how I recovered from depersonalization disorder AKA dpdr.... (BETTER YOU EPISODE #1)
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- how I recovered from depersonalization disorder AKA dpdr.... (BETTER YOU EPISODE #1)
TRIGGER WARNING TO ALL
I AM NOT A MENTAL HEALTH PROFFESIONAL AND ONE SHOULD BE CONSULTED BEFORE TAKING ANY LONG-TERM ACTIONS. ALWAYS DO WHATS BEST FOR YOU AND MAKESURE TO UTILIZE CRISIS LINE IF YOU ARE STRUGGLING AND NEED HELP.
In this video we go over my story and the 3 main things I had to do and understand when my recovery first started.....
0:00 - 0:29 welcome
0:29 - 2:37 my story
2:37 - 3:12 living with it
3:12 - 6:15 worst 3 days of my life
6:15 - 11:24three main takeaways
11:24 - 13:09 conclusion
#mentalhealth #dpdr #anxiety - Розваги
Just wanna pin this comment. Although you can’t technically withdrawal from pain killer (accetiphome) hard thing to spell btw. For me it could have been a load of things that caused this feeling of panic. All that matters though is that it was a panic attack and it triggered everything
Hello John ! I feel calmer and a littel bit better , i’m not scary from symtoms anymore sometimes i feel like 40-50% i’m recovered but is the recovery really so slow because i feel like the other 50% of recovery is never going to happened and ofc i can see more clear now but it’s just this thing that you still don’t feel your self like dreamy vision this is so annoying
accetiphome is a crazy statement
Thank you bro. I'm struggling with DPDR for around 6 months now. I will use your tips to recover. Stay strong everyone, we are getting out of this shit soon...
Same here bro, we will get through it together
@@kg4484 Let's do it
it happened to me 5 days ago. ever since then i haven’t felt normal im starting to think i’m going insane, i keep reminding myself that i’m fine but i cant help myself
@@yasmina88801give its some weeks even a few months i’m on month 2 and i’ve been feeling a lot better but the first few weeks are rough but just know if you give it time it will get so much better if you do the right things
Thank you for this, going to try this. Been struggling with this alongside panic disorder for 5 years now
Awesome video, more people that struggle with dpdr need to see this bc I remember how lost I felt when I had no idea why I felt the way i did with dpdr.
big love i have shed light on my own behaviours after watching your video thank you for your honesty and openness and I hope more people are helped by you thank you
Can't thank you enough for that video man. I hope this message finds you in good health. I had a terrible burnout from my programming job/lifestyle that led me to a very scary "thunderclap headache". Thought I had a stroke. My symptoms started after that. I went through panic attacks, to dizziness, headaches, health anxiety (about heart attack, stroke, cancer, rabies, schizophrenia and many more) and now I'm currently dealing with DPDR, tinnitus, TMJ, all of that because of built-up stress. I'm slowly recovering. My start symptom happened about 8 or 9 months ago. I've made a huge progress and was currently dealing with the DPDR very heavily. This video was extremely helpful. I truly wish you all the best and hope I can also record a video like that as soon as I recover. Thanks!!!
Amazing vid john
Thank you so much brother! I'm recovering from it right now, and understanding how DPDR works really helps.
thank u so much for this John. Hope this help through this
I have this issue after getting my first covid infection last year, i lost all my emotions and also my empathy and felt like i was a robot for almost an entire year (and still grapple with issues, but just not as bad as before). Its absolutely terrifying and something that can only be truly understood by those who experience it.
You are right it is honestly so bad and scary I cant explain in words. I hope all is well for you and I wish you more recovery
i put dp/dr under the umbrella of anxiety/stress response.Ultimately, everyone that suffers with this will handle a gradient of symptoms of dp/dr.For me, when i was at my worst the dp dr was around but not too severe as i heard people go over.My real struggle is the body sensastions, heart palpitations, difficult breathing and swallowing,but my symptoms morph into one another until it cycles back to the body sensations.
I understand what you are going through. I also had severe health anxiety. the loop almost feels endless sometimes but you must power through and realize these are anxiety. Im not health proffesional so its always good to get checked out and you should. But i can see similaritys betwen you and me
Thank you for this video you are amazing bro
saw this video at the perfect time. incredible vid and was super comforting so thank you for sharing and for the vid :’D
I will try this, thank you for sharing. I feel a lot more motivated and comfortable with myself after this video, which is a good sign.
For those who got it from substance abuse, best advice is to stop abusing substances. Had it for 4 years and it got pretty bad then decided to stop and it's improving tremendously. Eat right sleep right and interact with the world also helps a lot.
idk i got it from passing out 4 years ago. been sober for years no help.
Damn wtf 4 years??? that’s a long ass time idk if that supposed to be going on for that long fr🤦🏾♂️🤦🏾♂️
yeah it isnt supposed to but what u gonna do about it other than suffer@@antoineperkins1332
Do you still have it?
