of sleep but it just never changes. Ive even had thoughts like id had a stroke or there’s something in my brain that’s been damaged. Kinda horrifying to think that this may be permanent. Did you get any other physical issues like feeling unsteady, slow and maybe a little lightheaded and dizzy?
@@pct2025 I was usually just sleepy and tired when I was experiencing DPDR. I have read that DPDR can also have an onset that isnt defined by an event but I dont know if this is true or not Im not a proffesional in that field. I suggest going to a doctor first just to make sure everything is okay
@@johnmakesmoney I went to the doc a bunch of times. Had a CT scan because when I said I felt like I was dreaming he said it could be demyelation of the brain. It came back with no obvious cause, plus bloods were good. The funny thing is that the sciatica went as soon as I took the 2 meloxicam tablets, and before that I’d tried other NSAIDS, chiropractor, time off etc etc and nothing worked at all. But unfortunately this brain issue that has popped up feels like 100 times worse than any leg or back pain. I went to work this morning and I was totally fatigued, had to go home and sleep for an hour.
I have only delusional disorder but dpdr seems so hard to live with.
All my research i did i found out that some people on reddit had DPDR also had vitamin b12 deficiencys or the other way around so struggling with derealization for 5 months i checked my b12 levels and they are low but i was also having panic attacks for a bit anyway i noticed the b12 supplements make my derealization go away I get energy again and start to feel like myself again you can have mental symptoms if your vitamin b12 is below 500
ive had this for 2-3 years, its like my vision is like being in a dream, it has ruined my life, and its caused chronic anxiety where i cant really leave the house, im so afraid, ive forgotten what its like to feel normal and real, im trying to find anxiety meds that work, but i just cant imagine myself not experiencing this everyday, im scared this will be my life forever, ive tried everything and nothing is making it go away, please help me
It seems like you are in a constant state of fear and fight or flight, I can try my best to help you.
DPDR is a response to anxiety, so when you got it for the first time ever you most likely panicked and had even more anxiety because of it
DPDR is porbably constantly on your mind and you are scared that this is what your life has become and i had the same exact symptoms. I thought my life was over and I was living in horror.
What I did was first I would recognize what I had, Understand that you can recover from this awfull thing. Also understand that it cant hurt you at all.
Check out the @dpdrmanual on youtube I found comfort in listening to the recovery storys of others. It gave me so much hope.
Stop googling and looking for answers on the internet. It makes it worse . My recovery started with that. I would not look or even google what I had anymore once I knew what it was. Than anytime I felt DPDR or its awfull symptoms I would immediatly get busy. I would start playing games or solve puzzles to atleast get my mind off it for a few seconds. If you still have it whille doing these tasks Recognize it but continue. Dont let your thoughts roll into more thoughts. Everytime I would get a bad thought such as "this is it and my life is screwed" I would stop there and breath and count to 10 and than move on. Its very hard at first but the thoughts you are get are an anxious thought loop. Those thoughts just keep on firing your mind. Its hard but you have to live your life as if you dont have DPDR. I also feared going outside but I did it anyway no matter how I was feeling jsut to teach my brain that I am okay in these situation.
Lastly I wish I can give you every little detail but there is too much to commment it all. If you have spare money I reccomend purchasing the DP Manual because without it I couldnt have got the info I have now. Im not a proffesional in anyway But this is what helped me recover, Always use youre resources and contact a proffesional and a doctor always , this doesnt substitue proffesional help.
I wish you recovery and God bless
I’m so sorry to hear of your struggles. I’m in pretty much the same situation.
I’ve found seroquel gives some relief. Basically antipsychotics may help you
I really recommend you try therapy man... Sounds like your dealing with a LOT of extreme emotions, that's not something that you should try fixing on your own, because it's just much much harder without help. Dealing with emotions is not easy, especially if they are intense! Even more so because in todays world no one learns/teaches how to deal with emotions. What you need is to learn how to recognize and control your emotions, otherwise they will control you, and the vicious cycle continuous... There's absolutely hope man, keep it up!
