I love how well spoken and level-headed his manager is. It’s so good that he had people outside of his family who he works with that cared for him and truly wanted the best for him as a person over his brand/business. Very empathetic man, makes me have faith in humanity.
Nile and his mates are the one of the greatest examples of positive masculinity out there. It's never 'sissy' or 'girly' to reach out and to have genuine friendships, and this issue could not be more important when it comes to mental health, in any gender. Thank you Nile for being such an amazing influence and having the courage to speak out about such a terrible time in your life.
Lloyd - Niles was giving content he didn't know HE needed. Now that he has done it, "We" can be even more supportive to him as a person, not the champion gymnast but the Niles hiding within.
@@KoroarNot true. I'm sorry if your experience has been different. If people can't hang with a person for sharing their struggles, then that person doesn't need those people in his/her life.
I think this one of the few times someone has talked about suicide and I'm not triggered, thank you for not only sharing but for sharing in such a good manner.
Getting triggered/offended over things is a mental health problem in itself. It is impossible for someone, especially when engaging with a large audience to not say something that could be offensive.
Ive been here since the start and I would never would’ve thought that Nile was in a hard place because his videos had always been so happy,positive,fun and joking around with his friends BUT it just goes to show you can never know what happenes. NILE we all love you you are my idol and I’ve always wanted to do what you do❤️❤️
I sensed a change in his videos. I patched it up to the possibility that "UA-cam success was, unfortunately, going to his head". But I guess it was more that a lot of his positivity was becoming insincere, and was an act covering struggles.
Ugh. When Joanna started crying 😭😭 literally hit me so hard. As a sister all you want is your siblings to be okay and happy. Seeing the person you know and love so much going through something you feel like you can't help with is heartbreaking. I feel this whole documentary.
The part when Joanna first started crying got me crying😭 Massive love and respect for you Nile sharing this story. I don't think any of us really had any idea how bad it got for you. I think this is such an inspirational story for so many and the awareness from talking about this is amazing. I can't imagine what the people around you felt with what you were going through. Just shows that someone's actions can effect the people around them.
@@miriam3848 I just came across this channel and that’s one of the first things I thought after I saw them both, they look so much alike! And I think the sister and mom look alike too. The family is pretty adorable lol
This is so relevant now during the 2020 Tokyo Olympics (July 2021) with Simone Biles withdrawing due to her mental well being. And Naomi Osaka withdrawing from the French Open for the same reason. Thank you.
I was recently medicated for anxiety and depression. I’m having a hard time. I can’t find a therapist so I have this venom behind this medicated veil. My family doesn’t care. I’m so alone. But this made me realize I’m not alone. I thought Nile was the epitome of happy. I stopped watching his videos all the time because I didn’t want to see the happy family success that I didn’t have. Thanks for making this. I feel seen. I am still here. There’s something to be said for that.
Your right, your not alone. We with mental and/or physical health issues find it challenging to connect with others that don't. I sought professional help and luckily found a counsellor that knows my "brand" of illness intimately and gave me the tools to pull myself into the light of understanding me. Peace of mind is precious, I hope you find yours.
I’m here. Never miss my meds. Never again want to plan my death daily. You are here. Never skip yr meds. Never think that way about yourself. You are NOT alone. You, I, and others are connected.
I disliked it becaue the volume was too variable. Music too loud then could barely hear them talking. I just couldn't watch more than 10 minutes even though I wanted to.
Kimberly what video were you watching? I'm deaf in both ears and cannot listen to someone speak and music at the same time. I heard ever word that was said. But hey ho you do you.
Wether it's warranted or not. I'm willing to be that there are plenty of people out there who are going through stuff so vile and difficult that they watch this and thing "This rich good looking kid who's medalled at the olympics got down because of this???" I can see plenty of people disliking a video like this for their own reasons.
As someone who is an athlete, who has experienced the highs and the lows for the injuries and the losses to the podium topping performances and wins, this helps me realise I'm not alone in how I felt and feel. It shows me that despite being in different sports the experiences are the same, and it helps create the discussion that is needed ♥️
"This is how legends are made." It truly is. No legend has come from everything being easy; every journey of growth and success comes with its own unique challenges and obstacles. Thank you for this very personal insight into your life, for sharing your story with the world. It hit deep at some points; I could recognise myself in some of the things you said and I'm sure I'm not alone with that. Thank you, Nile, for being here and being an inspiration to keep on fighting and to seek help when we need it
I'm the same hun, I can see a lot of myself in this, I went from training my whole life with horses and learning from anyone and everyone one to getting to be an Eventer, the high I got from it was like nothing I'd experienced before and then at 20 (17yrs ago) I did to 2disks what Nile did to his and then they started crumbling, except mine is too dangerous to operate on, I just keep hope that one day there will be a safe way to have a 2disk replacement, but I'm so glad Niles could be cos I wouldn't wish this on anyone
Nile, I'm a 48yr old bloke from Wakefield, not too far from you, and apart from the professional gymnast part of your life I can relate to everything you have been through, & I mean everything. Back in the 90's I was a Police officer, a professional & responsible job, one night whilst on duty I had an accident which resulted in a broken back. That was the beginning of the end for me. The years that followed were the darkest years of my life & I was so alone. I remember one night sitting on a bridge with a rope around my neck just wanting all the pain to go away. That was the turning point for me, although I told nobody about what happened that night. To cut a long story short I'm now disabled, live on my own and have nothing to look forward to, but I'm still here and that is a massive plus. Keep your chin up, if you ever need to talk to someone who's been through the same shit then just get in touch. All the best for your future, you have a very bright one.
The connection that is oftentimes missed is biochemical changes from neurotransmitter withdrawal. Elite athletes like Nile are used to a steady stream of neurotransmitters like endorphins and adrenaline from their sport, suffer an injury and suddenly come to full stop. They go through withdrawal from biochemical neurotransmitters, a natural high so to speak, combined with changes in structured routine, then find themselves depressed and anxious. In addition to these biochemical changes, there is a deeper identity question. If I am not a champion, who am I? Takes a lot of courage to talk openly about these issues. Remarkable young man.
He will never be "out of the woods"; but thankfully he realizes the important concerpt of "one day at a time". He even said it himself several times. Best of luck, Nile.
There is such a thing as out of the woods you just have to work to stay out of the woods once you get there not out of the woods may be different for everybody! There is hope even in the midst of mental illness! There was portion of the last 3 years where I was out of the woods because I was making good choices one day at a time but then I forgot and started focusing on the past and the future and I got back into the woods!!! There is hope and as you said it’s one day at a time
Joanna crying really hits home how the family felt. Not only does it affect yourself it affects your loved ones. If your reading this, please get help. Please.
We've all heard "train smart, keep it real" many many times over the years now. It never hit harder or had the profound on my soul like it did at the end of this message. Much Love and Light to all!