@@tasis_nc7586 yeahh I don’t feel myself I can’t feel no emotions really it feels like I’m loosing my humanity smh🤦🏾♂️ it’s been 3 weeks since I been feel like this
man i feel like living with this shit, and learning theres other people with it and who recover, a voice manifest in your head that tells you that you cannot recover and that youll live with it forever, its like theres something trying to trap me inside the state of mind and feeling. i hate it.
I understand how you feel. That’s how anxiety works it always pokes at you. It’s hard to unlearn that
I remember when I was a little kid I used to feel like I was the only being who truly existed in this world. I would look in the mirror or look at my hands and get this extreme self awareness focused on my existence and I wouldn’t be able to recognize myself, a feeling like “this isn’t me”. But for some reason this was extremely comforting because it made me feel as tho even if my body were to die, I’d continue existing.
One time I took shrooms and I had the same experience but it was like you described, scary as hell. I was recording my trip and I started to forget who I was and question everything about myself and my life.
I don’t know if this is the same shit you’re describing but it’s interesting how I would react to the same feeling of existential awareness in completely different ways. I’m pretty spiritual so I think of it as our souls remembering that this body isn’t really us, we existed before they were created and we will continue to exist when they stop functioning.
Great video bro made me reflect a lot
I appreciate this comment bro genuinely I do. I found honestly zero comfort in this at all and it genuinely freaked me out so bad. This experience changed my life for the better. Personally me and everyone is entitled to there own thing but Shrooms and weed just ain’t it for me fr and I can’t possibly do those drugs ever. I like to feel grounded and in the moment and present. I BELIVE we our own unique souls created by God in his image. And it’s our duty to try and help others and guide them in there suffering and hurt you know. I get where you coming from and for both of us it turned out to be okay and we learned ❤️
@@johnrafacz21 glad you got through that shit bro
@@johnrafacz21damn i’m 17 and i had dpdr on my birthday. I used to be very passionate about trading, become financially free, etc,.. but dpdr hits me hard and kill that flame inside me a little bit. I saw you guys content about trading and I am a ict student too so i gave me hope that after dpdr, you can still be passionate with your hobbies. Hope I’ll be there soon again💪
my immense joy from thjs video is unsormantiable! yuh
just try to be the best version of yourself, find purpose, and try your best to keep healthy friendships or relationships, you’ll feel a lot more connected to yourself, the people you talk to every day, and connected to what you do every day. trust me, i spent months literally feeling my body numb, i felt like my consciousness was suppressed inside my body, shit was pretty bad. i just read the title and my fingers went numb, my shits are numb right now LOL. for the people wondering if they should stop doing drugs, it’s not the drugs bro, HOWEVER, if you smokin every day that shit will keep you there, so maybe have a productive week and smoke only on a friday or saturday. ey honestly the most you can do is just start doing healthier things, start loving yourself. you gon find yourself again, it gets better TRUST ME
Finding this video has helped my anxiety so much. When you were talking about the schizophrenia thought loop example, i was reassured that someone else had experienced it because my depersonalisation gave me horrible panic attacks every night and extreme anxiety during the day, and i would have panic attacks because i thought i was losing my mind and that i am getting schizphrenia.
People with schizo phrenia according to what I have heard and read never are aware they are schizophrenic untill the people around them notice changes. when ur schizophrenic there is no doubt in your mind or questioning if its real because it would be a delusion. I hooe you are okay and recover!
Great vid mate
i overcome dpdr, but it took me around 3-4 years, and i'm still dealing with aftermaths and roots of it. so, guys, here's my tip: be brave to change your life!
reason of my dpdr was constant stress and insecurities, so i solved that loong puzzle by 1) building good habits, that helped me to deal with stress (workouts, meditation, sleep schedule), 2) making goals, which helped to cope with insecurities and 3) positive mindset and a bit of carelessness.
also discovering new hobbies, walking and discovering something new about things i liked also helped me a lot! hope this helps someone
God Bless brother thank you for the comment!
I got DPDR after a panic attack from body dysmorphia and iterally all of this happened to me the exact way it happened to you, I really REALLY apreciate you for this video because its making my life worse when I know it can be good
You got this bro ❤️ keep going and use my advice . I hope it helps truly
well said
Amazing video!