@@milanolasz1386 ehh tbh i’ve tried therapy ages ago but it didn’t do much, my life had gotten insanely worse, but i went on heavy anxiety meds and im lowkey just chilling a bit now lol
Can you please explain to me how you feel
This all started around 4 weeks ago after a combination of 24 hours of sleep deprivation (stayed up all night watching “deviant adult media” that I thought I had come to terms with the fact I was into), feeling sick with a cold, taking meds I was out of for a week at a new time, and taking night time cold medicine alongside said meds, and then waking up at 1:00pm in a panic. Since then, nothing’s felt right, and I feel like I’ve been getting worse maybe. Right now I keep ping-ponging between different mental states. From just anxiety, to depression and anhedonia, to this null empty feeling like nothing matters, to this sociopathic cold feeling where it feels like I can’t care about anything. Real life problems can’t feel real (like my usual anxieties about money or my job, or my physical health), I feel like I have no emotional connection or empathy, I can’t care about my special interests (as an autistic that is really concerning for me) sometimes it’s hard to remember what I truly liked vs what I was neutral on vs what I disliked. I feel like I’m not as strongly opinionated as I was before, like my morals and things I cared strongly about don’t feel real/matter, and neither does my sense of humor. I keep forgetting things (could also just be my ADHD). Playing a game with my friends gave me a panic attack because I just couldn’t feel right. It’s like I lost my own sense of self, like my personality itself is gone. I feel disconnected from my usual daydreams and the stories I was working on, I feel like I’m starting to fear or avoid my own interests due to this sense of wrongness, it feels like some of my interests might not return, like I’ve turned them into/convinced myself that I’ll never liked these things. (As someone with ADHD, once I stop engaging with something, it’s really hard to start again and I’m worried that this interest will fade away/already faded because I can’t interact with it right now. I’ve been having random memory flashes/sensations to random points in my life, while remembering what I want to is extremely difficult (plus I can’t remember the emotions connected to it). It sometimes feels like I’m becoming another person/people or like I’m going insane. Previously familiar concepts now feel foreign and strange, random conversations of people going through their day, stuff like that. I feel cognitively less intelligent and it takes me longer to remember how to do basic things. Anything to do with death or violence sets off this bizarre existential anxiety, where before I could compartmentalize it, like an all or nothing black and white sort of feeling about it. Time feels like it takes forever. Sometimes the world physically looks strange (like there’s this filter in front of it, but that one doesn’t really bother me too much). It feels like I’m not present enough to the point where I’m missing out on things happening right in front of me/things I’m directly participating in. Sometimes it feels worse than others, like I don’t feel every symptom at the same time, but it never really goes away. I’ve had this sensational for about 4 weeks now, but it’s so hard to remember life before that it feels like I’ve always been like this. Sometimes it feels like I’ve always been like this and was just faking before (stupid state-specific memory).
I’m in therapy now and just got on an SSRI (which helped me with my anxiety last time, so I could focus on distraction/help accept the feelings of DPDR). Although now I need to wait through the hellish couple of weeks where your body needs to get used to the SSRI during which anxiety and depression get worse.
Last time this happened was back in June-July of 2020 and it took until November for me to even start to feel better, like I was healing, and I feel like I was still somewhat vulnerable feeling until around a half a year or so later. (And I only feel like I healed because I was in the perfect storm of being in a dorm room nearly 24/7 with my roommate who had similar interests to me, plus needing to focus on school work, cooking, and going to the store, then second semester my other roommates also came back and we had daily and weekly routines, stayed up late watching stuff, played video games, studied, got food together, went on errands as a group, got drunk together, and they had some emotional support animals in the form of their pet rats and a tank of shrimp, so there was that) Plus one of the things that got me out was discovering a new special interest/community, but said new interest was the first thing that I noticed I felt disconnected from. I’m scared of that disconnect possibly being permanent due to all the other things I dropped due to ADHD when I don’t stay actively involved. Like it’s really hard for me to jump back into a community I was gone from, and then sustain it. So that’s also causing me anxiety.