My son did not make it. He died by suicide. Hit by a train suicide. On tv, on the internet everyone knew. I was exposed but all alone it’s weird. The internet is weird
I am so so sorry that you lost your son, a suicide survivor myself. I can honestly say that in his heart of hearts he probably thought that by not being here he couldn’t/wouldn’t be a burden on anyone. Everyone Who says.... “suicide is the cowards way out” Has never truly been in the depths of the darkness of your own mind. The times I have attempted weren’t cowardly, have you ever tried to get the courage together to take a couple of boxes of pills. It takes a lot of guts to go through with it. I’m sure your son battled in his head for weeks before committing suicide. Most people who are suicidal aren’t scared about their own death, they are scared that they will leave behind distraught loved ones who’s lives will never be the same again but at the same time they have that other ‘voice’ in there head saying “just do it, you’re a burden and a waste of Space anyway, they are all embarrassed by me” With thoughts ranging from can I do this, will I be successful, if I’m not successful will I wake up with life changing injuries etc. (These are generic thoughts not that of your son). My good friend passed away on January 1st WHILST IN A PSYCH WARD ON A 1-1. Meaning a staff member had to see and hear her at all times. I’ve had staff who fall asleep on my 1-1, or sat on there mobile phones whilst they are supposed to be watching me. I literally have so many pics of stuff sleeping. Disgusting! She was mid-late twenties.. Then in April another young friend a girl 22 years young, took her own life at home, she suffered from anorexia/borderline personality disorder and OCD. IT NEEDS TO STOP ✋🏼 🛑💛 THERE HAS TO BE MORE SUPPORTS IN PLACE. I know it’s in the middle of a Global Pandemic but MENTAL ILLNESS NEVER GOT THAT MEMO 📝 MENTAL ILLNESS doesn’t just disappear because the world is on lockdown, MENTAL ILLNESS doesn’t take a break for birthdays, Xmas, Holidays, I hope that you and your family are getting grief counselling or have a Therapist you can offload to. You can even do online therapy which I have found much less stressful as I’m wheelchair/bed bound so getting to appointments is a massive upheaval as I need to take my *tube feeds*, *feed pump*, *Portable Oxygen Machine*, *Non Invasive Ventilator*, *Epilepsy* Rescue Meds*, *EpiPen*, *Dexcom* (blood sugar monitor, which is a sensor that is injected into the subcutaneous tissue just under the skin giving me my blood glucose readings 24/7, *HypoKit* (pure glucose injection that you have to draw up and inject which is for my rapid and severe low blood sugar which can drop as low as 1.1mmol/l causing seizures, coma and death As you can see, it’s a task and a half. I’m basically a wheeling/wheelchair Hospital and Pharmacy 😂 lol So yeah if you prefer the comfort of your own home. Or you want to get a feel for what it would involve some places offer a first time session free of charge. Again I’m so sorry for everything you guys been through. My heart ❤️truly hurts for you guys. Sending Prayers From Glasgow, Scotland. IG @gillys_journey83
This was a great representation on how dangerous and sneaky depression is. Someone like you that seems so happy and upbeat was just mentally struggling. Thanks for putting this out in the world. I often talk about my struggles with mental health (even though it makes people uncomfortable) hoping that they’ll learn something about themselves or be able to recognize signs in others. Very nicely done. Best of luck to you.
This has made me realise that I need to open up to people and tell them what I’m really feeling. Someone can ask you if your ok and your always answer I’m fine when your not. Thank you Nile you are truly inspiring
Nile’s tagline is “Train Smart Keep it Real.” He kept it real in this documentary. I am sharing this on my social media for families to watch, especially those with athletes or anyone struggling with finding success. Thank you Nile!
Just makes you realise, even those who seem happiest can struggle 😢 Everyone is always fighting a battle that nobody knows about 🙏 Amazing message, we all love and support you ❤ your an absolute inspiration mate 👌🏼
I remember in one of his vlogs he said somebody asked him how is he happy all the time and he said he isn't he's a human being just like everyone else, I watched that clip a few times and I could see the pain and uncertainty behind his eyes and his speech the way he sounded, I knew then that something was coming. He's very lucky to have good people around him, and he is a very strong person to come back from such a low place
As an athlete going through injury rehab these past few months, watching you talk about everything has really helped me understand what I've been feeling. It's so hard staying mentally tough and I just wanted to say thank you for being so open about everything.
I cried when Nile wanted to take his life. I never thought Nile would want to or even think of that😭 I’m so glad that everyone around supported him because if he did I would not be the same person❤️❤️I have meet him and he is lovely❤️❤️I love you Nile so so much❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️this really helped me❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Nile you are an Insperation to so Many! I just started to watch you 6 months Ago! I was in gymnastics loved it but you Do Get hurt! It can be a Dangerous! I laugh so much watching your show !I Been Where You Are the Happy Go Lucky PERSON ! But I suffered Severe Depression My Whole Life!MY MOM DIED WHEN I WAS 7 RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME !Asthma attack in 1971 my Dad couldn't take care of us Foster Care! He Died 5 years later from a Broken Heart! I've gone to Counseling and they Asked How long have you been Dealing with Depression I said Problably my whole life! Depression was not a word in 1971!How could I understand that ! I'm 56 yrs old going Though this! Xx Just want to Tell Niles he is a Good influence Maybe one day you can Councel Athelets like you!
Just because i seem happy dosen't mean i am Just because i smile dosen't mean i don't cry Just because i am a adult dosen't mean i can't have feelings Just because i say everything is alright i still need some one to tell me it is. Mental Health is real and we need to be there for those people.❤
Nile is such an inspiration. Everyone has struggles one way or another. I always say you are as strong as your support system and a huge part of that is your family and friends and other people around you that are there for you. I am so glad that Nile has an amazing support system. I am so proud of Nile and his family and friends and I hope he achieves everything he wants and finds his true happiness.
aw man. I know your never gonna read this, and my opinion doesn't really matter, but I'm so proud of you. to actually share this is so brave and I think we appreciate it more that you could know.
Two of my friends took their own life, this was the first time I ever experienced death or this type of sadness. It broke me. It felt like the light that was my life had gone out. I thought about it all day, every day. One night I woke up at 3:20am and I thought, this is where it ends and this is where I do it. I felt like nobody could understand what I was going through, it was torture. It’s only been two months since then, I am still working on seeking positivity and lighting back that light. For anyone reading this and is in that dark place, please know that there are people who love you and care for you. I know it seems like everything is against you but I promise this is not the end it will get better x
Me and my wife watched this as a big bearded builder I can say I cried. You have done well mate keep it up takes a bigger man to admit something going wrong than it does to carry on. True inspiration
I have struggled with anxiety especially through sport and I also have a masters degree in mental health. I used to think that because I knew about mental health , I should not be suffering from mental illness but this is not the case. Nile is a great person and I truely believe that he will do great things whether that be in sport or just in life in general. Thank you for using your platform to spread such an important message.
I know exactly what you mean. I’m a former psychiatric nurse who has had hospital admission with depression and I couldn’t shake the idea that I should be able to just shake the feelings off
This has to be the biggest misconception people don't talk enough about. I had a difficult childhood. And i've always though that once i learned enough about why it still affects me. I could easily figure out how to stop the feelings. Well i've learned quite a lot. But It does not work that way... depression and anxiety becomes physical. And it takes very difficult work to make progress.
Yes! I had postpartum psychosis, PPD, PPA based rage, and birth trauma PTSD. I basically treated myself. This kept me and my baby alive but it wasn’t until I got a therapist that I started to actually heal. EMDR mixed with cognitive behavioral therapy (which I was already using on myself), plus finally letting God lead healed me. Having a background in counseling psychology plus birth trauma PTSD, I was terrified of medical professionals trying to prescribe something or taking my baby away. Thankfully, I found a counselor that specializes in birth, she ended up being my birth doula for my second birth, and she is natural minded and understood how pharmaceuticals have repeatedly negatively impacted me, including during both births and was basically found to be the reason for my psychosis. Trying to survive under my own knowledge and strength was one of the hardest things I did, but it was harder admitting the truth to someone else.
From one who knows personally what you’re been through first hand Nile, we stand united and warrior on. I’ve been in a very very dark and extreme lonely place for about six months. Depression and anxiety has plagued me my whole life. And when I can’t handle anymore and want out, at the very core of my being, I know my mind is just overcrowded with thoughts and the chemical imbalance is raging out of control, I know I have to take action by either going to my safe place, or reaching out to my counselors, or even calling trusted love ones and I talk it through and cry and sometime scream and then I can rest and warrior on for another day. Mental illness is so very crippling, but with faith and family and friends we can get through it and forge on. Thank you Wilson Family and Friends for this. God bless you all.