Actually I am a pharmacy student and this is the first time I found someone who experienced panic attack withdrawals using acetaminophen. This medication is not as strong as opioids so it is very interesting to learn abt this
From my experience it seemed like not taking it for some reason caused that for me. And I can’t specifically guarantee and say that that was the direct cause exactly of the panic attack or wether it was my poor sugar filled diet. All that matters is that I panicked and it was bad 😭
This was a very good video
Hey, i relate to you completely, thank you for this video it really made me not feel alone fr. I hope youre doing well :)
Thank you and I’m trying my best everyday ! Still deal with stuff but atleast knowing how to combat it is what is important
I'm literally just coming down from DPDR! ❤
thank you bro
I never even said it out out loud, I was thinking of depersonalization and this video got recommended to me. The algorithm is on another level. But I’ve been having the same feelings
I dunno how the heck this video got recommended to me after 2 years of my Lower back injury doing squats. I waited for 2-3 months so that my back heals on its own but nothing happened, these 2-3 months were the most tense months of my life as I just had a storm of outcomes in my mind. After 3 months, I went to an OrthoExpert and he gave me Pregabalin tablets to relieve nerve pain but after i woke up after taking my 1st dose, I felt like my brain was totally empty and I became emotionless from that day. I am still waiting to regain my personality and conciousness with time, but no changes have been seen, I have lost my nature, my knowledge, intellect and myself
I feel you and I understand your mental and physical pain. Both go hand in hand and destroy your life or that’s the way it seems. I recommend maybe finding people to talk to or even a therapist if you can afford one . I’m not a proffesional at all and I wish I could help more. Your symptoms do sound like DPDR though from my experience. Remeber DPDR is a respond to trauma and anxiety and it’s normal and can’t hurt you.
@@johnrafacz21 I am not worried that will it hurt me or not, the main thing is that I lost my own touch, I had a strong personality who used to engage in every activity , but nowadays just living on kinda Autopilot
@@assassings3030 yeah that’s a normal feeling , your right it won’t hurt you but it’s a obviously causing distress because you are here commenting about it which is okay. Your worried and want your old life back. And that’s understandable. The only way too do that would be to stop obsessing over it and let it be by your side like a bird following you. Don’t give the bird any thought or don’t say anything to it . It will be annoying you but the more you just move on without giving it mind the bird will slowly fly away. Get checked out by a doctor to make sure everything is alright and speak to them about your problems. Maybe the medication you were prescribed wasn’t good for you, but don’t take my word for it I’m not a proffesional
@@johnrafacz21 But I only took One dose and just stopped taking it bcoz the pain went off with just one Dose only
@@assassings3030 I’m not a doctor so I don’t know anything about that I wish I could help
Hi John, randomly came to your video. You explain it good and you have a smart guy impression on the video.
This; ‘not focusing’ or ‘not thinking’ issue. There is like ‘I will not think this in my brain’ and there is like ‘I will not focus/check/think whether I have freeze/dp in the body (and brain) right now or not, regardless of that I will do whatever I do normally.’
Which one you chose.
I mean
1- I will not think this inside my brain.
2- I will not think/focus that I have this thing in my body.
The threat is the things in your body whatever you are aware. Like; my brain feels empty, my emotions are numb, etc etc. And the defence to these, are these same feelings also.
I mean nobody needs to know details of that. I mean it is whatever you feel or see as a problem now.
do you approve this
@@userjeremysheeran hey hows it going! Firstly its not a thing in your body. Its not a physical thing its a mental thing. I recognize your symptoms and how you are feeling because I understand that. Not thinking and Not focusing are basically the same thing. But understand that you cant fight it. when you fight it it actively reminds you of your condition. It is a hard thing to do but no matter what whenever you feel dpdr and you are scared and you get anxious thoughts. Go do somehting. a good and positive habbit. then your mind will be taken off of DPDR for a little if thats all. and slwoly it will get better
@@johnrafacz21 Yes John, thanks. Prophet Hz. Muhammed says; Don’t fight anxiety, you will be tired and fall under it. You run away from anxiety.
Thank you so much for talking about this it’s so isolating 🫶
Appreciate the video. Takes courage. I have to disagree that everyone’s dpdr is the same. Everyone experiences it differently. Like I don’t feel the unreality feeling at all or existential thoughts. I just have an unbearable detachment from my body and don’t feel it. Sensations are not properly experienced. I feel little anxiety. Just numb with a very distressing feeling. I’ve never had a panic attack in my life
I understand you , yes everyone’s DPDR can present with different intensity and symptoms. What I meant was that if you have a different symptom than someone else it doesn’t mean it’s a whole different thing. Everyone has the same condition but yeah it does present differently
9:48 this really reassured be man I have to thank you because i have had this for 2 to nearly 3 years now but it was caused by a terrible trip on drinking a few ale’s and swallowing marijuana; i took 1 bud and 30 mins later I felt cocky and thought to myself since I was drunk “oh one more bud wont hurt, this is some weak stuff” 5 minutes later i started to feel the effects and realized “oh shit… I fucked up” I got very paranoid and tried to make myself vomit but my gag reflex wasn’t working so I tried to calm myself down and it didn’t work out well… so I tried to sleep it off.
(Continued) I woke up the next morning paranoid, thinking I completely fucked my brain up. I had noticed my surroundings appeared different and thought it was all a bad hangover, but nah, when it lasted more than two days, I knew something was wrong. I had insomnia for weeks, I felt the floor move at certain times like a rocking ship (it doesn’t happen anymore, thankfully), and everything looked unreal like it was in 4K, and I was viewing the outside world like I was a spectator. To make a long story short, my mother has schizophrenia from childhood abuse, and I have these existential thoughts about developing the disorder myself, which makes me paranoid. This is the main reason why I still have it, I believe. I’m in fear instead of acceptance.