It really seems like you are struggling, have you talked to a therapist about all of this ?
@@johnmakesmoney yep, and I know it’s all just anxiety (and my rational brain taking over while anxiety is screwing with everything else) and I need to just focus on the grounding techniques (breathing exercises, 5-4-3-2-1, counting, naming things, muscle stretching, tactile, cold shock, etc.) and radical acceptance of the fact that I feel this way right now (and that it’s okay, and doesn’t mean anything is wrong with me or that I’m changing), so the things i normally do without any expectations, make sure I’m healthy physically, pivot my mind when i begin to spiral, stop “checking” to see how i feel all the time, stop comparing to my “past self”, stop panic searching forums and the internet for “help” etc.
It’s really difficult to do so though, and I often find myself slipping up, by following thought spirals and catastrophising, or by just panicking over nothing, or by avoiding things.
I’ve been here before and got out. So I just need to do that again…. Somehow. I just want my life back, man. To just enjoy the things I know I’m supposed to love, with the people I know I love. It’s really hard to see the things I was looking forward to come to pass and feel nothing. It’s hard to not feel like I ruined my life. It’s hard not to constantly try to rush into things that I usually enjoy and then fall into a panic when they don’t feel right.
@@dimetrodon2250 I’m glad you have a great mindset going into these tough times and trying your best to get better. You mentioned a lot of the techniques that I used for my own recovery. You also mention not checking the internet yet you’re here hahaha , I understand the struggle. I also felt so awful and I even tried calling 988 because I had no clue what to do and I was constantly terrified and in horror. One thing I regret about this video I made is that I wish I could help more but I’m not a proffesional of some sort , and I don’t want to give any advice that might harm instead of help . Because someone might interpret what I say in a different way. I’ll try my best, I don’t know if you mentioned it or not but has someone diagnosed you with DPDR or anything else ?
@@johnmakesmoney I have ADHD and am on the Autism spectrum, and have a history of depression and anxiety. When I first felt this way, 3-4 years ago, I was in contact with a councilor at my college and over the phone described how I was feeling, and they replied: “that sounds like Depersonalization”.
And everyone ive talked to or described how I felt to all said “yep, I get that, or I’ve been through that” or “you’re describing DPDR to a tee.” The anhedonia, anxiety, intrusive thoughts, existential fears, random memory spirals, disconnect from everything, disconnect from everyone, inability to escape even inward (imagination and daydreaming replaced with rumination), that almost sociopathic emotionally numb feeling, uncomfortable lack of empathy, ping-ponging mental states, the sensation of becoming another person, feeling like I’m not present, problems with memory, cognitive decline like I’m actually not as smart as I was before, that buzzing feeling in your head, the feeling like simple concepts suddenly make no sense or that you can’t relate, that feeling of nothing being or feeling real, my vision sometimes feeling like everything is behind glass or not real, my head sometimes feeling like it’s being squeezed, this feeling like I need to run away, the inability to think deeply or complexly about anything, the feeling like I’m going insane while I know that I’m not, all things that I’ve been told sound exactly like DPDR, even when I myself kept questioning whether there was something else going on since “just anxiety” doesn’t seem to be enough of an explanation for all of this.