I would like your comment 1000 times if I could, I too suffer with very bad mental health issues, and I know that I need to speak to my mental health nurses more, especially about how I deal with grief but I usually hide my deepest, darkest thoughts in a vault at the very back of my brain.
I remember when I was living with depression. I was in a pub with my best friends and I felt like there was a glass wall between us. Everything sounded like it was underwater. It took years to fully recover and it’s always an Achilles’ Heel
An average man couldn't do half of what Nile does in his day. There are plenty of gymnasts that suffer from depression, they are under so much stress to work hard every day, compete at the highest level and have such high expectations for their lives. Then add you tube responsibilities and media exposure, Nile had to be super human just to be who he is as such a young age. Add injury to the upset, no mere mortal could handle this. He is so brave to share the valleys as well as the mountains. The one thing you touch on is when you have surgery and your put under the anesthesia it can drastically change one's mental perspective. Just plain pain can unravel most people. The anesthesia drugs have many side effects that don't show up right away. It's such a struggle to come back to normal after the scar is healed getting one's head right takes time. Nile we are so proud of who you are and the road you have traveled. Gods Speed, Mate!
Thankyou soo much for making a film like this, everyone at some point will suffer with their own mental demons, I have my own I am constantly battling with, you have been through soo much, just remember you are super strong, not just physically, but mentally aswell
I watched the documentary with Michael Phelps and several other Olympians discussing the depression after the Olympics. It's so good to see this topic is being talked about more openly so people know they aren't alone. ❤
I saw a lot of documentaries but none of them were inspiring. BUT! In this video, the message conveyed is very powerful! Making everyone motivated by this documentary. This is a very clear and very uplifting video to me and the people watching it. Thank you for being an example to the public and motivating us. Thanks for making this documentary
I started watching Nile in 2017, after I was hit by a car and lost my leg. His energy and videos motivated me to get my fitness back and my strength back. I feel sad that he’s had to experience all of that, hopefully getting through it builds him back into the new version of himself, like becoming disabled did to me.
I have so much compassion for Joanna! The sufferings of the people in front of someone who is also suffering is always real. Talking to others people about it help too, then it's like a waterfall which goes far away and always smaller. Together you are a great family and friends !!❤❤🏆
This is truly amazing Nile. Being someone who is on their own journey back from depression, suicide attempts, and addiction this made me cry but also feel so honored that someone so famous who has been an inspiration to me in so many ways on my journey, someone who got me through cancer treatments with his energy, also went through some of the pains I have....it is touching. Amazing. The most inspirational thing I have ever seen him make. We are not alone. You are not alone Nile. Truly, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for being this vulnerable. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for being you. The world needs you. All of you. The ups, the downs, the good, the difficult. Share it all because you are amazing and truly my hero.
I was scared to watch this, but so glad (a box of tissues later) that I did. So well produced- honest & real, without being maudlin or melodramatic to distract from the content. Thank you. I am sure all of us (your million subscribers) are rooting for you and your day-to-day successes!
It's always the outgoing gregarious ones whose struggle w/mental health and/or addiction that catch you by surprise. It's not just the loners or unpopular ones that suffer.
Honestly this touched me emotionally soo much. I had depression before one and a half year and you were relief. I have smiled only when i was watching your channel. Also friends left me bcs of that, you and luke were my friends and it hurt so much to know that you struggled with that as well and you were be able to act like it is normal. I love you my friend.
really strong message. so proud of nile's journey. hope this is such an inspiration to everyone, please just treat people with kindness and think of others mental health. ❤️
"Happiness was the journey to happiness". Wow. Like thank you Nile. I have depression and no one really knows and I am really struggling with it and thank you. I had trouble getting through this because of how much I see myself in this. Thank you.
I was diagnosed with depression last year as well, i didnt know what was wrong, i thought i was sick, couldn't stay awake, constantly felt nauseous driving to work, had a sore head, couldn't focus or concentrate, every time i laughed the back of my head hurt as if my body was telling me i wasn't allowed to. got blood tests came back clear and my doctor said i have depression and thats when it hit me, when everything made sense. i used to always tell myself for years im not suicidal, i dont have depression, but i do have anxiety and i have had that for years and my medication wasn't working anymore, but i got a counselor and i learnt CBT, how to meditate, and care more about myself, then i joined a cross-fit gym! best thing i ever did! i feel so much better and i talk to everyone about how im feeling, i tell everyone about my depression, im not seeking attention im making others aware its ok to talk. So hats off to you Nile for taking that step calling a friend to talk and raising awareness with this documentary, nobody is perfect, we're not alone in this battle but we can control it and the first step is to tell someone, and when you do the weight you are carrying lifts. I hope a lot of people get to see this film and are able to see that they don't have to struggle in silence.
Nile, you are an amazing young man (now I know I am getting old when I am calling a 24 year old 'young man'!!!) and always remember one thing which it took me so long to learn; your value as an individual is not tied to your successes or your failures, every single person is priceless no matter what they have achieved or not achieved in life. Good luck in Tokyo 2020 (I think it's weird that they call it 2020 but it's going to be in 2021)
Never known what it’s like to win an Olympic gold medal, but you aren’t alone with your struggle, brother. Having personally experienced that struggle with addition and pain, your story really spoke to me. It takes guts not only to right your course, but to be able to share your experience with the world. I’ve always loved watching your channel, and now I have an even deeper respect for you and those who helped you. You keep on being Nile Wilson and you’ll change the world one day, I truly believe that. Train smart, keep it real, brother. 👍🏼
"tough times never last, tough people do." an inspiration for everybody! and so happy you finally getting out of it Nile! I love this cause it literally explain what people who suffer depression (like I did) feel. Nailed everything and can't agree more with everything you said.
I hate this saying. Having suffered with depression off and on for many many years, this saying is trite and loved by those who don’t have depression. When you are in the utter depths of this disease, you just want either disappear even more or punch the person in the face who says this. So freaking preachy and nonsensical.
This was one of the best documentaries I have watched in my entire life, it has been very very helpful and inspiring. THANK YOU SOO SOO MUCH FOR SHARING THIS WITH US
I’ve never thought of myself as an emotional person, but I cried so much through this but smiled at the end. Hate that someone so happy could go through this. I’ve got so much love for this entire family. So much love ❤️
OMG 😮 this was so chilling and powerful! Thank you for showing us your journey you have really had an impact in my life Nile! Keep enjoying life and surrounding yourself with the people who mean the most to you and most importantly be happy 😃 x
Thank you.... I know everyone who spent an hour of their time watching this area certainly feeling a lot better.... Hope you are too 🙏🏽 Keep doing what you are doing Love everything you do 😊
What made me first subscribe to the channel was because I saw a group of friends putting lots of effort into generating genuine contents and having some fun at the same time. I was laughing right along with you guys in the vlogs It was after I delved deeper into the channel that I realise the athlete identity part of Nile. So just wanted to let you know: It was YOU that made us laugh and sometimes cry like this video (ok Joanna crying contributed as well 🥲), it was YOU that made us want to subscribe and watch on. Or maybe the ballet tutu that done us in 😂 You are so much more than just your athletic achievements (btw its darn good) You are so much more than just the medals. All the best! I’m sure your parents, Joanna, Ashley, Luke, Ellis they’ve all got your back ❤️
53:48 Communication is such great advice. There is a global toxic mentality of men needing to be “in control” of their emotions and never show vulnerability. There is nothing weak about being vulnerable and allowing yourself to talk about your depression. Y’all are lucky to have each other.