Trying to not being aware of my dpdr symptoms are there and not focusing on them makes me focus and worry about them even more.
You dont need to try to stop focusing on them. tryingis what gets you messed up. you are fighting the feeling and you cant do that. dont fight it and just let go of it. its Hard trust me I know that. but there is no other way. no matter how scary the symtpom dont fight it and keep the engine going, keep busy
hey john!
I'm not trying to scare you, but just so you know it is very common to have periods where the dpdr comes back and then goes away again in the process of recovery. i started having dpdr about 3 years ago and there were periods of multiple months where I didn't experience any symptoms and then slowly they came back before receding again. I only say this so that you don't get discouraged if that does happen
👍 ❤
currently I havent had any symptoms for about a year but it was an up and down journey where it came back and went away again maybe 5 times.
this up and down recovery seems to be very common from what ive read from other people that have recovered and my own experience too.
Hey OFCOURSE I had symptoms come back and I nerve got discouraged because that was apart of the whole process . Me understand that dpdr was just caused by my anxiety mad eke realize that when I felt my symptoms than I was anxious about it. So when I did feel the symptoms I made sure to get my mind away from it the fast as possible. Thanks for being concerned ❤️
Do not touch any of your symptoms if you don't fix what and who made you dissociate from yourself, anxious or depressive. Find it and crush it, start from there. That's what I'm doing right now
This all started around 4 weeks ago after a combination of 24 hours of sleep deprivation (stayed up all night watching “deviant adult media” that I thought I had come to terms with the fact I was into), feeling sick with a cold, taking meds I was out of for a week at a new time, and taking night time cold medicine alongside said meds, and then waking up at 1:00pm in a panic. Since then, nothing’s felt right, and I feel like I’ve been getting worse maybe. Right now I keep ping-ponging between different mental states. From just anxiety, to depression and anhedonia, to this null empty feeling like nothing matters, to this sociopathic cold feeling where it feels like I can’t care about anything. Real life problems can’t feel real (like my usual anxieties about money or my job, or my physical health), I feel like I have no emotional connection or empathy, I can’t care about my special interests (as an autistic that is really concerning for me) sometimes it’s hard to remember what I truly liked vs what I was neutral on vs what I disliked. I feel like I’m not as strongly opinionated as I was before, like my morals and things I cared strongly about don’t feel real/matter, and neither does my sense of humor. I keep forgetting things (could also just be my ADHD). Playing a game with my friends gave me a panic attack because I just couldn’t feel right. It’s like I lost my own sense of self, like my personality itself is gone. I feel disconnected from my usual daydreams and the stories I was working on, I feel like I’m starting to fear or avoid my own interests due to this sense of wrongness, it feels like some of my interests might not return, like I’ve turned them into/convinced myself that I’ll never liked these things. (As someone with ADHD, once I stop engaging with something, it’s really hard to start again and I’m worried that this interest will fade away/already faded because I can’t interact with it right now. I’ve been having random memory flashes/sensations to random points in my life, while remembering what I want to is extremely difficult (plus I can’t remember the emotions connected to it). It sometimes feels like I’m becoming another person/people or like I’m going insane. Previously familiar concepts now feel foreign and strange, random conversations of people going through their day, stuff like that. I feel cognitively less intelligent and it takes me longer to remember how to do basic things. Anything to do with death or violence sets off this bizarre existential anxiety, where before I could compartmentalize it, like an all or nothing black and white sort of feeling about it. Time feels like it takes forever. Sometimes the world physically looks strange (like there’s this filter in front of it, but that one doesn’t really bother me too much). It feels like I’m not present enough to the point where I’m missing out on things happening right in front of me/things I’m directly participating in. Sometimes it feels worse than others, like I don’t feel every symptom at the same time, but it never really goes away. I’ve had this sensational for about 4 weeks now, but it’s so hard to remember life before that it feels like I’ve always been like this. Sometimes it feels like I’ve always been like this and was just faking before (stupid state-specific memory).
I’m in therapy now and just got on an SSRI (which helped me with my anxiety last time, so I could focus on distraction/help accept the feelings of DPDR). Although now I need to wait through the hellish couple of weeks where your body needs to get used to the SSRI during which anxiety and depression get worse.
Last time this happened was back in June-July of 2020 and it took until November for me to even start to feel better, like I was healing, and I feel like I was still somewhat vulnerable feeling until around a half a year or so later. (And I only feel like I healed because I was in the perfect storm of being in a dorm room nearly 24/7 with my roommate who had similar interests to me, plus needing to focus on school work, cooking, and going to the store, then second semester my other roommates also came back and we had daily and weekly routines, stayed up late watching stuff, played video games, studied, got food together, went on errands as a group, got drunk together, and they had some emotional support animals in the form of their pet rats and a tank of shrimp, so there was that) Plus one of the things that got me out was discovering a new special interest/community, but said new interest was the first thing that I noticed I felt disconnected from. I’m scared of that disconnect possibly being permanent due to all the other things I dropped due to ADHD when I don’t stay actively involved. Like it’s really hard for me to jump back into a community I was gone from, and then sustain it. So that’s also causing me anxiety.