@@dimetrodon2250 I would like to mention the proportionality bias, this bias states that “when we instinctively conclude that the magnitude of the cause should match the magnitude of its effects.” Basically just because the effects and symptoms seem so huge that you can’t just accept that something like anxiety would cause that. Unfortunately and I mean this with respect and sympathy you have a lot of underlying pre existing conditions that are most deifnetly fueling this awful feeling. There is a lot to unpack and I haven’t lived your life but I can imagine that there’s a lot of complex ins and outs only you understand. What I can say confidently is that DPDR the disorder itself is a symptom of trauma and anxiety and panic. It isn’t something you get when you hit your head or you can’t be born with it. Take a look and go back to see how much of your day is spent obsessing and catastrophizimg about dpdr. It’s probably a lot. I don’t know how your financial situation is but if you think you are suffering from dpdr which it seems like you should consider purchasing the DPDR manual and going through the audio book and all the videos. It’s like 80 dollars ma so promise on my life I’m not using this as an add or I’m being paid for this, but this saved me and the information there could be useful in someway to you.
Thank you so much for talking about this it’s so isolating 🫶
I have been struggling with it since 2021 but this year is literally the worst for now i cried every single day before going to school now that it is summer i want to recover from it cause next year is grade 12 and i feel like from then to now it is just getting worse
It will get better. Say to yourself: “I’m having a thought that the world is unreal” when it happens (or say what fits your thoughts/sensations) This way you remind yourself that it’s actually just your brain acting up.
Same
well explained man
I couldn't go to school for a year I still have it and have had it for 4 years it blows
This was a very good video
I've had constant depersonalization since I was 17, 32 now almost half my life. I dunno what to do, I'm in trauma therapy, working out, have close friends. my brain is just broken
Lost the last 8 years of my life to dpdr after a horror trip from weed (and possibly drugged with acid).... and its only getting worse
Profile pic was the last picture of me a few months before it happened when I was 18... 26 now, lost my friends, job, personality, emotions, feeling, pleasure, body feels dead and weak, I feel like a ghost. I feel like I'm not here, like there's an invisible brick wall between me and everything. My mind doesn't stop, its 24/7 ruminating and negative thoughts no matter what I try nothing helps
@@99_Miming I understand how you feel And I was there. Just know that recovery is possible. No matter how bad it seems. DPDR is a symptom of anxiety and a normal brain repsonse. Its not suposed to last like it did for the unfortunate few like me and you. Recognize that its a anxious thought loop. its a habit your experiencing with your thoughts constantly bringign the worst. Dont ignore the thoughts but let them be like a bird in the air. they fly by you look at them and once they are gone you think ntohign of them. That is very hard when you are in a really bad state but I got out and you can too.
1.) understand that DPDR is normal But we just have a horrible case of it
2.) its fueled by anxiety and anxious thoughts
3.) the more piece of mind you give these thougts the more they persist
I would reccomend checking out the DP Manual on youtube. Sean the guy who runs it has created an amazing place with info. If you have the extra money i would reccomend buying the DP manual on his site also because it was very important for me to get through. You can check out the recovery storys he posts and even mine for some hope.
I cant give you all the info in a single youtube comments but Just know you can and will recover if you put your mind too it. Dont fight the anxiety. This shouldnt substitue any proffesional health so its always good to go to a doctor or a mental health proffesional.
I wish you the best recovery and if you have questions I can do my best to answer
i’ve had derealztion for a few days now. it’s really scary🥺😢. i was having multiple panic attacks due to this. i don’t want to have it anymore, i hope it just goes away. it’s the most scariest thing ever, i feel so unsafe.
Trust me when I say it doesn’t last forever and it’s something that can be recovered from. No matter what your thoughts are telling you. I suggest to tell someone around you what’s going on and talking to a proffesional or a doctor if that’s possible. DPDR is a normal brain response to stress, panic , or trauama. It’s similar to fight or flight mode and it’s not meant to last but for re accruing stress or panic , or panic about the condition itself is what causes it to persist. It’s a symptom of anxiety so take a breath count to 10 and don’t let it take over you. Ask me any questions I’ll be glad to answer
@@johnmakesmoney thank you so much!!
@@johnmakesmoney i do have a question so i have moments in my day where i feel that the derealiztion is gone but then it comes back. is this a sign that i’ll get out of it soon?