Lost too many to depression in my short life... This documentary is exactly what the world needs to bring light on the shadows that are within us all ❤️
im crying so damn much, i cant imagine how you must have felt, you are a true legend and inspiration. i am so grateful you have shared your story as i know it will help and inspire people much, thankyou 💙🙏
I went through a very rough patch after I got out of the military. I was a door gunner and getting to fly around at high speeds and going to Iraq twice and Afghanistan keeping the guys on the ground alive was addictive. And when I got out I tried to live on the edge and drive my car at 100 all the time and got stuck in a cycle of doing drugs. I was so lost when I got out I missed being in and I missed protecting the guys on the ground. I even tried to end it. I was so lost. I know exactly what it’s like to feel alone in a room full of people. When I finally hit bottom I’m so glad I asked for help and was open to getting help. You’re amazing Nile keep it up
I have dealt with PTSD and anxiety for many many years. I tried dealing with it with drinking for a while but I stopped and I actually no longer drink. I will talk about my challenges with anyone who doesn't understand. I will explain it to help educate them. My son knows the struggles I have been through and still continue to go through. I have my support and I meditate daily to help with the anxiety. Keep your head up and don't ever be afraid to ask for help or talk with your support system (i.e. family, friend, therapist...)
Ive been in a pretty similar situation for years now, addicted to gaming and when that got boring, gambling, alcohol.. But your videos Nile, they always helped me, cheered me up with joy and motivation to do stuff. sad to see you go down this path, hope you get better soon!
When you come from a great background and you reach a new emotional peak after achieving something great, you assign that peak to your achievement. So you go after more achievements to get those peaks back. This performance related type of peak is so attractive, because you can control it yourself. Your family and friends might have a bad day or get into a fight with you. Your performance won't, because it's just you. However, as soon as you solely focus on performance and seclude yourself from your loved ones you're going downhill. You need your loved ones. They give you the strength to achieve true greatness without damning yourself to go through hell in the process.
Did anyone else cry and relate to the mental Health side of his journey , horrible that others go through it , but amazing that you're never alone : to anyone struggling , keep your head up high xxxx You can do this ! ♥️♥️♥️
This is really incredible, this is how depression happens. We struggle, we over compensate, we party like we're happier than ever, and then we crash, crash and burn, and feel like we're absolutely drowning. And nobody knows that's what we're feeling. I'm so glad you've come around and are talking about it. I hope you never go back to that place. I know I fear ever going back to my darkest time. But that's what keeps us strong and reminds us where we were and that we must keep fighting the good fight! Much love for you and your family!
Nile this video is so inspirational, i have been watching you for 2-3 years and you inspired me back in 2018 to go to gym and you still inspire me.This video was amazing!
I had no idea what you were going through but I am so proud of you for overcoming it and getting back to been the happy Nile we all know❤ It does show that you just need to talk and it will be OK💙
Trained as a Ballerina my whole life. Whilst preparing for joining the Royal Ballet the following year I developed 3 injuries within a week. I had no outlet for my obsessiveness, I fell into manic depressiona with severe anxiety, developed insomnia, anorexia and compulsive behaviours. I didn't realise the sport I loved was slowly killing me. I'd dance pointe on at least 2 broken toes daily, train 3 hours before school and 6 hours afterwards and 12 hours a day Saturday and Sunday. My therapist banned me from sport for 6 months to which I no longer could pursue professionally. Thank you for sharing Nile it is bloody helpful to know that I'm not the only athlete to have felt like this. I can't describe the strength you have had in sharing your stor and the strength in all who gave their account of it. Thank you so much.
Such a honest film. Thank you for sharing your story. So brave of everyone to share those emotions. I'm new to You Tube, hence I've only just found this video. I'm a parent and grandmother and I really admire the honesty and bravery shown by everyone in the video. Nile I wish you happiness for the future.
I'm bawling my eyes out. I'm so proud that you opened up and so proud of what you have achieved. I'm also reading your book and it also made me cryy. Love you
I've been through something very similar at a very young age and I let it get very bad. I was in a spiral of negativity for years. I didn't talk to anyone because I thought I could get out of it by myself. Talking is really important, it's a total game changer. I'm so grateful that people with big platforms like you are bringing light to these matters and opening the eyes or many people, letting them know that it's okay to feel the way they feel sometimes. Thank you very much for this Nile. Wish it could get onto Netflix for a bigger crowd to see it and become aware.
Athletes are so prone to mental health struggles, having strong network of supports is so important. They whole identity is wrapped around them being an athlete. Good for him to get the help and everyone for supporting him.
Thank you for your honesty Nile. Having suffered with depression from my teens without realising it for what it is, and coming from a family who do not believe such a thing exists, it is heartening to see a young man speak about depression so openly, and making people aware not only that you have to be ready to ask for help but there are no quick fixes. The main mistake that people make about depression is that it can be cured! There is no cure just management. I hope and pray that with help you will learn how to manage your depression so that you are able to work towards your goals in a stronger frame of mind. Love and Blessings 💙
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I love how well spoken and level-headed his manager is. It’s so good that he had people outside of his family who he works with that cared for him and truly wanted the best for him as a person over his brand/business. Very empathetic man, makes me have faith in humanity.
Yes, Nile was very lucky to have him as a manager.
I’ve heard so many cases about athletes/stars being taken advantage of by their agents or managers, I’m so glad to see Nile’s actually cares about him
Nile Wilson was busy asking everyone if they're alright, nobody was there to ask him. You alright?
True that's how I'm am. Always asking everyone if there ok.
Did you even watch it Ariel? Before you can help.. You have to be able to understand what is happening. They all say it..All though the filming.
This
Lots of people were there for him. He just saw them as 'fans' .. not 'real people'.
I thought the same thing.
Nile and his mates are the one of the greatest examples of positive masculinity out there. It's never 'sissy' or 'girly' to reach out and to have genuine friendships, and this issue could not be more important when it comes to mental health, in any gender. Thank you Nile for being such an amazing influence and having the courage to speak out about such a terrible time in your life.
here’s nile giving us content we didn’t even know we needed.
Lloyd - Niles was giving content he didn't know HE needed. Now that he has done it, "We" can be even more supportive to him as a person, not the champion gymnast but the Niles hiding within.
I had no idea he existed but am glad I found him. Really cool story to follow.
❤😂❤😂😂❤😂😂❤
110% here for men being open about mental helth issues! It is so challenging, and your honesty is appreciated more than you will ever know💕
Thank you for standing up for everyone
Yes yes yes
Only if they're rich and successful already.
@@KoroarNot true. I'm sorry if your experience has been different. If people can't hang with a person for sharing their struggles, then that person doesn't need those people in his/her life.
Beautiful documentary. I can't be the only one who cried watching this
You were not
i think you're not
No I cried xx
I cried!! You are not alone!
I cried too!! It’s okay :) x
I think this one of the few times someone has talked about suicide and I'm not triggered, thank you for not only sharing but for sharing in such a good manner.
Getting triggered/offended over things is a mental health problem in itself. It is impossible for someone, especially when engaging with a large audience to not say something that could be offensive.
@@buffybuff992 I'm not offended, I was referencing my own mental illnesses.
Ive been here since the start and I would never would’ve thought that Nile was in a hard place because his videos had always been so happy,positive,fun and joking around with his friends BUT it just goes to show you can never know what happenes. NILE we all love you you are my idol and I’ve always wanted to do what you do❤️❤️
I sensed a change in his videos. I patched it up to the possibility that "UA-cam success was, unfortunately, going to his head". But I guess it was more that a lot of his positivity was becoming insincere, and was an act covering struggles.
Right, this video blew my mind. Especially when Joanna spoke.