It really seems like you are struggling, have you talked to a therapist about all of this ?
@@johnrafacz21 yep, and I know it’s all just anxiety (and my rational brain taking over while anxiety is screwing with everything else) and I need to just focus on the grounding techniques (breathing exercises, 5-4-3-2-1, counting, naming things, muscle stretching, tactile, cold shock, etc.) and radical acceptance of the fact that I feel this way right now (and that it’s okay, and doesn’t mean anything is wrong with me or that I’m changing), so the things i normally do without any expectations, make sure I’m healthy physically, pivot my mind when i begin to spiral, stop “checking” to see how i feel all the time, stop comparing to my “past self”, stop panic searching forums and the internet for “help” etc.
It’s really difficult to do so though, and I often find myself slipping up, by following thought spirals and catastrophising, or by just panicking over nothing, or by avoiding things.
I’ve been here before and got out. So I just need to do that again…. Somehow. I just want my life back, man. To just enjoy the things I know I’m supposed to love, with the people I know I love. It’s really hard to see the things I was looking forward to come to pass and feel nothing. It’s hard to not feel like I ruined my life. It’s hard not to constantly try to rush into things that I usually enjoy and then fall into a panic when they don’t feel right.
@@dimetrodon2250 I’m glad you have a great mindset going into these tough times and trying your best to get better. You mentioned a lot of the techniques that I used for my own recovery. You also mention not checking the internet yet you’re here hahaha , I understand the struggle. I also felt so awful and I even tried calling 988 because I had no clue what to do and I was constantly terrified and in horror. One thing I regret about this video I made is that I wish I could help more but I’m not a proffesional of some sort , and I don’t want to give any advice that might harm instead of help . Because someone might interpret what I say in a different way. I’ll try my best, I don’t know if you mentioned it or not but has someone diagnosed you with DPDR or anything else ?
@@johnrafacz21 I have ADHD and am on the Autism spectrum, and have a history of depression and anxiety. When I first felt this way, 3-4 years ago, I was in contact with a councilor at my college and over the phone described how I was feeling, and they replied: “that sounds like Depersonalization”.
And everyone ive talked to or described how I felt to all said “yep, I get that, or I’ve been through that” or “you’re describing DPDR to a tee.” The anhedonia, anxiety, intrusive thoughts, existential fears, random memory spirals, disconnect from everything, disconnect from everyone, inability to escape even inward (imagination and daydreaming replaced with rumination), that almost sociopathic emotionally numb feeling, uncomfortable lack of empathy, ping-ponging mental states, the sensation of becoming another person, feeling like I’m not present, problems with memory, cognitive decline like I’m actually not as smart as I was before, that buzzing feeling in your head, the feeling like simple concepts suddenly make no sense or that you can’t relate, that feeling of nothing being or feeling real, my vision sometimes feeling like everything is behind glass or not real, my head sometimes feeling like it’s being squeezed, this feeling like I need to run away, the inability to think deeply or complexly about anything, the feeling like I’m going insane while I know that I’m not, all things that I’ve been told sound exactly like DPDR, even when I myself kept questioning whether there was something else going on since “just anxiety” doesn’t seem to be enough of an explanation for all of this.
@@dimetrodon2250 I would like to mention the proportionality bias, this bias states that “when we instinctively conclude that the magnitude of the cause should match the magnitude of its effects.” Basically just because the effects and symptoms seem so huge that you can’t just accept that something like anxiety would cause that. Unfortunately and I mean this with respect and sympathy you have a lot of underlying pre existing conditions that are most deifnetly fueling this awful feeling. There is a lot to unpack and I haven’t lived your life but I can imagine that there’s a lot of complex ins and outs only you understand. What I can say confidently is that DPDR the disorder itself is a symptom of trauma and anxiety and panic. It isn’t something you get when you hit your head or you can’t be born with it. Take a look and go back to see how much of your day is spent obsessing and catastrophizimg about dpdr. It’s probably a lot. I don’t know how your financial situation is but if you think you are suffering from dpdr which it seems like you should consider purchasing the DPDR manual and going through the audio book and all the videos. It’s like 80 dollars ma so promise on my life I’m not using this as an add or I’m being paid for this, but this saved me and the information there could be useful in someway to you.
I have it. I am so scared😢😢😭😭😭its bad feel
I had similar things happen to me, I hurt myself in the gym doing a deadlift back in November last year. In January I developed sciatica and it hung around for about 2 months, I tried taking time off, walking, chiropractor and then started taking Tylenol, ibuprofen etc and they didn’t seem to help either. Went to the local gp to try and get a referral for a physio, the lady doc also said to go on melobic, an NSAID. Within 24 hours I felt weird mentally and physically, it’s been 3 weeks now and I still feel out of it. Crazy dreams and insomnia started straight away, plus felt like I was in a dream and everything
Just felt off. The crazy thing is that I only took two tablets and I’m still feeling horrible. I hope to god this shit ends and I can get my life back. I’m trying to be less anxious about everything and stay positive.