@@jazzyhearts The only sign that you will know you can get out of dpdr is those few seconds where you forget you have it. For me it started as like a minute where I didnt think about it and I was completely not focused on it. But when it came back to my mind I was like "damn for a minute I didnt think about it" than it becomes a process of expanding that time frame of forgetting about it. But also remeber this and this is important , If you constantly keep checking on yourself to see if its still there than that will only make it persist more. you have to get out of the habit of constatnly self checking yourself because that reminds your brain that you still have it. Recovery is completly personal and there si no timeframe that guarantees anything. You have to actively put in a effort to recover also, things like staying busy and doing things that might trigger it but teaching yourself you are still safe. For example when I got dpdr I stayed in my bed for like 3 days and I was scared to do anything else. And eventualyl I had to go outside so I did and even though I would get anxious I would still do it to makesure I teach my brain that I am safe. Establish that your safe, Stay as busy as possible, and dont fight the thoughts and the symptoms. You almost have to live likle you dont have it. BUT alot of people say "isnt that just ignoring it" well no its not. you can aknowledge it but thats it. Its like a song stuck in your head, you dont fight it, let it stay in your head and eventually you will forget about it. Remeber Im not a profesional but this information is what helped me recover.
@@johnmakesmoney wow this is powerful!! thank you so much!! this is going to help
I have it. I am so scared😢😢😭😭😭its bad feel
Thank you bro ❤❤❤❤❤
Dp dr is the souls realization of the truth, thus causing the brain to go into defense mode
No , DPDR is a symptom anxiety. It isn’t some awakening or realization it’s a normal human brain response. I hope all is well with you and yes it is a defense mode. But it’s not due to some awakening or truth. It’s just anxiety
I've had it for about 4 days now, this actually helps alot. I want to know I keep forgetting things will that be permeant or not?
Your very anxious and seeking reassurance and that's understandable because I was like that too. I'm not a mental health professional but based off mine and hundreds of other recovery story's seeking reassurance and constantly questioning will only make it worse. I wont answer your question but just know your mind is making up alot of BS because you are in fight or flight mode
thank you bro
i had it BAD when i was a young kid
did u ever had headaches from it? i started to have dpdr 5 days ago and it was the most scary experience i’ve ever had in my life. i thought i was going to pass out and my parents did too so they rush me to the hospital at 3am. doctor said im fine but my heart was racing obviously at that time i was scared of the feeling and i didn’t know what was actually wrong w me. anyways. ever since that i haven’t been sleeping good and i’ve been in fight or flight mode just waiting for things to either go back to normal or get worse (i started googling and seeing that i might have brain tumor or brain cancer or brain damage) which made me even more anxious
i’m sorry if this is a lot but i need to know if it’s normal to have really bad headaches and start to think something is seriously wrong w u like i mentioned brain damage etc.. also if i was lucky to get any sleep i would wake up questioning my whole life and eveyrthing around me.. did u feel the same?
@@ylull I felt similar , I’m not a doctor so I’m not qualified to tell you what your headache is. Regardless of that DPDR is a normal brain response to anxiety. The thing is we got scared and it caused extreme panic and fight or flight . Watch my video and listen to my points on how I recovered. Also check out the @dpmanual on UA-cam for more information. What ur feeling from DpDR is normal and don’t let it eat you up. Your fighting it and it’s making it worse. Don’t use this info as a substitute for PROFFESIONAL help. I’m not a mental or physical health proffesional. But from my experience it is very similar to me so I relate. Break the thought habit and love as if you don’t have dpdr . I can go more into detail if you would like
I have hade DPDR for 28 years😢
Congrats
Has anyone faced tight jaw symptoms in anxiety? Please answer
For some reason, my brain is telling me I shouldn’t get help, and I shouldn’t bother doing this…..lol, fuck that
What do you mean ?