He is my too
Ugh. When Joanna started crying 😭😭 literally hit me so hard. As a sister all you want is your siblings to be okay and happy. Seeing the person you know and love so much going through something you feel like you can't help with is heartbreaking. I feel this whole documentary.
Who else is really impressed by his manager?
Priceless to have someone like him!! 🙏❤️
He's a very impressive man indeed.
One of the rare managers that actually cares, a lot of top celebrity managers will just ignore all these warning signs until it's too late
manager or handler?
Awesome guy.
The part when Joanna first started crying got me crying😭
Massive love and respect for you Nile sharing this story. I don't think any of us really had any idea how bad it got for you. I think this is such an inspirational story for so many and the awareness from talking about this is amazing. I can't imagine what the people around you felt with what you were going through. Just shows that someone's actions can effect the people around them.
I was crying to 😢
His dad explains the way he feels so clearly its really impressive you really understand how he feels
His dad is handsome.
@@Girrrrrrrrrrrrrl66 of course he is! He looks like older Nile!
@@miriam3848 I just came across this channel and that’s one of the first things I thought after I saw them both, they look so much alike! And I think the sister and mom look alike too. The family is pretty adorable lol
They all seem to have grown from this pain. Unfortunately growth often comes from struggles. Best to everyone
This is so relevant now during the 2020 Tokyo Olympics (July 2021) with Simone Biles withdrawing due to her mental well being. And Naomi Osaka withdrawing from the French Open for the same reason. Thank you.
I was recently medicated for anxiety and depression. I’m having a hard time. I can’t find a therapist so I have this venom behind this medicated veil. My family doesn’t care. I’m so alone. But this made me realize I’m not alone. I thought Nile was the epitome of happy. I stopped watching his videos all the time because I didn’t want to see the happy family success that I didn’t have. Thanks for making this. I feel seen. I am still here. There’s something to be said for that.
Praying for you ❤
Your right, your not alone. We with mental and/or physical health issues find it challenging to connect with others that don't. I sought professional help and luckily found a counsellor that knows my "brand" of illness intimately and gave me the tools to pull myself into the light of understanding me. Peace of mind is precious, I hope you find yours.
I'm like you, taking it one minute,hour or day at a time
If you need someone to talk to iv'e been there and gotten better im here to help and be a friend xoxo
I’m here. Never miss my meds. Never again want to plan my death daily. You are here. Never skip yr meds. Never think that way about yourself. You are NOT alone. You, I, and others are connected.
How have 68 People disliked this video. Some people just can’t respect how hard it is to put this out to the world
I disliked it becaue the volume was too variable. Music too loud then could barely hear them talking. I just couldn't watch more than 10 minutes even though I wanted to.
Kimberly - Wow. What a petty thing to dislike a message like this for. Whatever.
Kimberly what video were you watching? I'm deaf in both ears and cannot listen to someone speak and music at the same time. I heard ever word that was said. But hey ho you do you.
Idiots
Wether it's warranted or not. I'm willing to be that there are plenty of people out there who are going through stuff so vile and difficult that they watch this and thing "This rich good looking kid who's medalled at the olympics got down because of this???" I can see plenty of people disliking a video like this for their own reasons.
As someone who is an athlete, who has experienced the highs and the lows for the injuries and the losses to the podium topping performances and wins, this helps me realise I'm not alone in how I felt and feel. It shows me that despite being in different sports the experiences are the same, and it helps create the discussion that is needed ♥️
"This is how legends are made."
It truly is. No legend has come from everything being easy; every journey of growth and success comes with its own unique challenges and obstacles.
Thank you for this very personal insight into your life, for sharing your story with the world.
It hit deep at some points; I could recognise myself in some of the things you said and I'm sure I'm not alone with that.
Thank you, Nile, for being here and being an inspiration to keep on fighting and to seek help when we need it
I'm the same hun, I can see a lot of myself in this, I went from training my whole life with horses and learning from anyone and everyone one to getting to be an Eventer, the high I got from it was like nothing I'd experienced before and then at 20 (17yrs ago) I did to 2disks what Nile did to his and then they started crumbling, except mine is too dangerous to operate on, I just keep hope that one day there will be a safe way to have a 2disk replacement, but I'm so glad Niles could be cos I wouldn't wish this on anyone
Nile, I'm a 48yr old bloke from Wakefield, not too far from you, and apart from the professional gymnast part of your life I can relate to everything you have been through, & I mean everything.
Back in the 90's I was a Police officer, a professional & responsible job, one night whilst on duty I had an accident which resulted in a broken back. That was the beginning of the end for me.
The years that followed were the darkest years of my life & I was so alone. I remember one night sitting on a bridge with a rope around my neck just wanting all the pain to go away. That was the turning point for me, although I told nobody about what happened that night.
To cut a long story short I'm now disabled, live on my own and have nothing to look forward to, but I'm still here and that is a massive plus.
Keep your chin up, if you ever need to talk to someone who's been through the same shit then just get in touch.
All the best for your future, you have a very bright one.
Ik its been 2 years, but i hope u re doing better sir, greetings from Greece
You are super hope you have no idea sir ….from India
The connection that is oftentimes missed is biochemical changes from neurotransmitter withdrawal. Elite athletes like Nile are used to a steady stream of neurotransmitters like endorphins and adrenaline from their sport, suffer an injury and suddenly come to full stop. They go through withdrawal from biochemical neurotransmitters, a natural high so to speak, combined with changes in structured routine, then find themselves depressed and anxious. In addition to these biochemical changes, there is a deeper identity question. If I am not a champion, who am I? Takes a lot of courage to talk openly about these issues. Remarkable young man.
He will never be "out of the woods"; but thankfully he realizes the important concerpt of "one day at a time". He even said it himself several times. Best of luck, Nile.
There is such a thing as out of the woods you just have to work to stay out of the woods once you get there not out of the woods may be different for everybody! There is hope even in the midst of mental illness! There was portion of the last 3 years where I was out of the woods because I was making good choices one day at a time but then I forgot and started focusing on the past and the future and I got back into the woods!!! There is hope and as you said it’s one day at a time
Joanna crying really hits home how the family felt. Not only does it affect yourself it affects your loved ones. If your reading this, please get help. Please.
We've all heard "train smart, keep it real" many many times over the years now. It never hit harder or had the profound on my soul like it did at the end of this message. Much Love and Light to all!
My son did not make it. He died by suicide. Hit by a train suicide. On tv, on the internet everyone knew. I was exposed but all alone it’s weird. The internet is weird
R.i.p. sorry for your loss
I know that feeling my really good friend killed himself and then his mum took her life after. I’m proud your still here ❤️
Sorry for your loss x
Suicide is a terrible shock, take care of yourself. God bless you in your time of need. 🤗
I am so so sorry that you lost your son, a suicide survivor myself. I can honestly say that in his heart of hearts he probably thought that by not being here he couldn’t/wouldn’t be a burden on anyone.
Everyone Who says....
“suicide is the cowards way out”
Has never truly been in the depths of the darkness of your own mind.
The times I have attempted weren’t cowardly, have you ever tried to get the courage together to take a couple of boxes of pills. It takes a lot of guts to go through with it.
I’m sure your son battled in his head for weeks before committing suicide.
Most people who are suicidal aren’t scared about their own death, they are scared that they will leave behind distraught loved ones who’s lives will never be the same again but at the same time they have that other ‘voice’ in there head saying “just do it, you’re a burden and a waste of Space anyway, they are all embarrassed by me” With thoughts ranging from can I do this, will I be successful, if I’m not successful will I wake up with life changing injuries etc. (These are generic thoughts not that of your son).
My good friend passed away on January 1st WHILST IN A PSYCH WARD ON A 1-1. Meaning a staff member had to see and hear her at all times. I’ve had staff who fall asleep on my 1-1, or sat on there mobile phones whilst they are supposed to be watching me. I literally have so many pics of stuff sleeping. Disgusting! She was mid-late twenties..