Did you experience a panic attack of any sort ?
@@johnrafacz21 not really, I just remember feeling strange the next day, and it just gradually fell into this strange state of mind. When I was at work it felt like I was dreaming at all the time and totally didn’t feel like it was me. Tbh I don’t feel super anxious and just before all this I was feeling quite good mentally and physically except for the sciatica woes which were plaguing me a bit.
@@johnrafacz21 I’ve been saying since the beginning that I just don’t feel right. I don’t feel myself, everything feels a bit off like it’s a dream. I thought it was brain fog or maybe a lack of sleep but it just never changes. Ive even had thoughts like id had a stroke or there’s something in my brain that’s been damaged. Kinda horrifying to think that this may be permanent. Did you get any other physical issues like feeling unsteady, slow and maybe a little lightheaded and dizzy?
@@Mark_Jacobson81 I was usually just sleepy and tired when I was experiencing DPDR. I have read that DPDR can also have an onset that isnt defined by an event but I dont know if this is true or not Im not a proffesional in that field. I suggest going to a doctor first just to make sure everything is okay
@@johnrafacz21 I went to the doc a bunch of times. Had a CT scan because when I said I felt like I was dreaming he said it could be demyelation of the brain. It came back with no obvious cause, plus bloods were good. The funny thing is that the sciatica went as soon as I took the 2 meloxicam tablets, and before that I’d tried other NSAIDS, chiropractor, time off etc etc and nothing worked at all. But unfortunately this brain issue that has popped up feels like 100 times worse than any leg or back pain. I went to work this morning and I was totally fatigued, had to go home and sleep for an hour.
I've had it for about 4 days now, this actually helps alot. I want to know I keep forgetting things will that be permeant or not?
Your very anxious and seeking reassurance and that's understandable because I was like that too. I'm not a mental health professional but based off mine and hundreds of other recovery story's seeking reassurance and constantly questioning will only make it worse. I wont answer your question but just know your mind is making up alot of BS because you are in fight or flight mode
ive had this for 2-3 years, its like my vision is like being in a dream, it has ruined my life, and its caused chronic anxiety where i cant really leave the house, im so afraid, ive forgotten what its like to feel normal and real, im trying to find anxiety meds that work, but i just cant imagine myself not experiencing this everyday, im scared this will be my life forever, ive tried everything and nothing is making it go away, please help me
It seems like you are in a constant state of fear and fight or flight, I can try my best to help you.
DPDR is a response to anxiety, so when you got it for the first time ever you most likely panicked and had even more anxiety because of it
DPDR is porbably constantly on your mind and you are scared that this is what your life has become and i had the same exact symptoms. I thought my life was over and I was living in horror.
What I did was first I would recognize what I had, Understand that you can recover from this awfull thing. Also understand that it cant hurt you at all.
Check out the @dpdrmanual on youtube I found comfort in listening to the recovery storys of others. It gave me so much hope.
Stop googling and looking for answers on the internet. It makes it worse . My recovery started with that. I would not look or even google what I had anymore once I knew what it was. Than anytime I felt DPDR or its awfull symptoms I would immediatly get busy. I would start playing games or solve puzzles to atleast get my mind off it for a few seconds. If you still have it whille doing these tasks Recognize it but continue. Dont let your thoughts roll into more thoughts. Everytime I would get a bad thought such as "this is it and my life is screwed" I would stop there and breath and count to 10 and than move on. Its very hard at first but the thoughts you are get are an anxious thought loop. Those thoughts just keep on firing your mind. Its hard but you have to live your life as if you dont have DPDR. I also feared going outside but I did it anyway no matter how I was feeling jsut to teach my brain that I am okay in these situation.
Lastly I wish I can give you every little detail but there is too much to commment it all. If you have spare money I reccomend purchasing the DP Manual because without it I couldnt have got the info I have now. Im not a proffesional in anyway But this is what helped me recover, Always use youre resources and contact a proffesional and a doctor always , this doesnt substitue proffesional help.
I wish you recovery and God bless
Hey John, I have experienced these symptoms too. Is there an email or some sort of thing platform you and I could discuss this too? just to see if we have the same symptoms.
You can reply here and I can try my best to help
did u ever had headaches from it? i started to have dpdr 5 days ago and it was the most scary experience i’ve ever had in my life. i thought i was going to pass out and my parents did too so they rush me to the hospital at 3am. doctor said im fine but my heart was racing obviously at that time i was scared of the feeling and i didn’t know what was actually wrong w me. anyways. ever since that i haven’t been sleeping good and i’ve been in fight or flight mode just waiting for things to either go back to normal or get worse (i started googling and seeing that i might have brain tumor or brain cancer or brain damage) which made me even more anxious
i’m sorry if this is a lot but i need to know if it’s normal to have really bad headaches and start to think something is seriously wrong w u like i mentioned brain damage etc.. also if i was lucky to get any sleep i would wake up questioning my whole life and eveyrthing around me.. did u feel the same?