I STARTED THIS DPDR THING IN LATE JUNE RANDOMLY I FELT REALLY BAD ANXEITY FROM JUNE 28- MID JULY THEN EVERY SO OFTEN I WOULD GET HIT HARD FROM DEREALIZATION ONLY FOR A COUPLE OF SECONDS NO EVER SENICE JANUARY 3-4 UNTIL NOW I AM GOING REALLY BAD DEREAIZATION
hey I hope you know everything will be okay and yu can and will recover. I can tell this shitty asss condition is freaking you out so just take a step back and calm down. watch my video through and see if anything helps.. I can explain certainn parts if yoyu dont understand
You know maybe God sent me here.
Stress from dealing with chronic pain probably caused rhe panic attacks, not the tylenol.
i agree
Amazing video thanks! Btw your mic has a delay so the mouth dont match the sound
@@slowanchor9838 thanks 👍🤣💯
I hope one day it’d be my turn to say my story
It can and will be if you put your mind to it
@@johnmakesmoney i hope so
Hello, what audiobook and cd you get for dp/dr
I got the dpmanual you can look i tup online or go to this website www.dpmanual.com/
I started having dpdr after taking venlafaxine anxiety medication I took onetime had a paick attack ND I feel dead like idk if the medication messed up mi brain a scared am failing as a mom I don't wanna do nothing at home
hey you are not failing as a mother! you have to just understand that the panic attack is what caused it! I promise you your brain is not failing because of DPDR and you are okay and will be safe. Here I have some things you can try to do to help yourself. Understand that DPDR is normal and its just your body protecting you. And dont obsess over it whenever you get a thought about DPDR take 10 seconds and get as busy as possible. Break the loop and dont feed it with your anxiety. all the scary thoughts are normal and i had them too.
How long did it take you to recover? I went through this about 3 years ago and it lasted about 4 months. so I should know that it will pass and I will be okay. But my mind will not let me calm down and I feel like it’s never going to end. It feels like I’m going to be stuck like this forever - no matter how much I try to rationalize with myself
It took me like 2-3 months to recover. But having a set time for recovery is counter productive because that forces you to think about it. I was also in you shoes, I couldn’t seem to think that I can calm down but trust me little steps make it possible. And when you do recover you won’t realize it because it fades
how do you not check if it’s working. i feel like i can’t control my thoughts enough and it only takes a moment for my mind to wonder..
Thats how it was for me at the start. If you check if its working than thats counter intuitive because If it was working than that thought wouldnt come about.You cant dwell on the fact wether these thoughts are there or not , you have to just seem them as something like a bird flying by. Im not a proffesional so make sure to go to a doctor and talk to them about your concerns
Is there any ayurvedic medicine or any?
What about the trauma...say one has one pressing thought that needs to be addressed..how does one get passed that one
I’m not a mental health proffesional of any sort, there’s plenty of resources though. Possibly a therapist can help. I never experienced trauma so I’m not qualified but I hope you find something that works for you
I got mine from weed damn that blows
Hey John, I have experienced these symptoms too. Is there an email or some sort of thing platform you and I could discuss this too? just to see if we have the same symptoms.
You can reply here and I can try my best to help
read the title n my fingers got numb :|
Reddit is probably the worst place to go for mental health advice
Man no need to invalidate yourself just cause you aren’t a “professional” that’s your personal first hand experience! Tbh the MAJORITY of mental health “professionals” haven’t helped me as much as a few UA-camrs have so far lol, I’ll only say 1 therapist I’ve met has truly helped me
@@hay_Z2021 I understand your point and yeah your right my experience is first hand. But I need people to understand I’m not a substitute for proffesional health. It’s just like a basic saying to make sure I’m not liable for anything that could happen if someone takes the advice wrong yk. Or they try and it doesn’t show results.