Then in April another young friend a girl 22 years young, took her own life at home, she suffered from anorexia/borderline personality disorder and OCD.
IT NEEDS TO STOP ✋🏼 🛑💛 THERE HAS TO BE MORE SUPPORTS IN PLACE.
I know it’s in the middle of a Global Pandemic but MENTAL ILLNESS NEVER GOT THAT MEMO 📝 MENTAL ILLNESS doesn’t just disappear because the world is on lockdown, MENTAL ILLNESS doesn’t take a break for birthdays, Xmas, Holidays,
I hope that you and your family are getting grief counselling or have a Therapist you can offload to.
You can even do online therapy which I have found much less stressful as I’m wheelchair/bed bound so getting to appointments is a massive upheaval as I need to take my *tube feeds*, *feed pump*, *Portable Oxygen Machine*, *Non Invasive Ventilator*, *Epilepsy* Rescue Meds*, *EpiPen*, *Dexcom* (blood sugar monitor, which is a sensor that is injected into the subcutaneous tissue just under the skin giving me my blood glucose readings 24/7, *HypoKit* (pure glucose injection that you have to draw up and inject which is for my rapid and severe low blood sugar which can drop as low as 1.1mmol/l causing seizures, coma and death
As you can see, it’s a task and a half.
I’m basically a wheeling/wheelchair Hospital and Pharmacy 😂 lol
So yeah if you prefer the comfort of your own home. Or you want to get a feel for what it would involve some places offer a first time session free of charge.
Again I’m so sorry for everything you guys been through.
My heart ❤️truly hurts for you guys.
Sending Prayers
From Glasgow, Scotland.
IG @gillys_journey83
This was a great representation on how dangerous and sneaky depression is. Someone like you that seems so happy and upbeat was just mentally struggling. Thanks for putting this out in the world. I often talk about my struggles with mental health (even though it makes people uncomfortable) hoping that they’ll learn something about themselves or be able to recognize signs in others. Very nicely done. Best of luck to you.
It wasn’t breakdown Nile... it was a breakthrough 💪🏼
This has made me realise that I need to open up to people and tell them what I’m really feeling. Someone can ask you if your ok and your always answer I’m fine when your not. Thank you Nile you are truly inspiring
Nile’s tagline is “Train Smart Keep it Real.” He kept it real in this documentary. I am sharing this on my social media for families to watch, especially those with athletes or anyone struggling with finding success. Thank you Nile!
Just makes you realise, even those who seem happiest can struggle 😢
Everyone is always fighting a battle that nobody knows about 🙏
Amazing message, we all love and support you ❤ your an absolute inspiration mate 👌🏼
Just shows fame and money doesn't equal happiness.
The hardest of times are when we force our biggest smiles.
I remember in one of his vlogs he said somebody asked him how is he happy all the time and he said he isn't he's a human being just like everyone else, I watched that clip a few times and I could see the pain and uncertainty behind his eyes and his speech the way he sounded, I knew then that something was coming. He's very lucky to have good people around him, and he is a very strong person to come back from such a low place
As an athlete going through injury rehab these past few months, watching you talk about everything has really helped me understand what I've been feeling. It's so hard staying mentally tough and I just wanted to say thank you for being so open about everything.
Seeing one of my lifelong biggest role models struggle like this, absolutely heartbreaking but also so powerful and inspiring...
I cried when Nile wanted to take his life. I never thought Nile would want to or even think of that😭 I’m so glad that everyone around supported him because if he did I would not be the same person❤️❤️I have meet him and he is lovely❤️❤️I love you Nile so so much❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️this really helped me❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Nile you are an Insperation to so Many! I just started to watch you 6 months Ago! I was in gymnastics loved it but you Do Get hurt! It can be a Dangerous! I laugh so much watching your show !I Been Where You Are the Happy Go Lucky PERSON ! But I suffered Severe Depression My Whole Life!MY MOM DIED WHEN I WAS 7 RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME !Asthma attack in 1971 my Dad couldn't take care of us Foster Care! He Died 5 years later from a Broken Heart! I've gone to Counseling and they Asked How long have you been Dealing with Depression I said Problably my whole life! Depression was not a word in 1971!How could I understand that ! I'm 56 yrs old going Though this! Xx Just want to Tell Niles he is a Good influence Maybe one day you can Councel Athelets like you!
Just because i seem happy dosen't mean i am
Just because i smile dosen't mean i don't cry
Just because i am a adult dosen't mean i can't have feelings
Just because i say everything is alright i still need some one to tell me it is.
Mental Health is real and we need to be there for those people.❤
Nile is such an inspiration. Everyone has struggles one way or another. I always say you are as strong as your support system and a huge part of that is your family and friends and other people around you that are there for you. I am so glad that Nile has an amazing support system. I am so proud of Nile and his family and friends and I hope he achieves everything he wants and finds his true happiness.
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aw man. I know your never gonna read this, and my opinion doesn't really matter, but I'm so proud of you. to actually share this is so brave and I think we appreciate it more that you could know.
Two of my friends took their own life, this was the first time I ever experienced death or this type of sadness. It broke me. It felt like the light that was my life had gone out. I thought about it all day, every day. One night I woke up at 3:20am and I thought, this is where it ends and this is where I do it. I felt like nobody could understand what I was going through, it was torture. It’s only been two months since then, I am still working on seeking positivity and lighting back that light. For anyone reading this and is in that dark place, please know that there are people who love you and care for you. I know it seems like everything is against you but I promise this is not the end it will get better x
things will get better!! Don't try to simply forget but own what happened to you, and you will come out of the tunnel stronger than before
simone madaschi thank you 💕
YES! The main thing to remember is that however dark things get,
IT IS BOUND TO CHANGE!
DM me on insta if you ever need a chat ❤️
Me and my wife watched this as a big bearded builder I can say I cried. You have done well mate keep it up takes a bigger man to admit something going wrong than it does to carry on. True inspiration
I have struggled with anxiety especially through sport and I also have a masters degree in mental health. I used to think that because I knew about mental health , I should not be suffering from mental illness but this is not the case. Nile is a great person and I truely believe that he will do great things whether that be in sport or just in life in general. Thank you for using your platform to spread such an important message.
Amen
I know exactly what you mean. I’m a former psychiatric nurse who has had hospital admission with depression and I couldn’t shake the idea that I should be able to just shake the feelings off
This has to be the biggest misconception people don't talk enough about. I had a difficult childhood. And i've always though that once i learned enough about why it still affects me. I could easily figure out how to stop the feelings. Well i've learned quite a lot. But It does not work that way... depression and anxiety becomes physical. And it takes very difficult work to make progress.
Yes! I had postpartum psychosis, PPD, PPA based rage, and birth trauma PTSD. I basically treated myself. This kept me and my baby alive but it wasn’t until I got a therapist that I started to actually heal. EMDR mixed with cognitive behavioral therapy (which I was already using on myself), plus finally letting God lead healed me. Having a background in counseling psychology plus birth trauma PTSD, I was terrified of medical professionals trying to prescribe something or taking my baby away. Thankfully, I found a counselor that specializes in birth, she ended up being my birth doula for my second birth, and she is natural minded and understood how pharmaceuticals have repeatedly negatively impacted me, including during both births and was basically found to be the reason for my psychosis. Trying to survive under my own knowledge and strength was one of the hardest things I did, but it was harder admitting the truth to someone else.