@@yasmina88801 I felt similar , I’m not a doctor so I’m not qualified to tell you what your headache is. Regardless of that DPDR is a normal brain response to anxiety. The thing is we got scared and it caused extreme panic and fight or flight . Watch my video and listen to my points on how I recovered. Also check out the @dpmanual on UA-cam for more information. What ur feeling from DpDR is normal and don’t let it eat you up. Your fighting it and it’s making it worse. Don’t use this info as a substitute for PROFFESIONAL help. I’m not a mental or physical health proffesional. But from my experience it is very similar to me so I relate. Break the thought habit and love as if you don’t have dpdr . I can go more into detail if you would like
How long did it take you to recover? I went through this about 3 years ago and it lasted about 4 months. so I should know that it will pass and I will be okay. But my mind will not let me calm down and I feel like it’s never going to end. It feels like I’m going to be stuck like this forever - no matter how much I try to rationalize with myself
It took me like 2-3 months to recover. But having a set time for recovery is counter productive because that forces you to think about it. I was also in you shoes, I couldn’t seem to think that I can calm down but trust me little steps make it possible. And when you do recover you won’t realize it because it fades
I STARTED THIS DPDR THING IN LATE JUNE RANDOMLY I FELT REALLY BAD ANXEITY FROM JUNE 28- MID JULY THEN EVERY SO OFTEN I WOULD GET HIT HARD FROM DEREALIZATION ONLY FOR A COUPLE OF SECONDS NO EVER SENICE JANUARY 3-4 UNTIL NOW I AM GOING REALLY BAD DEREAIZATION
hey I hope you know everything will be okay and yu can and will recover. I can tell this shitty asss condition is freaking you out so just take a step back and calm down. watch my video through and see if anything helps.. I can explain certainn parts if yoyu dont understand
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I started having dpdr after taking venlafaxine anxiety medication I took onetime had a paick attack ND I feel dead like idk if the medication messed up mi brain a scared am failing as a mom I don't wanna do nothing at home
hey you are not failing as a mother! you have to just understand that the panic attack is what caused it! I promise you your brain is not failing because of DPDR and you are okay and will be safe. Here I have some things you can try to do to help yourself. Understand that DPDR is normal and its just your body protecting you. And dont obsess over it whenever you get a thought about DPDR take 10 seconds and get as busy as possible. Break the loop and dont feed it with your anxiety. all the scary thoughts are normal and i had them too.
i had it BAD when i was a young kid
how do you not check if it’s working. i feel like i can’t control my thoughts enough and it only takes a moment for my mind to wonder..
Thats how it was for me at the start. If you check if its working than thats counter intuitive because If it was working than that thought wouldnt come about.You cant dwell on the fact wether these thoughts are there or not , you have to just seem them as something like a bird flying by. Im not a proffesional so make sure to go to a doctor and talk to them about your concerns
I Watch myself the whole day, who am i, what do i See and i feel like im Disconnected to my Brain and to my thougts i get anxiety of Thinking what my Brain is. Its Like my Brain is not me. Am afraid to be alone with my Brain and me.
Is this also dpdr and existensial thoughts?
Yes that sounds like DPDR. MY thoughts would make up stuff like I am not in control and like my brain was damadged. DPDR is scary but it cant hurt you. watch my video and if oyu have any questions let me know
Thank you Bro
Is this similar to anhedonia, no feelings, except fear.
i experienced that too at the moment it was scary but know looking back it feels like distant memeory
What about the trauma...say one has one pressing thought that needs to be addressed..how does one get passed that one
I’m not a mental health proffesional of any sort, there’s plenty of resources though. Possibly a therapist can help. I never experienced trauma so I’m not qualified but I hope you find something that works for you
i felt absolutely numb literally numb 0 emotions ive never felt this way i was crying in bed then infront of my parents i was like wtf im a real wtf i am doing in this body im i dead or smth like i was just feeling that fk i hate that while typing that i am constantly feeling it passes it comes it passes it comes , and ive never felt so meaningless and alone ever like im stuck in this universe in my body n shit like that thats so bad i wanted just to die but what would happen if i die i was scared i am scared a bit now damn i just wanna be normal
listen bro you are in fight or flight mode. you are catastrophizing everything that passes through your mind right now. What you feel is Valid though and what youare going through is real but you have to take the first hard steps to recover. you need to stop all the questions and alll the exestential thoughts. whenebr you get them stop for 10 seconds and gfet busy with anything, a walk gaming or music a book liteerlly anythying. trian your miind to stop obsessing. watch through my video if you have nay questions than go ahead and ask
The fact you were crying proves you have emotions
Dp dr is the souls realization of the truth, thus causing the brain to go into defense mode
No , DPDR is a symptom anxiety. It isn’t some awakening or realization it’s a normal human brain response. I hope all is well with you and yes it is a defense mode. But it’s not due to some awakening or truth. It’s just anxiety
Remember not to self-diagnose guys :)
I hope one day it’d be my turn to say my story
It can and will be if you put your mind to it
@@johnrafacz21 i hope so
Lost the last 8 years of my life to dpdr after a horror trip from weed (and possibly drugged with acid).... and its only getting worse
Profile pic was the last picture of me a few months before it happened when I was 18... 26 now, lost my friends, job, personality, emotions, feeling, pleasure, body feels dead and weak, I feel like a ghost. I feel like I'm not here, like there's an invisible brick wall between me and everything. My mind doesn't stop, its 24/7 ruminating and negative thoughts no matter what I try nothing helps
@@99_Miming I understand how you feel And I was there. Just know that recovery is possible. No matter how bad it seems. DPDR is a symptom of anxiety and a normal brain repsonse. Its not suposed to last like it did for the unfortunate few like me and you. Recognize that its a anxious thought loop. its a habit your experiencing with your thoughts constantly bringign the worst. Dont ignore the thoughts but let them be like a bird in the air. they fly by you look at them and once they are gone you think ntohign of them. That is very hard when you are in a really bad state but I got out and you can too.