@johnmakesmoney yeah I understand what you were trying to say, but the way you said it undermines your experience, and you don't have to do that 😊💯
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I Watch myself the whole day, who am i, what do i See and i feel like im Disconnected to my Brain and to my thougts i get anxiety of Thinking what my Brain is. Its Like my Brain is not me. Am afraid to be alone with my Brain and me.
Is this also dpdr and existensial thoughts?
Yes that sounds like DPDR. MY thoughts would make up stuff like I am not in control and like my brain was damadged. DPDR is scary but it cant hurt you. watch my video and if oyu have any questions let me know
Thank you Bro
Hey man did it ever give u headaches or eye sorness
me personally it did not but you should always go to a doctor to express your concerns
@johnmakesmoney I definely am been talking with a therapist and going for a physical soon
Is this similar to anhedonia, no feelings, except fear.
i experienced that too at the moment it was scary but know looking back it feels like distant memeory
Remember not to self-diagnose guys :)
TRIGGER WARNING.
My story:
It's 2007 and I'm 13. I was going through a rough time at school, being bullied, and was extremely stressed and anxious all the time. I got home one day, and I tried to kill myself using a deodorant, spraying it and then inhaling it face down. What I was thinking I don't even know. I know (I think) there's no science behind any of this by the way.
Anyway I go to sleep, thinking 'don't be an idiot'.
When I wake up I feel fucking weird. Really odd. I go for a bath to 'wake myself up' but I can't wake up. I look down at my hands - they aren't my hands. Wtf? I go for a walk with my mum and our dogs and we're walking under fluorescent streetlights and all I can think is... this isn't my body. I don't feel real. All my conversation came from outside of myself. I was disconnected, unplugged, through glass. I could see other people but it was like I was never fully looking at them. I wondered if they could see the void I felt. I walked through as a zombie for a while not knowing how in the world I was meant to act.
I'm now almost 30. That feeling never went. I just adapted to it pretty well I guess. But I live through a glass wall every day and as the years have passed, I've also become extremely sensitive to light, noise and crowd activity - developing what the doctor says are autistic traits even though I was never an autistic child. It's like my body has had to adapt to this new condition in the only way it can. I did have fleeting, very unusual, very uncommon moments where the world would look real and I would for several seconds, like the tape shifting... but it never lasted obviously.
I never learned to drive either, because driving feels like GTA lol.
I'm a relatively functional adult. I see friends, I swim, I work a low activity job that pays the bills... but I am and have always been a profoundly anxious individual who never fully found a way to deal with that, and I have essentally grown up 'unwhole' as a result of the dp/dr, which I' still reckoning with.
When I first got this too, nobody even knew what the hell it was. There wasn't all the info there is now. There was a bit but not loads. Doctors had no clue. So it was very lonely. Not so lonely these days as there's more an emphasis on mental health etc, but difficult to talk about it with people who don't understand, so I don't usually. Honestly, I've had it longer than I haven't had it... I wouldn't even know what lays beneath it at this point.
How many days to take recover dodr
@@shaheershahul3277 there is no set time. It’s all personal journey
I can’t think bro my thinking ability has gone😢
@@shaheershahul3277 I understand your fear and I felt the same way bro , did you watch the whole video through?
@@johnmakesmoney After watching the video i forgot what to do💔
@@shaheershahul3277 use a journal and write down the main points of you can
Did you go back to the gym while you had dpdr?
yes I did, it was a bad Idea though because I messed my back up even more lmaooo.
Do you have isticmatism >-2 ??
why do you ask
@@johnmakesmoney i wonder if condition direct proportion to eye quality that why i collect evidence
@@NikolaiWar listen I can confidently say that iosnt the reson DPDR happens. I dont want to be rude but that study wont help with anything. It is a symptom of anxiety
@@johnmakesmoney buddy listen to me im 27 old skilled in chemistry science and i was learned from an professor skilled in eye condition and effect of emotion on eye and dp-dr its most effective on eye emotion ...look after Dr Ainoha defederico i think that her name