From one who knows personally what you’re been through first hand Nile, we stand united and warrior on. I’ve been in a very very dark and extreme lonely place for about six months. Depression and anxiety has plagued me my whole life. And when I can’t handle anymore and want out, at the very core of my being, I know my mind is just overcrowded with thoughts and the chemical imbalance is raging out of control, I know I have to take action by either going to my safe place, or reaching out to my counselors, or even calling trusted love ones and I talk it through and cry and sometime scream and then I can rest and warrior on for another day. Mental illness is so very crippling, but with faith and family and friends we can get through it and forge on. Thank you Wilson Family and Friends for this. God bless you all.
I would like your comment 1000 times if I could, I too suffer with very bad mental health issues, and I know that I need to speak to my mental health nurses more, especially about how I deal with grief but I usually hide my deepest, darkest thoughts in a vault at the very back of my brain.
Thanks for that comment
I'm praying for you. You are not alone. I've been there too but there is a way out: ua-cam.com/video/fcqxzXMRGoc/v-deo.html
If you need to talk please reach out, I’m on IG @gillys_journey83
Was it your son that passed from suicide?
“ Train smart keep it real “
This is the reason why I play football because of this quote
I remember when I was living with depression. I was in a pub with my best friends and I felt like there was a glass wall between us. Everything sounded like it was underwater. It took years to fully recover and it’s always an Achilles’ Heel
An average man couldn't do half of what Nile does in his day. There are plenty of gymnasts that suffer from depression, they are under so much stress to work hard every day, compete at the highest level and have such high expectations for their lives. Then add you tube responsibilities and media exposure, Nile had to be super human just to be who he is as such a young age. Add injury to the upset, no mere mortal could handle this.
He is so brave to share the valleys as well as the mountains. The one thing you touch on is when you have surgery and your put under the anesthesia it can drastically change one's mental perspective. Just plain pain can unravel most people. The anesthesia drugs have many side effects that don't show up right away. It's such a struggle to come back to normal after the scar is healed getting one's head right takes time.
Nile we are so proud of who you are and the road you have traveled. Gods Speed, Mate!
Thankyou soo much for making a film like this, everyone at some point will suffer with their own mental demons, I have my own I am constantly battling with, you have been through soo much, just remember you are super strong, not just physically, but mentally aswell
The most epic part was from his mother, “He’s back!”
Hey man , I’m going through some personal things myself too, and I appreciate that you can come out like that and be open to us. Thank you
I watched the documentary with Michael Phelps and several other Olympians discussing the depression after the Olympics. It's so good to see this topic is being talked about more openly so people know they aren't alone. ❤
Looked like luke was about to cry but was being brave
I saw a lot of documentaries but none of them were inspiring. BUT! In this video, the message conveyed is very powerful! Making everyone motivated by this documentary. This is a very clear and very uplifting video to me and the people watching it. Thank you for being an example to the public and motivating us. Thanks for making this documentary
Appreciate you sharing your story with the world. I’m sure many people with find comfort, inspiration, insights, and support in this documentary 🙌💯
He has a good family, especially his dad, who you can really see loves him
I started watching Nile in 2017, after I was hit by a car and lost my leg. His energy and videos motivated me to get my fitness back and my strength back. I feel sad that he’s had to experience all of that, hopefully getting through it builds him back into the new version of himself, like becoming disabled did to me.
I have so much compassion for Joanna! The sufferings of the people in front of someone who is also suffering is always real. Talking to others people about it help too, then it's like a waterfall which goes far away and always smaller. Together you are a great family and friends !!❤❤🏆
This is truly amazing Nile. Being someone who is on their own journey back from depression, suicide attempts, and addiction this made me cry but also feel so honored that someone so famous who has been an inspiration to me in so many ways on my journey, someone who got me through cancer treatments with his energy, also went through some of the pains I have....it is touching. Amazing. The most inspirational thing I have ever seen him make. We are not alone. You are not alone Nile. Truly, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for being this vulnerable. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for being you. The world needs you. All of you. The ups, the downs, the good, the difficult. Share it all because you are amazing and truly my hero.
"the journey to happiness, was the happiness " that's something to live by
I was scared to watch this, but so glad (a box of tissues later) that I did. So well produced- honest & real, without being maudlin or melodramatic to distract from the content. Thank you. I am sure all of us (your million subscribers) are rooting for you and your day-to-day successes!
It's always the outgoing gregarious ones whose struggle w/mental health and/or addiction that catch you by surprise. It's not just the loners or unpopular ones that suffer.
Honestly this touched me emotionally soo much. I had depression before one and a half year and you were relief. I have smiled only when i was watching your channel. Also friends left me bcs of that, you and luke were my friends and it hurt so much to know that you struggled with that as well and you were be able to act like it is normal. I love you my friend.
really strong message. so proud of nile's journey. hope this is such an inspiration to everyone, please just treat people with kindness and think of others mental health. ❤️
"Happiness was the journey to happiness". Wow. Like thank you Nile. I have depression and no one really knows and I am really struggling with it and thank you. I had trouble getting through this because of how much I see myself in this. Thank you.
Is there a way to like this video like a million more times?! This message needs to be heard! So brave of you to come out and share your story!
I was diagnosed with depression last year as well, i didnt know what was wrong, i thought i was sick, couldn't stay awake, constantly felt nauseous driving to work, had a sore head, couldn't focus or concentrate, every time i laughed the back of my head hurt as if my body was telling me i wasn't allowed to. got blood tests came back clear and my doctor said i have depression and thats when it hit me, when everything made sense. i used to always tell myself for years im not suicidal, i dont have depression, but i do have anxiety and i have had that for years and my medication wasn't working anymore, but i got a counselor and i learnt CBT, how to meditate, and care more about myself, then i joined a cross-fit gym! best thing i ever did! i feel so much better and i talk to everyone about how im feeling, i tell everyone about my depression, im not seeking attention im making others aware its ok to talk.
So hats off to you Nile for taking that step calling a friend to talk and raising awareness with this documentary, nobody is perfect, we're not alone in this battle but we can control it and the first step is to tell someone, and when you do the weight you are carrying lifts. I hope a lot of people get to see this film and are able to see that they don't have to struggle in silence.
It just shows that what we see on the surface isnt always what is happening. Thank you Nile for being brave enough to share your journey with us x
Nile, you are an amazing young man (now I know I am getting old when I am calling a 24 year old 'young man'!!!) and always remember one thing which it took me so long to learn; your value as an individual is not tied to your successes or your failures, every single person is priceless no matter what they have achieved or not achieved in life. Good luck in Tokyo 2020 (I think it's weird that they call it 2020 but it's going to be in 2021)
The only word I can say is: WOW!!
Never known what it’s like to win an Olympic gold medal, but you aren’t alone with your struggle, brother. Having personally experienced that struggle with addition and pain, your story really spoke to me. It takes guts not only to right your course, but to be able to share your experience with the world.
I’ve always loved watching your channel, and now I have an even deeper respect for you and those who helped you. You keep on being Nile Wilson and you’ll change the world one day, I truly believe that.
Train smart, keep it real, brother. 👍🏼
Wow, I’m speechless. I can’t believe I’m only watching this after a whole year. Thank you for being open and honest about your experience.❤️
Im happy for Nile to have opened up and overcome these deep stages of his live.❤
Beautiful documentary. Such a special story, I would of never thought Nile was in such a difficult place. Stay strong Nile!! 💓
Just goes to show you never know what’s going on inside anyone’s head ❤️ Nile, you’re an inspiration
"tough times never last, tough people do." an inspiration for everybody! and so happy you finally getting out of it Nile! I love this cause it literally explain what people who suffer depression (like I did) feel. Nailed everything and can't agree more with everything you said.
Depressions a mofo. Especially if you don't get help. You do have to be disciplined to get yourself out but you don't have to do it alone. Amen.