1.) understand that DPDR is normal But we just have a horrible case of it
2.) its fueled by anxiety and anxious thoughts
3.) the more piece of mind you give these thougts the more they persist
I would reccomend checking out the DP Manual on youtube. Sean the guy who runs it has created an amazing place with info. If you have the extra money i would reccomend buying the DP manual on his site also because it was very important for me to get through. You can check out the recovery storys he posts and even mine for some hope.
I cant give you all the info in a single youtube comments but Just know you can and will recover if you put your mind too it. Dont fight the anxiety. This shouldnt substitue any proffesional health so its always good to go to a doctor or a mental health proffesional.
I wish you the best recovery and if you have questions I can do my best to answer
Stress from dealing with chronic pain probably caused rhe panic attacks, not the tylenol.
i agree
Did you go back to the gym while you had dpdr?
yes I did, it was a bad Idea though because I messed my back up even more lmaooo.
read the title n my fingers got numb :|
Is it any way I can talk with you more?
What you wanna talk about ??
@@johnrafacz21 a little more DPDR stuff. If it’s ok? If not I respect that
@@Riseandrollinyeah that’s fine why not
@@johnrafacz21 do you have ig or anything?
So I’ve been dealing with with this for some time now and it’s hard to just let go of this and focus on life. It’s like when I try to do regular life things anxiety creeps back in and gives me these anxious feelings like something bad is going to happen.
Do you have isticmatism >-2 ??
why do you ask
@@johnrafacz21 i wonder if condition direct proportion to eye quality that why i collect evidence
@@NikolaiWar listen I can confidently say that iosnt the reson DPDR happens. I dont want to be rude but that study wont help with anything. It is a symptom of anxiety
@@johnrafacz21 buddy listen to me im 27 old skilled in chemistry science and i was learned from an professor skilled in eye condition and effect of emotion on eye and dp-dr its most effective on eye emotion ...look after Dr Ainoha defederico i think that her name
Reddit is probably the worst place to go for mental health advice
Ok I am sure that John has good intentions with this video but much of this information is FALSE.
All the neurological science says that in order to completely heal from trauma (DRPR is just a symptom of trauma) you must do the following
1. Be educated
2. Have somatic interoception
3. Release emotions/energy (anxiety)
4. Self-Regulate
I had DPDR for 4 years and completely recovered by working with a trauma therapist it’s pretty simple but if you do what the guy says in this video all this will do is temporarily suppress the trauma/DPDR and it will eventually return often times worse.
YOU NEED TO TAKE CARE OF THE ROOT CAUSE WHICH IS TRAUMA.
DPDR IS JUST A BAD SYMPTOM of TRAUMA.
No Trauma = No DPDR (All scientific studies back this up).
thats exactly what I said in the video sir. thankfully I didnt have trauma fortunately. I undersatnd your comment and thank you for the feedback.
@@johnrafacz21 See and this is where you are wrong and misinforming people. I know you have good intentions that is very clear but this video is irresponsible.
Depersonalization = Trauma
YOU DID have trauma. Depersonalization is just a symptom of trauma and so is anxiety. I can show you all of the scientific studies that have been backed up to support it. Depersonalization is what happens when the trauma gets so extreme that the body numbs itself. I recovered within a month after seeing a trauma therapist that knew exactly how to heal trauma/DPDR. I talk to people weekly who recover super fast once they know the specific techniques to communicate safety to the nervous system and brain. Please stop spreading misinformation because you are only suppressing trauma and the DPDR will come back possibly even worse. I have a good friend who was symptom free and it came back a couple years later 10 times worse because he didn’t actually take care of the root issue.
You must communicate safety to your brain and body to heal. Doing something like the pelvic floor relaxation or the limp noodle many times throughout each day is how you heal completely not by ignoring the symptoms and trying to use your brain to beat this.