I hate this saying. Having suffered with depression off and on for many many years, this saying is trite and loved by those who don’t have depression. When you are in the utter depths of this disease, you just want either disappear even more or punch the person in the face who says this. So freaking preachy and nonsensical.
Know that you’ve impacted at least one person through this film. Thank you.
This was one of the best documentaries I have watched in my entire life, it has been very very helpful and inspiring. THANK YOU SOO SOO MUCH FOR SHARING THIS WITH US
Before i start I would just like to say thanks for making this and bringing awareness
I'm so proud of Nile over coming this well done bro💕💕
This is just what I needed I am at my lowest and this has just given me that extra little boost today.... Thank you ❤️
day by day, you can make it!!
Here for you Jasper 💚
@@OwenJackson thank you so much people don't realise how much a simple message can mean to someone!
@@simonemadaschi1691 you know it thank you!
@@jasperdallard3815 I mean it. Got to lift each other up. 'A candle doesn't lose its flame by lighting another candle..'
I’ve never thought of myself as an emotional person, but I cried so much through this but smiled at the end. Hate that someone so happy could go through this. I’ve got so much love for this entire family. So much love ❤️
OMG 😮 this was so chilling and powerful! Thank you for showing us your journey you have really had an impact in my life Nile! Keep enjoying life and surrounding yourself with the people who mean the most to you and most importantly be happy 😃 x
Thank you....
I know everyone who spent an hour of their time watching this area certainly feeling a lot better....
Hope you are too 🙏🏽
Keep doing what you are doing
Love everything you do 😊
What made me first subscribe to the channel was because I saw a group of friends putting lots of effort into generating genuine contents and having some fun at the same time. I was laughing right along with you guys in the vlogs
It was after I delved deeper into the channel that I realise the athlete identity part of Nile.
So just wanted to let you know: It was YOU that made us laugh and sometimes cry like this video (ok Joanna crying contributed as well 🥲), it was YOU that made us want to subscribe and watch on. Or maybe the ballet tutu that done us in 😂
You are so much more than just your athletic achievements (btw its darn good) You are so much more than just the medals.
All the best! I’m sure your parents, Joanna, Ashley, Luke, Ellis they’ve all got your back ❤️
53:48 Communication is such great advice. There is a global toxic mentality of men needing to be “in control” of their emotions and never show vulnerability.
There is nothing weak about being vulnerable and allowing yourself to talk about your depression. Y’all are lucky to have each other.
Lost too many to depression in my short life... This documentary is exactly what the world needs to bring light on the shadows that are within us all ❤️
Nile everyone is so proud of you you are 1 In a million . Honestly never give up gymnastics you are so talented and special. Keep it up.
im crying so damn much, i cant imagine how you must have felt, you are a true legend and inspiration. i am so grateful you have shared your story as i know it will help and inspire people much, thankyou 💙🙏
Honestly so so touching. Just shows those who can be so happy isn’t okay
I went through a very rough patch after I got out of the military. I was a door gunner and getting to fly around at high speeds and going to Iraq twice and Afghanistan keeping the guys on the ground alive was addictive. And when I got out I tried to live on the edge and drive my car at 100 all the time and got stuck in a cycle of doing drugs. I was so lost when I got out I missed being in and I missed protecting the guys on the ground. I even tried to end it. I was so lost. I know exactly what it’s like to feel alone in a room full of people. When I finally hit bottom I’m so glad I asked for help and was open to getting help. You’re amazing Nile keep it up
I have dealt with PTSD and anxiety for many many years. I tried dealing with it with drinking for a while but I stopped and I actually no longer drink. I will talk about my challenges with anyone who doesn't understand. I will explain it to help educate them. My son knows the struggles I have been through and still continue to go through. I have my support and I meditate daily to help with the anxiety. Keep your head up and don't ever be afraid to ask for help or talk with your support system (i.e. family, friend, therapist...)
Ive been in a pretty similar situation for years now, addicted to gaming and when that got boring, gambling, alcohol.. But your videos Nile, they always helped me, cheered me up with joy and motivation to do stuff. sad to see you go down this path, hope you get better soon!
When you come from a great background and you reach a new emotional peak after achieving something great, you assign that peak to your achievement. So you go after more achievements to get those peaks back. This performance related type of peak is so attractive, because you can control it yourself. Your family and friends might have a bad day or get into a fight with you. Your performance won't, because it's just you.
However, as soon as you solely focus on performance and seclude yourself from your loved ones you're going downhill. You need your loved ones. They give you the strength to achieve true greatness without damning yourself to go through hell in the process.
Did anyone else cry and relate to the mental Health side of his journey , horrible that others go through it , but amazing that you're never alone : to anyone struggling , keep your head up high xxxx
You can do this ! ♥️♥️♥️
literally how can you dislike a mental health documentary
This is really incredible, this is how depression happens. We struggle, we over compensate, we party like we're happier than ever, and then we crash, crash and burn, and feel like we're absolutely drowning. And nobody knows that's what we're feeling. I'm so glad you've come around and are talking about it. I hope you never go back to that place. I know I fear ever going back to my darkest time. But that's what keeps us strong and reminds us where we were and that we must keep fighting the good fight! Much love for you and your family!
Amazing, honest documentary that draws so many parallels with people's lives in and out of sport. Spread this around so people can learn!!
Nile this video is so inspirational, i have been watching you for 2-3 years and you inspired me back in 2018 to go to gym and you still inspire me.This video was amazing!
I had no idea what you were going through but I am so proud of you for overcoming it and getting back to been the happy Nile we all know❤
It does show that you just need to talk and it will be OK💙
Trained as a Ballerina my whole life. Whilst preparing for joining the Royal Ballet the following year I developed 3 injuries within a week. I had no outlet for my obsessiveness, I fell into manic depressiona with severe anxiety, developed insomnia, anorexia and compulsive behaviours. I didn't realise the sport I loved was slowly killing me. I'd dance pointe on at least 2 broken toes daily, train 3 hours before school and 6 hours afterwards and 12 hours a day Saturday and Sunday. My therapist banned me from sport for 6 months to which I no longer could pursue professionally.
Thank you for sharing Nile it is bloody helpful to know that I'm not the only athlete to have felt like this. I can't describe the strength you have had in sharing your stor and the strength in all who gave their account of it. Thank you so much.
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Such a honest film. Thank you for sharing your story. So brave of everyone to share those emotions. I'm new to You Tube, hence I've only just found this video. I'm a parent and grandmother and I really admire the honesty and bravery shown by everyone in the video. Nile I wish you happiness for the future.
Depression is a killer, literally. Can’t wait to watch this and see your journey to push through.
I'm bawling my eyes out. I'm so proud that you opened up and so proud of what you have achieved. I'm also reading your book and it also made me cryy. Love you
I've been through something very similar at a very young age and I let it get very bad. I was in a spiral of negativity for years. I didn't talk to anyone because I thought I could get out of it by myself. Talking is really important, it's a total game changer. I'm so grateful that people with big platforms like you are bringing light to these matters and opening the eyes or many people, letting them know that it's okay to feel the way they feel sometimes. Thank you very much for this Nile. Wish it could get onto Netflix for a bigger crowd to see it and become aware.
Athletes are so prone to mental health struggles, having strong network of supports is so important. They whole identity is wrapped around them being an athlete. Good for him to get the help and everyone for supporting him.
Thank you for your honesty Nile. Having suffered with depression from my teens without realising it for what it is, and coming from a family who do not believe such a thing exists, it is heartening to see a young man speak about depression so openly, and making people aware not only that you have to be ready to ask for help but there are no quick fixes. The main mistake that people make about depression is that it can be cured! There is no cure just management. I hope and pray that with help you will learn how to manage your depression so that you are able to work towards your goals in a stronger frame of mind. Love and Blessings 💙